Always Jane (2021) s01e04 Episode Script
Farewell, Sparta
1
[music playing]
[Jane] Going in the elevator.
Going to the fifth floor.
Gonna have my surgery.
I just said goodbye
to my parents.
I don't know why
I'm not emotional.
[elevator beeping]
[elevator voice]
Fifth floor.
Okay.
[chatting, indistinct]
Little thing.
[whirring]
And so my doctors
just came in,
and it's official that I'm
having my surgery at 11:00.
And it's 10:27.
It's crazy.
I'm really excited.
Ow.
We're going in.
All right, here we are.
Come on in.
- Hi.
- Hi.
[monitor beeping]
[phone ringing]
Hello, Doctor.
How are you, sir?
[Doctor]
Good, good.
Yes, so Dr. [indistinct]
and I,
we're done with
Jane's surgery.
Everything went well.
- Oh, thank God.
- Oh, my God!
Yeah, you know it had
I know it's a really
difficult time,
you know, these days,
not being able to
be with your child.
You know, while she's
coming in
But, you know, she wasn't
nervous or anything.
The surgery itself
went very well.
Thank God.
We're very happy with
how things went.
Thank you.
[David] Thank you very much.
Wonderful.
All right, thank you, Doctor.
- Thank you so much.
- Have a good day.
[all]
Bye.
Okay, bye.
What a
What a relief.
- Stress.
- Yeah.
Stress.
I'm in a supermarket,
shopping,
while my daughter's
having surgery.
- I know.
- It's like
And it's the only thing to do
because you just try to keep
you know, to keep your
mind off of it
and keep busy.
Hold on.
Hi!
Can you hear me?
Jane?
Yeah.
How are you doing,
sweetie?
Thank you.
[indistinct]
What's the matter?
I can't breathe.
Okay. Did you call
the nurse?
Uh, no!
What are they doing?
It's when I get emotional,
I can't breathe.
Okay. All right.
Take your time.
Take your time.
It hurts so bad.
I want my mom.
And my dad.
Well, at least,
at least we're gonna
be able to see her Friday.
[Emma] Are we allowed to see
her?
- No, just Mom.
- Just Mom?
Well, one of us.
Can we come in on Saturday?
- Just one.
- I'll ask.
I'm getting no sleep.
I just wanna sleep so bad.
Bye, sweetie.
Bye, Mama.
My baby.
Everyone from my Slay
competition is so sweet.
All the girls.
They all said congratulations.
I'm really happy.
Everyone's really sweet.
I'm gonna get some sleep.
I'm so tired.
Good night.
O say can you see ♪
By the dawn's early light ♪
What so proudly we hail ♪
At the twilight's
last gleaming ♪
Whose broad stripes
and bright stars ♪
Through the perilous
fight ♪
Ew.
O'er the ramparts
we watched ♪
Were so gallantly
streaming ♪
Ugly.
And the rockets red glare ♪
The bombs bursting in air ♪
Today is June 18th.
Today is the day I graduate
or was supposed to graduate.
[voice]
Jane Noury.
Yay, yay.
I graduated. Whoo.
They're giving me
chicken broth, that's it.
Are they giving you, like, pain
meds every, like, four hours?
Um, they give me Tylenol
and Viagra.
- Viagra?
- Viagra?
It's 'cause it makes the blood
go into the wound.
- Oh!
- Oh!
That'll make it heal.
Doesn't that make
your dick hard?
Yeah!
[laughs]
Yeah.
That's so funny.
This is the first time I'm
visiting her in the hospital
after surgery, and
I went through great trouble,
uh, to pick her up
something fun.
But I'm not allowed
to take 'em upstairs.
[Jane] So happy you're here.
I missed you.
I missed you.
I love how you use my bed
as an ottoman.
[laughs]
Move over.
You're funny.
Missed you.
The house is not the same
without you.
[whirring]
[gasps]
Eww, a pimple.
I think they're, like,
switching out.
- Ow!
- Sorry.
Needs to be brushed.
Ow!
[chatting, laughing]
[chatting, laughing]
[Jane] I love you.
Love you so much, Momma.
[Laura] Pretty river.
If there's anyplace to be
reborn, it's this room.
Right?
The big day.
It's pretty incredible.
[laughs]
That looks like the vagina.
That looks like a vagina.
Right?
It looks like
a vagina.
That looks like
a vagina, right? Right?
Right?
What shall we call her?
I thought we were calling her
Patricia. [laughs]
Does she look like
a Patricia?
- How do you feel?
- I feel really happy.
I'm kinda tired.
And I really hurt.
[David] Sit in the front
or the back, honey?
The front?
You'll have more legroom.
[coughs] Ow.
[groans]
My coochie hurts so bad.
Seven weeks post-op.
I really wasn't prepared
for how painful
all that was gonna be.
Two months post-op.
Yay!
What would you say
my vagina looks like?
What would I say
it looks like?
- Yeah.
- Beautiful. Elegant.
What would you
compare it to?
- Any other vagina.
- [laughs]
[wind blowing]
Do you ever just get
sand in your gooch.
It's good exfoliant.
You just gotta worry
about camel toe.
Today is February 17th.
I am officially
eight months post-op.
And yeah.
I got a job and
That's what I've been doing
pretty much so far as of 2021.
We're just gonna wing it.
I was at college.
All my friends are at college.
I just feel very
I guess lost right now,
but the goal at the beginning,
of the gap year,
was to just focus on recovering
from my surgery.
And now that I'm pretty much
almost recovered,
I really gotta start
thinking about
what I really want.
I did a photo shoot.
It was with this French
photographer named Matthew.
And it was a lot of
funny-fun.
Oh.
I don't know. I'm just having,
I guess, this moment
where I'm not sure if film
is what I'm really
passionate about.
I'm not sure if I even want
to go to school right now.
[Emma] From what she told me,
she didn't want to go to SVA.
I looked at her and I was like,
"What are you gonna do?
Stay in Sparta?"
Isn't in interesting
that three-four years ago,
we were running around
out in this field?
Getting screamed at.
You come in
as a freshman and
- Not knowing anything.
- Not knowing anything.
I think that when you're
here at the Academy,
you're a mentor
no matter what.
You're thrown into all these
leadership positions,
and it forces you to mature
and grow up and make,
you know, sound decisions,
essentially.
But I think that
I'll always be,
like, the big sister role.
I think
I mean, that's how I've
always been, you know?
Sometimes Jane needs
a little push.
I needed a push.
It was certainly hard
for me to come here.
I was horrified.
I was so scared.
But now I'm here,
and I've met so many
wonderful people.
You know? So I want her to
have the courage
and the strength
to just say "Okay, yes.
Yes, let's do it.
Let's do it. Let's do it."
The total opposite of what
she was saying
when we were younger.
"No, I don't wanna go out.
No, I don't wanna do this.
No, I wanna stay here.
No, I don't wanna go
see people."
I want it to be the complete
opposite for her.
[Emma] At least try.
Do you think I should
go to SVA?
You think I should go?
[Jane] I was so focused on
getting my surgery,
I didn't really have time
to think about next steps.
I definitely want to keep
doing modeling
and maybe start taking
acting classes maybe?
I don't know.
We're getting our
vaccine shot today.
Hello.
Are you ready
to get poked?
Where?
[laughs]
Where's that happening?
In your Covid hole?
[laughs]
My Covid hole?
- Hi, Daddy.
- Hi, honey. How are you?
Good. How are you?
The whole world is getting
their shot.
You don't need it?
[Jane] Why won't you
get your shot?
Huh?
Why won't you
get your shot?
I don't need it.
[Jane chuckles]
[Laura] That's where
we grew up.
It's where Mommy and Daddy
fell in love.
[Jane] That's where
you fell in love?
[Laura] Yeah, not on this
highway.
[Jane] Did you guys
make out?
I said "That's where I used to
make out with your daddy."
I said, "Oh, wait,
that wasn't him."
[laughs]
How do you guys feel after
getting your shot?
Ooh, it's tender.
[laughs]
Oh, my God!
Do you already feel congested?
Yeah, I do.
And I'm constipated and I have
diarrhea at the same time.
[all laugh]
I'm gonna be 20 soon.
Just crazy.
I'm not gonna be
a teenager anymore.
Do you remember when we were in
elementary school,
and you fell on your face?
We were on the swings
together.
Stop.
You remember the first time
we dressed up together?
It was probably the dance.
No, it was, like, Halloween.
'Cause that was the first time I
started wearing makeup.
That was before I was out.
[both laugh]
I really don't want to
be an adult.
Yeah, I know,
it's, like, scary.
Responsibilities.
Like, how are we
in college?
Well, I'm not.
[laughs]
[doorbell rings]
Hello?
- Hey!
- Hey!
- Good to see you.
- So good to see you.
- Been so long.
- I know.
This is great.
This is, like, the most
impressive thing ever.
I'm gonna put that is the most
impressive thing you've made.
- [glasses clinking]
- Great to see you guys.
- Missed you so much.
- Love you. Missed you.
We were at Sparta Dairy,
and we were reminiscing
about football.
Remember the practices we'd
go to on Saturday morning?
And we'd sit there with
all the other dads going,
"My boy! My boy!
That's my boy!"
And our boys would be
disco dancing. Ooh! Ooh!
We'd look at each other like
You said one time,
"I think maybe someday
our boys are gonna date."
I know it.
Patrick came out
as a freshman?
He was a sophomore,
so he was 15.
I mean, you know,
when we grew up,
it was just
a different world.
It was a different world.
And so you're worrying about
your kid's safety
and acceptance.
The only time I ever
felt, um, sneered upon
was at the post office.
The picture? Is that what
For the passport?
Yeah, we're getting
a passport.
And we filled out the
application and whatnot,
and she's like
and it says on
the application,
"Did you ever have
a different name?"
So I had to write down,
"Her name is Jane Lola,
but she was Jack Noury
at one point."
And she goes,
"Wait a minute."
She goes
and then she goes
She made
that face.
- She made that face.
- Yeah, I was there too.
And Jane is right there.
Oh, really.
And I wanted to take her head
and go bam, bam, bam,
right on the table.
And I'm like,
"Is there an issue?"
And then It was just
like this quick
It was a disgusting,
quick exchange
that I wanted to fucking
kill somebody.
You're gonna have
that shit,
and you're gonna have people
that are compassionate,
and that's the difference.
There's people who
But you're never
prepared for this.
There's a bunch of
shitheads out there.
I think we just have to teach
our kids not to be naïve.
- Well, they need to have open eyes.
- Yeah.
They can't be naive.
They can never be naive.
They always have to be, um
- Alert.
- On task.
Exactly.
Which is a sad way
to have to be.
You know, she should just
be Jane.
College and learning
cool shit.
To be creative
and be artistic.
[Jane]
Rupert, guess what.
Rupert, Meatball
I'm in a magazine.
I know, right?
It's crazy.
I didn't know either.
Oh, my God! You're in
your first magazine!
And we didn't even know.
Love your real eyelashes.
- Those aren't real.
- I know, I'm joking.
Holy mackerel.
That's phenomenal!
Janey
We just bought it.
So I just found out
I'm gonna be doing
a photo shoot with Stef again.
I can't wait to see her.
We're gonna see
each other again.
I'm really excited to get out of
the house and do something.
Honestly, it has been
really boring.
I'm gonna look so good.
Heeyy.
[music playing]
How have you been feeling?
My surgery? I mean, yeah.
Everything was rough.
Like, the first
And you were all alone.
For a couple days, yeah.
[music playing]
Are you gonna try to, like,
balance college and modeling?
Or do you wanna be
a filmmaker or
Um, I wouldn't say I have
like It has been a passion.
I mean, I do wanna keep
on modeling, I think.
I have a lot of things that I'm interested
in and I want to tap into that.
That's good.
Having a wheel house
of different artistic
endeavors, like
And I don't think I wanna do
just one thing.
I think I wanna do
a couple things.
I think, for me, acting
has always been something
too that I've love.
Because I can kind of play
a different role.
'Cause that's the thing.
It's like I was pretending
to be a boy.
People don't say
"I was acting like a boy"
in public spaces
to appease my family.
Yeah.
And having to pretend
to be someone else,
that's gonna fuck
with your head.
And I feel like I've only
recently
gotten to a point where
I stopped caring so much.
Where I'm just kinda, like,
I don't really give a fuck
if I'm in public
and someone questions, like,
"Oh, that's a really
tall girl."
Or "Oh, her chest
is so flat."
There's nothing wrong with
how your body looks.
And if you wanna change that,
to make you happy, then do it.
I think that's the most
important thing,
at the end of the day is,
as long as you're doing it
for yourself,
that's all that matters.
[birds chirping]
It's an Alfalfa-fuck-you
hairstyle.
You like my hair?
Yeah, it's very 1980s.
It's a little
middle finger, or Alfalfa
Is that what that is?
That's what it looks like.
- Love you. Have a good day.
- You too.
Ah! Did you call SVA?
- Call them?
- Did you write them?
- I'm going to.
- Are you?
- No.
- Did you write back?
I said I got it.
I filled out the form.
Did you fill out the form?
No, I passed out.
Well, good thing you're
awake now.
Well, I
Okay.
I'll do it while
I'm eating.
It's gonna take
longer than that.
I'll do my best.
I did mine.
All right.
Jane was getting
mired down a little bit,
after high school,
after surgery.
In that gap year, there were
also was some
sort of change of mind.
We just, we said,
you know
Just move forward.
You can't go anywhere
if you're just
sitting at home
doing nothing.
You have to take
even if they're
the wrong steps,
just take steps,
you know,
and you'll figure it out.
So what'd you do
today, Dad?
There's a good ball game
on tonight.
Who's playing?
Mets playing Baltimore.
Baltimore's playing
in New York.
Emma is in Seattle right now.
She doesn't like that we track
her, Daddy, on Find Friends.
- He stalks.
- I stalk.
I knew when she was in Belgium,
when she was in England,
France, Germany.
I feel like one day
I'm gonna wake up
with a tracker
in my arm.
Like, just a big bump.
That's, like, beeping red.
As the technology evolves,
I'll look into it.
She's a very heavy sleeper,
so it's very feasible.
I could be anywhere
in the world,
and they will text me, "What are
you doing in this state?"
I'm like, "How did you
even know I was here?"
And they would be like,
"We were just looking at
where you were."
They're with me all the time.
Aw.
It's funny.
Freshman year, I joined
the Spectrum Affinity Council,
and it's a support system
for people who
maybe do not have
a supportive family,
supportive background.
This community supports,
loves, cares
and respects them for who
they are as a person.
I think, especially when
we go out into the fleet,
I think they'll be an even
bigger group of individuals
who need to be supported
and need guidance.
And I think someone
like you and myself
and our friends will be
there to support them.
I'm gonna be an officer in
the United States Coast Guard.
My job is gonna be
helping people.
My main goal is to do things
for others.
I hope the world becomes
more accepting
and continues to become
more accepting, and
not just for transgender
individuals but everyone.
I will never understand
how Jane's transition,
or any other person's
transition,
still bothers people.
It doesn't affect them,
so why does it matter?
And sometimes you wonder how
Jane is gonna get through that.
But at the same time,
I'm still not scared that
she can't get through it.
If anything, Jane is
more of a beautiful person
every day because
she is herself.
- Jidu.
- What?
I wanna ask you.
The old-timers, would they be
accepting of Jane?
Not the old-fashioned
ones, no.
How would she have
been treated?
They would shun her.
Keep away from her.
Would they hurt her?
No, they would never hurt.
But just actions can
hurt you, you know.
Yeah.
But my mother and father were
very broad-minded people.
Very, very broad-minded
people.
Which is great.
That's the way it should be.
That's the way it should be.
It's your life, and you know
what you want in life.
If that's what you want in life
and you're happy with it, fine.
Do it.
That's what my mother
used to tell me.
Don't let anything
hold you back.
If you wanna do something,
do it.
Don't let anybody
change your mind.
And she was right.
And I did.
[music playing]
Wow.
So this is it?
It's SVA. We're just gonna
look around.
We're gonna see some of the
dorms, some of the classes.
They're gonna tell me a little
more about the school.
[Faith] Jane opened up to me
about SVA.
She has a few things, like,
going around in her head.
Like, she's still thinking
about it.
Are you excited?
Like, are you ready?
I am. I 'm not ready,
but I'm excited.
She's, like, totally nervous
to live in the city,
but she's very, like,
independent,
she knows what she's doing.
So I think she'll be fine.
Closet.
I used to be in there.
How was it in there?
Depressing.
[Man] Hello. Jane? Hi.
- Hi.
So you like cinematography,
right? That's your focus?
Interested in photography?
- Yeah.
- So this is for you.
So we have plenty of lights.
We got our sound packages here.
We kinda cover it all.
We really have a lot of great
gear to work with here.
If you guys wanna take a minute
and look at the space.
I'll give you guys
a minute, okay?
[Jane]
Thank you.
They have much better bags
than we do.
Like, 50, my God.
No, and they're, like,
not ripped.
Did you know my mom
wanted to come here?
Really?
She wanted to come
for art,
and she's really good
at drawing, so
- Oh.
- But
they couldn't afford it.
She got in, though.
This was, like,
her dream school.
You will be encouraged
to communicate
with everything in you.
An art education is really
an education in yourself.
There's so many stories
that haven't been told.
You just tell your story
your way.
Unapologetically.
If you're a cinematographer,
it's not about the lens
as much as about
understanding
what's the heart of the story?
Why did you use that lens?
What's the meaning?
What is it that makes us
wanna see a Jane film?
Yeah.
And we'll push you to
tell stories.
So, I've made up my mind.
Finally.
I'm gonna go to SVA.
Yay!
Anyway
Yeah, I'm happy
I made a decision.
I think I made
the right decision for me.
I'm just excited that
I finally
don't have to think about it
anymore, honestly.
Like
don't have to worry about that.
And if it doesn't work out,
it doesn't work out.
Can't really predict
anything, but
we're going in with
high hopes.
That's me growing up, I guess,
and learning that I'm allowed
to make my own choices
and decide how I want
my life to go.
That's my grandma.
That's her graduation photo.
My mom gave it to me.
Look how beautiful she is.
She looks so pretty.
Hey, Tayta.
Hi.
Okay, so I am officially
going to college.
I'm officially registered
for my first year.
And because I took a gap year,
I will be graduating in 2025.
[smartphone beeps]
How old will be in 2025?
[smartphone beeps]
- You will be 23.
- [gasps]
No, I won't.
- I'm sorry. I can't
- Shut up!
I'm gonna be in the city next
year, all by myself.
[both laugh]
Go do your chores.
[Jane] How do feel about me
leaving for college? Collage?
[Mae] Um, I mean, I'm proud of
you.
Thanks.
Like, gonna be depressed.
Mm. Ow!
I just hit my shin!
Like, I want you to go
and do things.
Like, that's
so great for you.
Thanks.
You sound so sincere.
I don't know. I don't want
to think about it.
[water running]
You're gonna go off to college
in two years, though.
Yeah, but like
After that, we're not gonna
see each other that much.
That's not guaranteed.
But, like, it's implied.
[laughs]
From who? From me?
We don't see Emma
that much anymore.
She's in the military.
Still, we wouldn't see her
that much anyway.
Yeah, she's what, 23 now?
So when you go off
to college,
it's gonna be like
how Emma is now.
Emma's going out
and doing things.
Like, yay, good for her.
For love, for her.
Well, you gotta call her more.
I hate calling people.
It's your sister.
I'm not gonna call you.
You're not gonna call me?
I mean, I'll try.
But then, like
Then why are you gonna be sad
if you don't even try?
You know, it's not like every
day you have to call me.
I'm not gonna call you
every day.
I know you're not, but we can
check in on each other.
But, like,
you're gonna be busy.
We don't even call now.
We don't text.
'Cause we live together.
But, like, when you go out
and stuff, like, we don't text.
We just send each other TikToks
on Snapchat and that's it.
O-kay.
I don't know.
I think we'll be fine.
I think you're a little
dramatic.
Well, you'll be doing
your own thing,
and I'll be doing
my own thing.
It's like the end of an era.
I mean, yeah. We're not gonna
be here forever, though.
I'm aware of that.
It's like when she's home,
we're all in our
safe little bubble.
And she's going to
the city, which is great.
Because there's so many
different kinds of people
in the city, and I know that
she'll be accepted
and embraced and loved.
But it's still dangerous,
and it's still scary.
And it's not safe,
and it's not home.
Go ahead.
Like, you guys are great,
but you guys aren't Jane.
No, we're not.
I'm gonna have to get used
to all the noise
and all the crazy people
that pass by or whatever.
But it's exciting, though.
Yeah, we're more
excited for you,
you know, and we're
always here for you,
and we'll be there in
a second if you need us.
I'm gonna cry,
so stop.
It's gonna be hard to say
you know, to let you go.
But I'm excited to see
where you go.
I mean, look at Emma.
You know, we went through
the same things with Emma.
And we're gonna go though
the same things with Mae-Mae.
You know? And it is.
It's painful.
It's painful to
for change.
And we're also confident
that, you know,
you know how to deal
with the issues.
I mean, I feel like
you always have to have
some guard up,
especially being trans,
'cause you never know
people's intentions.
So, yeah, I mean,
I think it definitely
pushes you to mature faster.
Dealing with such serious
things that a young person
unfortunately shouldn't have
to go through all the time.
Like I don't know.
This is my comfort place.
This is where I'm most
comfortable,
and this is my home
and where I feel most safe.
So it's hard to
wanna let go of that.
And I don't know.
I mean
I am very nervous to not
have you guys when I leave,
but
[David] You'll have us.
You'll always have us.
But I think it's
gonna be good.
I'm excited.
[Laura]
Just make sure that you eat.
I eat
And sleep.
[laughs]
Yeah.
I just I have one
a question.
Jidu, is your name
on the moon?
[Jidu] It's on a plaque.
- How about that?
You don't say!
It was on Apollo 12.
Apollo 12 wasn't as big
as Apollo 13.
That was the big one.
But I worked on Apollo 12.
There was 150 engineers, of us,
and we all signed the plaque
that they took to
the moon with them.
With my signature on there.
And that'll be on there forever [indistinct].
There you go.
Incredible.
We're the old folk now.
- Yeah.
- [laughs]
Just a matter of time
because we're
we're just pole rushing
the abyss, you know?
It's delightful.
I'm thrilled.
30 more years and then what?
- Dust in the wind, brother.
- Wow.
[David] You know, I say
I make mistakes, right?
The other night,
I thought to myself,
what if I never
accepted Jane?
What if we never
What if we never decided
to go on a journey with her?
What if we
What if we shunned her
and pushed her back
and I lost years
of my kid's life?
What a what a scoundrel,
what a fraud I would be.
What a horrible father
I would be.
Can you imagine
being rejected by your
parents
and asking them for help
and asking them for support
and not getting it.
That's what you do
as a parent, right?
You just want your kids
to be happy.
You'll do anything
to make them happy.
'Cause what's the alternative?
What's the alternative
for a transgender child
not being happy?
And I wasn't going to
live through that.
I wasn't going to live
through
[sniffles]
seeing my child in a coffin.
I wasn't gonna fail her.
Absolutely not.
No options.
[music playing]
[Jane] How are you?
Fine. Okay. I'm fine.
How you doing? All right?
- I'm okay.
- I'm proud of you.
- Why?
- You're doing very well.
Thank you.
You're gonna make it big
someday.
You think so?
Yeah. We're gonna watch your
video on TV, right?
Yeah.
That's great.
I only wish my wife
was here, your grandmother,
to see all this.
- She would love it.
- I know.
She would love it.
[music playing]
For a guy whose name
is on the moon, I feel great.
And I will be on
the moon forever
long after I'm gone.
How many people can say
their name is on the moon?
I can.
Right?
- Yeah.
- Yeah.
[music playing]
I can't tell you what a
beautiful life I've had.
I just hope that your life
will be as good.
You deserve it.
I got three beautiful
grandchildren.
I can't tell you how much
I love you.
[Jane] I love you too, Jidu.
[music playing]
What else can I say?
Okay?
It's pretty out.
- Yeah, it's nice.
- It's nice.
My favorite memory is when
we all sat on your bed,
and we just sat
together and talked
for, like, the longest time.
It's just so natural for us
to be together.
I don't want to cry right now.
I'm gonna cry.
- Like an ugly cry?
- Maybe.
Or like just one little
cinematic tear?
Aw.
[Mae] It's like when
I look at her,
and I think about
all the bad people
and all the bad things
that could happen to her,
I can't even bear it.
I can't bear the thought
of losing my sister
to a piece of garbage person
who just thinks
that she's wrong
for being who she is.
I know, but like, we're
growing up now.
I shouldn't have to worry
about my sister like this.
It's not right.
- Are you okay?
- Yeah.
I hate that
I love you so much.
I was having such a good day!
[both laugh]
[music playing]
[Laura] I just want
a kind world for her.
I want her to have every
single opportunity
that anybody else
would have.
Because she has that right.
And nobody can tell me
otherwise.
The people who have the power
to accept them,
to make this world
better for them,
they tell them
that they're wrong
because they're
not like me.
That's what they think.
"They're wrong because
they're not like me.
They're different,
and different is bad.
Different is wrong."
Different is not wrong.
Different is wonderful.
Different is so good.
If anything, they belong
more than we do
because they're the people
of the future.
They're the ones who are
gonna make change.
Jane is somebody
who's gonna be somebody.
She's so strong.
She doesn't care
what anyone says.
I'm thankful that Jane had
the courage to come out,
a lot if kids and a lot of
people do not have that,
'cause they're scared,
you know?
They don't have a family
like we do.
[Laura] Jane didn't
transition alone.
We all transitioned
with her.
Her sisters transitioned
as sisters,
and we transitioned
as parents.
[David] I need to know
that my daughter
is going to be left to her
own devices,
to live a wonderful life,
the wonderful life
that she deserves.
The wonderful life that I would
want for your children.
[Laura] We all need to rally
around each other
and support each other
and transition with
that individual.
♪♪
[Jane] I think I was very
lucky to have my family
to go through this
transition with me.
You should be
surrounded by love.
I hope we get to
the point where we
no longer have to protest
for basic human rights
and for a respecting world
where at least we can
just not hate.
It's not easy for anyone else,
especially trans women.
It's hard to really be
yourself
and come out of it on the
other end being happy.
[music playing]
People need to self-love
and to care about yourself
more than other people's
opinions about you.
I don't need someone
to accept me.
I just need to accept myself.
[music playing]
[music playing]
[Jane] Going in the elevator.
Going to the fifth floor.
Gonna have my surgery.
I just said goodbye
to my parents.
I don't know why
I'm not emotional.
[elevator beeping]
[elevator voice]
Fifth floor.
Okay.
[chatting, indistinct]
Little thing.
[whirring]
And so my doctors
just came in,
and it's official that I'm
having my surgery at 11:00.
And it's 10:27.
It's crazy.
I'm really excited.
Ow.
We're going in.
All right, here we are.
Come on in.
- Hi.
- Hi.
[monitor beeping]
[phone ringing]
Hello, Doctor.
How are you, sir?
[Doctor]
Good, good.
Yes, so Dr. [indistinct]
and I,
we're done with
Jane's surgery.
Everything went well.
- Oh, thank God.
- Oh, my God!
Yeah, you know it had
I know it's a really
difficult time,
you know, these days,
not being able to
be with your child.
You know, while she's
coming in
But, you know, she wasn't
nervous or anything.
The surgery itself
went very well.
Thank God.
We're very happy with
how things went.
Thank you.
[David] Thank you very much.
Wonderful.
All right, thank you, Doctor.
- Thank you so much.
- Have a good day.
[all]
Bye.
Okay, bye.
What a
What a relief.
- Stress.
- Yeah.
Stress.
I'm in a supermarket,
shopping,
while my daughter's
having surgery.
- I know.
- It's like
And it's the only thing to do
because you just try to keep
you know, to keep your
mind off of it
and keep busy.
Hold on.
Hi!
Can you hear me?
Jane?
Yeah.
How are you doing,
sweetie?
Thank you.
[indistinct]
What's the matter?
I can't breathe.
Okay. Did you call
the nurse?
Uh, no!
What are they doing?
It's when I get emotional,
I can't breathe.
Okay. All right.
Take your time.
Take your time.
It hurts so bad.
I want my mom.
And my dad.
Well, at least,
at least we're gonna
be able to see her Friday.
[Emma] Are we allowed to see
her?
- No, just Mom.
- Just Mom?
Well, one of us.
Can we come in on Saturday?
- Just one.
- I'll ask.
I'm getting no sleep.
I just wanna sleep so bad.
Bye, sweetie.
Bye, Mama.
My baby.
Everyone from my Slay
competition is so sweet.
All the girls.
They all said congratulations.
I'm really happy.
Everyone's really sweet.
I'm gonna get some sleep.
I'm so tired.
Good night.
O say can you see ♪
By the dawn's early light ♪
What so proudly we hail ♪
At the twilight's
last gleaming ♪
Whose broad stripes
and bright stars ♪
Through the perilous
fight ♪
Ew.
O'er the ramparts
we watched ♪
Were so gallantly
streaming ♪
Ugly.
And the rockets red glare ♪
The bombs bursting in air ♪
Today is June 18th.
Today is the day I graduate
or was supposed to graduate.
[voice]
Jane Noury.
Yay, yay.
I graduated. Whoo.
They're giving me
chicken broth, that's it.
Are they giving you, like, pain
meds every, like, four hours?
Um, they give me Tylenol
and Viagra.
- Viagra?
- Viagra?
It's 'cause it makes the blood
go into the wound.
- Oh!
- Oh!
That'll make it heal.
Doesn't that make
your dick hard?
Yeah!
[laughs]
Yeah.
That's so funny.
This is the first time I'm
visiting her in the hospital
after surgery, and
I went through great trouble,
uh, to pick her up
something fun.
But I'm not allowed
to take 'em upstairs.
[Jane] So happy you're here.
I missed you.
I missed you.
I love how you use my bed
as an ottoman.
[laughs]
Move over.
You're funny.
Missed you.
The house is not the same
without you.
[whirring]
[gasps]
Eww, a pimple.
I think they're, like,
switching out.
- Ow!
- Sorry.
Needs to be brushed.
Ow!
[chatting, laughing]
[chatting, laughing]
[Jane] I love you.
Love you so much, Momma.
[Laura] Pretty river.
If there's anyplace to be
reborn, it's this room.
Right?
The big day.
It's pretty incredible.
[laughs]
That looks like the vagina.
That looks like a vagina.
Right?
It looks like
a vagina.
That looks like
a vagina, right? Right?
Right?
What shall we call her?
I thought we were calling her
Patricia. [laughs]
Does she look like
a Patricia?
- How do you feel?
- I feel really happy.
I'm kinda tired.
And I really hurt.
[David] Sit in the front
or the back, honey?
The front?
You'll have more legroom.
[coughs] Ow.
[groans]
My coochie hurts so bad.
Seven weeks post-op.
I really wasn't prepared
for how painful
all that was gonna be.
Two months post-op.
Yay!
What would you say
my vagina looks like?
What would I say
it looks like?
- Yeah.
- Beautiful. Elegant.
What would you
compare it to?
- Any other vagina.
- [laughs]
[wind blowing]
Do you ever just get
sand in your gooch.
It's good exfoliant.
You just gotta worry
about camel toe.
Today is February 17th.
I am officially
eight months post-op.
And yeah.
I got a job and
That's what I've been doing
pretty much so far as of 2021.
We're just gonna wing it.
I was at college.
All my friends are at college.
I just feel very
I guess lost right now,
but the goal at the beginning,
of the gap year,
was to just focus on recovering
from my surgery.
And now that I'm pretty much
almost recovered,
I really gotta start
thinking about
what I really want.
I did a photo shoot.
It was with this French
photographer named Matthew.
And it was a lot of
funny-fun.
Oh.
I don't know. I'm just having,
I guess, this moment
where I'm not sure if film
is what I'm really
passionate about.
I'm not sure if I even want
to go to school right now.
[Emma] From what she told me,
she didn't want to go to SVA.
I looked at her and I was like,
"What are you gonna do?
Stay in Sparta?"
Isn't in interesting
that three-four years ago,
we were running around
out in this field?
Getting screamed at.
You come in
as a freshman and
- Not knowing anything.
- Not knowing anything.
I think that when you're
here at the Academy,
you're a mentor
no matter what.
You're thrown into all these
leadership positions,
and it forces you to mature
and grow up and make,
you know, sound decisions,
essentially.
But I think that
I'll always be,
like, the big sister role.
I think
I mean, that's how I've
always been, you know?
Sometimes Jane needs
a little push.
I needed a push.
It was certainly hard
for me to come here.
I was horrified.
I was so scared.
But now I'm here,
and I've met so many
wonderful people.
You know? So I want her to
have the courage
and the strength
to just say "Okay, yes.
Yes, let's do it.
Let's do it. Let's do it."
The total opposite of what
she was saying
when we were younger.
"No, I don't wanna go out.
No, I don't wanna do this.
No, I wanna stay here.
No, I don't wanna go
see people."
I want it to be the complete
opposite for her.
[Emma] At least try.
Do you think I should
go to SVA?
You think I should go?
[Jane] I was so focused on
getting my surgery,
I didn't really have time
to think about next steps.
I definitely want to keep
doing modeling
and maybe start taking
acting classes maybe?
I don't know.
We're getting our
vaccine shot today.
Hello.
Are you ready
to get poked?
Where?
[laughs]
Where's that happening?
In your Covid hole?
[laughs]
My Covid hole?
- Hi, Daddy.
- Hi, honey. How are you?
Good. How are you?
The whole world is getting
their shot.
You don't need it?
[Jane] Why won't you
get your shot?
Huh?
Why won't you
get your shot?
I don't need it.
[Jane chuckles]
[Laura] That's where
we grew up.
It's where Mommy and Daddy
fell in love.
[Jane] That's where
you fell in love?
[Laura] Yeah, not on this
highway.
[Jane] Did you guys
make out?
I said "That's where I used to
make out with your daddy."
I said, "Oh, wait,
that wasn't him."
[laughs]
How do you guys feel after
getting your shot?
Ooh, it's tender.
[laughs]
Oh, my God!
Do you already feel congested?
Yeah, I do.
And I'm constipated and I have
diarrhea at the same time.
[all laugh]
I'm gonna be 20 soon.
Just crazy.
I'm not gonna be
a teenager anymore.
Do you remember when we were in
elementary school,
and you fell on your face?
We were on the swings
together.
Stop.
You remember the first time
we dressed up together?
It was probably the dance.
No, it was, like, Halloween.
'Cause that was the first time I
started wearing makeup.
That was before I was out.
[both laugh]
I really don't want to
be an adult.
Yeah, I know,
it's, like, scary.
Responsibilities.
Like, how are we
in college?
Well, I'm not.
[laughs]
[doorbell rings]
Hello?
- Hey!
- Hey!
- Good to see you.
- So good to see you.
- Been so long.
- I know.
This is great.
This is, like, the most
impressive thing ever.
I'm gonna put that is the most
impressive thing you've made.
- [glasses clinking]
- Great to see you guys.
- Missed you so much.
- Love you. Missed you.
We were at Sparta Dairy,
and we were reminiscing
about football.
Remember the practices we'd
go to on Saturday morning?
And we'd sit there with
all the other dads going,
"My boy! My boy!
That's my boy!"
And our boys would be
disco dancing. Ooh! Ooh!
We'd look at each other like
You said one time,
"I think maybe someday
our boys are gonna date."
I know it.
Patrick came out
as a freshman?
He was a sophomore,
so he was 15.
I mean, you know,
when we grew up,
it was just
a different world.
It was a different world.
And so you're worrying about
your kid's safety
and acceptance.
The only time I ever
felt, um, sneered upon
was at the post office.
The picture? Is that what
For the passport?
Yeah, we're getting
a passport.
And we filled out the
application and whatnot,
and she's like
and it says on
the application,
"Did you ever have
a different name?"
So I had to write down,
"Her name is Jane Lola,
but she was Jack Noury
at one point."
And she goes,
"Wait a minute."
She goes
and then she goes
She made
that face.
- She made that face.
- Yeah, I was there too.
And Jane is right there.
Oh, really.
And I wanted to take her head
and go bam, bam, bam,
right on the table.
And I'm like,
"Is there an issue?"
And then It was just
like this quick
It was a disgusting,
quick exchange
that I wanted to fucking
kill somebody.
You're gonna have
that shit,
and you're gonna have people
that are compassionate,
and that's the difference.
There's people who
But you're never
prepared for this.
There's a bunch of
shitheads out there.
I think we just have to teach
our kids not to be naïve.
- Well, they need to have open eyes.
- Yeah.
They can't be naive.
They can never be naive.
They always have to be, um
- Alert.
- On task.
Exactly.
Which is a sad way
to have to be.
You know, she should just
be Jane.
College and learning
cool shit.
To be creative
and be artistic.
[Jane]
Rupert, guess what.
Rupert, Meatball
I'm in a magazine.
I know, right?
It's crazy.
I didn't know either.
Oh, my God! You're in
your first magazine!
And we didn't even know.
Love your real eyelashes.
- Those aren't real.
- I know, I'm joking.
Holy mackerel.
That's phenomenal!
Janey
We just bought it.
So I just found out
I'm gonna be doing
a photo shoot with Stef again.
I can't wait to see her.
We're gonna see
each other again.
I'm really excited to get out of
the house and do something.
Honestly, it has been
really boring.
I'm gonna look so good.
Heeyy.
[music playing]
How have you been feeling?
My surgery? I mean, yeah.
Everything was rough.
Like, the first
And you were all alone.
For a couple days, yeah.
[music playing]
Are you gonna try to, like,
balance college and modeling?
Or do you wanna be
a filmmaker or
Um, I wouldn't say I have
like It has been a passion.
I mean, I do wanna keep
on modeling, I think.
I have a lot of things that I'm interested
in and I want to tap into that.
That's good.
Having a wheel house
of different artistic
endeavors, like
And I don't think I wanna do
just one thing.
I think I wanna do
a couple things.
I think, for me, acting
has always been something
too that I've love.
Because I can kind of play
a different role.
'Cause that's the thing.
It's like I was pretending
to be a boy.
People don't say
"I was acting like a boy"
in public spaces
to appease my family.
Yeah.
And having to pretend
to be someone else,
that's gonna fuck
with your head.
And I feel like I've only
recently
gotten to a point where
I stopped caring so much.
Where I'm just kinda, like,
I don't really give a fuck
if I'm in public
and someone questions, like,
"Oh, that's a really
tall girl."
Or "Oh, her chest
is so flat."
There's nothing wrong with
how your body looks.
And if you wanna change that,
to make you happy, then do it.
I think that's the most
important thing,
at the end of the day is,
as long as you're doing it
for yourself,
that's all that matters.
[birds chirping]
It's an Alfalfa-fuck-you
hairstyle.
You like my hair?
Yeah, it's very 1980s.
It's a little
middle finger, or Alfalfa
Is that what that is?
That's what it looks like.
- Love you. Have a good day.
- You too.
Ah! Did you call SVA?
- Call them?
- Did you write them?
- I'm going to.
- Are you?
- No.
- Did you write back?
I said I got it.
I filled out the form.
Did you fill out the form?
No, I passed out.
Well, good thing you're
awake now.
Well, I
Okay.
I'll do it while
I'm eating.
It's gonna take
longer than that.
I'll do my best.
I did mine.
All right.
Jane was getting
mired down a little bit,
after high school,
after surgery.
In that gap year, there were
also was some
sort of change of mind.
We just, we said,
you know
Just move forward.
You can't go anywhere
if you're just
sitting at home
doing nothing.
You have to take
even if they're
the wrong steps,
just take steps,
you know,
and you'll figure it out.
So what'd you do
today, Dad?
There's a good ball game
on tonight.
Who's playing?
Mets playing Baltimore.
Baltimore's playing
in New York.
Emma is in Seattle right now.
She doesn't like that we track
her, Daddy, on Find Friends.
- He stalks.
- I stalk.
I knew when she was in Belgium,
when she was in England,
France, Germany.
I feel like one day
I'm gonna wake up
with a tracker
in my arm.
Like, just a big bump.
That's, like, beeping red.
As the technology evolves,
I'll look into it.
She's a very heavy sleeper,
so it's very feasible.
I could be anywhere
in the world,
and they will text me, "What are
you doing in this state?"
I'm like, "How did you
even know I was here?"
And they would be like,
"We were just looking at
where you were."
They're with me all the time.
Aw.
It's funny.
Freshman year, I joined
the Spectrum Affinity Council,
and it's a support system
for people who
maybe do not have
a supportive family,
supportive background.
This community supports,
loves, cares
and respects them for who
they are as a person.
I think, especially when
we go out into the fleet,
I think they'll be an even
bigger group of individuals
who need to be supported
and need guidance.
And I think someone
like you and myself
and our friends will be
there to support them.
I'm gonna be an officer in
the United States Coast Guard.
My job is gonna be
helping people.
My main goal is to do things
for others.
I hope the world becomes
more accepting
and continues to become
more accepting, and
not just for transgender
individuals but everyone.
I will never understand
how Jane's transition,
or any other person's
transition,
still bothers people.
It doesn't affect them,
so why does it matter?
And sometimes you wonder how
Jane is gonna get through that.
But at the same time,
I'm still not scared that
she can't get through it.
If anything, Jane is
more of a beautiful person
every day because
she is herself.
- Jidu.
- What?
I wanna ask you.
The old-timers, would they be
accepting of Jane?
Not the old-fashioned
ones, no.
How would she have
been treated?
They would shun her.
Keep away from her.
Would they hurt her?
No, they would never hurt.
But just actions can
hurt you, you know.
Yeah.
But my mother and father were
very broad-minded people.
Very, very broad-minded
people.
Which is great.
That's the way it should be.
That's the way it should be.
It's your life, and you know
what you want in life.
If that's what you want in life
and you're happy with it, fine.
Do it.
That's what my mother
used to tell me.
Don't let anything
hold you back.
If you wanna do something,
do it.
Don't let anybody
change your mind.
And she was right.
And I did.
[music playing]
Wow.
So this is it?
It's SVA. We're just gonna
look around.
We're gonna see some of the
dorms, some of the classes.
They're gonna tell me a little
more about the school.
[Faith] Jane opened up to me
about SVA.
She has a few things, like,
going around in her head.
Like, she's still thinking
about it.
Are you excited?
Like, are you ready?
I am. I 'm not ready,
but I'm excited.
She's, like, totally nervous
to live in the city,
but she's very, like,
independent,
she knows what she's doing.
So I think she'll be fine.
Closet.
I used to be in there.
How was it in there?
Depressing.
[Man] Hello. Jane? Hi.
- Hi.
So you like cinematography,
right? That's your focus?
Interested in photography?
- Yeah.
- So this is for you.
So we have plenty of lights.
We got our sound packages here.
We kinda cover it all.
We really have a lot of great
gear to work with here.
If you guys wanna take a minute
and look at the space.
I'll give you guys
a minute, okay?
[Jane]
Thank you.
They have much better bags
than we do.
Like, 50, my God.
No, and they're, like,
not ripped.
Did you know my mom
wanted to come here?
Really?
She wanted to come
for art,
and she's really good
at drawing, so
- Oh.
- But
they couldn't afford it.
She got in, though.
This was, like,
her dream school.
You will be encouraged
to communicate
with everything in you.
An art education is really
an education in yourself.
There's so many stories
that haven't been told.
You just tell your story
your way.
Unapologetically.
If you're a cinematographer,
it's not about the lens
as much as about
understanding
what's the heart of the story?
Why did you use that lens?
What's the meaning?
What is it that makes us
wanna see a Jane film?
Yeah.
And we'll push you to
tell stories.
So, I've made up my mind.
Finally.
I'm gonna go to SVA.
Yay!
Anyway
Yeah, I'm happy
I made a decision.
I think I made
the right decision for me.
I'm just excited that
I finally
don't have to think about it
anymore, honestly.
Like
don't have to worry about that.
And if it doesn't work out,
it doesn't work out.
Can't really predict
anything, but
we're going in with
high hopes.
That's me growing up, I guess,
and learning that I'm allowed
to make my own choices
and decide how I want
my life to go.
That's my grandma.
That's her graduation photo.
My mom gave it to me.
Look how beautiful she is.
She looks so pretty.
Hey, Tayta.
Hi.
Okay, so I am officially
going to college.
I'm officially registered
for my first year.
And because I took a gap year,
I will be graduating in 2025.
[smartphone beeps]
How old will be in 2025?
[smartphone beeps]
- You will be 23.
- [gasps]
No, I won't.
- I'm sorry. I can't
- Shut up!
I'm gonna be in the city next
year, all by myself.
[both laugh]
Go do your chores.
[Jane] How do feel about me
leaving for college? Collage?
[Mae] Um, I mean, I'm proud of
you.
Thanks.
Like, gonna be depressed.
Mm. Ow!
I just hit my shin!
Like, I want you to go
and do things.
Like, that's
so great for you.
Thanks.
You sound so sincere.
I don't know. I don't want
to think about it.
[water running]
You're gonna go off to college
in two years, though.
Yeah, but like
After that, we're not gonna
see each other that much.
That's not guaranteed.
But, like, it's implied.
[laughs]
From who? From me?
We don't see Emma
that much anymore.
She's in the military.
Still, we wouldn't see her
that much anyway.
Yeah, she's what, 23 now?
So when you go off
to college,
it's gonna be like
how Emma is now.
Emma's going out
and doing things.
Like, yay, good for her.
For love, for her.
Well, you gotta call her more.
I hate calling people.
It's your sister.
I'm not gonna call you.
You're not gonna call me?
I mean, I'll try.
But then, like
Then why are you gonna be sad
if you don't even try?
You know, it's not like every
day you have to call me.
I'm not gonna call you
every day.
I know you're not, but we can
check in on each other.
But, like,
you're gonna be busy.
We don't even call now.
We don't text.
'Cause we live together.
But, like, when you go out
and stuff, like, we don't text.
We just send each other TikToks
on Snapchat and that's it.
O-kay.
I don't know.
I think we'll be fine.
I think you're a little
dramatic.
Well, you'll be doing
your own thing,
and I'll be doing
my own thing.
It's like the end of an era.
I mean, yeah. We're not gonna
be here forever, though.
I'm aware of that.
It's like when she's home,
we're all in our
safe little bubble.
And she's going to
the city, which is great.
Because there's so many
different kinds of people
in the city, and I know that
she'll be accepted
and embraced and loved.
But it's still dangerous,
and it's still scary.
And it's not safe,
and it's not home.
Go ahead.
Like, you guys are great,
but you guys aren't Jane.
No, we're not.
I'm gonna have to get used
to all the noise
and all the crazy people
that pass by or whatever.
But it's exciting, though.
Yeah, we're more
excited for you,
you know, and we're
always here for you,
and we'll be there in
a second if you need us.
I'm gonna cry,
so stop.
It's gonna be hard to say
you know, to let you go.
But I'm excited to see
where you go.
I mean, look at Emma.
You know, we went through
the same things with Emma.
And we're gonna go though
the same things with Mae-Mae.
You know? And it is.
It's painful.
It's painful to
for change.
And we're also confident
that, you know,
you know how to deal
with the issues.
I mean, I feel like
you always have to have
some guard up,
especially being trans,
'cause you never know
people's intentions.
So, yeah, I mean,
I think it definitely
pushes you to mature faster.
Dealing with such serious
things that a young person
unfortunately shouldn't have
to go through all the time.
Like I don't know.
This is my comfort place.
This is where I'm most
comfortable,
and this is my home
and where I feel most safe.
So it's hard to
wanna let go of that.
And I don't know.
I mean
I am very nervous to not
have you guys when I leave,
but
[David] You'll have us.
You'll always have us.
But I think it's
gonna be good.
I'm excited.
[Laura]
Just make sure that you eat.
I eat
And sleep.
[laughs]
Yeah.
I just I have one
a question.
Jidu, is your name
on the moon?
[Jidu] It's on a plaque.
- How about that?
You don't say!
It was on Apollo 12.
Apollo 12 wasn't as big
as Apollo 13.
That was the big one.
But I worked on Apollo 12.
There was 150 engineers, of us,
and we all signed the plaque
that they took to
the moon with them.
With my signature on there.
And that'll be on there forever [indistinct].
There you go.
Incredible.
We're the old folk now.
- Yeah.
- [laughs]
Just a matter of time
because we're
we're just pole rushing
the abyss, you know?
It's delightful.
I'm thrilled.
30 more years and then what?
- Dust in the wind, brother.
- Wow.
[David] You know, I say
I make mistakes, right?
The other night,
I thought to myself,
what if I never
accepted Jane?
What if we never
What if we never decided
to go on a journey with her?
What if we
What if we shunned her
and pushed her back
and I lost years
of my kid's life?
What a what a scoundrel,
what a fraud I would be.
What a horrible father
I would be.
Can you imagine
being rejected by your
parents
and asking them for help
and asking them for support
and not getting it.
That's what you do
as a parent, right?
You just want your kids
to be happy.
You'll do anything
to make them happy.
'Cause what's the alternative?
What's the alternative
for a transgender child
not being happy?
And I wasn't going to
live through that.
I wasn't going to live
through
[sniffles]
seeing my child in a coffin.
I wasn't gonna fail her.
Absolutely not.
No options.
[music playing]
[Jane] How are you?
Fine. Okay. I'm fine.
How you doing? All right?
- I'm okay.
- I'm proud of you.
- Why?
- You're doing very well.
Thank you.
You're gonna make it big
someday.
You think so?
Yeah. We're gonna watch your
video on TV, right?
Yeah.
That's great.
I only wish my wife
was here, your grandmother,
to see all this.
- She would love it.
- I know.
She would love it.
[music playing]
For a guy whose name
is on the moon, I feel great.
And I will be on
the moon forever
long after I'm gone.
How many people can say
their name is on the moon?
I can.
Right?
- Yeah.
- Yeah.
[music playing]
I can't tell you what a
beautiful life I've had.
I just hope that your life
will be as good.
You deserve it.
I got three beautiful
grandchildren.
I can't tell you how much
I love you.
[Jane] I love you too, Jidu.
[music playing]
What else can I say?
Okay?
It's pretty out.
- Yeah, it's nice.
- It's nice.
My favorite memory is when
we all sat on your bed,
and we just sat
together and talked
for, like, the longest time.
It's just so natural for us
to be together.
I don't want to cry right now.
I'm gonna cry.
- Like an ugly cry?
- Maybe.
Or like just one little
cinematic tear?
Aw.
[Mae] It's like when
I look at her,
and I think about
all the bad people
and all the bad things
that could happen to her,
I can't even bear it.
I can't bear the thought
of losing my sister
to a piece of garbage person
who just thinks
that she's wrong
for being who she is.
I know, but like, we're
growing up now.
I shouldn't have to worry
about my sister like this.
It's not right.
- Are you okay?
- Yeah.
I hate that
I love you so much.
I was having such a good day!
[both laugh]
[music playing]
[Laura] I just want
a kind world for her.
I want her to have every
single opportunity
that anybody else
would have.
Because she has that right.
And nobody can tell me
otherwise.
The people who have the power
to accept them,
to make this world
better for them,
they tell them
that they're wrong
because they're
not like me.
That's what they think.
"They're wrong because
they're not like me.
They're different,
and different is bad.
Different is wrong."
Different is not wrong.
Different is wonderful.
Different is so good.
If anything, they belong
more than we do
because they're the people
of the future.
They're the ones who are
gonna make change.
Jane is somebody
who's gonna be somebody.
She's so strong.
She doesn't care
what anyone says.
I'm thankful that Jane had
the courage to come out,
a lot if kids and a lot of
people do not have that,
'cause they're scared,
you know?
They don't have a family
like we do.
[Laura] Jane didn't
transition alone.
We all transitioned
with her.
Her sisters transitioned
as sisters,
and we transitioned
as parents.
[David] I need to know
that my daughter
is going to be left to her
own devices,
to live a wonderful life,
the wonderful life
that she deserves.
The wonderful life that I would
want for your children.
[Laura] We all need to rally
around each other
and support each other
and transition with
that individual.
♪♪
[Jane] I think I was very
lucky to have my family
to go through this
transition with me.
You should be
surrounded by love.
I hope we get to
the point where we
no longer have to protest
for basic human rights
and for a respecting world
where at least we can
just not hate.
It's not easy for anyone else,
especially trans women.
It's hard to really be
yourself
and come out of it on the
other end being happy.
[music playing]
People need to self-love
and to care about yourself
more than other people's
opinions about you.
I don't need someone
to accept me.
I just need to accept myself.
[music playing]