The End (2024) Movie Script
1
Oh no.
Oh no,
did you have a nightmare?
What happened?
Tell me.
No, I'm just thirsty.
A fire, a tree, a horse
And a house,
an Indian, of course
And a settler, a sleigh,
a snowman
A cat, a cloud, a moose
And a windmill, a blizzard,
a caboose
A shipyard, a seagull,
a sunrise
How high would you go
If you could,
oh, if you could
I knew this would be
A perfect morning
No one is stirring
If I were a cat
I'd be purring
It's easier with light,
right?
-Sorry, I was finishing up.
-Eh.
-I'll get out of your way, Dad.
-Hey, look at that.
To think this all
leads to us
It's quite beautiful
even to think about
Even to think a...
Are you ready for us?
Sure, we're done, we just...
We met early
to discuss the air supply.
This looks great.
To think this all
ends with you
Only you
There you are.
I was...
Forgive me, I'm sorry...
- I was just coming.
- No, don't let me intrude
I just thought
that you and I...
No, no, you're busy,
and I'm being rude
Maybe we'll find
another time later today
You wanna have
breakfast with your dad?
No, I...
You're swimming
with your mom, right?
- Yes.
- But first...
show her
what you did with the flowers.
Night-blooming jasmine
Why'd you ever...
Night-scented orchid
How clever
And evening primrose
I'd have never
They all bloom at twilight
Here, they bloom forever
What a wonderful gift
you have given us
Flowers in the night
Look at us,
aren't we a sight?
Forever,
the strength of our family
Together,
our future is bright
-Shadows grew
-Shadows grew long
Into endless night
-Into endless night
-We fight through the dark
And we thrive
In our happily ever after
Basking in the light
We will bask
in the morning light
Basking in the morning light
And these walls
will echo with laughter
Together,
our future is bright
What a wonderful gift
you have given us
A good life
with no end in sight
Our hope for tomorrow
will guide us
Together,
our future is bright
28:10!
Isn't that three seconds faster
than your record?
Wow!
Oh.
Huh.
Uh...
Isn't it a little...?
I mean, it's a little...
It's too colorful,
isn't it?
I'm sorry.
Well, I was...
I was going to say trashy.
I mean, it's not,
but...
it is a little kitschy,
isn't it?
-So you like it?
-Yeah!
So do you, right? I mean,
it's still a masterpiece.
-A trashy one.
-Yeah.
I think
this is our best spring ever.
Mmm.
Thank you, thank you.
This wall...
Is it darker?
Than what?
It's the same paint.
It's the contrast.
The tufts of cloud
are so bright.
Come on,
you've done well for yourself.
-Remember that rathole
you had in ballet school?
-Oh, my God.
I had to teach you
how to piss in the soup pot.
Maybe if I don't
stare at it.
Yeah.
It's just...
No, I'm sorry, if there's
one thing I've learned,
it's to take details seriously.
-It's very subtle.
-But subtle's worse.
Because you're always trying
to find it again.
The fire's still raging
and you are out of time.
In 90 seconds,
there will be nothing left.
87, 86,
85,
and she's still breathing.
Get the fire extinguisher first.
You must put the fire out first.
And you are down.
No, save your mother.
Go, save your mother.
Go on, save her.
- That area's on fire.
- I jumped through the flames.
It's an inferno.
Now you are on fire.
You need to lie down.
Please.
What are you doing?
That's empty.
- In 15 seconds, she's gone.
Where are you going?
I'm here.
No, you left her.
And your dad is on fire.
- No.
- That's lights out, Mom.
Lights out here.
- That's of no use.
- No, I got him.
No.
I got him.
- Shh, calm down.
- Lights out, Dad.
- It's OK.
- Put me down.
- Your father is dead.
Look at your mother.
Your mother is dead.
Everyone died.
You failed.
Everyone died.
We are all dead.
"I jumped out of bed,
thrilled for a new day
in the energy business."
"In Indonesia, we were the bread
and butter of the nation,
"lifting millions
out of poverty and disease."
Ah, it's beautiful.
"So when terrorist rebels
blockaded our Matapao refinery,
"I couldn't turn
the other cheek.
I owed it to those proud people
"to fight back,
an eye for an eye.
"I dialed General Edhie
and requested air support.
My god, did it come!
"Rat-a-tat-tat,
spat the machine guns
"as the terrorists' bodies
were being ripped into..."
No.
First of all, I condemn
the violation of human rights.
No, I know.
-I just...
-But is that how you see me?
I... I...
It's what
he gave me.
I just gave him
all the articles.
That must be what the media...
Hey.
Let me see them.
These are lies.
How is my son supposed to write
if you don't...
He doesn't know
the difference!
It's all...
It's all... blood and violence.
I'll write a different climax.
Uh...
No.
Sorry.
Today was
a hard chapter,
but I think he...
sees the big picture.
That's wonderful.
I look at him,
the man he's become.
He'll be fine.
I know he will.
Yeah.
You can't sleep?
I can't do anything.
When Tom was dying,
and you knew you'd end up alone,
how did you cope?
I drank.
You know that.
But Tom and I
had so many good times.
And now
I have you.
I see what you're doing.
Just...
Just because there's
a little pause before you eat it
doesn't mean
people won't notice.
Your mom will notice.
Just don't steal
my cigarettes.
How did the joke go?
That Tom told the doctor
when he lost his hair
and both were bald?
Oh, you mean,
"Well, Doc, your head's
a lot brighter than my future?"
How could the doctor
be offended by that?
Doctor, um...
What was his name?
Oh, there were
so many doctors and
treatments...
Sometimes I think
that's what killed him.
But he always knew
I was there for him.
A blood-red sun
fills the sky
Far above me,
buzzards fly
They watch, they wait
Way up high
Ma, promise I won't die
I will always be with you
I will always be with you
To hold your hand
and stroke your hair
So whether skies
are dark or fair
Just sleep,
my child, I'm there
The sun is gone
It will not rise
The poison sea,
a last gull cries
A dusty storm blows out,
then dies
Ma, I'm scared
to close my eyes
Count falling stars
Till sleep arrives
The last star falls
The moon just sighs
The sky goes black
And heaven dies
I'm here, child
Close your eyes
I will always be with you
Everywhere
Well, well.
A sleepover?
-I guess I wasn't invited?
-No, no, you don't.
Tell us about it.
Or did he just come to pee
in the bed like in the old days?
What hole
did you crawl out of?
He does have quite the
ding dong on him, doesn't he?
I'm surprised you have
enough room down there,
what with your fallen uterus.
You are pathetic.
Get out.
Alright, come on.
- The sight's broken.
- Oh, yeah?
Show him.
Go on, show him.
How's a butterball
supposed to stop a bullet?
Now, now.
He was a hero
that day.
How'd he get that?
When I was little, people came.
And why is that important?
-They can kill us.
-Uh-huh.
Sometimes
they actually seemed nice.
They were just
asking for food.
But it always ended
the same way:
They'd try and kill us
every time.
I was lucky, though.
The bullet went
right through me.
Lucky.
That was
the worst day of my life.
Almost losing you.
I remember it
like it was yesterday.
And later,
maybe we can cut your hair.
What's that?
What is that?
Someone's here.
Come on,
seal off the area!
-Get in the car.
-Who is it?
-Get back in the car!
She's breathing.
How did you find us?
-I saw smoke.
-Ah.
Did you pass
through Salem?
I mean,
there was a town, but...
Right,
it's burnt through.
Did you live there?
We live here.
-Yeah.
-Hm-hm.
You must be
a family.
What about
your family?
They're gone.
So you're alone?
Sorry to hear that.
-Were you attacked?
-No.
No.
There's... There's no one.
There's no one.
After the fire season
last summer, we were hungry...
But how long
was your family alone?
Three years, but even
before that,
months went by with no one.
It just got
less and less.
People killing each other off.
Can you just tell us
what happened, please?
We had to get
out of the burnt area
to find food,
but it just went on and on.
And so...
we followed a highway.
There was a river,
but the bridge was gone.
So we tried to swim across,
but you can't...
-I made it.
-That's alright,
we understand.
But my mom...
and sister...
then Dad...
-All of them?
-I never should've...
-Never should've what?
-She told us what happened...
-But how did you keep going?
-Enough.
She'll need her strength.
You survived.
That's good.
Right?
Yeah.
Can you see how she got in?
No.
And there's half a mile of rock
above us.
We should move her.
It's damp,
and it's cold there.
But, uh...
To a spare bedroom
or something?
We can't let her stay,
can we?
But we can't.
It's been
20 years
since someone came.
No, no, no.
We said
we have to draw a line
somewhere.
We always said that.
Hm-hm.
Well, that was before we knew
how long we'd be down here.
But... But we said that
about everyone. Everyone!
If we change that now...
She's right.
That's why we have
a protocol.
Everything you've built
depends on it.
Right.
Alright.
Well,
we'll send her away.
"There was nothing.
"We were no one.
"We were less and less
and less..."
Lies,
trying to trick us into...
Anyway,
we're not the Red Cross.
Don't touch me.
I'll blow your fucking head off!
This trip
It's just a little bit longer,
but
If it doesn't kill you,
it makes you stronger
Don't talk, don't shake
or sigh or breathe
Don't look back,
don't you look at...
Don't touch me
Don't you ever
fucking touch me
Your sob stories
You think
I don't know you're stalling
Just don't look down,
you'll never know
you're falling
Our right
to life and liberty
Our happiness, our property
We protect that,
we won't let you wreck that
Ba da dee, ba da da...
Look at me,
see how I shine
The best comes last
in the grand design
And I'm unsurpassed,
the future's mine alone
The shining city on the hill
is me alone
Alone
Who else to light the way
but me alone?
All alone
I am here to keep
the dark at bay
Oh, God
Don't you dare start crying
Stay strong
And you'll feel
like you're flying
Nyah nyah nyah nyah...
Trouble
We don't want any trouble
But if we meet again
On a perfect bright blue
summer day
There's so much
that you and I might say
We'd start anew
So many questions
that I'd like to...
But until then
Be a cloud on high
You're made of air,
just drifting by
So you don't care
when you fade away
Alone
You disappear
without a trace
All alone
But solitude is bliss
Though the night is long
The sun will rise
Until then
Close your eyes
Here, Mom.
The safety's off.
I wish I'd brought
one of his other paintings.
This one's always staring at us.
What if we move it?
-We'll find a spot later.
-You're right.
There's a place
for everything.
I'm just a little on edge
this morning.
You like them?
You kidding?
I've never had new shoes.
Good. I'm so glad.
-Whoa.
-I tried. I had no choice.
- Please, I'll die.
- It's OK.
-I'll... I'll die.
-This way.
-It's OK.
-Please.
-Why are you looking at me?
-I can't go back out.
-Don't look at me like that.
-Please.
-Give me your hands.
-You don't understand.
- I'll die.
- You'll be fine.
-No, please!
-Come on.
- Wait, listen...
- Get her, we need...
- Hold her legs.
- OK, OK...
- Give me your belt.
- No, please. I'll stop.
- I don't want to do this.
- Hold her.
- Help me, please.
- That's enough.
Look at her.
-Please!
-I said that's enough.
Stop.
Now.
It's just a short drive.
Three minutes
and we're at the dining room.
OK.
We made bouillabaisse
and Dover sole.
I hope you're hungry.
I am. If I could,
I'd eat and eat and...
-... keep on eating.
-Thank you. I mean... Good.
Or rather...
Oh.
You must be very brave.
What you went through
before you came here.
Hmm.
But you can relax now.
Please...
-It smells delicious.
-We'll see.
The sauce kept separating,
but I think we just saved it.
We're thrilled
you're joining us tonight.
Right?
Is that you?
- Excuse me?
- Is that you?
Uh...
I was much younger then.
Ah.
-Is that your family?
-No.
Yes, my husband's family.
Try it.
It has a lot of tannin in it
from all the heat and drought.
But that's only good
for aging a wine.
Thank you.
Do you like it?
It's sour.
Uhm, bitter.
Huh.
It really is!
Maybe, if you, uhm,
take a sip
and you breathe in as you...
Like this, see?
What does that do?
It lets
all the other flavors...
Oh! Oh, dear.
- Sorry.
- That's quite alright.
-That didn't help, did it?
-That's perfectly alright.
It's still lousy.
One of the world's great chefs.
People waited months
for a table.
They waited years.
Oh, enough.
But save room for dessert.
I don't know where we'd be
without her cakes.
I hope you like it.
So, I think, uh,
this young lady would like
to know what we do around here.
Right?
I'm helping Dad write a book.
- Oh.
- He's my editor.
I was
in the energy business
and I guess I made a difference,
so...
it's a way of giving
something back.
Hopefully
somebody will read it.
Did you show her
the living room?
-We walked through.
-It's beautiful, right?
- All the art she brought...
- Yeah.
You know, she chose each piece
so carefully.
From every movement
and style.
She's an artist, too.
A ballerina.
She danced
at the Bolshoi.
I'm sorry?
You're learning piano now.
-What?
-I said you're learning piano.
-Oh. Oh...
-Don't worry.
Yeah. Is it...?
-Is there something wrong?
-Sorry, I didn't hear you.
-That's OK.
-Yeah.
She's gonna master it,
you'll see.
-You wanna play later?
-No.
- No...
- Right.
-We swim in the morning
to stay fit.
-OK.
When Mom was dancing, she had
to be in perfect shape, always.
I'm so sorry
about what we
put you through.
Oh.
We were scared.
We were just
very scared.
I... I hope
you can understand that.
-Yeah.
-Yeah?
Scared.
- Yeah?
Hm-hm.
Thank you.
Yeah.
Hm.
You were born here?
He was. He's very lucky.
Your face
was so round.
He was fat.
We called him
Bruiser.
- It's nice.
- Yeah.
-You had a dog down here?
-Yeah.
- Charlie.
- God, we miss him.
What's this?
What were you doing?
Food fight.
I forgot that.
We keep all holidays.
Halloween.
Scary faces.
Did no one else make it?
I mean,
from your family?
I just ask because...
I know what that's like,
to...
Careful.
You can easily cross a line.
Some things are private.
-There should be some distance.
-It has nothing to do with you!
Look.
Wanna help me?
Your ninth birthday.
Remember that?
-I...
-That suit?
Oh, yes.
You were having
a wonderful time.
You looked
so dapper in it.
That's a nice one of you,
Mom.
But my eyes
Oh, they shine
No, I look old
No, you look lovely
No, look at my smile
Each year you look brighter
than the last
See? Look!
New Year's Eve
A few years later
Those hats and tiaras
It was all your idea, Mom
No, but you made them,
you and your dad
You made this house
into a home
Look, the two of us
Each year brings us closer
than the last
She smiles
The whole room grows bright
I did everything right
But I'm a deer
frozen in fright
Flooded by...
Dazzled by...
Blinded by light
Once the world was
full of strangers
We kept our distance
So many dangers
We trusted no one
Now we have each other
Here, we're family
So I can be a mother
to my child
Give him a life worth living
If everything
should disappear
He'll feel my love
Love
Keep all of this polished
Make sure that it shines
Each room we clean
is a show of our spirit
Each stain we ignore
Is a sign of surrender
But here we all
care for each other
You'll be happy here
Each year brings us
closer than the last
She smiles
The whole room grows bright
Everything will be alright
I'll do everything right
You'll be fine
I'll be fine
I'm blinded by light
Once the world
was full of strangers
We kept our distance
So many dangers
We trusted no one
Now we have each other
Here, we're family
I am a mother
To my child
I'll give and keep on giving
my child
Flooded by light
-A life worth living
-Basking in light
If everything
should disappear
-Drowning in light
-He'll feel my love
He'll feel my love
Drowning in light
Come on in.
-Are you alright?
-Uh... uh...
Nothing to be afraid of.
Just a little water.
She's scared, Mom.
-Shouldn't...?
-No, she's alright.
Right?
Mom, just...
But this is bad.
If one of us can't help
in an emergency...
I...
It's alright.
Jump.
Jump.
You little cocksucker.
Fat little shit.
Lemme see
your choppers.
Lemme see your pearly white...
Talking to the fish?
No.
-I know it's stupid.
-Why?
It's not stupid.
I love to talk.
A real motormouth,
yammering away...
My mom used to call me
her radio.
'Cause she liked to listen
when it got too...
uhm, quiet.
See?
That's the Civil War.
And that's
the Texas Oil Boom.
It started as
home schooling, but
whenever I learn
a true gem of history, I add it.
Yeah, I saw you had
the moon landing.
-You know about that?
-At night we saw satellites,
just...
circling the world.
Hard to believe
we could put them there.
But we could!
And we did!
"One giant leap
for mankind."
Phew! It moves me
in a very personal way.
-Here, I'm laying
the Pacific Railroad.
-Hm-hm.
They were Chinese.
You made them
look happy.
But they were.
What they did?
Before, you had to hike
through the jungles of Nicaragua
and get malaria or
motion sickness on a boat,
but...
you had no choice.
Unless you walked.
You don't know?
Thousands of them died.
But they didn't die
in vain.
They were really
part of something.
I don't know.
I don't know, losing people
like that, one after another...
Right, no, I don't...
No, I...
I don't mean that...
They weren't happy. But yes...
They could be proud.
They were building a country.
And that's...
That's the point of all of this:
building a country,
creating the moments.
See, there's Ulysses S. Grant.
And Grant's Tomb.
Uh...
Would you help me?
I can try.
We can plant trees.
I'll get some more. "Greening
the desert," they call it!
Or just making it
look more realistic, right?
They're just
here in the kitchen.
You'll love these.
They're...
What's wrong?
I told them I was going
to look for food, but I didn't.
We'd been trying to cross
that river for months,
and now it was winter.
And Dad was sick.
And I couldn't...
I couldn't...
I crossed without them
in the end.
- I know.
- No.
No, it's worse.
When I got to the other side,
I looked back.
They were calling me,
but I couldn't hear.
And the way
Dad looked at me...
Then they went
into the water.
What could you have done?
-They were dying...
-No, that's an excuse.
-They wanted you to live.
-They might've lived if I...
No, you can't think like that.
You can't.
It's just,
there's so much...
food here.
There's so much everything.
Uh...
We faced that,
too.
Who to save.
But...
Really,
you don't have a choice.
I had a choice.
-I had a choice.
-I know, I know... Listen,
I... I can finish this
on my own.
I know
where everything goes.
"Since the dawn of time,
the climate has changed.
"It will keep on changing
long after we're gone.
"Any little thing
can make it happen,
"from sunspots
to the wobbling of the Earth.
"There have been ice ages
and ages with no ice at all.
"Things come and go.
It's arrogance to think we
control the fate of our planet."
Sorry,
can I borrow a book?
Yeah! Sure.
How's it going?
Oh, great.
Very good writing.
"We'll never know
if our industry contributed
to the rising temperatures.
"But without fossil fuels,
the human race
"would be languishing
in poverty, and..."
Yeah... yeah...
Go on.
Oh. Oh!
You know what?
Maybe she has some ideas.
Me?
I mean...
It's your story.
You know what it needs.
Right.
That's exactly right.
Sorry. Thank you.
Hm.
Thank you.
You see?
We're on the right track.
Sometimes
you're too self-critical.
Yeah.
Who knows?
She might really make
a contribution.
-What's wrong?
-Uh... Nothing.
Maybe I was a bit short
with her yesterday.
Oh.
She was asking
about my diorama, but
I wanted to get back
to our writing.
I got impatient.
Maybe you should
give her something.
To show you appreciate
how hard she's trying.
Maybe something special.
I, uhm...
I... uh...
I got you something.
Thank you.
A watch?
It works.
Yeah, of course.
It's one of the most accurate
timepieces ever created.
Thank you.
My dad's watch was broken,
but he still wore it.
We guessed time,
looking at the sky.
Well, this works
a lot better than the sky.
A classic combination:
rose gold and ostrich leather.
I... I thought it might help you
manage your time better.
My time?
If a man earns
half a billion dollars a year,
every second of his time
is worth 16 dollars.
I want that.
So should you.
Why?
All that money,
look what they did with it.
It's a matter of respect,
not wasting people's time.
-Time is precious.
-I know about that.
Then you know
the importance of productivity.
-Achieving more in less time.
-I know what it means.
It's just,
is that what you think?
Or is it
from your dad's book?
It's my book, too.
I'm writing it.
When I
walked in,
you seemed...
You seemed
embarrassed.
No, I wasn't.
We were working on something
important and difficult.
It's called being hopeful.
The seconds
ticking past so fast
Before you notice them,
they're gone
Forever
But I remember time
When moments
did not disappear
When I closed my eyes
A single breath
could go on and on
Forever
So how few breaths
we might have left
Meant nothing much at all
Forever
Forever
How few breaths
we might have left
Meant nothing much
At all
You're developing
tolerance again.
We'll switch you back
to these,
restore some order
in there.
And I can combine these
with my muscle relaxant?
You'll sleep even better.
And...
will they help
with my dreams?
No?
OK.
Because they're getting worse.
And they are...
trash!
Why is my head
full of trash?
That's what dreams are.
For everyone.
Things happen during the day,
there's no time
to think about it.
Your brain files it away.
It...
But they...
They'll get you
back to sleep.
Thank you.
This is adorable.
How did you
make them?
I don't know,
I...
Mom...
In the beginning, did you see
the people who tried to get in?
No, I was with you.
Protecting you.
Before that,
then,
when you first came,
did you ever consider...
Because there's
enough room here, so...
Did you ever consider
inviting more people?
Who could we trust?
We had to think
about you.
Sorry, right.
I just wondered if...
I just wondered
if sometimes you feel sad or...
Who could we trust?
Sorry, right.
-Maybe you feel...
-I feel fine.
She is
a little insensitive.
Disrespectful.
To him, especially.
I'm not sure
he feels that way.
You're not?
I am. Very.
-It's like she has an agenda.
-An agenda?
-An agenda? I don't see what...
-You don't see.
Everyone else
we could've invited.
You said we had
to draw a line.
-Because otherwise...
-Yes.
-Yeah.
-Otherwise.
-Yes.
-Exactly.
-Yeah.
And you brought
your best friend.
She's family.
Look,
I'll talk to her.
I just don't understand
why she's here.
Why she's here?
What are you saying?
- Well...
- She...
She...
She is a stranger.
Our family,
they loved us.
We can tell her,
one more strike and you're out.
Something like that,
but...
-... only if you want that.
-No.
I don't want
to be the one...
I just think of everyone else
we could've brought.
No, alright, if you...
Hm.
-It still hurts, doesn't it?
-No.
Sometimes, but I think
the antibiotic isn't working.
Oh, so doing my job now,
are we?
You need
a different antibiotic.
But is it really
worth it?
-Will it help?
-Sure. But why bother...
...if you're leaving us
anyway?
There's just no bottom with you.
Give her the medicine.
Thank you.
No. It is. It's chipped.
Did you chip
the painting?
No.
I didn't, really.
Well,
why is it chipped?
-It's always been chipped.
-Of course it has.
I would've noticed it.
-I know it's subtle.
-"Subtle's worse." Yes.
So,
are we looking into this?
Because I...
I'll go start on,
uhm, the office.
Aren't you trying
to be kind? I love that.
- I'm not being kind.
- That painting...
-Renoir's hands...
-"Twisted with arthritis."
Yeah, but we love that,
right?
The look of pain
in her eyes,
but still she danced with grace,
look.
-I see it.
-Do you?
The willingness
to sacrifice everything
to make this world
just a little bit bearable?
He strapped
the brushes to his fingers!
It came off.
It was just a bit of plaster.
I... I think
it's a myth.
I think it's a myth
about strapping brushes
to his fingers.
I think his assistants
helped him.
You gotta
knock it off.
She lives with us.
And you're not doing him
a favor, either.
Fucking piece of shit!
Was this piano a gift from
when Mom retired from dancing
or when she debuted
in Swan Lake?
I don't remember.
She also said the director
of the Bolshoi was an admirer
and gave it to her
when he first saw her dance.
-You'll have to ask her.
-She'll tell me a new story.
Whatever serves
her purpose.
She never danced
at the Bolshoi.
What?
She was...
an understudy
on a tour,
but she never got to perform.
Hm?
Don't tell her
that I told you.
No, no.
-Please, promise you won't.
-Of course not.
That's good enough, isn't it?
No.
I have
to fill the cracks.
But there will be
a picture there.
But it should be like silk,
your mother says.
It always cracks.
So it feels infinite
when you paint it blue.
Like the sky,
right?
-But it's just a wall.
-Please!
There's nowhere else
for me to go.
Nowhere.
I just need
15 minutes
to fill the cracks
and I'll be done.
- Do you want me to time it?
- No, don't do that.
That was stupid of me.
We would've killed you.
I...
I tried.
But...
You said we always
have a choice.
But... I...
I'll never see the sky
I'll never feel the wind
I'll never smell the rain
I'll never see a tree
Shimmer in the heat
I'll never see the dust
Drift across the plain
I'll never feel a storm
blowing warm and wet
I'll never see the hills
dark in silhouette
I'll never see the sky
Turn from blue to black
And I know
it can't turn back
Don't you see
I'll always be too late
Even for the twilight
Blotting out the dying light,
a never-ending night
I close my eyes real tight
Not one star in my sight
I just see salt,
dead and white
But that's alright
You'll be alright
Have no fear
Just stay strong and hard
like stone
Like walls
Like these walls
And live forever
Alone forever
Too late,
I thought the sun has set
Maybe not quite yet
Not quite yet
Clouds catch fire
In the last rays of sunlight
You can do that too
-How can I do that too?
-And you can shine
Like snow in the moonlight
Can we, can we do that too?
Can we do that too?
Can we do that too?
- A cumulonimbus cloud.
- Cumulonimbus?
Yeah. The top
reaches the stratosphere,
then it stops.
There's no more water up there,
so it stops.
That's... nothing.
I don't know
what that is.
Somewhere
my parents went.
They don't know
I have this.
Are they cities?
-They're, um...
-Fires?
-They're fires.
They're still burning.
They'll burn for hundreds
of years until the oil's gone.
Those people, they're...
They're so angry.
Yeah.
I don't know
who those are.
Some...
-That's your mom.
-Yeah.
Who's she with?
That's my Aunt Mary.
And that's my grandmother.
That's my Aunt Mary again.
Dressed as a bird...
Why aren't they here?
I don't know.
I don't know.
-It doesn't work. You do it.
-You do it.
-Wait! No, no!
-No, no! You can't "wait!"
You can't say "wait!"
You just gotta go for it.
No.
Dum ba dum...
Oh!
Oh!
Oh!
-This isn't a trap, is it?
-One-man marching band.
-Huh? What?
Don't just stand there,
try!
Do something!
Cha-cha-cha...
Oh.
Uh...
No, no, it's OK.
Look, watch.
You never tried that?
You build it up
and let it go
to a little music.
Yeah.
Me and my sister
used to do that.
-Do it again. Do it again!
-Are you crazy?
No, that's dangerous!
Can I say something?
I'm excited about
too many things at once.
Seeing you
in the morning,
thinking about you
when I brush my...
I... I do that.
I promise, I...
What if we just
left this place?
- They're sweating.
- It's OK.
I... I'm sorry.
I know, I...
It just happened.
What do you want to know? We...
We have fun.
That's all.
You have fun?
When we're working,
we have a good time.
Hm.
And at night?
No.
- No.
- No?
No.
Just when we're working.
But you have
had sex with her.
No, what I'm doing is...
I think
I like her.
I'm sorry, Mom.
How?
How can you know?
I... I just know.
But you have no experience.
You've never met anybody before.
I know,
but that's what's happening.
Sometimes
when we like somebody,
they don't like us
in exactly the same way.
Sometimes they just want
something from us.
No.
I know how she feels.
I do.
If you're so sure of that,
then...
why give her this?
Oh, dear.
If you give her
something like this,
you're never going to truly know
how she feels about you.
No, that's not true.
We give out of love.
And when we receive,
we give love back.
We say, thank you.
I love you.
But that was stupid of me.
She didn't want a watch.
She was upset
and I wouldn't listen.
She needed
someone to listen.
Mom, I...
I love her.
I do.
It doesn't mean
that I don't love you.
Oh...
It's alright, isn't it?
I mean,
I know you said...
I said...? Oh.
Yeah.
Forget all that.
That's the past.
No, no! This is stirring.
-I was folding.
-No, you must fold.
A moron.
- A total fucking moron.
Whoop!
And you,
a cloud on my towering mountain.
I want to be
a cloudy day.
Ah, well there's plenty of it,
so keep on going.
I will make you the Chamonix,
and rain the egg...
No!
I want you to keep going.
I want you
to feel at home.
This is your home
now.
I do.
Thank you.
And we usually
have fruit salad.
-Oh.
-We do.
We like it, don't we?
Yeah.
It's...
There's hardly anything in it.
Nothing bad for you.
It's...
And sometimes we have it
with a poached egg.
-Yeah.
-But no yolk.
And we enjoy it,
don't we?
Have waffles today,
Mom.
Come on.
Live it up.
No, I think
I'll stick with my fruit.
It's better for me,
and...
No,
and I'll enjoy it.
"To see her dance was to witness
"an exquisite flower opening
her petals to the sunrise.
"The hushed audience
at the Bolshoi was mesmerized.
"From my perch in the royal box,
I decided to make her mine."
Hm!
No.
Why'd you stop?
-It's... hollow.
-Hollow?
A flower
opening to the sunrise?
But she was a great dancer,
incredible.
Yeah.
When you went backstage,
how did you feel?
I filled her dressing room
with flowers.
-That's what you wrote.
-I know, but...
Did you ever want to know
what she really felt about you?
But maybe you were
scared to ask.
But then you had to.
Well...
I think you're looking
for something too abstract.
It's a form, romance.
You don't go
into endless chitchat.
The love
is in the metaphor
of a flower.
Or a beautiful sunset.
-Maybe some kisses.
-But it's not.
It's not.
Hmm.
Well, we'd have an evening here,
a dinner there.
It was
a long time ago.
Maybe it's normal
to forget.
It is.
It is.
You get used to each other.
The initial passion just
fades and...
How can you grow old together if
you can't remember how it was?
Well, that...
That's not what I...
What about you,
Butterball?
Would you come down,
please?
I was wondering...
Have you ever...?
I mean,
you know about me.
How I am and all.
Huh.
-Oh... Don't worry about that.
-Really?
Yeah.
Well, I did once...
What I should've done,
what could've been nice...
If only I'd said...
Or asked him
for a cup of coffee.
That's what people do,
you know.
When I get a charley horse
in my leg at night
and I can't reach it...
You see?
I can't.
So I...
I think about that
from time to time:
what would've happened.
Maybe nothing.
But maybe he,
or someone else
Anyway.
I never went in
for all that.
We all have things
we wish
we would've...
That's why
it's so hard.
That's all I meant:
being scared
to say hello.
That can work.
Sure. And when you did,
maybe you even had sweaty palms,
so you were scared
to take Mom's hand.
Sweaty palms?
Yeah, it's great. Keep going.
I'm scared to take her hand
Right.
Too scared to take her hand
Can't recall a single word
Oh, that's good.
Too scared
to say a single word
Now tell me where you are
Can't remember where I was
Maybe in your car at night
Waiting at a traffic light
Or driving through a storm
Blowing warm and wet
Lightning overhead
Phosphorescent torn-up net
And we're all alone
Dark hills in silhouette
Just the two of us
If only I dared to say hello
To say hello
I reach out
and take her hand
I'd wake in the night
and not be alone
Not be alone
It's just so beautiful
Even to think about
Even to think about
Even to think about
Clouds catch fire
In the last rays of sunlight
You can do that, too
What gift did I give
I only gave love, only love
Even to think about
In the last rays
I did, oh, I did,
and I said hello
-I said hello
-BUTLER: It's so beautiful
Even to think about
It's just so beautiful
Even to think about
What?
Can't you sleep?
Your robe.
It's so pretty.
It's, uh,
the same as always.
Oh.
But it's nice.
I... I...
You look nice.
I, uh...
You know what's funny?
I've been thinking
about how we met.
How long it took me
to say hello.
I don't know if I ever told you,
but I was scared.
I wanted to hold your hand,
but...
my hands were
so sweaty.
- That's how scared I was.
- Oh, yeah.
See?
How your robe
meets your neck.
You're beautiful.
I'm just older,
that's what I am.
No.
You're beautiful.
And I think of all the years
we've had together,
I...
That's something else
I never told you.
What I was just doing,
you know what I call it?
Because I call it
something.
Schnickling and schnackling
my head.
You never seen me
do it?
You call it schnickling
and schnackling your head?
I guess I don't do it too much
in front of you.
You have a name
for it?
-Sorry.
-What?
Uh... Give me one second.
-You alright?
-Yeah, sorry.
Hold my hands.
Here we go.
Good.
Lower your head.
Yeah...
Great!
Great, good.
You're a bit scared,
that's all.
You're doing great.
-Ready?
-Uh-huh.
You alright?
-It really shines there, Mom.
-It feels cold, the room.
-We haven't hung the chandelier
yet by the north wall.
-The north wall?
Adding just that touch of
warmth, like the North Star.
No, no.
Stars are cold, too.
I think
we need more red.
Mom,
winter is cold.
Yes, but it's what you do
in the cold.
You don't look at the stars,
you...
I... I don't even remember.
Sure you do.
How our breaths froze
and we ran all the way
to school to keep warm.
Your feet
are like ice.
You can feel
the blood rushing.
Or at night with your family.
-Sorry.
-No, please, go on.
Night so cold and long
Afraid to sleep
It seems the night goes on
Forever
But when you're not alone
And you sleep close
You won't feel cold at all
You keep each other warm
as a family.
Even in a storm
You're scared at first
But not for very long
If you're together
You can forget?
When you stay close
to those you love
There's not much fear at all
So if we stay together
And we keep close now
Can we weather
another winter?
Together
Here we have each other
-In cold and darkness
-Together
Can we warm one another
Just with love
Winter days
so short and dark
Before you notice them,
they're gone
Nights so long
and warmed by love
You don't feel cold at all
If you close your eyes,
you'd maybe dream
The night would never end
How few nights
we might have left
Meant nothing much at all
We will give and keep on
giving our love
We will make this life
worth living
If everything
should disappear
We still have love
We still
Have love
That was...
quite... I didn't even
know you wanted that.
I'm so sorry.
No,
I'm not blaming you.
-I'm so sorry.
-I'm not blaming you. I just...
-It's been a long time.
-Yeah.
-I don't...
-Yeah.
-I wasn't expecting...
-You weren't?
-No, not...
-Well...
Then what...
Well, that's good.
It's a little unrealistic,
out of the blue like that...
I know, I know.
Maybe we could
try again another time,
but with a little warning?
Oh.
What?
Never seen your mom
covered in shit?
Bring that here.
I thought,
instead of paper,
we could grow flowers
again.
I think
we can save these.
Pour the water here.
So,
you hold it from below.
And you have to be
very gentle with the roots.
If they break,
it dies.
When did you...?
Who taught you this?
I don't know.
Was it your mom?
Mom,
what was she like?
What is that?
A bird.
A chicken?
That is not
a chicken.
Chickens are the only bird
I've ever seen.
You know, that is something
I used to be very good at:
birds.
Um...
Don't laugh at me.
What's that?
It's a robin.
You know the way
they used to hop along.
OK.
And, um...
It's a cow.
No,
it's not a cow.
It's a loon.
A loon?
A loon.
Hmmm.
It's a water bird.
We have
a little surprise for you.
-Uh-oh.
-And honestly, I'm nervous.
But not as nervous
as you should be, because
a certain someone...
So, I... did try to get in shape
for this evening.
So I'm not quite so much
of a butterball.
Nobody's calling you
a butterball.
No excuses.
We want a show. Give us a show.
-Did you not know?
-No, I had no idea.
Wow!
You should try
your own creation.
Thank you.
Here I go!
-Like this.
-What?
Oh yes,
that's right.
You are such a chump.
-You can never...
-Such a chump.
OK.
OK, who else?
Oh, my Lord.
- Who else?
- Maybe next year...
Uh...
-You want to say...?
-Yeah.
-Say something.
-Um...
I...
Um...
I'm happy to...
I'm happy
to be here with you.
And thank you.
Really. For welcoming me
into your family.
You're welcome.
I'm probably a little...
I never celebrated New Year's
without my family before, so...
Um...
Every year,
we were surprised
that we made it one more year.
And...
in the end,
my parents knew that
any day could be the last,
so,
when we did make it,
we would celebrate
that we were together.
And I just...
I just...
Because...
What I did...
I shouldn't be here.
I don't deserve to be here.
- It's awful, what I did.
- You did all you could.
- I didn't. I left them.
- No, you didn't.
-Maybe that's enough.
-Let her talk, will you.
We lasted that long because
we were together, but I...
-I left them.
-Yeah, I know.
-But you're with us now.
-But I just...
-You have our family.
-I have a knot in my stomach.
It's always there.
Don't you?
And then
I ask myself...
... why am I living?
Why...
Why keep living?
I remember
this one woman,
sitting alone on the street.
And her eyes were just...
She lost everyone.
I'm really sorry
for what we did to you.
-I thought we were past that.
-No, you understand. You do.
You do.
I know you do.
You lost your family just
like I did, and you didn't...
I'm sorry.
It's just because...
... we're all alone.
No, no,
don't say that.
It's true.
Everyone's gone.
- We're all that's left.
- Just stop.
OK?
Thank you.
Very much.
Really.
Isn't this
her best cake ever?
Oh, good morning!
Yeah.
We need your wonderful ear.
Is that too sharp?
- Maybe a little.
- Yeah.
Mom, I'm sorry
about what happened last night.
Oh.
But it...
it ended well.
How's this?
Mom...
She was trying to tell us
how she was feeling, but we...
-I...
-Yeah, she wasn't feeling well.
-But she was.
-Is that too flat now?
It doesn't matter.
No one plays it.
They tuned this thing
every day at the Bolshoi.
Right,
the Bolshoi.
We stopped her, Mom.
We did.
Right?
I think we did,
honestly.
She said some things
that were hard for us to hear.
She needs to feel
that she can be honest with us.
For you of all people to talk
to me about being honest.
Mom, she just tried to tell us
what she went through.
-Uh, like you tell about Tom.
-You know nothing about this.
It was New Year's Eve.
Nobody wants
to start a new year...
-She was missing her family.
-Her family?
What did you tell her
about me?
-Nothing. I...
-No, no, no.
She singled me out.
-She accused me, actually.
-Mom.
-What the hell did you tell her?
-What can I tell her?
She can talk about her family,
like you can talk about yours.
-I don't.
-But you could.
-I wish you would.
-So now we just talk about...
every person
who happens to spring to mind?
Now,
let's try a smile.
Yeah? That's nice, but you're
not smiling with your eyes.
-OK.
-I...
I remember
one of the first things
I learned starting out
was how to control
my expression,
because people
do judge you.
Uh, it's not nice,
but
that's what they look at,
so...
What?
No,
she just smiled at me.
OK, well, that's
what we're practicing.
A real smile,
it starts from inside and it...
It spreads.
Yes, but you don't do that
with your hands.
-She looks great, right?
-She does, yeah. Almost.
A little better and... coming
towards you, happy to see them.
Ahh!
Ah, yeah.
Ah, you're beautiful.
Isn't she?
She is. Very.
-But what?
-No, she really is.
- You don't mean it.
- Of course I do.
Are you laughing at me?
Shouldn't we at least...?
-No.
-No?
But things have been so good.
It's gone: good.
-Gone from this world.
-Don't say that.
-It's a burned-out light.
-Don't.
Don't ever say that.
Look at us.
We're a family now.
-We're a family?
-Hmm.
When everyone I love
is not here?
Right.
I know. I know.
That's...
That's hard.
But you should remember: They
wouldn't have wanted to be here.
-They wouldn't have wanted to?
-No.
It wouldn't have worked,
honey.
-We talked about it.
-Honey?
-Yes.
-Now I'm honey?
Alright.
You hated
when your parents came to visit.
Mary's family, too.
You always said that.
No, you said that.
Aw,
come on, now.
You never asked me
what I wanted.
Yeah.
When we first got here
and you could still call out,
you remember?
You didn't even try.
-That's a lie.
-No.
To be honest,
I wondered about it.
She's tough,
I thought.
She's strong.
She doesn't even want to know
if her family's alright.
-What you're saying's not real.
-She's glad to be rid of them.
I asked myself, what kind
of mother is she going to be?
I'm going to tell him
about you.
-What?
-What you did to my family.
- Oh.
- Yeah.
OK.
- Good.
- Yeah.
-I'm sure he'll appreciate it.
-I am, too.
While you're at it, tell him you
thought your family was trash
and you chose this
instead of them.
Hm-mm.
Tell him.
He already knows.
He's not stupid.
I'll tell him
everything about you.
-He knows who you are.
-Everything you did...
to everybody.
-I'm going there now.
-OK.
-I am.
-I'll just, uh...
OK?
We're... we're alright.
You have to...
You have to calm down.
Come on. Come on.
You listen to me.
You listen to me.
We cannot be at war
with each other.
Forgive me
We met at...
Oh, I don't know
This or that occasion
I'm sure it wasn't
all that long ago
You wore a most delightful
burgundy dress
But I... I'm sorry,
I can't quite place your name
Would you...? I'm sorry,
I could almost die of...
Forgive me
Has it really been
so many years
We've been away a lot,
you see
Oh, here and there,
exploring new frontiers
We love to travel, Mom
Can't we enjoy our success?
This trip
It's a little bit longer,
but...
No, Mom,
of course I'll keep in touch
I promise I'll call,
it's not too much trouble
Of course it's no trouble
Dear
Dear Mom
Autumn's gone, winter's here
Our whole world smells
of cinnamon and oranges
And each season
more perfect than the last
I'm sending love
Dear
Dear Mom and Dad
I miss you both
But you never
would be happy here
Each day feels exactly
like the last
But I think of you always
Remember on car trips,
we'd sing all the road signs
like opera?
"Last exit in Kansas"
Or how we'd imagine the lives
of strangers in traffic jams
Mom can't tell jokes,
'cause she always cracks up
When she's nearing
the punchline
So does your grandson
He can't tell them, either
He looks just like you, Dad
I'm sure you would love him
if ever you met him
I wish that, well...
Well
Someday
I'm sorry
I need to go
I hope you're well
Dear Mom
I know I haven't
been in touch
But I've been
thinking of you
I know I haven't
been in touch
But you know
how time slips away
One day, then another
Then another
Then another, then another
But by then it was...
I knew you were...
How, how, how could I...
No message, no call
Just a new stain on the wall,
that's all
And Mom, I...
I...
I...
I...
I am sending love
I hope you're well
I wish that you were here
I am sending love
I hope you're well
I wish that you were here
Do you remember what you wrote
about our orphanage in Nigeria?
It's a masterpiece.
I'm sorry. I couldn't sleep,
I was so excited.
I got up and read the part
about our...
this orphan Daisy.
Is this Daisy?
Can I make
a confession?
It comforts me
that you wrote it.
Dad, it's three in the morning.
Why are you...?
I know, I know.
But where I'm stuck now is
how do I put that human face
on our even more important work,
like, you know,
big statistical stories:
irrigation,
renewable energy...
-... and hope, of course!
-Dad, why are you...
-What?
Please.
You're so good at this.
OK. OK.
Maybe...
Maybe start
with something like:
What really got me out of bed
in the morning was
making a difference.
That's so true.
And then:
My real passion was our work
in the developing world, where
drilling for oil was just
my excuse to build wind farms,
provide clean water,
and save the chimpanzees.
Hmm.
So, could that be
the human face?
Maybe.
Or: Now...
Sarah or Daisy
no longer had to walk 12 miles
to fetch water for her mother...
her crippled mother,
she could go to school like a
normal girl, all because of me.
But I didn't ask...
I just
want to put
a human face...
On what, Dad?
If you think
statistics work better,
-... then...
-Than what?
None of it's true.
Why are you...?
What...?
What more
could I have done?
The other companies
were worse.
At least I cared.
I still care.
Would you get
your faggoty hands off me!
Come in.
We thought we'd make this room
a little nicer for you.
I know.
It's a disaster, right?
No, no. We just...
fill in these cracks and you
choose some new wallpaper.
Wow, it really stinks in here.
Are you still smoking?
Sometimes.
These are of me.
-I didn't know...
-They're of us.
They're nice.
We were young.
You can't just...
I don't want...
Nobody needs to see these.
Have you seen these?
I...
Oh.
And this...
I wish
you'd get rid of this.
No, I...
Please.
Yeah, looking good,
but it's a Magnum, remember.
So that kickback's
gonna...
Oh, oho!
Hey, it's OK!
We're OK.
Yeah.
Oh, but he's not.
You got him right in the knee.
I'm telling you:
This is a great gun.
It's been a real lifesaver
for us.
I brought energy
to billions of people.
And everyone used it to drive
their cars and fly away on
vacation, but...
You know.
Sometimes I wonder
if I did more harm than good.
Did I even care?
Sorry.
I made
some mistakes.
You know,
I, uh...
I never told anyone this,
but...
One time, my dog
followed me to school.
I yelled at her,
"Molly, go home!"
But she wouldn't.
So...
I picked up
a piece of ice
and I
dropped it on her.
But,
when I got home,
she was there.
Like nothing
had happened.
Do you think
that's OK?
Mistakes like that?
Do you think
I could be forgiven,
because I don't know
how much time I have left?
I... I think so.
Good. Good.
Do you think we can be forgiven?
Can I?
Me? Because...
Yes.
I think so.
I really do.
Why not?
Maybe that's the romance
of life: being forgiven?
Making mistakes,
being forgiven.
You see,
we feel too much.
Even
for our mistakes.
We're big-hearted.
Hm?
Hey, you
Look at you
Where are you now
When I need you most of all
Wish you were here
Hey, you
Look at you
Look at that smile
There's light in your eyes,
isn't there
When did it all disappear
Why don't you smile again
Because it's beautiful
Don't do it for you
Do it for me
And I know, I know
Nothing is free
But I'll give you the sky,
the sea
A bird in a tree
Oh, aren't you beautiful?
Huh.
Hey, you
Look at you
You are the big blue sky
Hey, you
Look at you
You are a cloud
A towering cloud
Cumulonimbus
How high would you go
If you could
If you could
It's just so beautiful
even to think about
Even to think about
Even thinking about it
Makes me...
Hey, you
Look at you
High in the big blue sky
Hey, you
Look at you
Are you a bird
A sweet little bird
Are you a chickadee
Cute little chickadee
How high would you fly
In the sky, the big blue sky
It's so beautiful
way up high
Where there's no air
But then you die
Then you...
You...
Tweet, tweet,
tweet, tweet, tweet...
-Even to think about
-Even to think about
Even thinking about it
Makes me...
You get the mask.
Quick, quick.
Put it on her.
So now you have to connect it
to the oxygen.
It is.
It is connected.
It's not turned on.
You'd never know you killed her.
Are you OK?
We got her
out of the fire...
-It's fine.
Turn on the oxygen, keep going.
-But that's cheating.
If you always stop her,
she can't learn.
-Sorry, she forgot the oxygen.
-Well, she's dead, then.
Let's just do it again.
Let's.
She needs the practice.
No.
Mistakes have consequences.
Hey. You need to learn to use
the safety equipment
if you want to stay here.
I hope that's clear.
OK?
- We'll do it again.
- You think I'm a joke?
-Dad, back off.
-Not in my house.
- Your father's right.
- She didn't do anything.
- It's fine.
- It's not.
Your father's worked very hard
and you should show a little
appreciation, actually.
-For what?
-For this.
For all...
For this haven.
Uh... A haven?
For who, Mom?
Where is everyone?
- Come on. Let's go.
Just leave it.
It's OK.
You think she's a saint?
You hate your father and me.
You blame us for everything.
Please, don't.
She's no saint.
She's the worst one here.
Oh, you think so,
Mom?
Just leave it.
Why won't you leave it?
You think
you're better than us?
-I really don't.
-We did everything to save you.
You ask her
what she did for her child.
For her little angel, who died
of, what? Cancer? Measles?
-Whatever lies she told you...
-That's enough, Mom.
Come on.
I'll say it.
Please let me say it.
Tom was...
Tom was an addict.
Like me.
Because of me.
Growing up
with a drunk.
And...
-And I...
-He never had cancer, did he?
You...
You left him...
-You left him behind...
-I...
-And you...
-Shh...
So everything...
Hey.
Hey,
we don't mind.
This is
for the best.
I thought you were different.
-I'm sorry, is it a bad time?
-No, no.
I'll only be a minute.
You don't have to...
Can I have
a moment?
Don't you
want to talk?
Tom could never
have lived here.
You couldn't trust him.
I had no choice.
Let's go.
- Please.
- Just listen to her.
I have always listened to her.
I know. I know.
What more
do you want from me?
I was just hoping
we...
Maybe you can... You can...
Forgive her?
How is it
up to me?
It's not
up to me.
You want forgiveness?
Go ask Tom.
It's still ten days
until your next refill.
I'm not sleeping.
You haven't had a good night's
sleep in 25 years, have you?
That's why I give you
so much shit.
Or because
I'm such a prick.
I remember
when you weren't.
Do you?
Everything itches,
doesn't it?
Yeah.
So, um...
Oh...
OK.
Hey, hey.
Shh.
Hey.
I'm so tired.
Aren't you?
Talk to me.
I'm alright.
I'm just tired.
You can
talk to me.
At least she's at peace,
right?
-You don't have to do that.
-It was her choice.
-No, you don't have to do that.
-She wasn't happy, never.
That's not true. She was happy
for you. She was happy for us.
I doubt... That was just
her running away again or...
I don't know.
I don't even know if she cared
about us, not really.
She loved you.
-I don't even know
if she liked me.
-She loved you.
Why don't you stop, please.
I'm so tired.
I know you're upset,
but she was your best friend...
-Stop! You talk too much,
you know that?
-No, that's not true.
Yes, you pick and pick and pick,
and it goes on and on.
-If you deny who she was...
-It becomes hell for everyone.
You want to make yourself feel
better for killing your family.
And now you're killing mine,
actually.
You alright?
Oh, come on.
Hey. You ready
for your birthday party?
Did you have a dream?
I did.
I dreamt
a dog was barking.
Or running away, or...
Or chasing something.
I can't...
-I can't remember
what happened next.
-Are you ready?
What happened next?
-I've got him.
-I'm sorry.
There we are. Come on.
How do I look?
Beautiful.
-Really? Both of us?
-Yeah. It's a great match.
OK.
How about now?
Hm.
Good. Better.
Better?
Oh.
It's great.
Can I take it?
Oh.
Alright.
-You alright?
-Sorry.
Sorry.
Yeah.
I love your smile.
Let's go see
those presents. Let's go see.
Come on, let's go see.
-Here.
-No.
-What an exciting day.
-Yeah.
Ah.
Oh.
Where would we be
without his cakes?
I...
I...
I am...
What a wonderful gift
you have given us
A grandchild.
See? We were right all along
And all we have
been through together
Makes us family
and that can't be wrong
Look at us, better than ever
Look at us,
aren't we a sight
Look at us,
all we have done here
So to us,
our future is bright
Am I home at last
Safe and sound
With everyone I love?
I am home at last
Safe and sound
With everyone I love
In the end
Our perfect bright blue
summer day
It all came true
The clouds just blew away
I'm here with you
Everyone I ever loved is here,
too
Have I found home at last
Where I've always belonged?
Together with everyone
I love
Their love keeps me strong
At last I am home
Right where I belong
Together with everyone
I love
Their love keeps me strong
We're basking in the light
And our future is bright
In the end,
the long dark night
-I'm drowning in light
-Turned to golden day
Our future's bright
-In light
-Clouds blew away
In light
We're drowning in light
Once the world
was full of strangers
We kept our distance
-So many dangers
-We're drowning in light
We trusted no one
Oh no.
Oh no,
did you have a nightmare?
What happened?
Tell me.
No, I'm just thirsty.
A fire, a tree, a horse
And a house,
an Indian, of course
And a settler, a sleigh,
a snowman
A cat, a cloud, a moose
And a windmill, a blizzard,
a caboose
A shipyard, a seagull,
a sunrise
How high would you go
If you could,
oh, if you could
I knew this would be
A perfect morning
No one is stirring
If I were a cat
I'd be purring
It's easier with light,
right?
-Sorry, I was finishing up.
-Eh.
-I'll get out of your way, Dad.
-Hey, look at that.
To think this all
leads to us
It's quite beautiful
even to think about
Even to think a...
Are you ready for us?
Sure, we're done, we just...
We met early
to discuss the air supply.
This looks great.
To think this all
ends with you
Only you
There you are.
I was...
Forgive me, I'm sorry...
- I was just coming.
- No, don't let me intrude
I just thought
that you and I...
No, no, you're busy,
and I'm being rude
Maybe we'll find
another time later today
You wanna have
breakfast with your dad?
No, I...
You're swimming
with your mom, right?
- Yes.
- But first...
show her
what you did with the flowers.
Night-blooming jasmine
Why'd you ever...
Night-scented orchid
How clever
And evening primrose
I'd have never
They all bloom at twilight
Here, they bloom forever
What a wonderful gift
you have given us
Flowers in the night
Look at us,
aren't we a sight?
Forever,
the strength of our family
Together,
our future is bright
-Shadows grew
-Shadows grew long
Into endless night
-Into endless night
-We fight through the dark
And we thrive
In our happily ever after
Basking in the light
We will bask
in the morning light
Basking in the morning light
And these walls
will echo with laughter
Together,
our future is bright
What a wonderful gift
you have given us
A good life
with no end in sight
Our hope for tomorrow
will guide us
Together,
our future is bright
28:10!
Isn't that three seconds faster
than your record?
Wow!
Oh.
Huh.
Uh...
Isn't it a little...?
I mean, it's a little...
It's too colorful,
isn't it?
I'm sorry.
Well, I was...
I was going to say trashy.
I mean, it's not,
but...
it is a little kitschy,
isn't it?
-So you like it?
-Yeah!
So do you, right? I mean,
it's still a masterpiece.
-A trashy one.
-Yeah.
I think
this is our best spring ever.
Mmm.
Thank you, thank you.
This wall...
Is it darker?
Than what?
It's the same paint.
It's the contrast.
The tufts of cloud
are so bright.
Come on,
you've done well for yourself.
-Remember that rathole
you had in ballet school?
-Oh, my God.
I had to teach you
how to piss in the soup pot.
Maybe if I don't
stare at it.
Yeah.
It's just...
No, I'm sorry, if there's
one thing I've learned,
it's to take details seriously.
-It's very subtle.
-But subtle's worse.
Because you're always trying
to find it again.
The fire's still raging
and you are out of time.
In 90 seconds,
there will be nothing left.
87, 86,
85,
and she's still breathing.
Get the fire extinguisher first.
You must put the fire out first.
And you are down.
No, save your mother.
Go, save your mother.
Go on, save her.
- That area's on fire.
- I jumped through the flames.
It's an inferno.
Now you are on fire.
You need to lie down.
Please.
What are you doing?
That's empty.
- In 15 seconds, she's gone.
Where are you going?
I'm here.
No, you left her.
And your dad is on fire.
- No.
- That's lights out, Mom.
Lights out here.
- That's of no use.
- No, I got him.
No.
I got him.
- Shh, calm down.
- Lights out, Dad.
- It's OK.
- Put me down.
- Your father is dead.
Look at your mother.
Your mother is dead.
Everyone died.
You failed.
Everyone died.
We are all dead.
"I jumped out of bed,
thrilled for a new day
in the energy business."
"In Indonesia, we were the bread
and butter of the nation,
"lifting millions
out of poverty and disease."
Ah, it's beautiful.
"So when terrorist rebels
blockaded our Matapao refinery,
"I couldn't turn
the other cheek.
I owed it to those proud people
"to fight back,
an eye for an eye.
"I dialed General Edhie
and requested air support.
My god, did it come!
"Rat-a-tat-tat,
spat the machine guns
"as the terrorists' bodies
were being ripped into..."
No.
First of all, I condemn
the violation of human rights.
No, I know.
-I just...
-But is that how you see me?
I... I...
It's what
he gave me.
I just gave him
all the articles.
That must be what the media...
Hey.
Let me see them.
These are lies.
How is my son supposed to write
if you don't...
He doesn't know
the difference!
It's all...
It's all... blood and violence.
I'll write a different climax.
Uh...
No.
Sorry.
Today was
a hard chapter,
but I think he...
sees the big picture.
That's wonderful.
I look at him,
the man he's become.
He'll be fine.
I know he will.
Yeah.
You can't sleep?
I can't do anything.
When Tom was dying,
and you knew you'd end up alone,
how did you cope?
I drank.
You know that.
But Tom and I
had so many good times.
And now
I have you.
I see what you're doing.
Just...
Just because there's
a little pause before you eat it
doesn't mean
people won't notice.
Your mom will notice.
Just don't steal
my cigarettes.
How did the joke go?
That Tom told the doctor
when he lost his hair
and both were bald?
Oh, you mean,
"Well, Doc, your head's
a lot brighter than my future?"
How could the doctor
be offended by that?
Doctor, um...
What was his name?
Oh, there were
so many doctors and
treatments...
Sometimes I think
that's what killed him.
But he always knew
I was there for him.
A blood-red sun
fills the sky
Far above me,
buzzards fly
They watch, they wait
Way up high
Ma, promise I won't die
I will always be with you
I will always be with you
To hold your hand
and stroke your hair
So whether skies
are dark or fair
Just sleep,
my child, I'm there
The sun is gone
It will not rise
The poison sea,
a last gull cries
A dusty storm blows out,
then dies
Ma, I'm scared
to close my eyes
Count falling stars
Till sleep arrives
The last star falls
The moon just sighs
The sky goes black
And heaven dies
I'm here, child
Close your eyes
I will always be with you
Everywhere
Well, well.
A sleepover?
-I guess I wasn't invited?
-No, no, you don't.
Tell us about it.
Or did he just come to pee
in the bed like in the old days?
What hole
did you crawl out of?
He does have quite the
ding dong on him, doesn't he?
I'm surprised you have
enough room down there,
what with your fallen uterus.
You are pathetic.
Get out.
Alright, come on.
- The sight's broken.
- Oh, yeah?
Show him.
Go on, show him.
How's a butterball
supposed to stop a bullet?
Now, now.
He was a hero
that day.
How'd he get that?
When I was little, people came.
And why is that important?
-They can kill us.
-Uh-huh.
Sometimes
they actually seemed nice.
They were just
asking for food.
But it always ended
the same way:
They'd try and kill us
every time.
I was lucky, though.
The bullet went
right through me.
Lucky.
That was
the worst day of my life.
Almost losing you.
I remember it
like it was yesterday.
And later,
maybe we can cut your hair.
What's that?
What is that?
Someone's here.
Come on,
seal off the area!
-Get in the car.
-Who is it?
-Get back in the car!
She's breathing.
How did you find us?
-I saw smoke.
-Ah.
Did you pass
through Salem?
I mean,
there was a town, but...
Right,
it's burnt through.
Did you live there?
We live here.
-Yeah.
-Hm-hm.
You must be
a family.
What about
your family?
They're gone.
So you're alone?
Sorry to hear that.
-Were you attacked?
-No.
No.
There's... There's no one.
There's no one.
After the fire season
last summer, we were hungry...
But how long
was your family alone?
Three years, but even
before that,
months went by with no one.
It just got
less and less.
People killing each other off.
Can you just tell us
what happened, please?
We had to get
out of the burnt area
to find food,
but it just went on and on.
And so...
we followed a highway.
There was a river,
but the bridge was gone.
So we tried to swim across,
but you can't...
-I made it.
-That's alright,
we understand.
But my mom...
and sister...
then Dad...
-All of them?
-I never should've...
-Never should've what?
-She told us what happened...
-But how did you keep going?
-Enough.
She'll need her strength.
You survived.
That's good.
Right?
Yeah.
Can you see how she got in?
No.
And there's half a mile of rock
above us.
We should move her.
It's damp,
and it's cold there.
But, uh...
To a spare bedroom
or something?
We can't let her stay,
can we?
But we can't.
It's been
20 years
since someone came.
No, no, no.
We said
we have to draw a line
somewhere.
We always said that.
Hm-hm.
Well, that was before we knew
how long we'd be down here.
But... But we said that
about everyone. Everyone!
If we change that now...
She's right.
That's why we have
a protocol.
Everything you've built
depends on it.
Right.
Alright.
Well,
we'll send her away.
"There was nothing.
"We were no one.
"We were less and less
and less..."
Lies,
trying to trick us into...
Anyway,
we're not the Red Cross.
Don't touch me.
I'll blow your fucking head off!
This trip
It's just a little bit longer,
but
If it doesn't kill you,
it makes you stronger
Don't talk, don't shake
or sigh or breathe
Don't look back,
don't you look at...
Don't touch me
Don't you ever
fucking touch me
Your sob stories
You think
I don't know you're stalling
Just don't look down,
you'll never know
you're falling
Our right
to life and liberty
Our happiness, our property
We protect that,
we won't let you wreck that
Ba da dee, ba da da...
Look at me,
see how I shine
The best comes last
in the grand design
And I'm unsurpassed,
the future's mine alone
The shining city on the hill
is me alone
Alone
Who else to light the way
but me alone?
All alone
I am here to keep
the dark at bay
Oh, God
Don't you dare start crying
Stay strong
And you'll feel
like you're flying
Nyah nyah nyah nyah...
Trouble
We don't want any trouble
But if we meet again
On a perfect bright blue
summer day
There's so much
that you and I might say
We'd start anew
So many questions
that I'd like to...
But until then
Be a cloud on high
You're made of air,
just drifting by
So you don't care
when you fade away
Alone
You disappear
without a trace
All alone
But solitude is bliss
Though the night is long
The sun will rise
Until then
Close your eyes
Here, Mom.
The safety's off.
I wish I'd brought
one of his other paintings.
This one's always staring at us.
What if we move it?
-We'll find a spot later.
-You're right.
There's a place
for everything.
I'm just a little on edge
this morning.
You like them?
You kidding?
I've never had new shoes.
Good. I'm so glad.
-Whoa.
-I tried. I had no choice.
- Please, I'll die.
- It's OK.
-I'll... I'll die.
-This way.
-It's OK.
-Please.
-Why are you looking at me?
-I can't go back out.
-Don't look at me like that.
-Please.
-Give me your hands.
-You don't understand.
- I'll die.
- You'll be fine.
-No, please!
-Come on.
- Wait, listen...
- Get her, we need...
- Hold her legs.
- OK, OK...
- Give me your belt.
- No, please. I'll stop.
- I don't want to do this.
- Hold her.
- Help me, please.
- That's enough.
Look at her.
-Please!
-I said that's enough.
Stop.
Now.
It's just a short drive.
Three minutes
and we're at the dining room.
OK.
We made bouillabaisse
and Dover sole.
I hope you're hungry.
I am. If I could,
I'd eat and eat and...
-... keep on eating.
-Thank you. I mean... Good.
Or rather...
Oh.
You must be very brave.
What you went through
before you came here.
Hmm.
But you can relax now.
Please...
-It smells delicious.
-We'll see.
The sauce kept separating,
but I think we just saved it.
We're thrilled
you're joining us tonight.
Right?
Is that you?
- Excuse me?
- Is that you?
Uh...
I was much younger then.
Ah.
-Is that your family?
-No.
Yes, my husband's family.
Try it.
It has a lot of tannin in it
from all the heat and drought.
But that's only good
for aging a wine.
Thank you.
Do you like it?
It's sour.
Uhm, bitter.
Huh.
It really is!
Maybe, if you, uhm,
take a sip
and you breathe in as you...
Like this, see?
What does that do?
It lets
all the other flavors...
Oh! Oh, dear.
- Sorry.
- That's quite alright.
-That didn't help, did it?
-That's perfectly alright.
It's still lousy.
One of the world's great chefs.
People waited months
for a table.
They waited years.
Oh, enough.
But save room for dessert.
I don't know where we'd be
without her cakes.
I hope you like it.
So, I think, uh,
this young lady would like
to know what we do around here.
Right?
I'm helping Dad write a book.
- Oh.
- He's my editor.
I was
in the energy business
and I guess I made a difference,
so...
it's a way of giving
something back.
Hopefully
somebody will read it.
Did you show her
the living room?
-We walked through.
-It's beautiful, right?
- All the art she brought...
- Yeah.
You know, she chose each piece
so carefully.
From every movement
and style.
She's an artist, too.
A ballerina.
She danced
at the Bolshoi.
I'm sorry?
You're learning piano now.
-What?
-I said you're learning piano.
-Oh. Oh...
-Don't worry.
Yeah. Is it...?
-Is there something wrong?
-Sorry, I didn't hear you.
-That's OK.
-Yeah.
She's gonna master it,
you'll see.
-You wanna play later?
-No.
- No...
- Right.
-We swim in the morning
to stay fit.
-OK.
When Mom was dancing, she had
to be in perfect shape, always.
I'm so sorry
about what we
put you through.
Oh.
We were scared.
We were just
very scared.
I... I hope
you can understand that.
-Yeah.
-Yeah?
Scared.
- Yeah?
Hm-hm.
Thank you.
Yeah.
Hm.
You were born here?
He was. He's very lucky.
Your face
was so round.
He was fat.
We called him
Bruiser.
- It's nice.
- Yeah.
-You had a dog down here?
-Yeah.
- Charlie.
- God, we miss him.
What's this?
What were you doing?
Food fight.
I forgot that.
We keep all holidays.
Halloween.
Scary faces.
Did no one else make it?
I mean,
from your family?
I just ask because...
I know what that's like,
to...
Careful.
You can easily cross a line.
Some things are private.
-There should be some distance.
-It has nothing to do with you!
Look.
Wanna help me?
Your ninth birthday.
Remember that?
-I...
-That suit?
Oh, yes.
You were having
a wonderful time.
You looked
so dapper in it.
That's a nice one of you,
Mom.
But my eyes
Oh, they shine
No, I look old
No, you look lovely
No, look at my smile
Each year you look brighter
than the last
See? Look!
New Year's Eve
A few years later
Those hats and tiaras
It was all your idea, Mom
No, but you made them,
you and your dad
You made this house
into a home
Look, the two of us
Each year brings us closer
than the last
She smiles
The whole room grows bright
I did everything right
But I'm a deer
frozen in fright
Flooded by...
Dazzled by...
Blinded by light
Once the world was
full of strangers
We kept our distance
So many dangers
We trusted no one
Now we have each other
Here, we're family
So I can be a mother
to my child
Give him a life worth living
If everything
should disappear
He'll feel my love
Love
Keep all of this polished
Make sure that it shines
Each room we clean
is a show of our spirit
Each stain we ignore
Is a sign of surrender
But here we all
care for each other
You'll be happy here
Each year brings us
closer than the last
She smiles
The whole room grows bright
Everything will be alright
I'll do everything right
You'll be fine
I'll be fine
I'm blinded by light
Once the world
was full of strangers
We kept our distance
So many dangers
We trusted no one
Now we have each other
Here, we're family
I am a mother
To my child
I'll give and keep on giving
my child
Flooded by light
-A life worth living
-Basking in light
If everything
should disappear
-Drowning in light
-He'll feel my love
He'll feel my love
Drowning in light
Come on in.
-Are you alright?
-Uh... uh...
Nothing to be afraid of.
Just a little water.
She's scared, Mom.
-Shouldn't...?
-No, she's alright.
Right?
Mom, just...
But this is bad.
If one of us can't help
in an emergency...
I...
It's alright.
Jump.
Jump.
You little cocksucker.
Fat little shit.
Lemme see
your choppers.
Lemme see your pearly white...
Talking to the fish?
No.
-I know it's stupid.
-Why?
It's not stupid.
I love to talk.
A real motormouth,
yammering away...
My mom used to call me
her radio.
'Cause she liked to listen
when it got too...
uhm, quiet.
See?
That's the Civil War.
And that's
the Texas Oil Boom.
It started as
home schooling, but
whenever I learn
a true gem of history, I add it.
Yeah, I saw you had
the moon landing.
-You know about that?
-At night we saw satellites,
just...
circling the world.
Hard to believe
we could put them there.
But we could!
And we did!
"One giant leap
for mankind."
Phew! It moves me
in a very personal way.
-Here, I'm laying
the Pacific Railroad.
-Hm-hm.
They were Chinese.
You made them
look happy.
But they were.
What they did?
Before, you had to hike
through the jungles of Nicaragua
and get malaria or
motion sickness on a boat,
but...
you had no choice.
Unless you walked.
You don't know?
Thousands of them died.
But they didn't die
in vain.
They were really
part of something.
I don't know.
I don't know, losing people
like that, one after another...
Right, no, I don't...
No, I...
I don't mean that...
They weren't happy. But yes...
They could be proud.
They were building a country.
And that's...
That's the point of all of this:
building a country,
creating the moments.
See, there's Ulysses S. Grant.
And Grant's Tomb.
Uh...
Would you help me?
I can try.
We can plant trees.
I'll get some more. "Greening
the desert," they call it!
Or just making it
look more realistic, right?
They're just
here in the kitchen.
You'll love these.
They're...
What's wrong?
I told them I was going
to look for food, but I didn't.
We'd been trying to cross
that river for months,
and now it was winter.
And Dad was sick.
And I couldn't...
I couldn't...
I crossed without them
in the end.
- I know.
- No.
No, it's worse.
When I got to the other side,
I looked back.
They were calling me,
but I couldn't hear.
And the way
Dad looked at me...
Then they went
into the water.
What could you have done?
-They were dying...
-No, that's an excuse.
-They wanted you to live.
-They might've lived if I...
No, you can't think like that.
You can't.
It's just,
there's so much...
food here.
There's so much everything.
Uh...
We faced that,
too.
Who to save.
But...
Really,
you don't have a choice.
I had a choice.
-I had a choice.
-I know, I know... Listen,
I... I can finish this
on my own.
I know
where everything goes.
"Since the dawn of time,
the climate has changed.
"It will keep on changing
long after we're gone.
"Any little thing
can make it happen,
"from sunspots
to the wobbling of the Earth.
"There have been ice ages
and ages with no ice at all.
"Things come and go.
It's arrogance to think we
control the fate of our planet."
Sorry,
can I borrow a book?
Yeah! Sure.
How's it going?
Oh, great.
Very good writing.
"We'll never know
if our industry contributed
to the rising temperatures.
"But without fossil fuels,
the human race
"would be languishing
in poverty, and..."
Yeah... yeah...
Go on.
Oh. Oh!
You know what?
Maybe she has some ideas.
Me?
I mean...
It's your story.
You know what it needs.
Right.
That's exactly right.
Sorry. Thank you.
Hm.
Thank you.
You see?
We're on the right track.
Sometimes
you're too self-critical.
Yeah.
Who knows?
She might really make
a contribution.
-What's wrong?
-Uh... Nothing.
Maybe I was a bit short
with her yesterday.
Oh.
She was asking
about my diorama, but
I wanted to get back
to our writing.
I got impatient.
Maybe you should
give her something.
To show you appreciate
how hard she's trying.
Maybe something special.
I, uhm...
I... uh...
I got you something.
Thank you.
A watch?
It works.
Yeah, of course.
It's one of the most accurate
timepieces ever created.
Thank you.
My dad's watch was broken,
but he still wore it.
We guessed time,
looking at the sky.
Well, this works
a lot better than the sky.
A classic combination:
rose gold and ostrich leather.
I... I thought it might help you
manage your time better.
My time?
If a man earns
half a billion dollars a year,
every second of his time
is worth 16 dollars.
I want that.
So should you.
Why?
All that money,
look what they did with it.
It's a matter of respect,
not wasting people's time.
-Time is precious.
-I know about that.
Then you know
the importance of productivity.
-Achieving more in less time.
-I know what it means.
It's just,
is that what you think?
Or is it
from your dad's book?
It's my book, too.
I'm writing it.
When I
walked in,
you seemed...
You seemed
embarrassed.
No, I wasn't.
We were working on something
important and difficult.
It's called being hopeful.
The seconds
ticking past so fast
Before you notice them,
they're gone
Forever
But I remember time
When moments
did not disappear
When I closed my eyes
A single breath
could go on and on
Forever
So how few breaths
we might have left
Meant nothing much at all
Forever
Forever
How few breaths
we might have left
Meant nothing much
At all
You're developing
tolerance again.
We'll switch you back
to these,
restore some order
in there.
And I can combine these
with my muscle relaxant?
You'll sleep even better.
And...
will they help
with my dreams?
No?
OK.
Because they're getting worse.
And they are...
trash!
Why is my head
full of trash?
That's what dreams are.
For everyone.
Things happen during the day,
there's no time
to think about it.
Your brain files it away.
It...
But they...
They'll get you
back to sleep.
Thank you.
This is adorable.
How did you
make them?
I don't know,
I...
Mom...
In the beginning, did you see
the people who tried to get in?
No, I was with you.
Protecting you.
Before that,
then,
when you first came,
did you ever consider...
Because there's
enough room here, so...
Did you ever consider
inviting more people?
Who could we trust?
We had to think
about you.
Sorry, right.
I just wondered if...
I just wondered
if sometimes you feel sad or...
Who could we trust?
Sorry, right.
-Maybe you feel...
-I feel fine.
She is
a little insensitive.
Disrespectful.
To him, especially.
I'm not sure
he feels that way.
You're not?
I am. Very.
-It's like she has an agenda.
-An agenda?
-An agenda? I don't see what...
-You don't see.
Everyone else
we could've invited.
You said we had
to draw a line.
-Because otherwise...
-Yes.
-Yeah.
-Otherwise.
-Yes.
-Exactly.
-Yeah.
And you brought
your best friend.
She's family.
Look,
I'll talk to her.
I just don't understand
why she's here.
Why she's here?
What are you saying?
- Well...
- She...
She...
She is a stranger.
Our family,
they loved us.
We can tell her,
one more strike and you're out.
Something like that,
but...
-... only if you want that.
-No.
I don't want
to be the one...
I just think of everyone else
we could've brought.
No, alright, if you...
Hm.
-It still hurts, doesn't it?
-No.
Sometimes, but I think
the antibiotic isn't working.
Oh, so doing my job now,
are we?
You need
a different antibiotic.
But is it really
worth it?
-Will it help?
-Sure. But why bother...
...if you're leaving us
anyway?
There's just no bottom with you.
Give her the medicine.
Thank you.
No. It is. It's chipped.
Did you chip
the painting?
No.
I didn't, really.
Well,
why is it chipped?
-It's always been chipped.
-Of course it has.
I would've noticed it.
-I know it's subtle.
-"Subtle's worse." Yes.
So,
are we looking into this?
Because I...
I'll go start on,
uhm, the office.
Aren't you trying
to be kind? I love that.
- I'm not being kind.
- That painting...
-Renoir's hands...
-"Twisted with arthritis."
Yeah, but we love that,
right?
The look of pain
in her eyes,
but still she danced with grace,
look.
-I see it.
-Do you?
The willingness
to sacrifice everything
to make this world
just a little bit bearable?
He strapped
the brushes to his fingers!
It came off.
It was just a bit of plaster.
I... I think
it's a myth.
I think it's a myth
about strapping brushes
to his fingers.
I think his assistants
helped him.
You gotta
knock it off.
She lives with us.
And you're not doing him
a favor, either.
Fucking piece of shit!
Was this piano a gift from
when Mom retired from dancing
or when she debuted
in Swan Lake?
I don't remember.
She also said the director
of the Bolshoi was an admirer
and gave it to her
when he first saw her dance.
-You'll have to ask her.
-She'll tell me a new story.
Whatever serves
her purpose.
She never danced
at the Bolshoi.
What?
She was...
an understudy
on a tour,
but she never got to perform.
Hm?
Don't tell her
that I told you.
No, no.
-Please, promise you won't.
-Of course not.
That's good enough, isn't it?
No.
I have
to fill the cracks.
But there will be
a picture there.
But it should be like silk,
your mother says.
It always cracks.
So it feels infinite
when you paint it blue.
Like the sky,
right?
-But it's just a wall.
-Please!
There's nowhere else
for me to go.
Nowhere.
I just need
15 minutes
to fill the cracks
and I'll be done.
- Do you want me to time it?
- No, don't do that.
That was stupid of me.
We would've killed you.
I...
I tried.
But...
You said we always
have a choice.
But... I...
I'll never see the sky
I'll never feel the wind
I'll never smell the rain
I'll never see a tree
Shimmer in the heat
I'll never see the dust
Drift across the plain
I'll never feel a storm
blowing warm and wet
I'll never see the hills
dark in silhouette
I'll never see the sky
Turn from blue to black
And I know
it can't turn back
Don't you see
I'll always be too late
Even for the twilight
Blotting out the dying light,
a never-ending night
I close my eyes real tight
Not one star in my sight
I just see salt,
dead and white
But that's alright
You'll be alright
Have no fear
Just stay strong and hard
like stone
Like walls
Like these walls
And live forever
Alone forever
Too late,
I thought the sun has set
Maybe not quite yet
Not quite yet
Clouds catch fire
In the last rays of sunlight
You can do that too
-How can I do that too?
-And you can shine
Like snow in the moonlight
Can we, can we do that too?
Can we do that too?
Can we do that too?
- A cumulonimbus cloud.
- Cumulonimbus?
Yeah. The top
reaches the stratosphere,
then it stops.
There's no more water up there,
so it stops.
That's... nothing.
I don't know
what that is.
Somewhere
my parents went.
They don't know
I have this.
Are they cities?
-They're, um...
-Fires?
-They're fires.
They're still burning.
They'll burn for hundreds
of years until the oil's gone.
Those people, they're...
They're so angry.
Yeah.
I don't know
who those are.
Some...
-That's your mom.
-Yeah.
Who's she with?
That's my Aunt Mary.
And that's my grandmother.
That's my Aunt Mary again.
Dressed as a bird...
Why aren't they here?
I don't know.
I don't know.
-It doesn't work. You do it.
-You do it.
-Wait! No, no!
-No, no! You can't "wait!"
You can't say "wait!"
You just gotta go for it.
No.
Dum ba dum...
Oh!
Oh!
Oh!
-This isn't a trap, is it?
-One-man marching band.
-Huh? What?
Don't just stand there,
try!
Do something!
Cha-cha-cha...
Oh.
Uh...
No, no, it's OK.
Look, watch.
You never tried that?
You build it up
and let it go
to a little music.
Yeah.
Me and my sister
used to do that.
-Do it again. Do it again!
-Are you crazy?
No, that's dangerous!
Can I say something?
I'm excited about
too many things at once.
Seeing you
in the morning,
thinking about you
when I brush my...
I... I do that.
I promise, I...
What if we just
left this place?
- They're sweating.
- It's OK.
I... I'm sorry.
I know, I...
It just happened.
What do you want to know? We...
We have fun.
That's all.
You have fun?
When we're working,
we have a good time.
Hm.
And at night?
No.
- No.
- No?
No.
Just when we're working.
But you have
had sex with her.
No, what I'm doing is...
I think
I like her.
I'm sorry, Mom.
How?
How can you know?
I... I just know.
But you have no experience.
You've never met anybody before.
I know,
but that's what's happening.
Sometimes
when we like somebody,
they don't like us
in exactly the same way.
Sometimes they just want
something from us.
No.
I know how she feels.
I do.
If you're so sure of that,
then...
why give her this?
Oh, dear.
If you give her
something like this,
you're never going to truly know
how she feels about you.
No, that's not true.
We give out of love.
And when we receive,
we give love back.
We say, thank you.
I love you.
But that was stupid of me.
She didn't want a watch.
She was upset
and I wouldn't listen.
She needed
someone to listen.
Mom, I...
I love her.
I do.
It doesn't mean
that I don't love you.
Oh...
It's alright, isn't it?
I mean,
I know you said...
I said...? Oh.
Yeah.
Forget all that.
That's the past.
No, no! This is stirring.
-I was folding.
-No, you must fold.
A moron.
- A total fucking moron.
Whoop!
And you,
a cloud on my towering mountain.
I want to be
a cloudy day.
Ah, well there's plenty of it,
so keep on going.
I will make you the Chamonix,
and rain the egg...
No!
I want you to keep going.
I want you
to feel at home.
This is your home
now.
I do.
Thank you.
And we usually
have fruit salad.
-Oh.
-We do.
We like it, don't we?
Yeah.
It's...
There's hardly anything in it.
Nothing bad for you.
It's...
And sometimes we have it
with a poached egg.
-Yeah.
-But no yolk.
And we enjoy it,
don't we?
Have waffles today,
Mom.
Come on.
Live it up.
No, I think
I'll stick with my fruit.
It's better for me,
and...
No,
and I'll enjoy it.
"To see her dance was to witness
"an exquisite flower opening
her petals to the sunrise.
"The hushed audience
at the Bolshoi was mesmerized.
"From my perch in the royal box,
I decided to make her mine."
Hm!
No.
Why'd you stop?
-It's... hollow.
-Hollow?
A flower
opening to the sunrise?
But she was a great dancer,
incredible.
Yeah.
When you went backstage,
how did you feel?
I filled her dressing room
with flowers.
-That's what you wrote.
-I know, but...
Did you ever want to know
what she really felt about you?
But maybe you were
scared to ask.
But then you had to.
Well...
I think you're looking
for something too abstract.
It's a form, romance.
You don't go
into endless chitchat.
The love
is in the metaphor
of a flower.
Or a beautiful sunset.
-Maybe some kisses.
-But it's not.
It's not.
Hmm.
Well, we'd have an evening here,
a dinner there.
It was
a long time ago.
Maybe it's normal
to forget.
It is.
It is.
You get used to each other.
The initial passion just
fades and...
How can you grow old together if
you can't remember how it was?
Well, that...
That's not what I...
What about you,
Butterball?
Would you come down,
please?
I was wondering...
Have you ever...?
I mean,
you know about me.
How I am and all.
Huh.
-Oh... Don't worry about that.
-Really?
Yeah.
Well, I did once...
What I should've done,
what could've been nice...
If only I'd said...
Or asked him
for a cup of coffee.
That's what people do,
you know.
When I get a charley horse
in my leg at night
and I can't reach it...
You see?
I can't.
So I...
I think about that
from time to time:
what would've happened.
Maybe nothing.
But maybe he,
or someone else
Anyway.
I never went in
for all that.
We all have things
we wish
we would've...
That's why
it's so hard.
That's all I meant:
being scared
to say hello.
That can work.
Sure. And when you did,
maybe you even had sweaty palms,
so you were scared
to take Mom's hand.
Sweaty palms?
Yeah, it's great. Keep going.
I'm scared to take her hand
Right.
Too scared to take her hand
Can't recall a single word
Oh, that's good.
Too scared
to say a single word
Now tell me where you are
Can't remember where I was
Maybe in your car at night
Waiting at a traffic light
Or driving through a storm
Blowing warm and wet
Lightning overhead
Phosphorescent torn-up net
And we're all alone
Dark hills in silhouette
Just the two of us
If only I dared to say hello
To say hello
I reach out
and take her hand
I'd wake in the night
and not be alone
Not be alone
It's just so beautiful
Even to think about
Even to think about
Even to think about
Clouds catch fire
In the last rays of sunlight
You can do that, too
What gift did I give
I only gave love, only love
Even to think about
In the last rays
I did, oh, I did,
and I said hello
-I said hello
-BUTLER: It's so beautiful
Even to think about
It's just so beautiful
Even to think about
What?
Can't you sleep?
Your robe.
It's so pretty.
It's, uh,
the same as always.
Oh.
But it's nice.
I... I...
You look nice.
I, uh...
You know what's funny?
I've been thinking
about how we met.
How long it took me
to say hello.
I don't know if I ever told you,
but I was scared.
I wanted to hold your hand,
but...
my hands were
so sweaty.
- That's how scared I was.
- Oh, yeah.
See?
How your robe
meets your neck.
You're beautiful.
I'm just older,
that's what I am.
No.
You're beautiful.
And I think of all the years
we've had together,
I...
That's something else
I never told you.
What I was just doing,
you know what I call it?
Because I call it
something.
Schnickling and schnackling
my head.
You never seen me
do it?
You call it schnickling
and schnackling your head?
I guess I don't do it too much
in front of you.
You have a name
for it?
-Sorry.
-What?
Uh... Give me one second.
-You alright?
-Yeah, sorry.
Hold my hands.
Here we go.
Good.
Lower your head.
Yeah...
Great!
Great, good.
You're a bit scared,
that's all.
You're doing great.
-Ready?
-Uh-huh.
You alright?
-It really shines there, Mom.
-It feels cold, the room.
-We haven't hung the chandelier
yet by the north wall.
-The north wall?
Adding just that touch of
warmth, like the North Star.
No, no.
Stars are cold, too.
I think
we need more red.
Mom,
winter is cold.
Yes, but it's what you do
in the cold.
You don't look at the stars,
you...
I... I don't even remember.
Sure you do.
How our breaths froze
and we ran all the way
to school to keep warm.
Your feet
are like ice.
You can feel
the blood rushing.
Or at night with your family.
-Sorry.
-No, please, go on.
Night so cold and long
Afraid to sleep
It seems the night goes on
Forever
But when you're not alone
And you sleep close
You won't feel cold at all
You keep each other warm
as a family.
Even in a storm
You're scared at first
But not for very long
If you're together
You can forget?
When you stay close
to those you love
There's not much fear at all
So if we stay together
And we keep close now
Can we weather
another winter?
Together
Here we have each other
-In cold and darkness
-Together
Can we warm one another
Just with love
Winter days
so short and dark
Before you notice them,
they're gone
Nights so long
and warmed by love
You don't feel cold at all
If you close your eyes,
you'd maybe dream
The night would never end
How few nights
we might have left
Meant nothing much at all
We will give and keep on
giving our love
We will make this life
worth living
If everything
should disappear
We still have love
We still
Have love
That was...
quite... I didn't even
know you wanted that.
I'm so sorry.
No,
I'm not blaming you.
-I'm so sorry.
-I'm not blaming you. I just...
-It's been a long time.
-Yeah.
-I don't...
-Yeah.
-I wasn't expecting...
-You weren't?
-No, not...
-Well...
Then what...
Well, that's good.
It's a little unrealistic,
out of the blue like that...
I know, I know.
Maybe we could
try again another time,
but with a little warning?
Oh.
What?
Never seen your mom
covered in shit?
Bring that here.
I thought,
instead of paper,
we could grow flowers
again.
I think
we can save these.
Pour the water here.
So,
you hold it from below.
And you have to be
very gentle with the roots.
If they break,
it dies.
When did you...?
Who taught you this?
I don't know.
Was it your mom?
Mom,
what was she like?
What is that?
A bird.
A chicken?
That is not
a chicken.
Chickens are the only bird
I've ever seen.
You know, that is something
I used to be very good at:
birds.
Um...
Don't laugh at me.
What's that?
It's a robin.
You know the way
they used to hop along.
OK.
And, um...
It's a cow.
No,
it's not a cow.
It's a loon.
A loon?
A loon.
Hmmm.
It's a water bird.
We have
a little surprise for you.
-Uh-oh.
-And honestly, I'm nervous.
But not as nervous
as you should be, because
a certain someone...
So, I... did try to get in shape
for this evening.
So I'm not quite so much
of a butterball.
Nobody's calling you
a butterball.
No excuses.
We want a show. Give us a show.
-Did you not know?
-No, I had no idea.
Wow!
You should try
your own creation.
Thank you.
Here I go!
-Like this.
-What?
Oh yes,
that's right.
You are such a chump.
-You can never...
-Such a chump.
OK.
OK, who else?
Oh, my Lord.
- Who else?
- Maybe next year...
Uh...
-You want to say...?
-Yeah.
-Say something.
-Um...
I...
Um...
I'm happy to...
I'm happy
to be here with you.
And thank you.
Really. For welcoming me
into your family.
You're welcome.
I'm probably a little...
I never celebrated New Year's
without my family before, so...
Um...
Every year,
we were surprised
that we made it one more year.
And...
in the end,
my parents knew that
any day could be the last,
so,
when we did make it,
we would celebrate
that we were together.
And I just...
I just...
Because...
What I did...
I shouldn't be here.
I don't deserve to be here.
- It's awful, what I did.
- You did all you could.
- I didn't. I left them.
- No, you didn't.
-Maybe that's enough.
-Let her talk, will you.
We lasted that long because
we were together, but I...
-I left them.
-Yeah, I know.
-But you're with us now.
-But I just...
-You have our family.
-I have a knot in my stomach.
It's always there.
Don't you?
And then
I ask myself...
... why am I living?
Why...
Why keep living?
I remember
this one woman,
sitting alone on the street.
And her eyes were just...
She lost everyone.
I'm really sorry
for what we did to you.
-I thought we were past that.
-No, you understand. You do.
You do.
I know you do.
You lost your family just
like I did, and you didn't...
I'm sorry.
It's just because...
... we're all alone.
No, no,
don't say that.
It's true.
Everyone's gone.
- We're all that's left.
- Just stop.
OK?
Thank you.
Very much.
Really.
Isn't this
her best cake ever?
Oh, good morning!
Yeah.
We need your wonderful ear.
Is that too sharp?
- Maybe a little.
- Yeah.
Mom, I'm sorry
about what happened last night.
Oh.
But it...
it ended well.
How's this?
Mom...
She was trying to tell us
how she was feeling, but we...
-I...
-Yeah, she wasn't feeling well.
-But she was.
-Is that too flat now?
It doesn't matter.
No one plays it.
They tuned this thing
every day at the Bolshoi.
Right,
the Bolshoi.
We stopped her, Mom.
We did.
Right?
I think we did,
honestly.
She said some things
that were hard for us to hear.
She needs to feel
that she can be honest with us.
For you of all people to talk
to me about being honest.
Mom, she just tried to tell us
what she went through.
-Uh, like you tell about Tom.
-You know nothing about this.
It was New Year's Eve.
Nobody wants
to start a new year...
-She was missing her family.
-Her family?
What did you tell her
about me?
-Nothing. I...
-No, no, no.
She singled me out.
-She accused me, actually.
-Mom.
-What the hell did you tell her?
-What can I tell her?
She can talk about her family,
like you can talk about yours.
-I don't.
-But you could.
-I wish you would.
-So now we just talk about...
every person
who happens to spring to mind?
Now,
let's try a smile.
Yeah? That's nice, but you're
not smiling with your eyes.
-OK.
-I...
I remember
one of the first things
I learned starting out
was how to control
my expression,
because people
do judge you.
Uh, it's not nice,
but
that's what they look at,
so...
What?
No,
she just smiled at me.
OK, well, that's
what we're practicing.
A real smile,
it starts from inside and it...
It spreads.
Yes, but you don't do that
with your hands.
-She looks great, right?
-She does, yeah. Almost.
A little better and... coming
towards you, happy to see them.
Ahh!
Ah, yeah.
Ah, you're beautiful.
Isn't she?
She is. Very.
-But what?
-No, she really is.
- You don't mean it.
- Of course I do.
Are you laughing at me?
Shouldn't we at least...?
-No.
-No?
But things have been so good.
It's gone: good.
-Gone from this world.
-Don't say that.
-It's a burned-out light.
-Don't.
Don't ever say that.
Look at us.
We're a family now.
-We're a family?
-Hmm.
When everyone I love
is not here?
Right.
I know. I know.
That's...
That's hard.
But you should remember: They
wouldn't have wanted to be here.
-They wouldn't have wanted to?
-No.
It wouldn't have worked,
honey.
-We talked about it.
-Honey?
-Yes.
-Now I'm honey?
Alright.
You hated
when your parents came to visit.
Mary's family, too.
You always said that.
No, you said that.
Aw,
come on, now.
You never asked me
what I wanted.
Yeah.
When we first got here
and you could still call out,
you remember?
You didn't even try.
-That's a lie.
-No.
To be honest,
I wondered about it.
She's tough,
I thought.
She's strong.
She doesn't even want to know
if her family's alright.
-What you're saying's not real.
-She's glad to be rid of them.
I asked myself, what kind
of mother is she going to be?
I'm going to tell him
about you.
-What?
-What you did to my family.
- Oh.
- Yeah.
OK.
- Good.
- Yeah.
-I'm sure he'll appreciate it.
-I am, too.
While you're at it, tell him you
thought your family was trash
and you chose this
instead of them.
Hm-mm.
Tell him.
He already knows.
He's not stupid.
I'll tell him
everything about you.
-He knows who you are.
-Everything you did...
to everybody.
-I'm going there now.
-OK.
-I am.
-I'll just, uh...
OK?
We're... we're alright.
You have to...
You have to calm down.
Come on. Come on.
You listen to me.
You listen to me.
We cannot be at war
with each other.
Forgive me
We met at...
Oh, I don't know
This or that occasion
I'm sure it wasn't
all that long ago
You wore a most delightful
burgundy dress
But I... I'm sorry,
I can't quite place your name
Would you...? I'm sorry,
I could almost die of...
Forgive me
Has it really been
so many years
We've been away a lot,
you see
Oh, here and there,
exploring new frontiers
We love to travel, Mom
Can't we enjoy our success?
This trip
It's a little bit longer,
but...
No, Mom,
of course I'll keep in touch
I promise I'll call,
it's not too much trouble
Of course it's no trouble
Dear
Dear Mom
Autumn's gone, winter's here
Our whole world smells
of cinnamon and oranges
And each season
more perfect than the last
I'm sending love
Dear
Dear Mom and Dad
I miss you both
But you never
would be happy here
Each day feels exactly
like the last
But I think of you always
Remember on car trips,
we'd sing all the road signs
like opera?
"Last exit in Kansas"
Or how we'd imagine the lives
of strangers in traffic jams
Mom can't tell jokes,
'cause she always cracks up
When she's nearing
the punchline
So does your grandson
He can't tell them, either
He looks just like you, Dad
I'm sure you would love him
if ever you met him
I wish that, well...
Well
Someday
I'm sorry
I need to go
I hope you're well
Dear Mom
I know I haven't
been in touch
But I've been
thinking of you
I know I haven't
been in touch
But you know
how time slips away
One day, then another
Then another
Then another, then another
But by then it was...
I knew you were...
How, how, how could I...
No message, no call
Just a new stain on the wall,
that's all
And Mom, I...
I...
I...
I...
I am sending love
I hope you're well
I wish that you were here
I am sending love
I hope you're well
I wish that you were here
Do you remember what you wrote
about our orphanage in Nigeria?
It's a masterpiece.
I'm sorry. I couldn't sleep,
I was so excited.
I got up and read the part
about our...
this orphan Daisy.
Is this Daisy?
Can I make
a confession?
It comforts me
that you wrote it.
Dad, it's three in the morning.
Why are you...?
I know, I know.
But where I'm stuck now is
how do I put that human face
on our even more important work,
like, you know,
big statistical stories:
irrigation,
renewable energy...
-... and hope, of course!
-Dad, why are you...
-What?
Please.
You're so good at this.
OK. OK.
Maybe...
Maybe start
with something like:
What really got me out of bed
in the morning was
making a difference.
That's so true.
And then:
My real passion was our work
in the developing world, where
drilling for oil was just
my excuse to build wind farms,
provide clean water,
and save the chimpanzees.
Hmm.
So, could that be
the human face?
Maybe.
Or: Now...
Sarah or Daisy
no longer had to walk 12 miles
to fetch water for her mother...
her crippled mother,
she could go to school like a
normal girl, all because of me.
But I didn't ask...
I just
want to put
a human face...
On what, Dad?
If you think
statistics work better,
-... then...
-Than what?
None of it's true.
Why are you...?
What...?
What more
could I have done?
The other companies
were worse.
At least I cared.
I still care.
Would you get
your faggoty hands off me!
Come in.
We thought we'd make this room
a little nicer for you.
I know.
It's a disaster, right?
No, no. We just...
fill in these cracks and you
choose some new wallpaper.
Wow, it really stinks in here.
Are you still smoking?
Sometimes.
These are of me.
-I didn't know...
-They're of us.
They're nice.
We were young.
You can't just...
I don't want...
Nobody needs to see these.
Have you seen these?
I...
Oh.
And this...
I wish
you'd get rid of this.
No, I...
Please.
Yeah, looking good,
but it's a Magnum, remember.
So that kickback's
gonna...
Oh, oho!
Hey, it's OK!
We're OK.
Yeah.
Oh, but he's not.
You got him right in the knee.
I'm telling you:
This is a great gun.
It's been a real lifesaver
for us.
I brought energy
to billions of people.
And everyone used it to drive
their cars and fly away on
vacation, but...
You know.
Sometimes I wonder
if I did more harm than good.
Did I even care?
Sorry.
I made
some mistakes.
You know,
I, uh...
I never told anyone this,
but...
One time, my dog
followed me to school.
I yelled at her,
"Molly, go home!"
But she wouldn't.
So...
I picked up
a piece of ice
and I
dropped it on her.
But,
when I got home,
she was there.
Like nothing
had happened.
Do you think
that's OK?
Mistakes like that?
Do you think
I could be forgiven,
because I don't know
how much time I have left?
I... I think so.
Good. Good.
Do you think we can be forgiven?
Can I?
Me? Because...
Yes.
I think so.
I really do.
Why not?
Maybe that's the romance
of life: being forgiven?
Making mistakes,
being forgiven.
You see,
we feel too much.
Even
for our mistakes.
We're big-hearted.
Hm?
Hey, you
Look at you
Where are you now
When I need you most of all
Wish you were here
Hey, you
Look at you
Look at that smile
There's light in your eyes,
isn't there
When did it all disappear
Why don't you smile again
Because it's beautiful
Don't do it for you
Do it for me
And I know, I know
Nothing is free
But I'll give you the sky,
the sea
A bird in a tree
Oh, aren't you beautiful?
Huh.
Hey, you
Look at you
You are the big blue sky
Hey, you
Look at you
You are a cloud
A towering cloud
Cumulonimbus
How high would you go
If you could
If you could
It's just so beautiful
even to think about
Even to think about
Even thinking about it
Makes me...
Hey, you
Look at you
High in the big blue sky
Hey, you
Look at you
Are you a bird
A sweet little bird
Are you a chickadee
Cute little chickadee
How high would you fly
In the sky, the big blue sky
It's so beautiful
way up high
Where there's no air
But then you die
Then you...
You...
Tweet, tweet,
tweet, tweet, tweet...
-Even to think about
-Even to think about
Even thinking about it
Makes me...
You get the mask.
Quick, quick.
Put it on her.
So now you have to connect it
to the oxygen.
It is.
It is connected.
It's not turned on.
You'd never know you killed her.
Are you OK?
We got her
out of the fire...
-It's fine.
Turn on the oxygen, keep going.
-But that's cheating.
If you always stop her,
she can't learn.
-Sorry, she forgot the oxygen.
-Well, she's dead, then.
Let's just do it again.
Let's.
She needs the practice.
No.
Mistakes have consequences.
Hey. You need to learn to use
the safety equipment
if you want to stay here.
I hope that's clear.
OK?
- We'll do it again.
- You think I'm a joke?
-Dad, back off.
-Not in my house.
- Your father's right.
- She didn't do anything.
- It's fine.
- It's not.
Your father's worked very hard
and you should show a little
appreciation, actually.
-For what?
-For this.
For all...
For this haven.
Uh... A haven?
For who, Mom?
Where is everyone?
- Come on. Let's go.
Just leave it.
It's OK.
You think she's a saint?
You hate your father and me.
You blame us for everything.
Please, don't.
She's no saint.
She's the worst one here.
Oh, you think so,
Mom?
Just leave it.
Why won't you leave it?
You think
you're better than us?
-I really don't.
-We did everything to save you.
You ask her
what she did for her child.
For her little angel, who died
of, what? Cancer? Measles?
-Whatever lies she told you...
-That's enough, Mom.
Come on.
I'll say it.
Please let me say it.
Tom was...
Tom was an addict.
Like me.
Because of me.
Growing up
with a drunk.
And...
-And I...
-He never had cancer, did he?
You...
You left him...
-You left him behind...
-I...
-And you...
-Shh...
So everything...
Hey.
Hey,
we don't mind.
This is
for the best.
I thought you were different.
-I'm sorry, is it a bad time?
-No, no.
I'll only be a minute.
You don't have to...
Can I have
a moment?
Don't you
want to talk?
Tom could never
have lived here.
You couldn't trust him.
I had no choice.
Let's go.
- Please.
- Just listen to her.
I have always listened to her.
I know. I know.
What more
do you want from me?
I was just hoping
we...
Maybe you can... You can...
Forgive her?
How is it
up to me?
It's not
up to me.
You want forgiveness?
Go ask Tom.
It's still ten days
until your next refill.
I'm not sleeping.
You haven't had a good night's
sleep in 25 years, have you?
That's why I give you
so much shit.
Or because
I'm such a prick.
I remember
when you weren't.
Do you?
Everything itches,
doesn't it?
Yeah.
So, um...
Oh...
OK.
Hey, hey.
Shh.
Hey.
I'm so tired.
Aren't you?
Talk to me.
I'm alright.
I'm just tired.
You can
talk to me.
At least she's at peace,
right?
-You don't have to do that.
-It was her choice.
-No, you don't have to do that.
-She wasn't happy, never.
That's not true. She was happy
for you. She was happy for us.
I doubt... That was just
her running away again or...
I don't know.
I don't even know if she cared
about us, not really.
She loved you.
-I don't even know
if she liked me.
-She loved you.
Why don't you stop, please.
I'm so tired.
I know you're upset,
but she was your best friend...
-Stop! You talk too much,
you know that?
-No, that's not true.
Yes, you pick and pick and pick,
and it goes on and on.
-If you deny who she was...
-It becomes hell for everyone.
You want to make yourself feel
better for killing your family.
And now you're killing mine,
actually.
You alright?
Oh, come on.
Hey. You ready
for your birthday party?
Did you have a dream?
I did.
I dreamt
a dog was barking.
Or running away, or...
Or chasing something.
I can't...
-I can't remember
what happened next.
-Are you ready?
What happened next?
-I've got him.
-I'm sorry.
There we are. Come on.
How do I look?
Beautiful.
-Really? Both of us?
-Yeah. It's a great match.
OK.
How about now?
Hm.
Good. Better.
Better?
Oh.
It's great.
Can I take it?
Oh.
Alright.
-You alright?
-Sorry.
Sorry.
Yeah.
I love your smile.
Let's go see
those presents. Let's go see.
Come on, let's go see.
-Here.
-No.
-What an exciting day.
-Yeah.
Ah.
Oh.
Where would we be
without his cakes?
I...
I...
I am...
What a wonderful gift
you have given us
A grandchild.
See? We were right all along
And all we have
been through together
Makes us family
and that can't be wrong
Look at us, better than ever
Look at us,
aren't we a sight
Look at us,
all we have done here
So to us,
our future is bright
Am I home at last
Safe and sound
With everyone I love?
I am home at last
Safe and sound
With everyone I love
In the end
Our perfect bright blue
summer day
It all came true
The clouds just blew away
I'm here with you
Everyone I ever loved is here,
too
Have I found home at last
Where I've always belonged?
Together with everyone
I love
Their love keeps me strong
At last I am home
Right where I belong
Together with everyone
I love
Their love keeps me strong
We're basking in the light
And our future is bright
In the end,
the long dark night
-I'm drowning in light
-Turned to golden day
Our future's bright
-In light
-Clouds blew away
In light
We're drowning in light
Once the world
was full of strangers
We kept our distance
-So many dangers
-We're drowning in light
We trusted no one