Quit (2010) Movie Script
(typewriter clacking)
(calm music)
- No, put that one down. It's
gross.
It's where boys pee.
Should we say something?
- Great power of love,
and happiness, and health,
we turn this wretched and
disgusting form
of self destruction over to you
forever.
Deliver us from the obsession
to poison ourselves.
And deliver us into your
pure breath of life forever.
Amen.
- May you remove these
roadblocks from my life
so that I may reach the stars.
(calm music)
(toilet flushing)
Wow.
I really want a cigarette now.
- Yeah.
- [Danielle] Do you really
spend 5000 a year on smoking?
- [Julius] Probably more.
- Well, from now on that money
should go towards something
small and shiny in a
tiny little velvet box.
(engine cranks)
(upbeat music)
I can't wait to get out this
fucking city.
Nature's care, that what we
need.
- Just wish it was Tahiti.
- [Danielle] Yeah, me too.
- [Julius] Next trip. I promise.
- [Danielle] We really need
to support each other, okay.
I don't want to be the only
nonsmoker when we get back to
LA.
- [Julius] You won't.
This isn't my idea of
some desert bang bang.
I made a decision to quit, and
I really mean it this time.
- [Danielle] I can do it if you
can.
- [Julius] It's just us against
them.
Five gears in reverse
Girls looking for the big lift
Somebody send out for the
night nurse
Please don't stick
me on the late shift
If you don't know by now
Nobody's gonna tell you
If you don't know by now
The shock will probably kill
you
But if your patience is
exhausted
And you still cannot decide
You're sitting in the
garage contemplating suicide
And you have no motivation
You can't even catch your
breath
All of this acceleration
is driving you to death
Five gears in reverse
You think I don't know what
I'm doing
Another fashionable first
Like walking down the road to
ruin
But if you're safe and sound
- [Julius] You hear that?
- [Danielle] I thought nobody
was supposed to be here.
- [Julius] Not supposed to be
here.
- [Danielle] Are you sure
that this is the right place?
- [Julius] I don't know.
- [Danielle] What do
you mean you don't know?
- [Julius] I followed Bob's
directions.
- [Danielle] Ah, Julius.
- [Radio Preacher] The love of
God,
our faith in God lies in
our heart, not in our minds.
The Bible says.
- I'm gonna call Bob.
- [Radio Preacher] The heart
is deceitful in all things.
- Well?
- And desperately wicked.
- No answer. Shit.
- Who can know?
- [Radio Preacher] God does not
care
how you dress up in that suit.
- I'm gonna get my knife.
- [Danielle] Jules, please be
careful.
- [Radio Preacher] God lives
inside you.
- [Julius] Hello?
- [Radio Preacher] Seize the
deep down desperate perversity.
- [Julius] Bob?
- [Radio Preacher] The
sin in every man's heart.
He sees how you really are.
Matthew 15:8.
- [Julius] Anybody here?
- [Radio Preacher] His people
draweth nigh unto to me
with their mouth, and
honoreth me with their lips.
- [Julius] Hello?
- [Radio Preacher] But
their heart is far from me.
Your calamity will come
suddenly.
(radio clicks off)
- Dani. It's all right.
- What a dump.
What movie is that from?
That is Liz Taylor in "Virginia
Wolf"
quoting Bette Davis in
"Beyond the Forest",
which was directed by
King Vidor after he made
one of my favorite films,
"The Fountainhead".
- Come here.
Thank you for doing this with
me.
- Thank me? Thank you.
Sweetheart, this is beautiful.
I love it.
(grandfather clock gong ringing)
- I'm ready to take you.
- Oh, Pepe Le Pew.
I really don't want that right
now.
- Fine, neither do I.
(clock ticking)
- Stop staring at me.
(clock continues ticking)
What?
- Nothing.
I love you.
- You love me because you need
me.
- No, I need you because I love
you.
(clock continues ticking)
- I'm hungry.
- Well, if I were a bird I'd fly
off
and gather you up some worms.
- What would you feed me if I
were a cat?
- Well first, I murderize you a
mouse,
and drop it at your feet.
Then I'd serve it up with
a side of lizard legs,
and fur balls that I'd
lick from your hairy tail.
- What else would you lick?
(clock continues ticking)
(eclectic music)
- Date, Monday, March 15th.
Time, 9:30 AM.
Place, Joshua Tree, Bob's house.
Reason, morning coffee and
newspaper, morning routine.
Level of need, one through
five, five being the highest.
Six.
Oh, my friends are in here.
And here is your brother, Mr.
Coffee.
(dramatic music)
Fuck, fuck.
Jesus.
Bitch!
(calm music)
- [Announcer] Step outside to a
full
refreshing flavor you can
trust 20 times a pack.
Start your day with confidence,
and make the difference where it
counts.
Rich, bold, and designed
for that certain pleasure.
Confidence, be that. Confidence,
be that.
Be that, confidence.
- [Danielle] Are you okay?
Are you okay?
- Yeah.
Yeah, no I'm fine.
- You're not freaking out yet?
- No.
- [Announcer] When it's time to
smoke,
fill your lungs with confidence.
(TV chattering in the
background)
- We should talk about the plan.
- What plan?
- You know, how we're
gonna get through this?
- We already talked about that.
We're gonna do it through
the love and supportive of each
other.
- But I did buy all these tools,
and I think we should
decide how best to use them.
- Okay, well you can do whatever
you want.
I've done this before, all
right. I know what works for me.
- Will you listen to yourself?
You've done this before.
- Yeah. Yes.
- Yeah.
- [Danielle] But I wasn't
ready, like I am now.
- Just humor me, all right.
- [Danielle] Okay, I'll humor
you.
- I got everything right here.
First off, I've got nicotine
gum. And they got a new flavor.
- You mean one that doesn't
taste like licking an ashtray?
- No, they fixed that. A lot
of R and D went into that.
- What in the world are you
holding?
- It's a inhaler, nicotine
inhaler.
It delivers the nicotine orally.
(coughing)
- Is this smoking too?
- Millions of people have used
these tools to quit smoking.
Trust me.
- I know. But you know what?
I'm not millions of people.
I am Danielle Thomas, and I do
not smoke.
- Look at this. This is a big
rubber band.
(rubber band snaps)
While you're thinking about
smoking,
you'll connect the
snapping to the smoking.
You won't want to smoke.
I've got lip balm.
I've got lots of lollipops here.
A self-affirmation CD.
Last but not least, the
journal record keeper,
widely recognized as
the most effective way
to identify the addiction as it
happens.
- Well, how does that work?
- All right, well let
me read you an entry.
Date, Monday, March 15th.
Time, 9:30 AM.
Place, Joshua Tree,
California, Bob's house.
Reason, morning coffee.
- You smoked?
You smoked?
- I journaled it, though.
- You
- But I journaled it.
- Wait, hold on. You smoked?
Are you? You're kidding me.
- I had one.
- But then I did my due
diligence.
I put it in the journal record
keeper.
- Oh my God.
I don't even know how to take
that.
God, you're.
- It's not a big deal.
- It's not a big deal?
- It's not that big a deal.
I mean, we have to just.
- We quit.
- [Julius] The system.
- You're so weak.
It has been 14 hours since we
stopped,
and you've been sleeping for 10
of them.
What is your problem?
We said we were gonna do this
together.
- We are doing this together.
- We were supposed to.
We are not doing this together,
okay. No!
- You're doing it your way,
and I'm doing it my way.
And we're gonna work this whole
thing out.
- You're not doing it at all.
That little fucking toilet
prayer,
preacher thing was just fucking
a lie.
- No it wasn't, all right. I was
waiting-
- To lie to me. That's
what you were waiting for.
- [Julius] No it's not.
You won't talk to me, won't let
me finish.
- No, no no. Just do this.
Do this your own way, dude.
You're a coward for not saying
anything before last night.
It is complete and total
bullshit.
This is just another example of
your lame passive aggressive
bullshit.
- Oh well, it's also an
example of your self-righteous
delusion that you think you can
make
behavior go away by just wishing
it away.
You can't wish yourself
into something new.
- I can do whatever I want,
actually.
- You gotta have a plan of
action!
Not just some romantic notion
of what you want without
ever working towards it!
- Fine!
We'll see who quits and who
doesn't.
- [Announcer] Confidence, be
that.
- [Julius] It's just harder for
me, babe.
You know how my brain works.
- [Danielle] Well Jules, you
really just need to stop.
trying to be so controlling all
the time.
You just need to act with your
heart instead of your head.
- This is the trail.
- No, this is the trail.
- Babe, it's the trail.
- See what I mean? This is the
trail.
- No, it isn't.
- Yes, it is.
- No, that's not the trail.
- Yes, it is.
God, this is so beautiful.
You can see forever from here.
The fear is just killing me.
I feel like life is just passing
me by,
and I'm just too afraid
to reach out and grab it.
I made myself a prisoner.
I dunno. Maybe I'm just
supposed to make babies.
Maybe that's my purpose in life,
make babies.
- [Julius] You just need to
get out in the world, babe.
And do something good for
yourself.
Help people, be a part of
something.
- Did you know that
octopuses die after mating?
- I feel that way with you,
baby.
- [Danielle] They also have
three hearts.
(wind blowing)
(contemplative music)
- Oh, fuck. No.
- [Danielle] What?
- Oh, shit.
- What?
- I think we're stuck up here.
There's no way fucking way down.
- What? What are you talking
about?
- The way we came up, we can't
get down.
Shit, you gotta be kidding me.
- Oh my God, we're gonna.
I told you that I would die
young.
- [Julius Voiceover] I knew I
shouldn't
have listened to you.
"Go off the trail", she said.
I'm stuck up onside a cliff!
- Shit.
- [Danielle Voiceover] All
you care about is yourself.
Fuck you!
- Hello!
(crows cawing)
Anybody?
(wind blowing)
(Danielle crying)
(dramatic music)
(coyotes barking)
(flies buzzing)
(Danielle crying)
- What are you doing?
- It's for emergency.
- For what?
- Emergencies, this is an
emergent-
- [Danielle] No.
- You know, these are
extenuating circumstances.
- I'm sorry.
(Danielle crying)
- I'll find a way off
this fucking mountain.
- Julius, what are you doing?
Be careful.
- Love you.
- I love you.
(Julius screaming)
- Babe.
- You did it.
Oh my God, I can't believe
you actually made it.
That's amazing.
Just wait there for a minute,
honey.
I'm gonna go around the other
side,
and help you down from there,
okay.
- Please hurry.
- I will, all right. I'll
be right there. Don't worry.
(clock ticking)
- [Danielle Voiceover] Death is
so quiet.
(clock continues clicking)
- [Julius Voiceover]
The oxygen in our blood.
- [Danielle Voiceover] I'm
the world's largest ladybug.
- [Julius Voiceover] Maybe
I'm not yet who's in here.
(birds cawing)
(panting)
- Did you cum in me?
- I might have.
- Why?
- You said you wanted to have
babies.
- Yeah, but not now.
- It was an accident.
(upbeat music)
- [Julius Voiceover] The luxury
escorted
tour of Holland begins
in the tulip filled.
- Danielle, can we turn
the music down please?
Turn the TV off, hon?
- [TV Announcer] When my friend
and I
were stranded by the side of the
road-
- [Julius Voiceover] Imagine the
vision of
tulip filled countryside
as little clogged ones.
- [TV Announcer] And as a
member,
you can take advantage of-
- [Julius Voiceover] Precious
windmills, puffy tulips,
smoking eating cheese, and shag
tobacco.
- Danielle!
(Danielle grunts)
(radio and television
overlapping)
- Can we please turn the TV off?
- I'm watching it.
- No, you're painting.
How can you do both?
- It helps me.
- Are you painting commercials?
Sweety, you got the music
on, you got the TV on.
I really need to finish these
fucking
travel brochures before we get
back.
- Yeah, whatever.
- What do you mean, whatever?
Can we turn off the TV, for me
please?
- You can do whatever you want.
I'm sorry, but I am a
little irritable myself.
- You kidding me?
- In case you've forgotten,
it's been 24 hours for me.
That's for me, not for you.
But no, go ahead. Turn off the
TV.
Have it your way.
(TV clicks off)
(radio continues blaring)
Where are you going?
- To get a drink!
- [Danielle] I thought we had a
deal.
You don't drink, I don't take
drugs.
- [Julius] Changed my mind!
- Julius get back here!
(engine cranks and revs up)
- Jesus Christ.
Dani, this is completely
unacceptable.
This is totally fucked up.
- Okay, okay, okay.
- This is like shit that a
two year old child would do.
What the fuck, seriously?
- Okay. Well then, here.
There's the money for the
t-shirt and the towel.
- Is there any chance I could
bum a-
- No.
- Okay.
- I don't smoke.
(coughing)
- Trying to quit myself.
- See this?
Kind of hard to get a good
suck off of these lips.
Don't you think?
- I guess so.
- My old man died from the
damn things. 55, emphysema.
- I'm sorry.
- Well, don't be.
Anyone that smokes must
accept the consequences.
You think I miss him?
You're damn right. I do.
I miss him every day.
There were times when his pain
got so bad.
You've never seen anyone in such
pain.
I sat by his bed for seven
months.
By the end, he couldn't speak or
breathe.
That fucking disease had
taken over all of his body.
You know, before he got sick,
I used to judge him for every
little thing that bothered me.
Now those are the things
that I miss the most.
(coyotes barking)
(car alarm blaring)
(coyotes continue barking)
(calm piano music)
- Say, where is everyone
tonight?
- Still want that cancer stick,
huh?
There out back.
(singing in foreign language)
No alcohol outside.
- Thanks.
(continues singing in foreign
language)
- Probably fucking donkeys
are living around there,
and they're pissing
around on the river bank,
and it's soaking into the water
table,
and we're fucking drinking that
shit.
(both laughing)
- Hey guys.
Any chance I could bum one
of those cigarettes off you?
- You're a joker smoker, huh?
(both laughing)
- I'd pay you.
- Two bucks. (laughing)
- My old lady, she
cleaned me out, you know.
- Well, at least you got an old
lady that can clean you out.
(both laughing)
- Say, you got a picture of her?
- A picture of her?
Yeah.
Yeah, I got a picture of my old
lady.
That's my, hey.
- Whoa. Oh, baby.
- Baby. Goddamn, won't you go
for that?
- I tell you what.
Bring me this little girl,
I'll give you a whole pack.
- Well then, you'll bathe
her and bring her to me.
(both laughing)
- Hey, look. Just give me the
photo back. I'll split man.
Forget about the cigarette. It's
okay.
Just give it back, and.
- So it's gonna be like that,
huh?
- What's the matter?
We ain't good enough to smoke
with?
- If I had a cigarette,
that wouldn't be a problem.
- Okay.
(laughing)
Where's my two bucks? (laughing)
- [Julius] This not my
way! This is not my way!
I told you how I had to do it!
I told you, you had to stop!
I told you I had the tools!
- Hey, hey hey. Take it easy.
- [Julius] I told you
we needed those tools!
- Take it easy, man.
- What the fuck was that?
(both laughing)
Whoo!
- Whoa.
- [Julius Voiceover]
Date, Monday, March 15th.
Time, 11:16 PM.
Place, redneck bar from hell.
Reason, I'm a piece of shit.
Level of need, zero.
(singing in foreign language)
Hi.
I'm sorry.
(coyotes barking)
(birds singing)
- [Inspirational CD]
Cigarettes are the same
as running the old age
home for the janitor,
or the convenience of
the administrative staff.
It is something that is running
your life,
that is outside of you.
- [Julius] Hello, Red.
- [Inspirational CD] That
makes you a prisoner to it.
Try to imagine yourself being in
prison.
- You are a strange creature.
- [Inspirational CD] Having
shackle on your legs.
- [Julius] There's no need to
run.
- [Inspirational CD] And
being confined continuously,
and told every day what time
you have to do something,
how you're going to do it,
what color it's going to be,
what flavor it's going to be.
All being decided by
something outside of you.
That heard, I have go
get. (static blaring)
And all of those things,
when you give them up,
when you leave that
prison and you walk out.
- Hello, proud bird.
Which parts do I know
upon you are mutations?
- [Inspirational CD] So you,
who wants to leave that prison,
and have control of your own
life.
The rewards? Of course, a longer
life.
Of course, a better
feeling about yourself.
Of course, a more exciting
feeling about the power of you
as a perfect creation,
in charge of yourself.
And in every aspect of
the study of humanity,
when people are given
control of their life,
they are more fulfilled.
- You.
- [Inspirational CD] More
productive, more creative-
- [Julius] Oh, I knew I'd find
you.
It is your duty to transport
me to my ultimate destination.
- [Inspirational CD]
That's all you'll get.
It's an awful lot.
- At which point, I will return
you to your rightful owner.
- [Inspirational CD] Being
an inner directed person,
is really what I'm talking
about,
rather than being an
ex-smoker or nonsmoker.
Control's from within, not from
without.
Enlightenment,
transformation, spirituality.
- Jules?
Jules?
Julius?
Julius?
Jules, where are you?
I don't know where you are.
I just woke up and you're
nowhere to be found so.
Call me, call me, call
me, call me, call me.
You don't leave the people
you love. You don't do that.
So call me, please. Call me.
You can't just leave me.
You don't abandon people.
You don't abandon the people
you love. You don't do that.
You don't do that.
- [Julius Voiceover] My darling,
we have been together a long
time.
You helped me when I was afraid.
When I was down you brought me
up.
And when I was happy
you made it even better.
You've always been there for me,
always.
I can't remember
what my life was like
before you came along.
I suspect it wasn't much of a
life at all.
You've always inspired my work,
and filled my days with
indescribable pleasure.
This might strike you as a bit
abrupt,
and for that I'm sorry.
But I can't keep going on like
this.
This relationship is killing me.
I never thought I could make
this decision, but I have.
I must stop being selfish.
Somehow, I feel much lighter for
it.
I hope that you understand no
matter what,
I will forever love you.
Yours always, Julius.
(kettle screaming)
(contemplative music)
Broken whispers and screams
Walking backwards again
Still pushing beyond
(dramatic music)
So it goes
Like a stone on high
(knocking on door)
- Oh, hi.
Hi. Is Bob here?
- Where's Bob?
- Where's Bob?
- [Danielle] Excuse me. Who are
you?
- Nice kimono.
- Yeah, I'm Dennis.
- I'm Benji.
We're here to camp. Is that
cool?
- [Danielle] Bob's not home.
- Bob didn't tell you?
- [Danielle] No, Bob didn't.
- You're Bob's girlfriend?
- No.
- [Benji] So, you have a
boyfriend?
- [Danielle] Yes.
- Oh, can't wait to meet him.
We're gonna camp out.
(speaking in foreign language)
She doesn't speak Spanish, bro.
(both laughing)
Cool, join us. He's a really
good cook.
- I, I. We'll see.
- Okay, cool. I do like your
clothes.
- Nice shoes there.
- I actually.
I've seen you in a pair
of those before, remember?
Bob's got cool friends. Bob!
- Bob! Bob!
- Bob! Bob!
- [Inspirational CD] The higher
places, self-actualization,
the highest places you can
get to as a human being
all revolve around the same
theme,
endlessly around the same theme.
Control's from within, inner
direction.
I make the choices. I run my
life. I'm in charge of me.
You go to an old age home,
and we've found simple little
studies.
We look at these old people
we think are towards
the end of their life.
And we watch how we treat them.
And we feed them at a certain
time,
and we tell them what they're
gonna eat.
And we arrange the furniture
in their room in a certain way.
(engine revving)
(horn honking)
(contemplative music)
- You a burner?
- That just depends on what you
mean.
- Wacky tobacky, kind
skunk, the home of doma.
- Sometimes.
- Yeah!
- I smoke a lot, and then I
stop.
I'm supposedly on restriction
right now.
- Somebody else around
here is a fucking burner.
Some dumbass lit a fire in the
pool.
- I quit smoking cigarettes
yesterday.
The pot, it helps me.
- Helps me too.
My ex tried quitting.
Acupressure, it really helped.
Yeah.
- Yeah, I got my own methods.
I once quit for a whole five
months.
- Five months, huh?
Wow.
So what happened?
- I don't know.
I got boring, I guess.
- Well, don't be boring.
- Don't be boring?
- Relax.
- Are you like a masseuse or
something?
- You could say I've had some
expression sessions, yeah.
- You're pretty good with
your hands, that's for sure.
What does that do?
- [Benji] It's 'cause it's snow
white.
- [Danielle] It's snow what?
You're silly.
- [Benji] Sorry.
- You're so silly.
I mean you love to get laid.
I can tell, you have a small
arc.
- Honey, I'm home.
- Hey, man.
- Don't get up.
- My boyfriend.
- Oh, hey dude. Julius, right?
Hey man, Benji.
This is my bro, Dennis the
Menace.
You know Danielle, right?
You want some food? On little
bro.
(grunting)
Whoa.
- Cool down.
(erratic music)
- You cool? You cool?
At ease, man. At ease.
(erratic music continues)
You get down all alone again
Just to let them know
you're still alive
(coughing)
To break the freedom down
(grunting)
- [Benji] Wow, representing.
Look at that.
- [Dennis] That guy was in his
underpants.
- [Benji] He was, wasn't he?
- I want to go home.
- Okay fine.
Just leave then, run away.
Do what you always do.
- I'm running away?
Well, looks like you're keeping
pretty good company without me.
- You're lucky that I'm
even talking to you.
- Well, I don't want to
take any precious time
away from you and Charlie
Fucking Manson out there.
So go ahead.
Go, get out. Get on with it.
- If I wanted to be with
somebody else, I wouldn't be
in this miserable place
with you to begin with.
I am so tired of your self pity.
- Self pity?
I come home and you're
practically
blowing some other guy?
And I'm a cry baby?
- That guy happens to
be here with his lover.
Okay, they're gay. They're gay.
Stop acting like such a victim.
You were gone all day.
All day I didn't know where you
were.
I couldn't get ahold of you.
And then you just saunter
in at five o'clock
feeling all sorry for yourself.
And you decide to play the
martyr.
That is just so predictable.
- Want to talk about
how you're predictable?
Talk about how you're
predictable, how about this?
What the fuck are you
doing taking Vicodin?
- You have your tools, and I
have mine.
What the fuck are you doing
going through my things?
- This is the love and the
support
that you were talking about?
You've got the nerve to call me
a coward.
- Okay, fine. Fine,
everything is my fault.
There, I take all
responsibility.
Did that make you feel better?
Does that make you feel
better you poor, poor baby?
Do you want me to pat you on the
back,
bake you a little cookie?
You feel better now?
- I've been battered.
I've been beaten and run down,
and I saw
the ghost of James Dean.
About anything would make me
feel better.
(somber music)
- It wasn't supposed to happen
like this.
- [Julius] No?
- No.
(somber music continues)
- Now, why are you all dressed
up?
- Why am I all dressed up?
Because I was waiting for you.
Didn't you get my messages?
- Messages.
(phone pieces falling to the
floor)
Had a little accident.
- Okay.
- Do you want to get a drink?
- Not really.
- Me neither.
- You want to smoke?
- Yeah.
- Me too.
And then we're making all
the progress in the world
We're not a hack
Just kind of being it all
Hang dear like Simon
And it's all on me now have it
all
(scatting)
- Go home, go anywhere.
- [Danielle] Don't drink that,
Jules.
It's only gonna make it worse
for you.
(indistinct singing continues)
- I can't fucking take this!
- Fuck, man. Knock it off.
You're acting like a fucking
baby.
I mean honestly.
Complaining about it, and
making a temper tantrum
doesn't make it any easier,
it doesn't help at all.
And I'm going through the
exact same thing that you are,
and you don't see me
whining and crying about it.
Get over yourself.
(scatting continues)
- Yeah, wow.
- [Dennis] Hey, you
guys want to join us for
a soy protein shake, and a bong?
- No thanks.
We're actually gonna go out
and explore a little bit.
- That's cool. That's cool.
Hey man, I just wanted to
apologize
for the quick shower yesterday,
man.
I just, I hope everything's
copacetic, you know.
- I think your car is cool.
(suspenseful music)
- Hey, if you guys want to
join us for dinner tonight
we're gonna be having a
little curry tofu stir fry,
with a little burdock
root and some saffron oil.
- That sounds delicious.
(mimics sizzling)
- Watch out for those scorpions.
- They might get you.
- They bite.
- They're gonna get you.
Make sure to hydrate.
I got a pole so far up my ass
I am an ass
I gotta a pole so far up my
ass
I can't even dance or eat
grass
Got no class got no class
Got a pole up my ass
- You know, I don't understand
why it is
that you have to be such a jerk
sometimes.
- I just choose not to hang
out with those hesher hippies.
- You act like such a child.
- Can I help you?
- Oh, go ahead.
Have one, Dani. It'll
make you feel better.
- But then I, I lose my days
and I have to start all over.
- Excuse me?
- Oh, I.
I just quit.
- Oh, that's too bad.
Seems like you want one.
- Never so much on my life.
(upbeat music)
I can't.
(upbeat music)
(erratic music)
I just stand still and turn to
you
And everything looks too heavy
yeah
Well that means that you've
been still
- I love brownies.
They kill me.
They're so rich.
I love stuff that's rich.
- Yeah, me too.
- Julius Terrelle?
- [Danielle] That's my
boyfriend, right out there.
- Rainbow?
- [Danielle] It's his car.
- Did he paint it like that?
Or are those all separate
pieces?
- He bought it like that. It was
cheaper.
(soft rock music from radio)
Soda?
So let me guess. You're
back to being sick again.
(soft rock continues)
You want to know what your
problem is?
You really need to lighten up.
(tires squealing)
The brakes are working.
(upbeat music)
You know I'm gonna
love you have no fear
Just hold me dear
I place no one above you-
- [Danielle] Julius!
(tires squealing)
When the chilly hand
of loneliness reaches-
- That was not my fault.
- You did it on purpose. I know
you did.
(rabbit crying)
Oh my God.
It's still moving.
No no, no no.
(Danielle crying)
- Oh! Mother fucker, it bit me!
(Danielle crying)
- No, no. No no, no no.
(grunting)
(rabbit squeals)
(Danielle crying)
You can't just leave him here
like this.
We can't just do that.
(dramatic music)
Lord,
please take the soul of
this innocent creature
to live in your love
and your light forever.
And,
please find it in your heart to
forgive Julius of this crime.
I'm sure Lord that
you will find a way for him
to repay you for this murder.
God works fast.
(contemplative music)
(flies buzzing)
What are you doing?
- [Julius] I'm taking in the
waters.
- [Danielle] Yeah and hepatitis
too.
- Don't be ridiculous.
- It smells awful like
(coughing) sewage or something.
- That's just the sulfur, hun.
It's really warm. Come on, get
in, get in.
- You really have lost it,
haven't you?
I wouldn't get in there if you
paid me to.
- It's nature's cure.
That's what it is.
- No.
This is nature's way of
telling you to stay away.
That's what this is.
- You know, I feel.
I feel my pores opening up
already, I do.
I will tell you there is
absolutely
no difference between this,
and what those rich ladies
spread all over their fat asses.
Are you an expert on spas?
- No, actually I am.
You know, when I lived in Italy,
I would spend weeks at
Montecatini with Amideo.
- [Julius] There you
go with the boyfriend.
- We had this amazing little
bungalow all to ourselves.
And every single day I would get
aroma therapy, and mud
baths, and massages.
And when I was with Robert in
Kyoto.
- Kyoto?
- Yeah, Kyoto.
There was this like ryokan that
we had.
And there were servants
waiting on me hand and foot.
- You were expensive back
then too, weren't you?
- Take that back.
- I'm sorry, I'm just sick of
hearing
about every guy you've ever
slept with.
- I'm sick of hearing about
how you're going to make it.
You sit around telling me how
great everything is gonna be.
And here you are sitting in
a fucking toilet,
telling me to jump on in.
I have an idea of how
I want to live my life.
And this is not it.
- It's never gonna be
good enough, huh? Huh?
Never gonna be good enough.
I get no thanks, no
appreciation.
- Okay, fine. Yeah.
Thank you so much, Julius.
Thank you for sharing
your one bedroom estate
in North Hollywood with me.
- I do so much shit that
you don't even know about.
I do stuff I don't even tell you
about.
There were times that I had to
pawn
my fucking computer to
pay your cell phone bill.
- You know, I never asked
you to do anything for me.
I never ever ever asked you
to pay my phone bill and
whatever.
- You didn't, and you didn't
have to.
I did it because I love you.
I did it because I care about
you,
because I want you to be happy.
- Okay, well then don't sit
here and throw it in my face.
I'm not a whore.
Either give unconditionally,
or don't give it all.
That kind of kindness is
just so fucking oppressive.
I can't stand it.
- That's nice that my love is
oppressive.
That's very sweet.
- Do you see what I mean?
You walk around like you're so
perfect.
I don't know how anyone
could ever live up to your
expectations.
- You want to talk about
expectations.
- There's never going to
be a house, obviously.
There's never going to be a
ring.
And there is certainly,
certainly
never going to be a child.
You can't cut it.
- I can't cut it?
Who hasn't worked in over a
year?
All you do is lie around all
day.
- You call what you do work?
You're just a hack chasing
one shitty job after another.
I don't even know why you bother
calling yourself a screenwriter.
Where's that big movie that
you've been
threatening the world
with for all these years?
- At least I have something
that I'm dedicated to.
At least I have a dream.
At least I have a fucking path
in life
that I've had since I was a kid.
You spend a few years
selling your pretty ass,
and you think that the
world owes you something?
You think that that's like
a real job that people do?
Well it's not.
Real people have to work for a
living.
And it's not pretty,
and it's not glamorous.
And there aren't Roberto's or
spas,
or Montecatini at the end of the
day!
- I'm not a fucking trophy.
- I never said you were a whore.
I never said you were a trophy.
I've supported you.
I've been supportive.
I'm tried to be here for
you every step of the way,
while you figure your shit out.
I can't seem to make you
happy. You want to know why?
I can't make you happy because
you don't like yourself,
and you have no idea
what will make you happy.
- Stop fucking analyzing me.
I can't stand being held up
to your impossible standards
of who it is that I'm supposed
to be, because I'm just me.
You don't accept me for who I
am.
- What's to accept?
You rebel, and rebel,
and rebel against me,
like I'm your fucking father.
I can't go back in time and tell
you
things that you should
have heard from him.
(Danielle laughing)
(gasps)
Hey, hey!
Hey, don't that. That's my.
It's all gonna smell
like shit. Thanks, Dani.
- [Danielle] Ow, Julius! Ow, ow.
Ow, ow. Ow.
(Danielle crying)
- What happened?
- I don't know, I don't know.
Something bit me.
- What happened?
- I don't know, something bit
me.
I think there's like a wasp
nest. Do you see something?
- Yeah, it's just.
- Ow, it really hurts.
- It's just a little red.
Hold on, baby. Just hold on.
I'm gonna fix it right up.
(Danielle whining)
- [Julius] Here we go. Be
right there, just hold on.
Here, honey.
It's okay, honey. It's all
right, here.
Let me just.
- No. No.
- Let me clean it.
- Let me just.
- No, you threw mud on me. Leave
me alone.
I don't want you touching
me. I just want to go home.
I want to just go home.
Oh, God. What's that awful
smell?
- [Julius] Probably just the
town shit I was soaking in.
Benji bit by a tarantula. Good
riddance.
(calm music)
Have you seen the way
That she looks at you
Do you know what it means
Like a tidal wave
Crashing over you
But you can't tell me what it
means
- I look like one of those
forest animals.
- [Julius] Best beaver I ever
seen.
- Chipmunk.
- I wasn't talking about your
face.
I got you something.
- A joint?
- [Julius] To cure your cramps.
Wow.
Thank you.
You really love me, huh?
- Oh yeah.
I'm sorry I said those things
earlier.
I didn't mean them.
- You were just trying to
be hurtful, weren't you?
- Yeah.
- Hey.
Come here.
I think that you are a
brilliant, brilliant writer.
And I know that you're going to
succeed.
So just be that.
- Well, if we can quit
smoking, we can do anything.
- Yeah.
We made it.
- [Julius] Day four, and all is
well.
(gasping)
- A mouse.
(Julius laughing)
(birds singing)
I feel much better today.
- Yeah.
Me too.
Except getting a rash
from all that raw sewage.
- My swelling has gone down.
- Is it me, or does it
smell better, the air?
Hey.
You know why you're perfect for
me?
- Why?
- Because only a weirdo like you
could love a weirdo like me.
- Do you remember when you said
that thing
about making myself happy?
- Yeah.
- Well.
I've been thinking a lot about
that and,
I realized that I basically
just define myself
by the two of us together,
you know, not by who I am.
And that's why I've decided that
when we
get back to LA, I should move
out.
(dramatic music)
- [Julius Voiceover] I'm moving
out.
I should move out.
When we get back to LA I should
move out.
I'm moving out.
I'm just so tired.
It's just gotten way too easy,
too safe.
It's just so convenient.
I have no motivation
for anything, anymore.
I don't like this life I'm
living.
It's just like you said,
there's no excuse for-
- I have to figure out
how to put myself first.
- [Danielle Voiceover] I
can just stay with Melanie
until I figure things out.
I love you.
- You know what, I actually
really think
that this would be good
for the both of us.
- Don't tell me what's good for
me.
Is that I done want you to go.
- It's not your decision to
make.
And I'm unhappy all of the time.
I'm sad. Can't you see that?
- I've noticed a lot
of things about myself,
and what I need to change.
- This has nothing to do with
you.
I love you the way you are.
I don't want you to change.
I like everything about you.
- [Julius] We're a team.
We quit smoking together.
- No, we quit for ourselves.
Remember?
(tense music)
If you really love me,
you'll want me to do this.
You'll want this for me.
- So I was thinking maybe we
could take a look at some,
some class schedules.
Maybe find a course we
could take together?
- Sure.
- Like art history, or Italian
cinema.
Exotic animal care.
- I don't know.
The idea of going back to
school was great and all,
but I was kind of thinking maybe
I could
do something a little bit more
practical.
You know, something I could
actually make money at.
- I was just reading this
article
where they did a study on the
longevity of relationships.
You know what they found out?
- What?
- That the couples that stayed
together
the longest have one thing in
common,
and that's that the man always
lets the woman be right.
They say, if we all just agreed
that all men are five years
old, and all women are insane,
well everything would be just
fine.
(siren blaring)
- You know what?
I'm hungry.
- Okay.
(ukulele music)
Hi.
- Can I help you find something?
- That one, how much?
- Oh, just let me double check
here.
320 dollars.
- I don't, I don't have that
kind of money right now.
Do you have anything cheaper?
- How much do you have to spend?
(ukulele music continues)
- All I've got is the emergency
(ukulele music continues)
I bought this with
the money I made from the
only script that I ever sold.
I did pay 1500 for it.
- Well, most I could give
you for this would be
- It's a deal.
- [Pawn Broker] Would
you like me to wrap this?
- [Julius] I'll just
take it the way it is.
- [Pawn Broker] I get very busy
here.
- I understand, yeah.
I thank you for this. Enjoy my
watch.
(wind blowing)
- [Danielle] Where have you
been?
- Get out?
- What? Why?
Why, what's going on?
What's up?
- Danielle Thomas, I love you.
- What are you?
- Will you marry me?
- Oh my God.
Oh my God.
(somber music)
I can't believe this is
actually happening right now.
Oh my God.
(hopeful music)
Are you serious?
- I have never been so sure
of anything in my life.
- I mean.
What do you expect me?
This is really the sweetest
thing, I mean.
The most amazing thing that
you've ever done for me, but.
I mean I can't give you an
answer right now, I can't.
I can't actually give you
an answer at this moment.
- You don't have to.
Just,
just know that I love you
forever.
(calm music)
Are you hearing me
Not what I'm saying
So beautiful this light
I shouldn't fear
Keeping locked away
Is best while I'm dreaming
Why you understand
This never happened
(fast paced music)
Here for you
For you and for me we need to
move
Here for you
For you and for me we need to
move
(fast paced music continues)
Oh I oh I oh I oh I
oh I'm here for you
Oh I oh I oh I oh I
oh I'm here for you
Oh I oh I oh I oh I
oh I'm here for you
Oh I oh I oh I oh I
oh I'm here for you
Here for you
For you and for me we need to
move
Here for you
For you and for me we need to
move
Oh I oh I oh I oh I
oh I'm here for you
(calm music)
- No, put that one down. It's
gross.
It's where boys pee.
Should we say something?
- Great power of love,
and happiness, and health,
we turn this wretched and
disgusting form
of self destruction over to you
forever.
Deliver us from the obsession
to poison ourselves.
And deliver us into your
pure breath of life forever.
Amen.
- May you remove these
roadblocks from my life
so that I may reach the stars.
(calm music)
(toilet flushing)
Wow.
I really want a cigarette now.
- Yeah.
- [Danielle] Do you really
spend 5000 a year on smoking?
- [Julius] Probably more.
- Well, from now on that money
should go towards something
small and shiny in a
tiny little velvet box.
(engine cranks)
(upbeat music)
I can't wait to get out this
fucking city.
Nature's care, that what we
need.
- Just wish it was Tahiti.
- [Danielle] Yeah, me too.
- [Julius] Next trip. I promise.
- [Danielle] We really need
to support each other, okay.
I don't want to be the only
nonsmoker when we get back to
LA.
- [Julius] You won't.
This isn't my idea of
some desert bang bang.
I made a decision to quit, and
I really mean it this time.
- [Danielle] I can do it if you
can.
- [Julius] It's just us against
them.
Five gears in reverse
Girls looking for the big lift
Somebody send out for the
night nurse
Please don't stick
me on the late shift
If you don't know by now
Nobody's gonna tell you
If you don't know by now
The shock will probably kill
you
But if your patience is
exhausted
And you still cannot decide
You're sitting in the
garage contemplating suicide
And you have no motivation
You can't even catch your
breath
All of this acceleration
is driving you to death
Five gears in reverse
You think I don't know what
I'm doing
Another fashionable first
Like walking down the road to
ruin
But if you're safe and sound
- [Julius] You hear that?
- [Danielle] I thought nobody
was supposed to be here.
- [Julius] Not supposed to be
here.
- [Danielle] Are you sure
that this is the right place?
- [Julius] I don't know.
- [Danielle] What do
you mean you don't know?
- [Julius] I followed Bob's
directions.
- [Danielle] Ah, Julius.
- [Radio Preacher] The love of
God,
our faith in God lies in
our heart, not in our minds.
The Bible says.
- I'm gonna call Bob.
- [Radio Preacher] The heart
is deceitful in all things.
- Well?
- And desperately wicked.
- No answer. Shit.
- Who can know?
- [Radio Preacher] God does not
care
how you dress up in that suit.
- I'm gonna get my knife.
- [Danielle] Jules, please be
careful.
- [Radio Preacher] God lives
inside you.
- [Julius] Hello?
- [Radio Preacher] Seize the
deep down desperate perversity.
- [Julius] Bob?
- [Radio Preacher] The
sin in every man's heart.
He sees how you really are.
Matthew 15:8.
- [Julius] Anybody here?
- [Radio Preacher] His people
draweth nigh unto to me
with their mouth, and
honoreth me with their lips.
- [Julius] Hello?
- [Radio Preacher] But
their heart is far from me.
Your calamity will come
suddenly.
(radio clicks off)
- Dani. It's all right.
- What a dump.
What movie is that from?
That is Liz Taylor in "Virginia
Wolf"
quoting Bette Davis in
"Beyond the Forest",
which was directed by
King Vidor after he made
one of my favorite films,
"The Fountainhead".
- Come here.
Thank you for doing this with
me.
- Thank me? Thank you.
Sweetheart, this is beautiful.
I love it.
(grandfather clock gong ringing)
- I'm ready to take you.
- Oh, Pepe Le Pew.
I really don't want that right
now.
- Fine, neither do I.
(clock ticking)
- Stop staring at me.
(clock continues ticking)
What?
- Nothing.
I love you.
- You love me because you need
me.
- No, I need you because I love
you.
(clock continues ticking)
- I'm hungry.
- Well, if I were a bird I'd fly
off
and gather you up some worms.
- What would you feed me if I
were a cat?
- Well first, I murderize you a
mouse,
and drop it at your feet.
Then I'd serve it up with
a side of lizard legs,
and fur balls that I'd
lick from your hairy tail.
- What else would you lick?
(clock continues ticking)
(eclectic music)
- Date, Monday, March 15th.
Time, 9:30 AM.
Place, Joshua Tree, Bob's house.
Reason, morning coffee and
newspaper, morning routine.
Level of need, one through
five, five being the highest.
Six.
Oh, my friends are in here.
And here is your brother, Mr.
Coffee.
(dramatic music)
Fuck, fuck.
Jesus.
Bitch!
(calm music)
- [Announcer] Step outside to a
full
refreshing flavor you can
trust 20 times a pack.
Start your day with confidence,
and make the difference where it
counts.
Rich, bold, and designed
for that certain pleasure.
Confidence, be that. Confidence,
be that.
Be that, confidence.
- [Danielle] Are you okay?
Are you okay?
- Yeah.
Yeah, no I'm fine.
- You're not freaking out yet?
- No.
- [Announcer] When it's time to
smoke,
fill your lungs with confidence.
(TV chattering in the
background)
- We should talk about the plan.
- What plan?
- You know, how we're
gonna get through this?
- We already talked about that.
We're gonna do it through
the love and supportive of each
other.
- But I did buy all these tools,
and I think we should
decide how best to use them.
- Okay, well you can do whatever
you want.
I've done this before, all
right. I know what works for me.
- Will you listen to yourself?
You've done this before.
- Yeah. Yes.
- Yeah.
- [Danielle] But I wasn't
ready, like I am now.
- Just humor me, all right.
- [Danielle] Okay, I'll humor
you.
- I got everything right here.
First off, I've got nicotine
gum. And they got a new flavor.
- You mean one that doesn't
taste like licking an ashtray?
- No, they fixed that. A lot
of R and D went into that.
- What in the world are you
holding?
- It's a inhaler, nicotine
inhaler.
It delivers the nicotine orally.
(coughing)
- Is this smoking too?
- Millions of people have used
these tools to quit smoking.
Trust me.
- I know. But you know what?
I'm not millions of people.
I am Danielle Thomas, and I do
not smoke.
- Look at this. This is a big
rubber band.
(rubber band snaps)
While you're thinking about
smoking,
you'll connect the
snapping to the smoking.
You won't want to smoke.
I've got lip balm.
I've got lots of lollipops here.
A self-affirmation CD.
Last but not least, the
journal record keeper,
widely recognized as
the most effective way
to identify the addiction as it
happens.
- Well, how does that work?
- All right, well let
me read you an entry.
Date, Monday, March 15th.
Time, 9:30 AM.
Place, Joshua Tree,
California, Bob's house.
Reason, morning coffee.
- You smoked?
You smoked?
- I journaled it, though.
- You
- But I journaled it.
- Wait, hold on. You smoked?
Are you? You're kidding me.
- I had one.
- But then I did my due
diligence.
I put it in the journal record
keeper.
- Oh my God.
I don't even know how to take
that.
God, you're.
- It's not a big deal.
- It's not a big deal?
- It's not that big a deal.
I mean, we have to just.
- We quit.
- [Julius] The system.
- You're so weak.
It has been 14 hours since we
stopped,
and you've been sleeping for 10
of them.
What is your problem?
We said we were gonna do this
together.
- We are doing this together.
- We were supposed to.
We are not doing this together,
okay. No!
- You're doing it your way,
and I'm doing it my way.
And we're gonna work this whole
thing out.
- You're not doing it at all.
That little fucking toilet
prayer,
preacher thing was just fucking
a lie.
- No it wasn't, all right. I was
waiting-
- To lie to me. That's
what you were waiting for.
- [Julius] No it's not.
You won't talk to me, won't let
me finish.
- No, no no. Just do this.
Do this your own way, dude.
You're a coward for not saying
anything before last night.
It is complete and total
bullshit.
This is just another example of
your lame passive aggressive
bullshit.
- Oh well, it's also an
example of your self-righteous
delusion that you think you can
make
behavior go away by just wishing
it away.
You can't wish yourself
into something new.
- I can do whatever I want,
actually.
- You gotta have a plan of
action!
Not just some romantic notion
of what you want without
ever working towards it!
- Fine!
We'll see who quits and who
doesn't.
- [Announcer] Confidence, be
that.
- [Julius] It's just harder for
me, babe.
You know how my brain works.
- [Danielle] Well Jules, you
really just need to stop.
trying to be so controlling all
the time.
You just need to act with your
heart instead of your head.
- This is the trail.
- No, this is the trail.
- Babe, it's the trail.
- See what I mean? This is the
trail.
- No, it isn't.
- Yes, it is.
- No, that's not the trail.
- Yes, it is.
God, this is so beautiful.
You can see forever from here.
The fear is just killing me.
I feel like life is just passing
me by,
and I'm just too afraid
to reach out and grab it.
I made myself a prisoner.
I dunno. Maybe I'm just
supposed to make babies.
Maybe that's my purpose in life,
make babies.
- [Julius] You just need to
get out in the world, babe.
And do something good for
yourself.
Help people, be a part of
something.
- Did you know that
octopuses die after mating?
- I feel that way with you,
baby.
- [Danielle] They also have
three hearts.
(wind blowing)
(contemplative music)
- Oh, fuck. No.
- [Danielle] What?
- Oh, shit.
- What?
- I think we're stuck up here.
There's no way fucking way down.
- What? What are you talking
about?
- The way we came up, we can't
get down.
Shit, you gotta be kidding me.
- Oh my God, we're gonna.
I told you that I would die
young.
- [Julius Voiceover] I knew I
shouldn't
have listened to you.
"Go off the trail", she said.
I'm stuck up onside a cliff!
- Shit.
- [Danielle Voiceover] All
you care about is yourself.
Fuck you!
- Hello!
(crows cawing)
Anybody?
(wind blowing)
(Danielle crying)
(dramatic music)
(coyotes barking)
(flies buzzing)
(Danielle crying)
- What are you doing?
- It's for emergency.
- For what?
- Emergencies, this is an
emergent-
- [Danielle] No.
- You know, these are
extenuating circumstances.
- I'm sorry.
(Danielle crying)
- I'll find a way off
this fucking mountain.
- Julius, what are you doing?
Be careful.
- Love you.
- I love you.
(Julius screaming)
- Babe.
- You did it.
Oh my God, I can't believe
you actually made it.
That's amazing.
Just wait there for a minute,
honey.
I'm gonna go around the other
side,
and help you down from there,
okay.
- Please hurry.
- I will, all right. I'll
be right there. Don't worry.
(clock ticking)
- [Danielle Voiceover] Death is
so quiet.
(clock continues clicking)
- [Julius Voiceover]
The oxygen in our blood.
- [Danielle Voiceover] I'm
the world's largest ladybug.
- [Julius Voiceover] Maybe
I'm not yet who's in here.
(birds cawing)
(panting)
- Did you cum in me?
- I might have.
- Why?
- You said you wanted to have
babies.
- Yeah, but not now.
- It was an accident.
(upbeat music)
- [Julius Voiceover] The luxury
escorted
tour of Holland begins
in the tulip filled.
- Danielle, can we turn
the music down please?
Turn the TV off, hon?
- [TV Announcer] When my friend
and I
were stranded by the side of the
road-
- [Julius Voiceover] Imagine the
vision of
tulip filled countryside
as little clogged ones.
- [TV Announcer] And as a
member,
you can take advantage of-
- [Julius Voiceover] Precious
windmills, puffy tulips,
smoking eating cheese, and shag
tobacco.
- Danielle!
(Danielle grunts)
(radio and television
overlapping)
- Can we please turn the TV off?
- I'm watching it.
- No, you're painting.
How can you do both?
- It helps me.
- Are you painting commercials?
Sweety, you got the music
on, you got the TV on.
I really need to finish these
fucking
travel brochures before we get
back.
- Yeah, whatever.
- What do you mean, whatever?
Can we turn off the TV, for me
please?
- You can do whatever you want.
I'm sorry, but I am a
little irritable myself.
- You kidding me?
- In case you've forgotten,
it's been 24 hours for me.
That's for me, not for you.
But no, go ahead. Turn off the
TV.
Have it your way.
(TV clicks off)
(radio continues blaring)
Where are you going?
- To get a drink!
- [Danielle] I thought we had a
deal.
You don't drink, I don't take
drugs.
- [Julius] Changed my mind!
- Julius get back here!
(engine cranks and revs up)
- Jesus Christ.
Dani, this is completely
unacceptable.
This is totally fucked up.
- Okay, okay, okay.
- This is like shit that a
two year old child would do.
What the fuck, seriously?
- Okay. Well then, here.
There's the money for the
t-shirt and the towel.
- Is there any chance I could
bum a-
- No.
- Okay.
- I don't smoke.
(coughing)
- Trying to quit myself.
- See this?
Kind of hard to get a good
suck off of these lips.
Don't you think?
- I guess so.
- My old man died from the
damn things. 55, emphysema.
- I'm sorry.
- Well, don't be.
Anyone that smokes must
accept the consequences.
You think I miss him?
You're damn right. I do.
I miss him every day.
There were times when his pain
got so bad.
You've never seen anyone in such
pain.
I sat by his bed for seven
months.
By the end, he couldn't speak or
breathe.
That fucking disease had
taken over all of his body.
You know, before he got sick,
I used to judge him for every
little thing that bothered me.
Now those are the things
that I miss the most.
(coyotes barking)
(car alarm blaring)
(coyotes continue barking)
(calm piano music)
- Say, where is everyone
tonight?
- Still want that cancer stick,
huh?
There out back.
(singing in foreign language)
No alcohol outside.
- Thanks.
(continues singing in foreign
language)
- Probably fucking donkeys
are living around there,
and they're pissing
around on the river bank,
and it's soaking into the water
table,
and we're fucking drinking that
shit.
(both laughing)
- Hey guys.
Any chance I could bum one
of those cigarettes off you?
- You're a joker smoker, huh?
(both laughing)
- I'd pay you.
- Two bucks. (laughing)
- My old lady, she
cleaned me out, you know.
- Well, at least you got an old
lady that can clean you out.
(both laughing)
- Say, you got a picture of her?
- A picture of her?
Yeah.
Yeah, I got a picture of my old
lady.
That's my, hey.
- Whoa. Oh, baby.
- Baby. Goddamn, won't you go
for that?
- I tell you what.
Bring me this little girl,
I'll give you a whole pack.
- Well then, you'll bathe
her and bring her to me.
(both laughing)
- Hey, look. Just give me the
photo back. I'll split man.
Forget about the cigarette. It's
okay.
Just give it back, and.
- So it's gonna be like that,
huh?
- What's the matter?
We ain't good enough to smoke
with?
- If I had a cigarette,
that wouldn't be a problem.
- Okay.
(laughing)
Where's my two bucks? (laughing)
- [Julius] This not my
way! This is not my way!
I told you how I had to do it!
I told you, you had to stop!
I told you I had the tools!
- Hey, hey hey. Take it easy.
- [Julius] I told you
we needed those tools!
- Take it easy, man.
- What the fuck was that?
(both laughing)
Whoo!
- Whoa.
- [Julius Voiceover]
Date, Monday, March 15th.
Time, 11:16 PM.
Place, redneck bar from hell.
Reason, I'm a piece of shit.
Level of need, zero.
(singing in foreign language)
Hi.
I'm sorry.
(coyotes barking)
(birds singing)
- [Inspirational CD]
Cigarettes are the same
as running the old age
home for the janitor,
or the convenience of
the administrative staff.
It is something that is running
your life,
that is outside of you.
- [Julius] Hello, Red.
- [Inspirational CD] That
makes you a prisoner to it.
Try to imagine yourself being in
prison.
- You are a strange creature.
- [Inspirational CD] Having
shackle on your legs.
- [Julius] There's no need to
run.
- [Inspirational CD] And
being confined continuously,
and told every day what time
you have to do something,
how you're going to do it,
what color it's going to be,
what flavor it's going to be.
All being decided by
something outside of you.
That heard, I have go
get. (static blaring)
And all of those things,
when you give them up,
when you leave that
prison and you walk out.
- Hello, proud bird.
Which parts do I know
upon you are mutations?
- [Inspirational CD] So you,
who wants to leave that prison,
and have control of your own
life.
The rewards? Of course, a longer
life.
Of course, a better
feeling about yourself.
Of course, a more exciting
feeling about the power of you
as a perfect creation,
in charge of yourself.
And in every aspect of
the study of humanity,
when people are given
control of their life,
they are more fulfilled.
- You.
- [Inspirational CD] More
productive, more creative-
- [Julius] Oh, I knew I'd find
you.
It is your duty to transport
me to my ultimate destination.
- [Inspirational CD]
That's all you'll get.
It's an awful lot.
- At which point, I will return
you to your rightful owner.
- [Inspirational CD] Being
an inner directed person,
is really what I'm talking
about,
rather than being an
ex-smoker or nonsmoker.
Control's from within, not from
without.
Enlightenment,
transformation, spirituality.
- Jules?
Jules?
Julius?
Julius?
Jules, where are you?
I don't know where you are.
I just woke up and you're
nowhere to be found so.
Call me, call me, call
me, call me, call me.
You don't leave the people
you love. You don't do that.
So call me, please. Call me.
You can't just leave me.
You don't abandon people.
You don't abandon the people
you love. You don't do that.
You don't do that.
- [Julius Voiceover] My darling,
we have been together a long
time.
You helped me when I was afraid.
When I was down you brought me
up.
And when I was happy
you made it even better.
You've always been there for me,
always.
I can't remember
what my life was like
before you came along.
I suspect it wasn't much of a
life at all.
You've always inspired my work,
and filled my days with
indescribable pleasure.
This might strike you as a bit
abrupt,
and for that I'm sorry.
But I can't keep going on like
this.
This relationship is killing me.
I never thought I could make
this decision, but I have.
I must stop being selfish.
Somehow, I feel much lighter for
it.
I hope that you understand no
matter what,
I will forever love you.
Yours always, Julius.
(kettle screaming)
(contemplative music)
Broken whispers and screams
Walking backwards again
Still pushing beyond
(dramatic music)
So it goes
Like a stone on high
(knocking on door)
- Oh, hi.
Hi. Is Bob here?
- Where's Bob?
- Where's Bob?
- [Danielle] Excuse me. Who are
you?
- Nice kimono.
- Yeah, I'm Dennis.
- I'm Benji.
We're here to camp. Is that
cool?
- [Danielle] Bob's not home.
- Bob didn't tell you?
- [Danielle] No, Bob didn't.
- You're Bob's girlfriend?
- No.
- [Benji] So, you have a
boyfriend?
- [Danielle] Yes.
- Oh, can't wait to meet him.
We're gonna camp out.
(speaking in foreign language)
She doesn't speak Spanish, bro.
(both laughing)
Cool, join us. He's a really
good cook.
- I, I. We'll see.
- Okay, cool. I do like your
clothes.
- Nice shoes there.
- I actually.
I've seen you in a pair
of those before, remember?
Bob's got cool friends. Bob!
- Bob! Bob!
- Bob! Bob!
- [Inspirational CD] The higher
places, self-actualization,
the highest places you can
get to as a human being
all revolve around the same
theme,
endlessly around the same theme.
Control's from within, inner
direction.
I make the choices. I run my
life. I'm in charge of me.
You go to an old age home,
and we've found simple little
studies.
We look at these old people
we think are towards
the end of their life.
And we watch how we treat them.
And we feed them at a certain
time,
and we tell them what they're
gonna eat.
And we arrange the furniture
in their room in a certain way.
(engine revving)
(horn honking)
(contemplative music)
- You a burner?
- That just depends on what you
mean.
- Wacky tobacky, kind
skunk, the home of doma.
- Sometimes.
- Yeah!
- I smoke a lot, and then I
stop.
I'm supposedly on restriction
right now.
- Somebody else around
here is a fucking burner.
Some dumbass lit a fire in the
pool.
- I quit smoking cigarettes
yesterday.
The pot, it helps me.
- Helps me too.
My ex tried quitting.
Acupressure, it really helped.
Yeah.
- Yeah, I got my own methods.
I once quit for a whole five
months.
- Five months, huh?
Wow.
So what happened?
- I don't know.
I got boring, I guess.
- Well, don't be boring.
- Don't be boring?
- Relax.
- Are you like a masseuse or
something?
- You could say I've had some
expression sessions, yeah.
- You're pretty good with
your hands, that's for sure.
What does that do?
- [Benji] It's 'cause it's snow
white.
- [Danielle] It's snow what?
You're silly.
- [Benji] Sorry.
- You're so silly.
I mean you love to get laid.
I can tell, you have a small
arc.
- Honey, I'm home.
- Hey, man.
- Don't get up.
- My boyfriend.
- Oh, hey dude. Julius, right?
Hey man, Benji.
This is my bro, Dennis the
Menace.
You know Danielle, right?
You want some food? On little
bro.
(grunting)
Whoa.
- Cool down.
(erratic music)
- You cool? You cool?
At ease, man. At ease.
(erratic music continues)
You get down all alone again
Just to let them know
you're still alive
(coughing)
To break the freedom down
(grunting)
- [Benji] Wow, representing.
Look at that.
- [Dennis] That guy was in his
underpants.
- [Benji] He was, wasn't he?
- I want to go home.
- Okay fine.
Just leave then, run away.
Do what you always do.
- I'm running away?
Well, looks like you're keeping
pretty good company without me.
- You're lucky that I'm
even talking to you.
- Well, I don't want to
take any precious time
away from you and Charlie
Fucking Manson out there.
So go ahead.
Go, get out. Get on with it.
- If I wanted to be with
somebody else, I wouldn't be
in this miserable place
with you to begin with.
I am so tired of your self pity.
- Self pity?
I come home and you're
practically
blowing some other guy?
And I'm a cry baby?
- That guy happens to
be here with his lover.
Okay, they're gay. They're gay.
Stop acting like such a victim.
You were gone all day.
All day I didn't know where you
were.
I couldn't get ahold of you.
And then you just saunter
in at five o'clock
feeling all sorry for yourself.
And you decide to play the
martyr.
That is just so predictable.
- Want to talk about
how you're predictable?
Talk about how you're
predictable, how about this?
What the fuck are you
doing taking Vicodin?
- You have your tools, and I
have mine.
What the fuck are you doing
going through my things?
- This is the love and the
support
that you were talking about?
You've got the nerve to call me
a coward.
- Okay, fine. Fine,
everything is my fault.
There, I take all
responsibility.
Did that make you feel better?
Does that make you feel
better you poor, poor baby?
Do you want me to pat you on the
back,
bake you a little cookie?
You feel better now?
- I've been battered.
I've been beaten and run down,
and I saw
the ghost of James Dean.
About anything would make me
feel better.
(somber music)
- It wasn't supposed to happen
like this.
- [Julius] No?
- No.
(somber music continues)
- Now, why are you all dressed
up?
- Why am I all dressed up?
Because I was waiting for you.
Didn't you get my messages?
- Messages.
(phone pieces falling to the
floor)
Had a little accident.
- Okay.
- Do you want to get a drink?
- Not really.
- Me neither.
- You want to smoke?
- Yeah.
- Me too.
And then we're making all
the progress in the world
We're not a hack
Just kind of being it all
Hang dear like Simon
And it's all on me now have it
all
(scatting)
- Go home, go anywhere.
- [Danielle] Don't drink that,
Jules.
It's only gonna make it worse
for you.
(indistinct singing continues)
- I can't fucking take this!
- Fuck, man. Knock it off.
You're acting like a fucking
baby.
I mean honestly.
Complaining about it, and
making a temper tantrum
doesn't make it any easier,
it doesn't help at all.
And I'm going through the
exact same thing that you are,
and you don't see me
whining and crying about it.
Get over yourself.
(scatting continues)
- Yeah, wow.
- [Dennis] Hey, you
guys want to join us for
a soy protein shake, and a bong?
- No thanks.
We're actually gonna go out
and explore a little bit.
- That's cool. That's cool.
Hey man, I just wanted to
apologize
for the quick shower yesterday,
man.
I just, I hope everything's
copacetic, you know.
- I think your car is cool.
(suspenseful music)
- Hey, if you guys want to
join us for dinner tonight
we're gonna be having a
little curry tofu stir fry,
with a little burdock
root and some saffron oil.
- That sounds delicious.
(mimics sizzling)
- Watch out for those scorpions.
- They might get you.
- They bite.
- They're gonna get you.
Make sure to hydrate.
I got a pole so far up my ass
I am an ass
I gotta a pole so far up my
ass
I can't even dance or eat
grass
Got no class got no class
Got a pole up my ass
- You know, I don't understand
why it is
that you have to be such a jerk
sometimes.
- I just choose not to hang
out with those hesher hippies.
- You act like such a child.
- Can I help you?
- Oh, go ahead.
Have one, Dani. It'll
make you feel better.
- But then I, I lose my days
and I have to start all over.
- Excuse me?
- Oh, I.
I just quit.
- Oh, that's too bad.
Seems like you want one.
- Never so much on my life.
(upbeat music)
I can't.
(upbeat music)
(erratic music)
I just stand still and turn to
you
And everything looks too heavy
yeah
Well that means that you've
been still
- I love brownies.
They kill me.
They're so rich.
I love stuff that's rich.
- Yeah, me too.
- Julius Terrelle?
- [Danielle] That's my
boyfriend, right out there.
- Rainbow?
- [Danielle] It's his car.
- Did he paint it like that?
Or are those all separate
pieces?
- He bought it like that. It was
cheaper.
(soft rock music from radio)
Soda?
So let me guess. You're
back to being sick again.
(soft rock continues)
You want to know what your
problem is?
You really need to lighten up.
(tires squealing)
The brakes are working.
(upbeat music)
You know I'm gonna
love you have no fear
Just hold me dear
I place no one above you-
- [Danielle] Julius!
(tires squealing)
When the chilly hand
of loneliness reaches-
- That was not my fault.
- You did it on purpose. I know
you did.
(rabbit crying)
Oh my God.
It's still moving.
No no, no no.
(Danielle crying)
- Oh! Mother fucker, it bit me!
(Danielle crying)
- No, no. No no, no no.
(grunting)
(rabbit squeals)
(Danielle crying)
You can't just leave him here
like this.
We can't just do that.
(dramatic music)
Lord,
please take the soul of
this innocent creature
to live in your love
and your light forever.
And,
please find it in your heart to
forgive Julius of this crime.
I'm sure Lord that
you will find a way for him
to repay you for this murder.
God works fast.
(contemplative music)
(flies buzzing)
What are you doing?
- [Julius] I'm taking in the
waters.
- [Danielle] Yeah and hepatitis
too.
- Don't be ridiculous.
- It smells awful like
(coughing) sewage or something.
- That's just the sulfur, hun.
It's really warm. Come on, get
in, get in.
- You really have lost it,
haven't you?
I wouldn't get in there if you
paid me to.
- It's nature's cure.
That's what it is.
- No.
This is nature's way of
telling you to stay away.
That's what this is.
- You know, I feel.
I feel my pores opening up
already, I do.
I will tell you there is
absolutely
no difference between this,
and what those rich ladies
spread all over their fat asses.
Are you an expert on spas?
- No, actually I am.
You know, when I lived in Italy,
I would spend weeks at
Montecatini with Amideo.
- [Julius] There you
go with the boyfriend.
- We had this amazing little
bungalow all to ourselves.
And every single day I would get
aroma therapy, and mud
baths, and massages.
And when I was with Robert in
Kyoto.
- Kyoto?
- Yeah, Kyoto.
There was this like ryokan that
we had.
And there were servants
waiting on me hand and foot.
- You were expensive back
then too, weren't you?
- Take that back.
- I'm sorry, I'm just sick of
hearing
about every guy you've ever
slept with.
- I'm sick of hearing about
how you're going to make it.
You sit around telling me how
great everything is gonna be.
And here you are sitting in
a fucking toilet,
telling me to jump on in.
I have an idea of how
I want to live my life.
And this is not it.
- It's never gonna be
good enough, huh? Huh?
Never gonna be good enough.
I get no thanks, no
appreciation.
- Okay, fine. Yeah.
Thank you so much, Julius.
Thank you for sharing
your one bedroom estate
in North Hollywood with me.
- I do so much shit that
you don't even know about.
I do stuff I don't even tell you
about.
There were times that I had to
pawn
my fucking computer to
pay your cell phone bill.
- You know, I never asked
you to do anything for me.
I never ever ever asked you
to pay my phone bill and
whatever.
- You didn't, and you didn't
have to.
I did it because I love you.
I did it because I care about
you,
because I want you to be happy.
- Okay, well then don't sit
here and throw it in my face.
I'm not a whore.
Either give unconditionally,
or don't give it all.
That kind of kindness is
just so fucking oppressive.
I can't stand it.
- That's nice that my love is
oppressive.
That's very sweet.
- Do you see what I mean?
You walk around like you're so
perfect.
I don't know how anyone
could ever live up to your
expectations.
- You want to talk about
expectations.
- There's never going to
be a house, obviously.
There's never going to be a
ring.
And there is certainly,
certainly
never going to be a child.
You can't cut it.
- I can't cut it?
Who hasn't worked in over a
year?
All you do is lie around all
day.
- You call what you do work?
You're just a hack chasing
one shitty job after another.
I don't even know why you bother
calling yourself a screenwriter.
Where's that big movie that
you've been
threatening the world
with for all these years?
- At least I have something
that I'm dedicated to.
At least I have a dream.
At least I have a fucking path
in life
that I've had since I was a kid.
You spend a few years
selling your pretty ass,
and you think that the
world owes you something?
You think that that's like
a real job that people do?
Well it's not.
Real people have to work for a
living.
And it's not pretty,
and it's not glamorous.
And there aren't Roberto's or
spas,
or Montecatini at the end of the
day!
- I'm not a fucking trophy.
- I never said you were a whore.
I never said you were a trophy.
I've supported you.
I've been supportive.
I'm tried to be here for
you every step of the way,
while you figure your shit out.
I can't seem to make you
happy. You want to know why?
I can't make you happy because
you don't like yourself,
and you have no idea
what will make you happy.
- Stop fucking analyzing me.
I can't stand being held up
to your impossible standards
of who it is that I'm supposed
to be, because I'm just me.
You don't accept me for who I
am.
- What's to accept?
You rebel, and rebel,
and rebel against me,
like I'm your fucking father.
I can't go back in time and tell
you
things that you should
have heard from him.
(Danielle laughing)
(gasps)
Hey, hey!
Hey, don't that. That's my.
It's all gonna smell
like shit. Thanks, Dani.
- [Danielle] Ow, Julius! Ow, ow.
Ow, ow. Ow.
(Danielle crying)
- What happened?
- I don't know, I don't know.
Something bit me.
- What happened?
- I don't know, something bit
me.
I think there's like a wasp
nest. Do you see something?
- Yeah, it's just.
- Ow, it really hurts.
- It's just a little red.
Hold on, baby. Just hold on.
I'm gonna fix it right up.
(Danielle whining)
- [Julius] Here we go. Be
right there, just hold on.
Here, honey.
It's okay, honey. It's all
right, here.
Let me just.
- No. No.
- Let me clean it.
- Let me just.
- No, you threw mud on me. Leave
me alone.
I don't want you touching
me. I just want to go home.
I want to just go home.
Oh, God. What's that awful
smell?
- [Julius] Probably just the
town shit I was soaking in.
Benji bit by a tarantula. Good
riddance.
(calm music)
Have you seen the way
That she looks at you
Do you know what it means
Like a tidal wave
Crashing over you
But you can't tell me what it
means
- I look like one of those
forest animals.
- [Julius] Best beaver I ever
seen.
- Chipmunk.
- I wasn't talking about your
face.
I got you something.
- A joint?
- [Julius] To cure your cramps.
Wow.
Thank you.
You really love me, huh?
- Oh yeah.
I'm sorry I said those things
earlier.
I didn't mean them.
- You were just trying to
be hurtful, weren't you?
- Yeah.
- Hey.
Come here.
I think that you are a
brilliant, brilliant writer.
And I know that you're going to
succeed.
So just be that.
- Well, if we can quit
smoking, we can do anything.
- Yeah.
We made it.
- [Julius] Day four, and all is
well.
(gasping)
- A mouse.
(Julius laughing)
(birds singing)
I feel much better today.
- Yeah.
Me too.
Except getting a rash
from all that raw sewage.
- My swelling has gone down.
- Is it me, or does it
smell better, the air?
Hey.
You know why you're perfect for
me?
- Why?
- Because only a weirdo like you
could love a weirdo like me.
- Do you remember when you said
that thing
about making myself happy?
- Yeah.
- Well.
I've been thinking a lot about
that and,
I realized that I basically
just define myself
by the two of us together,
you know, not by who I am.
And that's why I've decided that
when we
get back to LA, I should move
out.
(dramatic music)
- [Julius Voiceover] I'm moving
out.
I should move out.
When we get back to LA I should
move out.
I'm moving out.
I'm just so tired.
It's just gotten way too easy,
too safe.
It's just so convenient.
I have no motivation
for anything, anymore.
I don't like this life I'm
living.
It's just like you said,
there's no excuse for-
- I have to figure out
how to put myself first.
- [Danielle Voiceover] I
can just stay with Melanie
until I figure things out.
I love you.
- You know what, I actually
really think
that this would be good
for the both of us.
- Don't tell me what's good for
me.
Is that I done want you to go.
- It's not your decision to
make.
And I'm unhappy all of the time.
I'm sad. Can't you see that?
- I've noticed a lot
of things about myself,
and what I need to change.
- This has nothing to do with
you.
I love you the way you are.
I don't want you to change.
I like everything about you.
- [Julius] We're a team.
We quit smoking together.
- No, we quit for ourselves.
Remember?
(tense music)
If you really love me,
you'll want me to do this.
You'll want this for me.
- So I was thinking maybe we
could take a look at some,
some class schedules.
Maybe find a course we
could take together?
- Sure.
- Like art history, or Italian
cinema.
Exotic animal care.
- I don't know.
The idea of going back to
school was great and all,
but I was kind of thinking maybe
I could
do something a little bit more
practical.
You know, something I could
actually make money at.
- I was just reading this
article
where they did a study on the
longevity of relationships.
You know what they found out?
- What?
- That the couples that stayed
together
the longest have one thing in
common,
and that's that the man always
lets the woman be right.
They say, if we all just agreed
that all men are five years
old, and all women are insane,
well everything would be just
fine.
(siren blaring)
- You know what?
I'm hungry.
- Okay.
(ukulele music)
Hi.
- Can I help you find something?
- That one, how much?
- Oh, just let me double check
here.
320 dollars.
- I don't, I don't have that
kind of money right now.
Do you have anything cheaper?
- How much do you have to spend?
(ukulele music continues)
- All I've got is the emergency
(ukulele music continues)
I bought this with
the money I made from the
only script that I ever sold.
I did pay 1500 for it.
- Well, most I could give
you for this would be
- It's a deal.
- [Pawn Broker] Would
you like me to wrap this?
- [Julius] I'll just
take it the way it is.
- [Pawn Broker] I get very busy
here.
- I understand, yeah.
I thank you for this. Enjoy my
watch.
(wind blowing)
- [Danielle] Where have you
been?
- Get out?
- What? Why?
Why, what's going on?
What's up?
- Danielle Thomas, I love you.
- What are you?
- Will you marry me?
- Oh my God.
Oh my God.
(somber music)
I can't believe this is
actually happening right now.
Oh my God.
(hopeful music)
Are you serious?
- I have never been so sure
of anything in my life.
- I mean.
What do you expect me?
This is really the sweetest
thing, I mean.
The most amazing thing that
you've ever done for me, but.
I mean I can't give you an
answer right now, I can't.
I can't actually give you
an answer at this moment.
- You don't have to.
Just,
just know that I love you
forever.
(calm music)
Are you hearing me
Not what I'm saying
So beautiful this light
I shouldn't fear
Keeping locked away
Is best while I'm dreaming
Why you understand
This never happened
(fast paced music)
Here for you
For you and for me we need to
move
Here for you
For you and for me we need to
move
(fast paced music continues)
Oh I oh I oh I oh I
oh I'm here for you
Oh I oh I oh I oh I
oh I'm here for you
Oh I oh I oh I oh I
oh I'm here for you
Oh I oh I oh I oh I
oh I'm here for you
Here for you
For you and for me we need to
move
Here for you
For you and for me we need to
move
Oh I oh I oh I oh I
oh I'm here for you