Away (2020) s01e07 Episode Script

1
[ethereal music playing]
How can this be?
Have you ever seen a dandelion
grow through a crack in the cement?
There's a Swedish study about children
who thrive against all odds.
They call them dandelion kids.
Uh My mother was a child psychologist.
So you're saying there's no explanation?
Maybe it's a miracle.
Maybe the water rations
have addled your brain.
[Kwesi exhales]
If this one plant
makes it all the way to Mars
would that help you
to grow your garden there?
Unquestionably.
I'd build my entire garden around it.
Then should we attempt
to account for how it has survived?
Are you proposing an experiment, Doctor?
If you are up for it, Doctor.
Meanwhile,
let's hope we're all as resilient
as this one here.
[tablet chimes]
Dear Lex, how are you?
Haven't heard from you in a few days.
I wanna hear more about this Isaac.
All you said about him in your
[coughing]
[tablet chimes]
[melancholy music playing]
[Emma's voice]
I told myself I'd miss things.
But it's much harder than I ever imagined.
[sniffles]
Earth is so far away now, Lex.
Just a dot,
a tiny dot of light in the sky,
which means you're farther away.
I just wanna stay close to you.
[coughing]
[coughing, retching]
[toilet flushing]
[knocking on door]
You okay?
Think it was the 2:00 a.m. tacos?
[exhales]
[door opening]
-[Emma sighs]
-Oh. Ouch.
[sighs]
Guess I can't interest you
in that omelet now, huh?
Want me to go get you something?
A ginger ale?
I wanna break up.
Okay. I I didn't know we were dating.
Well, whatever we've been doing
for the last
three months, I think we should stop.
Do you mind if I ask why?
It's interfering with my training.
Well, that's funny
since most of our non-dates have involved
some form of running, swimming--
Tequila, sex
My head's not clear.
I'm off my game,
and there's no room for that.
Not if I wanna go to Mars.
Not if I wanna be the best.
Whoa, Em. Hey. Hey.
Em, whoa.
You are the best, okay?
Hey, what's going on?
Well, you you don't get it.
You know, you're a man.
You get to do it all.
Uh Well, since when has being a woman
ever slowed you down?
Look, I I don't
-[sighs]
-You're pregnant.
[sighs]
I don't know.
I'm late.
I'm vo vomiting.
So, yeah. Yeah, I'm a little concerned.
I see. All right.
Look, I'm I'm in this with you, okay?
It's easy for you to be in this with me.
You have a kid, you're a better astronaut.
They move you up the list.
Women move down the list.
Look at Melissa. She was kicking ass,
and now they won't even let her fly.
Melissa That was her choice.
[Emma] Exactly.
There's no decision.
I'm not giving up flying.
[motorcycle engine revving]
[Isaac] Nice! Always look up.
Look where you're going,
not where you are.
[Alexis] That was amazing!
You're amazing.
[kiss]
-[group whooping]
-[Alexis laughs]
[Alexis] I wanna go again.
Pro tip: switch to third in the air.
That way, the clutch won't slow you down.
[Alexis] Third in the air. Got it.
[motorcycle engine revving]
[Matt] The backup water system's
been running strong
for almost a month now.
We got two months to go, and we all know
that's a notoriously fickle system.
There's a thousand things
that could go wrong, obviously,
and we've accounted for
about half of them. What are we missing?
My dad had triple bypass surgery
last year.
Right. Sorry. Uh
Sometimes I have a thought
that's relevant,
but I don't connect the dots.
When my dad's artery got clogged up--
You're saying if the DA goes down
and contaminants
get into some of the pipes--
We can shut those systems down
and reroute the flow.
Jane, it's your system. What do you think?
Sounds right. I'll draw up a procedure.
[knocking at door]
Come in.
[Ryan] Hey, Matt.
Uh Just seeing if you had
that recommendation on the CO2 scrubbers.
Oh yeah. It's right here.
Should be a pretty simple procedure.
A weekly vacuum should be fine.
Here you go.
Right. Thanks.
I, um
I didn't know
there was a meeting going on.
It's not really a meeting.
We were just talking about the game
last night.
Yeah. Uh Can you guys believe
we went into double OT?
[laughs]
[Ryan] Right.
Um Sorry to interrupt.
-Thanks for the report, Matt.
-You got it.
-[door closes]
-Look, that's very kind, but listen to me:
no one needs to cover for me.
You understand?
If I get in trouble for overstepping
my position, that's on me.
If Ryan knew half the recommendations
we're giving him were coming from you--
I don't care.
I'm not trying to undermine anyone.
-I just wanna help.
-[man] You've done more than help.
Sometimes it seems you have more
up-to-date intel than Mission Control.
How's that possible?
-[computer chimes]
-[Misha] Dear Matt,
I've received proposed procedure
for rerouting of the pipes.
It's an excellent plan.
All the best, Misha.
Delete "All the best, Misha."
[computer chimes]
I guess us engineers
are not as compromised as they say.
Winky-face emoji. Winky-face emoji.
Winky-face emoji.
-All the best, Misha. Send.
-[knocking on door]
-[computer chimes]
-You ready for this psych eval?
No.
Well, it wasn't really a question,
to be honest.
So it's not insult enough
that I have to sit all day in my room
like in prison.
Now I'm supposed to talk to you
about my feelings?
Everyone has to do one
at the three-quarter mark, okay?
Lu and Kwesi have just done theirs.
The reason
you're confined to your quarters
is because a gravity-rich environment
may slow your decline in vision,
which we're all aware
is a pretty big problem now.
Okay, Dr. Mahatma Freud.
Let's talk about my feelings.
Right.
How do I feel?
How do I Well, I'm frustrated
[clears throat]
because I'm going blind.
I feel a little bit uncomfortable
and very, very thirsty
because my brilliant commander
thinks she knows better than me
how to fix the water system.
You can't blame her
for a compromised water system.
Well, what a passionate defense
of your commander. That's impressive.
What does that mean?
It must be so difficult for you
-to keep objectivity when you--
-No, no, no.
What is that supposed to mean?
Oh! I sense some anger.
Would you like to lie on the couch?
[Ram] Tell me what that means.
-[Misha] I don't mind. I'll listen to you.
-Will you two shut up?
My head is pounding
from all the screaming.
[sighs] And will one of you
please fix the damn comms?
That should be your first priority.
-I'm sorry?
-The comms?
The comms. They're they're down again.
I just received an email from Ground
a few minutes ago.
The comms are working absolutely fine.
No, I wrote to my daughter two hours ago,
and I haven't heard back.
Maybe she doesn't want to write back.
That's that's exactly how it started
with my daughter.
They pull away to protect themselves.
The more we push,
the more they pull.
Best is just stop pushing.
You know, accept it.
-Wish I could learn this lesson.
-Just fix the comms.
[music playing from truck]
[Isaac] I mean it.
You're you're a prodigy.
[Alexis]
You're really not just saying that?
[Isaac] I'm really not.
Although, I'd get some gear, prodigy,
or your dad's gonna catch on to you.
[sighs] Yeah.
I can't tell him
how good it makes me feel.
He just wouldn't get it.
My mom did all sorts of wild stuff
when she was young.
Bungee jumping, diving off quarries
[laughs]
She flew a crop duster when she was 14.
[both laugh]
So, I mean, she really can't talk.
Yeah, but when has that
ever stopped parents from talking?
I'm just saying, have an alibi ready.
Dirt fight in math class?
Yeah, okay.
Maybe a better alibi than that.
[both laughing]
How about a garden gnome attack?
You're a terrible liar.
My dad's gonna be home soon.
Okay.
-Okay.
-I'll call you later?
[Alexis] Yeah?
-Bye.
-Bye.
[truck door closes]
[engine starting]
[music playing from truck]
[phone chimes]
[music continues]
[tablet chimes]
[Ram] Emma, the idea
with these evaluations
is that you actually talk to me.
[Emma] You're a medic, not a shrink.
And your mental health is as critical
to this mission as your physical.
And I'm responsible for monitoring both.
Have you been taking
your full water rations?
Check the logs.
I don't need to check.
If you tell me you're taking them,
I believe you.
And how's your sleep?
[sighs] Sleep?
I don't sleep.
Every time I close my eyes, I
You what?
Nothing.
Emma, I can't help you
if you don't talk to me, okay?
It's stupid.
Alexis has a boyfriend.
And all I know about him
is what Matt's told me.
That he's two years older than her,
rides motorbikes, and
his father was KIA.
[sighs] That's pretty rough.
We're military. We know these kids.
Your parent is killed in action,
you're never the same.
And you're worried
she's connecting with him because--
I'm not dead.
I know that, Emma.
I don't want her thinking about
the possibility that I
Or hanging out with some boy
who's gonna make her think about that.
What does Matt say?
I don't think he was thinking about being
the go-to parent for boys.
It's not like he's at full strength.
And, you know, that's the other thing.
Any time I've ever needed Matt,
he's been there for me.
And now he needs me
more than he's ever needed anyone,
and I'm not there.
Emma, you can't--
I'm not there for him.
I'm not there for them.
[tablet chiming]
[Alexis] And my grade in calculus
is up to a B-plus,
which, I mean, frankly,
I deserve a medal
because there were two trick questions
in that last exam that no one else got.
Well, that's great.
And I'm sorry I didn't get off work
in time to pick you up.
That's okay. Uh, Annie dropped me off.
I saw Isaac driving away from the house.
I'm sorry.
I don't know why I lied.
Were you out riding bikes with him?
No. I swear I wasn't.
You know,
I don't even know if I believe you.
You know how hard that is for me to say?
Half the guys I was in rehab with
are paralyzed from being on motorcycles.
You are not to get on a goddamn motorbike.
Do you understand?
Yes.
I promise.
And write your mom back.
I got three texts
saying you haven't written back.
I wrote her back, like, three days ago.
And her last response to me
was super weird.
See what I mean?
I mean, it doesn't even sound like her.
She signed it "Commander Green."
They're on water rations. She's exhausted.
-Dad--
-This is the toughest part of the journey.
She needs us.
Write her back, okay?
Okay.
[keyboard tapping]
[Alexis's voice] Dear Mom,
I'm sorry I didn't write back sooner.
Okay, so you asked me about Isaac. Well
When I was little, you'd tell me about
how you'd have to get up at 4:00 a.m.
to spray the crops.
But as soon as you got in that cockpit,
the old crop duster,
and it lifted up into the air,
you got this rush of adrenaline.
And it made you feel
like anything was possible.
And that was amazing
because you grew up poor,
and sometimes it felt
like nothing was possible.
-But flying changed that.
-[Emma panting]
Well, that's kinda how I feel with Isaac.
I was feeling sort of stuck
and closed off,
obsessing over you being away,
or if I have Dad's CCM.
[breathing heavily]
[Alexis's voice]
But it's like I can move now.
Maybe I don't have to hold my breath
for the next three years.
[melancholy music playing]
Hey.
Hi.
-Come on in.
-Thanks.
All I have is this gross pregnancy tea,
uh, but I can put on coffee.
You can dish NASA gossip.
I'm so out of touch.
What's this?
[Melissa] Scott made it.
Isn't it great? [chuckles]
He wants the baby girl to know
she's from an astronaut family
and her mom is going to Mars one day.
You know, what I do have is orange juice.
Goodnight, Mars.
[Emma] I grew up in Montana.
Oh, Montana's gorgeous.
Yeah.
"Big Sky Country" is not just a slogan.
"Stars like sprinkles."
They used to say that when I was a kid.
"Stars are sprinkles."
My twelfth birthday,
all I wanted was a telescope
so I could see them up close,
or at least up closer,
but we were, um
Well, we had a farm, and my mom
was barely making ends meet, so
She knew I wanted it so bad,
so she saved up for months.
I don't even know how.
She got me this telescope
that they had on sale at Walmart.
I was so excited.
I set it up on the porch facing south,
followed all the instructions, and I
couldn't see a thing.
It was a piece of crap.
What's wrong?
I'm pregnant.
I'm not having it.
-Okay.
-[Emma sighs]
I fought tooth and nail to get here.
Why are you here, Emma?
Because you're my friend.
And I'm also your colleague,
and I'm eight months pregnant.
And I'm popping antacids
like they're Tic Tacs, and
my feet don't fit in my shoes,
but you don't find someone else
to go talk to.
You come to me
to tell me that you are not having a baby.
So, what do you want from me?
-I'm sorry.
-My permission?
No.
Or did you come to see the cost up close?
I mean, am I the cautionary tale?
No.
[crying]
[Emma] God
I just I don't know what I want.
Oh, honey.
You've always known what you wanted,
haven't you?
-This must be really hard for you.
-[door opens]
[door closes]
Hey, Emma Green in the house!
What's cooking?
Hey.
-And how are my babies?
-Hey. [laughs]
Hey, some guy came by with sod
this morning.
Yes. Kids need grass to play on, Mel.
Yeah.
[laughs]
Does Matt know?
[sighs]
[computer chimes]
Hey, it's Matt.
Sorry to bother you so late.
[counts in Russian]
[computer chimes]
[groans]
-[computer chimes]
-Hey, it's Matt.
Sorry to bother you so late.
I just wanna let you know
we'll have some new procedures
to send you in the morning.
I also want to check in about Emma.
Her last few messages
have been a little off.
I'll be up for a while
looking at schematics.
If you're awake
and can set my mind at ease,
I'd appreciate it.
[computer chimes]
[computer chimes]
[Misha's voice] Dear Matt,
as always, please forgive typos.
I guess dictation system
doesn't appreciate
my perfect American accent.
To be honest,
we are all a little run down here.
As you know, space takes a heavy toll.
But your Emma is
tough cookie,
maybe even tougher than me,
which, if asked,
I will strongly deny.
Smiley-face emoji. Smiley-face emoji.
Smiley-face emoji.
I think she'll be okay.
But always feel free
to get in touch with me. Okay?
Good night, Matt.
[Alexis's voice] But flying changed that.
That's kinda how I feel with Isaac.
Stuck. I was feeling sort of stuck.
But it's like I can move now.
Maybe I don't have to hold my breath
for the next three years.
[Emma exhales]
What you're proposing is preposterous.
I ran a complete chemical analysis
on the soil.
Nothing is aberrant,
which leaves just one hypothesis.
Well, the notion that this plant
spontaneously adapted
to become more drought tolerant--
It is the only remaining explanation.
Yes, unless the explanation is
[sighs] I I really appreciate
your receiving your PhD degree
from "I Believe in Miracles" University!
-Right
-You two need to get a room.
Oh, this is science, Ram.
Don't make it vile.
Then make it interesting.
Meaning what?
Meaning, you have one theory,
he has another
Put a wager on it.
You still got half your Mars bar?
You have
half a Mars bar?
Yes, well, I was saving it
for when we land.
Okay, that's very literal,
but if you don't believe in your theory
enough to put that on the line, then
All right! Fine, but if I'm right,
you have to believe
that miracles do exist.
[Ram] Morning, Commander.
How'd you sleep?
You still checking up on me?
I thought we finished my eval yesterday.
[switch clicks]
[whirring]
See? Full rations, Doc.
[Emma sighs]
[Misha] Good morning, space buddies.
Misha is here!
Misha, how many times did I tell you?
You have to remain in your pod.
No. What I need to do
is vacuum the CO2 filters
so that this fantastic crew can
get enough oxygen to the brain
and function on the highest level.
Or is this also above my pay grade?
It's above your pay grade now.
You're no good to us compromised.
[Kwesi]
Look, we can vacuum the filters, Misha.
[Emma] Oh, let him go blind if he wants.
You know how many things
I'm missing out on at home
to sit here and listen to you
tell Misha to go to his pod?
He clearly doesn't give a shit
about any of us.
Go ahead and crack your little jokes.
Risk our lives. Fine. Clean the filter.
Take a goddamn spacewalk for all I care.
I thought you gave her her psych eval.
Look, she's under the same stress
as all of us.
Trust me, she can handle it.
You sure?
I don't need a psych eval
to tell you what's wrong with her.
I love my child as fiercely as Emma does.
But I understand,
if I ever received a call that
Lei Lei's fallen ill or
struck by a car
I cannot go home.
I cannot hold him.
I cannot lose focus on the task at hand.
I accept that for the next three years,
my husband is my son's parent.
I'm not.
Emma refuses to accept it
and we're seeing the cost.
[Freddie] Hey, Matt.
Hey, I thought we'd start today
looking at the thermal pumps.
[Freddie] Excellent.
Hey, does it ever bum you out
that we're basically brainstorming
the hundreds of ways
a water system could break down
and your wife could die of thirst?
'Cause that would bum me out.
[phone chimes]
-Would you mind getting us more coffee?
-Yeah, totally.
Or I could just go away for a while.
-You want privacy, right?
-Thanks.
-[Matt sighs]
-[door closes]
[Misha's voice] Dear Matt,
last night
I might have been overoptimistic.
Emma starts to worry me too.
Sorry.
-You got a second?
-[man] Mmm.
Matt!
Hey. Finally taking me up on my offer?
-What?
-For you and me to have a session.
Uh No, I [chuckles]
We need to talk about Emma.
I know Ram's technically
doing the psych evals,
but you and Emma still check in
once a week over email, right?
Any check-ins I have with Emma
are confidential.
I just wanna know
if you've checked in with her recently.
I'm sorry. I can't even tell you that.
Okay. What about this conversation here?
Is this confidential too?
-Well, that depends.
-On what?
Are we having a session?
Fine. Sure.
-So this is off the record?
-It is.
I've been in direct communication
with Misha
in an effort
to keep the water system online.
Recently he expressed his concern to me
about Emma's well-being.
I wanna know if you share that concern.
How's Alexis?
What?
How's she doing these days?
I'm talking about Emma.
So am I.
The three-quarter mark
is the hardest part of the journey.
-I'm aware of that.
-Yeah, exactly.
You and I are aware of that.
We have no idea how it feels.
Emma's 20 million miles
from the people she loves.
[scoffs] I mean,
I can talk about isolation,
but that requires
a different word altogether.
She needs to know
that her family is taken care of.
I got it covered, Doc.
-Do you?
-Excuse me?
After an injury, it is hard enough
to take care of yourself.
-Maybe for you.
-Believe me, I know.
And apparently, you're also doing
the job of 30 engineers.
What's your point?
This might be a particularly
difficult time for you to ask for help.
All right. This session's over.
-Door's always open, Matt.
-Uh-huh.
-[Putney] Don't take the stairs.
-Yeah!
[motorcycle engines revving]
You're not riding today?
No. My dad's definitely onto me, so
You want me to not?
We could do something else.
No, I really like it here.
[phone chimes]
[Emma's voice]
Thank you for being so open with me.
I'm glad that Isaac makes you feel
alive.
But boys this age,
they're distractions.
[Emma's voice]
You have to keep your gaze ahead,
in the direction you're going.
It's all about where you're headed.
You have to be careful.
That's all I'm saying.
Because there are things
ahead of you in life
that will mean so much more than flying,
so much more than Isaac.
Hey. I think I will.
What what's going on?
Nothing.
I'll just have a better alibi ready
next time.
Is everything all right?
Yeah.
I I just don't wanna be responsible
if your dad--
You're not responsible for me.
[motorcycle engine revving]
-[water running]
-[doorbell rings]
[water shuts off]
[sighs]
Hey.
Hey.
I can feel Lex slipping away.
You know, she's keeping things from me.
She's lying to me.
I thought I was gonna be able
to take on this whole role, but
clearly, I'm in way over my head.
How would you feel about talking to her?
Oh, of course.
Yeah, whatever you and Emma need.
And I'll also make it clear to Lex
that, um,
I'm not trying to replace her mom
in any way.
I'm sure Emma will be relieved to know,
when it comes to boys,
Lex isn't just stuck with me.
Okay, you gotta stop doing that.
What?
You're not in over your head.
Believe me. I married that dude.
You're not it.
-You're the opposite of it.
-[Matt laughs]
[Melissa laughs]
You know, for what it's worth
I always thought
Scott was an asshole.
[Melissa laughs]
Okay. Yeah. Thanks for the heads-up.
-[Matt laughs]
-Appreciate that.
Yeah, I'll never make that mistake again.
Are you saying
you're never gonna date again?
I mean, I haven't in 15 years.
Why start now?
Cassie has this birthmark pattern
on her back
in the exact shape of Cassiopeia.
It's five dots in a W.
And Scott has it too.
That's why we named her Cassie.
Cassiopeia.
She's his.
They're connected, and he just
So
Yeah. No, I'm not interested
in giving anyone else the opportunity
to walk out on my kid.
I get that.
But remember
a lot of better men
than Scott out there.
And you deserve that.
[Melissa] Mmm.
Cheers to that.
[motorcycle engine revving]
Lex, take it slow!
-Lex!
-[motorcycle engine revving]
[Isaac] Lex!
[tense music playing]
What the hell was she doing
on that damn bike?
I mean, all we know
is that she had an accident.
She might be fine. She's fine.
We're gonna get there, and
-Shit.
-What?
[sighs] I'm Emma's crew support.
I need to let her know what's happened.
Uh Melissa
She left explicit instructions
when it comes to Lex.
The second that something--
No, we're not gonna send her
a goddamn text message.
It's the only option we have.
No, it's not.
-[phone chimes]
-Hey, it's Matt here.
[Misha groans]
Good evening.
I'm just getting dinner.
[Misha groans]
Wouldn't like to compromise myself
even further.
[tablet chimes]
Oh my God.
What is it?
-Emma's daughter's had an accident.
-[Kwesi] Oh no.
What kind of accident?
-[tablet chimes]
-Hey, it's Matt here.
I'm on my way to the hospital.
Lex has been in a motorbike accident.
I I don't have any information yet,
but Emma will wanna know.
I think it's important
that she should hear it from you.
She trusts you, and I do too.
I'll be in touch as soon as I have
more information. Thanks.
-Matt.
-[tablet chimes]
-You mustn't tell her.
-Lu
I'm right about this.
You just heard what he said.
She deserves to know, Lu.
[Lu] To know what?
That her daughter had an accident,
and we know nothing else?
How do you think she'll respond?
Terribly.
Exactly.
Let's wait.
Wait till we have more information.
She isn't well right now.
Matt doesn't know.
[Misha] He does.
How?
[sighs] I told him. Lu
what you say
about Emma not being a parent in space
Trust me,
it comes with a price you don't wanna pay.
-Emma deserves to know.
-To know what?
What's going on?
As your commander, I need to know anything
that may impact this mission.
[gulps]
Alexis was in a motorbike accident.
[melancholy music playing]
[Ram] Matt's on his way to the hospital.
He's gonna contact us
when he has more information.
We're here for you, Emma.
Anything you need.
I shouldn't have come.
We don't know anything right now.
I never should have come.
[Ram] I understand
how you feel, Emma, but--
I knew
I should have never come.
[sobs]
I should be home.
[music continues]
Ram.
We need to discuss
at least a temporary transfer of command.
Emma is not fit, right now, to lead us.
You're our second-in-command,
so you need to come in.
Lu is right, Ram.
I can't. Uh
I
I just need to think.
Oh, this is terrible.
I can't even imagine
what she's going through right now. I
I suppose we are none of us dandelions.
[Kwesi] What?
I think I know why our plant has survived.
[ethereal music playing]
[music continues]
Sir, I am so sorry.
-Is she okay?
-I don't know.
They won't let me back there.
I'm not family.
Ma'am, I'm so sorry. Can you please
just let me know if she's okay?
If you're still here when we come back,
if he doesn't kill you, I will.
[ethereal music playing]
[machines beeping]
-She's all right?
-[gasps] Daddy?
[doctor] She has a slight concussion,
but she'll be fine.
[approaching footsteps]
Lexi?
[sighs]
[Alexis sobs]
I'm so sorry.
[phone chimes]
[Emma sniffles]
[melancholy music playing]
[sighs]
[sighs]
I can't believe
I thought it had spontaneously adapted.
No. Don't be too hard on yourself.
I thought it was an act of God.
Never once did two of the world's
finest scientists consider
That even as Emma was exhibiting
symptoms of dehydration
That this plant is alive
because she's been watering it.
[laughs]
[Lu chuckles]
[soft melody playing]
[computer chimes]
[sighs]
[sighs]
-[computer chimes]
-Oh my God, Matt.
I am so relieved to read this.
We'll all be.
I understand Misha filled you in
on Emma's condition. Well
we've gotten to the bottom of it.
She was using her water rations
to feed one of Kwesi's plants.
[chuckles]
Please don't worry about her.
She'll be better soon.
Ram.
-[computer chimes]
-Send.
She's okay. [sobs]
[Ram] I heard.
[Emma crying]
I'm gonna have to administer a saline drip
because you are severely dehydrated.
[Emma] No.
I don't wanna waste
what little saline we have.
Lu and Kwesi have discovered
you've been using your water rations
on a plant.
Your behavior's erratic.
You're short-tempered, distracted,
and your breathing
Look, Emma, I need you back.
Not crying and upset all the time.
[sobbing]
You have a problem with my crying?
My daughter is alive,
my crew is on its last legs,
and every decision I make,
I pray I haven't killed us.
The least destructive thing I can do
is cry.
Without tears?
You're not making any tears, Emma.
I'm sorry I missed it
the first time around.
I'm gonna administer the saline now.
[Emma sniffles]
Here.
Take this and keep yourself warm.
[Ram sighs]
It was the smallest amount.
Well, a ration of a ration
is still enough to cause a problem.
[Emma sniffles]
[Emma] I just felt so out of control
when I couldn't fix the water system.
And one of our main mission objectives
is to prove that life can grow on Mars.
I couldn't let us fail.
That plant is our future.
But it's also our past.
It's Earth,
and you couldn't let it go
or accept the fact that
for the next three years of this mission,
Matt is there for Alexis,
and you can't be.
Right.
I used to be like you.
When I was Lex's age.
[Emma] Single-focused.
No one could get too close
'cause if they did
It might hold you back, right?
I don't have it.
[sobs]
I don't have what it takes to do this.
To leave them.
I wanna go back. [sobs]
[Ram sighs]
All right. I'm gonna attach the bag.
Just try not to move around too much.
Matt said we should play you some Debussy.
[Ram] Helps you relax.
You've been writing to Matt.
Well
not really. It's Misha mainly.
I think they're becoming pen pals.
[Debussy's "Rêverie" playing]
[Emma] Mmm.
Is it okay?
What made you choose this one?
I liked the name.
"Rêverie."
[chuckles]
This piece
always makes me think of
someplace I've never been.
[music continues]
[sighs]
[exhales]
Thank you.
[Emma crying]
Okay, listen. You
You try and sleep.
[music continues]
["On Brûllera" by Pomme playing]
[Emma's voice] Dearest Lex,
I'm reading the letters
I've sent you recently
with incredible shame and regret.
"It's no excuse, but I was ill.
I'm better now,
and I hope you can forgive me.
[Matt and Emma] Flight, possibility"
[Emma's voice] hope.
These are things
I never want you to live without.
"What I wanted to say,
but I did so very badly,
is that there was a time
when I thought flying was everything."
[Emma's voice]
When I thought Mars was everything.
When I had no idea
how much more there was.
How much more there could be.
[man 1] Green!
You're on the T-38.
[music continues]
[man 2] Confirming, you are not pregnant
or experiencing nausea, dizziness,
or any other condition that would put you
at high risk in the case of an ejection.
[man 2] Lieutenant Commander Green,
can you confirm?
["On Brûlera" continues playing]
-[sighs]
-I don't wanna talk about it.
I'm just sitting here.
I wanna have the baby.
Who knows?
Maybe having a kid
will make you an even better astronaut.
No, it won't.
Okay.
Well, I can't say I'm entirely sorry.
[laughs] You're a real shithead,
you know that?
Yeah.
I know.
[kiss]
[music continues]
[soft piano music playing]