Breaking Pointe (2012) s01e01 Episode Script
Survival of the Fittest
Every day, since I was three, I've dreamt of being a ballet dancer.
Ballet has a beauty unlike anything else I know.
But there's another side that no one ever sees.
We train more hours than an olympic athlete.
We suffer physical pain and shocking injuries.
In a cutthroat world with fierce competition.
There is rivalry and relationships.
Do I think everyone belongs? Probably not.
To be the best, it takes passion, sacrifice, and obsession.
Why do we do it? We do it for that one chance To have that one single moment onstage when everything comes together.
We do it to be perfect.
My name is Adam Sklute, and I'm the artistic director of Ballet West.
We're one of the leading ballet companies in the country, but I want to be at the top.
To get there, I need to put the most beautiful and powerful dancers on the stage every night.
People say getting here is the hardest thing in the world, but staying here is even harder.
- - - I'm Beckanne.
I was 13 when people realized that I had what it took to be a ballet dancer.
Most dancers don't do principal roles until they're 25, 24, but I'm 19, and it's my first year in a company, and I'm already getting to do my dream roles.
I'm Ronald.
I'm 19 years old.
I come from a big ballet family.
I have seven brothers and sisters, and five of us are still dancing.
My brother Rex is here in the company with me, which is really awesome.
But it's so confusing.
My name is Allison, and I'm 28 years old.
I hate saying that I'm choosing ballet over love, but I guess I am.
I'm Ronnie, I'm 30 years old, and I'm the most unlikely ballet dancer you will ever meet.
I build old hotrods.
Um, I had about 14 cars, I have three motorcycles.
I'm a gearhead, through and through.
I'm Christiana.
I'm 32 years old.
I was 19 years old when I started with Ballet West, and I have worked my way up through the ranks to become one of the premier dancers in the company.
Perfection is something you should always, always strive for.
There's always something that can be done better, executed cleaner.
My name's Katie.
I am 23 years old.
My boyfriend Ronald's very much a guy's guy.
A lot of my other boyfriends have been more girly than he is, and Ronald does ballet.
So Ron and Katie, have you guys had your meetings scheduled yet, for-- - No, not really.
- Like, your talks? No.
I'm antsy, though.
I just want to know.
In the ballet world, contracts are just one year at a time, and it's hire or fire.
They will either continue to promote you and move you through the ranks, or you're gone.
Contracts are about to come out, and it's kind of a big deal.
A lot of people are freaking out, including me.
Like, what would it be like if you didn't get a contract - after being here? - Last place I was at, my meeting was, "So you're thinking about auditioning?" So it was like, I kind of knew, like, immediately.
- That's scary, though.
- It is scary.
It's scary.
It's scary.
I-- Yeah.
Just tell me.
It's audition season, I need to get the ball rolling.
Yeah, if we do need to go, we gotta go now.
I mean, I went through that at Pittsburgh.
My family lives there, I thought that's what I wanted so bad, was to get a job there, and I did think that the whole time, and when I didn't, I was, like, disappointed, but hopefully, you guys are here, because you've definitely become part of the group.
Katie's my first true love.
It was a little scary to find out that I was actually in love.
I just want to be with her all the time.
I don't like when I'm not with her.
Do you think you'll get promoted this year? I hope I get some kind of promotion, yeah.
I don't want to be stagnant in the water.
I want to be, like, kicking and moving, so I-- I want something.
What about you, Christiana? Well, you know, it's just different, because I've been here for so long that I kind of get a two-year notice if I'm not gonna get a contract, so don't have to worry about that - for the next two years.
- I'm glad you're gonna be here.
So yeah, take it from me, who's dancing on borrowed time, like, you just have to take every day and really leave it in the studio, because if you don't, then you've wasted the day.
We've just got a couple minutes.
Let's go work.
Let's go work.
Shall we try it from the beginning? Christiana is the prima ballerina of this company, and when the prima ballerina is rehearsing or performing, you stay as quiet as possible.
It's a respect thing.
You need to stay out of her way.
That's right.
Bah, dah-dah-dah-dah dah-dum.
Christiana is the ultimate performer.
It's amazing to watch her, because she'll work hard, and you'll never know.
It's like, she's wincing in pain inside, but you'll never see it on her face.
I think that's amazing.
That's it, Christiana.
Bup, ya, da-da-da-da-- Good.
Being a prima ballerina, it's everything that ballet is, and that perfection and being that perfect all the time, not just as a dancer, but as a human being, it's a lot to live up to.
Christiana's the prima.
She's what we're all striving to be, and she's so nice, yet she still has this air about her that's just very intimidating.
That's it.
And one arm to-- Good.
Yeah, yeah, good.
Yeah? Good.
Beckanne is going.
Ballet is one of those things that you can't give yourself halfway to it.
You just have to give it all.
Yeah, that's beautiful.
That's beautiful.
My driving ambition is to become a principal dancer, so I do feel the pressure to be "A-game" at all times.
- Oh.
- Nice.
That's lovely.
There's a phenomenon that can come around sometimes that just blows everybody out of the water, like, 19 years old, Beckanne.
They probably want to put glass in her pointe shoes, you know? Ballet is very competitive, so I do feel that there's a little breath on the back of my neck every once in a while.
When I was younger, I remember thinking, "I just get this one chance, and she's outta here.
" You know, "I could take her place," so there is always somebody waiting in the wings.
Can we do a little lead in into the second girls' variation? Tomorrow I will be, uh, handing out contracts, and I need to take one more look at everyone.
It's a stressful time for them, because they've got to keep their mind on their work, but they're also being evaluated for the future.
They're nervous, because they want to know, some of them, are they gonna get renewed at all? We get our contracts tomorrow, so we know at that time whether we still have a job, or we don't have a job.
Six, present the heel.
Two, yeah And of course you want to impress your boss.
That's the nature of, like, the environment we're in.
It's in Adam's hands.
The nature of my work as an artistic director is to make difficult decisions about the entire company, and I often have to make decisions that my dancers don't like.
Right now What's been keeping me awake at night is contract renewals - It's that time of the year.
- Promotions, and we only have so many places in the company.
- It's hard on them.
- Yeah.
- Yeah.
- It's hard on them.
- But the best recipe - Mm-hmm.
For creating a hard-working and well-functioning dancer and artist is if all the dancers know that they are special Mm-hmm.
But also that they're expendable.
- This is good.
- Yeah, it's tasty.
- Are my bangs clumping? - Yeah.
That stupid center part is killing them.
No, I just love you more.
Thank you.
- Oh, Monday night.
- How are you feeling? I'm just nervous.
I've been uneasy about this all year.
We all have.
I mean, I feel like Adam likes me, - but I just want to know.
- Yeah.
Yeah.
Even if it's a "no.
" Just tell me.
- Yeah.
- Yeah, I haven't slept much - the past couple of days.
- Me either.
Katie is, uh, one of the sweetest people I've ever met.
I want her to get a job.
I want her to get a review in The New York Times.
I want all these things, just because she deserves it.
What about you? - I don't know, it's kind of-- - He likes you a lot.
- It's okay.
- Well, like, he likes me, but, like, it's-- You know, I also came in with-- different circumstances.
- True.
- You know, like, he already knew our family, like, he knew Rex.
You know, he's been here for a couple years already.
I don't know, I-- I'm just gonna be happy if I get a job.
Contract time is very nerve-wracking, because your life's in that piece of paper.
If the contract's positive, then you're staying here, but if that piece of paper says otherwise, you're gone.
But hopefully, we will both get contracts here, and we'll live happily ever after.
There's a very real possibility that Ronald and I will not be in the same city next year.
Theoretically, we will be torn apart and on different sides of the country.
It's a really helpless situation.
- We'll be okay.
- Yeah.
Hello, brother.
I came to Salt Lake, super-excited to be with Rex.
I got a job, but a big appeal of it was I could live with my brother.
So hopefully we can get a contract for next year so we can stay together.
- Now we're champions.
- We're wearing the same shirt.
We're wearing the same shirt.
Rex is very passionate, and I think sometimes that's misunderstood, but he has a huge heart.
Yeah, I heard that too.
Ronald is very tall for a ballet dancer.
He's kind of built like a football player or a basketball player, but he makes his body work.
He's very graceful, and he moves very well.
Same with his brother Rex.
- How are you feeling? - Sore.
- We got to bed kind of late.
Before Allison and I started dating, she was always someone that you could talk to.
She's really up front, too.
She speaks her mind, so I kind of like that.
- - I see a future for Allison and I.
I don't see much of it, um, because there's so many things in the way, but, uh, I truly do.
Okay, let's start.
16 swings and a port de bras.
Ready? And Very slowly now.
The best way to explain my relationship with Rex is complicated.
And we go And a first, and fifth, and a first.
Him and I have had a really long, strange, not-defined relationship.
Long hands.
Shorten at the wrist.
Yeah.
I was really intimidated by Beckanne when she first came here.
I think I really wanted to not like her, but she's so nice.
You almost wish that someone with that much talent was a brat, because then you would feel better - about being jealous.
- And Up.
Lengthen the lower backs.
Because of all the competition, being in a ballet company, friendships just don't come as easily.
Good friends like Katie are very hard to find in a company.
And If Katie's not here next year, I don't know what I'm gonna do.
I'm gonna have to find some new friends.
Good.
Good, good, good.
Thank you very much, ladies and gentlemen.
Oh, thank you.
Ow.
Did you run into the door? I may like to see you in these.
It's been clear to me that Allison has had issues with commitment.
The perfect situation with Allison would be that she made a conscious decision to be with me.
What, you don't want to get anything for yourself? No, this is for you.
I'm doing this for my friend.
Rex is a fantastic friend.
As a boyfriend, I'm sure he would be a great boyfriend.
Now I know how you feel whenever I'm trying on a bunch of clothes.
At least I pretend to have fun.
- You're not even trying.
- Yeah, but I look good in everything I try on, so-- - Because I tell you you look good.
- I better shut-- Right now, as far as thinking about getting in a relationship with Rex-- In, like, a very committed relationship, I know that right now I just can't do that.
Girls are gonna love you in those orange pants.
- Girls? - Yeah.
And it's not because I don't think Rex would be a good person to get into a relationship with, 'cause he would be, I just-- For me, I'm not in that place, um, where I'm ready to do that yet, 'cause I feel like I'm in a very selfish, like, stage of life.
All right, I think this is it so far.
Okay.
Let's go.
- Are you happy with your choices? - I'm very happy.
So you go in a circle, and up, and up-- Yeah, and that's where you need to really plie and so chasse into it a little bit more.
One more time.
The ranks in a ballet company are very set, but contract-wise, I can mix it up as much as I see fit.
And I think that that's really important, to keep a company moving and to keep a company alive.
And Bah.
Good.
Energy in the bottom leg.
Pop it.
Bah! That's it.
That's so nice when you do that.
There is a social hierarchy.
You join the corps de ballet, which is the large group, made up of both male and females.
Okay, let's stop.
Let's stop.
Let's stop.
Demi-soloist is next, and that's your first stepping stone, where there's something about you that makes you stand out from the corps.
- Good.
- From demi-soloist, you progress to soloist, and you start being more featured, and you get a little bit more attention.
Yeah, yeah.
And once you've gone through that, you are rewarded with principal.
One, and Yeah.
And principal is usually the highest title you can get in a ballet company.
I don't know, man.
I've been thinking.
I'm like a-- I'm not a class girl.
Like, I'm a-- I mean, I'm classy, but, like, I'm a performer, you know? - Wait, I-- - Like, I suck in class every day, but, like, when I'm on stage, like, it's okay.
I've been up since 5:00 in the morning, because I couldn't sleep because I was so nervous.
I have my meeting with Adam, and it's tonight.
I have to wait all day, which is just killing me, too.
I couldn't pay attention in ballet class today.
I didn't know a single combination.
If I were to put my dancing on a scale from 1 to 10 today, 10 being the best, I'm, like, a negative 12.
I cannot pull it together.
[Bleep.]
! I'm a new artist, which is what you're called when you're a first-year.
It's like the beginning of the corps.
So I'm technically not even a corps dancer.
I'm not the best at those.
I just can't remember more than one thing at a time.
I even messed up plies, and we got to do our own.
Because I've only been here a year, technically, next year I'm supposed to be in the corps.
I hope to have a bright future here, and I'd love to stay and see myself do more principal roles.
I don't know, I left my dancing brain at home.
My dancing brain is at home in bed.
They're here.
They're finally here.
At this time, contracts time, it's crazy.
It's hard sometimes, because your friends are your competition, and that's just something that is never gonna change.
What does your guys' say? The same? - What you expected? - Yeah.
- Yeah, yeah.
- Christiana is a Megatron's principal now.
It says "Megatron.
" Isn't that weird? It's the highest level of principal status in the United States.
Megatron? Being principal means that I have the recognition, and I've achieved this status, if you will, but it's-- It's not comfortable.
I feel that my next step is just being better and dancing stronger, and never become complacent.
All right, what does yours say? - Demi-soloist.
Yeah.
- Good.
I still get super-frustrated when I look around the room, and I see these people who are my age, and they're principals or they're soloists.
I'm totally happy.
I mean, I got promoted last year, so now this is the next thing, trying to get up to the next one and putting in my time, and I'm really happy with how things are going, so - Oh, boy.
- Oh, nice.
I've never been in a dance environment without a family member.
I originally came to Ballet West to be with Rex.
I don't think either of us are very happy about the potential of us parting ways.
I got a contract.
I got a-- I got a contract.
Wow.
- First year? - First year apprentice.
- Dude That's awesome.
- Dude, thanks, man.
I was offered a company spot with Ballet West, and I'm super-thankful.
Hey, Ronald, what's this word? - It's demi-soloist.
- Yeah.
I was offered a demi-soloist contract for next year.
This'll be my third year as a demi-soloist.
Um, it's always good to know that you have a job.
- Money time, baby.
- Oh, God.
- Oh.
- Am I even-- I hope that contract renewals go well for me this year.
I want a promotion.
You know, I'm a soloist right now, and I've been a principal at other companies.
So I'm adamant about wanting a principal contract.
Hey, guys, did you get your letter? I will be here next year with you guys.
- You will? - Yeah.
You come into a company like Ballet West, and they'll make you pay your dues as a dancer.
But I'd love to be a principal in this company and make a bigger paycheck.
You know, it's business.
"First soloist.
" I don't even know what that's about.
- It's a pay raise, you know.
- Yeah.
- It is a pay raise.
- That's what it is.
I like money.
Adam offered me a position in the company as first soloist, but I was pissed off.
I'm doing principal roles.
I'm like, "Yeah, for real? Like, really?" You know, this is-- Yeah.
I want that entitlement.
What did you get, girl? I didn't get anything, it just-- it says I have a meeting with him.
I've nev-- I've never gotten one of those before.
I don't know what it means.
You think it's a good thing, or a bad thing? It's a very scary time, because you just really-- You never know until you get the letter or get the meeting.
Then you find out.
Every given year I have very few spots available.
If I'm going to promote the dancer, or if I'm not gonna renew a contract, I generally like to talk to them first.
Come in.
It's very important to impress Adam, because he has your career in his hands, and he could crush it or he could bring it up.
You know I've been watching your career for a while now, - yes? - Mm-hmm.
You know, you're pretty young, - and I want to be careful.
- Mm-hmm.
One of the things I don't want to do is push you too fast too soon.
You got a lot of work to do.
- Yes.
- Yeah? Well, you have those beautiful feet, and they-- They get a little sloppy sometimes - Uh-huh.
- So we got to work on that.
This is, what, your first professional job, yeah? - Yes.
- So I want to be very careful - and go slowly with you - Mm-hmm.
Because you have the potential to be a real major ballerina.
And I see role after role after role for you in the future.
And I think it's time to start moving up.
I think that for next year, I would like to make you a demi-soloist.
That means more responsibility.
You're gonna have to start becoming a role model, which is a hard thing to grasp when you're, you know Younger than a lot of other people and You know, I know.
Look, I don't want you to stop being a kid, but starting next year, I think it's the right place for you to be.
Keep up the good work.
- Thank you.
- Good.
Good.
Being 19 and a demi-soloist comes with a lot of responsibility.
I feel like I can really do this.
I'm ready for it.
- Hey, hi.
- What'd you get? - Demi-soloist.
- Yay! Well, I knew you were getting something.
It's not like he's gonna fire you.
- He's ready for you.
- Oh, okay.
- Whew.
Okay.
- Just breathe, it'll be fine.
I'll wait for you right here, whenever you come out.
- Okay.
- Good luck.
Thank you.
Crap.
I'm really nervous.
For the last three years in Salt Lake City, I've just done ballet night and day.
If my meeting goes as planned, then I will be promoted, which is a huge accomplishment.
I-- I really want it.
I really hope I get it.
You've had a good couple of years with Ballet West.
- Yeah.
- You've done so well.
You've grown a lot.
You're working hard, but I-- I need you to get a little stronger, you know? So now I've got to, um, make some big decisions.
Yeah, you do.
I don't think I'm gonna have a place for you in the company next year.
You've, um, um, worked really nicely in the corps.
You have a wonderful presence on stage, and, um, a wonderful, wonderful, uh, theatricality, - so, um - I always cry in here.
I know.
I know you do.
I mean, I really-- I really wish it were otherwise.
Okay, um I'll probably audition places.
Of course.
You have to.
You have to.
I'm happy to write letters of recommendation.
If you're auditioning for a company and I know the director, I'm happy to, you know, give a personal call on your behalf.
- Okay.
- I'm happy to do any of that.
Yeah, I'll probably let you know.
Yeah, do.
- All right, thanks.
- Okay.
Thanks, Katie.
- No.
- Oh, my God.
- - - It's gonna be okay.
- I know.
So I guess I'll-- Ooh.
I'll just kind of get myself together and-- Go get 'em.
Are you gonna tell Ron? Yeah, I kind of just feel like being alone right now.
- Oh.
- See you later.
Bye.
I don't really know what happened.
You feel like you've done everything right, and it just doesn't matter.
They just said no.
While I value Katie a great deal, I'm not sure that she has the potential to become a leading dancer of Ballet West.
Sucks.
I don't have a lot of roles to fill, and I have so many good dancers.
I don't want people to be frustrated, but I also have to look at what's best for the company.
- Hey.
- Hey.
Yeah, I didn't get it.
Do you want to go? Okay, let's get out of here.
Let's go.
This is one of the hardest decisions I've actually had to make.
I love the company itself.
Rex is here and Katie's leaving, so I have to pick, and I don't really want to do that.
Contract week is over, and I'm coming back, definitely.
Ronnie! We're all just gonna go relax and have some fun.
Oh, my God.
- - Ronnie! Allison, because she is so withholding with her relationship with me, we could be hanging out all day, and then all of a sudden we go out and it's like, "Who is this guy?" You know.
"I'm not here with him.
" I don't want to be a prop in the background.
- - I know, I'll take it off.
When Allison is talking with another guy, I'm not necessarily a jealous person, but I-- I think I do kind of shut down.
There's nothing I can do about it.
It's a really strange situation.
Rex and Allison have a unique relationship.
It's, um, very tumultuous.
- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - It wasn't such a good night with Rex.
I wanted to go out and have fun, and it just turned into No fun at all, so it kind of defeats the purpose of, like, wanting to go out and relax with your friends.
How is she doing? Like-- She still want to dance? Like, is she pretty excited - about the auditioning thing? - Oh, yeah, she's-- Yeah.
She is.
I mean, she's still broken up about it.
My dream was to have Katie and I in the company together.
That's not gonna happen, so, um, we're just trying to figure out how we're gonna make it work.
I know she can get a job somewhere else.
Like-- Oh, yeah.
I-- I think she can too.
I know she can.
Thank you, Ronaldo.
Right now, I'm training around the clock.
The whole company is.
We're doing three different ballets, and you have to, uh, be able to do it all and make it look easy, and your body has to be okay with that.
That's it.
Rex Tilton has it all.
He's tall, he is handsome, he has a good, strong technique, and he can partner well.
- Yeah.
- In the ballet world, men who have all of those attributes are a commodity, but sometimes Rex lets his personal life interfere with his professional work.
[Bleep.]
! Sorry.
It starts getting, like, falling like this after the second one.
If Rex is hurting, I really need him to tell me that, because we're in this thing together, and I always want to know what's going on with my partners.
- No.
- Oh, no.
- I'm sorry.
Look, I'm sorry.
- Don't be sorry.
- I feel like I was [bleep.]
up left and right.
- It's fine.
- I'm sorry.
- Don't worry about it.
- It's difficult to maintain, like, a healthy friendship with Allison.
I do love her a lot, but, um Um, it's really pain-- It's really painful because of the situation, I guess.
It's a little bit weird today.
I'm not gonna lie.
Maybe I'm expecting a little too much, but it might be easier if we didn't hang out, if Allison and I didn't hang out.
Let's just put it that way.
I am so excited about being promoted to demi-soloist.
It's really rare for a dancer to be promoted her first year in the company, and I feel like that's what makes it so exciting, is just knowing that this doesn't happen every day.
It's really scary, but you know, I feel like the time has come, and I'm ready for it.
I feel like because it is my first year in the company that it is kind of my job to be very, very professional and prove myself to everyone before I can start, you know, maybe talking to the people in the higher ranks.
I just need to establish myself first.
- - - Am I doing that? - What? Oh, okay, I thought you, like, saw-- No, this foot's starting to look like your foot.
Oh, fat and puffy? I'm sorry.
Allison is bitchy.
Like, she has an attitude.
She's gonna say exactly what she wants to, even if it's probably not the right thing.
You can balance forever on fat feet.
I think it's really important to keep poker face in rehearsals whenever you're feeling really stressed out and upset about things.
Personally, I think it's, you know, unprofessional to let everyone in the workplace see how you're feeling.
Everybody in ballet has their own individual path.
Some people shoot up the ladder much quicker than other people, and some people don't.
Some people have to fight tooth and nail for everything they get.
So Beckanne, being a demi-soloist at 19, she's on a accelerated path, but there are also other people who are working just as hard who maybe haven't gotten the chance that she has.
- I'm so hungry.
- Me, too.
- Hi.
- Thank you.
Oh, yummy.
Oh, my gosh.
This looks delicious.
- Ugh! - Oh, I'm gonna miss this next year.
Hopefully, I'll be able to go somewhere close, and we can commute back and forth.
I hope it's close, because I will come visit you on the weekends, and then you can come up.
Whatever, I'll probably see you more than I s-- I am absolutely terrified about starting a new chapter in my life.
I mean, most places, when they fire you, you finish out the week and you're done.
Here I have to finish out two more months, and it's just torturous.
- I don't like this at all.
- Mm-mm.
Oh, I know.
I don't know who I'm gonna hang out with next year.
At least you get to start with, like, a clean slate, though.
You know? I know, but it's so hard to make friends.
Yes, but think about it.
You have the potential to make more friends than just one.
You know? I know, maybe I'll get my number up.
Maybe you-- See, I'm just gonna lose my friend.
So I'm gonna be back to zero.
It's just like no one even has the potential to be a close friend, like-- like us.
I know, they're-- They're a little standoffish.
But I'm nice.
I'm not mean.
No, you're not mean.
It's just, you're so talented, it's intimidating to people.
Yeah.
But shouldn't my personality, like, outshine that? It should.
It should, but girls will be girls.
I just feel like they don't even give me a chance, really.
It's just automatically, "Oh, she's, like, the little bitch that's taking our parts.
" It's just really awkward.
Some people will never be able to dance a principal role in their lives, and you're able to do that at, what, 19? People, they just-- They're intimidated by you, and they don't understand that you're just a normal person.
Just because you're a freak at ballet doesn't mean you're a freak in everyday life.
I like that.
I like that statement.
A little.
I hate packing.
I'll pack my dance stuff first, because that's important, right? Yeah.
So where are you flying in to? - Boise, Idaho.
- Nice.
I'm gonna do Idaho Ballet.
And hopefully, they'll just be like, "Yes, we want you!" Since my contract was not renewed, I will be auditioning, and the audition process is up to the ballerina as an individual to go out there, to spend your own money, spend your own time, and audition.
I'm gonna miss you.
Miss you too.
It's just a quick weekend, though, so that's good.
- Yeah.
- I can't say I'm looking forward to auditioning, because of all the planning and the organizing.
It's a lot of money.
Okay.
But my job is to put a smile on my face and work hard, and that's what I need to do.
- You get to carry my suitcase.
- Oh.
Why, thank you.
Yeah.
All right, well Let's go.
We're supposed to do what we're supposed to do, you know? Ballet, life.
Wake up And watching Katie leave makes it really hard to do those things.
- What? - I know, right? God.
- Thank you.
- You're welcome.
Hmm.
Bye.
- I'm gonna miss you.
- I'm gonna miss you too.
- Okay, bye.
- Bye.
You're gonna do great.
See you later.
Bye.
I'm gonna make it work with Katie.
No matter what.
Next on Breaking Pointe And go.
Ballet can be pretty incestual.
There is a level of intimacy that you're always gonna have with a partner.
There's a lot of relationships within the company.
I'm so sick of sitting in these rehearsals.
I've offered contracts to all the dancers I want returning next year.
Still waiting for two more.
I have not signed my Ballet West contract.
I'm disappointed I haven't gotten promoted to principal.
Ballet is definitely a relationship.
I mean, it makes you happy, it makes you sad, it makes you pissed off.
- I have something to tell you.
- Yeah? Kind of want to get it off my chest.
Ballet has a beauty unlike anything else I know.
But there's another side that no one ever sees.
We train more hours than an olympic athlete.
We suffer physical pain and shocking injuries.
In a cutthroat world with fierce competition.
There is rivalry and relationships.
Do I think everyone belongs? Probably not.
To be the best, it takes passion, sacrifice, and obsession.
Why do we do it? We do it for that one chance To have that one single moment onstage when everything comes together.
We do it to be perfect.
My name is Adam Sklute, and I'm the artistic director of Ballet West.
We're one of the leading ballet companies in the country, but I want to be at the top.
To get there, I need to put the most beautiful and powerful dancers on the stage every night.
People say getting here is the hardest thing in the world, but staying here is even harder.
- - - I'm Beckanne.
I was 13 when people realized that I had what it took to be a ballet dancer.
Most dancers don't do principal roles until they're 25, 24, but I'm 19, and it's my first year in a company, and I'm already getting to do my dream roles.
I'm Ronald.
I'm 19 years old.
I come from a big ballet family.
I have seven brothers and sisters, and five of us are still dancing.
My brother Rex is here in the company with me, which is really awesome.
But it's so confusing.
My name is Allison, and I'm 28 years old.
I hate saying that I'm choosing ballet over love, but I guess I am.
I'm Ronnie, I'm 30 years old, and I'm the most unlikely ballet dancer you will ever meet.
I build old hotrods.
Um, I had about 14 cars, I have three motorcycles.
I'm a gearhead, through and through.
I'm Christiana.
I'm 32 years old.
I was 19 years old when I started with Ballet West, and I have worked my way up through the ranks to become one of the premier dancers in the company.
Perfection is something you should always, always strive for.
There's always something that can be done better, executed cleaner.
My name's Katie.
I am 23 years old.
My boyfriend Ronald's very much a guy's guy.
A lot of my other boyfriends have been more girly than he is, and Ronald does ballet.
So Ron and Katie, have you guys had your meetings scheduled yet, for-- - No, not really.
- Like, your talks? No.
I'm antsy, though.
I just want to know.
In the ballet world, contracts are just one year at a time, and it's hire or fire.
They will either continue to promote you and move you through the ranks, or you're gone.
Contracts are about to come out, and it's kind of a big deal.
A lot of people are freaking out, including me.
Like, what would it be like if you didn't get a contract - after being here? - Last place I was at, my meeting was, "So you're thinking about auditioning?" So it was like, I kind of knew, like, immediately.
- That's scary, though.
- It is scary.
It's scary.
It's scary.
I-- Yeah.
Just tell me.
It's audition season, I need to get the ball rolling.
Yeah, if we do need to go, we gotta go now.
I mean, I went through that at Pittsburgh.
My family lives there, I thought that's what I wanted so bad, was to get a job there, and I did think that the whole time, and when I didn't, I was, like, disappointed, but hopefully, you guys are here, because you've definitely become part of the group.
Katie's my first true love.
It was a little scary to find out that I was actually in love.
I just want to be with her all the time.
I don't like when I'm not with her.
Do you think you'll get promoted this year? I hope I get some kind of promotion, yeah.
I don't want to be stagnant in the water.
I want to be, like, kicking and moving, so I-- I want something.
What about you, Christiana? Well, you know, it's just different, because I've been here for so long that I kind of get a two-year notice if I'm not gonna get a contract, so don't have to worry about that - for the next two years.
- I'm glad you're gonna be here.
So yeah, take it from me, who's dancing on borrowed time, like, you just have to take every day and really leave it in the studio, because if you don't, then you've wasted the day.
We've just got a couple minutes.
Let's go work.
Let's go work.
Shall we try it from the beginning? Christiana is the prima ballerina of this company, and when the prima ballerina is rehearsing or performing, you stay as quiet as possible.
It's a respect thing.
You need to stay out of her way.
That's right.
Bah, dah-dah-dah-dah dah-dum.
Christiana is the ultimate performer.
It's amazing to watch her, because she'll work hard, and you'll never know.
It's like, she's wincing in pain inside, but you'll never see it on her face.
I think that's amazing.
That's it, Christiana.
Bup, ya, da-da-da-da-- Good.
Being a prima ballerina, it's everything that ballet is, and that perfection and being that perfect all the time, not just as a dancer, but as a human being, it's a lot to live up to.
Christiana's the prima.
She's what we're all striving to be, and she's so nice, yet she still has this air about her that's just very intimidating.
That's it.
And one arm to-- Good.
Yeah, yeah, good.
Yeah? Good.
Beckanne is going.
Ballet is one of those things that you can't give yourself halfway to it.
You just have to give it all.
Yeah, that's beautiful.
That's beautiful.
My driving ambition is to become a principal dancer, so I do feel the pressure to be "A-game" at all times.
- Oh.
- Nice.
That's lovely.
There's a phenomenon that can come around sometimes that just blows everybody out of the water, like, 19 years old, Beckanne.
They probably want to put glass in her pointe shoes, you know? Ballet is very competitive, so I do feel that there's a little breath on the back of my neck every once in a while.
When I was younger, I remember thinking, "I just get this one chance, and she's outta here.
" You know, "I could take her place," so there is always somebody waiting in the wings.
Can we do a little lead in into the second girls' variation? Tomorrow I will be, uh, handing out contracts, and I need to take one more look at everyone.
It's a stressful time for them, because they've got to keep their mind on their work, but they're also being evaluated for the future.
They're nervous, because they want to know, some of them, are they gonna get renewed at all? We get our contracts tomorrow, so we know at that time whether we still have a job, or we don't have a job.
Six, present the heel.
Two, yeah And of course you want to impress your boss.
That's the nature of, like, the environment we're in.
It's in Adam's hands.
The nature of my work as an artistic director is to make difficult decisions about the entire company, and I often have to make decisions that my dancers don't like.
Right now What's been keeping me awake at night is contract renewals - It's that time of the year.
- Promotions, and we only have so many places in the company.
- It's hard on them.
- Yeah.
- Yeah.
- It's hard on them.
- But the best recipe - Mm-hmm.
For creating a hard-working and well-functioning dancer and artist is if all the dancers know that they are special Mm-hmm.
But also that they're expendable.
- This is good.
- Yeah, it's tasty.
- Are my bangs clumping? - Yeah.
That stupid center part is killing them.
No, I just love you more.
Thank you.
- Oh, Monday night.
- How are you feeling? I'm just nervous.
I've been uneasy about this all year.
We all have.
I mean, I feel like Adam likes me, - but I just want to know.
- Yeah.
Yeah.
Even if it's a "no.
" Just tell me.
- Yeah.
- Yeah, I haven't slept much - the past couple of days.
- Me either.
Katie is, uh, one of the sweetest people I've ever met.
I want her to get a job.
I want her to get a review in The New York Times.
I want all these things, just because she deserves it.
What about you? - I don't know, it's kind of-- - He likes you a lot.
- It's okay.
- Well, like, he likes me, but, like, it's-- You know, I also came in with-- different circumstances.
- True.
- You know, like, he already knew our family, like, he knew Rex.
You know, he's been here for a couple years already.
I don't know, I-- I'm just gonna be happy if I get a job.
Contract time is very nerve-wracking, because your life's in that piece of paper.
If the contract's positive, then you're staying here, but if that piece of paper says otherwise, you're gone.
But hopefully, we will both get contracts here, and we'll live happily ever after.
There's a very real possibility that Ronald and I will not be in the same city next year.
Theoretically, we will be torn apart and on different sides of the country.
It's a really helpless situation.
- We'll be okay.
- Yeah.
Hello, brother.
I came to Salt Lake, super-excited to be with Rex.
I got a job, but a big appeal of it was I could live with my brother.
So hopefully we can get a contract for next year so we can stay together.
- Now we're champions.
- We're wearing the same shirt.
We're wearing the same shirt.
Rex is very passionate, and I think sometimes that's misunderstood, but he has a huge heart.
Yeah, I heard that too.
Ronald is very tall for a ballet dancer.
He's kind of built like a football player or a basketball player, but he makes his body work.
He's very graceful, and he moves very well.
Same with his brother Rex.
- How are you feeling? - Sore.
- We got to bed kind of late.
Before Allison and I started dating, she was always someone that you could talk to.
She's really up front, too.
She speaks her mind, so I kind of like that.
- - I see a future for Allison and I.
I don't see much of it, um, because there's so many things in the way, but, uh, I truly do.
Okay, let's start.
16 swings and a port de bras.
Ready? And Very slowly now.
The best way to explain my relationship with Rex is complicated.
And we go And a first, and fifth, and a first.
Him and I have had a really long, strange, not-defined relationship.
Long hands.
Shorten at the wrist.
Yeah.
I was really intimidated by Beckanne when she first came here.
I think I really wanted to not like her, but she's so nice.
You almost wish that someone with that much talent was a brat, because then you would feel better - about being jealous.
- And Up.
Lengthen the lower backs.
Because of all the competition, being in a ballet company, friendships just don't come as easily.
Good friends like Katie are very hard to find in a company.
And If Katie's not here next year, I don't know what I'm gonna do.
I'm gonna have to find some new friends.
Good.
Good, good, good.
Thank you very much, ladies and gentlemen.
Oh, thank you.
Ow.
Did you run into the door? I may like to see you in these.
It's been clear to me that Allison has had issues with commitment.
The perfect situation with Allison would be that she made a conscious decision to be with me.
What, you don't want to get anything for yourself? No, this is for you.
I'm doing this for my friend.
Rex is a fantastic friend.
As a boyfriend, I'm sure he would be a great boyfriend.
Now I know how you feel whenever I'm trying on a bunch of clothes.
At least I pretend to have fun.
- You're not even trying.
- Yeah, but I look good in everything I try on, so-- - Because I tell you you look good.
- I better shut-- Right now, as far as thinking about getting in a relationship with Rex-- In, like, a very committed relationship, I know that right now I just can't do that.
Girls are gonna love you in those orange pants.
- Girls? - Yeah.
And it's not because I don't think Rex would be a good person to get into a relationship with, 'cause he would be, I just-- For me, I'm not in that place, um, where I'm ready to do that yet, 'cause I feel like I'm in a very selfish, like, stage of life.
All right, I think this is it so far.
Okay.
Let's go.
- Are you happy with your choices? - I'm very happy.
So you go in a circle, and up, and up-- Yeah, and that's where you need to really plie and so chasse into it a little bit more.
One more time.
The ranks in a ballet company are very set, but contract-wise, I can mix it up as much as I see fit.
And I think that that's really important, to keep a company moving and to keep a company alive.
And Bah.
Good.
Energy in the bottom leg.
Pop it.
Bah! That's it.
That's so nice when you do that.
There is a social hierarchy.
You join the corps de ballet, which is the large group, made up of both male and females.
Okay, let's stop.
Let's stop.
Let's stop.
Demi-soloist is next, and that's your first stepping stone, where there's something about you that makes you stand out from the corps.
- Good.
- From demi-soloist, you progress to soloist, and you start being more featured, and you get a little bit more attention.
Yeah, yeah.
And once you've gone through that, you are rewarded with principal.
One, and Yeah.
And principal is usually the highest title you can get in a ballet company.
I don't know, man.
I've been thinking.
I'm like a-- I'm not a class girl.
Like, I'm a-- I mean, I'm classy, but, like, I'm a performer, you know? - Wait, I-- - Like, I suck in class every day, but, like, when I'm on stage, like, it's okay.
I've been up since 5:00 in the morning, because I couldn't sleep because I was so nervous.
I have my meeting with Adam, and it's tonight.
I have to wait all day, which is just killing me, too.
I couldn't pay attention in ballet class today.
I didn't know a single combination.
If I were to put my dancing on a scale from 1 to 10 today, 10 being the best, I'm, like, a negative 12.
I cannot pull it together.
[Bleep.]
! I'm a new artist, which is what you're called when you're a first-year.
It's like the beginning of the corps.
So I'm technically not even a corps dancer.
I'm not the best at those.
I just can't remember more than one thing at a time.
I even messed up plies, and we got to do our own.
Because I've only been here a year, technically, next year I'm supposed to be in the corps.
I hope to have a bright future here, and I'd love to stay and see myself do more principal roles.
I don't know, I left my dancing brain at home.
My dancing brain is at home in bed.
They're here.
They're finally here.
At this time, contracts time, it's crazy.
It's hard sometimes, because your friends are your competition, and that's just something that is never gonna change.
What does your guys' say? The same? - What you expected? - Yeah.
- Yeah, yeah.
- Christiana is a Megatron's principal now.
It says "Megatron.
" Isn't that weird? It's the highest level of principal status in the United States.
Megatron? Being principal means that I have the recognition, and I've achieved this status, if you will, but it's-- It's not comfortable.
I feel that my next step is just being better and dancing stronger, and never become complacent.
All right, what does yours say? - Demi-soloist.
Yeah.
- Good.
I still get super-frustrated when I look around the room, and I see these people who are my age, and they're principals or they're soloists.
I'm totally happy.
I mean, I got promoted last year, so now this is the next thing, trying to get up to the next one and putting in my time, and I'm really happy with how things are going, so - Oh, boy.
- Oh, nice.
I've never been in a dance environment without a family member.
I originally came to Ballet West to be with Rex.
I don't think either of us are very happy about the potential of us parting ways.
I got a contract.
I got a-- I got a contract.
Wow.
- First year? - First year apprentice.
- Dude That's awesome.
- Dude, thanks, man.
I was offered a company spot with Ballet West, and I'm super-thankful.
Hey, Ronald, what's this word? - It's demi-soloist.
- Yeah.
I was offered a demi-soloist contract for next year.
This'll be my third year as a demi-soloist.
Um, it's always good to know that you have a job.
- Money time, baby.
- Oh, God.
- Oh.
- Am I even-- I hope that contract renewals go well for me this year.
I want a promotion.
You know, I'm a soloist right now, and I've been a principal at other companies.
So I'm adamant about wanting a principal contract.
Hey, guys, did you get your letter? I will be here next year with you guys.
- You will? - Yeah.
You come into a company like Ballet West, and they'll make you pay your dues as a dancer.
But I'd love to be a principal in this company and make a bigger paycheck.
You know, it's business.
"First soloist.
" I don't even know what that's about.
- It's a pay raise, you know.
- Yeah.
- It is a pay raise.
- That's what it is.
I like money.
Adam offered me a position in the company as first soloist, but I was pissed off.
I'm doing principal roles.
I'm like, "Yeah, for real? Like, really?" You know, this is-- Yeah.
I want that entitlement.
What did you get, girl? I didn't get anything, it just-- it says I have a meeting with him.
I've nev-- I've never gotten one of those before.
I don't know what it means.
You think it's a good thing, or a bad thing? It's a very scary time, because you just really-- You never know until you get the letter or get the meeting.
Then you find out.
Every given year I have very few spots available.
If I'm going to promote the dancer, or if I'm not gonna renew a contract, I generally like to talk to them first.
Come in.
It's very important to impress Adam, because he has your career in his hands, and he could crush it or he could bring it up.
You know I've been watching your career for a while now, - yes? - Mm-hmm.
You know, you're pretty young, - and I want to be careful.
- Mm-hmm.
One of the things I don't want to do is push you too fast too soon.
You got a lot of work to do.
- Yes.
- Yeah? Well, you have those beautiful feet, and they-- They get a little sloppy sometimes - Uh-huh.
- So we got to work on that.
This is, what, your first professional job, yeah? - Yes.
- So I want to be very careful - and go slowly with you - Mm-hmm.
Because you have the potential to be a real major ballerina.
And I see role after role after role for you in the future.
And I think it's time to start moving up.
I think that for next year, I would like to make you a demi-soloist.
That means more responsibility.
You're gonna have to start becoming a role model, which is a hard thing to grasp when you're, you know Younger than a lot of other people and You know, I know.
Look, I don't want you to stop being a kid, but starting next year, I think it's the right place for you to be.
Keep up the good work.
- Thank you.
- Good.
Good.
Being 19 and a demi-soloist comes with a lot of responsibility.
I feel like I can really do this.
I'm ready for it.
- Hey, hi.
- What'd you get? - Demi-soloist.
- Yay! Well, I knew you were getting something.
It's not like he's gonna fire you.
- He's ready for you.
- Oh, okay.
- Whew.
Okay.
- Just breathe, it'll be fine.
I'll wait for you right here, whenever you come out.
- Okay.
- Good luck.
Thank you.
Crap.
I'm really nervous.
For the last three years in Salt Lake City, I've just done ballet night and day.
If my meeting goes as planned, then I will be promoted, which is a huge accomplishment.
I-- I really want it.
I really hope I get it.
You've had a good couple of years with Ballet West.
- Yeah.
- You've done so well.
You've grown a lot.
You're working hard, but I-- I need you to get a little stronger, you know? So now I've got to, um, make some big decisions.
Yeah, you do.
I don't think I'm gonna have a place for you in the company next year.
You've, um, um, worked really nicely in the corps.
You have a wonderful presence on stage, and, um, a wonderful, wonderful, uh, theatricality, - so, um - I always cry in here.
I know.
I know you do.
I mean, I really-- I really wish it were otherwise.
Okay, um I'll probably audition places.
Of course.
You have to.
You have to.
I'm happy to write letters of recommendation.
If you're auditioning for a company and I know the director, I'm happy to, you know, give a personal call on your behalf.
- Okay.
- I'm happy to do any of that.
Yeah, I'll probably let you know.
Yeah, do.
- All right, thanks.
- Okay.
Thanks, Katie.
- No.
- Oh, my God.
- - - It's gonna be okay.
- I know.
So I guess I'll-- Ooh.
I'll just kind of get myself together and-- Go get 'em.
Are you gonna tell Ron? Yeah, I kind of just feel like being alone right now.
- Oh.
- See you later.
Bye.
I don't really know what happened.
You feel like you've done everything right, and it just doesn't matter.
They just said no.
While I value Katie a great deal, I'm not sure that she has the potential to become a leading dancer of Ballet West.
Sucks.
I don't have a lot of roles to fill, and I have so many good dancers.
I don't want people to be frustrated, but I also have to look at what's best for the company.
- Hey.
- Hey.
Yeah, I didn't get it.
Do you want to go? Okay, let's get out of here.
Let's go.
This is one of the hardest decisions I've actually had to make.
I love the company itself.
Rex is here and Katie's leaving, so I have to pick, and I don't really want to do that.
Contract week is over, and I'm coming back, definitely.
Ronnie! We're all just gonna go relax and have some fun.
Oh, my God.
- - Ronnie! Allison, because she is so withholding with her relationship with me, we could be hanging out all day, and then all of a sudden we go out and it's like, "Who is this guy?" You know.
"I'm not here with him.
" I don't want to be a prop in the background.
- - I know, I'll take it off.
When Allison is talking with another guy, I'm not necessarily a jealous person, but I-- I think I do kind of shut down.
There's nothing I can do about it.
It's a really strange situation.
Rex and Allison have a unique relationship.
It's, um, very tumultuous.
- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - It wasn't such a good night with Rex.
I wanted to go out and have fun, and it just turned into No fun at all, so it kind of defeats the purpose of, like, wanting to go out and relax with your friends.
How is she doing? Like-- She still want to dance? Like, is she pretty excited - about the auditioning thing? - Oh, yeah, she's-- Yeah.
She is.
I mean, she's still broken up about it.
My dream was to have Katie and I in the company together.
That's not gonna happen, so, um, we're just trying to figure out how we're gonna make it work.
I know she can get a job somewhere else.
Like-- Oh, yeah.
I-- I think she can too.
I know she can.
Thank you, Ronaldo.
Right now, I'm training around the clock.
The whole company is.
We're doing three different ballets, and you have to, uh, be able to do it all and make it look easy, and your body has to be okay with that.
That's it.
Rex Tilton has it all.
He's tall, he is handsome, he has a good, strong technique, and he can partner well.
- Yeah.
- In the ballet world, men who have all of those attributes are a commodity, but sometimes Rex lets his personal life interfere with his professional work.
[Bleep.]
! Sorry.
It starts getting, like, falling like this after the second one.
If Rex is hurting, I really need him to tell me that, because we're in this thing together, and I always want to know what's going on with my partners.
- No.
- Oh, no.
- I'm sorry.
Look, I'm sorry.
- Don't be sorry.
- I feel like I was [bleep.]
up left and right.
- It's fine.
- I'm sorry.
- Don't worry about it.
- It's difficult to maintain, like, a healthy friendship with Allison.
I do love her a lot, but, um Um, it's really pain-- It's really painful because of the situation, I guess.
It's a little bit weird today.
I'm not gonna lie.
Maybe I'm expecting a little too much, but it might be easier if we didn't hang out, if Allison and I didn't hang out.
Let's just put it that way.
I am so excited about being promoted to demi-soloist.
It's really rare for a dancer to be promoted her first year in the company, and I feel like that's what makes it so exciting, is just knowing that this doesn't happen every day.
It's really scary, but you know, I feel like the time has come, and I'm ready for it.
I feel like because it is my first year in the company that it is kind of my job to be very, very professional and prove myself to everyone before I can start, you know, maybe talking to the people in the higher ranks.
I just need to establish myself first.
- - - Am I doing that? - What? Oh, okay, I thought you, like, saw-- No, this foot's starting to look like your foot.
Oh, fat and puffy? I'm sorry.
Allison is bitchy.
Like, she has an attitude.
She's gonna say exactly what she wants to, even if it's probably not the right thing.
You can balance forever on fat feet.
I think it's really important to keep poker face in rehearsals whenever you're feeling really stressed out and upset about things.
Personally, I think it's, you know, unprofessional to let everyone in the workplace see how you're feeling.
Everybody in ballet has their own individual path.
Some people shoot up the ladder much quicker than other people, and some people don't.
Some people have to fight tooth and nail for everything they get.
So Beckanne, being a demi-soloist at 19, she's on a accelerated path, but there are also other people who are working just as hard who maybe haven't gotten the chance that she has.
- I'm so hungry.
- Me, too.
- Hi.
- Thank you.
Oh, yummy.
Oh, my gosh.
This looks delicious.
- Ugh! - Oh, I'm gonna miss this next year.
Hopefully, I'll be able to go somewhere close, and we can commute back and forth.
I hope it's close, because I will come visit you on the weekends, and then you can come up.
Whatever, I'll probably see you more than I s-- I am absolutely terrified about starting a new chapter in my life.
I mean, most places, when they fire you, you finish out the week and you're done.
Here I have to finish out two more months, and it's just torturous.
- I don't like this at all.
- Mm-mm.
Oh, I know.
I don't know who I'm gonna hang out with next year.
At least you get to start with, like, a clean slate, though.
You know? I know, but it's so hard to make friends.
Yes, but think about it.
You have the potential to make more friends than just one.
You know? I know, maybe I'll get my number up.
Maybe you-- See, I'm just gonna lose my friend.
So I'm gonna be back to zero.
It's just like no one even has the potential to be a close friend, like-- like us.
I know, they're-- They're a little standoffish.
But I'm nice.
I'm not mean.
No, you're not mean.
It's just, you're so talented, it's intimidating to people.
Yeah.
But shouldn't my personality, like, outshine that? It should.
It should, but girls will be girls.
I just feel like they don't even give me a chance, really.
It's just automatically, "Oh, she's, like, the little bitch that's taking our parts.
" It's just really awkward.
Some people will never be able to dance a principal role in their lives, and you're able to do that at, what, 19? People, they just-- They're intimidated by you, and they don't understand that you're just a normal person.
Just because you're a freak at ballet doesn't mean you're a freak in everyday life.
I like that.
I like that statement.
A little.
I hate packing.
I'll pack my dance stuff first, because that's important, right? Yeah.
So where are you flying in to? - Boise, Idaho.
- Nice.
I'm gonna do Idaho Ballet.
And hopefully, they'll just be like, "Yes, we want you!" Since my contract was not renewed, I will be auditioning, and the audition process is up to the ballerina as an individual to go out there, to spend your own money, spend your own time, and audition.
I'm gonna miss you.
Miss you too.
It's just a quick weekend, though, so that's good.
- Yeah.
- I can't say I'm looking forward to auditioning, because of all the planning and the organizing.
It's a lot of money.
Okay.
But my job is to put a smile on my face and work hard, and that's what I need to do.
- You get to carry my suitcase.
- Oh.
Why, thank you.
Yeah.
All right, well Let's go.
We're supposed to do what we're supposed to do, you know? Ballet, life.
Wake up And watching Katie leave makes it really hard to do those things.
- What? - I know, right? God.
- Thank you.
- You're welcome.
Hmm.
Bye.
- I'm gonna miss you.
- I'm gonna miss you too.
- Okay, bye.
- Bye.
You're gonna do great.
See you later.
Bye.
I'm gonna make it work with Katie.
No matter what.
Next on Breaking Pointe And go.
Ballet can be pretty incestual.
There is a level of intimacy that you're always gonna have with a partner.
There's a lot of relationships within the company.
I'm so sick of sitting in these rehearsals.
I've offered contracts to all the dancers I want returning next year.
Still waiting for two more.
I have not signed my Ballet West contract.
I'm disappointed I haven't gotten promoted to principal.
Ballet is definitely a relationship.
I mean, it makes you happy, it makes you sad, it makes you pissed off.
- I have something to tell you.
- Yeah? Kind of want to get it off my chest.