You & I (2023) Movie Script
1
[theme music comes up
with sound of gushing water]
[sounds of waterfall]
Have you been up to the job site?
I honestly don't think
Tuesday is an option.
I think if we don't get
it out there Monday...
So do you want to say
Monday at noon?
I love it.
Okay, have a great weekend.
Thank you.
[whistling]
[sounds of nearby traffic]
Hello!
- Hey.
- Hey.
Here I am.
I'm so happy you're here.
Oh my God,
I'm so happy to be here.
How are you?
- Hello.
- So good to see you.
Thank you. Thank you. Thank you.
You got here quick.
I did get here quick. Yes!
Look at all this green
with your eyes.
I know. Look at this!
You know, integrating
a little color in my life.
- I'm happy you're here.
- Thank you, I'm happy to be here.
I got a bar full of drinks.
Ahh...
I'm alright.
- Are you sure?
- Yeah, I'm good.
Are you hanging out with just
Chester and Sandra tonight?
- Yeah, just hanging out.
- Happy Birthday...
- Yes!
- To You!
Who is that?
Oh, I had no idea.
Hey, buddy.
- Happy to see you.
- Thank you.
Hey, Sara.
Hey, Joseph.
- Hello.
- Hello.
- What are you doing out here?
- Ohh...
I came to give birthday wishes.
When'd you get...?
Just get in town?
I did. Good job, yep.
I can be observant sometimes.
Sometimes.
[laughter]
Sometimes.
You wanna drink, bud?
I'm okay,
I'm just dropping that off.
So you're here for the
birthday weekend?
Of course, I wouldn't miss it!
Well, you only turn 21 once, so?
[laughter]
But it's true.
- That's true.
- That's right.
- Yeah.
- Uh-Hmm.
So what's on the docket?
We have our spa day tomorrow.
So just catching up.
- Girl time.
- Uh huh.
Uh huh. Uh huh.
Yep.
But for now,
can I have the keys?
- I need to get going.
- Oh yeah.
How about after your spa day,
we all meet up back here,
for drinks on me?
- A little catch up, a little fun?
- We could do that.
Were you still coming up
to the house tomorrow?
I am.
I am.
You guys could come up
to the Treehouse tomorrow?
- After you finish the spa?
- Ohhh.
Hang out?
Here you go.
- Have a couple drinks?
- Ahhmm...
Ahh...
- You do have good liquor.
- It's birthday girl, you know.
Whatever you want,
I'm here for you.
I mean, it's your birthday,
but can we just...?
I like the Treehouse.
Okay.
Those cupcakes are
for your parents.
Thank you.
If they make it there.
So, yeah, tomorrow we're good?
- Yeah.
- Sure.
- Why not?
- Yeah.
Let me walk you out.
Okay. Thanks.
Happy Birthday!
Thank you.
- Call me.
- I will.
Okay.
- See you tomorrow.
- See you, buddy.
Guess we will see them tomorrow.
[door slamming shut]
[sounds of passing cars]
[car unlocking]
There it is.
Traveling light these days.
I am.
Short trip?
Just the weekend.
Will you put these back there?
- Yeah.
- Thank you.
[car door]
Wanna grab a drink later?
Mmm...
How many?
Three?
- Two and a half?
- I'm going to my parents.
How they doing?
They're doing good.
You know, together, making it work.
- Still up in Powell?
- Yeah, still up in Powell.
I'm sure they'll be happy to see you.
Well, of course.
You know, one meal
is easier than a buffet of guilt.
[laughing]
- I know that.
- Uh-huh.
Your number the same?
Maybe.
- Ends in?
- 911...
It's a joke, Joseph, it's a joke.
Funny.
Yeah, hasn't changed.
- Tell your Mom I said "Hi."
- Oh, she'll love it.
[car door closing, ignition]
[iPhone ding]
[car accelerating]
[car door opens, powers off]
Sara, honey, come on!
Dinner's getting cold.
Alright.
Alright.
[ringing]
How's your trip?
It's going good.
Here, hanging out in Knoxville.
Saw the folks.
Saw Misty.
Getting to spend
some time with her...
And you know,
Nashville on Monday.
Sweet.
So can we talk about
Sonny Kay for a minute?
Talk to me. Absolutely.
What do you think?
Man, you were so on point.
He completely gets it.
I thought you'd be a good match.
I mean he's the real deal.
Sonny Fucking Kay
doing my album cover.
Doing yours.
Yo!
Thumbs up.
I can move forward.
Thank you so much.
I appreciate you.
Thank you and...
I'll talk to you after Nashville.
Sounds good.
See how it goes.
Alright, I'll talk to you soon.
Alright.
Bye! Love you!
Love you too.
[theme music comes up softly]
[iPhone ding]
[closing box]
[theme music fades out]
[cars driving past]
[birds chirping]
- Pretty, isn't she?
- Looks amazing.
Brined it last night.
Emma with Cynthia
this weekend? Is that...?
Yeah, it's her turn.
How is the little princess?
She's good.
The other day she asked me...
Why don't I live
with her and Mommy?
Shit, what'd you say?
I didn't know what to say.
I just told her that...
Mom and Dads don't
always live together.
Damn dude, I guess...
I guess that's all
you could say, you know?
I just realized
I don't know if she remembers
when we all lived
in the same house.
Maybe...
Maybe that's a good thing,
you know?
Hand me those lemons.
So...
did you just forget to tell me
that Sara was coming into town?
Or do you enjoy...
surprising the absolute
shit out of me?
No, I didn't forget as much as
I just didn't think about it...
But uh...
Cmon, you still think about her.
C'mon.
Buddy, I think about
a lot of things.
I did not handle
that situation well.
Ahh, it's all water
under the bridge, dude.
I love you assume
there's a bridge.
Even over crazy water,
you can put a bridge anywhere.
You know, maybe it'll be good,
us all hanging out.
The four of us like we use to.
Oh, I don't know about all that.
I think we both know
it won't be like it used to.
Alright, flip 'em over.
- Alright.
- Shake them out.
- Will you zhuzh em?
- Yes.
Do they even make
hot rollers anymore?
Okay, as a Southern woman,
that's sacrilegious.
What, I don't know!
- Yes, they still make...
- You've had these a long time.
Crazy.
- Flip 'em?
- Yes, flip.
Okay.
Woah Misty, this is poofy.
Don't touch it.
- It way too poofy.
- It's gonna fall. Look.
I can't see.
- Can't see 'cause my hair's too big.
- Stop. Don't.
It's gonna fall out.
Okay.
Alright, I'm gonna go
pick out your outfit.
Don't touch your hair.
You don't have much
to choose from.
I didn't bring much.
It looks a little different.
- I mean...
- Does it?
- I mean it's how I remember it.
- Un-huh,
- You know what I just realized?
- What?
I wasn't here during the day much.
Well, you are now.
- I sure am.
- Yup.
Here we are.
Let's just have fun.
- Oh, we're gonna have fun.
- Yep.
- No, stop!
- What?
I told you, it's gonna fall.
- Oh, come on, it's too poofy.
- You always fucking do this.
It tickles my neck.
It tickles my neck.
- You should just shave your head.
- Well, maybe I will.
Do you think it'd look good?
I think you could rock
a shaved head actually.
I'll leave these little things down.
How's that? Is that a compromise?
- Yes.
- Okay, fine.
Here we go.
Let's do this.
[sighing]
[car door shutting]
[car door shutting]
- Where you going?
- Just going to look around.
Okay.
[theme music comes up]
[sounds of nature]
- Hey!
- There you are.
I brought cupcakes.
Excellent.
Can I be bartender?
Sure, make yourself at home.
You shouldn't have said that!
I'm choosing shots.
- Thank God.
- We're getting it started right.
[theme music playing stronger]
What have you guys been doing?
- Hanging out?
- Hanging out.
- Sara, we're doing shots.
- Oh, okay.
- Well hello, Miss Sara.
- Hello.
I feel nervous,
you guys watching me do this.
Good grief.
Obviously.
Okay.
- Ladies first.
- Of course.
Thank you. Thank you.
There we go.
Couldn't get any more in there?
Jesus, I hope you got
another bottle.
Can I do the honors?
- Of course.
- Go for it.
To my beautiful wife, Misty.
Here, here.
- On her birthday.
- Mmm.
Alright!
Wait, second, second.
It was shots that
brought us together,
may they never pull us apart
as we go asunder.
- Asunder?
- Asunder.
- Wow!
- I'll drink to that!
Well done.
Asunder.
- Ooh.
- Ugh.
It's the double swallow.
Yeah.
It's a big shot.
- I'm taking this in here.
- Misty.
- There's gonna be more shots...
- Who wants wine?
- Yeah?
- I wanted something from the cellar.
Yes, yes, yes.
- Red or white?
- Surprise us.
Red.
Red, yep.
Uh-huh.
So you redid the kitchen.
I did.
Looks nice.
- Thank you.
- Very open.
Yeah, I thought of taking
this whole wall out.
- Kind of open it up some.
- Well, that'll do it.
Got rid of that door,
swinging door?
Swinging door had to go.
Swing on outta here?
Yeah, I couldn't find a way to
incorporate it into the design.
Oh, okay.
- Doctor.
- Plates.
Hello. Hello.
- This is delicious.
- You like that?
- You put this together?
You know I put it together.
I had nothing to do with it.
I remember you wearing a dress.
I wear a lot of dresses.
Wearing one right now.
-[Misty] You remember my cousin
wearing a dress.
Yes, but it was with this dude
and they were dancing around.
What are you talking about?
At your wedding?
The last time we all hung out.
- Oh yeah.
- Yes!
- Oh, that dress!
- And there was some dude.
Miss Misty, your wife,
picked that out.
I'm glad that dress is burned
into your memory because I chose it.
I mean it was your wedding night
and you're more worried
about what she's wearing?
That's alright.
I wasn't worried, it just stood out
because of you and
that guy were dancing
like it was, you know,
you were in Havana, Cuba.
It was incredible.
They were making out
like their plane was going down.
That is not true!
That is not true at all.
We were not making out at all.
That's ridiculous.
And his name was something like exotic
and like romantic
or something like
Ferdinand?
Was it Ferdinand?
No, it was like Flip...
- Flipper?
- Try again.
You're almost there.
Wait, here, let me help you, Mark.
- Mark?
- I remember his name.
Let me help you.
Ready, ready?
Phildago?
- Fuh...
- Like...
- Fuck You.
- Okay.
- There it is.
- You know what?
[laughter]
- Felipe.
- How is Felipe?
- I don't know. I mean,
he didn't flip my trigger,
so I don't really
give a shit how he's doing.
[collective moan]
But now he's married
to Francesca,
and they live in a
brownstone in Park Slope.
Beautiful backyard.
- Cheers to motherfucking Felipe.
- Cheers to Felipe.
I'm not toasting Pilaf.
Why not?
Nope.
- That guy was hot.
- Why not?
He was alright.
Who should we "cheers to"?
Who's flipping your trigger
these days?
Ahhh...
I keep the safety on these days.
Oh.
[giggling]
- That's clever.
- Playing it safe.
Wise man.
- Guys, hang on a minute.
- Play it safe.
That's gonna be on a plaque somewhere:
"I keep the safety on these days."
That'll be on my tombstone.
- That's another good T-shirt, Misty.
- Hello.
We can add it to your new line.
- Selling T-shirts in a tourist destination.
- Yeah.
- No, dude.
- Is gonna be me in my next life.
No big deal, man
I didn't know if that meant
what you are transitioning to another life.
No, take care of it.
I'll be there in just a minute.
You know if this bakery thing...
I see myself selling
shell necklaces, like in Fiji.
- Puka shells?
- Yeah.
- What's going on?
- Gang, I'm sorry but this is weird.
But we gotta go because
Freddy's mom's in Bristol,
in the hospital.
Yeah, she's sick or something.
- I gotta go.
- You gotta leave now?
- I gotta maintain the empire gang.
- Oh, buddy!
I got to keep this train rolling.
Hey, duty calls.
You want me to box up
some of this fish for you?
No, I'll clean up.
I'll bring you the car tomorrow.
Give me the keys.
Hey Sara, it's up to you
for our next reunion.
Okay, where you want me to do it at?
Hey, wherever you want.
How about a funeral?
That is so... No!
- Cheaper than a wedding.
- I'm not doing it.
Yeah, I'm right behind you.
- I can just...
- I have to.
- Give me the keys.
- You know what I mean.
It'll be okay.
- Here.
- Just call me.
Alright.
Keep me updated.
Alright, guys!
[sound of door closing]
[sighing]
Oh, don't worry about that.
It's alright, it's not much.
- I'll take it.
- Oh, thank you.
I can't believe,
how much the place has changed.
Done quite a lot.
Yeah, I thought about...
I thought about doing a lot more,
but I'm in no rush right now.
Why not?
It's just me up here
for the most part.
Yeah.
Yeah, Emma comes up
every now and then.
UH-oh, you think I can do this?
Ehh, I would not do that.
- But I can.
- Yeah.
What do y'all do
when you come up here?
Ahhh, I mean...
she just likes running around.
I think for her,
she might be the only person that
appreciates the actual
treehouse aspect as much as I do.
Oh, yeah?
Yeah.
You know,
Mom was living up here for a while.
- Yeah.
- Uh-huh.
She told me.
You talked to Mom?
Yeah, you know.
She'd write me
every once in a while.
Keep in touch.
She enjoying independent living?
Yes, the Queen of Independent Living.
[giggles]
She's got her "Gin Rummy" girls,
which is more Gin and less Rummy.
- Oh yeah?
- Mm-mm.
- I'm not surprised.
- Mm-mm.
Always a classy lady.
[soft laughter]
You don't have to worry
with all this stuff.
- It's okay.
- I'll take care of it in the morning.
I also remember the rules:
"Leave no trace."
Right?
They left the cupcakes.
- They did?
- They did.
Looks like you got...
Looks like you got
breakfast tomorrow.
Come on.
You don't still have a sweet tooth?
We've got "Peanut Butter,"
- "Chocolate Chocolate,"
- Uh-huh.
"Classic,"
"Yellow with Chocolate Icing,"
And that's looks like maybe,
"Chocolate Mint" and "Black and White."
Maybe?
Which one do you want?
- Oh, yeah?
- "Plain."
I'll match your "Plain."
- So Nashville.
- Un-huh.
- So Nashville.
- How long you up there?
What?
How long you up there?
Just Monday. Leave Tuesday.
All work?
All work.
What's that entail?
Hmm...
These are very chewy cupcakes.
It means, I have some sessions
with musicians,
which means that they come in,
they play for me,
and I listen and I just try to like,
you know, see if they'll match
with some of my clients.
But to be honest,
I'm just kind of checking their level
of crazy cake.
I can't eat all this cupcake.
Very rich.
They're very rich cupcakes.
Un-huh.
- But good.
- Yeah.
Un-huh.
They are good.
What have you been doing?
Same old.
- Same old?
- Hmm-mm
What's the "same old"
in Joseph's world?
Just finished
the tiger exhibit at the zoo.
- The tiger exhibit?
- Hm-hm.
- Okay.
- Ah-hm.
Learning a lot about tigers.
- Yeah?
- Yep.
Like what?
You know... their behaviors and...
habits and...
They need lots of space to roam but
little cubbies to hide.
Don't we all?
Maybe I should live in a zoo,
it sounds pretty good.
You kinda do.
New York, big open space,
but you've got your tiny, little
apartment to go hide in at night.
- I do.
- Un-huh.
It's not that tiny.
Do you miss home?
[water running in sink]
Sometimes.
[dishes clinking]
You gotta miss the mountains.
I do.
Do you go a lot?
I take Emma up
to the falls sometimes.
- Oh yeah?
- Mm-hmm.
She like it there?
She likes playing in the water.
- Oh, yeah?
- Mm-hmm.
Who doesn't?
I can remember someone
who was terrified
to go in the water.
Oh yeah?
Who is that?
If I remember correctly,
I had to carry you into the water.
You did.
Mm-hmm.
I couldn't see my feet.
- Right.
- Got scared.
Right, right.
Always scared of the unknown.
- Sometimes.
- Un-hmm.
Sometimes.
I remember some other things
we used to do.
Oh yeah?
What other things?
We used to do a lot of things, Joseph.
We used to dance.
We did use to dance.
- Un-huh...
- Mm-hmm.
You wanna dance with me?
Hmmm...
I don't really hear any music.
[whispering]
That never mattered before.
You got me there.
Do you need music, now?
No.
Do you remember how to dance?
Well...
There's two different kinds of dancing.
Okay, what's one?
Well, there's what you and I
used to call dancing.
And then there's
what everyone else
calls "dancing."
- Mm-hmm.
- Un-huh.
- Mm-hmm.
- Un-huh.
We gonna do our kind of dancing?
Is that the kind you wanna do?
Dance however you want.
However I want?
You'd better be careful with that.
[kissing]
[sighing]
[whispering]
I need you.
Whoa, whoa, un-unh.
Nope...
- I can't do this, Joseph.
- Hey, what are you doing?
What the fuck!
Look, I'm sorry.
We just got carried away.
What do you think
we're going to do here?
We're gonna fuck for old time's sake?
C'mon!
We've never had sex before,
- so why would I think ...?
- I know we haven't had sex...
That's right!
I wouldn't fuck you, that's right.
- Let me clarify something.
- I'm not trying to say that.
Let me clarify!
There was never a "we"...
We never fucked?
What was the "we"?
Come on!
There was a "you".
And then there was "me" when you
just needed a little entertainment.
- What entertainment?
- Yeah!
I never cared what
we did or did not do.
- And if I recall...
- Really?
- If I recall...
- Yeah?
We both enjoyed what I did do.
That's classy, real fucking classy.
And an "old time sake's fuck"
isn't classy?
You're the one that got up
on the counter.
I didn't put you there.
You just have this...
this way of...
putting me in this situation
where you just
lure me into these moments of...
- I've never taken advantage of you.
- I didn't say you did.
No, you didn't take advantage.
Stop it...
So don't say I lured you in there
like I'm some predator.
You are not a fucking predator!
- I didn't say you took advantage...
- I know that I'm not.
I know you're not either.
It's just the wrong word, I'm sorry.
It's just... you all...
[sighing]
What?
Because you're holding me accountable
for breaking rules
that I didn't even know existed.
It's not about rules, Joseph.
Then what's it about?
Say it.
Why do you randomly call me?
Why?
Why do you do that?
Why do you just...
send me pictures,
text message pictures
of the waterfalls?
No words, just like,
"Here you go. Remember this?"
Because I thought you would like
to see a photo from home.
Why?
Why not?
I figured maybe you'd like to see
something from back home.
I don't know.
Why would I want
to remember all that?
Do you not think about
how that makes me feel?
To remember all that?
Why is it like,
when you see me
on the holidays here,
I'm downtown
just shopping with my mom,
you gotta run across
four lanes of traffic to say hello.
So now you're upset because
I say hello to you
and your mother at the holiday.
- Yep, that's right.
- I'm just trying to keep track.
I'm just trying to keep track
of what's going on here.
Well, keep track.
You know what I have to deal with
when you do shit like that?
You knew she fawned over you.
She's like,
"Oh, that Joseph,
he's just so handsome.
"Such a wonderful man."
"I just don't understand, Sara,
"how you let him
slip through your fingers."
How I let you slip through my fingers.
That's right.
I mean, you invited me
to your wedding.
Why would you do that?
Why? Do you think I'd want to
come to your wedding?
Do even you remember
the last time we were together?
- Yeah.
- You do?
Yes, I remember
every time that we were together.
- Every time?
- Every time.
- I said the last time.
- Yes, I remember the last time.
We were here.
- No, we weren't.
- Yes, we were.
No, we weren't.
We were here and we were outside
and I didn't have my keys.
And I was trying to find my spare.
And you were standing
right down there
where you were standing
when you first got here today.
And I went around back,
trying to find the spare.
When I came back around,
I saw you there in your denim jacket
and your little black dress
with those blue flowers...
White.
They were blue.
- They were white flowers, Joseph.
- They fucking blue.
- They were white!
- Trust me.
- And I came up...
- Trust you?
[laughter]
And I pushed you
against the woodpile
and I pulled your tights
down around your ankles.
And on that gravel,
I got down on my knees
and I kissed you everywhere...
you would let me,
for as long as you would let me.
And you did let me, right?
I'm not imagining that?
I didn't lure you in?
I let you.
You let me get on my knees a lot, too.
Well...
You remember that?
And a car came up the driveway...
to turn around,
and when the lights hit us,
you freaked out and fell back,
and I caught you,
but you cut your hand on the nail.
So I cleaned up your wound,
cut a piece of your dress
and wrapped it up like a bandage.
And then we went,
to the gas station to get candy.
And the clerk said,
"Whoa, rough night?"
And I looked at you and I said,
"Best night."
And what did you say to me?
What did you say to me, Sara?
I said, "Best night, Joseph."
It was.
With a mouthful of M&Ms.
So yeah, I remember.
I remember everything:
I remember the way you smell.
I remember the night...
I remember all of it.
And the fucking flowers were blue.
Joseph, you just remember
the last best memory.
That's what you remember.
You don't remember
the last time though.
'Cause I do.
That's what I'm left with.
Do you remember
being at your office...?
Around Christmas?
Do you remember us
taking boxes of your dad's stuff and
putting them together...
in the middle of the floor?
Do you remember that?
Do you even remember
all those old times?
- I do.
- Do you remember...?
When it was Christmas there?
I came over.
And I came over with something.
What was it?
Do you remember?
Do you remember that at all?
You brought me a gift.
Ah-hem.
I did.
Do you remember what it was?
Do you still have it?
Yep.
You gave me the original
blueprints to this place.
Mm-hmm.
This house?
This place.
- That's right.
- This place.
Yeah.
Un-huh.
Yep.
And what'd you say to me?
- I didn't have it with me that night.
- No, this is not about you.
- Come on.
- Look.
What did you tell me you would do?
I made a mistake by telling you
that I had the gift.
- Oh!
- And not having it that night.
Stop.
Just tell me
what did you say you'd do?
I said that I was going to
bring it to you New Year's Eve.
Yep.
Did you?
'Cause I know where I was.
I was here.
I waited.
I did what I said I would do.
Where were you, Joseph?
[whispering]
Why are you doing this?
Why not?
I just...
need to hear you say it.
You need me or
or do you want to hear me say it?
No, I need you to.
I need you to.
So...
Where were you, Joseph?
[whispering]
Coward.
You're a fucking coward.
[footsteps going away]
[footsteps on stairs]
I was with Cynthia!
[door opening]
[yelling]
Excuse me?
I was with Cynthia.
Are you happy?
Am I happy?
[door slamming shut]
[footsteps returning]
Am I happy?
Yeah.
Are you happy?
Are you happy, Joseph?
You happy with how
all this turned out?
Sara, you were 25 years old.
Joseph, you were 32 years old.
I kept my word.
You wanted so many things.
Uh-huh.
And I also just wanted you.
I did what I thought was best.
Well...
Now...
I'm gonna do what I think's best.
Best for me.
[departing footsteps]
[theme music comes up]
[footsteps, door closing]
[theme music comes up stronger]
[sounds of traffic]
[theme music fades out]
- Hey.
- Hey.
[car door closes]
How's Freddy's mom doing?
She's good. I don't think
it's anything serious so...
Good.
Well, I would say,
"I was just in the neighborhood."
- But you'd be lying.
- I'd be lying.
Yep.
Just gonna cut to the chase.
I would expect nothing less.
See, I'm kind of in a pickle, Joseph,
because two people I love very much
seem to be having problems
with each other and...
If I pry too much,
that could lead me to say
something that I shouldn't,
and that lead to all sorts
of types of rigmarole.
[sighing]
I get it.
Well, what would you do?
It's your family?
It was your family too, right?
I mean
Mark thinks of you like a brother,
and considering
his actual brother died,
you kind of slipped
into that role, right?
Yeah.
So you're family.
Whether you like it or not,
you and Sara are my family.
Do you know the saying,
"Ain't no use crying over spilt milk."
I do.
Well, in my family
we don't say that, we say,
"Don't cry over spilt milk.
Clean it up."
'Cause I figure your spilt milk
been laying out a long time,
and that shit that kinda stinks, so...
- Clean it up?
- Yeah.
Clean it up, Joseph.
Mistakes happen but I think
it's what you do after you make them
that really counts, so...
But...
- Clean it up.
- Clean it up, yeah.
Okay, I'm gonna go.
Mark's probably thought
I abandoned him by now, so...
I do like that blue on you though,
it's a good color.
- Thank you.
- Yep.
[car door closing, engine starting]
[piano music intro]
Don't tell me we
can't change this life
I try to rearrange my mind
I don't worry
'bout the changing tide
[piano continues]
I've opened up my heart to see
I don't fall apart
I just feel
I'm stronger than I'll ever be
And I will love harder
than you'll ever understand
And I will breathe deeper
'cause I know that I can
I really can't explain
The power of this pain
[piano continues]
We've been
burnin' and burnin' 'em
We've been
burnin' and burnin' 'em
We've been
burnin' and burnin' 'em
We keep
burnin' and burnin' 'em
We've been
burnin' and burnin' 'em
We've been
burnin' and burnin' 'em
Oooo, burnin'
We've been
burnin' and burnin' 'em
We keep
burnin' and burnin' 'em
We've been
burnin' and burnin' 'em
Oooo [fades out]
Hey.
Ten minutes?
Five.
Look, I haven't handled
things well between us.
I was irresponsible and
I want to apologize.
I'm not here to defend myself or
discredit anything that you've said.
I just wanna give you my side.
Good, bad...
And what I was wrong
not to say before.
Sara...
When we met...
All you could talk about
was New York.
[laughter]
You were so excited
to get away from this place
and just go be free
and go to the big city.
And I wanted that for you.
You know, I was privileged
enough to be able to
explore the world,
and, you know,
roam around
with no boundaries, no limits...
Figure things out.
And I wanted that for you.
You know, when we met,
I'd just come back to Knoxville...
And I was ready to...
you know, create some
boundaries for myself.
Start a life.
Have a family.
And yeah,
I had met someone at that time.
You know, and she...
She wanted
similar things that I did, she...
had her practice and...
She wanted a family.
And I thought
that's what I wanted.
That's what I needed.
And I felt like you needed the world
more than you needed me.
So I felt like that was
the right choice at that time...
For both of us.
So I married Cynthia,
and then we had Emma.
And Emma's always gonna be
a part of my life.
So that means
Cynthia has to be in it.
But that's it.
We're done.
And that doesn't make me sad
because I did everything that I could.
I set up counseling,
I gave her space.
I put in the work.
Because I didn't want to
marry the wrong person.
She just changed, you know?
I changed, we just couldn't...
We just couldn't figure out
a way to change together.
But when I see you...
Or when I think about
all the times that we were together
and how happy we both were.
That's the man that I wanna be.
And what I didn't know...
or what I failed to acknowledge...
was how much I hurt you.
So that's why I'm here.
I don't want my mistakes
to erase all the good that we had.
I don't want you to think of me
as the guy that hurt you.
I want you to know the better me,
I want you to...
I want you to know the man that
doesn't abandon people that he loves.
And I know that this
does not make up for everything.
But I hope that you can forgive me.
And maybe you can look at this...
and think of us...
And feel joy.
You know, not pain.
Because Sara...
I always want you
to be a part of my life...
even if you can't always be in it.
Joseph...
Don't go.
I do want you a part of my life.
You've always been a part of my life...
even when you weren't in it.
'Cause you always brought me
so much joy
and I remember that.
When we were together,
I had never been
with anyone before.
Ever.
And...
you were the first
to ever make me feel desired,
and loved.
And...
we had so much fun together.
And it...
You always made me feel safe.
You always protected me.
And...
I just wanted everything
to be perfect and
I...
I knew about her.
And...
I just couldn't give
all of myself knowing
that there was someone else but...
You've always been enough for me.
You are the better man
that I've always seen.
It's just...
I guess in reality,
I was more hurt by
the situation rather than by you.
It was more that, I couldn't control
the timing or anything that...
When you came into my life,
I just always...
I just very much remember
the times when you weren't in it.
And I don't like those times.
I like my life when you're in it
in whatever way you can be.
And I guess what the hardest thing
for me to learn was that...
You actually saw me
before I saw myself.
You were the person
that could see what
I wanted to do but also
what I was capable of doing.
Even if I didn't see it in myself,
you knew that I could do big things.
And that I could do big things
even though
you and I just had
a little world together.
Even when we were
in our little world,
everything we did felt so big
because you made me feel special.
And I miss feeling that way.
I miss how you made me feel.
And...
I want to make you feel that way too.
[theme music comes up softly]
They were blue.
Told you to trust me.
I do.
[soft theme music comes up]
[theme music evolves into...]
[sounds of shower]
[theme music fades out]
[shower continues]
[sounds of brushing teeth]
[tapping toothbrushes]
[sound of gargling]
You want some coffee?
Please.
- Where do you want this?
- Right here. Thank you.
Looks good.
A little bit of cream,
a little bit of sugar.
A little bit.
Allow me.
Mmm, I like your hair.
[kissing]
Thank you.
[sound of zipper]
My shoes.
[zipping bag closed]
[footsteps]
[car driving by]
[thunder crackling in distance]
[more thunder]
[closing car door]
[car door closing,
thunder breaking outside]
You know what your eyes look like?
- What do my eyes look like?
- Hm-mm?
- What?
- Almonds.
- Almonds?
- Un-huh.
They do.
They're shaped like almonds.
And your lips...
They look like two little mountains.
[laughter]
All my lips are inside my mouth,
not on the outside.
- What?
- They're all on the inside.
Looks like two little
mountains on top...
Sitting on top of...
Water.
[laughter]
This is nice.
Yeah.
Yeah.
It's peaceful.
[thunder in distance]
- Are you comfortable?
- Yes.
Good.
- That was there.
- Mm-hmm.
That one.
Mm-hmm.
That one.
And...
This one.
Did I tell you my mom
finally saw them all?
All of them?
Mm-hmm.
No.
Mm-hmm.
I remember when she
almost saw them though.
Oh yeah, when she caught us?
[giggling]
- Or almost caught us.
- Almost.
That was not the first impression
I wanted to make with her.
I think she knew we were happy.
Yeah.
Yeah.
We were happy.
Remember how we used to try to
draw pictures with all of your freckles?
Connect the dots like constellations.
Mm-hmm.
We found most of them.
There's a lot of them.
Look at all these little freckles,
so many.
Mmm...
They're my tattoos.
Did you ever get any tattoos?
I got two.
Where are they?
Right here. Right here.
Ah, right.
That's where I keep mine.
I don't have to see something
to remember it.
[thunder crackling in distance]
[rain falling gently]
But I like that you have yours.
Why?
Well...
Why?
Well, you draw things,
you draw things
for people to live in.
And these live on you.
Yours to keep forever...
Your memories.
My scrapbook.
Yep.
You have a few pages left.
Yep.
[soft theme music comes up]
[sighing]
[passionate breathing]
[passionate breathing continues]
[traffic sounds]
- I can walk you inside.
- I know.
Thank you.
Here's okay.
Hey,
I love you.
You're always gonna be
a part of my life.
I love you too.
And you're always gonna
be a part of my life.
Always.
Always.
Best night.
Best night.
I love you.
Beautiful, big old eyes.
Better to see you with.
So I've heard.
I remember some other things
we used to do.
Oh, yeah.
What other things?
We used to do lot of things, Joseph.
We used to dance.
We did use to dance.
- Mm-hmm.
- Mm-hmm.
You wanna dance with me?
Mmm.
I don't really hear any music.
[whispering]
That never mattered before.
You got me there.
Do you need music now?
[whispering]
No.
Do you remember how to dance?
Well, there's two different
kinds of dancing.
Okay, what's one?
Well, there's what you and I
used to call dancing.
Un-huh.
And then there's what
everyone else calls dancing.
- Mm-hmm.
- Mm-hmm.
We gonna do our kind of dancing?
Is that the kind you wanna do?
Dance however you want.
However I want?
You better be careful with that.
[door closes]
[sniffling, sobbing]
[rolling off toilet paper]
(PA announcement)
[bell chimes]
[theme music comes up softly]
[passionate gasping]
[sensual moaning]
Mmm...
[gasping for air]
[sensual moaning continues]
[sound of zipping bag]
[theme music continues softly]
You feel so good.
[moaning intimately]
[gasping]
[groaning, kissing deeply]
[heavy breathing]
[theme music comes up
more powerfully]
[gasping with pleasure]
[sighing passionately]
[softer breathing]
Mmmm!
You feel good.
[soft kiss]
Mmm...
[theme music continues softly]
Ohhh...
[sighing]
[kissing intimately]
What?
Have I changed that much?
You're still you.
Yep.
Still me.
And you're still you.
For better or for worse.
That's still pretty good.
[theme music fades out]
[ballad comes up powerfully]
I let the moon pull me under
to become the waves
Lead me blinded in the night
with your light
to the darkest caves
Then you shone your light
right through my body
Keeping me close
Like I was really somebody
Make me feel your memory
Your memories of you and I
Make me feel our memories
Our memories of you and I
You are my moon
You move me like Im your sea
Come swim in all
In all of me
Where could we be
If stars didnt get in our way
Days and nights wont erase
The love of you and I cant fade
[theme music comes up
with sound of gushing water]
[sounds of waterfall]
Have you been up to the job site?
I honestly don't think
Tuesday is an option.
I think if we don't get
it out there Monday...
So do you want to say
Monday at noon?
I love it.
Okay, have a great weekend.
Thank you.
[whistling]
[sounds of nearby traffic]
Hello!
- Hey.
- Hey.
Here I am.
I'm so happy you're here.
Oh my God,
I'm so happy to be here.
How are you?
- Hello.
- So good to see you.
Thank you. Thank you. Thank you.
You got here quick.
I did get here quick. Yes!
Look at all this green
with your eyes.
I know. Look at this!
You know, integrating
a little color in my life.
- I'm happy you're here.
- Thank you, I'm happy to be here.
I got a bar full of drinks.
Ahh...
I'm alright.
- Are you sure?
- Yeah, I'm good.
Are you hanging out with just
Chester and Sandra tonight?
- Yeah, just hanging out.
- Happy Birthday...
- Yes!
- To You!
Who is that?
Oh, I had no idea.
Hey, buddy.
- Happy to see you.
- Thank you.
Hey, Sara.
Hey, Joseph.
- Hello.
- Hello.
- What are you doing out here?
- Ohh...
I came to give birthday wishes.
When'd you get...?
Just get in town?
I did. Good job, yep.
I can be observant sometimes.
Sometimes.
[laughter]
Sometimes.
You wanna drink, bud?
I'm okay,
I'm just dropping that off.
So you're here for the
birthday weekend?
Of course, I wouldn't miss it!
Well, you only turn 21 once, so?
[laughter]
But it's true.
- That's true.
- That's right.
- Yeah.
- Uh-Hmm.
So what's on the docket?
We have our spa day tomorrow.
So just catching up.
- Girl time.
- Uh huh.
Uh huh. Uh huh.
Yep.
But for now,
can I have the keys?
- I need to get going.
- Oh yeah.
How about after your spa day,
we all meet up back here,
for drinks on me?
- A little catch up, a little fun?
- We could do that.
Were you still coming up
to the house tomorrow?
I am.
I am.
You guys could come up
to the Treehouse tomorrow?
- After you finish the spa?
- Ohhh.
Hang out?
Here you go.
- Have a couple drinks?
- Ahhmm...
Ahh...
- You do have good liquor.
- It's birthday girl, you know.
Whatever you want,
I'm here for you.
I mean, it's your birthday,
but can we just...?
I like the Treehouse.
Okay.
Those cupcakes are
for your parents.
Thank you.
If they make it there.
So, yeah, tomorrow we're good?
- Yeah.
- Sure.
- Why not?
- Yeah.
Let me walk you out.
Okay. Thanks.
Happy Birthday!
Thank you.
- Call me.
- I will.
Okay.
- See you tomorrow.
- See you, buddy.
Guess we will see them tomorrow.
[door slamming shut]
[sounds of passing cars]
[car unlocking]
There it is.
Traveling light these days.
I am.
Short trip?
Just the weekend.
Will you put these back there?
- Yeah.
- Thank you.
[car door]
Wanna grab a drink later?
Mmm...
How many?
Three?
- Two and a half?
- I'm going to my parents.
How they doing?
They're doing good.
You know, together, making it work.
- Still up in Powell?
- Yeah, still up in Powell.
I'm sure they'll be happy to see you.
Well, of course.
You know, one meal
is easier than a buffet of guilt.
[laughing]
- I know that.
- Uh-huh.
Your number the same?
Maybe.
- Ends in?
- 911...
It's a joke, Joseph, it's a joke.
Funny.
Yeah, hasn't changed.
- Tell your Mom I said "Hi."
- Oh, she'll love it.
[car door closing, ignition]
[iPhone ding]
[car accelerating]
[car door opens, powers off]
Sara, honey, come on!
Dinner's getting cold.
Alright.
Alright.
[ringing]
How's your trip?
It's going good.
Here, hanging out in Knoxville.
Saw the folks.
Saw Misty.
Getting to spend
some time with her...
And you know,
Nashville on Monday.
Sweet.
So can we talk about
Sonny Kay for a minute?
Talk to me. Absolutely.
What do you think?
Man, you were so on point.
He completely gets it.
I thought you'd be a good match.
I mean he's the real deal.
Sonny Fucking Kay
doing my album cover.
Doing yours.
Yo!
Thumbs up.
I can move forward.
Thank you so much.
I appreciate you.
Thank you and...
I'll talk to you after Nashville.
Sounds good.
See how it goes.
Alright, I'll talk to you soon.
Alright.
Bye! Love you!
Love you too.
[theme music comes up softly]
[iPhone ding]
[closing box]
[theme music fades out]
[cars driving past]
[birds chirping]
- Pretty, isn't she?
- Looks amazing.
Brined it last night.
Emma with Cynthia
this weekend? Is that...?
Yeah, it's her turn.
How is the little princess?
She's good.
The other day she asked me...
Why don't I live
with her and Mommy?
Shit, what'd you say?
I didn't know what to say.
I just told her that...
Mom and Dads don't
always live together.
Damn dude, I guess...
I guess that's all
you could say, you know?
I just realized
I don't know if she remembers
when we all lived
in the same house.
Maybe...
Maybe that's a good thing,
you know?
Hand me those lemons.
So...
did you just forget to tell me
that Sara was coming into town?
Or do you enjoy...
surprising the absolute
shit out of me?
No, I didn't forget as much as
I just didn't think about it...
But uh...
Cmon, you still think about her.
C'mon.
Buddy, I think about
a lot of things.
I did not handle
that situation well.
Ahh, it's all water
under the bridge, dude.
I love you assume
there's a bridge.
Even over crazy water,
you can put a bridge anywhere.
You know, maybe it'll be good,
us all hanging out.
The four of us like we use to.
Oh, I don't know about all that.
I think we both know
it won't be like it used to.
Alright, flip 'em over.
- Alright.
- Shake them out.
- Will you zhuzh em?
- Yes.
Do they even make
hot rollers anymore?
Okay, as a Southern woman,
that's sacrilegious.
What, I don't know!
- Yes, they still make...
- You've had these a long time.
Crazy.
- Flip 'em?
- Yes, flip.
Okay.
Woah Misty, this is poofy.
Don't touch it.
- It way too poofy.
- It's gonna fall. Look.
I can't see.
- Can't see 'cause my hair's too big.
- Stop. Don't.
It's gonna fall out.
Okay.
Alright, I'm gonna go
pick out your outfit.
Don't touch your hair.
You don't have much
to choose from.
I didn't bring much.
It looks a little different.
- I mean...
- Does it?
- I mean it's how I remember it.
- Un-huh,
- You know what I just realized?
- What?
I wasn't here during the day much.
Well, you are now.
- I sure am.
- Yup.
Here we are.
Let's just have fun.
- Oh, we're gonna have fun.
- Yep.
- No, stop!
- What?
I told you, it's gonna fall.
- Oh, come on, it's too poofy.
- You always fucking do this.
It tickles my neck.
It tickles my neck.
- You should just shave your head.
- Well, maybe I will.
Do you think it'd look good?
I think you could rock
a shaved head actually.
I'll leave these little things down.
How's that? Is that a compromise?
- Yes.
- Okay, fine.
Here we go.
Let's do this.
[sighing]
[car door shutting]
[car door shutting]
- Where you going?
- Just going to look around.
Okay.
[theme music comes up]
[sounds of nature]
- Hey!
- There you are.
I brought cupcakes.
Excellent.
Can I be bartender?
Sure, make yourself at home.
You shouldn't have said that!
I'm choosing shots.
- Thank God.
- We're getting it started right.
[theme music playing stronger]
What have you guys been doing?
- Hanging out?
- Hanging out.
- Sara, we're doing shots.
- Oh, okay.
- Well hello, Miss Sara.
- Hello.
I feel nervous,
you guys watching me do this.
Good grief.
Obviously.
Okay.
- Ladies first.
- Of course.
Thank you. Thank you.
There we go.
Couldn't get any more in there?
Jesus, I hope you got
another bottle.
Can I do the honors?
- Of course.
- Go for it.
To my beautiful wife, Misty.
Here, here.
- On her birthday.
- Mmm.
Alright!
Wait, second, second.
It was shots that
brought us together,
may they never pull us apart
as we go asunder.
- Asunder?
- Asunder.
- Wow!
- I'll drink to that!
Well done.
Asunder.
- Ooh.
- Ugh.
It's the double swallow.
Yeah.
It's a big shot.
- I'm taking this in here.
- Misty.
- There's gonna be more shots...
- Who wants wine?
- Yeah?
- I wanted something from the cellar.
Yes, yes, yes.
- Red or white?
- Surprise us.
Red.
Red, yep.
Uh-huh.
So you redid the kitchen.
I did.
Looks nice.
- Thank you.
- Very open.
Yeah, I thought of taking
this whole wall out.
- Kind of open it up some.
- Well, that'll do it.
Got rid of that door,
swinging door?
Swinging door had to go.
Swing on outta here?
Yeah, I couldn't find a way to
incorporate it into the design.
Oh, okay.
- Doctor.
- Plates.
Hello. Hello.
- This is delicious.
- You like that?
- You put this together?
You know I put it together.
I had nothing to do with it.
I remember you wearing a dress.
I wear a lot of dresses.
Wearing one right now.
-[Misty] You remember my cousin
wearing a dress.
Yes, but it was with this dude
and they were dancing around.
What are you talking about?
At your wedding?
The last time we all hung out.
- Oh yeah.
- Yes!
- Oh, that dress!
- And there was some dude.
Miss Misty, your wife,
picked that out.
I'm glad that dress is burned
into your memory because I chose it.
I mean it was your wedding night
and you're more worried
about what she's wearing?
That's alright.
I wasn't worried, it just stood out
because of you and
that guy were dancing
like it was, you know,
you were in Havana, Cuba.
It was incredible.
They were making out
like their plane was going down.
That is not true!
That is not true at all.
We were not making out at all.
That's ridiculous.
And his name was something like exotic
and like romantic
or something like
Ferdinand?
Was it Ferdinand?
No, it was like Flip...
- Flipper?
- Try again.
You're almost there.
Wait, here, let me help you, Mark.
- Mark?
- I remember his name.
Let me help you.
Ready, ready?
Phildago?
- Fuh...
- Like...
- Fuck You.
- Okay.
- There it is.
- You know what?
[laughter]
- Felipe.
- How is Felipe?
- I don't know. I mean,
he didn't flip my trigger,
so I don't really
give a shit how he's doing.
[collective moan]
But now he's married
to Francesca,
and they live in a
brownstone in Park Slope.
Beautiful backyard.
- Cheers to motherfucking Felipe.
- Cheers to Felipe.
I'm not toasting Pilaf.
Why not?
Nope.
- That guy was hot.
- Why not?
He was alright.
Who should we "cheers to"?
Who's flipping your trigger
these days?
Ahhh...
I keep the safety on these days.
Oh.
[giggling]
- That's clever.
- Playing it safe.
Wise man.
- Guys, hang on a minute.
- Play it safe.
That's gonna be on a plaque somewhere:
"I keep the safety on these days."
That'll be on my tombstone.
- That's another good T-shirt, Misty.
- Hello.
We can add it to your new line.
- Selling T-shirts in a tourist destination.
- Yeah.
- No, dude.
- Is gonna be me in my next life.
No big deal, man
I didn't know if that meant
what you are transitioning to another life.
No, take care of it.
I'll be there in just a minute.
You know if this bakery thing...
I see myself selling
shell necklaces, like in Fiji.
- Puka shells?
- Yeah.
- What's going on?
- Gang, I'm sorry but this is weird.
But we gotta go because
Freddy's mom's in Bristol,
in the hospital.
Yeah, she's sick or something.
- I gotta go.
- You gotta leave now?
- I gotta maintain the empire gang.
- Oh, buddy!
I got to keep this train rolling.
Hey, duty calls.
You want me to box up
some of this fish for you?
No, I'll clean up.
I'll bring you the car tomorrow.
Give me the keys.
Hey Sara, it's up to you
for our next reunion.
Okay, where you want me to do it at?
Hey, wherever you want.
How about a funeral?
That is so... No!
- Cheaper than a wedding.
- I'm not doing it.
Yeah, I'm right behind you.
- I can just...
- I have to.
- Give me the keys.
- You know what I mean.
It'll be okay.
- Here.
- Just call me.
Alright.
Keep me updated.
Alright, guys!
[sound of door closing]
[sighing]
Oh, don't worry about that.
It's alright, it's not much.
- I'll take it.
- Oh, thank you.
I can't believe,
how much the place has changed.
Done quite a lot.
Yeah, I thought about...
I thought about doing a lot more,
but I'm in no rush right now.
Why not?
It's just me up here
for the most part.
Yeah.
Yeah, Emma comes up
every now and then.
UH-oh, you think I can do this?
Ehh, I would not do that.
- But I can.
- Yeah.
What do y'all do
when you come up here?
Ahhh, I mean...
she just likes running around.
I think for her,
she might be the only person that
appreciates the actual
treehouse aspect as much as I do.
Oh, yeah?
Yeah.
You know,
Mom was living up here for a while.
- Yeah.
- Uh-huh.
She told me.
You talked to Mom?
Yeah, you know.
She'd write me
every once in a while.
Keep in touch.
She enjoying independent living?
Yes, the Queen of Independent Living.
[giggles]
She's got her "Gin Rummy" girls,
which is more Gin and less Rummy.
- Oh yeah?
- Mm-mm.
- I'm not surprised.
- Mm-mm.
Always a classy lady.
[soft laughter]
You don't have to worry
with all this stuff.
- It's okay.
- I'll take care of it in the morning.
I also remember the rules:
"Leave no trace."
Right?
They left the cupcakes.
- They did?
- They did.
Looks like you got...
Looks like you got
breakfast tomorrow.
Come on.
You don't still have a sweet tooth?
We've got "Peanut Butter,"
- "Chocolate Chocolate,"
- Uh-huh.
"Classic,"
"Yellow with Chocolate Icing,"
And that's looks like maybe,
"Chocolate Mint" and "Black and White."
Maybe?
Which one do you want?
- Oh, yeah?
- "Plain."
I'll match your "Plain."
- So Nashville.
- Un-huh.
- So Nashville.
- How long you up there?
What?
How long you up there?
Just Monday. Leave Tuesday.
All work?
All work.
What's that entail?
Hmm...
These are very chewy cupcakes.
It means, I have some sessions
with musicians,
which means that they come in,
they play for me,
and I listen and I just try to like,
you know, see if they'll match
with some of my clients.
But to be honest,
I'm just kind of checking their level
of crazy cake.
I can't eat all this cupcake.
Very rich.
They're very rich cupcakes.
Un-huh.
- But good.
- Yeah.
Un-huh.
They are good.
What have you been doing?
Same old.
- Same old?
- Hmm-mm
What's the "same old"
in Joseph's world?
Just finished
the tiger exhibit at the zoo.
- The tiger exhibit?
- Hm-hm.
- Okay.
- Ah-hm.
Learning a lot about tigers.
- Yeah?
- Yep.
Like what?
You know... their behaviors and...
habits and...
They need lots of space to roam but
little cubbies to hide.
Don't we all?
Maybe I should live in a zoo,
it sounds pretty good.
You kinda do.
New York, big open space,
but you've got your tiny, little
apartment to go hide in at night.
- I do.
- Un-huh.
It's not that tiny.
Do you miss home?
[water running in sink]
Sometimes.
[dishes clinking]
You gotta miss the mountains.
I do.
Do you go a lot?
I take Emma up
to the falls sometimes.
- Oh yeah?
- Mm-hmm.
She like it there?
She likes playing in the water.
- Oh, yeah?
- Mm-hmm.
Who doesn't?
I can remember someone
who was terrified
to go in the water.
Oh yeah?
Who is that?
If I remember correctly,
I had to carry you into the water.
You did.
Mm-hmm.
I couldn't see my feet.
- Right.
- Got scared.
Right, right.
Always scared of the unknown.
- Sometimes.
- Un-hmm.
Sometimes.
I remember some other things
we used to do.
Oh yeah?
What other things?
We used to do a lot of things, Joseph.
We used to dance.
We did use to dance.
- Un-huh...
- Mm-hmm.
You wanna dance with me?
Hmmm...
I don't really hear any music.
[whispering]
That never mattered before.
You got me there.
Do you need music, now?
No.
Do you remember how to dance?
Well...
There's two different kinds of dancing.
Okay, what's one?
Well, there's what you and I
used to call dancing.
And then there's
what everyone else
calls "dancing."
- Mm-hmm.
- Un-huh.
- Mm-hmm.
- Un-huh.
We gonna do our kind of dancing?
Is that the kind you wanna do?
Dance however you want.
However I want?
You'd better be careful with that.
[kissing]
[sighing]
[whispering]
I need you.
Whoa, whoa, un-unh.
Nope...
- I can't do this, Joseph.
- Hey, what are you doing?
What the fuck!
Look, I'm sorry.
We just got carried away.
What do you think
we're going to do here?
We're gonna fuck for old time's sake?
C'mon!
We've never had sex before,
- so why would I think ...?
- I know we haven't had sex...
That's right!
I wouldn't fuck you, that's right.
- Let me clarify something.
- I'm not trying to say that.
Let me clarify!
There was never a "we"...
We never fucked?
What was the "we"?
Come on!
There was a "you".
And then there was "me" when you
just needed a little entertainment.
- What entertainment?
- Yeah!
I never cared what
we did or did not do.
- And if I recall...
- Really?
- If I recall...
- Yeah?
We both enjoyed what I did do.
That's classy, real fucking classy.
And an "old time sake's fuck"
isn't classy?
You're the one that got up
on the counter.
I didn't put you there.
You just have this...
this way of...
putting me in this situation
where you just
lure me into these moments of...
- I've never taken advantage of you.
- I didn't say you did.
No, you didn't take advantage.
Stop it...
So don't say I lured you in there
like I'm some predator.
You are not a fucking predator!
- I didn't say you took advantage...
- I know that I'm not.
I know you're not either.
It's just the wrong word, I'm sorry.
It's just... you all...
[sighing]
What?
Because you're holding me accountable
for breaking rules
that I didn't even know existed.
It's not about rules, Joseph.
Then what's it about?
Say it.
Why do you randomly call me?
Why?
Why do you do that?
Why do you just...
send me pictures,
text message pictures
of the waterfalls?
No words, just like,
"Here you go. Remember this?"
Because I thought you would like
to see a photo from home.
Why?
Why not?
I figured maybe you'd like to see
something from back home.
I don't know.
Why would I want
to remember all that?
Do you not think about
how that makes me feel?
To remember all that?
Why is it like,
when you see me
on the holidays here,
I'm downtown
just shopping with my mom,
you gotta run across
four lanes of traffic to say hello.
So now you're upset because
I say hello to you
and your mother at the holiday.
- Yep, that's right.
- I'm just trying to keep track.
I'm just trying to keep track
of what's going on here.
Well, keep track.
You know what I have to deal with
when you do shit like that?
You knew she fawned over you.
She's like,
"Oh, that Joseph,
he's just so handsome.
"Such a wonderful man."
"I just don't understand, Sara,
"how you let him
slip through your fingers."
How I let you slip through my fingers.
That's right.
I mean, you invited me
to your wedding.
Why would you do that?
Why? Do you think I'd want to
come to your wedding?
Do even you remember
the last time we were together?
- Yeah.
- You do?
Yes, I remember
every time that we were together.
- Every time?
- Every time.
- I said the last time.
- Yes, I remember the last time.
We were here.
- No, we weren't.
- Yes, we were.
No, we weren't.
We were here and we were outside
and I didn't have my keys.
And I was trying to find my spare.
And you were standing
right down there
where you were standing
when you first got here today.
And I went around back,
trying to find the spare.
When I came back around,
I saw you there in your denim jacket
and your little black dress
with those blue flowers...
White.
They were blue.
- They were white flowers, Joseph.
- They fucking blue.
- They were white!
- Trust me.
- And I came up...
- Trust you?
[laughter]
And I pushed you
against the woodpile
and I pulled your tights
down around your ankles.
And on that gravel,
I got down on my knees
and I kissed you everywhere...
you would let me,
for as long as you would let me.
And you did let me, right?
I'm not imagining that?
I didn't lure you in?
I let you.
You let me get on my knees a lot, too.
Well...
You remember that?
And a car came up the driveway...
to turn around,
and when the lights hit us,
you freaked out and fell back,
and I caught you,
but you cut your hand on the nail.
So I cleaned up your wound,
cut a piece of your dress
and wrapped it up like a bandage.
And then we went,
to the gas station to get candy.
And the clerk said,
"Whoa, rough night?"
And I looked at you and I said,
"Best night."
And what did you say to me?
What did you say to me, Sara?
I said, "Best night, Joseph."
It was.
With a mouthful of M&Ms.
So yeah, I remember.
I remember everything:
I remember the way you smell.
I remember the night...
I remember all of it.
And the fucking flowers were blue.
Joseph, you just remember
the last best memory.
That's what you remember.
You don't remember
the last time though.
'Cause I do.
That's what I'm left with.
Do you remember
being at your office...?
Around Christmas?
Do you remember us
taking boxes of your dad's stuff and
putting them together...
in the middle of the floor?
Do you remember that?
Do you even remember
all those old times?
- I do.
- Do you remember...?
When it was Christmas there?
I came over.
And I came over with something.
What was it?
Do you remember?
Do you remember that at all?
You brought me a gift.
Ah-hem.
I did.
Do you remember what it was?
Do you still have it?
Yep.
You gave me the original
blueprints to this place.
Mm-hmm.
This house?
This place.
- That's right.
- This place.
Yeah.
Un-huh.
Yep.
And what'd you say to me?
- I didn't have it with me that night.
- No, this is not about you.
- Come on.
- Look.
What did you tell me you would do?
I made a mistake by telling you
that I had the gift.
- Oh!
- And not having it that night.
Stop.
Just tell me
what did you say you'd do?
I said that I was going to
bring it to you New Year's Eve.
Yep.
Did you?
'Cause I know where I was.
I was here.
I waited.
I did what I said I would do.
Where were you, Joseph?
[whispering]
Why are you doing this?
Why not?
I just...
need to hear you say it.
You need me or
or do you want to hear me say it?
No, I need you to.
I need you to.
So...
Where were you, Joseph?
[whispering]
Coward.
You're a fucking coward.
[footsteps going away]
[footsteps on stairs]
I was with Cynthia!
[door opening]
[yelling]
Excuse me?
I was with Cynthia.
Are you happy?
Am I happy?
[door slamming shut]
[footsteps returning]
Am I happy?
Yeah.
Are you happy?
Are you happy, Joseph?
You happy with how
all this turned out?
Sara, you were 25 years old.
Joseph, you were 32 years old.
I kept my word.
You wanted so many things.
Uh-huh.
And I also just wanted you.
I did what I thought was best.
Well...
Now...
I'm gonna do what I think's best.
Best for me.
[departing footsteps]
[theme music comes up]
[footsteps, door closing]
[theme music comes up stronger]
[sounds of traffic]
[theme music fades out]
- Hey.
- Hey.
[car door closes]
How's Freddy's mom doing?
She's good. I don't think
it's anything serious so...
Good.
Well, I would say,
"I was just in the neighborhood."
- But you'd be lying.
- I'd be lying.
Yep.
Just gonna cut to the chase.
I would expect nothing less.
See, I'm kind of in a pickle, Joseph,
because two people I love very much
seem to be having problems
with each other and...
If I pry too much,
that could lead me to say
something that I shouldn't,
and that lead to all sorts
of types of rigmarole.
[sighing]
I get it.
Well, what would you do?
It's your family?
It was your family too, right?
I mean
Mark thinks of you like a brother,
and considering
his actual brother died,
you kind of slipped
into that role, right?
Yeah.
So you're family.
Whether you like it or not,
you and Sara are my family.
Do you know the saying,
"Ain't no use crying over spilt milk."
I do.
Well, in my family
we don't say that, we say,
"Don't cry over spilt milk.
Clean it up."
'Cause I figure your spilt milk
been laying out a long time,
and that shit that kinda stinks, so...
- Clean it up?
- Yeah.
Clean it up, Joseph.
Mistakes happen but I think
it's what you do after you make them
that really counts, so...
But...
- Clean it up.
- Clean it up, yeah.
Okay, I'm gonna go.
Mark's probably thought
I abandoned him by now, so...
I do like that blue on you though,
it's a good color.
- Thank you.
- Yep.
[car door closing, engine starting]
[piano music intro]
Don't tell me we
can't change this life
I try to rearrange my mind
I don't worry
'bout the changing tide
[piano continues]
I've opened up my heart to see
I don't fall apart
I just feel
I'm stronger than I'll ever be
And I will love harder
than you'll ever understand
And I will breathe deeper
'cause I know that I can
I really can't explain
The power of this pain
[piano continues]
We've been
burnin' and burnin' 'em
We've been
burnin' and burnin' 'em
We've been
burnin' and burnin' 'em
We keep
burnin' and burnin' 'em
We've been
burnin' and burnin' 'em
We've been
burnin' and burnin' 'em
Oooo, burnin'
We've been
burnin' and burnin' 'em
We keep
burnin' and burnin' 'em
We've been
burnin' and burnin' 'em
Oooo [fades out]
Hey.
Ten minutes?
Five.
Look, I haven't handled
things well between us.
I was irresponsible and
I want to apologize.
I'm not here to defend myself or
discredit anything that you've said.
I just wanna give you my side.
Good, bad...
And what I was wrong
not to say before.
Sara...
When we met...
All you could talk about
was New York.
[laughter]
You were so excited
to get away from this place
and just go be free
and go to the big city.
And I wanted that for you.
You know, I was privileged
enough to be able to
explore the world,
and, you know,
roam around
with no boundaries, no limits...
Figure things out.
And I wanted that for you.
You know, when we met,
I'd just come back to Knoxville...
And I was ready to...
you know, create some
boundaries for myself.
Start a life.
Have a family.
And yeah,
I had met someone at that time.
You know, and she...
She wanted
similar things that I did, she...
had her practice and...
She wanted a family.
And I thought
that's what I wanted.
That's what I needed.
And I felt like you needed the world
more than you needed me.
So I felt like that was
the right choice at that time...
For both of us.
So I married Cynthia,
and then we had Emma.
And Emma's always gonna be
a part of my life.
So that means
Cynthia has to be in it.
But that's it.
We're done.
And that doesn't make me sad
because I did everything that I could.
I set up counseling,
I gave her space.
I put in the work.
Because I didn't want to
marry the wrong person.
She just changed, you know?
I changed, we just couldn't...
We just couldn't figure out
a way to change together.
But when I see you...
Or when I think about
all the times that we were together
and how happy we both were.
That's the man that I wanna be.
And what I didn't know...
or what I failed to acknowledge...
was how much I hurt you.
So that's why I'm here.
I don't want my mistakes
to erase all the good that we had.
I don't want you to think of me
as the guy that hurt you.
I want you to know the better me,
I want you to...
I want you to know the man that
doesn't abandon people that he loves.
And I know that this
does not make up for everything.
But I hope that you can forgive me.
And maybe you can look at this...
and think of us...
And feel joy.
You know, not pain.
Because Sara...
I always want you
to be a part of my life...
even if you can't always be in it.
Joseph...
Don't go.
I do want you a part of my life.
You've always been a part of my life...
even when you weren't in it.
'Cause you always brought me
so much joy
and I remember that.
When we were together,
I had never been
with anyone before.
Ever.
And...
you were the first
to ever make me feel desired,
and loved.
And...
we had so much fun together.
And it...
You always made me feel safe.
You always protected me.
And...
I just wanted everything
to be perfect and
I...
I knew about her.
And...
I just couldn't give
all of myself knowing
that there was someone else but...
You've always been enough for me.
You are the better man
that I've always seen.
It's just...
I guess in reality,
I was more hurt by
the situation rather than by you.
It was more that, I couldn't control
the timing or anything that...
When you came into my life,
I just always...
I just very much remember
the times when you weren't in it.
And I don't like those times.
I like my life when you're in it
in whatever way you can be.
And I guess what the hardest thing
for me to learn was that...
You actually saw me
before I saw myself.
You were the person
that could see what
I wanted to do but also
what I was capable of doing.
Even if I didn't see it in myself,
you knew that I could do big things.
And that I could do big things
even though
you and I just had
a little world together.
Even when we were
in our little world,
everything we did felt so big
because you made me feel special.
And I miss feeling that way.
I miss how you made me feel.
And...
I want to make you feel that way too.
[theme music comes up softly]
They were blue.
Told you to trust me.
I do.
[soft theme music comes up]
[theme music evolves into...]
[sounds of shower]
[theme music fades out]
[shower continues]
[sounds of brushing teeth]
[tapping toothbrushes]
[sound of gargling]
You want some coffee?
Please.
- Where do you want this?
- Right here. Thank you.
Looks good.
A little bit of cream,
a little bit of sugar.
A little bit.
Allow me.
Mmm, I like your hair.
[kissing]
Thank you.
[sound of zipper]
My shoes.
[zipping bag closed]
[footsteps]
[car driving by]
[thunder crackling in distance]
[more thunder]
[closing car door]
[car door closing,
thunder breaking outside]
You know what your eyes look like?
- What do my eyes look like?
- Hm-mm?
- What?
- Almonds.
- Almonds?
- Un-huh.
They do.
They're shaped like almonds.
And your lips...
They look like two little mountains.
[laughter]
All my lips are inside my mouth,
not on the outside.
- What?
- They're all on the inside.
Looks like two little
mountains on top...
Sitting on top of...
Water.
[laughter]
This is nice.
Yeah.
Yeah.
It's peaceful.
[thunder in distance]
- Are you comfortable?
- Yes.
Good.
- That was there.
- Mm-hmm.
That one.
Mm-hmm.
That one.
And...
This one.
Did I tell you my mom
finally saw them all?
All of them?
Mm-hmm.
No.
Mm-hmm.
I remember when she
almost saw them though.
Oh yeah, when she caught us?
[giggling]
- Or almost caught us.
- Almost.
That was not the first impression
I wanted to make with her.
I think she knew we were happy.
Yeah.
Yeah.
We were happy.
Remember how we used to try to
draw pictures with all of your freckles?
Connect the dots like constellations.
Mm-hmm.
We found most of them.
There's a lot of them.
Look at all these little freckles,
so many.
Mmm...
They're my tattoos.
Did you ever get any tattoos?
I got two.
Where are they?
Right here. Right here.
Ah, right.
That's where I keep mine.
I don't have to see something
to remember it.
[thunder crackling in distance]
[rain falling gently]
But I like that you have yours.
Why?
Well...
Why?
Well, you draw things,
you draw things
for people to live in.
And these live on you.
Yours to keep forever...
Your memories.
My scrapbook.
Yep.
You have a few pages left.
Yep.
[soft theme music comes up]
[sighing]
[passionate breathing]
[passionate breathing continues]
[traffic sounds]
- I can walk you inside.
- I know.
Thank you.
Here's okay.
Hey,
I love you.
You're always gonna be
a part of my life.
I love you too.
And you're always gonna
be a part of my life.
Always.
Always.
Best night.
Best night.
I love you.
Beautiful, big old eyes.
Better to see you with.
So I've heard.
I remember some other things
we used to do.
Oh, yeah.
What other things?
We used to do lot of things, Joseph.
We used to dance.
We did use to dance.
- Mm-hmm.
- Mm-hmm.
You wanna dance with me?
Mmm.
I don't really hear any music.
[whispering]
That never mattered before.
You got me there.
Do you need music now?
[whispering]
No.
Do you remember how to dance?
Well, there's two different
kinds of dancing.
Okay, what's one?
Well, there's what you and I
used to call dancing.
Un-huh.
And then there's what
everyone else calls dancing.
- Mm-hmm.
- Mm-hmm.
We gonna do our kind of dancing?
Is that the kind you wanna do?
Dance however you want.
However I want?
You better be careful with that.
[door closes]
[sniffling, sobbing]
[rolling off toilet paper]
(PA announcement)
[bell chimes]
[theme music comes up softly]
[passionate gasping]
[sensual moaning]
Mmm...
[gasping for air]
[sensual moaning continues]
[sound of zipping bag]
[theme music continues softly]
You feel so good.
[moaning intimately]
[gasping]
[groaning, kissing deeply]
[heavy breathing]
[theme music comes up
more powerfully]
[gasping with pleasure]
[sighing passionately]
[softer breathing]
Mmmm!
You feel good.
[soft kiss]
Mmm...
[theme music continues softly]
Ohhh...
[sighing]
[kissing intimately]
What?
Have I changed that much?
You're still you.
Yep.
Still me.
And you're still you.
For better or for worse.
That's still pretty good.
[theme music fades out]
[ballad comes up powerfully]
I let the moon pull me under
to become the waves
Lead me blinded in the night
with your light
to the darkest caves
Then you shone your light
right through my body
Keeping me close
Like I was really somebody
Make me feel your memory
Your memories of you and I
Make me feel our memories
Our memories of you and I
You are my moon
You move me like Im your sea
Come swim in all
In all of me
Where could we be
If stars didnt get in our way
Days and nights wont erase
The love of you and I cant fade