Dirty Pictures (2010) Movie Script
The people who do not know anything
about this whole area.
They similarly ask are you on anything now?
They think that we
go around on psychedelic drugs all the time.
- They're not all the time.
Uh, mushrooms, psilocybin,
I call 2CB as being a very,
2CB
a very, excellent psychedelic.
Uh, mescaline.
Mescaline.
I don't like drugs that get too
too sparkly.
Like the MDA world.
Yeah I don't like stoning drugs.
I don't like being stoned.
Thats uh.
You don't learn anything.
Um,
I don't like drugs that inhibit communication.
It's like for instance,
2CE.
I mean, right, MDE.
Oh okay, I agree with you. Yeah.
I could do without MDE.
2CI is good.
2CI is very good.
The sexual aspects are always very,
very,
positive contributors to...
If you can't make love on a drug then
this something not quite right.
This fire in here, we got Ethel B-3 burning.
Lets go! Everybody out of here!
All were going to do is,
were going to try and figure out what youre doing there, and if whats your doing is legal
In 1966 Shulgin quit his job as a chemist for Dow Chemical
to devote himself entirely to the study of
psychoactive drugs.
Drugs that alter the mind.
The stepfather of rave's favorite
pharmaceutical lives in the hills behind San Francisco.
In the mid-1960s,
he resynthesized an obscure drug that had been patented, but then ignored.
It was called 3/4 Methylenedioxymethamphetamine.
MDMA for short.
It would later acquired a street name, ecstasy.
Just as LSD marijuana and Woodstock
unite a generation.
Ecstasy and the rave scene
act as a glue for millions of savvy middle-class kids
seeking an escape.
From Bangkok to Bournemouth. Manchester to Miami.
If there was one place on earth where it all began, then it's right here in California.
In the small home laboratory of a man.
He's known
as The Godfather
of ecstasy.
No other drug
has ever spread so fast.
25 milligrams, no effect. 40, no effect.
60 milligrams. No effect. 81 milligrams is,
that I got a plus-one.
53 minutes smooth shift into a light intoxication
distinct, almost early alcohol like intoxication.
I first met Ann and Sasha many years ago.
I thought about how I would introduce him and everything I thought
about saying,
I got so emotional, I started crying.
Hello, this is kind of a personal question..
Is there anything that does to the brain, what MDMA does to the heart?
Alexander Sasha, Shulgin, PhD is a
pharmacologist, chemist, and drug developer.
2C-T-7, 2C-I, and 2C-B are the
most well known.
Shulgin personally tested hundreds of drugs.
New York Times Magazine.
It's an article on Dr. E, for ecstasy.
Theres no reason that I should be
Doctor Ecstasy,
Ecstasy is not the name I gave anything.
I called it MDMA,
and uh, its just uh, its an element of notoriety that does no good.
He didn't even invent it in his
Discoveries and his own inventions he
encountered this drug that somebody else had made.
It didn't exist in nature until chemists
working for the German pharmaceutical company, Merck
synthesized it by accident in their laboratories in 1912.
No use for the new molecule was discovered,
and MDMA remained little more than a formula on faded paper for more than 60 years.
So somebody made it,
but didn't realize its potential.
This is World War one
with Germany's defeat,
MDMA and every other patented drug
is turned over to the Allies as a spoil of war.
Its existence is lost from memory,
until the Cold War compels the Pentagon
to re-examine its potential for national defense.
The love drug does nothing of use for war.
but the compound still exists.
It sat on a shelf
but he thought hmm
they never really took it orally.
I wonder if it's active.
Let's try it at the
50 milligram dose let's try it at
the hundred milligram dose.
Oh there's something going on here.
Wow!
Whoa this has an
altered state experience.
Dr. Shulgin made these careful notes.
The first recorded experience on ecstasy.
Actually, the first, first trial in that
particular guise was on a train trip.
He published a paper on it,
described its effects,
and several of his friends are psychiatrists
and they decided to try it.
Tried it on themselves first.
In the psychotherapeutic community,
MDMA is called empathy.
Its effect is likened to a year of therapy, in six hours.
Once the psychiatrists started using it,
whew.
Man, it was in demand.
We've got another drug
it is synthetic
and it makes you love everybody.
I was diagnosed to have
terminal cancer a few months ago,
and naturally there's a lot of fear, and
anger, and pain.
Emotional pain that surrounds something like that.
It has allowed me to open up and have
communication with my family
that I have never been able to have before.
It's called, it's called ecstasy.
Now who doesn't want to take ecstasy?
The whole concept of the MDMA going into
Ecstasy,
well really, it was Empathy, but nobody really knew what Empathy was.
they called E for ecstasy.
It is a popularization
and in essence destroy the...
medical value
effectively of the material.
Had MDMA not strayed from that community,
it might have remained legal.
But beyond the therapist office,
it becomes wildly popular
and that is the beginning of the end
for the legal use of ecstasy.
This morning the
Drug Enforcement Administration
is announcing its intention
to place the drug known as MDMA,
or by the street name ecstasy,
under emergency controls in
schedule 1.
This whole thing is is pitched as a self-development
type of experience.
Get in touch with nature, get in touch with the universe, get in touch with your mother.
They said half a head of E would be fun.
Everywhere you look, it's there.
Including service members, I mean, it's everywhere.
And now the term now applies to anything
and everything that's used at a rave
doesn't have to have any MDMA in it at all.
Just the term is used as a
as a party escape drug.
And I am saddened to say that I am not happy with it.
To Dr. Shulgin it was just one of hundreds
of mind-altering drugs he concocted.
In books and papers he has published the formulas
and the effects of each.
His critics argue that Shulgin is simply
providing a road map
for drug abuse.
They're you!
I didn't want my life to be a carbon of his own.
That the number one reason I knew he was a brilliant
scientist.
I would never even compete within that world.
That I didn't want to be compared against
See, my dad was very hip.
During the 60s and the 70s he was the beatnik
and I was the rebel.
Titan close and not involved
in that world I just I didn't want anything to do with this world.
Where our heads were connecting
was a flash of light that shot out
straight ahead and we can see it.
Basically I see psychedelics as spiritual tools.
which is not quite the way Sasha sees them.
And it produces this cascade of inflammatory changes.
They are very good tools
for anyone who's on any kind of spiritual journey,
whatever that means and it means different
things to different people.
Psychotherapy can be
part of that.
I mean
people who go into psychotherapy are on
a spiritual quest,
whether they call it that or not.
How do you define consciousness and how
much of it is determined by chemistry
Well that's not a question.
I consider consciousness where you are if you're alive.
A lot of people put it as a brain function, I consider consciousness a mental function.
He's outside the mainstream I mean he is
kind of a rogue.
He's not part of an official establishment .
He's doing things that are sort of socially frowned upon by the majority of of our society.
I always duck down in case a bird flies out.
Oh my golly.
That's where that compound went.
Usually you have wall-to-wall carpeting ,
clean benches,
and all the bottles on the Shelf lined up in
alphabetical order.
That's a display in a moving picture laboratory,
or a government laboratory.
A real productive laboratory is in essence
a personal mess
and as you have things at hand,
you remember what it was
drop it down
get it back up it again.
No that's not ready to work up yet.
Well Sasha is
passionately committed to understanding how these drugs work
and their structure activity he's mainly a chemist.
I know I tried running a reaction with quite a bit of heat
in a matter of an hour or two and
it almost had no reaction at all.
So I put it over a little magnetic stirrer
that throws off a small amount, a small amount of heat.
And it's just slightly warm.
Maybe 30 degrees.
And it's been that now for
a couple of months
And so his real fascination again is to make the to make chemicals with very small differences
and to test that, to see what those differences are.
You know, he's been willing to test them on himself
For the longest time period,
he's been the principal subject.
And all this mess around here,
except those things that dropped down thanks to squirrels
and other rodents
and birds.
Birds come down the fireplace periodically.
His fundamental driving force
is to understand how how these compounds work,
and what their differences are.
Rather than just to get loaded.
I sure collect a lot of stuff.
My God I was looking the other day, and I said, "Where did I get all this stuff?"
But I used it all at one time or another.
Of all things this is to imitate
a
egg-sucking leech.
If you can believe that.
Oh I was gung ho for
working for the government and doing some good.
Yeah in 1969 I transferred to
at that time was Durham Narcotics and Dangerous Drugs
and took over as the director of the crime
lab in San Francisco.
That was my grandfather's weapon.
Well muzzleloader.
And it was
very
heartwarming to meet the agents, the
other chemists.
it was it was like a family.
and they knew that if you had a
problem, they would help you.
See my current collection.
Working on her.
I noticed on one of the pakanoids, there was some blue a couple of days ago,
but it think its pretty well gone now.
think it's pretty well gone now prove
iana's attract a serious macro goodness
Just about every country and every
culture on earth
has at least one visionary plant
that they they use
or that some of them use for altering consciousness.
Well, the cactus, how many, varieties do you think there are Ted?
In here?
No I mean overall, 50?
Yeah.
Perhaps 50 varieties of cactus.
And they are all chosen because they are all psychoactive.
I mean we have receptors for psychoactive drugs.
We do not have natural psychoactive drugs inside of us.
Why do we have the receptors and not the drugs?
Well perhaps at one time we had the drugs.
As part of a metabolic process we
generated the drugs that made the
psychedelic state a natural state.
And these people then, I guess, see the potential of
looking at the tooth of
a saber-toothed tiger and saying
"Oh look at the pretty designs on this tooth,"
and as a consequence of dropping your
defenses against an enemy, be removed
from the gene pool.
So perhaps those
people who did turn on because of
endogenous psychedelics,
were removed from the gene pool.
And therefore they are no
longer there.
The drugs are not made in the body,
but the acceptors are still there.
Because the receptors were not the hazard.
It was a drug that was generated that was the hazard to survival.
So that is maybe why some of these plants
with their psychedelic components
turn you on because the receptors are intact from generations.
But the natural, psychedelic
metabolites in the body no longer exists.
Is it the path you should avoid or a passage go down?
I don't know how you can answer the question until you start down the path.
I really don't.
If we could get two seats over here and a
little bit more in the
shade I would love that.
I'd feel much better about everything.
It's been, I think, a little bit embarrassing, e
especially to my children,
that I had written quite a lot about
making love under the influence of psychedelics.
These books have been an exploration,
not just of the effects of drugs but
of the effects of these particular drugs on us.
Chemical structure.
Outline of synthesis.
Biochemistry, pharmacology, legal status.
What I saw a lot in the work I did,
doing raids on clandestine laboratories.
You have that whole class of people that
know nothing about what they're doing.
But they read things on how to make a drug
and they screw it up and I mean they'd cost a lot of damage.
Not just to themselves but to their families.
To the surrounding area to the environment.
We really had some dummies.
Huh, man I mean,
total idiots.
Trying to cook drugs it's, its just..
That's what made it so dangerous,
because we never really knew what they were doing, cause they didn't know what they were doing!
Bond to carbon, bond to another carbon, and then back into the ring.
You have a fine membered ring,
you're a chemist,
and therefor your benzene ring has two rings
alongside it, on either side, hence the
idea of fly, as if there were wings.
In some areas you don't want to teach a
teenager how to make a bomb, you just don't.
You have to synthesize it yourself.
I don't think it's ever ever been commercially available
I've been dying to meet you.
I so honor you, thank you.
Thank you very much, yes.
Yeah it was a good agency, uhm.
And they were all dedicated.
They believed in what they were doing.
But it changed.
Sorry.
Oh yeah,
it will rain sometime tonight.
When I was
in high school
my father was never speaking on the telephone.
He wanted to be in person, in private.
He always thought the phones might be tapped.
And I never questioned that they
might be tapped
it's just that I couldn't
think of why they were wishing to persecute my father.
There's fire in here. We got ethyl ether in here.
Everybody out of here. You too.
Mr. cameraman this is a safety issue now you can take your pictures,
but you're going to do it out of the area.
The trouble started only when the first book
had been published.
He said, "holy mackerel', or something to that effect.
This guy has a DEA license.
Sasha was on very good terms with a lot of the chemists in the DEA
because chemists love chemistry.
And here was
this maverick chemist.
He had a DEA license to do lab work.
And uh, you know. This is a respectable man a respectable scientist.
So you don't just barge in.
Did my wife invite you?
We were here for the call, let's move out of here.
I am very, I am very...
Are you trying to resist arrest?
- I'm not resisting arrest!
One of them asked,
"You don't by any chance have any peyote here do you?"
We said, "Yeah right there next to your feet.
They just jumped.
Suddenly you realize that these people were really scared
of these things it's just a little damn cactus.
All were going to do,
is were going to figure out what youre doing there,
and if what youre doing is legal.
They didn't understand psychedelics.
They had the image of somebody out of control.
Somebody who didn't belong in decent society.
The whole process of
drug enforcement,
I found it to be a huge game with them.
I realized that my father was
active bait for these people.
The powers not delegated to the United States
by the Constitution.
Even though he didn't commit any crime,
there was never a charge filed
but they could they could
hound him and I understand this frustration.
Or to the people
And there's no mention in the constitution of drugs anywhere.
I mean...
I, I...
So is there a dark side to what Sasha did?
Certainly.
Lots of people have used a number of
these compounds and hurt themselves
significantly because of it.
So there is, yeah, there is a dark side to
to discovering this kind of information.
But I certainly wouldn't argue that it shouldn't be done.
Sasha's interest has been exploring than you know the nature and the limits of
the human condition through tweaking some of these
molecules to produce you know different and interesting kinds of effects.
That's really at its heart what
the clinical pharmacology is is about.
I mean we're studying the nature of
the human organism.
Well a lot of people think I created much
much grief and much sadness and
naughty, naughty, naughty.
It was my first experience with mescaline.
Which is a psychoactive drug that's found in the peyote cactus and in
many other cacti.
And I had experienced it.
Gosh what is that, 45-50 years ago?
I saw colors that I was totally unfamiliar with.
The flower and had a color that I couldn't give a name to.
I had recalled memories of childhood.
I've seen those with articulate clarity.
And then I thought,
"Why would 400 milligrams of white crystal
have all of this in it?"
What it's doing is allowing me
to communicate with parts of me that I had not communicated with for a long time.
Pretty sure he was 15 when he enrolled at Harvard.
I think he only went,
maybe three semesters or something like that.
And emotionally it was very difficult for him because of his age compared to the
the age of the other people in the university.
Plus a difference in background.
I was curious in the Navy
when I study chemistry nights the Navy I
had a big textbook that I carried around
for three years in the Atlantic and I
memorized it in the process this was
kind of a neat challenge but I came out
and went into chemistry in University
and then I took my doctorate work in
biochemistry I won't have access to
exploring and interpreting the
exploration of these things I did not
know where it's going to go but I went
into industrial chemistry and there I
really caught the good luck of having
predicted the structure of something
that would you go commercial and it was
given total licence evidently he had
been one of the most productive chemists
in the Dow Chemical organization and had
developed a series of insecticides that
were making many millions of dollars for
the camera
three division of the corporation and
they let him just do whatever he would
felt like
that bridge could be the gateway to a
whole world of Californian charms and
surprises when I was an intern in San
Francisco 1962 to 1963
I just love drugs I was always
interested in how drugs act and I wanted
to be a psychiatrist was particularly
fascinated by drugs and the brain the
most crooked Street in the world as a
curiosity in every Sunday my wife and I
and our friends would get together and
quote experiments that was the
ceremonies in which President Bush made
the National Medal of Science so I was
already fascinated by the psychedelic
drugs and when I was asked to evaluate a
program involving drugs of that sort at
the Dow Chemical Company I left it the
opportunity when I arrived there I
learned all about what had been going on
with Sasha from that point on my all my
Chemical thought process all my plans on
my structural synthetic designs we're in
the area of taking the simple little
molecule mescaline 3 methoxy groups a
little chain and a nitrogen and
modifying this atom modifying that atom
change this atom to that atom change
this make it longer make this shorter
add something else out here remove that
wear around this entire thing can I make
all these changes one at a time and see
where what is it in this molecule that
lets it fit into the receptor site that
causes a psychedelic action he argued to
his superiors that this could be
therapeutically important at doses at
which there was no risk of psychotic
effects and their attitude was if
anything comes valuable will exploit it
independently and a lot of those were
patented Sasha's work took this to a
level of serious corporate in
even though this was the time of the
haight-ashbury district in San Francisco
with publicity all over the United
States about the hippies taking LSD and
other psychedelic drugs and how
irresponsible it was very very
controversial for some the lifestyle of
the late 60s was bohemian dropouts from
the corporate culture joined communes on
campuses in cities and on farms I was
never part of the a - buri scene I was
interested in seeing where I was going
and I would like to get what information
I could get from it as to what drugs are
being used and I had made a couple of
allies in the Haight Ashbury to get
little samples of materials and from
this I was able to identify them but
some were things I had made and
published some are just totally from
other other sources they may obtain
valid insights so often though all too
often they do not and it turned on or
euphoric state step or attempt to fly
from cliffs and high windows with
real-life permanent non psychedelic regimes
other tripperz attempt to merge their
beans large the government was very very
scared of abuse of psychedelic drugs and
there would be corporate risks of having
the Dow respected name associated with
something that people could criticize
and because of that ultimately the Board
of Directors are down decided not to go
forward with this drug development now
no longer at Dow but I have my
laboratory set up at home and I
continued making compounds of new
materials what would have happened if
now administration had said let's go for
it that's quite possible that the
careful use of the appropriate drugs
might well have been a big advance in psychiatry
yes okay
is our stairway they have it this black
stuff in here is platinum
this is full hydrogen you look just like
the Hindenburg this is actually a baby
psychedelic in here hmm something either
maybe it's something about money that's
what I need I need good news about money
well I know what this is yeah this is a
dopamine d3 antagonist that we're using
to figure out what LSD is doing in the
brain my hands are stronger I'm working
in the system doing it the way they say
you have to do it you know we have all
kinds of OSHA rules and EPA rules and
all the radioisotopes have to be taken
care of and that's always you know been
my shtick is if you want to make change
happen at work inside the system have
you seen Sasha's life yeah so I mean
what more can I say yeah I mean his is
really more of an alchemist hanging out
with anything you know sort of fact it
was the almost simultaneous discovery of
serotonins occurrence in the brain and
the discovery by Albert Hoffman of LSD
that really made people look at the role
of serotonin in behavioral States
because in the 1940s psychiatry didn't
really believe in neuro chemistry they
thought it was all bad mothering
there wasn't nurturing whatever he had
no idea that neuro chemicals could
affect the way that we feel so the
discovery of LSD in 1943 and then the
discovery of serotonin in 48 and then
its discovery in the brain in the early
50s people put two and two together and
said you know LSD has this powerful
behavioural effect and it's got a piece
of serotonin embedded in it and
serotonin in the brain so maybe
serotonin has some effect on mood
regulation of course now we know it
affects almost everything mood appetite
hunger sex consciousness you name it
Stuart this is a guy who this is a guy
who made the mescaline or the psilocybin
he's that he's the real copper here
there's probably not that many labs in
the United States where peak al is a
desk reference and and usually and
probably not where it's a desk reference
where the spine is broken from being
opened up so much but that well there's
actually you know in as far as the
synthesis of phenol amides are concerned
there's you know a lot of good work in
there too you know so when you need a
quick you know a quick tickle to you
know well how are we gonna make this
thing ethylene or this nitro styrene or
something you look in there and see you
know what he did
so uh this is probably gonna be a little
jarring because we have sort of a mix of
1970s technology and more current stuff
going on but we've made a lot of
flashing lights and wires
this room here is where we do our more
sort of long-term studies with dr.
shogun you know he made a pretty strong
case for sort of self experimentation
and you know he talked about the fact
that if you want to know what these
drugs are like you need to try them and
you know he said that answers the
question and in his books you see that a
lot and it answers some questions it
doesn't answer my questions so this is
one of the good ones that dissolves
without much trouble you know I think
there are certain things that you can
really only do in animal models right
now where we can sort of study the
mechanism of action of these drugs we
put the animals into these boxes here so
you know the whole cage fits right in
this guy's got one of those probes right
now so we could throw them in there and
fire it up and see what his temperature
is if we wanted to so what that animal
is saying is that as we increase the
dose and get two active doses of this
test drug in his MDMA like to them the
animals trained sort of you know put its
head through there instead of pushing a
lever they use their head to break a
photo beam and that's what counts is the
response working with animals really
helps to sort of peel away some of the
sort of mystical veneer that has been
put onto these drugs throughout the past
you're making a material that's never
been I've never been looked at before
no one's ever made it and so you wonder
is it is a psychedelic you don't know
you can't go to the literature cos is
not in the literature it's a brand new
thing it meets you and you meet it you
begin learning from it and it learns
from you you can define the basic
emotions in animals but you don't find
the subtleties of the mental process and
that's why you must use human subjects
and why you must be careful because
sometimes you've been something that
doesn't unbend
what happens it's like your hair on your
neck stands up a little bit something is
going on is that a little aura of
beginning effect once I have found what
I believe is the active level then an
joins me in an experiment to confirm
that it's not me that's strange but it's
the compound it has the same action on
both of us to some extent and once that
has been confirmed in our research group
will meet was the compound about maybe
eight or maybe ten people and we'll
share the compound all around he is a
little bit more sensitive so often he'll
take a little bit less he's a little bit
in the refractory maybe a little bit
more and we're gonna get a feel of the
whole group and then group all confirms
the activity you've answered the
question what you have is part of the
self-preservation is to ignore 95% of
the stuff that's out there you have a
person who's observing everything and
remembers everything he can't cross the
street because he's fascinated by the
green lights by the cars with a gravel
by the flies that are over there other
thing but the fact that a car has a
little linker going and if he pays
attention to everything he saw he'd be a
life's risk to go across a crosswalk
crossing a street so he learned to turn
that off turn that off her and watch for
the green light what's where the first
step foot goes down there glance right
and left there's no car coming and you
get across the street safely you have to
ignore 99% of what's around you to be
safe to achieve where you want to
achieve what these things catalyze
letting you get access to those things
you've been ignoring or have been
denying
Albert Hofmann was a Swiss chemist Swiss
and German chemists were known for the
precision and meticulous techniques so
he first made LSD in 1938 and sent it to
the pharmacology department he said
what's not interesting and then he comes
back in 1943 and he has this really
strong impression this sort of intuition
that they must have screwed up something
I got to make that truck again so then
he gets some somehow in his body so we
have a plum tree a sour cherry tree
peach tree Asian pear and an apple tree
over there how does a meticulous Swiss
chemist get that in his body he can't
tell you how I got in this body so let
me offer an alternate hypothesis first
of all we know he had mystical
experiences when he was a child he talks
about it he was walking out in the field
one day and he had this mystical
experience so let me suggest that he had
a propensity to have a mystical
experience shouldn't even let you see
this um so I've done such a bad job this
year it just hasn't been watered I
haven't thinned it I haven't taken the
weeds out I offered that hypothesis I
fact I told Albert I said you know I
don't think you actually ingested any
that first time I think it was you had
some kind of spontaneous experience and
that spontaneous experience was related
to the fact that you had this strong
intuition issues you should go back and
make more of it I've always haven't
always had a garden grown something so
it's sort of a cosmic conspiracy like
and as a scientist I'm not allowed to
say things like that so here's some
blackberries
so you think you know how the line works
it just is a lot to be found you have to
find out by influencing changing
disturbing I loves the use of
radioactive materials because you can
scan yourself and find out where it goes
in the brain and that it's worth where's
the mind where would you say the mind is
in the brain in the spirit in the
gallbladder where is the mind in the
body when obvious think so mind you in
the brain no no the mind I mean where's
the soul is it in you or around you
where's it located what does it look
like it's rectangular is it round you
know I think the idea of a soul whatever
it is whatever different people from all
over the world think it is it seems to
me the commonality is that it's
something that continues after you're
dead and to me that's crazy
I mean I don't understand how anybody
could truly believe that when you're
dead you're dead I used to get really
upset about it I used to you know tell
him like I've lost too many people but I
love to not again that there's a heaven
and I'm just thinking oh they're running
away you know so and he would just be
like no that's what happens you know why
would a great boy oh I'm just gonna
freeze my head you know but she really
doesn't like the idea freezing my head
at the moment of death so that I can get
it grafted onto a cloned body when they
can cure whatever it wasn't killed me
yeah bang in some new future chicks that
aren't you very jealous it's to death
till death do us part right I'm out
what's your dad I think the brain is
what most people mean when they say the
mind I think the brain is what most
people mean when they talk about their
personality who
they are you know what they believe how
they feel things like that
that stuff's controlled by your brain
it's controlled by brain chemistry
that's why the drugs that we give to
treat people that are having emotional
problems you know problems with anxiety
depression aggression you know on and on
the drugs that we give them they don't
work by affecting your heart you know
they don't work by affecting your spleen
or your you know your liver or your god
or your lungs they go into the brain and
they change brain chemistry and when you
change brain chemistry you change psychology
I was curious to know about the effects
of these drugs that hadn't been studied
very carefully clinically for 35 years
and we decided wouldn't it be
interesting to undertake a study with a
classical hallucinogen that are alleged
to model primary mystical experiences
psilocybin is from the mushroom which
has been used sacramentally for
thousands of years
hi roland griffiths you can tell them
that you're working in a research
pharmacy they see Rite Aid or something
they have no clue now if I sum this much
but I don't think they know what
psilocybin is and I can't say that I
held up much hope that psilocybin would
necessarily be a very good model I mean
it almost sounds ludicrous you know and
what percentage of God did you
experience eat people typically we go
well you know when my firstborn
you know was delivered that changed me
forever I'll never forget that moment
and my father recently passed away and
that was deeply moving and say you know
it's kind of like that I don't like that
so it it was it was an experience of
that order of magnitude I had no idea
instead of either or either or it's both
an both an both and this is eight hours
laying on a couch here at Johns Hopkins
I died but I've never been more alive
there's something at his core that has
to do with the core of ethical and moral
behavior about the sense of
interconnectedness of all people and
things at its heart
we're talking about altruism and it's
first sentence we're talking about love
and caretaking for other people and for
the environment and we have the
opportunity to study that I can't
imagine anything more important than
that
sitting beside someone who is it whose
consciousness is entering into these
profound realms that's at the extreme
it's almost like you're like sitting
beside the Buddha under the bow tree is
enlightenment is happening baptise
you're mystique you become aware of
yourself as a glowing thread in a
tapestry and all those you know cliches
but they the cliches are based on real
experience and real feeling your real
sensations and they don't mean anything
unless you and unless they have
influence on what you do with your life
children live in the world that that we
revisit with psychedelics almost
invariably the first experience with a
psychedelic person will come out of it
saying oh it was all so familiar to
advance spiritually you have to
encounter your monster your your shadow
the shadow is created by parents and by
our society our neighborhood out of
those things which we learn as children
we cannot do we can't grab a toy from
the other child just because we want the
toy we can't kill of a baby sister just
because you know we resent the fact that
she's taken over the household there are
certain things the impulses that have to
be controlled but they don't disappear
from the psyche they become repressed
and all of us have that if we're
socialized if we're able to live in in
society or we have a shadow side well
when you have four children somewhere
along the line you learn how to cut
pumpkins because you don't want them
cutting them very small as a lay
therapist I spent about a year and a
half almost two years with patients
doing work on the shadow that part of
yourself that you are ashamed of and
that you also believe you cannot live
with
with a good psychedelic tool we have the
patient step into the body of the
monster and turn around and look out its
eyes
at which point there is no fear there is
immense strength and looking out the
eyes of your own monster you begin to
make friends with it it it never becomes
entirely civilized but it can become
your ally
it was a depressed state and a lost my balance
so I seeing a psychiatrist and at the
time MDMA had not been controlled and it
was not even a prescription drug but it
was available and she prescribed it to
me and man it it totally changed my life
it's called by the psychiatrist who uses
a name pathogen it gives you empathy for
yourself
I relive the thing that I'm were
surprised I wipe this out I was in the
first grade in great school and the
we're in an old old building and it had
the big high plaster ceilings or 12 feet
high and the ceiling collapsed and the
plaster fell on his kid that was right
in front of me hit him on the head and
busted it all open and then collapsed my
desk right down on my legs and here he
has his head back bleeding on me and I'm
trapped under here all the other kids
screamed and they were run out of the
room and I'm trapped and well that's oh
what a feeling then I had strangely
enough survivor guilt but anyway after
those two episodes got rid of that
trapped feeling so that was a big
benefit to me
last year my father was dealing with
that like suicidal issues in talking of
him I found out that he's had it since
he was a child I was able to take the
information that you that you talked
about and reveal to him things about his
shadow to get him to open up and so if I
credit you and helping to save my
father's life
and so I want you to know I like I'm
getting goose before just telling me
that but thank you so much
between mind and brain when you die the
brain is becomes non-functional do you
do you believe that the mind may still
be functional in the absence of a brain
do you think the soul might be
functional in the absence of a brain I
remember one time I was on an experiment
I forget the chemical doesn't matter but
as I was in fact you were with me we
were together and I was looking at the
clock because it was interesting to see
the second hand of the clock way around
and as I was watching the second hand
the clock it was going slower and slower
and slower and we decided how much
slower could you get it to go so he
watched the second hand we worked
together and he got the second hand to
work very very slowly moving and it
another second occurred is now within
six seconds of eating the bottom of this
down number six down there and then a
little while later sometime later
another second occurred but each one was
taking long as in the previous second
and occurred to me if the clock were to
stop what defines death and suddenly I
realized I had taken a chemical that's
causing the clock to slow down
continuously and we both snapped around
out of it and the clock went normally again
no he chickened out if you are
approaching death in asymptotic way
where you're getting closer and closer
and closer to time and you never touched
that baseline your eternal your life is
eternal you just going to get a smaller
piece
questions opening up to to it yeah yes
yeah you're going in you do so you don't
have to walk up your floors up there yes
every new generation automatically wants
to break the the bonds created by the
older generation I mean that's what
that's part of their job is to you know
stretch things and never trust anybody
over 16
sascha likes to say there is no casual
experiment and when you're dealing with
the human psyche especially the past
that's not conscious most the time
you're dealing with life and death
sometimes whether you expect to be or
not
so all you can do is is write down the
things you know and the cautions you
know if you do this this way you could
probably be safe always use a babysitter
etc etc
any child with any amount of
intelligence is going to be curious and
want to find out what it is that the
grown-ups are saying no to and the
children are they see themselves as
eternal yeah they will never die because
they they're young they're they that the
whole life ahead of them goes on forever
it's only when you get up into the end
of the 30s you begin realizing maybe it
is not eternal
yeah
I don't usually do my experiments in the
lab I usually go to my office or the
house and where I have the assurance of
someone else there in case if somebody
is quite a miss and occasionally you get
into a situation with it with a new
material that you don't know where it is
I have a classification of minus plus
minus plus two plus three plus --is to
give the relative potency of something
there is one unusual category that I
have only used twice or three times in
my life of four pluses anything and
everything that occurs is at your
command you can look at a cat up in the
hill and the cat looks at me and I smile
at the cat and the cat runs away you are
controlling that cat you have control
over everything around total control of
my environment told him list and it
occurred to me after about half an hour
of this extraordinary state what if the
thing we're not reversible could one
stay in a state of bliss for the rest of
his life it's pretty scary thought to be
able to control everything totally and I
was very happy when it began drifting
away and went back to her just a plane
plus three a super stone state but these
are little things can occur center of
that ilk that are disturbing because you
suddenly realize there they may not be
reversible perhaps you have instituted a
change and your mindset or your or your
sensory integrity that it's not
reversible this is quite scary and this
has happened a couple of times
tiny bit of a breeze but
at the moment not even that much
lightness lightness running my own body
my own show at my own pace could I Drive
a car no I couldn't drive a car but
couldn't anyway because I'm blind
that doesn't that doesn't count but you
could play the piano this is not not
with the ruling strings I'm standing up
just a bit
he's trying to think of something out
no throw it on the bricks there ya go
squirrels we get it first though I'm
pretty close to a close tree really
frankly they're very boring to me
you only get a bloom once in a while you
can't control the bloom
they'll bloom when they're ready to
bloom
cactus I'm surrounded by them just as my
father is surrounded by them my father
to my best knowledge may not even know
what I didn't mean research
he probably intellectually knew of it
and was not was not considered not
interested not know what it meant this
is my best guess I never thought of it I
don't have any problem and understanding
the the Botanical structure I don't have
a problem with the grafting I don't have
anything but cactus have this thing
called spines and there's nothing I can
do to stay away from a spine but beyond
that I'm not saying that what I have
done is less than or better than I can
only say that it's quite different then
I deal in nuts and bolts hydraulic
adapters fasteners or all different
kinds of structures things that you
can't find at the normal hardware store
okay
and living out here I was totally in
love that was a German girl D Silla and
she was married it was a very complex
relationship because she wanted to move
in with me here but also she's loved her husband
that's after my wife's Testament later
life death and service relationship will
end it is evolved into a very firm very
firm partnership
oh yeah maybe it's not your eat as many
videos no the piano I think it went out
of tune did not ask me but without shits
that much I'm gonna try to find out if
it's my ears or the taliban's has
shifted the whole herd out of tune we
have deep respect for each other we
don't try and change each other
I treasure him as he is and he treats me
exactly the same way it was right at the
passageway no I haven't the slightest
idea why I put it there no we both
learned from unhappy marriages what not
to do and I'm happy to say that after
having had three previous marriages for
not great relationships so that's good
for my children to see too
because they had awful lot of failed
marriages but in this case we both have
a very strong common interest
psychedelic drugs and visionary plants
but you know they're not the only way of
doing it but it's just chosen way you
want the most famous example of ordinary
everyday on the state falling in love
any time you fall in love if you go into
an altered state there is no question
you can have a complete absolute
psychedelic experience by falling in
love which is kind of nice
because nobody can legislate against
that though they would have favored
because falling in love is also
potentially very dangerous
maybe maybe not I may have to take my chances
because more more murders are being
committed over the loss of a love
relationship than anything else in human
experience right yes right
I don't know if that's done
it's time to turn that one off and there
are people who have psychedelic
experience from the food and that has
its dangers - oh my god
no I do not
I'm guessing it's Sasha well go find
this go ask the guy with the white hair
beer the mind is I think the allows you
of order touching of a consciousness how
far out from you is your you the outer
universe where does your consciousness
extend to where it is how how do we
communicate by word by motion by action
these are things that are thought out
processes this is the the brain function
the talking all the operations are brain
but the concept of an idea the
expression of an emotion of a of a
empathy the the word is the concept of
empathy originate only anyone knows
exactly what what what's meant by the
term empathy in terms of actual
biological relationships with with
others one theory is it like when you
have kids one of the reasons you bond
with your children because you know
children are are are completely
parasitic you know they eat your food
they sleep in your house they you know I
mean there's there's no rational reason
I got to wonderful case there's no
rational reason why anyone want children
right I mean you know but but but once
you have them you give them anything
right you know so that's that's total
empathic bonding
what's love you know what is what is
what what is that
is there a biology of love undoubtedly
there is every human experiences love
right but you know is that different
than empathy that area has been
underfinanced and under study
yeah you're right it's getting wet in
here now I'm trying to make it a deal as
you get older you tend to get interested
in more spirituality is there life after
death that sort of stuff I may wind up
there one day myself but you know the
psychedelics have multiple effects for
sure you could imagine efforts through
chemistry that define a new molecule
which is subtly different from the ones
we know of that is now able to give you
for example an anti-anxiety effect with
one of these sorts of drugs without the
psychedelic action we need new
anti-anxiety medications we need better
antidepressants the antidepressants that
we have are terrible they rarely are as
good as placebo when you test them but
they're very widely prescribed there's a
load of people on them they come with
all sorts of side effects sexual side
effects metabolic side effects leading
to weight gain things like that who
wouldn't want something better than that
and you know that's sort of where I see myself
you'd you want to respond to this order
yeah when she's grant that up there are
many doing but I did in the 50s to 60s
today he has a little laboratories but
in the commentary of all the recipes I
left a lot of clues little clues ideas
people are picking up on them and
they're pursuing them and that's exactly
what I wanted
are you surprised your work would have
such a creative influence he's an artist
I want this to be an encouragement with
ideas I've got more ideas than I have
time or energy to exploit there are a
lot of people working around the edge of
the law spending a lot of money turning
a lot of wheels and put all a lot of
people in jail but it did not change the
drug scene it just didn't yeah well I
know I'm awful glad to be out of it cuz
I don't think we did a whole lot of good
we sure tried
hello friends that is indeed how are you
hey buddy boy
yes good to see you
are you sue Republican about half sorry
mom I don't care well I really don't
care anyway right there okay that's kind okay
xeno Zingo Xango okay okay and here's a
nitrogen okay obviously CH double bond c
CH 3 ah come on no I think that way but
you see
you look you can't do it there you are
you complete you know how many years now
have you been friends oh my god since
1969 the pepper community here is right
in San Francisco 17th floor their
ability yes oh yeah yes yes wonderful we
are going up to like a plus one and it's
very what she was he it was that
conference I think where we got a
picture taken together yeah it was great
Sunday afternoons my jobs keep the
fireplace going and to make runs up and
down to the magic store room where we
get chemical store I'm pretty good long
as I didn't get paid it was okay no to
work in his lab ex Accord he was able to
get us standard for new drugs that are
out on the street before we could get
him from headquarters she did all kinds
of stuff for us we gave him an award for
his assistance 410 or zinc lead oxide
metalwork water he's my brother
maybe we were brothers in a previous
life no
watch me Buffy whoopee I don't hear it
Kirito yeah come on out in the Sun babe
yeah so we're supposed to play for a hog
roast next Saturday across the street
again
nuts red light red light they're like no
walkie no walking
how much still to my story about the
time I came to visit you and you had
figured out this formula result you know
we used to get together once or maybe
twice a year at a meeting or something
that's always fun it's nice when you can
talk to somebody who sort of understands
your language what you're talking about
Sascha is basically retired he's trying
to write up his final book I take a
printout I can't even read that anymore
now you know secretly down down secretly
I wish they were drugged we could find
that could someone could take it and
they could go do you realize how fucked
up you are in your thinking you know do
you realize what you've done you know
what we as the most advanced
civilization world what have we done we
landed on the moon but other than that
and we had the best weapons we have the
best stealth missiles the best stealth
bombers you know the best machine guns
the best laser-guided missiles I mean is
that something to be proud of you know I
don't think so try to pick up a few
hints and get better so when I retire I
can play with a band and some blues band
and say here's dr. Dave on the harp used
to be the world's LSD expert and now he
plays blues harp for us
the sort of existential questions that
people have I am just not sure that
science is what you want but I don't
take these drugs I haven't had one of
these experiences before and if someone
who had were to sort of argue that you
know that's missing the core of the
experience I would say okay you know
that I accept that you know fill it in
for me you know what do you got
Oh Agis little pills our hair
okay mr. red come on
that's like totally an amazing sight
it's handwritten mouth you know drawing
molecules on bottles and stuff like that
it's way cool I think it's just art he
does it so beautifully his notebooks are
filled with this with these he calls
them dirty pictures and when you
consider that each one of those is
probably weeks the months of work and in
the some hundreds of compounds that he's
synthesized and tested when I first
started doing serious work here Sasha
hadn't been working and has been invaded
by local critters but his vision and his
intuition are still very lively I'm sure
I could not keep up with all the things
that he would like to make but I'm
gradually getting a little better and
there's there's a long way to go okay so
now it's down to 50 degrees even see an
IPA at 50 degrees yes good enough so
it's good okay and we got a little over
one and a half grams of total cleaned
five methoxy Nault out of that I'd
middle you'd have bought wouldn't you
right methyl how long for to me so we
don't have methyl yet no so this is
really mono that'll trick me
right except Kali in law then you're
into into oh you're into ambiguity
ambiguity right and lord knows you got
all the ambiguity we can we all can
possibly want yes
I did not have a go I still don't have a
goal what I am looking for is learning
from the process what's the goal of a
hole I can't think of a good analogy and
mccann Explorer you know there's a hill
in front of them and these data see the
hallway filled with closed doors go
through them and you find another
hallway as more doors it's an actually
Marvis continuous process of discovery
maybe the mind does continue and the
soul does continue when read the
observers over the normal clock see the
brain stops
you
you
you
about this whole area.
They similarly ask are you on anything now?
They think that we
go around on psychedelic drugs all the time.
- They're not all the time.
Uh, mushrooms, psilocybin,
I call 2CB as being a very,
2CB
a very, excellent psychedelic.
Uh, mescaline.
Mescaline.
I don't like drugs that get too
too sparkly.
Like the MDA world.
Yeah I don't like stoning drugs.
I don't like being stoned.
Thats uh.
You don't learn anything.
Um,
I don't like drugs that inhibit communication.
It's like for instance,
2CE.
I mean, right, MDE.
Oh okay, I agree with you. Yeah.
I could do without MDE.
2CI is good.
2CI is very good.
The sexual aspects are always very,
very,
positive contributors to...
If you can't make love on a drug then
this something not quite right.
This fire in here, we got Ethel B-3 burning.
Lets go! Everybody out of here!
All were going to do is,
were going to try and figure out what youre doing there, and if whats your doing is legal
In 1966 Shulgin quit his job as a chemist for Dow Chemical
to devote himself entirely to the study of
psychoactive drugs.
Drugs that alter the mind.
The stepfather of rave's favorite
pharmaceutical lives in the hills behind San Francisco.
In the mid-1960s,
he resynthesized an obscure drug that had been patented, but then ignored.
It was called 3/4 Methylenedioxymethamphetamine.
MDMA for short.
It would later acquired a street name, ecstasy.
Just as LSD marijuana and Woodstock
unite a generation.
Ecstasy and the rave scene
act as a glue for millions of savvy middle-class kids
seeking an escape.
From Bangkok to Bournemouth. Manchester to Miami.
If there was one place on earth where it all began, then it's right here in California.
In the small home laboratory of a man.
He's known
as The Godfather
of ecstasy.
No other drug
has ever spread so fast.
25 milligrams, no effect. 40, no effect.
60 milligrams. No effect. 81 milligrams is,
that I got a plus-one.
53 minutes smooth shift into a light intoxication
distinct, almost early alcohol like intoxication.
I first met Ann and Sasha many years ago.
I thought about how I would introduce him and everything I thought
about saying,
I got so emotional, I started crying.
Hello, this is kind of a personal question..
Is there anything that does to the brain, what MDMA does to the heart?
Alexander Sasha, Shulgin, PhD is a
pharmacologist, chemist, and drug developer.
2C-T-7, 2C-I, and 2C-B are the
most well known.
Shulgin personally tested hundreds of drugs.
New York Times Magazine.
It's an article on Dr. E, for ecstasy.
Theres no reason that I should be
Doctor Ecstasy,
Ecstasy is not the name I gave anything.
I called it MDMA,
and uh, its just uh, its an element of notoriety that does no good.
He didn't even invent it in his
Discoveries and his own inventions he
encountered this drug that somebody else had made.
It didn't exist in nature until chemists
working for the German pharmaceutical company, Merck
synthesized it by accident in their laboratories in 1912.
No use for the new molecule was discovered,
and MDMA remained little more than a formula on faded paper for more than 60 years.
So somebody made it,
but didn't realize its potential.
This is World War one
with Germany's defeat,
MDMA and every other patented drug
is turned over to the Allies as a spoil of war.
Its existence is lost from memory,
until the Cold War compels the Pentagon
to re-examine its potential for national defense.
The love drug does nothing of use for war.
but the compound still exists.
It sat on a shelf
but he thought hmm
they never really took it orally.
I wonder if it's active.
Let's try it at the
50 milligram dose let's try it at
the hundred milligram dose.
Oh there's something going on here.
Wow!
Whoa this has an
altered state experience.
Dr. Shulgin made these careful notes.
The first recorded experience on ecstasy.
Actually, the first, first trial in that
particular guise was on a train trip.
He published a paper on it,
described its effects,
and several of his friends are psychiatrists
and they decided to try it.
Tried it on themselves first.
In the psychotherapeutic community,
MDMA is called empathy.
Its effect is likened to a year of therapy, in six hours.
Once the psychiatrists started using it,
whew.
Man, it was in demand.
We've got another drug
it is synthetic
and it makes you love everybody.
I was diagnosed to have
terminal cancer a few months ago,
and naturally there's a lot of fear, and
anger, and pain.
Emotional pain that surrounds something like that.
It has allowed me to open up and have
communication with my family
that I have never been able to have before.
It's called, it's called ecstasy.
Now who doesn't want to take ecstasy?
The whole concept of the MDMA going into
Ecstasy,
well really, it was Empathy, but nobody really knew what Empathy was.
they called E for ecstasy.
It is a popularization
and in essence destroy the...
medical value
effectively of the material.
Had MDMA not strayed from that community,
it might have remained legal.
But beyond the therapist office,
it becomes wildly popular
and that is the beginning of the end
for the legal use of ecstasy.
This morning the
Drug Enforcement Administration
is announcing its intention
to place the drug known as MDMA,
or by the street name ecstasy,
under emergency controls in
schedule 1.
This whole thing is is pitched as a self-development
type of experience.
Get in touch with nature, get in touch with the universe, get in touch with your mother.
They said half a head of E would be fun.
Everywhere you look, it's there.
Including service members, I mean, it's everywhere.
And now the term now applies to anything
and everything that's used at a rave
doesn't have to have any MDMA in it at all.
Just the term is used as a
as a party escape drug.
And I am saddened to say that I am not happy with it.
To Dr. Shulgin it was just one of hundreds
of mind-altering drugs he concocted.
In books and papers he has published the formulas
and the effects of each.
His critics argue that Shulgin is simply
providing a road map
for drug abuse.
They're you!
I didn't want my life to be a carbon of his own.
That the number one reason I knew he was a brilliant
scientist.
I would never even compete within that world.
That I didn't want to be compared against
See, my dad was very hip.
During the 60s and the 70s he was the beatnik
and I was the rebel.
Titan close and not involved
in that world I just I didn't want anything to do with this world.
Where our heads were connecting
was a flash of light that shot out
straight ahead and we can see it.
Basically I see psychedelics as spiritual tools.
which is not quite the way Sasha sees them.
And it produces this cascade of inflammatory changes.
They are very good tools
for anyone who's on any kind of spiritual journey,
whatever that means and it means different
things to different people.
Psychotherapy can be
part of that.
I mean
people who go into psychotherapy are on
a spiritual quest,
whether they call it that or not.
How do you define consciousness and how
much of it is determined by chemistry
Well that's not a question.
I consider consciousness where you are if you're alive.
A lot of people put it as a brain function, I consider consciousness a mental function.
He's outside the mainstream I mean he is
kind of a rogue.
He's not part of an official establishment .
He's doing things that are sort of socially frowned upon by the majority of of our society.
I always duck down in case a bird flies out.
Oh my golly.
That's where that compound went.
Usually you have wall-to-wall carpeting ,
clean benches,
and all the bottles on the Shelf lined up in
alphabetical order.
That's a display in a moving picture laboratory,
or a government laboratory.
A real productive laboratory is in essence
a personal mess
and as you have things at hand,
you remember what it was
drop it down
get it back up it again.
No that's not ready to work up yet.
Well Sasha is
passionately committed to understanding how these drugs work
and their structure activity he's mainly a chemist.
I know I tried running a reaction with quite a bit of heat
in a matter of an hour or two and
it almost had no reaction at all.
So I put it over a little magnetic stirrer
that throws off a small amount, a small amount of heat.
And it's just slightly warm.
Maybe 30 degrees.
And it's been that now for
a couple of months
And so his real fascination again is to make the to make chemicals with very small differences
and to test that, to see what those differences are.
You know, he's been willing to test them on himself
For the longest time period,
he's been the principal subject.
And all this mess around here,
except those things that dropped down thanks to squirrels
and other rodents
and birds.
Birds come down the fireplace periodically.
His fundamental driving force
is to understand how how these compounds work,
and what their differences are.
Rather than just to get loaded.
I sure collect a lot of stuff.
My God I was looking the other day, and I said, "Where did I get all this stuff?"
But I used it all at one time or another.
Of all things this is to imitate
a
egg-sucking leech.
If you can believe that.
Oh I was gung ho for
working for the government and doing some good.
Yeah in 1969 I transferred to
at that time was Durham Narcotics and Dangerous Drugs
and took over as the director of the crime
lab in San Francisco.
That was my grandfather's weapon.
Well muzzleloader.
And it was
very
heartwarming to meet the agents, the
other chemists.
it was it was like a family.
and they knew that if you had a
problem, they would help you.
See my current collection.
Working on her.
I noticed on one of the pakanoids, there was some blue a couple of days ago,
but it think its pretty well gone now.
think it's pretty well gone now prove
iana's attract a serious macro goodness
Just about every country and every
culture on earth
has at least one visionary plant
that they they use
or that some of them use for altering consciousness.
Well, the cactus, how many, varieties do you think there are Ted?
In here?
No I mean overall, 50?
Yeah.
Perhaps 50 varieties of cactus.
And they are all chosen because they are all psychoactive.
I mean we have receptors for psychoactive drugs.
We do not have natural psychoactive drugs inside of us.
Why do we have the receptors and not the drugs?
Well perhaps at one time we had the drugs.
As part of a metabolic process we
generated the drugs that made the
psychedelic state a natural state.
And these people then, I guess, see the potential of
looking at the tooth of
a saber-toothed tiger and saying
"Oh look at the pretty designs on this tooth,"
and as a consequence of dropping your
defenses against an enemy, be removed
from the gene pool.
So perhaps those
people who did turn on because of
endogenous psychedelics,
were removed from the gene pool.
And therefore they are no
longer there.
The drugs are not made in the body,
but the acceptors are still there.
Because the receptors were not the hazard.
It was a drug that was generated that was the hazard to survival.
So that is maybe why some of these plants
with their psychedelic components
turn you on because the receptors are intact from generations.
But the natural, psychedelic
metabolites in the body no longer exists.
Is it the path you should avoid or a passage go down?
I don't know how you can answer the question until you start down the path.
I really don't.
If we could get two seats over here and a
little bit more in the
shade I would love that.
I'd feel much better about everything.
It's been, I think, a little bit embarrassing, e
especially to my children,
that I had written quite a lot about
making love under the influence of psychedelics.
These books have been an exploration,
not just of the effects of drugs but
of the effects of these particular drugs on us.
Chemical structure.
Outline of synthesis.
Biochemistry, pharmacology, legal status.
What I saw a lot in the work I did,
doing raids on clandestine laboratories.
You have that whole class of people that
know nothing about what they're doing.
But they read things on how to make a drug
and they screw it up and I mean they'd cost a lot of damage.
Not just to themselves but to their families.
To the surrounding area to the environment.
We really had some dummies.
Huh, man I mean,
total idiots.
Trying to cook drugs it's, its just..
That's what made it so dangerous,
because we never really knew what they were doing, cause they didn't know what they were doing!
Bond to carbon, bond to another carbon, and then back into the ring.
You have a fine membered ring,
you're a chemist,
and therefor your benzene ring has two rings
alongside it, on either side, hence the
idea of fly, as if there were wings.
In some areas you don't want to teach a
teenager how to make a bomb, you just don't.
You have to synthesize it yourself.
I don't think it's ever ever been commercially available
I've been dying to meet you.
I so honor you, thank you.
Thank you very much, yes.
Yeah it was a good agency, uhm.
And they were all dedicated.
They believed in what they were doing.
But it changed.
Sorry.
Oh yeah,
it will rain sometime tonight.
When I was
in high school
my father was never speaking on the telephone.
He wanted to be in person, in private.
He always thought the phones might be tapped.
And I never questioned that they
might be tapped
it's just that I couldn't
think of why they were wishing to persecute my father.
There's fire in here. We got ethyl ether in here.
Everybody out of here. You too.
Mr. cameraman this is a safety issue now you can take your pictures,
but you're going to do it out of the area.
The trouble started only when the first book
had been published.
He said, "holy mackerel', or something to that effect.
This guy has a DEA license.
Sasha was on very good terms with a lot of the chemists in the DEA
because chemists love chemistry.
And here was
this maverick chemist.
He had a DEA license to do lab work.
And uh, you know. This is a respectable man a respectable scientist.
So you don't just barge in.
Did my wife invite you?
We were here for the call, let's move out of here.
I am very, I am very...
Are you trying to resist arrest?
- I'm not resisting arrest!
One of them asked,
"You don't by any chance have any peyote here do you?"
We said, "Yeah right there next to your feet.
They just jumped.
Suddenly you realize that these people were really scared
of these things it's just a little damn cactus.
All were going to do,
is were going to figure out what youre doing there,
and if what youre doing is legal.
They didn't understand psychedelics.
They had the image of somebody out of control.
Somebody who didn't belong in decent society.
The whole process of
drug enforcement,
I found it to be a huge game with them.
I realized that my father was
active bait for these people.
The powers not delegated to the United States
by the Constitution.
Even though he didn't commit any crime,
there was never a charge filed
but they could they could
hound him and I understand this frustration.
Or to the people
And there's no mention in the constitution of drugs anywhere.
I mean...
I, I...
So is there a dark side to what Sasha did?
Certainly.
Lots of people have used a number of
these compounds and hurt themselves
significantly because of it.
So there is, yeah, there is a dark side to
to discovering this kind of information.
But I certainly wouldn't argue that it shouldn't be done.
Sasha's interest has been exploring than you know the nature and the limits of
the human condition through tweaking some of these
molecules to produce you know different and interesting kinds of effects.
That's really at its heart what
the clinical pharmacology is is about.
I mean we're studying the nature of
the human organism.
Well a lot of people think I created much
much grief and much sadness and
naughty, naughty, naughty.
It was my first experience with mescaline.
Which is a psychoactive drug that's found in the peyote cactus and in
many other cacti.
And I had experienced it.
Gosh what is that, 45-50 years ago?
I saw colors that I was totally unfamiliar with.
The flower and had a color that I couldn't give a name to.
I had recalled memories of childhood.
I've seen those with articulate clarity.
And then I thought,
"Why would 400 milligrams of white crystal
have all of this in it?"
What it's doing is allowing me
to communicate with parts of me that I had not communicated with for a long time.
Pretty sure he was 15 when he enrolled at Harvard.
I think he only went,
maybe three semesters or something like that.
And emotionally it was very difficult for him because of his age compared to the
the age of the other people in the university.
Plus a difference in background.
I was curious in the Navy
when I study chemistry nights the Navy I
had a big textbook that I carried around
for three years in the Atlantic and I
memorized it in the process this was
kind of a neat challenge but I came out
and went into chemistry in University
and then I took my doctorate work in
biochemistry I won't have access to
exploring and interpreting the
exploration of these things I did not
know where it's going to go but I went
into industrial chemistry and there I
really caught the good luck of having
predicted the structure of something
that would you go commercial and it was
given total licence evidently he had
been one of the most productive chemists
in the Dow Chemical organization and had
developed a series of insecticides that
were making many millions of dollars for
the camera
three division of the corporation and
they let him just do whatever he would
felt like
that bridge could be the gateway to a
whole world of Californian charms and
surprises when I was an intern in San
Francisco 1962 to 1963
I just love drugs I was always
interested in how drugs act and I wanted
to be a psychiatrist was particularly
fascinated by drugs and the brain the
most crooked Street in the world as a
curiosity in every Sunday my wife and I
and our friends would get together and
quote experiments that was the
ceremonies in which President Bush made
the National Medal of Science so I was
already fascinated by the psychedelic
drugs and when I was asked to evaluate a
program involving drugs of that sort at
the Dow Chemical Company I left it the
opportunity when I arrived there I
learned all about what had been going on
with Sasha from that point on my all my
Chemical thought process all my plans on
my structural synthetic designs we're in
the area of taking the simple little
molecule mescaline 3 methoxy groups a
little chain and a nitrogen and
modifying this atom modifying that atom
change this atom to that atom change
this make it longer make this shorter
add something else out here remove that
wear around this entire thing can I make
all these changes one at a time and see
where what is it in this molecule that
lets it fit into the receptor site that
causes a psychedelic action he argued to
his superiors that this could be
therapeutically important at doses at
which there was no risk of psychotic
effects and their attitude was if
anything comes valuable will exploit it
independently and a lot of those were
patented Sasha's work took this to a
level of serious corporate in
even though this was the time of the
haight-ashbury district in San Francisco
with publicity all over the United
States about the hippies taking LSD and
other psychedelic drugs and how
irresponsible it was very very
controversial for some the lifestyle of
the late 60s was bohemian dropouts from
the corporate culture joined communes on
campuses in cities and on farms I was
never part of the a - buri scene I was
interested in seeing where I was going
and I would like to get what information
I could get from it as to what drugs are
being used and I had made a couple of
allies in the Haight Ashbury to get
little samples of materials and from
this I was able to identify them but
some were things I had made and
published some are just totally from
other other sources they may obtain
valid insights so often though all too
often they do not and it turned on or
euphoric state step or attempt to fly
from cliffs and high windows with
real-life permanent non psychedelic regimes
other tripperz attempt to merge their
beans large the government was very very
scared of abuse of psychedelic drugs and
there would be corporate risks of having
the Dow respected name associated with
something that people could criticize
and because of that ultimately the Board
of Directors are down decided not to go
forward with this drug development now
no longer at Dow but I have my
laboratory set up at home and I
continued making compounds of new
materials what would have happened if
now administration had said let's go for
it that's quite possible that the
careful use of the appropriate drugs
might well have been a big advance in psychiatry
yes okay
is our stairway they have it this black
stuff in here is platinum
this is full hydrogen you look just like
the Hindenburg this is actually a baby
psychedelic in here hmm something either
maybe it's something about money that's
what I need I need good news about money
well I know what this is yeah this is a
dopamine d3 antagonist that we're using
to figure out what LSD is doing in the
brain my hands are stronger I'm working
in the system doing it the way they say
you have to do it you know we have all
kinds of OSHA rules and EPA rules and
all the radioisotopes have to be taken
care of and that's always you know been
my shtick is if you want to make change
happen at work inside the system have
you seen Sasha's life yeah so I mean
what more can I say yeah I mean his is
really more of an alchemist hanging out
with anything you know sort of fact it
was the almost simultaneous discovery of
serotonins occurrence in the brain and
the discovery by Albert Hoffman of LSD
that really made people look at the role
of serotonin in behavioral States
because in the 1940s psychiatry didn't
really believe in neuro chemistry they
thought it was all bad mothering
there wasn't nurturing whatever he had
no idea that neuro chemicals could
affect the way that we feel so the
discovery of LSD in 1943 and then the
discovery of serotonin in 48 and then
its discovery in the brain in the early
50s people put two and two together and
said you know LSD has this powerful
behavioural effect and it's got a piece
of serotonin embedded in it and
serotonin in the brain so maybe
serotonin has some effect on mood
regulation of course now we know it
affects almost everything mood appetite
hunger sex consciousness you name it
Stuart this is a guy who this is a guy
who made the mescaline or the psilocybin
he's that he's the real copper here
there's probably not that many labs in
the United States where peak al is a
desk reference and and usually and
probably not where it's a desk reference
where the spine is broken from being
opened up so much but that well there's
actually you know in as far as the
synthesis of phenol amides are concerned
there's you know a lot of good work in
there too you know so when you need a
quick you know a quick tickle to you
know well how are we gonna make this
thing ethylene or this nitro styrene or
something you look in there and see you
know what he did
so uh this is probably gonna be a little
jarring because we have sort of a mix of
1970s technology and more current stuff
going on but we've made a lot of
flashing lights and wires
this room here is where we do our more
sort of long-term studies with dr.
shogun you know he made a pretty strong
case for sort of self experimentation
and you know he talked about the fact
that if you want to know what these
drugs are like you need to try them and
you know he said that answers the
question and in his books you see that a
lot and it answers some questions it
doesn't answer my questions so this is
one of the good ones that dissolves
without much trouble you know I think
there are certain things that you can
really only do in animal models right
now where we can sort of study the
mechanism of action of these drugs we
put the animals into these boxes here so
you know the whole cage fits right in
this guy's got one of those probes right
now so we could throw them in there and
fire it up and see what his temperature
is if we wanted to so what that animal
is saying is that as we increase the
dose and get two active doses of this
test drug in his MDMA like to them the
animals trained sort of you know put its
head through there instead of pushing a
lever they use their head to break a
photo beam and that's what counts is the
response working with animals really
helps to sort of peel away some of the
sort of mystical veneer that has been
put onto these drugs throughout the past
you're making a material that's never
been I've never been looked at before
no one's ever made it and so you wonder
is it is a psychedelic you don't know
you can't go to the literature cos is
not in the literature it's a brand new
thing it meets you and you meet it you
begin learning from it and it learns
from you you can define the basic
emotions in animals but you don't find
the subtleties of the mental process and
that's why you must use human subjects
and why you must be careful because
sometimes you've been something that
doesn't unbend
what happens it's like your hair on your
neck stands up a little bit something is
going on is that a little aura of
beginning effect once I have found what
I believe is the active level then an
joins me in an experiment to confirm
that it's not me that's strange but it's
the compound it has the same action on
both of us to some extent and once that
has been confirmed in our research group
will meet was the compound about maybe
eight or maybe ten people and we'll
share the compound all around he is a
little bit more sensitive so often he'll
take a little bit less he's a little bit
in the refractory maybe a little bit
more and we're gonna get a feel of the
whole group and then group all confirms
the activity you've answered the
question what you have is part of the
self-preservation is to ignore 95% of
the stuff that's out there you have a
person who's observing everything and
remembers everything he can't cross the
street because he's fascinated by the
green lights by the cars with a gravel
by the flies that are over there other
thing but the fact that a car has a
little linker going and if he pays
attention to everything he saw he'd be a
life's risk to go across a crosswalk
crossing a street so he learned to turn
that off turn that off her and watch for
the green light what's where the first
step foot goes down there glance right
and left there's no car coming and you
get across the street safely you have to
ignore 99% of what's around you to be
safe to achieve where you want to
achieve what these things catalyze
letting you get access to those things
you've been ignoring or have been
denying
Albert Hofmann was a Swiss chemist Swiss
and German chemists were known for the
precision and meticulous techniques so
he first made LSD in 1938 and sent it to
the pharmacology department he said
what's not interesting and then he comes
back in 1943 and he has this really
strong impression this sort of intuition
that they must have screwed up something
I got to make that truck again so then
he gets some somehow in his body so we
have a plum tree a sour cherry tree
peach tree Asian pear and an apple tree
over there how does a meticulous Swiss
chemist get that in his body he can't
tell you how I got in this body so let
me offer an alternate hypothesis first
of all we know he had mystical
experiences when he was a child he talks
about it he was walking out in the field
one day and he had this mystical
experience so let me suggest that he had
a propensity to have a mystical
experience shouldn't even let you see
this um so I've done such a bad job this
year it just hasn't been watered I
haven't thinned it I haven't taken the
weeds out I offered that hypothesis I
fact I told Albert I said you know I
don't think you actually ingested any
that first time I think it was you had
some kind of spontaneous experience and
that spontaneous experience was related
to the fact that you had this strong
intuition issues you should go back and
make more of it I've always haven't
always had a garden grown something so
it's sort of a cosmic conspiracy like
and as a scientist I'm not allowed to
say things like that so here's some
blackberries
so you think you know how the line works
it just is a lot to be found you have to
find out by influencing changing
disturbing I loves the use of
radioactive materials because you can
scan yourself and find out where it goes
in the brain and that it's worth where's
the mind where would you say the mind is
in the brain in the spirit in the
gallbladder where is the mind in the
body when obvious think so mind you in
the brain no no the mind I mean where's
the soul is it in you or around you
where's it located what does it look
like it's rectangular is it round you
know I think the idea of a soul whatever
it is whatever different people from all
over the world think it is it seems to
me the commonality is that it's
something that continues after you're
dead and to me that's crazy
I mean I don't understand how anybody
could truly believe that when you're
dead you're dead I used to get really
upset about it I used to you know tell
him like I've lost too many people but I
love to not again that there's a heaven
and I'm just thinking oh they're running
away you know so and he would just be
like no that's what happens you know why
would a great boy oh I'm just gonna
freeze my head you know but she really
doesn't like the idea freezing my head
at the moment of death so that I can get
it grafted onto a cloned body when they
can cure whatever it wasn't killed me
yeah bang in some new future chicks that
aren't you very jealous it's to death
till death do us part right I'm out
what's your dad I think the brain is
what most people mean when they say the
mind I think the brain is what most
people mean when they talk about their
personality who
they are you know what they believe how
they feel things like that
that stuff's controlled by your brain
it's controlled by brain chemistry
that's why the drugs that we give to
treat people that are having emotional
problems you know problems with anxiety
depression aggression you know on and on
the drugs that we give them they don't
work by affecting your heart you know
they don't work by affecting your spleen
or your you know your liver or your god
or your lungs they go into the brain and
they change brain chemistry and when you
change brain chemistry you change psychology
I was curious to know about the effects
of these drugs that hadn't been studied
very carefully clinically for 35 years
and we decided wouldn't it be
interesting to undertake a study with a
classical hallucinogen that are alleged
to model primary mystical experiences
psilocybin is from the mushroom which
has been used sacramentally for
thousands of years
hi roland griffiths you can tell them
that you're working in a research
pharmacy they see Rite Aid or something
they have no clue now if I sum this much
but I don't think they know what
psilocybin is and I can't say that I
held up much hope that psilocybin would
necessarily be a very good model I mean
it almost sounds ludicrous you know and
what percentage of God did you
experience eat people typically we go
well you know when my firstborn
you know was delivered that changed me
forever I'll never forget that moment
and my father recently passed away and
that was deeply moving and say you know
it's kind of like that I don't like that
so it it was it was an experience of
that order of magnitude I had no idea
instead of either or either or it's both
an both an both and this is eight hours
laying on a couch here at Johns Hopkins
I died but I've never been more alive
there's something at his core that has
to do with the core of ethical and moral
behavior about the sense of
interconnectedness of all people and
things at its heart
we're talking about altruism and it's
first sentence we're talking about love
and caretaking for other people and for
the environment and we have the
opportunity to study that I can't
imagine anything more important than
that
sitting beside someone who is it whose
consciousness is entering into these
profound realms that's at the extreme
it's almost like you're like sitting
beside the Buddha under the bow tree is
enlightenment is happening baptise
you're mystique you become aware of
yourself as a glowing thread in a
tapestry and all those you know cliches
but they the cliches are based on real
experience and real feeling your real
sensations and they don't mean anything
unless you and unless they have
influence on what you do with your life
children live in the world that that we
revisit with psychedelics almost
invariably the first experience with a
psychedelic person will come out of it
saying oh it was all so familiar to
advance spiritually you have to
encounter your monster your your shadow
the shadow is created by parents and by
our society our neighborhood out of
those things which we learn as children
we cannot do we can't grab a toy from
the other child just because we want the
toy we can't kill of a baby sister just
because you know we resent the fact that
she's taken over the household there are
certain things the impulses that have to
be controlled but they don't disappear
from the psyche they become repressed
and all of us have that if we're
socialized if we're able to live in in
society or we have a shadow side well
when you have four children somewhere
along the line you learn how to cut
pumpkins because you don't want them
cutting them very small as a lay
therapist I spent about a year and a
half almost two years with patients
doing work on the shadow that part of
yourself that you are ashamed of and
that you also believe you cannot live
with
with a good psychedelic tool we have the
patient step into the body of the
monster and turn around and look out its
eyes
at which point there is no fear there is
immense strength and looking out the
eyes of your own monster you begin to
make friends with it it it never becomes
entirely civilized but it can become
your ally
it was a depressed state and a lost my balance
so I seeing a psychiatrist and at the
time MDMA had not been controlled and it
was not even a prescription drug but it
was available and she prescribed it to
me and man it it totally changed my life
it's called by the psychiatrist who uses
a name pathogen it gives you empathy for
yourself
I relive the thing that I'm were
surprised I wipe this out I was in the
first grade in great school and the
we're in an old old building and it had
the big high plaster ceilings or 12 feet
high and the ceiling collapsed and the
plaster fell on his kid that was right
in front of me hit him on the head and
busted it all open and then collapsed my
desk right down on my legs and here he
has his head back bleeding on me and I'm
trapped under here all the other kids
screamed and they were run out of the
room and I'm trapped and well that's oh
what a feeling then I had strangely
enough survivor guilt but anyway after
those two episodes got rid of that
trapped feeling so that was a big
benefit to me
last year my father was dealing with
that like suicidal issues in talking of
him I found out that he's had it since
he was a child I was able to take the
information that you that you talked
about and reveal to him things about his
shadow to get him to open up and so if I
credit you and helping to save my
father's life
and so I want you to know I like I'm
getting goose before just telling me
that but thank you so much
between mind and brain when you die the
brain is becomes non-functional do you
do you believe that the mind may still
be functional in the absence of a brain
do you think the soul might be
functional in the absence of a brain I
remember one time I was on an experiment
I forget the chemical doesn't matter but
as I was in fact you were with me we
were together and I was looking at the
clock because it was interesting to see
the second hand of the clock way around
and as I was watching the second hand
the clock it was going slower and slower
and slower and we decided how much
slower could you get it to go so he
watched the second hand we worked
together and he got the second hand to
work very very slowly moving and it
another second occurred is now within
six seconds of eating the bottom of this
down number six down there and then a
little while later sometime later
another second occurred but each one was
taking long as in the previous second
and occurred to me if the clock were to
stop what defines death and suddenly I
realized I had taken a chemical that's
causing the clock to slow down
continuously and we both snapped around
out of it and the clock went normally again
no he chickened out if you are
approaching death in asymptotic way
where you're getting closer and closer
and closer to time and you never touched
that baseline your eternal your life is
eternal you just going to get a smaller
piece
questions opening up to to it yeah yes
yeah you're going in you do so you don't
have to walk up your floors up there yes
every new generation automatically wants
to break the the bonds created by the
older generation I mean that's what
that's part of their job is to you know
stretch things and never trust anybody
over 16
sascha likes to say there is no casual
experiment and when you're dealing with
the human psyche especially the past
that's not conscious most the time
you're dealing with life and death
sometimes whether you expect to be or
not
so all you can do is is write down the
things you know and the cautions you
know if you do this this way you could
probably be safe always use a babysitter
etc etc
any child with any amount of
intelligence is going to be curious and
want to find out what it is that the
grown-ups are saying no to and the
children are they see themselves as
eternal yeah they will never die because
they they're young they're they that the
whole life ahead of them goes on forever
it's only when you get up into the end
of the 30s you begin realizing maybe it
is not eternal
yeah
I don't usually do my experiments in the
lab I usually go to my office or the
house and where I have the assurance of
someone else there in case if somebody
is quite a miss and occasionally you get
into a situation with it with a new
material that you don't know where it is
I have a classification of minus plus
minus plus two plus three plus --is to
give the relative potency of something
there is one unusual category that I
have only used twice or three times in
my life of four pluses anything and
everything that occurs is at your
command you can look at a cat up in the
hill and the cat looks at me and I smile
at the cat and the cat runs away you are
controlling that cat you have control
over everything around total control of
my environment told him list and it
occurred to me after about half an hour
of this extraordinary state what if the
thing we're not reversible could one
stay in a state of bliss for the rest of
his life it's pretty scary thought to be
able to control everything totally and I
was very happy when it began drifting
away and went back to her just a plane
plus three a super stone state but these
are little things can occur center of
that ilk that are disturbing because you
suddenly realize there they may not be
reversible perhaps you have instituted a
change and your mindset or your or your
sensory integrity that it's not
reversible this is quite scary and this
has happened a couple of times
tiny bit of a breeze but
at the moment not even that much
lightness lightness running my own body
my own show at my own pace could I Drive
a car no I couldn't drive a car but
couldn't anyway because I'm blind
that doesn't that doesn't count but you
could play the piano this is not not
with the ruling strings I'm standing up
just a bit
he's trying to think of something out
no throw it on the bricks there ya go
squirrels we get it first though I'm
pretty close to a close tree really
frankly they're very boring to me
you only get a bloom once in a while you
can't control the bloom
they'll bloom when they're ready to
bloom
cactus I'm surrounded by them just as my
father is surrounded by them my father
to my best knowledge may not even know
what I didn't mean research
he probably intellectually knew of it
and was not was not considered not
interested not know what it meant this
is my best guess I never thought of it I
don't have any problem and understanding
the the Botanical structure I don't have
a problem with the grafting I don't have
anything but cactus have this thing
called spines and there's nothing I can
do to stay away from a spine but beyond
that I'm not saying that what I have
done is less than or better than I can
only say that it's quite different then
I deal in nuts and bolts hydraulic
adapters fasteners or all different
kinds of structures things that you
can't find at the normal hardware store
okay
and living out here I was totally in
love that was a German girl D Silla and
she was married it was a very complex
relationship because she wanted to move
in with me here but also she's loved her husband
that's after my wife's Testament later
life death and service relationship will
end it is evolved into a very firm very
firm partnership
oh yeah maybe it's not your eat as many
videos no the piano I think it went out
of tune did not ask me but without shits
that much I'm gonna try to find out if
it's my ears or the taliban's has
shifted the whole herd out of tune we
have deep respect for each other we
don't try and change each other
I treasure him as he is and he treats me
exactly the same way it was right at the
passageway no I haven't the slightest
idea why I put it there no we both
learned from unhappy marriages what not
to do and I'm happy to say that after
having had three previous marriages for
not great relationships so that's good
for my children to see too
because they had awful lot of failed
marriages but in this case we both have
a very strong common interest
psychedelic drugs and visionary plants
but you know they're not the only way of
doing it but it's just chosen way you
want the most famous example of ordinary
everyday on the state falling in love
any time you fall in love if you go into
an altered state there is no question
you can have a complete absolute
psychedelic experience by falling in
love which is kind of nice
because nobody can legislate against
that though they would have favored
because falling in love is also
potentially very dangerous
maybe maybe not I may have to take my chances
because more more murders are being
committed over the loss of a love
relationship than anything else in human
experience right yes right
I don't know if that's done
it's time to turn that one off and there
are people who have psychedelic
experience from the food and that has
its dangers - oh my god
no I do not
I'm guessing it's Sasha well go find
this go ask the guy with the white hair
beer the mind is I think the allows you
of order touching of a consciousness how
far out from you is your you the outer
universe where does your consciousness
extend to where it is how how do we
communicate by word by motion by action
these are things that are thought out
processes this is the the brain function
the talking all the operations are brain
but the concept of an idea the
expression of an emotion of a of a
empathy the the word is the concept of
empathy originate only anyone knows
exactly what what what's meant by the
term empathy in terms of actual
biological relationships with with
others one theory is it like when you
have kids one of the reasons you bond
with your children because you know
children are are are completely
parasitic you know they eat your food
they sleep in your house they you know I
mean there's there's no rational reason
I got to wonderful case there's no
rational reason why anyone want children
right I mean you know but but but once
you have them you give them anything
right you know so that's that's total
empathic bonding
what's love you know what is what is
what what is that
is there a biology of love undoubtedly
there is every human experiences love
right but you know is that different
than empathy that area has been
underfinanced and under study
yeah you're right it's getting wet in
here now I'm trying to make it a deal as
you get older you tend to get interested
in more spirituality is there life after
death that sort of stuff I may wind up
there one day myself but you know the
psychedelics have multiple effects for
sure you could imagine efforts through
chemistry that define a new molecule
which is subtly different from the ones
we know of that is now able to give you
for example an anti-anxiety effect with
one of these sorts of drugs without the
psychedelic action we need new
anti-anxiety medications we need better
antidepressants the antidepressants that
we have are terrible they rarely are as
good as placebo when you test them but
they're very widely prescribed there's a
load of people on them they come with
all sorts of side effects sexual side
effects metabolic side effects leading
to weight gain things like that who
wouldn't want something better than that
and you know that's sort of where I see myself
you'd you want to respond to this order
yeah when she's grant that up there are
many doing but I did in the 50s to 60s
today he has a little laboratories but
in the commentary of all the recipes I
left a lot of clues little clues ideas
people are picking up on them and
they're pursuing them and that's exactly
what I wanted
are you surprised your work would have
such a creative influence he's an artist
I want this to be an encouragement with
ideas I've got more ideas than I have
time or energy to exploit there are a
lot of people working around the edge of
the law spending a lot of money turning
a lot of wheels and put all a lot of
people in jail but it did not change the
drug scene it just didn't yeah well I
know I'm awful glad to be out of it cuz
I don't think we did a whole lot of good
we sure tried
hello friends that is indeed how are you
hey buddy boy
yes good to see you
are you sue Republican about half sorry
mom I don't care well I really don't
care anyway right there okay that's kind okay
xeno Zingo Xango okay okay and here's a
nitrogen okay obviously CH double bond c
CH 3 ah come on no I think that way but
you see
you look you can't do it there you are
you complete you know how many years now
have you been friends oh my god since
1969 the pepper community here is right
in San Francisco 17th floor their
ability yes oh yeah yes yes wonderful we
are going up to like a plus one and it's
very what she was he it was that
conference I think where we got a
picture taken together yeah it was great
Sunday afternoons my jobs keep the
fireplace going and to make runs up and
down to the magic store room where we
get chemical store I'm pretty good long
as I didn't get paid it was okay no to
work in his lab ex Accord he was able to
get us standard for new drugs that are
out on the street before we could get
him from headquarters she did all kinds
of stuff for us we gave him an award for
his assistance 410 or zinc lead oxide
metalwork water he's my brother
maybe we were brothers in a previous
life no
watch me Buffy whoopee I don't hear it
Kirito yeah come on out in the Sun babe
yeah so we're supposed to play for a hog
roast next Saturday across the street
again
nuts red light red light they're like no
walkie no walking
how much still to my story about the
time I came to visit you and you had
figured out this formula result you know
we used to get together once or maybe
twice a year at a meeting or something
that's always fun it's nice when you can
talk to somebody who sort of understands
your language what you're talking about
Sascha is basically retired he's trying
to write up his final book I take a
printout I can't even read that anymore
now you know secretly down down secretly
I wish they were drugged we could find
that could someone could take it and
they could go do you realize how fucked
up you are in your thinking you know do
you realize what you've done you know
what we as the most advanced
civilization world what have we done we
landed on the moon but other than that
and we had the best weapons we have the
best stealth missiles the best stealth
bombers you know the best machine guns
the best laser-guided missiles I mean is
that something to be proud of you know I
don't think so try to pick up a few
hints and get better so when I retire I
can play with a band and some blues band
and say here's dr. Dave on the harp used
to be the world's LSD expert and now he
plays blues harp for us
the sort of existential questions that
people have I am just not sure that
science is what you want but I don't
take these drugs I haven't had one of
these experiences before and if someone
who had were to sort of argue that you
know that's missing the core of the
experience I would say okay you know
that I accept that you know fill it in
for me you know what do you got
Oh Agis little pills our hair
okay mr. red come on
that's like totally an amazing sight
it's handwritten mouth you know drawing
molecules on bottles and stuff like that
it's way cool I think it's just art he
does it so beautifully his notebooks are
filled with this with these he calls
them dirty pictures and when you
consider that each one of those is
probably weeks the months of work and in
the some hundreds of compounds that he's
synthesized and tested when I first
started doing serious work here Sasha
hadn't been working and has been invaded
by local critters but his vision and his
intuition are still very lively I'm sure
I could not keep up with all the things
that he would like to make but I'm
gradually getting a little better and
there's there's a long way to go okay so
now it's down to 50 degrees even see an
IPA at 50 degrees yes good enough so
it's good okay and we got a little over
one and a half grams of total cleaned
five methoxy Nault out of that I'd
middle you'd have bought wouldn't you
right methyl how long for to me so we
don't have methyl yet no so this is
really mono that'll trick me
right except Kali in law then you're
into into oh you're into ambiguity
ambiguity right and lord knows you got
all the ambiguity we can we all can
possibly want yes
I did not have a go I still don't have a
goal what I am looking for is learning
from the process what's the goal of a
hole I can't think of a good analogy and
mccann Explorer you know there's a hill
in front of them and these data see the
hallway filled with closed doors go
through them and you find another
hallway as more doors it's an actually
Marvis continuous process of discovery
maybe the mind does continue and the
soul does continue when read the
observers over the normal clock see the
brain stops
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