Necessary Roughness (2011) s01e04 Episode Script

In sports, most athletes have their rituals Routines that help them get physically and mentally prepared Makes them feel calmer More secure in the face of uncertainty.
But it's not just the athletes who cling to routines.
After all, old habits die hard.
Question is When is it time for an old habit to die? Mm.
Did you clean your room, honey? I will.
You're like a broken record.
Why are you still reading that book? Well, it's not "hop on pop," Lindsay.
It's 900 pages long.
No, I mean, didn't dad get book club? Coming, Ray Jay! Geez! Wait a second.
What? What'd you say? Mom, be happy.
Now you don't have to read the boring book.
Ray, I'm the one that got us into the book club.
You can't even get to the end of a greeting card.
I have spent a frickin' month reading "pillars of the frickin' earth"! I have 20 pages left! Oh, really? Was it Marcy's decision? Why don't you tell Marcy that she can take her little book club and that she can go straight o Huh? I'm sorry.
I can't hear you.
I'm hanging up on you now.
I'm gonna need to see your records.
You keep records, right, of your clients? Session notes? I'm gonna need to see them.
Oh, okay, and I'm gonna send you some pages from my diary, also.
What my clients say is confidential.
Well, Marshall Pittman is your client.
When Marshall Pittman is crying on my couch, then he's my client.
I'll settle for appointment times, dates.
Hawks players only, of course.
Okay.
Can I ask why you need this information? Oh, you can ask.
E-mail me what you got.
Today.
Hey, Matt.
Anybody home? Oh! Ooh! I'm sorry.
I am so sorry.
Hi.
Oh, my God.
Whoa.
Hey.
Who was in? Oh.
Oh, so sorry about that.
That's okay, but, seriously, could you at least buy me a drink first next time? Dani, this is Ted Cannivale, an old friend Real-estate investor and general embarrassment to all who know him.
Whoa, whoa, wait.
I'm the embarrassment? You really want me to bring up the story about the gopher outfit? No, I do not.
Long night? Long story.
Yeah, yeah.
What was it? A little post-game celebration that went a little late/early at, uh What-was-her-name's house O-kay! We have to get to work.
I'll hit you later.
Thanks a lot.
All right, buddy.
Hey, thanks for letting me crash on your couch.
Dani, it was a pleasure.
All right, see you later at the gym.
His name is Randall boozier.
Boozier is the rookie defensive end.
Drafted him in the third round.
Quiet, keeps to himself.
Defensive end? Normally, he's chasing running backs and quarterbacks.
But coach stuck him in on offense to carry the ball a couple of times, and he scored three 1-yard touchdowns.
Now the whole stadium "booz" every time we get near the goal line.
Boos? No, no.
"Boooooooz!" Ohh.
Okay.
Well, what's the problem? Sounds like he's playing well.
When he shows up.
Late for practice routinely, and now a game.
Fan favorite or not, he doesn't get his act together, we're cutting him.
He'll be in your office at 2:00.
Hi, you've reached Matt Donnally with the new York Hawks training office.
Leave me a message.
Hey, Matt, it's me.
It's You're in my Lane, man! The world is my Lane, Holmes.
So, this girl is hot, huh? Tara Mancini? Blistering.
Ask her out.
And, no, I don't mean some sort of fro-yo, teeny-bop movie nonsense.
I mean, take this girl to someplace as hot as she is.
Bam! Whoo! Eat my dust! Okay.
Ha ha ha.
That's weird I have one client who's 30 minutes late and one client who's 27 hours early.
What happened to your eye? Long story.
Well, but you'd be proud.
No punches.
No broken cellphones.
No lawsuits.
So I'm cured! Oh, no, no, no, no, no, no.
You've got to tell her the whole story.
The whole story.
All right, all right, all right.
So, I'm out doing my Wednesday-night thing, which is club Zara Where all the players And playas hang.
Bang! Me and my boys are at the table V.
I.
P.
, of course Doin' our thing, and this lady walks by, right? That's it.
Uh-buh-buh! Ray Jay, out.
We're playing video games.
Terrence, this habit that you have of showing up whenever you feel like it It's got to stop.
Ray Jay is my son, you are my client, and I need you to respect those boundaries.
You're old-school.
Quite.
Move it! I always park here! That is my space for almost two decades! I said move it! Hey, hey.
What is going on here? And, ma, where'd you get this car? I bought it.
That's your old lady? I can see where you get your charm from.
Yeah, but how'd you pay for it? Sweet charity went off 50-1.
And that was enough sweet charity for me to get a new mustang.
That's pretty raw, grandma.
What's raw Is what I'm gonna do to your ride if you don't move it.
Is this gonna get ugly, g-ma? Wha-ba-beh! Whoa! T.
K.
, mother! [ Tires screeching, T.
K.
! I got this, Xeno.
Chill out.
T.
K.
! Yo, I got this, Xeno.
Whoa! Whoa! Whoa! Whoa! Yo, Booz! What the hell, man?! Sorry.
Didn't want to be late.
Baby, work your magic on me Necessary Roughness - SO1EO4 Habit Forming Original air date So Randall Why are you here today? Guess I got a bad habit, ma'am.
Yeah.
And what is that? I'm late a lot.
Why do you think that that is? I-I don't know, ma'am.
Why don't we start with yesterday's game? Do you want to walk me through what happened? Um, I overslept.
You like that painting? Yes, ma'am.
It's peaceful, right? You are from a small town.
You went to Missouri state? Yes, ma'am.
The fightin' bears.
Now you are playing pro football in new York city People chanting your name.
That's A big change.
Guess so.
And what has that transition been like for you? Fine.
Sometimes Big changes can Disrupt our lives.
Do you think that maybe That's why you were late to the game? Look, I-like I said, I-I just overslept.
Okay.
You are so right! And her cheeks get all red! Oh, and don't forget the angry neck vein.
Ma! She's had that since she was little.
Who are you talking to? Your husband.
Ray?! There it is! There's the vein.
Give me that phone.
Oh.
Yeah, ray, what's up? Listen, you may get book club, but I get my mother.
Mm.
Ma, I mean, what the hell? He's my son-in-law.
I've talked to him almost every day for 17 years.
I have to wean myself.
Maybe I can make it a little easier for you to wean.
Think it might be too soon to take that down? Might upset the kids.
You know what else might upset the kids? Uh, the murder of their only living grandmother.
Oh! And one other thing.
Stop talking to my ex-husband And stop fighting with my patients for parking spots.
I hope you're not mad.
I'm not mad.
Just bummed you weren't at the movies.
Yeah, sorry about that.
We got invited to a frat party at Hofstra.
College party? That's so lame.
Why? Where do you juniors hang out the pizza parlor? No.
Club Zara.
What? What?! You have a hook-up at Zara? Absolutely.
Dude, are you high? We can't get in there.
What was that? That was my dog.
Well, I don't know if you go out in the middle of the week, but Eric and I are going Wednesday night, if you want to go with.
Yeah! Great! Club Zara, Wednesday night.
Ray Jay! I got to go.
Where's the family portrait? You know, the one above the fireplace? I-I don't know.
I think it's in the garage.
Why is it in the garage? So, I'm assuming you have a plan as how to get us into the hottest club in the city.
Boom! Never could hold me going right, son.
Yeah, and you could just never shut your trap and play.
Hey, when you got the merchandise, you got to advertise.
Just play.
10-9, you.
Speaking of scoring, what's up with you and hot shrink lady? Dani? No, the other hot shrink lady.
We're friends.
I don't know.
I got a little more than the friend vibe.
We work together, man.
It's complicated.
Not really.
You know, I've got books that explain everything.
She's pretty attractive.
Man, I can see where you're going from a mile away.
Trust me, she's not your type.
Really? And what type am I? Delusion type.
Come on.
You're buying.
Hey! Two out of three! All right, Justin Timberfake, you want to tell me why you was texting me during therapy? I need you to get me into Zara.
And I want five celestial virgins and a pony named smothers.
We all have dreams.
But you said I should take Tara somewhere hot.
Mm-hmm, and your dumb ass said that you can get her into Zara? You said you go on Wednesday nights, did you not? Yeah.
Buh-buh-buh! I do go Wednesday nights.
And your mother just told me to keep an arm's length from you.
So, no.
Not gonna happen.
No, no, no, no, no.
She said no video games.
This isn't a video game, T.
K.
come on, man.
You're damn right, this ain't no video game.
This is trouble up to here, okay? So just slide your stealthy ass up out the ride, Harry plotter.
He said out the car.
Booz, got you a day planner.
I noticed that you don't wear a watch, so What up? And I got you this clock.
It has two alarms One for wake-up, one for pick-up.
I also arranged with the Hawks to get you a driver, if that's okay with you.
Yes, ma'am.
Is it important to you, Randall, to, uh, get to practice on time? More than anything, ma'am.
And coach has spoken to you about the ramifications of being late, right? Yes, ma'am.
That painting Does it make you think of home? A little.
You miss it? No, ma'am.
Do miss my brother, Frankie, though.
Pretty much raised me.
Oh.
Where were your parents? Dad died when I was little.
Moms worked two jobs to make ends meet.
So Frankie pretty much got stuck watchin' me.
We had fun, though.
And is he still back in Missouri? Yeah.
You guys see each other much? Not anymore.
And why is that? Look, I I just I just worry.
I don't want nobody getting hurt.
But who's gonna get hurt, Randall? Look Our time is up, right? Mm.
Francis boozier.
Man I'm assuming this is something that couldn't wait till tomorrow? Well, it already is tomorrow.
Do you know what a A steam move is? Yeah.
It's when a sports betting line changes quickly.
Very good.
Some mothers teach you to sew.
Mine taught me to gamble.
I know.
Oh.
There have been several steam moves on the Hawks' betting lines.
The rumor is out that boozier is a head case and might get cut.
So, uh, what exactly are you saying? There is a serious information leak, and I think it's coming from inside your house.
Uh Ma, we got to talk.
Where'd you really get the car? I told you skill, honey.
Ponies are running downhill lately.
Give us a second, Ruben.
No problem.
What's wrong, Danielle? What's with the face? Have you been stealing information from my house and selling it to your bookies? The football players I see? My clients? I'm not even going to dignify that with a response.
No, no.
This is a huge deal.
I could lose my job.
Ma, you could go to jail.
From the lips of my own daughter I may lay a couple bucks on the team every now and then, but, Danielle, I'd never sell information.
Forgive me for not discriminating between your moral shades of gray.
You know what? No more hanging around the house during patient hours.
That is it.
Marcy! Hi! Dani! Good to see you.
Uh-huh! Hey, no hard feelings about the book club, I hope? What? No.
Not at all.
B.
T.
W.
, they hang William from the gallows, just in case you haven't gotten to that part yet.
Ohh! Lindsay, we do not lock doors in this house! Can I help you? What's going on in there? Nothing.
I'm just cleaning my room.
Why are you so paranoid? Hmm.
Hunh! Wait! Wait a second.
I got to ask you a question.
You ever notice grandma doing anything Suspicious around the house? Other than sitting in the pantry and eavesdropping on all of your therapy sessions? Not really.
Oh, what happened now? We got halfway to practice, and he insisted I drive him home.
Said something about not being okay.
Oh, he's fine.
I'm not.
Did Booz say what was wrong? Well, he said he was too hot, too cold.
The music was too loud, it was too soft.
The guy kind of freaked out.
Frank, thanks for coming in.
What kind of advice are you giving him, anyway, Dr.
Dani? M Yeah.
Oh, I advise him to ditch as many practices as possible.
Are you guys aware that he has a brother in prison on drug charges? Well, we tested him, if that's what you're thinking.
He's clean.
Well, there are ways to cheat.
No, I'm not saying that drugs are his problem.
I Then, what is? You know what? I've hit the limit with this kid.
If you don't get him to practice tomorrow and keep him there, I'm cutting his ass.
Fine, fine.
I-I promise to personally drive him to practice tomorrow, okay? Well, good.
Now I can go downstairs and do my goddamn job.
Coach.
Wow.
Did you get to have that talk? With your mother? It's not her.
Did she explain the car? You know, 'cause I would hate for someone to lose their job over this.
Is that a threat? Concern.
What was that about? Not now.
I'm supposed to go grab a drink later with Ted, if you want to join.
A drink? How about nine? Ladies and gentlemen, this could be the start of something g-o-o-d, yeah yeah, this could be the start of something g-double-o-d we going out Friday night gonna take it higher yo, where they at? T.
K.
T.
K.
! Oh, hell.
What's up, what's up? Good to see you, man.
Yeah! Yeah, yeah, yeah.
Right? Everybody, this is Terrence King.
Holy crap.
Wow! You do know him.
Told you.
Friend of the family.
Yeah! Old-school friend of the family.
Get your ass over here.
Yo, man, what the hell is wrong with you?! We talked about this! Look, come on, man.
I will never ask for another favor.
Swear.
But I will go down as the biggest loser in history if I don't get this girl into this club.
My reputation will be shredded, T.
K.
That's my problem? You have the power in your hands to save me right now.
Baby, bounce, baby Unh! Okay, this one time.
This one and only time.
Wipe that smile off your face.
But what happens in Zara Stays in Zara.
Stays in Zara.
Don't be finishing my sentences.
Put this jacket on.
God, you look like a baby gap model.
All the pieces of the Give me two bud lights and a Martini, extra olives.
Coming right up.
Listen, girl So, you've known Matt for 20 years, huh? Yeah, we played ball in college together.
I can't believe he didn't tell you.
He could score, but, uh, I had all the moves.
Oh, I'll bet you did.
Hey, I'm talking about basketball.
Oh, I'm sorry.
Of course you are.
So, you're a therapist, huh? That's got to be pretty interesting You know, learning everybody's deep, dark secrets, where the bodies are buried.
No, it's nothing quite that sinister.
Well, that's too bad.
I like sinister.
Mwa-ha-ha-ha.
Oh, my God.
Hey, man, I'm sorry.
Can you get a rush on those drinks? Hey, man, this place rocks.
Yeah.
Senior girls dumped our junior asses.
What? Well, you know what, dude? Your girls are like hoppin' in the pool and playin' by the steps.
It's how you break an ankle, all right? If you want some help with some real ladies, let me know.
Ah, man, we're fine.
No worries.
You're good? Yeah.
All right.
Yeah, maybe a little bit of help.
That's what I thought.
What's your eye candy? She's pretty hot.
Yes, she is! Good eye.
Okay.
Fake hair says "ready to party.
" Top says "not tonight.
" You seen that show "dog whisperer"? Uh, no.
You're the alpha.
Go down there and dominate her.
I need specifics.
Eye contact, right? Hand it out like treats.
Little goes a long way.
Same with smiling.
All right? Okay? Flash it, dash it.
Flash it, dash it.
Flash it Do it with me.
Flash it, dash it.
We'll work on that! Okay? Now go buy her a drink.
Get your ass in the deep end! And don't come back till you're soaking wet! Ha ha! Well, Matty's a pretty good guy.
I think you should give him a chance.
We're just friends.
That's what he said.
Yeah.
Because it is true.
Oh, well, I guess that makes sense.
You're not Matt's usual type.
To be honest with you, you're actually more my type.
Wow.
I did not know that it was possible to hit on someone while simultaneously talking up your friend.
Am I interrupting? Nope.
I was just going out for a smoke.
You, uh, want one? No.
No! You see? You see? But thank you for continually trying to tempt me.
That's my job.
Jackass.
Oh, hey, uh, my phone's out of juice.
I got to call I.
A.
Can I? Thank you, brother.
Yeah.
Old habits die hard.
Smoking or Ted? I'm assuming you don't have any bad habits.
No.
I do hypnosis on myself in the mirror, and then I call it a day.
Give me one tidbit about Dr.
Dani that shows that she's not above the rest of us mere mortals.
Mnh-mnh.
One.
Okay.
Since ray left, I am still sleeping on my side of the bed.
Whenever I try to stretch out, it's like crossing into north Korea.
Afraid you'll get shot if you cross into enemy territory.
Yeah, something like that.
Sounds pretty normal.
So, you gonna tell me what was going on back there? With Nico.
Oh! Oh.
Uh, you know about the, uh, steam move? Well, i know.
I didn't know you knew.
Wait.
They don't think that you Oh.
No.
My mother.
I'm gonna get you another one of those.
Mm.
She's 19 Freshman, Suny Purchase.
Digits? Ha ha! My man.
Right? Proud of you.
Let's roll.
All right.
Okay, recapping I am at a dead end with Booz because he is now not just late to practice, he's missing it altogether My mom might go to the slammer And I could lose my job because of it.
Cheers.
And I lost book club.
That thing is a long story.
So, how's it going with your smoking? You still have cravings? Oh.
What makes you say that? But since you did your hocus-pocus on me, I haven't succumbed.
But with Ted around Oh.
Oh, geez.
Well, it's hard to quit something when it's right in your face.
Yeah.
For just one night I might need a little tune-up So I don't, you know Succumb to the temptation.
Oh? Well, look, if you, um Have an image that pops into your mind that's related to smoking, you just think of something else.
Just change the pattern of your thought.
Well, what do I think about? Mm.
Something pleasing.
Something satisfying.
Somethin' that feels good.
Well, I can think of a few things.
So, you know, when you feel that temptation You just grab for that thing.
Just give me one night to show you I know how to make you smile Mm.
Girl this is not a big Ah! I'm sorry.
No, I'm sorry.
I'm sorry.
No, no, my It's my fault.
My fault.
I'm gonna Mine.
My fault.
Mine.
I'm sorry.
I better go.
Dani Bye, Ted.
Uh-huh.
What happened to "just friends"? Now I need a smoke.
Ah, sh Thought you were off them.
Well, quitting's harder than I thought.
And you're sure you parked it right here? My keys? Oh, no, she didn't.
Oh, no, she didn't! Hettie stole your car! You are gonna be grounded until there's a white president.
She got your car! I told you a month ago to bring that car in as soon as you saw the engine light first come on.
What is it that blew again? A Valve.
Mm.
Enough with the locked door! Open up! So, uh, how long until we get it back? Week or two, at least.
That is a long time.
I guess they have to order the part or something.
Hey! What's going on in there? I'm getting dressed for school.
And, yes, my room is clean.
And, no, I don't appreciate it when you guys barge in on me when I'm naked! Mmmm! Okay.
Thank you for being straight with me about the car.
I can actually trust you to tell me the truth.
I am so screwed.
Step away from the door! You really didn't have to do this.
Well, I thought it might be more comfortable for you.
And, look, we are right on schedule for practice.
We are actually even a few minutes early.
Can I have more air, please? Sure.
Climate Set temperature.
What temperature? No, no, no, no.
Higher! Oh, okay.
Set temperature 70.
Setting temperature to 70 degrees.
Is that better? So, you mentioned you have a brother Frankie.
Yeah.
What about him? Well, you didn't mention that he went to prison last year.
Wait, wait, wait.
Turn around.
Uh, why? What's wrong? I-I got to go home.
What's at home? Did you forget something? Look, I'm I'm afraid that something is gonna happen, Dr.
Santino.
Okay? I've got to.
I've got to.
Randall, Randall, Randall.
Okay, Randall, just talk to me.
Does this have something to do with your brother? Rand Randall! Randall! Deactivate him? No.
No! That is the worst possible thing you can do for Randall right now.
He needs to be part of the team.
You isolate him, everything he's going through will get worse.
Dr.
Dani, I got a guy late for practice, barely making games, jumping out of cars.
What choice do I have? Give me some more time.
The safest place for him is on the field.
And he drove himself here.
Two hours late.
He wants to play! Well, sometimes what you want and what's good for you are two different things.
Not always.
Sorry, guys.
Booz has proven himself unreliable.
This conversation is over.
Well, maybe you're ready to give up on Booz, but I am not.
Hey, Randall.
You doing okay? I'm okay, ma'am.
They gonna let me play? I'm working on it.
Randall.
Mm.
If you don't talk to me, I can't help you.
Look, I I need to finish, okay? You need to move, okay?! Move! Why? What's gonna happen? I-I don't believe that you could hurt anybody, Randall.
Look, you can't help me, okay? Nobody gets me to move! Oh! Stop! Sorry, Randall But I don't give up.
Ma.
Afterglow in the third paid $1,500.
Ma King's ransom in the sixth, $3,000.
Ma, stop it.
You wanted proof.
Here it is.
I never asked you to Didn't you? Look, just stopped by to give you a little homeowner's insurance.
Mom, come back here.
I gamble, Danielle.
Sometimes the odds are in my favor, sometimes they're not.
But I'd never steal from my daughter.
Odds.
Oh.
It's not even.
The painting's not even.
I just worry.
I don't want anybody getting hurt.
Booz? Booz! Booz? Hey! It's Dr.
Dani! Oh.
Randall? It's not right.
I can't do this right.
Booz? It can't go like that.
Got to have it right.
Come on.
Got to have the left like the right.
Simple.
I got to get this right, man.
You have do it even, man.
Come on.
Like the right.
Left like the right.
You can stop now.
I can't.
My socks aren't straight! No, no, no! Randall! Randall, I know what's wrong.
I can help you.
I'm stuck.
I know.
Oh.
Oh.
It's okay.
It's okay.
There's something called Obsessive-compulsive disorder.
Have you ever heard of it? It all started when I was little.
Always making sure all my toys are straight, checking, rechecking to make sure the doors is locked.
Just doing stuff over and over till it felt right I felt safe.
And as I got older, I could still do those things without people really noticing it You know, still play ball and stuff.
And then Frankie went to prison? Yeah.
Just got worse.
When he went to prison, I just felt like Felt like you had to take care of him.
And that Frankie wasn't safe in prison unless Unless I did my routine.
But the routine just got longer And longer.
Any time he'd be okay, I'd think that "Well, I tied my shoes four times today Maybe that's why.
" Or drunk two cups of coffee.
Like, it kind of just snowballed from there.
Your rituals have no bearing on what happens to Frankie.
And just because Frankie's in prison doesn't mean that you have to be in prison, too.
Well, it's just so So hard To stop.
Mm-hmm.
Let me ask you.
When you line up on the field You ever get afraid? Sometimes.
But then I just plow 'em down, one by one.
Well That is what we are going to do.
We are going to plow through the rituals, one by one.
And I'm not gonna lie It's gonna be hard at first.
But each time you plow one down, it gets easier to plow down the next one.
And I am going to be with you every single step of the way.
Okay? Okay.
You really don't give up, do you? Nico? What are you doing here? I found this In the flower bed.
Oh.
I, um I accidentally threw it out the window.
Listen, my mom has a gambling habit, and, yes, she has a new car, but She is not the source of the leak.
What? Ohh! Thank God.
Somebody owes somebody an apology.
I never said it was her.
I said it might be.
Really? Seriously? You throw my life into chaos, you accuse my mother of illegal activity, and you're not even gonna say "sorry"? I like Ken Follett's World War II stuff better myself.
You've read "pillars of the earth"? As shocking as it sounds, I am capable of reading.
And apologizing.
Hey.
Did you ever find out who the leak was? Hey! You're late! Get out of them clothes and give me 10 laps.
What's up? We've been friends for like, what, 20 years? Yeah, about that.
Is that how long you've been stealing from me? Or is this a new thing? What? What the hell are you talking about? You went into my phone, my computer.
Matty.
Matty, I-let me explain, man! Explain it to him.
Unless you Unbelievable.
It's clean! For the road gets rough look out Enough change isn't a way to blame your mistakes The thing about habits is that you have to disrupt them gently, in steps, till, one day, you have a whole new routine.
Your new York Hawks! So, Randall What step did you decide to take today? No tape.
Socks aren't even.
That's great.
And anything bad happen? No, ma'am.
Good.
Booz! Comin', coach! Go out there and plow 'em down! Yeah! Your life as the light your life as the light What the That's a dope ride, son.
How did you find it? I didn't.
Did you You bought me a new car?! Hey, come Hey, come on, Dawg.
Why don't you say it a little louder so your mama can hear? Sorry.
Oh, my Hey, just tell her that your pops got you personalized plates.
Thank you so much.
Oh, what happens at Zara Stays at Zara.
Oh, my Oh! Ohh! Sorry.
Hey.
Hey, ho, hi.
Thought you lost book club.
Oh.
I decided to, uh Just read on my own for a while.
Hey, I'm sorry about Ted.
Well, on the bright side, it wasn't your mother.
And I think I was over that friendship, if that's what you'd call it.
Like you said, old habits die hard.
Mm.
Uh, hey About what happened at the bar Hey.
A reputable shrink once told me that backsliding was normal.
Yes, it is.
I promise No more relapses.
Sorry.
It won't happen again.
Ma.
Mom! Can't hear you! Dryer's on.
Mommy.
I'm sorry.
I never should have thought that you would do something like that.
Eh.
It's not like I raised you in a house full of cupcakes and ethics.
Well, mine's not that much better, but You're welcome to it.
So, I noticed the, uh, old Camry outside.
What happened to the mustang? Flying wonder in the fourth.
Maybe I should break this cycle of mine.
Well, I know that old habits die hard, but they do die sometimes, mom.
You just have to want it bad enough.
I have tried to be by your side and I can't let go Unh!