Shots Fired (2017) s01e03 Episode Script
Hour Three: Somebody's Son
1 - Previously on "Shots Fired" - You speak to Javier's lawyer? DECLAN (on phone): He's seeking to characterize you as an unfit mother.
Unless you show the court you're working to fix these issues, you're going to lose your child.
- (gunshots) - BECK: Officer Beck to headquarters.
I need some units.
Shots fired! MINISTER: As you reflect on the life of Jesse Carr, will you become a better person? PASTOR JANAE: Joey Campbell was murdered three weeks ago.
So I pose this question to our governor: what about Joey? - Y'all talk to Pastor Janae? - Why? Few weeks ago, she found out Joey was hustling.
- Had him tuned up.
- She had them put hands on him? Cops ain't the only ones round here people scared of.
ASHE: I think Beck's a good cop in a bad department.
You think Beck shot Jesse over race.
- We need to work both cases.
- Jesse's case and Joey's.
No more going behind each other's backs.
We have to trust each other.
You heard there was some witnesses.
- Have any come forward? - A lady named Kiana.
Told some people she was there when they took my boy.
No one's got answers for you because you keep asking - the wrong questions.
- So what's the right question? Talk to us, we can protect you.
- You hear anything about Joey? - No, not Joey, but another boy, Cory.
- No one's seen him.
- How long's he been gone? Ever since he talked to you.
(breathing heavily) (hip-hop and loud bass playing) (whistles) (engine revving) MAN: Hey, come on, man! - Cory have any priors? - None.
- What about his parents? - His dad was in jail for a couple of days for a parking ticket.
(knocks on door) MAN: Who is it? Department of Justice.
We just need a minute of your time.
I ain't got a minute.
It's about Cory Grant.
- What? - Cory Grant! This will work better if you just open the door.
(lock opening) What do y'all want with my son? We think he might have information concerning Joey Campbell's murder.
No, he don't.
He doing okay? I hear he's missing.
- I haven't seen him in a couple of days.
- A couple of days? Usually he goes to my sister's house when we get into it, she haven't seen him, nobody seen him.
You haven't filed a missing persons report? Mr.
Grant, the first 48 hours are critical.
Okay.
(gunshots echoing) (siren blaring) (tires squeal) WOMAN (on radio): All units report BREELAND: Get your ass back here! (gun firing) Now, Deputy! All available units please respond.
Don't go running into a situation you know nothing about! All units, shots fired.
(gun firing) All available units please respond.
Ready? Move.
The whole world sitting - Got left! - Yeah.
The whole world sitting on a ticking bomb BREELAND: Here! - So keep your calm, carry on - BROOKS: I got you.
The whole world sitting on a ticking bomb - Deceased.
- The sun will never rise again Headquarters, shot crime scene What you got? African-American male.
17, 18 years old.
Are you gonna be all right? I'm fine.
You're a long ways off the Jesse Carr scene.
We were passing through, heard the shots.
See it all the time in here.
Rival dealers getting into a beef over a corner.
This kid's an athlete.
How many dealers you know hydrate? You'd be surprised.
Whatever he was, he was somebody's son.
Who was most likely killed by another black guy.
Now, where are all your cameras and your protesters now? And it's about to explode If our stars don't shine in the darkness Where do we go from here? Where do we go? Do we hold on to the dream regardless? Where do we go from here? You know, I've been to funerals with open caskets before.
Saw Jesse Carr in his.
But I've never seen a brother just laid out like that.
How do you get used to it? (sighs) There's something about the eyes when a person dies.
One moment they have life and then something changes.
Don't know how to describe it, but you never get used to it.
(indistinct chatter, music playing) How's Deputy Beck? He's fine, Donnie.
I retire, they fill my slot with one of them.
- You're drunk, man.
- Is that why you look so pretty? (chuckles) BREELAND: Hey.
I'm making a petition.
Beck has gotta go.
It was a clean shoot.
I'm not that drunk.
Here.
Sign.
Here, come on.
You, too.
Get the hell out of my face.
(laughs) Tell this deputy who I am.
Brooks, this is Donnie.
He did 30 years.
Eight years as captain.
But now he's just a sorry-ass drunk.
(laughs) You know how scared you used to be working the neighborhood, Calvert? How you almost pissed your pants first day on patrol? Huh? You know what, you're a disgrace.
You your deputy and your black cop boyfriend.
Okay, can we Can you, can you put your Come on, baby, will you help Mama out? Mind your head.
You're in? The shoes.
(yelling) Christian, that is not the shirt I laid out for you.
- Get back in there and change.
- But Mom! Hurry up, please! You're gonna be late.
Put your shoes on, Daddy's ready.
Come on, hustle, hustle, hustle.
Kerry, can you drive the boys to school today? I want to clear my head.
(reporters calling for Beck) - Yeah.
Honey - Thanks.
REPORTER: One question, Deputy Beck, please! Have you given any more thought to sitting with the psychologist? Kerry, my union rep bailed on me.
Psych gonna help me with that? (reporters shouting questions) REPORTER: Do you have a comment on the cell phone video? (sighs) REPORTER: Right here! REPORTER 2: We just want to hear your side of the story, Deputy.
DECLAN (on phone): Your daughter's been asking for you.
Mr.
Cano is granting permission for a scheduled call.
I shouldn't even have to ask for permission.
Ashe, this is a good thing.
What time's the call? Tomorrow.
After school.
2:00 p.
m.
Everything all right? All good.
I offered Deputy Beck spiritual counseling, and he declined.
That's all I know about him.
Oh, and that he's the only black face in the sheriff's department.
Ever witness Deputy Beck be aggressive with anyone? The deputies in our community are always aggressive.
That isn't their problem.
Their problem is that they don't know how to be effective.
That why you started your own street patrol? "The Hands"? To be more effective? What's that short for, the Hands of God? If we could police ourselves, we wouldn't need anybody from the outside coming in here with their quick trigger fingers.
That include scaring Joey Campbell straight? Heard he sold weed.
Figured The Hands may have had an issue with that.
What does this have to do with Deputy Beck or Jesse Carr? Aren't you also seeking justice for Joey Campbell? We heard a young man by the name of Cory Grant may have seen something.
First I heard about it.
Figured you knew everything popping off in The Houses.
What did Cory tell you? Nothing, he's been missing for the last couple of days.
Any idea where we should start looking for him? No, but I'll ask around.
(doorbell ringing) Hello, Ms.
Carr, my name's Penn Moder.
I know who you are you're running for governor.
First, I just want to offer my condolences.
What happened to your son was a hate crime.
He did not deserve to die at the hands of a racist cop.
You didn't even know my son.
I know a promising young life was cut short.
And I know that we need to make sure it never happens to anyone else's son, ever again.
You can know all those things, but it still doesn't bring my son back.
No, but we can make his death mean something more.
I'm proposing the "Jesse Carr Call First" bill.
Whenever anyone under 21 is pulled over in Oakdale County, the deputy has to call the child's parents first before he can ask them to exit the vehicle.
This protects the youth, it protects the parents, and the deputy.
You want to use my son's death as a political platform.
No, I want to honor his memory.
His memory's not for sale.
Governor Eamons called the D.
O.
J.
in for a reason.
They're not investigating that cop to get to the truth.
They're investigating that cop to create a new one.
And they're not going to stop until they have gutted every good memory - that you have of your son.
- You need to leave.
I'll keep you in my prayers.
REPORTER: We are outside the house of Alicia Carr, mother of slain victim Jesse Carr.
Penn Moder has just visited the Carr household at this time (phone ringing) Toxicology report for Jesse Carr.
No traces of marijuana in his system.
Weed was found in the glove compartment.
Maybe Jesse planned to party later on.
Or maybe his mother was right about him and he didn't do drugs.
Before you give him a halo Blood alcohol level of .
08.
He was legally drunk.
Are you close to making an arrest? Well, the investigation is still ongoing, but we just need to clarify a few things.
How long had Jesse been struggling with alcohol? He wasn't.
That is Jesse, correct? He did spend a month in a rehab facility? Oh, God, that was No, his-his teacher caught him and some friends with alcohol after a football game.
I just wanted to stop it before it got out of hand.
By rehab over just one incident? I'm a recovering alcoholic.
Been sober for six months now.
In Alicia's typical fashion, she overreacted.
ALICIA: You don't get to say that.
You weren't there.
Not for 15 years.
You shouldn't be here now.
He called me.
- What? - Six weeks ago.
He said he was having problems adjusting to college life.
He wanted advice.
So what did you say? I told him to be himself.
He said he wasn't sure if he knew how.
He told me everything was fine.
He didn't want you to worry.
Jesse died with alcohol in his system.
He was driving drunk? Possibly.
Was he pulled over for drunk driving? - No, he wasn't.
- Then what is this? You're just trying to dig up any dirt you can on my son? Only two people know what happened that day: your son and Deputy Beck.
We're being thorough in our investigation of both.
My son can't speak for himself.
He was murdered.
But all you care about is protecting your own.
ALICIA: Jesse's car.
It was his high school graduation present.
They told me it's in impound.
When can I have it? I'll look into it.
MR.
D.
: When word got out to the white community about how good my father's cooking was, white people started sneaking in the back door for take-out.
(chuckles) Some say integration in Gate Station didn't begin with the civil rights movement.
It began with white people wanting our cobbler.
(laughter) I bet he's got a lot of stories.
Very few of them are true.
(chuckles) I appreciate you coming down, Governor.
Showing your support in The Gate will go a long way.
Contrary to what you imply, I have always had an affinity for the people of this community.
I called you out because I knew you'd listen.
When you ran in your first term, you said you would be governor of all the people.
- The wealthy and the middle class.
- And I meant it.
Not the lower class? You are aware I have decreased state taxes for the poor and I am fighting to raise the minimum wage.
I appreciate that, but we need more.
What else do you appreciate? - I'm not Reverend DuPont.
- Noted.
But we could have met in a more private place.
What do you really want? To serve.
What else? I want you, Governor Eamons, to serve as well.
Didn't even really wanna go But if you get me out, you get a show There's so many bodies on the floor So, baby, we should go and add some more Are you down, d-d-down, d-d-down D-d-down, down, down? Alicia Carr is here.
Everywhere I look are people's hands Ms.
Carr.
Can I help you? I'm in.
Okay.
Are you down, d-d-down, d-d-down? D-d-down, down, down? FOX 46 obtained exclusive video of the moments right after shots were fired.
We do want to warn you, though, these images you're about to see are pretty graphic.
They show a young man's life over after an apparent drug stop went horribly wrong.
It happened when a Gate Station sheriff's deputy pulled over 19-year-old Jesse Carr.
Officials say there was some sort of altercation, and then the shots were fired.
Carr, an NC State freshman and Gate Station native was unarmed.
ASHE: Ms.
Carr? - What's all this? - Is there something you needed? Your son's car.
They need you to sign these release forms.
MAN: You know what, I want to put the chair over there.
Interesting new friends.
I believed you when you first said you're here to police the police.
I don't believe you anymore.
Excuse me.
- (whispering): Take your time.
- Yeah.
WOMAN: Quiet, please, quiet on the set.
MAN: Rollin'.
MAN 2: Speed.
So, um where do I look? Oh, I'm sorry, yes, right in the camera.
Just take your time, whenever you're ready, okay? My son, Jesse, was my best friend.
He was murdered by someone trained and paid by tax dollars to protect him.
My life has been shattered.
I know it's not a dream, but I wake up every day wishing it was.
Penn Moder is introducing a bill that would require police officers to call the parents of anyone under 21 pulled over from Oakdale.
When a police officer breaks the law, they should be held accountable.
Someone should be held accountable.
I'll stand behind anyone willing to speak up for us, for mothers All mothers.
Penn Moder is that person.
(people chanting) MAN: Thanks for all you do, Governor.
- Good afternoon, Governor Eamons.
- Good afternoon, Pastor.
The mother's name is Shameeka Campbell.
Younger son, Shawn, is 13? You've done your homework.
Shameeka Campbell, Governor Eamons.
It's truly a pleasure to meet you, Ms.
Campbell.
You have my sincere condolences.
Thank you, Governor.
- This is my aide, Sarah Ellis.
- Hi.
Please, y'all come on in.
Have a seat.
Thank you, what a nice home.
Oh, it ain't much.
It's impressive.
Tells me a lot about you.
SHAMEEKA: This is Shawn.
My youngest.
Thank you for coming to visit us, Governor.
Thank you for having us.
Would you like some sweet tea or lemonade? - Tea, please.
- Okay.
The same, thank you.
Oh, I was, uh, I was at work and Joey was dribbling a ball in the house.
I come home and find the tile taped together like that.
I got so mad.
Even at 17, he looked like he could cry when I yelled at him.
Always my baby.
Now I just I want it to stay like that, you know? Well, you could give my daughter some organizational pointers.
Moms is no joke.
She runs a tight ship.
Think the Hornets will break through this year? That was my brother's.
Actually, most of this was his.
I shared a room growing up with my sister.
I was also the youngest.
She hogged all the wall space, too.
So you like being governor? Most of the time.
What's the best part about your job? Helping people.
Maybe you can help the Hornets, then.
(chuckles) We really want to thank you both for your hospitality and I'll make sure the sheriff's office is doing everything they can to get your son justice.
You have my word.
Do you have any pull with GSS? - The school board? - Yes, ma'am.
Um, they're shutting down Shawn's school, West Gate Middle School, saying he got to go to the nearest one, which is 15 times worse.
Now he a straight-A student, he got a chance.
The minute he go to the other school, I just You know, I don't know what kind of future he'll have.
I'm not sure what I can do if the school is closing.
But I will look into it.
If you ever need anything at all, please don't hesitate to call me.
- It was nice meeting you, Shawn.
- Goodbye, Governor Eamons.
Great handshake.
Jesse and I broke up about two months ago.
- What happened? - Just didn't work out.
- You broke up with him? - Why does that matter? Everything matters.
I don't want you thinking he was a bad guy, 'cause he wasn't.
When we first met, he was shy, one of the few guys into the Daniel Clowes Ghost World graphic.
Then he pledged that frat and things just changed.
Did he drink when you were with him? No, he wasn't into drinking.
Wasn't into smoking.
That thing at the dorm was out of character for him.
ASHE: What thing? He got into it with his R.
A.
I wasn't there, but hearing people talk It wasn't the guy I fell in love with.
MAN: He got drunk, like, one time.
Makes him a saint around here.
So why are folks still talking about it? - Look, I got class.
- I'll walk with you.
Am I under arrest or something? I'm just looking for a conversation.
I'm not a snitch.
If I had a dime for every time somebody said that before snitching, I'd be a billionaire now talk.
What the hell happened the night he got drunk? He came into the dorm with a couple of frat buddies.
White boy wasted.
Acting stupid.
So I told Jesse he had to bounce.
Got in my face and wouldn't chill, so So? So I had to beat his ass.
In front of his frat buddies? In front of everybody.
Let's just say Jesse's your typical kid today.
Right? Doesn't see color, or at least, that's what he thinks.
Until his frat buddies start giving him hell for embarrassing them.
See, he figured it was about manhood, but they make it clear it's about race.
So now, suddenly, that's in him when he's pulled over by Beck.
- Along with a couple of drinks.
- Drinking doesn't change you.
It amplifies who you really are.
And there's no evidence that Jesse was racist.
It's not like he called the R.
A.
the N-word.
Is that how you categorize a racist? Look, I know how these frat boys think.
(cell phone buzzes) Yeah.
Okay, text me the address.
Friend of mine just tracked Kiana's cell phone.
Looks like our other witness isn't missing after all.
- Tracked down how? - Don't worry about it.
I will if it's a Fourth Amendment violation.
Am I missing something? I just found our other witness in the Joey Campbell murder.
She's pinging in Concord.
Wealthy suburb.
- Long way from The Houses.
- We need authorization for that.
You wanted to find Cory, I'm finding him.
Getting info isn't always gonna be fresh and clean.
This whole partner thing, it's new to me.
Well, catch up and get used to it.
Okay, I'll let you do your thing.
I'll handle Jesse's frat tomorrow.
Yeah, channel your inner Yale frat boy.
You know, I'm a Sigma.
(chuckling) You're serious? Yeah.
You know who else is Sigma Zeta? Two presidents, four treasurers, one Supreme Court justice, and about 50 D.
O.
J.
prosecutors.
(dance music playing on car stereo, bass thumping) (music gets louder) (music and car engine stop) - (singing song from car): - I don't know when I lost control I don't know when I fell in love (continues singing) (knock at door) - Kiana Ward? - Yeah, can I help you? I'm an investigator with the Department of Justice.
- I got nothing for you.
- How do you know? I haven't asked you anything.
- Still got nothing.
- Want me to stay here all night? I can sing, too.
Just not good.
Trust me, your nice new neighbors ain't gonna like that.
(clicks tongue) (sighs) - Damn, you came up real good, sis.
- What do you want? Joey Campbell's murderer.
You were there that night.
- Who says? - His mother.
And by the looks of things, she's not the only one who thinks you got something to say.
No disrespect to her, but she got her facts twisted.
There was another witness, a kid named Cory.
- He's gone missing.
- What do you mean missing? ASHE (on earphones): Nobody's seen him for the last two days.
- Know anything about it? - KIANA: No.
ASHE: Gotta be careful, Kiana.
Same thing could happen to you if you don't tell me what the hell is going on.
If Kiana's being paid to keep quiet about Joey Campbell's murder, maybe Cory is, too.
ASHE: Cory's dad didn't exactly look like he was rolling in it.
PRESTON: So is he missing or does he not want to be found? ASHE: Either way, we'll find him.
Yeah.
So you hanging with your frat brothers yet? All I need to know from them is if Jesse had the propensity to reach for a cop's gun.
A black cop's gun.
Look, I gotta go.
(switches phone off) (phone ringing) (beeps) (playful): Kai? DECLAN (on phone): Ashe, it's me.
The call's been delayed.
Delayed? What kind of baby daddy crap is he pulling? He says he forgot she had something after school.
What time is the call now? They gave a window sometime in the next two to three hours.
- He knows I'm in the middle of a case.
- Ashe.
Do you want to speak to your daughter or not? Yes.
Yes Okay, fine.
- I'll get back to you.
- (beeps) MAN: Look, it really wasn't this big thing.
You know, the kid, he got his ass kicked.
We had a good laugh, that was it.
So why'd he drive to Gate Station? We had this social going on with our little sisters.
And you sent him to get the weed.
- Weed? - No.
The house voted for barbecue, and Jesse, he volunteered to go get it.
He went all the way to Gate Station for barbecue? He said it was his favorite spot.
We didn't know it'd be the last time we saw him.
Thanks.
MAN: Yo, G! Miss Campbell? How are you? Lieutenant Breeland.
Yes? What is this about? The governor has asked that we leave no stone unturned in your son's case.
So if there's anything else you might want to share No, sir, there's nothing.
You don't have to be scared of me.
- I ain't scared of you.
- Well, good.
I didn't mean to come off so harsh when we first met.
Some people will smile in your face, but they don't give a damn what goes on here.
It's a war.
I ain't no Boy Scout, but I'm on the right side of it.
So if you hear of any other witnesses, or any info at all, I want to be your first call.
(hip-hop music playing) (cheering) (woman laughs) (indistinct chatter) How long before you're initiated? Couple weeks.
Hang in there, it's worth it.
- You're frat? - Mm-hmm.
Yeah, those letters just don't disappear when you graduate.
I'm Sigma.
You're about to be Sigma.
- You know, we're almost like - brothers.
So what kinds of things they have you doing? You gonna use it against me? I'm not a cop.
But you ask a lot of questions.
I'm just a lawyer.
The other night, I had to drive blindfolded.
This morning I had to eat a vomit omelet.
Man, just wait till the vodka push-up challenge.
Oh, my God, serious? It's gonna suck.
They make Jesse do crazy stuff, too? Not at first.
Because he didn't really seem into it.
It's, like, the more they think we want this, the harder they are on us, you know? After he got beat, they started to target him.
Why? Because Ted was pissed.
He said he embarrassed the whole frat, made us look like bitches.
That's why they sent him to the hood.
Wait, so getting barbecue in the hood was punishment for getting his ass kicked? Not just getting his ass kicked, man.
For getting his ass kicked by a black guy.
Yeah.
(new hip-hop song starts) (cheering) All my bitches keep it trill, trill All these guys gonna be chill, chill I'ma show you how I live I'm so bad All my bitches keep it trill, trill All these guys gonna be chill, chill I'm a show you how I live (music stops abruptly) (shouting angrily) What the hell's up?! (door opens) (Beck sighs) (door closes) (keys jingling) (sighs) (keys clatter on shelf) (sighs) Babe, what are you doing down there? The sink started leaking again.
Thought the plumber fixed it.
You call him? He said he couldn't get out this way.
Did you tell him it's the same problem as before? It didn't seem to matter.
Bet you if you told him we were the Mills across the street, he would have came running, but instead he hears that it's the black cop that shot the white kid, so now all of a sudden his ass can't show up to fix the one thing that he messed up (bang) - (yelps) - What? - Damn it! - Oh, babe.
- I'm fine.
- It's not fine.
Look at that cut.
(gasps) Kerry! I said I'm fine.
We got to stop doing this.
Doing what? (sighs) Everyone is looking at us sideways.
We can't start doing that to each other.
Looking at us sideways? (sighs) What happened? I was over at Anna's apartment today, supposedly to help her pick out colors for the dresses, and she graciously offered to let me bow out of being a bridesmaid since we're "under so much pressure.
" - Caleb's going to be pissed.
- Don't say anything.
If she doesn't want me in the wedding, she's gonna have to be straight up with it.
I don't understand.
I-I don't.
We worked so hard.
Done everything right.
We're supposed to be building on that, not getting tore down in front of the whole world.
(sighs) I swear, that stupid video's gonna cost me my entire life.
How do we get through this, Kerry? Baby It is you and me right now.
Let the world bring it.
We can get through anything together.
I promise you.
MAN: Good afternoon, Gates Station sheriff's office.
How can I help you? Where do I turn this in? Impound's two blocks from here.
Don't worry yourself, Deputy, I'll find it.
OFFICER: What was he wearing? MR.
GRANT: A gray hoodie and camo pants.
OFFICER: How long's he been missing? MR.
GRANT: Three days now.
(phone ringing) We'll put out a "be on the lookout.
" See if we can't find your son.
(phone ringing) - (engine starts) - Yo! I got it.
(engine starts) (phone ringing) (affectionately): Hey, Boogs! KAI: Mama, guess what? Excuse me! I have not talked to you in five days.
Hi, Mama, I miss you! I miss you, too, Boogs.
More than you know.
Mama! Guess what? Okay, what? Paula took me shopping at the mall today to get shoes and there was a big crowd of people in front of this one store.
So we go over there and guess what? We saw Serena! - That's so good, Boogs.
- KAI: Muy buena.
Actually, it's pronounced muy bueno.
KAI: Muy buena.
I think Paula would know.
Fine, then from now on you speak English with me, okay? And when we have a call scheduled, you call me, okay? You don't blow it off to go shoe shopping! (softly): Sorry, Mama.
Kai, are you crying? I'm sorry Why are you crying, Kai? JAVIER: Ashe, what the hell did you say to her? Javier, put Kai back on the phone.
She's crying, Ashe.
- I'm not putting her back on the phone.
- Put Kai back on the damn phone! I knew we shouldn't have done this.
(line goes dead) (line ringing) AUTOMATED VOICE: Your call has been forwarded to an automated voice messaging system.
Impressive.
You think? - Yeah, you're right.
- (chuckles) Well, that's why you brought me here, isn't it? To impress me? It's just a place I come to clear my head.
Something going on with the investigation? Actually, yeah.
I think I may have put a young kid's life at risk.
What are you going to do? Ashe says we'll find him, so I have to trust her.
That doesn't come easy to you.
Trusting people.
It's your turn.
Impress me.
(laughing): I can't hit a lick.
Come on, doesn't have to be with a bat.
Freshman year at Duke, I found out this fraternity had a notebook called "The Slut Guide" filled with the names of sorority girls and what they did sexually.
So I organized a SlutWalk on campus, and with 300 women, we shut the frat down.
Governor Eamons heard about it and offered me an internship.
Were you in it? Where? The notebook.
Really? That's what you have to say about it? Look, I'm impressed.
So, do you trust her? Hm? Ashe.
Yeah.
We're partners.
Ring the alarm - Wake me up - (tow truck signal beeping) 'Cause I don't want to sleep no more Beautiful dreams, wasted time Because in reality we're no more How can delusions seem so real? How can delusions seem so right? What I wouldn't give to have you near To kiss you the way I did last time Oh Were you ever really here? Or is it just my imagination? Were you ever really mine? Or was it just something that I made up? My imagination (weeping) New York City to North Carolina This is the combo right here My disturbed mind should have a Do Not Disturb sign When you wear your pants so much they start to shine When you're trying to use the E.
B.
T.
card and get declined It feels grimy You wonder who used a line They want that gun back they lent you You out of time, see? You talk about, wish they threw you a line Barely hanging on, all the savings are gone Need something strong To simply make it through the morn Case is pending, connect not calling back Need a cut but you're ignoring that, more yet Stay high, high as you can Look at the sky like, "My God, let me die" Let's try this again I've been down for a whole lot of years Tried to get the judge to appeal Ain't gettin' no easier I want to get to care It's hard to smile when you're broke, playin' around I wonder who's raising my child Sometime I feel dyin' would be easier All I got left is my pride I been down so long, I ain't got a way of leaving I been down so long Angels look like demons I've been down so long Crying's just like breathing (grunting) (choking) (grunting) Oh, Lord, help me make change Things ain't going my way And I ain't done nothing Cory?
Unless you show the court you're working to fix these issues, you're going to lose your child.
- (gunshots) - BECK: Officer Beck to headquarters.
I need some units.
Shots fired! MINISTER: As you reflect on the life of Jesse Carr, will you become a better person? PASTOR JANAE: Joey Campbell was murdered three weeks ago.
So I pose this question to our governor: what about Joey? - Y'all talk to Pastor Janae? - Why? Few weeks ago, she found out Joey was hustling.
- Had him tuned up.
- She had them put hands on him? Cops ain't the only ones round here people scared of.
ASHE: I think Beck's a good cop in a bad department.
You think Beck shot Jesse over race.
- We need to work both cases.
- Jesse's case and Joey's.
No more going behind each other's backs.
We have to trust each other.
You heard there was some witnesses.
- Have any come forward? - A lady named Kiana.
Told some people she was there when they took my boy.
No one's got answers for you because you keep asking - the wrong questions.
- So what's the right question? Talk to us, we can protect you.
- You hear anything about Joey? - No, not Joey, but another boy, Cory.
- No one's seen him.
- How long's he been gone? Ever since he talked to you.
(breathing heavily) (hip-hop and loud bass playing) (whistles) (engine revving) MAN: Hey, come on, man! - Cory have any priors? - None.
- What about his parents? - His dad was in jail for a couple of days for a parking ticket.
(knocks on door) MAN: Who is it? Department of Justice.
We just need a minute of your time.
I ain't got a minute.
It's about Cory Grant.
- What? - Cory Grant! This will work better if you just open the door.
(lock opening) What do y'all want with my son? We think he might have information concerning Joey Campbell's murder.
No, he don't.
He doing okay? I hear he's missing.
- I haven't seen him in a couple of days.
- A couple of days? Usually he goes to my sister's house when we get into it, she haven't seen him, nobody seen him.
You haven't filed a missing persons report? Mr.
Grant, the first 48 hours are critical.
Okay.
(gunshots echoing) (siren blaring) (tires squeal) WOMAN (on radio): All units report BREELAND: Get your ass back here! (gun firing) Now, Deputy! All available units please respond.
Don't go running into a situation you know nothing about! All units, shots fired.
(gun firing) All available units please respond.
Ready? Move.
The whole world sitting - Got left! - Yeah.
The whole world sitting on a ticking bomb BREELAND: Here! - So keep your calm, carry on - BROOKS: I got you.
The whole world sitting on a ticking bomb - Deceased.
- The sun will never rise again Headquarters, shot crime scene What you got? African-American male.
17, 18 years old.
Are you gonna be all right? I'm fine.
You're a long ways off the Jesse Carr scene.
We were passing through, heard the shots.
See it all the time in here.
Rival dealers getting into a beef over a corner.
This kid's an athlete.
How many dealers you know hydrate? You'd be surprised.
Whatever he was, he was somebody's son.
Who was most likely killed by another black guy.
Now, where are all your cameras and your protesters now? And it's about to explode If our stars don't shine in the darkness Where do we go from here? Where do we go? Do we hold on to the dream regardless? Where do we go from here? You know, I've been to funerals with open caskets before.
Saw Jesse Carr in his.
But I've never seen a brother just laid out like that.
How do you get used to it? (sighs) There's something about the eyes when a person dies.
One moment they have life and then something changes.
Don't know how to describe it, but you never get used to it.
(indistinct chatter, music playing) How's Deputy Beck? He's fine, Donnie.
I retire, they fill my slot with one of them.
- You're drunk, man.
- Is that why you look so pretty? (chuckles) BREELAND: Hey.
I'm making a petition.
Beck has gotta go.
It was a clean shoot.
I'm not that drunk.
Here.
Sign.
Here, come on.
You, too.
Get the hell out of my face.
(laughs) Tell this deputy who I am.
Brooks, this is Donnie.
He did 30 years.
Eight years as captain.
But now he's just a sorry-ass drunk.
(laughs) You know how scared you used to be working the neighborhood, Calvert? How you almost pissed your pants first day on patrol? Huh? You know what, you're a disgrace.
You your deputy and your black cop boyfriend.
Okay, can we Can you, can you put your Come on, baby, will you help Mama out? Mind your head.
You're in? The shoes.
(yelling) Christian, that is not the shirt I laid out for you.
- Get back in there and change.
- But Mom! Hurry up, please! You're gonna be late.
Put your shoes on, Daddy's ready.
Come on, hustle, hustle, hustle.
Kerry, can you drive the boys to school today? I want to clear my head.
(reporters calling for Beck) - Yeah.
Honey - Thanks.
REPORTER: One question, Deputy Beck, please! Have you given any more thought to sitting with the psychologist? Kerry, my union rep bailed on me.
Psych gonna help me with that? (reporters shouting questions) REPORTER: Do you have a comment on the cell phone video? (sighs) REPORTER: Right here! REPORTER 2: We just want to hear your side of the story, Deputy.
DECLAN (on phone): Your daughter's been asking for you.
Mr.
Cano is granting permission for a scheduled call.
I shouldn't even have to ask for permission.
Ashe, this is a good thing.
What time's the call? Tomorrow.
After school.
2:00 p.
m.
Everything all right? All good.
I offered Deputy Beck spiritual counseling, and he declined.
That's all I know about him.
Oh, and that he's the only black face in the sheriff's department.
Ever witness Deputy Beck be aggressive with anyone? The deputies in our community are always aggressive.
That isn't their problem.
Their problem is that they don't know how to be effective.
That why you started your own street patrol? "The Hands"? To be more effective? What's that short for, the Hands of God? If we could police ourselves, we wouldn't need anybody from the outside coming in here with their quick trigger fingers.
That include scaring Joey Campbell straight? Heard he sold weed.
Figured The Hands may have had an issue with that.
What does this have to do with Deputy Beck or Jesse Carr? Aren't you also seeking justice for Joey Campbell? We heard a young man by the name of Cory Grant may have seen something.
First I heard about it.
Figured you knew everything popping off in The Houses.
What did Cory tell you? Nothing, he's been missing for the last couple of days.
Any idea where we should start looking for him? No, but I'll ask around.
(doorbell ringing) Hello, Ms.
Carr, my name's Penn Moder.
I know who you are you're running for governor.
First, I just want to offer my condolences.
What happened to your son was a hate crime.
He did not deserve to die at the hands of a racist cop.
You didn't even know my son.
I know a promising young life was cut short.
And I know that we need to make sure it never happens to anyone else's son, ever again.
You can know all those things, but it still doesn't bring my son back.
No, but we can make his death mean something more.
I'm proposing the "Jesse Carr Call First" bill.
Whenever anyone under 21 is pulled over in Oakdale County, the deputy has to call the child's parents first before he can ask them to exit the vehicle.
This protects the youth, it protects the parents, and the deputy.
You want to use my son's death as a political platform.
No, I want to honor his memory.
His memory's not for sale.
Governor Eamons called the D.
O.
J.
in for a reason.
They're not investigating that cop to get to the truth.
They're investigating that cop to create a new one.
And they're not going to stop until they have gutted every good memory - that you have of your son.
- You need to leave.
I'll keep you in my prayers.
REPORTER: We are outside the house of Alicia Carr, mother of slain victim Jesse Carr.
Penn Moder has just visited the Carr household at this time (phone ringing) Toxicology report for Jesse Carr.
No traces of marijuana in his system.
Weed was found in the glove compartment.
Maybe Jesse planned to party later on.
Or maybe his mother was right about him and he didn't do drugs.
Before you give him a halo Blood alcohol level of .
08.
He was legally drunk.
Are you close to making an arrest? Well, the investigation is still ongoing, but we just need to clarify a few things.
How long had Jesse been struggling with alcohol? He wasn't.
That is Jesse, correct? He did spend a month in a rehab facility? Oh, God, that was No, his-his teacher caught him and some friends with alcohol after a football game.
I just wanted to stop it before it got out of hand.
By rehab over just one incident? I'm a recovering alcoholic.
Been sober for six months now.
In Alicia's typical fashion, she overreacted.
ALICIA: You don't get to say that.
You weren't there.
Not for 15 years.
You shouldn't be here now.
He called me.
- What? - Six weeks ago.
He said he was having problems adjusting to college life.
He wanted advice.
So what did you say? I told him to be himself.
He said he wasn't sure if he knew how.
He told me everything was fine.
He didn't want you to worry.
Jesse died with alcohol in his system.
He was driving drunk? Possibly.
Was he pulled over for drunk driving? - No, he wasn't.
- Then what is this? You're just trying to dig up any dirt you can on my son? Only two people know what happened that day: your son and Deputy Beck.
We're being thorough in our investigation of both.
My son can't speak for himself.
He was murdered.
But all you care about is protecting your own.
ALICIA: Jesse's car.
It was his high school graduation present.
They told me it's in impound.
When can I have it? I'll look into it.
MR.
D.
: When word got out to the white community about how good my father's cooking was, white people started sneaking in the back door for take-out.
(chuckles) Some say integration in Gate Station didn't begin with the civil rights movement.
It began with white people wanting our cobbler.
(laughter) I bet he's got a lot of stories.
Very few of them are true.
(chuckles) I appreciate you coming down, Governor.
Showing your support in The Gate will go a long way.
Contrary to what you imply, I have always had an affinity for the people of this community.
I called you out because I knew you'd listen.
When you ran in your first term, you said you would be governor of all the people.
- The wealthy and the middle class.
- And I meant it.
Not the lower class? You are aware I have decreased state taxes for the poor and I am fighting to raise the minimum wage.
I appreciate that, but we need more.
What else do you appreciate? - I'm not Reverend DuPont.
- Noted.
But we could have met in a more private place.
What do you really want? To serve.
What else? I want you, Governor Eamons, to serve as well.
Didn't even really wanna go But if you get me out, you get a show There's so many bodies on the floor So, baby, we should go and add some more Are you down, d-d-down, d-d-down D-d-down, down, down? Alicia Carr is here.
Everywhere I look are people's hands Ms.
Carr.
Can I help you? I'm in.
Okay.
Are you down, d-d-down, d-d-down? D-d-down, down, down? FOX 46 obtained exclusive video of the moments right after shots were fired.
We do want to warn you, though, these images you're about to see are pretty graphic.
They show a young man's life over after an apparent drug stop went horribly wrong.
It happened when a Gate Station sheriff's deputy pulled over 19-year-old Jesse Carr.
Officials say there was some sort of altercation, and then the shots were fired.
Carr, an NC State freshman and Gate Station native was unarmed.
ASHE: Ms.
Carr? - What's all this? - Is there something you needed? Your son's car.
They need you to sign these release forms.
MAN: You know what, I want to put the chair over there.
Interesting new friends.
I believed you when you first said you're here to police the police.
I don't believe you anymore.
Excuse me.
- (whispering): Take your time.
- Yeah.
WOMAN: Quiet, please, quiet on the set.
MAN: Rollin'.
MAN 2: Speed.
So, um where do I look? Oh, I'm sorry, yes, right in the camera.
Just take your time, whenever you're ready, okay? My son, Jesse, was my best friend.
He was murdered by someone trained and paid by tax dollars to protect him.
My life has been shattered.
I know it's not a dream, but I wake up every day wishing it was.
Penn Moder is introducing a bill that would require police officers to call the parents of anyone under 21 pulled over from Oakdale.
When a police officer breaks the law, they should be held accountable.
Someone should be held accountable.
I'll stand behind anyone willing to speak up for us, for mothers All mothers.
Penn Moder is that person.
(people chanting) MAN: Thanks for all you do, Governor.
- Good afternoon, Governor Eamons.
- Good afternoon, Pastor.
The mother's name is Shameeka Campbell.
Younger son, Shawn, is 13? You've done your homework.
Shameeka Campbell, Governor Eamons.
It's truly a pleasure to meet you, Ms.
Campbell.
You have my sincere condolences.
Thank you, Governor.
- This is my aide, Sarah Ellis.
- Hi.
Please, y'all come on in.
Have a seat.
Thank you, what a nice home.
Oh, it ain't much.
It's impressive.
Tells me a lot about you.
SHAMEEKA: This is Shawn.
My youngest.
Thank you for coming to visit us, Governor.
Thank you for having us.
Would you like some sweet tea or lemonade? - Tea, please.
- Okay.
The same, thank you.
Oh, I was, uh, I was at work and Joey was dribbling a ball in the house.
I come home and find the tile taped together like that.
I got so mad.
Even at 17, he looked like he could cry when I yelled at him.
Always my baby.
Now I just I want it to stay like that, you know? Well, you could give my daughter some organizational pointers.
Moms is no joke.
She runs a tight ship.
Think the Hornets will break through this year? That was my brother's.
Actually, most of this was his.
I shared a room growing up with my sister.
I was also the youngest.
She hogged all the wall space, too.
So you like being governor? Most of the time.
What's the best part about your job? Helping people.
Maybe you can help the Hornets, then.
(chuckles) We really want to thank you both for your hospitality and I'll make sure the sheriff's office is doing everything they can to get your son justice.
You have my word.
Do you have any pull with GSS? - The school board? - Yes, ma'am.
Um, they're shutting down Shawn's school, West Gate Middle School, saying he got to go to the nearest one, which is 15 times worse.
Now he a straight-A student, he got a chance.
The minute he go to the other school, I just You know, I don't know what kind of future he'll have.
I'm not sure what I can do if the school is closing.
But I will look into it.
If you ever need anything at all, please don't hesitate to call me.
- It was nice meeting you, Shawn.
- Goodbye, Governor Eamons.
Great handshake.
Jesse and I broke up about two months ago.
- What happened? - Just didn't work out.
- You broke up with him? - Why does that matter? Everything matters.
I don't want you thinking he was a bad guy, 'cause he wasn't.
When we first met, he was shy, one of the few guys into the Daniel Clowes Ghost World graphic.
Then he pledged that frat and things just changed.
Did he drink when you were with him? No, he wasn't into drinking.
Wasn't into smoking.
That thing at the dorm was out of character for him.
ASHE: What thing? He got into it with his R.
A.
I wasn't there, but hearing people talk It wasn't the guy I fell in love with.
MAN: He got drunk, like, one time.
Makes him a saint around here.
So why are folks still talking about it? - Look, I got class.
- I'll walk with you.
Am I under arrest or something? I'm just looking for a conversation.
I'm not a snitch.
If I had a dime for every time somebody said that before snitching, I'd be a billionaire now talk.
What the hell happened the night he got drunk? He came into the dorm with a couple of frat buddies.
White boy wasted.
Acting stupid.
So I told Jesse he had to bounce.
Got in my face and wouldn't chill, so So? So I had to beat his ass.
In front of his frat buddies? In front of everybody.
Let's just say Jesse's your typical kid today.
Right? Doesn't see color, or at least, that's what he thinks.
Until his frat buddies start giving him hell for embarrassing them.
See, he figured it was about manhood, but they make it clear it's about race.
So now, suddenly, that's in him when he's pulled over by Beck.
- Along with a couple of drinks.
- Drinking doesn't change you.
It amplifies who you really are.
And there's no evidence that Jesse was racist.
It's not like he called the R.
A.
the N-word.
Is that how you categorize a racist? Look, I know how these frat boys think.
(cell phone buzzes) Yeah.
Okay, text me the address.
Friend of mine just tracked Kiana's cell phone.
Looks like our other witness isn't missing after all.
- Tracked down how? - Don't worry about it.
I will if it's a Fourth Amendment violation.
Am I missing something? I just found our other witness in the Joey Campbell murder.
She's pinging in Concord.
Wealthy suburb.
- Long way from The Houses.
- We need authorization for that.
You wanted to find Cory, I'm finding him.
Getting info isn't always gonna be fresh and clean.
This whole partner thing, it's new to me.
Well, catch up and get used to it.
Okay, I'll let you do your thing.
I'll handle Jesse's frat tomorrow.
Yeah, channel your inner Yale frat boy.
You know, I'm a Sigma.
(chuckling) You're serious? Yeah.
You know who else is Sigma Zeta? Two presidents, four treasurers, one Supreme Court justice, and about 50 D.
O.
J.
prosecutors.
(dance music playing on car stereo, bass thumping) (music gets louder) (music and car engine stop) - (singing song from car): - I don't know when I lost control I don't know when I fell in love (continues singing) (knock at door) - Kiana Ward? - Yeah, can I help you? I'm an investigator with the Department of Justice.
- I got nothing for you.
- How do you know? I haven't asked you anything.
- Still got nothing.
- Want me to stay here all night? I can sing, too.
Just not good.
Trust me, your nice new neighbors ain't gonna like that.
(clicks tongue) (sighs) - Damn, you came up real good, sis.
- What do you want? Joey Campbell's murderer.
You were there that night.
- Who says? - His mother.
And by the looks of things, she's not the only one who thinks you got something to say.
No disrespect to her, but she got her facts twisted.
There was another witness, a kid named Cory.
- He's gone missing.
- What do you mean missing? ASHE (on earphones): Nobody's seen him for the last two days.
- Know anything about it? - KIANA: No.
ASHE: Gotta be careful, Kiana.
Same thing could happen to you if you don't tell me what the hell is going on.
If Kiana's being paid to keep quiet about Joey Campbell's murder, maybe Cory is, too.
ASHE: Cory's dad didn't exactly look like he was rolling in it.
PRESTON: So is he missing or does he not want to be found? ASHE: Either way, we'll find him.
Yeah.
So you hanging with your frat brothers yet? All I need to know from them is if Jesse had the propensity to reach for a cop's gun.
A black cop's gun.
Look, I gotta go.
(switches phone off) (phone ringing) (beeps) (playful): Kai? DECLAN (on phone): Ashe, it's me.
The call's been delayed.
Delayed? What kind of baby daddy crap is he pulling? He says he forgot she had something after school.
What time is the call now? They gave a window sometime in the next two to three hours.
- He knows I'm in the middle of a case.
- Ashe.
Do you want to speak to your daughter or not? Yes.
Yes Okay, fine.
- I'll get back to you.
- (beeps) MAN: Look, it really wasn't this big thing.
You know, the kid, he got his ass kicked.
We had a good laugh, that was it.
So why'd he drive to Gate Station? We had this social going on with our little sisters.
And you sent him to get the weed.
- Weed? - No.
The house voted for barbecue, and Jesse, he volunteered to go get it.
He went all the way to Gate Station for barbecue? He said it was his favorite spot.
We didn't know it'd be the last time we saw him.
Thanks.
MAN: Yo, G! Miss Campbell? How are you? Lieutenant Breeland.
Yes? What is this about? The governor has asked that we leave no stone unturned in your son's case.
So if there's anything else you might want to share No, sir, there's nothing.
You don't have to be scared of me.
- I ain't scared of you.
- Well, good.
I didn't mean to come off so harsh when we first met.
Some people will smile in your face, but they don't give a damn what goes on here.
It's a war.
I ain't no Boy Scout, but I'm on the right side of it.
So if you hear of any other witnesses, or any info at all, I want to be your first call.
(hip-hop music playing) (cheering) (woman laughs) (indistinct chatter) How long before you're initiated? Couple weeks.
Hang in there, it's worth it.
- You're frat? - Mm-hmm.
Yeah, those letters just don't disappear when you graduate.
I'm Sigma.
You're about to be Sigma.
- You know, we're almost like - brothers.
So what kinds of things they have you doing? You gonna use it against me? I'm not a cop.
But you ask a lot of questions.
I'm just a lawyer.
The other night, I had to drive blindfolded.
This morning I had to eat a vomit omelet.
Man, just wait till the vodka push-up challenge.
Oh, my God, serious? It's gonna suck.
They make Jesse do crazy stuff, too? Not at first.
Because he didn't really seem into it.
It's, like, the more they think we want this, the harder they are on us, you know? After he got beat, they started to target him.
Why? Because Ted was pissed.
He said he embarrassed the whole frat, made us look like bitches.
That's why they sent him to the hood.
Wait, so getting barbecue in the hood was punishment for getting his ass kicked? Not just getting his ass kicked, man.
For getting his ass kicked by a black guy.
Yeah.
(new hip-hop song starts) (cheering) All my bitches keep it trill, trill All these guys gonna be chill, chill I'ma show you how I live I'm so bad All my bitches keep it trill, trill All these guys gonna be chill, chill I'm a show you how I live (music stops abruptly) (shouting angrily) What the hell's up?! (door opens) (Beck sighs) (door closes) (keys jingling) (sighs) (keys clatter on shelf) (sighs) Babe, what are you doing down there? The sink started leaking again.
Thought the plumber fixed it.
You call him? He said he couldn't get out this way.
Did you tell him it's the same problem as before? It didn't seem to matter.
Bet you if you told him we were the Mills across the street, he would have came running, but instead he hears that it's the black cop that shot the white kid, so now all of a sudden his ass can't show up to fix the one thing that he messed up (bang) - (yelps) - What? - Damn it! - Oh, babe.
- I'm fine.
- It's not fine.
Look at that cut.
(gasps) Kerry! I said I'm fine.
We got to stop doing this.
Doing what? (sighs) Everyone is looking at us sideways.
We can't start doing that to each other.
Looking at us sideways? (sighs) What happened? I was over at Anna's apartment today, supposedly to help her pick out colors for the dresses, and she graciously offered to let me bow out of being a bridesmaid since we're "under so much pressure.
" - Caleb's going to be pissed.
- Don't say anything.
If she doesn't want me in the wedding, she's gonna have to be straight up with it.
I don't understand.
I-I don't.
We worked so hard.
Done everything right.
We're supposed to be building on that, not getting tore down in front of the whole world.
(sighs) I swear, that stupid video's gonna cost me my entire life.
How do we get through this, Kerry? Baby It is you and me right now.
Let the world bring it.
We can get through anything together.
I promise you.
MAN: Good afternoon, Gates Station sheriff's office.
How can I help you? Where do I turn this in? Impound's two blocks from here.
Don't worry yourself, Deputy, I'll find it.
OFFICER: What was he wearing? MR.
GRANT: A gray hoodie and camo pants.
OFFICER: How long's he been missing? MR.
GRANT: Three days now.
(phone ringing) We'll put out a "be on the lookout.
" See if we can't find your son.
(phone ringing) - (engine starts) - Yo! I got it.
(engine starts) (phone ringing) (affectionately): Hey, Boogs! KAI: Mama, guess what? Excuse me! I have not talked to you in five days.
Hi, Mama, I miss you! I miss you, too, Boogs.
More than you know.
Mama! Guess what? Okay, what? Paula took me shopping at the mall today to get shoes and there was a big crowd of people in front of this one store.
So we go over there and guess what? We saw Serena! - That's so good, Boogs.
- KAI: Muy buena.
Actually, it's pronounced muy bueno.
KAI: Muy buena.
I think Paula would know.
Fine, then from now on you speak English with me, okay? And when we have a call scheduled, you call me, okay? You don't blow it off to go shoe shopping! (softly): Sorry, Mama.
Kai, are you crying? I'm sorry Why are you crying, Kai? JAVIER: Ashe, what the hell did you say to her? Javier, put Kai back on the phone.
She's crying, Ashe.
- I'm not putting her back on the phone.
- Put Kai back on the damn phone! I knew we shouldn't have done this.
(line goes dead) (line ringing) AUTOMATED VOICE: Your call has been forwarded to an automated voice messaging system.
Impressive.
You think? - Yeah, you're right.
- (chuckles) Well, that's why you brought me here, isn't it? To impress me? It's just a place I come to clear my head.
Something going on with the investigation? Actually, yeah.
I think I may have put a young kid's life at risk.
What are you going to do? Ashe says we'll find him, so I have to trust her.
That doesn't come easy to you.
Trusting people.
It's your turn.
Impress me.
(laughing): I can't hit a lick.
Come on, doesn't have to be with a bat.
Freshman year at Duke, I found out this fraternity had a notebook called "The Slut Guide" filled with the names of sorority girls and what they did sexually.
So I organized a SlutWalk on campus, and with 300 women, we shut the frat down.
Governor Eamons heard about it and offered me an internship.
Were you in it? Where? The notebook.
Really? That's what you have to say about it? Look, I'm impressed.
So, do you trust her? Hm? Ashe.
Yeah.
We're partners.
Ring the alarm - Wake me up - (tow truck signal beeping) 'Cause I don't want to sleep no more Beautiful dreams, wasted time Because in reality we're no more How can delusions seem so real? How can delusions seem so right? What I wouldn't give to have you near To kiss you the way I did last time Oh Were you ever really here? Or is it just my imagination? Were you ever really mine? Or was it just something that I made up? My imagination (weeping) New York City to North Carolina This is the combo right here My disturbed mind should have a Do Not Disturb sign When you wear your pants so much they start to shine When you're trying to use the E.
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card and get declined It feels grimy You wonder who used a line They want that gun back they lent you You out of time, see? You talk about, wish they threw you a line Barely hanging on, all the savings are gone Need something strong To simply make it through the morn Case is pending, connect not calling back Need a cut but you're ignoring that, more yet Stay high, high as you can Look at the sky like, "My God, let me die" Let's try this again I've been down for a whole lot of years Tried to get the judge to appeal Ain't gettin' no easier I want to get to care It's hard to smile when you're broke, playin' around I wonder who's raising my child Sometime I feel dyin' would be easier All I got left is my pride I been down so long, I ain't got a way of leaving I been down so long Angels look like demons I've been down so long Crying's just like breathing (grunting) (choking) (grunting) Oh, Lord, help me make change Things ain't going my way And I ain't done nothing Cory?