Always Jane (2021) s01e03 Episode Script

1
[music playing]
[Jane] We're home.
[Laura] Come on!
I'm freezing.
Good boy.
[door opens]
[Jane] Hi.
[Gabriel] Hi.
- How are you?
- Oh, my God.
- So good to see you, honey.
- You too.
I heard you got a job, huh?
A job?
Yeah, the modeling thing?
You're gonna work
as a model, right?
I mean, we'll see.
Don't know for sure yet.
You still gotta finish
high school, though, right?
Exactly, yeah.
L.A. was really nice.
- I missed you.
- I missed you too.
How have you been?
I'm good. Your dad took
good care of me.
Are we all here?
Yeah.
- Hi.
- Hi.
- Hi, honey.
- How are you?
Oh, my God!
So good to see you.
I missed you.
Mwah. I missed you.
[crickets chirping]
[indistinct chatter]
[Jane] Everyone's in bed
right now.
I'm
eating my dad's
chicken salad.
And this little bread thing.
I love you, L.A.
I had a great time.
Um
Time to go back to
school, I guess.
Back to regular life.
It was fun to be a model
for a good week.
Good night.
And that's me,
my normal self,
which is on my phone.
And then suddenly, like,
Ka-bam, bitch.
I look so good.
It's so weird, because I went
from my small town,
went across the country and did
photoshoots and everything.
Did this whole competition,
and then I was just like right
back to where I started.
Which is fine. I knew that
was gonna happen.
But I was just like
I do not wanna
be here right now.
[keyboard clacking]
I'm gonna be on the Slay
website now,
and, I don't know,
I think I might be able
to get some modeling jobs.
I'm not really sure yet.
Here's Ally.
So here's
Ooh, it's
[indistinct]
I miss them, all my
Slay girls.
[laughter]
I can't do it.
Uhh!
[laughter]
[Jane] Since coming back
from L.A.,
and being in Sparta,
it just feels so much
smaller to me.
I was doing so many
amazing things,
and it was so much fun,
and I met so many cool
people.
I just miss that
excitement, I guess.
This shit is disgusting!
Get down the fucking drain,
you little
Get in there!
[indistinct]
[David] You giving her a bath?
- Yeah.
- Huh?
The sink? I'm giving her
a bath.
[David] You're enjoying it, huh?
Not really.
[woman talking on TV]
[doorbell rings]
[dogs barking]
- Morning.
- Hi.
[screams]
[barking continues]
Shut up!
Thanks!
Please get down.
- Now.
- [laughs]
[music playing in car]
[laughing, shouting]
[indistinct chatter]
[Jane] Hi, Ashley.
[music playing]
[laughing, chatting]
Ow.
[Jane] What are you doing?
[laughing]
Soaking fucking wet!
So my school locked
my friend's car in!
[Jane]
It's March 2nd,
and the competition
it's been, like, two weeks.
It's really no one's business,
but I'm gonna have my surgery.
My confirmation surgery.
About the surgery.
The date is June 17th.
And
My whole life is gonna change.
It's just I've been
waiting for it.
It's been, like,
five years now.
And I've wanted it so bad
and for so long,
Now that it's happening,
it's just It just doesn't
feel real.
I feel like someone needs to
like, pinch me or something.
But I'm really excited.
[man on TV] now more than
100 people have fallen ill,
raising concerns that
the virus might spread
to surrounding areas.
At least four states,
including Oregon and Ohio,
have now ordered
all schools closed
while other states are
considering similar measures.
[Jane] Good morning.
Morning Mae.
[indistinct]
[Jane] We're in quarantine.
It's Tuesday.
March 17th.
And it's 10:00.
[woman on TV] As the federal
government races to respond,
the nation's top infectious
disease expert
is sounding the alarm over
a lack of testing
So I don't have school
for two weeks.
I mean, I still have school.
We're doing online classes.
Now I just
do the work.
[Jane] What are you making?
[Laura] Pizza dough.
[indistinct chatter]
I need help.
I'm bored.
[vacuum cleaner whirring]
[whirring stops]
[Laura] Hey, what happened?
[blows]
I don't gotta do shit.
Morning, Jidu.
- Sleep good?
- I did. Did you?
Oh!
You just looked at me.
[man on TV] At the White House
press briefing today,
the president stated that the
situation is under control.
Meanwhile, hospitals
across the nation
- Hey!
- Hey.
Why is it so dark in here?
Put on a light.
What are you making?
Cookies.
Get a spoon.
Literally use this.
Just scoop it out like this
and then put
- What the hell is that?
- Is that too big?
That's gonna be
a gnarly cookie.
Jane!
Stop!
I'm helping.
Mmm!
Sorry.
Right in my ear!
That's good. Wait, am I gonna
get, like
what is it? Sem sem
I can't even say it. Salmonella?
Jidu, I made cookies.
Oh, cookies. I'm not
gonna have cookies now.
But I made them for you.
- You made them for me?
- For you. Special for you.
From scratch.
Okay. I'll put them
someplace.
Mae's a very smart girl.
She gets straight As in school.
I have a family here that
people wish they had.
I always tell Laura,
I say, "You know, honey,
you were sent to me
from heaven."
I'm gonna start crying.
I'm very sentimental
in that respect, you know that?
You should let your emotions
out, right?
Well, that's me.
You really need to get
your nails done.
These are atrocious.
Nothing's open.
I cold do them if Mom
let me get a drill.
The only good thing
out of this is that
Emma's coming home.
So that's gonna be fun.
We haven't seen her
in so long.
She's gonna hate it so much.
[Jane] Emma?
What are you doing?
Thought you said you didn't
have homework.
I don't. I'm just practicing
some stuff.
[playing ukulele]
[David] It's official.
New Jersey schools are
closed for the rest of the year.
[Laura groans]
I thought he was gonna
The year? Like, 2020?
[David] Well, the academic year.
I thought he was gonna say,
"It's official.
We're all going back."
"It's official, the nail
salons are open!"
[groans]
[Jane] Stupid fucking virus.
It might affect my surgery
which sucks.
I mean, nothing's happened
yet, but
there's a good chance that
if things get worse, that it
might be pushed back.
Which is so annoying.
I just want it done.
I want it over with and done.
I'm just so tired of waiting.
[Jane] Did the doctor
get back to you?
What'd they say?
[Laura] Nothing. They just said
you'll be getting a package
in the mail soon, so
[Jane] So it's still on?
I just hope it's not cancelled.
That all I think.
If it is, we'll roll
with the punches, okay?
I just hate life right now.
I feel like I'm being a
spoiled bitch or something,
or like I'm just being a stupid
teenager or whatever,
but I fucking hate it.
I hate everything right now.
I hate that I'm like, only
thinking
Like, I'm just, like
"Calm down, bitch.
We got you on your
fucking surgery."
But like, bitch, I'm this
fucking close.
This close, bitch,
and then a whole pandemic
breaks out.
Oh my God!
Of course this happens to me.
But then again like, people are
dying so I'm like
It's not good.
It's really bad.
And it's scary. Like,
it's not fucking funny.
And it's not a joke,
it's fucking scary.
[ringing]
Hello?
[Jane]
Hello.
- Hi.
- I just miss my friends.
It was, like, the day before
New Jersey
technically went on lockdown.
And then I texted him,
and I was, like,
I don't think I should
see him anymore. [laughs]
Why did you say that?
It's so mean.
Like, he was, like,
"Are you breaking up with me?"
I was like, "No, I just don't
think I should
physically see you anymore."
He was like
[laughter]
[Jane] For this upcoming
school year,
I'm gonna be doing like,
a gap year, I guess.
Because I can't really do
anything while I'm healing,
Or I'm gonna do, like
I guess I'm
A semester or Just
I don't even know
what I'm doing.
I don't know.
[sighs] Sometimes I wish I
could just disappear.
Bitch.
[music playing]
It's a month before
my surgery and um
we still don't know,
or have a confirmation,
that it's still happening.
- How are you, Mom?
- I'm good, sweetie.
I'm painting by numbers.
That's what Covid has
driven me to do.
How are you feeling
about your surgery?
You getting nervous?
No, I don't really
think about it.
I think about it
all the time.
If Daddy and I
can't come see you,
I think of you being alone
in a hospital,
if you're gonna be
okay with that.
Are you gonna be
okay with that?
I don't know. I haven't
gone through it yet.
Well, I mean, if you're
going through it,
it's a little too late.
[laughs]
Stef said that it would
be really hard,
but it's not impossible.
'Cause her parents
were there for her?
I don't know.
Would you want to
postpone it?
No.
[Jane] I'm just so
over tucking.
Yeah, that's not
a healthy thing.
I mean, I don't think so.
I know it was very painful.
Yeah.
Remember when we were
in Disney World?
No, we weren't in
Disney World
- We were at Universal.
- Universal.
You were in so much pain.
I was in so much that I had
I You bought
I had to buy you
a large t-shirt.
Like, so that it would cover
me, and then I untucked.
Just to be comfortable.
[Mae] Jane's probably the
strongest person that I know.
- Hi.
- Hi.
I've spent a lot of time alone.
I close myself off a lot.
I guess it makes me,
like, a lot moodier.
And Jane, she really
taught everybody
how important it is
to be who you are.
I mean, she's kind of who I
wanna be when I grew up.
She taught me that,
you know,
being me is okay.
She's just so
comfortable and so
sure of herself.
[sniffles]
And it's something
almost nobody
is really
ever sure of,
you know, who are are
and what you want.
And she's amazing.
She's awesome.
I mean, she sucks,
and I hate her.
[laughs] But that's just
'cause she's my sister.
Didn't you take an art class?
Not a painting class.
Painting maybe,
but not for nails.
Look, they look good.
These look good.
These are the globiest
nails I've ever had.
Maybe that's the look.
Maybe we're starting
a new trend or something.
[Jane] The Covid outbreak
is getting worse,
and like, the numbers
are rising,
but everything else,
we're doing pretty good.
As for my surgery,
we emailed them because
we didn't know if
my date was gonna be pushed back
more because of the virus.
And
basically, right now,
they emailed us back
and they said if things
don't change
[sighs]
soon
they're gonna push my date
back at least two months.
[Emma] Dad, wake up!
[David] This is what
I do well.
So annoying.
[David] I don't so anything
else well. Mommy will tell you.
What are you even saying?
Help!
Send help.
- Send help?
- S.O.S.
Coast Guard,
where are you at?
[David]
I love my children.
[laughter]
Dad, you're so annoying!
"Trump Administration
reverses help protections
for transgender people."
I swear, it's like we're
living in a nightmare.
[Jane] It makes me scared.
If I couldn't have, like,
my hormones anymore
just because some
man passed something
like that.
What does it mean?
Like, how does this affect
you and
It just
[sighs]
I know.
Might see more suicides.
[Laura] That's what
I was thinking.
Why are we allowing them
to make these decisions?
Why is this happening?
I don't know,
it's just scary.
Looking like I am now
Going to a boys bathroom,
like
that's weird.
Yeah, I would think that it's
not safe for you.
Yeah, it wouldn't be.
Putting you in that
predicament
you just want to be
a normal kid,
like any other girl.
That's not a lot to ask.
Yeah.
People who don't understand
are making decisions
for other people.
There you go.
You know what?
And everybody has to
have their opinion.
But, you know, everybody's
gotta listen too.
You know, it's not okay
to not be educated about it
and then voice your opinion.
You know, like, in our country,
like the United States, alright,
we're taught that you could
be anything you wanna be.
You just put your mind to it,
and you could do anything
you want to do.
Do you feel that that sentiment
is true for trans people?
[all] No.
I'm not ashamed of
how I was born.
I didn't ask to be
born like this.
I chose to transition,
but I was born transgender.
In my eyes, I think I was born
to transition, eventually.
And life would have been
so much easier
if I was born a girl,
but I feel like that's a waste
of time thinking like that,
because that
didn't happen and
you got the luck of the
draw being trans if you are
and, you know, it's not
gonna be an easy journey,
but my transition and my
experience with everything,
it's gonna be so different from,
say, someone else
who's transitioning is
gonna experience.
Me, personally,
my old name, Jack,
doesn't hold any power over me,
and it's never been
a stressor for me,
but for other people who are
transitioning or whatever,
like, that can affect them
in a very negative way,
having that name be brought up
or used against them
in a negative way.
The fact that I didn't have
the boy I always wanted
or expected, anticipated,
it was heartbreaking.
Because that was never
going to be
for me and for Jack.
But
I'd be damned if
I wasn't gonna accept
the rest of her life.
I don't look at being
a boy.
And I don't view that
with hate.
I view that with love and
compassion and
sadness. I feel sad for my
for Jack.
'Cause Jack was not happy,
and Jack was going through
a rough time.
[David]
He was extraordinarily timid.
Afraid of his own shadow.
He was struggling
at that time.
And he was little too.
Like, you know,
eight, nine, ten.
But, I mean, he had
such difficulty
making friends too.
Oh, it was horrible.
It was brutal,
and he knew it.
[Laura] Like, we were scared
she was gonna
commit suicide as Jack.
I think she was lost for
a long time,
because she didn't understand
that she was transgender.
[Jane] In seventh grade,
I would I would hurt myself,
I would
I wouldn't eat.
I would make myself
throw up.
I would hit myself.
I would
just constantly, physically
harm myself.
I would wear
I'd always wear, like,
long-sleeve shirts
and, like sweaters,
and I would always pull it up to
cover up my scars.
And my parents didn't know
what I was really going though.
Even when I went to therapy,
I didn't want to talk about it,
because I never wanted to
confess that
because I just thought it
was just so awful,
and I felt so ashamed
about it. [sniffles]
But I would
I would just have these moments
where, like,
the pressure and like
the anxiety
everything would just build up
in my head and my body,
and I just feel like
I couldn't breathe.
I don't, like, ignore that
part about my life
'cause it was a part of me,
and, you know, I take pride
in, like, all the shit
that I had to go through at
13 as a little boy.
Like, I was going though
so much that
if anything, I wish
I could have been there
for myself when
I was so young.
Like, me now, I wish I could
have been there hugging myself
and teaching myself
what I know now
so it would
have been easier.
[Laura] It was a struggle
for us for me, at least
to say, you know
I don't know, like, good-bye to
our son.
And I remember going to therapy,
and it was a transgender
therapist.
You know, she was with Jane
for 15 minutes,
and she came
out of that room
and she started using
different pronouns.
And my eyes crossed.
She's like, "Yes, she is
transgender."
and "she" this and "she" that,
and, you know,
I'm sitting there going,
"You're talking about
my son."
And I just felt a flood
of anger.
I said, "You've known my kid
for 15 minutes.
I've known her
for 14 years."
And I was saying "him."
And I said, "You just came
out and said that.
Like, how do I know that
what you're saying is true?"
And she kind of talked me
off the cliff.
"Laura," she said,
"when children hit puberty,
it's kind of like a wall.
And if they can't deal
with the fact
that their body
is changing,
if they seriously can't
deal with the hair growth
or the Adam's apple or the
boobs coming in or"
She's like,
"99.9% of the time
that's a transgender child."
She said, "I didn't mean
to hurt your feelings,
but she's 14 years old,
she has an Adam's apple and
she's not happy about it.
She has hair on her arms
and on her face
and she's not happy about it."
And-and then you look back
and you're like,
I've had conversations
I had conversations with Jack.
"Jack, why are you shaving
yourself?
Why are you shaving yourself?
You know, gay men have hair!
It's okay to have hair,
you know?"
And, like, I took a step
back,
and I just started thinking of
everything that was going on.
All the question marks,
and why is that bothering him.
And then it just made sense.
All the dots were connected.
I just got to a point where I
couldn't hide it anymore.
I just kinda was like a
ticking time bomb and
I exploded
and I needed to
sit, speak, and be heard.
When she came out
as transgender,
she came alive.
She kicked the doors open
and came
[Laura] Yeah. She went to
her first prom.
And she said, "Mommy,
I walked up to everybody.
'Hi. My name is Jane.
Nice to meet you.
Oh, you're so beautiful.
I love your dress.
I love your hair.'"
And she was all by herself.
She was an hour away from us,
on her first date,
in a dress,
looking amazing,
and, like,
totally on her own.
And she was, like, not even
15 years old.
When she came back that night,
I never saw her so animated
and happy.
[Jane] I love Jack.
I love everything that
I went through.
But it was time to
say goodbye to that.
So I have two weeks left until
I get my surgery.
I still haven't had
a confirmation yet
if it's still on or not.
I'm really scared because
if I don't find out soon enough
it's gonna be cancelled
I'm trying really hard
to be patient, but
It's really hard.
I just wanna know.
I think the waiting is
the hardest part.
[Laura]
Happy Birthday to you ♪
No. I'm ugly right now.
- No, you're not.
- Why would you do that?
Happy Birthday to you ♪
Can't feel my tongue
[laughs]
Happy Birthday,
dear Jane [indistinct] ♪
[laughs]
- Happy Birth ♪
- [dog barks]
to you ♪
How old are you now?
Feels like, 50.
My eye fucking hurts.
[laughs]
[Laura]
19 years ago today,
I popped you out of
my vajayjay.
And the doctor said,
"It's a girl."
Look at that.
[Jane] I was a cute baby.
That's me crying.
[laughs]
When Jane was born,
I was giving birth,
and the doctor was holding her
and the doctor said,
"It's a girl."
And my husband and I looked at
each other like, "What?"
And then he's,
"Oh, no, it's a boy!"
So it's just like, okay, maybe
it was just a weird joke.
Didn't think of anything.
Like, "Ha ha ha," you know.
- Your baptism.
- What am I wearing?
You're wearing a nice
baptism outfit.
[laughs]
You look so pretty.
[David] The irony of it is
that he did not
make a mistake on the day
of her birth.
She was born a girl.
My daughter Jane was
born a girl.
[dog barks]
[Laura] Shut up, Gretel.
I love you.
I love you, Mom.
[dog barks]
You go first. Go ahead.
Start singing.
Happy birthday to you ♪
Happy birthday to you ♪
Happy birthday, dear Jane ♪
Happy birthday to you ♪
And many more!
[laughs]
Make a wish.
[David] Mash her face in it.
[music playing]
[Laura] Jane!
I just got off the phone
with the hospital,
and apparently they're not
postponing your surgery.
So the 17th is the big day.
- Oh, my God!
- It's the big day.
[David] They're running a sale,
too, it's a two-for-one,
so Mommy can get it.
I can get it.
I can get one too.
You're fresh.
[laughs]
Okay?
So good news.
[Jane] I have to tell you guys
something.
My surgery's not
being cancelled.
Bitch, no way.
[all laugh]
[music playing in car]
[singing along]
I just need somebody
to love ♪
[talking, indistinct]
[music playing]
This is even better.
You have to wear it.
- [laughs]
- Eww. Eww.
- Put it on.
- Put it on.
- Jidu, you see the hat?
- What is it?
- You see what it is?
- What?
It's a vagina!
[all laugh]
Compare.
[Emma] I think it's fantastic.
Here.
Ooh!
[all laugh]
[Jane] So my mom won't be
allowed
to be with me for my surgery
because of Corona virus and
that's just their visitor
policy right now.
So it's either I just
get over that and just do it
or I postpone it to
another day
so my mom can be with me.
And, of course, I was like
guess I'm doing it
by myself.
[Laura] It's been
a roller coaster ride.
Coming from a place where,
you know, five years ago,
walking into HR and asking
them to change, like
to reconsider changing our
benefits program
because I needed to buy
my daughter medicine
and being turned down.
[David] Jane was getting
incredibly frustrated,
like, trying to
explain to her
that health coverage
is a concern,
and that, you know,
it's not granted.
None of this is granted.
You know, it was painful.
It was a painful process
to be denied that.
And then to worry.
To worry about,
is my daughter gonna have
the right medication?
Are we gonna be able
to afford it?
Every shot was, like, $7,000.
And she had to have that
every three months.
Like, who can afford that?
Nobody.
Trying to
to help her,
inside of her own head,
be patient.
That was That was
a tall task, Laura.
Like, from day one.
From day one that was a fear.
Like, how am I going
to get that
across the finish line for her?
Yeah, college fund,
college fund, college fund.
What college fund?
[laughs]
Transgender surgery fund.
"Yeah, put that aside, Dad."
Wait. No more college fund?
"Covid-19 has affected
the lives
of all high schools all
around the country,
but has also hit hard on a
Sussex County Technical School
class of 2020."
I definitely would
love to have
a graduation.
But then again,
I wasn't gonna go
to the graduation anyway
because of my surgery.
It would be nice
to have one.
Congratulations.
That's your party.
We're done with it.
[Jane] It's not the most
important thing.
[Emma]
Look, there's a weenie.
[belches]
Ooh.
Not me. Give it to me.
- You look great.
- Shut up! [laughs]
Stef was texting me
last night.
- Yeah?
- She's really sweet.
She's like, "I just wanted
to check up on you."
- Aw.
- I'll read it to you.
Is this the girl from
The girl with the pink hair.
Oh, yeah I follow her!
Woo friends!
Hey, Stef.
She said, um..
"Hey, love, I just wanted
to check in on you
and see how you're doing.
With everything going on,
I was worried about your
surgery being postponed.
Hopefully not, though.
Never hesitate to contact me
if you need someone
to talk to,
or any rough time,
since I've been through it."
I said, "Thank you so much.
I just really want to get
it over with at this point
and just start the healing
process.
I just hope it comes out
as cute as yours."
[all laugh]
I'm going through all this
fucking shit to get it,
it better look good.
I'm sure it's gonna
look good.
I'm gonna have to live with
it, no one else.
I wanna be happy with it.
[all talking, indistinct]
We're all in it together.
[all talking, indistinct]
Be grateful that you're
getting the surgery.
It's not gonna be easy.
I never said that.
I'm not saying that.
Just be happy that you're
getting the damn thing!
I am!
It's not that I mind.
[Laura] She's nervous, honey.
As anybody would be.
I would be like,
"Let's do this shit."
Yeah. And then you'd be in pain
and then you'd be like, "Oohhh!"
[overlapping chatter]
You know that's part of it.
It's inevitable that that's
gonna happen.
[Jane] And I have every right
to be nervous.
I never said you can't
be nervous.
You act as if
I'm ungrateful.
The way you talk, and you're
hostile towards everyone, yeah.
Not everyone.
Then why is there anyone?
It should be no one.
No, because Mom's saying
that
Like, I'm always worried
about it being cute.
I'm like, yeah, well, I'm going
through a lot to get it.
I've already been through
a lot to get it.
You're gonna be cute.
They have a high success rate.
All right, but, still
It's not gonna be floppy
like a 90-year-old woman's
fucking vagina. Jesus Christ!
[Laura] First of all,
that ageist against
90-year-old women's vaginas.
I bet 90-year-old women vaginas
are great.
I don't expect you
to understand it.
All I'm saying is,
try to be
like, I know that
emotions are hard,
but try to at least
think about family
and getting along.
- Don't get upset.
- [Laura] Don't get upset.
I'm allowed to be scared.
[Laura] Of course! How do you
think me and Daddy feel?
[Emma]
Yeah, we're all very scared.
[Laura]
We're all nervous.
[Jane] Sounds so ungrateful.
[Laura] No, we know you're
grateful, Mommy. We know.
This has been a very
long road.
[Emma] True.
This has been a long road
for all of us, especially you.
Especially you.
I need to go to the nail salon.
This is, like, becoming hectic.
Becoming a problem.
[Laura] You okay?
[chatting, indistinct]
Jane ♪
Running down to the doctor ♪
To get a vagina,
ha ha ha ha ♪
[all laugh]
Jane was scared about
getting a vagina ♪
[all laugh]
I think me and Jane are closer
now that she's Jane.
We argue like any
sisters would.
But at the end of the day,
when I need her, if
she needs me, like,
even with Mae,
we're always there
for each other.
It makes me happy, like,
that she's getting
what she wants.
And that's she's really
becoming a phenomenal
young woman.
Jane does flip
her hair, though.
'Cause I like it
on this side.
No, but I'm talking about when
she gets all dramatic,
and she's explaining a story,
she's like
"Uhh!" And then flips her
hair over like this.
You know what
I'm talking about?
I don't do that.
[both] Yes, you do!
You look at me from across the
table, you go
[laughs]
- I do this.
- It's the same!
And you model,
you're like
[laughs]
I don't know why
I do it.
It's like a habit.
- Get off!
- Ow, bitch!
I'm throwing out
all my old underwear.
Finally.
I'm putting on my
new underwear
and I'm gonna throw
that shit out.
I'm so fucking happy to be
getting rid
of that type of underwear.
Fuck it. I hate it.
I wanted to burn it.
Yay.
It's a vagina cupcake.
It's a vanilla pudding cupcake
with vanilla frosting
and a vanilla vagina.
Everybody gets a vagina.
Everybody gets
a vagina today.
[Jane] Nice!
[all talking]
[Laura] Get the dog off the
table.
Do you know how many germs
you just put on the table?
It's okay.
It's okay.
None 'cause she's perfect!
[all talking]
I'll be praying for her.
Thanks, Dad.
That's not easy.
Jane, I want to
give you a kiss.
I'm going to go back.
You need help?
No, I can do it.
I can get up.
I just want to say
goodbye to Jane.
God bless you, honey.
I'll be praying for you.
You'll be okay.
- Yep!
- God bless you.
Love you.
Get out of here. Go.
[Jane] I'm less scared
of the surgery
and more happy about what
it's gonna do for me.
I don't know. Either that
or I'm just stupid
for not being worried.
Today's the day.
I have to get ready, so
Yep.
Just a subtle day.
Just like a walk
through a park.
Just a
just a breeze.
[Laura] Because of the virus,
the Covid virus right now,
we're not allowed to be
in the hospital.
But she's doing it alone.
Ready?
Everybody good?
[Laura] 424 East 34th.
[Laura] Okay, we are going to
New York City
to NYU to see Dr. Blue.
Bye, Sparta.
I'll be back with
a new vagina.
[music playing]
Jane, you don't have nail
polish on, do you?
[Jane] No.
Mom, I was already on that
way before you.
You don't have
jewelry on, right?
- Yeah, I do.
- Take it off.
[music playing]
Jane, I think,
the most incredible thing
is that through this
whole process
has-has remained
so grounded.
It only reinforces
that she's
that she's always been
on the right path.
You have a very
sort of nonchalant
outlook, Jane.
How is that possible?
I don't know.
It just seems
kind of normal to me.
[Laura] Well, I think you've
been thinking about it so long.
Yeah. I think I was
more stressed
about not getting it.
We always grew up in
a very open home,
and, like, there was always
communication going on.
I'm so lucky to have that.
Almost there, Jane.
[David] We're happy for her,
but any parent would feel
the way we feel.
We're scared.
[Laura] I'll be honest with you,
when she first came out to
us, when she was 14,
the first thing I thought of
was surgery.
In my mind, for years,
I always told her,
"When you're older, you know,
definitely it will happen."
And I was just like
I had no idea
that was gonna happen.
Jane, you're going to
the fifth floor,
you're gonna go to
the check-in desk,
and you're gonna have your
insurance and I.D. card out.
But we just persevered and
we just moved forward,
little by little.
We were there.
We were halfway there.
Covid's not gonna stop us.
We're gonna get there.
[music playing]
[David] We want what's best
for our kid.
And we know that
her happiness is at stake.
[Jane] When I was going though
that depression,
I just wanted to ignore
all my pain,
but it never went away
until I started
being a part of
my family again.
And they are my crazy family.
Like, they're just
always there for me,
through the good
and the bad.
[David] It's fucking hard
just leaving her like this.
It's been a long time coming.
Long time preparing for this.
You all right?
[music playing]