KSI: In Real Life (2023) Movie Script
Back in the day,
YouTube was a very simple place
for the cat videos
or random vlogging.
But I started to realise
that YouTube could possibly
be around forever.
As a kid,
I was very introverted.
Bit of a loser.
But when I started
my YouTube channel,
that one button,
and I became KSI.
Holy crap! There's a Black guy
on the screen!
Oh, my God, my dick is on fire!
Welcome to Q&A Sunday.
Put one in your mouth
and say, "Choppy bunny".
Choppy bunny.
You're out. Out, out, out.
Please like, subscribe and tits.
No, sicko!
Got rocks on my wrist
That shit you can't resist
Cash flow greater than
The haters hating on my jizz
Only, like, 50 people have this.
On the programme,
we have the undisputed
YouTube champion of the world,
from the UK,
the Nightmare, KSI.
- Finally. Finally.
- I'll knock you out, bro.
- You make videos...
- Yeah, yeah.
What, you wanna push me again?
Push me again!
JJ has got so much power.
It's a big uppercut from JJ.
Once you go, "Oh, you know what,
"I'm going to do this",
then you can do it.
I just have this mentality
where nothing can stop me.
That's just my way of thinking.
Yeah.
Ay, yo,
what's up, motherfuckers?
And welcome to...
Yeah.
- Impaulsive. Let's go.
- Yeah.
Ladies and gentlemen,
we have KSI back on the podcast.
Welcome, JJ,
to Los Angeles and America.
Dude, it's good to have you.
- It's good to have you...
- Good to be here, man.
- Again. I made it.
- Again.
You're doing, like, 10 different
things here during your...
This week, no?
Yeah, just, like, music,
working on my next album, yeah.
- Just writing and everything.
- Sick.
And that, too?
That guy right there?
What's that guy doing?
Oh, Amazon.
Wes. Big boy Wes.
So, he's been filming me
the whole time
since around June.
Just, like,
literally my whole life.
Just, what's going on.
You like him, I assume, huh?
Yeah, yeah, he's cool, yeah.
Yeah, he's cool. He's...
Yeah, bro, he's seen me,
you know,
the highs and the lows.
I think
people are gonna really see
a completely different side to
what they normally see online.
So, JJ, how did you sleep?
It was quite shit...
If I'm being honest.
Um, jetlag.
Yeah, I woke up in the middle
of the night, like, 4:00 a.m.
I think I was tweeting
some soppy stuff.
I've always wondered,
like, what...
Like, what's special to me,
or what meant a lot to me.
Um...
You know, I was thinking, like,
what really made sense?
You know, I have
a load of baggage.
Um...
I have plenty of money.
Plenty of fame.
Oh, God, But, nah, nah.
I have...
No, I have a lot of baggage.
And, um,
I'm definitely working on that.
I don't think anyone
actually really knows who I am.
Including me.
Can you tell me about it, JJ,
what's the line-up
of the festival?
Uh, well,
so, for Reading and Leeds,
we've got Stormzy,
Post Malone, Liam Gallagher.
Obviously, got people like
AJ Tracey, Mabel, Yungblud...
and me.
Do you know how many people
are gonna be
at Leeds and Reading?
I think around 30,000.
I could be wrong.
But it's gonna be
a lot of people.
JJ, I think it's 80,000.
Eighty thousand?
Shit. Okay, then.
Well, then, I've definitely
downplayed that.
I didn't know,
I thought it was 30,000.
Eighty thousand, come on.
That's easy.
Holy shit.
Holy shit!
What's going
through your head right now?
What are you thinking?
I want this to be
a moment for everyone.
I want everyone to be like,
"Damn, KSI's fucking hard".
"I don't normally
fuck with his music,
"but, damn, bro,
he's good live, you know?"
We're here, baby.
We're here.
Leeds Festival!
Oh, I've just been looking
at the crowd.
Like, this is...
This is my moment, bro.
- Yeah, man.
- Oh, coming through, like,
"Hey, what's up?
KSI in the building".
I'm here, baby. Shit.
Your energy's too much.
- Yeah, no, bro...
- I wish I had it.
No, that's the shit.
I don't know.
Beforehand,
I'm always just, like, chill,
- like, relax.
- Yeah, yeah, yeah.
And then whenever
it gets to the moment,
- I'm there like, "Oh, let's go."
- Yeah.
Hard.
Let's do this, baby.
There's definitely gonna be
a lot of people who don't think
I deserve to be
on that stage, 100%.
"Look at this YouTuber
trying to do music".
"KSI next to, what,
"Kid Laroi, Post Malone,
Stormzy, AJ Tracey?
"All these musicians,
"and then you've got KSI.
Doesn't make sense".
So then
I've gotta just show them
it makes perfect sense. Yeah.
I have to work harder
than all of these artists, man,
to prove that
I can be in that position.
I think, from my childhood,
I've always had
so much pressure to do well,
so the idea of failing
was terrifying.
I...
It's just scary,
like, I think that's...
Maybe that's my fear,
of failure.
That's, like, my biggest fear.
I hope you're having
a great time.
Our next act is pretty special.
Eight top-ten singles,
a number-one album,
and making his festival debut
right now, here, KSI!
Damn!
Damn! Team!
Don't play games
Don't play games with my heart
Ooh-wee
Oh, shit.
Now the feels
Hit me differently
Damn.
When they hittin' this deep
Don't play
Yeah!
Don't play, yeah, yeah
Don't play games
Don't play games with my heart
Ooh-wee
When they hittin' this deep
Don't play
Don't play
All that time
On your own with me
We had fun on the 360
I helped you get a UAV
My time is you dismissin'
This is in no way
A two-way street
I'm playin' "SAD!"
And it's on repeat
Got me here
Hopin' you see my Snap
'Cause I'm not ready
For us to wrap, no
Don't play games
Don't play games with my heart
Ooh-wee
Come on, Leeds!
When they hittin' this deep
Don't play
Don't play, yeah, yeah
Don't play games
Don't play games with my heart
Ooh-wee
Now the feels
Hit me differently
When they hittin' this deep
Don't play
Don't play, yeah, yeah
I am done.
Hey, yo, Leeds.
Thank you for having me.
Take care. Peace.
- Thank you, thank you.
- Congrats, bro, good lad.
Bro, congrats
to all of us, bruv.
Tell me I'm not
a musician now, innit.
KSI! KSI! KSI!
What the hell?
- From a YouTuber to this.
- Yeah.
Bro, man was in his bedroom,
in his bedroom,
making little FIFA videos,
and now look.
Who'd have fucking thought?
Bro!
This is the stuff
you dream about, innit?
Yeah, yeah, and...
But you're just like, "That's...
that's never gonna happen".
There's no chance.
And it's like,
"Damn, I'm here now".
Damn.
Ladies and gentlemen,
welcome to
a brand-new video idea.
Let's get a round of applause.
I know right? What!
Oh, my God, it's taken...
It's taken years...
It's taken years
for a brand-new video idea,
but it's come, finally.
Today we're gonna be
looking at my childhood.
We're going on Google Earth
to just look at where I grew up.
Let's go into this.
I think we'll start off
where everything started,
my whole YouTube career.
That is the big boy over here.
Oh!
Oh...
Oh, shit, there it is.
There it... Oh, shit!
Oh, there it is!
It's my old house.
That's my parents' bedroom,
that's my bro's room.
My room is in the back
over there,
and that's where I just did
all my YouTube videos,
start from the beginning.
Where we grew up in
Watford, my parents were, like,
I guess,
your typical African parents.
Wanted me to be
a doctor, lawyer.
We came here as immigrants
because there is nothing
in Nigeria.
I wanted more for my kids.
More education.
- Yeah, we wanted more.
- Yeah, education-wise.
And it's just to say that
they've had
a better-quality life than ours.
My parents were very strict.
If you did a mistake,
or if you fucked up,
then you get punished
by beatings.
Where we come from, Nigeria,
we have to respect our elders,
kids need to be disciplined,
and it's in the Bible,
"Spare the rod
and ruin the child".
It wasn't super loving.
We didn't really
do a lot together,
if that makes sense.
And I hardly ever heard
my parents say "I love you".
It was a tough upbringing,
in that sense.
But I found salvation online,
because it was like...
Sounds so sad.
It was like
the camera was my friend.
And I was, like,
talking to the camera
and just being like,
"Yo, what's up?"
And just saying
just random things to it.
If you're happy
And you know it
Clap your hands
If you're happy
And you know it
Clap your hands
If you're happy
And you know it
And you really want
To show it
If you're happy
And you know it...
Shut the up!
- What's up, bro?
- Say it, don't spray it.
But I just said, "Bro!"
And then, you know,
me and my brother, Deji,
we just created little movies.
- Ow!
- Oh, hell, nah!
Damn, that nigga pissed!
I think it was just cool
we were able to bond together
doing these things.
Fuck! I wasn't ready yet.
Growing up,
it was just me and JJ.
Having him as my older brother,
I mean...
When I was younger, I loved it.
Literally, I loved... I...
I adored him so much,
he was the best thing ever.
- Dej, get off me.
- No.
- Get off me.
- No.
Dej, why are you
touching my dick?
- I'm not.
- Yes, you are.
Get off me, Dej.
What is this hair?
What is this hair?
You're so bush.
Did you just jump off the boat?
You're a fucking mess.
Get off me, Dej!
What you doing, bro?
What...
When you started
making the videos,
how was your family
initially reacting to them?
My parents
did not like the videos,
they weren't keen on it.
So many times,
my parents would either
turn off the electricity,
or cut out the Wi-Fi.
Yeah, they didn't really like
the whole KSI thing.
I think KSI drives him.
KSI is untouchable.
He can do anything,
he doesn't care.
JJ is very, very humble,
quite easy-going.
I knew that wouldn't work.
Me just being JJ
wouldn't work online
because, you know,
it's just not entertaining.
But then whenever
the camera was on,
we were rolling,
I'd just switch it
and I'd be this different guy.
I was KSI.
Hey, guys.
Your boy KSIOlajideBT.
I know I'm not wearing
any trousers.
Yes!
- But KSI is just, um...
- His ego.
- Yeah.
- Yeah, it's the ego.
- He's on another level.
- Yeah.
It's, um...
Sometimes you just think,
"Is this my son?"
- Yeah.
- You know...
I don't think
I'd want to have KSI as a son.
Yeah, I'm on a horse
Mother-
Take a look at me
a car
I'm on a horse
Do re -ing mi
I'll fuck a horse
Uh, that's bestiality.
Shut up, bitch, I don't care
I just want my horse orgy
I told my parents
I was going to make YouTube work
no matter what.
As soon as
I was able to move out,
I was just like,
"Let's go, I'm off".
I started to see my parents
less and less and less.
I definitely, like,
slowly was destroying
the relationship
between me and my parents.
And I essentially became
a stranger to them.
JJ became more
hardworking when he left home.
He essentially felt like
we didn't love him.
So he was like, "Okay,
I have something to prove".
I guess he used us as a goal,
being like,
"Okay, you don't love me?
I'll make you love me".
But, I mean, it's like
when you isolate yourself
for a very long time,
you might end up cutting out
someone that is true to you.
He might be
so blinded with success
that he'll just lose someone
dear to him.
Jeez. I don't know whether
they said they were gonna put...
Did they say
they'd put the screens on here
or black drapes?
They said they're gonna
see how it looks.
I would say
the main thing, JJ, is...
I mean, it's harder when
you're just in a room with us,
but just even, like,
kinda getting used to it,
"Okay, I did that.
I'm knackered.
"I need to have water,
have a break".
Yeah, yeah. I know.
I know there's no rush
in that moment as well.
- You know what I mean?
- Yeah, I do. Yeah. Yeah.
Are there any changes
that you think you're gonna make
off the top of looking at it,
set-list wise?
Er...
We're gonna get rid of "You".
Oh, you're not gonna
do it at all?
No, man,
it's probably best if we don't.
- Okay.
- Yeah.
Cool.
From the show in general?
Um...
Yeah.
How come you won't do "You"?
Ah...
I don't wanna say right now.
- Can you not say? Okay.
- Yeah. Sorry.
- Is it a private thing?
- Uh, yeah, yeah.
Yeah.
How do you feel?
Er...
- Angry?
- Yeah.
Yeah.
All right, moving on.
Check. Check, check.
Check, check, check,
check, check, check.
All right. Um...
Can we have someone time it?
Yeah, that's what
we're gonna do.
- Ah, yeah, yeah, yeah.
- Yeah.
Are you fucking ready, man?
'Cause I am fucking ready, man.
Ay.
Madness
No doubt when you at this
Grandness
Grab it like I'm Atlas
Always want
When they pree it
Can't believe
When they see it
I've been here for a minute
Motorway with no limit
Madness
No doubt when you at this
Grandness, big name
On campus
I'm the proof
In that pudding
Say they can
But they couldn't
I'm the man when I'm in it
I'll be done
When I'm finished
Don't piss me off
I've been killin' this shit
Acting tough on the net
With a million clicks
Bitch, you're gonna get hit
And I've done more than a man
In a single year
And still I'm
The man that won
I got clowned for the way
I was on the net
And still I'm the man
That won
Now they're chasing me
Chasing the hype
Wanting me, wanting the life
Loving me, loving the type
So I gave her pipe
Madness
No doubt when you at this
Spin that shit with me, man!
Grandness
Grab it like I'm Atlas
Always want
When they pree it
Can't believe
When they see it
I've been here for a minute
Motorway with no limit
Madness
No doubt when you at this
Grandness
Big name on campus
I'm the proof
In that pudding
Say they can
But they couldn't
I'm the man
When I'm in it
I'll be done
When I'm finished
Make some fucking noise, man.
- Whoo!
- Make some noise!
Thank you for having us.
Take care and peace.
How do you feel stamina-wise?
- Yeah, I feel fine.
- Yeah?
- I'm quite fit anyway, so.
- Yeah.
All right.
Well, I mean, I should be
with all
the fucking training I do.
All right.
I was gonna say,
from a general perspective...
- Mmm-hmm.
- ...I think you should put...
Some of the ones
you think you should run again
aren't the ones you think
you should run again, I think.
Think we've gotta make sure
you're singing the parts
you feel most confident singing.
I've been going through
These changes
- You always go for that one.
- Yeah, yeah.
- But you could just say it...
- Okay.
...instead of trying to sing it.
You wanna be...
- Yeah, yeah, yeah.
- Make it... Be gangy.
'Cause when you use
your voice, like, the...
I think the...
The difference you'll get
like audio-wise, level-wise
when you're
your true voice. Yeah, 52.
We did everything there
except for "You"
- which is cut from the set.
- Yeah, this is the...
- That vocal is so...
- Getting that sound.
- Yeah.
- How does it go?
How does that feel
when you're up there?
Yeah, I think it went well.
Um, learned a lot.
Um... Yeah, it's a lot.
There's a lot more to do
than a little festival set,
'cause obviously you've got...
What, normally, like,
20, 25, 30 minutes,
whereas this is, like...
It can be pretty much an hour.
So, yeah,
just trying to figure that out,
but, uh, yeah.
No, I think it's going well.
Guys have helped a lot
as well, so...
Does this come easy to you?
Or naturally to you?
No, man. I've always said
I'm not talented.
I've kinda just worked hard
to a point where people think
I'm talented, and...
Yeah, and naturally, I'm...
You know, I don't feel like
I was naturally meant to be here
but I've kinda got here
through my dreams and passion.
You really don't feel talented?
Nope.
But it doesn't matter, like...
Like, how much hard work
can get you.
You see, I really
want to be a footballer, right,
but I'm just shit at it.
You can practice and practice,
but I'm never gonna
get to play for...
Oh, but then you didn't
wanna be a footballer.
- Really? You think it's just...
- Yeah.
Facts.
How many questions
do you wanna ask me now?
Can I ask one more question, JJ?
Yeah. What's up?
Why won't you play
the song "You"?
Oh, you're funny.
Um...
Uh...
I just...
I'm just
going through something.
With, uh, my girlfriend,
so, it kinda just...
It gets a bit too emotional,
so, yeah.
But it's all right.
It is what it is.
Can't really control emotions,
especially when that song plays,
so, it's better
to just avoid it.
Yeah, I rehearsed it yesterday.
I just broke down, so...
I was like I'm not...
I'm not doing that here.
Did you write it about her?
- Hmm?
- Did you write it about her?
Yes. Yeah.
Yeah. I did.
Everything I do, I do
I do it all for you, for you
You're the only one
You're the only one
Everything I do, I do
I do it all for you, for you
You're the only one
You're the only one
You're the only one
You're the only one...
- Can I get a picture?
- Yeah, yeah, sure.
Yeah. You want me here?
- Yeah.
- Yeah, of course.
- What's your name, sorry?
- It's Jillian.
Jillian. Lovely to
meet you, Jillian.
Lovely to meet you.
Have a good day.
Thank you.
How's the lighting?
Can you see me?
Do you like meeting fans?
Yeah, of course.
Why... Why would I say no
to that?
I just wanna know.
They've made my career.
Yeah.
I like his work ethics.
The way he's grown up,
it's been similar
to our background,
immigrant parents and
things like that, and just...
showing that it takes time
to get to the top.
He's just really inspiring.
Hey, yo, Glasgow,
what's up? It's your boy!
You know this is the first show
of the tour, man.
And you lot
have brought insane energy.
Eh?
Here we...
Here we fucking go! Here we...
Here we...
Here we fucking go!
Here we... Here we...
Here we fucking go!
I think people say
he tries to do
too many different things,
or, you know, he should
just stick to one thing,
but I think that's what
makes him so great,
is that he started so small
and he's grown up with us,
and we feel like we know him.
Hey, yo, if you still have
special someone next to them...
All right, who's single?
All right, so,
for the single people,
this is for the people
that you'll eventually get.
And now for the people
in a relationship,
this is for you,
happening right now.
There was times
I didn't wanna be here anymore,
and it was just getting too much
and I didn't wanna wake up
and whatnot,
and then
when I felt really down and low
and when I felt like that,
I would just put him on,
and when I put him on,
he would just laugh,
and it'd make me laugh
'cause it's contagious,
and he was just
an all-round honest, nice guy.
Can just watch KSI
and that would cheer me up.
Who's currently
going through something?
Well, it always
gets better, remember that.
Shit will never be
shit forever, bro.
It will always get better,
and we'll be able to
get through together.
Thank you.
I see him more as
a family member
'cause of how close he is
with his subscribers
and all his followers.
He sees us as his family,
and the way
he interacts with us all,
he's always been there,
making videos around his fans,
and that's just amazing.
The relationship I have
with my fans,
it's kinda just like
they're friends.
I get bullied by them.
I bully them.
We literally are just so close.
It's not fake, it's not
them just worshipping me,
it's them being real with me.
I get messages saying,
all the time,
I've inspired people,
I've helped them focus
in their career,
or I've helped them, just,
you know, believe in themselves.
Yo, we just wanna say
thank you so much
for taking this time out,
you know.
I kinda wanted to start it off
with just allowing them to kinda
introduce themselves
and kinda just,
you know, letting you guys know
who they are,
why they're on this programme,
why they're here today, I guess.
You know what I mean?
So, I'm gonna start
with you, my man.
- Introduce yourself.
- I'm Kion.
What's up, Kion?
But most people call me K
most of the time.
I kind of jumped on this course
because I wanted to
further myself musically,
and any other field
that's creative.
My music style is a bit weird.
I play rare groove,
soul, lovers' rock,
but everything else as well,
but that's what
I'm mainly known for.
But, yeah,
that's the lowdown on Pebs.
I'm Chloe. To be honest,
doing this is
quite a big achievement for me
'cause I'm not
a very talkative person,
so, doing this is a big boost
out of my comfort zone.
Yeah, my name's Jamil.
Outside of music, I'm very
reserved and kinda quiet,
and with music, I just feel like
it's a missing part to me.
I started from my bedroom
so I didn't really talk to
many people, if anyone at all,
and eventually
I kinda got to a point where
I kind of got forced into it,
but you've gotta
just learn how to swim
with a lot of certain situations
and, uh, yeah, I guess you guys
are doing that right now.
How do you deal with hate
on social media?
You just have to
live through it.
You have to be thick-skinned.
There's no other way.
You can't try and avoid it,
you can't try to
block out words or anything
because they'll find
a new way to get to you.
It's just always...
It'll just always adapt.
I've been, you know,
taken the piss out of,
I've had haters
left, right and centre,
I've had all types of hate,
from racism,
like, hardcore racism
to just, you know, like,
to how I look,
you know, my weight, et cetera.
But then I've just turned that
on its head, and I've just...
I just laugh at it now.
For me, I think that's
the most important part of hate.
If you take it away from them
and you just completely cut it,
cut the power from them,
then it's not hate.
It's just words
that don't mean anything.
A huge driving point for me is
always proving people wrong.
There's a lot of people
who've told me to stop,
but instead I was like,
"No. Watch".
So many obstacles
were in his way,
but he just
bypassed all of them.
There was literally nothing
that could stop him.
He would just keep going.
People would say,
"Oh, you can't do this",
he'd be like,
"I'll prove you wrong".
But I guess
it's kind of to prove a point
to my parents as well.
He wants to be like...
"Look at me.
"Look at me, I'm...
"I'm here. Acknowledge me."
I think I was around 19
when I started
to actually make money,
and it was very small.
And then it just kept going up
and up and up
to, like, 10,000 a month, yeah.
That was...
That was really crazy.
Like, I couldn't believe that.
And even my parents
couldn't believe that.
When we went
to see the accountant,
he was gobsmacked, said, "Wow!"
You know, that...
You know, a guy that young
that is already earning money
and he already knows
what he wants to do,
you know,
that was an achievement.
Even a few people that I told,
you know,
there was a church
I used to go to
and I kind of
discussed it with them,
would you believe it,
the following week,
they totally blanked me.
Yeah. 'Cause it's all to do with
envy and jealousy, isn't it?
When I wasn't making money,
they... they said
it was a waste of time.
And then when I was making
more money than them,
then they were open arms,
like, "Let's go".
Doing a Q&A Sunday with my dad.
- How's it going, man?
- It's good.
Anyway, let's answer
some questions.
Let's begin with number one.
"Does your dad masturbate?"
Oh, my God.
Bro, I cringe so much now
at my old videos,
like, "What am I doing?"
But at the time,
I was just in this bubble
where everything was just okay.
I don't know...
On the Internet, that's just...
That was just okay
to ask my dad if he masturbates.
Oh, God.
"Have you ever
caught your son wanking?"
No, I haven't caught
you wanking. Why would I?
- Oh, so do you wank?
- No.
No, I'm just saying, too good.
It's not good
to wank, seriously.
Well, you would know.
- As a Christian...
- Flicking that bean.
Even though Daddy
does worse with you.
"Flick the bean",
I didn't know what it meant.
I did not know what it meant.
If I had known,
I probably wouldn't have...
I... I don't think
I answered the question, did I?
Get hyper.
A lot of the videos
that I made with my parents
looked like we had
a very good relationship.
But whenever I would
turn off the camera,
we would just go back
to being strangers.
Maybe I didn't
reach out to them as much,
but they didn't really
reach out to me as much as well.
So, you know,
it's a two-way thing.
Can I ask about your girlfriend?
- Yeah, yeah.
- What happened?
I knew this was coming.
So, me and my girlfriend
aren't together anymore.
Well, we... Me and my ex.
Yeah. Um...
Yeah.
I broke it off.
I broke it off, yeah.
Um, yeah, I... I felt like...
I mean, I... I don't know
if she'll ever see it this way,
but I felt like
I was doing her a favour.
Yeah, because just
my lifestyle, man, it's just...
You know, I'm too busy to
have a relationship right now.
Next year, I'm going to LA,
and then I'm going on tour
in the UK,
then I'm going on tour in Europe
and doing all these things,
you know, work-wise,
and I'm like, "When am I
gonna find time to see her?
"When am I gonna have time to,
you know, properly be with her?"
Obviously,
there's other things as well,
but I just thought
it's not fair on her,
and I knew she was
getting agitated over it.
And she just works
a normal 9:00 to 5:00 job.
How long were you together
and how serious was it?
Yeah, it was pretty serious.
Three and a half years.
Yeah, it was a long time.
But couldn't you
have changed things
if you really wanted it to work?
I'd say the relationship
just didn't work. We just...
We also just didn't...
We weren't...
good for each other.
We were, and then we weren't,
if that makes sense.
She said I don't get excited
for anything anymore.
It's like I'm dead inside.
I was like, "Fuck.
"She's kind of right."
Really?
No, no, I do get excited, but...
I don't know, when you've
kinda just done so well
in so many things, et cetera,
you kinda just go, "Oh, okay",
and then nothing
really hits the same.
I don't know.
I don't know what I'm saying.
It's crazy. I really thought
she was gonna be the one for me.
She's such a private person.
And then she's with
one of the most famous people
in England.
So, was that ever gonna work?
Probably not.
Yeah.
Maybe it was doomed
from the start.
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah.
You got a little boogeroo.
You got a little booger.
Good? Are we good?
No, left. Right. Yeah.
Right, guys.
Quiet on set now, please.
And speed.
- Camera rolling?
- Rolling.
And action.
Get out, get out.
Come on, move, move.
- Cut there.
- How's it going?
Chilling, bro,
just eating food...
Are you enjoying this?
...and getting rich from it.
I mean...
There's not really
much else going.
Yeah, we're happy with that.
Now we can go downstairs
and drag these guys...
What do you guys
need to do now? Portraits?
There needs to be a portrait,
yeah.
Am I good? All right.
- Done, can we do...
- Losing my shit.
Can we get the tray
set up for one more GoPro?
I'm off.
Sorry I'm late, boss.
Fucking...
I've eaten so much food.
- What was it for?
- Fuck.
Uh, Sides... So, our, like,
Deliveroo restaurant thing.
So, he's just starting
a Deliveroo business now.
Yeah.
- Yeah, bro, just...
- I'll tell you what.
I'll tell you what,
there's alcohol as well.
We've got
alcohol business going.
Oh, okay!
- Tell me.
- Yeah, yeah, just...
- We're doing vodka.
- Really?
- Yeah, like, flavoured vodka.
- No way.
Yeah, literally.
Making moves, bro.
Making moves.
Why not? I mean, it's...
Yeah, we're able to do it.
I was able to venture from
YouTube to music to boxing,
so, why not do restaurants
as well?
That's it, bro.
- I feel like, for you...
- And alcohol
and fucking lampposts,
if we want.
But there's no limit.
I was gonna say, for you,
there's no limit...
- Yeah.
- You can just do
whatever you want, for real,
and it just makes sense, bro.
Yeah. We're in...
We're in
this beautiful spot where...
- You can touch everything.
- Yeah.
Yeah, we can really
just do anything.
Whoo!
He has an addictive personality,
in the sense that,
he's tasted victory,
he wants to keep tasting it.
He knows the consequences,
but he doesn't care.
He's like, "I'm gonna get...
I'm gonna get this.
"I'm gonna get...
I'm gonna get this goal."
Yeah, it just goes back
to the whole KSI character.
I feel like
I'm in control of everything,
like I can just do
whatever the fuck I want.
And not to say anything bad
about my ex,
but I definitely feel like
she tried to bring me back
to how I was before.
Now I'm just kinda...
I don't know,
I just feel more alpha.
I just feel more like a boss.
Sidemen are killing it,
by the way.
Yes.
We're thriving, man.
Yeah,
we're actually fucking sick.
Our estimated earnings
are just wild right now.
Q4 man, yeah.
I feel like we still have
so much more to do.
You've not got more to do
with music and boxing?
Um, no, it's...
I've got more to do for boxing.
"I've got
a number-one album."
No, no, no.
No, I still need to like...
you know, like,
dominate America, I feel.
It's crazy, I'm literally
going on dates every day.
New girl every day.
I remember, when I was younger
I wasn't able
to even talk to girls.
And I would google
how to talk to women,
and read books and stuff
about understanding women,
but that's just because I was
this introverted, nerdy kid
that wanted to be seen as a man
that is desirable.
Do you think
you would get the same women
if you weren't KSI,
and you were just JJ?
Definitely not.
Let's be honest.
Like, I'm a six out of ten,
at best.
But the money and the fame
makes me an 11.
So...
JJ's not afraid
to cut loose anyone
if they're in his way.
'Cause he wants to be the best.
He's super-ambitious,
He can't let anybody...
outwork him or anything.
He has that inner spite in him,
and JJ and I,
we've had arguments
where he's literally told me,
"I don't love you".
He's said that to me.
Welcome, ladies and gentlemen,
to Family Fortunes.
So, the beef all
started off with JJ's friend.
Name a dead YouTube channel.
Deji.
Oh, boy, that's family.
That's family, bro.
I didn't take kind to that
so I did, like,
a video response.
You are the Sidemen's
as well as JJ's bitch.
You are literally their bitch.
You're JJ's cameraman,
he pays your salary.
You spend more time with JJ
than you do your own wife.
And that video response,
triggered him
to make a diss-track on me.
Deji, tell me
Are you brain-dead?
'Cause you still live
With your parents
I got loyalty deep in my veins
You got no brains
You got no friends
You got no game...
Oh, Jesus.
This is your end
You're just a poor man
I can't lie
You're just a Walmart KSI
Oh, my God.
Oh! Yo, fam.
Randolph has gone so in.
Oh, my fucking God.
Deji's gonna be pissed, man.
I don't even know if he's gonna
wanna talk to me.
The way JJ kind of
got involved in the diss-track,
I felt betrayed.
I did some stupid things.
You say JJ this, JJ that
Call me Walmart
Let's talk facts
Yeah, he ran
Yeah, he ran
That's what really triggered it,
'cause that diss-track that
I did on him, it was like...
You're not really meant to do
a diss-track on your brother,
but I was fuelled with rage.
I told him we could fix things
if he just deletes
the diss-track he made on me,
but he refuses.
Then I came back,
and JJ was at my house.
He was angry.
He was saying
he was gonna smash my PC,
gonna break everything.
You came here to talk?
I'm pissed.
Go away, leave my house.
Shut the fuck up.
Little did I know
he was recording
everything that was going on.
It was just
arguments, arguments,
and then I said to him,
"Get out the house.
"Just get out.
Get out of my house".
And this was
during Christmas time.
Cool.
Whatever. I'm leaving. I'm off.
And then, the whole
Internet just turned on me.
"How are you gonna kick out
your brother on Christmas?"
We find out in this video
that Deji has been non-stop
either lying, manipulating,
or leaving out facts
to harm his brother,
destroy his brother.
The fact that you're just,
you know,
carrying on with your life,
not giving a shit,
really fucking annoys me.
And I'm scared
to even call my family
because I'm scared
you're gonna just take
one negative thing that I say,
manipulate the audience,
and just make me look
as bad as possible.
I hate being...
being seen as a bad guy!
And I hate it so much.
I hate it. I fucking... I...
I'm just sick
and fucking tired of it.
You need to understand
what you're doing,
and it's not cool.
I'm done.
I'm done, guys. I'm done.
I... I have to just
put this out there.
So please, can...
Let's just
be done with this, Dej.
It's been a while.
I've kind of just left Deji
to do his own thing.
I don't think
we're as cool as we used to be,
like, back in the day,
but we're definitely not as bad
as we were a few years ago.
We'll do three minutes.
Just get the heart rate up.
Over there, do some stretching.
When's the last time
you trained?
I train every day.
Oh.
Good. Good.
Three, two, one.
That is it.
Fuckin' hell!
Ten seconds,
all the way to the end.
I always had that like,
"Oh, he's my little brother,
"I'll always take care of him".
He's always just
getting in trouble.
He just didn't work hard.
That's just it.
He was just lazy.
First round as fast as you can.
Keep going, keep going,
keep going, keep going.
Three, two, one.
Ah, look,
you ripped off a second.
He's a bully, huh?
Nah, it's good.
It's what you need.
- You happy now?
- Yeah.
So, what, you train every day?
- Boxing every day.
- Honestly...
Yeah, boxing every day.
S&C, like, four times a week.
Okay. I like the sound of that.
You're one of the people
I want to see me win, you know.
I want you to see me win,
hand raised.
Make it happen.
Would it be fair to say
you were best friends
growing up?
Yeah. No, we were
very good friends, yeah.
I'd say we were very tight.
After the whole public situation
between me and him,
yeah, that definitely distorted
the relationship that we had.
Three, four, five, six.
Easy.
Do you think
if it wasn't for the Internet,
you guys would have
a better relationship?
One hundred percent.
I wouldn't say it's a curse,
but it definitely
would've been different
if there was no Internet.
Our relationship...
I think we'd be tight.
Push it if you want, try eight.
Try eight.
There we go. Nice.
- And better. It's a good finish.
- Nice.
Cool. Rest up.
I just want it to be
like old times again,
where we would talk
about anything.
We were close, we would just...
always have each other's backs.
That's what I want.
I just... I just want a brother.
So, how was it,
seeing your brother?
I was impressed. I'm impressed.
I'm always proud of Deji,
but, like...
I'm proud of him until he loses.
What drives me mad
is that Deji is so talented,
but I just don't know
if he has the self-belief
to really succeed.
But I think
that's just mainly because
my parents just allowed him to
get away with a lot of things.
My parents were very tough,
and I essentially lived with the
pressure of always doing well.
That's probably
one of the reasons why
my relationship with them
isn't great.
If I'm being honest,
I personally think
that my dad loves my brother
more than me.
But I think that's just
a younger-brother thing.
Deji's a very sensitive person,
and looking at it,
it's all to do with
lack of communication.
That is the problem.
And when we talk about it,
we don't address it.
I told JJ that,
"You're like your dad".
That, you know, "You don't like
dealing with issues".
I mean, I do talk to them,
but maybe
when it comes to the closeness,
the closeness
wasn't really there.
I don't, um...
- I find it very... Like...
- Yeah.
Little things like,
"Oh, love you, JJ".
It's difficult to...
It's so difficult.
I mean, with Deji...
Deji's different.
Deji will push.
- Yeah.
- Deji will demand.
- Yeah. Yeah.
- For it.
So, you can't get away
from Deji.
So, I think
that's one of the things
that's probably affecting JJ.
Maybe he thinks that
we favoured Deji over JJ.
You told me about your parents,
but can you just describe to me,
what sort of people are they?
Okay, um...
My dad is very cold.
Doesn't talk much.
But I think he has heart.
My mum's very talkative.
Well, to me,
she feels more loving, and...
Yeah, nah.
I'm definitely closer to my mum,
funnily enough,
than my dad. Yeah.
Yeah.
I love my parents.
Obviously, I wish
the relationship was better,
that's just it.
So, what do you think
their version of loving you is?
Uh...
Uh...
I guess...
Um...
I don't...
Oh, fuck's sake.
Ah, fuck!
I don't...
Uh... I don't...
- Sorry, man.
- No, it's okay.
Fuck's sake. I knew I was...
This was gonna make me
fucking cry.
Fuck's sake.
Fuck you, man.
I didn't expect it.
I know it's a lot.
Nah, nah, it's all right.
Nah, it's all right.
Uh, I don't really know.
It's funny, like, um...
You know, I talk to a few people
about what my love language is.
And, er...
I say... I say, for me,
it's just, like, physical touch,
'cause I... I never really
got it from my parents.
So, I don't know, it's just...
Yeah, it's just nice to, like...
just have someone, you know,
hug me and say that,
"I love you",
and stuff like that.
I never really got it
from my family.
So, yeah, I guess...
Yeah, I think...
Loving-wise, I think I just
struggled with my parents.
I think
that's one of the reasons
why I'm starting
to see a therapist
'cause I just feel like
there's definitely things
in my childhood
that need to be addressed.
Uh, number four.
Okay.
I wonder whose that is.
Jeez.
Turn to the right.
There we are.
You see, different.
Different.
Now I'm living. Now...
I'm KSI now, yeah.
This is how
you should've been living.
Yeah, you know what I mean!
Fucking hell.
Welcome. Welcome to
my humble abode, man.
It cost me over 10 mil.
I would say that the bank
is hurting a little bit,
but we're all right.
But, yeah, come through.
Come up.
Let me show you what I got.
So, this is
the second living room.
Or, I guess, the living room
to my room, which is over here.
Ah, ah, ah.
Oh, here we go.
Welcome to my bedroom,
my palace.
The palace.
Wardrobe space, plenty. Plenty.
Bro! What?
Two showers? Shut up.
Then we have another floor.
So, yeah, this was the bed
that we said we'd leave in.
- Yeah, we're leaving this bed.
- Yeah.
Oh?
Who's that? Oh.
Yo, yo.
Hiya, we're all here.
We're just gonna go
and grab some lunch.
- Is that all right?
- Yeah, go for it, go for it.
And I think, um...
I think JJ's here.
I think he's just
gone around in a car, I believe.
Yeah, I'm talking to you
right now.
Oh, sorry. I'm so sorry!
- Nah, nah, that's all right.
- Are you in?
Yeah, I'm inside
the house, yeah.
We'll be back in about
20 minutes. Thank you so much.
Okay, yeah. Cool.
All right, in a bit.
All right. Bye.
Look at that. Easy.
All right, this is a guest room.
Yeah, man, guest is living good.
So...
And then...
just other bathroom,
just because.
Oh, this one also has a shower.
I didn't even realise.
I never checked
that side of the door.
Wow.
Another shower in...
Oh, flipping heck.
Have you not seen your place?
I've seen it once, that's it.
Yeah, I've only seen it once.
Yeah.
I've seen videos,
so it reminded of, like,
"Wow, yeah,
this is sick," but...
Yeah, I've only been there once,
and that was all I needed.
I saw it once and I was like,
"Yeah, this is it.
This is the one".
This is my dream house, man,
in London.
Dream house in London.
What do you think
your parents will make
of this house?
I haven't shown them anything.
- You tweeted this...
- Oh, God.
"What is true love?"
Then the next one,
"How can I love someone
when I don't love myself?"
- Oh, Jesus! Oh, bro.
- What are you doing?
What's going on with your heart?
Bro, I was single, innit.
So I'm just going through
a heart break.
When I'm alone and
I'm listening to certain music,
I just get in my feels,
and I'm like,
"Fuck, I miss her, man."
And then...
"I should text her".
Yeah.
- But... but you tweeted this...
- Oh, God.
"What is true love?"
Did someone give you the answer?
'Cause if they did, let me know.
All right. Yo.
- How you doing?
- Nice to meet you, bro.
Nice to meet you, boss.
I was thinking about calling
the album "Caught in Two Minds."
I was thinking about calling
the album "Caught in Two Minds."
Oh, wow.
So it's like...
whether I want to be
in a relationship,
or what if I just want to be
out there like a boss-esque,
you know, like, doing my thing.
- So, it's like finding that...
- Balance
Balance, yeah,
or finding where I lie.
Do you change where you lie
on that from day to day?
Sometimes.
It's gotta make sense.
Who was that one person
you were like,
ah, you should talk to them?
Er, Emma Watson.
Not Emma Watson,
nah, she's beyond.
That's wifey.
Like, yeah, she's, but nah
I mean, I already squeaked
when I saw her.
I think girls
appreciate a squeak...
No, bro, she needs a man,
and I just
fucked that up instantly
from the first meet up.
What did you say?
I'm not even gonna repeat it.
Hi, Emma.
Fuck off, bro.
Sometimes some of
your suggestions are just...
Bro, my fairy tale projection
of your life,
you end up back with her
and you guys happy ever after.
I like that.
But before you do,
I want you to
sow your royal oats.
So that when you go back,
you're like, "All right,
"I definitely know the grass is
not greener on the other side."
Yeah, but, you know...
also her choice.
Oh, yeah yeah.
She can also decide,
"I ain't waiting for you."
That's why I said
in my ideal projection
of how things roll out for you.
Mmm.
Because, er, yeah, she's sick.
She's really just sick.
Yeah.
Yeah, she is.
Everything happens in waves.
Especially from a break up.
The first wave
is like a tsunami,
and over time
it gets less and less and less,
and, yeah, every now and then
I still, go, "Oh, shit".
Like, you know...
"I miss her", or like, you know,
"We had
a really good thing going.
"I kind of wish
we could've done things better",
or, you know, "What if..."
et cetera.
Do you know
how she's feeling at the moment?
Yeah, no, she...
She's good.
Obviously, her guard is up.
And rightly so.
I'm not easy
to be in a relationship with.
I have this tendency
to always just bail out,
and it's a really bad habit
of mine, and, it's just...
Yeah, sometimes my mind
just goes, "Oh, fuck!
"Bail!"
What are you
doing there? Are you trying...
Do you wanna hear shit
or do you just want us
to make random shit up?
Um, yeah, just...
For me, I think, hearing stuff,
'cause then I can definitely
feel an emotion from that.
I know you said
"I gotta go"
Yet again I'm moving on
In a week, you said
And on and on and on
But I loved you
Better?
- Or more boring?
- It was better.
No, it was better. I don't know
if it's it yet, but it is good.
- Okay.
- I think it is good.
What don't you like about it?
- 'Cause I'm hearing his voice...
- Yup.
- Yeah.
- ...and I think it really...
- To me, it sounds really dope.
- It'll sound good.
Aye, y'all know better than me.
I've been seeing double
I've been
Seeing double
One, two, three...
I've been seeing double
Coming home so wasted
I've been having trouble
Finding your replacement
There's numbers in my phone
But all of them are strangers
That shit gets so lonely
Finding your replacement
- Whoo, Cool, right?
- How's that, bro?
But something like that, yeah.
Yeah!
In the feels.
Come back from LA,
I did a lot of reflecting
on the past
and all the things
I messed up on.
When I created
the KSI character,
I wanted to be more like him.
He was this alter ego
that allowed me to be confident
and believe that I was
bigger than I actually was.
And I didn't really see
the side effects until later on.
I've realised that
being KSI just slowly ruined
the relationship between
me and my family, for sure.
I kinda just
have stepped back and gone,
"Okay, what's important
in my life?
"What do I need to
properly sort out?"
And I realised being close
to the people closest to you
is very important,
and that's what I feel like,
family-wise,
I need to really fix that.
Alex Wassabi,
you desperate fucker.
You got your wish.
I'm going to bury
your already-dead career.
You ran from my bro,
but there's no escaping me.
I want to see all my fans there
to witness my redemption.
Ladies and gentlemen,
your main event of the evening.
This is the final bout
between Alex Wassabi and Deji.
- How you feeling, bro?
- Feeling good, JJ. How are you?
I'm good, man. I'm good. Good.
- Hi.
- Nice to meet you.
Jeez!
He's out there.
We go again. We go again.
I want to bring it back home,
no messing.
Don't give him nervous energy.
Nah, he's got this. Nah.
How you feeling?
How you feeling, bro?
I cried.
Why did you cry?
I'm watching your back,
don't say that shit.
No, it's okay, it's okay, bro.
I cried at my camp.
- I cried at my camp.
- It was just...
- the stress.
- Yeah, it's all right.
It's all good.
That's you releasing
all that stress,
all that nervous energy.
Come on, man.
Come on.
Deji, please just
don't disappoint.
Don't let losing be an outcome.
Think of it like,
"All I can do is win.
"That's my destination,
that's all it is".
You're a fucking gladiator, bro.
You're a gladiator.
- Show everyone you are.
- Yeah.
All right, bro.
Kill it, man. All right?
The time for talking is over,
and the time for action is now!
You want this! Go get it!
Deji, go get it!
Attack! Attack!
Yes! Yes! Go!
Deji, come on!
- Just look good.
- Do I go again?
- Huh?
- Do I go again?
What do you mean "go again"?
Do I box again?
Oh, if you win, yes.
If you lose, then, no.
Dej, this is your opportunity.
This is your chance, bro.
Okay? So, go.
You think you won?
- Okay.
- I don't know.
- Do you think I won?
- What do you think?
Ladies and gentlemen,
declaring your winner
by split decision...
Alex Wassabi!
You could've won that,
it was there,
and you just didn't take it,
and that's why I'm like,
you need that mentality to go,
"Fuck it, I'm going to win".
I was screaming,
"This is your last round,
"Do this. Let's go.
Take this opportunity".
The idea of losing, bro...
Can... Bro, for me,
I can't ever fathom it.
I'm terrified of losing.
I'm scared, bro. It terrifies...
And you know why?
Because it sucks.
So I put in that work, and I do
extra and extra and extra.
- I do. I do...
- It's frustrating!
- You don't understand.
- I do. I know it's frustrating.
I wish I could put
my fucking brain into yours
so you can actually understand
what it...
- I do want this, I promise you.
- But it doesn't...
- You don't show it.
- I know it doesn't look like it,
but I've only just realised
how much...
Why have you just realised now
after you've lost again, bro?
No, I'm saying I realised,
my last fight...
But why didn't you win this one?
Yeah, I know.
If you get another chance,
because obviously
you have to face the public...
Are you behind me?
Bro, I'm always behind you.
What do you mean,
am I behind you?
I'm always behind you.
I mean, if I get in the ring
again, will you back me?
Well, I'm always here.
Why would I ever
not back you, bro?
I'm your brother, bro.
It's okay.
Even if I wasn't your brother,
all right?
You little dickhead.
All right, I'm gonna head in,
so, see you in a bit.
See you in a bit, JJ.
Yo, what's up?
It's your boy KSI.
Deji, I...
I'm... I'm disappointed.
You've lost three times.
Three times, man!
I don't think you have what
it takes to win a boxing match.
The reason why I am
where I am today
is because most of the time,
I do everything that I do
for me.
Same with boxing.
I did that shit for me.
When are you gonna finally
do something for yourself?
I know people are gonna be like,
"Ah, JJ, you're being so harsh."
"You're being mean",
or "You're being fair."
I don't care, fam. I don't care.
All right, well...
Yeah. Peace.
In what ways are you
a different person
to your brother?
I guess...
He doesn't care
what other people think.
I essentially do.
But I can just sense
that he's lonely.
JJ feels like
he's not part of the family
because, obviously,
we're all so close,
whereas he's kind of,
like, in the distance.
So he feels like an outsider.
So, how,
as a family, are you trying
to work on the problems
buried in the past?
I guess, like,
my parents are realising that...
he's kind of, like...
He's on an island on his own,
so now they're, like, you know,
swimming to him now to help.
They realise that...
Like, er...
It's a lonely world out there.
But my dad, he just...
I just told him, like,
"You're not here forever,
"and you don't want JJ
to have a bad memory of you.
"So fix it.
"Fix it before it's too late".
Today I'm seeing my dad,
which is pretty weird.
My dad is coming by himself
to see me.
Whoa.
It's crazy.
He's my dad, but I have...
I literally know
barely anything about him.
Do you think he knows you?
Ah, no.
No, not at all.
- Yo, you all right?
- How are you?
- How you doing?
- How are you?
Yeah, I'm good, I'm good.
- Well, welcome.
- Boy, this a big house.
Yeah, it's nice.
It's a decent... Decent spot.
This is the first time
I'm entering
a 10-million-pound house.
Jeez. God.
Yeah, well, I'll give you
a little tour, obviously.
- Kitchen.
- You've done well.
- Stairs.
- Jeez. This a massive house.
Yeah.
So, how do you change
these bulbs?
You need to get an expert
to come change it.
Yeah, I mean, I can just
hit up my PA to sort that.
What's this?
So, this is gonna be
my YouTube room.
I bet your internet will be
very fast here, all this set up.
Well, the internet
is fast everywhere, Dad.
And this... Ah, okay.
You don't do any laundry,
do you?
If I want to, I can,
but I choose not to.
I bet you don't do any cooking.
Do you do any cooking?
Nah, sometimes.
It depends on how I'm feeling.
Maybe boil some egg
and do some toast?
- I bet that's what you do.
- Nah, well, I have a chef,
so I don't need to
do that anymore.
- Okay.
- I just
get him to make it for me.
- How are you anyway, in general?
- I'm fine.
- What do you mean by "fine"?
- I'm very good.
- Yeah. How's Mum?
- Yeah, she's fine.
- How's the dog?
- Yeah.
The dog is fine.
I mean, the dog keeps me busy,
which I love.
- Yeah.
- Yeah.
Yeah, I... I'm very surprised
that you actually, um...
- Come here.
- You came here.
I need to talk to you about,
you know...
We need to be good.
Oh, okay, so then,
how do we work on being good?
Because, you see,
both of us, er...
I believe... I mean...
- Tell me if I'm wrong.
- Okay.
- I believe, as a dad...
- Mmm-hmm.
I believe I fulfilled my duty.
Yes or no?
Uh...
Yes and no.
- Yeah.
- Okay. Let's deal with the "no".
Um, I don't think
you were that loving.
Okay.
My upbringing was, you know...
Was rubbish.
- I don't want to think about it.
- No, it's okay.
Thinking about it, it'll make me
go bonkers, you understand?
It was so bad.
With my dad, we never...
You see, we never sat down...
- Sitting down like this, never.
- Yeah. Yeah.
We've never had
that relationship.
My dad's never...
I've never been given a hug.
You see, it's something
I've never experienced.
Well, if your dad
never hugged you...
- I'm not...
- ...so then...
And then
you hardly ever hugged us.
You see, my dad never...
- Did your dad, like, hit you?
- Yeah.
And then, you've kind of
just done the same.
But, look, now,
when it comes to now,
let's talk about that.
Is it something
we do all the time?
No, no, it wasn't something
you did all the time.
It's just something
that just happened.
Every time we were naughty,
we would get hit.
Because, to us,
we thought that was love.
- You understand?
- Yeah.
We're putting you guys
on the right track.
But it affects me
in my later years, Dad.
Just like
it affected you in your...
No, no, no,
but mine was different.
I got beat until I was
21 years old.
Yeah, but still...
It's still affected you
in your later years, right?
Yeah, but when you were five,
maybe you can't even remember.
Dad.
I think...
I think I do because,
obviously, I'm telling you.
There's times where
I just hated you for it.
- Really?
- Yes.
It's okay, Dad, I'm not angry.
So, we're good?
Well, I... I feel like,
obviously, the communication
could be better.
I need to work on
my communication skills.
- I'm very bad at it, anyway.
- I know.
It's not too late
for you to change,
- as a person.
- Yeah, yeah.
I mean, we do say it,
maybe, you know, "I love you",
"Love you too", "Love you".
But, you know, it's just...
It's actually kind of
weird hearing you say it.
Yeah.
Yeah, it's pretty weird.
Yeah, these are things
that should be normal.
- Yeah.
- Yeah, so I'm working on it too.
This is a huge step.
Do you know
how huge this step is
for you to be here by yourself?
I think this is
the most we've talked
in 10-plus years, honestly.
Which is kind of sad,
but it's also kind of cool.
Do you want to
actually hug each other?
Yeah, I mean,
we do hug each other, don't we?
I mean, we shook hands
when you got here.
How's that? Is that all right?
Yeah, yeah, yeah.
- How's that?
- Yeah, it's okay.
Like, yeah, like this.
It's nice.
- It's odd, isn't it?
- Yeah.
- Love you, Dad.
- Love you, too.
Ah, this would do my head in.
It's actually
really therapeutic.
Look at where it could work.
Ah!
Yeah, that's good.
Oh.
Dealing with issues in my past
has definitely made me happier.
I am a work in progress,
and I think that's...
that's kind of cool because
I don't want to be completed,
'cause then what?
Then what? And that's
kind of how I felt last year.
I felt like
I'd completed everything
and I had no purpose, and...
Yeah, it was weird, like...
Yeah, I was definitely
not in a good spot.
But now I'm great, so...
- Amazing.
- Ah, thank you, man.
It's been
a fucking journey, for real.
And I appreciate it.
Yo, what's up?
It's your boy KSIOlajideBT.
How are y'all doing?
Your boy
has an announcement to make.
Your boy is performing
at Wembley Arena.
This show is going to be
the biggest show
I have ever done in my life.
Best believe it's gonna be mad.
Signing your shirts now.
I know you're on good terms
with your ex-girlfriend.
- Yeah.
- Is she here today?
No, no, she's not here.
She said, "Good luck,
not that you need it."
"And just smash it
and let me know how it is."
Just hopped out the bank
I'm rollin'
Pockets swollen
It's my year
And I am the one
Who's chosen
Neck, wrist, frozen
I don't care
I enter the room
I'm glowin'
No strings holdin'
Man's gone clear
I'm comin' to own
Like Romans
This my moment
Zero fear
Ay, London
Man, I feel amazing
Runnin' up the numbers
With my feed
With my feed
- My disease is goin' viral
- Oh
Yeah, trust me
I'mma sickle when we meet
I'm comin' to own
Like Romans
This my moment
Zero fear
Hello, Wembley!
It's your boy KSI.
I wanna wake up every mornin'
Feelin' better
'Cause I know
You're sleeping by my side
And every moment
We're together
I remember just to keep it all
For you and I
I see that body
In the sunlight
Feelin' the heat
And it feels right
I wanna do this
For the rest of my life
KSI! KSI! KSI!
KSI's coming out guns blazing.
He hit him... Oh, he's down.
Deji, coming straight ahead.
Deji walks away
with his first win.
Deji, what do you think
of KSI's
two-in-one-night performance?
I mean, he's a king.
What more can I really say?
He's a king.
Now this is his moment, though.
I'm not... I don't want to
steal this. Sorry.
Nah, nah, nah,
this is our moment, bro.
This is our moment, bro.
What are you on about?
Your first win, bro.
I'm fucking proud of you.
Whoo-hoo, ooh, ooh
Whoo-hoo
Whoo-hoo, ooh, ooh
I let go
Every time I hear those
Voices in my head
My head
I run home
Every time I get those
Voices in my head
My head
Don't let me down
Don't say you miss me now
'Cause I've been trying
To figure out
Why you're still in my mind
I've been driving around
This good-for-nothing town
It helps me not to think about
Oh, where you sleep at night
Now I'm lying in bed here
Without you
And I can't stop dreaming
About you
Wanna close my eyes
And watch us drift away, yeah
I let go
Every time I hear those
Voices in my head
My head
I run home
Every time I get those
Voices in my head
My head
Whoo-hoo, whoo-hoo, ooh, ooh
Whoo-hoo, whoo-hoo, ooh, ooh
I try to hide
The pain you put me through
I tell myself it's fine
Another one-night-stand
Will do
I'm turning out the lights
So it's dark inside my room
And then I close my eyes
Pretending that it's you
I wish my memory was deleted
My heart's in 100 pieces
In my head
I hear you screaming
It wakes me
While I'm sleeping
Now I'm lying in bed here
Without you
And I can't stop dreaming
About you
Want to close my eyes
And watch us drift away, yeah
I let go
Every time I hear those
Voices in my head
My head
I run home
Every time I get those
Voices in my head
My head
- Whoo-hoo, whoo-hoo, ooh
- Voices in my head
Whoo-hoo, whoo-hoo, ooh, ooh
Whoo-oh-oh, whoo-oh-oh
Whoo-oh-oh, whoo-oh-oh
Whoo-oh-oh, whoo-oh-oh
Whoo-oh-oh, whoo-oh-oh
YouTube was a very simple place
for the cat videos
or random vlogging.
But I started to realise
that YouTube could possibly
be around forever.
As a kid,
I was very introverted.
Bit of a loser.
But when I started
my YouTube channel,
that one button,
and I became KSI.
Holy crap! There's a Black guy
on the screen!
Oh, my God, my dick is on fire!
Welcome to Q&A Sunday.
Put one in your mouth
and say, "Choppy bunny".
Choppy bunny.
You're out. Out, out, out.
Please like, subscribe and tits.
No, sicko!
Got rocks on my wrist
That shit you can't resist
Cash flow greater than
The haters hating on my jizz
Only, like, 50 people have this.
On the programme,
we have the undisputed
YouTube champion of the world,
from the UK,
the Nightmare, KSI.
- Finally. Finally.
- I'll knock you out, bro.
- You make videos...
- Yeah, yeah.
What, you wanna push me again?
Push me again!
JJ has got so much power.
It's a big uppercut from JJ.
Once you go, "Oh, you know what,
"I'm going to do this",
then you can do it.
I just have this mentality
where nothing can stop me.
That's just my way of thinking.
Yeah.
Ay, yo,
what's up, motherfuckers?
And welcome to...
Yeah.
- Impaulsive. Let's go.
- Yeah.
Ladies and gentlemen,
we have KSI back on the podcast.
Welcome, JJ,
to Los Angeles and America.
Dude, it's good to have you.
- It's good to have you...
- Good to be here, man.
- Again. I made it.
- Again.
You're doing, like, 10 different
things here during your...
This week, no?
Yeah, just, like, music,
working on my next album, yeah.
- Just writing and everything.
- Sick.
And that, too?
That guy right there?
What's that guy doing?
Oh, Amazon.
Wes. Big boy Wes.
So, he's been filming me
the whole time
since around June.
Just, like,
literally my whole life.
Just, what's going on.
You like him, I assume, huh?
Yeah, yeah, he's cool, yeah.
Yeah, he's cool. He's...
Yeah, bro, he's seen me,
you know,
the highs and the lows.
I think
people are gonna really see
a completely different side to
what they normally see online.
So, JJ, how did you sleep?
It was quite shit...
If I'm being honest.
Um, jetlag.
Yeah, I woke up in the middle
of the night, like, 4:00 a.m.
I think I was tweeting
some soppy stuff.
I've always wondered,
like, what...
Like, what's special to me,
or what meant a lot to me.
Um...
You know, I was thinking, like,
what really made sense?
You know, I have
a load of baggage.
Um...
I have plenty of money.
Plenty of fame.
Oh, God, But, nah, nah.
I have...
No, I have a lot of baggage.
And, um,
I'm definitely working on that.
I don't think anyone
actually really knows who I am.
Including me.
Can you tell me about it, JJ,
what's the line-up
of the festival?
Uh, well,
so, for Reading and Leeds,
we've got Stormzy,
Post Malone, Liam Gallagher.
Obviously, got people like
AJ Tracey, Mabel, Yungblud...
and me.
Do you know how many people
are gonna be
at Leeds and Reading?
I think around 30,000.
I could be wrong.
But it's gonna be
a lot of people.
JJ, I think it's 80,000.
Eighty thousand?
Shit. Okay, then.
Well, then, I've definitely
downplayed that.
I didn't know,
I thought it was 30,000.
Eighty thousand, come on.
That's easy.
Holy shit.
Holy shit!
What's going
through your head right now?
What are you thinking?
I want this to be
a moment for everyone.
I want everyone to be like,
"Damn, KSI's fucking hard".
"I don't normally
fuck with his music,
"but, damn, bro,
he's good live, you know?"
We're here, baby.
We're here.
Leeds Festival!
Oh, I've just been looking
at the crowd.
Like, this is...
This is my moment, bro.
- Yeah, man.
- Oh, coming through, like,
"Hey, what's up?
KSI in the building".
I'm here, baby. Shit.
Your energy's too much.
- Yeah, no, bro...
- I wish I had it.
No, that's the shit.
I don't know.
Beforehand,
I'm always just, like, chill,
- like, relax.
- Yeah, yeah, yeah.
And then whenever
it gets to the moment,
- I'm there like, "Oh, let's go."
- Yeah.
Hard.
Let's do this, baby.
There's definitely gonna be
a lot of people who don't think
I deserve to be
on that stage, 100%.
"Look at this YouTuber
trying to do music".
"KSI next to, what,
"Kid Laroi, Post Malone,
Stormzy, AJ Tracey?
"All these musicians,
"and then you've got KSI.
Doesn't make sense".
So then
I've gotta just show them
it makes perfect sense. Yeah.
I have to work harder
than all of these artists, man,
to prove that
I can be in that position.
I think, from my childhood,
I've always had
so much pressure to do well,
so the idea of failing
was terrifying.
I...
It's just scary,
like, I think that's...
Maybe that's my fear,
of failure.
That's, like, my biggest fear.
I hope you're having
a great time.
Our next act is pretty special.
Eight top-ten singles,
a number-one album,
and making his festival debut
right now, here, KSI!
Damn!
Damn! Team!
Don't play games
Don't play games with my heart
Ooh-wee
Oh, shit.
Now the feels
Hit me differently
Damn.
When they hittin' this deep
Don't play
Yeah!
Don't play, yeah, yeah
Don't play games
Don't play games with my heart
Ooh-wee
When they hittin' this deep
Don't play
Don't play
All that time
On your own with me
We had fun on the 360
I helped you get a UAV
My time is you dismissin'
This is in no way
A two-way street
I'm playin' "SAD!"
And it's on repeat
Got me here
Hopin' you see my Snap
'Cause I'm not ready
For us to wrap, no
Don't play games
Don't play games with my heart
Ooh-wee
Come on, Leeds!
When they hittin' this deep
Don't play
Don't play, yeah, yeah
Don't play games
Don't play games with my heart
Ooh-wee
Now the feels
Hit me differently
When they hittin' this deep
Don't play
Don't play, yeah, yeah
I am done.
Hey, yo, Leeds.
Thank you for having me.
Take care. Peace.
- Thank you, thank you.
- Congrats, bro, good lad.
Bro, congrats
to all of us, bruv.
Tell me I'm not
a musician now, innit.
KSI! KSI! KSI!
What the hell?
- From a YouTuber to this.
- Yeah.
Bro, man was in his bedroom,
in his bedroom,
making little FIFA videos,
and now look.
Who'd have fucking thought?
Bro!
This is the stuff
you dream about, innit?
Yeah, yeah, and...
But you're just like, "That's...
that's never gonna happen".
There's no chance.
And it's like,
"Damn, I'm here now".
Damn.
Ladies and gentlemen,
welcome to
a brand-new video idea.
Let's get a round of applause.
I know right? What!
Oh, my God, it's taken...
It's taken years...
It's taken years
for a brand-new video idea,
but it's come, finally.
Today we're gonna be
looking at my childhood.
We're going on Google Earth
to just look at where I grew up.
Let's go into this.
I think we'll start off
where everything started,
my whole YouTube career.
That is the big boy over here.
Oh!
Oh...
Oh, shit, there it is.
There it... Oh, shit!
Oh, there it is!
It's my old house.
That's my parents' bedroom,
that's my bro's room.
My room is in the back
over there,
and that's where I just did
all my YouTube videos,
start from the beginning.
Where we grew up in
Watford, my parents were, like,
I guess,
your typical African parents.
Wanted me to be
a doctor, lawyer.
We came here as immigrants
because there is nothing
in Nigeria.
I wanted more for my kids.
More education.
- Yeah, we wanted more.
- Yeah, education-wise.
And it's just to say that
they've had
a better-quality life than ours.
My parents were very strict.
If you did a mistake,
or if you fucked up,
then you get punished
by beatings.
Where we come from, Nigeria,
we have to respect our elders,
kids need to be disciplined,
and it's in the Bible,
"Spare the rod
and ruin the child".
It wasn't super loving.
We didn't really
do a lot together,
if that makes sense.
And I hardly ever heard
my parents say "I love you".
It was a tough upbringing,
in that sense.
But I found salvation online,
because it was like...
Sounds so sad.
It was like
the camera was my friend.
And I was, like,
talking to the camera
and just being like,
"Yo, what's up?"
And just saying
just random things to it.
If you're happy
And you know it
Clap your hands
If you're happy
And you know it
Clap your hands
If you're happy
And you know it
And you really want
To show it
If you're happy
And you know it...
Shut the up!
- What's up, bro?
- Say it, don't spray it.
But I just said, "Bro!"
And then, you know,
me and my brother, Deji,
we just created little movies.
- Ow!
- Oh, hell, nah!
Damn, that nigga pissed!
I think it was just cool
we were able to bond together
doing these things.
Fuck! I wasn't ready yet.
Growing up,
it was just me and JJ.
Having him as my older brother,
I mean...
When I was younger, I loved it.
Literally, I loved... I...
I adored him so much,
he was the best thing ever.
- Dej, get off me.
- No.
- Get off me.
- No.
Dej, why are you
touching my dick?
- I'm not.
- Yes, you are.
Get off me, Dej.
What is this hair?
What is this hair?
You're so bush.
Did you just jump off the boat?
You're a fucking mess.
Get off me, Dej!
What you doing, bro?
What...
When you started
making the videos,
how was your family
initially reacting to them?
My parents
did not like the videos,
they weren't keen on it.
So many times,
my parents would either
turn off the electricity,
or cut out the Wi-Fi.
Yeah, they didn't really like
the whole KSI thing.
I think KSI drives him.
KSI is untouchable.
He can do anything,
he doesn't care.
JJ is very, very humble,
quite easy-going.
I knew that wouldn't work.
Me just being JJ
wouldn't work online
because, you know,
it's just not entertaining.
But then whenever
the camera was on,
we were rolling,
I'd just switch it
and I'd be this different guy.
I was KSI.
Hey, guys.
Your boy KSIOlajideBT.
I know I'm not wearing
any trousers.
Yes!
- But KSI is just, um...
- His ego.
- Yeah.
- Yeah, it's the ego.
- He's on another level.
- Yeah.
It's, um...
Sometimes you just think,
"Is this my son?"
- Yeah.
- You know...
I don't think
I'd want to have KSI as a son.
Yeah, I'm on a horse
Mother-
Take a look at me
a car
I'm on a horse
Do re -ing mi
I'll fuck a horse
Uh, that's bestiality.
Shut up, bitch, I don't care
I just want my horse orgy
I told my parents
I was going to make YouTube work
no matter what.
As soon as
I was able to move out,
I was just like,
"Let's go, I'm off".
I started to see my parents
less and less and less.
I definitely, like,
slowly was destroying
the relationship
between me and my parents.
And I essentially became
a stranger to them.
JJ became more
hardworking when he left home.
He essentially felt like
we didn't love him.
So he was like, "Okay,
I have something to prove".
I guess he used us as a goal,
being like,
"Okay, you don't love me?
I'll make you love me".
But, I mean, it's like
when you isolate yourself
for a very long time,
you might end up cutting out
someone that is true to you.
He might be
so blinded with success
that he'll just lose someone
dear to him.
Jeez. I don't know whether
they said they were gonna put...
Did they say
they'd put the screens on here
or black drapes?
They said they're gonna
see how it looks.
I would say
the main thing, JJ, is...
I mean, it's harder when
you're just in a room with us,
but just even, like,
kinda getting used to it,
"Okay, I did that.
I'm knackered.
"I need to have water,
have a break".
Yeah, yeah. I know.
I know there's no rush
in that moment as well.
- You know what I mean?
- Yeah, I do. Yeah. Yeah.
Are there any changes
that you think you're gonna make
off the top of looking at it,
set-list wise?
Er...
We're gonna get rid of "You".
Oh, you're not gonna
do it at all?
No, man,
it's probably best if we don't.
- Okay.
- Yeah.
Cool.
From the show in general?
Um...
Yeah.
How come you won't do "You"?
Ah...
I don't wanna say right now.
- Can you not say? Okay.
- Yeah. Sorry.
- Is it a private thing?
- Uh, yeah, yeah.
Yeah.
How do you feel?
Er...
- Angry?
- Yeah.
Yeah.
All right, moving on.
Check. Check, check.
Check, check, check,
check, check, check.
All right. Um...
Can we have someone time it?
Yeah, that's what
we're gonna do.
- Ah, yeah, yeah, yeah.
- Yeah.
Are you fucking ready, man?
'Cause I am fucking ready, man.
Ay.
Madness
No doubt when you at this
Grandness
Grab it like I'm Atlas
Always want
When they pree it
Can't believe
When they see it
I've been here for a minute
Motorway with no limit
Madness
No doubt when you at this
Grandness, big name
On campus
I'm the proof
In that pudding
Say they can
But they couldn't
I'm the man when I'm in it
I'll be done
When I'm finished
Don't piss me off
I've been killin' this shit
Acting tough on the net
With a million clicks
Bitch, you're gonna get hit
And I've done more than a man
In a single year
And still I'm
The man that won
I got clowned for the way
I was on the net
And still I'm the man
That won
Now they're chasing me
Chasing the hype
Wanting me, wanting the life
Loving me, loving the type
So I gave her pipe
Madness
No doubt when you at this
Spin that shit with me, man!
Grandness
Grab it like I'm Atlas
Always want
When they pree it
Can't believe
When they see it
I've been here for a minute
Motorway with no limit
Madness
No doubt when you at this
Grandness
Big name on campus
I'm the proof
In that pudding
Say they can
But they couldn't
I'm the man
When I'm in it
I'll be done
When I'm finished
Make some fucking noise, man.
- Whoo!
- Make some noise!
Thank you for having us.
Take care and peace.
How do you feel stamina-wise?
- Yeah, I feel fine.
- Yeah?
- I'm quite fit anyway, so.
- Yeah.
All right.
Well, I mean, I should be
with all
the fucking training I do.
All right.
I was gonna say,
from a general perspective...
- Mmm-hmm.
- ...I think you should put...
Some of the ones
you think you should run again
aren't the ones you think
you should run again, I think.
Think we've gotta make sure
you're singing the parts
you feel most confident singing.
I've been going through
These changes
- You always go for that one.
- Yeah, yeah.
- But you could just say it...
- Okay.
...instead of trying to sing it.
You wanna be...
- Yeah, yeah, yeah.
- Make it... Be gangy.
'Cause when you use
your voice, like, the...
I think the...
The difference you'll get
like audio-wise, level-wise
when you're
your true voice. Yeah, 52.
We did everything there
except for "You"
- which is cut from the set.
- Yeah, this is the...
- That vocal is so...
- Getting that sound.
- Yeah.
- How does it go?
How does that feel
when you're up there?
Yeah, I think it went well.
Um, learned a lot.
Um... Yeah, it's a lot.
There's a lot more to do
than a little festival set,
'cause obviously you've got...
What, normally, like,
20, 25, 30 minutes,
whereas this is, like...
It can be pretty much an hour.
So, yeah,
just trying to figure that out,
but, uh, yeah.
No, I think it's going well.
Guys have helped a lot
as well, so...
Does this come easy to you?
Or naturally to you?
No, man. I've always said
I'm not talented.
I've kinda just worked hard
to a point where people think
I'm talented, and...
Yeah, and naturally, I'm...
You know, I don't feel like
I was naturally meant to be here
but I've kinda got here
through my dreams and passion.
You really don't feel talented?
Nope.
But it doesn't matter, like...
Like, how much hard work
can get you.
You see, I really
want to be a footballer, right,
but I'm just shit at it.
You can practice and practice,
but I'm never gonna
get to play for...
Oh, but then you didn't
wanna be a footballer.
- Really? You think it's just...
- Yeah.
Facts.
How many questions
do you wanna ask me now?
Can I ask one more question, JJ?
Yeah. What's up?
Why won't you play
the song "You"?
Oh, you're funny.
Um...
Uh...
I just...
I'm just
going through something.
With, uh, my girlfriend,
so, it kinda just...
It gets a bit too emotional,
so, yeah.
But it's all right.
It is what it is.
Can't really control emotions,
especially when that song plays,
so, it's better
to just avoid it.
Yeah, I rehearsed it yesterday.
I just broke down, so...
I was like I'm not...
I'm not doing that here.
Did you write it about her?
- Hmm?
- Did you write it about her?
Yes. Yeah.
Yeah. I did.
Everything I do, I do
I do it all for you, for you
You're the only one
You're the only one
Everything I do, I do
I do it all for you, for you
You're the only one
You're the only one
You're the only one
You're the only one...
- Can I get a picture?
- Yeah, yeah, sure.
Yeah. You want me here?
- Yeah.
- Yeah, of course.
- What's your name, sorry?
- It's Jillian.
Jillian. Lovely to
meet you, Jillian.
Lovely to meet you.
Have a good day.
Thank you.
How's the lighting?
Can you see me?
Do you like meeting fans?
Yeah, of course.
Why... Why would I say no
to that?
I just wanna know.
They've made my career.
Yeah.
I like his work ethics.
The way he's grown up,
it's been similar
to our background,
immigrant parents and
things like that, and just...
showing that it takes time
to get to the top.
He's just really inspiring.
Hey, yo, Glasgow,
what's up? It's your boy!
You know this is the first show
of the tour, man.
And you lot
have brought insane energy.
Eh?
Here we...
Here we fucking go! Here we...
Here we...
Here we fucking go!
Here we... Here we...
Here we fucking go!
I think people say
he tries to do
too many different things,
or, you know, he should
just stick to one thing,
but I think that's what
makes him so great,
is that he started so small
and he's grown up with us,
and we feel like we know him.
Hey, yo, if you still have
special someone next to them...
All right, who's single?
All right, so,
for the single people,
this is for the people
that you'll eventually get.
And now for the people
in a relationship,
this is for you,
happening right now.
There was times
I didn't wanna be here anymore,
and it was just getting too much
and I didn't wanna wake up
and whatnot,
and then
when I felt really down and low
and when I felt like that,
I would just put him on,
and when I put him on,
he would just laugh,
and it'd make me laugh
'cause it's contagious,
and he was just
an all-round honest, nice guy.
Can just watch KSI
and that would cheer me up.
Who's currently
going through something?
Well, it always
gets better, remember that.
Shit will never be
shit forever, bro.
It will always get better,
and we'll be able to
get through together.
Thank you.
I see him more as
a family member
'cause of how close he is
with his subscribers
and all his followers.
He sees us as his family,
and the way
he interacts with us all,
he's always been there,
making videos around his fans,
and that's just amazing.
The relationship I have
with my fans,
it's kinda just like
they're friends.
I get bullied by them.
I bully them.
We literally are just so close.
It's not fake, it's not
them just worshipping me,
it's them being real with me.
I get messages saying,
all the time,
I've inspired people,
I've helped them focus
in their career,
or I've helped them, just,
you know, believe in themselves.
Yo, we just wanna say
thank you so much
for taking this time out,
you know.
I kinda wanted to start it off
with just allowing them to kinda
introduce themselves
and kinda just,
you know, letting you guys know
who they are,
why they're on this programme,
why they're here today, I guess.
You know what I mean?
So, I'm gonna start
with you, my man.
- Introduce yourself.
- I'm Kion.
What's up, Kion?
But most people call me K
most of the time.
I kind of jumped on this course
because I wanted to
further myself musically,
and any other field
that's creative.
My music style is a bit weird.
I play rare groove,
soul, lovers' rock,
but everything else as well,
but that's what
I'm mainly known for.
But, yeah,
that's the lowdown on Pebs.
I'm Chloe. To be honest,
doing this is
quite a big achievement for me
'cause I'm not
a very talkative person,
so, doing this is a big boost
out of my comfort zone.
Yeah, my name's Jamil.
Outside of music, I'm very
reserved and kinda quiet,
and with music, I just feel like
it's a missing part to me.
I started from my bedroom
so I didn't really talk to
many people, if anyone at all,
and eventually
I kinda got to a point where
I kind of got forced into it,
but you've gotta
just learn how to swim
with a lot of certain situations
and, uh, yeah, I guess you guys
are doing that right now.
How do you deal with hate
on social media?
You just have to
live through it.
You have to be thick-skinned.
There's no other way.
You can't try and avoid it,
you can't try to
block out words or anything
because they'll find
a new way to get to you.
It's just always...
It'll just always adapt.
I've been, you know,
taken the piss out of,
I've had haters
left, right and centre,
I've had all types of hate,
from racism,
like, hardcore racism
to just, you know, like,
to how I look,
you know, my weight, et cetera.
But then I've just turned that
on its head, and I've just...
I just laugh at it now.
For me, I think that's
the most important part of hate.
If you take it away from them
and you just completely cut it,
cut the power from them,
then it's not hate.
It's just words
that don't mean anything.
A huge driving point for me is
always proving people wrong.
There's a lot of people
who've told me to stop,
but instead I was like,
"No. Watch".
So many obstacles
were in his way,
but he just
bypassed all of them.
There was literally nothing
that could stop him.
He would just keep going.
People would say,
"Oh, you can't do this",
he'd be like,
"I'll prove you wrong".
But I guess
it's kind of to prove a point
to my parents as well.
He wants to be like...
"Look at me.
"Look at me, I'm...
"I'm here. Acknowledge me."
I think I was around 19
when I started
to actually make money,
and it was very small.
And then it just kept going up
and up and up
to, like, 10,000 a month, yeah.
That was...
That was really crazy.
Like, I couldn't believe that.
And even my parents
couldn't believe that.
When we went
to see the accountant,
he was gobsmacked, said, "Wow!"
You know, that...
You know, a guy that young
that is already earning money
and he already knows
what he wants to do,
you know,
that was an achievement.
Even a few people that I told,
you know,
there was a church
I used to go to
and I kind of
discussed it with them,
would you believe it,
the following week,
they totally blanked me.
Yeah. 'Cause it's all to do with
envy and jealousy, isn't it?
When I wasn't making money,
they... they said
it was a waste of time.
And then when I was making
more money than them,
then they were open arms,
like, "Let's go".
Doing a Q&A Sunday with my dad.
- How's it going, man?
- It's good.
Anyway, let's answer
some questions.
Let's begin with number one.
"Does your dad masturbate?"
Oh, my God.
Bro, I cringe so much now
at my old videos,
like, "What am I doing?"
But at the time,
I was just in this bubble
where everything was just okay.
I don't know...
On the Internet, that's just...
That was just okay
to ask my dad if he masturbates.
Oh, God.
"Have you ever
caught your son wanking?"
No, I haven't caught
you wanking. Why would I?
- Oh, so do you wank?
- No.
No, I'm just saying, too good.
It's not good
to wank, seriously.
Well, you would know.
- As a Christian...
- Flicking that bean.
Even though Daddy
does worse with you.
"Flick the bean",
I didn't know what it meant.
I did not know what it meant.
If I had known,
I probably wouldn't have...
I... I don't think
I answered the question, did I?
Get hyper.
A lot of the videos
that I made with my parents
looked like we had
a very good relationship.
But whenever I would
turn off the camera,
we would just go back
to being strangers.
Maybe I didn't
reach out to them as much,
but they didn't really
reach out to me as much as well.
So, you know,
it's a two-way thing.
Can I ask about your girlfriend?
- Yeah, yeah.
- What happened?
I knew this was coming.
So, me and my girlfriend
aren't together anymore.
Well, we... Me and my ex.
Yeah. Um...
Yeah.
I broke it off.
I broke it off, yeah.
Um, yeah, I... I felt like...
I mean, I... I don't know
if she'll ever see it this way,
but I felt like
I was doing her a favour.
Yeah, because just
my lifestyle, man, it's just...
You know, I'm too busy to
have a relationship right now.
Next year, I'm going to LA,
and then I'm going on tour
in the UK,
then I'm going on tour in Europe
and doing all these things,
you know, work-wise,
and I'm like, "When am I
gonna find time to see her?
"When am I gonna have time to,
you know, properly be with her?"
Obviously,
there's other things as well,
but I just thought
it's not fair on her,
and I knew she was
getting agitated over it.
And she just works
a normal 9:00 to 5:00 job.
How long were you together
and how serious was it?
Yeah, it was pretty serious.
Three and a half years.
Yeah, it was a long time.
But couldn't you
have changed things
if you really wanted it to work?
I'd say the relationship
just didn't work. We just...
We also just didn't...
We weren't...
good for each other.
We were, and then we weren't,
if that makes sense.
She said I don't get excited
for anything anymore.
It's like I'm dead inside.
I was like, "Fuck.
"She's kind of right."
Really?
No, no, I do get excited, but...
I don't know, when you've
kinda just done so well
in so many things, et cetera,
you kinda just go, "Oh, okay",
and then nothing
really hits the same.
I don't know.
I don't know what I'm saying.
It's crazy. I really thought
she was gonna be the one for me.
She's such a private person.
And then she's with
one of the most famous people
in England.
So, was that ever gonna work?
Probably not.
Yeah.
Maybe it was doomed
from the start.
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah.
You got a little boogeroo.
You got a little booger.
Good? Are we good?
No, left. Right. Yeah.
Right, guys.
Quiet on set now, please.
And speed.
- Camera rolling?
- Rolling.
And action.
Get out, get out.
Come on, move, move.
- Cut there.
- How's it going?
Chilling, bro,
just eating food...
Are you enjoying this?
...and getting rich from it.
I mean...
There's not really
much else going.
Yeah, we're happy with that.
Now we can go downstairs
and drag these guys...
What do you guys
need to do now? Portraits?
There needs to be a portrait,
yeah.
Am I good? All right.
- Done, can we do...
- Losing my shit.
Can we get the tray
set up for one more GoPro?
I'm off.
Sorry I'm late, boss.
Fucking...
I've eaten so much food.
- What was it for?
- Fuck.
Uh, Sides... So, our, like,
Deliveroo restaurant thing.
So, he's just starting
a Deliveroo business now.
Yeah.
- Yeah, bro, just...
- I'll tell you what.
I'll tell you what,
there's alcohol as well.
We've got
alcohol business going.
Oh, okay!
- Tell me.
- Yeah, yeah, just...
- We're doing vodka.
- Really?
- Yeah, like, flavoured vodka.
- No way.
Yeah, literally.
Making moves, bro.
Making moves.
Why not? I mean, it's...
Yeah, we're able to do it.
I was able to venture from
YouTube to music to boxing,
so, why not do restaurants
as well?
That's it, bro.
- I feel like, for you...
- And alcohol
and fucking lampposts,
if we want.
But there's no limit.
I was gonna say, for you,
there's no limit...
- Yeah.
- You can just do
whatever you want, for real,
and it just makes sense, bro.
Yeah. We're in...
We're in
this beautiful spot where...
- You can touch everything.
- Yeah.
Yeah, we can really
just do anything.
Whoo!
He has an addictive personality,
in the sense that,
he's tasted victory,
he wants to keep tasting it.
He knows the consequences,
but he doesn't care.
He's like, "I'm gonna get...
I'm gonna get this.
"I'm gonna get...
I'm gonna get this goal."
Yeah, it just goes back
to the whole KSI character.
I feel like
I'm in control of everything,
like I can just do
whatever the fuck I want.
And not to say anything bad
about my ex,
but I definitely feel like
she tried to bring me back
to how I was before.
Now I'm just kinda...
I don't know,
I just feel more alpha.
I just feel more like a boss.
Sidemen are killing it,
by the way.
Yes.
We're thriving, man.
Yeah,
we're actually fucking sick.
Our estimated earnings
are just wild right now.
Q4 man, yeah.
I feel like we still have
so much more to do.
You've not got more to do
with music and boxing?
Um, no, it's...
I've got more to do for boxing.
"I've got
a number-one album."
No, no, no.
No, I still need to like...
you know, like,
dominate America, I feel.
It's crazy, I'm literally
going on dates every day.
New girl every day.
I remember, when I was younger
I wasn't able
to even talk to girls.
And I would google
how to talk to women,
and read books and stuff
about understanding women,
but that's just because I was
this introverted, nerdy kid
that wanted to be seen as a man
that is desirable.
Do you think
you would get the same women
if you weren't KSI,
and you were just JJ?
Definitely not.
Let's be honest.
Like, I'm a six out of ten,
at best.
But the money and the fame
makes me an 11.
So...
JJ's not afraid
to cut loose anyone
if they're in his way.
'Cause he wants to be the best.
He's super-ambitious,
He can't let anybody...
outwork him or anything.
He has that inner spite in him,
and JJ and I,
we've had arguments
where he's literally told me,
"I don't love you".
He's said that to me.
Welcome, ladies and gentlemen,
to Family Fortunes.
So, the beef all
started off with JJ's friend.
Name a dead YouTube channel.
Deji.
Oh, boy, that's family.
That's family, bro.
I didn't take kind to that
so I did, like,
a video response.
You are the Sidemen's
as well as JJ's bitch.
You are literally their bitch.
You're JJ's cameraman,
he pays your salary.
You spend more time with JJ
than you do your own wife.
And that video response,
triggered him
to make a diss-track on me.
Deji, tell me
Are you brain-dead?
'Cause you still live
With your parents
I got loyalty deep in my veins
You got no brains
You got no friends
You got no game...
Oh, Jesus.
This is your end
You're just a poor man
I can't lie
You're just a Walmart KSI
Oh, my God.
Oh! Yo, fam.
Randolph has gone so in.
Oh, my fucking God.
Deji's gonna be pissed, man.
I don't even know if he's gonna
wanna talk to me.
The way JJ kind of
got involved in the diss-track,
I felt betrayed.
I did some stupid things.
You say JJ this, JJ that
Call me Walmart
Let's talk facts
Yeah, he ran
Yeah, he ran
That's what really triggered it,
'cause that diss-track that
I did on him, it was like...
You're not really meant to do
a diss-track on your brother,
but I was fuelled with rage.
I told him we could fix things
if he just deletes
the diss-track he made on me,
but he refuses.
Then I came back,
and JJ was at my house.
He was angry.
He was saying
he was gonna smash my PC,
gonna break everything.
You came here to talk?
I'm pissed.
Go away, leave my house.
Shut the fuck up.
Little did I know
he was recording
everything that was going on.
It was just
arguments, arguments,
and then I said to him,
"Get out the house.
"Just get out.
Get out of my house".
And this was
during Christmas time.
Cool.
Whatever. I'm leaving. I'm off.
And then, the whole
Internet just turned on me.
"How are you gonna kick out
your brother on Christmas?"
We find out in this video
that Deji has been non-stop
either lying, manipulating,
or leaving out facts
to harm his brother,
destroy his brother.
The fact that you're just,
you know,
carrying on with your life,
not giving a shit,
really fucking annoys me.
And I'm scared
to even call my family
because I'm scared
you're gonna just take
one negative thing that I say,
manipulate the audience,
and just make me look
as bad as possible.
I hate being...
being seen as a bad guy!
And I hate it so much.
I hate it. I fucking... I...
I'm just sick
and fucking tired of it.
You need to understand
what you're doing,
and it's not cool.
I'm done.
I'm done, guys. I'm done.
I... I have to just
put this out there.
So please, can...
Let's just
be done with this, Dej.
It's been a while.
I've kind of just left Deji
to do his own thing.
I don't think
we're as cool as we used to be,
like, back in the day,
but we're definitely not as bad
as we were a few years ago.
We'll do three minutes.
Just get the heart rate up.
Over there, do some stretching.
When's the last time
you trained?
I train every day.
Oh.
Good. Good.
Three, two, one.
That is it.
Fuckin' hell!
Ten seconds,
all the way to the end.
I always had that like,
"Oh, he's my little brother,
"I'll always take care of him".
He's always just
getting in trouble.
He just didn't work hard.
That's just it.
He was just lazy.
First round as fast as you can.
Keep going, keep going,
keep going, keep going.
Three, two, one.
Ah, look,
you ripped off a second.
He's a bully, huh?
Nah, it's good.
It's what you need.
- You happy now?
- Yeah.
So, what, you train every day?
- Boxing every day.
- Honestly...
Yeah, boxing every day.
S&C, like, four times a week.
Okay. I like the sound of that.
You're one of the people
I want to see me win, you know.
I want you to see me win,
hand raised.
Make it happen.
Would it be fair to say
you were best friends
growing up?
Yeah. No, we were
very good friends, yeah.
I'd say we were very tight.
After the whole public situation
between me and him,
yeah, that definitely distorted
the relationship that we had.
Three, four, five, six.
Easy.
Do you think
if it wasn't for the Internet,
you guys would have
a better relationship?
One hundred percent.
I wouldn't say it's a curse,
but it definitely
would've been different
if there was no Internet.
Our relationship...
I think we'd be tight.
Push it if you want, try eight.
Try eight.
There we go. Nice.
- And better. It's a good finish.
- Nice.
Cool. Rest up.
I just want it to be
like old times again,
where we would talk
about anything.
We were close, we would just...
always have each other's backs.
That's what I want.
I just... I just want a brother.
So, how was it,
seeing your brother?
I was impressed. I'm impressed.
I'm always proud of Deji,
but, like...
I'm proud of him until he loses.
What drives me mad
is that Deji is so talented,
but I just don't know
if he has the self-belief
to really succeed.
But I think
that's just mainly because
my parents just allowed him to
get away with a lot of things.
My parents were very tough,
and I essentially lived with the
pressure of always doing well.
That's probably
one of the reasons why
my relationship with them
isn't great.
If I'm being honest,
I personally think
that my dad loves my brother
more than me.
But I think that's just
a younger-brother thing.
Deji's a very sensitive person,
and looking at it,
it's all to do with
lack of communication.
That is the problem.
And when we talk about it,
we don't address it.
I told JJ that,
"You're like your dad".
That, you know, "You don't like
dealing with issues".
I mean, I do talk to them,
but maybe
when it comes to the closeness,
the closeness
wasn't really there.
I don't, um...
- I find it very... Like...
- Yeah.
Little things like,
"Oh, love you, JJ".
It's difficult to...
It's so difficult.
I mean, with Deji...
Deji's different.
Deji will push.
- Yeah.
- Deji will demand.
- Yeah. Yeah.
- For it.
So, you can't get away
from Deji.
So, I think
that's one of the things
that's probably affecting JJ.
Maybe he thinks that
we favoured Deji over JJ.
You told me about your parents,
but can you just describe to me,
what sort of people are they?
Okay, um...
My dad is very cold.
Doesn't talk much.
But I think he has heart.
My mum's very talkative.
Well, to me,
she feels more loving, and...
Yeah, nah.
I'm definitely closer to my mum,
funnily enough,
than my dad. Yeah.
Yeah.
I love my parents.
Obviously, I wish
the relationship was better,
that's just it.
So, what do you think
their version of loving you is?
Uh...
Uh...
I guess...
Um...
I don't...
Oh, fuck's sake.
Ah, fuck!
I don't...
Uh... I don't...
- Sorry, man.
- No, it's okay.
Fuck's sake. I knew I was...
This was gonna make me
fucking cry.
Fuck's sake.
Fuck you, man.
I didn't expect it.
I know it's a lot.
Nah, nah, it's all right.
Nah, it's all right.
Uh, I don't really know.
It's funny, like, um...
You know, I talk to a few people
about what my love language is.
And, er...
I say... I say, for me,
it's just, like, physical touch,
'cause I... I never really
got it from my parents.
So, I don't know, it's just...
Yeah, it's just nice to, like...
just have someone, you know,
hug me and say that,
"I love you",
and stuff like that.
I never really got it
from my family.
So, yeah, I guess...
Yeah, I think...
Loving-wise, I think I just
struggled with my parents.
I think
that's one of the reasons
why I'm starting
to see a therapist
'cause I just feel like
there's definitely things
in my childhood
that need to be addressed.
Uh, number four.
Okay.
I wonder whose that is.
Jeez.
Turn to the right.
There we are.
You see, different.
Different.
Now I'm living. Now...
I'm KSI now, yeah.
This is how
you should've been living.
Yeah, you know what I mean!
Fucking hell.
Welcome. Welcome to
my humble abode, man.
It cost me over 10 mil.
I would say that the bank
is hurting a little bit,
but we're all right.
But, yeah, come through.
Come up.
Let me show you what I got.
So, this is
the second living room.
Or, I guess, the living room
to my room, which is over here.
Ah, ah, ah.
Oh, here we go.
Welcome to my bedroom,
my palace.
The palace.
Wardrobe space, plenty. Plenty.
Bro! What?
Two showers? Shut up.
Then we have another floor.
So, yeah, this was the bed
that we said we'd leave in.
- Yeah, we're leaving this bed.
- Yeah.
Oh?
Who's that? Oh.
Yo, yo.
Hiya, we're all here.
We're just gonna go
and grab some lunch.
- Is that all right?
- Yeah, go for it, go for it.
And I think, um...
I think JJ's here.
I think he's just
gone around in a car, I believe.
Yeah, I'm talking to you
right now.
Oh, sorry. I'm so sorry!
- Nah, nah, that's all right.
- Are you in?
Yeah, I'm inside
the house, yeah.
We'll be back in about
20 minutes. Thank you so much.
Okay, yeah. Cool.
All right, in a bit.
All right. Bye.
Look at that. Easy.
All right, this is a guest room.
Yeah, man, guest is living good.
So...
And then...
just other bathroom,
just because.
Oh, this one also has a shower.
I didn't even realise.
I never checked
that side of the door.
Wow.
Another shower in...
Oh, flipping heck.
Have you not seen your place?
I've seen it once, that's it.
Yeah, I've only seen it once.
Yeah.
I've seen videos,
so it reminded of, like,
"Wow, yeah,
this is sick," but...
Yeah, I've only been there once,
and that was all I needed.
I saw it once and I was like,
"Yeah, this is it.
This is the one".
This is my dream house, man,
in London.
Dream house in London.
What do you think
your parents will make
of this house?
I haven't shown them anything.
- You tweeted this...
- Oh, God.
"What is true love?"
Then the next one,
"How can I love someone
when I don't love myself?"
- Oh, Jesus! Oh, bro.
- What are you doing?
What's going on with your heart?
Bro, I was single, innit.
So I'm just going through
a heart break.
When I'm alone and
I'm listening to certain music,
I just get in my feels,
and I'm like,
"Fuck, I miss her, man."
And then...
"I should text her".
Yeah.
- But... but you tweeted this...
- Oh, God.
"What is true love?"
Did someone give you the answer?
'Cause if they did, let me know.
All right. Yo.
- How you doing?
- Nice to meet you, bro.
Nice to meet you, boss.
I was thinking about calling
the album "Caught in Two Minds."
I was thinking about calling
the album "Caught in Two Minds."
Oh, wow.
So it's like...
whether I want to be
in a relationship,
or what if I just want to be
out there like a boss-esque,
you know, like, doing my thing.
- So, it's like finding that...
- Balance
Balance, yeah,
or finding where I lie.
Do you change where you lie
on that from day to day?
Sometimes.
It's gotta make sense.
Who was that one person
you were like,
ah, you should talk to them?
Er, Emma Watson.
Not Emma Watson,
nah, she's beyond.
That's wifey.
Like, yeah, she's, but nah
I mean, I already squeaked
when I saw her.
I think girls
appreciate a squeak...
No, bro, she needs a man,
and I just
fucked that up instantly
from the first meet up.
What did you say?
I'm not even gonna repeat it.
Hi, Emma.
Fuck off, bro.
Sometimes some of
your suggestions are just...
Bro, my fairy tale projection
of your life,
you end up back with her
and you guys happy ever after.
I like that.
But before you do,
I want you to
sow your royal oats.
So that when you go back,
you're like, "All right,
"I definitely know the grass is
not greener on the other side."
Yeah, but, you know...
also her choice.
Oh, yeah yeah.
She can also decide,
"I ain't waiting for you."
That's why I said
in my ideal projection
of how things roll out for you.
Mmm.
Because, er, yeah, she's sick.
She's really just sick.
Yeah.
Yeah, she is.
Everything happens in waves.
Especially from a break up.
The first wave
is like a tsunami,
and over time
it gets less and less and less,
and, yeah, every now and then
I still, go, "Oh, shit".
Like, you know...
"I miss her", or like, you know,
"We had
a really good thing going.
"I kind of wish
we could've done things better",
or, you know, "What if..."
et cetera.
Do you know
how she's feeling at the moment?
Yeah, no, she...
She's good.
Obviously, her guard is up.
And rightly so.
I'm not easy
to be in a relationship with.
I have this tendency
to always just bail out,
and it's a really bad habit
of mine, and, it's just...
Yeah, sometimes my mind
just goes, "Oh, fuck!
"Bail!"
What are you
doing there? Are you trying...
Do you wanna hear shit
or do you just want us
to make random shit up?
Um, yeah, just...
For me, I think, hearing stuff,
'cause then I can definitely
feel an emotion from that.
I know you said
"I gotta go"
Yet again I'm moving on
In a week, you said
And on and on and on
But I loved you
Better?
- Or more boring?
- It was better.
No, it was better. I don't know
if it's it yet, but it is good.
- Okay.
- I think it is good.
What don't you like about it?
- 'Cause I'm hearing his voice...
- Yup.
- Yeah.
- ...and I think it really...
- To me, it sounds really dope.
- It'll sound good.
Aye, y'all know better than me.
I've been seeing double
I've been
Seeing double
One, two, three...
I've been seeing double
Coming home so wasted
I've been having trouble
Finding your replacement
There's numbers in my phone
But all of them are strangers
That shit gets so lonely
Finding your replacement
- Whoo, Cool, right?
- How's that, bro?
But something like that, yeah.
Yeah!
In the feels.
Come back from LA,
I did a lot of reflecting
on the past
and all the things
I messed up on.
When I created
the KSI character,
I wanted to be more like him.
He was this alter ego
that allowed me to be confident
and believe that I was
bigger than I actually was.
And I didn't really see
the side effects until later on.
I've realised that
being KSI just slowly ruined
the relationship between
me and my family, for sure.
I kinda just
have stepped back and gone,
"Okay, what's important
in my life?
"What do I need to
properly sort out?"
And I realised being close
to the people closest to you
is very important,
and that's what I feel like,
family-wise,
I need to really fix that.
Alex Wassabi,
you desperate fucker.
You got your wish.
I'm going to bury
your already-dead career.
You ran from my bro,
but there's no escaping me.
I want to see all my fans there
to witness my redemption.
Ladies and gentlemen,
your main event of the evening.
This is the final bout
between Alex Wassabi and Deji.
- How you feeling, bro?
- Feeling good, JJ. How are you?
I'm good, man. I'm good. Good.
- Hi.
- Nice to meet you.
Jeez!
He's out there.
We go again. We go again.
I want to bring it back home,
no messing.
Don't give him nervous energy.
Nah, he's got this. Nah.
How you feeling?
How you feeling, bro?
I cried.
Why did you cry?
I'm watching your back,
don't say that shit.
No, it's okay, it's okay, bro.
I cried at my camp.
- I cried at my camp.
- It was just...
- the stress.
- Yeah, it's all right.
It's all good.
That's you releasing
all that stress,
all that nervous energy.
Come on, man.
Come on.
Deji, please just
don't disappoint.
Don't let losing be an outcome.
Think of it like,
"All I can do is win.
"That's my destination,
that's all it is".
You're a fucking gladiator, bro.
You're a gladiator.
- Show everyone you are.
- Yeah.
All right, bro.
Kill it, man. All right?
The time for talking is over,
and the time for action is now!
You want this! Go get it!
Deji, go get it!
Attack! Attack!
Yes! Yes! Go!
Deji, come on!
- Just look good.
- Do I go again?
- Huh?
- Do I go again?
What do you mean "go again"?
Do I box again?
Oh, if you win, yes.
If you lose, then, no.
Dej, this is your opportunity.
This is your chance, bro.
Okay? So, go.
You think you won?
- Okay.
- I don't know.
- Do you think I won?
- What do you think?
Ladies and gentlemen,
declaring your winner
by split decision...
Alex Wassabi!
You could've won that,
it was there,
and you just didn't take it,
and that's why I'm like,
you need that mentality to go,
"Fuck it, I'm going to win".
I was screaming,
"This is your last round,
"Do this. Let's go.
Take this opportunity".
The idea of losing, bro...
Can... Bro, for me,
I can't ever fathom it.
I'm terrified of losing.
I'm scared, bro. It terrifies...
And you know why?
Because it sucks.
So I put in that work, and I do
extra and extra and extra.
- I do. I do...
- It's frustrating!
- You don't understand.
- I do. I know it's frustrating.
I wish I could put
my fucking brain into yours
so you can actually understand
what it...
- I do want this, I promise you.
- But it doesn't...
- You don't show it.
- I know it doesn't look like it,
but I've only just realised
how much...
Why have you just realised now
after you've lost again, bro?
No, I'm saying I realised,
my last fight...
But why didn't you win this one?
Yeah, I know.
If you get another chance,
because obviously
you have to face the public...
Are you behind me?
Bro, I'm always behind you.
What do you mean,
am I behind you?
I'm always behind you.
I mean, if I get in the ring
again, will you back me?
Well, I'm always here.
Why would I ever
not back you, bro?
I'm your brother, bro.
It's okay.
Even if I wasn't your brother,
all right?
You little dickhead.
All right, I'm gonna head in,
so, see you in a bit.
See you in a bit, JJ.
Yo, what's up?
It's your boy KSI.
Deji, I...
I'm... I'm disappointed.
You've lost three times.
Three times, man!
I don't think you have what
it takes to win a boxing match.
The reason why I am
where I am today
is because most of the time,
I do everything that I do
for me.
Same with boxing.
I did that shit for me.
When are you gonna finally
do something for yourself?
I know people are gonna be like,
"Ah, JJ, you're being so harsh."
"You're being mean",
or "You're being fair."
I don't care, fam. I don't care.
All right, well...
Yeah. Peace.
In what ways are you
a different person
to your brother?
I guess...
He doesn't care
what other people think.
I essentially do.
But I can just sense
that he's lonely.
JJ feels like
he's not part of the family
because, obviously,
we're all so close,
whereas he's kind of,
like, in the distance.
So he feels like an outsider.
So, how,
as a family, are you trying
to work on the problems
buried in the past?
I guess, like,
my parents are realising that...
he's kind of, like...
He's on an island on his own,
so now they're, like, you know,
swimming to him now to help.
They realise that...
Like, er...
It's a lonely world out there.
But my dad, he just...
I just told him, like,
"You're not here forever,
"and you don't want JJ
to have a bad memory of you.
"So fix it.
"Fix it before it's too late".
Today I'm seeing my dad,
which is pretty weird.
My dad is coming by himself
to see me.
Whoa.
It's crazy.
He's my dad, but I have...
I literally know
barely anything about him.
Do you think he knows you?
Ah, no.
No, not at all.
- Yo, you all right?
- How are you?
- How you doing?
- How are you?
Yeah, I'm good, I'm good.
- Well, welcome.
- Boy, this a big house.
Yeah, it's nice.
It's a decent... Decent spot.
This is the first time
I'm entering
a 10-million-pound house.
Jeez. God.
Yeah, well, I'll give you
a little tour, obviously.
- Kitchen.
- You've done well.
- Stairs.
- Jeez. This a massive house.
Yeah.
So, how do you change
these bulbs?
You need to get an expert
to come change it.
Yeah, I mean, I can just
hit up my PA to sort that.
What's this?
So, this is gonna be
my YouTube room.
I bet your internet will be
very fast here, all this set up.
Well, the internet
is fast everywhere, Dad.
And this... Ah, okay.
You don't do any laundry,
do you?
If I want to, I can,
but I choose not to.
I bet you don't do any cooking.
Do you do any cooking?
Nah, sometimes.
It depends on how I'm feeling.
Maybe boil some egg
and do some toast?
- I bet that's what you do.
- Nah, well, I have a chef,
so I don't need to
do that anymore.
- Okay.
- I just
get him to make it for me.
- How are you anyway, in general?
- I'm fine.
- What do you mean by "fine"?
- I'm very good.
- Yeah. How's Mum?
- Yeah, she's fine.
- How's the dog?
- Yeah.
The dog is fine.
I mean, the dog keeps me busy,
which I love.
- Yeah.
- Yeah.
Yeah, I... I'm very surprised
that you actually, um...
- Come here.
- You came here.
I need to talk to you about,
you know...
We need to be good.
Oh, okay, so then,
how do we work on being good?
Because, you see,
both of us, er...
I believe... I mean...
- Tell me if I'm wrong.
- Okay.
- I believe, as a dad...
- Mmm-hmm.
I believe I fulfilled my duty.
Yes or no?
Uh...
Yes and no.
- Yeah.
- Okay. Let's deal with the "no".
Um, I don't think
you were that loving.
Okay.
My upbringing was, you know...
Was rubbish.
- I don't want to think about it.
- No, it's okay.
Thinking about it, it'll make me
go bonkers, you understand?
It was so bad.
With my dad, we never...
You see, we never sat down...
- Sitting down like this, never.
- Yeah. Yeah.
We've never had
that relationship.
My dad's never...
I've never been given a hug.
You see, it's something
I've never experienced.
Well, if your dad
never hugged you...
- I'm not...
- ...so then...
And then
you hardly ever hugged us.
You see, my dad never...
- Did your dad, like, hit you?
- Yeah.
And then, you've kind of
just done the same.
But, look, now,
when it comes to now,
let's talk about that.
Is it something
we do all the time?
No, no, it wasn't something
you did all the time.
It's just something
that just happened.
Every time we were naughty,
we would get hit.
Because, to us,
we thought that was love.
- You understand?
- Yeah.
We're putting you guys
on the right track.
But it affects me
in my later years, Dad.
Just like
it affected you in your...
No, no, no,
but mine was different.
I got beat until I was
21 years old.
Yeah, but still...
It's still affected you
in your later years, right?
Yeah, but when you were five,
maybe you can't even remember.
Dad.
I think...
I think I do because,
obviously, I'm telling you.
There's times where
I just hated you for it.
- Really?
- Yes.
It's okay, Dad, I'm not angry.
So, we're good?
Well, I... I feel like,
obviously, the communication
could be better.
I need to work on
my communication skills.
- I'm very bad at it, anyway.
- I know.
It's not too late
for you to change,
- as a person.
- Yeah, yeah.
I mean, we do say it,
maybe, you know, "I love you",
"Love you too", "Love you".
But, you know, it's just...
It's actually kind of
weird hearing you say it.
Yeah.
Yeah, it's pretty weird.
Yeah, these are things
that should be normal.
- Yeah.
- Yeah, so I'm working on it too.
This is a huge step.
Do you know
how huge this step is
for you to be here by yourself?
I think this is
the most we've talked
in 10-plus years, honestly.
Which is kind of sad,
but it's also kind of cool.
Do you want to
actually hug each other?
Yeah, I mean,
we do hug each other, don't we?
I mean, we shook hands
when you got here.
How's that? Is that all right?
Yeah, yeah, yeah.
- How's that?
- Yeah, it's okay.
Like, yeah, like this.
It's nice.
- It's odd, isn't it?
- Yeah.
- Love you, Dad.
- Love you, too.
Ah, this would do my head in.
It's actually
really therapeutic.
Look at where it could work.
Ah!
Yeah, that's good.
Oh.
Dealing with issues in my past
has definitely made me happier.
I am a work in progress,
and I think that's...
that's kind of cool because
I don't want to be completed,
'cause then what?
Then what? And that's
kind of how I felt last year.
I felt like
I'd completed everything
and I had no purpose, and...
Yeah, it was weird, like...
Yeah, I was definitely
not in a good spot.
But now I'm great, so...
- Amazing.
- Ah, thank you, man.
It's been
a fucking journey, for real.
And I appreciate it.
Yo, what's up?
It's your boy KSIOlajideBT.
How are y'all doing?
Your boy
has an announcement to make.
Your boy is performing
at Wembley Arena.
This show is going to be
the biggest show
I have ever done in my life.
Best believe it's gonna be mad.
Signing your shirts now.
I know you're on good terms
with your ex-girlfriend.
- Yeah.
- Is she here today?
No, no, she's not here.
She said, "Good luck,
not that you need it."
"And just smash it
and let me know how it is."
Just hopped out the bank
I'm rollin'
Pockets swollen
It's my year
And I am the one
Who's chosen
Neck, wrist, frozen
I don't care
I enter the room
I'm glowin'
No strings holdin'
Man's gone clear
I'm comin' to own
Like Romans
This my moment
Zero fear
Ay, London
Man, I feel amazing
Runnin' up the numbers
With my feed
With my feed
- My disease is goin' viral
- Oh
Yeah, trust me
I'mma sickle when we meet
I'm comin' to own
Like Romans
This my moment
Zero fear
Hello, Wembley!
It's your boy KSI.
I wanna wake up every mornin'
Feelin' better
'Cause I know
You're sleeping by my side
And every moment
We're together
I remember just to keep it all
For you and I
I see that body
In the sunlight
Feelin' the heat
And it feels right
I wanna do this
For the rest of my life
KSI! KSI! KSI!
KSI's coming out guns blazing.
He hit him... Oh, he's down.
Deji, coming straight ahead.
Deji walks away
with his first win.
Deji, what do you think
of KSI's
two-in-one-night performance?
I mean, he's a king.
What more can I really say?
He's a king.
Now this is his moment, though.
I'm not... I don't want to
steal this. Sorry.
Nah, nah, nah,
this is our moment, bro.
This is our moment, bro.
What are you on about?
Your first win, bro.
I'm fucking proud of you.
Whoo-hoo, ooh, ooh
Whoo-hoo
Whoo-hoo, ooh, ooh
I let go
Every time I hear those
Voices in my head
My head
I run home
Every time I get those
Voices in my head
My head
Don't let me down
Don't say you miss me now
'Cause I've been trying
To figure out
Why you're still in my mind
I've been driving around
This good-for-nothing town
It helps me not to think about
Oh, where you sleep at night
Now I'm lying in bed here
Without you
And I can't stop dreaming
About you
Wanna close my eyes
And watch us drift away, yeah
I let go
Every time I hear those
Voices in my head
My head
I run home
Every time I get those
Voices in my head
My head
Whoo-hoo, whoo-hoo, ooh, ooh
Whoo-hoo, whoo-hoo, ooh, ooh
I try to hide
The pain you put me through
I tell myself it's fine
Another one-night-stand
Will do
I'm turning out the lights
So it's dark inside my room
And then I close my eyes
Pretending that it's you
I wish my memory was deleted
My heart's in 100 pieces
In my head
I hear you screaming
It wakes me
While I'm sleeping
Now I'm lying in bed here
Without you
And I can't stop dreaming
About you
Want to close my eyes
And watch us drift away, yeah
I let go
Every time I hear those
Voices in my head
My head
I run home
Every time I get those
Voices in my head
My head
- Whoo-hoo, whoo-hoo, ooh
- Voices in my head
Whoo-hoo, whoo-hoo, ooh, ooh
Whoo-oh-oh, whoo-oh-oh
Whoo-oh-oh, whoo-oh-oh
Whoo-oh-oh, whoo-oh-oh
Whoo-oh-oh, whoo-oh-oh