Two Lives in Pittsburgh (2023) Movie Script
1
- [Reporter] If he gets
drafted next week
and that's a big if,
he'll be the first openly
gay player in the NFL
in any of the four major
US men's sports,
football, baseball, basketball,
hockey.
- [Reporter] And that's
a good thing?
- [Reporter] That's a
very good thing.
- [Reporter] Okay.
Well, for the most part I agree.
- [Reporter] But what?
- [Reporter] Be rational.
This, this has nothing
to do with rational.
This is about gut reaction.
You know, it's not how people
wanna see how those are
different than them are,
but about how they
actually see them.
- [Reporter] Yeah but this is
also about pushing boundaries
and sports is about
pushing boundaries.
- [Reporter] Yes.
But it's also about the
sacred space of the NFL.
- [Reporter] What Sacred space?
You don't think there are
gay players in the NFL?
- [Reporter] It's not about
whether they are or not.
Okay, maybe there are,
maybe there aren't.
But what the heck is wrong
with don't ask, don't tell?
- [Reporter] Everything
is wrong with don't ask...
- Matty.
If you need anything, call,
I'll be back in a few hours.
- [Matty] Okay.
Anyone fighting today?
- Yeah, Pins are fighting
for a playoff spot.
- [Matty] Are we watching
with Dee and Satch?
- Granny's.
- [Matty] Yay.
- But Dee texted, said you
left your jersey there.
We'll swing by on the way.
Breakfast is on the table
and clean up your stuff.
Okay?
- [Matty] Okay poppy, bye.
(upbeat music)
Hey
Your tells are so obvious
Shoulders too broad
for a girl
Keeps you reminded
Helps you to remember
where you come from
You want them to notice
The ragged ends of your
summer dress
You want them to see you
Like they see every
other girl
They just see a faggot
They hold their breath
not to catch the sick
Rough surf on the coast
I wish I could have
spent the whole day alone
Rough surf on the coast
I wish I could have
spent the whole day alone
Rough surf on the coast
I wish I could have spent
the whole day alone with you
With you
With you
You've got no cunt
in your strut
You've got no hips to shake
And you know it's obvious
But we can't choose
how we're made
You want them to notice
The ragged ends of your
summer dress
You want them to see you
Like they see every
other girl
They just see a faggot
They hold their breath
not to catch the sick
- All right, I appreciate it,
doc.
Take care Millie.
- Oh, can I bum a
smoke from you?
Thanks.
- You need help, mom?
- No, thanks.
Okay, okay.
- Carla, maybe, maybe smoking's
not the best idea right now.
Okay mom?
- Yeah.
(Carla coughs)
Have Jimmy come by.
Make sure all the legal
stuff is good.
- Yeah.
Mom.
Just grab your jersey
from Dee and let's go.
- Can I get you anything to eat,
Matty?
- No thank you, Teresa.
- You okay?
Can I get you anything?
- Theresa, I've been telling
you what I need for years.
- New list is up on the board.
- I'm off today, I'll
take a look later.
- Hand me a beer, will you Barn.
- Oh no smoking or drinking.
- Matty, gimme an IC light.
Open it up for me too.
I don't wanna mess up your work.
- What's that about?
- She's older.
You like that one?
You can keep it.
- Mom, I got you that
you said you liked it.
- I lied.
Ain't the first time.
Matty, you have a future
as an old Vietnamese woman.
- [Reporter] Get to
playoff hockey baby.
Huh?
Here we go.
- [Reporter] That's right.
And with the wind, a pen
clinch of playoff burn.
And baseball is back.
We have opening day tickets
to our 97th caller right now.
- [Reporter] Get on the horn.
This is the Bucco's year,
come on.
- What's up, you coming?
- Is Granny really sick?
- Yeah.
- She gonna die?
- Yeah.
- When?
- I don't know.
- Soon?
- Well, what's soon?
- This week?
- She's not gonna die this week.
This year though.
- Will she make it to
my birthday?
- October?
I don't know.
Come on.
Jesus Christ, look, catch it.
Pick it up.
Come on, let's go, come on.
Grab the mitt.
Get in the truck.
- No.
- Not no.
Get in the truck.
- Why'd you do that?
- It wasn't hard.
- I didn't do anything.
- Exactly, you didn't
do anything.
You're signed up for baseball.
You wanna embarrass yourself,
be the kid on the team
that throws like a girl?
- I don't care.
- You don't care.
- I don't even wanna play.
- How about you stop
being a little pussy, huh?
Did coach ask you to practice
catching, throwing, bating?
Did he?
So when I ask you to do what
the coach asked you to do,
that's not when I say, oh,
poor baby.
Now get in the truck.
So help me, get in a truck.
Boy.
Why don't you stop acting
like a little baby?
- [Matty] Stop.
- [Bernie] How about that?
- [Matty] Hey, poppy.
Why do boys have penises
and girls have vaginas?
- I don't know.
Can you not say penis?
- [Matty] Why can't you choose.
- Whatever you got.
You got boys have wieners.
Girls have what they have.
- [Matty] If I stick
it in between my legs,
it looks like I don't have one,
watch.
- That's all right.
I really don't wanna see that.
- [Matty] Can you do it?
- I'm sure I can.
- [Matty] Do it.
- No thanks.
- [Matty] But watch.
- No thanks.
- [Matty] But look.
- You stuck your junk
between your legs.
- [Matty] Isn't it cool?
- Real cool.
- That's how my name sounds.
You don't say MaTTy.
You say MaDDie.
- Let's do your times tables.
- [Matty] Okay.
- Right?
- Yeah.
- [Bernie] Six times four.
(bell rings)
Yeah, sure, if you
wanna walk home.
Yeah, Dee will pick you
up at the house.
No, I'm heading out
with the guys.
- Hi, I'm Mr. Garcia.
- Matty, I can't talk right
now, I'm at your school.
Alright.
All right.
Have fun with Dee and Biko, bye.
Sorry about that.
- Oh my god.
Bernie Evers.
- Will.
- I didn't connect it.
- I You're not still in
the neighborhood?
- No, no.
I'm over in Shadyside now.
- Yeah.
An elementary school teacher,
you know, that makes,
that makes sense.
- Almost 25 years now.
I just transferred back
here last year.
How you doing?
- I'm good, I'm good.
How's Helen?
- Oh, my mom died a
couple years ago.
- Ah, I'm sorry.
Carla didn't mention anything.
- Yeah, don't worry about it.
How's your mom doing?
- Yeah, she's good, she's Carla.
- She's still that same house?
- No, no, Matty and
me are there.
Carla's in a care home.
- Growing old's tough.
Well, listen here.
Why don't she sit down,
let's, let's talk about Matty.
So to begin with, Matty's
a really neat kid.
- Thanks.
- Is he your only?
- My only, yeah, yeah, my only.
- Well, he's very sweet
and he is really smart.
No, he brings home a lot
of stars and happy faces.
- Yeah, yeah.
There's a great fondness
for stars and happy faces.
- He likes reading.
- Yes, yes, Greek Gods
and mythology.
Talks about them a lot.
Look, has Matty ever
talked to you
about how he sees himself?
- How he sees himself?
- Yeah.
- I don't know, what
do you mean?
Well, I gave away this writing
assignment in the class.
We worked on it for
about a week or so.
There.
The prompt was the day
of your dreams.
What's the best day
you can imagine?
Matty handed this into
me privately.
He asked that I didn't
hang it up with the others.
- Yeah.
You know, I, I forgot
a work call.
I'll be right back.
(dramatic music)
Sorry.
Sorry.
Okay.
- It's okay.
So look, Bernie.
Most little boys, when
they're talking
about the day of their dreams,
they're talking about
meeting their sports heroes
or going out and outer space.
- [Bernie] Yeah.
- Most little boys,
they don't write about
being little girls.
Has Matty ever mentioned
anything like this to you
before?
- It is what it is.
- [Will] Well, Bernie, what
if it's something more?
- Like what?
- [Will] Matty's feelings
about who he really is.
- Like if he's gay?
- [Will] Like how he
sees himself.
- He's 10.
How's he supposed to
see himself?
Are you saying he is gay?
- [Will] Bernie, I'm not saying
it's about him being gay.
- He's 10.
- [Will] It's not about
him being gay.
All right, Matty wrote
about being a girl.
- Yeah, well, he does
stupid sometimes, right?
Is he doing his work in class?
- Of course he does.
- Then he's doing everything
he's supposed to do.
I can tell him Mr. Garcia
says he's doing okay.
- Hey, Bernie.
Look, sorry I didn't
mean to upset.
- No, no, it's fine, it's fine.
Thanks.
- All right.
Well look, give my
best to your mom.
- Yeah.
Yeah.
- [Will] All right.
Well, hey, listen, look, you
can take this and his artwork.
- Good to see you Will.
Thanks for teaching my kid.
- Matty, it's Dee, I'm taking
you and Biko to Bimbos.
Matty.
- [Matty] I want to stay here.
- Matty, you okay?
- [Matty] Please don't
tell my poppy.
- [Bernie] All right, wait,
what?
What round are we talking?
- [Jim] Third round and
I'm a hard no.
- [Satch] Really Jimbo?
An NFL contract?
- Yeah really Satch, it's
bass backwards.
Tebow prays and
people themselves.
Sam tongues his boyfriend on TV
and they want to give
him a trophy.
- Yeah, that was,
that was gross.
How about this, faggot or pussy?
- What's difference?
- Faggot's a faggot, a
pussy's a pussy.
- That's not an explanation.
- No heart.
Like Jay Cutler's a
pussy but not gay.
- Okay, yeah.
- No, no heart and
pussy is different.
- So, so gay, but he
can still be a badass.
Like Lambert.
- Lambert's a gay?
- Jesus Fizz, no,
Lambert's not gay.
- Well, why'd you say
Lambert was gay?
- I didn't say he was gay.
I was just using him
as an example.
Like, you know, somebody could
be gay, but still be tough.
You know?
- I, I don't know.
Once you go homo, a kind
of makes you a pussy to.
- I agree though.
No heart and is different.
- You guys cannot answer
a fucking question.
Stopped in on Carla.
- Well, what would you want?
- I don't know.
- Bullshit, you can't ask
and not have an answer.
How's Carla?
What's wrong with her?
- She's old.
- What the fuck is wrong
with you, man?
- What?
- How do you keep your clients?
- I didn't charge her.
- Thanks Jimbo.
- [Satch] That's how he
keeps his clients.
That's how I stay poor.
- I should get my Will in order.
- I'm gonna charge your fat ass.
- I think I have a pussy.
- [Jim] What do you mean
you got a pussy?
- Matty.
- My kids are turning
into assholes.
- Why do you think
Matty's a pussy?
- I don't know, I just.
- You know, you wanna
toughen him up?
Put him in hockey.
- Yes.
- Everyone puts their
kids in baseball
or soccer for Christ sakes.
Toughen 'em up, put 'em in a.
- What would you do for real?
Huh?
- My boys wouldn't be fags
and they're not pussy's.
- You can't control that.
- Hey, bullshit.
- I would not choose to be gay
because I have no idea
how women look at this
and get turned on.
- I mean, it's not a choice.
You're born that way.
- You think.
- It's kind of a choice.
I don't think my kids
would be gay.
- I got a gay cousin.
You didn't choose to be gay.
You just, you just gay.
- [Jim] Does he act gay?
- I mean, he ain't all
Skippy fabulous, you know?
But he a little, you know,
he a little,
you know, a little la de da.
- He ever come on to you?
- He's my cousin dumbass.
- [Jim] Still.
- What you mean still?
You come onto to your cousins?
- [Frizz] But he's gay.
- And he's a little
bit of a pussy
but that don't make him
a pervert, what the fuck?
- I gotta go.
Thanks for looking out
for Carla Jimbo.
- No sweat.
- I'm out to.
- Bernie, don't worry if
Matty's a pussy.
According to Satch, he'll turn
into a perfectly fine faggot.
- Hey, fuck you!
Don't talk about my kid.
- We're fucking around here.
- Fucking around, that's
my fucking kid.
Don't talk about Matty.
Jesus Christ.
Thanks for looking
out for Carla.
Don't talk about Matty.
- The fuck, Jim?
- Yeah, maybe that's
why your kids
are turning into assholes.
- You sound like my ex.
- Shit.
- [Bernie] And all of those
ones over there on your bed,
now get dressed for
school, I'm already late.
- [Matty] But Poppy, why?
- [Bernie] You're too old
for this stuff.
- [Matty] But those are mine.
- [Bernie] For your own good.
Boys don't play with
this shit at your age.
- [Matty] But I, I
don't understand.
- [Bernie] Yeah, well.
- [Matty] Not fair.
- [Bernie] Tough.
- [Matty] That's bullshit.
- [Bernie] See that, it's
already working.
- So Betsy's grandson
comes in, such a sweet boy.
He watches Crossing
Delaney with her.
- That's where he learned it?
- In the movie, there's
a pickle guy,
he smells like pickles.
- How you be a pickle guy?
- Anyway, he sells 'em from
these big old fashioned barrels
and then soaks his hands
in vanilla at night.
- So these old people
are your pickles?
- They're my pickles.
Except I use Mint.
Oh, there's a, there's another
one in Mr. Wolodarsky's room.
Tried to flush his diaper.
- [Bernie] Oh, poor guy.
- Yeah.
- How's Carla?
- I don't know.
Mostly in.
Go get her.
- Nah, I'll get the
toilet first.
- Go get her.
- You wanna get a drink tonight?
- I don't date men who don't
wash their hands after
the bathroom.
- I was putting in a
safety railing.
- It's still nasty.
- How is that nasty,
it's construction.
You're tough on me, Theresa.
Hey mom.
- I can't barely do
the crossword.
- Let me write for you.
You take your pills today?
- I don't know.
Where's Matty?
- He's in school.
- What day is it?
- It's Thursday.
- Oh, that's right.
And Will Garcia is his teacher.
Wow.
Small world.
- He left me a couple
messages, I gotta call him.
- [Carla] Mm.
So are you here to see
me or to work?
- Both.
- [Carla] So which one
are you doing now?
- Let me walk you out.
- I can walk fine.
Oh, God, get, get me my
tank over there.
- All right.
- Did Matty come with you?
- Mom?
It's Thursday, he's in school.
- That's right, damn, damn it.
- That's all right.
- It's not all right,
don't be stupid.
- Hey, hey, hey, hey.
No beating up on Bernie.
I need him to finish
some work for me today.
- Take him.
- Be nice.
He doesn't work as well
when you're cranky.
- I'm always cranky.
- Point taken.
- You want me to get
you anything, ma?
- Oh yeah.
How about a shot and a smoke?
- I'll take a Chardonnay.
It's five o'clock somewhere.
- Hello?
- [Bernie] Yeah.
- [Satch] Bern, I
think I messed up.
- Oh, hey, Satch.
- [Satch] It doesn't fit.
- It doesn't fit,
what size pipe?
- [Satch] Exactly.
- What size are you using?
One half inch or three quarter?
- [Satch] Are these questions
making you feel better?
Man, I don't know, I just
bought a faucet to look nice.
- I'll grab Matty,
we'll swing by.
(phone buzzing)
- [Reporter] Sports culture
is a mostly male culture.
- [Reporter] Oh, come on.
Men don't own sports
culture anymore.
Look at the buzz of this
US women's team.
The World Cup, it's electric.
- [Reporter] They're special.
- [Reporter] But it's
more than just one team.
Women coaches in the NBA,
Arizona hiring a linebacker.
- Hey bud.
Satch wants us to come.
(pop music)
- [Dee] You're still a hero.
- Thanks, Steve.
- [Matty] Yeah, you're
still a hero Satch.
- Thanks, Matty.
- [Bernie] I don't agree.
- New fixtures.
Some married lady Aphrodisia.
- [Bernie] That true Dee?
- [Dee] What?
- New fixtures are
an aphrodisia.
- [Dee] You have no idea.
But it only works when you see
your man knee deep in
pipes and tools.
- I, I don't accept that.
- [Dee] Whatever.
- So everything good after
what happened with Matty?
- [Bernie] What happened?
What happened?
- [Dee] Imagine if you wore
a pink Steelers jersey
on top of that.
- Imagine if you wore
a pink Browns jersey.
- Or Cincy.
- [Both] Or Ravens!
- Ooh, Then he'd have it coming.
So what would happen if you
wore a pink jersey to school?
You didn't talk to your poppy?
- Did you get picked
on in school?
- I was called names,
some people were ignorant.
- What did they say?
- There was this boy
named Byron Matt.
He didn't like black people.
- Did he use the N word?
- Yeah.
- A lot?
- Enough.
- What'd you do?
- Nothing.
Kids can be mean sometimes.
- Did you tell anyone?
Did you tell Uncle Satch?
- I was afraid that
if I spoke up.
- Do you want me not
to tell too?
- You can say whatever you want.
- [Satch] He's getting bullied.
They wrote something
on his head.
- Ah Jesus Christ.
- [Satch] We talked to him.
He said he was gonna
talk to you.
- Fuck.
Jesus.
The same shit, or your
different shit?
You're still going to Matty's
thing tomorrow, right?
Generations together, I
think it's called.
It's the last week of
school thing.
No, I'm not supposed to go.
It's for grandparents.
You know what I mean.
Alright.
Oh, hey Matty, don't
let the water run over.
- [Matty] I'm not.
Did you call Granny?
- I'm talking to her now.
- [Matty] Is she coming?
- He wants to know if
you're coming.
Yeah, she's coming.
- [Matty] Yay!
- I told him you're coming.
Tough shit.
I'll pick you up a
little before eight.
All right, night Ma.
Matty, I'll be out front.
- [Matty] Okay.
Can I watch TV before bed?
- Did you finish your work?
- [Matty] Yes.
- Okay.
- Evening, Bernie.
- Hey, will.
- Hope I'm not disturbing.
- It's okay.
- Now a good time to talk?
- Yeah, yeah.
Come have a seat.
- Thanks.
- Lemme get you a beer.
- Thanks.
Strange being back here.
- Yeah.
- Not the best of memories.
- Yeah.
- Being a kids tough.
- Being an adult isn't
so easy sometimes either.
- Strange man.
I still have a.
I don't know, reflex, whatever,
that you're gonna hit me.
- Why?
- I was hoping you'd
say you wouldn't hit me.
- I don't think I'm
gonna hit you.
- That's a start.
- You know, you don't
even know me anymore.
You know, I mean, I
might've trained
at MMA and been an Army ranger.
- Yeah.
Lot of ex-army rangers
teaching fifth grade.
- Oh yeah, they're all
over the place.
High school was hard for me.
- Yeah, well, being a teenager.
- No, man.
It was harder for me.
- Yeah, I guess I was,
I don't know.
I guess I was a jag off.
- You are an asshole Bernie.
You are a homophobic roided up.
And I'm afraid that's gonna be
what's gonna happen for Matty.
- You think Matty is...?
I don't know.
- No, I think he's different.
Look, I'm not gonna say I
wasn't thinking of Matty
when I gave out this assignment.
We did this end of the year
reflection about time and life.
You know how I was, how
I am, how I will be.
Kids drew pictures of
themselves as baby,
as they are now, and how
they want to be.
In the future.
And obviously Matty's
picture is once again,
not like his peers.
- That's why you think I,
I might hit you.
- Can you blame me man?
- Like you said, I don't even
know who you are anymore.
You could be ex-Army Ranger.
- Yeah, could be.
- I don't fight, I don't
fight people anymore.
Not if I don't know them.
- Well.
It's a step in the
right direction.
Bernie.
He'll be okay if you're
okay with him.
(dramatic music)
- Yeah?
What'd she?
What'd she say?
Alright, alright.
Alright.
I'll get her.
How'd you get kicked out of
an elementary school assembly?
- I wasn't kicked out.
- Seems like you
were kicked out.
- She called Bruce
Frizzofsky a jackhole.
- Frizz's kid?
- And he's a sixth grader.
- A jackhole sixth grader!
- And then she told his
grandpa to lick her taint.
(Carla laughs)
What's a taint?
- It's that space between your
butt hole and your privates.
- Ma!
- Ew.
- I told that old prick
what is kid said to Matty
and he didn't do a damn thing.
- And Principal Cow
kicked her out.
- She didn't kick me out.
She asked me to leave.
- You said that to Mr. Frizz?
- I told that principal
that little shit called
Matty a faggot.
So why doesn't he leave too?
- He called you that?
- And Granny called
Principal Cow jackhole.
- So maybe she did kick me out.
- Frizz's kid called you that.
- He is a jackhole.
- That's right, he is.
- That's bullshit.
That's bullshit.
- Bernie, Bernie, not now.
Let's just go.
Weren't gonna learn
nothing there today anyway.
- I learned jackhole and taint.
(Carla chuckling)
- [Carla] You did.
(dramatic music)
- [Satch] All right, Bernie,
come on.
Gimme that bullseye.
- What the hell is this?
- Matty. He dresses up,
he's been doing it for
a little bit.
I didn't know he, he'd
rather be a girl.
- So is he a gay?
- I don't know.
- Why does he want to be a girl?
- Nah, that's a stupid question.
- How's that a stupid
question Satch?
- Whatcha going through Bern?
- I don't know.
- Kind of explains
what Brucey said.
- Hey asshole.
Even if he's gay, I
don't know if he's gay,
Bruce can't call Matty a faggot.
- But if he is?
- What do you mean if he is?
- If he is.
- Can you call me a nigger?
Call me a man, call
me a black man.
An African American man.
You can call me jackoff,
jerkoff, asshole,
you can even call me your
black friend in the pinch.
But you can't ever call me that,
ever.
And you can't say my
nigga either
and your kid can't call
Matty a faggot.
- Hey, Bernie, I'm sorry
about what Brucey said.
- He's a kid, we all
did it Frizzy.
- [Frizz] He said he apologized.
- Yeah, Matty said he did.
- I never heard you
say that before.
- Yeah, I know.
- I feel very uncomfortable.
- Do you feel uncomfortable when
you hear it and I'm not around?
- Thanks dude.
- Yeah.
- Hey Bern.
- Yeah.
- Why don't you and Matty
come over for the fourth?
- Oh, what about us?
- Yeah, where's our
invite jagoff?
- Fine, you guys come to.
- Nah, I can't.
- Me neither.
- See, you're a jagoff
and you're an African
American jagoff.
- Wait, whoa, whoa.
Why is he not a white jagoff?
- You're a white jagoff
and you're making me very
uncomfortable, Satch.
- I ain't making you anything.
- Eat a dick.
- Ouch.
- Matty, you happy?
- Sometimes.
- When are you the happiest?
- I don't know.
- When do you think?
- Maybe right before I wake up.
- Yeah, why?
- Maybe it's the very, very
beginning of my own new day.
- That's cool.
What would you tell
someone to do
if they were really
unhappy in their life?
- Well, who's unhappy?
- Lots of people are unhappy.
- Was my mom unhappy?
- What if I was unhappy?
What would you tell me to do?
- [Matty] Are you unhappy?
- What if I didn't wanna
be a handyman anymore?
- What do you wanna be?
- A songwriter?
- [Matty] Do you write songs?
- No, not really.
I mean, I, I used to sort of,
I used to,
I used to make up
songs in my head.
- Do you still?
- No.
- Why not?
- I, I guess I just stopped.
Do you sing songs in your head?
- I dream in my head.
- Well that's cool.
We'll read tomorrow.
It's late.
- Poppy.
- Yeah?
- It's cool that you used to
make up songs in your head.
(dramatic music)
- Hey Mom.
Mom.
Theresa!
- She sleeps like
that sometimes.
- With her eyes open?
- A lot do.
It's just a part of dying.
- It's creepy.
- Dying isn't creepy.
Being so afraid of it
that you don't visit.
That's creepy.
Your mom's a tough lady.
- Yeah.
- Wanna fool around?
- This turns you on?
The smell of old
people in Febreze?
- Pretty hot.
- Are you seriously
turned on right now?
- No, but I think I
could block it out
and still make it happen.
- Oh, that's very manly of you.
- You're gonna go out with me?
- No.
- Why?
- Cause I just think you
wanna do a black chick.
- Maybe.
- And why is that?
- I don't know.
Maybe the same reason I don't
eat only bologna on white.
- Are you serious?
You're trying to get with me
and you're comparing me being
a black woman to a sandwich?
- Maybe I'm a little
bit of a jackass.
- Yeah, maybe you're a
little bit of a racist.
- Maybe I'm attracted to strong
women who smell like mint.
You think, do you
think Matty's gay?
- Do I think Matty's gay?
I don't know.
Why, do you think he's gay?
- He dresses up in girls'
clothes.
He wrote this thing at school
about his best day being
a day as a girl,
not, not winning the Super Bowl
or riding a horse across
frontier being a girl.
- That does not sound like gay.
Why would anybody wanna ride
a horse across the frontier?
- It's gonna make his
life a lot harder.
- Well, life isn't easy.
- I raise a kid and he's not
the kid I thought he was.
- No one's who you
think they are.
Do you love them the same?
- Yeah, yeah.
- Well then that's your answer.
- I'm afraid I'm
gonna mess him up.
- Oh, you're his dad.
You will.
- That's comforting.
I'm not his dad.
I'm his grandpa.
- You're not Matty's dad?
- My daughter.
She's gone.
- Sorry.
- Life happens.
- Since when?
- About seven years.
We were taking care of
Matty before that.
- And the father?
- I don't know, I never met him.
- Wow.
You are a lot more
interesting now
than you were a few moments ago.
- Yeah.
(dramatic music)
- Oh, hey, hey Will, quick talk?
Hey, I need, I'm not sure how
to, can we talk about Matty?
- Sure.
Yeah.
Let's go get a beer okay?
- Yeah.
Hey, first day summer.
We're at the best
part of your day.
I wasn't a good dad
for your mom.
- Why?
- Do you maybe feel a certain
way that doesn't seem fair?
Like, like you wanna be
something different than you
are.
- Do you ever feel that?
- Yeah, I do.
You don't have to say
anything, you can just listen.
All right.
You could be anything
you want to be.
Right, as long as you're
a good kid, a hard worker,
all the things you already are,
you can be anything you want.
I'll still screw up sometimes.
And if what you want to be
is something different
of what you are.
If who you are is a girl
in a boy's body,
if that's who you are,
I'll still be your Poppy.
No different than if you
didn't feel that way.
You could change a
lot of things.
But you can't change that.
- Poppy.
- Yeah.
- I'm scared.
- Yeah.
We can head up to
Paco's par to fish.
Nobody looks like this,
only models and prostitutes.
- What's a prostitute?
- [Bernie] A model
with bad luck.
- It's easier when I'm
alone, when no one knows.
- [Bernie] We'll figure it out.
Or if we don't go fishing,
there's a Pirate's
home game today.
You okay?
Come here.
(dramatic music)
- [Reporter] New music
from Pittsburgh Gardens.
Text to vote.
Is it a hit or an error?
Oh, say can you see
By the dawns early light
- Oh, hey Mickey.
Hey, why don't you go up
and say hi to Bruce, okay?
- How you doing?
- Good.
Hey, what the hey Bern?
- Matty. Matty, what
are you doing?
- We have to go now.
- Why?
- He hit me.
- Oh, why did he hit you?
- Matty, you hit him?
- Yeah, I hit him in the face.
- [Frizz] What happened?
- [Bruce] Nothing, he
just hit me.
- Did you call him one of
the names we talked about?
- No.
Let me see.
Nice shot kid.
Sorry Bern.
- Yeah.
You all right?
Talk to you Frizz.
Happy fourth.
Let's go man.
- Yeah, yours too.
Hey kid, I'm sorry.
Did you get enough to eat?
- Yeah, thanks Mr. Frizz,
Bye Bruce.
- Let's see if your mom
needs any help.
- You okay?
It's good you hit him.
Let's go see granny.
(dramatic music)
It was a solid shot.
- [Carla] I think that's great.
- I don't wanna talk about it.
- Come on, why don't
you tell Matty a story?
- How do I know what
story to tell?
- Alright, forget it.
- Why don't you tell a story?
- Forget about it.
- Oh, no, no.
Tell me a story.
- Forget I said it.
- Okay, okay.
I'll tell you one about
your great granddaddy.
I know you didn't know him,
but one time he got in
a fight with Tucker J.
He had only one good eye,
Tucker J.
He had no depth perception.
- Wanna get dirty?
- Yeah.
- [Theresa] Get a load of this.
- That's a lot of stuff.
- We have to hold on
to folk's stuff
for a while after they die.
Boss wants you to clean it out.
- What do you think?
- Very sexy.
Put that on.
Hey.
One, two, three, four
One, two, three, four
One, two, three, four tell
me what you're coming for
One, two, three, four
It's a groove thing
between me and you
Some kind of
potion commotion
Between the sky
and the ocean
You're shooting down
by my skies you got it
No matter how far I
walk you got it
Where ever, where ever
we are, you got it
It's a groove thing,
groove thing
I can't stand it
It's a groove thing,
groove thing
But I can plan it
On a groove thing,
between me and you
It's a groove thing,
baby I wanna groove
Now you may ask, you
may ask, you may ask why
Why is this grooving
so super fly
I don't know and I
don't care
It's just a groove
thing we got here
- I never liked all this crap.
- Why not?
- I don't know.
- How I look?
- You look like a faggot.
- Mom, you can't say that.
- Oh, don't be so sensitive.
I was never into all the fufu.
The the good wife thing.
The good mom thing.
- You're a good mom.
- Bullshit.
- You're a good Granny.
- That's true.
- [Carla] I mean, I fed
you all and all that,
but I don't know.
- No, you're a good mom.
- Oh, shut up.
I'm not sorry for the
way I raised you.
Just wasn't me.
- Do you like being a Granny?
- Love it.
I wish I could have just
skipped to that.
- What do you wanna be?
- I don't know.
Maybe a cop.
- You could be a cop.
- Yeah, well, back in those
days things were different.
- You'd been a good cop, ma.
- Thanks Bern.
I could have been a good cop.
- I don't know what I wanna be.
- Well, you be whatever
the hell you wanna be.
- What about a
Baltimore Ravens fan?
- Like that one back there?
- [Bernie] Who?
- Theresa.
- [Bernie] Theresa's
a Ravens fan?
- Oh yeah.
I don't know why anyone
wanna be a Ravens fan.
- What if I wanted to
be something
that I can't be, like a girl?
- Well, you make less money
and you'd have to pee
sitting down.
- Okay so like Poppy
when he goes in the
middle of the night.
- You pee sitting down.
- Yeah, just that night.
- Maybe you are a faggot.
- [Bernie] Mom!
- You know, you look at someone
and you think you
know who they are
'cause of who they
pretend to be.
Some of these folks here,
the stories their
families don't know.
- How about you?
- [Theresa] What about me?
- Are you who you pretend to be?
- 50 50.
- A Ravens fan?
- See that?
- How's that about?
- You never know who
you're dealing with.
- It's strange.
- What's strange?
- Where I think I've
been my whole life
versus how I feel now.
- How do you feel?
- I feel like a bowl of oatmeal.
- Matty?
I'm not much of a snuggler.
- Tough.
Are you happy Granny?
- I am right now.
- If I told you something,
will you promise not to
call me any names?
- I'll never call you a name,
sweetie.
- You called poppy names.
- Oh, I was just teasing him.
Told you, I'm a better
grandmother than a mother.
- Will you keep it a secret?
- Depends how funny it is.
- Nevermind.
- Of course I will.
- I think that on the
inside that I'm a girl.
Or maybe not all the way,
but part.
Are you mad?
- No.
- [Matty] Is that bad?
- It is the bravest thing
I ever heard anyone say.
- [Matty] Is it bad?
It feels like it's bad.
- Oh hell no.
It's not bad.
It's badass.
- Granny.
- Yeah.
- You look good in a mustache.
- Yes, I do.
- [Theresa] Just enough
to get your lips wet.
- This is very disappointing.
- Life is like that sometimes.
- Yeah, thank you.
Why do you do this job?
- 'Cause I need the money.
- I'm sure you're just
raking it in.
- Are you kidding?
Got a good scam going
on with these old folks.
- How old's your kid?
- She's 26.
I was 18.
- [Clara] Raise her alone?
- My mother.
- You get along.
- [Theresa] With who?
My daughter or my mother?
- Either.
- More now.
- That's just about
how it works.
- What about you?
- Too young.
- I can't tell Theresa,
you like men or women?
- Yeah.
Anything more private
you wanna ask?
- No, just that.
- What about you?
- Don't feel like I like
too much of either one.
- But on a desert island.
- What do you mean?
- I mean that you could pick
whoever you want on a
desert island.
- Helen.
- Who's Helen?
Who's Helen?
- She's who I would
choose on a desert island.
- Okay.
I wanna hear about this.
- Can you grab me a pen
and some paper?
I need you to write a
letter for me.
- Sure.
Sure.
- [Dee] I don't really
have the right stuff.
- Matty, can you can
get your box?
- Lemme try this.
- Easy on the eyeshadow.
I wanna look classy, not all,
you know?
- Yes ma'am.
(dramatic music)
(people chattering)
- Matty, Matty.
Hey Matty?
Matty, Matty, can I come in?
- [Matty] Why are
you doing this?
- I don't know.
I thought it would help.
- Do you want to be a girl?
- No.
- You don't understand.
- What don't I understand,
tell me.
- I don't want to dress
up like a girl.
I am a girl.
Can I be alone please?
- [Dee] Matty okay?
- Yeah.
- What happened?
- I guess it was stupid.
I thought it was a good idea.
- Yeah, dressing in drag
usually solves everything.
- Tell her we said bye, okay.
- Don't let it get
you down Bern.
You're still a sexy lady.
- And for what it's worth, Bern,
sexy leg.
- You always objectifying us.
- I'll objectify you as
much as I want.
- Oh yeah?
- Oh yeah.
- [Theresa] When are you
gonna give it to Bernie?
- When I'm dead.
Don't wanna have a
whole conversation.
- That's the point, isn't it?
- What?
- To have a conversation.
- Well, the truth is,
it's not exactly true.
- What isn't true?
- That.
- This isn't true?
- That I'm proud of Matty.
That he is brave.
That's true.
The rest.
What?
- You're an idiot.
- [Clara] Why am I an idiot?
- Is that a lie?
- It's my gift to Matty.
A lot of lies in life.
It seems like a good one.
- [Theresa] A good one, really.
And how's lying
worked out for you?
- Fine.
- Yeah?
- Yeah.
What?
- What about Helen?
- What about her?
- You don't see it.
- See what?
- Okay.
Maybe I'm wrong, Carla,
but I don't think you
need to make up a lie.
I think you've
already lived one.
- All right, fine.
It's true, all right.
I just, I just didn't wanna
deal with talking about it.
I lost a lot to the lives
I didn't live.
To what I kept inside.
But all those are mine to keep.
However the fuck I want.
And what I want now is for
Maddie to have a coat of armor.
As he faces, as she faces all
the, the shit birds who
won't understand.
Whatever might or, or,
or, or might not be true
to you or Helen or Bernie
or anyone else.
I don't give a shit.
It's 100% true.
If it lets Maddie know that she
is everything I want her to be.
- Okay, Carla, I'll give
Bernie a letter,
but I'm gonna tell him that
you're a secret Ravens fan
and that you want purple gear
in your box when you die.
- Oh, you live your truth,
Theresa.
But you stick any of
that Ravens crap
and my casket, I will come
back and haunt your ass.
- [Theresa] Yeah, really?
As a man ghost or a woman ghost.
- Oh, fuck off.
And thank you.
- You're welcome.
- Thank you.
Thank you.
Come on, let's go.
- You don't have to.
- Oh, easy, easy, easy, easy,
easy.
Okay.
Okay.
- All right.
(dramatic music)
- We are here to bury
Carla Evers.
But there's a good bit
of Carla already buried.
It's true for all of us,
I guess.
We buried what we're not
willing to face.
Carla never liked being a
wife or mother,
didn't hang up any of her
wedding photos in the house
when we were growing up.
I figured she didn't
like my dad that much.
She said she looked ugly,
but she didn't.
But all her life, was
something didn't fit.
You know, like a little
kid in a suit.
Carla never got outta that suit.
We all have two lives
we can live.
You know, a life where we
think we're supposed to live
and a life we know we
were born to live,
and Carla lived the first.
Not that it wasn't a good life,
she, she had some friends.
Good enough job.
She had me.
Maybe that wasn't so
good sometimes.
She, she had a granddaughter,
you know, left too young.
And she has a great-grandchild
that lit up her world.
You know, you lit up her world,
Maddie,
but was still the first kind.
But now, quote Carla, fuck
'em, whatever they think.
(audience laughing)
Because Carla, well, my
mom didn't want this to be
the end of Carla Evers,
but, but the beginning is
something new.
Something she kept buried
while she was alive.
And something, something
Maddie helped her realize
she didn't have to keep
buried anymore.
So you come up here,
pay your final respects.
Don't say goodbye to
Carla Evers, but meet Carl
in the life my mom never
took a chance to live.
- Who's Carl?
- He's talking about his mom.
- His mom?
But who's Carl?
- You're an idiot.
- People say a funeral's a loss
makes you realize what you have.
And Carla was a great mom.
Not for all the
years growing up.
Not for my adulthood.
For that, she was a
pain in the ass.
But for letting Maddie know
that she deserves to
be who she is,
and not later, not later,
but now.
So today is a welcoming
of two new lives for Carl,
when he goes up there and
tells St. Peter
that he'll be using the men's
locker room, this go-round.
And for Maddie, my
granddaughter,
who'll never have to
bury who she is.
Hey Maddie, come up here.
Help give Carl a send off.
I can't think of anything that'd
make Granny prouder than seeing
you as you are right now.
So, Carla had, Carl
had another final wish,
a special tailgate in her honor.
I know it's not a game day,
and I know it might
be thundering.
We're still going and Carl's
going off as he wanted to.
And, and Maddie is who she is.
So all you just bring
your hearts.
Leave your judgment and
your bullshit behind.
If you can't do that, hey
Maddie, you wanna tell 'em
what, what Granny said
if they can't do that?
- She said to eat a Bag
of Richards and stay home.
(audience laughing)
- That's right she did.
(dramatic music)
Where do you go
when you know
Everything's turning
upside down
And what do you say when
everything's changed
For the unexpected
Well hey, I feel it's
gonna be all right
Hey yeah, I know it
on the inside
Hey yeah, I feel it's
gonna be all right
Hey yeah, hey yeah, hey yeah
I know it on the inside
And how do you smile
when it's been a while
Since you've seen the
sun come up
And what do you say
When everyday is over
and over a new day
Hey yeah, I feel it's
gonna be all right
Hey yeah, I know it
on the inside
Hey yeah, I feel it's
gonna be all right
Hey yeah, hey yeah, hey yeah
Hey yeah, I know it
on the inside
I feel it's gonna
be all right
Where do you go
when you know
Everything's turning
upside down
Who do you ask when
you're the last to get
A helping hand
(upbeat music)
I can look back and see
how good it was, good
I had a lot of friends
when I was growing up, true
At times, I think I
maybe didn't do enough
Let 'em know that all
I've ever had was love
Times like this I want
to reminisce
Pray to God he's
watching every one I miss
I know I won't be around
forever so let him know
All I've ever had was love,
love, love, love, love
It's all I have and
all I've had
Love from me to you, yeah
Love, love, love, love
I don't say it to you enough,
no
It's all love
People in your life, they
always come and go, go
You see 'em every day, you
think they'll never go, no
But every day you wake
up it's a blessing though
Let 'em know that all
you ever had was love
Man I miss the way
it used to be
Every friend I had
was more like family
I know people gotta
make it out alone
I hope you know all
I've ever had was
Love, love, love, love
It's all I have and
all I've had
Love from me to you, yeah
Love, love, love, love, love
I don't say it to
you enough no
It's all love
Hey, hey, hey, hey
Love, love, love, love
It's all I have and
all I've had
Love from me to you, yeah
Love, love, love
I don't say it to you enough,
no
It's all love
- [Man] We're not talking
about Jim Crow here.
If it was a Jadeveon Clowney or
Khalil Mack, he'd be drafted.
Right, no doubt.
But if it's not a game
changing player,
teams don't want to
deal with it.
- [Woman] But is that good
enough for this league?
I mean, their attitude
is, if you're a superstar,
we will loosen the reins.
But if not, keep your
identity to your self.
I mean, what is that?
- [Man] How does that
identity have
anything to do with
professional sports?
- [Woman] Exactly.
Being straight or gay
doesn't have anything
to do with professional sports,
which is exactly why it
shouldn't have anything to do
with being drafted or
not, or being on a team.
A person's identity,
sexual, religious, ethnic,
cultural should be
completely irrelevant
to the athlete they are
on the field.
Am I right or am I right?
- [Reporter] If he gets
drafted next week
and that's a big if,
he'll be the first openly
gay player in the NFL
in any of the four major
US men's sports,
football, baseball, basketball,
hockey.
- [Reporter] And that's
a good thing?
- [Reporter] That's a
very good thing.
- [Reporter] Okay.
Well, for the most part I agree.
- [Reporter] But what?
- [Reporter] Be rational.
This, this has nothing
to do with rational.
This is about gut reaction.
You know, it's not how people
wanna see how those are
different than them are,
but about how they
actually see them.
- [Reporter] Yeah but this is
also about pushing boundaries
and sports is about
pushing boundaries.
- [Reporter] Yes.
But it's also about the
sacred space of the NFL.
- [Reporter] What Sacred space?
You don't think there are
gay players in the NFL?
- [Reporter] It's not about
whether they are or not.
Okay, maybe there are,
maybe there aren't.
But what the heck is wrong
with don't ask, don't tell?
- [Reporter] Everything
is wrong with don't ask...
- Matty.
If you need anything, call,
I'll be back in a few hours.
- [Matty] Okay.
Anyone fighting today?
- Yeah, Pins are fighting
for a playoff spot.
- [Matty] Are we watching
with Dee and Satch?
- Granny's.
- [Matty] Yay.
- But Dee texted, said you
left your jersey there.
We'll swing by on the way.
Breakfast is on the table
and clean up your stuff.
Okay?
- [Matty] Okay poppy, bye.
(upbeat music)
Hey
Your tells are so obvious
Shoulders too broad
for a girl
Keeps you reminded
Helps you to remember
where you come from
You want them to notice
The ragged ends of your
summer dress
You want them to see you
Like they see every
other girl
They just see a faggot
They hold their breath
not to catch the sick
Rough surf on the coast
I wish I could have
spent the whole day alone
Rough surf on the coast
I wish I could have
spent the whole day alone
Rough surf on the coast
I wish I could have spent
the whole day alone with you
With you
With you
You've got no cunt
in your strut
You've got no hips to shake
And you know it's obvious
But we can't choose
how we're made
You want them to notice
The ragged ends of your
summer dress
You want them to see you
Like they see every
other girl
They just see a faggot
They hold their breath
not to catch the sick
- All right, I appreciate it,
doc.
Take care Millie.
- Oh, can I bum a
smoke from you?
Thanks.
- You need help, mom?
- No, thanks.
Okay, okay.
- Carla, maybe, maybe smoking's
not the best idea right now.
Okay mom?
- Yeah.
(Carla coughs)
Have Jimmy come by.
Make sure all the legal
stuff is good.
- Yeah.
Mom.
Just grab your jersey
from Dee and let's go.
- Can I get you anything to eat,
Matty?
- No thank you, Teresa.
- You okay?
Can I get you anything?
- Theresa, I've been telling
you what I need for years.
- New list is up on the board.
- I'm off today, I'll
take a look later.
- Hand me a beer, will you Barn.
- Oh no smoking or drinking.
- Matty, gimme an IC light.
Open it up for me too.
I don't wanna mess up your work.
- What's that about?
- She's older.
You like that one?
You can keep it.
- Mom, I got you that
you said you liked it.
- I lied.
Ain't the first time.
Matty, you have a future
as an old Vietnamese woman.
- [Reporter] Get to
playoff hockey baby.
Huh?
Here we go.
- [Reporter] That's right.
And with the wind, a pen
clinch of playoff burn.
And baseball is back.
We have opening day tickets
to our 97th caller right now.
- [Reporter] Get on the horn.
This is the Bucco's year,
come on.
- What's up, you coming?
- Is Granny really sick?
- Yeah.
- She gonna die?
- Yeah.
- When?
- I don't know.
- Soon?
- Well, what's soon?
- This week?
- She's not gonna die this week.
This year though.
- Will she make it to
my birthday?
- October?
I don't know.
Come on.
Jesus Christ, look, catch it.
Pick it up.
Come on, let's go, come on.
Grab the mitt.
Get in the truck.
- No.
- Not no.
Get in the truck.
- Why'd you do that?
- It wasn't hard.
- I didn't do anything.
- Exactly, you didn't
do anything.
You're signed up for baseball.
You wanna embarrass yourself,
be the kid on the team
that throws like a girl?
- I don't care.
- You don't care.
- I don't even wanna play.
- How about you stop
being a little pussy, huh?
Did coach ask you to practice
catching, throwing, bating?
Did he?
So when I ask you to do what
the coach asked you to do,
that's not when I say, oh,
poor baby.
Now get in the truck.
So help me, get in a truck.
Boy.
Why don't you stop acting
like a little baby?
- [Matty] Stop.
- [Bernie] How about that?
- [Matty] Hey, poppy.
Why do boys have penises
and girls have vaginas?
- I don't know.
Can you not say penis?
- [Matty] Why can't you choose.
- Whatever you got.
You got boys have wieners.
Girls have what they have.
- [Matty] If I stick
it in between my legs,
it looks like I don't have one,
watch.
- That's all right.
I really don't wanna see that.
- [Matty] Can you do it?
- I'm sure I can.
- [Matty] Do it.
- No thanks.
- [Matty] But watch.
- No thanks.
- [Matty] But look.
- You stuck your junk
between your legs.
- [Matty] Isn't it cool?
- Real cool.
- That's how my name sounds.
You don't say MaTTy.
You say MaDDie.
- Let's do your times tables.
- [Matty] Okay.
- Right?
- Yeah.
- [Bernie] Six times four.
(bell rings)
Yeah, sure, if you
wanna walk home.
Yeah, Dee will pick you
up at the house.
No, I'm heading out
with the guys.
- Hi, I'm Mr. Garcia.
- Matty, I can't talk right
now, I'm at your school.
Alright.
All right.
Have fun with Dee and Biko, bye.
Sorry about that.
- Oh my god.
Bernie Evers.
- Will.
- I didn't connect it.
- I You're not still in
the neighborhood?
- No, no.
I'm over in Shadyside now.
- Yeah.
An elementary school teacher,
you know, that makes,
that makes sense.
- Almost 25 years now.
I just transferred back
here last year.
How you doing?
- I'm good, I'm good.
How's Helen?
- Oh, my mom died a
couple years ago.
- Ah, I'm sorry.
Carla didn't mention anything.
- Yeah, don't worry about it.
How's your mom doing?
- Yeah, she's good, she's Carla.
- She's still that same house?
- No, no, Matty and
me are there.
Carla's in a care home.
- Growing old's tough.
Well, listen here.
Why don't she sit down,
let's, let's talk about Matty.
So to begin with, Matty's
a really neat kid.
- Thanks.
- Is he your only?
- My only, yeah, yeah, my only.
- Well, he's very sweet
and he is really smart.
No, he brings home a lot
of stars and happy faces.
- Yeah, yeah.
There's a great fondness
for stars and happy faces.
- He likes reading.
- Yes, yes, Greek Gods
and mythology.
Talks about them a lot.
Look, has Matty ever
talked to you
about how he sees himself?
- How he sees himself?
- Yeah.
- I don't know, what
do you mean?
Well, I gave away this writing
assignment in the class.
We worked on it for
about a week or so.
There.
The prompt was the day
of your dreams.
What's the best day
you can imagine?
Matty handed this into
me privately.
He asked that I didn't
hang it up with the others.
- Yeah.
You know, I, I forgot
a work call.
I'll be right back.
(dramatic music)
Sorry.
Sorry.
Okay.
- It's okay.
So look, Bernie.
Most little boys, when
they're talking
about the day of their dreams,
they're talking about
meeting their sports heroes
or going out and outer space.
- [Bernie] Yeah.
- Most little boys,
they don't write about
being little girls.
Has Matty ever mentioned
anything like this to you
before?
- It is what it is.
- [Will] Well, Bernie, what
if it's something more?
- Like what?
- [Will] Matty's feelings
about who he really is.
- Like if he's gay?
- [Will] Like how he
sees himself.
- He's 10.
How's he supposed to
see himself?
Are you saying he is gay?
- [Will] Bernie, I'm not saying
it's about him being gay.
- He's 10.
- [Will] It's not about
him being gay.
All right, Matty wrote
about being a girl.
- Yeah, well, he does
stupid sometimes, right?
Is he doing his work in class?
- Of course he does.
- Then he's doing everything
he's supposed to do.
I can tell him Mr. Garcia
says he's doing okay.
- Hey, Bernie.
Look, sorry I didn't
mean to upset.
- No, no, it's fine, it's fine.
Thanks.
- All right.
Well look, give my
best to your mom.
- Yeah.
Yeah.
- [Will] All right.
Well, hey, listen, look, you
can take this and his artwork.
- Good to see you Will.
Thanks for teaching my kid.
- Matty, it's Dee, I'm taking
you and Biko to Bimbos.
Matty.
- [Matty] I want to stay here.
- Matty, you okay?
- [Matty] Please don't
tell my poppy.
- [Bernie] All right, wait,
what?
What round are we talking?
- [Jim] Third round and
I'm a hard no.
- [Satch] Really Jimbo?
An NFL contract?
- Yeah really Satch, it's
bass backwards.
Tebow prays and
people themselves.
Sam tongues his boyfriend on TV
and they want to give
him a trophy.
- Yeah, that was,
that was gross.
How about this, faggot or pussy?
- What's difference?
- Faggot's a faggot, a
pussy's a pussy.
- That's not an explanation.
- No heart.
Like Jay Cutler's a
pussy but not gay.
- Okay, yeah.
- No, no heart and
pussy is different.
- So, so gay, but he
can still be a badass.
Like Lambert.
- Lambert's a gay?
- Jesus Fizz, no,
Lambert's not gay.
- Well, why'd you say
Lambert was gay?
- I didn't say he was gay.
I was just using him
as an example.
Like, you know, somebody could
be gay, but still be tough.
You know?
- I, I don't know.
Once you go homo, a kind
of makes you a pussy to.
- I agree though.
No heart and is different.
- You guys cannot answer
a fucking question.
Stopped in on Carla.
- Well, what would you want?
- I don't know.
- Bullshit, you can't ask
and not have an answer.
How's Carla?
What's wrong with her?
- She's old.
- What the fuck is wrong
with you, man?
- What?
- How do you keep your clients?
- I didn't charge her.
- Thanks Jimbo.
- [Satch] That's how he
keeps his clients.
That's how I stay poor.
- I should get my Will in order.
- I'm gonna charge your fat ass.
- I think I have a pussy.
- [Jim] What do you mean
you got a pussy?
- Matty.
- My kids are turning
into assholes.
- Why do you think
Matty's a pussy?
- I don't know, I just.
- You know, you wanna
toughen him up?
Put him in hockey.
- Yes.
- Everyone puts their
kids in baseball
or soccer for Christ sakes.
Toughen 'em up, put 'em in a.
- What would you do for real?
Huh?
- My boys wouldn't be fags
and they're not pussy's.
- You can't control that.
- Hey, bullshit.
- I would not choose to be gay
because I have no idea
how women look at this
and get turned on.
- I mean, it's not a choice.
You're born that way.
- You think.
- It's kind of a choice.
I don't think my kids
would be gay.
- I got a gay cousin.
You didn't choose to be gay.
You just, you just gay.
- [Jim] Does he act gay?
- I mean, he ain't all
Skippy fabulous, you know?
But he a little, you know,
he a little,
you know, a little la de da.
- He ever come on to you?
- He's my cousin dumbass.
- [Jim] Still.
- What you mean still?
You come onto to your cousins?
- [Frizz] But he's gay.
- And he's a little
bit of a pussy
but that don't make him
a pervert, what the fuck?
- I gotta go.
Thanks for looking out
for Carla Jimbo.
- No sweat.
- I'm out to.
- Bernie, don't worry if
Matty's a pussy.
According to Satch, he'll turn
into a perfectly fine faggot.
- Hey, fuck you!
Don't talk about my kid.
- We're fucking around here.
- Fucking around, that's
my fucking kid.
Don't talk about Matty.
Jesus Christ.
Thanks for looking
out for Carla.
Don't talk about Matty.
- The fuck, Jim?
- Yeah, maybe that's
why your kids
are turning into assholes.
- You sound like my ex.
- Shit.
- [Bernie] And all of those
ones over there on your bed,
now get dressed for
school, I'm already late.
- [Matty] But Poppy, why?
- [Bernie] You're too old
for this stuff.
- [Matty] But those are mine.
- [Bernie] For your own good.
Boys don't play with
this shit at your age.
- [Matty] But I, I
don't understand.
- [Bernie] Yeah, well.
- [Matty] Not fair.
- [Bernie] Tough.
- [Matty] That's bullshit.
- [Bernie] See that, it's
already working.
- So Betsy's grandson
comes in, such a sweet boy.
He watches Crossing
Delaney with her.
- That's where he learned it?
- In the movie, there's
a pickle guy,
he smells like pickles.
- How you be a pickle guy?
- Anyway, he sells 'em from
these big old fashioned barrels
and then soaks his hands
in vanilla at night.
- So these old people
are your pickles?
- They're my pickles.
Except I use Mint.
Oh, there's a, there's another
one in Mr. Wolodarsky's room.
Tried to flush his diaper.
- [Bernie] Oh, poor guy.
- Yeah.
- How's Carla?
- I don't know.
Mostly in.
Go get her.
- Nah, I'll get the
toilet first.
- Go get her.
- You wanna get a drink tonight?
- I don't date men who don't
wash their hands after
the bathroom.
- I was putting in a
safety railing.
- It's still nasty.
- How is that nasty,
it's construction.
You're tough on me, Theresa.
Hey mom.
- I can't barely do
the crossword.
- Let me write for you.
You take your pills today?
- I don't know.
Where's Matty?
- He's in school.
- What day is it?
- It's Thursday.
- Oh, that's right.
And Will Garcia is his teacher.
Wow.
Small world.
- He left me a couple
messages, I gotta call him.
- [Carla] Mm.
So are you here to see
me or to work?
- Both.
- [Carla] So which one
are you doing now?
- Let me walk you out.
- I can walk fine.
Oh, God, get, get me my
tank over there.
- All right.
- Did Matty come with you?
- Mom?
It's Thursday, he's in school.
- That's right, damn, damn it.
- That's all right.
- It's not all right,
don't be stupid.
- Hey, hey, hey, hey.
No beating up on Bernie.
I need him to finish
some work for me today.
- Take him.
- Be nice.
He doesn't work as well
when you're cranky.
- I'm always cranky.
- Point taken.
- You want me to get
you anything, ma?
- Oh yeah.
How about a shot and a smoke?
- I'll take a Chardonnay.
It's five o'clock somewhere.
- Hello?
- [Bernie] Yeah.
- [Satch] Bern, I
think I messed up.
- Oh, hey, Satch.
- [Satch] It doesn't fit.
- It doesn't fit,
what size pipe?
- [Satch] Exactly.
- What size are you using?
One half inch or three quarter?
- [Satch] Are these questions
making you feel better?
Man, I don't know, I just
bought a faucet to look nice.
- I'll grab Matty,
we'll swing by.
(phone buzzing)
- [Reporter] Sports culture
is a mostly male culture.
- [Reporter] Oh, come on.
Men don't own sports
culture anymore.
Look at the buzz of this
US women's team.
The World Cup, it's electric.
- [Reporter] They're special.
- [Reporter] But it's
more than just one team.
Women coaches in the NBA,
Arizona hiring a linebacker.
- Hey bud.
Satch wants us to come.
(pop music)
- [Dee] You're still a hero.
- Thanks, Steve.
- [Matty] Yeah, you're
still a hero Satch.
- Thanks, Matty.
- [Bernie] I don't agree.
- New fixtures.
Some married lady Aphrodisia.
- [Bernie] That true Dee?
- [Dee] What?
- New fixtures are
an aphrodisia.
- [Dee] You have no idea.
But it only works when you see
your man knee deep in
pipes and tools.
- I, I don't accept that.
- [Dee] Whatever.
- So everything good after
what happened with Matty?
- [Bernie] What happened?
What happened?
- [Dee] Imagine if you wore
a pink Steelers jersey
on top of that.
- Imagine if you wore
a pink Browns jersey.
- Or Cincy.
- [Both] Or Ravens!
- Ooh, Then he'd have it coming.
So what would happen if you
wore a pink jersey to school?
You didn't talk to your poppy?
- Did you get picked
on in school?
- I was called names,
some people were ignorant.
- What did they say?
- There was this boy
named Byron Matt.
He didn't like black people.
- Did he use the N word?
- Yeah.
- A lot?
- Enough.
- What'd you do?
- Nothing.
Kids can be mean sometimes.
- Did you tell anyone?
Did you tell Uncle Satch?
- I was afraid that
if I spoke up.
- Do you want me not
to tell too?
- You can say whatever you want.
- [Satch] He's getting bullied.
They wrote something
on his head.
- Ah Jesus Christ.
- [Satch] We talked to him.
He said he was gonna
talk to you.
- Fuck.
Jesus.
The same shit, or your
different shit?
You're still going to Matty's
thing tomorrow, right?
Generations together, I
think it's called.
It's the last week of
school thing.
No, I'm not supposed to go.
It's for grandparents.
You know what I mean.
Alright.
Oh, hey Matty, don't
let the water run over.
- [Matty] I'm not.
Did you call Granny?
- I'm talking to her now.
- [Matty] Is she coming?
- He wants to know if
you're coming.
Yeah, she's coming.
- [Matty] Yay!
- I told him you're coming.
Tough shit.
I'll pick you up a
little before eight.
All right, night Ma.
Matty, I'll be out front.
- [Matty] Okay.
Can I watch TV before bed?
- Did you finish your work?
- [Matty] Yes.
- Okay.
- Evening, Bernie.
- Hey, will.
- Hope I'm not disturbing.
- It's okay.
- Now a good time to talk?
- Yeah, yeah.
Come have a seat.
- Thanks.
- Lemme get you a beer.
- Thanks.
Strange being back here.
- Yeah.
- Not the best of memories.
- Yeah.
- Being a kids tough.
- Being an adult isn't
so easy sometimes either.
- Strange man.
I still have a.
I don't know, reflex, whatever,
that you're gonna hit me.
- Why?
- I was hoping you'd
say you wouldn't hit me.
- I don't think I'm
gonna hit you.
- That's a start.
- You know, you don't
even know me anymore.
You know, I mean, I
might've trained
at MMA and been an Army ranger.
- Yeah.
Lot of ex-army rangers
teaching fifth grade.
- Oh yeah, they're all
over the place.
High school was hard for me.
- Yeah, well, being a teenager.
- No, man.
It was harder for me.
- Yeah, I guess I was,
I don't know.
I guess I was a jag off.
- You are an asshole Bernie.
You are a homophobic roided up.
And I'm afraid that's gonna be
what's gonna happen for Matty.
- You think Matty is...?
I don't know.
- No, I think he's different.
Look, I'm not gonna say I
wasn't thinking of Matty
when I gave out this assignment.
We did this end of the year
reflection about time and life.
You know how I was, how
I am, how I will be.
Kids drew pictures of
themselves as baby,
as they are now, and how
they want to be.
In the future.
And obviously Matty's
picture is once again,
not like his peers.
- That's why you think I,
I might hit you.
- Can you blame me man?
- Like you said, I don't even
know who you are anymore.
You could be ex-Army Ranger.
- Yeah, could be.
- I don't fight, I don't
fight people anymore.
Not if I don't know them.
- Well.
It's a step in the
right direction.
Bernie.
He'll be okay if you're
okay with him.
(dramatic music)
- Yeah?
What'd she?
What'd she say?
Alright, alright.
Alright.
I'll get her.
How'd you get kicked out of
an elementary school assembly?
- I wasn't kicked out.
- Seems like you
were kicked out.
- She called Bruce
Frizzofsky a jackhole.
- Frizz's kid?
- And he's a sixth grader.
- A jackhole sixth grader!
- And then she told his
grandpa to lick her taint.
(Carla laughs)
What's a taint?
- It's that space between your
butt hole and your privates.
- Ma!
- Ew.
- I told that old prick
what is kid said to Matty
and he didn't do a damn thing.
- And Principal Cow
kicked her out.
- She didn't kick me out.
She asked me to leave.
- You said that to Mr. Frizz?
- I told that principal
that little shit called
Matty a faggot.
So why doesn't he leave too?
- He called you that?
- And Granny called
Principal Cow jackhole.
- So maybe she did kick me out.
- Frizz's kid called you that.
- He is a jackhole.
- That's right, he is.
- That's bullshit.
That's bullshit.
- Bernie, Bernie, not now.
Let's just go.
Weren't gonna learn
nothing there today anyway.
- I learned jackhole and taint.
(Carla chuckling)
- [Carla] You did.
(dramatic music)
- [Satch] All right, Bernie,
come on.
Gimme that bullseye.
- What the hell is this?
- Matty. He dresses up,
he's been doing it for
a little bit.
I didn't know he, he'd
rather be a girl.
- So is he a gay?
- I don't know.
- Why does he want to be a girl?
- Nah, that's a stupid question.
- How's that a stupid
question Satch?
- Whatcha going through Bern?
- I don't know.
- Kind of explains
what Brucey said.
- Hey asshole.
Even if he's gay, I
don't know if he's gay,
Bruce can't call Matty a faggot.
- But if he is?
- What do you mean if he is?
- If he is.
- Can you call me a nigger?
Call me a man, call
me a black man.
An African American man.
You can call me jackoff,
jerkoff, asshole,
you can even call me your
black friend in the pinch.
But you can't ever call me that,
ever.
And you can't say my
nigga either
and your kid can't call
Matty a faggot.
- Hey, Bernie, I'm sorry
about what Brucey said.
- He's a kid, we all
did it Frizzy.
- [Frizz] He said he apologized.
- Yeah, Matty said he did.
- I never heard you
say that before.
- Yeah, I know.
- I feel very uncomfortable.
- Do you feel uncomfortable when
you hear it and I'm not around?
- Thanks dude.
- Yeah.
- Hey Bern.
- Yeah.
- Why don't you and Matty
come over for the fourth?
- Oh, what about us?
- Yeah, where's our
invite jagoff?
- Fine, you guys come to.
- Nah, I can't.
- Me neither.
- See, you're a jagoff
and you're an African
American jagoff.
- Wait, whoa, whoa.
Why is he not a white jagoff?
- You're a white jagoff
and you're making me very
uncomfortable, Satch.
- I ain't making you anything.
- Eat a dick.
- Ouch.
- Matty, you happy?
- Sometimes.
- When are you the happiest?
- I don't know.
- When do you think?
- Maybe right before I wake up.
- Yeah, why?
- Maybe it's the very, very
beginning of my own new day.
- That's cool.
What would you tell
someone to do
if they were really
unhappy in their life?
- Well, who's unhappy?
- Lots of people are unhappy.
- Was my mom unhappy?
- What if I was unhappy?
What would you tell me to do?
- [Matty] Are you unhappy?
- What if I didn't wanna
be a handyman anymore?
- What do you wanna be?
- A songwriter?
- [Matty] Do you write songs?
- No, not really.
I mean, I, I used to sort of,
I used to,
I used to make up
songs in my head.
- Do you still?
- No.
- Why not?
- I, I guess I just stopped.
Do you sing songs in your head?
- I dream in my head.
- Well that's cool.
We'll read tomorrow.
It's late.
- Poppy.
- Yeah?
- It's cool that you used to
make up songs in your head.
(dramatic music)
- Hey Mom.
Mom.
Theresa!
- She sleeps like
that sometimes.
- With her eyes open?
- A lot do.
It's just a part of dying.
- It's creepy.
- Dying isn't creepy.
Being so afraid of it
that you don't visit.
That's creepy.
Your mom's a tough lady.
- Yeah.
- Wanna fool around?
- This turns you on?
The smell of old
people in Febreze?
- Pretty hot.
- Are you seriously
turned on right now?
- No, but I think I
could block it out
and still make it happen.
- Oh, that's very manly of you.
- You're gonna go out with me?
- No.
- Why?
- Cause I just think you
wanna do a black chick.
- Maybe.
- And why is that?
- I don't know.
Maybe the same reason I don't
eat only bologna on white.
- Are you serious?
You're trying to get with me
and you're comparing me being
a black woman to a sandwich?
- Maybe I'm a little
bit of a jackass.
- Yeah, maybe you're a
little bit of a racist.
- Maybe I'm attracted to strong
women who smell like mint.
You think, do you
think Matty's gay?
- Do I think Matty's gay?
I don't know.
Why, do you think he's gay?
- He dresses up in girls'
clothes.
He wrote this thing at school
about his best day being
a day as a girl,
not, not winning the Super Bowl
or riding a horse across
frontier being a girl.
- That does not sound like gay.
Why would anybody wanna ride
a horse across the frontier?
- It's gonna make his
life a lot harder.
- Well, life isn't easy.
- I raise a kid and he's not
the kid I thought he was.
- No one's who you
think they are.
Do you love them the same?
- Yeah, yeah.
- Well then that's your answer.
- I'm afraid I'm
gonna mess him up.
- Oh, you're his dad.
You will.
- That's comforting.
I'm not his dad.
I'm his grandpa.
- You're not Matty's dad?
- My daughter.
She's gone.
- Sorry.
- Life happens.
- Since when?
- About seven years.
We were taking care of
Matty before that.
- And the father?
- I don't know, I never met him.
- Wow.
You are a lot more
interesting now
than you were a few moments ago.
- Yeah.
(dramatic music)
- Oh, hey, hey Will, quick talk?
Hey, I need, I'm not sure how
to, can we talk about Matty?
- Sure.
Yeah.
Let's go get a beer okay?
- Yeah.
Hey, first day summer.
We're at the best
part of your day.
I wasn't a good dad
for your mom.
- Why?
- Do you maybe feel a certain
way that doesn't seem fair?
Like, like you wanna be
something different than you
are.
- Do you ever feel that?
- Yeah, I do.
You don't have to say
anything, you can just listen.
All right.
You could be anything
you want to be.
Right, as long as you're
a good kid, a hard worker,
all the things you already are,
you can be anything you want.
I'll still screw up sometimes.
And if what you want to be
is something different
of what you are.
If who you are is a girl
in a boy's body,
if that's who you are,
I'll still be your Poppy.
No different than if you
didn't feel that way.
You could change a
lot of things.
But you can't change that.
- Poppy.
- Yeah.
- I'm scared.
- Yeah.
We can head up to
Paco's par to fish.
Nobody looks like this,
only models and prostitutes.
- What's a prostitute?
- [Bernie] A model
with bad luck.
- It's easier when I'm
alone, when no one knows.
- [Bernie] We'll figure it out.
Or if we don't go fishing,
there's a Pirate's
home game today.
You okay?
Come here.
(dramatic music)
- [Reporter] New music
from Pittsburgh Gardens.
Text to vote.
Is it a hit or an error?
Oh, say can you see
By the dawns early light
- Oh, hey Mickey.
Hey, why don't you go up
and say hi to Bruce, okay?
- How you doing?
- Good.
Hey, what the hey Bern?
- Matty. Matty, what
are you doing?
- We have to go now.
- Why?
- He hit me.
- Oh, why did he hit you?
- Matty, you hit him?
- Yeah, I hit him in the face.
- [Frizz] What happened?
- [Bruce] Nothing, he
just hit me.
- Did you call him one of
the names we talked about?
- No.
Let me see.
Nice shot kid.
Sorry Bern.
- Yeah.
You all right?
Talk to you Frizz.
Happy fourth.
Let's go man.
- Yeah, yours too.
Hey kid, I'm sorry.
Did you get enough to eat?
- Yeah, thanks Mr. Frizz,
Bye Bruce.
- Let's see if your mom
needs any help.
- You okay?
It's good you hit him.
Let's go see granny.
(dramatic music)
It was a solid shot.
- [Carla] I think that's great.
- I don't wanna talk about it.
- Come on, why don't
you tell Matty a story?
- How do I know what
story to tell?
- Alright, forget it.
- Why don't you tell a story?
- Forget about it.
- Oh, no, no.
Tell me a story.
- Forget I said it.
- Okay, okay.
I'll tell you one about
your great granddaddy.
I know you didn't know him,
but one time he got in
a fight with Tucker J.
He had only one good eye,
Tucker J.
He had no depth perception.
- Wanna get dirty?
- Yeah.
- [Theresa] Get a load of this.
- That's a lot of stuff.
- We have to hold on
to folk's stuff
for a while after they die.
Boss wants you to clean it out.
- What do you think?
- Very sexy.
Put that on.
Hey.
One, two, three, four
One, two, three, four
One, two, three, four tell
me what you're coming for
One, two, three, four
It's a groove thing
between me and you
Some kind of
potion commotion
Between the sky
and the ocean
You're shooting down
by my skies you got it
No matter how far I
walk you got it
Where ever, where ever
we are, you got it
It's a groove thing,
groove thing
I can't stand it
It's a groove thing,
groove thing
But I can plan it
On a groove thing,
between me and you
It's a groove thing,
baby I wanna groove
Now you may ask, you
may ask, you may ask why
Why is this grooving
so super fly
I don't know and I
don't care
It's just a groove
thing we got here
- I never liked all this crap.
- Why not?
- I don't know.
- How I look?
- You look like a faggot.
- Mom, you can't say that.
- Oh, don't be so sensitive.
I was never into all the fufu.
The the good wife thing.
The good mom thing.
- You're a good mom.
- Bullshit.
- You're a good Granny.
- That's true.
- [Carla] I mean, I fed
you all and all that,
but I don't know.
- No, you're a good mom.
- Oh, shut up.
I'm not sorry for the
way I raised you.
Just wasn't me.
- Do you like being a Granny?
- Love it.
I wish I could have just
skipped to that.
- What do you wanna be?
- I don't know.
Maybe a cop.
- You could be a cop.
- Yeah, well, back in those
days things were different.
- You'd been a good cop, ma.
- Thanks Bern.
I could have been a good cop.
- I don't know what I wanna be.
- Well, you be whatever
the hell you wanna be.
- What about a
Baltimore Ravens fan?
- Like that one back there?
- [Bernie] Who?
- Theresa.
- [Bernie] Theresa's
a Ravens fan?
- Oh yeah.
I don't know why anyone
wanna be a Ravens fan.
- What if I wanted to
be something
that I can't be, like a girl?
- Well, you make less money
and you'd have to pee
sitting down.
- Okay so like Poppy
when he goes in the
middle of the night.
- You pee sitting down.
- Yeah, just that night.
- Maybe you are a faggot.
- [Bernie] Mom!
- You know, you look at someone
and you think you
know who they are
'cause of who they
pretend to be.
Some of these folks here,
the stories their
families don't know.
- How about you?
- [Theresa] What about me?
- Are you who you pretend to be?
- 50 50.
- A Ravens fan?
- See that?
- How's that about?
- You never know who
you're dealing with.
- It's strange.
- What's strange?
- Where I think I've
been my whole life
versus how I feel now.
- How do you feel?
- I feel like a bowl of oatmeal.
- Matty?
I'm not much of a snuggler.
- Tough.
Are you happy Granny?
- I am right now.
- If I told you something,
will you promise not to
call me any names?
- I'll never call you a name,
sweetie.
- You called poppy names.
- Oh, I was just teasing him.
Told you, I'm a better
grandmother than a mother.
- Will you keep it a secret?
- Depends how funny it is.
- Nevermind.
- Of course I will.
- I think that on the
inside that I'm a girl.
Or maybe not all the way,
but part.
Are you mad?
- No.
- [Matty] Is that bad?
- It is the bravest thing
I ever heard anyone say.
- [Matty] Is it bad?
It feels like it's bad.
- Oh hell no.
It's not bad.
It's badass.
- Granny.
- Yeah.
- You look good in a mustache.
- Yes, I do.
- [Theresa] Just enough
to get your lips wet.
- This is very disappointing.
- Life is like that sometimes.
- Yeah, thank you.
Why do you do this job?
- 'Cause I need the money.
- I'm sure you're just
raking it in.
- Are you kidding?
Got a good scam going
on with these old folks.
- How old's your kid?
- She's 26.
I was 18.
- [Clara] Raise her alone?
- My mother.
- You get along.
- [Theresa] With who?
My daughter or my mother?
- Either.
- More now.
- That's just about
how it works.
- What about you?
- Too young.
- I can't tell Theresa,
you like men or women?
- Yeah.
Anything more private
you wanna ask?
- No, just that.
- What about you?
- Don't feel like I like
too much of either one.
- But on a desert island.
- What do you mean?
- I mean that you could pick
whoever you want on a
desert island.
- Helen.
- Who's Helen?
Who's Helen?
- She's who I would
choose on a desert island.
- Okay.
I wanna hear about this.
- Can you grab me a pen
and some paper?
I need you to write a
letter for me.
- Sure.
Sure.
- [Dee] I don't really
have the right stuff.
- Matty, can you can
get your box?
- Lemme try this.
- Easy on the eyeshadow.
I wanna look classy, not all,
you know?
- Yes ma'am.
(dramatic music)
(people chattering)
- Matty, Matty.
Hey Matty?
Matty, Matty, can I come in?
- [Matty] Why are
you doing this?
- I don't know.
I thought it would help.
- Do you want to be a girl?
- No.
- You don't understand.
- What don't I understand,
tell me.
- I don't want to dress
up like a girl.
I am a girl.
Can I be alone please?
- [Dee] Matty okay?
- Yeah.
- What happened?
- I guess it was stupid.
I thought it was a good idea.
- Yeah, dressing in drag
usually solves everything.
- Tell her we said bye, okay.
- Don't let it get
you down Bern.
You're still a sexy lady.
- And for what it's worth, Bern,
sexy leg.
- You always objectifying us.
- I'll objectify you as
much as I want.
- Oh yeah?
- Oh yeah.
- [Theresa] When are you
gonna give it to Bernie?
- When I'm dead.
Don't wanna have a
whole conversation.
- That's the point, isn't it?
- What?
- To have a conversation.
- Well, the truth is,
it's not exactly true.
- What isn't true?
- That.
- This isn't true?
- That I'm proud of Matty.
That he is brave.
That's true.
The rest.
What?
- You're an idiot.
- [Clara] Why am I an idiot?
- Is that a lie?
- It's my gift to Matty.
A lot of lies in life.
It seems like a good one.
- [Theresa] A good one, really.
And how's lying
worked out for you?
- Fine.
- Yeah?
- Yeah.
What?
- What about Helen?
- What about her?
- You don't see it.
- See what?
- Okay.
Maybe I'm wrong, Carla,
but I don't think you
need to make up a lie.
I think you've
already lived one.
- All right, fine.
It's true, all right.
I just, I just didn't wanna
deal with talking about it.
I lost a lot to the lives
I didn't live.
To what I kept inside.
But all those are mine to keep.
However the fuck I want.
And what I want now is for
Maddie to have a coat of armor.
As he faces, as she faces all
the, the shit birds who
won't understand.
Whatever might or, or,
or, or might not be true
to you or Helen or Bernie
or anyone else.
I don't give a shit.
It's 100% true.
If it lets Maddie know that she
is everything I want her to be.
- Okay, Carla, I'll give
Bernie a letter,
but I'm gonna tell him that
you're a secret Ravens fan
and that you want purple gear
in your box when you die.
- Oh, you live your truth,
Theresa.
But you stick any of
that Ravens crap
and my casket, I will come
back and haunt your ass.
- [Theresa] Yeah, really?
As a man ghost or a woman ghost.
- Oh, fuck off.
And thank you.
- You're welcome.
- Thank you.
Thank you.
Come on, let's go.
- You don't have to.
- Oh, easy, easy, easy, easy,
easy.
Okay.
Okay.
- All right.
(dramatic music)
- We are here to bury
Carla Evers.
But there's a good bit
of Carla already buried.
It's true for all of us,
I guess.
We buried what we're not
willing to face.
Carla never liked being a
wife or mother,
didn't hang up any of her
wedding photos in the house
when we were growing up.
I figured she didn't
like my dad that much.
She said she looked ugly,
but she didn't.
But all her life, was
something didn't fit.
You know, like a little
kid in a suit.
Carla never got outta that suit.
We all have two lives
we can live.
You know, a life where we
think we're supposed to live
and a life we know we
were born to live,
and Carla lived the first.
Not that it wasn't a good life,
she, she had some friends.
Good enough job.
She had me.
Maybe that wasn't so
good sometimes.
She, she had a granddaughter,
you know, left too young.
And she has a great-grandchild
that lit up her world.
You know, you lit up her world,
Maddie,
but was still the first kind.
But now, quote Carla, fuck
'em, whatever they think.
(audience laughing)
Because Carla, well, my
mom didn't want this to be
the end of Carla Evers,
but, but the beginning is
something new.
Something she kept buried
while she was alive.
And something, something
Maddie helped her realize
she didn't have to keep
buried anymore.
So you come up here,
pay your final respects.
Don't say goodbye to
Carla Evers, but meet Carl
in the life my mom never
took a chance to live.
- Who's Carl?
- He's talking about his mom.
- His mom?
But who's Carl?
- You're an idiot.
- People say a funeral's a loss
makes you realize what you have.
And Carla was a great mom.
Not for all the
years growing up.
Not for my adulthood.
For that, she was a
pain in the ass.
But for letting Maddie know
that she deserves to
be who she is,
and not later, not later,
but now.
So today is a welcoming
of two new lives for Carl,
when he goes up there and
tells St. Peter
that he'll be using the men's
locker room, this go-round.
And for Maddie, my
granddaughter,
who'll never have to
bury who she is.
Hey Maddie, come up here.
Help give Carl a send off.
I can't think of anything that'd
make Granny prouder than seeing
you as you are right now.
So, Carla had, Carl
had another final wish,
a special tailgate in her honor.
I know it's not a game day,
and I know it might
be thundering.
We're still going and Carl's
going off as he wanted to.
And, and Maddie is who she is.
So all you just bring
your hearts.
Leave your judgment and
your bullshit behind.
If you can't do that, hey
Maddie, you wanna tell 'em
what, what Granny said
if they can't do that?
- She said to eat a Bag
of Richards and stay home.
(audience laughing)
- That's right she did.
(dramatic music)
Where do you go
when you know
Everything's turning
upside down
And what do you say when
everything's changed
For the unexpected
Well hey, I feel it's
gonna be all right
Hey yeah, I know it
on the inside
Hey yeah, I feel it's
gonna be all right
Hey yeah, hey yeah, hey yeah
I know it on the inside
And how do you smile
when it's been a while
Since you've seen the
sun come up
And what do you say
When everyday is over
and over a new day
Hey yeah, I feel it's
gonna be all right
Hey yeah, I know it
on the inside
Hey yeah, I feel it's
gonna be all right
Hey yeah, hey yeah, hey yeah
Hey yeah, I know it
on the inside
I feel it's gonna
be all right
Where do you go
when you know
Everything's turning
upside down
Who do you ask when
you're the last to get
A helping hand
(upbeat music)
I can look back and see
how good it was, good
I had a lot of friends
when I was growing up, true
At times, I think I
maybe didn't do enough
Let 'em know that all
I've ever had was love
Times like this I want
to reminisce
Pray to God he's
watching every one I miss
I know I won't be around
forever so let him know
All I've ever had was love,
love, love, love, love
It's all I have and
all I've had
Love from me to you, yeah
Love, love, love, love
I don't say it to you enough,
no
It's all love
People in your life, they
always come and go, go
You see 'em every day, you
think they'll never go, no
But every day you wake
up it's a blessing though
Let 'em know that all
you ever had was love
Man I miss the way
it used to be
Every friend I had
was more like family
I know people gotta
make it out alone
I hope you know all
I've ever had was
Love, love, love, love
It's all I have and
all I've had
Love from me to you, yeah
Love, love, love, love, love
I don't say it to
you enough no
It's all love
Hey, hey, hey, hey
Love, love, love, love
It's all I have and
all I've had
Love from me to you, yeah
Love, love, love
I don't say it to you enough,
no
It's all love
- [Man] We're not talking
about Jim Crow here.
If it was a Jadeveon Clowney or
Khalil Mack, he'd be drafted.
Right, no doubt.
But if it's not a game
changing player,
teams don't want to
deal with it.
- [Woman] But is that good
enough for this league?
I mean, their attitude
is, if you're a superstar,
we will loosen the reins.
But if not, keep your
identity to your self.
I mean, what is that?
- [Man] How does that
identity have
anything to do with
professional sports?
- [Woman] Exactly.
Being straight or gay
doesn't have anything
to do with professional sports,
which is exactly why it
shouldn't have anything to do
with being drafted or
not, or being on a team.
A person's identity,
sexual, religious, ethnic,
cultural should be
completely irrelevant
to the athlete they are
on the field.
Am I right or am I right?