Two Dash One One (2022) Movie Script
1
[tires squealing]
-[crashing]
-[glass shattering]
[body thudding]
[gasps]
Oh, my God, what?
[groans]
Ow.
[birds chirping]
[groans]
Hello?
What?
[whimpers]
April?
What the fuck?
Oh, ow.
Ow.
[groaning]
[panting]
[birds chirping]
[handle rattling]
[creaks]
[jingles]
[laughter]
Hello?
[door creaks]
Marnie?
-I can't believe it.
-How?
I wish I knew.
We were in the car
and then-- and then...
How long have you been here?
I just got here.
-Really?
-Yeah.
Where have--
I've been looking for you.
-Where were you?
-Can you just hold me?
[Marnie] Can we just rip
the band-aid off?
[April] Which one?
[Marnie] We're dead.
How'd you figure it out?
Your face gave it all away.
I though I was never going
to see you again.
What are you talking about?
We were both
in that car accident.
We were.
I made it.
But you're here now.
I am. I--
I guess I wasn't meant
to last long without you.
What does that mean?
I'm here.
So how did you die?
I-- I don't know.
I remember everything.
The crash, rain,
fucking Paul on the radio.
You have to remember
something.
You said you didn't last
that long without me.
Eleven days.
But you got here
minutes after me?
Fascinating.
What?
Well, time moves
differently here.
I need a pen.
We're both dead
and you're taking notes?
I want to figure this out.
Okay, so...
what's the last thing
that you remember?
I had just gotten home.
I got some pizza
from Lucy's.
Mm, pumpkin prosciutto?
Medium spicy.
-Extra cheese?
-Extra cheese.
-So good.
-So fucking good.
[chuckles]
I, uh, poured myself
a glass of malbec,
turned on some music
and just danced.
I miss your dancing.
I was missing
my dancing partner.
Okay, so you were dancing.
That's it.
Well, that can't be it.
What happened after that?
I went to bed.
Okay, that's not all.
Maybe I died in my sleep.
You're too young for that.
Not if something's
wrong with me.
What could be wrong with you?
Shit, Marnie,
I-- I don't know.
Well, come on, try.
-I am.
-Try harder.
Maybe I don't want to.
[sighs]
Let's find you
that fucking pen.
Damn it.
Hey, what's up?
[sighs]
I just...
I don't really want
to go there right now.
I was with you
in that accident.
God, Marnie, I couldn't
even recognize the car.
I couldn't sleep.
I couldn't stop asking why
I was the one to walk away
while you had to go.
But now somehow you're here
and I have you again.
And...
I don't really care
how it happened.
I just...
I want some time
to be here with you.
Is that okay?
Of course that's okay.
[sighs] Okay.
Thank you.
So...
what do you want
to talk about?
I don't want to talk.
Okay.
"Stay a Little Longer."
["Stay A Little Longer"
playing]
Linen sheets
All in a mess
I woke before you
And got dressed
You stirred and asked me
Who I was...
Oh, hey.
Oh, hi.
[chuckles]
You come here with anybody?
Oh, my date, actually.
-Oh, okay.
-Yeah.
Never mind.
But she's actually...
[whispers]
...been in the bathroom
for a long time.
-Oh.
-Yeah.
She ordered the oysters.
In a dive like this?
I tried to warn her,
but...
So I'm, uh, dancing alone.
Mm, bummer.
This song is so good.
So fucking good.
Now we're at a party
In Silver Lake
It's been a year
But you haven't changed
You look so pretty
In the blue lights
Of the bar room
I ask you
May I have this dance?
You give me your hand
And a second chance
Serotonin climbs
And all my fears
Are conquered...
-[winces]
-What's wrong?
Nothing.
Nothing.
Okay.
I want to stay
A little longer
[rattling]
What are you looking for?
Nothing. I just--
I want to get this open.
I wonder.
[rattles]
-Weird.
-Very.
[drawers rattling]
Your pen, my lady.
-Thanks.
-[chuckles]
Looking for a better one?
-Paper.
-Ah. So needy.
[laughs]
Yes.
What'd you find?
Twelve pieces of paper.
-Only 12?
-Only 12.
-Twelve is great.
-Mm-hmm.
I'm sure there's some
margin space in these
if you run out.
If?
When you run out,
I'm sure we can find
you something.
[rattles]
Hmm. This one opens.
Up for some exploring?
Lead the way.
[rattles]
What's the pattern?
-Maybe there isn't one.
-Mm-mm.
Your worst fear confirmed.
And what's that?
That at the end of the day,
it's all just chaos.
Oh, God.
Any conclusions?
Not yet.
What are you doing?
It even smells the same.
Oh, you're weird.
Some things never change.
Some do.
[exhales]
Do you remember
that hail storm?
I remember chasing you
down the stairs.
It was loud.
You were hysterical.
It sounded like gunfire.
Have you actually heard
a gun fire?
Yes.
In the movies.
[laughs]
Okay, I was.
I was scared.
I know.
That's why I built you
that fort.
[laughs]
I feel like
I'm in a castle.
And I just need
to throw my hair down
and wait for Princess Charming
to come and save me.
Mm, well,
save your energy
because she's already here.
Oh, how did you--
how did you
get past the guards?
They never suspect a woman.
Oh.
-Pigs.
-Mm-hmm.
[laughs]
At least that didn't change.
What are you talking about?
Earlier today
you said that we changed.
-I didn't say that.
-Fine, you implied it.
Okay, well, even if I did,
change isn't a bad thing.
Well, I don't think
that we changed.
We're dead.
That's a pretty big change.
Okay, well, get out of here
with your logic.
[laughs] Ah!
[gasps] Never.
Stop. We are in a feud.
We are feuding now.
Ooh, like Romeo and Juliet?
How romantic.
That play is not romantic.
You know how I feel about
those whiny teenagers
and Taylor Swift songs.
-[laughs]
-What's so funny?
-You just proved my point.
-Which one?
The one
that I'm about to make.
Yes, we've changed,
but as evidenced
by your perennial
Romeo and Juliet rant,
some things never change.
You baited me.
Hook, line
and sinker, baby.
-Feuding. Still Feuding.
-[laughing]
No, but come on.
I fixed it.
Nope, the feuding
has officially escalated.
-Come out. Come out.
-Oh, come on. Come on.
I love you.
[laughing]
-[blows raspberry]
-[Marnie] Oh, no!
Oh, my God.
We are officially
feuding now.
What?
Why won't you love me?
-You are insane.
-Oh, my knee!
[scoffs]
So, what do you want
to do now?
Bored already?
[chuckles]
A little.
Do you want
to go on a walk?
Around the lake?
It's a date.
What's wrong?
Whoa.
Okay, good,
it's not just me.
You don't think
that we're...
Oh, my God. Oh, my God.
Oh, my God.
Marnie.
Oh, shit.
[panting]
Oh, thank God.
[panting]
Hey.
Are you okay?
Yeah.
-Yeah, yeah, yeah.
-Okay.
I just thought
that we were--
I know.
I know.
Okay.
Oh.
I'm all right.
-Are you sure?
-Yeah. Yeah, yeah, yeah.
Yeah.
Okay. Um...
whoo, so...
we can go out the front door,
but not the back.
-Sounds like a riddle.
-Huh.
I love riddles.
I know you do.
[chuckles]
Let's go.
We can puzzle it out.
Okay.
-Oh, wait.
-What?
-My notes are--
-Oh.
[chuckles]
I love you.
I'm very lovable.
Come on, let's go.
-Whoa.
-Whoa.
Whoa, hey.
Are you-- are you okay?
Yeah, I guess I'm still
just a little shaky.
Okay. Well, do you
want to go back?
No, no, no.
I'm fine.
-Okay.
-Really.
Okay.
[chuckles]
Weird question.
Yeah?
Have you had to pee
since we got here?
-No, I haven't.
-Me neither.
And I'm not hungry.
I was thirsty earlier today.
-You were?
-Yeah.
But you took care of that.
I'm being serious.
And I'm not.
Don't you think it's weird?
Everything is weird.
-[sighs]
-What?
-I'm just thinking--
-Obviously.
If we don't have to eat
or drink...
Or poop.
...or poop,
then do we really need
to go back to the cabin?
Wait, what?
Well, what's the point?
We don't need
anything there.
I don't even know
what you're talking about.
The cabin is the only thing
that I've recognized since
we've been here.
'Cause you haven't looked
anywhere else.
We don't have to look
anywhere else.
We're obviously supposed
to stay at the cabin.
Why is it obvious?
Seriously, think about it.
If we were meant
to stay put,
then why can we walk
down the road?
To stretch our legs.
-Come on, April.
-What?
I think we should see
what's down there.
Why?
We have the cabin.
It's-- it's our place.
-Well, it was.
-Don't say it.
But a lot of things
have changed.
It's true.
The drawers,
the backyard.
Even the street
is different.
It's not going to be
what it was.
Well,
maybe it could be enough.
But for how long?
[sighs]
What do you think
you're gonna find down
that road anyway?
I don't know,
but there's got
to be something.
What makes you say that?
Well, for one thing,
it can't just be us.
April, we're hardly
the first people to die.
So, what, you think
everyone's just waiting
at the end
of the road ready to throw
us a welcome home party?
Well, I don't know
what's waiting at the end
of the road, but--
that's impossible.
How is it already--
Wait, that doesn't make
any sense.
Can we go back now?
Marnie, please.
Let's go.
What are you doing?
Keeping track of time.
I think you're missing
a tally though.
What do you mean?
Well, we got here
yesterday,
so that's two days,
two tallies.
-What?
-That doesn't work.
I'm sorry?
It's not you.
It's just what you said.
It doesn't work.
-I'm lost.
-I know.
Just hang on.
I'm trying to find
the words.
-For what?
-Time.
We can't call them days.
-But that's what they are.
-No, they're not.
They don't feel like days.
They don't pass
like normal days.
They're cycles
or sunsets or...
Tallies?
Tallies.
Then tallies it will be.
Thank you.
My thoughts
are just tangled.
You know?
Like I don't know what
any of this is
or where it is
and I just feel like
I'm drowning.
This, words, rules,
they're my--
Life preserver?
I just-- I know
that we can call them days,
I know that it would
be easy for you,
but it feels
so wrong to me.
It feels like a betrayal
of everything that I've known
a day to be.
Hey, whoa.
I'm on board.
-Thank you.
-Mm-hmm.
Yestertally sounds
really stupid, though.
[laughs]
Not good.
So you agree with me,
it is two tallies?
I'm on a roll.
Well, I mean,
maybe it is just one--
No, okay, let's just go.
-No! Damn it!
-Aw.
Oh, my God.
Come on.
You are so annoying
right now.
I still don't get
how you do that.
Years of watching
my grandmother's hands
and lots of...
Practice, I know.
We've plenty of time
for that,
I'll be too busy winning.
Oh, come on.
You're only up by five.
Hey, that's all
I need, babe.
Someone is feeling
confident.
-Want to bet on it?
-Oh, yeah.
[both laugh]
Let me just raise you
with all of my...
What's wrong?
Has that always
been in there?
I never checked.
[April] I must have had it
with me when I died.
I remember putting it
in my pocket.
Why?
Because I missed you.
Hey.
Sorry, it's just hard
to remember.
I know how you feel.
Thinking about it.
I was so happy
driving home.
I was gonna...
What?
[laughs]
What the hell is that?
I was hoping
it would be obvious.
-You were gonna propose?
-Yeah.
When we got home.
I've been carrying it around
for weeks, but I just...
I don't know,
I kept chickening out.
You did well.
So why haven't you
tried it on yet?
Because I haven't been
proposed to.
-Seriously?
-Mm-hmm.
[laughs]
Will you?
-Will I what?
-[laughs]
Be mine?
Was that the big speech?
No.
You had something
written, right?
Um, yeah.
I want to hear it.
Well, it doesn't really
fit anymore.
-I don't care.
-Fine.
April, we are
as different as two people
could possibly be,
and yet against all logic,
we work.
And that drives me crazy.
And I love it.
And I love you.
So...
will you spend
the rest of...
whatever this is
the rest of our lives
with me?
Oh, my God, now what?
It's just...
it could use
a little bit more flair.
It's not like I have access
to a flash mob.
No, that would have
been worse.
Well, I don't see you
down on one knee.
I was hoping
that you'd say that.
Du-du-dah.
[both laugh]
Marnie Elizabeth Newman.
[clears throat]
You are the most beautiful
girl that I've ever seen.
Your smile shines brighter
than any dawn.
Your laugh is the alarm clock
that I want to wake up
to in the morning.
You are my moon,
my stars and my sunshine.
Always have been.
Always will be.
Will you marry me?
Only if you marry me back.
Deal.
Give me your finger.
Ah, it fits!
-[laughs]
-Bring it.
Ah! [laughs]
I was really worried
that you weren't gonna
like it.
It's perfect.
I love it.
I had some help
picking it out.
Ari?
And Bridget, Judith,
Kelly, Melinda,
Steve, oh, and even Russell
weighed in.
That's quite the committee.
I really didn't want
to be wrong.
You never do.
Definitely not about this.
You know I would have
been happy with anything.
-I would have.
-Okay.
Miss spent an entire Saturday
picking out a dress
to wear to my coworker's
sister's baby shower.
A: you said
you liked that dress.
I did like that dress.
And B: I am choosing
to move on
because you picked out
something wonderful
and I love you.
[chuckles]
-[gasps]
-What?
Nothing.
Just say it.
I never have
to go shopping again.
-I liked shopping.
-I hated shopping.
Yeah, well, looks like
this worked out for you.
I don't know
if I would say that.
No, seriously.
I only ever went shopping
when I needed something
and I only ever needed
something when I had plans.
I really miss having plans.
Well, good thing you have
a wedding to look forward to.
-What?
-Mm-hmm.
You asked me to marry you.
I did.
-And I agreed.
-You did.
And then you agreed
to marry me.
-I did.
-So let's get married.
How? We have no guests.
-Not a deal breaker.
-No officiant.
-No problem.
-No cake.
I do love cake.
But I think we can
make it work.
You're serious about this.
Hundo P.
I hate when you say that.
I know.
-I don't know.
-Come on.
It'll be fun.
It would give you something
to look forward to.
And I'll handle
all the planning.
You know I like that stuff
better anyway.
April, it's not about
the planning.
Then what is it about?
You're getting really excited
about something that
doesn't make any sense.
Nothing makes sense.
Exactly.
Yup.
Wait, so you're agreeing
with me?
No, you are agreeing
with me.
There's no reason
not to have the wedding.
There's also no reason
to have the wedding.
I just gave you two.
-April.
-What?
I just don't want you
to be disappointed.
How would
I be disappointed?
Because whatever we manage
to string together
is not gonna be anywhere
near what we could have had.
That's not
what I'm thinking about.
Fine, then maybe that's
what I'm thinking about.
Look, I'm so grateful
that you convinced me to do
my proposal, but it just--
No, but nothing.
Let's do it.
Circumstances be damned.
You really
want to do this?
Yeah.
Okay.
Really?
-Yeah.
-Yeah?
-Yeah.
-[gasps]
Oh!
Oi.
[laughs]
You won't regret this.
Doubtful.
Where do we start?
Just let me handle it.
All you got to do
is show up.
-Aw!
-Finally.
Such a sore loser.
I am not a sore loser.
-Hm.
-I'm not.
That game had no business
taking as long as it did.
And yet here we are.
Okay, well,
statistically speaking,
you should have won
that game a lot sooner.
Well, statistically speaking,
you're adorable.
That doesn't make
any sense.
Ah, mm-hmm.
We talked about this.
And if you're referring
to the cards in my hand,
I'm not the one
who shuffled.
No, your turn.
Come on.
You can do it.
-Ay!
-[laughs]
It's okay.
The good news is that
you're 9,999 hours
away from mastering that.
Ha ha.
[sighs]
What are you
thinking about?
How much I want to compare
these to Hapke's Handbook.
Your brain is so loud
right now.
It's just--
it's so weird.
Like I keep thinking
that if I close my eyes
as tight as I can
I'll be able to see
the pages.
Like see the notes
that I made in the margin
and all the worksheet pages
that we filled up.
But I try and I can't.
I'm still so proud of myself
for getting you that gift.
When I saw it I was like,
"Oh, she's gonna love this."
I really did.
It was probably
the best Christmas gift
I've ever gotten.
Oh!
I'm sorry about this.
It's just like I don't know
what's happening.
I think that I keep
hoping that I'm gonna
feel differently.
Like eventually
I'll just accept this
as our new reality
and that there will be
moments where
I don't think about
how things used to be.
They hurt me, too.
I know.
You know what
I'm thinking about?
Hmm?
How War always takes
such a long time.
I think that's why
I never wanted to play it.
No, I know that's why
you never wanted to play it.
[laughing]
No patience.
Well, I'm starting
to like it now.
I'm glad.
Again?
Yes, again.
You're gonna get this.
[Marnie]
You are chaos incarnate.
No.
[laughs]
You are chaos incarnate.
And I love that.
And I love you.
[sighs]
[groans]
[sighs]
April?
Yeah?
Can I come down yet?
-No.
-Seriously?
Fine.
Just walk slowly.
Hey.
So?
What do you think?
I think
you've outdone yourself.
And?
[laughs]
Ooh, ah.
It's beautiful.
Right? Not bad
for purgatory chic.
Very vogue.
[imitates camera]
Before I forget.
Do you hear that?
What?
[hums "Bridal Chorus"]
[laughs]
[continues humming]
Get out of my way.
[continues humming]
Okay.
[continues humming]
-Give me a second.
-Okay.
Ha-tah!
-Cue me in.
-And...
[both humming]
Ooh!
[laughing]
[humming continues]
Now what?
You have to...
Oh. Oh, right.
[chuckles]
What's wrong?
Nothing.
It's just nerves.
Hey.
You're so beautiful.
So are you.
-Ready?
-Ready.
Okay.
I would like to start
this ceremony
with a confession.
[chuckles]
I was that girl
that dreamed about
my wedding my whole life.
I had everything planned out
down to the napkin rings.
I know.
And I always pictured
my friends and family there.
But, um,
looking at you
here today...
I have realized that
you are the only person
I need.
And when I lost you--
when I lost you
I realized
that the big bouquet
and the fancy dress,
they're-- [chuckles]
they're not important.
What matters is me
being here with you
and making you smile.
And I promise to spend
the rest of our time together
doing just that.
Wow. Okay, um...
I will match your confession
with one of my own.
I was a really lonely kid.
Um, and when I was sad
or scared
I would imagine my person.
My perfect partner.
And never in a million years
did I ever think
that they would drive me
half as crazy as you do.
[laughing]
You are chaos incarnate.
You leave a mess
everywhere you go.
You don't ever
really think through
the consequences
before you act.
And I love it.
I love your messes
because it means that we
can clean them up together.
I love how impulsive
you are
because it reminds me
to live.
I even love when
everything backfires
because it means that I get
to take care of you.
[sobs]
I love you, April.
I always have
and I always will.
-Damn it.
-[both laugh]
Sorry.
Okay.
-Marnie.
-Mm-hmm.
Do you take the beautiful,
the brilliant, creative,
show stopping April
to be your wife?
[laughs]
To have and to hold,
to laugh and to cry
and to love
for the rest of our lives?
I do.
Um,
I got really
nervous this morning
when I realized that...
I didn't have a ring
for you,
so I, uh, I took a--
a piece of our picture--
I'm sorry,
it's not platinum, but...
It's perfect.
Oh, man.
I didn't get to say
I do yet.
Oh, okay.
April,
do you take Marnie
to be your beloved
ball and chain,
to have and to hold,
to annoy and to love,
to, um, tease
and to treasure...
for the rest of our lives?
-I do.
-[both laugh]
Okay.
Yay!
Does anyone here
object to this union?
Really? No one?
Damn, I was hoping
for one jilted ex lover.
Who?
-[laughs]
-You know.
By the power vested in me
by me,
I now pronounce you
wife and wife.
-Whoa.
-I know.
You may now
kiss your bride.
Yay! Come here.
Ooh!
-Yeah!
-Whoa!
Oh, man,
I am really happy.
Me, too.
I'm still waiting for
the "you were right."
And pray tell what were
you right about?
This time?
[laughs]
This time.
Yeah.
Well, this time I was right
about having the ceremony.
Oh, that you were.
That was really special.
Mmm.
Oh, I just feel great.
I feel so happy and alive
and warm.
Thank you.
I was wondering if I would
ever feel that way again.
What's wrong?
Nothing, I'm just--
I'm glad that you're happy.
Wait, are you not?
What? No.
No, of course.
It's just...
it's complicated.
I was worried
that this would happen.
Nothing's happening.
-You're disappointed.
-No, I'm not.
You are.
April, it's okay.
Listen, I know
that it's hard
to differentiate
between what is
and what could have been.
Stop.
Seriously,
what is going on with you?
There's something
that I need to tell you.
Okay.
But I don't want to.
You're starting
to scare me.
You keep asking...
how I died.
[Marnie]
You didn't.
What the fuck?
I don't know what to say.
This?
This is what you've been
keeping from me?
Oh, Jesus Christ.
Jesus fucking Christ.
April, what the fuck?
I couldn't do it anymore.
Not without you.
That's bullshit
and you know it.
That's easy for you to say.
None of this is easy.
I'm sorry.
Fuck!
[sighs] Why?
Why? Why?
You were gone.
You left me behind.
I mean, we were both
in that accident.
April, you had so much
to live for.
So much.
You did not need me.
Yes, I did.
You could have found
somebody else.
-Don't say that.
-It's the truth.
You were my fucking person.
What did you want me
to do, just find somebody
and move on?
It didn't kill me,
but, Marnie,
that accident,
it ended my life.
So it's my fault?
What? No, Marnie.
So wait.
If I had been more careful
that night,
you would still be alive?
I--
oh, my God.
It's my fucking fault.
Marnie, no,
that's not what--
I actually can't--
I can't be here anymore.
-What does that mean?
-I need to-- I don't know.
I just need to go
on a fucking walk
or something.
-Can I come with you?
-No.
I'm sorry!
[door slams]
I'm sorry.
[sobbing]
Oh, shit.
[panting]
[screams]
[door opens]
Hey.
I'm so mad.
I know.
And scared.
Why?
Because I can't even fathom
that you would love me
enough that you would
throw it all away.
Because that means that
either you don't actually
love me that much,
or you do love me
that much
and then I'm never going
to live up to it
and you're
just gonna resent me.
Say something!
I'm thinking.
You said that I gave
everything up for you.
As romantic as that sounds,
I-- I didn't.
-But you--
-Killed myself.
But I had no way
of knowing that I was going
to see you again.
I just wanted
the not seeing you to stop.
So I didn't do it for you.
I did it for me.
Second, I do love you
that much.
And third, I could never
ever resent you.
You would if I left.
What is that
supposed to mean?
Are you still thinking
about following the road?
I've been wanting to
since the day that
we got here.
Why didn't you
say anything?
Because I'm still trying
to figure it out.
We should be talking
about these things.
But you don't want
to hear it.
You are so happy
to be here.
To be together.
You don't need
anything else, but I do.
Because I'm not enough
for you?
And I'm not enough
for you.
April,
we're just two people.
We can't be a whole world,
a whole existence.
You were mine.
And look how that ended up.
-I shouldn't have told you.
-Why?
Not if you're gonna
use it against me,
use it as some excuse
to leave.
-I'm not-- oh, April.
-What?
I'm not going anywhere,
But you just said--
That I wanted to leave.
And I still want to,
but now I--
Now?
I can't leave you here now.
Not after everything
you gave up for me.
Because you'd feel guilty.
Because I never want you
to feel that alone again.
I can't give you
your life back.
But I can give you this.
Whatever this is.
-But you'll be miserable.
-No.
I'll be with you.
I wasn't lying before
when I said that you
made me feel alive.
And even though
I want more than this,
I will never stop
wanting you.
But if you stay for me--
I will still have
one of those things.
I can't do that to you.
Well, there's always
a third option.
You come with me.
We've talked about this.
Yes, 70 tallies ago.
I was hoping that
something would change.
That you would see
what I see.
Well, I don't.
Okay, fine.
Then we go with option two.
We stay.
-And you'll resent me.
-I won't.
That's a big promise
to make.
And you know
I don't like those.
Not if I don't know
that I can keep them.
So what about option 1.5?
What's that?
We table it.
We take some more time
to think about
what we want.
That feels like
we're just kicking the can
down the road.
No, mm-mm,
not necessarily.
You-- you told me
that maybe I can see
what you see with
a little bit more time.
I did.
And the wedding today
you said that you felt
different than before.
Fuck.
You're right.
So maybe we just give it
a little bit more time.
But how much
more time, April?
Seventy more tallies?
No, it doesn't even need
to be that long.
We can do--
we can do 30.
That way
it's a clean 100.
You love
that sort of thing.
-I do.
-I know.
But what if it's not
enough time?
Okay, um,
think about how quickly
we moved in together.
I didn't want
to second guess it.
Exactly.
The more time
that you have to analyze,
the crazier
you make yourself.
You're right.
So 30 tallies.
But what if
that's too long?
I'm going to kill you.
Come here.
I'm still mad at you.
I know.
[sighs]
[April]
"Spring break 2014 forever."
K-Dawg McGillicutty.
Do you think everyone
called him K-Dawg?
I wonder what
the K stood for.
Kevin? Karl?
Ketamine?
I doubt his name
was Ketamine.
Could have been
a family name.
"After 44 years of marriage,
we thought we knew
what we liked.
Then we stayed here.
Can't wait to come back
for our anniversary next year.
Thanks for everything.
XOXO."
Pam.
Aw, I hope they came back
for their anniversary.
Me, too.
-Hmm.
-What?
Isn't it interesting
how safe I feel here?
All the memories we made,
all the time we spent here
even though so many people
have stayed here.
Like who's cooked in
that kitchen and who's
played with those cards
or had sex on this couch?
Honestly, I wonder who
is here right now.
Who's cooking
or sleeping or...
Bumping uglies?
Guess we'll never know.
Isn't it weird?
Can we talk about
my funeral?
Speaking of segues.
Sorry.
No, don't be.
But why?
I've been going back
and forth about it a lot
and I really wanted
to ask you.
I just didn't want
to make you upset.
I suppose I would
want to know, too.
So, what do you
want to know?
Anything.
Who was there,
who wasn't.
Who cried.
How petty.
Your parents wanted
to keep it small,
so it was
some of your family,
a few of your friends,
some of your coworkers.
How were my parents?
They were actually
really good.
They sat beside each other.
-No.
-Mm-hmm.
Yup, no fights.
And your dad,
he held an umbrella
for your mom when it
started to rain.
-He did not.
-He did.
That's really sweet.
It was also
really strange.
I kept wanting to talk
to you about it,
but you weren't there.
It got to be
a bit too much
so I left early.
That's okay.
I know.
Your dad stood behind
your mom when she spoke.
And then, um,
your brother,
he, um, recited
some of his poetry.
Oh, God.
[laughs]
Yeah, then I spoke.
What'd you say?
I honestly don't remember.
That's when I was
shaking so much,
so I left.
Oh.
Did my grandmother make it?
No.
But I did check on her
a few days later.
She's still
sharp as a tack.
[laughs]
She apologized for not
being able to make it.
She said she wasn't ready
to bury someone so young.
She did send me home
with six unwrapped Milanos
and then some holiday
peanut butter cups.
Oh, God,
of course she did.
She thank you for going
to see her?
-She's the best.
-Very best.
[sniffles]
I hope she's okay.
[chuckles]
I'm sure she is.
I like the new office.
Thank you.
You know,
when the designer told me
you asked for no walls,
I was a bit concerned,
but I get it now.
Mind if I join?
Please do.
How was solitaire?
-I won.
-Mmm.
-Eight times.
-You've been busy.
I've been bored.
Any conclusions other than
you need more pages?
I was really hoping
that these lists would help.
-They don't.
-They do.
And they don't.
I just--
I overanalyze
every observation
that I make
and then I wonder whether
or not I'm being too harsh
or if I'm not being
harsh enough
and I just don't know.
-It seems like you do.
-No.
The only thing I know
is that self awareness
is a complete con.
I would think
that's a pro.
The only way
that I've avoided
a complete descent
into nihilism
is my incessant need
to assign value to things.
-Yikes.
-And now I am stuck
trying to assign value
to a world
that makes no sense.
-Maybe you can just...
-Fuck.
-...lean into it
-I can't.
Because there has
to be something else
to all of this.
Like I can see it,
but it's just out of focus
and I keep coming
to the same question.
Did aliens
build the pyramids?
Is this all there is?
Would it really be
that bad?
I know that it feels
like this is enough
right now, but...
April, I don't know how long
this is gonna last, okay?
This isn't the real
two dash one one.
We can't go swimming
in the lake.
We can't ride bikes
into town.
But we can play cards
and do yoga.
We can't sleep.
Or eat.
Every time I go
towards the street
the entire world
starts to spin
like I'm back
in the car and I can't stop
it from flipping.
And it's you, too, right?
That's why you're so weird
about your neck.
No, I'm--
I'm just ticklish.
You have never
been ticklish, April.
Not until now.
Well,
maybe it's a warning.
Maybe you get dizzy
when you get near the road
because we're supposed
to stay here.
Or maybe it means that
there is more work to do
because this isn't it.
And I can't get that thought
out of my head.
Look around.
There's nothing.
No.
We are not nothing.
I mean, we finally have
each other again
and I'm not gonna risk
it all just because you want
to go down the road.
Remember when we moved
to LA?
What does that have to do
with anything?
Just go with me
for a sec.
Sure, what about it?
We didn't leave New York
because our relationship
wasn't enough, did we?
Not really.
We left because LA
had more to offer us.
In some ways.
But you were scared to go.
I was scared that you
were going to leave me.
That we were going
to get there ready to chase
this big dream together
and then you would
just realize that you
didn't need me anymore.
Do you see the parallels?
No.
You're just being
difficult.
-Oh, my God!
-No, I'm not.
You're wrong.
LA, it had jobs
and movies and friends
and really good sushi.
And we don't know
that there's sushi
down that road.
But we don't know
that there isn't.
And there's certainly
no sushi here.
I miss food.
Me, too.
And the more
I think about it,
the more I crave it.
And calling these chopsticks
just doesn't cut it.
That's still scarier
than hopping on a plane.
Why?
Because I knew that
if we needed to...
We could always go back.
[laughs]
Eleven benevolent
ephelants.
-[both laugh]
-Ephelants?
Okay, wait, wait, wait.
My turn, my turn, my turn.
I got to lick my lips.
Okay, wait.
Eleven benevolent
elephants.
-[gasps]
-[laughs]
What?
I've had a lot of time
to practice, okay?
Clearly.
Hey.
[both laugh]
I love you.
I love you, too.
I know.
I just--
God, I love you
so much...
that I'm so appreciative
of everything
that you've done
to make this all okay.
I'm your wife
and you're mine.
What day
do you think it is?
I have no idea.
But if I had to guess,
I would say...
November 8th.
Why November 8th?
I don't know.
It's just the first date
that came to mind.
What about you?
I wish I knew.
Guess.
I can't.
Because even if I did,
I would have no way
of knowing whether
I was right or wrong.
God.
I just--
I just want to know
if it's your birthday
or mine or...
New Years.
Yeah, that would be
really nice.
It's so quiet in here.
I kind of like it.
Sometimes--
sometimes I just wish
I could hear the tick
of a clock.
Every tick meant something.
Happy birthday, Marnie.
-No.
-Yes.
Happy birthday.
Wait, wait, wait.
Where are you going?
It's somebody's birthday.
I have a party to plan.
I know, I love me, too.
Count to 200,
then come downstairs.
One...
two...
three...
four...
five...
[crying quietly]
[clicks]
[woman on record]
Should we get another
bottle of champagne?
["LBD" playing]
[chuckles]
Sorry, ma'am,
this event is closed
to the public.
Oh, um, is this not Rifkah's
bat mitzvah afterparty?
That's the cabin
next door.
My bad.
What's happening here?
Oh, this is a private
invite-only party
for my wife.
Your wife? Wow.
You seem a little young
to be married.
Are you flirting with me?
Maybe.
I better get going.
Right, right, don't want
to keep Rachel waiting.
-Rifkah.
-Right.
Mm-hmm.
Do you have time for one
dance before you go?
You know,
actually I do.
I just realized my event
is not till tomorrow.
So you can stay
a little longer?
[laughs] Yes.
As long as your wife
doesn't mind.
Oh, mm, she won't.
-Good.
-No. Yeah.
But tonight
We can't be friends
It's that kind of place
The music makes amends
So get another drink
Beneath the neon lights
I don't think
That I can be
A different lover tonight
I feel alone in my 20s
I feel so old in my 20s
But I'm feeling
Kind of brave tonight
All I needed
Was 20 minutes with you
I feel alone in my 20s
I feel so old in my 20s
But I'm feeling
Kind of brave tonight
All I needed
Was 20 minutes with you
With you, with you,
With you, with you
With you, with you,
With you
With you, with you,
With you, with you
With you,
20 minutes with you
With you, with you,
With you, with you
With you, with you,
With you
With you, with you,
With you, with you
With you
Twenty minutes,
20 minutes
Hey, hey, hey, hey
Twenty minutes,
20 minutes
Hey, hey, hey, hey
Just 20 minutes with you
-Oh.
-Come here.
-Okay.
-[laughs]
["Rosalie" playing]
Come here, honey
I want to feel
Your lips on mine
I'm sorry this isn't more.
This is lovely.
[laughs] Okay.
You can take me home
Get to know me
A little more personally
'Cause I want you
Rosalie
'Cause I want you
Rosalie
I have something really
important to tell you.
Okay.
Sweet nothings.
[laughs]
My God.
That was really bad.
I know,
but it made you laugh.
You always do.
Even when you don't mean to.
Are you referring
to the incident?
It's really hard to ignore
when you're at the scene
of the crime.
It wasn't a crime.
Arson is a very serious crime.
It was one candle.
And one
very flammable curtain.
You almost burned down
the whole cabin.
My hands shake
when I'm nervous.
Wait.
You were nervous?
[laughs]
Of course I was.
I'd never told anybody
that I loved them before.
And all these years
I just thought you were being,
-I don't know.
-Clumsy?
Yourself.
[laughs]
-It's not even singed.
-I know.
It was one
of the first things
that I noticed.
What else do you remember
from that night?
Hmm.
How happy I was
to be alive.
And how happy I was
that you said it.
Because I'd been wanting
to tell you for weeks.
Why didn't you?
Because I was still making
a list of pros and cons.
[laughs]
-Of course you were.
-I know.
April.
Yeah?
I had a really nice tally
with you.
I had a really nice tally
with you, too.
It just...
feels like it went by
so fast.
They always do.
Don't worry about tomorrow.
Just be here
with me right now.
One condition.
Anything.
Tell me you love me.
[laughs]
I love you.
I love you, too.
Five more minutes.
Okay.
-We don't have to--
-No more kicking the can.
We said 100 tallies.
Okay.
I'm ready to go.
I know.
Are you?
Not there.
All right.
-Then we stay.
-No.
-April, it's--
-I--
I can't keep you here
any longer.
You're not keeping me here.
You said that being here
makes you unhappy.
And if I make you
stay longer than
I'm making you unhappy.
You make me so happy.
But there has to be
something more.
That's what you've been
saying this whole time.
Even before this.
So I have to find out
what that
more is.
Otherwise what's the point
of all this?
Hmm.
No.
This isn't how this
is supposed to go.
You're being so logical.
Where's that leave me?
[chuckles]
I think it's time
for you to be a little bit
more subjective
and a little bit
more selfish.
[chuckles]
How are you
being so strong?
Trust me, I'm not.
In fact,
if you don't leave
right now,
I might change my mind.
I won't let you.
'Cause you're right.
Wait. Um...
I need you to know
that I'm not leaving
because of you
or because this
isn't good enough.
-Marnie.
-No, no, no.
It's so, so good.
Like too good.
And when everything
feels good...
[sighs]
it starts to feel
like nothing.
[sniffles]
And this...
this isn't nothing.
This is something.
I love you, Marnie.
I love you more.
It's time to go.
Do you have
everything you need?
Except for you.
[chuckles]
You will always have me.
Then I guess I do
have everything.
Come on.
[Marnie sniffles]
You should
take it with you.
[laughs]
It's not the point
of a guestbook.
Wait.
Now you're ready.
Come on.
[exhales]
[crying]
-Okay.
-Okay.
[sniffles]
[sighs]
[groans]
[laughs]
I always wondered
why the dash.
So that we can call it
two dash one one.
[laughs]
Okay.
Okay.
-I love you.
-I love you.
[birds chirping]
[door closes]
[laughter]
["Breathe" playing]
Hey, hey, hey
Don't forget to put
Your smile on
It's a brand new day
Better get those
Bedroom curtains drawn
You've been down
You've been blue
That's okay
You've got
More living to do
Just breathe
Inhale 'cause you know
That peace is coming
Just breathe
Exhale like you
Just finished
Something that
You're proud of
Don't treat it
Like it's nothing
You're here
And I'm gonna give you
All my loving
Baby, baby
Baby,
You have had it hard
I know that's true
Some have it easy
And it ain't fair
But it's the cards
You drew
So give them hell
Take a stand
And if you're tired
You know you can
Just breathe
Inhale 'cause you know
That peace is coming
Just breathe
Exhale like you just
Finished something
That you're proud of
Don't treat it
Like it's nothing
You're here
And I'm gonna give you
All my love
It will help you
Clear your mind
It will help you
Take your time
If you just
[sighs]
[sighs]
[chuckles]
Marnie?
What,
did I forget something?
What are you
still doing here?
I don't walk that fast.
No, seriously, Marnie,
what the fuck?
You were supposed to go.
What are you talking about?
All this time
you've been waiting?
April, I literally
just left.
If you just left then
why can I do this?
[chuckles]
When did you learn
how to do that?
Over the last 111 tallies
that you've been gone.
What?
That's how long it's been,
I didn't want to rush it.
Why didn't you keep going?
That's what I've been
trying to tell you.
I just left.
Well, that doesn't
make any sense.
April.
What?
Nothing here
makes any sense.
[laughs]
[laughs]
[laughing]
["She's Like the Sea"
playing]
She is a force
She's like the sea
Tender and calm
Then she envelopes me
Completely
She is a tide
She ebbs and she flows
She talks to the moon
And like it
She glows so bright
I want her every night
The strength of her waves
Pulled me in,
Pulled me under
I held her face
In my hands
And I knew
That I loved her
Wash over me, baby
I don't want any other
Than you
I am the sand
I'm like debris
Broken and soft
I crumble
When you touch me
Helplessly
She takes me in
Her roaring embrace
With salt on her lips
She kisses away
The trace of those
Who have tread on me
She's so good to me
Good to me
The strength of her waves
Pulled me in,
Pulled me under
I held her face
In my hands
And I knew
That I loved her
Wash over me, baby
I don't want any other
Than you
I don't want any other
Than you
Don't want any other
I don't want any other
Than you
[tires squealing]
-[crashing]
-[glass shattering]
[body thudding]
[gasps]
Oh, my God, what?
[groans]
Ow.
[birds chirping]
[groans]
Hello?
What?
[whimpers]
April?
What the fuck?
Oh, ow.
Ow.
[groaning]
[panting]
[birds chirping]
[handle rattling]
[creaks]
[jingles]
[laughter]
Hello?
[door creaks]
Marnie?
-I can't believe it.
-How?
I wish I knew.
We were in the car
and then-- and then...
How long have you been here?
I just got here.
-Really?
-Yeah.
Where have--
I've been looking for you.
-Where were you?
-Can you just hold me?
[Marnie] Can we just rip
the band-aid off?
[April] Which one?
[Marnie] We're dead.
How'd you figure it out?
Your face gave it all away.
I though I was never going
to see you again.
What are you talking about?
We were both
in that car accident.
We were.
I made it.
But you're here now.
I am. I--
I guess I wasn't meant
to last long without you.
What does that mean?
I'm here.
So how did you die?
I-- I don't know.
I remember everything.
The crash, rain,
fucking Paul on the radio.
You have to remember
something.
You said you didn't last
that long without me.
Eleven days.
But you got here
minutes after me?
Fascinating.
What?
Well, time moves
differently here.
I need a pen.
We're both dead
and you're taking notes?
I want to figure this out.
Okay, so...
what's the last thing
that you remember?
I had just gotten home.
I got some pizza
from Lucy's.
Mm, pumpkin prosciutto?
Medium spicy.
-Extra cheese?
-Extra cheese.
-So good.
-So fucking good.
[chuckles]
I, uh, poured myself
a glass of malbec,
turned on some music
and just danced.
I miss your dancing.
I was missing
my dancing partner.
Okay, so you were dancing.
That's it.
Well, that can't be it.
What happened after that?
I went to bed.
Okay, that's not all.
Maybe I died in my sleep.
You're too young for that.
Not if something's
wrong with me.
What could be wrong with you?
Shit, Marnie,
I-- I don't know.
Well, come on, try.
-I am.
-Try harder.
Maybe I don't want to.
[sighs]
Let's find you
that fucking pen.
Damn it.
Hey, what's up?
[sighs]
I just...
I don't really want
to go there right now.
I was with you
in that accident.
God, Marnie, I couldn't
even recognize the car.
I couldn't sleep.
I couldn't stop asking why
I was the one to walk away
while you had to go.
But now somehow you're here
and I have you again.
And...
I don't really care
how it happened.
I just...
I want some time
to be here with you.
Is that okay?
Of course that's okay.
[sighs] Okay.
Thank you.
So...
what do you want
to talk about?
I don't want to talk.
Okay.
"Stay a Little Longer."
["Stay A Little Longer"
playing]
Linen sheets
All in a mess
I woke before you
And got dressed
You stirred and asked me
Who I was...
Oh, hey.
Oh, hi.
[chuckles]
You come here with anybody?
Oh, my date, actually.
-Oh, okay.
-Yeah.
Never mind.
But she's actually...
[whispers]
...been in the bathroom
for a long time.
-Oh.
-Yeah.
She ordered the oysters.
In a dive like this?
I tried to warn her,
but...
So I'm, uh, dancing alone.
Mm, bummer.
This song is so good.
So fucking good.
Now we're at a party
In Silver Lake
It's been a year
But you haven't changed
You look so pretty
In the blue lights
Of the bar room
I ask you
May I have this dance?
You give me your hand
And a second chance
Serotonin climbs
And all my fears
Are conquered...
-[winces]
-What's wrong?
Nothing.
Nothing.
Okay.
I want to stay
A little longer
[rattling]
What are you looking for?
Nothing. I just--
I want to get this open.
I wonder.
[rattles]
-Weird.
-Very.
[drawers rattling]
Your pen, my lady.
-Thanks.
-[chuckles]
Looking for a better one?
-Paper.
-Ah. So needy.
[laughs]
Yes.
What'd you find?
Twelve pieces of paper.
-Only 12?
-Only 12.
-Twelve is great.
-Mm-hmm.
I'm sure there's some
margin space in these
if you run out.
If?
When you run out,
I'm sure we can find
you something.
[rattles]
Hmm. This one opens.
Up for some exploring?
Lead the way.
[rattles]
What's the pattern?
-Maybe there isn't one.
-Mm-mm.
Your worst fear confirmed.
And what's that?
That at the end of the day,
it's all just chaos.
Oh, God.
Any conclusions?
Not yet.
What are you doing?
It even smells the same.
Oh, you're weird.
Some things never change.
Some do.
[exhales]
Do you remember
that hail storm?
I remember chasing you
down the stairs.
It was loud.
You were hysterical.
It sounded like gunfire.
Have you actually heard
a gun fire?
Yes.
In the movies.
[laughs]
Okay, I was.
I was scared.
I know.
That's why I built you
that fort.
[laughs]
I feel like
I'm in a castle.
And I just need
to throw my hair down
and wait for Princess Charming
to come and save me.
Mm, well,
save your energy
because she's already here.
Oh, how did you--
how did you
get past the guards?
They never suspect a woman.
Oh.
-Pigs.
-Mm-hmm.
[laughs]
At least that didn't change.
What are you talking about?
Earlier today
you said that we changed.
-I didn't say that.
-Fine, you implied it.
Okay, well, even if I did,
change isn't a bad thing.
Well, I don't think
that we changed.
We're dead.
That's a pretty big change.
Okay, well, get out of here
with your logic.
[laughs] Ah!
[gasps] Never.
Stop. We are in a feud.
We are feuding now.
Ooh, like Romeo and Juliet?
How romantic.
That play is not romantic.
You know how I feel about
those whiny teenagers
and Taylor Swift songs.
-[laughs]
-What's so funny?
-You just proved my point.
-Which one?
The one
that I'm about to make.
Yes, we've changed,
but as evidenced
by your perennial
Romeo and Juliet rant,
some things never change.
You baited me.
Hook, line
and sinker, baby.
-Feuding. Still Feuding.
-[laughing]
No, but come on.
I fixed it.
Nope, the feuding
has officially escalated.
-Come out. Come out.
-Oh, come on. Come on.
I love you.
[laughing]
-[blows raspberry]
-[Marnie] Oh, no!
Oh, my God.
We are officially
feuding now.
What?
Why won't you love me?
-You are insane.
-Oh, my knee!
[scoffs]
So, what do you want
to do now?
Bored already?
[chuckles]
A little.
Do you want
to go on a walk?
Around the lake?
It's a date.
What's wrong?
Whoa.
Okay, good,
it's not just me.
You don't think
that we're...
Oh, my God. Oh, my God.
Oh, my God.
Marnie.
Oh, shit.
[panting]
Oh, thank God.
[panting]
Hey.
Are you okay?
Yeah.
-Yeah, yeah, yeah.
-Okay.
I just thought
that we were--
I know.
I know.
Okay.
Oh.
I'm all right.
-Are you sure?
-Yeah. Yeah, yeah, yeah.
Yeah.
Okay. Um...
whoo, so...
we can go out the front door,
but not the back.
-Sounds like a riddle.
-Huh.
I love riddles.
I know you do.
[chuckles]
Let's go.
We can puzzle it out.
Okay.
-Oh, wait.
-What?
-My notes are--
-Oh.
[chuckles]
I love you.
I'm very lovable.
Come on, let's go.
-Whoa.
-Whoa.
Whoa, hey.
Are you-- are you okay?
Yeah, I guess I'm still
just a little shaky.
Okay. Well, do you
want to go back?
No, no, no.
I'm fine.
-Okay.
-Really.
Okay.
[chuckles]
Weird question.
Yeah?
Have you had to pee
since we got here?
-No, I haven't.
-Me neither.
And I'm not hungry.
I was thirsty earlier today.
-You were?
-Yeah.
But you took care of that.
I'm being serious.
And I'm not.
Don't you think it's weird?
Everything is weird.
-[sighs]
-What?
-I'm just thinking--
-Obviously.
If we don't have to eat
or drink...
Or poop.
...or poop,
then do we really need
to go back to the cabin?
Wait, what?
Well, what's the point?
We don't need
anything there.
I don't even know
what you're talking about.
The cabin is the only thing
that I've recognized since
we've been here.
'Cause you haven't looked
anywhere else.
We don't have to look
anywhere else.
We're obviously supposed
to stay at the cabin.
Why is it obvious?
Seriously, think about it.
If we were meant
to stay put,
then why can we walk
down the road?
To stretch our legs.
-Come on, April.
-What?
I think we should see
what's down there.
Why?
We have the cabin.
It's-- it's our place.
-Well, it was.
-Don't say it.
But a lot of things
have changed.
It's true.
The drawers,
the backyard.
Even the street
is different.
It's not going to be
what it was.
Well,
maybe it could be enough.
But for how long?
[sighs]
What do you think
you're gonna find down
that road anyway?
I don't know,
but there's got
to be something.
What makes you say that?
Well, for one thing,
it can't just be us.
April, we're hardly
the first people to die.
So, what, you think
everyone's just waiting
at the end
of the road ready to throw
us a welcome home party?
Well, I don't know
what's waiting at the end
of the road, but--
that's impossible.
How is it already--
Wait, that doesn't make
any sense.
Can we go back now?
Marnie, please.
Let's go.
What are you doing?
Keeping track of time.
I think you're missing
a tally though.
What do you mean?
Well, we got here
yesterday,
so that's two days,
two tallies.
-What?
-That doesn't work.
I'm sorry?
It's not you.
It's just what you said.
It doesn't work.
-I'm lost.
-I know.
Just hang on.
I'm trying to find
the words.
-For what?
-Time.
We can't call them days.
-But that's what they are.
-No, they're not.
They don't feel like days.
They don't pass
like normal days.
They're cycles
or sunsets or...
Tallies?
Tallies.
Then tallies it will be.
Thank you.
My thoughts
are just tangled.
You know?
Like I don't know what
any of this is
or where it is
and I just feel like
I'm drowning.
This, words, rules,
they're my--
Life preserver?
I just-- I know
that we can call them days,
I know that it would
be easy for you,
but it feels
so wrong to me.
It feels like a betrayal
of everything that I've known
a day to be.
Hey, whoa.
I'm on board.
-Thank you.
-Mm-hmm.
Yestertally sounds
really stupid, though.
[laughs]
Not good.
So you agree with me,
it is two tallies?
I'm on a roll.
Well, I mean,
maybe it is just one--
No, okay, let's just go.
-No! Damn it!
-Aw.
Oh, my God.
Come on.
You are so annoying
right now.
I still don't get
how you do that.
Years of watching
my grandmother's hands
and lots of...
Practice, I know.
We've plenty of time
for that,
I'll be too busy winning.
Oh, come on.
You're only up by five.
Hey, that's all
I need, babe.
Someone is feeling
confident.
-Want to bet on it?
-Oh, yeah.
[both laugh]
Let me just raise you
with all of my...
What's wrong?
Has that always
been in there?
I never checked.
[April] I must have had it
with me when I died.
I remember putting it
in my pocket.
Why?
Because I missed you.
Hey.
Sorry, it's just hard
to remember.
I know how you feel.
Thinking about it.
I was so happy
driving home.
I was gonna...
What?
[laughs]
What the hell is that?
I was hoping
it would be obvious.
-You were gonna propose?
-Yeah.
When we got home.
I've been carrying it around
for weeks, but I just...
I don't know,
I kept chickening out.
You did well.
So why haven't you
tried it on yet?
Because I haven't been
proposed to.
-Seriously?
-Mm-hmm.
[laughs]
Will you?
-Will I what?
-[laughs]
Be mine?
Was that the big speech?
No.
You had something
written, right?
Um, yeah.
I want to hear it.
Well, it doesn't really
fit anymore.
-I don't care.
-Fine.
April, we are
as different as two people
could possibly be,
and yet against all logic,
we work.
And that drives me crazy.
And I love it.
And I love you.
So...
will you spend
the rest of...
whatever this is
the rest of our lives
with me?
Oh, my God, now what?
It's just...
it could use
a little bit more flair.
It's not like I have access
to a flash mob.
No, that would have
been worse.
Well, I don't see you
down on one knee.
I was hoping
that you'd say that.
Du-du-dah.
[both laugh]
Marnie Elizabeth Newman.
[clears throat]
You are the most beautiful
girl that I've ever seen.
Your smile shines brighter
than any dawn.
Your laugh is the alarm clock
that I want to wake up
to in the morning.
You are my moon,
my stars and my sunshine.
Always have been.
Always will be.
Will you marry me?
Only if you marry me back.
Deal.
Give me your finger.
Ah, it fits!
-[laughs]
-Bring it.
Ah! [laughs]
I was really worried
that you weren't gonna
like it.
It's perfect.
I love it.
I had some help
picking it out.
Ari?
And Bridget, Judith,
Kelly, Melinda,
Steve, oh, and even Russell
weighed in.
That's quite the committee.
I really didn't want
to be wrong.
You never do.
Definitely not about this.
You know I would have
been happy with anything.
-I would have.
-Okay.
Miss spent an entire Saturday
picking out a dress
to wear to my coworker's
sister's baby shower.
A: you said
you liked that dress.
I did like that dress.
And B: I am choosing
to move on
because you picked out
something wonderful
and I love you.
[chuckles]
-[gasps]
-What?
Nothing.
Just say it.
I never have
to go shopping again.
-I liked shopping.
-I hated shopping.
Yeah, well, looks like
this worked out for you.
I don't know
if I would say that.
No, seriously.
I only ever went shopping
when I needed something
and I only ever needed
something when I had plans.
I really miss having plans.
Well, good thing you have
a wedding to look forward to.
-What?
-Mm-hmm.
You asked me to marry you.
I did.
-And I agreed.
-You did.
And then you agreed
to marry me.
-I did.
-So let's get married.
How? We have no guests.
-Not a deal breaker.
-No officiant.
-No problem.
-No cake.
I do love cake.
But I think we can
make it work.
You're serious about this.
Hundo P.
I hate when you say that.
I know.
-I don't know.
-Come on.
It'll be fun.
It would give you something
to look forward to.
And I'll handle
all the planning.
You know I like that stuff
better anyway.
April, it's not about
the planning.
Then what is it about?
You're getting really excited
about something that
doesn't make any sense.
Nothing makes sense.
Exactly.
Yup.
Wait, so you're agreeing
with me?
No, you are agreeing
with me.
There's no reason
not to have the wedding.
There's also no reason
to have the wedding.
I just gave you two.
-April.
-What?
I just don't want you
to be disappointed.
How would
I be disappointed?
Because whatever we manage
to string together
is not gonna be anywhere
near what we could have had.
That's not
what I'm thinking about.
Fine, then maybe that's
what I'm thinking about.
Look, I'm so grateful
that you convinced me to do
my proposal, but it just--
No, but nothing.
Let's do it.
Circumstances be damned.
You really
want to do this?
Yeah.
Okay.
Really?
-Yeah.
-Yeah?
-Yeah.
-[gasps]
Oh!
Oi.
[laughs]
You won't regret this.
Doubtful.
Where do we start?
Just let me handle it.
All you got to do
is show up.
-Aw!
-Finally.
Such a sore loser.
I am not a sore loser.
-Hm.
-I'm not.
That game had no business
taking as long as it did.
And yet here we are.
Okay, well,
statistically speaking,
you should have won
that game a lot sooner.
Well, statistically speaking,
you're adorable.
That doesn't make
any sense.
Ah, mm-hmm.
We talked about this.
And if you're referring
to the cards in my hand,
I'm not the one
who shuffled.
No, your turn.
Come on.
You can do it.
-Ay!
-[laughs]
It's okay.
The good news is that
you're 9,999 hours
away from mastering that.
Ha ha.
[sighs]
What are you
thinking about?
How much I want to compare
these to Hapke's Handbook.
Your brain is so loud
right now.
It's just--
it's so weird.
Like I keep thinking
that if I close my eyes
as tight as I can
I'll be able to see
the pages.
Like see the notes
that I made in the margin
and all the worksheet pages
that we filled up.
But I try and I can't.
I'm still so proud of myself
for getting you that gift.
When I saw it I was like,
"Oh, she's gonna love this."
I really did.
It was probably
the best Christmas gift
I've ever gotten.
Oh!
I'm sorry about this.
It's just like I don't know
what's happening.
I think that I keep
hoping that I'm gonna
feel differently.
Like eventually
I'll just accept this
as our new reality
and that there will be
moments where
I don't think about
how things used to be.
They hurt me, too.
I know.
You know what
I'm thinking about?
Hmm?
How War always takes
such a long time.
I think that's why
I never wanted to play it.
No, I know that's why
you never wanted to play it.
[laughing]
No patience.
Well, I'm starting
to like it now.
I'm glad.
Again?
Yes, again.
You're gonna get this.
[Marnie]
You are chaos incarnate.
No.
[laughs]
You are chaos incarnate.
And I love that.
And I love you.
[sighs]
[groans]
[sighs]
April?
Yeah?
Can I come down yet?
-No.
-Seriously?
Fine.
Just walk slowly.
Hey.
So?
What do you think?
I think
you've outdone yourself.
And?
[laughs]
Ooh, ah.
It's beautiful.
Right? Not bad
for purgatory chic.
Very vogue.
[imitates camera]
Before I forget.
Do you hear that?
What?
[hums "Bridal Chorus"]
[laughs]
[continues humming]
Get out of my way.
[continues humming]
Okay.
[continues humming]
-Give me a second.
-Okay.
Ha-tah!
-Cue me in.
-And...
[both humming]
Ooh!
[laughing]
[humming continues]
Now what?
You have to...
Oh. Oh, right.
[chuckles]
What's wrong?
Nothing.
It's just nerves.
Hey.
You're so beautiful.
So are you.
-Ready?
-Ready.
Okay.
I would like to start
this ceremony
with a confession.
[chuckles]
I was that girl
that dreamed about
my wedding my whole life.
I had everything planned out
down to the napkin rings.
I know.
And I always pictured
my friends and family there.
But, um,
looking at you
here today...
I have realized that
you are the only person
I need.
And when I lost you--
when I lost you
I realized
that the big bouquet
and the fancy dress,
they're-- [chuckles]
they're not important.
What matters is me
being here with you
and making you smile.
And I promise to spend
the rest of our time together
doing just that.
Wow. Okay, um...
I will match your confession
with one of my own.
I was a really lonely kid.
Um, and when I was sad
or scared
I would imagine my person.
My perfect partner.
And never in a million years
did I ever think
that they would drive me
half as crazy as you do.
[laughing]
You are chaos incarnate.
You leave a mess
everywhere you go.
You don't ever
really think through
the consequences
before you act.
And I love it.
I love your messes
because it means that we
can clean them up together.
I love how impulsive
you are
because it reminds me
to live.
I even love when
everything backfires
because it means that I get
to take care of you.
[sobs]
I love you, April.
I always have
and I always will.
-Damn it.
-[both laugh]
Sorry.
Okay.
-Marnie.
-Mm-hmm.
Do you take the beautiful,
the brilliant, creative,
show stopping April
to be your wife?
[laughs]
To have and to hold,
to laugh and to cry
and to love
for the rest of our lives?
I do.
Um,
I got really
nervous this morning
when I realized that...
I didn't have a ring
for you,
so I, uh, I took a--
a piece of our picture--
I'm sorry,
it's not platinum, but...
It's perfect.
Oh, man.
I didn't get to say
I do yet.
Oh, okay.
April,
do you take Marnie
to be your beloved
ball and chain,
to have and to hold,
to annoy and to love,
to, um, tease
and to treasure...
for the rest of our lives?
-I do.
-[both laugh]
Okay.
Yay!
Does anyone here
object to this union?
Really? No one?
Damn, I was hoping
for one jilted ex lover.
Who?
-[laughs]
-You know.
By the power vested in me
by me,
I now pronounce you
wife and wife.
-Whoa.
-I know.
You may now
kiss your bride.
Yay! Come here.
Ooh!
-Yeah!
-Whoa!
Oh, man,
I am really happy.
Me, too.
I'm still waiting for
the "you were right."
And pray tell what were
you right about?
This time?
[laughs]
This time.
Yeah.
Well, this time I was right
about having the ceremony.
Oh, that you were.
That was really special.
Mmm.
Oh, I just feel great.
I feel so happy and alive
and warm.
Thank you.
I was wondering if I would
ever feel that way again.
What's wrong?
Nothing, I'm just--
I'm glad that you're happy.
Wait, are you not?
What? No.
No, of course.
It's just...
it's complicated.
I was worried
that this would happen.
Nothing's happening.
-You're disappointed.
-No, I'm not.
You are.
April, it's okay.
Listen, I know
that it's hard
to differentiate
between what is
and what could have been.
Stop.
Seriously,
what is going on with you?
There's something
that I need to tell you.
Okay.
But I don't want to.
You're starting
to scare me.
You keep asking...
how I died.
[Marnie]
You didn't.
What the fuck?
I don't know what to say.
This?
This is what you've been
keeping from me?
Oh, Jesus Christ.
Jesus fucking Christ.
April, what the fuck?
I couldn't do it anymore.
Not without you.
That's bullshit
and you know it.
That's easy for you to say.
None of this is easy.
I'm sorry.
Fuck!
[sighs] Why?
Why? Why?
You were gone.
You left me behind.
I mean, we were both
in that accident.
April, you had so much
to live for.
So much.
You did not need me.
Yes, I did.
You could have found
somebody else.
-Don't say that.
-It's the truth.
You were my fucking person.
What did you want me
to do, just find somebody
and move on?
It didn't kill me,
but, Marnie,
that accident,
it ended my life.
So it's my fault?
What? No, Marnie.
So wait.
If I had been more careful
that night,
you would still be alive?
I--
oh, my God.
It's my fucking fault.
Marnie, no,
that's not what--
I actually can't--
I can't be here anymore.
-What does that mean?
-I need to-- I don't know.
I just need to go
on a fucking walk
or something.
-Can I come with you?
-No.
I'm sorry!
[door slams]
I'm sorry.
[sobbing]
Oh, shit.
[panting]
[screams]
[door opens]
Hey.
I'm so mad.
I know.
And scared.
Why?
Because I can't even fathom
that you would love me
enough that you would
throw it all away.
Because that means that
either you don't actually
love me that much,
or you do love me
that much
and then I'm never going
to live up to it
and you're
just gonna resent me.
Say something!
I'm thinking.
You said that I gave
everything up for you.
As romantic as that sounds,
I-- I didn't.
-But you--
-Killed myself.
But I had no way
of knowing that I was going
to see you again.
I just wanted
the not seeing you to stop.
So I didn't do it for you.
I did it for me.
Second, I do love you
that much.
And third, I could never
ever resent you.
You would if I left.
What is that
supposed to mean?
Are you still thinking
about following the road?
I've been wanting to
since the day that
we got here.
Why didn't you
say anything?
Because I'm still trying
to figure it out.
We should be talking
about these things.
But you don't want
to hear it.
You are so happy
to be here.
To be together.
You don't need
anything else, but I do.
Because I'm not enough
for you?
And I'm not enough
for you.
April,
we're just two people.
We can't be a whole world,
a whole existence.
You were mine.
And look how that ended up.
-I shouldn't have told you.
-Why?
Not if you're gonna
use it against me,
use it as some excuse
to leave.
-I'm not-- oh, April.
-What?
I'm not going anywhere,
But you just said--
That I wanted to leave.
And I still want to,
but now I--
Now?
I can't leave you here now.
Not after everything
you gave up for me.
Because you'd feel guilty.
Because I never want you
to feel that alone again.
I can't give you
your life back.
But I can give you this.
Whatever this is.
-But you'll be miserable.
-No.
I'll be with you.
I wasn't lying before
when I said that you
made me feel alive.
And even though
I want more than this,
I will never stop
wanting you.
But if you stay for me--
I will still have
one of those things.
I can't do that to you.
Well, there's always
a third option.
You come with me.
We've talked about this.
Yes, 70 tallies ago.
I was hoping that
something would change.
That you would see
what I see.
Well, I don't.
Okay, fine.
Then we go with option two.
We stay.
-And you'll resent me.
-I won't.
That's a big promise
to make.
And you know
I don't like those.
Not if I don't know
that I can keep them.
So what about option 1.5?
What's that?
We table it.
We take some more time
to think about
what we want.
That feels like
we're just kicking the can
down the road.
No, mm-mm,
not necessarily.
You-- you told me
that maybe I can see
what you see with
a little bit more time.
I did.
And the wedding today
you said that you felt
different than before.
Fuck.
You're right.
So maybe we just give it
a little bit more time.
But how much
more time, April?
Seventy more tallies?
No, it doesn't even need
to be that long.
We can do--
we can do 30.
That way
it's a clean 100.
You love
that sort of thing.
-I do.
-I know.
But what if it's not
enough time?
Okay, um,
think about how quickly
we moved in together.
I didn't want
to second guess it.
Exactly.
The more time
that you have to analyze,
the crazier
you make yourself.
You're right.
So 30 tallies.
But what if
that's too long?
I'm going to kill you.
Come here.
I'm still mad at you.
I know.
[sighs]
[April]
"Spring break 2014 forever."
K-Dawg McGillicutty.
Do you think everyone
called him K-Dawg?
I wonder what
the K stood for.
Kevin? Karl?
Ketamine?
I doubt his name
was Ketamine.
Could have been
a family name.
"After 44 years of marriage,
we thought we knew
what we liked.
Then we stayed here.
Can't wait to come back
for our anniversary next year.
Thanks for everything.
XOXO."
Pam.
Aw, I hope they came back
for their anniversary.
Me, too.
-Hmm.
-What?
Isn't it interesting
how safe I feel here?
All the memories we made,
all the time we spent here
even though so many people
have stayed here.
Like who's cooked in
that kitchen and who's
played with those cards
or had sex on this couch?
Honestly, I wonder who
is here right now.
Who's cooking
or sleeping or...
Bumping uglies?
Guess we'll never know.
Isn't it weird?
Can we talk about
my funeral?
Speaking of segues.
Sorry.
No, don't be.
But why?
I've been going back
and forth about it a lot
and I really wanted
to ask you.
I just didn't want
to make you upset.
I suppose I would
want to know, too.
So, what do you
want to know?
Anything.
Who was there,
who wasn't.
Who cried.
How petty.
Your parents wanted
to keep it small,
so it was
some of your family,
a few of your friends,
some of your coworkers.
How were my parents?
They were actually
really good.
They sat beside each other.
-No.
-Mm-hmm.
Yup, no fights.
And your dad,
he held an umbrella
for your mom when it
started to rain.
-He did not.
-He did.
That's really sweet.
It was also
really strange.
I kept wanting to talk
to you about it,
but you weren't there.
It got to be
a bit too much
so I left early.
That's okay.
I know.
Your dad stood behind
your mom when she spoke.
And then, um,
your brother,
he, um, recited
some of his poetry.
Oh, God.
[laughs]
Yeah, then I spoke.
What'd you say?
I honestly don't remember.
That's when I was
shaking so much,
so I left.
Oh.
Did my grandmother make it?
No.
But I did check on her
a few days later.
She's still
sharp as a tack.
[laughs]
She apologized for not
being able to make it.
She said she wasn't ready
to bury someone so young.
She did send me home
with six unwrapped Milanos
and then some holiday
peanut butter cups.
Oh, God,
of course she did.
She thank you for going
to see her?
-She's the best.
-Very best.
[sniffles]
I hope she's okay.
[chuckles]
I'm sure she is.
I like the new office.
Thank you.
You know,
when the designer told me
you asked for no walls,
I was a bit concerned,
but I get it now.
Mind if I join?
Please do.
How was solitaire?
-I won.
-Mmm.
-Eight times.
-You've been busy.
I've been bored.
Any conclusions other than
you need more pages?
I was really hoping
that these lists would help.
-They don't.
-They do.
And they don't.
I just--
I overanalyze
every observation
that I make
and then I wonder whether
or not I'm being too harsh
or if I'm not being
harsh enough
and I just don't know.
-It seems like you do.
-No.
The only thing I know
is that self awareness
is a complete con.
I would think
that's a pro.
The only way
that I've avoided
a complete descent
into nihilism
is my incessant need
to assign value to things.
-Yikes.
-And now I am stuck
trying to assign value
to a world
that makes no sense.
-Maybe you can just...
-Fuck.
-...lean into it
-I can't.
Because there has
to be something else
to all of this.
Like I can see it,
but it's just out of focus
and I keep coming
to the same question.
Did aliens
build the pyramids?
Is this all there is?
Would it really be
that bad?
I know that it feels
like this is enough
right now, but...
April, I don't know how long
this is gonna last, okay?
This isn't the real
two dash one one.
We can't go swimming
in the lake.
We can't ride bikes
into town.
But we can play cards
and do yoga.
We can't sleep.
Or eat.
Every time I go
towards the street
the entire world
starts to spin
like I'm back
in the car and I can't stop
it from flipping.
And it's you, too, right?
That's why you're so weird
about your neck.
No, I'm--
I'm just ticklish.
You have never
been ticklish, April.
Not until now.
Well,
maybe it's a warning.
Maybe you get dizzy
when you get near the road
because we're supposed
to stay here.
Or maybe it means that
there is more work to do
because this isn't it.
And I can't get that thought
out of my head.
Look around.
There's nothing.
No.
We are not nothing.
I mean, we finally have
each other again
and I'm not gonna risk
it all just because you want
to go down the road.
Remember when we moved
to LA?
What does that have to do
with anything?
Just go with me
for a sec.
Sure, what about it?
We didn't leave New York
because our relationship
wasn't enough, did we?
Not really.
We left because LA
had more to offer us.
In some ways.
But you were scared to go.
I was scared that you
were going to leave me.
That we were going
to get there ready to chase
this big dream together
and then you would
just realize that you
didn't need me anymore.
Do you see the parallels?
No.
You're just being
difficult.
-Oh, my God!
-No, I'm not.
You're wrong.
LA, it had jobs
and movies and friends
and really good sushi.
And we don't know
that there's sushi
down that road.
But we don't know
that there isn't.
And there's certainly
no sushi here.
I miss food.
Me, too.
And the more
I think about it,
the more I crave it.
And calling these chopsticks
just doesn't cut it.
That's still scarier
than hopping on a plane.
Why?
Because I knew that
if we needed to...
We could always go back.
[laughs]
Eleven benevolent
ephelants.
-[both laugh]
-Ephelants?
Okay, wait, wait, wait.
My turn, my turn, my turn.
I got to lick my lips.
Okay, wait.
Eleven benevolent
elephants.
-[gasps]
-[laughs]
What?
I've had a lot of time
to practice, okay?
Clearly.
Hey.
[both laugh]
I love you.
I love you, too.
I know.
I just--
God, I love you
so much...
that I'm so appreciative
of everything
that you've done
to make this all okay.
I'm your wife
and you're mine.
What day
do you think it is?
I have no idea.
But if I had to guess,
I would say...
November 8th.
Why November 8th?
I don't know.
It's just the first date
that came to mind.
What about you?
I wish I knew.
Guess.
I can't.
Because even if I did,
I would have no way
of knowing whether
I was right or wrong.
God.
I just--
I just want to know
if it's your birthday
or mine or...
New Years.
Yeah, that would be
really nice.
It's so quiet in here.
I kind of like it.
Sometimes--
sometimes I just wish
I could hear the tick
of a clock.
Every tick meant something.
Happy birthday, Marnie.
-No.
-Yes.
Happy birthday.
Wait, wait, wait.
Where are you going?
It's somebody's birthday.
I have a party to plan.
I know, I love me, too.
Count to 200,
then come downstairs.
One...
two...
three...
four...
five...
[crying quietly]
[clicks]
[woman on record]
Should we get another
bottle of champagne?
["LBD" playing]
[chuckles]
Sorry, ma'am,
this event is closed
to the public.
Oh, um, is this not Rifkah's
bat mitzvah afterparty?
That's the cabin
next door.
My bad.
What's happening here?
Oh, this is a private
invite-only party
for my wife.
Your wife? Wow.
You seem a little young
to be married.
Are you flirting with me?
Maybe.
I better get going.
Right, right, don't want
to keep Rachel waiting.
-Rifkah.
-Right.
Mm-hmm.
Do you have time for one
dance before you go?
You know,
actually I do.
I just realized my event
is not till tomorrow.
So you can stay
a little longer?
[laughs] Yes.
As long as your wife
doesn't mind.
Oh, mm, she won't.
-Good.
-No. Yeah.
But tonight
We can't be friends
It's that kind of place
The music makes amends
So get another drink
Beneath the neon lights
I don't think
That I can be
A different lover tonight
I feel alone in my 20s
I feel so old in my 20s
But I'm feeling
Kind of brave tonight
All I needed
Was 20 minutes with you
I feel alone in my 20s
I feel so old in my 20s
But I'm feeling
Kind of brave tonight
All I needed
Was 20 minutes with you
With you, with you,
With you, with you
With you, with you,
With you
With you, with you,
With you, with you
With you,
20 minutes with you
With you, with you,
With you, with you
With you, with you,
With you
With you, with you,
With you, with you
With you
Twenty minutes,
20 minutes
Hey, hey, hey, hey
Twenty minutes,
20 minutes
Hey, hey, hey, hey
Just 20 minutes with you
-Oh.
-Come here.
-Okay.
-[laughs]
["Rosalie" playing]
Come here, honey
I want to feel
Your lips on mine
I'm sorry this isn't more.
This is lovely.
[laughs] Okay.
You can take me home
Get to know me
A little more personally
'Cause I want you
Rosalie
'Cause I want you
Rosalie
I have something really
important to tell you.
Okay.
Sweet nothings.
[laughs]
My God.
That was really bad.
I know,
but it made you laugh.
You always do.
Even when you don't mean to.
Are you referring
to the incident?
It's really hard to ignore
when you're at the scene
of the crime.
It wasn't a crime.
Arson is a very serious crime.
It was one candle.
And one
very flammable curtain.
You almost burned down
the whole cabin.
My hands shake
when I'm nervous.
Wait.
You were nervous?
[laughs]
Of course I was.
I'd never told anybody
that I loved them before.
And all these years
I just thought you were being,
-I don't know.
-Clumsy?
Yourself.
[laughs]
-It's not even singed.
-I know.
It was one
of the first things
that I noticed.
What else do you remember
from that night?
Hmm.
How happy I was
to be alive.
And how happy I was
that you said it.
Because I'd been wanting
to tell you for weeks.
Why didn't you?
Because I was still making
a list of pros and cons.
[laughs]
-Of course you were.
-I know.
April.
Yeah?
I had a really nice tally
with you.
I had a really nice tally
with you, too.
It just...
feels like it went by
so fast.
They always do.
Don't worry about tomorrow.
Just be here
with me right now.
One condition.
Anything.
Tell me you love me.
[laughs]
I love you.
I love you, too.
Five more minutes.
Okay.
-We don't have to--
-No more kicking the can.
We said 100 tallies.
Okay.
I'm ready to go.
I know.
Are you?
Not there.
All right.
-Then we stay.
-No.
-April, it's--
-I--
I can't keep you here
any longer.
You're not keeping me here.
You said that being here
makes you unhappy.
And if I make you
stay longer than
I'm making you unhappy.
You make me so happy.
But there has to be
something more.
That's what you've been
saying this whole time.
Even before this.
So I have to find out
what that
more is.
Otherwise what's the point
of all this?
Hmm.
No.
This isn't how this
is supposed to go.
You're being so logical.
Where's that leave me?
[chuckles]
I think it's time
for you to be a little bit
more subjective
and a little bit
more selfish.
[chuckles]
How are you
being so strong?
Trust me, I'm not.
In fact,
if you don't leave
right now,
I might change my mind.
I won't let you.
'Cause you're right.
Wait. Um...
I need you to know
that I'm not leaving
because of you
or because this
isn't good enough.
-Marnie.
-No, no, no.
It's so, so good.
Like too good.
And when everything
feels good...
[sighs]
it starts to feel
like nothing.
[sniffles]
And this...
this isn't nothing.
This is something.
I love you, Marnie.
I love you more.
It's time to go.
Do you have
everything you need?
Except for you.
[chuckles]
You will always have me.
Then I guess I do
have everything.
Come on.
[Marnie sniffles]
You should
take it with you.
[laughs]
It's not the point
of a guestbook.
Wait.
Now you're ready.
Come on.
[exhales]
[crying]
-Okay.
-Okay.
[sniffles]
[sighs]
[groans]
[laughs]
I always wondered
why the dash.
So that we can call it
two dash one one.
[laughs]
Okay.
Okay.
-I love you.
-I love you.
[birds chirping]
[door closes]
[laughter]
["Breathe" playing]
Hey, hey, hey
Don't forget to put
Your smile on
It's a brand new day
Better get those
Bedroom curtains drawn
You've been down
You've been blue
That's okay
You've got
More living to do
Just breathe
Inhale 'cause you know
That peace is coming
Just breathe
Exhale like you
Just finished
Something that
You're proud of
Don't treat it
Like it's nothing
You're here
And I'm gonna give you
All my loving
Baby, baby
Baby,
You have had it hard
I know that's true
Some have it easy
And it ain't fair
But it's the cards
You drew
So give them hell
Take a stand
And if you're tired
You know you can
Just breathe
Inhale 'cause you know
That peace is coming
Just breathe
Exhale like you just
Finished something
That you're proud of
Don't treat it
Like it's nothing
You're here
And I'm gonna give you
All my love
It will help you
Clear your mind
It will help you
Take your time
If you just
[sighs]
[sighs]
[chuckles]
Marnie?
What,
did I forget something?
What are you
still doing here?
I don't walk that fast.
No, seriously, Marnie,
what the fuck?
You were supposed to go.
What are you talking about?
All this time
you've been waiting?
April, I literally
just left.
If you just left then
why can I do this?
[chuckles]
When did you learn
how to do that?
Over the last 111 tallies
that you've been gone.
What?
That's how long it's been,
I didn't want to rush it.
Why didn't you keep going?
That's what I've been
trying to tell you.
I just left.
Well, that doesn't
make any sense.
April.
What?
Nothing here
makes any sense.
[laughs]
[laughs]
[laughing]
["She's Like the Sea"
playing]
She is a force
She's like the sea
Tender and calm
Then she envelopes me
Completely
She is a tide
She ebbs and she flows
She talks to the moon
And like it
She glows so bright
I want her every night
The strength of her waves
Pulled me in,
Pulled me under
I held her face
In my hands
And I knew
That I loved her
Wash over me, baby
I don't want any other
Than you
I am the sand
I'm like debris
Broken and soft
I crumble
When you touch me
Helplessly
She takes me in
Her roaring embrace
With salt on her lips
She kisses away
The trace of those
Who have tread on me
She's so good to me
Good to me
The strength of her waves
Pulled me in,
Pulled me under
I held her face
In my hands
And I knew
That I loved her
Wash over me, baby
I don't want any other
Than you
I don't want any other
Than you
Don't want any other
I don't want any other
Than you