Clink (2019) s01e05 Episode Script
Episode 5
First time, aye? Locked up and knocked up.
Your parole is denied.
I'm ready to meet her, the mother, the girl I killed.
I've never seen a dead person before.
Higher! Lift it higher! My sister died in there! So, I need to speak to your governor now! I'm sorry, Chloe, but your case has been delayed.
You can't keep us in here.
Look, I know this isn't what you want to I'm not having my font color="yellow Chloe, you've been assessed as being unsuitable to take care of a baby at this stage.
No! Lockdown, lockdown.
OK, there's a situation, we've got to move you all.
ENGINE REVS HE BEEPS THE HORN Move.
The people in that building are under my care and if you attempt to hurt them you're going to have to go through me.
Listen, don't you DARE TALK TO ME ABOUT CARE! You're angry.
You're looking for someone to blame.
I get that.
But, Laura, she took her own life! And there's got to be some level of responsibility.
Shut up! Yeah? SHUT UP! Sorry, Lee, but that's the truth! We both know it! Just give her a moment.
Just let her deal with it.
YOU?! YOU DON'T KNOW NOTHING! Listen! Lee, I know you don't want to do this.
You've no idea about what I really want to do! Laura was really proud of you, you know? Cos you managed to do something with your life! Let's just turn the engine off so we can talk.
GET BACK! GET BACK! And, Lee, I've been where you are.
Feeling like I let my sister down.
I just want us to talk, just you and me, no-one else.
Away from all this drama, just two people talking.
Turn the engine off.
Please, Lee.
NO! Forget about them, this is my gaff, I'm in charge.
This is about Laura, yeah? Do you think she'd want this? Look, we can have a memorial for her.
Celebrate Laura's life.
It would help them and help yourself.
Laura's life would mean something.
Laura's life always meant something.
I know.
Look, you haven't hurt anyone.
So far.
There's still time to make this right.
No, no, no! I know this man! It's all under control.
It's just a misunderstanding.
There's no need for any more drama.
Let her deal with it.
Exactly.
Don't want paperwork, do you, lad? Eh? I defo heard a gun.
No, you didn't! They probably found a bomb.
Could've been big fuck-off tank! Mad Max come break us oot! It might be ISIS.
It isn't ISIS! How do you know? ISIS don't wait.
I'm trying to decide whether that was an act of courage or stupidity.
CAR DRIVES UP AND STOPS I'll make a request that you're taken off work detail for the rest of the week.
Then I'll go to the store and get you some fresh clothes, yeah? Get you out of these things.
Do you want me to talk to the others, tell them what's happened? I think it's pretty obvious what's happened.
There's no baby.
It sounded proper big, though, didn't it? Yeah, but we don't know anything.
Could've been anything.
Exactly When do they tell us? I don't know.
Oh! Hey.
Hey! Was it a bomb? Someone try to spring us? Clo? What a welcome.
Should've put his foot down! Done us all a favour.
Are you OK? She brought this on herself, you know.
Whatever the fallout from this, from all of it, it's on her.
Have you found our Steven Spielberg yet? Slowly, slowly.
That's a "no", then.
I'm heading off down to McEwan.
Still got some time to get some work out of them.
You! With me.
Right, you lot, let's be having your drama over.
You OK? Why wouldn't I be? I don't know, it was just I didn't know what "truck" was.
Playing dumb, are you? Crafty sod.
If you can choose your battles, you ought to.
Big day for you tomorrow, Khan.
Is it? It can't be easy having to face up to the mother of the girl you killed.
Do you mind not discussing my business in public, please? I didn't realise it was a big secret.
Well, it's private.
And, if I wanted to talk about it with anyone, it wouldn't be you.
Nice attitude, yeah, yeah.
You better sort your head out before you take that meeting, and all.
Oh, yeah? From what I hear, it's your head that needs sorting.
Chloe? Get out.
Chloe.
I said get out! I can't do that.
Come on, Chloe, love.
You lied to me.
I didn't lie to you.
I wasn't aware of the emergency protection order.
Isn't it your job to know? I've called social services.
They couldn't tell me much, only that the baby Laura.
That Laura has already been placed with a family.
I'm her family! She's safe, Chloe.
That's something.
I will never, never forgive you for this.
Get out! This job's like 70% PR and 30% lying through your teeth.
Allison used to say that.
So are we any closer to finding out who our secret filmer might be? Brian's making progress.
And we've tried putting the word out.
How about we put the word out that we're taking away all privileges until she's found? Sweep the place.
All contraband, no matter how insignificant, will be confiscated until someone starts talking.
We've got to be careful about this.
Any break with routine, it'll cause problems.
Might be better to wait until after the McDermott inquiry.
Your idea of having a memorial service might just do the trick.
And if it doesn't? I'd like us to pull together on this.
Let you and your family know that Laura meant something to us.
You know, it was the one thing that I took pride in.
Never do what she did or go where she went.
Your mum? Yeah.
Even as a kid I used to say, "Nah, it's not going to be me.
" But I appreciate what you did.
With the caution that If you wouldn't have talked me down, or talk them down, then God knows where I'd be now.
Strangeways, probably.
Grief can be a form of madness.
Especially when it's so raw.
She, erm asked for my help - Laura.
And I turned my back on her.
Don't torture yourself, Lee.
You, er, you said you knew what it was like, with your sister.
I really think this memorial will give people a focus for their grief.
It'll help, believe me.
Is she going to be there? Well, as a mother, she has the right.
Are you OK with that? No.
Listen, everyone's working really hard to make this a special occasion.
So, let's just focus on that, yeah? Jess Hey! Oi! Is she messing, eh?! Get off! You look different.
Thinner.
Yeah.
I just wanted to say thank you for seeing me.
And my husband, Steven, he didn't want me to come.
Well, none of the family did, to be honest.
They just kept saying, "Well, it's been four years, "it's ti Jeez, I forgot how young you were.
Listen I didn't answer any of your previous requests because Well, I wasn't ready.
I'm told that you don't get many visitors.
No, not really.
Your mum? Sisters or brothers or? No.
Yeah, Martha was an only child.
I didn't think I could have kids.
And then .
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this one day You know, they call you a geriatric mother if you're over 35 and you're pregnant.
I got my leg pulled for that one.
I miss her.
And I'm waiting for it to get easier.
I can't do this, I'm sorry.
No, please just stay, please.
Please, just Please.
There's this village in Indonesia where where they keep the embalmed bodies of their loved ones with them until they feel ready to say goodbye.
You know, just there on the bed.
Until they feel they can cope without them.
Can you imagine that? No.
I can.
I came here today because I wanted to, erm I wanted to show you something.
Because I thought it might help.
I mean, both of us.
I'm sure you must struggle with what you did.
Every day.
Yeah, that's what I thought.
So .
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this is my girl.
She loved her dances, she was always in front of the mirror, like, just jumping about.
I'm sorry.
She, erm She hated school but she was really creative.
You know, she was always making, erm, like cards and calendars and drawings.
I can't do this.
No, you You don't get to go through your life without knowing who she was.
That's not how this works.
That's not fair.
She, erm She really wanted a cat but her dad hates them.
She was a cracking little swimmer.
She learnt to swim when she was five when we were in Mallorca.
She She was allergic to penicillin.
There is nothing I can say that's going to make you feel better.
You! You left her lying in the street! Was she conscious? Did she ask for me? I don't remember.
What about the man you were with? Would he remember? What man? The woman who saw it happen from over the road, the one above the bakery.
She saw you with a man.
No, I was on my own.
I go there every week to put down flowers.
One day she came out with a cup of tea, we got talking, she told me that there was two of you.
Then why didn't she tell the police? Oh, she's not the type to talk to the police.
He was kneeling down .
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talking to Martha.
No, it was me, it was just me.
I just want to know if her last moments Please, I won't tell anybody.
I want to go back to the dorm.
What did she say? Did she ask for her mum? Did she ask for me? YOU OWE ME THAT! All right? How's your mum? Same as she was six years ago.
Dead.
I thought she was in hospital? No, that's my Auntie Enid.
You up for some scoops tonight, boss? You what? I thought me and you could, you know, bond a bit.
Are you one of those metrosexuals? Everyone reckons I could learn a lot from you.
That's all.
Well, yeah.
Yeah, yeah.
Yeah, you could.
So? Pub tonight? OK.
Keep still.
There.
Grief can send people to dark places.
She was probably trying to get into your head.
Yeah, well, it worked.
You know, I've been trying to go over everything.
The run-up to the trial was just so mixed up with family stuff, you know? I just wanted to die.
I was happy to agree to anything.
And what about the guy you were with that night? Kamal.
What did he say in his statement? That I was pissed.
That I disappeared and, when he went to look for me, my car had gone.
And you believe that? I'd only just met him! Look, I know I was drunk, OK? But I always had this survival instinct, you know? I never lost my keys, never lost my phone, never got separated from my mates.
Weren't you the good Muslim girl? And I never went home with a guy I didn't know.
OK.
Including that night.
Or at least that's what I thought.
Look, write down the name of the streets where it happen.
Why? I'll ask for a check to see if there is a bakery there.
See where that takes us.
Just remember to keep them clean, yeah? We're creating our own religious ceremony here.
Can we choose our own religions? Yeah, keep them in your own head.
I think I'll be a Wiccan.
Amira, you could be a Vulcan.
What do Vulcans do, then? It's Star Trek.
You must know Star Trek? I'm from Iran and even I know.
What's that got to do with religion? It was a joke.
Aren't jokes supposed to be funny? They're beautiful.
Oh! Sorry.
I can do your manicure.
I'm deaf, not fucking stupid.
Did you hear that? I was just trying to be nice.
How does "Enjoy the good times while they last, girl" sound? She's dead, you dick.
It's for everybody else! "You're a long time looking at the weather.
" Yeah, put that! That's a good one.
Some people are really starting to get on my nerves today.
You got a problem there? Have a bit of respect.
I tell it like it is, I'm not a hypocrite.
No, you're right.
/f You're just a big skank.
You cheeky bitch! Whoa, whoa, whoa! Come on! I think we all need to calm down.
Yeah? How about "She lies with the angels"? Wouldn't that be "She flies with the angels"? How can she fly if she's dead? Shut up! Seriously, I'm not in the mood.
Hey, hey, hey, hey! Hold up.
Let me see what you've got.
Aw, are you joking? Pockets.
Give them a break, Joyce.
Oh, this is very nice, isn't it? Very spiritual.
They've just been sat there, Joyce, honestly.
Your tits are leaking.
Dirty bitch.
SHE YELLS No! Don't! Get off me, Joyce, get off! Calm down! Calm down.
Get off.
You've just had a baby.
A baby that got taken away so I don't really care where I end up.
Stay the fuck away from me, I'm warning you! Any time, bitch! I ain't going nowhere.
You need to get out.
Now! Go! Breathe.
All right.
You need to choose your battles, young lady.
Yeah, story of my life.
Oh, dear.
Do you wanna climb down off the cross? Because it's getting a l You see that? That's Laura's hair.
Her actual hair.
But she doesn't exist any more.
It's mad, that, isn't it? You know my baby's got reddish hair? Under the lights, anyway.
Tingles just thinking about that.
Full boobs and empty arms.
At least she's safe.
But she'll be crying, she will.
And no-one'll know what to do because there's nothing anyone else can do.
Because I'm her mum.
And she needs me.
And I need her.
Yeah, life's shit.
Because you did something stupid.
Because you're in here, because social services now call the shots on your baby.
There you go, is that what you want to hear? I don't know what to say to you, love, except that these are the cards that you've been dealt and somehow you've got to get on with it! All right, come on.
Come on.
Legs up, legs up.
There we go.
Now, listen.
Everyone in here feels an emptiness that only someone out there can fill.
The stuff that I've missed with my with my boy.
But this is the situation, yeah? And the sooner you accept that .
.
the easier it'll be.
Trust me.
And you're not alone.
I promise.
You're not ever alone.
Close your eyes.
You do realise that this has come at the worst possible time? This isn't exactly a great time, either.
We're under investigation.
Laura McDermott's mother is in the gutter with the press, it's a disaster.
Well, that's not on my head.
25 years, Brian? That's a good crack of the whip in anyone's book.
Look, give me three months.
I'll get you the best package going.
I'll even throw commendations at you, get them backdated.
You leave a happy man with an impeccable record and my blessing.
Leave now, when I'm in the shit, and I'll have no option but to fuck you over.
Elaine McDermott will be at the memorial tomorrow.
It may be uncomfortable, but we need a show of unity.
I expect you to be there.
I'm not here for trouble.
Look, I've been thinking.
I've been a bit snide on you.
It's this place.
It wears you down.
It fucks with your humanity.
What I'm trying to say is, I may have been out of order, OK? I'm all for disabilities, me.
My cousin's got cerebral palsy.
He's always getting the piss ripped out of him.
It proper riles me.
I can't stand bullies.
So Everything all right? Yeah, yeah.
I've been a dickhead.
I want to get involved in the memorial.
Why? I just do, OK? Look, I know I'm shit at all that arty stuff, but maybe I could help in some way? I mean, I could clean the hall or something? Just tell us what you want me to do.
I know it's hard but you've got to take it a day at a time.
Separation, it It never really gets easier.
You've got to keep strong for the baby.
I need to talk to Paul, tell him about her.
Oi, hold on.
He doesn't know? No, my solicitor said he got bail so Yeah, he's out there, walking around with no idea.
So, why haven't you told him? Something happened to me.
Yeah, I I know, love.
No.
I mean, something happened to me.
When I saw her for the first time, I just I just knew I didn't want him anywhere near her.
Laura said to me that she didn't want me to end up like her.
Well, I don't want my baby to end up like me.
I need to talk to him.
So, what have you found out? So there is a bakery and there is a flat above it.
Someone standing in the window would be in prime position to see everything happening along that road.
But it may not mean what you want it to mean.
I was talking to this girl yesterday, in the gym, and she said that she'd been given GHB by some guy she met in a club.
Date drug? You're clutching at straws.
I don't know.
Am I? Come on, ladies.
Should be on now.
I'll keep digging, OK? What if I'm just making it worse? PHONE RINGS Jesus PHONE RINGS AGAIN Oh, sod it! Sod the bloody lot of yous! Hello? Before we see your mum I'm sorry, I have to ask.
Did you get our letter about the fees? You've already had my house.
I don't know what else I can give you.
WOMAN SOBS What's going on? Hey! Why are you causing all this fuss? They won't tell me.
What do you want to know? Thanks, love.
Come on.
Where is she? I want to see her.
Why did she leave me? What? What are you on about? Look, nobody's left you.
Look at the state of you.
I want to go home.
Don't start that again.
Well, I won't be any trouble.
Please, don't start.
Well, I'll sleep on the floor! Stop it! I won't come any more if you keep going on.
It does my head in.
You've got to stop all this wailing, it's It's not ladylike, Mam.
Look, I've got to go back to work, so just stop causing trouble.
You'll get their backs up.
I've got enough on my plate to worry about.
I'll be good, I promise you.
I'll be good.
Look Erm, I'll try and get in one day again next week, OK? Hm? Man.
Man? It's Brian.
I miss my mam.
So do I.
Any sign of Brian yet? It must be something important.
His phone's switched off, guv.
I don't think he's in a good place at the moment.
His place is here at this memorial.
Keep trying.
Me and you need to talk somewhere private.
I need a cup of tea.
That's better.
We are trying to determine exactly what happened on the night your daughter died.
But it goes without saying that my staff did everything they could.
I've been in and out of places like this most of my life.
I know how things work.
And I know what you must think.
We don't think anything.
Well, you're the only ones that don't.
The cards were on the table for her with me as a mum from the start.
I know that.
Do you think I haven't sat and thought about that since the mom She once told me that, when she was a kid, she loved it when I was inside.
Thought she was trying to twist the knife but it was the only time I managed to get off the gear.
I looked healthy, like a normal mum, like a mum her mates had.
It stopped her worrying for a bit.
She'd pretend I was in hospital.
It's funny that, isn't it? But she had terrible night terrors, our Laura.
Never when I was inside, though.
Slept like a baby, then.
You don't have to explain.
I do.
I'm not looking for sympathy and I'm not making excuses.
But I want you to know .
.
my mam killed me dad.
She hit him over the head with an ornamental brass shoe.
I watched her do it.
I was nine.
He deserved it.
He was a dirty bastard.
But we grow up and we make decisions and every one of them led me to sitting here in front of you, now.
I'm sorry for your loss, Mrs McDermott.
And I'm sorry I let her down, but it's not going to happen again.
Because I intend to find out exactly what happened the night my child died.
Any mistakes, you lot won't know what's hit you.
Hey, what happened last night? I waited ages.
Boss? Oh, by the way, the governor is after your blood.
McDermott's mob arrived ages ago.
You should see them.
Big bastards.
My own baby being born.
My baby and I have to find out from me fucking brief? I didn't even know you were out until the solicitor told me.
I wanted a boy.
Her name's Laura Rose.
You didn't even consult me? She's with foster parents.
Yeah, I know.
I've got a mate finding out where.
What? No! I don't think we should be together any more.
Now, I don't know who's been filling your head with that shit but you listen to me.
Or I'm going to get that baby and take her back to where she should be.
Home with me.
And then we can get on with being a family, all right? A nice, normal, family.
All right, Chloe? Right, Chloe? Normal family.
Yeah.
Want to sit on the third row for me? Feet off.
How did it go with the mother? As well as can be expected.
She's taking action then? She wants money, not truth.
Will you excuse me a minute? We had an agreement, you can't just go AWOL when it suits you.
Give it a rest, Adolf.
Don't yank her chain, not today.
Me yank her chain? Are you having a laugh We need to be a team today.
Oh, thank you, the United bleeding Nations.
Could you get her to do a bit more digging? Check if Caroline was telling the truth? She's a teacher, not a detective.
I have to work with her.
Well, tell her I think I've been set up! Sam, even not knowing is driving me mad.
Please.
Will you ask her? I'd do it for you.
I know I've done a lot of bad things but I've always loved you.
I know you hate me right now, but we can get through this together.
Together? Are you fucking kidding me? I can't even look at you.
I'm ashamed to call you my mother.
And, after what you did to Laura, I will never, ever, forgive you.
After today, we're done, yeah? Lee? Yeah.
I recognise you from Laura's photos.
I'm Chloe.
Me and Laura, we, erm, we shared a room together.
You all right, love? It's weird to actually meet you.
I'm sorry it's like this.
She, er She loved you, you know.
She told me that you were the only one she did love.
I'm really sorry.
No, it's No, it's all right.
She, erm It's just not saying it.
No, no, I know.
I've just had a baby.
She's, erm She's really beautiful.
I called her Laura.
I've, erm I've got a bird called Laura, she's in the car today.
Well, why don't you give her a ring, tell her to come in? No, erm, she's a real bird.
A pigeon.
I'm going to let her off afterwards, you know, like they do with doves.
Oh.
That's really lovely.
Could I, er Could I write to you? Would that be OK? I You can tell me about Laura.
Your Laura.
My Laura.
Yeah, no, yeah, of course.
Hello, everybody.
Welcome to this memorial for Laura McDermott.
Firstly, I'd like to offer our condolences to Laura's family.
It's always painful when a young life is cut short but, today, we have a chance to reflect and to celebrate the life of a daughter, a sister, a friend.
I'm sure you'll all agree that the hall looks lovely.
You've done her proud, girls.
THE GIRLS CHEER Pack it in! Show some respect or deal with me later, yeah? Sorry, gov, you carry on.
I know that a few of Laura's friends want to say a few words, so Chloe, would you like to start us off? Erm You know when you meet someone, and it feels like you've known them forever? It was like that with me and Laura.
The first time I got here, she did something for me, something really important.
I don't want to say what it was, but certain people know what I'm on about.
Laura always had my back and, even though she had her problems of her own, she always looked out for me.
She, erm She showed me who I was .
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and who I could be.
I'm a mum now, or, at least, I could be if they give me a chance.
And my daughter is going to know all about Laura McDermott because I am going to tell her.
I love you, Laura.
She was a tough girl.
She gave me some shampoo because the shit that the Sorry.
Because the stuff they give you in here brought me out in a rash.
Nice one, Laura.
Every life matters.
Byddwn yn cofio, Laura.
We will remember.
She gave me her flip-flops to wear in them skanky showers.
No, she didn't, you nicked them! Oh, aye! So I did! Sorry, hen! Do you mind if I keep them? Shut up! You can't do that.
I know we're sad that she's gone but I believe there's something important to remember.
SHE SPEAKS ARABIC To Allah we belong and to him we return.
Look, me and Laura didn't get on, right? No use pretending that we did but that's life.
I don't get on with loads of people but I never wished her any harm.
Well, hardly ever.
I've got a poem, if that's OK? Heard it at my nan's funeral.
Hated her guts, but I loved the words.
Would you like to come up, Sherri? A fond kiss And then we sever A farewell And then forever Deep in heart-rung tears I'll pledge thee War and sighs and groans I'll wage thee Had we never loved so kindly Had we never loved so blindly Never met Or never parted We had never been so broken-hearted Fair thee well, thou first and fairest Fair thee well, thou best and dearest Fond kiss.
Are you sure you don't want to do it? No, no, it's best that you do it.
Go on, Laura.
You find your way home, love.
Your parole is denied.
I'm ready to meet her, the mother, the girl I killed.
I've never seen a dead person before.
Higher! Lift it higher! My sister died in there! So, I need to speak to your governor now! I'm sorry, Chloe, but your case has been delayed.
You can't keep us in here.
Look, I know this isn't what you want to I'm not having my font color="yellow Chloe, you've been assessed as being unsuitable to take care of a baby at this stage.
No! Lockdown, lockdown.
OK, there's a situation, we've got to move you all.
ENGINE REVS HE BEEPS THE HORN Move.
The people in that building are under my care and if you attempt to hurt them you're going to have to go through me.
Listen, don't you DARE TALK TO ME ABOUT CARE! You're angry.
You're looking for someone to blame.
I get that.
But, Laura, she took her own life! And there's got to be some level of responsibility.
Shut up! Yeah? SHUT UP! Sorry, Lee, but that's the truth! We both know it! Just give her a moment.
Just let her deal with it.
YOU?! YOU DON'T KNOW NOTHING! Listen! Lee, I know you don't want to do this.
You've no idea about what I really want to do! Laura was really proud of you, you know? Cos you managed to do something with your life! Let's just turn the engine off so we can talk.
GET BACK! GET BACK! And, Lee, I've been where you are.
Feeling like I let my sister down.
I just want us to talk, just you and me, no-one else.
Away from all this drama, just two people talking.
Turn the engine off.
Please, Lee.
NO! Forget about them, this is my gaff, I'm in charge.
This is about Laura, yeah? Do you think she'd want this? Look, we can have a memorial for her.
Celebrate Laura's life.
It would help them and help yourself.
Laura's life would mean something.
Laura's life always meant something.
I know.
Look, you haven't hurt anyone.
So far.
There's still time to make this right.
No, no, no! I know this man! It's all under control.
It's just a misunderstanding.
There's no need for any more drama.
Let her deal with it.
Exactly.
Don't want paperwork, do you, lad? Eh? I defo heard a gun.
No, you didn't! They probably found a bomb.
Could've been big fuck-off tank! Mad Max come break us oot! It might be ISIS.
It isn't ISIS! How do you know? ISIS don't wait.
I'm trying to decide whether that was an act of courage or stupidity.
CAR DRIVES UP AND STOPS I'll make a request that you're taken off work detail for the rest of the week.
Then I'll go to the store and get you some fresh clothes, yeah? Get you out of these things.
Do you want me to talk to the others, tell them what's happened? I think it's pretty obvious what's happened.
There's no baby.
It sounded proper big, though, didn't it? Yeah, but we don't know anything.
Could've been anything.
Exactly When do they tell us? I don't know.
Oh! Hey.
Hey! Was it a bomb? Someone try to spring us? Clo? What a welcome.
Should've put his foot down! Done us all a favour.
Are you OK? She brought this on herself, you know.
Whatever the fallout from this, from all of it, it's on her.
Have you found our Steven Spielberg yet? Slowly, slowly.
That's a "no", then.
I'm heading off down to McEwan.
Still got some time to get some work out of them.
You! With me.
Right, you lot, let's be having your drama over.
You OK? Why wouldn't I be? I don't know, it was just I didn't know what "truck" was.
Playing dumb, are you? Crafty sod.
If you can choose your battles, you ought to.
Big day for you tomorrow, Khan.
Is it? It can't be easy having to face up to the mother of the girl you killed.
Do you mind not discussing my business in public, please? I didn't realise it was a big secret.
Well, it's private.
And, if I wanted to talk about it with anyone, it wouldn't be you.
Nice attitude, yeah, yeah.
You better sort your head out before you take that meeting, and all.
Oh, yeah? From what I hear, it's your head that needs sorting.
Chloe? Get out.
Chloe.
I said get out! I can't do that.
Come on, Chloe, love.
You lied to me.
I didn't lie to you.
I wasn't aware of the emergency protection order.
Isn't it your job to know? I've called social services.
They couldn't tell me much, only that the baby Laura.
That Laura has already been placed with a family.
I'm her family! She's safe, Chloe.
That's something.
I will never, never forgive you for this.
Get out! This job's like 70% PR and 30% lying through your teeth.
Allison used to say that.
So are we any closer to finding out who our secret filmer might be? Brian's making progress.
And we've tried putting the word out.
How about we put the word out that we're taking away all privileges until she's found? Sweep the place.
All contraband, no matter how insignificant, will be confiscated until someone starts talking.
We've got to be careful about this.
Any break with routine, it'll cause problems.
Might be better to wait until after the McDermott inquiry.
Your idea of having a memorial service might just do the trick.
And if it doesn't? I'd like us to pull together on this.
Let you and your family know that Laura meant something to us.
You know, it was the one thing that I took pride in.
Never do what she did or go where she went.
Your mum? Yeah.
Even as a kid I used to say, "Nah, it's not going to be me.
" But I appreciate what you did.
With the caution that If you wouldn't have talked me down, or talk them down, then God knows where I'd be now.
Strangeways, probably.
Grief can be a form of madness.
Especially when it's so raw.
She, erm asked for my help - Laura.
And I turned my back on her.
Don't torture yourself, Lee.
You, er, you said you knew what it was like, with your sister.
I really think this memorial will give people a focus for their grief.
It'll help, believe me.
Is she going to be there? Well, as a mother, she has the right.
Are you OK with that? No.
Listen, everyone's working really hard to make this a special occasion.
So, let's just focus on that, yeah? Jess Hey! Oi! Is she messing, eh?! Get off! You look different.
Thinner.
Yeah.
I just wanted to say thank you for seeing me.
And my husband, Steven, he didn't want me to come.
Well, none of the family did, to be honest.
They just kept saying, "Well, it's been four years, "it's ti Jeez, I forgot how young you were.
Listen I didn't answer any of your previous requests because Well, I wasn't ready.
I'm told that you don't get many visitors.
No, not really.
Your mum? Sisters or brothers or? No.
Yeah, Martha was an only child.
I didn't think I could have kids.
And then .
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this one day You know, they call you a geriatric mother if you're over 35 and you're pregnant.
I got my leg pulled for that one.
I miss her.
And I'm waiting for it to get easier.
I can't do this, I'm sorry.
No, please just stay, please.
Please, just Please.
There's this village in Indonesia where where they keep the embalmed bodies of their loved ones with them until they feel ready to say goodbye.
You know, just there on the bed.
Until they feel they can cope without them.
Can you imagine that? No.
I can.
I came here today because I wanted to, erm I wanted to show you something.
Because I thought it might help.
I mean, both of us.
I'm sure you must struggle with what you did.
Every day.
Yeah, that's what I thought.
So .
.
this is my girl.
She loved her dances, she was always in front of the mirror, like, just jumping about.
I'm sorry.
She, erm She hated school but she was really creative.
You know, she was always making, erm, like cards and calendars and drawings.
I can't do this.
No, you You don't get to go through your life without knowing who she was.
That's not how this works.
That's not fair.
She, erm She really wanted a cat but her dad hates them.
She was a cracking little swimmer.
She learnt to swim when she was five when we were in Mallorca.
She She was allergic to penicillin.
There is nothing I can say that's going to make you feel better.
You! You left her lying in the street! Was she conscious? Did she ask for me? I don't remember.
What about the man you were with? Would he remember? What man? The woman who saw it happen from over the road, the one above the bakery.
She saw you with a man.
No, I was on my own.
I go there every week to put down flowers.
One day she came out with a cup of tea, we got talking, she told me that there was two of you.
Then why didn't she tell the police? Oh, she's not the type to talk to the police.
He was kneeling down .
.
talking to Martha.
No, it was me, it was just me.
I just want to know if her last moments Please, I won't tell anybody.
I want to go back to the dorm.
What did she say? Did she ask for her mum? Did she ask for me? YOU OWE ME THAT! All right? How's your mum? Same as she was six years ago.
Dead.
I thought she was in hospital? No, that's my Auntie Enid.
You up for some scoops tonight, boss? You what? I thought me and you could, you know, bond a bit.
Are you one of those metrosexuals? Everyone reckons I could learn a lot from you.
That's all.
Well, yeah.
Yeah, yeah.
Yeah, you could.
So? Pub tonight? OK.
Keep still.
There.
Grief can send people to dark places.
She was probably trying to get into your head.
Yeah, well, it worked.
You know, I've been trying to go over everything.
The run-up to the trial was just so mixed up with family stuff, you know? I just wanted to die.
I was happy to agree to anything.
And what about the guy you were with that night? Kamal.
What did he say in his statement? That I was pissed.
That I disappeared and, when he went to look for me, my car had gone.
And you believe that? I'd only just met him! Look, I know I was drunk, OK? But I always had this survival instinct, you know? I never lost my keys, never lost my phone, never got separated from my mates.
Weren't you the good Muslim girl? And I never went home with a guy I didn't know.
OK.
Including that night.
Or at least that's what I thought.
Look, write down the name of the streets where it happen.
Why? I'll ask for a check to see if there is a bakery there.
See where that takes us.
Just remember to keep them clean, yeah? We're creating our own religious ceremony here.
Can we choose our own religions? Yeah, keep them in your own head.
I think I'll be a Wiccan.
Amira, you could be a Vulcan.
What do Vulcans do, then? It's Star Trek.
You must know Star Trek? I'm from Iran and even I know.
What's that got to do with religion? It was a joke.
Aren't jokes supposed to be funny? They're beautiful.
Oh! Sorry.
I can do your manicure.
I'm deaf, not fucking stupid.
Did you hear that? I was just trying to be nice.
How does "Enjoy the good times while they last, girl" sound? She's dead, you dick.
It's for everybody else! "You're a long time looking at the weather.
" Yeah, put that! That's a good one.
Some people are really starting to get on my nerves today.
You got a problem there? Have a bit of respect.
I tell it like it is, I'm not a hypocrite.
No, you're right.
/f You're just a big skank.
You cheeky bitch! Whoa, whoa, whoa! Come on! I think we all need to calm down.
Yeah? How about "She lies with the angels"? Wouldn't that be "She flies with the angels"? How can she fly if she's dead? Shut up! Seriously, I'm not in the mood.
Hey, hey, hey, hey! Hold up.
Let me see what you've got.
Aw, are you joking? Pockets.
Give them a break, Joyce.
Oh, this is very nice, isn't it? Very spiritual.
They've just been sat there, Joyce, honestly.
Your tits are leaking.
Dirty bitch.
SHE YELLS No! Don't! Get off me, Joyce, get off! Calm down! Calm down.
Get off.
You've just had a baby.
A baby that got taken away so I don't really care where I end up.
Stay the fuck away from me, I'm warning you! Any time, bitch! I ain't going nowhere.
You need to get out.
Now! Go! Breathe.
All right.
You need to choose your battles, young lady.
Yeah, story of my life.
Oh, dear.
Do you wanna climb down off the cross? Because it's getting a l You see that? That's Laura's hair.
Her actual hair.
But she doesn't exist any more.
It's mad, that, isn't it? You know my baby's got reddish hair? Under the lights, anyway.
Tingles just thinking about that.
Full boobs and empty arms.
At least she's safe.
But she'll be crying, she will.
And no-one'll know what to do because there's nothing anyone else can do.
Because I'm her mum.
And she needs me.
And I need her.
Yeah, life's shit.
Because you did something stupid.
Because you're in here, because social services now call the shots on your baby.
There you go, is that what you want to hear? I don't know what to say to you, love, except that these are the cards that you've been dealt and somehow you've got to get on with it! All right, come on.
Come on.
Legs up, legs up.
There we go.
Now, listen.
Everyone in here feels an emptiness that only someone out there can fill.
The stuff that I've missed with my with my boy.
But this is the situation, yeah? And the sooner you accept that .
.
the easier it'll be.
Trust me.
And you're not alone.
I promise.
You're not ever alone.
Close your eyes.
You do realise that this has come at the worst possible time? This isn't exactly a great time, either.
We're under investigation.
Laura McDermott's mother is in the gutter with the press, it's a disaster.
Well, that's not on my head.
25 years, Brian? That's a good crack of the whip in anyone's book.
Look, give me three months.
I'll get you the best package going.
I'll even throw commendations at you, get them backdated.
You leave a happy man with an impeccable record and my blessing.
Leave now, when I'm in the shit, and I'll have no option but to fuck you over.
Elaine McDermott will be at the memorial tomorrow.
It may be uncomfortable, but we need a show of unity.
I expect you to be there.
I'm not here for trouble.
Look, I've been thinking.
I've been a bit snide on you.
It's this place.
It wears you down.
It fucks with your humanity.
What I'm trying to say is, I may have been out of order, OK? I'm all for disabilities, me.
My cousin's got cerebral palsy.
He's always getting the piss ripped out of him.
It proper riles me.
I can't stand bullies.
So Everything all right? Yeah, yeah.
I've been a dickhead.
I want to get involved in the memorial.
Why? I just do, OK? Look, I know I'm shit at all that arty stuff, but maybe I could help in some way? I mean, I could clean the hall or something? Just tell us what you want me to do.
I know it's hard but you've got to take it a day at a time.
Separation, it It never really gets easier.
You've got to keep strong for the baby.
I need to talk to Paul, tell him about her.
Oi, hold on.
He doesn't know? No, my solicitor said he got bail so Yeah, he's out there, walking around with no idea.
So, why haven't you told him? Something happened to me.
Yeah, I I know, love.
No.
I mean, something happened to me.
When I saw her for the first time, I just I just knew I didn't want him anywhere near her.
Laura said to me that she didn't want me to end up like her.
Well, I don't want my baby to end up like me.
I need to talk to him.
So, what have you found out? So there is a bakery and there is a flat above it.
Someone standing in the window would be in prime position to see everything happening along that road.
But it may not mean what you want it to mean.
I was talking to this girl yesterday, in the gym, and she said that she'd been given GHB by some guy she met in a club.
Date drug? You're clutching at straws.
I don't know.
Am I? Come on, ladies.
Should be on now.
I'll keep digging, OK? What if I'm just making it worse? PHONE RINGS Jesus PHONE RINGS AGAIN Oh, sod it! Sod the bloody lot of yous! Hello? Before we see your mum I'm sorry, I have to ask.
Did you get our letter about the fees? You've already had my house.
I don't know what else I can give you.
WOMAN SOBS What's going on? Hey! Why are you causing all this fuss? They won't tell me.
What do you want to know? Thanks, love.
Come on.
Where is she? I want to see her.
Why did she leave me? What? What are you on about? Look, nobody's left you.
Look at the state of you.
I want to go home.
Don't start that again.
Well, I won't be any trouble.
Please, don't start.
Well, I'll sleep on the floor! Stop it! I won't come any more if you keep going on.
It does my head in.
You've got to stop all this wailing, it's It's not ladylike, Mam.
Look, I've got to go back to work, so just stop causing trouble.
You'll get their backs up.
I've got enough on my plate to worry about.
I'll be good, I promise you.
I'll be good.
Look Erm, I'll try and get in one day again next week, OK? Hm? Man.
Man? It's Brian.
I miss my mam.
So do I.
Any sign of Brian yet? It must be something important.
His phone's switched off, guv.
I don't think he's in a good place at the moment.
His place is here at this memorial.
Keep trying.
Me and you need to talk somewhere private.
I need a cup of tea.
That's better.
We are trying to determine exactly what happened on the night your daughter died.
But it goes without saying that my staff did everything they could.
I've been in and out of places like this most of my life.
I know how things work.
And I know what you must think.
We don't think anything.
Well, you're the only ones that don't.
The cards were on the table for her with me as a mum from the start.
I know that.
Do you think I haven't sat and thought about that since the mom She once told me that, when she was a kid, she loved it when I was inside.
Thought she was trying to twist the knife but it was the only time I managed to get off the gear.
I looked healthy, like a normal mum, like a mum her mates had.
It stopped her worrying for a bit.
She'd pretend I was in hospital.
It's funny that, isn't it? But she had terrible night terrors, our Laura.
Never when I was inside, though.
Slept like a baby, then.
You don't have to explain.
I do.
I'm not looking for sympathy and I'm not making excuses.
But I want you to know .
.
my mam killed me dad.
She hit him over the head with an ornamental brass shoe.
I watched her do it.
I was nine.
He deserved it.
He was a dirty bastard.
But we grow up and we make decisions and every one of them led me to sitting here in front of you, now.
I'm sorry for your loss, Mrs McDermott.
And I'm sorry I let her down, but it's not going to happen again.
Because I intend to find out exactly what happened the night my child died.
Any mistakes, you lot won't know what's hit you.
Hey, what happened last night? I waited ages.
Boss? Oh, by the way, the governor is after your blood.
McDermott's mob arrived ages ago.
You should see them.
Big bastards.
My own baby being born.
My baby and I have to find out from me fucking brief? I didn't even know you were out until the solicitor told me.
I wanted a boy.
Her name's Laura Rose.
You didn't even consult me? She's with foster parents.
Yeah, I know.
I've got a mate finding out where.
What? No! I don't think we should be together any more.
Now, I don't know who's been filling your head with that shit but you listen to me.
Or I'm going to get that baby and take her back to where she should be.
Home with me.
And then we can get on with being a family, all right? A nice, normal, family.
All right, Chloe? Right, Chloe? Normal family.
Yeah.
Want to sit on the third row for me? Feet off.
How did it go with the mother? As well as can be expected.
She's taking action then? She wants money, not truth.
Will you excuse me a minute? We had an agreement, you can't just go AWOL when it suits you.
Give it a rest, Adolf.
Don't yank her chain, not today.
Me yank her chain? Are you having a laugh We need to be a team today.
Oh, thank you, the United bleeding Nations.
Could you get her to do a bit more digging? Check if Caroline was telling the truth? She's a teacher, not a detective.
I have to work with her.
Well, tell her I think I've been set up! Sam, even not knowing is driving me mad.
Please.
Will you ask her? I'd do it for you.
I know I've done a lot of bad things but I've always loved you.
I know you hate me right now, but we can get through this together.
Together? Are you fucking kidding me? I can't even look at you.
I'm ashamed to call you my mother.
And, after what you did to Laura, I will never, ever, forgive you.
After today, we're done, yeah? Lee? Yeah.
I recognise you from Laura's photos.
I'm Chloe.
Me and Laura, we, erm, we shared a room together.
You all right, love? It's weird to actually meet you.
I'm sorry it's like this.
She, er She loved you, you know.
She told me that you were the only one she did love.
I'm really sorry.
No, it's No, it's all right.
She, erm It's just not saying it.
No, no, I know.
I've just had a baby.
She's, erm She's really beautiful.
I called her Laura.
I've, erm I've got a bird called Laura, she's in the car today.
Well, why don't you give her a ring, tell her to come in? No, erm, she's a real bird.
A pigeon.
I'm going to let her off afterwards, you know, like they do with doves.
Oh.
That's really lovely.
Could I, er Could I write to you? Would that be OK? I You can tell me about Laura.
Your Laura.
My Laura.
Yeah, no, yeah, of course.
Hello, everybody.
Welcome to this memorial for Laura McDermott.
Firstly, I'd like to offer our condolences to Laura's family.
It's always painful when a young life is cut short but, today, we have a chance to reflect and to celebrate the life of a daughter, a sister, a friend.
I'm sure you'll all agree that the hall looks lovely.
You've done her proud, girls.
THE GIRLS CHEER Pack it in! Show some respect or deal with me later, yeah? Sorry, gov, you carry on.
I know that a few of Laura's friends want to say a few words, so Chloe, would you like to start us off? Erm You know when you meet someone, and it feels like you've known them forever? It was like that with me and Laura.
The first time I got here, she did something for me, something really important.
I don't want to say what it was, but certain people know what I'm on about.
Laura always had my back and, even though she had her problems of her own, she always looked out for me.
She, erm She showed me who I was .
.
and who I could be.
I'm a mum now, or, at least, I could be if they give me a chance.
And my daughter is going to know all about Laura McDermott because I am going to tell her.
I love you, Laura.
She was a tough girl.
She gave me some shampoo because the shit that the Sorry.
Because the stuff they give you in here brought me out in a rash.
Nice one, Laura.
Every life matters.
Byddwn yn cofio, Laura.
We will remember.
She gave me her flip-flops to wear in them skanky showers.
No, she didn't, you nicked them! Oh, aye! So I did! Sorry, hen! Do you mind if I keep them? Shut up! You can't do that.
I know we're sad that she's gone but I believe there's something important to remember.
SHE SPEAKS ARABIC To Allah we belong and to him we return.
Look, me and Laura didn't get on, right? No use pretending that we did but that's life.
I don't get on with loads of people but I never wished her any harm.
Well, hardly ever.
I've got a poem, if that's OK? Heard it at my nan's funeral.
Hated her guts, but I loved the words.
Would you like to come up, Sherri? A fond kiss And then we sever A farewell And then forever Deep in heart-rung tears I'll pledge thee War and sighs and groans I'll wage thee Had we never loved so kindly Had we never loved so blindly Never met Or never parted We had never been so broken-hearted Fair thee well, thou first and fairest Fair thee well, thou best and dearest Fond kiss.
Are you sure you don't want to do it? No, no, it's best that you do it.
Go on, Laura.
You find your way home, love.