The Year Between (2022) Movie Script
1
[rousing electronic music]
[water splashing]
[static crackling]
[people laughing distantly]
[woman screaming with laughter]
[ominous music]
[Clemence] Bitch, seriously,
like, just go fucking
kill yourself.
Just, like, I literally wanna
just kill me.
I'm judging you.
[mellow trap beat]
Freaks.
Oh, like, it's me. Yep, yeah.
Yep, every single time.
Don't ask me what's in the bag.
It's not your bag.
Shit.
You wearing my chapstick?
-What? No.
-I can smell it.
[Eliza] No, you can't.
E-- everybody wears chapstick.
Yeah, but mine
is shortcake-flavored
and, uh, I smell shortcake.
Clemence,
I don't ever touch your stuff.
You're the one
who's always selling my stuff
on the internet
and I don't ever say--
Do you know
how hard it is to live with you?
Look at this fucking place.
It's a zoo.
[tense music]
[crunching]
-Hey.
-[Eliza yelps]
[banging on door]
You're supposed to notify me
-when you have guests.
-Help!
[Sherri] Open
this goddamn door, Clemence,
and leave
that poor girl alone.
It's okay, Eliza,
-don't be afraid.
-You didn't.
I had to, you're ruining
my college experience.
-You've had enough.
[Clemence] I can take care
of my fucking self!
-Leave me the fuck alone!
-Stop it.
[radio anchor] ...disgust.
And as we've watched these
negotiations go forward,
I mean, there is
a-- a graveyard
chock-full of proposals
that have been floated
and have already died. Um...
-Someone should bomb this place.
-[Sherri] That's not funny.
Hey, I wasn't saying I'm gonna
do it, just that someone should.
[Sherri] Shut up.
Whoa.
Why are we going down here?
I came the minute
Eliza called
so there wasn't
much time to, uh...
yeah, well.
[Clemence] Okay, this is...
a good place for me to die.
[Sherri] We did clean up
a little, though.
You should've
seen it before.
Oh, was there, like,
sewage on the ground?
I'm sorry, but we--
we already turned your room
into a home office for Dad.
He needs the space,
he's overworked.
School is really hard
this year.
Oh, yeah? Well, poor Dad.
All right?
I'm overworked. By the system.
The institution, you know?
And-- and I'm underpaid as well.
Look, no offense, Clem,
but we didn't expect you back.
We thought you'd be,
like, getting a degree.
Well, I got distracted.
This isn't ideal for anyone,
but, uh, we'll figure it out.
We'll put you back
on your feet.
[Don] Beep-beep.
Taking orders here
for welcome home barbecue.
Burger or dog?
Oh, the funniest thing happened
at school today.
One of my juniors,
this kid's nuts,
he took the lyrics
from a rap song--
Do we have ketchup?
Uh...
I think we raised
a lot of money today.
From my 3K.
-For cerebral palsy.
-I thought it was a 5K?
Well, you could,
like, choose the distance
-you wanted to do.
-So what's wrong with Clemence?
Nothing's wrong. She's...
-been like she's always been.
-She's batshit insane.
We don't know that for sure.
[siren wailing distantly]
-[woman sobbing]
-[Clemence sighs]
-What is wrong with you?
-[sobbing]
[Sherri] Shh.
[whispering]
What is wrong with her?
[assistant]
Clemence Elizabeth Miller.
You put my middle name
on the thing?
Go on, that's you.
Come on.
It'll be okay.
Jesus. Basket case.
-[door clicks open]
-Hello. Clemence?
-Please, sit. I'm Dr. Lismoen.
-I'll stand.
-Sit down.
-I'll sit. [chuckles awkwardly]
[Dr. Lismoen] Thank you both
for coming in.
I'm glad we could work this out
with short notice.
On the phone
you mentioned that...
Well, I--
I think it would be best
if you just told me
the full story.
Um, I guess--
Well, I got a call
from her college roommate
and things apparently
have been going downhill
for quite some time.
Uh, hoarding,
stealing, paranoia,
staying up
'til 4:00 or 5:00 a.m.,
-shrieking--
-Shrieking? She is dead to me.
I'm sure that would
make it difficult
-for your roommate to sleep.
-[Clemence chuckles awkwardly]
Clemence, have you ever
been diagnosed with ADHD?
Self-diagnosed.
I got-- I got a guy at school
who, um, sells me Vyvanse
and other stuff
such as weed.
[Sherri] Well,
I run a home goods store
so I'm-- I'm very perceptive
about people's needs
and I, personally,
have always felt
that she might have
a brain disorder.
I mean,
she's very different
-from my other kids.
-Wow.
Do you feel like
you have dramatic highs?
I mean that last for days?
I don't know.
May-- ye-- maybe.
[Dr. Lismoen]
And afterwards, you crash?
You feel hopeless and--
and lose all the spark?
I guess maybe yeah?
[Dr. Lismoen] It sounds like
you're experiencing
episodes of mania
and-- and depression.
What I'm leading
to is bipolar disorder.
Uh...
-'Kay.
-Um, so what--
[phone ringing]
-Why are you being such a freak?
-Hello?
-Don't fuck with me.
-[Clemence] Okay.
She's 100 years old.
Why should we trust her?
[speaking German]
Are those my shoes?
I don't know, they were
at the front door, okay?
With medication
and therapy,
you can eventually begin
to feel better, normal.
So, um,
what do we do next? I mean--
I just want to be sure
that Clemence is listening
because she's the one
who will be responsible
for her treatment.
[sighs]
I hear you.
[Dr. Lismoen]
With bipolar disorder,
some people experience
racing thoughts.
Binge eating,
overspending, stealing.
Delusions of grandiosity.
You might feel like
you have superpowers.
You don't.
Bitch.
First, you'll want to sit
your family down and explain.
Your treatment
could mean change for everyone.
All right, so,
you got mania and depression.
It's basically
two diseases, but one.
So then it's mainly mental?
-100% mental, Dad.
-[Don] Well, that's good.
At least you're going to
survive it.
I mean, not necessarily.
As a future med student,
I obviously know
what a mental illness is.
There's a medical explanation
for why she's a mess.
That's, like, rude,
-but accurate.
-[Neil] Can I go now?
Where do you have to be
on a Monday night?
Um, anywhere but here?
Thank you all
for coming to my TedTalk.
[Dr. Lismoen] We should
start you on medication
to stabilize you.
Miller.
[Dr. Lismoen] I'll start you
on, um, 1,200 mg
of lithium per day.
This is on the higher side.
We need to keep your thoughts
from racing.
Help prevent
those manic episodes.
[Clemence]
Get a life, townies.
[Dr. Lismoen] You also need to
stabilize your mood,
so we'll add
an antidepressant.
It will take time
to get your cocktail
of medications right.
And not just the combination,
but the dosage.
We need to find the balance.
And while we look
for that balance
for your cocktail,
there will be side effects,
some worse than others.
[Clemence] Question,
how is this worth $250 an hour?
-[Dr. Lismoen] I, uh--
-[Sherri] Don't answer that.
["Fade Away"
by Susanne Sundfor]
Feels like
I'm falling apart
I'm falling apart
ever so slowly
[Clemence screaming]
Fading
-Babe. What was that?
-[Don] Huh?
Fading away
'Til I'm out of sight
[Dr. Lismoen] The moments
of absolute genius you describe
are most likely
episodes of mania.
Heightened energy,
euphoria, confidence,
and generally skewed perception
of your own ability.
Yes.
That is a lot of bread.
And the nausea.
Well, let's take you off
the Lexapro then,
-you might risk--
-Fuck!
-Clemence.
-It's hard, I know.
But we'll find
the right balance.
It just takes time.
Until then, make sure
you're getting enough sleep,
and absolutely
no drugs or alcohol, none.
Well, maybe I should
just kill myself, then.
That reminds me,
you should start seeing
a therapist.
Oh, and-- and how much
is that gonna run me?
[Clemence]
Doctor said routine.
[muttering]
...walk the fucking dog.
Chauncy!
-Hi, Mrs. Guery.
-Hi.
-How are you?
-[Mrs. Guery] Good.
Good, yeah.
[birds chirping]
[chuckles awkwardly]
How's it going?
[Mrs. Guery]
Fine, everything's great.
Oh, good. That's good.
-Tell your mom I said, "Hi."
-Take care.
-[Carlin] Mom's pissed.
-Where the hell were you?
We are sacrificing
a lot around here
if you haven't noticed,
and I'm not paying $250 an hour
for you to go missing
like a goddamn idiot.
Well, I didn't ask you
to sacrifice shit.
Well, I didn't ask
for a mental patient,
but life
is full of surprises.
[Clemence]
Walking the fucking dog!
She needs serious help.
[Sherri] ... She didn't
come to dinner, right?
And then
she didn't come home 'til,
I don't know,
1:00 a.m. or something and--
[muffled argument continues]
[loud, echoing banging]
[arguing continues]
[sighs]
[chair clanking]
[fire alarm beeping]
Don't really know
why I need a therapist,
considering I've already hired
this German woman
to run my life.
I don't even know
if the meds are helping me
or making it worse.
I cannot fall asleep at night
and everyone hates me.
The German woman
is your psychiatrist?
I call her "the German woman"
to take away some of her power.
Uh, what are you thinking about?
At night?
Well, mostly a novel
that is in some ways
very similar to Jurassic Park,
but is-- explores feminism
and is set in rural Illinois.
[Dr. Madzen]
That sounds really good.
-I know.
-[Sherri] Bye, hon.
Has anyone seen
a graphing calculator?
-Oh, yeah, I took that.
-[Carlin] Shut up.
-[Neil] Okay, we gotta go.
-Relax.
Being able to do equations
is not gonna make a difference
-in your life.
-Why would I listen to you?
So I can end up
spending a Monday
-eating cereal in a robe?
-As opposed to what?
Okay, uh, last time I was late,
Coach made us all swim ten laps
and I got punched in the shower,
so can we just-- can we go?
Look,
I survived high school, okay?
And if I were you--
Okay, I don't take life advice
from mentally ill burnouts.
Those words can't hurt me.
It's called a brand.
You know,
maybe you should find one
instead of school principal
trapped in a teenage body,
oh, shit.
[Neil] Come on,
Carlin, let's go, come on.
-[Carlin] Okay.
-Shit.
Why don't you open up
those bills
and see how much you're sucking
Mom and Dad dry.
Dick.
Why don't you suck me dry?
[Neil] Jesus, Carlin.
[door slams shut]
[sighs]
[Don] Kids took
their unit test today.
We're doing
supply and demand now.
Kids always love that.
TINSTAAFL.
That's an acronym, actually.
T-I-N-S-T-A-A-F-L.
There Is No Such Thing
As A Free Lunch.
Because borrowing
always leads to debt.
Kids are talking
about making merch.
That's weird.
[Don] Well,
believe it or not, Clem,
some kids like school.
[Clemence]
No one likes school, Dad.
You used to like school.
I seem to remember
a certain someone's
eighth grade
graduation speech?
Well, I don't remember it.
What's wrong with this thing
anyway, what happened?
[Clemence]
Dad, just leave it.
Well, just tell me,
I can fix it--
Dad, if the house burns down
I want to sleep through it.
Fine.
Good night, Clem.
Love you.
Dad.
Dad.
[sighs]
[warped, distorted buzzing]
[buzzing]
[rain pattering]
[footsteps approaching]
[door bell dings]
[soft pop music playing faintly]
Hey, excuse me. Hey.
-Hey.
-[Beth] Hey.
[Clemence]
Can I, uh, apply for a job here?
Uh, yeah.
Yeah, yeah, probably, um,
I would have to check
with my manager--
I used to shop here
in high school,
but now I'm in college,
mentally.
Yeah, you know what,
the thing is,
I think he went home already.
Do you just have, like,
one of those applications,
I could just fill it out or...
[sighs]
You can take it home
and bring it back another day,
the store closes
in about five minutes.
Oh, no, no, no, no.
Oh, I'll just do it now.
I don't have any,
like, previous experience
or references
or emergency contacts.
-Then what do you have?
-I got a name.
And an address and a dream.
-Yeah.
-[Beth] Hmm. Mm.
Address
is temporary, though.
I'm living
with my parents right now, um,
I'm basically
already moved out.
I just need to get some cash
so I can get myself,
-like, a condo situation.
-Why are you bald?
Wow, that's fucking rude.
They call it Xanadu
And now open your eyes
and see
[Ashik] Oh!
Oh, shit, it's Clemence Miller!
-[Ashik laughing]
-What's up?
-What's up?
-Why are you bald, girl?
I had a mental breakdown.
-[Ashik] Word.
-Yeah.
Um, why are you here in town?
-I live here.
-You live here?
-For real?
-Like, for real. Since Marshall.
[Clemence] Whoa.
So you don't, like,
go to college or anything?
-Fuck no.
-Weird.
Why?
["Xanadu" by Olivia Newton-John
playing in car]
Oh, sh...
I, um-- yeah,
I totally have a...
-[Ashik] No.
-[Clemence stammering]
See you.
[Ashik] Dude,
where the fuck you going?
-Dude.
-[Clemence] I got a...
I got a little--
-Tires are all fucked up.
-[Clemence] Yeah, I get you.
-Hey.
-What happened to your head?
Those are my gym shorts.
Yeah, I found them in a bag
in your room.
I got a job.
I applied for a job.
-Oh, Clem, that's great.
-Wearing that?
Well, it's at a place
called Big Deals,
not the fucking mayor's office.
-I got the dog bed there.
-Exactly.
Anyway, I know
you got bills to pay
and, uh, I'm living here
and eating all your food
and she totally
made me feel bad about it.
So, I thought...
hell, I'll--
I'll chip in a little bit.
Well, that's okay.
I'm sorry.
Are we supposed to be,
like, impressed?
-[Neil scoffs] Here we go.
-[Carlin] Okay, shut up, Neil.
All right, Carlin.
Just chill out.
All right? Just take a breath.
[Sherri] Carlin,
this isn't about you.
-Yeah, obviously not.
-Okay.
This is the most
important semester
of the most important year
of my entire life.
[Clemence scoffs] Okay.
Okay, if you don't know,
the ACTs
will literally determine
my future.
-Ugh, just kill me.
-[Don] Clem.
Okay, li-- I can't focus
while I'm walking on eggshells
'cause we're living
with a crazy person.
Like, can we just see
if you hold the job a week
-before giving you a gold medal?
-What the fuck do you know?
I've been taking, like,
9,000 pounds of drugs per day
and I applied for a job.
What are you doing
except, like,
raising five bucks
for random diseases?
We raised $650
for cerebral palsy, asshole.
-Cool.
-[Carlin] Yeah.
Hey, it's gonna be
in the 50s tomorrow.
We both live here,
so if I'm a loser, so are you.
You're winners
and always welcome here.
Don't say that, Don,
it isn't true.
Mom,
I'm going to appointments,
I'm taking my pills,
and I am trying
to get the fuck out of here,
so what else
do you want me to do?
-Do you want me to go to church?
-Couldn't hurt.
God, can you just stop acting
like a child all the time?
[Clemence] No.
Stop taking my gym clothes.
I need them for gym.
Also no.
You failed
raising those two.
Good night.
[TV clicks off]
[muffled TV chatter]
[Clemence] Oh, my God.
[narrator on TV] The size
of the elk population
calls for
sustainable management...
[couch creaking]
[vibrator buzzing]
[narrator on TV]
...and her Swedish colleague
are searching
for fresh feeding...
[breathes deeply]
[Sherri] Hey, can you meet me
upstairs at 7:00 a.m.?
-Wear a sports bra.
-Yeah.
[Sherri] Carlin,
meet me downstairs at 7:00 a.m.
[vibrator shuts off]
Shit.
[scoffs]
[sighs]
[narrator on TV]
The research project
has been running
for ten years now.
And the two biologists
work well together.
[sighing heavily]
The two experts know
their known habits.
[Don snoring]
[Sherri] Huh.
[birds chirping]
[Sherri] Happy Saturday.
It's 7:02.
[Clemence whispering] Fuck.
[Carlin] Do we have
any of those chia bars?
[Sherri]
No, I need to go to Costco.
-[Clemence] Hello.
-[Carlin] Mm.
[Sherri]
You might need to--
-to go shopping.
-Oh, well.
With your new
employee discount.
-You're a discount.
-[Sherri] Enough.
I have only one hour
before work.
-Go to your mat.
-[Clemence] This is a towel.
Towel. Okay.
Welcome to my little slice
of the Himalayas.
A couple months ago,
my body started hurting
and I was just tired
all the time.
I was, uh, overworked
or stressed.
-Anyhow, I discovered YouTube.
-[Clemence laughs]
Everyone says
that yoga is good for you,
but the classes
were expensive,
so I started watching
these tutorials.
And after just a few weeks,
I started getting stronger,
and now I just take an hour
before work every day
-and I downward dog right here.
-Weird.
[Sherri] And I have to say,
it has given me peace.
It has helped
keep me healthy
and helped me to relax
and to concentrate.
And your dad
and I have been, uh,
looking on the internet
and we see that exercise
and meditation
is good for people
with the, uh, bipolar.
And strength and relaxation
-is good for everyone.
-[Neil] Mom.
-Do we have bread?
-No.
[Neil] Okay, so what
am I supposed to use?
-Defrost a bagel.
-This doesn't feel peaceful.
Yeah, maybe because you--
While you're in here...
you'll listen to me
and relax, dammit.
Now, take a deep breath.
[meditation music playing]
And release
through the mouth.
That's right.
Seated tadasana.
Put your arms together.
Behind your head.
Stretch up,
and into goal posts.
All three of you? Every day?
Yeah, it's fucking brutal.
And now we'll do butterfly.
Palms and feet together,
and forward.
You should feel a deep stretch.
Well, I think it's great.
You know, they talk a lot about
the mental benefit of exercise
in this book
that I highly recommend.
I do not read.
And now Savasana.
All the way down.
Breathe.
Spine melting into your mat.
All right.
I have 800 fake flowers
to wash today.
-[Carlin] I'm showering.
-[Clemence] No, I'm showering.
No, I'm showering.
I'm the one who has a job.
-[Clemence] Cool.
-Good work today.
If you want another class,
you know where and when.
What will you do
with the gift that is today?
Yogibabi33
asks this question.
Who?
Well, I'm never doing
this shit again,
I need, like,
12 hours of sleep every night.
I don't need to relax.
I'm relaxed.
[Carlin exhales shakily]
Okay.
["What's Up"
by 4 Non Blondes]
And so I cry sometimes
when I'm lying in bed
Just to get it all out,
what's in my head
And I, I am feeling
a little peculiar
And so I wake in the morning
and I step outside
And I take a deep breath
and I get real high
And I scream
from the top of my lungs
"What's going on?"
And I say, hey-ey-ey
[overlapping chatter]
I said,
"Hey, what's going on?"
I eat ass.
-And I say, hey-ey-ey
-[chatter continues]
Hey-ey-ey
I said hey
[music cuts out]
Oh, my God.
Clem Miller?
-Er, yeah.
-Hi, girl, you look amazing.
-I love your... jeans.
-Who are you?
It's Ginger.
Remember?
Oh, my God, I don't think
I've seen you since Marshall.
Yeah,
there's a reason for that.
You know, I always thought
that leaving high school
was the worst thing
to have ever happened to me,
but turns out,
becoming a mom
is the best thing to ever
happen to me, you know?
Oh, are you looking for a job?
'Cause I'm actually
looking for a nanny
for Harley Quinn
so we could--
Look, "Ginger."
First of all,
I have no memory of you.
Also, I'm here,
looking for a book,
because my psychiatrist
wants me to read about
bipolar people,
because I'm clinically
batshit insane
and there's no telling
what I might do.
For sure.
[Clemence] Oh, God...
You'll probably find
something good here.
Good. [sighs]
[Ginger] Can I like, um--
Do you wanna, like,
t-- talk-- talk about it?
What is this?
Where are the real books?
[Ginger] Oh, if it's not there,
that's all there is, I think.
No one really comes down here,
which is fucked up.
We need to, like,
normalize mental health.
How'd you go
from teen mom to librarian?
That feels really random.
They were hiring.
I needed to figure
something out.
Yeah.
[patient] What led me
to the path of psychiatry
was my own experience
with bipolar disorder.
When I was 24 years old,
I was found by my mother
swimming in icy cold water,
unable to feel anything.
My life was at risk
and I didn't know it.
-I would assume--
-[Lee] My name is Lee.
So I worked at a bar
for five years
and the less sleep I got,
the more crazy my schedule was,
uh, the more I felt like
I wanted to punch people
in the face.
And then one time I did.
And that's when I was like,
"Oh, this isn't normal."
[patient 2] Yeah,
I tried all that stuff.
It just wasn't for me.
I had this therapist,
she didn't get me.
So I gave up on all that.
[patient 3] So, first I went in
and they thought it was ADD,
then depression,
and finally they got it right.
[patient 4] It definitely hasn't
been easy on my relationship.
It's a lot to take on
for someone you live with,
and I get that,
I mean, it's, like a lot...
[patient 5] I've been on lithium
for 22 years.
Had my hands shake
and my body
completely dried out.
Those pills--
[patient 6]
I wasn't living my life.
Barely functioning.
And now I am,
so that's how I know--
[Clemence] I'm reading that book
from the German woman.
-Kind of.
-How is it?
Lame.
[dreamy electronic music]
[patient 7] One time
I ran in front of a train,
like, it almost
ran me over, but--
[rain drizzling]
[door indicator beeping]
Yeah, I mean, I-- I la-- I laugh
about this stuff now, so...
Now I run five miles a day
and I am ten years sober.
[patient 8] It's important
to note that--
Can we listen to something else?
This sucks.
-No.
-[phone ringing]
-Hello?
-[Ricky] Clemence Miller?
Hey there, it's Ricky
calling from Big Deals.
Oh, wow, uh,
I did not think
I'd hear from you.
Uh, the girl I applied with
was hateful.
Silent night
Holy night
I know it's fucking stupid,
but I got that job at Big Deals.
All is calm
Well, uh, you're not gonna be
taking my van every day
so you better invest
in a bike.
All is right
You can have mine.
Round yon Virgin
-Ready for tomorrow?
-Yep.
-Even the math?
-Yep.
Holy
-Clemence?
-Ricky.
It is I.
Hey, you look ready.
Yeah, I went, uh, business-cazh.
Well, you know, the good news
is that you get
a 10% off employee discount.
-Oh.
-And the better news
is that Beth is gonna
be doing your training today.
Hey, Beth,
Clemence is ready to rock.
[Beth] Mm...
Well, hi, Clemence.
-Hi, Beth.
-[Ricky] Right on.
You know what? I feel it.
You guys are gonna be besties.
All right.
Work hard, play hard, right?
-[Beth] Yeah.
-[Ricky] Peace.
Huh.
So, uh,
if I remember correctly,
you have zero experience
doing anything?
-That is correct.
-Mm. Great, great.
I guess I'll start
with teaching you
how to fold a shirt.
Oh, should we--
should we hug first, maybe?
I don't know.
Since we're equals now.
Like, I, an idiot,
-have the same job as you.
-Mm.
Yeah,
but you're a college dropout
and I've already got
a lacrosse scholarship at Duke.
Hmm, true,
but what even is lacrosse?
-You know?
-What?
It's my way in.
I'm probably gonna do comp-sci,
you know, like developing.
I'll be building apps
by the time you learn to refill
the paper towels
in the bathroom.
-I got an idea for an app.
-I really don't want to hear it.
Aren't you a kid?
Why are you so boring?
Like,
why aren't you frolicking?
-People like you annoy me.
-Oh, crazy people?
-Yeah, actually.
-Uh-huh.
-It's like everything's a joke.
-Mm.
You just dick around
and bother people.
-Yeah, mm-hmm.
-You probably live at home
doing nothing with your life.
-Correct.
-You can't even fold a shirt.
My hands shake sometimes 'cause
I take a lot of medicine.
We get a lunch break?
Yeah.
These side effects
are bullshit.
How is your mood?
I mean, fine, I mean--
I mean, I don't know, like--
To me, you seem much better.
Yeah, well, how am I supposed to
keep a job to pay for you
if my hands are shaking
all over the damn place?
My memory is shit,
my skin sucks,
and my hair is--
my hair was falling out
and I keep randomly
falling asleep
in the Big Deal
storage closet.
There will always
be side effects, Clemence,
so you may as well
accept that right now.
Great, that is great
and you know what, that book?
-It sucks. It's so boring.
-[door slams shut]
Clemence, I gotta tell you,
life is full of side effects.
What does that even mean?
Well, why don't you tell me
what you think it means?
Holy shit, why can't you ever
just give me a straight answer?
-I hate you.
-And that's totally valid.
I thought I'd turn 21
while shotgunning Four Loko,
but this is--
this is cool, too.
Dad?
What?
This damn dog, I mean,
all it does is eat, shit,
-and destroy.
-[Clemence] I mean, same.
[Don] Yeah.
How was school?
I took the day off,
spent it with your mom.
[Clemence] Why?
This is the first sick day
I've taken in five years.
-Are you sick?
-[Don] I'm beat.
For seven hours every day,
I stand in front of 30 kids
trying to get them
to pay attention to me.
I need these four hours
between work and bed
-and doing it all again.
-Okay, TMI. [chuckles]
Why don't you just tell me
to shut the hell up?
-That's what Mom always does.
-Okay, shut the hell up.
-Damn.
-[Don sighs]
I'm-- I'm sorry,
Clem, I don't-- I...
Everything will be okay.
[Clemence] Yeah,
people always say that. [laughs]
[Don] What?
"Everything will be okay."
That is literally insane
and I don't get
why people say it.
Yeah, I guess you're right.
[Clemence]
What do you mean I'm right?
[Don] Well,
honestly, I think...
I think, I mean,
after a point, chaos settles.
I mean, you don't know
how long it'll take,
but then eventually,
it all just dulls.
And that feels like
it's the end product
of, "Everything will be okay."
-Um, cryptic.
-[Don] Yeah.
I'll finish with this shit.
-Really?
-Yeah.
-Thanks.
-Yeah.
-Maybe you can walk him too?
-Yeah.
For sure.
All right, dude, let's go.
Let's go. Come on, Chauncy.
[rain pouring]
-So, how did you celebrate?
-Let's cut the shit.
I know you don't care.
But listen...
there's this guy
who's kind of like...
And I-- I guess
I'm just wondering,
well, I-- I just--
I just really--
I really hope
I'm not like him.
-Does that make sense?
-You mean like a crush?
Ugh, no, God,
what's wrong with you?
Forget it.
Well,
sometimes when we're down,
we're attracted to people
who reflect the worst in us.
Look, besides
the whole mental illness thing,
I am just wondering
if I have, like,
a bad personality?
[Dr. Madzen]
What makes you say that?
Everything.
Hey, Mikael,
can you take my shift Sunday?
-I have church.
-I guess.
-You do not.
-[Clemence] Thanks.
I just have
my grandmother's--
Beth, um, what do I do
if someone tries
to return something
that has, like, wax on it?
Like, this woman
came in and she was like,
um, "My blazer
is covered in wax."
And I-- I let her return it
because I'm not here to judge.
Clemence, if it's dirtier
than when we sold it,
-they don't get a refund.
-Right, I just thought--
Like, do you actually think
somebody's gonna want to
buy that blazer?
Well, I should hope not,
'cause it was devastating.
Oh, my God, look, just go
take your lunch break,
-okay?
-[Mikael] Oh, thank you.
Oh, well,
not you, Mikael, you stay.
I just--
I need to eat something.
Beth, wait.
Okay,
I hate to ask this, but, um...
if I pay for it...
do you wanna go
get a sandwich?
Even though I make the same wage
as you and probably less
'cause Ricky thinks
I've been stealing shoes.
Which is true.
He's so perceptive.
Fine, fine, come on.
Could you guys, um--
if I gave you money,
could you guys
get me something?
[Clemence]
Mikael, you're a pro.
'Cause my, um, blood sugar is,
like, really low.
[Clemence] I have no idea
where my card went.
[Beth]
Yeah, you owe me $12.
[Clemence] I can't believe
you're in high school.
You feel so old.
Or maybe you're trapped
in your childhood.
[Clemence] Yeah.
But, um,
you're definitely
going to college, then?
-Definitely.
-Yeah.
Yeah, I, uh,
took the ACT over the summer.
I got a 35,
scholarship locked,
it's-- it's all figured out.
Can't wait
to get out of this place.
[chuckles dryly] Yeah.
Yeah, but, um, also, like,
-college kind of sucks.
-Huh.
Yeah, I mean,
you gotta do you, of course,
but, um,
in my opinion...
-don't go.
-[Beth] I'm going.
Okay.
Um, how are you so smart
in school and, like,
playing a rich person sport,
but you also work
at a shitty store?
Mm, see,
if I fuck up my life,
nobody's gonna let me live
in their basement.
You must think I really love
working at Big Deals, huh?
But I hate it
as much as you do.
And I do it anyway.
Shit. You're wise.
I feel like I'm Pocahontas
and you're that old tree.
Do you have any friends?
I had some in college, um,
but then I went crazy
and dropped out
and they stopped calling
because they were afraid.
-It's chill.
-Shit.
Sorry to hear that.
Do you have any friends?
Yeah.
Flex.
So you guys,
like, go out or--?
I mean, yeah, I-- I guess.
Ha, nice.
So, like, um, like, where?
And when?
Hey, can you stop?
You want to go to a party
next weekend?
Copped an invite.
-But you don't know people.
-Well, I know my colleagues.
And, uh, like, she--
she implied
I was invited and, you know,
I think therefore implied that
-I get a plus one.
-The diabetic?
Mikael
would never go to a party.
It would kill him.
Now, this girl
is really, like, mature,
she's obsessed
with being an adult and, like,
you know,
having a bright future
and I really think you guys
would hit it off
-in a really annoying way.
-Oh, my God.
It's here.
I--
I took so many practice tests,
I...
-Uh--
-I-- I thought I--
Mom.
-Oh, no.
-[crying]
-Just no, just--
-[crying]
I mean, how am I gonna--
I mean, when am I gonna--
-That's only nine points
-It's just a test, right?
-above the national average.
-It's a--
-It's a simulation from
-I don't test well, I--
corporate America and--
and it doesn't mean shit.
It means everything, Clemence.
Okay, top schools,
they want a 32 or higher.
-Everyone knows that, okay?
-I don't know that.
I mean, without it, I mean,
med school, I can't, I can't.
Okay, okay.
Just-- just stop.
Okay? Stop.
Okay, you still have
your whole fucking future
ahead of you.
[sighs]
So...
while we're still young...
you and me
are gonna go to what might be...
the event of the year.
And...
we're gonna look fucking hot.
["Sugar Honey Iced (S.H.I.T)" by Princess Nokia]
[Carlin] Oh, my God, you look
like you're gonna bully me.
[laughter]
What's going on?
We're vintage shopping.
You could at least help.
All right.
Sugar honey iced tea
These bitches
don't like me
These bitches
wanna fight me
And doin' shit
just to spite me
I see them talking
on the IG
Think you jealous
maybe high-key
I got the juice,
I got the high seat
Do I care? Unlikely
[Clemence] I don't think
this is really an outfit.
It's just a...
it's just a coat.
[both laughing]
I mean...
Are you done?
Sugar honey iced tea
These bitches
don't like me
These bitches
wanna fight me
And doin' shit
just to spite me
Hey
Hey
Hey
I just think
it's gonna be weird.
Like, I'm gonna be
the youngest person there.
-I wouldn't say that.
-Shh.
Don't waste our time.
[whispering] Namaste.
Okay, now we're just gonna
extend one leg--
Oh, fuck!
Oh, my God.
Mom, are you okay?
Oh, I don't-- I just--
all of a sudden, I--
-Gosh.
-[Clemence] Can you get up?
Yeah.
Yeah, I'm fine.
I just, uh--
Yeah, I think I'm just gonna go
open up the shop.
Are you-- are you sure?
[Sherri] Yeah, I mean, this
has happened a few times before.
You know, I really
didn't want to get on board
that gluten train,
but I think it's finally...
Yeah. [sighs]
I'm fine.
In that case I meant to tell
you, um, Neil bought condoms.
I-- I saw one in his wallet when
I was stealing
money from him.
[sighs] I'll get to it.
[pop song playing faintly]
-[Neil] What's wrong with you?
-I'm meditating.
W-- why would--
why would you tell mom
about the-- the condom?
Because you're gonna
get some tween pregnant
and have to pay child support
for the rest of your life.
-What-- that's none of your--
-Do you wanna give up
-on your dreams?
-No.
Do you want
to be like your sister?
Fucking burnout
living in the basement?
Or your other older sister,
aspiring doctor
who failed the ACT.
No. Then for God's sake,
-don't put your DNA in anything.
-Well, okay.
-Why-- why can't you just--
-[mocking] W-w-what?
Why can't you just
let me have anything?
Because I need to mold you.
I-- I'm just trying to
not have to deal with
all your shit, like,
all the time.
I-- It's not fair, okay?
Well, it's not fair
that my brain is broken...
-[Neil] I don't care!
-...and my life sucks, okay?
Should I have to
suffer that alone?
[text notification]
You look good.
-Do you have a brother?
-Shh.
[Ashik's mom] Ashik?
It's just me, Mom.
Go back to bed.
[Ashik's mom]
What are you doing?
-Who's there?
-No one.
Go back to sleep.
Sorry, um,
you-- you get it.
[chuckles] For sure.
[Ashik] Down here.
-I have to pee.
-Bathroom's right there.
Oh. Your basement's
a lot nicer than mine.
[nervous laughter]
[Clemence laughs]
[Ashik sighs]
[Ashik] Do you know
Weyes Blood?
Jesus. Are you, like,
standing right outside the door?
[Ashik] Sorry, do you want me
to wait upstairs while you pee?
No.
["Wild Time" by Weyes Blood]
[Clemence] Setting the mood?
[coughing]
[Ashik] Dude, why are you going
out of your way to scare me off?
I thought
you'd rather kill yourself
than spend five minutes
with me.
Oh, please.
Honey, I've thought about it.
You want a drink?
Uh... no.
I'm good.
-How 'bout an Adderall?
-What?
It's like a stimulant drug
for ADD or, you know, whatever.
Yeah,
I-- I-- I know what it is.
I mean, I basically went to
college once.
So you want one?
Uh, no, I'm on, um...
antibiotic...
for a skin...
I got a rash on my leg, I...
have a-- a staph infection.
Dude, that sucks. [chuckles]
[Clemence] It sucks, but,
it's, um...
It's totally harmless.
My pediatrician
prescribed it to me for,
like, helping me fill out
job apps and stuff.
Oh, God. Your baby doctor?
How's that going for you?
-It's tight.
-Yeah?
Dude, I got
this dope new projector thing.
Can I show you some visuals?
I guess.
Beauty,
a machine that's broken
Running on a million...
-Is it just you down here or...
-Yup.
People trying,
don't cry...
What about the guy
in the pictures?
Upstairs.
That's my brother.
He was in a car accident.
Oh, shit. Sorry.
It was his fault.
Yikes.
Turn around
it's time for you to slowly
Let these changes
make you
More holy and true
Otherwise, it just made it
complicated for nothing
Warm and cold,
a place for us too far...
I have a condom
from my little brother who is,
uh... very much alive.
Sorry.
Our life, a feeling
that's moving...
-Are you wet?
-Yeah, totally.
On a million people
burning...
You're dry as a bone.
-Damn it.
-What's wrong?
-Should we not do this?
-No, it's just a--
it's a side effect of the...
[sighs] ...the shit I'm on
for the leg thing.
And I just...
I just need to--
I need to...
What?
Give-- just--
just give me one of these.
I'll take a few.
-You sure?
-Yeah.
We could have
all gotten so far
It's really good.
Probably it's got to kick in,
you know?
So just, like,
eat me out while I wait.
[Ashik] Oh, okay.
[moaning]
[Dr. Madzen on phone]
This is Dr. Madzen.
If this is an emergency,
please dial 911.
[slurring] Hi, Dr. "Mazden."
[line beeps]
I'm so sorry,
it's so late,
I just needed to call you
to tell you that
I'm finally
gonna write my novel.
Despite you.
Basically
went down on me for,
like, nine hours
and then I just was sort of,
like, "All right,
let's do this, dude."
But anyway.
Neil!
[music stops]
[chuckles]
What are you doing in here?
Why don't you have any
pictures of us?
[Neil groans]
Get out, Clem.
You have everyone
who's important on the wall.
Can you get out?
Please?
[Clemence sobs]
Are you okay?
[sobbing] No.
[Beth] So, um,
what's up with you?
What do you mean?
[Beth] Well,
I mean, you don't look well.
Like, you always look unwell,
but right now--
[Clemence]
Well, I feel amazing.
Clemence--
You know, I think
I can just sort of, like,
potentially
sell these on, like,
an Ebay, or something like that,
you feel?
[Ricky] I feel.
["Pocketful of Sunshine" by
Natasha Bedingfield playing]
Take me away
Hey.
Hey,
I don't know why you did that.
Clemence, don't you get
that you were actually lucky
-to have this job?
-No, I had not considered that.
But, um...
good luck with college and...
uh, the app and la-- lacrosse
and, um, you know, just don't--
don't get too sucked into,
like--
Remember that-- that--
that party I mentioned?
No, not-- no, not really.
Well, uh...
it's this Saturday, okay?
[Sherri] No,
I really don't want that there.
I'm trying to declutter.
-[Don] Where do you want it?
-[Clemence sighs]
Well, how about
back in the goddamn box?
I don't need my kitchen
looking like Star Wars.
God, it's a fucking juicer.
And this is also
my kitchen and I want
the goddamn juicer
in my kitchen.
Sher, they said that
we should try to...
Look, it's restaurant-grade
and... [sighs]
And it was on sale
with an additional
10% off with her discount.
Well,
put it behind the toaster.
Okay.
That's what I was gonna do.
[Dr. Lismoen on phone]
Hello, Clemence?
This is Dr. Lismoen.
Well, I just--
I-- I hope you're all right.
Let me know
when you'd like to reschedule.
Okay, then. Goodbye.
[Dr. Madzen on phone]
Hi, Clemence.
I had us scheduled
at 2:00 p.m. today.
Call me back.
Your book sounds promising.
-This is so fucking weird.
-It's gonna be chill.
Like I said,
my coworker is super mature
and she's gonna be Jeff Bezos
by the time I learn
how to replace
the paper towels.
She got a 35, so...
Well,
that makes me feel like shit.
Same.
[hip-hop music playing]
A high school party?
Oh, my God.
I know so many people here.
-Kill me.
-Kill you?
How about kill to be you?
God, I miss being relevant.
These are the best years
of your life.
And the worst of mine.
-How could you--
-Hi. We're Beth's friends.
Co-- Colleagues.
We're-- We're Beth's
ex-colleagues.
-Give him a beer.
-No.
Do it, bitch.
Should I talk to that kid
who asked us for a beer?
Should I?
I think I have health with him.
Like sex ed?
-Yeah.
-I mean, that is hot.
Oh, shit.
Wait, wait, wait.
Dude, is this Clemence?
-Yo, you came.
-Oh, my God, Beth.
Whoa. Carlin!
Oh, you two are sisters.
-Oh!
-You two are the same age!
Yeah, we have calc together,
right?
She actually, like,
lent me her graphing calculator,
which was super sweet of you.
You're a really nice person.
Carlin, I'm pretty
sure this is the first time
I've ever heard you talk.
[laughs]
She talks all the time.
She's so fucking annoying.
Wait, wait, okay, guys,
this is my boyfriend, and--
-[Carlin] What?
-[Neil] Oh, my God.
-No, no. What are you--
-Oh, my God.
Oh, okay. Uh, this is Kyle.
That's our fucking brother!
That little freshman
shrimp kid over there.
Neil! You can't be drinking.
Are you that dumb?
Why-- why are you here?
Why can't you just
leave him alone?
Seriously?
Who invited you guys?
Who do you think bought that
fancy-ass beer in your hand?
Yeah, yeah, yeah, chill, kid.
This is a senior party.
You're lucky to be here.
Seniors only, bitch.
I don't know why they're even
here, man.
I-- I-- I don't know
why they're here.
Who will you challenge me
to shotgun this beer?
You?
You will.
A little-- little sword.
All right.
-[girl 1 screams]
-[Clemence] Oh, shit!
Damn.
That's hard to do.
[Carlin] That's my sister.
[laughs]
Clemence, she's-- she's crazy.
Like, literally,
she's crazy, babe.
-Yeah.
-[Kyle] Oh, yeah.
Hey, uh, you and your sister,
you guys trying to turn up?
[Clemence]
What does that mean? [laughs]
-But yes.
-[Kyle] He's here. You got cash?
[Beth] Yeah.
So, like,
I know how to smoke weed,
but if someone could just hold
the thing for me and cover up
the hole and tell me
when to inhale. [chuckles]
[Beth] Uh, weed?
Yeah, you guys
ever take Adderall before?
Clemence?
-[Clemence] Oh, no.
-Who is that?
He lives around here.
So you're a drug dealer
for high school kids?
Uh, yeah.
-What's your job?
-[laughs] She lost it.
[laughing]
Oh, shit, she really did.
[both laughing]
-You did.
-[Clemence] I did.
[techno music building]
[retching]
-You're so mad at me.
-Stop trying to talk.
-[burps]
-[Clemence] Well, what do you--
What do you want to do
with your life, you know?
Like, other than
ruining other kids' lives?
[Clemence laughs]
Something with, like, music.
-[laughing] Shut the fuck up.
-[laughing] What? What?
That is embarrassing.
Dude, it beats
pissing away tuition money,
I bet
your parents love that.
Dude...
You should see
my therapy bills.
Like, shit's, like,
$300 a session
and my guy is a total clown.
That is messed up, man.
Damn!
I mean, yeah, he's a clown,
but he's also
kind of fucking smart.
-Sometimes.
-Dope.
-You should go.
-Hell no.
Yeah, no, I'm serious.
Wait, stop. Stop it.
I'm serious.
I'm serious.
-Dude, no.
-You should go.
-No.
-You should go.
-No--
-I'll give you my guy's email.
-Dude, I-- nah--
-Dr. Madzen, yes!
-You're fucked up.
-[Ashik groans]
Go to therapy.
Just do it.
Na-- No, because not everyone
has money like that.
And-- and it feels weird
talking about
that kind of stuff anyway,
like,
to a stranger.
Fuck that. No.
[Clemence] Yeah. Yeah.
Yeah, but also,
you're kind of damaged.
-Yeah?
-You're, like, fucked up.
-Yeah.
-[laughs] Yeah.
Yeah, like, you're bad.
You are bad.
You made me do the drugs
that caused my downfall.
-Dude!
-I didn't make you do anything.
-[Neil] Clemence.
-You did, you made me.
Clemence. It's time to go.
-Let's go.
-It's chilly. [whimpers]
Now.
-Wait, no.
-No. My dad's here.
-Gotta go.
-Where are your clothes?
Who cares?
I'm gonna take
this with me.
We're leaving. Come on.
All right,
it's been a good time.
Thank you.
Honestly,
we are lucky to be alive.
-You're gonna freeze to death.
-Whatever, nerd.
You wouldn't last
a day in high school,
but I would... [laughs]
...and I did.
-[siren blaring]
-[Carlin] Yeah, you did.
Oh, shit.
No, no. They're gonna--
they're gonna breathalyze us.
-We gotta run, come on.
-No, we can't run,
that's so obvious, dude.
I got this.
-Hey!
-[officer] What's going on here?
Not a lot. [laughs]
[indistinct chatter
on police radio]
[officer] I'll have to speak
to your parents, obviously.
I must warn you,
they're very boring people.
-What is going on? Clemence?
-[Clemence] Father?
These three...
individuals have been roaming
the neighborhood.
[Neil] Mom, Dad,
we're-- we're sorry--
I mean, well,
I-- I'm sorry.
I mean, I wasn't even
supposed to hang out
with them tonight,
but I ended up taking care
of their drunk asses, so--
Way to throw us
under the fucking bus.
-Okay, I'm not drunk. [chuckles]
-Carlin, you're a mess.
-Okay, shut up.
-You gotta get it together.
Dude, you're the one who fucked
a drug dealer. [laughs]
[Sherri] I have cancer.
Uh, we got it from here.
Thank you.
I shouldn't have waited,
but I did.
Why?
It was a few months before, uh,
Clemence came back.
And, um, I, um--
I felt something.
But I waited because--
I don't know.
But then I finally went in
and, uh... [clears throat]
...they-- they said
I should go for it.
What are you even saying?
[laughs]
You're not saying
any information,
-you're just--
-They think that, uh, I should
-nip it in the bud.
-[Clemence] Wha-- like...
cut them off?
[Don] It's called
a mastectomy, Clem.
If it means I'm less likely
to die then, yeah, I guess.
So, there will be surgery
and-- and then chemo
and then...
fingers crossed.
The-- the real shame is that
I've had to close the store.
I mean, you'll still be
beautiful, Mom.
Why did you wait
this long to tell us?
What is wrong with you?
[laughs]
There was never a good time.
[Neil]
That's not a real excuse.
All right,
what's done is done.
All right?
But everything's gonna be fine.
All right?
And I've already been doing
a lot of research and apparently
beet juice can raise
your white blood cell count.
[Clemence laughs dryly]
Do we think
maybe this family is cursed?
-[Neil] Dude, shut up.
-[Don] Clem, enough.
[Don sighing]
There is
a restaurant-grade juicer
behind the toaster, so...
[Carlin]
That's really sweet, Dad.
["The Morning After"
by Maureen McGovern]
There's got to be
a morning after
If we can hold on
through the night..
Hey, be gentle with that.
-It's a family heirloom.
-Whoa, what are you doing here?
-[Clemence] Well, I--
-Also, I heard you got arrested
-after the party?
-Really?
-Keep circulating that.
-[Ricky] Hey, what's, uh,
what's going on over here--
Clemence--
Um, call security.
-We don't have security.
-Yeah, well, we should.
Ricky,
I need you to take me back.
Uh...
[Clemence]
I'll do better, I promise.
No, you were caught stealing,
so--
Okay, but it's not
about me, okay?
Fuck.
My mom has cancer.
And, uh, I'm an asset.
Even ask Mikael.
After all I've done for you?
I'm sorry, Clemence,
but we already hired Lisa.
Oh, okay. So you just--
you just use
the college dropouts and then
toss us back into the gutter?
Well, "Lisa,"
I hope you're a perfect,
devout Christian,
because that is the only way
that you will make it
in this cutthroat industry.
[whimsical instrumental music]
Uh, guys, I--
I heard back from Western.
I mean,
it's not my-- my top choice,
obviously, but, uh,
it's first acceptance.
[chuckles]
-[Neil] Nice.
-Western, Illinois?
[Carlin] Yeah.
You know that shit hole
ruined my life, right?
I-- I don't...
I mean, this isn't about you
at all, Clemence.
Believe it or not.
I actually thought you'd--
[Clemence] Wait, what?
What did you think?
I-- I thought that--
I thought you--
[Clemence] You-- you--
you thought I might be what?
Like, proud? Like,
you thought maybe I'd give you,
like, a little gold star
on your-- on your spreadsheet
-of accomplishments?
-What's your problem?
Why don't you go back to texting
your stupid ass friends
about how much
we embarrass you?
Just, yeah, call--
call up swimmer Kyle
and-- and cry about
how hard your life is.
Right, sorry,
-'cause your life is so hard?
-[Clemence] Yeah.
-Yeah. Do you have cancer?
-Don't even-- don't--
-My mental illness--
-Are you dying, Clemence?
Because Mom might be.
And you're just--
you're making it
so much harder...
for all of us,
so, thank you.
Fine.
[Dr. Lismoen] Welcome back.
I didn't really have
a choice.
Something's wrong.
Have you been taking
your medications, Clemence?
That's the thing.
I, uh...
missed a few doses,
and then I...
took some, uh,
other-- other stuff and...
some study drugs and...
and I, uh, just got
really fucked up.
And since then
it's all been harder.
You have to work at this.
You have to.
This is never going to
go away.
And, uh, my mom's,
like, dying.
So...
Yeah, well--
I'm very sorry.
-Yeah.
-[Dr. Lismoen sighs]
Me, too.
You-- you know, Clemence,
for some patients,
I do a sliding scale.
The work is pro bono,
free of charge.
I-- I could do that for you
and it would include
the past weeks.
-Everything.
-Am I stuck here?
-[Dr. Lismoen] What?
-You know?
[Dr. Lismoen] I...
-That's up to you.
-I thought I was getting better.
[whimsical instrumental music]
I was doing it, and-- I was.
And you have to
keep doing it.
It's never done.
This is life now, Clemence.
Be diligent.
-[knocking on door]
-[Neil] Can you hurry up?
I'm taking a shit.
-[knocking on door]
-[Clemence sighs]
-[Sherri] What's going on?
-[Neil] She's been in there for,
-like, 20 minutes.
-[Carlin] Yeah, she has.
-[Sherri] Clemence.
-[knocking on door]
Open the door.
Come on, Clemence,
what's going on in there?
-Leave me the fuck alone!
-[Sherri] Clemence!
[banging on door]
[Sherri gasping]
Oh, my God.
No, spit that out,
spit that out.
Come on. Cough it out, come on.
[Clemence coughing]
-[Clemence] Get out!
Hey!
Don't.
No! God damn it! Oh, my God.
Oh! Shit!
Oh, my God.
-[Clemence] Ow.
-Clemence?
Bring her right in here.
-[Carlin] Dad, move!
-[Neil] Dad get-- Dad, get up!
-[Carlin] Go!
-Here, here, put her right here.
-Right here.
-Oh, shit.
-[Carlin] Oh, my God.
-[Sherri] Oh, dear.
Here, here, here, here.
Oh, my God.
Should we call 911?
-[Neil] Mom, she's fine.
-[Carlin] Clemence, hello?
Can you hear us?
-Oh, what happened?
-[Sherri] Well, basically,
you were trying to
kill yourself, I think.
I don't know
what the hell you were doing.
And then it-- it got--
it got physical.
It was a joke. It was funny!
-[Neil] It wasn't.
-[Carlin] Yeah, no.
[Clemence groans]
[Don] Well,
you bonked your head, huh?
Why should I fight every day
if you're not even gonna try?
I mean,
it's not fair, Clemence.
I'm the one that's gonna have
surgery and have to do chemo
-and lose all my hair--
-You did this to me.
You fucking made me this way!
-[Sherri] Wow...
-[Clemence] Yeah. See you later.
[Clemence sighs and scoffs]
Well, technically,
I also made you this way.
Ew.
-[Don] Need help up?
-[Neil] Give me my shoe.
-[Carlin] Okay.
-[Don] Oh, my God.
-[Don] There you go. Wow.
-All right, whatever.
Forget it.
It's for nothing.
-[rain pattering]
-[calm instrumental]
[Dalton] Yo, sophomore year
is gonna be such a bitch.
Yo. Is-- is that--
Hold up. Yo.
-Ashik.
-Oh, yo.
So, I haven't heard
from your sister
in a little bit and, uh,
is everything okay?
Yeah, um, I guess she just took
some prescription pills
that mess
with her medication.
Uh, just made her really sick.
Oh, shit.
When you see her,
tell her I said...
"Hi."
Uh, no.
No, I don't--
I don't think I will.
Okay.
[birds chirping]
Who would ever
want to buy this, Dad?
-Why?
-I'm sure she had a vision.
Okay, well,
was she not wearing her glasses?
All right.
Your mom is complex, guys.
She's an artist.
Give her some credit.
How long is it gonna be?
'Til she can, like, get up
and do things again?
I'm not sure.
But when she does rise again,
we will be ready.
[Beth] Hello? Hello?
-Oh. Hey.
-Hey.
Oh, we're closed.
Okay, can I come inside, though?
[chuckles]
I, uh, I just--
I-- I brought these.
For your mom.
Yeah, I felt bad, so...
Okay.
Um, well, she's not here.
Uh, she's, uh,
taking some time to
chill before her mastectomy.
Okay. Oh, well, okay.
What-- whatever, then.
[Clemence] Yep.
Do you wanna get lunch anyway?
Yeah.
I'm pretty sure Mom is still mad
at me over the pills thing.
I mean, like, I don't know,
she's totally ignoring me.
[Carlin] She's just sick
and tired.
Always mad at you.
Okay, Mom really needs
our support right now, okay?
So let's just-- you know,
get in there,
send her off with a bang,
and we'll get through this,
all right?
Then maybe
we can grill later.
-Uh, I have plans, so...
-Come on, dude.
Okay, sorry.
There she is! Miss America.
-[Sherri chuckles]
-[Don] Aw.
-How you doing, sweetie?
-I'm okay.
I just want to get this thing
over with, you know?
[Don]
I know. You look great.
-[chuckles] Yeah.
-[Don] It's gonna be great.
-Okay.
-[Neil] Hi, Mom.
-[Sherri] Hey! Ah!
-Presents for you.
[Sherri] That's great.
That looks familiar.
[Don]
Well, it's from the store.
Could you tell?
Come here, sweetie.
Thank you. [muttering]
Thanks, kid.
Clemence has something
for you, too.
You know what?
-We'll come back. Come on.
-Okay.
Oh. Just-- nowhere to go--
How is it going?
Not great.
Yeah.
I'm kinda...
I'm kinda mad at you.
Oh, really?
Yeah, uh, so...
You're doing this,
which is cool.
Uh, then you're gonna
do chemo and...
everything and I...
guess I'm just wondering...
[voice cracking] ...who's gonna
take care of us if you die?
Well, I think
you would take care of yourself.
And I think you--
you'd be great.
Oh.
I love you.
Yeah,
you're my special girl.
-[Sherri kisses]
-[Clemence sobs]
[Clemence wheezing]
-I have a present for you.
-You do?
Well, let's see it.
It's a card. I made it.
Don't even read it.
Don't read it?
-[Clemence groans]
-I like it.
Um, it's, like, a...
yeah, it has a thing in it
and you can put--
you put something in there and--
It's very, uh-- it's a very
practical gift and I like it.
-Yeah.
-I like the color.
One-- one other thing, too.
Um...
[instructor] Welcome, everyone,
to another session.
And today, let's all send
positive vibes out to Sherri
-before her big surgery.
-Oh, my God. [laughs]
How did you do that?
Um, I wrote her,
like, 25 emails.
-Oh, my God. Oh, I love it.
-Yeah. She was supposed
to give me a shout-out,
but apparently I'm not...
Well,
I think it's fantastic.
I love it. You did good.
That's great.
-We didn't go anywhere.
-[Sherri] Good.
-[Clemence] Don't make it weird.
-You guys, I'm famous.
I'm on YouTube now.
I'm, uh-- I'm going viral.
-No.
-[laughs] Well, I might!
-Yeah.
-Wasn't that something?
[Sherri]
That is really something.
-[Don] Isn't that something?
-I-- I-- I-- oughta be signing--
-She's on YouTube.
-autographs in the hospital.
-She's made it.
-[Sherri laughs]
[Carlin] Look,
I actually don't think
I even want to go to college.
[Clemence] You don't go
to college,
you're an idiot, 'cause...
it's what
you've always wanted.
So you should
at least try it out.
And, anyway, you can't--
you can't make
a decision like this
just 'cause
some burnout is haunting you.
I mean, there's one haunting me,
sexually.
I really thought
that I wanted to be a doctor,
but I think...
I just wanted to be
not you.
I'm sorry about that.
Didn't you make that for me?
-What?
-I think it's, like,
supposed to be Indiana.
I don't know.
I don't remember.
Yeah.
Yeah, I mean, yeah, I did.
I-- I did make that.
I painted it.
I kinda like it.
I might--
I might take it with me.
-Really?
-Yeah.
[pensive music]
Would it be random if you, like,
did become a doctor
or a scientist
or some shit and you,
like,
found the cures for me and Mom?
I'm not smart enough.
Probably not.
But if any of us is,
it's you.
Um, I'm gonna watch
The Matrix, so...
[Morpheus on TV] Unfortunately,
no one can be told
what the Matrix is.
You have to
see it for yourself.
[Clemence]
I feel like all of this
is just too much work.
I'm so tired of it never
actually getting better.
[Dr. Lismoen]
Isn't it better, though?
You know, I'm not a cure,
but a treatment.
Not the best, not perfect,
but better.
-Oh, yes!
-[Clemence] I guess.
I love it!
This customer today
would not stop staring.
It was so goddamn rude.
I wanted to be like,
"Can I get you some popcorn
for the show?"
But I didn't.
[scoffs] You should have.
[Sherri groans]
People are gonna ask you
why you're bald.
You just gotta tell 'em
you have cancer
and make them feel bad
about it.
Hmm, that's a good idea.
-Yeah.
-[Don] Mailman!
Oh, uh, this one
I found in the cabinet.
Don't know
how it got there.
[phone ringing]
Ricky, we're enemies now.
What do you want?
[Ricky on phone]
Hi, Clemence.
Well, hi, uh,
we have
a sudden opening because...
Beth is no longer with us.
She-- she-- she is alive,
she's just--
I guess
it just wasn't fun anymore
since you-- Well, anyway.
Oh, oh, hey, how's your mom?
Uh, dead, actually, but thanks.
Hey!
Hey, I'm leaving.
Leaving town. Like, soon.
What about--
um, what about your mom?
Uh, she'll be okay.
She's a tough bitch.
Had a tumor in her boob
and still knocked me
the hell out.
Right, yeah.
-[Clemence huffs]
-Well, um...
Don't-- don't do any--
don't do anything crazy
out there, you know?
Do you even know me?
Kind of.
[birds chirping]
[Clemence] I really
don't want to do this meeting.
I-- I don't want to do it.
I mean,
you have to face it eventually.
Just pretend you're talking
to one of your doctors
and you're having
a heart-to-heart.
Okay, cool.
How about everyone keeps
their sage advice to themselves?
You know? Today is about me.
Every day is about you.
[Sherri]
You dragged your dying mother
two hours away,
you're going in.
[Clemence]
Please, you are not dying.
Do you want us
to come in with you, honey?
Yeah, 'cause that
wouldn't be weird as hell.
Okay. Okay.
All right. Good lu-- mm.
So, I'm, uh,
pretty thirsty.
Sorry, I just thought I'd--
Oh, no, it's-- it's no problem.
We actually typically don't have
parents in these meetings.
Oh, no, it's cool, this is,
like, a thing that we do.
-Oh--
-[chair rattling]
Great.
So-- so, yeah, um, just, uh,
wondering what my options are.
Um, I'm not here to, like,
commit to anything, so just...
[laughing] ...chill on that,
but I, uh-- I'd like to know
where I stand.
And for you to stop sending mail
to my house.
Uh, well...
you haven't been formally
withdrawn from the school.
You were put on a student hiatus
'til next fall.
What?
I just had a feeling
you might--
Oh, wow.
I feel violated a little bit.
I need more storage space
in the basement.
You know, this is your decision,
Clemence.
The door is open,
just let us know.
The sooner the better.
I-- I haven't even picked
a major yet. [chuckles]
[Sherri] She's very creative.
Much more
than my other kids.
Well, good job, you know?
Either way.
Oh, hey, uh, can you just wait
for me in the car actually,
wait--
-Yeah, great, just--
-Uh, tell them that--
-I'll tell them, you know--
-Please.
Just, uh, here,
take this.
-Thank you.
-Okay.
I don't even want to know.
[indistinct chatter]
[stall door opens and shuts]
[urinating]
Hey, Eliza.
[urinating stops]
It's Clemence.
Probably the only Clemence
you've ever known.
[mellow instrumental music]
How have you been?
[Eliza] Okay.
Same.
[toilet flushes]
["Shiny" by Kotomi]
Tonight
I'm shiny
The line
is long
behind me
And I
can see you
at the end
While
I am waving
I'm already
misbehaving
And it's
starting
to sink in
I've waited
years,
I've waited
years
I've waited
years
Now I know
I'm here,
I know
I'm here
I know
I'm here
I'm not
saying
goodbye
'Cause I
won't be
far away
[music fades]
[rousing electronic music]
[water splashing]
[static crackling]
[people laughing distantly]
[woman screaming with laughter]
[ominous music]
[Clemence] Bitch, seriously,
like, just go fucking
kill yourself.
Just, like, I literally wanna
just kill me.
I'm judging you.
[mellow trap beat]
Freaks.
Oh, like, it's me. Yep, yeah.
Yep, every single time.
Don't ask me what's in the bag.
It's not your bag.
Shit.
You wearing my chapstick?
-What? No.
-I can smell it.
[Eliza] No, you can't.
E-- everybody wears chapstick.
Yeah, but mine
is shortcake-flavored
and, uh, I smell shortcake.
Clemence,
I don't ever touch your stuff.
You're the one
who's always selling my stuff
on the internet
and I don't ever say--
Do you know
how hard it is to live with you?
Look at this fucking place.
It's a zoo.
[tense music]
[crunching]
-Hey.
-[Eliza yelps]
[banging on door]
You're supposed to notify me
-when you have guests.
-Help!
[Sherri] Open
this goddamn door, Clemence,
and leave
that poor girl alone.
It's okay, Eliza,
-don't be afraid.
-You didn't.
I had to, you're ruining
my college experience.
-You've had enough.
[Clemence] I can take care
of my fucking self!
-Leave me the fuck alone!
-Stop it.
[radio anchor] ...disgust.
And as we've watched these
negotiations go forward,
I mean, there is
a-- a graveyard
chock-full of proposals
that have been floated
and have already died. Um...
-Someone should bomb this place.
-[Sherri] That's not funny.
Hey, I wasn't saying I'm gonna
do it, just that someone should.
[Sherri] Shut up.
Whoa.
Why are we going down here?
I came the minute
Eliza called
so there wasn't
much time to, uh...
yeah, well.
[Clemence] Okay, this is...
a good place for me to die.
[Sherri] We did clean up
a little, though.
You should've
seen it before.
Oh, was there, like,
sewage on the ground?
I'm sorry, but we--
we already turned your room
into a home office for Dad.
He needs the space,
he's overworked.
School is really hard
this year.
Oh, yeah? Well, poor Dad.
All right?
I'm overworked. By the system.
The institution, you know?
And-- and I'm underpaid as well.
Look, no offense, Clem,
but we didn't expect you back.
We thought you'd be,
like, getting a degree.
Well, I got distracted.
This isn't ideal for anyone,
but, uh, we'll figure it out.
We'll put you back
on your feet.
[Don] Beep-beep.
Taking orders here
for welcome home barbecue.
Burger or dog?
Oh, the funniest thing happened
at school today.
One of my juniors,
this kid's nuts,
he took the lyrics
from a rap song--
Do we have ketchup?
Uh...
I think we raised
a lot of money today.
From my 3K.
-For cerebral palsy.
-I thought it was a 5K?
Well, you could,
like, choose the distance
-you wanted to do.
-So what's wrong with Clemence?
Nothing's wrong. She's...
-been like she's always been.
-She's batshit insane.
We don't know that for sure.
[siren wailing distantly]
-[woman sobbing]
-[Clemence sighs]
-What is wrong with you?
-[sobbing]
[Sherri] Shh.
[whispering]
What is wrong with her?
[assistant]
Clemence Elizabeth Miller.
You put my middle name
on the thing?
Go on, that's you.
Come on.
It'll be okay.
Jesus. Basket case.
-[door clicks open]
-Hello. Clemence?
-Please, sit. I'm Dr. Lismoen.
-I'll stand.
-Sit down.
-I'll sit. [chuckles awkwardly]
[Dr. Lismoen] Thank you both
for coming in.
I'm glad we could work this out
with short notice.
On the phone
you mentioned that...
Well, I--
I think it would be best
if you just told me
the full story.
Um, I guess--
Well, I got a call
from her college roommate
and things apparently
have been going downhill
for quite some time.
Uh, hoarding,
stealing, paranoia,
staying up
'til 4:00 or 5:00 a.m.,
-shrieking--
-Shrieking? She is dead to me.
I'm sure that would
make it difficult
-for your roommate to sleep.
-[Clemence chuckles awkwardly]
Clemence, have you ever
been diagnosed with ADHD?
Self-diagnosed.
I got-- I got a guy at school
who, um, sells me Vyvanse
and other stuff
such as weed.
[Sherri] Well,
I run a home goods store
so I'm-- I'm very perceptive
about people's needs
and I, personally,
have always felt
that she might have
a brain disorder.
I mean,
she's very different
-from my other kids.
-Wow.
Do you feel like
you have dramatic highs?
I mean that last for days?
I don't know.
May-- ye-- maybe.
[Dr. Lismoen]
And afterwards, you crash?
You feel hopeless and--
and lose all the spark?
I guess maybe yeah?
[Dr. Lismoen] It sounds like
you're experiencing
episodes of mania
and-- and depression.
What I'm leading
to is bipolar disorder.
Uh...
-'Kay.
-Um, so what--
[phone ringing]
-Why are you being such a freak?
-Hello?
-Don't fuck with me.
-[Clemence] Okay.
She's 100 years old.
Why should we trust her?
[speaking German]
Are those my shoes?
I don't know, they were
at the front door, okay?
With medication
and therapy,
you can eventually begin
to feel better, normal.
So, um,
what do we do next? I mean--
I just want to be sure
that Clemence is listening
because she's the one
who will be responsible
for her treatment.
[sighs]
I hear you.
[Dr. Lismoen]
With bipolar disorder,
some people experience
racing thoughts.
Binge eating,
overspending, stealing.
Delusions of grandiosity.
You might feel like
you have superpowers.
You don't.
Bitch.
First, you'll want to sit
your family down and explain.
Your treatment
could mean change for everyone.
All right, so,
you got mania and depression.
It's basically
two diseases, but one.
So then it's mainly mental?
-100% mental, Dad.
-[Don] Well, that's good.
At least you're going to
survive it.
I mean, not necessarily.
As a future med student,
I obviously know
what a mental illness is.
There's a medical explanation
for why she's a mess.
That's, like, rude,
-but accurate.
-[Neil] Can I go now?
Where do you have to be
on a Monday night?
Um, anywhere but here?
Thank you all
for coming to my TedTalk.
[Dr. Lismoen] We should
start you on medication
to stabilize you.
Miller.
[Dr. Lismoen] I'll start you
on, um, 1,200 mg
of lithium per day.
This is on the higher side.
We need to keep your thoughts
from racing.
Help prevent
those manic episodes.
[Clemence]
Get a life, townies.
[Dr. Lismoen] You also need to
stabilize your mood,
so we'll add
an antidepressant.
It will take time
to get your cocktail
of medications right.
And not just the combination,
but the dosage.
We need to find the balance.
And while we look
for that balance
for your cocktail,
there will be side effects,
some worse than others.
[Clemence] Question,
how is this worth $250 an hour?
-[Dr. Lismoen] I, uh--
-[Sherri] Don't answer that.
["Fade Away"
by Susanne Sundfor]
Feels like
I'm falling apart
I'm falling apart
ever so slowly
[Clemence screaming]
Fading
-Babe. What was that?
-[Don] Huh?
Fading away
'Til I'm out of sight
[Dr. Lismoen] The moments
of absolute genius you describe
are most likely
episodes of mania.
Heightened energy,
euphoria, confidence,
and generally skewed perception
of your own ability.
Yes.
That is a lot of bread.
And the nausea.
Well, let's take you off
the Lexapro then,
-you might risk--
-Fuck!
-Clemence.
-It's hard, I know.
But we'll find
the right balance.
It just takes time.
Until then, make sure
you're getting enough sleep,
and absolutely
no drugs or alcohol, none.
Well, maybe I should
just kill myself, then.
That reminds me,
you should start seeing
a therapist.
Oh, and-- and how much
is that gonna run me?
[Clemence]
Doctor said routine.
[muttering]
...walk the fucking dog.
Chauncy!
-Hi, Mrs. Guery.
-Hi.
-How are you?
-[Mrs. Guery] Good.
Good, yeah.
[birds chirping]
[chuckles awkwardly]
How's it going?
[Mrs. Guery]
Fine, everything's great.
Oh, good. That's good.
-Tell your mom I said, "Hi."
-Take care.
-[Carlin] Mom's pissed.
-Where the hell were you?
We are sacrificing
a lot around here
if you haven't noticed,
and I'm not paying $250 an hour
for you to go missing
like a goddamn idiot.
Well, I didn't ask you
to sacrifice shit.
Well, I didn't ask
for a mental patient,
but life
is full of surprises.
[Clemence]
Walking the fucking dog!
She needs serious help.
[Sherri] ... She didn't
come to dinner, right?
And then
she didn't come home 'til,
I don't know,
1:00 a.m. or something and--
[muffled argument continues]
[loud, echoing banging]
[arguing continues]
[sighs]
[chair clanking]
[fire alarm beeping]
Don't really know
why I need a therapist,
considering I've already hired
this German woman
to run my life.
I don't even know
if the meds are helping me
or making it worse.
I cannot fall asleep at night
and everyone hates me.
The German woman
is your psychiatrist?
I call her "the German woman"
to take away some of her power.
Uh, what are you thinking about?
At night?
Well, mostly a novel
that is in some ways
very similar to Jurassic Park,
but is-- explores feminism
and is set in rural Illinois.
[Dr. Madzen]
That sounds really good.
-I know.
-[Sherri] Bye, hon.
Has anyone seen
a graphing calculator?
-Oh, yeah, I took that.
-[Carlin] Shut up.
-[Neil] Okay, we gotta go.
-Relax.
Being able to do equations
is not gonna make a difference
-in your life.
-Why would I listen to you?
So I can end up
spending a Monday
-eating cereal in a robe?
-As opposed to what?
Okay, uh, last time I was late,
Coach made us all swim ten laps
and I got punched in the shower,
so can we just-- can we go?
Look,
I survived high school, okay?
And if I were you--
Okay, I don't take life advice
from mentally ill burnouts.
Those words can't hurt me.
It's called a brand.
You know,
maybe you should find one
instead of school principal
trapped in a teenage body,
oh, shit.
[Neil] Come on,
Carlin, let's go, come on.
-[Carlin] Okay.
-Shit.
Why don't you open up
those bills
and see how much you're sucking
Mom and Dad dry.
Dick.
Why don't you suck me dry?
[Neil] Jesus, Carlin.
[door slams shut]
[sighs]
[Don] Kids took
their unit test today.
We're doing
supply and demand now.
Kids always love that.
TINSTAAFL.
That's an acronym, actually.
T-I-N-S-T-A-A-F-L.
There Is No Such Thing
As A Free Lunch.
Because borrowing
always leads to debt.
Kids are talking
about making merch.
That's weird.
[Don] Well,
believe it or not, Clem,
some kids like school.
[Clemence]
No one likes school, Dad.
You used to like school.
I seem to remember
a certain someone's
eighth grade
graduation speech?
Well, I don't remember it.
What's wrong with this thing
anyway, what happened?
[Clemence]
Dad, just leave it.
Well, just tell me,
I can fix it--
Dad, if the house burns down
I want to sleep through it.
Fine.
Good night, Clem.
Love you.
Dad.
Dad.
[sighs]
[warped, distorted buzzing]
[buzzing]
[rain pattering]
[footsteps approaching]
[door bell dings]
[soft pop music playing faintly]
Hey, excuse me. Hey.
-Hey.
-[Beth] Hey.
[Clemence]
Can I, uh, apply for a job here?
Uh, yeah.
Yeah, yeah, probably, um,
I would have to check
with my manager--
I used to shop here
in high school,
but now I'm in college,
mentally.
Yeah, you know what,
the thing is,
I think he went home already.
Do you just have, like,
one of those applications,
I could just fill it out or...
[sighs]
You can take it home
and bring it back another day,
the store closes
in about five minutes.
Oh, no, no, no, no.
Oh, I'll just do it now.
I don't have any,
like, previous experience
or references
or emergency contacts.
-Then what do you have?
-I got a name.
And an address and a dream.
-Yeah.
-[Beth] Hmm. Mm.
Address
is temporary, though.
I'm living
with my parents right now, um,
I'm basically
already moved out.
I just need to get some cash
so I can get myself,
-like, a condo situation.
-Why are you bald?
Wow, that's fucking rude.
They call it Xanadu
And now open your eyes
and see
[Ashik] Oh!
Oh, shit, it's Clemence Miller!
-[Ashik laughing]
-What's up?
-What's up?
-Why are you bald, girl?
I had a mental breakdown.
-[Ashik] Word.
-Yeah.
Um, why are you here in town?
-I live here.
-You live here?
-For real?
-Like, for real. Since Marshall.
[Clemence] Whoa.
So you don't, like,
go to college or anything?
-Fuck no.
-Weird.
Why?
["Xanadu" by Olivia Newton-John
playing in car]
Oh, sh...
I, um-- yeah,
I totally have a...
-[Ashik] No.
-[Clemence stammering]
See you.
[Ashik] Dude,
where the fuck you going?
-Dude.
-[Clemence] I got a...
I got a little--
-Tires are all fucked up.
-[Clemence] Yeah, I get you.
-Hey.
-What happened to your head?
Those are my gym shorts.
Yeah, I found them in a bag
in your room.
I got a job.
I applied for a job.
-Oh, Clem, that's great.
-Wearing that?
Well, it's at a place
called Big Deals,
not the fucking mayor's office.
-I got the dog bed there.
-Exactly.
Anyway, I know
you got bills to pay
and, uh, I'm living here
and eating all your food
and she totally
made me feel bad about it.
So, I thought...
hell, I'll--
I'll chip in a little bit.
Well, that's okay.
I'm sorry.
Are we supposed to be,
like, impressed?
-[Neil scoffs] Here we go.
-[Carlin] Okay, shut up, Neil.
All right, Carlin.
Just chill out.
All right? Just take a breath.
[Sherri] Carlin,
this isn't about you.
-Yeah, obviously not.
-Okay.
This is the most
important semester
of the most important year
of my entire life.
[Clemence scoffs] Okay.
Okay, if you don't know,
the ACTs
will literally determine
my future.
-Ugh, just kill me.
-[Don] Clem.
Okay, li-- I can't focus
while I'm walking on eggshells
'cause we're living
with a crazy person.
Like, can we just see
if you hold the job a week
-before giving you a gold medal?
-What the fuck do you know?
I've been taking, like,
9,000 pounds of drugs per day
and I applied for a job.
What are you doing
except, like,
raising five bucks
for random diseases?
We raised $650
for cerebral palsy, asshole.
-Cool.
-[Carlin] Yeah.
Hey, it's gonna be
in the 50s tomorrow.
We both live here,
so if I'm a loser, so are you.
You're winners
and always welcome here.
Don't say that, Don,
it isn't true.
Mom,
I'm going to appointments,
I'm taking my pills,
and I am trying
to get the fuck out of here,
so what else
do you want me to do?
-Do you want me to go to church?
-Couldn't hurt.
God, can you just stop acting
like a child all the time?
[Clemence] No.
Stop taking my gym clothes.
I need them for gym.
Also no.
You failed
raising those two.
Good night.
[TV clicks off]
[muffled TV chatter]
[Clemence] Oh, my God.
[narrator on TV] The size
of the elk population
calls for
sustainable management...
[couch creaking]
[vibrator buzzing]
[narrator on TV]
...and her Swedish colleague
are searching
for fresh feeding...
[breathes deeply]
[Sherri] Hey, can you meet me
upstairs at 7:00 a.m.?
-Wear a sports bra.
-Yeah.
[Sherri] Carlin,
meet me downstairs at 7:00 a.m.
[vibrator shuts off]
Shit.
[scoffs]
[sighs]
[narrator on TV]
The research project
has been running
for ten years now.
And the two biologists
work well together.
[sighing heavily]
The two experts know
their known habits.
[Don snoring]
[Sherri] Huh.
[birds chirping]
[Sherri] Happy Saturday.
It's 7:02.
[Clemence whispering] Fuck.
[Carlin] Do we have
any of those chia bars?
[Sherri]
No, I need to go to Costco.
-[Clemence] Hello.
-[Carlin] Mm.
[Sherri]
You might need to--
-to go shopping.
-Oh, well.
With your new
employee discount.
-You're a discount.
-[Sherri] Enough.
I have only one hour
before work.
-Go to your mat.
-[Clemence] This is a towel.
Towel. Okay.
Welcome to my little slice
of the Himalayas.
A couple months ago,
my body started hurting
and I was just tired
all the time.
I was, uh, overworked
or stressed.
-Anyhow, I discovered YouTube.
-[Clemence laughs]
Everyone says
that yoga is good for you,
but the classes
were expensive,
so I started watching
these tutorials.
And after just a few weeks,
I started getting stronger,
and now I just take an hour
before work every day
-and I downward dog right here.
-Weird.
[Sherri] And I have to say,
it has given me peace.
It has helped
keep me healthy
and helped me to relax
and to concentrate.
And your dad
and I have been, uh,
looking on the internet
and we see that exercise
and meditation
is good for people
with the, uh, bipolar.
And strength and relaxation
-is good for everyone.
-[Neil] Mom.
-Do we have bread?
-No.
[Neil] Okay, so what
am I supposed to use?
-Defrost a bagel.
-This doesn't feel peaceful.
Yeah, maybe because you--
While you're in here...
you'll listen to me
and relax, dammit.
Now, take a deep breath.
[meditation music playing]
And release
through the mouth.
That's right.
Seated tadasana.
Put your arms together.
Behind your head.
Stretch up,
and into goal posts.
All three of you? Every day?
Yeah, it's fucking brutal.
And now we'll do butterfly.
Palms and feet together,
and forward.
You should feel a deep stretch.
Well, I think it's great.
You know, they talk a lot about
the mental benefit of exercise
in this book
that I highly recommend.
I do not read.
And now Savasana.
All the way down.
Breathe.
Spine melting into your mat.
All right.
I have 800 fake flowers
to wash today.
-[Carlin] I'm showering.
-[Clemence] No, I'm showering.
No, I'm showering.
I'm the one who has a job.
-[Clemence] Cool.
-Good work today.
If you want another class,
you know where and when.
What will you do
with the gift that is today?
Yogibabi33
asks this question.
Who?
Well, I'm never doing
this shit again,
I need, like,
12 hours of sleep every night.
I don't need to relax.
I'm relaxed.
[Carlin exhales shakily]
Okay.
["What's Up"
by 4 Non Blondes]
And so I cry sometimes
when I'm lying in bed
Just to get it all out,
what's in my head
And I, I am feeling
a little peculiar
And so I wake in the morning
and I step outside
And I take a deep breath
and I get real high
And I scream
from the top of my lungs
"What's going on?"
And I say, hey-ey-ey
[overlapping chatter]
I said,
"Hey, what's going on?"
I eat ass.
-And I say, hey-ey-ey
-[chatter continues]
Hey-ey-ey
I said hey
[music cuts out]
Oh, my God.
Clem Miller?
-Er, yeah.
-Hi, girl, you look amazing.
-I love your... jeans.
-Who are you?
It's Ginger.
Remember?
Oh, my God, I don't think
I've seen you since Marshall.
Yeah,
there's a reason for that.
You know, I always thought
that leaving high school
was the worst thing
to have ever happened to me,
but turns out,
becoming a mom
is the best thing to ever
happen to me, you know?
Oh, are you looking for a job?
'Cause I'm actually
looking for a nanny
for Harley Quinn
so we could--
Look, "Ginger."
First of all,
I have no memory of you.
Also, I'm here,
looking for a book,
because my psychiatrist
wants me to read about
bipolar people,
because I'm clinically
batshit insane
and there's no telling
what I might do.
For sure.
[Clemence] Oh, God...
You'll probably find
something good here.
Good. [sighs]
[Ginger] Can I like, um--
Do you wanna, like,
t-- talk-- talk about it?
What is this?
Where are the real books?
[Ginger] Oh, if it's not there,
that's all there is, I think.
No one really comes down here,
which is fucked up.
We need to, like,
normalize mental health.
How'd you go
from teen mom to librarian?
That feels really random.
They were hiring.
I needed to figure
something out.
Yeah.
[patient] What led me
to the path of psychiatry
was my own experience
with bipolar disorder.
When I was 24 years old,
I was found by my mother
swimming in icy cold water,
unable to feel anything.
My life was at risk
and I didn't know it.
-I would assume--
-[Lee] My name is Lee.
So I worked at a bar
for five years
and the less sleep I got,
the more crazy my schedule was,
uh, the more I felt like
I wanted to punch people
in the face.
And then one time I did.
And that's when I was like,
"Oh, this isn't normal."
[patient 2] Yeah,
I tried all that stuff.
It just wasn't for me.
I had this therapist,
she didn't get me.
So I gave up on all that.
[patient 3] So, first I went in
and they thought it was ADD,
then depression,
and finally they got it right.
[patient 4] It definitely hasn't
been easy on my relationship.
It's a lot to take on
for someone you live with,
and I get that,
I mean, it's, like a lot...
[patient 5] I've been on lithium
for 22 years.
Had my hands shake
and my body
completely dried out.
Those pills--
[patient 6]
I wasn't living my life.
Barely functioning.
And now I am,
so that's how I know--
[Clemence] I'm reading that book
from the German woman.
-Kind of.
-How is it?
Lame.
[dreamy electronic music]
[patient 7] One time
I ran in front of a train,
like, it almost
ran me over, but--
[rain drizzling]
[door indicator beeping]
Yeah, I mean, I-- I la-- I laugh
about this stuff now, so...
Now I run five miles a day
and I am ten years sober.
[patient 8] It's important
to note that--
Can we listen to something else?
This sucks.
-No.
-[phone ringing]
-Hello?
-[Ricky] Clemence Miller?
Hey there, it's Ricky
calling from Big Deals.
Oh, wow, uh,
I did not think
I'd hear from you.
Uh, the girl I applied with
was hateful.
Silent night
Holy night
I know it's fucking stupid,
but I got that job at Big Deals.
All is calm
Well, uh, you're not gonna be
taking my van every day
so you better invest
in a bike.
All is right
You can have mine.
Round yon Virgin
-Ready for tomorrow?
-Yep.
-Even the math?
-Yep.
Holy
-Clemence?
-Ricky.
It is I.
Hey, you look ready.
Yeah, I went, uh, business-cazh.
Well, you know, the good news
is that you get
a 10% off employee discount.
-Oh.
-And the better news
is that Beth is gonna
be doing your training today.
Hey, Beth,
Clemence is ready to rock.
[Beth] Mm...
Well, hi, Clemence.
-Hi, Beth.
-[Ricky] Right on.
You know what? I feel it.
You guys are gonna be besties.
All right.
Work hard, play hard, right?
-[Beth] Yeah.
-[Ricky] Peace.
Huh.
So, uh,
if I remember correctly,
you have zero experience
doing anything?
-That is correct.
-Mm. Great, great.
I guess I'll start
with teaching you
how to fold a shirt.
Oh, should we--
should we hug first, maybe?
I don't know.
Since we're equals now.
Like, I, an idiot,
-have the same job as you.
-Mm.
Yeah,
but you're a college dropout
and I've already got
a lacrosse scholarship at Duke.
Hmm, true,
but what even is lacrosse?
-You know?
-What?
It's my way in.
I'm probably gonna do comp-sci,
you know, like developing.
I'll be building apps
by the time you learn to refill
the paper towels
in the bathroom.
-I got an idea for an app.
-I really don't want to hear it.
Aren't you a kid?
Why are you so boring?
Like,
why aren't you frolicking?
-People like you annoy me.
-Oh, crazy people?
-Yeah, actually.
-Uh-huh.
-It's like everything's a joke.
-Mm.
You just dick around
and bother people.
-Yeah, mm-hmm.
-You probably live at home
doing nothing with your life.
-Correct.
-You can't even fold a shirt.
My hands shake sometimes 'cause
I take a lot of medicine.
We get a lunch break?
Yeah.
These side effects
are bullshit.
How is your mood?
I mean, fine, I mean--
I mean, I don't know, like--
To me, you seem much better.
Yeah, well, how am I supposed to
keep a job to pay for you
if my hands are shaking
all over the damn place?
My memory is shit,
my skin sucks,
and my hair is--
my hair was falling out
and I keep randomly
falling asleep
in the Big Deal
storage closet.
There will always
be side effects, Clemence,
so you may as well
accept that right now.
Great, that is great
and you know what, that book?
-It sucks. It's so boring.
-[door slams shut]
Clemence, I gotta tell you,
life is full of side effects.
What does that even mean?
Well, why don't you tell me
what you think it means?
Holy shit, why can't you ever
just give me a straight answer?
-I hate you.
-And that's totally valid.
I thought I'd turn 21
while shotgunning Four Loko,
but this is--
this is cool, too.
Dad?
What?
This damn dog, I mean,
all it does is eat, shit,
-and destroy.
-[Clemence] I mean, same.
[Don] Yeah.
How was school?
I took the day off,
spent it with your mom.
[Clemence] Why?
This is the first sick day
I've taken in five years.
-Are you sick?
-[Don] I'm beat.
For seven hours every day,
I stand in front of 30 kids
trying to get them
to pay attention to me.
I need these four hours
between work and bed
-and doing it all again.
-Okay, TMI. [chuckles]
Why don't you just tell me
to shut the hell up?
-That's what Mom always does.
-Okay, shut the hell up.
-Damn.
-[Don sighs]
I'm-- I'm sorry,
Clem, I don't-- I...
Everything will be okay.
[Clemence] Yeah,
people always say that. [laughs]
[Don] What?
"Everything will be okay."
That is literally insane
and I don't get
why people say it.
Yeah, I guess you're right.
[Clemence]
What do you mean I'm right?
[Don] Well,
honestly, I think...
I think, I mean,
after a point, chaos settles.
I mean, you don't know
how long it'll take,
but then eventually,
it all just dulls.
And that feels like
it's the end product
of, "Everything will be okay."
-Um, cryptic.
-[Don] Yeah.
I'll finish with this shit.
-Really?
-Yeah.
-Thanks.
-Yeah.
-Maybe you can walk him too?
-Yeah.
For sure.
All right, dude, let's go.
Let's go. Come on, Chauncy.
[rain pouring]
-So, how did you celebrate?
-Let's cut the shit.
I know you don't care.
But listen...
there's this guy
who's kind of like...
And I-- I guess
I'm just wondering,
well, I-- I just--
I just really--
I really hope
I'm not like him.
-Does that make sense?
-You mean like a crush?
Ugh, no, God,
what's wrong with you?
Forget it.
Well,
sometimes when we're down,
we're attracted to people
who reflect the worst in us.
Look, besides
the whole mental illness thing,
I am just wondering
if I have, like,
a bad personality?
[Dr. Madzen]
What makes you say that?
Everything.
Hey, Mikael,
can you take my shift Sunday?
-I have church.
-I guess.
-You do not.
-[Clemence] Thanks.
I just have
my grandmother's--
Beth, um, what do I do
if someone tries
to return something
that has, like, wax on it?
Like, this woman
came in and she was like,
um, "My blazer
is covered in wax."
And I-- I let her return it
because I'm not here to judge.
Clemence, if it's dirtier
than when we sold it,
-they don't get a refund.
-Right, I just thought--
Like, do you actually think
somebody's gonna want to
buy that blazer?
Well, I should hope not,
'cause it was devastating.
Oh, my God, look, just go
take your lunch break,
-okay?
-[Mikael] Oh, thank you.
Oh, well,
not you, Mikael, you stay.
I just--
I need to eat something.
Beth, wait.
Okay,
I hate to ask this, but, um...
if I pay for it...
do you wanna go
get a sandwich?
Even though I make the same wage
as you and probably less
'cause Ricky thinks
I've been stealing shoes.
Which is true.
He's so perceptive.
Fine, fine, come on.
Could you guys, um--
if I gave you money,
could you guys
get me something?
[Clemence]
Mikael, you're a pro.
'Cause my, um, blood sugar is,
like, really low.
[Clemence] I have no idea
where my card went.
[Beth]
Yeah, you owe me $12.
[Clemence] I can't believe
you're in high school.
You feel so old.
Or maybe you're trapped
in your childhood.
[Clemence] Yeah.
But, um,
you're definitely
going to college, then?
-Definitely.
-Yeah.
Yeah, I, uh,
took the ACT over the summer.
I got a 35,
scholarship locked,
it's-- it's all figured out.
Can't wait
to get out of this place.
[chuckles dryly] Yeah.
Yeah, but, um, also, like,
-college kind of sucks.
-Huh.
Yeah, I mean,
you gotta do you, of course,
but, um,
in my opinion...
-don't go.
-[Beth] I'm going.
Okay.
Um, how are you so smart
in school and, like,
playing a rich person sport,
but you also work
at a shitty store?
Mm, see,
if I fuck up my life,
nobody's gonna let me live
in their basement.
You must think I really love
working at Big Deals, huh?
But I hate it
as much as you do.
And I do it anyway.
Shit. You're wise.
I feel like I'm Pocahontas
and you're that old tree.
Do you have any friends?
I had some in college, um,
but then I went crazy
and dropped out
and they stopped calling
because they were afraid.
-It's chill.
-Shit.
Sorry to hear that.
Do you have any friends?
Yeah.
Flex.
So you guys,
like, go out or--?
I mean, yeah, I-- I guess.
Ha, nice.
So, like, um, like, where?
And when?
Hey, can you stop?
You want to go to a party
next weekend?
Copped an invite.
-But you don't know people.
-Well, I know my colleagues.
And, uh, like, she--
she implied
I was invited and, you know,
I think therefore implied that
-I get a plus one.
-The diabetic?
Mikael
would never go to a party.
It would kill him.
Now, this girl
is really, like, mature,
she's obsessed
with being an adult and, like,
you know,
having a bright future
and I really think you guys
would hit it off
-in a really annoying way.
-Oh, my God.
It's here.
I--
I took so many practice tests,
I...
-Uh--
-I-- I thought I--
Mom.
-Oh, no.
-[crying]
-Just no, just--
-[crying]
I mean, how am I gonna--
I mean, when am I gonna--
-That's only nine points
-It's just a test, right?
-above the national average.
-It's a--
-It's a simulation from
-I don't test well, I--
corporate America and--
and it doesn't mean shit.
It means everything, Clemence.
Okay, top schools,
they want a 32 or higher.
-Everyone knows that, okay?
-I don't know that.
I mean, without it, I mean,
med school, I can't, I can't.
Okay, okay.
Just-- just stop.
Okay? Stop.
Okay, you still have
your whole fucking future
ahead of you.
[sighs]
So...
while we're still young...
you and me
are gonna go to what might be...
the event of the year.
And...
we're gonna look fucking hot.
["Sugar Honey Iced (S.H.I.T)" by Princess Nokia]
[Carlin] Oh, my God, you look
like you're gonna bully me.
[laughter]
What's going on?
We're vintage shopping.
You could at least help.
All right.
Sugar honey iced tea
These bitches
don't like me
These bitches
wanna fight me
And doin' shit
just to spite me
I see them talking
on the IG
Think you jealous
maybe high-key
I got the juice,
I got the high seat
Do I care? Unlikely
[Clemence] I don't think
this is really an outfit.
It's just a...
it's just a coat.
[both laughing]
I mean...
Are you done?
Sugar honey iced tea
These bitches
don't like me
These bitches
wanna fight me
And doin' shit
just to spite me
Hey
Hey
Hey
I just think
it's gonna be weird.
Like, I'm gonna be
the youngest person there.
-I wouldn't say that.
-Shh.
Don't waste our time.
[whispering] Namaste.
Okay, now we're just gonna
extend one leg--
Oh, fuck!
Oh, my God.
Mom, are you okay?
Oh, I don't-- I just--
all of a sudden, I--
-Gosh.
-[Clemence] Can you get up?
Yeah.
Yeah, I'm fine.
I just, uh--
Yeah, I think I'm just gonna go
open up the shop.
Are you-- are you sure?
[Sherri] Yeah, I mean, this
has happened a few times before.
You know, I really
didn't want to get on board
that gluten train,
but I think it's finally...
Yeah. [sighs]
I'm fine.
In that case I meant to tell
you, um, Neil bought condoms.
I-- I saw one in his wallet when
I was stealing
money from him.
[sighs] I'll get to it.
[pop song playing faintly]
-[Neil] What's wrong with you?
-I'm meditating.
W-- why would--
why would you tell mom
about the-- the condom?
Because you're gonna
get some tween pregnant
and have to pay child support
for the rest of your life.
-What-- that's none of your--
-Do you wanna give up
-on your dreams?
-No.
Do you want
to be like your sister?
Fucking burnout
living in the basement?
Or your other older sister,
aspiring doctor
who failed the ACT.
No. Then for God's sake,
-don't put your DNA in anything.
-Well, okay.
-Why-- why can't you just--
-[mocking] W-w-what?
Why can't you just
let me have anything?
Because I need to mold you.
I-- I'm just trying to
not have to deal with
all your shit, like,
all the time.
I-- It's not fair, okay?
Well, it's not fair
that my brain is broken...
-[Neil] I don't care!
-...and my life sucks, okay?
Should I have to
suffer that alone?
[text notification]
You look good.
-Do you have a brother?
-Shh.
[Ashik's mom] Ashik?
It's just me, Mom.
Go back to bed.
[Ashik's mom]
What are you doing?
-Who's there?
-No one.
Go back to sleep.
Sorry, um,
you-- you get it.
[chuckles] For sure.
[Ashik] Down here.
-I have to pee.
-Bathroom's right there.
Oh. Your basement's
a lot nicer than mine.
[nervous laughter]
[Clemence laughs]
[Ashik sighs]
[Ashik] Do you know
Weyes Blood?
Jesus. Are you, like,
standing right outside the door?
[Ashik] Sorry, do you want me
to wait upstairs while you pee?
No.
["Wild Time" by Weyes Blood]
[Clemence] Setting the mood?
[coughing]
[Ashik] Dude, why are you going
out of your way to scare me off?
I thought
you'd rather kill yourself
than spend five minutes
with me.
Oh, please.
Honey, I've thought about it.
You want a drink?
Uh... no.
I'm good.
-How 'bout an Adderall?
-What?
It's like a stimulant drug
for ADD or, you know, whatever.
Yeah,
I-- I-- I know what it is.
I mean, I basically went to
college once.
So you want one?
Uh, no, I'm on, um...
antibiotic...
for a skin...
I got a rash on my leg, I...
have a-- a staph infection.
Dude, that sucks. [chuckles]
[Clemence] It sucks, but,
it's, um...
It's totally harmless.
My pediatrician
prescribed it to me for,
like, helping me fill out
job apps and stuff.
Oh, God. Your baby doctor?
How's that going for you?
-It's tight.
-Yeah?
Dude, I got
this dope new projector thing.
Can I show you some visuals?
I guess.
Beauty,
a machine that's broken
Running on a million...
-Is it just you down here or...
-Yup.
People trying,
don't cry...
What about the guy
in the pictures?
Upstairs.
That's my brother.
He was in a car accident.
Oh, shit. Sorry.
It was his fault.
Yikes.
Turn around
it's time for you to slowly
Let these changes
make you
More holy and true
Otherwise, it just made it
complicated for nothing
Warm and cold,
a place for us too far...
I have a condom
from my little brother who is,
uh... very much alive.
Sorry.
Our life, a feeling
that's moving...
-Are you wet?
-Yeah, totally.
On a million people
burning...
You're dry as a bone.
-Damn it.
-What's wrong?
-Should we not do this?
-No, it's just a--
it's a side effect of the...
[sighs] ...the shit I'm on
for the leg thing.
And I just...
I just need to--
I need to...
What?
Give-- just--
just give me one of these.
I'll take a few.
-You sure?
-Yeah.
We could have
all gotten so far
It's really good.
Probably it's got to kick in,
you know?
So just, like,
eat me out while I wait.
[Ashik] Oh, okay.
[moaning]
[Dr. Madzen on phone]
This is Dr. Madzen.
If this is an emergency,
please dial 911.
[slurring] Hi, Dr. "Mazden."
[line beeps]
I'm so sorry,
it's so late,
I just needed to call you
to tell you that
I'm finally
gonna write my novel.
Despite you.
Basically
went down on me for,
like, nine hours
and then I just was sort of,
like, "All right,
let's do this, dude."
But anyway.
Neil!
[music stops]
[chuckles]
What are you doing in here?
Why don't you have any
pictures of us?
[Neil groans]
Get out, Clem.
You have everyone
who's important on the wall.
Can you get out?
Please?
[Clemence sobs]
Are you okay?
[sobbing] No.
[Beth] So, um,
what's up with you?
What do you mean?
[Beth] Well,
I mean, you don't look well.
Like, you always look unwell,
but right now--
[Clemence]
Well, I feel amazing.
Clemence--
You know, I think
I can just sort of, like,
potentially
sell these on, like,
an Ebay, or something like that,
you feel?
[Ricky] I feel.
["Pocketful of Sunshine" by
Natasha Bedingfield playing]
Take me away
Hey.
Hey,
I don't know why you did that.
Clemence, don't you get
that you were actually lucky
-to have this job?
-No, I had not considered that.
But, um...
good luck with college and...
uh, the app and la-- lacrosse
and, um, you know, just don't--
don't get too sucked into,
like--
Remember that-- that--
that party I mentioned?
No, not-- no, not really.
Well, uh...
it's this Saturday, okay?
[Sherri] No,
I really don't want that there.
I'm trying to declutter.
-[Don] Where do you want it?
-[Clemence sighs]
Well, how about
back in the goddamn box?
I don't need my kitchen
looking like Star Wars.
God, it's a fucking juicer.
And this is also
my kitchen and I want
the goddamn juicer
in my kitchen.
Sher, they said that
we should try to...
Look, it's restaurant-grade
and... [sighs]
And it was on sale
with an additional
10% off with her discount.
Well,
put it behind the toaster.
Okay.
That's what I was gonna do.
[Dr. Lismoen on phone]
Hello, Clemence?
This is Dr. Lismoen.
Well, I just--
I-- I hope you're all right.
Let me know
when you'd like to reschedule.
Okay, then. Goodbye.
[Dr. Madzen on phone]
Hi, Clemence.
I had us scheduled
at 2:00 p.m. today.
Call me back.
Your book sounds promising.
-This is so fucking weird.
-It's gonna be chill.
Like I said,
my coworker is super mature
and she's gonna be Jeff Bezos
by the time I learn
how to replace
the paper towels.
She got a 35, so...
Well,
that makes me feel like shit.
Same.
[hip-hop music playing]
A high school party?
Oh, my God.
I know so many people here.
-Kill me.
-Kill you?
How about kill to be you?
God, I miss being relevant.
These are the best years
of your life.
And the worst of mine.
-How could you--
-Hi. We're Beth's friends.
Co-- Colleagues.
We're-- We're Beth's
ex-colleagues.
-Give him a beer.
-No.
Do it, bitch.
Should I talk to that kid
who asked us for a beer?
Should I?
I think I have health with him.
Like sex ed?
-Yeah.
-I mean, that is hot.
Oh, shit.
Wait, wait, wait.
Dude, is this Clemence?
-Yo, you came.
-Oh, my God, Beth.
Whoa. Carlin!
Oh, you two are sisters.
-Oh!
-You two are the same age!
Yeah, we have calc together,
right?
She actually, like,
lent me her graphing calculator,
which was super sweet of you.
You're a really nice person.
Carlin, I'm pretty
sure this is the first time
I've ever heard you talk.
[laughs]
She talks all the time.
She's so fucking annoying.
Wait, wait, okay, guys,
this is my boyfriend, and--
-[Carlin] What?
-[Neil] Oh, my God.
-No, no. What are you--
-Oh, my God.
Oh, okay. Uh, this is Kyle.
That's our fucking brother!
That little freshman
shrimp kid over there.
Neil! You can't be drinking.
Are you that dumb?
Why-- why are you here?
Why can't you just
leave him alone?
Seriously?
Who invited you guys?
Who do you think bought that
fancy-ass beer in your hand?
Yeah, yeah, yeah, chill, kid.
This is a senior party.
You're lucky to be here.
Seniors only, bitch.
I don't know why they're even
here, man.
I-- I-- I don't know
why they're here.
Who will you challenge me
to shotgun this beer?
You?
You will.
A little-- little sword.
All right.
-[girl 1 screams]
-[Clemence] Oh, shit!
Damn.
That's hard to do.
[Carlin] That's my sister.
[laughs]
Clemence, she's-- she's crazy.
Like, literally,
she's crazy, babe.
-Yeah.
-[Kyle] Oh, yeah.
Hey, uh, you and your sister,
you guys trying to turn up?
[Clemence]
What does that mean? [laughs]
-But yes.
-[Kyle] He's here. You got cash?
[Beth] Yeah.
So, like,
I know how to smoke weed,
but if someone could just hold
the thing for me and cover up
the hole and tell me
when to inhale. [chuckles]
[Beth] Uh, weed?
Yeah, you guys
ever take Adderall before?
Clemence?
-[Clemence] Oh, no.
-Who is that?
He lives around here.
So you're a drug dealer
for high school kids?
Uh, yeah.
-What's your job?
-[laughs] She lost it.
[laughing]
Oh, shit, she really did.
[both laughing]
-You did.
-[Clemence] I did.
[techno music building]
[retching]
-You're so mad at me.
-Stop trying to talk.
-[burps]
-[Clemence] Well, what do you--
What do you want to do
with your life, you know?
Like, other than
ruining other kids' lives?
[Clemence laughs]
Something with, like, music.
-[laughing] Shut the fuck up.
-[laughing] What? What?
That is embarrassing.
Dude, it beats
pissing away tuition money,
I bet
your parents love that.
Dude...
You should see
my therapy bills.
Like, shit's, like,
$300 a session
and my guy is a total clown.
That is messed up, man.
Damn!
I mean, yeah, he's a clown,
but he's also
kind of fucking smart.
-Sometimes.
-Dope.
-You should go.
-Hell no.
Yeah, no, I'm serious.
Wait, stop. Stop it.
I'm serious.
I'm serious.
-Dude, no.
-You should go.
-No.
-You should go.
-No--
-I'll give you my guy's email.
-Dude, I-- nah--
-Dr. Madzen, yes!
-You're fucked up.
-[Ashik groans]
Go to therapy.
Just do it.
Na-- No, because not everyone
has money like that.
And-- and it feels weird
talking about
that kind of stuff anyway,
like,
to a stranger.
Fuck that. No.
[Clemence] Yeah. Yeah.
Yeah, but also,
you're kind of damaged.
-Yeah?
-You're, like, fucked up.
-Yeah.
-[laughs] Yeah.
Yeah, like, you're bad.
You are bad.
You made me do the drugs
that caused my downfall.
-Dude!
-I didn't make you do anything.
-[Neil] Clemence.
-You did, you made me.
Clemence. It's time to go.
-Let's go.
-It's chilly. [whimpers]
Now.
-Wait, no.
-No. My dad's here.
-Gotta go.
-Where are your clothes?
Who cares?
I'm gonna take
this with me.
We're leaving. Come on.
All right,
it's been a good time.
Thank you.
Honestly,
we are lucky to be alive.
-You're gonna freeze to death.
-Whatever, nerd.
You wouldn't last
a day in high school,
but I would... [laughs]
...and I did.
-[siren blaring]
-[Carlin] Yeah, you did.
Oh, shit.
No, no. They're gonna--
they're gonna breathalyze us.
-We gotta run, come on.
-No, we can't run,
that's so obvious, dude.
I got this.
-Hey!
-[officer] What's going on here?
Not a lot. [laughs]
[indistinct chatter
on police radio]
[officer] I'll have to speak
to your parents, obviously.
I must warn you,
they're very boring people.
-What is going on? Clemence?
-[Clemence] Father?
These three...
individuals have been roaming
the neighborhood.
[Neil] Mom, Dad,
we're-- we're sorry--
I mean, well,
I-- I'm sorry.
I mean, I wasn't even
supposed to hang out
with them tonight,
but I ended up taking care
of their drunk asses, so--
Way to throw us
under the fucking bus.
-Okay, I'm not drunk. [chuckles]
-Carlin, you're a mess.
-Okay, shut up.
-You gotta get it together.
Dude, you're the one who fucked
a drug dealer. [laughs]
[Sherri] I have cancer.
Uh, we got it from here.
Thank you.
I shouldn't have waited,
but I did.
Why?
It was a few months before, uh,
Clemence came back.
And, um, I, um--
I felt something.
But I waited because--
I don't know.
But then I finally went in
and, uh... [clears throat]
...they-- they said
I should go for it.
What are you even saying?
[laughs]
You're not saying
any information,
-you're just--
-They think that, uh, I should
-nip it in the bud.
-[Clemence] Wha-- like...
cut them off?
[Don] It's called
a mastectomy, Clem.
If it means I'm less likely
to die then, yeah, I guess.
So, there will be surgery
and-- and then chemo
and then...
fingers crossed.
The-- the real shame is that
I've had to close the store.
I mean, you'll still be
beautiful, Mom.
Why did you wait
this long to tell us?
What is wrong with you?
[laughs]
There was never a good time.
[Neil]
That's not a real excuse.
All right,
what's done is done.
All right?
But everything's gonna be fine.
All right?
And I've already been doing
a lot of research and apparently
beet juice can raise
your white blood cell count.
[Clemence laughs dryly]
Do we think
maybe this family is cursed?
-[Neil] Dude, shut up.
-[Don] Clem, enough.
[Don sighing]
There is
a restaurant-grade juicer
behind the toaster, so...
[Carlin]
That's really sweet, Dad.
["The Morning After"
by Maureen McGovern]
There's got to be
a morning after
If we can hold on
through the night..
Hey, be gentle with that.
-It's a family heirloom.
-Whoa, what are you doing here?
-[Clemence] Well, I--
-Also, I heard you got arrested
-after the party?
-Really?
-Keep circulating that.
-[Ricky] Hey, what's, uh,
what's going on over here--
Clemence--
Um, call security.
-We don't have security.
-Yeah, well, we should.
Ricky,
I need you to take me back.
Uh...
[Clemence]
I'll do better, I promise.
No, you were caught stealing,
so--
Okay, but it's not
about me, okay?
Fuck.
My mom has cancer.
And, uh, I'm an asset.
Even ask Mikael.
After all I've done for you?
I'm sorry, Clemence,
but we already hired Lisa.
Oh, okay. So you just--
you just use
the college dropouts and then
toss us back into the gutter?
Well, "Lisa,"
I hope you're a perfect,
devout Christian,
because that is the only way
that you will make it
in this cutthroat industry.
[whimsical instrumental music]
Uh, guys, I--
I heard back from Western.
I mean,
it's not my-- my top choice,
obviously, but, uh,
it's first acceptance.
[chuckles]
-[Neil] Nice.
-Western, Illinois?
[Carlin] Yeah.
You know that shit hole
ruined my life, right?
I-- I don't...
I mean, this isn't about you
at all, Clemence.
Believe it or not.
I actually thought you'd--
[Clemence] Wait, what?
What did you think?
I-- I thought that--
I thought you--
[Clemence] You-- you--
you thought I might be what?
Like, proud? Like,
you thought maybe I'd give you,
like, a little gold star
on your-- on your spreadsheet
-of accomplishments?
-What's your problem?
Why don't you go back to texting
your stupid ass friends
about how much
we embarrass you?
Just, yeah, call--
call up swimmer Kyle
and-- and cry about
how hard your life is.
Right, sorry,
-'cause your life is so hard?
-[Clemence] Yeah.
-Yeah. Do you have cancer?
-Don't even-- don't--
-My mental illness--
-Are you dying, Clemence?
Because Mom might be.
And you're just--
you're making it
so much harder...
for all of us,
so, thank you.
Fine.
[Dr. Lismoen] Welcome back.
I didn't really have
a choice.
Something's wrong.
Have you been taking
your medications, Clemence?
That's the thing.
I, uh...
missed a few doses,
and then I...
took some, uh,
other-- other stuff and...
some study drugs and...
and I, uh, just got
really fucked up.
And since then
it's all been harder.
You have to work at this.
You have to.
This is never going to
go away.
And, uh, my mom's,
like, dying.
So...
Yeah, well--
I'm very sorry.
-Yeah.
-[Dr. Lismoen sighs]
Me, too.
You-- you know, Clemence,
for some patients,
I do a sliding scale.
The work is pro bono,
free of charge.
I-- I could do that for you
and it would include
the past weeks.
-Everything.
-Am I stuck here?
-[Dr. Lismoen] What?
-You know?
[Dr. Lismoen] I...
-That's up to you.
-I thought I was getting better.
[whimsical instrumental music]
I was doing it, and-- I was.
And you have to
keep doing it.
It's never done.
This is life now, Clemence.
Be diligent.
-[knocking on door]
-[Neil] Can you hurry up?
I'm taking a shit.
-[knocking on door]
-[Clemence sighs]
-[Sherri] What's going on?
-[Neil] She's been in there for,
-like, 20 minutes.
-[Carlin] Yeah, she has.
-[Sherri] Clemence.
-[knocking on door]
Open the door.
Come on, Clemence,
what's going on in there?
-Leave me the fuck alone!
-[Sherri] Clemence!
[banging on door]
[Sherri gasping]
Oh, my God.
No, spit that out,
spit that out.
Come on. Cough it out, come on.
[Clemence coughing]
-[Clemence] Get out!
Hey!
Don't.
No! God damn it! Oh, my God.
Oh! Shit!
Oh, my God.
-[Clemence] Ow.
-Clemence?
Bring her right in here.
-[Carlin] Dad, move!
-[Neil] Dad get-- Dad, get up!
-[Carlin] Go!
-Here, here, put her right here.
-Right here.
-Oh, shit.
-[Carlin] Oh, my God.
-[Sherri] Oh, dear.
Here, here, here, here.
Oh, my God.
Should we call 911?
-[Neil] Mom, she's fine.
-[Carlin] Clemence, hello?
Can you hear us?
-Oh, what happened?
-[Sherri] Well, basically,
you were trying to
kill yourself, I think.
I don't know
what the hell you were doing.
And then it-- it got--
it got physical.
It was a joke. It was funny!
-[Neil] It wasn't.
-[Carlin] Yeah, no.
[Clemence groans]
[Don] Well,
you bonked your head, huh?
Why should I fight every day
if you're not even gonna try?
I mean,
it's not fair, Clemence.
I'm the one that's gonna have
surgery and have to do chemo
-and lose all my hair--
-You did this to me.
You fucking made me this way!
-[Sherri] Wow...
-[Clemence] Yeah. See you later.
[Clemence sighs and scoffs]
Well, technically,
I also made you this way.
Ew.
-[Don] Need help up?
-[Neil] Give me my shoe.
-[Carlin] Okay.
-[Don] Oh, my God.
-[Don] There you go. Wow.
-All right, whatever.
Forget it.
It's for nothing.
-[rain pattering]
-[calm instrumental]
[Dalton] Yo, sophomore year
is gonna be such a bitch.
Yo. Is-- is that--
Hold up. Yo.
-Ashik.
-Oh, yo.
So, I haven't heard
from your sister
in a little bit and, uh,
is everything okay?
Yeah, um, I guess she just took
some prescription pills
that mess
with her medication.
Uh, just made her really sick.
Oh, shit.
When you see her,
tell her I said...
"Hi."
Uh, no.
No, I don't--
I don't think I will.
Okay.
[birds chirping]
Who would ever
want to buy this, Dad?
-Why?
-I'm sure she had a vision.
Okay, well,
was she not wearing her glasses?
All right.
Your mom is complex, guys.
She's an artist.
Give her some credit.
How long is it gonna be?
'Til she can, like, get up
and do things again?
I'm not sure.
But when she does rise again,
we will be ready.
[Beth] Hello? Hello?
-Oh. Hey.
-Hey.
Oh, we're closed.
Okay, can I come inside, though?
[chuckles]
I, uh, I just--
I-- I brought these.
For your mom.
Yeah, I felt bad, so...
Okay.
Um, well, she's not here.
Uh, she's, uh,
taking some time to
chill before her mastectomy.
Okay. Oh, well, okay.
What-- whatever, then.
[Clemence] Yep.
Do you wanna get lunch anyway?
Yeah.
I'm pretty sure Mom is still mad
at me over the pills thing.
I mean, like, I don't know,
she's totally ignoring me.
[Carlin] She's just sick
and tired.
Always mad at you.
Okay, Mom really needs
our support right now, okay?
So let's just-- you know,
get in there,
send her off with a bang,
and we'll get through this,
all right?
Then maybe
we can grill later.
-Uh, I have plans, so...
-Come on, dude.
Okay, sorry.
There she is! Miss America.
-[Sherri chuckles]
-[Don] Aw.
-How you doing, sweetie?
-I'm okay.
I just want to get this thing
over with, you know?
[Don]
I know. You look great.
-[chuckles] Yeah.
-[Don] It's gonna be great.
-Okay.
-[Neil] Hi, Mom.
-[Sherri] Hey! Ah!
-Presents for you.
[Sherri] That's great.
That looks familiar.
[Don]
Well, it's from the store.
Could you tell?
Come here, sweetie.
Thank you. [muttering]
Thanks, kid.
Clemence has something
for you, too.
You know what?
-We'll come back. Come on.
-Okay.
Oh. Just-- nowhere to go--
How is it going?
Not great.
Yeah.
I'm kinda...
I'm kinda mad at you.
Oh, really?
Yeah, uh, so...
You're doing this,
which is cool.
Uh, then you're gonna
do chemo and...
everything and I...
guess I'm just wondering...
[voice cracking] ...who's gonna
take care of us if you die?
Well, I think
you would take care of yourself.
And I think you--
you'd be great.
Oh.
I love you.
Yeah,
you're my special girl.
-[Sherri kisses]
-[Clemence sobs]
[Clemence wheezing]
-I have a present for you.
-You do?
Well, let's see it.
It's a card. I made it.
Don't even read it.
Don't read it?
-[Clemence groans]
-I like it.
Um, it's, like, a...
yeah, it has a thing in it
and you can put--
you put something in there and--
It's very, uh-- it's a very
practical gift and I like it.
-Yeah.
-I like the color.
One-- one other thing, too.
Um...
[instructor] Welcome, everyone,
to another session.
And today, let's all send
positive vibes out to Sherri
-before her big surgery.
-Oh, my God. [laughs]
How did you do that?
Um, I wrote her,
like, 25 emails.
-Oh, my God. Oh, I love it.
-Yeah. She was supposed
to give me a shout-out,
but apparently I'm not...
Well,
I think it's fantastic.
I love it. You did good.
That's great.
-We didn't go anywhere.
-[Sherri] Good.
-[Clemence] Don't make it weird.
-You guys, I'm famous.
I'm on YouTube now.
I'm, uh-- I'm going viral.
-No.
-[laughs] Well, I might!
-Yeah.
-Wasn't that something?
[Sherri]
That is really something.
-[Don] Isn't that something?
-I-- I-- I-- oughta be signing--
-She's on YouTube.
-autographs in the hospital.
-She's made it.
-[Sherri laughs]
[Carlin] Look,
I actually don't think
I even want to go to college.
[Clemence] You don't go
to college,
you're an idiot, 'cause...
it's what
you've always wanted.
So you should
at least try it out.
And, anyway, you can't--
you can't make
a decision like this
just 'cause
some burnout is haunting you.
I mean, there's one haunting me,
sexually.
I really thought
that I wanted to be a doctor,
but I think...
I just wanted to be
not you.
I'm sorry about that.
Didn't you make that for me?
-What?
-I think it's, like,
supposed to be Indiana.
I don't know.
I don't remember.
Yeah.
Yeah, I mean, yeah, I did.
I-- I did make that.
I painted it.
I kinda like it.
I might--
I might take it with me.
-Really?
-Yeah.
[pensive music]
Would it be random if you, like,
did become a doctor
or a scientist
or some shit and you,
like,
found the cures for me and Mom?
I'm not smart enough.
Probably not.
But if any of us is,
it's you.
Um, I'm gonna watch
The Matrix, so...
[Morpheus on TV] Unfortunately,
no one can be told
what the Matrix is.
You have to
see it for yourself.
[Clemence]
I feel like all of this
is just too much work.
I'm so tired of it never
actually getting better.
[Dr. Lismoen]
Isn't it better, though?
You know, I'm not a cure,
but a treatment.
Not the best, not perfect,
but better.
-Oh, yes!
-[Clemence] I guess.
I love it!
This customer today
would not stop staring.
It was so goddamn rude.
I wanted to be like,
"Can I get you some popcorn
for the show?"
But I didn't.
[scoffs] You should have.
[Sherri groans]
People are gonna ask you
why you're bald.
You just gotta tell 'em
you have cancer
and make them feel bad
about it.
Hmm, that's a good idea.
-Yeah.
-[Don] Mailman!
Oh, uh, this one
I found in the cabinet.
Don't know
how it got there.
[phone ringing]
Ricky, we're enemies now.
What do you want?
[Ricky on phone]
Hi, Clemence.
Well, hi, uh,
we have
a sudden opening because...
Beth is no longer with us.
She-- she-- she is alive,
she's just--
I guess
it just wasn't fun anymore
since you-- Well, anyway.
Oh, oh, hey, how's your mom?
Uh, dead, actually, but thanks.
Hey!
Hey, I'm leaving.
Leaving town. Like, soon.
What about--
um, what about your mom?
Uh, she'll be okay.
She's a tough bitch.
Had a tumor in her boob
and still knocked me
the hell out.
Right, yeah.
-[Clemence huffs]
-Well, um...
Don't-- don't do any--
don't do anything crazy
out there, you know?
Do you even know me?
Kind of.
[birds chirping]
[Clemence] I really
don't want to do this meeting.
I-- I don't want to do it.
I mean,
you have to face it eventually.
Just pretend you're talking
to one of your doctors
and you're having
a heart-to-heart.
Okay, cool.
How about everyone keeps
their sage advice to themselves?
You know? Today is about me.
Every day is about you.
[Sherri]
You dragged your dying mother
two hours away,
you're going in.
[Clemence]
Please, you are not dying.
Do you want us
to come in with you, honey?
Yeah, 'cause that
wouldn't be weird as hell.
Okay. Okay.
All right. Good lu-- mm.
So, I'm, uh,
pretty thirsty.
Sorry, I just thought I'd--
Oh, no, it's-- it's no problem.
We actually typically don't have
parents in these meetings.
Oh, no, it's cool, this is,
like, a thing that we do.
-Oh--
-[chair rattling]
Great.
So-- so, yeah, um, just, uh,
wondering what my options are.
Um, I'm not here to, like,
commit to anything, so just...
[laughing] ...chill on that,
but I, uh-- I'd like to know
where I stand.
And for you to stop sending mail
to my house.
Uh, well...
you haven't been formally
withdrawn from the school.
You were put on a student hiatus
'til next fall.
What?
I just had a feeling
you might--
Oh, wow.
I feel violated a little bit.
I need more storage space
in the basement.
You know, this is your decision,
Clemence.
The door is open,
just let us know.
The sooner the better.
I-- I haven't even picked
a major yet. [chuckles]
[Sherri] She's very creative.
Much more
than my other kids.
Well, good job, you know?
Either way.
Oh, hey, uh, can you just wait
for me in the car actually,
wait--
-Yeah, great, just--
-Uh, tell them that--
-I'll tell them, you know--
-Please.
Just, uh, here,
take this.
-Thank you.
-Okay.
I don't even want to know.
[indistinct chatter]
[stall door opens and shuts]
[urinating]
Hey, Eliza.
[urinating stops]
It's Clemence.
Probably the only Clemence
you've ever known.
[mellow instrumental music]
How have you been?
[Eliza] Okay.
Same.
[toilet flushes]
["Shiny" by Kotomi]
Tonight
I'm shiny
The line
is long
behind me
And I
can see you
at the end
While
I am waving
I'm already
misbehaving
And it's
starting
to sink in
I've waited
years,
I've waited
years
I've waited
years
Now I know
I'm here,
I know
I'm here
I know
I'm here
I'm not
saying
goodbye
'Cause I
won't be
far away
[music fades]