Futra Days (2024) Movie Script
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NICOLE: Let go. Let go, let go.
Let, go, let go.
!Let go, let go, let go, let go.
!Let go, let go, let go, let go.
Are you ready to wake up?
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NARRATOR: Kurt Gdel once
wrote in any universe described
by the theory of relativity,
time cannot exist.
Its conclusion is that
if relativity theory is valid,
intuitive time disappears.
In a world without time,
he threw a wrench
in the foundations of physics.
Gdel showed that
if we were living
in a rotating universe,
this universe could
create loops in time.
SEAN: It was there.
JESSE: I am wide
awake for the first time.
I feel like I've
been fucking reborn.
What do you really know
about the world
that you live in?
(INDISTINCT CHATTER
IN BACKGROUND)
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I know, I'm fine
with what I know
about the world that I live in.
I don't need to know any more
about the world that I live in.
I don't need to go in the future
to learn more about
the world that I live
in. I'm fine with this.
Okay, be fine with it.
What's it feel like?
What's what feel like?
- What's it feel like?
- The time travel business.
(EXHALES)
At first you're gonna feel like
you're gonna puke, right?
But after that it
just swallows you.
- Swallows you?
- Swallows you whole.
What do you mean swallows you?
As in, the middle of
your head opens up
like Pac-Man and just eats you
from the inside out.
- Sounds terrible.
- Extreme heat.
- Sounds terrible.
- Extreme cold.
- It's not terrible.
- It sounds awful.
I'm just saying it's
all I remember, okay?
It's all I remember.
Next thing I know, I'm there.
- You're there?
- JESSE: Mhmm.
Have I ever fucking lied to you?
- Ever?
- SEAN: No, no.
It's like going to space,
but not being able
to leave the show.
Right, 'cause I've been
to fucking space before.
Why are you being like that?
Also, lower your
voice, very loud.
How long were you there for?
I don't know, 48 hours,
something like that,
- give or take.
- Give or take what?
Everybody's chemical makeup
is different, I don't know,
you're bigger than me,
you're different than me,
you know? Some come back sooner.
Jesus Christ!
What?
Stop, why are you
fucking looking over there?
I can't fucking believe.
You look weird, I just looked
for one second.
You look over there
for 10 fucking seconds
and make it weird.
You're looking around like
you just robbed a fucking bank.
(SPITS) That's weird.
You're not even drinking
your orange juice.
That's weird, dude.
There's something
wrong with that.
You're losing your fucking mind.
I can see.
You can't see,
you've got your blinders on.
- SEAN: You know what?
- You're just like, today
I still think you're
making all this shit up.
I'm not, I couldn't if
I wanted to, honestly.
(SIGHS)
SEAN: What are the rules?
The first rule is, you
do not talk about...
Ahh, shut the fuck up, Mr. 1999.
(LAUGHS)
- That's what this is?
- I have proof.
Proof?
- No doubt?
- Fucked out.
- Certainty?
- Fuck certainty.
How?
JESSE: If I tell you,
you don't believe me,
you've got to make me a promise.
- SEAN: What?
- JESSE: Try it yourself.
Okay, why not bring
back a value line?
What is a value line?
Sports Almanac, Biff,
Back to the Future.
No, no, no, nothing like
that intrinsically exists.
What's the point of going back
if you can't profit from it?
You can't. If you want
everything to go back
to the way it's supposed to be,
treat it like a museum visit.
Look. Don't touch.
LAGE DOOR NARRATOR: Welcome
to Lage Door Corporation.
We're here to help
you make decisions
by creating
transformative simulations
that map your potential
paths in life,
competing vantage points.
There's no better way
to take your personal frames
of reference into account,
because we believe your lived
!experience is the best teacher.
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SEAN: Who am I?
What am I doing here?
What's it all for?
Who cares?
Who cares?
Who cares? Who cares?
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No, I'm sorry, we're very
selective with our trials.
Do you have your insurance card?
Yeah, no,
we're working off referrals now,
but I would try
back in 24 months.
Thanks.
If you could just sign in.
How are you?
Great.
Alright, I have your
info, there you are.
"Debunking the
butterfly, the effects of
cause and effect.
That'll be interesting.
DR. WALTERS: I'm really
happy that you're thinking about
taking this journey with us.
I want to understand what
the hell is happening to him,
because ever since
he came to see you,
I don't even know
who he is anymore.
- I would love to hear about
you. - Me?
Why are you here?
Why am I here?
Mhmm.
And I can like pop out
and be just like him
or something, so then I'd be
able to figure out who he is,
because without him,
I don't understand me, you see?
Hypothetically, if
this was something that
you and I would do...
I don't know, what is it?
You... you drop my... my psyche,
my emotional equilibrium,
my... my... my way of thinking,
my fucking soul somewhere
three years down
the line, right?
I don't do anything.
This is your journey,
this is your discovery,
this is your life,
this is your experience.
Sean Graves, I'm Dr. Walter.
Pleasure.
But you can call me "Fel,
short for Felicia",
a name my parents stuck me with,
but that's my problem,
not yours. (LAUGHS)
Welcome to Lage Door,
the A pronounced ah,
Lage Door, I never understood it
but any who, I'm
excited, aren't you?
You're like a shaman, right?
That's what this is?
Some kind of medicine woman?
DR. WALTERS: This
is going to be fun.
I promise you.
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We found change brought about
by relativistic physics.
SEAN: I've done all the
reading and all that, but like,
what is it you're trying to say
to me right now?
SHEILA: We basically
hallucinate reality.
DR. WALTERS: When trying to
solve Einstein's singularities,
it becomes clear it's a story
we can't explain.
I've seen it before,
a man lost in his
work chasing ambitions
with the belief that !without
them he cannot be happy.
Okay, Glengarry Glen Ross,
quit selling me.
You want progress
without change.
!What, so you're just selling me
infinite possibilities?
Bingo.
Are you currently
in this relationship
or is it in a state of flux,
where are you at?
I think this relationship has
always been in a state of flux,
but we're together.
You are together?
I asked him to marry
me the other night.
And?
He left.
So basically,
right now no music,
and I'm just a... I'm just
a housewife to a man,
who won't even marry me.
(LAUGHS)
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(SIGHS)
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SEAN: It's funny, I ran
into Rach the other day.
I hadn't seen her
in like six months.
JESSE: No shit, where?
SEAN: Supermarket.
She seemed happy,
she seemed fine.
JESSE: Good.
SEAN: Probably a front.
Anyway, I saw her and it made me
think about all these plans
that we had,
and then I realized I've got all
this like free restless time,
and I'm like,
"Am I going anywhere with it?"
I'm doing all the things,
you know, I make a record,
producing shit,
things are happening,
it's fine.
It's just endless, do one thing,
there's another thing,
there's another thing.
At the end of the
day, I come home,
and I'm just left with myself.
That's it.
JESSE: Yeah.
But then, I'm walking
down the street,
I walk past the store,
look in the window,
I see her in there,
and then I go inside
and like pretend to buy a shirt
for my sister.
- I don't even have a sister.
- (LAUGHS)
She tries this dress on for me
and fucking sprinkles
me with pixie dust.
(JESSE LAUGHS)
JESSE: Like what do
you want to know?
If she's worth going
down that road, you know,
if it's worth doing that again
to somebody.
- You just met her.
- Met her a week ago.
She's a stranger.
Barely!
I feel like I've known
her my whole life.
Oh! A happiness heist.
BREATHING SESSION NARRATOR:
Good morning, Sean.
Today is the first day
of the rest of your life.
This is a guided
breathing session.
Surrender to the deepest.
Here we go.
Breathe in.
(SEAN INHALES)
BREATHING SESSION NARRATOR:
Breathe out.
(SEAN EXHALES)
BREATHING SESSION NARRATOR:
Breathe in.
(SEAN INHALES)
BREATHING SESSION NARRATOR:
Breathe out.
(SEAN EXHALES)
(SEAN INHALES)
(SEAN EXHALES)
- Put these on?
- Yup, put those on, thank you.
DR. WALTERS: The
multi-axis trainer you're in,
runs off this generator.
The information of you doesn't
have a unique location in space.
You're pixelated.
SEAN: Whatever you say, doc.
So, the first rule
of time travel
is that logical contradictions
cannot occur.
Meaning what you do
and what happens to you
will be whatever it will be.
Because of the arrow of time.
So just don't mess
about, capiche?
Got it.
What makes you feel
you need to see the future?
I mean, what's your fantasy
in the here and now?
Are we starting?
Baby, from one moment
to the next, you're starting.
I don't understand.
Behavior can't exist
without fantasy.
NICOLE: Sean!
Tell me about the girl.
What's her name?
NICOLE: You know
I don't love you.
Nicole.
Nicole what?
SEAN: Nicole Chase.
Her state of mind has
to be more than thinking.
How do you feel?
I feel like I've known
her my whole life.
I feel like, she's
got a lot of pride
and I feel like
she's really strong.
Everybody wants her.
SEAN: I'm sure they do.
I think I love her.
I don't even know her. (LAUGHS)
I want to know her.
I want to know what it's like.
Schoolboy crush.
'Cause you've been
heartbroken before.
So you buried yourself at work,
Looking for alternate containers
to hide your emotion.
Yes.
DR. WALTERS: You're
afraid to heal.
Because your identity
is based in trauma.
- I don't know.
- Who's this I?
Who's this I you
keep referring to?
I mean, you're not him.
Who?
You are not an I.
Wait, wait, wait,
wait, wait, wait!
- DR. WALTERS: It's okay.
- No, no, no, no, no.
DR. WALTERS: It's
okay! It's okay!
Let go.
Surrender.
(BREATHING DEEPLY)
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(INDISCERNIBLE SPEECH)
SEAN: Who's there?
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(NICOLE AND SEAN ARGUING
IN DISTANCE)
I'm done.
Look, I'm done having
this conversation.
NICOLE: What am I gonna
do while you're gone? Knit?
No. This is just what you do.
Every time I have to go
some place, you do this.
- It's disgusting.
- Oh, what's that? Huh?
It's disgusting.
NICOLE: Have fun, honey.
Have a great flight!
Just don't, just don't,
just don't, just don't.
Just don't, just don't.
Just go. Please go.
If you call me, I'm
not gonna pick up.
Yeah, you will.
No, I won't! No, I won't.
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So is like everybody who comes
to see you just completely nuts?
Do you think you're
completely nuts?
NICOLE: I don't know. Ugh!
I used to do this
when I was a kid.
I always present like
the best version of myself,
and I'm really good
at like just inventing
a narrative that sounds right.
My biggest concern
coming in here
is that I would just bullshit
my way around this entire thing.
Do you do that often?
No, but I think that
all the shitty parts of myself
we haven't really talked about.
- (NICOLE LAUGHS)
- I'm here.
NICOLE: I'm just
trying to paint.
For you before we
decide to, you know.
What do you think are
the shitty parts of yourself?
Um, I'm vain.
I'm extremely
jealous. I'm petty.
I can be paranoid.
I have OCD.
I used to, uh cut myself.
I um, I mean the list
goes on, you know.
(VOMITING)
(GROANING)
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Ah!
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SEAN: How do I use these eyes?
(COUGHING)
(SIGHS)
SEAN: Point of view.
Views of views.
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(INDISTINCT NEWS IN BACKGROUND)
Terrible idea.
I'm already gonna fly.
That's what I'm
fucking here for.
That's what happened.
Fuck it, blue luggage.
Fuck it. (INAUDIBLE)
(SEAN LAUGHING)
Butterfly effect.
Mustn't interfere.
Well, you could.
Stop all the pro-ing.
Stop all the con-ing.
Get on with the job.
No single truth does
not mean no truth.
Change changes. Awaken it.
Unfold it.
Make the best of this.
Yes.
Let's do it.
I'm not crazy. You are crazy.
I'm not crazy. You are crazy.
I'm not crazy. You are crazy.
I'm not crazy. You are crazy.
I'm not crazy. You are crazy.
I'm not crazy. You are crazy.
I'm not crazy. You are crazy.
My future self is thinking
of buying this shirt?
SEAN: It's all one event,
one network going on.
Colors, and shapes, and forms.
!It depends on you, just as much
as you depend on it.
Relationship
underwrites everything.
Go with it.
Go with it.
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Ha! Nope.
SEAN: Just give me a sec.
Just let me...
Where are your bags?
SEAN: I left 'em at the airport.
- Oh?
- I'm not going.
I hate orange.
I'm never gonna leave you again.
I'm gonna kiss you.
SEAN: Eventually,
everything will happen.
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Your snore is adorable.
Hm. You never thought so.
I'm worried, I missed
the plot with her somehow.
Like I'm missing a
piece of the puzzle.
Hmm? What?
What piece of the
fucking puzzle?
Now I see the ease
of what I mean.
Maybe you should stop fucking
thinking, Sean.
(LAUGHS)
Hmm.
We both just came.
What is your problem?
Huh?
I take it for granted.
Everything.
Work.
You.
Okay.
To gab... grap something sharp
and stab me in the eye.
(LAUGHS)
I'm unlovable.
I'm unlovable.
You're looking at unlovable.
And by the way, pretty boy,
that's what I like about you.
- Yeah?
- Yeah.
Poor Sean.
Mm. Stop.
I'm unlovable.
Hmm.
Would you like me if I had no
arms or legs?
I'd prefer you if you had no
arms and legs.
'Cause then I could just
sit you on the couch
and we could hang out,
and watch TV with me all day.
And then I would force
you to go hiking,
even though you hate it.
How would I go hiking
without any legs?
I'd just roll you down the hill.
(LAUGHS)
I'd still love you.
- No, you wouldn't.
- Yeah.
You know how I always wanted
to tie you up,
but you wouldn't do it?
You wouldn't have a choice.
Hmm.
'Cause you couldn't move.
I'm the only one who
gets to love you.
NICOLE: Well, my
dear, it seems I'm missing
my little spoon.
No soup for you.
My question is, what's
the proper order?
- Beats me.
- Beats me.
I grew up on a farm.
(LAUGHS)
You want to ask me which spoon
you're supposed to use?
- Yeah, I do. - Is that what
you're getting at?
That's exactly what
I'm getting at.
Are you asking me
what this spoon is used for?
That's exactly what
I'm asking you.
I'd hope you don't have to
ask me what the only knife
is used for.
Is this a knife fight?
I've never eaten with anything
but a spoon.
(NICOLE LAUGHS)
NICOLE: A spoon?
I've got a spoon. I
sharpened one side.
I cut with that one.
(BOTH LAUGH)
It's like a Swiss Army Knife.
So use your spoon to eat
a piece of bread then.
I remember on the ship
all we had was bread and water.
I've never looked
at a loaf the same again.
(BOTH LAUGH)
I can't believe you
chose this restaurant.
I swear I have like
PTSD from last time.
Oh, come on. Now
you're gonna forget.
You're going to
pretend to forget?
No, I remember.
You must have been drunk.
I'm sure I was.
You went upstairs
and played Billy Joel
on the piano in
front of everybody
- and then we got kicked out.
- Sounds about right.
How could you not remember that?
I was drunk.
Yeah, shit, you were
drunker than I thought, son.
What did I play?
What did you play?
I can't remember.
Scenes From an
Italian Restaurant.
- That sounds wonderful.
- When in Rome.
Are you sure?
Yeah, I love that song.
Huh.
(SLURPING)
Oh my God, don't do that.
I'm really trying to be mad
at you right now, but it's hard.
You know how hard it's for me
to not like get things
off my chest, right?
- Right?
- Yeah.
So may I?
Please.
Alright.
I feel like there's kind
of a weird, uh, energy going on
with like you getting
into a fucking Uber
and leaving
without an explanation, okay?
So hear me out.
(EXHALES)
If you are not ready
to like talk about
all this shit with us, then...
No, I understand.
- Get it?
- Yeah.
Okay.
Good. 'Cause I am not your
like emotional punching bag.
No, I know, I left.
Yeah, you left.
I'm not a fucking piata.
Alright, I... I grew
up on that shit.
I do that to myself.
I'm in the music
business, like I just...
(SIGHS)
I don't want to be
that way with you.
You can't do that to me anymore.
You have a freckle
in the blue part of your eye.
Early onset cataracts.
No.
I'm afraid so.
Well, it's probably too late.
Can't have surgery.
You're gonna go blind
like James Joyce
and I'm gonna have
to roll you around
- in a wheelchair.
- (LAUGHS)
Is it crazy I'm falling
in love with you again?
RYAN: Hi, I'm sorry to intrude.
I just wanted to
let you know that
I'm such a fan of your work.
Can I email you my demo?
I'll be really fast, I
promise. Really quick.
He doesn't know his
email. Give it to me.
RYAN: Oh, thank you. Okay.
He can't remember shit.
Here, come on, sit down.
- RYAN: Are you sure?
- You can sit.
RYAN: I'm sorry, guys.
Thank you so much.
- What's your password?
- RYAN: Oh, here.
- There you go.
- Good. Nice background.
RYAN: I know, it's a tiger.
- Oh, so cute.
- (RYAN LAUGHS)
Awesome. There you go.
Thank you, I really
appreciate it.
You're welcome.
So listen, sweetheart.
Three years ago, I was you
and then I met him
and it was great.
But now, now I'm fucking me.
I didn't get a fucking record.
Ciao.
- Real nice.
- I'm sorry, it was so...
- Really nice.
- It was so easy.
- You're unbelievable.
- She's so cute.
Oh, God.
Oh, come on.
It's a joke.
Please, she got your email.
Thank you for that.
You're welcome.
Yeah, right.
You remember the first time?
Yes.
- You were fucking drunk, Sean.
- Okay.
Extremely.
Makes sense.
Remember anything else?
About what?
Oh, the beginning?
Yeah, I remember everything.
Oh, yeah, I keep everything
stored in my mind
for future reference,
so I could use it against you.
I know everything about you.
I know you're left-handed,
but you use your right hand
for everything.
Like the way you're holding
your wine glass right now.
I remember your hand
from that night.
They're perfect.
(INDISTINCT CHATTER
IN BACKGROUND)
(KISSING)
Yeah, babe.
SEAN: I hear it.
That sound again.
It's outside me.
Easy.
It's just supposed to be easy.
What the fuck are
we? What are we?
Who and what are we?
Is this... is this death?
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You didn't text me.
Of course, I didn't text you.
You're right here.
What do you mean?
It's like our thing.
You text me while you're
in the bathroom and we like
I don't know.
Can we switch, please?
I know we got the same thing,
but yours is always better.
(EXHALES)
Fruit in salad.
Okay.
(NICOLE SIGHS)
What'd you say the
first time we met?
Seriously, you really want
to go through this right now?
Yeah, yeah.
I knew who you were
when I met you.
You did?
I know I have never admitted
that for three years,
- but I knew who you were.
- How? How?
- Because I recognized you.
- No.
- You know?
- No, I said no.
Oh, did you know that I knew?
SEAN: No, I didn't
know that you knew.
I assumed that nobody
knows who I am.
That's not true.
What'd you think
the first time you saw me?
The very first time.
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Did you have a good
time at dinner?
I feel like I
talked a little lot.
You did.
- Excuse me?
- No, it was good.
We needed to.
It was good, it was good.
Thanks for coming.
SEAN: I know. I missed you.
Really?
Hmm.
I was here, though.
I know.
All the time.
Is that true?
Yeah.
You look beautiful tonight.
God, that souffl.
I'm just like...
Whoo!
- You look great.
- Daddy, I'm just full.
- You know?
- Do you not feel good?
No, I feel fine.
It's just like...
It's not even a bloat,
but it's like the inside.
It's very sexy.
- Okay.
- You know what I mean?
Right.
And so, we'll see what happens
when I get home.
(LAUGHS)
Okay.
- I'm gotta drive here.
- Mm.
What are you doing?
I don't know.
What are you doing?
- I don't know what I'm doing.
- NICOLE: Huh?
What is this?
You know, everything's
making sense to me now.
- NICOLE: Oh yeah?
- Yeah.
(SIGHS)
I'm always like,
reassessing myself.
I'm shooting myself in the
front of the process.
NICOLE: Mhmm.
I also like...
- NICOLE: Sean?
- I real... no, no, no.
It's okay, it's okay.
- NICOLE: Will you stop talking?
- I'm... I was just...
Like if I keep,
uh, enabling you,
I'm just like disabling you.
I've got to stop doing that.
What?
Disabling me?
Who the fuck talks like that?
The only person
who can disable me is me.
Right.
I just mean, um...
Uh, I just mean like, uh,
because I'm always
reassessing myself, um...
Should I continue to blow you,
so you can think clearer?
You know, I just, I miss the
I miss the point, the
I miss the plot with
everything, you know.
'Cause I'm so afraid
of not being the best
version of myself.
I'm really glad that you've had
this revelation, you know?
It's good. It's really good
to think about yourself,
when someone else
is blowing you.
Right? Not to
mention a girlfriend.
Am I just a piece
of ass for you?
No, because frankly,
you talk about me
as if I'm some
kind of girlfriend,
and I look beautiful,
and souffl this
and champagne that,
and you love chocolate,
and women love chocolate,
and that's great.
That's not what I'm saying.
No, but what you're saying is
that you'd rather keep me down.
- No.
- NICOLE: Yes, you would.
That's not what
I'm saying it all.
You couldn't possibly
be fucking somebody
that could actually have
a career of her own.
I was just saying that we can...
we can bring things back
to the way they were,
when things were good
before I fucked everything up.
We just have to
know where that was
and how we got here. That's it.
But if it doesn't work...
It'll work. That's
all I'm saying.
It's gonna break my heart.
I mean, that's all I'm saying.
That's all I'm saying.
Just don't do this to me again.
Let's just go back there.
Where?
(INDISCERNIBLE SPEECH)
Sure.
And we can wear bathrobes,
and we can wake up,
and we can get crazy.
Yeah!
NICOLE: And then we can go
swimming, and then we can laugh
about
all the things we did.
That's not like a heavy pour.
- I'm not even drinking.
- I am drinking.
I have small hands,
small stomach.
(LAUGHS)
I have small hands,
small stomach.
Me have small hand,
small stomach.
Are you trying to
get me drunk, Sean?
- Yes.
- Why?
I know why.
I would love to take
advantage of you.
I know why.
Why?
What are you talking about?
NICOLE: I'm talking about the
one about the crazy record
producer.
Oh my God. No.
I do need to get drunk for that.
SEAN: What are
you talking about?
Are you serious?
You're really pretending not
to remember right now.
It's like your favorite movie.
Well, I wouldn't say
it's my favorite movie.
It is. You told me it was
your favorite movie.
Like do you realize like
how fucked up it was for me
to watch you watching the
record producer in that movie,
while I was standing in front
of the TV stripping for you?
SEAN: Why is it fucked up?
While you were jerking off?
I mean, I'm sorry.
Did you like block
this out of your mind?
- You're pretending...
- SEAN: I must have.
NICOLE: I mean, it was
hot. It was good. It was hot.
I was into it.
But I just like...
SEAN: What? What did you think?
(LAUGHS)
I mean, I thought
I thought like, "Were
you looking at me"
or were you looking
at the producer in the movie?
Like, when I was stripping.
Is that a serious question?
Yeah, because I wondered like,
"Is he looking at himself"
and that's what turns him on?
Of course, I was looking at you.
I'm kidding.
It's a joke.
()
A family.
Family.
Like a family, family.
What's a family, family?
3 acres and a mule.
(NICOLE CHUCKLES)
Always wanted a family, family.
Mmm.
We can get a ranch out
in Montana somewhere.
Mhmm, mm.
Couple of kids, maybe two.
I don't want any twins, though,
so hope you're
alright with that.
Hey.
Where you going?
How many kids do you want?
Two.
NICOLE: Not more than two?
Three?
- SEAN: Just two.
- Four.
- Two.
- You know I can't have kids!
You know I can't have kids!
Fuck you!
No.
Uh-uh.
You're just gonna fuck me?
It doesn't matter,
because I can't get pregnant.
You're gonna go and
marry the other girl!
No! No! No! No!
Fuck!
That's not true.
Get off!
(SCREAMS)
Hey, hey! Hey!
Stop! Stop! Stop!
Stop! Stop! Stop!
- Please.
- (CRYING)
()
NICOLE: The meanest thing Sean
ever told me is that I wasn't
sick,
I wasn't dying, I had
everything I wanted,
I wasn't living on the streets.
And the only reason
that I had a problem
with this kid thing was
because I, like a child,
just wanted something
that I couldn't have.
Okay, stop. Stop. Stop. Stop.
(CRYING)
Is that love?
Okay.
(INDISCERNIBLE SPEECH)
No.
You know what's great about
morning sex?
What?
Nothing.
Very self-conscious
in front of the cameras.
Please, don't do it.
No.
(LAUGHING)
SEAN: Did I ever tell you
the story about Rebecca?
My first girlfriend
in high school.
Were you happy in high school?
You wanna know about
one of my boys?
I can't.
It'll hurt me.
Stop it.
(INDISCERNIBLE SPEECH)
(LAUGHS)
You know, it's not
that I don't like
you taking photos of me,
it's that you're a
terrible photographer.
You're ferocious.
NICOLE: I am.
SEAN: What the fuck
are you talking about?
What are you...
NICOLE:
Since when have you changed?
What are you fucking Mariah...
Mariah Carey?
SEAN: Omnipotent helplessness.
You don't even know
what the fuck that means.
Experiencer with no end user.
Becoming here.
Becoming in time.
Becoming here.
- Darling?
- Hmm.
Thank you.
What's in this?
SEAN: Love.
It tastes good.
SEAN: Wanna get out of that tub?
Was it meant to become open?
Was it meant to become open?
God, she's beautiful.
We live time rather
than just conceive it.
It's a device of the mind.
And time is no beginning.
Would I be here in this moment
if we had never met.
Would you?
What would you say?
What would I say?
This never happens.
Maybe we shouldn't go.
What? Why?
Because I just don't
feel like it anymore.
We should definitely
go. It'll be fun.
Be a nice date night.
We'll umm...
(CLEARS THROAT)
It'll be good for you to go.
What's that supposed to mean?
Fuck, I don't know.
I just mean that it would be
I'm trying to make things better
I'm not good at this.
Hold on.
Hold on.
Wait a second.
Hold on. What did you just say?
Did you just say you weren't
good at something?
Oh my God.
Congratulations, Sean.
The Sean Graves
finally admitted that
he wasn't good at something.
My God. Amazing.
You know, it's really
fucking interesting to me.
Touch.
Okay, fine. I'll go to the party
under one condition.
SEAN: What's that?
What's with all the ultimatums?
You tell me.
You're a rambling,
gambling type of guy.
Figure it out.
Mmm. No?
And?
SEAN:! What assumptions
are you making right now?
!Everything changes soon enough.
You change itself.
Including change itself.
(CHEERING)
I don't feel fine.
You're alright.
Hey, Sean.
I gotta tell you,
disappearing right now
with a pitchfork
interview on the horizon,
makes me fucking nervous.
Hi, Miranda.
So, the reason we
have cell phones
is to get in touch 24/7.
Well, I was fucking
him 23 of those 24,
so I guess that's on me.
I'm gonna get a drink and uh,
mingle with the
beautiful people.
Maybe I'll see David Bowie.
I don't know what
you see in her.
Certainly isn't talent.
- Pitchfork.
- I'm on it.
No, I'm on it.
Great.
- Thank you.
- Mhmm.
You're welcome.
Yeah.
(INDISTINCT CHATTER)
()
Just get me a Manhattan.
Just make it real mean.
She loves you.
- Miranda?
- Yeah.
I'll have what she's having.
You know, I gotta
be honest with you.
Umm, I really don't
feel like myself here.
And it's making me feel umm,
um, a bit uh, disagreeable.
Oh, come on, it's just a party.
Be a rock star.
Be a rock star.
I'd rather just be your fianc.
In due time.
Fine. I'm gonna go
fucking rub shoulders.
You look great.
Aah-ooh-ah!
Come here.
It's so good to see you, man.
Oh, man.
You've been working out.
What are you doing?
You look great.
- Not as good as you do.
- Wow. Happy birthday.
Thanks, man.
What are you doing here?
I just didn't want to
miss your birthday.
Yeah, except
for you were supposed to, right?
Thought you had, like some
secretive thing you had to do.
Nah.
- No?
- Cancelled it.
- For me?
- Yeah.
Well, we men, are
political animals, no?
Sure. Let's get.
- You gonna smoke that?
- Go on and get.
Go fucking move, in good time.
SEAN: Eventually,
everything will happen.
(INDISTINCT CHATTER & CHEERING
IN BACKGROUND)
What?
I know what you're doing.
I just think you should cool it.
What? What?
What are you talking about?
Your health, your body.
What are you saying
to me right now?
JESSE: You need to be careful.
Dude, have some
reverence for life.
Look at me.
Just stop trying
to fucking forecast the weather
and build a better boat.
Are you happy?
Are you happy?
It's been a strange trip, man.
Yeah, that's fucking life, man.
That's life.
You know, we don't have a clue.
Just don't mistake the map
for the terrain.
Are you happy?
Are you fucking happy?
No!
No.
That's fucking why
I'm doing it, man.
All you can do is
win every day, right?
Win today.
Just stop saying yes
when you mean no,
and stop saying no
when you mean yes.
Fuck, man.
- I'm worried about you.
- No, it's okay.
Well, you're here,
so you might as well
have a good time.
I think this will get you
where you need to go.
What is it?
It's my birthday.
- My birthday? It's my birthday.
- It's my birthday.
Just be cool, man.
It's my birthday.
It's for me. It's my
happy birthday to me.
Yes, yes. Take it, take it.
Yeah.
Cheers.
()
()
()
Yo, the synths on
the new record?
Pfft! You killed it, fam.
Track six. (SINGING BEAT)
(LAUGHS)
- All that, baby.
- Cheers.
Listen, thank you for letting me
do my thing on it.
You go and play it
in the hard way,
it's dope.
(MAN LAUGHS)
SEAN: Everybody's
afraid of everybody else.
Everybody's afraid
of everybody else.
Everybody's afraid
of everybody else.
- Ciao.
- Hey.
- Restaurant.
- Do you remember me? Mhmm.
- You remember me.
- I do, of course.
- Good memory.
- Yeah.
(LAUGHS) Well, it
hasn't failed me yet.
(BOTH LAUGH)
It's China, baby. (LAUGHS)
- Even in the dark.
- Even in the dark, baby.
(SEAN LAUGHS)
- 'Cause you're the people.
- Uh, yeah.
Right?
Just standing here, quiet?
Just getting some space.
Yeah, I feel like my
anxiety gets worse
the older I get.
- Oh.
- Yeah.
I'm Ryan.
Sean.
Right. You know.
- Nice to meet you.
- Nice to meet you.
- Thank you.
- Nah, man.
Listen, you mind the boys
and everything?
I need something to get me out
of bed in the morning.
Too much self-obsession.
So many other better ways
to spend my time, you know?
That's Nicole Chase, right?
That, yeah, that's her.
- I love her.
- You do?
She's great.
SEAN: Oh, wow.
My frequency's been
all out of loop.
- Just static in my frequency.
- SEAN: Yeah.
(MIMICS STATIC NOISE)
SEAN: Everybody's
afraid of everybody else.
Everybody's afraid
of everybody else.
MAN 1: You're really
something special.
- Am I?
- Oh my gosh, yes.
I was just wondering what
happened to her, though.
What do you mean?
Well, she had that
like one song, but that was it.
One hit wonder.
Oh, oh.
Yeah, I don't know.
Hey, hi.
In my heart today.
I'm happy I was
able to help you out
and it sounds like people
really enjoyed the record.
SEAN: She's a big fan.
RYAN: Yeah, absolutely.
I was just listening
to Sometime, Sometime in Summer.
- Summer?
- Yeah!
- It's wonderful. I loved it.
- Really?
Yeah, my roommate
turned me onto it.
Yeah, it's one of
my favorites, too.
Yeah, I love it.
It's heartbreaking.
I wrote it about him.
That's sweet.
I just wanted to tell
you guys, it was great
meeting both of you,
and buona notte.
- Hey, hey.
- Yeah.
Thanks.
- Of course.
- Thank you.
Yeah, of course.
I... I mean it.
I'm sorry, guys.
You alright?
Yeah.
(SNIFFLES)
She's a fan.
()
You should call
her. Come back here.
Give me another compliment.
(LAUGHS)
She really digs your music.
NICOLE: Look at us, a
bunch of weirdos in the corner.
SEAN: I'm so, so sorry.
For everything.
NICOLE: Why don't you want
this moment to last forever?
SEAN: It will.
Bury it deep in your
memory with strings
attached to me.
NICOLE: What's going on?
I feel like this !is really
coming out of my eyes.
I feel like it has this...
SEAN: Lived in effect.
Maybe it's what's
supposed to happen.
NICOLE: It's my fault.
It's no one's fault.
SEAN: All I found it's my fault.
()
SEAN: You gotta be kidding me.
!You really messed
up everything.
The very questions
are the answer.
Who's there?
()
!You really messed
up everything.
(HUMMING, SPITS)
()
NICOLE: Are you
ready to wake up?
()
()
Sean?
Hey!
(SPITS) Ugh! I woke up this
morning and I swear to you,
I feel like a weight's been
lifted off my shoulders.
And I started laughing
and I was thinking about how
Keith Richards kept a tape
recorder next to his bed.
Right? And he woke up in
the middle of the night
and he came up with a riff
for satisfaction. Right?
And then he fell asleep.
But the first part
of the tape is like
(SINGS TUNE)
Isn't that amazing?
(LAUGHS)
Right?
So I figured it out.
Tonight's the first night
of the rest of my career.
(SEAN LAUGHS)
NICOLE: I'm gonna
get a tape recorder.
But listen, we're not gonna
tape ourselves fucking, okay?
'Cause this is all
business, my friend.
Do they even make
tape recorders anymore?
Right?
It's genius!
Mm, mm.
Sorry.
It's so beautiful out today.
Should we go for a walk?
Like get a coffee?
I had a really long night.
Yeah, no kidding.
What's wrong?
I had this dream.
And it feels like everything
is just out of my control.
And all these things
are happening.
And I'm just waiting
for the other shoe to drop.
I don't know what it is.
I think you need a coffee.
I'm serious.
Okay. What? I'm sorry.
Keep talking.
Like uh...
There's this weird limbo.
Some fucked-up dj vu.
I can't put my finger on it.
You know what I mean?
No, I don't.
Of course, you don't.
()
NARRATOR: Odysseus is disguised
when he returns to
his home in Ithaca,
revealed only by his scar.
!Homer knew the power of wounds.
I'm ready to drop off...
Huh?
I'm ready to drop off
the rest of the posters.
Uh, no. I don't know why?
I'm supposed to drop off
the rest of the posters,
What, those posters?
Those old posters?
No, the new ones.
NICOLE: New ones of what?
For the re-release.
NICOLE: Re-release?
Of what? Your album?
Whoa!
What's wrong with you?
Anyways, so I was thinking
maybe if you didn't
wanna do a hike
even though I know you're not...
(INDISCERNIBLE SPEECH)
What are you going on about?
Huh?
You said we were
gonna go for a ride.
When?
Okay, fine, we're
gonna get coffee first,
and then we can go.
Are you okay?
- What are you doing?
- I'm gonna get coffee.
Huh?
Great.
Great, let's go.
Let's get a cup of coffee.
You gonna change
or are you gonna go like that?
Um, no.
I'm just gonna put a pair
of heels on and then we're good.
- Great.
- What is wrong with you?
SEAN: There's a little
bit of hell in me.
This bottomless
mystery, of existence.
Sometimes one is
hit by this thing.
There's a little
bit of hell in me.
I have to pee.
Of course, you do.
You have to pee
every five fucking minutes.
You know what's funny?
NICOLE: What?
I come in this morning
to get a cup of coffee.
But now it's 6:00
and I haven't been home once.
I haven't done a single fucking
thing I wanted to do today.
What's wrong?
Just drop it.
Let's not talk about it.
I just really don't
think you'd understand.
I don't seem to understand
anything about you, do I?
I think you should talk about it
to somebody else.
- I need to talk to somebody?
- Yeah, it'd be good for you.
(LAUGHS)
I need to talk to somebody.
Oh, that's good.
You know what I think you need?
Since marriage is completely
off the fucking table
and this union will definitely
never be official,
I think we should try and spice
some things up a little bit.
Oh yeah?
Maybe that'll lift your mood.
Maybe you can talk to her.
Like that waitress at the
restaurant? That'd be fun.
What are you fucking
talking about?
That waitress there.
Oh, she loved you.
Are you kidding me?
- Refilled your water nine
times. - What restaurant?
What waitress are
you talking about?
Oh, come on.
I don't need to
fucking talk to her.
You're out of your fucking mind.
I'd like to talk to you.
- That would be nice.
- You know you can help me.
How?
Standing on my
fucking shoulders.
You can maybe tell me that.
Huh?
You want to be a fucking singer?
You want to write
some fucking songs?
Fucking do it.
I'm tired of hearing your shit.
"Oh, man, I was a singer."
No one wants to listen to
my fucking songs.
Oh, Sean, help me.
Sean, produce my record.
Sean. As if I don't have enough
on my fucking plate.
I need you fucking
weighing me down.
Always. Always. Constantly.
Okay.
You don't do fucking anything.
I pay for everything.
You eat everything.
You sleep in my fucking bed.
You live in my fucking house.
You want things to be different?
Fucking do something about it.
You are such an asshole!
You are so selfish.
And you're such a hypocrite.
And you're not who
you say you are.
And you flip and you change.
And it's gross.
If you're gonna
be an asshole, be an asshole.
But someone who doesn't
know who he is?
Yeah, big man.
But next time we go out to
dinner, we can split the bill.
Next time I listen
to one of your songs,
I won't pretend to like it.
()
What you looking for?
- What?
- Where's my
I don't know.
()
I like that shirt.
()
Goodnight.
NICOLE: You know
I dreamed of you.
()
And then 10:30 you've got that
Pitchfork interview.
And then a hard out at noon.
You can't talk too long, 'cause
you have that AOL build thing.
Hmm.
Lord have mercy on my soul.
MIRANDA: Today?
- Every day.
- MIRANDA: Hmm.
I don't like the grass.
I want to change it.
MIRANDA: What's wrong with it?
Too green.
It'll be a whole
different shade then.
But it's fake.
MIRANDA: Okay.
I'll get you something
drought tolerant. Rip it up.
NICOLE: I don't give
a fuck about that.
- Okay.
- NICOLE: Just change it.
Alright. Done.
Miranda, say hi to Sean.
Morning, sunshine.
Hey Sean, maybe we should
cool it with the sleepovers.
People are gonna think
you live with me.
(BOTH LAUGH)
MIRANDA: That
might be something.
(ALL LAUGH)
Seriously, 12:00, noon.
- Hard out.
- Yeah, this is wild.
You can't buy this
shit from me anymore.
MIRANDA: Okay. Yeah,
it is pretty foul.
It looks like vomit.
So good. So good.
Next song. Next song.
(SPEAKS FRENCH)
(COUGHING)
Can you shut the fuck up
- for five seconds?
- Are you speaking French?
(MIRANDA LAUGHS)
MIRANDA: Where have you been?
Yeah.
Both of my parents are French.
Are you high?
Already?
- Okay, so...
- MIRANDA: Shall we?
I just don't want
to be around people today.
MIRANDA: I'm gonna do that.
I need a fucking
pedicure, Miranda.
I'll get somebody here.
This is fucking disgusting.
If you buy that again,
I'm gonna kill you.
Um, Sean.
Of coffee like some
kind of panhandler
and actually do
something with yourself.
Okay?
Does that sound good?
Yeah?
Good.
So, I have this pitchfork thing
and then I'm going to an event,
so I won't be back until noon.
SEAN: Remain vigilant.
Oh, no, no.
Wait.
You work for me, right? Right?
Mr. Sean, I worked
for you one year.
Now, Miss Nicole,
she pay much better
and full-time.
Yeah, but it's my house, yeah?
Oh, no, Miss Nicole,
let you stay.
She buy when you in trouble.
(PANTING)
JESSE ON PHONE: Hey, bud.
- Hey, what are you doing?
- Nothing.
Can I ask you something?
I need to ask you something.
What?
Am I fucking dreaming right now?
- What are you talking about?
- I need you to come over.
- Where?
- My house.
JESSE ON PHONE: You mean Nick's?
Just get over here!
Just fucking come over!
How am I here right now?
That is not Nicole.
That is not the girl
I fell in love with.
Nicole is unpredictable.
She depends upon me. She's free.
She's fucking wild.
She doesn't do
fucking water fasts!
Bro, you sound like you're
on some real Bobby Brown shit
- right now.
- You know this...
Hey, do you want to be happy
or do you want to be right?
You don't fucking understand.
Do you ever think that if you
got the opportunities
you're getting now 10 years ago,
you could handle this
or would you blow it?
- Because it finally fucking...
- You don't understand!
That's not the fucking point!
It's... it's
subconscious patterns.
It's... it's conscious patterns.
It's fucking patterns.
One moment now changes
a moment there.
Hey, that's how all
of life works, okay?
- And just one foot...
- You were the fucking one
who sold me on the possibility
of fucking entanglement!
What is going on?
You're the one that
gave me the idea
to go to them in
the first place.
- To who?
- Dr. Fel.
And at your birthday,
you warned... you warned him.
You warned me.
But it wasn't me.
But I fucking remember.
You're not making any sense.
You warned me about going
to too many sessions.
Sean, I'm a writer, okay?
It's my job to have experiences.
Besides, I never
even left the room.
I could have hallucinated
everything that I saw.
Well, I didn't know.
'Cause I never went, but he did.
And he talked to Nick
and he talked to you.
I'm so fucking lost.
I don't know what to tell you.
Where's Dr. Fel?
What? She got shut down.
The FDA exposed her
as a fraud, a hoax.
How long ago?
A year.
Maybe. I don't...
(GROANS)
I'm so fucked!
Sean, hey.
- I'm so fucked!
- Dude, don't worry.
I'm so fucked, I'm so fucked.
You're fine. You're fine.
Take a breath. Breathe.
(EXHALES, CRYING)
Come on.
Breathe, buddy.
You're fine.
(TAKING DEEP BREATHS)
You're good.
It's not okay.
It's okay.
Look at me.
It's okay.
I'm so fucked.
NICOLE: Are you
ready to wake up?
BREATHING SESSION NARRATOR:
Good morning, Sean.
Today is the first day
of the rest of your life.
This is a guided
breathing session.
Surrender to the deepest.
Here we go.
()
Okay, I gotta be
honest with you.
I think we're spending a little
bit too much time together.
And frankly, all the attitude
is sort of weighing me down.
Okay? Because my brain
is literally about to explode.
And I swear to God, if you go
on another fucking diatribe
about astral projections
and all of these things,
I think I'm gonna lose my mind.
My theories are sound.
I haven't been the
best partner, but I'm,
but I'm trying.
I think maybe you
should stop trying.
You don't get it!
We hurt each other
and that's bad for me.
We love each other.
That's really bad
for me right now.
We love each other.
That should be enough.
Look, I'm sorry
if I'm being short
or distant or whatever.
But frankly, it's
like bad for business.
And I just don't think that
I can carry your weight anymore.
So basically what
I'm saying is...
We should get married.
I don't think we should see
each other anymore, Sean.
- We should get married.
- We are not getting married!
We should get married.
- We are not getting married.
- We should get married.
We should get married.
- Please stop.
- We should get married.
Please stop.
- We should get married. - Why
would you want to marry me?
- We should get married.
- You hate me.
I take care of you,
you take care of me.
- We should get married.
- No, I take care of you.
We should get married.
I don't know what's happening.
I have to go.
I don't know what's
happening anymore.
(NICOLE LAUGHING)
You just need some space, right?
Oh no, sweetheart.
That's the last thing I need.
My people are worried.
Yup, they're worried.
My lawyers are talking to me
about common law marriages.
And they're getting
a little freaked out.
And so um, I just need you
to look at these documents
and sign them.
Okay?
You don't trust me?
I don't trust anybody about it,
especially when
it comes to money,
especially when you're dealing
with somebody
who doesn't have any.
This is unbelievable.
NICOLE: I mean, I'm sorry,
but our lives are different now.
We've got paparazzi.
We've got people around.
We've got all sorts
of things going on.
The rumors, the
pictures, the everything.
(LAUGHS)
Star fuckers.
You're looking at me
like I'm one of them?
Look, we don't have anything
to worry about anymore, okay?
You just sign the papers.
I'm supposed to be your person.
You were supposed
to be my person.
You were supposed
to be my husband
and you were supposed
to be my life.
And now I'm miserable.
I'm sorry I didn't know that.
()
You wanted to be my wife?
I know.
I know.
What happened?
I'm sorry, Sean.
NICOLE: (SNIFFLES) I'm sorry.
Don't leave me.
- NICOLE: I have to.
- Don't leave me.
NICOLE: I have to.
- I'm sorry.
- Please don't leave me.
NICOLE: I'm sorry.
Everything's gonna be okay.
You're gonna be okay.
Just sign the fucking papers.
()
NICOLE: You know I do love you.
SEAN: Time goes backwards.
What happens next?
The past always flows back
from the present.
Where can we go from here?
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()
Okay.
Let's do it.
Let's fucking do it.
Yeah. Let's do it.
NICOLE: I can't sing alone.
The future's not yet.
The future's not yet.
The past is no more.
This is all we
have in our window.
Can't see you.
(LAUGHS)
We don't know
where we're moving towards.
Just hold me in your arms.
Hold me in your arms.
I don't wanna get over you.
Hold me in your arms.
Hold me in your arms.
I don't wanna get over you.
Hold me in your arms.
I don't want to get over you.
I don't want to get over you.
DR. WALTERS: As you can see, a
lot has changed since we last
met.
SEAN:! Things have
definitely changed.
What happened?
DR. WALTERS:
It was an unproven drug.
Investors didn't believe
the valuation I put on it.
SEAN: So that's it?
It's done? It's over?
Cosmic joke's on us.
It's just got to be some sort
of test or something.
DR. WALTERS: We're
prisoners of our own experience.
Let the past die.
You only live one day.
Yeah, but he went.
And he did all these things.
And now my thoughts,
my desires, my actions,
everything's influenced by it.
And I don't know what's mine
and what's his.
A paradox.
Interesting.
Your past-self intervenes,
so you being the future-self
are in a fluid state of change.
Oh.
We're in this together
and all this is about
is your freedom
as a human being.
To be who you truly
are meant to be.
SEAN: I'm a stranger to myself.
DR. WALTERS: What
does it matter?
SEAN:! You don't
understand. She's me.
DR. WALTERS:
She's a creative being, right?
SEAN: Yeah.
DR. WALTERS:
Do you accept that in her?
SEAN: Now I do.
DR. WALTERS: Because you're
not jealous of that, right?
I have nothing to be
jealous of anymore.
I'm past jealous.
I just... I just
don't know what to do.
NICOLE:! What if I don't like
what I see when I get there?
DR. WALTERS: You know,
I would bet that you will like
what you see when you get there.
- (LAUGHS) Really?
- Mhmm.
DR. WALTERS: It's
going to be okay.
That I can promise you.
Oh, yeah?
It always is.
SEAN: I feel like I
have to let him go.
Let myself go.
Nothing in the universe lasts.
You go on your new journey
with love for yourself,
first and foremost.
That's the thing, isn't it?
()
NARRATOR: The sun both rises
and sets, and yet technically,
the Earth just rotates.
Kurt Godel once wrote:
SEAN: "Time travel is possible",
but no man can
kill his past self.
I've done the math
enough to know.
SEAN AND NARRATOR: One
becomes two, two becomes three,
and out of the third comes one
as the fourth.
()
Hey, Sean.
Uh, this may seem random
and purposeless
to you right now as I'm talking,
but I need you
to understand where I'm at,
where my mind is.
And look, I'm not gonna
tell you what not to do
and I'm not gonna force you
to transform yourself.
You need to know that today
is the first day of the rest
of your life.
We are a multitude
of identities.
Do not take any one of them
too seriously.
I'm giving you a chance
to love your new life, so go
and see, taste, and
feel, and fuck, love.
Turn time upside down.
Have a different experience
with yourself.
Let go.
Simultaneous existence
in a dozen parallel worlds.
The nature and history
of universe on top of universe.
Interlinked,
embodied, invincible.
Drop the idea you have
to attain some goal.
Drop the idea you have
to reach somewhere.
- You are not an I.
- You are not an I.
You are not an I.
I mean, well, you see,
you've only ever had one enemy.
And that's me.
It's all me.
Forgive me.
Just follow your day,
for God is reality.
Ephemeral and eternal.
NICOLE:
!We imprint the people around us
in all the spaces in between.
How many dreams we dream?
You know it.
Let go.
Let go.
Let go. Let go. Let go.
Let go. Let go. Let go.
Let go. Let go. Let go.
Let go. Let go. Let go.
Let go. Let go. Let go.
Are you ready to wake up?
SEAN: What more is there to say?
(HUMMING)
(MIMICS LAUGHTER)
Hi.
- Hi.
- Sorry.
Uh, I was trying to teach myself
how to draw with my left hand.
- That's cool.
- Hello.
- How can I help you?
- What do you think?
NICOLE: I think that
looks great on you.
Umm...
- It's for my sister.
- Okay.
- It's her birthday.
- Oh, great.
Yeah, we've got tons of stuff.
What kind of, um, uh,
what kind of...
what kind of girl is she like?
What's her vibe?
Oh!
Too much.
NICOLE: But that is nice.
It looks... it looks nice on
if she... I mean, sorry,
if she has... you
know what I mean.
I don't know what you mean,
but let's leave it at that.
- Okay.
- What about these sun dresses?
Yes. Uh, yes, we
have a lot of them.
They're um, they're nice.
They're kind of flirty
if that's sort of...
- Flirty?
- That's sort of her...
This is my sister
we're talking about.
If she's uh... if
that's her style.
Yeah, I love that red one.
That's um, I'm gonna buy it.
Next paycheck, you know.
(SEAN LAUGHS)
SEAN: Will you
try a song for me?
- Please.
- I'm not really.
You guys are the same size.
You want me to try?
Yeah.
- Just try it on.
- Sure.
NICOLE: Okay. (LAUGHS)
Just uh, man the door, you know?
I mean, you better
not rob the place.
I come from a place
where people trust each other.
SEAN: Oh, yeah, where's that?
- NICOLE: Hollywood.
- SEAN: Hollywood?
NICOLE: Hollywood,
Florida. Yeah, I'm just
I'm staying with my
sister right now.
It... it's not a
permanent thing.
It's um, just you
know, in between gigs.
What do... what do you do?
What's your thing?
I'm a singer.
Singer.
Yeah.
Wow.
I love the dress.
- It looks great.
- Great.
Yeah, you think she'd like it?
I think she'd love it.
Great. Okay.
Well, I'll just get another one.
SEAN: No, I want that one.
I want that one.
Okay. That's easy.
Great customer.
Okay.
Here we go.
So, um okay, I'm gonna give
you the uh, senior discount.
SEAN: Senior discount?
And yeah, uh, 34 even.
- SEAN: Perfect.
- NICOLE: Great.
SEAN: Exactly how much
I was wanting to spend.
- NICOLE: Why? Lucky number?
- SEAN: Yeah.
NICOLE: Oh.
Okay.
- Is this real?
- (BOTH LAUGH)
$6 for you, sir.
And then if you'd like
to join our mailing list.
Great.
Here you go.
This is uh, it's a good pen.
You're left-handed?
Yeah.
But I do mostly everything
with my right hand.
Just... just the way it is.
NICOLE: So, we're,
and if you ever like uh, need
anything for any other women
in your life, like
your girlfriend or,
or whatever, you know,
just I'm... I'm
here all the time.
No girlfriend.
Well, uh, my lord,
this is yours.
- (SEAN LAUGHS)
- I hope she likes it.
SEAN: Thanks. Me too.
Well, thanks for all your help.
Thank you for coming in.
Have a great day.
NICOLE: You too.
Oh, um...
Yeah?
You get a free lighter.
Yeah it's just...
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(INDISTINCT LYRICS)
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And now you're everywhere
(INDISTINCT LYRICS)
I feel you in between
Right there in the wall
And now you're everywhere
Do you know what to feel
(INDISTINCT LYRICS)
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And now you're everywhere
(INDISTINCT LYRICS)
I feel in the trees
(INDISTINCT LYRICS)
And now you're everywhere
Do you know what to feel
(INDISTINCT LYRICS)
So I go inside
Of the gardens green
In the hope to feel you
Inside everything
I'll jump in...
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NICOLE: Let go. Let go, let go.
Let, go, let go.
!Let go, let go, let go, let go.
!Let go, let go, let go, let go.
Are you ready to wake up?
()
NARRATOR: Kurt Gdel once
wrote in any universe described
by the theory of relativity,
time cannot exist.
Its conclusion is that
if relativity theory is valid,
intuitive time disappears.
In a world without time,
he threw a wrench
in the foundations of physics.
Gdel showed that
if we were living
in a rotating universe,
this universe could
create loops in time.
SEAN: It was there.
JESSE: I am wide
awake for the first time.
I feel like I've
been fucking reborn.
What do you really know
about the world
that you live in?
(INDISTINCT CHATTER
IN BACKGROUND)
()
I know, I'm fine
with what I know
about the world that I live in.
I don't need to know any more
about the world that I live in.
I don't need to go in the future
to learn more about
the world that I live
in. I'm fine with this.
Okay, be fine with it.
What's it feel like?
What's what feel like?
- What's it feel like?
- The time travel business.
(EXHALES)
At first you're gonna feel like
you're gonna puke, right?
But after that it
just swallows you.
- Swallows you?
- Swallows you whole.
What do you mean swallows you?
As in, the middle of
your head opens up
like Pac-Man and just eats you
from the inside out.
- Sounds terrible.
- Extreme heat.
- Sounds terrible.
- Extreme cold.
- It's not terrible.
- It sounds awful.
I'm just saying it's
all I remember, okay?
It's all I remember.
Next thing I know, I'm there.
- You're there?
- JESSE: Mhmm.
Have I ever fucking lied to you?
- Ever?
- SEAN: No, no.
It's like going to space,
but not being able
to leave the show.
Right, 'cause I've been
to fucking space before.
Why are you being like that?
Also, lower your
voice, very loud.
How long were you there for?
I don't know, 48 hours,
something like that,
- give or take.
- Give or take what?
Everybody's chemical makeup
is different, I don't know,
you're bigger than me,
you're different than me,
you know? Some come back sooner.
Jesus Christ!
What?
Stop, why are you
fucking looking over there?
I can't fucking believe.
You look weird, I just looked
for one second.
You look over there
for 10 fucking seconds
and make it weird.
You're looking around like
you just robbed a fucking bank.
(SPITS) That's weird.
You're not even drinking
your orange juice.
That's weird, dude.
There's something
wrong with that.
You're losing your fucking mind.
I can see.
You can't see,
you've got your blinders on.
- SEAN: You know what?
- You're just like, today
I still think you're
making all this shit up.
I'm not, I couldn't if
I wanted to, honestly.
(SIGHS)
SEAN: What are the rules?
The first rule is, you
do not talk about...
Ahh, shut the fuck up, Mr. 1999.
(LAUGHS)
- That's what this is?
- I have proof.
Proof?
- No doubt?
- Fucked out.
- Certainty?
- Fuck certainty.
How?
JESSE: If I tell you,
you don't believe me,
you've got to make me a promise.
- SEAN: What?
- JESSE: Try it yourself.
Okay, why not bring
back a value line?
What is a value line?
Sports Almanac, Biff,
Back to the Future.
No, no, no, nothing like
that intrinsically exists.
What's the point of going back
if you can't profit from it?
You can't. If you want
everything to go back
to the way it's supposed to be,
treat it like a museum visit.
Look. Don't touch.
LAGE DOOR NARRATOR: Welcome
to Lage Door Corporation.
We're here to help
you make decisions
by creating
transformative simulations
that map your potential
paths in life,
competing vantage points.
There's no better way
to take your personal frames
of reference into account,
because we believe your lived
!experience is the best teacher.
()
SEAN: Who am I?
What am I doing here?
What's it all for?
Who cares?
Who cares?
Who cares? Who cares?
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()
No, I'm sorry, we're very
selective with our trials.
Do you have your insurance card?
Yeah, no,
we're working off referrals now,
but I would try
back in 24 months.
Thanks.
If you could just sign in.
How are you?
Great.
Alright, I have your
info, there you are.
"Debunking the
butterfly, the effects of
cause and effect.
That'll be interesting.
DR. WALTERS: I'm really
happy that you're thinking about
taking this journey with us.
I want to understand what
the hell is happening to him,
because ever since
he came to see you,
I don't even know
who he is anymore.
- I would love to hear about
you. - Me?
Why are you here?
Why am I here?
Mhmm.
And I can like pop out
and be just like him
or something, so then I'd be
able to figure out who he is,
because without him,
I don't understand me, you see?
Hypothetically, if
this was something that
you and I would do...
I don't know, what is it?
You... you drop my... my psyche,
my emotional equilibrium,
my... my... my way of thinking,
my fucking soul somewhere
three years down
the line, right?
I don't do anything.
This is your journey,
this is your discovery,
this is your life,
this is your experience.
Sean Graves, I'm Dr. Walter.
Pleasure.
But you can call me "Fel,
short for Felicia",
a name my parents stuck me with,
but that's my problem,
not yours. (LAUGHS)
Welcome to Lage Door,
the A pronounced ah,
Lage Door, I never understood it
but any who, I'm
excited, aren't you?
You're like a shaman, right?
That's what this is?
Some kind of medicine woman?
DR. WALTERS: This
is going to be fun.
I promise you.
()
We found change brought about
by relativistic physics.
SEAN: I've done all the
reading and all that, but like,
what is it you're trying to say
to me right now?
SHEILA: We basically
hallucinate reality.
DR. WALTERS: When trying to
solve Einstein's singularities,
it becomes clear it's a story
we can't explain.
I've seen it before,
a man lost in his
work chasing ambitions
with the belief that !without
them he cannot be happy.
Okay, Glengarry Glen Ross,
quit selling me.
You want progress
without change.
!What, so you're just selling me
infinite possibilities?
Bingo.
Are you currently
in this relationship
or is it in a state of flux,
where are you at?
I think this relationship has
always been in a state of flux,
but we're together.
You are together?
I asked him to marry
me the other night.
And?
He left.
So basically,
right now no music,
and I'm just a... I'm just
a housewife to a man,
who won't even marry me.
(LAUGHS)
()
(SIGHS)
()
SEAN: It's funny, I ran
into Rach the other day.
I hadn't seen her
in like six months.
JESSE: No shit, where?
SEAN: Supermarket.
She seemed happy,
she seemed fine.
JESSE: Good.
SEAN: Probably a front.
Anyway, I saw her and it made me
think about all these plans
that we had,
and then I realized I've got all
this like free restless time,
and I'm like,
"Am I going anywhere with it?"
I'm doing all the things,
you know, I make a record,
producing shit,
things are happening,
it's fine.
It's just endless, do one thing,
there's another thing,
there's another thing.
At the end of the
day, I come home,
and I'm just left with myself.
That's it.
JESSE: Yeah.
But then, I'm walking
down the street,
I walk past the store,
look in the window,
I see her in there,
and then I go inside
and like pretend to buy a shirt
for my sister.
- I don't even have a sister.
- (LAUGHS)
She tries this dress on for me
and fucking sprinkles
me with pixie dust.
(JESSE LAUGHS)
JESSE: Like what do
you want to know?
If she's worth going
down that road, you know,
if it's worth doing that again
to somebody.
- You just met her.
- Met her a week ago.
She's a stranger.
Barely!
I feel like I've known
her my whole life.
Oh! A happiness heist.
BREATHING SESSION NARRATOR:
Good morning, Sean.
Today is the first day
of the rest of your life.
This is a guided
breathing session.
Surrender to the deepest.
Here we go.
Breathe in.
(SEAN INHALES)
BREATHING SESSION NARRATOR:
Breathe out.
(SEAN EXHALES)
BREATHING SESSION NARRATOR:
Breathe in.
(SEAN INHALES)
BREATHING SESSION NARRATOR:
Breathe out.
(SEAN EXHALES)
(SEAN INHALES)
(SEAN EXHALES)
- Put these on?
- Yup, put those on, thank you.
DR. WALTERS: The
multi-axis trainer you're in,
runs off this generator.
The information of you doesn't
have a unique location in space.
You're pixelated.
SEAN: Whatever you say, doc.
So, the first rule
of time travel
is that logical contradictions
cannot occur.
Meaning what you do
and what happens to you
will be whatever it will be.
Because of the arrow of time.
So just don't mess
about, capiche?
Got it.
What makes you feel
you need to see the future?
I mean, what's your fantasy
in the here and now?
Are we starting?
Baby, from one moment
to the next, you're starting.
I don't understand.
Behavior can't exist
without fantasy.
NICOLE: Sean!
Tell me about the girl.
What's her name?
NICOLE: You know
I don't love you.
Nicole.
Nicole what?
SEAN: Nicole Chase.
Her state of mind has
to be more than thinking.
How do you feel?
I feel like I've known
her my whole life.
I feel like, she's
got a lot of pride
and I feel like
she's really strong.
Everybody wants her.
SEAN: I'm sure they do.
I think I love her.
I don't even know her. (LAUGHS)
I want to know her.
I want to know what it's like.
Schoolboy crush.
'Cause you've been
heartbroken before.
So you buried yourself at work,
Looking for alternate containers
to hide your emotion.
Yes.
DR. WALTERS: You're
afraid to heal.
Because your identity
is based in trauma.
- I don't know.
- Who's this I?
Who's this I you
keep referring to?
I mean, you're not him.
Who?
You are not an I.
Wait, wait, wait,
wait, wait, wait!
- DR. WALTERS: It's okay.
- No, no, no, no, no.
DR. WALTERS: It's
okay! It's okay!
Let go.
Surrender.
(BREATHING DEEPLY)
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(INDISCERNIBLE SPEECH)
SEAN: Who's there?
()
(NICOLE AND SEAN ARGUING
IN DISTANCE)
I'm done.
Look, I'm done having
this conversation.
NICOLE: What am I gonna
do while you're gone? Knit?
No. This is just what you do.
Every time I have to go
some place, you do this.
- It's disgusting.
- Oh, what's that? Huh?
It's disgusting.
NICOLE: Have fun, honey.
Have a great flight!
Just don't, just don't,
just don't, just don't.
Just don't, just don't.
Just go. Please go.
If you call me, I'm
not gonna pick up.
Yeah, you will.
No, I won't! No, I won't.
()
So is like everybody who comes
to see you just completely nuts?
Do you think you're
completely nuts?
NICOLE: I don't know. Ugh!
I used to do this
when I was a kid.
I always present like
the best version of myself,
and I'm really good
at like just inventing
a narrative that sounds right.
My biggest concern
coming in here
is that I would just bullshit
my way around this entire thing.
Do you do that often?
No, but I think that
all the shitty parts of myself
we haven't really talked about.
- (NICOLE LAUGHS)
- I'm here.
NICOLE: I'm just
trying to paint.
For you before we
decide to, you know.
What do you think are
the shitty parts of yourself?
Um, I'm vain.
I'm extremely
jealous. I'm petty.
I can be paranoid.
I have OCD.
I used to, uh cut myself.
I um, I mean the list
goes on, you know.
(VOMITING)
(GROANING)
()
Ah!
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SEAN: How do I use these eyes?
(COUGHING)
(SIGHS)
SEAN: Point of view.
Views of views.
()
(INDISTINCT NEWS IN BACKGROUND)
Terrible idea.
I'm already gonna fly.
That's what I'm
fucking here for.
That's what happened.
Fuck it, blue luggage.
Fuck it. (INAUDIBLE)
(SEAN LAUGHING)
Butterfly effect.
Mustn't interfere.
Well, you could.
Stop all the pro-ing.
Stop all the con-ing.
Get on with the job.
No single truth does
not mean no truth.
Change changes. Awaken it.
Unfold it.
Make the best of this.
Yes.
Let's do it.
I'm not crazy. You are crazy.
I'm not crazy. You are crazy.
I'm not crazy. You are crazy.
I'm not crazy. You are crazy.
I'm not crazy. You are crazy.
I'm not crazy. You are crazy.
I'm not crazy. You are crazy.
My future self is thinking
of buying this shirt?
SEAN: It's all one event,
one network going on.
Colors, and shapes, and forms.
!It depends on you, just as much
as you depend on it.
Relationship
underwrites everything.
Go with it.
Go with it.
()
Ha! Nope.
SEAN: Just give me a sec.
Just let me...
Where are your bags?
SEAN: I left 'em at the airport.
- Oh?
- I'm not going.
I hate orange.
I'm never gonna leave you again.
I'm gonna kiss you.
SEAN: Eventually,
everything will happen.
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Your snore is adorable.
Hm. You never thought so.
I'm worried, I missed
the plot with her somehow.
Like I'm missing a
piece of the puzzle.
Hmm? What?
What piece of the
fucking puzzle?
Now I see the ease
of what I mean.
Maybe you should stop fucking
thinking, Sean.
(LAUGHS)
Hmm.
We both just came.
What is your problem?
Huh?
I take it for granted.
Everything.
Work.
You.
Okay.
To gab... grap something sharp
and stab me in the eye.
(LAUGHS)
I'm unlovable.
I'm unlovable.
You're looking at unlovable.
And by the way, pretty boy,
that's what I like about you.
- Yeah?
- Yeah.
Poor Sean.
Mm. Stop.
I'm unlovable.
Hmm.
Would you like me if I had no
arms or legs?
I'd prefer you if you had no
arms and legs.
'Cause then I could just
sit you on the couch
and we could hang out,
and watch TV with me all day.
And then I would force
you to go hiking,
even though you hate it.
How would I go hiking
without any legs?
I'd just roll you down the hill.
(LAUGHS)
I'd still love you.
- No, you wouldn't.
- Yeah.
You know how I always wanted
to tie you up,
but you wouldn't do it?
You wouldn't have a choice.
Hmm.
'Cause you couldn't move.
I'm the only one who
gets to love you.
NICOLE: Well, my
dear, it seems I'm missing
my little spoon.
No soup for you.
My question is, what's
the proper order?
- Beats me.
- Beats me.
I grew up on a farm.
(LAUGHS)
You want to ask me which spoon
you're supposed to use?
- Yeah, I do. - Is that what
you're getting at?
That's exactly what
I'm getting at.
Are you asking me
what this spoon is used for?
That's exactly what
I'm asking you.
I'd hope you don't have to
ask me what the only knife
is used for.
Is this a knife fight?
I've never eaten with anything
but a spoon.
(NICOLE LAUGHS)
NICOLE: A spoon?
I've got a spoon. I
sharpened one side.
I cut with that one.
(BOTH LAUGH)
It's like a Swiss Army Knife.
So use your spoon to eat
a piece of bread then.
I remember on the ship
all we had was bread and water.
I've never looked
at a loaf the same again.
(BOTH LAUGH)
I can't believe you
chose this restaurant.
I swear I have like
PTSD from last time.
Oh, come on. Now
you're gonna forget.
You're going to
pretend to forget?
No, I remember.
You must have been drunk.
I'm sure I was.
You went upstairs
and played Billy Joel
on the piano in
front of everybody
- and then we got kicked out.
- Sounds about right.
How could you not remember that?
I was drunk.
Yeah, shit, you were
drunker than I thought, son.
What did I play?
What did you play?
I can't remember.
Scenes From an
Italian Restaurant.
- That sounds wonderful.
- When in Rome.
Are you sure?
Yeah, I love that song.
Huh.
(SLURPING)
Oh my God, don't do that.
I'm really trying to be mad
at you right now, but it's hard.
You know how hard it's for me
to not like get things
off my chest, right?
- Right?
- Yeah.
So may I?
Please.
Alright.
I feel like there's kind
of a weird, uh, energy going on
with like you getting
into a fucking Uber
and leaving
without an explanation, okay?
So hear me out.
(EXHALES)
If you are not ready
to like talk about
all this shit with us, then...
No, I understand.
- Get it?
- Yeah.
Okay.
Good. 'Cause I am not your
like emotional punching bag.
No, I know, I left.
Yeah, you left.
I'm not a fucking piata.
Alright, I... I grew
up on that shit.
I do that to myself.
I'm in the music
business, like I just...
(SIGHS)
I don't want to be
that way with you.
You can't do that to me anymore.
You have a freckle
in the blue part of your eye.
Early onset cataracts.
No.
I'm afraid so.
Well, it's probably too late.
Can't have surgery.
You're gonna go blind
like James Joyce
and I'm gonna have
to roll you around
- in a wheelchair.
- (LAUGHS)
Is it crazy I'm falling
in love with you again?
RYAN: Hi, I'm sorry to intrude.
I just wanted to
let you know that
I'm such a fan of your work.
Can I email you my demo?
I'll be really fast, I
promise. Really quick.
He doesn't know his
email. Give it to me.
RYAN: Oh, thank you. Okay.
He can't remember shit.
Here, come on, sit down.
- RYAN: Are you sure?
- You can sit.
RYAN: I'm sorry, guys.
Thank you so much.
- What's your password?
- RYAN: Oh, here.
- There you go.
- Good. Nice background.
RYAN: I know, it's a tiger.
- Oh, so cute.
- (RYAN LAUGHS)
Awesome. There you go.
Thank you, I really
appreciate it.
You're welcome.
So listen, sweetheart.
Three years ago, I was you
and then I met him
and it was great.
But now, now I'm fucking me.
I didn't get a fucking record.
Ciao.
- Real nice.
- I'm sorry, it was so...
- Really nice.
- It was so easy.
- You're unbelievable.
- She's so cute.
Oh, God.
Oh, come on.
It's a joke.
Please, she got your email.
Thank you for that.
You're welcome.
Yeah, right.
You remember the first time?
Yes.
- You were fucking drunk, Sean.
- Okay.
Extremely.
Makes sense.
Remember anything else?
About what?
Oh, the beginning?
Yeah, I remember everything.
Oh, yeah, I keep everything
stored in my mind
for future reference,
so I could use it against you.
I know everything about you.
I know you're left-handed,
but you use your right hand
for everything.
Like the way you're holding
your wine glass right now.
I remember your hand
from that night.
They're perfect.
(INDISTINCT CHATTER
IN BACKGROUND)
(KISSING)
Yeah, babe.
SEAN: I hear it.
That sound again.
It's outside me.
Easy.
It's just supposed to be easy.
What the fuck are
we? What are we?
Who and what are we?
Is this... is this death?
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You didn't text me.
Of course, I didn't text you.
You're right here.
What do you mean?
It's like our thing.
You text me while you're
in the bathroom and we like
I don't know.
Can we switch, please?
I know we got the same thing,
but yours is always better.
(EXHALES)
Fruit in salad.
Okay.
(NICOLE SIGHS)
What'd you say the
first time we met?
Seriously, you really want
to go through this right now?
Yeah, yeah.
I knew who you were
when I met you.
You did?
I know I have never admitted
that for three years,
- but I knew who you were.
- How? How?
- Because I recognized you.
- No.
- You know?
- No, I said no.
Oh, did you know that I knew?
SEAN: No, I didn't
know that you knew.
I assumed that nobody
knows who I am.
That's not true.
What'd you think
the first time you saw me?
The very first time.
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()
Did you have a good
time at dinner?
I feel like I
talked a little lot.
You did.
- Excuse me?
- No, it was good.
We needed to.
It was good, it was good.
Thanks for coming.
SEAN: I know. I missed you.
Really?
Hmm.
I was here, though.
I know.
All the time.
Is that true?
Yeah.
You look beautiful tonight.
God, that souffl.
I'm just like...
Whoo!
- You look great.
- Daddy, I'm just full.
- You know?
- Do you not feel good?
No, I feel fine.
It's just like...
It's not even a bloat,
but it's like the inside.
It's very sexy.
- Okay.
- You know what I mean?
Right.
And so, we'll see what happens
when I get home.
(LAUGHS)
Okay.
- I'm gotta drive here.
- Mm.
What are you doing?
I don't know.
What are you doing?
- I don't know what I'm doing.
- NICOLE: Huh?
What is this?
You know, everything's
making sense to me now.
- NICOLE: Oh yeah?
- Yeah.
(SIGHS)
I'm always like,
reassessing myself.
I'm shooting myself in the
front of the process.
NICOLE: Mhmm.
I also like...
- NICOLE: Sean?
- I real... no, no, no.
It's okay, it's okay.
- NICOLE: Will you stop talking?
- I'm... I was just...
Like if I keep,
uh, enabling you,
I'm just like disabling you.
I've got to stop doing that.
What?
Disabling me?
Who the fuck talks like that?
The only person
who can disable me is me.
Right.
I just mean, um...
Uh, I just mean like, uh,
because I'm always
reassessing myself, um...
Should I continue to blow you,
so you can think clearer?
You know, I just, I miss the
I miss the point, the
I miss the plot with
everything, you know.
'Cause I'm so afraid
of not being the best
version of myself.
I'm really glad that you've had
this revelation, you know?
It's good. It's really good
to think about yourself,
when someone else
is blowing you.
Right? Not to
mention a girlfriend.
Am I just a piece
of ass for you?
No, because frankly,
you talk about me
as if I'm some
kind of girlfriend,
and I look beautiful,
and souffl this
and champagne that,
and you love chocolate,
and women love chocolate,
and that's great.
That's not what I'm saying.
No, but what you're saying is
that you'd rather keep me down.
- No.
- NICOLE: Yes, you would.
That's not what
I'm saying it all.
You couldn't possibly
be fucking somebody
that could actually have
a career of her own.
I was just saying that we can...
we can bring things back
to the way they were,
when things were good
before I fucked everything up.
We just have to
know where that was
and how we got here. That's it.
But if it doesn't work...
It'll work. That's
all I'm saying.
It's gonna break my heart.
I mean, that's all I'm saying.
That's all I'm saying.
Just don't do this to me again.
Let's just go back there.
Where?
(INDISCERNIBLE SPEECH)
Sure.
And we can wear bathrobes,
and we can wake up,
and we can get crazy.
Yeah!
NICOLE: And then we can go
swimming, and then we can laugh
about
all the things we did.
That's not like a heavy pour.
- I'm not even drinking.
- I am drinking.
I have small hands,
small stomach.
(LAUGHS)
I have small hands,
small stomach.
Me have small hand,
small stomach.
Are you trying to
get me drunk, Sean?
- Yes.
- Why?
I know why.
I would love to take
advantage of you.
I know why.
Why?
What are you talking about?
NICOLE: I'm talking about the
one about the crazy record
producer.
Oh my God. No.
I do need to get drunk for that.
SEAN: What are
you talking about?
Are you serious?
You're really pretending not
to remember right now.
It's like your favorite movie.
Well, I wouldn't say
it's my favorite movie.
It is. You told me it was
your favorite movie.
Like do you realize like
how fucked up it was for me
to watch you watching the
record producer in that movie,
while I was standing in front
of the TV stripping for you?
SEAN: Why is it fucked up?
While you were jerking off?
I mean, I'm sorry.
Did you like block
this out of your mind?
- You're pretending...
- SEAN: I must have.
NICOLE: I mean, it was
hot. It was good. It was hot.
I was into it.
But I just like...
SEAN: What? What did you think?
(LAUGHS)
I mean, I thought
I thought like, "Were
you looking at me"
or were you looking
at the producer in the movie?
Like, when I was stripping.
Is that a serious question?
Yeah, because I wondered like,
"Is he looking at himself"
and that's what turns him on?
Of course, I was looking at you.
I'm kidding.
It's a joke.
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A family.
Family.
Like a family, family.
What's a family, family?
3 acres and a mule.
(NICOLE CHUCKLES)
Always wanted a family, family.
Mmm.
We can get a ranch out
in Montana somewhere.
Mhmm, mm.
Couple of kids, maybe two.
I don't want any twins, though,
so hope you're
alright with that.
Hey.
Where you going?
How many kids do you want?
Two.
NICOLE: Not more than two?
Three?
- SEAN: Just two.
- Four.
- Two.
- You know I can't have kids!
You know I can't have kids!
Fuck you!
No.
Uh-uh.
You're just gonna fuck me?
It doesn't matter,
because I can't get pregnant.
You're gonna go and
marry the other girl!
No! No! No! No!
Fuck!
That's not true.
Get off!
(SCREAMS)
Hey, hey! Hey!
Stop! Stop! Stop!
Stop! Stop! Stop!
- Please.
- (CRYING)
()
NICOLE: The meanest thing Sean
ever told me is that I wasn't
sick,
I wasn't dying, I had
everything I wanted,
I wasn't living on the streets.
And the only reason
that I had a problem
with this kid thing was
because I, like a child,
just wanted something
that I couldn't have.
Okay, stop. Stop. Stop. Stop.
(CRYING)
Is that love?
Okay.
(INDISCERNIBLE SPEECH)
No.
You know what's great about
morning sex?
What?
Nothing.
Very self-conscious
in front of the cameras.
Please, don't do it.
No.
(LAUGHING)
SEAN: Did I ever tell you
the story about Rebecca?
My first girlfriend
in high school.
Were you happy in high school?
You wanna know about
one of my boys?
I can't.
It'll hurt me.
Stop it.
(INDISCERNIBLE SPEECH)
(LAUGHS)
You know, it's not
that I don't like
you taking photos of me,
it's that you're a
terrible photographer.
You're ferocious.
NICOLE: I am.
SEAN: What the fuck
are you talking about?
What are you...
NICOLE:
Since when have you changed?
What are you fucking Mariah...
Mariah Carey?
SEAN: Omnipotent helplessness.
You don't even know
what the fuck that means.
Experiencer with no end user.
Becoming here.
Becoming in time.
Becoming here.
- Darling?
- Hmm.
Thank you.
What's in this?
SEAN: Love.
It tastes good.
SEAN: Wanna get out of that tub?
Was it meant to become open?
Was it meant to become open?
God, she's beautiful.
We live time rather
than just conceive it.
It's a device of the mind.
And time is no beginning.
Would I be here in this moment
if we had never met.
Would you?
What would you say?
What would I say?
This never happens.
Maybe we shouldn't go.
What? Why?
Because I just don't
feel like it anymore.
We should definitely
go. It'll be fun.
Be a nice date night.
We'll umm...
(CLEARS THROAT)
It'll be good for you to go.
What's that supposed to mean?
Fuck, I don't know.
I just mean that it would be
I'm trying to make things better
I'm not good at this.
Hold on.
Hold on.
Wait a second.
Hold on. What did you just say?
Did you just say you weren't
good at something?
Oh my God.
Congratulations, Sean.
The Sean Graves
finally admitted that
he wasn't good at something.
My God. Amazing.
You know, it's really
fucking interesting to me.
Touch.
Okay, fine. I'll go to the party
under one condition.
SEAN: What's that?
What's with all the ultimatums?
You tell me.
You're a rambling,
gambling type of guy.
Figure it out.
Mmm. No?
And?
SEAN:! What assumptions
are you making right now?
!Everything changes soon enough.
You change itself.
Including change itself.
(CHEERING)
I don't feel fine.
You're alright.
Hey, Sean.
I gotta tell you,
disappearing right now
with a pitchfork
interview on the horizon,
makes me fucking nervous.
Hi, Miranda.
So, the reason we
have cell phones
is to get in touch 24/7.
Well, I was fucking
him 23 of those 24,
so I guess that's on me.
I'm gonna get a drink and uh,
mingle with the
beautiful people.
Maybe I'll see David Bowie.
I don't know what
you see in her.
Certainly isn't talent.
- Pitchfork.
- I'm on it.
No, I'm on it.
Great.
- Thank you.
- Mhmm.
You're welcome.
Yeah.
(INDISTINCT CHATTER)
()
Just get me a Manhattan.
Just make it real mean.
She loves you.
- Miranda?
- Yeah.
I'll have what she's having.
You know, I gotta
be honest with you.
Umm, I really don't
feel like myself here.
And it's making me feel umm,
um, a bit uh, disagreeable.
Oh, come on, it's just a party.
Be a rock star.
Be a rock star.
I'd rather just be your fianc.
In due time.
Fine. I'm gonna go
fucking rub shoulders.
You look great.
Aah-ooh-ah!
Come here.
It's so good to see you, man.
Oh, man.
You've been working out.
What are you doing?
You look great.
- Not as good as you do.
- Wow. Happy birthday.
Thanks, man.
What are you doing here?
I just didn't want to
miss your birthday.
Yeah, except
for you were supposed to, right?
Thought you had, like some
secretive thing you had to do.
Nah.
- No?
- Cancelled it.
- For me?
- Yeah.
Well, we men, are
political animals, no?
Sure. Let's get.
- You gonna smoke that?
- Go on and get.
Go fucking move, in good time.
SEAN: Eventually,
everything will happen.
(INDISTINCT CHATTER & CHEERING
IN BACKGROUND)
What?
I know what you're doing.
I just think you should cool it.
What? What?
What are you talking about?
Your health, your body.
What are you saying
to me right now?
JESSE: You need to be careful.
Dude, have some
reverence for life.
Look at me.
Just stop trying
to fucking forecast the weather
and build a better boat.
Are you happy?
Are you happy?
It's been a strange trip, man.
Yeah, that's fucking life, man.
That's life.
You know, we don't have a clue.
Just don't mistake the map
for the terrain.
Are you happy?
Are you fucking happy?
No!
No.
That's fucking why
I'm doing it, man.
All you can do is
win every day, right?
Win today.
Just stop saying yes
when you mean no,
and stop saying no
when you mean yes.
Fuck, man.
- I'm worried about you.
- No, it's okay.
Well, you're here,
so you might as well
have a good time.
I think this will get you
where you need to go.
What is it?
It's my birthday.
- My birthday? It's my birthday.
- It's my birthday.
Just be cool, man.
It's my birthday.
It's for me. It's my
happy birthday to me.
Yes, yes. Take it, take it.
Yeah.
Cheers.
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()
()
Yo, the synths on
the new record?
Pfft! You killed it, fam.
Track six. (SINGING BEAT)
(LAUGHS)
- All that, baby.
- Cheers.
Listen, thank you for letting me
do my thing on it.
You go and play it
in the hard way,
it's dope.
(MAN LAUGHS)
SEAN: Everybody's
afraid of everybody else.
Everybody's afraid
of everybody else.
Everybody's afraid
of everybody else.
- Ciao.
- Hey.
- Restaurant.
- Do you remember me? Mhmm.
- You remember me.
- I do, of course.
- Good memory.
- Yeah.
(LAUGHS) Well, it
hasn't failed me yet.
(BOTH LAUGH)
It's China, baby. (LAUGHS)
- Even in the dark.
- Even in the dark, baby.
(SEAN LAUGHS)
- 'Cause you're the people.
- Uh, yeah.
Right?
Just standing here, quiet?
Just getting some space.
Yeah, I feel like my
anxiety gets worse
the older I get.
- Oh.
- Yeah.
I'm Ryan.
Sean.
Right. You know.
- Nice to meet you.
- Nice to meet you.
- Thank you.
- Nah, man.
Listen, you mind the boys
and everything?
I need something to get me out
of bed in the morning.
Too much self-obsession.
So many other better ways
to spend my time, you know?
That's Nicole Chase, right?
That, yeah, that's her.
- I love her.
- You do?
She's great.
SEAN: Oh, wow.
My frequency's been
all out of loop.
- Just static in my frequency.
- SEAN: Yeah.
(MIMICS STATIC NOISE)
SEAN: Everybody's
afraid of everybody else.
Everybody's afraid
of everybody else.
MAN 1: You're really
something special.
- Am I?
- Oh my gosh, yes.
I was just wondering what
happened to her, though.
What do you mean?
Well, she had that
like one song, but that was it.
One hit wonder.
Oh, oh.
Yeah, I don't know.
Hey, hi.
In my heart today.
I'm happy I was
able to help you out
and it sounds like people
really enjoyed the record.
SEAN: She's a big fan.
RYAN: Yeah, absolutely.
I was just listening
to Sometime, Sometime in Summer.
- Summer?
- Yeah!
- It's wonderful. I loved it.
- Really?
Yeah, my roommate
turned me onto it.
Yeah, it's one of
my favorites, too.
Yeah, I love it.
It's heartbreaking.
I wrote it about him.
That's sweet.
I just wanted to tell
you guys, it was great
meeting both of you,
and buona notte.
- Hey, hey.
- Yeah.
Thanks.
- Of course.
- Thank you.
Yeah, of course.
I... I mean it.
I'm sorry, guys.
You alright?
Yeah.
(SNIFFLES)
She's a fan.
()
You should call
her. Come back here.
Give me another compliment.
(LAUGHS)
She really digs your music.
NICOLE: Look at us, a
bunch of weirdos in the corner.
SEAN: I'm so, so sorry.
For everything.
NICOLE: Why don't you want
this moment to last forever?
SEAN: It will.
Bury it deep in your
memory with strings
attached to me.
NICOLE: What's going on?
I feel like this !is really
coming out of my eyes.
I feel like it has this...
SEAN: Lived in effect.
Maybe it's what's
supposed to happen.
NICOLE: It's my fault.
It's no one's fault.
SEAN: All I found it's my fault.
()
SEAN: You gotta be kidding me.
!You really messed
up everything.
The very questions
are the answer.
Who's there?
()
!You really messed
up everything.
(HUMMING, SPITS)
()
NICOLE: Are you
ready to wake up?
()
()
Sean?
Hey!
(SPITS) Ugh! I woke up this
morning and I swear to you,
I feel like a weight's been
lifted off my shoulders.
And I started laughing
and I was thinking about how
Keith Richards kept a tape
recorder next to his bed.
Right? And he woke up in
the middle of the night
and he came up with a riff
for satisfaction. Right?
And then he fell asleep.
But the first part
of the tape is like
(SINGS TUNE)
Isn't that amazing?
(LAUGHS)
Right?
So I figured it out.
Tonight's the first night
of the rest of my career.
(SEAN LAUGHS)
NICOLE: I'm gonna
get a tape recorder.
But listen, we're not gonna
tape ourselves fucking, okay?
'Cause this is all
business, my friend.
Do they even make
tape recorders anymore?
Right?
It's genius!
Mm, mm.
Sorry.
It's so beautiful out today.
Should we go for a walk?
Like get a coffee?
I had a really long night.
Yeah, no kidding.
What's wrong?
I had this dream.
And it feels like everything
is just out of my control.
And all these things
are happening.
And I'm just waiting
for the other shoe to drop.
I don't know what it is.
I think you need a coffee.
I'm serious.
Okay. What? I'm sorry.
Keep talking.
Like uh...
There's this weird limbo.
Some fucked-up dj vu.
I can't put my finger on it.
You know what I mean?
No, I don't.
Of course, you don't.
()
NARRATOR: Odysseus is disguised
when he returns to
his home in Ithaca,
revealed only by his scar.
!Homer knew the power of wounds.
I'm ready to drop off...
Huh?
I'm ready to drop off
the rest of the posters.
Uh, no. I don't know why?
I'm supposed to drop off
the rest of the posters,
What, those posters?
Those old posters?
No, the new ones.
NICOLE: New ones of what?
For the re-release.
NICOLE: Re-release?
Of what? Your album?
Whoa!
What's wrong with you?
Anyways, so I was thinking
maybe if you didn't
wanna do a hike
even though I know you're not...
(INDISCERNIBLE SPEECH)
What are you going on about?
Huh?
You said we were
gonna go for a ride.
When?
Okay, fine, we're
gonna get coffee first,
and then we can go.
Are you okay?
- What are you doing?
- I'm gonna get coffee.
Huh?
Great.
Great, let's go.
Let's get a cup of coffee.
You gonna change
or are you gonna go like that?
Um, no.
I'm just gonna put a pair
of heels on and then we're good.
- Great.
- What is wrong with you?
SEAN: There's a little
bit of hell in me.
This bottomless
mystery, of existence.
Sometimes one is
hit by this thing.
There's a little
bit of hell in me.
I have to pee.
Of course, you do.
You have to pee
every five fucking minutes.
You know what's funny?
NICOLE: What?
I come in this morning
to get a cup of coffee.
But now it's 6:00
and I haven't been home once.
I haven't done a single fucking
thing I wanted to do today.
What's wrong?
Just drop it.
Let's not talk about it.
I just really don't
think you'd understand.
I don't seem to understand
anything about you, do I?
I think you should talk about it
to somebody else.
- I need to talk to somebody?
- Yeah, it'd be good for you.
(LAUGHS)
I need to talk to somebody.
Oh, that's good.
You know what I think you need?
Since marriage is completely
off the fucking table
and this union will definitely
never be official,
I think we should try and spice
some things up a little bit.
Oh yeah?
Maybe that'll lift your mood.
Maybe you can talk to her.
Like that waitress at the
restaurant? That'd be fun.
What are you fucking
talking about?
That waitress there.
Oh, she loved you.
Are you kidding me?
- Refilled your water nine
times. - What restaurant?
What waitress are
you talking about?
Oh, come on.
I don't need to
fucking talk to her.
You're out of your fucking mind.
I'd like to talk to you.
- That would be nice.
- You know you can help me.
How?
Standing on my
fucking shoulders.
You can maybe tell me that.
Huh?
You want to be a fucking singer?
You want to write
some fucking songs?
Fucking do it.
I'm tired of hearing your shit.
"Oh, man, I was a singer."
No one wants to listen to
my fucking songs.
Oh, Sean, help me.
Sean, produce my record.
Sean. As if I don't have enough
on my fucking plate.
I need you fucking
weighing me down.
Always. Always. Constantly.
Okay.
You don't do fucking anything.
I pay for everything.
You eat everything.
You sleep in my fucking bed.
You live in my fucking house.
You want things to be different?
Fucking do something about it.
You are such an asshole!
You are so selfish.
And you're such a hypocrite.
And you're not who
you say you are.
And you flip and you change.
And it's gross.
If you're gonna
be an asshole, be an asshole.
But someone who doesn't
know who he is?
Yeah, big man.
But next time we go out to
dinner, we can split the bill.
Next time I listen
to one of your songs,
I won't pretend to like it.
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What you looking for?
- What?
- Where's my
I don't know.
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I like that shirt.
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Goodnight.
NICOLE: You know
I dreamed of you.
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And then 10:30 you've got that
Pitchfork interview.
And then a hard out at noon.
You can't talk too long, 'cause
you have that AOL build thing.
Hmm.
Lord have mercy on my soul.
MIRANDA: Today?
- Every day.
- MIRANDA: Hmm.
I don't like the grass.
I want to change it.
MIRANDA: What's wrong with it?
Too green.
It'll be a whole
different shade then.
But it's fake.
MIRANDA: Okay.
I'll get you something
drought tolerant. Rip it up.
NICOLE: I don't give
a fuck about that.
- Okay.
- NICOLE: Just change it.
Alright. Done.
Miranda, say hi to Sean.
Morning, sunshine.
Hey Sean, maybe we should
cool it with the sleepovers.
People are gonna think
you live with me.
(BOTH LAUGH)
MIRANDA: That
might be something.
(ALL LAUGH)
Seriously, 12:00, noon.
- Hard out.
- Yeah, this is wild.
You can't buy this
shit from me anymore.
MIRANDA: Okay. Yeah,
it is pretty foul.
It looks like vomit.
So good. So good.
Next song. Next song.
(SPEAKS FRENCH)
(COUGHING)
Can you shut the fuck up
- for five seconds?
- Are you speaking French?
(MIRANDA LAUGHS)
MIRANDA: Where have you been?
Yeah.
Both of my parents are French.
Are you high?
Already?
- Okay, so...
- MIRANDA: Shall we?
I just don't want
to be around people today.
MIRANDA: I'm gonna do that.
I need a fucking
pedicure, Miranda.
I'll get somebody here.
This is fucking disgusting.
If you buy that again,
I'm gonna kill you.
Um, Sean.
Of coffee like some
kind of panhandler
and actually do
something with yourself.
Okay?
Does that sound good?
Yeah?
Good.
So, I have this pitchfork thing
and then I'm going to an event,
so I won't be back until noon.
SEAN: Remain vigilant.
Oh, no, no.
Wait.
You work for me, right? Right?
Mr. Sean, I worked
for you one year.
Now, Miss Nicole,
she pay much better
and full-time.
Yeah, but it's my house, yeah?
Oh, no, Miss Nicole,
let you stay.
She buy when you in trouble.
(PANTING)
JESSE ON PHONE: Hey, bud.
- Hey, what are you doing?
- Nothing.
Can I ask you something?
I need to ask you something.
What?
Am I fucking dreaming right now?
- What are you talking about?
- I need you to come over.
- Where?
- My house.
JESSE ON PHONE: You mean Nick's?
Just get over here!
Just fucking come over!
How am I here right now?
That is not Nicole.
That is not the girl
I fell in love with.
Nicole is unpredictable.
She depends upon me. She's free.
She's fucking wild.
She doesn't do
fucking water fasts!
Bro, you sound like you're
on some real Bobby Brown shit
- right now.
- You know this...
Hey, do you want to be happy
or do you want to be right?
You don't fucking understand.
Do you ever think that if you
got the opportunities
you're getting now 10 years ago,
you could handle this
or would you blow it?
- Because it finally fucking...
- You don't understand!
That's not the fucking point!
It's... it's
subconscious patterns.
It's... it's conscious patterns.
It's fucking patterns.
One moment now changes
a moment there.
Hey, that's how all
of life works, okay?
- And just one foot...
- You were the fucking one
who sold me on the possibility
of fucking entanglement!
What is going on?
You're the one that
gave me the idea
to go to them in
the first place.
- To who?
- Dr. Fel.
And at your birthday,
you warned... you warned him.
You warned me.
But it wasn't me.
But I fucking remember.
You're not making any sense.
You warned me about going
to too many sessions.
Sean, I'm a writer, okay?
It's my job to have experiences.
Besides, I never
even left the room.
I could have hallucinated
everything that I saw.
Well, I didn't know.
'Cause I never went, but he did.
And he talked to Nick
and he talked to you.
I'm so fucking lost.
I don't know what to tell you.
Where's Dr. Fel?
What? She got shut down.
The FDA exposed her
as a fraud, a hoax.
How long ago?
A year.
Maybe. I don't...
(GROANS)
I'm so fucked!
Sean, hey.
- I'm so fucked!
- Dude, don't worry.
I'm so fucked, I'm so fucked.
You're fine. You're fine.
Take a breath. Breathe.
(EXHALES, CRYING)
Come on.
Breathe, buddy.
You're fine.
(TAKING DEEP BREATHS)
You're good.
It's not okay.
It's okay.
Look at me.
It's okay.
I'm so fucked.
NICOLE: Are you
ready to wake up?
BREATHING SESSION NARRATOR:
Good morning, Sean.
Today is the first day
of the rest of your life.
This is a guided
breathing session.
Surrender to the deepest.
Here we go.
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Okay, I gotta be
honest with you.
I think we're spending a little
bit too much time together.
And frankly, all the attitude
is sort of weighing me down.
Okay? Because my brain
is literally about to explode.
And I swear to God, if you go
on another fucking diatribe
about astral projections
and all of these things,
I think I'm gonna lose my mind.
My theories are sound.
I haven't been the
best partner, but I'm,
but I'm trying.
I think maybe you
should stop trying.
You don't get it!
We hurt each other
and that's bad for me.
We love each other.
That's really bad
for me right now.
We love each other.
That should be enough.
Look, I'm sorry
if I'm being short
or distant or whatever.
But frankly, it's
like bad for business.
And I just don't think that
I can carry your weight anymore.
So basically what
I'm saying is...
We should get married.
I don't think we should see
each other anymore, Sean.
- We should get married.
- We are not getting married!
We should get married.
- We are not getting married.
- We should get married.
We should get married.
- Please stop.
- We should get married.
Please stop.
- We should get married. - Why
would you want to marry me?
- We should get married.
- You hate me.
I take care of you,
you take care of me.
- We should get married.
- No, I take care of you.
We should get married.
I don't know what's happening.
I have to go.
I don't know what's
happening anymore.
(NICOLE LAUGHING)
You just need some space, right?
Oh no, sweetheart.
That's the last thing I need.
My people are worried.
Yup, they're worried.
My lawyers are talking to me
about common law marriages.
And they're getting
a little freaked out.
And so um, I just need you
to look at these documents
and sign them.
Okay?
You don't trust me?
I don't trust anybody about it,
especially when
it comes to money,
especially when you're dealing
with somebody
who doesn't have any.
This is unbelievable.
NICOLE: I mean, I'm sorry,
but our lives are different now.
We've got paparazzi.
We've got people around.
We've got all sorts
of things going on.
The rumors, the
pictures, the everything.
(LAUGHS)
Star fuckers.
You're looking at me
like I'm one of them?
Look, we don't have anything
to worry about anymore, okay?
You just sign the papers.
I'm supposed to be your person.
You were supposed
to be my person.
You were supposed
to be my husband
and you were supposed
to be my life.
And now I'm miserable.
I'm sorry I didn't know that.
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You wanted to be my wife?
I know.
I know.
What happened?
I'm sorry, Sean.
NICOLE: (SNIFFLES) I'm sorry.
Don't leave me.
- NICOLE: I have to.
- Don't leave me.
NICOLE: I have to.
- I'm sorry.
- Please don't leave me.
NICOLE: I'm sorry.
Everything's gonna be okay.
You're gonna be okay.
Just sign the fucking papers.
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NICOLE: You know I do love you.
SEAN: Time goes backwards.
What happens next?
The past always flows back
from the present.
Where can we go from here?
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Okay.
Let's do it.
Let's fucking do it.
Yeah. Let's do it.
NICOLE: I can't sing alone.
The future's not yet.
The future's not yet.
The past is no more.
This is all we
have in our window.
Can't see you.
(LAUGHS)
We don't know
where we're moving towards.
Just hold me in your arms.
Hold me in your arms.
I don't wanna get over you.
Hold me in your arms.
Hold me in your arms.
I don't wanna get over you.
Hold me in your arms.
I don't want to get over you.
I don't want to get over you.
DR. WALTERS: As you can see, a
lot has changed since we last
met.
SEAN:! Things have
definitely changed.
What happened?
DR. WALTERS:
It was an unproven drug.
Investors didn't believe
the valuation I put on it.
SEAN: So that's it?
It's done? It's over?
Cosmic joke's on us.
It's just got to be some sort
of test or something.
DR. WALTERS: We're
prisoners of our own experience.
Let the past die.
You only live one day.
Yeah, but he went.
And he did all these things.
And now my thoughts,
my desires, my actions,
everything's influenced by it.
And I don't know what's mine
and what's his.
A paradox.
Interesting.
Your past-self intervenes,
so you being the future-self
are in a fluid state of change.
Oh.
We're in this together
and all this is about
is your freedom
as a human being.
To be who you truly
are meant to be.
SEAN: I'm a stranger to myself.
DR. WALTERS: What
does it matter?
SEAN:! You don't
understand. She's me.
DR. WALTERS:
She's a creative being, right?
SEAN: Yeah.
DR. WALTERS:
Do you accept that in her?
SEAN: Now I do.
DR. WALTERS: Because you're
not jealous of that, right?
I have nothing to be
jealous of anymore.
I'm past jealous.
I just... I just
don't know what to do.
NICOLE:! What if I don't like
what I see when I get there?
DR. WALTERS: You know,
I would bet that you will like
what you see when you get there.
- (LAUGHS) Really?
- Mhmm.
DR. WALTERS: It's
going to be okay.
That I can promise you.
Oh, yeah?
It always is.
SEAN: I feel like I
have to let him go.
Let myself go.
Nothing in the universe lasts.
You go on your new journey
with love for yourself,
first and foremost.
That's the thing, isn't it?
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NARRATOR: The sun both rises
and sets, and yet technically,
the Earth just rotates.
Kurt Godel once wrote:
SEAN: "Time travel is possible",
but no man can
kill his past self.
I've done the math
enough to know.
SEAN AND NARRATOR: One
becomes two, two becomes three,
and out of the third comes one
as the fourth.
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Hey, Sean.
Uh, this may seem random
and purposeless
to you right now as I'm talking,
but I need you
to understand where I'm at,
where my mind is.
And look, I'm not gonna
tell you what not to do
and I'm not gonna force you
to transform yourself.
You need to know that today
is the first day of the rest
of your life.
We are a multitude
of identities.
Do not take any one of them
too seriously.
I'm giving you a chance
to love your new life, so go
and see, taste, and
feel, and fuck, love.
Turn time upside down.
Have a different experience
with yourself.
Let go.
Simultaneous existence
in a dozen parallel worlds.
The nature and history
of universe on top of universe.
Interlinked,
embodied, invincible.
Drop the idea you have
to attain some goal.
Drop the idea you have
to reach somewhere.
- You are not an I.
- You are not an I.
You are not an I.
I mean, well, you see,
you've only ever had one enemy.
And that's me.
It's all me.
Forgive me.
Just follow your day,
for God is reality.
Ephemeral and eternal.
NICOLE:
!We imprint the people around us
in all the spaces in between.
How many dreams we dream?
You know it.
Let go.
Let go.
Let go. Let go. Let go.
Let go. Let go. Let go.
Let go. Let go. Let go.
Let go. Let go. Let go.
Let go. Let go. Let go.
Are you ready to wake up?
SEAN: What more is there to say?
(HUMMING)
(MIMICS LAUGHTER)
Hi.
- Hi.
- Sorry.
Uh, I was trying to teach myself
how to draw with my left hand.
- That's cool.
- Hello.
- How can I help you?
- What do you think?
NICOLE: I think that
looks great on you.
Umm...
- It's for my sister.
- Okay.
- It's her birthday.
- Oh, great.
Yeah, we've got tons of stuff.
What kind of, um, uh,
what kind of...
what kind of girl is she like?
What's her vibe?
Oh!
Too much.
NICOLE: But that is nice.
It looks... it looks nice on
if she... I mean, sorry,
if she has... you
know what I mean.
I don't know what you mean,
but let's leave it at that.
- Okay.
- What about these sun dresses?
Yes. Uh, yes, we
have a lot of them.
They're um, they're nice.
They're kind of flirty
if that's sort of...
- Flirty?
- That's sort of her...
This is my sister
we're talking about.
If she's uh... if
that's her style.
Yeah, I love that red one.
That's um, I'm gonna buy it.
Next paycheck, you know.
(SEAN LAUGHS)
SEAN: Will you
try a song for me?
- Please.
- I'm not really.
You guys are the same size.
You want me to try?
Yeah.
- Just try it on.
- Sure.
NICOLE: Okay. (LAUGHS)
Just uh, man the door, you know?
I mean, you better
not rob the place.
I come from a place
where people trust each other.
SEAN: Oh, yeah, where's that?
- NICOLE: Hollywood.
- SEAN: Hollywood?
NICOLE: Hollywood,
Florida. Yeah, I'm just
I'm staying with my
sister right now.
It... it's not a
permanent thing.
It's um, just you
know, in between gigs.
What do... what do you do?
What's your thing?
I'm a singer.
Singer.
Yeah.
Wow.
I love the dress.
- It looks great.
- Great.
Yeah, you think she'd like it?
I think she'd love it.
Great. Okay.
Well, I'll just get another one.
SEAN: No, I want that one.
I want that one.
Okay. That's easy.
Great customer.
Okay.
Here we go.
So, um okay, I'm gonna give
you the uh, senior discount.
SEAN: Senior discount?
And yeah, uh, 34 even.
- SEAN: Perfect.
- NICOLE: Great.
SEAN: Exactly how much
I was wanting to spend.
- NICOLE: Why? Lucky number?
- SEAN: Yeah.
NICOLE: Oh.
Okay.
- Is this real?
- (BOTH LAUGH)
$6 for you, sir.
And then if you'd like
to join our mailing list.
Great.
Here you go.
This is uh, it's a good pen.
You're left-handed?
Yeah.
But I do mostly everything
with my right hand.
Just... just the way it is.
NICOLE: So, we're,
and if you ever like uh, need
anything for any other women
in your life, like
your girlfriend or,
or whatever, you know,
just I'm... I'm
here all the time.
No girlfriend.
Well, uh, my lord,
this is yours.
- (SEAN LAUGHS)
- I hope she likes it.
SEAN: Thanks. Me too.
Well, thanks for all your help.
Thank you for coming in.
Have a great day.
NICOLE: You too.
Oh, um...
Yeah?
You get a free lighter.
Yeah it's just...
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(INDISTINCT LYRICS)
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And now you're everywhere
(INDISTINCT LYRICS)
I feel you in between
Right there in the wall
And now you're everywhere
Do you know what to feel
(INDISTINCT LYRICS)
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And now you're everywhere
(INDISTINCT LYRICS)
I feel in the trees
(INDISTINCT LYRICS)
And now you're everywhere
Do you know what to feel
(INDISTINCT LYRICS)
So I go inside
Of the gardens green
In the hope to feel you
Inside everything
I'll jump in...