We Burn Like This (2021) Movie Script
1
I raise my arms
and I am like a scarecrow.
1492.
1492?
Then when did Columbus
discover America?
And the blankets,
like the fields
burning at my feet.
- 1776.
- Wrong again!
I do not scream.
I do not feel heat.
I'm not old enough
to know what to do.
And so I stand there and
wonder what is happening.
If I was hot before,
I'm not any longer.
Instead, I am very, very cold.
Excuse me.
It's worse than
I thought it'd be.
Yeah, I know.
Hey, another round.
You girls need a drink?
Uh... that's okay.
Okay?
Do you want a drink?
No. Thanks, though.
Oh, you sure are welcome.
- You girls are pretty.
- Thanks.
- Can I buy you a drink?
- No, thanks.
How about you?
Do you wanna go?
What? Is it something I did?
I'm just trying to be nice.
You were so nice.
Thank you.
Guys can't be nice anymore?
No, but we gotta
take it back to '05 view.
'05. People want it.
- They want it.
- Uh, uh, uh, uh, uh, oh, oh!
Yes!
What!
And walk, and walk, and pose.
Shine, shine.
Keeping 'em straight.
Keep them straight.
- We should go.
- I know.
I know.
I got you.
Hey!
Go back to your country!
Hey!
Hey!
This is my country!
Go back to yours, you fucker!
Well, look who it is.
Hey you.
- Are you off soon?
- I am.
It's just gonna be
a couple more minutes.
Wanna go for a ride?
- On the house.
- Thank you.
Is that your roommate
over there?
Yeah.
- Hey.
- Hey.
I was at your house
the other night.
I remember.
- What's your name again?
- Tiger.
- And you are?
- Rae.
Rae.
What's that, some kind
of nickname, Tiger?
Yeah. What about you?
You're Rae 'cause you're
such a ray of sunshine?
R-A-E.
- Do you mind if I sit?
- No.
What brings you to Billings?
- Various things.
- Ah...
- What about you?
- Oh, I'm from here.
- So is Chrissy B.
- Yeah.
Well, pretty close anyway.
What do you mean?
Oh, she's from the rez, right?
Oh, yeah, I guess.
- Done for the day?
- Mm-hm.
- Cool, you ready to go?
- Yeah.
All right.
What are you guys up to?
We're going for a ride.
Oh, cool.
I didn't realize you had plans.
Yeah, it just, uh...
Just kind of happened.
I was hoping we could
hang out tonight.
Mm. Oh, we can hang out later.
I won't even be gone long.
Did anybody order
this cappuccino?
Oh, my God.
I'm not even like that.
Sorry, I'll...
I'll see you later, all right?
- Bye.
- Bye, Rae.
Bye.
- Have you ridden before?
- No.
You're gonna put your feet on
these back pedals.
- Hold onto me tight.
- All right.
I'm so excited.
- We're closing.
- Yeah.
It's where you eat...
- It's where you eat the tongue.
- No.
It's edible.
- It's true.
- No.
It is.
No.
Hey.
Do I know you?
Yeah, I used to date
your brother.
Oh... right.
What's going on?
You should go in.
Go on.
Whoo!
Welcome.
- This your place?
- Mm-hm.
You know something, don't you?
I don't know what you're
talking about.
For the long road ahead.
Ooooh... Whoa!
Ooh!
Did you see any flyers
on other doors?
Didn't look.
Maybe you should.
You think they're targeting me?
Maybe.
Thought this kind of thing
didn't happen anymore.
None of this has ever gone away.
- Thanks, purple people.
- You betcha.
Do you ever feel like
something's missing?
If I've been away from
my family too long, yeah.
Do you?
Yeah.
All the time.
It's like a dark, dark hole.
What if we moved somewhere?
What do you mean?
Like to a different city?
Aren't you tired of this place?
My ancestors are here.
Yeah. Doesn't mean
you can't leave.
The government wanted us
out of these hills
so they could take the land.
They wanted us to go south
to lump us with
the southern Cheyenne.
But the south made us sick.
They shot us down.
But we ran home.
Whatever.
Let yourself go
Let go
Let's go
Let yourself go
Let go
Let's go
Let yourself go
Let go
Let's go
Let yourself go
Let go
- It's a big deal.
- Yeah. Yeah.
Johnny.
- All right, I'm gonna set you up later.
- Yeah.
- Hi.
- Hi.
Oh, my God,
that took me forever.
I got caught dancing.
That's funny.
Hi. Do you know Johnny?
Hey.
Hey, sorry we're late.
I gotta go.
Rae. What's going on?
Nothing!
Rae.
Rae!
You guys are so cute together.
Have so much fun.
Where are you going?
Now asking
forgiveness for our sins.
Let's pray as our savior
has taught us.
Our Father, who art in heaven,
hallowed be thy name.
Thy kingdom come,
Thy will be done,
on earth as it is in heaven.
Give us this day
our daily bread.
And forgive us our sins,
as we forgive those who
sin against us.
Lead us not into temptation,
but deliver us from evil,
for thine is the kingdom,
and the power,
and the glory, forever.
Amen.
Can I show you something?
What is it?
Just a place I like to go.
What about them?
They'll be all right.
We'll be back in a minute.
Okay.
Exxon.
I like to come out here
and remind myself
what it is I'm doing.
What are you doing?
Setting people free.
Another.
So you're having them young now.
Mind your business, Elaine.
Can't get someone your own age?
It's not like that.
You sure?
Damn it.
Who's your friend?
She was very pretty.
- Let's go.
- Not yet.
She's my wife. My ex wife.
Oh.
Is that why you're
living in a motel?
That's not your
goddamn business.
Sorry.
She left me, so...
I left them.
Them?
Hey, hey, wait.
Hey, come on.
She doesn't get to
ruin your night.
Let's dance.
Come on.
Don't be a doozy.
Come on.
Oh, it's so hard.
- It's time to go to bed.
- No!
Yes, you have to.
Come on, come on.
Okay, good night.
Fuck.
What the fuck are
you doing here?
Good morning to you too.
I was just wondering
if I could get
that book back that
I loaned you.
What book?
It's a Rilke book.
Hi, Johnny.
Hi, Chrissy B.
Are you, uh...
liking the house?
Yeah, it's been great.
Thanks for leaving.
Sure thing.
Thanks.
Hey, um...
I wanted to say I'm sorry.
What about?
I didn't mean for you
to find out about Kelly
that way.
Kelly. It's a cool name.
- Rae.
- What?
How would you have
preferred me to meet her?
I'm trying to be nice.
Oh, I didn't know.
- I should get going.
- Yeah.
Hey, is that... Is that me?
Yeah.
My eyes look kinda Jewish-y.
Don't you think?
What?
You know, like when your eyes
get those big dark circles
under them?
I look kind of like that.
Oh...
Come on, it's a joke, Rae.
- Okay.
- You're supposed to laugh.
All right, tough crowd.
See 'ya.
You okay?
Yeah.
Why would you say that?
Just checking.
I'm fine.
- I thought they'd left.
- Me too.
In the '90s they wanted
Billings to be their home.
Is that what was going on?
Yeah.
- Any arrests yet?
- Not yet.
Things can get
pretty ugly with these guys.
I remember the first time
Johnny and I held hands.
My hand felt like
it was burning.
Like it was feeling too much.
The emptiness is endless.
I love you, Rae.
I love you.
I love you.
I love you.
Are you afraid of me?
Are you afraid of me?
Everything is bigger
and blurrier.
And that is the way I love it.
I am burning.
Rae!
I am on fire.
Rae!
- I'm finally...
- Rae!
And indefinitely free.
How are you doing?
- Is my Mom here?
- Your mom?
Would you like for me
to call her?
Would you like for me
to call somebody?
Is, uh... Is there
an older man around?
Like a man in his 40s?
Just rest for a while.
You had a lot in your system.
When you're ready,
maybe you'd like to
consider some treatment.
We have... We have some brochures
on some addiction facilities
that would welcome you.
You think I'm an addict?
I'm not making a judgment.
You had a lot of OxyContin
in your system,
and it's a very addictive
substance.
We're here to help you in
any way that we can help.
Okay.
Hey.
Hey.
Are you okay?
Rae, what's going on?
I need to go home.
Yeah. Yeah,
of course you should.
I'm bad news, Chrissy.
What are you talking about?
I don't know what I'm doing.
I don't know what's going on.
Hey.
Hey.
You're gonna be okay.
Oh, my God.
You're so beautiful.
- Mom.
- You are.
You've become even more
beautiful since you left.
I doubt that.
Maybe tomorrow
you could come with me
to my art show?
You're having an art show?
Yeah, it's just a little thing.
That's great, Mom.
I'm so glad you're home.
Are you home for good
or just a visit?
I don't know.
I'm really sorry about the mess.
I had to clear out my closet
for Jim.
- Jim?
- My boyfriend.
He lives here. Sometimes.
Oh...
I thought I mentioned that.
Maybe you could just...
move some of these things
out of the way.
It's okay, right?
Yeah, it's fine.
He's really nice.
I hope you and Jim can
get to know each other.
Yeah.
I'm happy for you.
I love you more than anything.
Love you too.
You know,
it was really devastating,
and it impacted me,
and I just felt like
it was really important
to bring awareness
to what happened.
Thanks so much for coming,
you guys.
I really appreciate it.
- Hey.
- Oh, excuse me.
Hey.
- I'm so glad you made it.
- Everything going okay?
- Yeah.
- Yeah?
Yeah. Rae.
Jim, this is my daughter, Rae.
- Hi there, Rae.
- Hi.
So nice to finally meet you.
It's nice...
It's nice to meet you, too.
Your mom talks about you
all the time.
She misses you.
Have you ever read
any of the Bible?
Or like... I would be very happy
to read some passages to you.
Some of my favorites.
Have you guys been walking
this whole neighborhood?
Yes, yes we have.
It really breaks down how
the Bible can be
- so helpful to us...
- Mm-hm.
On all of the questions
that we might have in our lives.
That's okay.
How about you?
Have you read the Bible?
I've heard of it.
Well, the Bible can be
so helpful to us
in our day to day lives.
We're Jewish.
Oh...
Did my mom said that?
No, no she didn't...
She didn't mention it.
It's so interesting to meet you.
Do you... Do you find that
there are many Jews here?
No.
I see.
Well, it is so interesting
to meet you.
Where can I leave
some pamphlets?
Hey, uh, do you think
we could do something
just mean you tonight?
Sure. Like what?
What are you fine ladies up to?
We're just having some pizza.
Come join us.
Oh, that's cool.
I never noticed that before.
It's a Hamsa.
A what's-a?
It's a symbol to help
ward off evil spirits.
- Protection.
- Mm.
It's supposed to be
the hand of God.
Oh, that's rad.
Cool.
Mind if I join, my lady?
Of course, have a seat.
Nice.
- Mm.
- Slow down.
- Hm?
- Don't wanna choke.
Oh, it's fine.
I got a big throat.
What you drinking?
- Whiskey.
- Oh...
Two more whiskies.
- What's the 88 for?
- What?
The 88, what's it for?
H, H, baby!
Like Handsome, handsome?
What, you don't know?
Heil Hitler.
Yeah, right.
What's so funny about that?
You know I'm Jewish.
Don't tell anyone
about this, okay?
- Say you won't tell anyone!
- Leave me alone.
- Say it, okay?
- Get off of me!
Come in.
Wanna go out?
Now?
Sure.
Yes!
Hey, Cinz.
- And what would you like?
- The same.
Hit it again.
I love this song.
Come on.
Come on, don't be a doozy.
Oh, my goodness.
Wow.
No, no, no,
no, no, no, no, no, no.
- Uh-oh.
- Oh, what?
...cheap motel room
Oh, my God!
How the heck are you?
Hanging in there.
Hanging in there.
Having a good night?
Yes, with my daughter.
This is Rae!
Oh, my God, I can't believe it.
- You look like sisters.
- Oh, stop.
Don't you remember Lacey?
You and my son used to play.
Oh...
Oh, and gosh,
that one night we left
you guys by yourself.
Best parenting decision,
right, Mags?
Oh, my God!
- Hey.
- Hey.
Oh, thank you so much
for coming.
Oh, no problem.
I don't know why we
didn't think of this before.
Why are you here?
Oh, honey, you and Handsome
are gonna hang out
for a little while.
Doesn't that sound like fun?
I'll be right back.
Get back?
Mommy's gonna go hang out
with her friends,
and you get to hang out
with your friend.
Doesn't that sound like fun?
I love you more than anything.
Here. I got you another.
Did you leave me?
I always thought
I was just a stupid kid
who did a stupid thing
and I've hated myself for it.
But you left me by myself.
What was I supposed to do?
How could you do that?
How could you?
Rae!
Rae. Stop!
You know this is where
you were conceived?
What?
You were conceived here.
Were you and my dad
on a date or something?
I wanted to have you.
I was really happy to have you.
But I was so young...
and I wasn't ready at all.
My mom was gone.
I was just really alone.
That shouldn't have
happened to you.
I have always wanted
the best for you.
You deserve so much better.
Would you like to
keep this photo?
I noticed you had it
out on your dresser.
Oh...
You're like her, you know.
I am?
Yeah.
You're strong, like her.
That's why I named you
after her.
Do you think you
could add this photo
to the memorial?
Oh, sure, dear.
Oh, she's beautiful.
Are you family?
Yeah.
She's survived the Holocaust.
Oh, really?
Well, you have survivor blood.
I don't know about that.
No, you do.
I can see it.
Do you want to take the tour?
Uh, no, I'm... I'm good.
Thank you.
Oh, come on.
I'm leading the next shift.
It'll be fun.
- Okay.
- Great.
On our way up here,
I think I'll give you
a little bit of information.
Our Lady of the Rockies
sits 90 feet
atop the Continental Divide
at an elevation of 8,510 feet.
Plans to build the statue
began in December of 1979.
People of all walks of life
and every religion
paved the way for
the statue to be built
in the likeness of Mary,
the mother of Jesus.
Our Lady of the Rockies
is entirely nondenominational.
Dedicated by workers
to women everywhere,
especially to mothers.
Thank you so much for joining us
on our way up to
Our Lady of the Rockies.
We hope you enjoy your visit.
That's my husband.
One of America's
top super fun sites,
from the mining days.
Such a tragedy.
Wolf, open up.
I know you're in there.
That's enough, that's enough.
Why are you running
away from me?
I'm not running.
Why did you ignore me
when I saw you?
I didn't see you.
You left me by myself, asshole.
Hey, hey, hey.
I brought you to the hospital.
They were supposed
to take care of you.
Why didn't you stay with me?
I didn't think
you would want me to.
Well, I wanted you to.
You know, you think you're
helping but you're not.
You're enabling.
So we can all
free-fall like you.
Is that what you want?
Just not be so alone.
Is that it?
Don't give me this shit.
Well, it's not fair.
Rae, you don't know what
the fuck you're talking about.
Yeah, you're right.
Don't give me this shit.
Fuck you.
Don't give me this shit!
Took her pants
And her boots
And set out for
Midnight
A twirling tongues...
Your work is really original
Thanks.
Congratulations.
Yeah,
these are truly beautiful.
We're gonna
look around some more.
Yeah, no.
Enjoy yourself.
Oh, my God.
This is amazing.
I'm so proud of you.
Thank you.
Thank you guys so much
for coming.
I'm gonna go look around.
Um...
Can I talk to you for a sec?
Sure.
Tiger asked me to
move in with him.
What?
Wow.
What did you say?
That I wanted to.
Yeah.
I'm really happy for you.
Yeah, right.
No, I am.
I'll visit.
It's not like I'm dying.
I know, I know.
But I'll miss you too.
Yeah.
Will you be okay on your own?
Yeah.
I'll be okay.
Before we begin,
I want to thank everyone
for coming tonight.
Given current events,
I'm sure that decision was
a struggle for some of you.
I'm sure some of you wondered
if you should be here
out of concern and safety.
And I'm sure that for others,
there's nowhere else
that you would rather be.
Regardless of whatever internal
wrestling you went through,
I wish everybody
a Shabbat shalom.
A Shabbat of peace.
For nearly 2,000 years,
Jews have lived in exile.
We've resided in many places,
but many of them have
never truly been homes.
Wherever we go,
for whatever reason,
people decide that we
don't deserve to be there.
I'm proud to be
a resident of Billings,
a city that collectively,
Jew and non-Jew alike,
said no,
we will not tolerate this.
An attack on one of us is
an attack on all of us.
Let us pray for those
whose hearts
are going down
the road to hatred
be turned away,
and to learn to accept others.
And let anyone who
seeks to marginalize
and divide be unsuccessful,
as people here in the synagogue
and in this city
stand up and said
this is not acceptable.
Amen.
May God bless you with all good
and keep you from all evil.
May it be so.
May God enlighten your heart
with immortal wisdom
and grace you with
eternal knowledge.
May it be so.
May God lift up
merciful countenance upon you
for eternal peace.
May it be so.
- Shabbat shalom.
- Shabbat shalom.
I am in a place
where there is fire
and there is rain.
I am in a place
where water does not kill fire.
I want to be here forever.
I can feel the mountains
pressing into the walls.
And the walls pressing into me.
I look up,
and I wonder
what will become of us.
You may think
That you know me
From what meets your eye
Behind every
Perfect picture
They take
Is a world disguised
Once the cloak comes off
Unveiling words inside
I'm gonna reveal myself
Got no reason, no shame
Nothing more to hide
Part of me comes alive
In the darkness of night
Who is she
Who is she
Another part of me died
Since you left me behind
Who is she
Who is she
I'm at your mercy, baby
Can't get enough
Of your love
If you keep holding back
It will take over
Take over you
I'm waking up to you
The sun is breaking through
Light washes over you
I'm watching over you
Who am I
Who am I
Who am I
Who am I
Watch me shed my shell
I'm gonna show myself
Ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh
Ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh
Watch me shed myself
And become someone else
Ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh
Ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh
Watch me shed my shell
I'm gonna show myself
Ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh
Ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh
Watch me shed myself
And become someone else
Ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh
Ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh
Ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh
Ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh
I raise my arms
and I am like a scarecrow.
1492.
1492?
Then when did Columbus
discover America?
And the blankets,
like the fields
burning at my feet.
- 1776.
- Wrong again!
I do not scream.
I do not feel heat.
I'm not old enough
to know what to do.
And so I stand there and
wonder what is happening.
If I was hot before,
I'm not any longer.
Instead, I am very, very cold.
Excuse me.
It's worse than
I thought it'd be.
Yeah, I know.
Hey, another round.
You girls need a drink?
Uh... that's okay.
Okay?
Do you want a drink?
No. Thanks, though.
Oh, you sure are welcome.
- You girls are pretty.
- Thanks.
- Can I buy you a drink?
- No, thanks.
How about you?
Do you wanna go?
What? Is it something I did?
I'm just trying to be nice.
You were so nice.
Thank you.
Guys can't be nice anymore?
No, but we gotta
take it back to '05 view.
'05. People want it.
- They want it.
- Uh, uh, uh, uh, uh, oh, oh!
Yes!
What!
And walk, and walk, and pose.
Shine, shine.
Keeping 'em straight.
Keep them straight.
- We should go.
- I know.
I know.
I got you.
Hey!
Go back to your country!
Hey!
Hey!
This is my country!
Go back to yours, you fucker!
Well, look who it is.
Hey you.
- Are you off soon?
- I am.
It's just gonna be
a couple more minutes.
Wanna go for a ride?
- On the house.
- Thank you.
Is that your roommate
over there?
Yeah.
- Hey.
- Hey.
I was at your house
the other night.
I remember.
- What's your name again?
- Tiger.
- And you are?
- Rae.
Rae.
What's that, some kind
of nickname, Tiger?
Yeah. What about you?
You're Rae 'cause you're
such a ray of sunshine?
R-A-E.
- Do you mind if I sit?
- No.
What brings you to Billings?
- Various things.
- Ah...
- What about you?
- Oh, I'm from here.
- So is Chrissy B.
- Yeah.
Well, pretty close anyway.
What do you mean?
Oh, she's from the rez, right?
Oh, yeah, I guess.
- Done for the day?
- Mm-hm.
- Cool, you ready to go?
- Yeah.
All right.
What are you guys up to?
We're going for a ride.
Oh, cool.
I didn't realize you had plans.
Yeah, it just, uh...
Just kind of happened.
I was hoping we could
hang out tonight.
Mm. Oh, we can hang out later.
I won't even be gone long.
Did anybody order
this cappuccino?
Oh, my God.
I'm not even like that.
Sorry, I'll...
I'll see you later, all right?
- Bye.
- Bye, Rae.
Bye.
- Have you ridden before?
- No.
You're gonna put your feet on
these back pedals.
- Hold onto me tight.
- All right.
I'm so excited.
- We're closing.
- Yeah.
It's where you eat...
- It's where you eat the tongue.
- No.
It's edible.
- It's true.
- No.
It is.
No.
Hey.
Do I know you?
Yeah, I used to date
your brother.
Oh... right.
What's going on?
You should go in.
Go on.
Whoo!
Welcome.
- This your place?
- Mm-hm.
You know something, don't you?
I don't know what you're
talking about.
For the long road ahead.
Ooooh... Whoa!
Ooh!
Did you see any flyers
on other doors?
Didn't look.
Maybe you should.
You think they're targeting me?
Maybe.
Thought this kind of thing
didn't happen anymore.
None of this has ever gone away.
- Thanks, purple people.
- You betcha.
Do you ever feel like
something's missing?
If I've been away from
my family too long, yeah.
Do you?
Yeah.
All the time.
It's like a dark, dark hole.
What if we moved somewhere?
What do you mean?
Like to a different city?
Aren't you tired of this place?
My ancestors are here.
Yeah. Doesn't mean
you can't leave.
The government wanted us
out of these hills
so they could take the land.
They wanted us to go south
to lump us with
the southern Cheyenne.
But the south made us sick.
They shot us down.
But we ran home.
Whatever.
Let yourself go
Let go
Let's go
Let yourself go
Let go
Let's go
Let yourself go
Let go
Let's go
Let yourself go
Let go
- It's a big deal.
- Yeah. Yeah.
Johnny.
- All right, I'm gonna set you up later.
- Yeah.
- Hi.
- Hi.
Oh, my God,
that took me forever.
I got caught dancing.
That's funny.
Hi. Do you know Johnny?
Hey.
Hey, sorry we're late.
I gotta go.
Rae. What's going on?
Nothing!
Rae.
Rae!
You guys are so cute together.
Have so much fun.
Where are you going?
Now asking
forgiveness for our sins.
Let's pray as our savior
has taught us.
Our Father, who art in heaven,
hallowed be thy name.
Thy kingdom come,
Thy will be done,
on earth as it is in heaven.
Give us this day
our daily bread.
And forgive us our sins,
as we forgive those who
sin against us.
Lead us not into temptation,
but deliver us from evil,
for thine is the kingdom,
and the power,
and the glory, forever.
Amen.
Can I show you something?
What is it?
Just a place I like to go.
What about them?
They'll be all right.
We'll be back in a minute.
Okay.
Exxon.
I like to come out here
and remind myself
what it is I'm doing.
What are you doing?
Setting people free.
Another.
So you're having them young now.
Mind your business, Elaine.
Can't get someone your own age?
It's not like that.
You sure?
Damn it.
Who's your friend?
She was very pretty.
- Let's go.
- Not yet.
She's my wife. My ex wife.
Oh.
Is that why you're
living in a motel?
That's not your
goddamn business.
Sorry.
She left me, so...
I left them.
Them?
Hey, hey, wait.
Hey, come on.
She doesn't get to
ruin your night.
Let's dance.
Come on.
Don't be a doozy.
Come on.
Oh, it's so hard.
- It's time to go to bed.
- No!
Yes, you have to.
Come on, come on.
Okay, good night.
Fuck.
What the fuck are
you doing here?
Good morning to you too.
I was just wondering
if I could get
that book back that
I loaned you.
What book?
It's a Rilke book.
Hi, Johnny.
Hi, Chrissy B.
Are you, uh...
liking the house?
Yeah, it's been great.
Thanks for leaving.
Sure thing.
Thanks.
Hey, um...
I wanted to say I'm sorry.
What about?
I didn't mean for you
to find out about Kelly
that way.
Kelly. It's a cool name.
- Rae.
- What?
How would you have
preferred me to meet her?
I'm trying to be nice.
Oh, I didn't know.
- I should get going.
- Yeah.
Hey, is that... Is that me?
Yeah.
My eyes look kinda Jewish-y.
Don't you think?
What?
You know, like when your eyes
get those big dark circles
under them?
I look kind of like that.
Oh...
Come on, it's a joke, Rae.
- Okay.
- You're supposed to laugh.
All right, tough crowd.
See 'ya.
You okay?
Yeah.
Why would you say that?
Just checking.
I'm fine.
- I thought they'd left.
- Me too.
In the '90s they wanted
Billings to be their home.
Is that what was going on?
Yeah.
- Any arrests yet?
- Not yet.
Things can get
pretty ugly with these guys.
I remember the first time
Johnny and I held hands.
My hand felt like
it was burning.
Like it was feeling too much.
The emptiness is endless.
I love you, Rae.
I love you.
I love you.
I love you.
Are you afraid of me?
Are you afraid of me?
Everything is bigger
and blurrier.
And that is the way I love it.
I am burning.
Rae!
I am on fire.
Rae!
- I'm finally...
- Rae!
And indefinitely free.
How are you doing?
- Is my Mom here?
- Your mom?
Would you like for me
to call her?
Would you like for me
to call somebody?
Is, uh... Is there
an older man around?
Like a man in his 40s?
Just rest for a while.
You had a lot in your system.
When you're ready,
maybe you'd like to
consider some treatment.
We have... We have some brochures
on some addiction facilities
that would welcome you.
You think I'm an addict?
I'm not making a judgment.
You had a lot of OxyContin
in your system,
and it's a very addictive
substance.
We're here to help you in
any way that we can help.
Okay.
Hey.
Hey.
Are you okay?
Rae, what's going on?
I need to go home.
Yeah. Yeah,
of course you should.
I'm bad news, Chrissy.
What are you talking about?
I don't know what I'm doing.
I don't know what's going on.
Hey.
Hey.
You're gonna be okay.
Oh, my God.
You're so beautiful.
- Mom.
- You are.
You've become even more
beautiful since you left.
I doubt that.
Maybe tomorrow
you could come with me
to my art show?
You're having an art show?
Yeah, it's just a little thing.
That's great, Mom.
I'm so glad you're home.
Are you home for good
or just a visit?
I don't know.
I'm really sorry about the mess.
I had to clear out my closet
for Jim.
- Jim?
- My boyfriend.
He lives here. Sometimes.
Oh...
I thought I mentioned that.
Maybe you could just...
move some of these things
out of the way.
It's okay, right?
Yeah, it's fine.
He's really nice.
I hope you and Jim can
get to know each other.
Yeah.
I'm happy for you.
I love you more than anything.
Love you too.
You know,
it was really devastating,
and it impacted me,
and I just felt like
it was really important
to bring awareness
to what happened.
Thanks so much for coming,
you guys.
I really appreciate it.
- Hey.
- Oh, excuse me.
Hey.
- I'm so glad you made it.
- Everything going okay?
- Yeah.
- Yeah?
Yeah. Rae.
Jim, this is my daughter, Rae.
- Hi there, Rae.
- Hi.
So nice to finally meet you.
It's nice...
It's nice to meet you, too.
Your mom talks about you
all the time.
She misses you.
Have you ever read
any of the Bible?
Or like... I would be very happy
to read some passages to you.
Some of my favorites.
Have you guys been walking
this whole neighborhood?
Yes, yes we have.
It really breaks down how
the Bible can be
- so helpful to us...
- Mm-hm.
On all of the questions
that we might have in our lives.
That's okay.
How about you?
Have you read the Bible?
I've heard of it.
Well, the Bible can be
so helpful to us
in our day to day lives.
We're Jewish.
Oh...
Did my mom said that?
No, no she didn't...
She didn't mention it.
It's so interesting to meet you.
Do you... Do you find that
there are many Jews here?
No.
I see.
Well, it is so interesting
to meet you.
Where can I leave
some pamphlets?
Hey, uh, do you think
we could do something
just mean you tonight?
Sure. Like what?
What are you fine ladies up to?
We're just having some pizza.
Come join us.
Oh, that's cool.
I never noticed that before.
It's a Hamsa.
A what's-a?
It's a symbol to help
ward off evil spirits.
- Protection.
- Mm.
It's supposed to be
the hand of God.
Oh, that's rad.
Cool.
Mind if I join, my lady?
Of course, have a seat.
Nice.
- Mm.
- Slow down.
- Hm?
- Don't wanna choke.
Oh, it's fine.
I got a big throat.
What you drinking?
- Whiskey.
- Oh...
Two more whiskies.
- What's the 88 for?
- What?
The 88, what's it for?
H, H, baby!
Like Handsome, handsome?
What, you don't know?
Heil Hitler.
Yeah, right.
What's so funny about that?
You know I'm Jewish.
Don't tell anyone
about this, okay?
- Say you won't tell anyone!
- Leave me alone.
- Say it, okay?
- Get off of me!
Come in.
Wanna go out?
Now?
Sure.
Yes!
Hey, Cinz.
- And what would you like?
- The same.
Hit it again.
I love this song.
Come on.
Come on, don't be a doozy.
Oh, my goodness.
Wow.
No, no, no,
no, no, no, no, no, no.
- Uh-oh.
- Oh, what?
...cheap motel room
Oh, my God!
How the heck are you?
Hanging in there.
Hanging in there.
Having a good night?
Yes, with my daughter.
This is Rae!
Oh, my God, I can't believe it.
- You look like sisters.
- Oh, stop.
Don't you remember Lacey?
You and my son used to play.
Oh...
Oh, and gosh,
that one night we left
you guys by yourself.
Best parenting decision,
right, Mags?
Oh, my God!
- Hey.
- Hey.
Oh, thank you so much
for coming.
Oh, no problem.
I don't know why we
didn't think of this before.
Why are you here?
Oh, honey, you and Handsome
are gonna hang out
for a little while.
Doesn't that sound like fun?
I'll be right back.
Get back?
Mommy's gonna go hang out
with her friends,
and you get to hang out
with your friend.
Doesn't that sound like fun?
I love you more than anything.
Here. I got you another.
Did you leave me?
I always thought
I was just a stupid kid
who did a stupid thing
and I've hated myself for it.
But you left me by myself.
What was I supposed to do?
How could you do that?
How could you?
Rae!
Rae. Stop!
You know this is where
you were conceived?
What?
You were conceived here.
Were you and my dad
on a date or something?
I wanted to have you.
I was really happy to have you.
But I was so young...
and I wasn't ready at all.
My mom was gone.
I was just really alone.
That shouldn't have
happened to you.
I have always wanted
the best for you.
You deserve so much better.
Would you like to
keep this photo?
I noticed you had it
out on your dresser.
Oh...
You're like her, you know.
I am?
Yeah.
You're strong, like her.
That's why I named you
after her.
Do you think you
could add this photo
to the memorial?
Oh, sure, dear.
Oh, she's beautiful.
Are you family?
Yeah.
She's survived the Holocaust.
Oh, really?
Well, you have survivor blood.
I don't know about that.
No, you do.
I can see it.
Do you want to take the tour?
Uh, no, I'm... I'm good.
Thank you.
Oh, come on.
I'm leading the next shift.
It'll be fun.
- Okay.
- Great.
On our way up here,
I think I'll give you
a little bit of information.
Our Lady of the Rockies
sits 90 feet
atop the Continental Divide
at an elevation of 8,510 feet.
Plans to build the statue
began in December of 1979.
People of all walks of life
and every religion
paved the way for
the statue to be built
in the likeness of Mary,
the mother of Jesus.
Our Lady of the Rockies
is entirely nondenominational.
Dedicated by workers
to women everywhere,
especially to mothers.
Thank you so much for joining us
on our way up to
Our Lady of the Rockies.
We hope you enjoy your visit.
That's my husband.
One of America's
top super fun sites,
from the mining days.
Such a tragedy.
Wolf, open up.
I know you're in there.
That's enough, that's enough.
Why are you running
away from me?
I'm not running.
Why did you ignore me
when I saw you?
I didn't see you.
You left me by myself, asshole.
Hey, hey, hey.
I brought you to the hospital.
They were supposed
to take care of you.
Why didn't you stay with me?
I didn't think
you would want me to.
Well, I wanted you to.
You know, you think you're
helping but you're not.
You're enabling.
So we can all
free-fall like you.
Is that what you want?
Just not be so alone.
Is that it?
Don't give me this shit.
Well, it's not fair.
Rae, you don't know what
the fuck you're talking about.
Yeah, you're right.
Don't give me this shit.
Fuck you.
Don't give me this shit!
Took her pants
And her boots
And set out for
Midnight
A twirling tongues...
Your work is really original
Thanks.
Congratulations.
Yeah,
these are truly beautiful.
We're gonna
look around some more.
Yeah, no.
Enjoy yourself.
Oh, my God.
This is amazing.
I'm so proud of you.
Thank you.
Thank you guys so much
for coming.
I'm gonna go look around.
Um...
Can I talk to you for a sec?
Sure.
Tiger asked me to
move in with him.
What?
Wow.
What did you say?
That I wanted to.
Yeah.
I'm really happy for you.
Yeah, right.
No, I am.
I'll visit.
It's not like I'm dying.
I know, I know.
But I'll miss you too.
Yeah.
Will you be okay on your own?
Yeah.
I'll be okay.
Before we begin,
I want to thank everyone
for coming tonight.
Given current events,
I'm sure that decision was
a struggle for some of you.
I'm sure some of you wondered
if you should be here
out of concern and safety.
And I'm sure that for others,
there's nowhere else
that you would rather be.
Regardless of whatever internal
wrestling you went through,
I wish everybody
a Shabbat shalom.
A Shabbat of peace.
For nearly 2,000 years,
Jews have lived in exile.
We've resided in many places,
but many of them have
never truly been homes.
Wherever we go,
for whatever reason,
people decide that we
don't deserve to be there.
I'm proud to be
a resident of Billings,
a city that collectively,
Jew and non-Jew alike,
said no,
we will not tolerate this.
An attack on one of us is
an attack on all of us.
Let us pray for those
whose hearts
are going down
the road to hatred
be turned away,
and to learn to accept others.
And let anyone who
seeks to marginalize
and divide be unsuccessful,
as people here in the synagogue
and in this city
stand up and said
this is not acceptable.
Amen.
May God bless you with all good
and keep you from all evil.
May it be so.
May God enlighten your heart
with immortal wisdom
and grace you with
eternal knowledge.
May it be so.
May God lift up
merciful countenance upon you
for eternal peace.
May it be so.
- Shabbat shalom.
- Shabbat shalom.
I am in a place
where there is fire
and there is rain.
I am in a place
where water does not kill fire.
I want to be here forever.
I can feel the mountains
pressing into the walls.
And the walls pressing into me.
I look up,
and I wonder
what will become of us.
You may think
That you know me
From what meets your eye
Behind every
Perfect picture
They take
Is a world disguised
Once the cloak comes off
Unveiling words inside
I'm gonna reveal myself
Got no reason, no shame
Nothing more to hide
Part of me comes alive
In the darkness of night
Who is she
Who is she
Another part of me died
Since you left me behind
Who is she
Who is she
I'm at your mercy, baby
Can't get enough
Of your love
If you keep holding back
It will take over
Take over you
I'm waking up to you
The sun is breaking through
Light washes over you
I'm watching over you
Who am I
Who am I
Who am I
Who am I
Watch me shed my shell
I'm gonna show myself
Ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh
Ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh
Watch me shed myself
And become someone else
Ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh
Ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh
Watch me shed my shell
I'm gonna show myself
Ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh
Ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh
Watch me shed myself
And become someone else
Ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh
Ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh
Ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh
Ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh