Doing Good (2016) Movie Script
Let me ask you this:
What made you come here?
I came here because for several years
I have seen so many people
in difficult circumstances,
people who have lost hope.
And I've seen so much suffering.
I felt I wasn't able to take in
and process any more of this.
I need to see people
coming together in a positive way.
So I thought I had to pay you a visit.
Nature...
And you will see the beauty.
But the most beautiful...
Hello?
Hey.
No?
No! Where...
Oh, no! Okay, I'll be right there.
Oh, God... Roy collapsed in the street.
They think it's a blood clot in the brain.
Joralf? Are you there?
I can feel your hand is warm.
-Can you feel this?
-No, not there. I can feel a cold hand.
-I'm sorry.
-It's too soon.
Can you feel it?
-I'm afraid not.
-No, but it will happen.
Your hand felt cold on my back,
but warm against my head.
Yes, it takes a little while.
Can you feel this?
Yes...
I can feel a warm sensation.
You can feel it.
-It's almost like a wave...
-You can feel this? Is it pleasant?
-Yes.
It actually does feel warmer
down my body as well now.
-But not below the knees.
-No, but it will.
Yes, apparently there is something
happening here.
That was very strange.
That's the nature of it.
Well... I say!
This is so bizarre!
When I touch people, they feel warmth,
but my hands can be cold to the touch.
That's what is so hard to explain.
I can be freezing cold, but when I touch
people where they hurt, they feel warm.
Someone might want to do
some research into this.
What is this?
I would gladly be at their disposal.
Tuva? Are you getting up?
It pains me to see her youth slip away
from her while she's in bed.
My daughter is chronically ill, with
a disease nobody fully understands.
Are you awake?
My daughter suffers from ME,
and has tested positive for Borrelia
for many years.
She was on an extended course of
antibiotics, which helped at the time.
But when she stopped taking the
antibiotics, she became even worse.
The national health service won't
give her any more antibiotics now.
I tell my mum sometimes that I don't
know what I'd do without her.
She does everything for me.
I experience pain in my legs,
in my feet, in my hips...
I have pains all over my body.
-Do you want me to sit there?
-Good morning!
-What's your name?
-Tuva.
-Tuva? Where are you from?
-Skien.
How nice.
-Do you have pains here?
-Yes, quite strong pains.
-How come?
-How come? I don't know.
-This. I can feel it.
-Yes. I don't know.
-Is it true, what I'm saying?
-Yes.
Then we must try to remove it.
That's good, right?
Just a moment.
Can you feel this? Does it feel nice?
It feels nice.
It's usually painful there.
-Pardon?
-I'm usually sore there.
But not now? Is it usually painful
when you put pressure on it?
-But not at the moment?
-No.
-I say, you're a really nice person.
-Thank you, and the same to you.
-Does this feel comfortable?
-Yes.
-Is your hearing weaker in one ear?
-Not to an extent where it shows,
but very often it feels like
my hearing is worse in one ear.
-In one of them, exactly. This one?
-Yes.
I can feel it.
Apart from that, I can't feel much that's
wrong with you. I've found two things.
See if you can feel the warmth.
You can hear with this ear, but does
it seem like voices are far away?
-Yes... Yes.
-They're in the distance, but near.
-It's like sounds can't get in?
-Yes, that's what it feels like.
-What does the doctor say?
-That everything is fine.
I've had my hearing checked before,
and they told me my hearing's excellent.
-You can really feel it now?
-Yes.
It's not excellent, when it seems to
you like voices are far away.
It doesn't hurt.
-What was that?
It doesn't hurt anymore.
It was painful a minute ago.
-But not anymore?
-No.
-It doesn't hurt anymore.
-Good.
-You have very beautiful teeth. Very nice.
-Thanks.
-You're a very fine young lady.
-Thank you.
Could you feel the pain go away?
-Did you feel warm?
-Yes.
And you're always cold!
I haven't felt warm in five years!
What do you make of what
he said about your ear?
Nobody has understood this before!
They said there was nothing wrong,
so I figured it was imagined.
When I listen to music with headphones on,
it feels like one side is louder.
It's the same with any headphones.
So I keep trying to push it in...
-Try now?
-Shall I try?
It could be it'll get better later,
that it's not changed yet, but...
Tell me!
For once it doesn't sound like
all the music is in one ear.
You can hear with your other ear too?
Are you joking?
No.
-Really?
-Yes!
Anybody can see nature's beauty.
We can see it's beautiful.
But the most beautiful of creations,
we cannot see: Man.
When I'm near someone who's ill,
I receive a signal in my own body.
I feel a twinge of pain.
And then I know I can
find out what's wrong.
It's like my body goes into a mode
which lets me help people.
But I think what is equally important,
is my faith and willingness to help them.
I'm afraid Joralf
no longer receives visitors.
Well, thank you very much.
I'll think of you when I'm in the sun,
in a street caf and... Yes, I will.
I will, definitely.
NEWS
Once again, chaos descended
upon Snsa Hotel.
People had traveled from near and far
to ask the "Snsa Man" for help.
Hello? Snsa Hotel.
The telephone keeps ringing
at Snsa Hotel.
They receive more than 300 calls a day,
but now the manager says "enough."
No, he can't do it anymore.
He needs peace and quiet.
People come here, practically screaming.
They keep calling.
What do we do?
We can't deal with it anymore.
It was 13 June, 2013.
I had to take sick leave from work.
I suffer from hypopituitarism,
and secondary Addison's disease.
The adrenal cortex doesn't produce
cortisol, which is a stress hormone.
I have to take between 50 and 70 pills
every day, just to get through the day.
But I'm still in pain. It feels
like my muscles are torn off.
-And where are you from?
-Svolvr, Lofoten.
"The Lofoten Singer" sends his regards.
-Stein Rasmussen. He sends his love.
-How is Stein?
-Is all well with him?
-Sure, he's just fine.
-So...
-Come, sit closer to me.
-Is something causing you pain?
-Yes.
That's right.
It's horrible.
-I'm unable to work.
-What does the doctor say?
He says it's not good,
my ailment.
-It's not good.
-Can you feel it?
-The warmth?
-Yes. Breathing feels easier.
You can breathe more easily?
You have problems with your breath?
And there. There it is.
Especially in the back, as my kidneys...
Can you feel this?
Have your kidneys been treated?
-No.
-Is there nothing that can be done?
There's something wrong
with your kidneys?
I have a very rare kidney disease.
-Then we must try...
-And it sits here too.
It feels very warm.
-But here it's cold.
-Yes...
-Is this comfortable?
-Yes.
I haven't felt this relaxed
in over a year.
-Don't you usually feel relaxed?
-No.
I'm in so much pain.
-But it's better now?
-Yes, right now it feels good.
I don't feel any pain right now.
-All over your body?
-Yes. My feet are very sore.
My problems cause
my feet to be quite painful.
-Can you feel this?
-Yes, it's getting warm.
-Do you see flashes of light?
-Come again?
-Do you see light flashing before you?
-No... Well, more a gray color...
I can feel it.
I'm getting very clammy.
I feel so warm.
-But I'm cold.
-Yes, I can tell.
But it doesn't feel like you are
when you touch my back.
Your hands don't feel cold on my back.
They feel like a radiator.
It's like a radiator against my back.
-Does this feel nice?
-Yes.
Sit with your feet over here.
It's as if all the pain is leaving
my body through my toes.
-Your hands?
-Through my toes.
That's good.
I was going to bring some
fish for you,
from Lofoten.
Dried cod. I thought I'd send you some.
-Oh, you mustn't do that.
-Sure I will, if you want it?
Okay, just don't send me huge amounts.
It's been two hours,
and I still haven't taken any medication.
My legs don't hurt.
But it's during the night
we'll get some answers.
-So we'll see tonight.
-I'll come knocking on your door, then.
-Hello?
-Hello? Who's this?
-This is Joralf Gjerstad.
-Oh, I'm sorry. I have the wrong number.
I'm so sorry. I'm at the Steinkjer
Emergency room. I do apologize .
Goodbye.
Guess who I just dialed? Joralf Gjerstad!
Hello.
I was completely comatose.
-Do you feel any pain?
-No pain. Nothing.
My legs were a little sore last night,
but that was more fatigue, I think.
No, I slept through the night.
I just woke up a little while ago.
-That felt strange.
-Strange?
Yes, I usually get up
several times a night, so...
-So you rarely sleep through the night?
-It's been a whole year since I did.
I remember when a boy died,
and there was a funeral service for him.
I knew his parents,
and it pained me deeply.
When it was time for the funeral to begin,
I snuck up in the bell tower to see it.
But not just for this funeral.
Whenever teenagers or children
were buried,
I would be up there in the bell tower.
I don't know why I did it.
I stood up there and cried for them.
Perhaps something within my soul
was nourished by this.
There was something between life and death
which urged me to witness it.
But it was a strange sight
for a 12-year-old to behold.
Going to church was a big thing
when I was a child.
Those years played a big part
in making me who I am.
When my mother said we were
supposed to be in church,
that we should have gone,
but we didn't have appropriate clothes...
These painful memories
are with me still.
But they also spark a desire in me
to try and help those who are poor,
and those who are ill.
-So what do you do?
-I suffer from anxiety.
Yes, but what is your profession?
-I'm an actress.
-You're an actress?
Well, that's great.
Well... I need to put my hands on you.
Can you feel the warmth?
A little bit.
-Are you nervous?
-Very!
-Are you always nervous?
-Yes.
-Do you ears hurt as well?
-No.
You don't have any pain here?
Can you feel it?
Can you feel the warmth?
There.
It must be very difficult,
living with anxiety.
-I have stomach pains.
-And it keeps you from going out.
That must stop. You have to go out.
Because there's nothing wrong with you.
But your nervousness is so strong
that you torture yourself.
You really torture yourself.
You're healthy, but so nervous.
And you have been from a young age.
From when you were
14 or 15 years old.
Something in your life stopped you
a bit,
and made you become this way.
And for a while, it was really bad.
You were so nervous it was almost
impossible just to exist.
We'll try to remove that. Actually,
it is in the process of going away.
But it still weighs heavily on your mind.
-Isn't that right?
-Yes.
-Do you sing in a choir?
-I used to.
But you quit. That was a big mistake.
You love singing so much.
So you should never have quit,
but that's what you did.
You should join a choir again.
It'll give you joy.
It's true, I do like to sing.
Yes, you do. So why did you quit?
-Were you nervous?
-I don't like my voice.
-Sing me a song.
-Okay.
Now.
-Do you play the piano?
-A little bit, yes.
-Can you play me a tune?
-Sure.
I want you to write me.
And you must turn everything around.
Turn over a new leaf.
And don't underestimate yourself.
You underestimate yourself
so much, it is just terrible.
-You must stop doing that.
-Yes...
Don't you agree?
You can have faith in me,
because I have a lot of faith in you.
You do?
100%. I can see
what kind of person you are.
You have suffered for so many years.
You've cried a lot, on your own.
People have told you not to be like that.
But you can't change because of that.
Just because people tell you how to be.
Only you know who and what you are.
Welcome to the Gjerstad home.
Joralf's childhood home has
been turned into a little museum.
The room in which Joralf
was born is in this house.
Here's your mail, Joralf.
-There.
-Thanks a lot.
-How are you, all right?
-Sure. And you?
Yes, we're all fine too.
"Dear Joralf, I am 65 years old."
"I've suffered from terrible anxiety
since losing my cat."
SNSA HOSPITAL
Come here.
Oh, you're so cold!
-Do you like it here?
-Yes, I do.
I couldn't have asked for
a better life partner than Signe.
She is a very lovely type of person.
And we went through some rough times.
Back when we didn't have any children.
It would take 15 years until it happened.
Those years were
very painful for us both.
But eventually we did have
children
who we could care for.
-Do you want me to pick you up later?
-Yes.
Just give me a call, as usual.
Sure, will do.
I'll just pop down to the shop.
Do you want anything from the shop?
A soft serve ice cream? No?
-They give us food here, you know.
-I suppose they do.
Hey, there was something else...
Let's try to dance.
Dance? I don't think so.
They must think you're drunk!
It hurts me deeply when someone says
to me I should make Signe well.
I feel that's very harsh.
It puts me in a situation where
you're not as strong as you think.
When I can't fix Signe's health.
It's very hurtful to
have people in the area
who think I've lost my powers
because I can't help Signe.
JORALF GJERSTAD
"THE SNSA MAN"
I'M WRITING TO YOU TO LET YOU KNOW
THE CANCER HAS SPREAD
HELP ME
SO TIRED OF EVERYTHING
HELP
DESPAIR
GOD
I BEG YOU
I'm diabetic and I have sarcoidosis,
an inflammatory disease.
It affects the body quite like cancer.
Both my lungs are affected.
It makes me tired and lethargic,
it causes muscular atrophy,
neuropathy, chronic pain,
strain injuries...
I am no longer fit to work.
I've been ill most of my life.
-What were you first diagnosed with?
-Anxiety.
I had an unstable upbringing.
My parents did a lot of silly things,
they drank. I grew up with all of this,
and it made me insecure.
We moved a lot,
and I was bullied in school.
-Do you wear glasses?
-I should, really.
Yes, you should.
One eye is weaker than the other.
-They're not the same, it's like this...
-Yes, I have cataracts in my left eye.
So you know.
You should get an operation.
I think so, yes.
And sometimes it hurts here?
-Yes, my neck...
-Do you feel waves of pain?
-Did you suffer a blow, or what is it?
-I'm not sure.
-It's not like a normal headache.
-No, it's more like waves? Like this?
-Painful, and then it's gone.
-Yes, it comes and goes suddenly.
Kind of like a rubber band.
Oh, that's really warm!
It feels really warm.
-One side of your stomach is sore.
-Yes, this one.
-Why is that?
-I don't know.
-You should be seen by a doctor.
-I presume it's caused by medications.
Too many medications.
You must take this seriously,
and go see the doctor again.
You're having a hard time.
You think a lot.
You shouldn't think too much.
Well, I try not to!
But it's not so easy.
You dismiss yourself.
You mustn't do that.
If you want to live, you mustn't
have such a bleak outlook.
Everything looks bleak to you.
There's no joy in your life anymore.
That's a great pity.
You are going through
a period of your life
which may be hard to
make sense out of,
but things will only get better from here.
You have an unfortunate ability
to belittle yourself.
It's terrible. You mustn't do that.
You have to try not to do that.
If you can find joy,
joy over today and joy over life,
then the pain might just go away too.
But right now you are causing
the pain to only grow and grow.
You're simply feeding the pain.
My back feels very different.
I can feel this heat,
it's as if I've taken painkillers.
It feels like I'm on medication.
That's funny,
when all he did was touch me.
What a strange sensation.
When he touched my back, it felt
like it was shooting through my leg.
It was very bizarre.
But only time will tell.
Maybe it'll stay this way?
I did feel a big difference in there.
It was like my back disappeared..
I couldn't feel any back pains anymore.
That's a little crazy.
I'm not used to that.
-I hope it stays like this for a while.
-Yes, let's hope so.
It was funny, he knew a lot about me
which nobody had told him about.
I know, he's like that.
It's just the way it is.
That's the thing.
Do you have any idea
how this came to be?
No. Not at all.
-That's just the way it is.
-Yeah.
-Nobody talks about it much?
-No, we don't, really.
I was nine months old when I arrived in
Snsa, to live with Joralf and Signe.
They adopted me. And what a joyful day
that was, so I've been told.
I was vulnerable and small,
and was given a new home.
These things can make you feel
like you want to give something back.
At times people have thought that I have
the same abilities, but I was adopted!
He helps me with everything
I can't do myself. That's a lot.
I can get myself into bed, just.
Well, I shouldn't exaggerate.
But it doesn't take long before
I get very anxious if I can't
get a hold of John Sverre.
In that moment he can almost
sense that I need him.
I do get a little beside myself
if I can't reach him.
That must be old age,
because it never used to be like this.
-And here's Marthe.
-Marthe! Well, I never!
-Hey, you.
-Hi, Marthe! Long time, no see!
-Did you miss me?
-It's good to see you, Joralf.
Tell them about the first time we met.
Do you remember?
-Not just now, but...
-Didn't your feet hurt?
-Yes.
-And you walked up the stairs?
Indeed I did.
-But you couldn't before.
-No.
But then you could walk,
and then you and I became friends.
-One night you brought me roses.
-Yes, I did.
"These are for you, for being so kind,"
you said to me. But you're the kind one.
Yes. But you're really nice too, Joralf.
-Marthe, do you want to come up here?
-Yes!
Give a big hand for Marthe!
-Great!
-Yes!
That was excellent, Marthe Sakshaug!
-I'll leave now, but you must think of me.
-You know I will.
-Are you sure?
-Of course I'm sure, Joralf.
-I'll always love you, Joralf.
-I know you will.
Thank you for being so kind
and coming to see me.
Thank you for singing
that beautiful song.
Take care of yourself. You're good.
Since birth I've have locked joints in my
neck, down my back and in my pelvis.
I really wish he could just make
the joint locking disappear.
I'm very afraid of the dark,
and of being alone.
I'm very scared of dying.
I have a lot of horrible nightmares.
It's because bad things often
happen to the ones I love.
My father has been very close to death.
And the doctors don't know what's
wrong with him, so they can't help.
Maybe
he too could get some help.
She's diagnosed with KISS/KIDD syndrome,
which has developed either
during pregnancy or at birth.
Her joints are locking,
her atlantoaxial joints and spine,
and sometimes in her hips and pelvis.
All over, really.
It affects both sides of her body,
so it wasn't visible until very late.
So the condition had a lot of time to take
hold. She's been in a lot of pain.
A lot of pain.
-Hello!
-Good afternoon.
-I'm Mira.
-Nice to meet you!
Please take a seat. Where are you from?
I'm from Sarpsborg.
Are you in fourth grade? Fifth?
-I'll soon start sixth grade.
-Wow! How old are you?
I'm eleven.
-Are you doing well at school?
-Quite.
-Do you like math?
-Yes.
-And English?
-Yes.
-Wow!
-Does this feel nice?
-Were you nervous about coming here?
-A little, but...
-But not anymore?
-No.
It'll be just fine.
I've often had problems with my neck.
My joints lock up.
The joints in my neck get locked.
Look at me.
Can you feel the warmth?
-Yes.
-Is this comfortable?
Turn your head the other way.
And then back this way.
-Is that easier?
-Yes!
-Did that feel good?
-Yes! How did you do that?
Walk for me.
What did you say?
-What's the matter?
-It feels so light!
Is it comfortable?
Oh, don't cry. Why are you crying?
Come here.
Why are you crying?
-Are you feeling better?
-Yes.
That's great!
It's okay to cry a little, then.
This feels so nice.
Is it better?
So much better.
-That's why you came here, right?
-Yeah.
What do you want to be
when you grow up?
A marine biologist.
-Wow, that means a lot of studying!
-Yes.
-But you can do it!
-Yes.
-Can you feel this?
-I can feel the warmth.
Walk again, let me see.
-Wow!
-Do like this.
Whoa!
Turn around.
Hands behind your head.
Is it better?
It feels incredibly good!
-Wow!
-Incredibly good?
It feels very good
getting rid of those knots.
That's good.
-My "backpack" is gone!
-Gone?
Yes, it was like wearing a backpack.
My shoulders feel very light.
Very light!
My dad has been very ill.
Oh, but then we must...
Is he coming to see me too?
-Is he coming here?
-I sure hope so!
But no doctor has figured out
what is actually wrong with him.
But then we must have a look.
Go and get him.
Gosh... Dad, come!
It feels so strange.
I can't feel it anymore. Where
are my shoulders, are they still there?
What is it that's bothering you?
I have diarrhea. I mean... My bowels.
-Can you feel the warmth?
-Yes, I can.
-Does it feel nice?
-Yes, it does.
-You don't believe in this, do you?
-No, that's true.
-But your daughter believes in it.
-She does.
It's perfectly normal
for you to not believe in this.
So it wouldn't be normal
for you to get well now, huh?
Well, in that case...
That would be like
being given the gift of life.
-Can you feel this?
-Yes, I feel a strong heat.
-You can feel it?
-Yes, it's warm.
Is it comfortable?
I feel good! I feel just fine.
-Better than in a long time?
-Yes, absolutely!
You'll have to believe in this now?
-Well, there must be something...
-Ach, I'm just joking.
I have to see how I feel later,
but it's very strange, I must say.
-You'll have a well daddy now.
-Yes.
-Goodbye!
-Bye.
We'll write you!
How do you feel?
I felt this heat through my body...
-My locked joints, they just... poof!
-Are you joking?
-No.
-You can feel it?
Yes, I feel better than I ever have!
Wow... Here, hold my hand.
-Look at that... Completely relaxed.
-Yes.
Mira's very happy.
I told him about Dad as well,
and then he told me to go and get him.
He said he thinks
I'll be completely well again.
Aron, come.
Let me feel you.
If this means some new doors
are opened, then...
...it means that maybe...
...maybe you can take over
the football coaching.
I would love to do that.
I think things will work out.
Mira was completely... It's fantastic.
-Have you been ill for some time?
-Yes, almost three years.
I keep thinking about my children.
They are five and ten years old now.
They'll need their mummy
for many years still.
-What kind of disease do you have?
-Breast cancer, and it's metastatic.
My cancer specialist at Ullevl said...
Before it spread, she said:
"If it spreads, it means it's the type
of cancer we have good medicines for."
So this means, even if I'm extremely
unlucky, I've had a bit of luck as well.
There is good medication available.
I get Herceptin every three weeks.
It extends the lives of many
cancer patients by several years.
I can't feel it.
I can't feel your illness.
-I couldn't feel it.
-No?
Perhaps... I was diagnosed with
breast cancer three years ago.
And one year ago, they told me
it had spread to my bones.
I've been treated with radiotherapy.
They've told me
I'll never be well again,
but they'll try to keep it under control.
I couldn't feel what was wrong with you.
I usually do, but not this time.
-The only thing I could feel, was here.
-Okay.
But exactly what ailment
you have, I can't feel it.
I nearly always do. But perhaps
it was removed by your treatment.
-I can feel this.
-Right.
I've had pains in this spot
for many years.
That's what I'm saying. Right there.
But I've had it checked,
and they've found nothing.
-But it's still painful?
-Not so much anymore.
-But I do have a spot there, where...
-Yes, I can feel that.
-I'm sorry I couldn't feel your illness.
-I'd like to think that's a good sign.
I couldn't feel it at all.
I must honestly tell you that.
I saw your hand too,
but I still couldn't feel anything.
-I hope you're not insulted?
-Not at all!
Thank you so much.
Good luck and safe journey home.
Send your children my love.
I will, they'll love that. They think it's
very exciting that I'm here to see you.
-I'll send them a little something.
-Thank you!
And my doctor sends his regards.
He's a fantastic man, and he said:
"Send my regards to Joralf
and tell him he's doing a good job."
-Thank you, and send my regards.
-I will.
After you leave here,
you'll have happiness and tears.
But take it as a good sign.
I know you'll cry.
But don't cry over your illness.
Cry instead of joy, over the good things.
STFOLD FREDRIKSTAD HOSPITAL
QUARTERLY APPOINTMENT AT THE CANCER WARD
Come in.
-Hi.
-Hello!
-Come on in!
-Thank you.
First of all: everything is fine!
-Is it really?
-Yes!
-Oh, that's great!
-Everything.
Gosh, that makes me happy.
Did you expect something else?
Yeah, the thoughts do haunt you.
-So nothing has changed?
-Nothing.
-Is it denser?
-Same changes to scar tissue as before.
So we'll just continue as planned.
You'll likely continue with Herceptin
for months and years to come.
-Is stopping taking Herceptin an option?
-Not as far as I'm concerned.
Think of the Herceptin
as your foot on the brake pedal.
I would like to suggest
we give it four months until next time.
-Does that scare you?
-No, four is okay.
-I'm glad you didn't say six.
-No, let's go with four.
That's fine.
I have a profound respect
for medical science.
I've always championed medical
science, it would be foolish not to.
Because what I do,
is something entirely different
to medical science.
And it's funny. Now I've been
doing this for so long,
I count a lot of doctors
among my friends.
And they do a fantastic job
in their respective areas.
I don't toss them aside.
I'm just glad they'll listen to me.
I've never criticized medical science.
I've always told people to seek
medical advice when they're ill.
I may meet people who have,
for example,
cancer.
I can feel that there's something there.
Then I send them to the doctor.
I can't do anything for them.
They need a doctor.
I've been to hospital myself,
quite often.
Personally, I wouldn't go to
a healer in order to get well.
-I need professional help.
-Would you visit the "Snsa Man"?
It depends, if I got to know him.
It's hard to get to know him.
Maybe I would have gone
to see him, but I don't think
he could have cured my legs.
I've been operated in both knees.
That's a good question, actually.
Can you heal yourself?
No.
-That's not possible?
-No.
So if your hearing's bad
in one ear, you can't...?
No.
My hearing's bad in both ears!
Looks like the Snsa Man is tired!
Are you falling asleep?
-Are you falling asleep?
-Yeah, but that's okay.
As long as you don't start
talking in your sleep!
You'll just stay there for 24 hours,
right? In the hospital? 24 hours?
-24 hours?
-Yes.
-I know nothing about that.
-Are you dreading it now?
-No, no.
-Oh, yes you are.
Not in the slightest.
They want to check my blood.
My blood pressure's a little low.
-Is that why you're going there?
-Exactly.
-Is that why they're admitting you?
-I'm being admitted?
-That's what the letter said.
-That's impossible.
-I'm fit as a fiddle!
-Yeah...
-You won't get any food or drink now.
-You're saving, are you?
Saving, yes... You can have
some after the examination!
I'll let the doctor know you're here,
and he'll come see you.
I'll put a little needle in your hand.
Is that necessary?
Yes, I'm afraid so!
Right, I'll be on my way.
I'll talk to you on the telephone later.
-That's fine, you can go.
-Alright. Bye.
-I'm sure it's normal?
-Probably.
Maybe we should take a little break.
How does it taste? Horrible?
-No, it's okay.
-It's fine?
-36-1.
-A bit low?
Yes.
Breathe in. Hold your breath.
Your GP told us you have a low blood
count, that you have an iron deficiency.
Now we'll find out if you have any ulcers
or anything else that can explain it.
The examination is a bit unpleasant,
but you already know that.
Now we'll take a look in the stomach.
You're doing really well.
Right. I'll release the air,
and then we're finished.
-Did it look okay?
-Yes, it looks fine.
Sometimes, after abdominal surgery,
cancer might occur where
the small intestine meets the stomach.
-There are no signs of this in your case.
-So all is well?
It looks fine, and there are no ulcers
that would explain your blood loss.
-Have a safe journey home.
-Thanks. Bye.
It was nonsense sending me here.
Nobody's as healthy as me!
Well, it's... Ow!
I got an electric shock.
I was born with hydrocephalus.
An accumulation of fluids in the brain.
I had over twenty operations
by the time I was nine months old.
They just wanted to give up on me.
They put me in a room, in a row of beds
with other children they had given up on.
They were put there to die in peace.
But my parents refused to accept this,
and physically removed me from there.
I can't feel it. I can't feel anything.
And it's... I'm a bit...
-Should I take my shoes off?
-No.
-Can't you feel anything?
-No.
-You have no sensation?
-No, I can't feel anything in my legs.
My legs have no sense of touch.
I can't feel when I need
the bathroom, nothing.
And that's that.
Walk for me again, let me see.
I have a shunt here,
and three or more drains
going from my head
down into my abdominal cavity.
-And I've been operated over 20 times.
-How many?
I was operated on more than twenty times
before I was nine months old.
And I've had surgery later as well.
My last operation
was in 2010.
That's when I lost sensation in my legs.
Is it comfortable?
I'm not comfortable in my body
at all. I'm in a lot of pain.
But it feels nice when
you hold your hand there.
-I do feel a difference.
-Yes.
It does feel different.
And I hope that this change
will get better...
-That it will change for the better.
-Getting better, I see.
-Does it hurt here?
-It's very painful, yes.
-And I...
-It hurts?
I just don't know what to do,
the pain is excruciating. I can't...
I didn't know what to do,
if I should start crying or if I...
-If you should...?
-No, I just couldn't...
-Do you want to go back in there?
-I don't know what I want to do.
Come on, let's go back in.
I just have these
terrible pains in my head.
My head hurts so much,
if I start crying and then...
-Where does it hurt? In your neck?
-No, no...
It's my head. My head really hurts.
And...
It's not always easy to be me.
I was subjected to a lot of
severe bullying in school.
Physical violence.
They hit me, kicked me, spat at me.
My hair would be soaking wet
when I walked home.
Even... I wouldn't call it rape,
but it was of a sexual nature.
Hate campaigns, nasty things in the post.
I received tape recordings telling me
I don't deserve to be alive,
but who would they torture otherwise?
We never reported the abuse.
It's all so murky, so horrible.
And adults who daren't take
responsibility,
as they didn't do anything.
They turned a blind eye.
Thank you. That was lovely.
Thank you ever so much. God bless you.
Thank you so much. Thank you.
I wish you all the best.
Hey... I did try as best I could.
I really believe you did.
I'm eternally grateful for this.
Thank you so much.
-Will you write me?
-I will.
-All the best. Farewell.
-Goodbye. Thank you.
Perhaps she felt sorry for me
because I was unable to help her.
So she wanted to sing me a song.
A song that I really like.
This gives me something
that nobody else understands.
I found myself in a very dark place.
After I had helped a number of people,
certain things were written about me
in the press, people were mocking me.
I was torn between two forces.
On one side was the divine,
Christianity.
On the other side, nothingness.
It led me to...
...adopt a very bleak outlook on life.
And I stood on a bridge.
I was planning to kill myself.
But it was
goodness that won.
And I...
I changed my mind.
Perhaps this could be said for
a few things in life.
There are two sides to every story,
and then people choose
to see the dark side.
But I chose the light side. The best side.
I came to realize it would be awful
if I hurt those who are close to me.
There was a light that stopped me.
And then I went back home.
Do you remember when I disappeared,
and you all went searching for me?
I felt incredibly low then.
So I haven't been a strong man.
And if anyone turned against us,
and insulted you, Signe, or us both,
it would make me feel very sad,
and I would wander off on my own.
There were many such occasions. If it
weren't for Signe, I wouldn't be here.
Because she's such a strong person.
She always welcomed me with open arms.
-Even if I yelled at her...
-Yelled at me? You never did that.
I wasn't the man I was supposed to be.
Many people left me. Relatives...
Many people didn't like who I was.
But I couldn't help it. I was just
very different to other people.
In 2008 I had a fall while doing
construction work. I fell 3.5 meters.
I hit the concrete floor with
my face and head.
I had a few teeth knocked out...
And my lower jaw was displaced
by a few millimeters.
This arm was broken, crushed.
It did result in a head injury, but
I didn't notice until two months later.
I started getting hot flushes
in my head,
things like that.
And it has continued since then.
I was admitted to hospital last year.
They treat me with shots
once every month.
I'll just have to keep taking them.
Unless a miracle happens.
Are you working in Sarpsborg?
No, I don't do much work anymore.
I'm on benefits.
-Illness?
-No, an injury.
-Your back?
-In my neck.
Do you struggle to lift your arms?
-No, not really.
-Come, sit closer.
-So you don't have pains here?
-A bit, yes, in that arm.
Yes, I can feel it. That muscle there.
-It's not in a good state.
-No, it's not.
I broke my hand in the fall too,
so I've used it incorrectly.
I see.
And you have a sore knee?
-Not that I'm aware of.
-Has it been sore in the past? Think.
-Yes, I had a football injury once.
-Yeah, that must be it.
-So you played football?
-Yes.
-Was it a bad kick, or did you fall?
-No, I twisted my knee.
-I see, but it was that knee.
-Yes, that's correct.
It's fine now, but it wasn't in the past.
Is it more flexible?
-Yeah...
-Do you feel more supple?
Well, something's different...
-Yes.
-Can you feel it? Is it better?
-Yes, I couldn't bend it like this before.
-Turn your head this way.
And now that way.
Is it more supple?
Look this way.
Is it better?
-Yeah...
-And now look up. Better?
It's strange. These movements
usually make me feel warm, but not now.
No, but there's too much fat back here!
-I could never bend this wrist before.
-You couldn't bend it?
No, I broke this arm, so it's been stiff.
This will do you good later.
You can feel this now, huh?
Now move it.
It was completely stiff this morning.
And it has been for six years!
Six years, are you sure?
It's been stiff?
-So you couldn't do that before?
-No, I couldn't.
-That's good.
-Yes.
Incredible.
-Can you feel the warmth?
-Yes. It goes through the shoe?
Does it feel nice?
Yeah. I don't understand
how it goes through the shoe.
I don't understand it myself.
Feel me. I'm cold.
But let's not speculate about that.
It's a gift, an ability.
I don't know how it works.
But I'm not a conjurer.
I don't want to be one.
I just want to help people naturally.
If I hadn't been a man,
I would've cried.
I can't feel anything...
I just don't get it. I keep moving
my head, and there's no pain.
How bizarre.
Thousands of hours of
physical therapy and training...
Can I squeeze your hand?
Am I squeezing hard?
-Yes, very hard!
-Really?
I couldn't do that before!
This hand... This is just...
I never expected this
in a million years.
I must honestly say
that I've joked about these things,
I didn't believe in it.
But if I had moved around this much
this morning, I would've been sweating.
And I don't feel any pain
in my head. Nothing at all.
-I can bend my wrist!
-No?
Yes! I can.
It was like I had a sort of spiritual
high or something. I've never...
We can talk about it when I get home.
Tell Thomas I'll knock his socks
off at the table tennis.
You'd better watch out when I get home,
things might get very hot in bed...
My greatest achievement
is believing in goodness.
It has given me powers.
If you start thinking of goodness,
then something changes in you.
This is necessary
if you want to renew yourself.
It's more for the good of other people,
not yourself.
It doesn't have to be a "Snsa Man."
Everybody has this ability.
But nobody has the faith or willingness.
I have faith and willingness to help
others. It's what gives me my powers.
That's what is happening to me.
You asked me once: "Why did
you come to Snsa, Margreth?"
The answer to that is:
When I was working on my last film,
about children fleeing from
the atrocities of war,
I met so many people
who had lost all faith.
And I felt that perhaps I had to stop
documenting the suffering of others.
That I no longer have
the ability to cope with it.
But
I don't think I can.
I think I need to go back to it
and continue.
It's like a spotlight.
That's what a film can do, put a spotlight
on those who are in need.
And if we do this enough,
in a powerful way,
then people can't ignore it anymore.
No.
You have a task to do.
You've started doing this task.
But it never ends. What will you do
next, when this film is finished?
You'll be asking yourself this.
"What will I do after this film?"
That's when you need to keep moving.
And that's when
you must find strength to keep on working.
It will come to you, from within.
You'll never be free from film making.
And you'll never be free from
talking about people's suffering.
This is a major task you're facing.
Are you okay?
You can stand here by the car.
You just wait here,
and I'll go light it up.
Hurry up, I can't stand
on my own for very long.
Come here.
It's good for you to be here.
You know, so you can see them burn.
That's a lot of joy and sorrow.
You've helped a lot of people.
What goes up in smoke now,
you're taking with you.
Nobody else knows about it.
None of this will be revealed
to the public.
But the warmth we're feeling is
coming from the public, of course.
Are you sure you didn't burn
any love letters as well?
Oh, I did. Lots!
I've suffered from anxiety for 28 years.
All this time I've not lived,
just existed.
I had a head injury
after I fell whilst roller skiing.
My wife is dead. Can you help me?
I couldn't deal with anything nice.
I couldn't even be around my kids.
There are no medicines
for what I have.
It's congenital, but it started
when I was around 17 years old.
For many years I've eaten
very little, and I'm very skinny.
I had an older brother
who died in 1994.
I saved him from overdoses many times.
I had to take care of him
and stay at home to keep him alive.
Well...
This will all be over soon.
Flames of unburnt happiness.
But tell me something:
How come you've chosen to dedicate
so much of your life to helping others?
You know, someone who takes part
in a... what do you call it...
The running thing...
A marathon!
He has to keep running if he's
to make it to the finishing line.
I had to use my ability to help others.
Otherwise I wouldn't
make it to the finishing line.
And we can see the beauty.
But the most beautiful...
Hello?
Hey.
No?
No! No, where...
Oh, no! Okay, I'll be right there.
Oh, God...
-Joralf, are you there?
-Yes.
Roy had a stroke. Can you help us?
I'll have to try.
I don't know what you do, Joralf,
but that thing you do, can you
try and do it for my boyfriend now?
I'll certainly try.
-What do the doctors say?
-They say he might die.
The doctors can do a lot,
with brain function, and...
They'll do all they can.
Don't lose faith in yourself, Margreth.
Of course it's tough,
but you have to look to the future.
What do you reckon
I can do for him now?
Be there for him and give him comfort.
And hope.
I really hope he'll regain all functions.
I think he'll make it.
If he's able to look to the future
himself, and if he keeps the faith,
that makes the world of difference.
Nobody goes through life without
experiencing pain, that's for sure.
But nobody mentions goodness.
Goodness is greater.
But people only see evil.
Goodness rules supreme.
Goodness is victorious.
It brings people back to
what they were meant to be,
faithful to goodness.
Faithful to their fellow man.
Faithful to themselves.
That's the real greatness in life.
Finding the power which creates
natural goodness for all.
When I left Snsa, I felt really well.
This lasted for two months.
I went back to school. But after two
months things went downhill again.
I started feeling aches and pains
in my joints, bones and muscles.
I still have the same two ailments,
but breathing is a lot easier now.
I struggled to breath for over a year,
it was like breathing through a straw.
But about a week after seeing Joralf,
it was as if my breathing just opened up.
And I could breathe normally again.
I used to feel so worthless,
but now I feel like I'm worth something.
If you feel that you're worth something,
you don't have a great sense of unease.
I felt he saw into my soul
and told me I was good enough.
He did tell me under no uncertain terms
that my ailments
are of such a nature that I need surgery,
which he couldn't do for me.
For me, the changes have
been psychological.
The toughest days are a little easier
to deal with, because of what he said.
My hands can be completely at rest,
and all the twitching is gone.
Mira hasn't been in need
of any more treatment.
My life has changed completely.
I'm practically well again.
There were medicines prescribed by
the doctor which affected my bowels.
I've not used any of those medicines
since.
I'm going through a rough time now.
Six months after filming,
the cancer spread again
in the same vertebra.
So I've been through radiation treatment
and I'm currently getting chemotherapy.
I didn't go to Snsa thinking
that Joralf could cure me,
but rather hoping he could
give me something good.
The amount of pain I feel
hasn't really changed much.
It might actually be worse.
But when I feel his warm hand
on my shoulder, it feels like
it helps me on those mornings when
I wake up and can't take it anymore.
I have a lot of mornings like that.
But I think to myself,
when I feel his warm hand
on my shoulder, that it'll do.
It's quite remarkable, my hand.
I didn't have any strength in it.
I never thought I'd be
able to play table tennis,
but I managed to do a spin serve
and everything now.
My head hasn't hurt nearly as much.
I used to get shots to relieve the pain,
but I no longer take those.
And I think that's thanks to Joralf.
Roy, what are your thoughts
on the future now?
I'm thinking that I may have to put up
with a lot of pain for half a year,
and then I might look forward
to 40 happy years.
I have to become as independent
as possible, be able to walk...
And be able to take care of myself.
It is safe to say that you've been lucky.
But you must never give up.
What made you come here?
I came here because for several years
I have seen so many people
in difficult circumstances,
people who have lost hope.
And I've seen so much suffering.
I felt I wasn't able to take in
and process any more of this.
I need to see people
coming together in a positive way.
So I thought I had to pay you a visit.
Nature...
And you will see the beauty.
But the most beautiful...
Hello?
Hey.
No?
No! Where...
Oh, no! Okay, I'll be right there.
Oh, God... Roy collapsed in the street.
They think it's a blood clot in the brain.
Joralf? Are you there?
I can feel your hand is warm.
-Can you feel this?
-No, not there. I can feel a cold hand.
-I'm sorry.
-It's too soon.
Can you feel it?
-I'm afraid not.
-No, but it will happen.
Your hand felt cold on my back,
but warm against my head.
Yes, it takes a little while.
Can you feel this?
Yes...
I can feel a warm sensation.
You can feel it.
-It's almost like a wave...
-You can feel this? Is it pleasant?
-Yes.
It actually does feel warmer
down my body as well now.
-But not below the knees.
-No, but it will.
Yes, apparently there is something
happening here.
That was very strange.
That's the nature of it.
Well... I say!
This is so bizarre!
When I touch people, they feel warmth,
but my hands can be cold to the touch.
That's what is so hard to explain.
I can be freezing cold, but when I touch
people where they hurt, they feel warm.
Someone might want to do
some research into this.
What is this?
I would gladly be at their disposal.
Tuva? Are you getting up?
It pains me to see her youth slip away
from her while she's in bed.
My daughter is chronically ill, with
a disease nobody fully understands.
Are you awake?
My daughter suffers from ME,
and has tested positive for Borrelia
for many years.
She was on an extended course of
antibiotics, which helped at the time.
But when she stopped taking the
antibiotics, she became even worse.
The national health service won't
give her any more antibiotics now.
I tell my mum sometimes that I don't
know what I'd do without her.
She does everything for me.
I experience pain in my legs,
in my feet, in my hips...
I have pains all over my body.
-Do you want me to sit there?
-Good morning!
-What's your name?
-Tuva.
-Tuva? Where are you from?
-Skien.
How nice.
-Do you have pains here?
-Yes, quite strong pains.
-How come?
-How come? I don't know.
-This. I can feel it.
-Yes. I don't know.
-Is it true, what I'm saying?
-Yes.
Then we must try to remove it.
That's good, right?
Just a moment.
Can you feel this? Does it feel nice?
It feels nice.
It's usually painful there.
-Pardon?
-I'm usually sore there.
But not now? Is it usually painful
when you put pressure on it?
-But not at the moment?
-No.
-I say, you're a really nice person.
-Thank you, and the same to you.
-Does this feel comfortable?
-Yes.
-Is your hearing weaker in one ear?
-Not to an extent where it shows,
but very often it feels like
my hearing is worse in one ear.
-In one of them, exactly. This one?
-Yes.
I can feel it.
Apart from that, I can't feel much that's
wrong with you. I've found two things.
See if you can feel the warmth.
You can hear with this ear, but does
it seem like voices are far away?
-Yes... Yes.
-They're in the distance, but near.
-It's like sounds can't get in?
-Yes, that's what it feels like.
-What does the doctor say?
-That everything is fine.
I've had my hearing checked before,
and they told me my hearing's excellent.
-You can really feel it now?
-Yes.
It's not excellent, when it seems to
you like voices are far away.
It doesn't hurt.
-What was that?
It doesn't hurt anymore.
It was painful a minute ago.
-But not anymore?
-No.
-It doesn't hurt anymore.
-Good.
-You have very beautiful teeth. Very nice.
-Thanks.
-You're a very fine young lady.
-Thank you.
Could you feel the pain go away?
-Did you feel warm?
-Yes.
And you're always cold!
I haven't felt warm in five years!
What do you make of what
he said about your ear?
Nobody has understood this before!
They said there was nothing wrong,
so I figured it was imagined.
When I listen to music with headphones on,
it feels like one side is louder.
It's the same with any headphones.
So I keep trying to push it in...
-Try now?
-Shall I try?
It could be it'll get better later,
that it's not changed yet, but...
Tell me!
For once it doesn't sound like
all the music is in one ear.
You can hear with your other ear too?
Are you joking?
No.
-Really?
-Yes!
Anybody can see nature's beauty.
We can see it's beautiful.
But the most beautiful of creations,
we cannot see: Man.
When I'm near someone who's ill,
I receive a signal in my own body.
I feel a twinge of pain.
And then I know I can
find out what's wrong.
It's like my body goes into a mode
which lets me help people.
But I think what is equally important,
is my faith and willingness to help them.
I'm afraid Joralf
no longer receives visitors.
Well, thank you very much.
I'll think of you when I'm in the sun,
in a street caf and... Yes, I will.
I will, definitely.
NEWS
Once again, chaos descended
upon Snsa Hotel.
People had traveled from near and far
to ask the "Snsa Man" for help.
Hello? Snsa Hotel.
The telephone keeps ringing
at Snsa Hotel.
They receive more than 300 calls a day,
but now the manager says "enough."
No, he can't do it anymore.
He needs peace and quiet.
People come here, practically screaming.
They keep calling.
What do we do?
We can't deal with it anymore.
It was 13 June, 2013.
I had to take sick leave from work.
I suffer from hypopituitarism,
and secondary Addison's disease.
The adrenal cortex doesn't produce
cortisol, which is a stress hormone.
I have to take between 50 and 70 pills
every day, just to get through the day.
But I'm still in pain. It feels
like my muscles are torn off.
-And where are you from?
-Svolvr, Lofoten.
"The Lofoten Singer" sends his regards.
-Stein Rasmussen. He sends his love.
-How is Stein?
-Is all well with him?
-Sure, he's just fine.
-So...
-Come, sit closer to me.
-Is something causing you pain?
-Yes.
That's right.
It's horrible.
-I'm unable to work.
-What does the doctor say?
He says it's not good,
my ailment.
-It's not good.
-Can you feel it?
-The warmth?
-Yes. Breathing feels easier.
You can breathe more easily?
You have problems with your breath?
And there. There it is.
Especially in the back, as my kidneys...
Can you feel this?
Have your kidneys been treated?
-No.
-Is there nothing that can be done?
There's something wrong
with your kidneys?
I have a very rare kidney disease.
-Then we must try...
-And it sits here too.
It feels very warm.
-But here it's cold.
-Yes...
-Is this comfortable?
-Yes.
I haven't felt this relaxed
in over a year.
-Don't you usually feel relaxed?
-No.
I'm in so much pain.
-But it's better now?
-Yes, right now it feels good.
I don't feel any pain right now.
-All over your body?
-Yes. My feet are very sore.
My problems cause
my feet to be quite painful.
-Can you feel this?
-Yes, it's getting warm.
-Do you see flashes of light?
-Come again?
-Do you see light flashing before you?
-No... Well, more a gray color...
I can feel it.
I'm getting very clammy.
I feel so warm.
-But I'm cold.
-Yes, I can tell.
But it doesn't feel like you are
when you touch my back.
Your hands don't feel cold on my back.
They feel like a radiator.
It's like a radiator against my back.
-Does this feel nice?
-Yes.
Sit with your feet over here.
It's as if all the pain is leaving
my body through my toes.
-Your hands?
-Through my toes.
That's good.
I was going to bring some
fish for you,
from Lofoten.
Dried cod. I thought I'd send you some.
-Oh, you mustn't do that.
-Sure I will, if you want it?
Okay, just don't send me huge amounts.
It's been two hours,
and I still haven't taken any medication.
My legs don't hurt.
But it's during the night
we'll get some answers.
-So we'll see tonight.
-I'll come knocking on your door, then.
-Hello?
-Hello? Who's this?
-This is Joralf Gjerstad.
-Oh, I'm sorry. I have the wrong number.
I'm so sorry. I'm at the Steinkjer
Emergency room. I do apologize .
Goodbye.
Guess who I just dialed? Joralf Gjerstad!
Hello.
I was completely comatose.
-Do you feel any pain?
-No pain. Nothing.
My legs were a little sore last night,
but that was more fatigue, I think.
No, I slept through the night.
I just woke up a little while ago.
-That felt strange.
-Strange?
Yes, I usually get up
several times a night, so...
-So you rarely sleep through the night?
-It's been a whole year since I did.
I remember when a boy died,
and there was a funeral service for him.
I knew his parents,
and it pained me deeply.
When it was time for the funeral to begin,
I snuck up in the bell tower to see it.
But not just for this funeral.
Whenever teenagers or children
were buried,
I would be up there in the bell tower.
I don't know why I did it.
I stood up there and cried for them.
Perhaps something within my soul
was nourished by this.
There was something between life and death
which urged me to witness it.
But it was a strange sight
for a 12-year-old to behold.
Going to church was a big thing
when I was a child.
Those years played a big part
in making me who I am.
When my mother said we were
supposed to be in church,
that we should have gone,
but we didn't have appropriate clothes...
These painful memories
are with me still.
But they also spark a desire in me
to try and help those who are poor,
and those who are ill.
-So what do you do?
-I suffer from anxiety.
Yes, but what is your profession?
-I'm an actress.
-You're an actress?
Well, that's great.
Well... I need to put my hands on you.
Can you feel the warmth?
A little bit.
-Are you nervous?
-Very!
-Are you always nervous?
-Yes.
-Do you ears hurt as well?
-No.
You don't have any pain here?
Can you feel it?
Can you feel the warmth?
There.
It must be very difficult,
living with anxiety.
-I have stomach pains.
-And it keeps you from going out.
That must stop. You have to go out.
Because there's nothing wrong with you.
But your nervousness is so strong
that you torture yourself.
You really torture yourself.
You're healthy, but so nervous.
And you have been from a young age.
From when you were
14 or 15 years old.
Something in your life stopped you
a bit,
and made you become this way.
And for a while, it was really bad.
You were so nervous it was almost
impossible just to exist.
We'll try to remove that. Actually,
it is in the process of going away.
But it still weighs heavily on your mind.
-Isn't that right?
-Yes.
-Do you sing in a choir?
-I used to.
But you quit. That was a big mistake.
You love singing so much.
So you should never have quit,
but that's what you did.
You should join a choir again.
It'll give you joy.
It's true, I do like to sing.
Yes, you do. So why did you quit?
-Were you nervous?
-I don't like my voice.
-Sing me a song.
-Okay.
Now.
-Do you play the piano?
-A little bit, yes.
-Can you play me a tune?
-Sure.
I want you to write me.
And you must turn everything around.
Turn over a new leaf.
And don't underestimate yourself.
You underestimate yourself
so much, it is just terrible.
-You must stop doing that.
-Yes...
Don't you agree?
You can have faith in me,
because I have a lot of faith in you.
You do?
100%. I can see
what kind of person you are.
You have suffered for so many years.
You've cried a lot, on your own.
People have told you not to be like that.
But you can't change because of that.
Just because people tell you how to be.
Only you know who and what you are.
Welcome to the Gjerstad home.
Joralf's childhood home has
been turned into a little museum.
The room in which Joralf
was born is in this house.
Here's your mail, Joralf.
-There.
-Thanks a lot.
-How are you, all right?
-Sure. And you?
Yes, we're all fine too.
"Dear Joralf, I am 65 years old."
"I've suffered from terrible anxiety
since losing my cat."
SNSA HOSPITAL
Come here.
Oh, you're so cold!
-Do you like it here?
-Yes, I do.
I couldn't have asked for
a better life partner than Signe.
She is a very lovely type of person.
And we went through some rough times.
Back when we didn't have any children.
It would take 15 years until it happened.
Those years were
very painful for us both.
But eventually we did have
children
who we could care for.
-Do you want me to pick you up later?
-Yes.
Just give me a call, as usual.
Sure, will do.
I'll just pop down to the shop.
Do you want anything from the shop?
A soft serve ice cream? No?
-They give us food here, you know.
-I suppose they do.
Hey, there was something else...
Let's try to dance.
Dance? I don't think so.
They must think you're drunk!
It hurts me deeply when someone says
to me I should make Signe well.
I feel that's very harsh.
It puts me in a situation where
you're not as strong as you think.
When I can't fix Signe's health.
It's very hurtful to
have people in the area
who think I've lost my powers
because I can't help Signe.
JORALF GJERSTAD
"THE SNSA MAN"
I'M WRITING TO YOU TO LET YOU KNOW
THE CANCER HAS SPREAD
HELP ME
SO TIRED OF EVERYTHING
HELP
DESPAIR
GOD
I BEG YOU
I'm diabetic and I have sarcoidosis,
an inflammatory disease.
It affects the body quite like cancer.
Both my lungs are affected.
It makes me tired and lethargic,
it causes muscular atrophy,
neuropathy, chronic pain,
strain injuries...
I am no longer fit to work.
I've been ill most of my life.
-What were you first diagnosed with?
-Anxiety.
I had an unstable upbringing.
My parents did a lot of silly things,
they drank. I grew up with all of this,
and it made me insecure.
We moved a lot,
and I was bullied in school.
-Do you wear glasses?
-I should, really.
Yes, you should.
One eye is weaker than the other.
-They're not the same, it's like this...
-Yes, I have cataracts in my left eye.
So you know.
You should get an operation.
I think so, yes.
And sometimes it hurts here?
-Yes, my neck...
-Do you feel waves of pain?
-Did you suffer a blow, or what is it?
-I'm not sure.
-It's not like a normal headache.
-No, it's more like waves? Like this?
-Painful, and then it's gone.
-Yes, it comes and goes suddenly.
Kind of like a rubber band.
Oh, that's really warm!
It feels really warm.
-One side of your stomach is sore.
-Yes, this one.
-Why is that?
-I don't know.
-You should be seen by a doctor.
-I presume it's caused by medications.
Too many medications.
You must take this seriously,
and go see the doctor again.
You're having a hard time.
You think a lot.
You shouldn't think too much.
Well, I try not to!
But it's not so easy.
You dismiss yourself.
You mustn't do that.
If you want to live, you mustn't
have such a bleak outlook.
Everything looks bleak to you.
There's no joy in your life anymore.
That's a great pity.
You are going through
a period of your life
which may be hard to
make sense out of,
but things will only get better from here.
You have an unfortunate ability
to belittle yourself.
It's terrible. You mustn't do that.
You have to try not to do that.
If you can find joy,
joy over today and joy over life,
then the pain might just go away too.
But right now you are causing
the pain to only grow and grow.
You're simply feeding the pain.
My back feels very different.
I can feel this heat,
it's as if I've taken painkillers.
It feels like I'm on medication.
That's funny,
when all he did was touch me.
What a strange sensation.
When he touched my back, it felt
like it was shooting through my leg.
It was very bizarre.
But only time will tell.
Maybe it'll stay this way?
I did feel a big difference in there.
It was like my back disappeared..
I couldn't feel any back pains anymore.
That's a little crazy.
I'm not used to that.
-I hope it stays like this for a while.
-Yes, let's hope so.
It was funny, he knew a lot about me
which nobody had told him about.
I know, he's like that.
It's just the way it is.
That's the thing.
Do you have any idea
how this came to be?
No. Not at all.
-That's just the way it is.
-Yeah.
-Nobody talks about it much?
-No, we don't, really.
I was nine months old when I arrived in
Snsa, to live with Joralf and Signe.
They adopted me. And what a joyful day
that was, so I've been told.
I was vulnerable and small,
and was given a new home.
These things can make you feel
like you want to give something back.
At times people have thought that I have
the same abilities, but I was adopted!
He helps me with everything
I can't do myself. That's a lot.
I can get myself into bed, just.
Well, I shouldn't exaggerate.
But it doesn't take long before
I get very anxious if I can't
get a hold of John Sverre.
In that moment he can almost
sense that I need him.
I do get a little beside myself
if I can't reach him.
That must be old age,
because it never used to be like this.
-And here's Marthe.
-Marthe! Well, I never!
-Hey, you.
-Hi, Marthe! Long time, no see!
-Did you miss me?
-It's good to see you, Joralf.
Tell them about the first time we met.
Do you remember?
-Not just now, but...
-Didn't your feet hurt?
-Yes.
-And you walked up the stairs?
Indeed I did.
-But you couldn't before.
-No.
But then you could walk,
and then you and I became friends.
-One night you brought me roses.
-Yes, I did.
"These are for you, for being so kind,"
you said to me. But you're the kind one.
Yes. But you're really nice too, Joralf.
-Marthe, do you want to come up here?
-Yes!
Give a big hand for Marthe!
-Great!
-Yes!
That was excellent, Marthe Sakshaug!
-I'll leave now, but you must think of me.
-You know I will.
-Are you sure?
-Of course I'm sure, Joralf.
-I'll always love you, Joralf.
-I know you will.
Thank you for being so kind
and coming to see me.
Thank you for singing
that beautiful song.
Take care of yourself. You're good.
Since birth I've have locked joints in my
neck, down my back and in my pelvis.
I really wish he could just make
the joint locking disappear.
I'm very afraid of the dark,
and of being alone.
I'm very scared of dying.
I have a lot of horrible nightmares.
It's because bad things often
happen to the ones I love.
My father has been very close to death.
And the doctors don't know what's
wrong with him, so they can't help.
Maybe
he too could get some help.
She's diagnosed with KISS/KIDD syndrome,
which has developed either
during pregnancy or at birth.
Her joints are locking,
her atlantoaxial joints and spine,
and sometimes in her hips and pelvis.
All over, really.
It affects both sides of her body,
so it wasn't visible until very late.
So the condition had a lot of time to take
hold. She's been in a lot of pain.
A lot of pain.
-Hello!
-Good afternoon.
-I'm Mira.
-Nice to meet you!
Please take a seat. Where are you from?
I'm from Sarpsborg.
Are you in fourth grade? Fifth?
-I'll soon start sixth grade.
-Wow! How old are you?
I'm eleven.
-Are you doing well at school?
-Quite.
-Do you like math?
-Yes.
-And English?
-Yes.
-Wow!
-Does this feel nice?
-Were you nervous about coming here?
-A little, but...
-But not anymore?
-No.
It'll be just fine.
I've often had problems with my neck.
My joints lock up.
The joints in my neck get locked.
Look at me.
Can you feel the warmth?
-Yes.
-Is this comfortable?
Turn your head the other way.
And then back this way.
-Is that easier?
-Yes!
-Did that feel good?
-Yes! How did you do that?
Walk for me.
What did you say?
-What's the matter?
-It feels so light!
Is it comfortable?
Oh, don't cry. Why are you crying?
Come here.
Why are you crying?
-Are you feeling better?
-Yes.
That's great!
It's okay to cry a little, then.
This feels so nice.
Is it better?
So much better.
-That's why you came here, right?
-Yeah.
What do you want to be
when you grow up?
A marine biologist.
-Wow, that means a lot of studying!
-Yes.
-But you can do it!
-Yes.
-Can you feel this?
-I can feel the warmth.
Walk again, let me see.
-Wow!
-Do like this.
Whoa!
Turn around.
Hands behind your head.
Is it better?
It feels incredibly good!
-Wow!
-Incredibly good?
It feels very good
getting rid of those knots.
That's good.
-My "backpack" is gone!
-Gone?
Yes, it was like wearing a backpack.
My shoulders feel very light.
Very light!
My dad has been very ill.
Oh, but then we must...
Is he coming to see me too?
-Is he coming here?
-I sure hope so!
But no doctor has figured out
what is actually wrong with him.
But then we must have a look.
Go and get him.
Gosh... Dad, come!
It feels so strange.
I can't feel it anymore. Where
are my shoulders, are they still there?
What is it that's bothering you?
I have diarrhea. I mean... My bowels.
-Can you feel the warmth?
-Yes, I can.
-Does it feel nice?
-Yes, it does.
-You don't believe in this, do you?
-No, that's true.
-But your daughter believes in it.
-She does.
It's perfectly normal
for you to not believe in this.
So it wouldn't be normal
for you to get well now, huh?
Well, in that case...
That would be like
being given the gift of life.
-Can you feel this?
-Yes, I feel a strong heat.
-You can feel it?
-Yes, it's warm.
Is it comfortable?
I feel good! I feel just fine.
-Better than in a long time?
-Yes, absolutely!
You'll have to believe in this now?
-Well, there must be something...
-Ach, I'm just joking.
I have to see how I feel later,
but it's very strange, I must say.
-You'll have a well daddy now.
-Yes.
-Goodbye!
-Bye.
We'll write you!
How do you feel?
I felt this heat through my body...
-My locked joints, they just... poof!
-Are you joking?
-No.
-You can feel it?
Yes, I feel better than I ever have!
Wow... Here, hold my hand.
-Look at that... Completely relaxed.
-Yes.
Mira's very happy.
I told him about Dad as well,
and then he told me to go and get him.
He said he thinks
I'll be completely well again.
Aron, come.
Let me feel you.
If this means some new doors
are opened, then...
...it means that maybe...
...maybe you can take over
the football coaching.
I would love to do that.
I think things will work out.
Mira was completely... It's fantastic.
-Have you been ill for some time?
-Yes, almost three years.
I keep thinking about my children.
They are five and ten years old now.
They'll need their mummy
for many years still.
-What kind of disease do you have?
-Breast cancer, and it's metastatic.
My cancer specialist at Ullevl said...
Before it spread, she said:
"If it spreads, it means it's the type
of cancer we have good medicines for."
So this means, even if I'm extremely
unlucky, I've had a bit of luck as well.
There is good medication available.
I get Herceptin every three weeks.
It extends the lives of many
cancer patients by several years.
I can't feel it.
I can't feel your illness.
-I couldn't feel it.
-No?
Perhaps... I was diagnosed with
breast cancer three years ago.
And one year ago, they told me
it had spread to my bones.
I've been treated with radiotherapy.
They've told me
I'll never be well again,
but they'll try to keep it under control.
I couldn't feel what was wrong with you.
I usually do, but not this time.
-The only thing I could feel, was here.
-Okay.
But exactly what ailment
you have, I can't feel it.
I nearly always do. But perhaps
it was removed by your treatment.
-I can feel this.
-Right.
I've had pains in this spot
for many years.
That's what I'm saying. Right there.
But I've had it checked,
and they've found nothing.
-But it's still painful?
-Not so much anymore.
-But I do have a spot there, where...
-Yes, I can feel that.
-I'm sorry I couldn't feel your illness.
-I'd like to think that's a good sign.
I couldn't feel it at all.
I must honestly tell you that.
I saw your hand too,
but I still couldn't feel anything.
-I hope you're not insulted?
-Not at all!
Thank you so much.
Good luck and safe journey home.
Send your children my love.
I will, they'll love that. They think it's
very exciting that I'm here to see you.
-I'll send them a little something.
-Thank you!
And my doctor sends his regards.
He's a fantastic man, and he said:
"Send my regards to Joralf
and tell him he's doing a good job."
-Thank you, and send my regards.
-I will.
After you leave here,
you'll have happiness and tears.
But take it as a good sign.
I know you'll cry.
But don't cry over your illness.
Cry instead of joy, over the good things.
STFOLD FREDRIKSTAD HOSPITAL
QUARTERLY APPOINTMENT AT THE CANCER WARD
Come in.
-Hi.
-Hello!
-Come on in!
-Thank you.
First of all: everything is fine!
-Is it really?
-Yes!
-Oh, that's great!
-Everything.
Gosh, that makes me happy.
Did you expect something else?
Yeah, the thoughts do haunt you.
-So nothing has changed?
-Nothing.
-Is it denser?
-Same changes to scar tissue as before.
So we'll just continue as planned.
You'll likely continue with Herceptin
for months and years to come.
-Is stopping taking Herceptin an option?
-Not as far as I'm concerned.
Think of the Herceptin
as your foot on the brake pedal.
I would like to suggest
we give it four months until next time.
-Does that scare you?
-No, four is okay.
-I'm glad you didn't say six.
-No, let's go with four.
That's fine.
I have a profound respect
for medical science.
I've always championed medical
science, it would be foolish not to.
Because what I do,
is something entirely different
to medical science.
And it's funny. Now I've been
doing this for so long,
I count a lot of doctors
among my friends.
And they do a fantastic job
in their respective areas.
I don't toss them aside.
I'm just glad they'll listen to me.
I've never criticized medical science.
I've always told people to seek
medical advice when they're ill.
I may meet people who have,
for example,
cancer.
I can feel that there's something there.
Then I send them to the doctor.
I can't do anything for them.
They need a doctor.
I've been to hospital myself,
quite often.
Personally, I wouldn't go to
a healer in order to get well.
-I need professional help.
-Would you visit the "Snsa Man"?
It depends, if I got to know him.
It's hard to get to know him.
Maybe I would have gone
to see him, but I don't think
he could have cured my legs.
I've been operated in both knees.
That's a good question, actually.
Can you heal yourself?
No.
-That's not possible?
-No.
So if your hearing's bad
in one ear, you can't...?
No.
My hearing's bad in both ears!
Looks like the Snsa Man is tired!
Are you falling asleep?
-Are you falling asleep?
-Yeah, but that's okay.
As long as you don't start
talking in your sleep!
You'll just stay there for 24 hours,
right? In the hospital? 24 hours?
-24 hours?
-Yes.
-I know nothing about that.
-Are you dreading it now?
-No, no.
-Oh, yes you are.
Not in the slightest.
They want to check my blood.
My blood pressure's a little low.
-Is that why you're going there?
-Exactly.
-Is that why they're admitting you?
-I'm being admitted?
-That's what the letter said.
-That's impossible.
-I'm fit as a fiddle!
-Yeah...
-You won't get any food or drink now.
-You're saving, are you?
Saving, yes... You can have
some after the examination!
I'll let the doctor know you're here,
and he'll come see you.
I'll put a little needle in your hand.
Is that necessary?
Yes, I'm afraid so!
Right, I'll be on my way.
I'll talk to you on the telephone later.
-That's fine, you can go.
-Alright. Bye.
-I'm sure it's normal?
-Probably.
Maybe we should take a little break.
How does it taste? Horrible?
-No, it's okay.
-It's fine?
-36-1.
-A bit low?
Yes.
Breathe in. Hold your breath.
Your GP told us you have a low blood
count, that you have an iron deficiency.
Now we'll find out if you have any ulcers
or anything else that can explain it.
The examination is a bit unpleasant,
but you already know that.
Now we'll take a look in the stomach.
You're doing really well.
Right. I'll release the air,
and then we're finished.
-Did it look okay?
-Yes, it looks fine.
Sometimes, after abdominal surgery,
cancer might occur where
the small intestine meets the stomach.
-There are no signs of this in your case.
-So all is well?
It looks fine, and there are no ulcers
that would explain your blood loss.
-Have a safe journey home.
-Thanks. Bye.
It was nonsense sending me here.
Nobody's as healthy as me!
Well, it's... Ow!
I got an electric shock.
I was born with hydrocephalus.
An accumulation of fluids in the brain.
I had over twenty operations
by the time I was nine months old.
They just wanted to give up on me.
They put me in a room, in a row of beds
with other children they had given up on.
They were put there to die in peace.
But my parents refused to accept this,
and physically removed me from there.
I can't feel it. I can't feel anything.
And it's... I'm a bit...
-Should I take my shoes off?
-No.
-Can't you feel anything?
-No.
-You have no sensation?
-No, I can't feel anything in my legs.
My legs have no sense of touch.
I can't feel when I need
the bathroom, nothing.
And that's that.
Walk for me again, let me see.
I have a shunt here,
and three or more drains
going from my head
down into my abdominal cavity.
-And I've been operated over 20 times.
-How many?
I was operated on more than twenty times
before I was nine months old.
And I've had surgery later as well.
My last operation
was in 2010.
That's when I lost sensation in my legs.
Is it comfortable?
I'm not comfortable in my body
at all. I'm in a lot of pain.
But it feels nice when
you hold your hand there.
-I do feel a difference.
-Yes.
It does feel different.
And I hope that this change
will get better...
-That it will change for the better.
-Getting better, I see.
-Does it hurt here?
-It's very painful, yes.
-And I...
-It hurts?
I just don't know what to do,
the pain is excruciating. I can't...
I didn't know what to do,
if I should start crying or if I...
-If you should...?
-No, I just couldn't...
-Do you want to go back in there?
-I don't know what I want to do.
Come on, let's go back in.
I just have these
terrible pains in my head.
My head hurts so much,
if I start crying and then...
-Where does it hurt? In your neck?
-No, no...
It's my head. My head really hurts.
And...
It's not always easy to be me.
I was subjected to a lot of
severe bullying in school.
Physical violence.
They hit me, kicked me, spat at me.
My hair would be soaking wet
when I walked home.
Even... I wouldn't call it rape,
but it was of a sexual nature.
Hate campaigns, nasty things in the post.
I received tape recordings telling me
I don't deserve to be alive,
but who would they torture otherwise?
We never reported the abuse.
It's all so murky, so horrible.
And adults who daren't take
responsibility,
as they didn't do anything.
They turned a blind eye.
Thank you. That was lovely.
Thank you ever so much. God bless you.
Thank you so much. Thank you.
I wish you all the best.
Hey... I did try as best I could.
I really believe you did.
I'm eternally grateful for this.
Thank you so much.
-Will you write me?
-I will.
-All the best. Farewell.
-Goodbye. Thank you.
Perhaps she felt sorry for me
because I was unable to help her.
So she wanted to sing me a song.
A song that I really like.
This gives me something
that nobody else understands.
I found myself in a very dark place.
After I had helped a number of people,
certain things were written about me
in the press, people were mocking me.
I was torn between two forces.
On one side was the divine,
Christianity.
On the other side, nothingness.
It led me to...
...adopt a very bleak outlook on life.
And I stood on a bridge.
I was planning to kill myself.
But it was
goodness that won.
And I...
I changed my mind.
Perhaps this could be said for
a few things in life.
There are two sides to every story,
and then people choose
to see the dark side.
But I chose the light side. The best side.
I came to realize it would be awful
if I hurt those who are close to me.
There was a light that stopped me.
And then I went back home.
Do you remember when I disappeared,
and you all went searching for me?
I felt incredibly low then.
So I haven't been a strong man.
And if anyone turned against us,
and insulted you, Signe, or us both,
it would make me feel very sad,
and I would wander off on my own.
There were many such occasions. If it
weren't for Signe, I wouldn't be here.
Because she's such a strong person.
She always welcomed me with open arms.
-Even if I yelled at her...
-Yelled at me? You never did that.
I wasn't the man I was supposed to be.
Many people left me. Relatives...
Many people didn't like who I was.
But I couldn't help it. I was just
very different to other people.
In 2008 I had a fall while doing
construction work. I fell 3.5 meters.
I hit the concrete floor with
my face and head.
I had a few teeth knocked out...
And my lower jaw was displaced
by a few millimeters.
This arm was broken, crushed.
It did result in a head injury, but
I didn't notice until two months later.
I started getting hot flushes
in my head,
things like that.
And it has continued since then.
I was admitted to hospital last year.
They treat me with shots
once every month.
I'll just have to keep taking them.
Unless a miracle happens.
Are you working in Sarpsborg?
No, I don't do much work anymore.
I'm on benefits.
-Illness?
-No, an injury.
-Your back?
-In my neck.
Do you struggle to lift your arms?
-No, not really.
-Come, sit closer.
-So you don't have pains here?
-A bit, yes, in that arm.
Yes, I can feel it. That muscle there.
-It's not in a good state.
-No, it's not.
I broke my hand in the fall too,
so I've used it incorrectly.
I see.
And you have a sore knee?
-Not that I'm aware of.
-Has it been sore in the past? Think.
-Yes, I had a football injury once.
-Yeah, that must be it.
-So you played football?
-Yes.
-Was it a bad kick, or did you fall?
-No, I twisted my knee.
-I see, but it was that knee.
-Yes, that's correct.
It's fine now, but it wasn't in the past.
Is it more flexible?
-Yeah...
-Do you feel more supple?
Well, something's different...
-Yes.
-Can you feel it? Is it better?
-Yes, I couldn't bend it like this before.
-Turn your head this way.
And now that way.
Is it more supple?
Look this way.
Is it better?
-Yeah...
-And now look up. Better?
It's strange. These movements
usually make me feel warm, but not now.
No, but there's too much fat back here!
-I could never bend this wrist before.
-You couldn't bend it?
No, I broke this arm, so it's been stiff.
This will do you good later.
You can feel this now, huh?
Now move it.
It was completely stiff this morning.
And it has been for six years!
Six years, are you sure?
It's been stiff?
-So you couldn't do that before?
-No, I couldn't.
-That's good.
-Yes.
Incredible.
-Can you feel the warmth?
-Yes. It goes through the shoe?
Does it feel nice?
Yeah. I don't understand
how it goes through the shoe.
I don't understand it myself.
Feel me. I'm cold.
But let's not speculate about that.
It's a gift, an ability.
I don't know how it works.
But I'm not a conjurer.
I don't want to be one.
I just want to help people naturally.
If I hadn't been a man,
I would've cried.
I can't feel anything...
I just don't get it. I keep moving
my head, and there's no pain.
How bizarre.
Thousands of hours of
physical therapy and training...
Can I squeeze your hand?
Am I squeezing hard?
-Yes, very hard!
-Really?
I couldn't do that before!
This hand... This is just...
I never expected this
in a million years.
I must honestly say
that I've joked about these things,
I didn't believe in it.
But if I had moved around this much
this morning, I would've been sweating.
And I don't feel any pain
in my head. Nothing at all.
-I can bend my wrist!
-No?
Yes! I can.
It was like I had a sort of spiritual
high or something. I've never...
We can talk about it when I get home.
Tell Thomas I'll knock his socks
off at the table tennis.
You'd better watch out when I get home,
things might get very hot in bed...
My greatest achievement
is believing in goodness.
It has given me powers.
If you start thinking of goodness,
then something changes in you.
This is necessary
if you want to renew yourself.
It's more for the good of other people,
not yourself.
It doesn't have to be a "Snsa Man."
Everybody has this ability.
But nobody has the faith or willingness.
I have faith and willingness to help
others. It's what gives me my powers.
That's what is happening to me.
You asked me once: "Why did
you come to Snsa, Margreth?"
The answer to that is:
When I was working on my last film,
about children fleeing from
the atrocities of war,
I met so many people
who had lost all faith.
And I felt that perhaps I had to stop
documenting the suffering of others.
That I no longer have
the ability to cope with it.
But
I don't think I can.
I think I need to go back to it
and continue.
It's like a spotlight.
That's what a film can do, put a spotlight
on those who are in need.
And if we do this enough,
in a powerful way,
then people can't ignore it anymore.
No.
You have a task to do.
You've started doing this task.
But it never ends. What will you do
next, when this film is finished?
You'll be asking yourself this.
"What will I do after this film?"
That's when you need to keep moving.
And that's when
you must find strength to keep on working.
It will come to you, from within.
You'll never be free from film making.
And you'll never be free from
talking about people's suffering.
This is a major task you're facing.
Are you okay?
You can stand here by the car.
You just wait here,
and I'll go light it up.
Hurry up, I can't stand
on my own for very long.
Come here.
It's good for you to be here.
You know, so you can see them burn.
That's a lot of joy and sorrow.
You've helped a lot of people.
What goes up in smoke now,
you're taking with you.
Nobody else knows about it.
None of this will be revealed
to the public.
But the warmth we're feeling is
coming from the public, of course.
Are you sure you didn't burn
any love letters as well?
Oh, I did. Lots!
I've suffered from anxiety for 28 years.
All this time I've not lived,
just existed.
I had a head injury
after I fell whilst roller skiing.
My wife is dead. Can you help me?
I couldn't deal with anything nice.
I couldn't even be around my kids.
There are no medicines
for what I have.
It's congenital, but it started
when I was around 17 years old.
For many years I've eaten
very little, and I'm very skinny.
I had an older brother
who died in 1994.
I saved him from overdoses many times.
I had to take care of him
and stay at home to keep him alive.
Well...
This will all be over soon.
Flames of unburnt happiness.
But tell me something:
How come you've chosen to dedicate
so much of your life to helping others?
You know, someone who takes part
in a... what do you call it...
The running thing...
A marathon!
He has to keep running if he's
to make it to the finishing line.
I had to use my ability to help others.
Otherwise I wouldn't
make it to the finishing line.
And we can see the beauty.
But the most beautiful...
Hello?
Hey.
No?
No! No, where...
Oh, no! Okay, I'll be right there.
Oh, God...
-Joralf, are you there?
-Yes.
Roy had a stroke. Can you help us?
I'll have to try.
I don't know what you do, Joralf,
but that thing you do, can you
try and do it for my boyfriend now?
I'll certainly try.
-What do the doctors say?
-They say he might die.
The doctors can do a lot,
with brain function, and...
They'll do all they can.
Don't lose faith in yourself, Margreth.
Of course it's tough,
but you have to look to the future.
What do you reckon
I can do for him now?
Be there for him and give him comfort.
And hope.
I really hope he'll regain all functions.
I think he'll make it.
If he's able to look to the future
himself, and if he keeps the faith,
that makes the world of difference.
Nobody goes through life without
experiencing pain, that's for sure.
But nobody mentions goodness.
Goodness is greater.
But people only see evil.
Goodness rules supreme.
Goodness is victorious.
It brings people back to
what they were meant to be,
faithful to goodness.
Faithful to their fellow man.
Faithful to themselves.
That's the real greatness in life.
Finding the power which creates
natural goodness for all.
When I left Snsa, I felt really well.
This lasted for two months.
I went back to school. But after two
months things went downhill again.
I started feeling aches and pains
in my joints, bones and muscles.
I still have the same two ailments,
but breathing is a lot easier now.
I struggled to breath for over a year,
it was like breathing through a straw.
But about a week after seeing Joralf,
it was as if my breathing just opened up.
And I could breathe normally again.
I used to feel so worthless,
but now I feel like I'm worth something.
If you feel that you're worth something,
you don't have a great sense of unease.
I felt he saw into my soul
and told me I was good enough.
He did tell me under no uncertain terms
that my ailments
are of such a nature that I need surgery,
which he couldn't do for me.
For me, the changes have
been psychological.
The toughest days are a little easier
to deal with, because of what he said.
My hands can be completely at rest,
and all the twitching is gone.
Mira hasn't been in need
of any more treatment.
My life has changed completely.
I'm practically well again.
There were medicines prescribed by
the doctor which affected my bowels.
I've not used any of those medicines
since.
I'm going through a rough time now.
Six months after filming,
the cancer spread again
in the same vertebra.
So I've been through radiation treatment
and I'm currently getting chemotherapy.
I didn't go to Snsa thinking
that Joralf could cure me,
but rather hoping he could
give me something good.
The amount of pain I feel
hasn't really changed much.
It might actually be worse.
But when I feel his warm hand
on my shoulder, it feels like
it helps me on those mornings when
I wake up and can't take it anymore.
I have a lot of mornings like that.
But I think to myself,
when I feel his warm hand
on my shoulder, that it'll do.
It's quite remarkable, my hand.
I didn't have any strength in it.
I never thought I'd be
able to play table tennis,
but I managed to do a spin serve
and everything now.
My head hasn't hurt nearly as much.
I used to get shots to relieve the pain,
but I no longer take those.
And I think that's thanks to Joralf.
Roy, what are your thoughts
on the future now?
I'm thinking that I may have to put up
with a lot of pain for half a year,
and then I might look forward
to 40 happy years.
I have to become as independent
as possible, be able to walk...
And be able to take care of myself.
It is safe to say that you've been lucky.
But you must never give up.