Cosmic Sex (2015) Movie Script
You are mine, my dear.
You are only mine.
Whisper once into my ear.
You are only mine.
You are mine, my dear.
You are only mine.
Kripa!
I heard from Kripa's friends,
you know
that he often goes and sits
alone at the crematorium.
Is that so ?
Why do you think he does that ?
That is where he saw his mother
last.
May be thats why.
Why don't you spend
some more time with him ?
Whenever I spent time with him
I realized he's going through a
crisis.
Tell me honestly Sarah
did I cause his crisis?
Sudhangsu... Sudhangsu...
How does one avert
this Freudian replay of events ?
She is no longer alive.
Yet the two of you
continue to fight over her
memory!
What should I do then?
Sudhangshu, I dont know what to
say.
You have Sarah
but Kripa doesn't have mom.
Now if I try to be his mom
you two will start a competition
over me.
What's the matter Kripa?
Are you going out this late?
No, I heard the music and came
down.
Sit here.
Can I say something?
Yes. Of course, tell me.
What do you want to say?
I can't find the answer to some
questions.
Which questions?
I found a book on father's shelf
Bramacharya
Gandhi and his woman associates
written by Girija Kumar.
The book was quite fat.
I leafed through, read a little.
I feel quite confused after
reading it.
What is your confusion about?
Bapu and Brahmacharya.
I dont understand.
Gandhiji once wrote
to his disciple Prema Ben
that inspite of his strict
vow
of discipline and celibacy.
few drops of semen passed out
from him.
He was very disappointed.
My question is
what is the connection
between...
semen coming out and
Brahmacharya?
Brahmacharya means abstinence
staying away from sex.
I don't know anything more than
this.
If Brahmacharya means
staying away from sex
then why did Gandhiji
sleep naked with young women?
Why don't you talk
about all this with your father
?
I can't talk to him.
He feels intimidated even if I
look at him.
Ill makes you friends again.
Now tell me what were you saying
?
What Gandhiji did with
the young women, was it right?
What Gandhiji did or why he did
it
I know nothing about it.
Do you think his behavior
was appropriate ?
Kripa, hang on.
Let me read the book first.
Then we can talk on it.
whatever you will read...
I have already read
And then I'm asking you.
Kripa...
Are you sure you want
to talk to me about Gandhi?
Are you curious about
Gandhi or about sex?
Sarah, you are looking very
beautiful.
Will you please dance with me ?
Kripa...
Kripa...
Kripa...
You... I'll
What have you done?
You killed your father!
Can you please drop me home ?
Please!
Today, if you were not there
what would have happen to me?
I might have been
lying on the road all night.
Those animals hit me so hard
it's paining.
See.
What are you seeing?
I am Devi.
I am the top w here.
I didn't let those
motherf f my butt.
So they kicked me out of the
car.
So late at night
where are you going alone?
Were you looking
for someone like me?
I think you need to go to a
doctor.
I have my medicine at my home.
I'll give some to you too.
Why?
I can see you are in pain.
So you too.
What is this?
I killed my father
and run away from home.
I'm the w and you a killer!
What?
Wont you come upstairs with me?
Wont you like to feed me my
medicine?
He came in my dreams at night.
He came in my dreams at
night...
the one with the flute.
Krishna is in my heart
I chant his name.
Krishna is in my heart
I chant his name.
He said, 'Oh! My Radha!
Without you I am only half of myself'
'My flute calls you,
Come, run to the river bank to me'
He said, 'Oh! My Radha!
Without you I am only half of
myself'
'My flute calls you'
Now, I will take my medicine.
What?
Wont you feed me my medicine?
Oh God!
You have blood on your hand.
I too have blood on my hand.
Come on! Let's wash it.
Here, boy!
Come.
Come here!
Come! I'm telling you.
Oh! It is only on your hands.
Give!
How do you feel?
How do you feel, about me?
What are you thinking about?
Did you really commit murder?
I can't understand what happened
Do you want to run away?
Come! Let's run away together.
But where will you run away?
Instead... Come! Lets dance.
I'll make you sit on my rod
and then ring your bell.
You will sit on my lap
and lean against me.
Come my darling
ride my Hero cycle.
Come my darling
ride my Hero cycle.
I'll make you sit on my rod
and then ring your bell.
I'll make you sit on my rod
and then ring your bell.
You will sit on my lap
and lean against me.
Come my darling
ride my Hero cycle.
Oh Hero! Come lets dance.
I'll make you sit on my rod
and then ring your bell.
I'll make you sit on my rod
and then ring your bell.
You will sit on my lap
and lean against me.
Come my darling
ride my Hero cycle.
Come my darling
ride my Hero cycle.
Get lost. B!
Where did you find him?
What is his name?
Oh Mother!
He is a mere infant.
You fooled him into f
you...
and forgot to ask his name?
Hey!
Your nose is quite long.
Your d must be pretty long
too!
100%
Take this.
Do you know this place ?
It's a brothel.
People come here and pay to
f!
This house is mine.
And this w belongs to me
too.
What are you doing here?
Wear your clothes...
and go home.
Let me explain.
Get out w!
Open the door motherf!
Open.
Your mouth has become so dry,
Have you eaten anything?
What is your name?
Kripa.
Hey listen...
Your lips are really very
beautiful.
Will you give them to me?
I want to go.
Of course you will.
But give me your lips before you
go.
Please!
Kiss me at least once before you
go.
Wont you give me?
Kiss me...
Give me your lips.
No one can come in from the
outside.
No one can go out from the
inside.
Imagine, if this happens...
Imagine, if this happens...
You and I...
locked in a room...
and the key is lost.
You and I...
I have seen you before
at the cremation ground.
Do you go there often?
Mother!
Mother!
Mother!
Mother!
Mother!
Who are you?
- What do you want ?
- Ma
Please listen to me.
I am not mad.
Dont be afraid.
Tell me what's hapened?
Mother.
You are exactly my Mother.
When I saw you at the
banks of the river Ganga ...
my world turned.
Who are you?
My name is Kripa Sankar Ray.
My mother passed away one year
ago.
You remember your mother often?
Yes.
But...
last night I killed my father.
I ran away from home.
I met Devi on the road.
I went to Devi's house with her.
Another murder...
The whole night I've just been
killing...
and running.
And then I met you Ma.
Listen Kripa Shankar!
I am not your mother.
My name is Sadhana.
I am an ascetic.
Sadhana Mother.
Sadhana Mother.
Sadhana Mother!
Sadhana Mother!
Sadhana Mother, where have you
gone?
I'm calling you for so long.
Can't you hear me!
The tides rise in the woman
every month...
The tides rise in the woman
every month...
at the place where the three
holy rivers meet in the woman's body.
Ganga, Jamuna, Saraswati.
Ganga, Jamuna, Saraswati.
The three holy rivers in a
woman's body, Ganga, Jamuna, Saraswati.
When the rivers are
turbulent...
it is the play of these three
holy rivers.
One is black, One is white and
other red.
When you bathe in these holy
rivers...
you become like the Lord.
The three holy rivers in a
woman's body, Ganga, Jamuna, Saraswati.
Who knows the nature of woman?
The Lord knows a little.
One of them he keeps on
his head, one on his chest.
Women are of three kinds -
they express...
three different qualities of
love
The three holy rivers in a
woman's body, Ganga, Jamuna, Saraswati.
This time after death
I want to be reborn as a woman...
and immerse myself in the sea
of love.
I will learn from the holy
ascetics, the practice of love.
This time after death
I want to be reborn as a woman...
and immerse myself in the sea
of love.
I will learn from the holy
ascetics, the practice of love.
Sadhana Mother...
I have thought of a boy for you.
You know him.
He is a very devout boy.
Our Mansoor.
If you give your consent...
I will talk to him for your
marriage.
Marriage?
I dont want to marry Baba.
Why? Ma.
When I was eight years old...
you found me at the fair lost
and alone.
Since then you have given me
shelter.
Now if you again send
me back out into the world.
It will be very difficult for
me.
But Ma...
our ashram is for spiritual
practice...
in order to live here you
will have to learn all that.
And without a Master
you will not be able to learn.
Whatever you say, Baba!
Since your childhood,
you have been to so many
ashrams.
Do you have anyone in
mind that you want as your
Master?
You are everything I have Baba.
I have no one in my mind except
you.
You be my Master.
Oh!
So this is what you have in
mind.
You have already decided
everything on your own.
Baba!
Listen Ma!
Those of us who are in the
Fakiri tradition...
and practice Dehotathya...
believe that God is in the body.
You have grown up
listening to so many of our
songs.
All this is written in those
songs.
I understand a bit Baba.
In our fakiri tradition it is
said that...
at the birth of creation the
subtle and formless manifest
itself.
I am the present form of that.
Because I have evolved from
there.
I can say that I was the
formless too.
But in the course of evolution
the subtle I has become gross.
And moved very far away...
and forgotten its own formless
subtle self.
Now by going reverse in the
creative act.
I can move up my gross
self closer to the subtle self.
I will be again be
reunited with the formless.
Do you understand Ma?
The one who is worshipping and
the one who is being
worshipped...
are both one and the same me.
That entity is formless...
and this one has form.
That is why man is at the
same time form and formless...
known and unknown.
On the path to the subtle self
the biggest obstacle is sexual desire.
Worldly people fall into
the trap of sexual desire...
and are never able to break free.
Baba, is it sexual desire that
prevents us from becoming our real selves?
Yes.
But then you cannot attain your
true self by running away from
sex.
Then how it is done Baba?
In our body amongst the six
senses...
the main one is sexual desire.
Sexual desire is the main force
for creation.
Because sexual desire is
energy...
it cannot be destroyed.
But it can be transformed.
You can through spiritual
practice...
transform your gross
sexual energy into abstract
love.
Only then will you be able
to reach your real formless
self.
The battle with lust is very
difficult Ma.
Dont ever forget...
from today you have joined this
battle too.
Ruhul baba are you home?
Mansoor has again brought fish.
Mansoor!
have lunch here today.
Ok.
By practicing the tradition of the
four moons, the lotus in my heart blooms
with the light that grows.
This is the time to be
at the feet of the Guru and pray.
Oh my innocent mind!
This is the time to be
at the feet of the Guru and pray.
By practicing the tradition of the
four moons, the lotus in my heart blooms
with the light that grows.
This is the time to be
at the feet of the Master and pray.
Oh my innocent mind!
This is the time to be
at the feet of the Master and pray.
The tradition of the four moons
comes from the family of the Prophet.
Learn this path, till you have
the time.
The tradition of the four moons
comes from the family of the Prophet.
Learn this path, till you have
the time.
Oh my innocent mind!
This is the time to be
at the feet of the Master and pray.
Oh! Father...
You have fallen in the trap of
desire.
Beware!
For the pleasure of your body...
don't fall pray to desire.
Sadhana Ma!
In our practice of the body...
the woman is the Master.
And the man is her disciple.
It is by holding your hand...
that I will be able to move up.
If you lose patience...
I will become directionless.
Do some breathing practice.
Take in the breath from your
left nostril...
and breath it out from the
right.
The most important aspect of our
Dehotathya is the breathing
practice.
Breathing techniques can help us
stop our body juices from
flowing out.
As our sexual juices come down
we can control its descent
with breathing techniques.
In the sexual act by
controlling the heat to the
body...
we can purify our juice and move
it upwards.
This is the skill that you have
to learn Ma.
Only then you can transform.
From the one who has sexual
desire to the one who is in the bliss of
eternal love.
Otherwise how will you meet
the eternal lover, the God inside
you?
It is you who are the
eternal lovers of the universe.
Will the Master allow
me to be at his feet
Day and night I make mistakes
Will the Master allow
me to be at his feet
through the pangs of birth
I came into this world
through the darkness of the womb.
Which I have now forgotten
after coming into this world.
Will the Master allow
me to be at his feet
I failed to recognise the worth
of my Master.
I could not understand his
practice.
I have to again
repeat the cycle of rebirths.
Will the Master allow
me to be at his feet.
One whose self is
immersed in the image of the Master
has no fear of death
One whose self is
immersed in the image of the
Master
has no fear of death.
Lalon says - Oh my mind!
Lalon says- Oh my mind!
Please help me to stay focussed.
Will the Master allow
me to be at his feet
Sadhana Ma please come here.
What's happened, Baba?
I have just received news
of my wife Amina's death.
As I am a Marfati fakir...
so the Shariat people have given
a fatwa...
that Amina has no place
in the villages burial ground.
They have also said that...
whoever tries to bury her
anywhere outside the village...
they too will be thrown out.
In this way they are
threatening the villagers.
This is what you get if you
become a fakir.
But, Baba!
But you always told me
Amina Mother had followed the
Shariat.
Then...
whats her fault?
Fault!
Her fault is she hasn't given
me Talaaq on the Moulavis
orders.
On the contrary, she said in a
meeting of the Shariat people
that she does not have
any allegation against me.
Amina Ma said that in their
meeting?
Yes.
Yes Ma.
There was no other human like
Amina.
Then let's go there now.
Let's bury her somewhere else.
No.
No one will come with me.
I am punished for my faith.
I have to take the
responsibility
of my punishment alone.
I don't give anyone permission
to go there.
Else they will also be
victims of such punishments.
But Baba, where will you bury
her?
I took fakiri out of my own
volition.
But why should she be punished
for my faith?
I'll bring her from the village.
I'll bury her in front of our
ashram.
Baba...
your village is five miles from
here!
Sadhana Ma...
don't argue now on this now.
Go to the ashram and bring a
shovel and spade to keep under
the tree.
Tell everyone not be worried
about this.
Everyone should stay inside.
They must not come out to help
me.
I'll enter the ashram after
burying her alone.
Dear Noor...
Can you give me a cloth please?
One whose body has been
burnt fine by the Guru's touch
This body cannot be destroyed
by the soil
the earth does not have that
power
The body has already
been burnt and turned fine
Allah, made man from the earth
The Master made the man finer,
more true.
Now the energy flows only
upwards and never comes down
The Koran says there is no
death now
The body has already
been burnt and turned fine
One whose body has been
burnt fine by the Guru's touch
All beings other than mankind
their nature remains the same
as the Creator made them.
But man is different, such a creation
can't be seen anywhere in this world.
The body has already
been burnt and turned fine
One whose body has been
burnt fine by the Master's touch
By only doing good
deeds will one find God?
I don't think so.
Hassan has not yet been able to
fulfill his master Israel Shah's expectations.
The body has already
been burnt and turned fine
One whose body has been
burnt fine by the Master's touch
Mansoor!
Ruhul Baba's last wish was that
his face be turned towards Ma
Amina.
What are you saying Sadhana Ma?
He was a Muslim.
Many renowned Fakirs have been
buried
with their heads turned
towards the Kaba in the west.
It's impossible.
We can't go against traditional
rules.
Mansoor!
You tell them what
our Master's last wish was!
But, Sadhana Ma
Was our ailing Master in
his full senses when he said so?
I think we should follow
the time honoured tradition.
Mansoor and all
who are here, listen to me!
My Master was only a human being
for you.
but to me...
he was God.
He had taught me that human beings
are actually none other than God!
The poor and low caste people
like us...
have always been kicked around
and beaten in the name of
religion.
And insulted by people.
My Master's last wish was...
his burial should be a symbolic
protest against this religious
torture.
If anyone of you...
wish to bury my Master as per
his wishes...
please help me...
or else go away.
Sadhana Ma, forgive me!
Let us place his head as he
himself wanted in mother Amina's
direction.
Kripa Shankar Roy, age 18,
fathers name Dr Sudhangshu
Sekhar Roy.
fair complexioned, height 5ft 10
inches.
This person is missing from last
night.
If anyone has information
regarding the missing person, please
contact us at...
You were right.
I do look like your mother.
Ma.
I have nowhere to go.
Please keep me with you.
You say you have committed
murder.
You don't...
look like someone...
who could do such things.
Kripa in desparation you are
running away from your life.
Your mother gave you birth
and brought you into being.
I will give you another birth...
you will transform from
a being to a human being.
I will do what you say, Ma.
I can't take it anymore.
Don't worry, eat now.
After you finish eating
wash the dishes and come to my
room.
Why are you running away?
Why are you so silent ?
Say something.
No! I mean...
Let me go to the other room.
Look at me.
Come and sit beside me.
Do you...
feel sexual desire?
I know you feel desire.
Isnt that so?
Then why are you so far away?
Come close.
fulfill your desire and be
happy.
You are keeping your desire
suppressed.
Inside you feel desire.
On the outside
you show that you are cool...
what's the use?
What are you saying Ma!
This sexual desire which is
rising in you...
can you tell what is the source?
Source?
First you feel it in the mind...
then the body.
Your mind is your main
faculty...
without addressing
the problem in your mind.
If on the outside you pretend
all is well...
what is the use?
If I had been wearing clothes...
the feeling of sexual
desire could still have come.
Don't you masturbate?
Don't you have wet dreams?
Yes. It does happen Ma.
That's why Baba you are wasting
away...
destroying yourself...
with clothes on and also without
them.
How are you free?
Yes! Baba, you are a slave to
your desires.
And in the race to fulfill these
desires...
there is so much hatred...
and bloodshed amongst humans.
Where will you run away from
here?
Ma! Please save me.
I am tired of running away.
If you wish to save yourself...
you will have to know
Dehotathyo.
What is that?
It is to engage in the sexual
act...
direct the sexual fluids...
in to the body rather
than outside, this game.
This is what we call
Brahmacharya.
You are talking like Mahatma
Gandhi.
He used to say that...
to understand non violence.
One should practice
Bhahmacharya.
What is that Brahmacharya?
Gandhiji used to sleep naked
with women.
Because he wanted to raise
himself...
up beyond sexual desire.
What was he doing
sleeping naked with women.
He had so much self control...
that he never got excited.
You have to give up
sex to became a Brahmachari.
Is that possible Baba?
There is a certain kind of
Brahmacharya which is recognized
by society.
By giving up women and
wealth and by wearing a loin
cloth...
that Brahmacharya has to be
protected.
But the practice of Brahmacharya
along with women is disliked by
them.
That is why they hate us.
You are talking of Mahatma
Gandhi.
Ok.
Did he learn from a Master?
And then practice Brahmacharya
with a woman in the sexual act?
How did he see woman?
That is the real essence.
You cannot be in
Brahmacharya by giving up woman.
We say that the
Womens energy flows inwards...
and the males energy outwards.
In the sexual act by acquiring
the ability from the female
energy...
to direct energy inwards
Brahmacharya can be learnt.
Kripa.
If you waste a drop of your
sexual juice...
then know that death has
occurred to you.
You killed your own self.
That is the beginning of your
violence.
I will sleep now.
I have to rise at dawn.
Sadhana Ma.
I am sleepy.
Are you feeling alright?
I have never felt better.
Can I go upstairs?
How many times should I tell
you...
not to fall in the trap of
desire.
Don't forget...
I am your Master.
Your Mother.
Imagine your body as a cooking
vessel...
In which sugarcane juice is
being heated.
With the heat the sugarcane
juice swells up...
It begins to overflow and
that's when the fire is reduced.
In this way by repeated
heating and lowering of
temperature...
the sugarcane juice is
condensed.
After this stage even with heating
the juice does not overflow
anymore.
This is how I am heating
the juice in your body.
Now it is coming down.
Kripa, keep looking into my
eyes...
or you will drown in desire.
your semen will drop out.
Oh! Ma
This is how I stop heating your
body...
and the flow of the juice
recedes.
If you worship the Mother
you will know about your Father
You asked me to meet you
if I loved you, and I did so.
this is the hidden truth we
learn.
If you worship the Mother
you will know about your Father
If we do not learn this secret
truth
we cannot know the mother
either.
The one upon whom Allah
has put the responsibility of the world
If you worship the Mother
you will know about your Father
If you worship the Mother
you will know about your Father
It is said that the woman
was made from the man's body
The female is the real nature
of the world
from whom we learn about
Creation
I have learnt from my Master...
there are three channels in the
body.
On the left is Ira.
On the right side is Pingala...
and at the centre is Sushumna.
All these three channels
converge at a point in the human
body.
at the door from where
life emerges, the Vagina.
This is what we call in our
songs...
the confluence of the three
rivers.
This Ira, Pingala, Sushumna are
the three holy rivers Ganga, Jamuna,and
Saraswati.
And this is where,
there is high tide.
Ira is the path of high tide...
to move up.
Pingala is the way of low
tide...
to come down.
During the sexual practice...
the man has to bring down his
juices...
through the Pingala channel...
and then take the juices
up through the Ira channel...
with regular practice...
at one time it is possible to
discard both these channels...
and through the Susunmna channel
at the centre take the body
juice upwards.
One who can do this...
he is the Ascetic.
During our menstruation, after
three days...
when the blood flow begins to
reduce...
due to the pull of the low
tide...
the creator descends down...
to the confluence of the three
rivers.
After long years of practice...
the Ascetic is able to see the
Creator...
whom we in our songs call the
formless one...
the one who is in our heart...
the simple one...
the one who steals our heart...
so many names we have for him.
The first three days of our
menstrual cycle...
is the dark phase or no moon...
and the creator descending down
is...
the appearance of the moon.
Kripa.
Please come back home.
Dont misunderstand me.
Wherever you are, come back
home.
Look...
I am ok.
Kripa, I haven t forgotten you
for a moment.
That night.
Your face and the pain in my
body.
I cant tell you what is going
through my mind and my heart.
Look, Ive kept your
precious locket so carefully.
Ill return it to you.
Please come back, darling.
Come back.
Kripa!
I saw on television that
my father and Jonaki are alive.
Did you really believe...
you had really murdered them?
I was afraid Ma.
My father is asking me to go
back to him.
How can I leave you
and go back to him?
What do you want to do now?
I want to leave this city and go
away Ma.
Until I finish learning from
you.
I don t wish to
go anywere near that world.
Then where do you want to go?
Can we not go and stay
at Ruhul Baba's ashram Ma?
It's been a long time since I
left that place.
Does it still exist?
All right.
let's go there.
You look familiar.
Where have I seen you before?
On TV.
Hello...
Hello.
Father, its me, Kripa.
Kripa!
Where are you?
I am happy where I am.
You...
You immediately come home!
Ive changed completely Father.
We'll talk about it later
you come home right now.
It won t be possible for us to
meet now.
Ill phone you from time to
time.
You forget about that night
Kripa.
That was an accident.
I'm absolutely fine now.
I feel relieved after
hearing your voice Father.
You come back Kripa
everything will be fine.
Father, you wont be able to
accept me...
the way I am now.
What are you saying?
Please come to me at least once.
All right.
Come tomorrow night
at 8 pm to the Ladies Park.
Park!
Why at the park? You come home.
No, not at home.
Come to the park.
Come alone.
This is between you, me and my
mother.
My God! Kripa...
you are with
your dead mother!
Father! She's a living person.
She has given birth to me again.
What are you saying, Kripa!
What am I seeing?
What you are seeing...
is the truth Father.
No!
Kripa!
Father!
Father!
Dont be afraid.
Father listen!
Father!
Father!
Kripa!
- Do you remember me?
- Jonaki!
You again!
Yes.
Have you seen my father?
Yes, I saw him.
I have come to take you to him.
Who are you?
Who are you?
Open the locket.
What?
She is my mother.
Mother!
I won't leave mother
and go to fathers house.
Fine, then come with your
mother to my house.
I want to leave this city and go
away Jonaki.
Don't try to stop me.
Like the other night
dont try to use force...
or else there could be another
accident.
May be this time I'll get hurt.
May be that's what you want?
No, Kripa.
I don't want that.
Do you know...
that night I fell down and broke
my bones.
I bled so much.
Even then I had your locket in
my hand.
This locket saved me.
I knew it for sure
that I would meet you some
day...
and I will put back this
locket around your neck.
I have fallen in love with you,
Kripa.
How can I live without you?
Come with me, just once.
Mother!
Please come with us.
We'll all live together.
Kripa!
Leave my mother!
Kripa!
Leave my mother!
Jonaki! You are being obstinate
again.
Why have you touched my mother?
Release her at once!
Okay!
I release your mother!
But having found you.
I don't want to lose you again.
You are the Krishna of my
dreams.
Lord Krishna has said in the
Bhagawat Gita...
that he appears in every
age to rescue the saints...
to destroy evil and to
establish the Hindu religion...
Lord Krishna has said that he
appears in every age to protect
religion.
Please don't throw bricks on us
we are here to protect the Hindu
religion!
Please do not attack us!
Please be peaceful.
Please do not attack us!
Please do not attack us!
Please be peaceful.
Kripa!
Why are you running after him?
He will not go to you.
Why not?
Ma, you are a woman!
There is a woman inside me too.
I too have feelings of love and
affection.
Can't you understand? I love
him.
Is love only physical?
Is it not something from within?
What you call love is it not
lust?
Why is there so much violence in
your love?
Kripa!
Ma!
Ma... Ma!
Sadhana Ma!
Khokon! What have you done?
Ma! This is not what I wanted.
I did not want this.
Forgive me, Kripa!
Forgive me.
Push harder...!
Ma!
Ma!
Ma!
Which way do I go, Ma!
Ma!
Which way is Ruhul Baba's ashram
Ma?
Ira!
Pingala!
Sushumna!
You are only mine.
Whisper once into my ear.
You are only mine.
You are mine, my dear.
You are only mine.
Kripa!
I heard from Kripa's friends,
you know
that he often goes and sits
alone at the crematorium.
Is that so ?
Why do you think he does that ?
That is where he saw his mother
last.
May be thats why.
Why don't you spend
some more time with him ?
Whenever I spent time with him
I realized he's going through a
crisis.
Tell me honestly Sarah
did I cause his crisis?
Sudhangsu... Sudhangsu...
How does one avert
this Freudian replay of events ?
She is no longer alive.
Yet the two of you
continue to fight over her
memory!
What should I do then?
Sudhangshu, I dont know what to
say.
You have Sarah
but Kripa doesn't have mom.
Now if I try to be his mom
you two will start a competition
over me.
What's the matter Kripa?
Are you going out this late?
No, I heard the music and came
down.
Sit here.
Can I say something?
Yes. Of course, tell me.
What do you want to say?
I can't find the answer to some
questions.
Which questions?
I found a book on father's shelf
Bramacharya
Gandhi and his woman associates
written by Girija Kumar.
The book was quite fat.
I leafed through, read a little.
I feel quite confused after
reading it.
What is your confusion about?
Bapu and Brahmacharya.
I dont understand.
Gandhiji once wrote
to his disciple Prema Ben
that inspite of his strict
vow
of discipline and celibacy.
few drops of semen passed out
from him.
He was very disappointed.
My question is
what is the connection
between...
semen coming out and
Brahmacharya?
Brahmacharya means abstinence
staying away from sex.
I don't know anything more than
this.
If Brahmacharya means
staying away from sex
then why did Gandhiji
sleep naked with young women?
Why don't you talk
about all this with your father
?
I can't talk to him.
He feels intimidated even if I
look at him.
Ill makes you friends again.
Now tell me what were you saying
?
What Gandhiji did with
the young women, was it right?
What Gandhiji did or why he did
it
I know nothing about it.
Do you think his behavior
was appropriate ?
Kripa, hang on.
Let me read the book first.
Then we can talk on it.
whatever you will read...
I have already read
And then I'm asking you.
Kripa...
Are you sure you want
to talk to me about Gandhi?
Are you curious about
Gandhi or about sex?
Sarah, you are looking very
beautiful.
Will you please dance with me ?
Kripa...
Kripa...
Kripa...
You... I'll
What have you done?
You killed your father!
Can you please drop me home ?
Please!
Today, if you were not there
what would have happen to me?
I might have been
lying on the road all night.
Those animals hit me so hard
it's paining.
See.
What are you seeing?
I am Devi.
I am the top w here.
I didn't let those
motherf f my butt.
So they kicked me out of the
car.
So late at night
where are you going alone?
Were you looking
for someone like me?
I think you need to go to a
doctor.
I have my medicine at my home.
I'll give some to you too.
Why?
I can see you are in pain.
So you too.
What is this?
I killed my father
and run away from home.
I'm the w and you a killer!
What?
Wont you come upstairs with me?
Wont you like to feed me my
medicine?
He came in my dreams at night.
He came in my dreams at
night...
the one with the flute.
Krishna is in my heart
I chant his name.
Krishna is in my heart
I chant his name.
He said, 'Oh! My Radha!
Without you I am only half of myself'
'My flute calls you,
Come, run to the river bank to me'
He said, 'Oh! My Radha!
Without you I am only half of
myself'
'My flute calls you'
Now, I will take my medicine.
What?
Wont you feed me my medicine?
Oh God!
You have blood on your hand.
I too have blood on my hand.
Come on! Let's wash it.
Here, boy!
Come.
Come here!
Come! I'm telling you.
Oh! It is only on your hands.
Give!
How do you feel?
How do you feel, about me?
What are you thinking about?
Did you really commit murder?
I can't understand what happened
Do you want to run away?
Come! Let's run away together.
But where will you run away?
Instead... Come! Lets dance.
I'll make you sit on my rod
and then ring your bell.
You will sit on my lap
and lean against me.
Come my darling
ride my Hero cycle.
Come my darling
ride my Hero cycle.
I'll make you sit on my rod
and then ring your bell.
I'll make you sit on my rod
and then ring your bell.
You will sit on my lap
and lean against me.
Come my darling
ride my Hero cycle.
Oh Hero! Come lets dance.
I'll make you sit on my rod
and then ring your bell.
I'll make you sit on my rod
and then ring your bell.
You will sit on my lap
and lean against me.
Come my darling
ride my Hero cycle.
Come my darling
ride my Hero cycle.
Get lost. B!
Where did you find him?
What is his name?
Oh Mother!
He is a mere infant.
You fooled him into f
you...
and forgot to ask his name?
Hey!
Your nose is quite long.
Your d must be pretty long
too!
100%
Take this.
Do you know this place ?
It's a brothel.
People come here and pay to
f!
This house is mine.
And this w belongs to me
too.
What are you doing here?
Wear your clothes...
and go home.
Let me explain.
Get out w!
Open the door motherf!
Open.
Your mouth has become so dry,
Have you eaten anything?
What is your name?
Kripa.
Hey listen...
Your lips are really very
beautiful.
Will you give them to me?
I want to go.
Of course you will.
But give me your lips before you
go.
Please!
Kiss me at least once before you
go.
Wont you give me?
Kiss me...
Give me your lips.
No one can come in from the
outside.
No one can go out from the
inside.
Imagine, if this happens...
Imagine, if this happens...
You and I...
locked in a room...
and the key is lost.
You and I...
I have seen you before
at the cremation ground.
Do you go there often?
Mother!
Mother!
Mother!
Mother!
Mother!
Who are you?
- What do you want ?
- Ma
Please listen to me.
I am not mad.
Dont be afraid.
Tell me what's hapened?
Mother.
You are exactly my Mother.
When I saw you at the
banks of the river Ganga ...
my world turned.
Who are you?
My name is Kripa Sankar Ray.
My mother passed away one year
ago.
You remember your mother often?
Yes.
But...
last night I killed my father.
I ran away from home.
I met Devi on the road.
I went to Devi's house with her.
Another murder...
The whole night I've just been
killing...
and running.
And then I met you Ma.
Listen Kripa Shankar!
I am not your mother.
My name is Sadhana.
I am an ascetic.
Sadhana Mother.
Sadhana Mother.
Sadhana Mother!
Sadhana Mother!
Sadhana Mother, where have you
gone?
I'm calling you for so long.
Can't you hear me!
The tides rise in the woman
every month...
The tides rise in the woman
every month...
at the place where the three
holy rivers meet in the woman's body.
Ganga, Jamuna, Saraswati.
Ganga, Jamuna, Saraswati.
The three holy rivers in a
woman's body, Ganga, Jamuna, Saraswati.
When the rivers are
turbulent...
it is the play of these three
holy rivers.
One is black, One is white and
other red.
When you bathe in these holy
rivers...
you become like the Lord.
The three holy rivers in a
woman's body, Ganga, Jamuna, Saraswati.
Who knows the nature of woman?
The Lord knows a little.
One of them he keeps on
his head, one on his chest.
Women are of three kinds -
they express...
three different qualities of
love
The three holy rivers in a
woman's body, Ganga, Jamuna, Saraswati.
This time after death
I want to be reborn as a woman...
and immerse myself in the sea
of love.
I will learn from the holy
ascetics, the practice of love.
This time after death
I want to be reborn as a woman...
and immerse myself in the sea
of love.
I will learn from the holy
ascetics, the practice of love.
Sadhana Mother...
I have thought of a boy for you.
You know him.
He is a very devout boy.
Our Mansoor.
If you give your consent...
I will talk to him for your
marriage.
Marriage?
I dont want to marry Baba.
Why? Ma.
When I was eight years old...
you found me at the fair lost
and alone.
Since then you have given me
shelter.
Now if you again send
me back out into the world.
It will be very difficult for
me.
But Ma...
our ashram is for spiritual
practice...
in order to live here you
will have to learn all that.
And without a Master
you will not be able to learn.
Whatever you say, Baba!
Since your childhood,
you have been to so many
ashrams.
Do you have anyone in
mind that you want as your
Master?
You are everything I have Baba.
I have no one in my mind except
you.
You be my Master.
Oh!
So this is what you have in
mind.
You have already decided
everything on your own.
Baba!
Listen Ma!
Those of us who are in the
Fakiri tradition...
and practice Dehotathya...
believe that God is in the body.
You have grown up
listening to so many of our
songs.
All this is written in those
songs.
I understand a bit Baba.
In our fakiri tradition it is
said that...
at the birth of creation the
subtle and formless manifest
itself.
I am the present form of that.
Because I have evolved from
there.
I can say that I was the
formless too.
But in the course of evolution
the subtle I has become gross.
And moved very far away...
and forgotten its own formless
subtle self.
Now by going reverse in the
creative act.
I can move up my gross
self closer to the subtle self.
I will be again be
reunited with the formless.
Do you understand Ma?
The one who is worshipping and
the one who is being
worshipped...
are both one and the same me.
That entity is formless...
and this one has form.
That is why man is at the
same time form and formless...
known and unknown.
On the path to the subtle self
the biggest obstacle is sexual desire.
Worldly people fall into
the trap of sexual desire...
and are never able to break free.
Baba, is it sexual desire that
prevents us from becoming our real selves?
Yes.
But then you cannot attain your
true self by running away from
sex.
Then how it is done Baba?
In our body amongst the six
senses...
the main one is sexual desire.
Sexual desire is the main force
for creation.
Because sexual desire is
energy...
it cannot be destroyed.
But it can be transformed.
You can through spiritual
practice...
transform your gross
sexual energy into abstract
love.
Only then will you be able
to reach your real formless
self.
The battle with lust is very
difficult Ma.
Dont ever forget...
from today you have joined this
battle too.
Ruhul baba are you home?
Mansoor has again brought fish.
Mansoor!
have lunch here today.
Ok.
By practicing the tradition of the
four moons, the lotus in my heart blooms
with the light that grows.
This is the time to be
at the feet of the Guru and pray.
Oh my innocent mind!
This is the time to be
at the feet of the Guru and pray.
By practicing the tradition of the
four moons, the lotus in my heart blooms
with the light that grows.
This is the time to be
at the feet of the Master and pray.
Oh my innocent mind!
This is the time to be
at the feet of the Master and pray.
The tradition of the four moons
comes from the family of the Prophet.
Learn this path, till you have
the time.
The tradition of the four moons
comes from the family of the Prophet.
Learn this path, till you have
the time.
Oh my innocent mind!
This is the time to be
at the feet of the Master and pray.
Oh! Father...
You have fallen in the trap of
desire.
Beware!
For the pleasure of your body...
don't fall pray to desire.
Sadhana Ma!
In our practice of the body...
the woman is the Master.
And the man is her disciple.
It is by holding your hand...
that I will be able to move up.
If you lose patience...
I will become directionless.
Do some breathing practice.
Take in the breath from your
left nostril...
and breath it out from the
right.
The most important aspect of our
Dehotathya is the breathing
practice.
Breathing techniques can help us
stop our body juices from
flowing out.
As our sexual juices come down
we can control its descent
with breathing techniques.
In the sexual act by
controlling the heat to the
body...
we can purify our juice and move
it upwards.
This is the skill that you have
to learn Ma.
Only then you can transform.
From the one who has sexual
desire to the one who is in the bliss of
eternal love.
Otherwise how will you meet
the eternal lover, the God inside
you?
It is you who are the
eternal lovers of the universe.
Will the Master allow
me to be at his feet
Day and night I make mistakes
Will the Master allow
me to be at his feet
through the pangs of birth
I came into this world
through the darkness of the womb.
Which I have now forgotten
after coming into this world.
Will the Master allow
me to be at his feet
I failed to recognise the worth
of my Master.
I could not understand his
practice.
I have to again
repeat the cycle of rebirths.
Will the Master allow
me to be at his feet.
One whose self is
immersed in the image of the Master
has no fear of death
One whose self is
immersed in the image of the
Master
has no fear of death.
Lalon says - Oh my mind!
Lalon says- Oh my mind!
Please help me to stay focussed.
Will the Master allow
me to be at his feet
Sadhana Ma please come here.
What's happened, Baba?
I have just received news
of my wife Amina's death.
As I am a Marfati fakir...
so the Shariat people have given
a fatwa...
that Amina has no place
in the villages burial ground.
They have also said that...
whoever tries to bury her
anywhere outside the village...
they too will be thrown out.
In this way they are
threatening the villagers.
This is what you get if you
become a fakir.
But, Baba!
But you always told me
Amina Mother had followed the
Shariat.
Then...
whats her fault?
Fault!
Her fault is she hasn't given
me Talaaq on the Moulavis
orders.
On the contrary, she said in a
meeting of the Shariat people
that she does not have
any allegation against me.
Amina Ma said that in their
meeting?
Yes.
Yes Ma.
There was no other human like
Amina.
Then let's go there now.
Let's bury her somewhere else.
No.
No one will come with me.
I am punished for my faith.
I have to take the
responsibility
of my punishment alone.
I don't give anyone permission
to go there.
Else they will also be
victims of such punishments.
But Baba, where will you bury
her?
I took fakiri out of my own
volition.
But why should she be punished
for my faith?
I'll bring her from the village.
I'll bury her in front of our
ashram.
Baba...
your village is five miles from
here!
Sadhana Ma...
don't argue now on this now.
Go to the ashram and bring a
shovel and spade to keep under
the tree.
Tell everyone not be worried
about this.
Everyone should stay inside.
They must not come out to help
me.
I'll enter the ashram after
burying her alone.
Dear Noor...
Can you give me a cloth please?
One whose body has been
burnt fine by the Guru's touch
This body cannot be destroyed
by the soil
the earth does not have that
power
The body has already
been burnt and turned fine
Allah, made man from the earth
The Master made the man finer,
more true.
Now the energy flows only
upwards and never comes down
The Koran says there is no
death now
The body has already
been burnt and turned fine
One whose body has been
burnt fine by the Guru's touch
All beings other than mankind
their nature remains the same
as the Creator made them.
But man is different, such a creation
can't be seen anywhere in this world.
The body has already
been burnt and turned fine
One whose body has been
burnt fine by the Master's touch
By only doing good
deeds will one find God?
I don't think so.
Hassan has not yet been able to
fulfill his master Israel Shah's expectations.
The body has already
been burnt and turned fine
One whose body has been
burnt fine by the Master's touch
Mansoor!
Ruhul Baba's last wish was that
his face be turned towards Ma
Amina.
What are you saying Sadhana Ma?
He was a Muslim.
Many renowned Fakirs have been
buried
with their heads turned
towards the Kaba in the west.
It's impossible.
We can't go against traditional
rules.
Mansoor!
You tell them what
our Master's last wish was!
But, Sadhana Ma
Was our ailing Master in
his full senses when he said so?
I think we should follow
the time honoured tradition.
Mansoor and all
who are here, listen to me!
My Master was only a human being
for you.
but to me...
he was God.
He had taught me that human beings
are actually none other than God!
The poor and low caste people
like us...
have always been kicked around
and beaten in the name of
religion.
And insulted by people.
My Master's last wish was...
his burial should be a symbolic
protest against this religious
torture.
If anyone of you...
wish to bury my Master as per
his wishes...
please help me...
or else go away.
Sadhana Ma, forgive me!
Let us place his head as he
himself wanted in mother Amina's
direction.
Kripa Shankar Roy, age 18,
fathers name Dr Sudhangshu
Sekhar Roy.
fair complexioned, height 5ft 10
inches.
This person is missing from last
night.
If anyone has information
regarding the missing person, please
contact us at...
You were right.
I do look like your mother.
Ma.
I have nowhere to go.
Please keep me with you.
You say you have committed
murder.
You don't...
look like someone...
who could do such things.
Kripa in desparation you are
running away from your life.
Your mother gave you birth
and brought you into being.
I will give you another birth...
you will transform from
a being to a human being.
I will do what you say, Ma.
I can't take it anymore.
Don't worry, eat now.
After you finish eating
wash the dishes and come to my
room.
Why are you running away?
Why are you so silent ?
Say something.
No! I mean...
Let me go to the other room.
Look at me.
Come and sit beside me.
Do you...
feel sexual desire?
I know you feel desire.
Isnt that so?
Then why are you so far away?
Come close.
fulfill your desire and be
happy.
You are keeping your desire
suppressed.
Inside you feel desire.
On the outside
you show that you are cool...
what's the use?
What are you saying Ma!
This sexual desire which is
rising in you...
can you tell what is the source?
Source?
First you feel it in the mind...
then the body.
Your mind is your main
faculty...
without addressing
the problem in your mind.
If on the outside you pretend
all is well...
what is the use?
If I had been wearing clothes...
the feeling of sexual
desire could still have come.
Don't you masturbate?
Don't you have wet dreams?
Yes. It does happen Ma.
That's why Baba you are wasting
away...
destroying yourself...
with clothes on and also without
them.
How are you free?
Yes! Baba, you are a slave to
your desires.
And in the race to fulfill these
desires...
there is so much hatred...
and bloodshed amongst humans.
Where will you run away from
here?
Ma! Please save me.
I am tired of running away.
If you wish to save yourself...
you will have to know
Dehotathyo.
What is that?
It is to engage in the sexual
act...
direct the sexual fluids...
in to the body rather
than outside, this game.
This is what we call
Brahmacharya.
You are talking like Mahatma
Gandhi.
He used to say that...
to understand non violence.
One should practice
Bhahmacharya.
What is that Brahmacharya?
Gandhiji used to sleep naked
with women.
Because he wanted to raise
himself...
up beyond sexual desire.
What was he doing
sleeping naked with women.
He had so much self control...
that he never got excited.
You have to give up
sex to became a Brahmachari.
Is that possible Baba?
There is a certain kind of
Brahmacharya which is recognized
by society.
By giving up women and
wealth and by wearing a loin
cloth...
that Brahmacharya has to be
protected.
But the practice of Brahmacharya
along with women is disliked by
them.
That is why they hate us.
You are talking of Mahatma
Gandhi.
Ok.
Did he learn from a Master?
And then practice Brahmacharya
with a woman in the sexual act?
How did he see woman?
That is the real essence.
You cannot be in
Brahmacharya by giving up woman.
We say that the
Womens energy flows inwards...
and the males energy outwards.
In the sexual act by acquiring
the ability from the female
energy...
to direct energy inwards
Brahmacharya can be learnt.
Kripa.
If you waste a drop of your
sexual juice...
then know that death has
occurred to you.
You killed your own self.
That is the beginning of your
violence.
I will sleep now.
I have to rise at dawn.
Sadhana Ma.
I am sleepy.
Are you feeling alright?
I have never felt better.
Can I go upstairs?
How many times should I tell
you...
not to fall in the trap of
desire.
Don't forget...
I am your Master.
Your Mother.
Imagine your body as a cooking
vessel...
In which sugarcane juice is
being heated.
With the heat the sugarcane
juice swells up...
It begins to overflow and
that's when the fire is reduced.
In this way by repeated
heating and lowering of
temperature...
the sugarcane juice is
condensed.
After this stage even with heating
the juice does not overflow
anymore.
This is how I am heating
the juice in your body.
Now it is coming down.
Kripa, keep looking into my
eyes...
or you will drown in desire.
your semen will drop out.
Oh! Ma
This is how I stop heating your
body...
and the flow of the juice
recedes.
If you worship the Mother
you will know about your Father
You asked me to meet you
if I loved you, and I did so.
this is the hidden truth we
learn.
If you worship the Mother
you will know about your Father
If we do not learn this secret
truth
we cannot know the mother
either.
The one upon whom Allah
has put the responsibility of the world
If you worship the Mother
you will know about your Father
If you worship the Mother
you will know about your Father
It is said that the woman
was made from the man's body
The female is the real nature
of the world
from whom we learn about
Creation
I have learnt from my Master...
there are three channels in the
body.
On the left is Ira.
On the right side is Pingala...
and at the centre is Sushumna.
All these three channels
converge at a point in the human
body.
at the door from where
life emerges, the Vagina.
This is what we call in our
songs...
the confluence of the three
rivers.
This Ira, Pingala, Sushumna are
the three holy rivers Ganga, Jamuna,and
Saraswati.
And this is where,
there is high tide.
Ira is the path of high tide...
to move up.
Pingala is the way of low
tide...
to come down.
During the sexual practice...
the man has to bring down his
juices...
through the Pingala channel...
and then take the juices
up through the Ira channel...
with regular practice...
at one time it is possible to
discard both these channels...
and through the Susunmna channel
at the centre take the body
juice upwards.
One who can do this...
he is the Ascetic.
During our menstruation, after
three days...
when the blood flow begins to
reduce...
due to the pull of the low
tide...
the creator descends down...
to the confluence of the three
rivers.
After long years of practice...
the Ascetic is able to see the
Creator...
whom we in our songs call the
formless one...
the one who is in our heart...
the simple one...
the one who steals our heart...
so many names we have for him.
The first three days of our
menstrual cycle...
is the dark phase or no moon...
and the creator descending down
is...
the appearance of the moon.
Kripa.
Please come back home.
Dont misunderstand me.
Wherever you are, come back
home.
Look...
I am ok.
Kripa, I haven t forgotten you
for a moment.
That night.
Your face and the pain in my
body.
I cant tell you what is going
through my mind and my heart.
Look, Ive kept your
precious locket so carefully.
Ill return it to you.
Please come back, darling.
Come back.
Kripa!
I saw on television that
my father and Jonaki are alive.
Did you really believe...
you had really murdered them?
I was afraid Ma.
My father is asking me to go
back to him.
How can I leave you
and go back to him?
What do you want to do now?
I want to leave this city and go
away Ma.
Until I finish learning from
you.
I don t wish to
go anywere near that world.
Then where do you want to go?
Can we not go and stay
at Ruhul Baba's ashram Ma?
It's been a long time since I
left that place.
Does it still exist?
All right.
let's go there.
You look familiar.
Where have I seen you before?
On TV.
Hello...
Hello.
Father, its me, Kripa.
Kripa!
Where are you?
I am happy where I am.
You...
You immediately come home!
Ive changed completely Father.
We'll talk about it later
you come home right now.
It won t be possible for us to
meet now.
Ill phone you from time to
time.
You forget about that night
Kripa.
That was an accident.
I'm absolutely fine now.
I feel relieved after
hearing your voice Father.
You come back Kripa
everything will be fine.
Father, you wont be able to
accept me...
the way I am now.
What are you saying?
Please come to me at least once.
All right.
Come tomorrow night
at 8 pm to the Ladies Park.
Park!
Why at the park? You come home.
No, not at home.
Come to the park.
Come alone.
This is between you, me and my
mother.
My God! Kripa...
you are with
your dead mother!
Father! She's a living person.
She has given birth to me again.
What are you saying, Kripa!
What am I seeing?
What you are seeing...
is the truth Father.
No!
Kripa!
Father!
Father!
Dont be afraid.
Father listen!
Father!
Father!
Kripa!
- Do you remember me?
- Jonaki!
You again!
Yes.
Have you seen my father?
Yes, I saw him.
I have come to take you to him.
Who are you?
Who are you?
Open the locket.
What?
She is my mother.
Mother!
I won't leave mother
and go to fathers house.
Fine, then come with your
mother to my house.
I want to leave this city and go
away Jonaki.
Don't try to stop me.
Like the other night
dont try to use force...
or else there could be another
accident.
May be this time I'll get hurt.
May be that's what you want?
No, Kripa.
I don't want that.
Do you know...
that night I fell down and broke
my bones.
I bled so much.
Even then I had your locket in
my hand.
This locket saved me.
I knew it for sure
that I would meet you some
day...
and I will put back this
locket around your neck.
I have fallen in love with you,
Kripa.
How can I live without you?
Come with me, just once.
Mother!
Please come with us.
We'll all live together.
Kripa!
Leave my mother!
Kripa!
Leave my mother!
Jonaki! You are being obstinate
again.
Why have you touched my mother?
Release her at once!
Okay!
I release your mother!
But having found you.
I don't want to lose you again.
You are the Krishna of my
dreams.
Lord Krishna has said in the
Bhagawat Gita...
that he appears in every
age to rescue the saints...
to destroy evil and to
establish the Hindu religion...
Lord Krishna has said that he
appears in every age to protect
religion.
Please don't throw bricks on us
we are here to protect the Hindu
religion!
Please do not attack us!
Please be peaceful.
Please do not attack us!
Please do not attack us!
Please be peaceful.
Kripa!
Why are you running after him?
He will not go to you.
Why not?
Ma, you are a woman!
There is a woman inside me too.
I too have feelings of love and
affection.
Can't you understand? I love
him.
Is love only physical?
Is it not something from within?
What you call love is it not
lust?
Why is there so much violence in
your love?
Kripa!
Ma!
Ma... Ma!
Sadhana Ma!
Khokon! What have you done?
Ma! This is not what I wanted.
I did not want this.
Forgive me, Kripa!
Forgive me.
Push harder...!
Ma!
Ma!
Ma!
Which way do I go, Ma!
Ma!
Which way is Ruhul Baba's ashram
Ma?
Ira!
Pingala!
Sushumna!