Sort Of (2021) s01e04 Episode Script

He's cheating on me.
And he went back to women.
I wanna be with you.
Do you think now is the time?
But I love you.
She is everything to me.
You said you weren't able
to take on more hours.
I found room in my schedule.
I have to move
to another country alone?
Are you texting from Bessy's phone?
You're not pretending to be Bessy,
are you?
Mom. I'm a nanny.
Like Mary Poppins?
Yeah.
Hey, are you crying?
What's happening?
I don't know.
It's because I'm at the end
of my Saturn returns.
You're way too old for that.
Uh, Saturn returns hits
in your late 20s,
but its impact is felt
into your early 30s, okay?
You know that.
Lew
Are you calling
from inside the house?
Maybe.
You need space?
I feel like you don't see me.
-Like who I really am.
-What?
No, I see you, Lew-Lew.
I know you
and I have always accepted you
even when you need
to be exploring boys
or other girls or other combinations.
You think I wanna be like this?
It's constant turmoil in here.
Okay, just answer one question.
Is this about Sabi?
Hi, Deenzie.
How you doing?
Oh, sweet coffeecake.
Come to papa mama.
I keep thinking about
all you're doing for that family.
Stop hugging now.
Look, I um, I brought the extra key.
I know you're gonna be fine
without me.
So
This is harder
than I thought it would.
You'll never regret the sacrifices
you make to help people.
Berlin? It's not going anywhere.
You're not upset about Berlin?
Nope.
Uh, it's an amazing town!
I got pregnant there.
HEY, PENNY.
SUP BESSY!
WHAT ARE YOU UP TO?
MISSING YOUR VOICE.
CAN I CALL?
Did something happen to mom?
No, buddy, no.
I was with her
for a big chunk of the day.
She's good.
-Is she awake?
-No.
But stable. But unconscious.
Why are you weird?
-Am I?
-Yeah.
Because everything's weird.
Back to bed. It's a school night.
Let's go.
Why? Why is this still foamy?
Sometimes there's a kink in the line
or the pressure's off. Let me
Always a helper. How is everyone?
Well, Bessy just had brain surgery,
so there's that.
Oh, details.
-Like surgery details?
-Yes, please.
Okay, they cut a piece of her skull
to allow brain swelling.
Fascinating.
Where do they keep the skull piece?
Not sure how I would know that.
It must be in the refrigerator.
-But she's okay?
-She's stable.
-Still in coma?
-Mmhmm.
-How are the kids?
-Solid.
-Paul?
-Struggling.
And you?
I am getting used to doing more
like domestic mommy stuff, you know?
Making dinners,
grocery shopping, vacuuming.
Look at me. Career, family.
I can have it all.
I just remembered
I set up interviews tomorrow
for a new you,
but the bank called.
Do you think
you could jam in a window?
-Bank or interviews?
-Interviews, noon. Replace yourself.
That's twisted. I'm into it.
Wunderbar.
Sabi.
Sabi!
What do you want, Coldplay?
A white-guy joke. Hilarious.
-I thought that was Sabi's window.
-Send a text like a normal human.
Chill.
What?
-I broke up with Mackenzie.
-And?
I'm so good for you.
I'm seriously speechless.
Oh my God, I can't do this.
Morning!
I'm going to the hospital now.
I'm trying to go twice a day.
How were the kids
on the way to school?
As okay as they can be?
Henry didn't even try
to make eye contact.
Oh, and Violet
called her teacher an oligarch.
Good for her
for knowing what that means.
You're not still pretending
to be Bessy?
"Hey, babe, call me when you can."
Yikes! This is so screwed up!
I'm just surprised
by how well Bessy hid this woman.
Look, I know you must be hurt by this
and you must be confused,
but I think what you're doing
isn't good for you
or for whoever this person is.
HEY PENNY, WANNA MEET UP?
Sabi only says
that he works at a bookstore.
-How long he has been nanny?
-Not sure.
You're really going at that kulfi .
What flavor did you get?
Mango.
I should have never
let you two move to the city.
That's the problem
with raising kids in a free country.
They might not choose
the life you tell them to.
Is it possible
that it's not just Sabi being a nanny
that's bothering you?
What else?
Why are you pretending not to know
people like Sabi exist?
Dad's not around.
You can think your own thoughts.
You are really grossing me out
with that.
Why? You don't like kulfi ?
Just talk to Sabi.
He doesn't pick up his phone.
How can I talk to him
if he won't answer?
There's a special place in hell
for women who don't help other women
even if they are
different kinds of women.
Um, hi, Mackenzie.
I need you to stay away from Lewis.
We have been together
since before you were in the picture
and it would kill me
if everything I've been open to
for him was for naught.
Totally. I get it.
Right, of course you get it,
'cause it's so easy to be gracious
when the world looks at you
like you're so cool and interesting.
Like what do I get to be?
A boring white girl?
A basic Becky?
You and I are not that different.
You are a Becky.
You're just
a basic fucking brown Becky.
-Hey.
-Hey, you must be Sauren.
Yes. She/her.
Welcome, have a seat.
Oh, um, in a space like this,
I think I'd like to try they/them,
because my gender studies prof
implores us to dismantle the binary.
Awesome.
Um, I'm gonna be leaving the bar
and we're looking for someone
who can take over.
So uh, can you tell me
what about working at Bar Bük
specifically interests you?
Totally. This place is so cool,
but also so dangerous.
Oh, in what ways are we dangerous?
Your after-hour dungeon nights.
You're breaking fire code
that's really intense.
-That's not us.
-Yeah, it is.
-No, it's not.
-Right, I get it.
You don't want
the fire department to know. Cool.
So, Sunny, it says here
that you have volunteered
at "My Library".
Can you tell me which one that was
and what you did there?
Um, there was books.
Bar Bük being at the intersection
of literary and bar culture,
demonstrates the concentric spheres
of temporal intersectionality.
Totally.
Do you know how to tap a keg?
All queer spaces are the same, right?
It's all about community.
And you guys can do that reading
or like spanking?
You can build community
through spanking?
Yes.
Spanking, choking,
flogging, spitting, uh feet.
Have you ever
worked at a bar before?
-When?
-Before like, now.
-Like as a job?
-Yes.
No.
Have you worked anywhere before?
Nice bike.
Yeah, it is.
HEY, YOU STILL COMING?
ALREADY HERE SMEXY
WHERE ARE YOU?
GREEN BENCH, YO
-Oh my God!
-Oh my God, hey.
-Why are you creeping on me?
-I wasn't creeping on you.
I got you a present. See?
Clever. A bag of noodles.
-Yeah, you know, 'cause of when we
-Yeah, I know.
I was wrong, I fucked up with you.
What we have is real,
it's super real.
You know what is real?
You not getting what you want
when you want it.
Welcome to the rest
of the non-cis-white-male universe.
But I love you! I
Look, I made a mistake, I know.
I know I did.
-You love me?
-Yes.
-Kiss me.
-What?
Right here, right now,
in front of these people
and I'll give you a second chance.
And not a polite kiss.
A deep, wet,
giving-each-other-mono kiss.
Yeah, you may love me,
but you're ashamed of loving me.
That's not love.
I'm taking the noodles.
Mom said what?
I don't know.
You need to talk to her yourself.
Aqsa, I can't.
I'm like exhausted already.
She's gonna be
getting in touch with you,
so just be ready to answer the phone
or see her or whatever, okay?
Got to go, bye!
Seriously?
Aqsa told me the address.
Hi.
Nice to see you.
Alright, let's go.
Hi, kiddies, nice to see you, too.
-Hi, Ms. Mehboob.
-Hi, Sabi's mom.
Go get your homework started,
I'll bring a snack in a second.
What are you doing here, mom?
You don't answer your phone.
And I don't know what to expect.
That I'll never speak to you again?
Because maybe you think
I can't understand things.
Even then, I thought maybe
you'd have a second to explain.
Snacks!
Let me know if you need any help.
If it's history, you're on your own.
And devices only after dinner.
Can I get you anything?
I didn't raise you in this way,
so how did you become like this?
Do we have to do this?
Whatever you are doing here,
it's not right.
This job,
you're a servant to children,
to a man.
Is this speech
about your life choices or mine?
I didn't have a choice, Sabi.
I would think then
as a parent you'd be happy
that your kid has more freedom
than you did to be who they wanna be.
I have to make dinner.
You want to be this?
I'm figuring it out.
It took me this long to even feel
the slightest bit okay about myself.
Do you remember
when we brought Violet home
from the hospital?
We cried solidly for
God, for hours.
Uh, you cried.
We kept driving by people,
and you'd be like,
"That person was a baby."
"And that person was a baby."
"Everybody was a baby!"
You're such a fucking hot
little thing.
Why couldn't you tell me about him?
I understand why you didn't.
But you could have.
Are you just gonna keep watching me?
What are you making?
Fish curry.
Aqsa taught me your recipe.
Slice
You have to dice the tomato.
Don't make it too spicy for the kids.
You are terrible cook
like normal Pakistani man.
If you wanna do it, go ahead.
Where are the red peppers?
And cumin.
And garlic, give me the garlic.
Ginger, I want the ginger!
Aqsa can't even do this.
Like this, like this!
Not like slice, slice, slice.
Hey.
Why are they on devices?
They finished their homework
and already ate.
Hi, Mrs. Mehboob.
I hope you don't mind me
being in your home.
I just needed to talk with my son.
I was leaving.
How is your wife?
Bye, kiddies.
-Bye, Sabi's mom!
-Bye, Sabi's mom!
Bye.
Officially folded everyone's laundry
for the first time.
Super informative.
I didn't mean
to freak out your mom,
but I met Penny.
Also known as Oki Penn.
Oh.
Yeah, he's a guy.
A child guy.
Oh, wow!
What happened?
He called it "an emotional affair",
it was ridiculous.
He knew her love language.
He made it sound
like Bessy leaned on him
when she was losing her mom.
And she was completely shut down
with me about it.
I seriously wish
they were just fucking.
Seriously?
I was waiting to see
if you need a ride home.
-I was worried.
-About what?
He reminds me of your father.
He would come home
and bring his mood with him.
Paul is not like dad.
Okay.
You wear makeup and bangles,
and care for children.
If you're not a girl, what are you?
Gender binary?
Did you look that up?
I have to understand everything
to accept it.
Nobody asked you to accept it.
And you know what?
My job has nothing to do
with my gender.
They're going through a hard time.
I'm helping. It's not a bad thing.
This is how it all starts.
One terrible time leads to another.
Before you know it,
you give up your own happiness
for someone else's.
I don't know everything,
but I know some things.
Don't give everything away.
Keep at least one thing
in your life that is yours!
-Hi.
-Oh, hi.
How did the bank stuff go?
Well, we haven't gone bankrupt.
And that is great news, isn't it?
How'd the interviews go?
Who'd you like?
I liked me.
And what does that mean?
If it's okay, I'd like to try
to make my hours work.
You think you can handle it
with everything on your plate?
Yeah, yeah.