Attic Trunk (2021) Movie Script
1
- [Jason] The last
time I saw Sadie,
she was lying in a hospital bed.
Her lips doing that
unconscious flapping sound
that comes with the snore of
someone who's no longer there.
A tube down her throat.
Machines screaming at
us in the hospital room.
But the last time we spoke,
it was a couple
of months before.
Too long.
And she told me I was
a great big brother.
I wasn't. I was okay.
She told me she loved
me. I told her the same.
I think we both knew
this was our last chance.
It occurs to me now, after
all we'd been through,
39 years as brother and sister,
we were just two little kids
who were just scared
outta their minds.
And after all this time,
we still had each other.
We love you, Sadie.
God, we miss you.
(gentle somber music)
- [Katherine] I can't.
- I know.
- I can't look at it anymore.
- Okay.
Jason, um, Sadie's
stuff, back at the house,
the bed, the meds,
all that shit,
can you just-
- I'll take care of it.
Clean it up.
- Thank you, thank you.
(gentle somber music continues)
- It's okay, I think that's
about all your car and take.
- Yeah.
- Where'd your parents go?
- They need me to take
care of Sadie's stuff.
I just don't think mom can
handle seeing it after all this.
I dunno.
- [George] Look who I found.
- [Jason] Hey, kiddo.
- Hey, Dad.
- [George] You
ready to go, Maggie?
- [Maggie] Anytime you're ready.
- [George] Hey,
are you all right?
- [Jason] Yeah.
(gentle somber music continues)
(heart monitor beeping)
(heart monitor beeps)
(gentle somber music)
- [Analise] Jason.
- Hi.
You came.
- [Analise] Of course.
- For this?
- Yeah.
- Wow.
- I left a card
in the, the thing,
with my cell on it,
if you wanna call.
I mean, no, no pressure,
just if you want to.
I leave in the morning.
- Hello.
Yeah, it's, uh, it's Jason.
And I was wondering if
you, if you wanted to,
like, if you wanted
to come to the,
if you just wanted to come
to the house? (chuckles)
Great.
Okay. Yeah.
I'll see you then.
Yeah, see you soon.
Whoa, wait!
Uh, I just, I have to
do a bunch of cleaning,
(chuckles) if that's okay?
It's just, you don't
have to do anything.
It's just, uh, you
can just watch.
Is that?
Okay.
Okay, great.
I'll see ya then. Yeah.
(Jason sighs)
(phone ringing)
Hello?
Hi, Mrs. McVee.
It's Jason.
No, it's Jason.
It's J-
No, it's Jason!
Yes!
Hi.
Yeah, they're,
no, they're at my,
they're staying at
my place tonight.
Yeah, you know, but you don't,
you're, it's okay, that's okay.
You are going to be fine.
I'm gonna tell them
you called, okay?
(phone ringing)
(phone ringing continues)
(gentle somber music)
(knocking on door)
Holy shit!
- Holy shit, yourself.
- I feel like I'm
in a time machine.
- Yeah. Except, I
never used to knock.
- That's true. Yeah.
Oh, come in, come in, yeah.
- I always loved this house.
- Really?
- Yeah.
Yeah, something about it.
- Well, a lotta ghosts here.
Can I take your coat?
- Yeah.
Why thank you, sir.
- [Jason] Uh, but of course.
(both chuckle)
(gentle somber music)
- Still fits.
- Can I get you a drink?
Uh, we don't have any of
your beloved Canadian.
- What?
- I know.
Sorry, I just. Yeah.
- What is this place,
some kind of a palace?
- (chuckles) Just a craft
brew quality, sorry.
- Uh.
Thanks.
You don't look like a hipster.
- I guess just deep
inside somewhere,
it's just clawing its way out.
- Well, you do have
the beard for it.
- You know, contrary
to popular belief,
hipsters did not
invent the beard, so.
- Are you sure about that?
- Yeah.
- I don't know, they make
a pretty good case for it.
- No, everyone knows
the beard was invented
by Canadian iconic '70s
rock band, "Prism".
- Yeah, I don't think did.
- No, I think it
was the cool one.
It was like, yeah.
What's his name?
(Analise chuckles)
Hi.
- Hi.
I'm...
I'm sorry.
- Thanks.
- I, I don't know.
- Me neither.
I mean, I'm sure I'll, I'll
be like actually grieving
at some point, but right now,
I just feel like I'm living
in this, this rubbery
feeling of her being gone.
- Yeah. I get that.
- I am glad today
is over, though.
- Oh, I bet.
- Yeah, I'm pretty tired.
It was a lot, a lot
leading up to this.
They just kept
poking and prodding
and running the clock
until the buzzer went.
It's like it was just
fucking humiliating.
She just fell through the gap.
(gentle somber music)
- I'm so sorry.
- Thanks.
So you wanna get fucked up?
Help me clean some stuff up?
- Hell yeah.
(gentle somber music continues)
- Pain meds.
Anti-seizure meds.
Like, just pretty much anything.
- Whoa!
Pain meds, huh?
- Mm-hmm.
- That could be interesting.
Does it all have to go?
(Jason laughs)
- No, yeah, it does,
it all has to go.
Yeah. All of it.
- Wait, before we get super
drunk and high on oxy.
- Yeah.
- Put that down.
- Why?
- Do you have a car?
- Yes.
- Grab the keys.
- Okay.
What are, what are we doing?
- Stop asking questions
and just come with me.
- Um.
Yeah, what are...
Where, where are...
Okay, hey, wait.
- What?
- Come on.
- All right, fine.
- These will literally
make you piss yourself.
- Well, you choose your
party, I choose mine.
(Jason chuckles)
- All right.
(gentle somber music)
(Sadie retching)
(gentle bright music)
- I always thought that was
the coolest building too.
(Jason and Analise chattering)
- Ooh, the Country Music Club.
I have this foggy memory
of walking in there.
(Jason laughing)
- And if it's foggy, there
really is a good chance
you did go in there.
- Yeah. Yeah.
- Like, I just
wanna go over to him
and like cinch up the
one side of his backpack
to straighten it
up, really badly.
Like I really badly
wanna do that.
It's terrible.
- Does anybody ever sit
in the passenger seat
and just look at you?
- [Jason] Yeah, you know
who does that? Narcs.
- Oh!
(both laughing)
- [Jason] You a narc?
- Maybe.
- Fuck, she didn't even,
you're just like,
you're just like-
- [Analise] It's
been a few years.
- [Jason] Wow.
- Ready?
The cold gonna be enough?
- Probably.
- Not for me.
(Jason laughing)
Thanks for bringing this for me.
- Yeah, I was, I'm done,
I've had enough already.
- Hold on the railings.
Whoa! Shit!
- Actually, no joke.
- (laughing) Oh my
God, that was fun.
Holy shit!
It's still here.
- Mm-hmm.
We have to sneak onto it.
- Oh yeah, goddamn right.
- Okay.
- Shh.
(both chuckle)
Mm.
God, I haven't been
here since, um,
well, since you.
- Shut up, you're ruining it.
I actually brought
you here to explain
to you the beneficial glory
of this community I've joined.
- Oh yeah?
- Yeah.
We're called The
Flowers of Utopia.
And we're led by a
raccoon named scott,
with the lowercase S,
'cause we're all equal.
- My God, that sounds amazing.
- Oh, you don't
know the half it.
Every month, scott asks us to
make a sacrifice of something.
- Uh, that makes sense.
You gotta prove your love.
- Lately, I've been...
Okay, don't tell anyone this,
but lately I've been
giving him my body.
- So you give scott
the raccoon your body,
like, like sexually?
- Yeah, what else would I mean.
Technically, he
said if I didn't,
then I would have
to go to the roots
of our hell tree and
live out my days.
- Hell tree?
- Yeah, our hell tree.
So, I give myself to
scott, lowercase S,
the raccoon once a
month, just to be safe.
- Well, if it makes
you feel better.
- It does, I does.
- Does, yeah.
- Not the sex, though,
'cause he's a raccoon
and his nails are sharp.
- Right. Yeah.
- I figure as long as I got
my rabies shots, I'll be fine.
Don't want one of
those animal STDs.
Safe sex is the best sex.
- That's a good point.
So, if I was to join your group,
would I do the same thing, or-
- Oh God, no. No, no.
Sex with scott, lowercase S,
is for high-level
followers only.
- Right.
- You'd have to start
from the bottom,
cleaning our toilets and
trimming scott's nails.
Which, I would
appreciate considering
the amount of
fingering he likes.
- (chuckles) Oh,
you're so fucked.
Oh my God.
- I know.
(both laughing)
- I missed you.
- Missed you too.
- (sighs) I can't believe
I never made out here.
- Uh, speak for yourself.
I made out here constantly.
- Oh, are you
referring to Devon?
Okay.
I'm not entirely sure
that he existed, so.
- What?
- I never met him.
- Uh, he stayed in Ontario,
he only visited me
a couple of times.
- Okay, sure.
- He did.
- Yeah. No.
I mean, well, there's no
way to know for sure, so.
- (chuckles) You met him.
- Okay, you know what?
I actually met someone who
you said was Devon, but-
- That was Devon.
- Yeah, okay.
- That was Devon.
- You know, to be fair, you
never made a move on me, so.
- Right.
This is nice.
God, I miss this view.
- Yeah, me too.
- How many people out
there, across the water,
you think are having
sex right now?
- Well, I, I don't think anyone.
- Why not?
- They've all got this,
like, just feeling,
deep in the back of their minds,
they can't quite put
their fingers on.
It's, um, creepy,
strange woman on a boat
is thinking about them naked.
- Come on-
- So you killed their mojo.
- No. What?
- That's what you did.
- No.
Now I feel bad.
- You should, you really should.
- God, think of all the babies
that could have been made.
- I know, you're so
selfish. (chuckles)
- No, maybe, maybe they were
meant to not be conceived.
Maybe these kids would've
grown up to be assholes
or dictators, or
asshole dictators.
- Kids are not you.
- Threatening to
take over the world.
- Yeah, you're rationalizing.
- I'm sorry, you guys!
I'm sorry for taking
away your mojo!
Keep going, and don't mind me!
I'm not paying any
attention at all!
Unless you want me to, then
I am, you dirty, sick fucks!
(gentle bright music)
Aah!
- Are you finished?
- Mm-hmm.
- Okay.
- I just wanted to be clear.
You, you were clear.
- You know, I think
they appreciated it.
- What would they do without
your permission to copulate?
I can't even imagine.
- I did them a favor.
They're probably having
the best sex of their life.
- Yeah, no, okay, I take
it back, you being selfish.
You're a real giver.
- Yes.
(Jason laughs)
- What does your husband think
about you coming out here?
- No questions asked.
- That's, that's
really nice of him.
- Yeah, he's a really nice guy.
- So, he just like-
- Yep.
- So you guys have a really,
you have a good like...
So you happy, you?
- Yeah. Yeah, we are.
Whatever that means.
- Good.
(gentle bright music continues)
- [Analise] There's
something I need to tell you.
- [Jason] Okay.
- But, you, you have to promise
that you won't
think any less of me
or look at me any differently.
- Okay.
- Promise?
- Yeah. Promise.
- It's a lot harder than
I thought it would be.
- You can tell me anything
you want, it's okay.
- I think I'm pregnant
with a raccoon baby.
- Oh, fuck you.
- I don't know how it happened.
- Are you serious?
- Yeah.
- I thought you were
gonna say something monumental.
- Well, maybe this
isn't for you,
but for me it's a
pretty big deal.
Any advice?
- Do you crave grubs?
For like a late night snack?
You stay up all night?
- Yes.
- Do you wash your
food compulsively,
but only after you take
it outta the garbage can?
- My God, yes.
What, what does it mean?
- Oh.
You're going to the hell tree
to live out the
rest of your days.
- Oh, I feel ashamed.
- It does explain your
love of Beef Town.
- Oh my God, Beef town!
- Yeah, see? Okay.
- Let's go to Beef Town.
- Yeah. You see, you're
proving my point.
- Yeah, yeah, yeah,
you're hilarious,
I'm, I'm grown now.
Take me to Beef Town now.
- What? Or scott the raccoon's
gonna finger bang me?
Okay, I forgot that look.
And now I remember it, and now
I will take you to Beef Town.
- Okay, let's go.
(gentle bright music continues)
- I feel like we overordered.
- We?
This shit's mine, I don't
remember you ordering anything.
(Jason chuckles)
- Yeah, all right.
Jesus, don't forget
to breath. Wow!
- Who needs breathing
when you have meat,
cheese and bread made
by an awkward teenager?
Mm.
(Analise gagging)
- God!
- I could have chocked to death!
- (chuckles) I was right there,
I what's gone for like
literally three seconds.
- Oh, okay then.
- You know, I actually have
all the funeral decor still,
it'd actually be
pretty convenient.
- Mm, I think my family
would be pretty upset
if you just went
through with it.
- Well, I don't know,
your parents love me.
- No, I'm talking about
my family, family.
You know, my husband and kids.
- Oh, right. We're
in the present.
I forgot.
Wait, before you dislocate
your jaw and swallow that hole,
come with me.
Okay.
Here we go. Yeah.
(chuckles) Let's see.
(gentle somber music)
Okay! Well, I got some
pretty sweet CDs here.
All the greatest hits.
I got "Nirvana",
"Stone Temple Pilots",
"Jann Arden", "Soundgarden",
"Dave Matthews Band".
- Oh, "Dave Matthews Band"!
- Or, I mean, if you
can't, you can't choose.
- No, "Dave Matthews Band".
I've made my choice, damn it.
- Okay. Yeah, great.
(groans) If you say so.
"Bryan Adams" it is.
- Aah, you've always
been against my Dave.
- Uh, I'm just not entirely sure
that's actually,
technically, music.
Let's see here.
Okay.
Let's see.
How does this go?
(gentle somber music continues)
It's not...
Not turning on.
It's not.
Is this is thing? Yeah.
Okay. Um.
It's not.
I am sorry.
I don't.
Damn it!
- Definitely doesn't work now.
- I'm sorry.
- I think you owe that
apology to Mr. Adams.
- Right.
Sorry, Mr. Adams.
Oh.
Oh God.
(gentle somber music)
- Exactly the same.
Wait, is, is that?
No way.
Let me see if I remember how to.
- Hey, can you?
- Yeah. Yeah.
- [Both] 1, 2, 3.
(Analise laughing)
- Holy shit!
I can't believe it still exists.
Does it still work?
- Yeah, try it.
(gentle somber music)
Which color am I.
- Well, we'll find out.
- Oh, it moved, it moved.
- So I'm blue.
Ah!
- Oh, right off the track.
(Analise laughing)
- Let's do it again.
- Yeah, okay.
Here, you be blue this time.
- Okay.
- Ready?
- [Analise] Yeah.
(both laughing)
- [Jason] See, this part's dead.
Yeah, you can actually
play by yourself.
- [Analise] It's just like this-
- [Jason] Oh yeah, it's
not the driver at all.
- [Analise] No.
- Now I did.
(both laughing)
Just tell me about your family.
- We're good.
Really good.
- Yeah, me too.
- Yeah, my husband,
he does shift work
so I can travel for my job.
And my kids, well,
you know how they are.
They heal you, feel you.
Annoy the fuck outta you.
- This is so like weird and
normal at the same time.
- I know. We're
talking about our kids.
- It's like I'm talking
to the future you.
Is there a DeLorean parked
out back? (chuckles)
- Oh God, you're so old
with that reference.
- Yeah, I know.
I feel, I feel old.
Do you feel it? Do you?
- Yeah, I feel like
I ate too much.
- Yeah. Yeah, now
you're regretting it.
- Hm, I regret nothing.
- Yeah.
- Oh! Holy cow!
You wanna point
that the other way?
Jesus!
- (burps) Oof, oh
God, that hurt.
- Jesus Christ!
Do you need me to set up
a saline drip for you?
- Yeah, God, would you mind?
- Okay, well, yeah, hop on the
bed, I'll get you hooked up.
- God.
- Oh my God.
- Know what, I think, I think
Beef Town changed the recipe,
I just...
Bathroom?
- Same, uh, same place.
- Okay.
Ugh.
(gentle somber music)
(gentle somber music continues)
(gentle somber music)
(chuckles) I was
so cute back then.
That nose ring.
- (chuckles) Yeah,
you were a badass.
- Aah.
Hey, look at your sister.
Grade nine. Always smiling.
- (sighs) Yeah.
- Must have killed your
parents what happened to her.
- Yeah, it did.
Yeah, it does.
- They were wonderful people.
Cool parents.
- Yeah, they were.
They still are,
they're just different.
- Whenever we got
horrendously drunk
or had parties,
they always got it.
- Yeah.
- We don't have to talk about
them if you don't want to.
- No, I do, it's just they,
uh, they have changed.
They loved her so much.
All the love in the
world didn't do shit.
- They love you that much too.
- I don't know.
I think I'm just
the one who's left.
(gentle somber music)
How do you watch your
kid die her whole life
and not be fucked up?
I don't wanna be an only child.
(sniffs) Fuck, my nose is runny.
- I don't care.
- Oh, you should.
Oh.
- You look normal to me.
- Oh, I always look like this?
- Yeah.
- Yeah?
What, with the snot
coming outta my face?
- Yep.
- My eyes all red.
- That's 'cause you
haven't aged well.
- Shit. Um.
- What?
- I got, uh, I got
something to show you.
It's in the attic.
- There dead bodies up there?
- Of course.
Do you wish to join them?
- No, I'm good.
(gentle somber music continues)
- Okay.
Huh.
(Jason groans)
Oh.
Okay.
Oh. (groans)
Uh...
Could you gimme a hand?
- Oh!
- Yeah, just take this away.
Yeah.
Okay, come here, okay.
- Yeah.
- Okay, I got it.
There we go.
(Jason chuckles)
So I was looking
through my old stuff,
to find pictures for
the funeral, and I
found my old trunk.
- Didn't even know you had one.
- I do. This, this is it.
This is where I kept
all my cool, old stuff.
Cap guns.
Comic books.
Journal.
Oh my God, there's some
serious teen angst in this.
- Is this supposed
to impress me?
- Okay, wait, just give
me, hold on a second.
And...
This.
- No reaction.
- You don't recognize this?
- Should I?
- This is our masterpieces.
- What! (laughs)
Oh shit!
(Jason laughing)
We were demented.
- Yeah.
- (chuckles) Oh my God.
(both laughing)
What the fuck?
- Yeah.
- Oh.
- (gasps) Oh, I made fun of
your girlfriend a lot in these.
- Mm.
- I really didn't like her.
- You hated her.
You always called
her Goody Two-shoes.
I mean, she, she was.
Except when she wasn't.
- Gross.
- You jealous much?
- Yeah, something like that.
- Yeah.
(chuckle) I love, where is it?
Lemme find.
Here! This one!
Oh God!
I drew you asking Tito,
the Yugoslavian dictator,
for his autograph,
and he is like,
"Mm, I think you
have a wrong Tito."
(both laugh)
That's pretty genius,
you have to admit.
- Oh, yeah, eh, no,
the genius part is,
here you have Michael
grabbing his crotch asking,
"Where are the kids?"
It's real classy.
- Yeah. It was the '90s.
I guess I was trying
to be topical.
It's a little.
God, we had fun, hey?
- Yeah.
Hey, how did we
even become friends?
- I don't know.
You, uh, you were
just there, one day.
Like, um, like herpes.
Herpes from Fraudrich.
- Godrich.
- Godrich. Right.
I mean, I don't
know, we just were.
- Yeah, you're lucky
I didn't get along
with anyone else at that school.
- You had high standards.
- How do you explain you then?
- You recognize sophistication.
- Yeah, or just another
person with a perverse sense
of humor and a
distaste for authority.
- I thought that that's
what sophistication meant.
- Oh yeah. Yeah, close enough.
- Fuck, I hated high school.
- Yeah, me too.
- You ever wonder what
it would've been like
if we'd kept in touch?
- Honestly?
- No. Why, please?
Yes, honestly.
- No.
- No?
- Eh, never really
thought about it.
- You never thought about...
Never?
- No.
- Oh. Shit.
- Well, things just
kept moving, you know,
it never really occurred to me.
- Yeah, okay.
- You know, it just,
just became what it was.
- Yeah.
- I mean, it's not like
I never thought of you,
it's just I never
pictured anything
after we stopped being us.
- Okay.
- Did you?
- No.
- Okay.
- Things just kept moving.
And it never really
occurred to me
what would've happened
if I never found myself.
- Yeah, you prick, I
was just being honest.
- Yeah. You know what?
Me too, honestly. No, totally.
Honestly, I never,
I never thought
about how much fun
we woulda had or,
or how we could have
supported each other,
or celebrated each
other's successes.
Yeah, that didn't even,
didn't even occur to me.
- Yeah, me neither.
- You still love weed?
- Love is a strong word,
I prefer connoisseur.
- You still a
connoisseur of weed?
- I am.
- Wait here.
Let's see here, um.
Yes.
Oh.
- Oh yeah.
(Jason chuckles)
- Yeah.
Yeah.
So, there's weed
like everywhere here,
this house is like a
drug Advent calendar.
(gentle somber music)
- Ha.
- Hah.
- Oh my God.
- This yard, it smells the same.
- Remember that time you
climbed up on the garage roof
and did the running man?
- Yeah, and, and my foot
went through the roof
and we had to fix it.
- We?
- Okay. You.
Hey, the running man, on the
roof, I was an innovator.
- Well, that's fair.
(Analise chuckles)
- Hey.
Her hands are still there.
- Yeah.
Okay.
(coughs) Fuck!
Oh fuck, my beautiful,
perfect lungs.
(Jason coughing)
- So weak.
(Jason chuckles)
- Yeah. (sighs)
(Jason chuckles)
Remember a couple years ago,
before, uh, before
Sadie moved back here?
A bunch of her
friends had come over
and like made a huge
fuckload of pot brownies,
to help her when she
needed to settle.
So they made all these
brownies and they,
they put them all
in the freezer.
So my dad was there and he was,
he was helping her
like run errands,
and clean up the house, and
take her to the appointments
that kinda stuff.
This one afternoon,
Sadie goes for a nap.
And Dad, uh, he's hungry,
so he is puttering around
and he's rifling, just
riffling through the fridge.
And he goes in the freezer
and he sees these brownies.
So, he, uh, he takes 'em out,
he puts a few of
them on a plate,
puts them in the microwave.
Eats them all!
Like, fucking, like,
fucking four or five
of these brownies,
like chock-full of THC.
So an hour or two later,
Sadie comes
downstairs, (giggles)
my dad is fucking
stoned out of his,
like, out of his mind.
And he's just
staring at a spoon.
Like, he's like staring at
his reflection in a spoon.
And Sadie's like, "Oh", Sadie
thinks he's had a stroke.
And until she sees this
plate of like brownie crumbs,
and she's like, "Oh! Dad,
are you okay?" (chuckles)
Okay, but at this point, she,
she'd lost all her teeth,
so she had these, she
had these dentures.
And, (chuckles) so when
she would lean in to say,
"Dad, are you okay?",
her dentures fell out,
and they were facing up,
like looking at my dad with
this weird grin. (laughing)
My dad is, so my dad is
looking at the spoon,
and he is like, slowly
looks down to the plate,
and he looks back up for
her and he goes, he goes,
"I think that plate
ate all your brownies."
(both laughing)
Oh, she loved that story.
You know, now every time my
dad has like a normal brownie,
he looks a little
disappointed. (chuckles)
Oh God.
- Shit.
Huh.
Remember when you
used to come by
and you'd teach
Sadie how to bead,
like how to bead jewelry?
- I do.
- Well, that was really nice.
- She needed it.
- It was really nice to
think that you guys had that.
- Yeah.
I mean, not everything
revolved around you.
- Ouch.
- It's true.
You have to remember, she
had a full 360 degree life.
- I know.
- She had to expand on her own,
outside of being
just the sick girl.
- Well, she wasn't on her own.
- I'm not trying to
hurt your feelings,
it's just we talked about things
you couldn't have understood.
(gentle somber music)
You know?
- Okay.
Okay.
- Okay.
Are you just gonna sit there?
- Here?
- Yeah. There.
- Yeah, well, I'm,
uh, just sitting here.
So, yeah, I'm probably just
gonna keep sitting here.
- I should probably go.
It's great seeing you.
- You got something to
say, could, just say it.
- It's not the right time.
- You're wrong.
- Of course I am.
- It is the right time!
Okay, just...
Why did we stop?
- You fucked it up!
- I fucked it up, me?
- When I came here at
16, I left everything.
My dad gets a new job here,
he uproots my whole life,
I had no one.
And then I met you.
I never laughed like
that with anyone before.
Never felt that in sync.
- Me neither.
- Your friendship
was like home to me.
And then, you were gone.
Cut loose, again.
You asked me what happened,
why we grew apart.
We didn't grow apart. You left.
- I left?
What did I leave?
- How could he even say that?
- Because the way you're
talking about this,
it makes it sound like
I just walked away
from some committed,
long-term engagement!
We were friends!
Yeah, but we were great friends.
And we drifted apart.
- You knew me, and you
disappeared anyway.
You forgot me.
- I never forgot you!
I thought about
you all the time!
- Really?
- Yes!
- You forgot my 19th birthday,
you dumb piece of shit!
- Are you kidding me?
Your birthday!
This is about your birthday?
- It's not about my
fucking birthday!
(door creaks)
- Mom, are you okay?
- (sighs) I don't know.
I just...
I needed to be near
one of my kids.
I'm sorry.
I'm fine. I'm sorry.
I'm fine. I'm just,
um, I'm not fine.
I'm all over the place.
I just needed to be here.
Analise.
Oh, look at this face.
I've missed you.
- Missed you too.
I'm so sorry.
- Yeah, me too.
- Is, uh, is Dad okay?
- He's out in the car,
he'll be a minute.
And no, not even a little bit.
- Oh, it's cold out there.
Well, that was a shit day.
- Hey, Dad.
- Analise, you stayed.
Thank you.
Thank you so much
for being here.
- Of course. I'm
glad to be here.
Um, listen, if you guys
need some family time,
I can get outta here.
- Are you kidding? We need
some new energy around here.
When you're back, I feel
like it's 20 years ago.
- Yeah, we were
just saying that.
- Yeah, like, like
a time machine,
and we could use one
of those. (chuckles)
Anyway.
- The service was lovely.
- Was it? I don't remember much.
- Blur.
- It was.
- All I remember is I
almost punch four people
in the face, and they
were trying to be nice,
but Jesus, the stupid
things that people say.
- Well, what do you say?
- Yeah.
- Nothing.
- I need a drink.
Anyone else?
- I'm good.
- No, thank you.
- More for me.
- Mom, can I get you something?
Mom?
- Mm-hmm?
- Can I get you something.
- Double scotch.
I'm kidding.
Water would be nice.
So, Analise, how've you been?
- Things are good.
Thanks for asking.
(gentle somber music)
- You two must have had
a lot to catch up on?
What was that look?
- What look? There's
no, there's no look.
- You guys just had a look.
I would like to
know what it meant.
- We, I, we were just, um-
- When you walked
in, we were actually
in the middle of an argument.
- [Katherine] Uh-huh.
- But I think you
already knew that.
- Pfft, none of my business.
You're both adults.
Ugh. This is water.
(Katherine chuckles)
- Look what I found. (chuckles)
You remember?
Huh?
- A turkey baster?
- No, the famous turkey baster.
You remember the story.
Didn't you tell her?
- No.
- Would you like to hear the
famous turkey baster story?
- I don't know if
that's necessary.
- Please don't tell
that story again.
- I would love to hear it.
- Well, hm.
Okay.
It was a day like any other
day, except it was different,
it was Sadie's birthday party.
And the kids, they were all sad,
because they wanted to
go jump into the sandbox
and play, and,
well, they couldn't,
'cause they didn't have
anything to play with.
So, Katherine, over there,
she brought out
some pots and pans
and a bunch of kitchen shit,
and, um, saved the day.
And, of course,
Sadie brought out
the famous turkey baster.
- I inherited that
Turkey baster.
- Of course, see, but that
that's another story, dear.
So they all run out the door
and they jump into the sandbox,
and they start diggin' up shit-
- There wasn't any dog
shit in the sandbox.
- [Jason] No, there, it
was, there was cat shit.
- There was not.
- Anyway, and they're, you
know, they were throwing sand
at each other and shoving
sand down each other's pants,
and we have a wonderful time.
And then, um, smarty
pants, over here.
(chuckles) He's has
the very bright idea
to connect the hose up with
the (imitates turkey clucking).
- The turkey baster.
- Of course. Okay.
The little plastic ball
that's connected to the-
- It wasn't plastic,
it was rubber.
- No, it was plastic.
- No, it was rubber.
- No, but-
- They don't make them
like that anymore.
- I'm so sorry.
Jesus, you know, an expert
in balls, obviously.
(all chuckle)
Okay, so the plastic
ball that was connected
to the end of the turkey baster,
it starts to fill up a little,
and starts to get a
little bigger, you know,
and a little bigger, and then,
uh, it goes back down again.
We fill it up a little more,
and it's getting bigger,
it's getting bigger, it's
getting a lot bigger,
and it's filling up so
much it starts to look
like a massive expansive
growth on the end of your, um-
- Oh, for goodness
sake, just say it.
Penis! Penis!
It looked like a great,
huge nightmare of a penis.
- Boom!
It explodes all over the place,
and the kids are
crying, and oh my God.
And I look at Sadie,
and she's laughing.
She's laughing,
she's laughing a lot,
she's laughing real hard.
And then we start
laughing real hard,
and everybody's
laughing real hard.
Oh, we all... (chuckles)
Pee, (chuckles) pee our pants.
- (laughing) We did not.
- Except for me,
I shit my pants.
- That's a comple... (laughs)
- [George] End of story.
(all laughing)
- Thanks, George.
That's awesome.
- Yeah, it's all right.
(gentle somber music)
- What are these?
- Oh, I found my trunk.
I was, uh, showing
Analise our old drawings.
- I remember finding
these all over the house,
and thinking either
there's something
very seriously wrong,
or else he's found
the perfect person for him.
- I also found this.
- (gasps) Oh, George.
- No, I don't think. I'll,
I'll look at it later.
- George.
(gentle somber music continues)
(George sobbing)
- I don't know if I can make it.
- No, not as we are.
- I wonder if she
liked the service.
- (scoffs) I doubt it.
- [George] We did
everything we could.
- Did we?
- [George] I hate this day.
- I hate this life.
- I hate this life, today.
- Speak for yourself.
- [George] No, come on.
- I got nothin' left.
What can I give you, any of you?
- [George] Nothing.
- I gave her life,
and now it's gone.
And so am I.
- Now, come on, they don't
need to hear any of this.
- Do you know how many
people said to me today,
"Oh well, at least she's
not in pain anymore."
Hell, I even started saying it.
But I want her in
pain, goddamn it!
Because then, at least, I
would know she was here.
At least I'd be able to
look at her and hold her.
And tell her I love her.
- We have to stick
together through this.
- Do we?
- Yes.
- I'm not sure if I can.
I'm not sure if I
can spend what's left
of my life looking
at you every day.
We failed! We didn't save her!
We, we didn't find anyone
who could save her.
- You're right, we
couldn't, and she died!
Sadie died, Katherine,
but we're still here
and I love you. (sobbing)
I have loved you for 45 years,
and I've rolled with everything
that life has thrown at us,
because we did it together.
We fought everything
together, my shit, your shit.
You, you think of all
the other people we know,
They couldn't make it, because
they weren't able to adapt
to their life changes.
But we did it, and
we, no, we survived,
and we'll survive this.
Like, I don't know how,
I don't know what it's
gonna look like, but
we just have to think
of this as a beginning,
it's a new beginning.
I promise you, Katherine,
we can do this.
(gentle somber music continues)
- But I hate you.
- I know, and that's all right.
- Is it?
- (sobbing) I can't
fight with you anymore.
I'm too tired.
Good night, everyone.
(gentle somber music continues)
- Another fun
night at our house.
(clock ticking)
(Jason sighs)
(Analise sighs)
- You okay?
- Yeah.
So, it's not about
your birthday.
- My whole life
I hated the dark.
I still do.
As soon as the sun
starts to go down,
I, I feel hollow.
A desperation start to
climb into my throat.
And make me feel like something
terrible is going to happen.
When I was a kid, my dad and I
would go to this muffin shop.
We would go every
couple of weeks,
and he would get the
bran muffin and a coffee,
and I would get one with the
sweet cream cheese on top.
I really looked forward to it.
Except for the drive.
The drive there, I would, I
would feel that creeping hollow.
It was dangerous,
ominous, growing.
As though I was
starting to realize
how alone we all are in the end.
As I grew up, no matter
how many people I was with,
when the dark came, I felt it.
It was panic.
It was anxiety.
It was that knowing that no one
really gave a shit about me.
But I never felt that
when I was with you.
And you broke my heart. (sobs)
You were the only
person who could take
that feeling of
being alone away.
So when you left, for
whatever reason you left,
I was so angry with you.
Because it came back.
And over the years,
it almost broke me.
You left, or disappeared, or
however you wanna frame it,
and the loss I felt was massive.
It was real.
It frightened me. (sobbing)
I don't think it's
ever really gone away.
And I thought it was my fault.
- You're right.
I did ignore you.
I was an asshole.
And I am sorry.
I didn't take the chance
to tell you how I felt.
I just let you drift
away and disappear.
I was a coward,
and it was cruel.
I am ashamed of it.
- I did love you.
I do still.
(gentle somber music)
That's why I'm here.
But, man, that disappearing
act was bullshit.
You tricked me, and
I was alone again.
God, and I wish we spent
those last 20 years together.
But we didn't.
We aren't those kids anymore.
They were idiots
pretending to be adults.
(Jason chuckles)
We're here.
Together.
Now.
We'll be of far more
used to each other now
than any other
time in our lives.
- Fuck, you're smart.
- Fuck, I know.
- I don't know how I
woulda gotten through
this day without you.
I dunno how to thank you.
- A lifetime supply of
Beef Town would suffice.
(both chuckling)
(gentle somber music continues)
- Yeah.
You (indistinct).
(Analise chuckles)
- Get the fuck in there, you.
Oh shit.
Come on, come on,
come on, come on.
(George sighs)
(gentle somber music continues)
- Hey.
- Sorry. I love you.
- I love you too.
I'm done.
- I think you pissed yourself.
- Yeah, I shit myself.
- Yeah, I think
you did that too.
- Hm.
(gentle somber music continues)
(birds chirping)
(gentle somber music continues)
(gentle somber music continues)
(chimes chiming)
- Hey. Dad?
Dad! Wake up.
Dad.
- Okay.
- Dad.
- Okay, I'm up.
I'm up.
(Jason groans)
Oh.
Hey, kiddo.
- Hi.
What is that?
- It's a joke.
- I don't get it.
- [Maggie] Brought brekky.
- Ooh.
- Muffin and coffee.
- Oh yeah, that's
just what I needed.
- Um, can I have your muffin?
- You just had a muffin.
- It's okay.
- Thanks.
- Mm, looks good.
- It's so good.
- Mm-hmm?
- Should get one for yourself.
- (chuckles) Yeah.
Let me look into that.
(gentle somber music)
Let's get the fuck outta here.
- How many muffins do you
think you can actually eat?
- Uh, four to six.
- Four to six?
Okay, I'll get a
dozen next time.
- Okay.
- You can eat half.
Maybe you can give one to me.
- Yeah.
(gentle somber music continues)
I was sleeping when
you left this morning
(gentle somber music)
I was dreaming when
you disappeared
And a note was on the stairs
And the front
door was wide open
And the note written
in your own hand
And morning light was golden
And I began to understand
I was sleeping the
whole time I knew you
And I woke up
when you went away
And the sky in the suburbs
are the perfect blue
And the front
door was wide open
And the note was
saying goodbye
And the dream that
we all had was stolen
And I began to understand
I only see you
when I'm dreaming
I can only find
you when I sleep
And the house we all
lived in is frozen in time
And the front door
stays wide open
Should you ever
come back to me
And the memories that
we're all holding
Won't set us free
Just wait and see
I was sleeping
until you woke me
And the day since have
brought me to tears
And it wasn't the
distance that broke me
It was the fear
- [Jason] The last
time I saw Sadie,
she was lying in a hospital bed.
Her lips doing that
unconscious flapping sound
that comes with the snore of
someone who's no longer there.
A tube down her throat.
Machines screaming at
us in the hospital room.
But the last time we spoke,
it was a couple
of months before.
Too long.
And she told me I was
a great big brother.
I wasn't. I was okay.
She told me she loved
me. I told her the same.
I think we both knew
this was our last chance.
It occurs to me now, after
all we'd been through,
39 years as brother and sister,
we were just two little kids
who were just scared
outta their minds.
And after all this time,
we still had each other.
We love you, Sadie.
God, we miss you.
(gentle somber music)
- [Katherine] I can't.
- I know.
- I can't look at it anymore.
- Okay.
Jason, um, Sadie's
stuff, back at the house,
the bed, the meds,
all that shit,
can you just-
- I'll take care of it.
Clean it up.
- Thank you, thank you.
(gentle somber music continues)
- It's okay, I think that's
about all your car and take.
- Yeah.
- Where'd your parents go?
- They need me to take
care of Sadie's stuff.
I just don't think mom can
handle seeing it after all this.
I dunno.
- [George] Look who I found.
- [Jason] Hey, kiddo.
- Hey, Dad.
- [George] You
ready to go, Maggie?
- [Maggie] Anytime you're ready.
- [George] Hey,
are you all right?
- [Jason] Yeah.
(gentle somber music continues)
(heart monitor beeping)
(heart monitor beeps)
(gentle somber music)
- [Analise] Jason.
- Hi.
You came.
- [Analise] Of course.
- For this?
- Yeah.
- Wow.
- I left a card
in the, the thing,
with my cell on it,
if you wanna call.
I mean, no, no pressure,
just if you want to.
I leave in the morning.
- Hello.
Yeah, it's, uh, it's Jason.
And I was wondering if
you, if you wanted to,
like, if you wanted
to come to the,
if you just wanted to come
to the house? (chuckles)
Great.
Okay. Yeah.
I'll see you then.
Yeah, see you soon.
Whoa, wait!
Uh, I just, I have to
do a bunch of cleaning,
(chuckles) if that's okay?
It's just, you don't
have to do anything.
It's just, uh, you
can just watch.
Is that?
Okay.
Okay, great.
I'll see ya then. Yeah.
(Jason sighs)
(phone ringing)
Hello?
Hi, Mrs. McVee.
It's Jason.
No, it's Jason.
It's J-
No, it's Jason!
Yes!
Hi.
Yeah, they're,
no, they're at my,
they're staying at
my place tonight.
Yeah, you know, but you don't,
you're, it's okay, that's okay.
You are going to be fine.
I'm gonna tell them
you called, okay?
(phone ringing)
(phone ringing continues)
(gentle somber music)
(knocking on door)
Holy shit!
- Holy shit, yourself.
- I feel like I'm
in a time machine.
- Yeah. Except, I
never used to knock.
- That's true. Yeah.
Oh, come in, come in, yeah.
- I always loved this house.
- Really?
- Yeah.
Yeah, something about it.
- Well, a lotta ghosts here.
Can I take your coat?
- Yeah.
Why thank you, sir.
- [Jason] Uh, but of course.
(both chuckle)
(gentle somber music)
- Still fits.
- Can I get you a drink?
Uh, we don't have any of
your beloved Canadian.
- What?
- I know.
Sorry, I just. Yeah.
- What is this place,
some kind of a palace?
- (chuckles) Just a craft
brew quality, sorry.
- Uh.
Thanks.
You don't look like a hipster.
- I guess just deep
inside somewhere,
it's just clawing its way out.
- Well, you do have
the beard for it.
- You know, contrary
to popular belief,
hipsters did not
invent the beard, so.
- Are you sure about that?
- Yeah.
- I don't know, they make
a pretty good case for it.
- No, everyone knows
the beard was invented
by Canadian iconic '70s
rock band, "Prism".
- Yeah, I don't think did.
- No, I think it
was the cool one.
It was like, yeah.
What's his name?
(Analise chuckles)
Hi.
- Hi.
I'm...
I'm sorry.
- Thanks.
- I, I don't know.
- Me neither.
I mean, I'm sure I'll, I'll
be like actually grieving
at some point, but right now,
I just feel like I'm living
in this, this rubbery
feeling of her being gone.
- Yeah. I get that.
- I am glad today
is over, though.
- Oh, I bet.
- Yeah, I'm pretty tired.
It was a lot, a lot
leading up to this.
They just kept
poking and prodding
and running the clock
until the buzzer went.
It's like it was just
fucking humiliating.
She just fell through the gap.
(gentle somber music)
- I'm so sorry.
- Thanks.
So you wanna get fucked up?
Help me clean some stuff up?
- Hell yeah.
(gentle somber music continues)
- Pain meds.
Anti-seizure meds.
Like, just pretty much anything.
- Whoa!
Pain meds, huh?
- Mm-hmm.
- That could be interesting.
Does it all have to go?
(Jason laughs)
- No, yeah, it does,
it all has to go.
Yeah. All of it.
- Wait, before we get super
drunk and high on oxy.
- Yeah.
- Put that down.
- Why?
- Do you have a car?
- Yes.
- Grab the keys.
- Okay.
What are, what are we doing?
- Stop asking questions
and just come with me.
- Um.
Yeah, what are...
Where, where are...
Okay, hey, wait.
- What?
- Come on.
- All right, fine.
- These will literally
make you piss yourself.
- Well, you choose your
party, I choose mine.
(Jason chuckles)
- All right.
(gentle somber music)
(Sadie retching)
(gentle bright music)
- I always thought that was
the coolest building too.
(Jason and Analise chattering)
- Ooh, the Country Music Club.
I have this foggy memory
of walking in there.
(Jason laughing)
- And if it's foggy, there
really is a good chance
you did go in there.
- Yeah. Yeah.
- Like, I just
wanna go over to him
and like cinch up the
one side of his backpack
to straighten it
up, really badly.
Like I really badly
wanna do that.
It's terrible.
- Does anybody ever sit
in the passenger seat
and just look at you?
- [Jason] Yeah, you know
who does that? Narcs.
- Oh!
(both laughing)
- [Jason] You a narc?
- Maybe.
- Fuck, she didn't even,
you're just like,
you're just like-
- [Analise] It's
been a few years.
- [Jason] Wow.
- Ready?
The cold gonna be enough?
- Probably.
- Not for me.
(Jason laughing)
Thanks for bringing this for me.
- Yeah, I was, I'm done,
I've had enough already.
- Hold on the railings.
Whoa! Shit!
- Actually, no joke.
- (laughing) Oh my
God, that was fun.
Holy shit!
It's still here.
- Mm-hmm.
We have to sneak onto it.
- Oh yeah, goddamn right.
- Okay.
- Shh.
(both chuckle)
Mm.
God, I haven't been
here since, um,
well, since you.
- Shut up, you're ruining it.
I actually brought
you here to explain
to you the beneficial glory
of this community I've joined.
- Oh yeah?
- Yeah.
We're called The
Flowers of Utopia.
And we're led by a
raccoon named scott,
with the lowercase S,
'cause we're all equal.
- My God, that sounds amazing.
- Oh, you don't
know the half it.
Every month, scott asks us to
make a sacrifice of something.
- Uh, that makes sense.
You gotta prove your love.
- Lately, I've been...
Okay, don't tell anyone this,
but lately I've been
giving him my body.
- So you give scott
the raccoon your body,
like, like sexually?
- Yeah, what else would I mean.
Technically, he
said if I didn't,
then I would have
to go to the roots
of our hell tree and
live out my days.
- Hell tree?
- Yeah, our hell tree.
So, I give myself to
scott, lowercase S,
the raccoon once a
month, just to be safe.
- Well, if it makes
you feel better.
- It does, I does.
- Does, yeah.
- Not the sex, though,
'cause he's a raccoon
and his nails are sharp.
- Right. Yeah.
- I figure as long as I got
my rabies shots, I'll be fine.
Don't want one of
those animal STDs.
Safe sex is the best sex.
- That's a good point.
So, if I was to join your group,
would I do the same thing, or-
- Oh God, no. No, no.
Sex with scott, lowercase S,
is for high-level
followers only.
- Right.
- You'd have to start
from the bottom,
cleaning our toilets and
trimming scott's nails.
Which, I would
appreciate considering
the amount of
fingering he likes.
- (chuckles) Oh,
you're so fucked.
Oh my God.
- I know.
(both laughing)
- I missed you.
- Missed you too.
- (sighs) I can't believe
I never made out here.
- Uh, speak for yourself.
I made out here constantly.
- Oh, are you
referring to Devon?
Okay.
I'm not entirely sure
that he existed, so.
- What?
- I never met him.
- Uh, he stayed in Ontario,
he only visited me
a couple of times.
- Okay, sure.
- He did.
- Yeah. No.
I mean, well, there's no
way to know for sure, so.
- (chuckles) You met him.
- Okay, you know what?
I actually met someone who
you said was Devon, but-
- That was Devon.
- Yeah, okay.
- That was Devon.
- You know, to be fair, you
never made a move on me, so.
- Right.
This is nice.
God, I miss this view.
- Yeah, me too.
- How many people out
there, across the water,
you think are having
sex right now?
- Well, I, I don't think anyone.
- Why not?
- They've all got this,
like, just feeling,
deep in the back of their minds,
they can't quite put
their fingers on.
It's, um, creepy,
strange woman on a boat
is thinking about them naked.
- Come on-
- So you killed their mojo.
- No. What?
- That's what you did.
- No.
Now I feel bad.
- You should, you really should.
- God, think of all the babies
that could have been made.
- I know, you're so
selfish. (chuckles)
- No, maybe, maybe they were
meant to not be conceived.
Maybe these kids would've
grown up to be assholes
or dictators, or
asshole dictators.
- Kids are not you.
- Threatening to
take over the world.
- Yeah, you're rationalizing.
- I'm sorry, you guys!
I'm sorry for taking
away your mojo!
Keep going, and don't mind me!
I'm not paying any
attention at all!
Unless you want me to, then
I am, you dirty, sick fucks!
(gentle bright music)
Aah!
- Are you finished?
- Mm-hmm.
- Okay.
- I just wanted to be clear.
You, you were clear.
- You know, I think
they appreciated it.
- What would they do without
your permission to copulate?
I can't even imagine.
- I did them a favor.
They're probably having
the best sex of their life.
- Yeah, no, okay, I take
it back, you being selfish.
You're a real giver.
- Yes.
(Jason laughs)
- What does your husband think
about you coming out here?
- No questions asked.
- That's, that's
really nice of him.
- Yeah, he's a really nice guy.
- So, he just like-
- Yep.
- So you guys have a really,
you have a good like...
So you happy, you?
- Yeah. Yeah, we are.
Whatever that means.
- Good.
(gentle bright music continues)
- [Analise] There's
something I need to tell you.
- [Jason] Okay.
- But, you, you have to promise
that you won't
think any less of me
or look at me any differently.
- Okay.
- Promise?
- Yeah. Promise.
- It's a lot harder than
I thought it would be.
- You can tell me anything
you want, it's okay.
- I think I'm pregnant
with a raccoon baby.
- Oh, fuck you.
- I don't know how it happened.
- Are you serious?
- Yeah.
- I thought you were
gonna say something monumental.
- Well, maybe this
isn't for you,
but for me it's a
pretty big deal.
Any advice?
- Do you crave grubs?
For like a late night snack?
You stay up all night?
- Yes.
- Do you wash your
food compulsively,
but only after you take
it outta the garbage can?
- My God, yes.
What, what does it mean?
- Oh.
You're going to the hell tree
to live out the
rest of your days.
- Oh, I feel ashamed.
- It does explain your
love of Beef Town.
- Oh my God, Beef town!
- Yeah, see? Okay.
- Let's go to Beef Town.
- Yeah. You see, you're
proving my point.
- Yeah, yeah, yeah,
you're hilarious,
I'm, I'm grown now.
Take me to Beef Town now.
- What? Or scott the raccoon's
gonna finger bang me?
Okay, I forgot that look.
And now I remember it, and now
I will take you to Beef Town.
- Okay, let's go.
(gentle bright music continues)
- I feel like we overordered.
- We?
This shit's mine, I don't
remember you ordering anything.
(Jason chuckles)
- Yeah, all right.
Jesus, don't forget
to breath. Wow!
- Who needs breathing
when you have meat,
cheese and bread made
by an awkward teenager?
Mm.
(Analise gagging)
- God!
- I could have chocked to death!
- (chuckles) I was right there,
I what's gone for like
literally three seconds.
- Oh, okay then.
- You know, I actually have
all the funeral decor still,
it'd actually be
pretty convenient.
- Mm, I think my family
would be pretty upset
if you just went
through with it.
- Well, I don't know,
your parents love me.
- No, I'm talking about
my family, family.
You know, my husband and kids.
- Oh, right. We're
in the present.
I forgot.
Wait, before you dislocate
your jaw and swallow that hole,
come with me.
Okay.
Here we go. Yeah.
(chuckles) Let's see.
(gentle somber music)
Okay! Well, I got some
pretty sweet CDs here.
All the greatest hits.
I got "Nirvana",
"Stone Temple Pilots",
"Jann Arden", "Soundgarden",
"Dave Matthews Band".
- Oh, "Dave Matthews Band"!
- Or, I mean, if you
can't, you can't choose.
- No, "Dave Matthews Band".
I've made my choice, damn it.
- Okay. Yeah, great.
(groans) If you say so.
"Bryan Adams" it is.
- Aah, you've always
been against my Dave.
- Uh, I'm just not entirely sure
that's actually,
technically, music.
Let's see here.
Okay.
Let's see.
How does this go?
(gentle somber music continues)
It's not...
Not turning on.
It's not.
Is this is thing? Yeah.
Okay. Um.
It's not.
I am sorry.
I don't.
Damn it!
- Definitely doesn't work now.
- I'm sorry.
- I think you owe that
apology to Mr. Adams.
- Right.
Sorry, Mr. Adams.
Oh.
Oh God.
(gentle somber music)
- Exactly the same.
Wait, is, is that?
No way.
Let me see if I remember how to.
- Hey, can you?
- Yeah. Yeah.
- [Both] 1, 2, 3.
(Analise laughing)
- Holy shit!
I can't believe it still exists.
Does it still work?
- Yeah, try it.
(gentle somber music)
Which color am I.
- Well, we'll find out.
- Oh, it moved, it moved.
- So I'm blue.
Ah!
- Oh, right off the track.
(Analise laughing)
- Let's do it again.
- Yeah, okay.
Here, you be blue this time.
- Okay.
- Ready?
- [Analise] Yeah.
(both laughing)
- [Jason] See, this part's dead.
Yeah, you can actually
play by yourself.
- [Analise] It's just like this-
- [Jason] Oh yeah, it's
not the driver at all.
- [Analise] No.
- Now I did.
(both laughing)
Just tell me about your family.
- We're good.
Really good.
- Yeah, me too.
- Yeah, my husband,
he does shift work
so I can travel for my job.
And my kids, well,
you know how they are.
They heal you, feel you.
Annoy the fuck outta you.
- This is so like weird and
normal at the same time.
- I know. We're
talking about our kids.
- It's like I'm talking
to the future you.
Is there a DeLorean parked
out back? (chuckles)
- Oh God, you're so old
with that reference.
- Yeah, I know.
I feel, I feel old.
Do you feel it? Do you?
- Yeah, I feel like
I ate too much.
- Yeah. Yeah, now
you're regretting it.
- Hm, I regret nothing.
- Yeah.
- Oh! Holy cow!
You wanna point
that the other way?
Jesus!
- (burps) Oof, oh
God, that hurt.
- Jesus Christ!
Do you need me to set up
a saline drip for you?
- Yeah, God, would you mind?
- Okay, well, yeah, hop on the
bed, I'll get you hooked up.
- God.
- Oh my God.
- Know what, I think, I think
Beef Town changed the recipe,
I just...
Bathroom?
- Same, uh, same place.
- Okay.
Ugh.
(gentle somber music)
(gentle somber music continues)
(gentle somber music)
(chuckles) I was
so cute back then.
That nose ring.
- (chuckles) Yeah,
you were a badass.
- Aah.
Hey, look at your sister.
Grade nine. Always smiling.
- (sighs) Yeah.
- Must have killed your
parents what happened to her.
- Yeah, it did.
Yeah, it does.
- They were wonderful people.
Cool parents.
- Yeah, they were.
They still are,
they're just different.
- Whenever we got
horrendously drunk
or had parties,
they always got it.
- Yeah.
- We don't have to talk about
them if you don't want to.
- No, I do, it's just they,
uh, they have changed.
They loved her so much.
All the love in the
world didn't do shit.
- They love you that much too.
- I don't know.
I think I'm just
the one who's left.
(gentle somber music)
How do you watch your
kid die her whole life
and not be fucked up?
I don't wanna be an only child.
(sniffs) Fuck, my nose is runny.
- I don't care.
- Oh, you should.
Oh.
- You look normal to me.
- Oh, I always look like this?
- Yeah.
- Yeah?
What, with the snot
coming outta my face?
- Yep.
- My eyes all red.
- That's 'cause you
haven't aged well.
- Shit. Um.
- What?
- I got, uh, I got
something to show you.
It's in the attic.
- There dead bodies up there?
- Of course.
Do you wish to join them?
- No, I'm good.
(gentle somber music continues)
- Okay.
Huh.
(Jason groans)
Oh.
Okay.
Oh. (groans)
Uh...
Could you gimme a hand?
- Oh!
- Yeah, just take this away.
Yeah.
Okay, come here, okay.
- Yeah.
- Okay, I got it.
There we go.
(Jason chuckles)
So I was looking
through my old stuff,
to find pictures for
the funeral, and I
found my old trunk.
- Didn't even know you had one.
- I do. This, this is it.
This is where I kept
all my cool, old stuff.
Cap guns.
Comic books.
Journal.
Oh my God, there's some
serious teen angst in this.
- Is this supposed
to impress me?
- Okay, wait, just give
me, hold on a second.
And...
This.
- No reaction.
- You don't recognize this?
- Should I?
- This is our masterpieces.
- What! (laughs)
Oh shit!
(Jason laughing)
We were demented.
- Yeah.
- (chuckles) Oh my God.
(both laughing)
What the fuck?
- Yeah.
- Oh.
- (gasps) Oh, I made fun of
your girlfriend a lot in these.
- Mm.
- I really didn't like her.
- You hated her.
You always called
her Goody Two-shoes.
I mean, she, she was.
Except when she wasn't.
- Gross.
- You jealous much?
- Yeah, something like that.
- Yeah.
(chuckle) I love, where is it?
Lemme find.
Here! This one!
Oh God!
I drew you asking Tito,
the Yugoslavian dictator,
for his autograph,
and he is like,
"Mm, I think you
have a wrong Tito."
(both laugh)
That's pretty genius,
you have to admit.
- Oh, yeah, eh, no,
the genius part is,
here you have Michael
grabbing his crotch asking,
"Where are the kids?"
It's real classy.
- Yeah. It was the '90s.
I guess I was trying
to be topical.
It's a little.
God, we had fun, hey?
- Yeah.
Hey, how did we
even become friends?
- I don't know.
You, uh, you were
just there, one day.
Like, um, like herpes.
Herpes from Fraudrich.
- Godrich.
- Godrich. Right.
I mean, I don't
know, we just were.
- Yeah, you're lucky
I didn't get along
with anyone else at that school.
- You had high standards.
- How do you explain you then?
- You recognize sophistication.
- Yeah, or just another
person with a perverse sense
of humor and a
distaste for authority.
- I thought that that's
what sophistication meant.
- Oh yeah. Yeah, close enough.
- Fuck, I hated high school.
- Yeah, me too.
- You ever wonder what
it would've been like
if we'd kept in touch?
- Honestly?
- No. Why, please?
Yes, honestly.
- No.
- No?
- Eh, never really
thought about it.
- You never thought about...
Never?
- No.
- Oh. Shit.
- Well, things just
kept moving, you know,
it never really occurred to me.
- Yeah, okay.
- You know, it just,
just became what it was.
- Yeah.
- I mean, it's not like
I never thought of you,
it's just I never
pictured anything
after we stopped being us.
- Okay.
- Did you?
- No.
- Okay.
- Things just kept moving.
And it never really
occurred to me
what would've happened
if I never found myself.
- Yeah, you prick, I
was just being honest.
- Yeah. You know what?
Me too, honestly. No, totally.
Honestly, I never,
I never thought
about how much fun
we woulda had or,
or how we could have
supported each other,
or celebrated each
other's successes.
Yeah, that didn't even,
didn't even occur to me.
- Yeah, me neither.
- You still love weed?
- Love is a strong word,
I prefer connoisseur.
- You still a
connoisseur of weed?
- I am.
- Wait here.
Let's see here, um.
Yes.
Oh.
- Oh yeah.
(Jason chuckles)
- Yeah.
Yeah.
So, there's weed
like everywhere here,
this house is like a
drug Advent calendar.
(gentle somber music)
- Ha.
- Hah.
- Oh my God.
- This yard, it smells the same.
- Remember that time you
climbed up on the garage roof
and did the running man?
- Yeah, and, and my foot
went through the roof
and we had to fix it.
- We?
- Okay. You.
Hey, the running man, on the
roof, I was an innovator.
- Well, that's fair.
(Analise chuckles)
- Hey.
Her hands are still there.
- Yeah.
Okay.
(coughs) Fuck!
Oh fuck, my beautiful,
perfect lungs.
(Jason coughing)
- So weak.
(Jason chuckles)
- Yeah. (sighs)
(Jason chuckles)
Remember a couple years ago,
before, uh, before
Sadie moved back here?
A bunch of her
friends had come over
and like made a huge
fuckload of pot brownies,
to help her when she
needed to settle.
So they made all these
brownies and they,
they put them all
in the freezer.
So my dad was there and he was,
he was helping her
like run errands,
and clean up the house, and
take her to the appointments
that kinda stuff.
This one afternoon,
Sadie goes for a nap.
And Dad, uh, he's hungry,
so he is puttering around
and he's rifling, just
riffling through the fridge.
And he goes in the freezer
and he sees these brownies.
So, he, uh, he takes 'em out,
he puts a few of
them on a plate,
puts them in the microwave.
Eats them all!
Like, fucking, like,
fucking four or five
of these brownies,
like chock-full of THC.
So an hour or two later,
Sadie comes
downstairs, (giggles)
my dad is fucking
stoned out of his,
like, out of his mind.
And he's just
staring at a spoon.
Like, he's like staring at
his reflection in a spoon.
And Sadie's like, "Oh", Sadie
thinks he's had a stroke.
And until she sees this
plate of like brownie crumbs,
and she's like, "Oh! Dad,
are you okay?" (chuckles)
Okay, but at this point, she,
she'd lost all her teeth,
so she had these, she
had these dentures.
And, (chuckles) so when
she would lean in to say,
"Dad, are you okay?",
her dentures fell out,
and they were facing up,
like looking at my dad with
this weird grin. (laughing)
My dad is, so my dad is
looking at the spoon,
and he is like, slowly
looks down to the plate,
and he looks back up for
her and he goes, he goes,
"I think that plate
ate all your brownies."
(both laughing)
Oh, she loved that story.
You know, now every time my
dad has like a normal brownie,
he looks a little
disappointed. (chuckles)
Oh God.
- Shit.
Huh.
Remember when you
used to come by
and you'd teach
Sadie how to bead,
like how to bead jewelry?
- I do.
- Well, that was really nice.
- She needed it.
- It was really nice to
think that you guys had that.
- Yeah.
I mean, not everything
revolved around you.
- Ouch.
- It's true.
You have to remember, she
had a full 360 degree life.
- I know.
- She had to expand on her own,
outside of being
just the sick girl.
- Well, she wasn't on her own.
- I'm not trying to
hurt your feelings,
it's just we talked about things
you couldn't have understood.
(gentle somber music)
You know?
- Okay.
Okay.
- Okay.
Are you just gonna sit there?
- Here?
- Yeah. There.
- Yeah, well, I'm,
uh, just sitting here.
So, yeah, I'm probably just
gonna keep sitting here.
- I should probably go.
It's great seeing you.
- You got something to
say, could, just say it.
- It's not the right time.
- You're wrong.
- Of course I am.
- It is the right time!
Okay, just...
Why did we stop?
- You fucked it up!
- I fucked it up, me?
- When I came here at
16, I left everything.
My dad gets a new job here,
he uproots my whole life,
I had no one.
And then I met you.
I never laughed like
that with anyone before.
Never felt that in sync.
- Me neither.
- Your friendship
was like home to me.
And then, you were gone.
Cut loose, again.
You asked me what happened,
why we grew apart.
We didn't grow apart. You left.
- I left?
What did I leave?
- How could he even say that?
- Because the way you're
talking about this,
it makes it sound like
I just walked away
from some committed,
long-term engagement!
We were friends!
Yeah, but we were great friends.
And we drifted apart.
- You knew me, and you
disappeared anyway.
You forgot me.
- I never forgot you!
I thought about
you all the time!
- Really?
- Yes!
- You forgot my 19th birthday,
you dumb piece of shit!
- Are you kidding me?
Your birthday!
This is about your birthday?
- It's not about my
fucking birthday!
(door creaks)
- Mom, are you okay?
- (sighs) I don't know.
I just...
I needed to be near
one of my kids.
I'm sorry.
I'm fine. I'm sorry.
I'm fine. I'm just,
um, I'm not fine.
I'm all over the place.
I just needed to be here.
Analise.
Oh, look at this face.
I've missed you.
- Missed you too.
I'm so sorry.
- Yeah, me too.
- Is, uh, is Dad okay?
- He's out in the car,
he'll be a minute.
And no, not even a little bit.
- Oh, it's cold out there.
Well, that was a shit day.
- Hey, Dad.
- Analise, you stayed.
Thank you.
Thank you so much
for being here.
- Of course. I'm
glad to be here.
Um, listen, if you guys
need some family time,
I can get outta here.
- Are you kidding? We need
some new energy around here.
When you're back, I feel
like it's 20 years ago.
- Yeah, we were
just saying that.
- Yeah, like, like
a time machine,
and we could use one
of those. (chuckles)
Anyway.
- The service was lovely.
- Was it? I don't remember much.
- Blur.
- It was.
- All I remember is I
almost punch four people
in the face, and they
were trying to be nice,
but Jesus, the stupid
things that people say.
- Well, what do you say?
- Yeah.
- Nothing.
- I need a drink.
Anyone else?
- I'm good.
- No, thank you.
- More for me.
- Mom, can I get you something?
Mom?
- Mm-hmm?
- Can I get you something.
- Double scotch.
I'm kidding.
Water would be nice.
So, Analise, how've you been?
- Things are good.
Thanks for asking.
(gentle somber music)
- You two must have had
a lot to catch up on?
What was that look?
- What look? There's
no, there's no look.
- You guys just had a look.
I would like to
know what it meant.
- We, I, we were just, um-
- When you walked
in, we were actually
in the middle of an argument.
- [Katherine] Uh-huh.
- But I think you
already knew that.
- Pfft, none of my business.
You're both adults.
Ugh. This is water.
(Katherine chuckles)
- Look what I found. (chuckles)
You remember?
Huh?
- A turkey baster?
- No, the famous turkey baster.
You remember the story.
Didn't you tell her?
- No.
- Would you like to hear the
famous turkey baster story?
- I don't know if
that's necessary.
- Please don't tell
that story again.
- I would love to hear it.
- Well, hm.
Okay.
It was a day like any other
day, except it was different,
it was Sadie's birthday party.
And the kids, they were all sad,
because they wanted to
go jump into the sandbox
and play, and,
well, they couldn't,
'cause they didn't have
anything to play with.
So, Katherine, over there,
she brought out
some pots and pans
and a bunch of kitchen shit,
and, um, saved the day.
And, of course,
Sadie brought out
the famous turkey baster.
- I inherited that
Turkey baster.
- Of course, see, but that
that's another story, dear.
So they all run out the door
and they jump into the sandbox,
and they start diggin' up shit-
- There wasn't any dog
shit in the sandbox.
- [Jason] No, there, it
was, there was cat shit.
- There was not.
- Anyway, and they're, you
know, they were throwing sand
at each other and shoving
sand down each other's pants,
and we have a wonderful time.
And then, um, smarty
pants, over here.
(chuckles) He's has
the very bright idea
to connect the hose up with
the (imitates turkey clucking).
- The turkey baster.
- Of course. Okay.
The little plastic ball
that's connected to the-
- It wasn't plastic,
it was rubber.
- No, it was plastic.
- No, it was rubber.
- No, but-
- They don't make them
like that anymore.
- I'm so sorry.
Jesus, you know, an expert
in balls, obviously.
(all chuckle)
Okay, so the plastic
ball that was connected
to the end of the turkey baster,
it starts to fill up a little,
and starts to get a
little bigger, you know,
and a little bigger, and then,
uh, it goes back down again.
We fill it up a little more,
and it's getting bigger,
it's getting bigger, it's
getting a lot bigger,
and it's filling up so
much it starts to look
like a massive expansive
growth on the end of your, um-
- Oh, for goodness
sake, just say it.
Penis! Penis!
It looked like a great,
huge nightmare of a penis.
- Boom!
It explodes all over the place,
and the kids are
crying, and oh my God.
And I look at Sadie,
and she's laughing.
She's laughing,
she's laughing a lot,
she's laughing real hard.
And then we start
laughing real hard,
and everybody's
laughing real hard.
Oh, we all... (chuckles)
Pee, (chuckles) pee our pants.
- (laughing) We did not.
- Except for me,
I shit my pants.
- That's a comple... (laughs)
- [George] End of story.
(all laughing)
- Thanks, George.
That's awesome.
- Yeah, it's all right.
(gentle somber music)
- What are these?
- Oh, I found my trunk.
I was, uh, showing
Analise our old drawings.
- I remember finding
these all over the house,
and thinking either
there's something
very seriously wrong,
or else he's found
the perfect person for him.
- I also found this.
- (gasps) Oh, George.
- No, I don't think. I'll,
I'll look at it later.
- George.
(gentle somber music continues)
(George sobbing)
- I don't know if I can make it.
- No, not as we are.
- I wonder if she
liked the service.
- (scoffs) I doubt it.
- [George] We did
everything we could.
- Did we?
- [George] I hate this day.
- I hate this life.
- I hate this life, today.
- Speak for yourself.
- [George] No, come on.
- I got nothin' left.
What can I give you, any of you?
- [George] Nothing.
- I gave her life,
and now it's gone.
And so am I.
- Now, come on, they don't
need to hear any of this.
- Do you know how many
people said to me today,
"Oh well, at least she's
not in pain anymore."
Hell, I even started saying it.
But I want her in
pain, goddamn it!
Because then, at least, I
would know she was here.
At least I'd be able to
look at her and hold her.
And tell her I love her.
- We have to stick
together through this.
- Do we?
- Yes.
- I'm not sure if I can.
I'm not sure if I
can spend what's left
of my life looking
at you every day.
We failed! We didn't save her!
We, we didn't find anyone
who could save her.
- You're right, we
couldn't, and she died!
Sadie died, Katherine,
but we're still here
and I love you. (sobbing)
I have loved you for 45 years,
and I've rolled with everything
that life has thrown at us,
because we did it together.
We fought everything
together, my shit, your shit.
You, you think of all
the other people we know,
They couldn't make it, because
they weren't able to adapt
to their life changes.
But we did it, and
we, no, we survived,
and we'll survive this.
Like, I don't know how,
I don't know what it's
gonna look like, but
we just have to think
of this as a beginning,
it's a new beginning.
I promise you, Katherine,
we can do this.
(gentle somber music continues)
- But I hate you.
- I know, and that's all right.
- Is it?
- (sobbing) I can't
fight with you anymore.
I'm too tired.
Good night, everyone.
(gentle somber music continues)
- Another fun
night at our house.
(clock ticking)
(Jason sighs)
(Analise sighs)
- You okay?
- Yeah.
So, it's not about
your birthday.
- My whole life
I hated the dark.
I still do.
As soon as the sun
starts to go down,
I, I feel hollow.
A desperation start to
climb into my throat.
And make me feel like something
terrible is going to happen.
When I was a kid, my dad and I
would go to this muffin shop.
We would go every
couple of weeks,
and he would get the
bran muffin and a coffee,
and I would get one with the
sweet cream cheese on top.
I really looked forward to it.
Except for the drive.
The drive there, I would, I
would feel that creeping hollow.
It was dangerous,
ominous, growing.
As though I was
starting to realize
how alone we all are in the end.
As I grew up, no matter
how many people I was with,
when the dark came, I felt it.
It was panic.
It was anxiety.
It was that knowing that no one
really gave a shit about me.
But I never felt that
when I was with you.
And you broke my heart. (sobs)
You were the only
person who could take
that feeling of
being alone away.
So when you left, for
whatever reason you left,
I was so angry with you.
Because it came back.
And over the years,
it almost broke me.
You left, or disappeared, or
however you wanna frame it,
and the loss I felt was massive.
It was real.
It frightened me. (sobbing)
I don't think it's
ever really gone away.
And I thought it was my fault.
- You're right.
I did ignore you.
I was an asshole.
And I am sorry.
I didn't take the chance
to tell you how I felt.
I just let you drift
away and disappear.
I was a coward,
and it was cruel.
I am ashamed of it.
- I did love you.
I do still.
(gentle somber music)
That's why I'm here.
But, man, that disappearing
act was bullshit.
You tricked me, and
I was alone again.
God, and I wish we spent
those last 20 years together.
But we didn't.
We aren't those kids anymore.
They were idiots
pretending to be adults.
(Jason chuckles)
We're here.
Together.
Now.
We'll be of far more
used to each other now
than any other
time in our lives.
- Fuck, you're smart.
- Fuck, I know.
- I don't know how I
woulda gotten through
this day without you.
I dunno how to thank you.
- A lifetime supply of
Beef Town would suffice.
(both chuckling)
(gentle somber music continues)
- Yeah.
You (indistinct).
(Analise chuckles)
- Get the fuck in there, you.
Oh shit.
Come on, come on,
come on, come on.
(George sighs)
(gentle somber music continues)
- Hey.
- Sorry. I love you.
- I love you too.
I'm done.
- I think you pissed yourself.
- Yeah, I shit myself.
- Yeah, I think
you did that too.
- Hm.
(gentle somber music continues)
(birds chirping)
(gentle somber music continues)
(gentle somber music continues)
(chimes chiming)
- Hey. Dad?
Dad! Wake up.
Dad.
- Okay.
- Dad.
- Okay, I'm up.
I'm up.
(Jason groans)
Oh.
Hey, kiddo.
- Hi.
What is that?
- It's a joke.
- I don't get it.
- [Maggie] Brought brekky.
- Ooh.
- Muffin and coffee.
- Oh yeah, that's
just what I needed.
- Um, can I have your muffin?
- You just had a muffin.
- It's okay.
- Thanks.
- Mm, looks good.
- It's so good.
- Mm-hmm?
- Should get one for yourself.
- (chuckles) Yeah.
Let me look into that.
(gentle somber music)
Let's get the fuck outta here.
- How many muffins do you
think you can actually eat?
- Uh, four to six.
- Four to six?
Okay, I'll get a
dozen next time.
- Okay.
- You can eat half.
Maybe you can give one to me.
- Yeah.
(gentle somber music continues)
I was sleeping when
you left this morning
(gentle somber music)
I was dreaming when
you disappeared
And a note was on the stairs
And the front
door was wide open
And the note written
in your own hand
And morning light was golden
And I began to understand
I was sleeping the
whole time I knew you
And I woke up
when you went away
And the sky in the suburbs
are the perfect blue
And the front
door was wide open
And the note was
saying goodbye
And the dream that
we all had was stolen
And I began to understand
I only see you
when I'm dreaming
I can only find
you when I sleep
And the house we all
lived in is frozen in time
And the front door
stays wide open
Should you ever
come back to me
And the memories that
we're all holding
Won't set us free
Just wait and see
I was sleeping
until you woke me
And the day since have
brought me to tears
And it wasn't the
distance that broke me
It was the fear