The Real Housewives of Salt Lake City (2020) s01e07 Episode Script

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[housewife] Previously on
The Real Housewives of Salt Lake City
-It's gonna be one of our best events.
-Everything you guys do is magic.
During Sundance, I do not answer my phone
unless it's work-related.
Like, the kids can fend for themselves.
[line rings]
-Oh, she declined it!
-That's mean.
-Are you dating?
-Not really, no.
You can at least get laid.
-[bell dings]
-Yeah, for sure.
But I'll tell you, like, girls
love men with big equipment.
Dropping me off in sober living.
I know that this is
the right thing for you.
It's the thing that's gonna get
my dad back.
The whole football season,
I hold it together.
To be a supportive wife,
you have to understand,
I don't see Sharrieff.
-Do you feel lonely?
-100% I feel lonely.
When ski season's over,
you gonna come live with me
-in Canton, Ohio?
-We're not living in Ohio.
Corporate headquarters is in Canton, Ohio.
Okay, well,
my corporate headquarters is here.
It's a big moment for Brooks.
Brooks really does wish
that Seth were here.
This is a very big deal for Brooks.
It's his first fashion show,
both as a designer and as a model.
It's very disheartening
that Dad isn't coming.
[dramatic music]
In this town, I'm Queen Bee and MVP.
When you take cheap shots,
always expect a hangover.
This rose isn't scared
to handle a little prick.
Jealousy is a disease
to which I say, "Get well soon."
I love God,
but I will read you like a scripture.
Just like my pioneer ancestors,
I'm trying to blaze a new trail.
[energetic music]
[indistinct conversations]
A little bit tighter because you got your
-[woman] What jewelry?
-Maybe the rose gold to start with.
Like this, do you think?
-Yeah, okay, would you mind
-Yeah.
-I just need something else.
-Okay.
Today's fashion show is a perfect example
of why I cannot pick up
and just pick up and move to Ohio.
A huge part of Sundance is networking.
You have all these people
coming in from out of town.
Let's do a bunch of bangles.
I need to be here to build my brand,
and I really don't wanna live in Ohio.
Nothing against Ohio.
I just don't wanna live there.
-That looks good. Perfect.
-Thank you.
-Good morning!
-Hi!
-How are you?
-Good. How are you?
Oh, thank you.
So you guys are gonna sit here. Okay.
[Justin] You look fabulous. As always.
Hi, Mama! I got the fan
in case any of us get hot in here.
-[laughs]
-It's already getting hot in here.
I'm so excited that they've
finally brought fashion to Utah.
It feels good to put on something fierce,
just like you don't need validation.
You know it's fierce.
[producer] So how would you compare
shopping in Salt Lake City
to other places you've been?
The pits. [gasps]
Am I supposed to say that?
I feel like Meredith Marks.
[upbeat music continues]
[music stops]
Oh, God. The last time I talked to Jen,
she just bluntly lied to me.
You started screaming,
"Mary, your grandfather"
-But like
-What are you talking about?
I don't know where you heard that from.
That was not from me.
[light music]
Where's my seat?
Oh my gosh.
-What's up, gorgeous?
-Hi. How are you?
-How are you doing?
-Good. Wanna go here?
I just wanna enjoy the fashion.
I don't care where she sits.
She can sit in my lap.
Oh, you look pretty.
[cheers and applause]
[woman on mic] Hello, everyone.
This is our inaugural event at Sundance.
We've never done this before.
So give yourselves
a big round of applause, so
-[cheers and applause]
-Here we go.
Whoo!
[Meredith] Okay, you look great.
[cheering]
Help me.
[energetic music]
[cheers and applause]
There's some Shah pieces.
Amazing.
Whoo!
These are the hardest shoes.
Do you think if I put something
right here
-Hair spray.
-I'm freaking out.
I've never walked a runway.
I've never walked,
and I chose the hardest shoes.
[assistant] But they're really cute,
so I understand.
I am not a model by a long stretch.
[Heather] Oh, Whitney!
Yeah, Whitney! Whoo! Whoo!
[Heather] Oh, gosh. Use your core.
You got it, girl.
Whitney! Ah!
-[laughter]
-Love it.
She looked good!
Nailed it, I told you!
That was so much fun!
-I owned it.
-Wow, you did it!
If I could only give up cheeseburgers
and add six inches to my legs,
I think I could have a career in this.
[cheers and applause]
[Heather] That's our girl.
[cheers and applause]
Whoo!
All right, Meredith! Whoo!
Bella!
Whoo!
-Hello.
-Oh, hi.
Hi, sweetie. Oh, you wanna hold my hand?
Yes.
My fashion line is called Brooks Marks.
It's self-titled.
Honestly, off the top of my head,
I can't think of a better name
for a fashion label than Brooks Marks.
Brooks Marks.
The double K-S, it's just killer.
Hi. I'm Brooks Marks,
and today you guys are going to be seeing
some of my latest designs
for my leisure collection.
Whoo!
Oh, my gosh.
The track suits look like him.
-They're all the same?
-Ha ha.
Oh, yeah, I've been rocking
that track suit, like, for months.
I mean, does one track suit
make a collection?
I don't know.
But you know what,
I'm gonna still rock it.
-All right, Brooks!
-Looking good! Whoo!
Hopefully he makes a second one soon,
and then I can wear that one.
Whoo!
Aw, Brooks. Ah.
Oh, they're jogging,
and he's walking like a commandant.
Seeing Brooks on the runway
makes me unbelievably proud.
It's really great exposure for him,
and it's amazing to see
his creations out there,
and watching him walk,
he just he nailed it.
-[Brooks murmurs]
-Yay!
I can't wait to see the video.
Whoo!
-Hi!
-Hi!
Did you hear me cheering?
-I fanned you because you're so hot.
-I loved it.
-You guys were so good.
-Thank you.
What an inspiration.
Thanks for supporting us.
Should I try to FaceTime him?
Dad? You can.
[line rings]
[Seth] Hello?
-[Meredith, singsong] Hi!
-What's up?
You guys look interesting.
Interesting? That's, like, offensive.
[laughing] I'm just saying you guys look
Can I get a look at you guys again?
You guys abducted?
Oh, my gosh. "How did your show go?"
You didn't ask me anything.
I asked how it went.
"I wish I could have been there.
I'm so proud of you. Wow."
I don't care what he has to do.
I wish that he was there.
He really should have been there.
Like, at the end of the day, if my kid
was going to have a fashion show,
like, I would drop
all my business meetings
and be like, "Sorry, gotta go.
Like, wanna support my kid."
How did it go is what I'm asking.
It went really well.
Good.
I wish you could have came for the show.
So do I.
I am your child asking you to come be
a father in my life, and you won't.
I feel a little bit hurt.
Can you hear me?
-Yes.
-I was gonna say
Can we all just breathe? And, like.
I'm getting anxiety
from this conversation.
Okay, sorry that I called you.
[Meredith] I really feel bad
that Seth wasn't here for Brooks.
I still feel partly responsible.
I asked for space,
and he's giving it to me.
I feel like no matter how hard
I try to protect my kids,
it still has an impact
and it does affect them
and they do want their parents there.
That to me is a failure.
I never should have put them
in that place, ever.
[somber music]
I cannot hear you, so if you wanna
send me a handwritten note
or a text or something
or get to a better place
Okay, love you, bye.
[Meredith] All right, let's go.
-It's time.
-[Brooks] It's a wrap.
[stirring music]
Now, look how gorgeous this is.
-That's beautiful.
-Yeah, don't put that on your desk.
That one client of yours
will come and drink it all.
They'll drink all of it.
-Every bottle has the "kosher" logo on it.
-I did notice that.
It's in the kosher section
of the liquor store.
Yeah. It's a liquor library.
It's so exciting post fashion show,
and you're almost sold out
on your track suits.
What are you thinking?
Where are you gonna go from here?
I don't know. Do I go back to school?
You need to go back to school
at some point in time.
[slurps]
What are you doing?
-I'm drinking.
-Okay, that's unusual.
Grapefruit's a fat burner.
So I'm burning fat.
[slurping]
Yuck.
[faucet running]
Robert, walk in.
What time did you leave yesterday?
6:00 p.m.?
And you're just now getting home.
Why are you disrespecting me like that?
Tell me why.
Yesterday it was 'cause of the roads.
You can't text me 'cause of the roads.
Don't do that. Have respect. Come on.
We're closer than that.
I'm happy to see you, though!
You came home!
Okay, bye.
[energetic music]
-Got a full day today?
-Yeah.
Whitney hydrafacial with Nat
this morning.
-Oh, okay.
-Lots of lips, cheeks, tons of Botox.
-[singsong] Good morning!
-Hi!
I saw that you're in the schedule.
You look fresh. Mwah.
My skin needs a good purge.
Does it get dry in the winter?
This morning, I still had the makeup.
Did they, um, cake it on
for the fashion show?
Oh, yeah, whatever that was
made me react. I broke out.
-Really?
-Yeah.
-Hi, friend.
-Hello!
-Well, I'm ready for you.
-Okay, let's do it.
Okay, take good care of her.
I'll sneak in and say hi.
All right, sounds good.
-How you doing?
-Good.
Ready.
Oh, she's hiding. [laughs]
-Aah! [laughs]
-So funny.
But you told me to get cozy.
That's how I sleep.
That's it. You wanna be in the dark.
Look at that response on her skin.
[Whitney] Yeah.
How long did it take you?
Like, what was your process
of starting this place?
We had no set concept.
It just kind of fell together.
Like, I was doing Instagram
and marketing for trade for Botox.
I just was living off my divorce
settlement [echoing] essentially.
And my ex-husband's
always totally provided.
[echoing] I didn't ever need to work,
so anything I did on the side
was just, like, gravy.
We've never paid for marketing. We did
We built our entire business on Instagram.
-And now it's like med spa central.
-[strange laughter]
I just had this really weird moment.
Like, I was here but not here.
Like, I was out of body,
but talking to you.
-That's what self-care does.
-That is weird.
All right, honey, you're all done.
Hey, thanks, Nat.
Hey, how is your dad doing?
Um he's good.
He actually committed
to sober living on his own.
-Okay.
-At first, my dad didn't go
to sober living right away
because he felt like
he didn't need it,
but he's actually doing it this time,
and as skeptical as I am,
I'm starting to believe
that this might be the change.
If you're an addict,
and you're religious here,
like, it's not that you have a disease.
You're a sinner. You're using drugs.
-It's choice, yeah.
-Yeah, it's choice.
We look at it as an absolute choice,
-and you made bad choices
-Uh-huh.
And this is the consequence
of your bad choices.
And that's how my family felt
after my divorce.
For me to not have a spouse,
I think it's not comfortable for them.
It's so hard to go against the grain here.
Like, I don't feel like there's a lot
of other faiths that just stamp you,
and then everything is either
you're in it or you're out of it.
In my experience,
if you get divorced in the Mormon Church,
and you're a man, it's much easier.
My ex-husband can go and marry
as many women as he wants
in the Temple
and still have full Church status.
But for me, there's a shadow on me.
I couldn't keep my man.
I couldn't keep my family,
and I'm just out here waiting
for someone to accept me
so that I can get back into Heaven.
I would never wanna remarry
and blend a family
and then take my kids through that,
and then what if it doesn't work?
I just wanna put my head down
and not screw their lives up
any more than we already have,
and then I'll just, like, implode.
That's my plan.
That's what I'm working toward.
I'm hearing you say, like,
you would want more,
but you don't wanna mess it up.
I don't think I'm worth
the pain that, like,
it would cause my kids.
That's, like, one of the things
that I hate so badly
about this environment we live in,
because still, there's a thumb over you
that you're not good enough,
you will never be good enough
because of what you are born into
and the fact that you're a woman.
I'm absolutely under
the Mormon culture thumb, 100%.
I feel like there's only two options,
like deny it and be anti, or be all in it,
and I'm trying to just, like,
straddle the fence.
But Mormonism is defined by what you do.
Do you drink? You're not Mormon.
Do you have sex? You're not Mormon.
Do you not go to church every Sunday?
You're not Mormon.
But guess what? I'm still Mormon.
I can't escape it.
You are worthy,
and you're a badass, great mother.
I just wonder with
your children, like, have you
have you talked to them
about not wanting to be Mormon
and wanting to date?
I just don't wanna do anything.
I really don't. [laughs]
What if them seeing you not
do anything and
-Is damaging them more.
-Well, yeah.
Yeah. No, I think about it all the time.
[quiet music]
[light electronic music]
-Good morning.
-Oh, good morning.
Oh, thank you.
-Oh, is that my medication?
-Yes.
-Thank you, 'cause I'll forget.
-I know.
Thank you.
After my dad passed a year ago,
and with Sharrieff being gone
all the time,
I became very depressed.
I had to go on medicine
for anxiety and depression,
but I was scared, though,
to get on medication and
like it was a sign of weakness.
Um
-Can you get my dry cleaning?
-Yes.
But you need to sit and eat.
-I know. I'll eat something.
-Get some food in your body, okay?
-Thank you.
-You're welcome.
Sharrieff was like,
"No, you don't need medication.
You pray and you just get
your mind right."
And I was like, "Oh, okay."
So that's what we do
in the Shah household.
Well, guess what?
That didn't really work for me.
I kept praying
and trying to get my mind right,
but [bleep] wasn't working.
-[line rings]
-Hello?
-Hi, baby.
-Hi, sweetie.
-Are you in a meeting?
-Uh, you're okay.
I just walked out. Go ahead, baby.
Okay, I was just calling you
'cause I'm getting really grumpy.
Okay, did you take your medicine, baby?
Yes.
After my dad passed away,
I was lashing out at everybody around me.
I mean, it almost cost me my marriage.
But go ahead. What's going on, baby?
Nothing. I think I'm just hungry.
So I called you before I, like,
freak out on people.
Be patient with people
because you're tired,
and you're more grumpy.
- Okay.
-Okay.
He was done with me acting out,
and it wasn't until,
you know, Sharrieff was like,
"I'm leaving," that I was like, wait.
Hold
That was, like, my rock bottom.
Okay, okay, I need you to eat.
I'm happy you took your medicine.
And in a minute, we're gonna get
some sleep, baby, 'cause you're tired.
My family, they basically had, like,
an intervention with me,
and my son Sharrieff Jr. told me, like,
"It's okay. Like, you need
to take the medication"
[voice breaking]
"And I don't think any less of you.
And I love you,"
and hearing that from him, like,
helped me understand, like,
okay, it's okay, 'cause I was ashamed.
I didn't want my kids to know about that.
I didn't want I mean,
I wanna be their, like,
I wanna be, you know,
Wonder Woman and Supermom to them.
I don't want them to think that
they have to take care of me, you know?
I just I just wanna take care of them.
Well, I love you.
- Okay, I love you more.
-Okay.
In the name of Allah.
With my grace.
[mellow music]
[Lisa] Henry, come over to the table.
I got all of them right.
-All of them?
-Yeah. Dad.
-Another hundy?
-Yeah, another hundy.
Jack, will you grab my Coke
out of the fridge?
Henry, you're showing us
all of your homework with hundreds,
and do you know what Jack and I
were just talking about?
-What?
-Every year it's good to set goals
for school, for life,
for us for work, as a family.
And so I was thinking
we should do that tonight.
Jack is gonna try to get
on student government.
[Lisa] Henry, do you wanna set some goals?
For me, planning a fun family night
is like talking about our family goals.
That's important to me.
"Lady" what?
Oh. [laughs]
Don't get marker on anything.
I'm just not a board game mom.
Like, the thought of sitting down
and playing Monopoly is, like, cringy.
Let's talk about real money,
not talk about fake money.
Why is it important that
we make goals for ourselves?
So you can push yourself
and you have something
to, like, look forward to accomplishing.
All right, let's hear yours.
I'm gonna pass my driver's test
when I turn 16.
-Okay.
-Get shredded.
-Why do you wanna get shredded?
-To get chicks?
-What other reason is there?
-[laughs]
-Can I go now?
-Yeah, come over here in front.
-I'm gonna hold it.
-'Kay.
Get straight "A"-pluses.
First solo win on Fortnite.
Meet Post Malone.
Get good at drawing.
-Get my first kiss at 15.
-Whoa.
That's called a long-term goal.
-Yeah.
-[laughs]
-Have triplets.
-Wait, what?
-That's a long, long-term goal.
-Wait. What does that mean?
-Kids?
-Yeah.
-Or girlfriends?
-You want your own kids?
-I took it as kids.
-I love that.
-Okay, let's see John's goals.
-Okay.
I wanna coach Henry's team again.
Basketball.
Take the boys on two camping trips.
-Yay.
-'Cause I will never go.
And then be patient when Lisa is teaching.
-I think
-I'm teaching what? Everything?
Yeah. I think Jack, Henry, and I
all need to be more patient.
-No, thanks.
-[laughs]
Okay, so something
that I'm really excited about is
expanding all of our businesses.
My goal is always to be pushing
the bar higher.
One thing I really wanna work on
for our family
is being a better listener
because I think with how much I work,
sometimes you guys are
talking to me and I'm working.
[producer] What percent would you say
your time together is work-related?
Um you know, I think
I'm trying to think the best way
to answer that.
Mommy does a lot of work on her phone.
It's probably 90%. [laughs]
I'd love for her to slow down.
I think it will happen.
It just might be 40 years from now.
I wanna say no to things
that aren't aligned with the big picture.
So just say no to things.
-What's with the yawning?
-I'm tired.
Time for bed. Get your boards.
Let's go get you guys ready for bed.
Henry, I'm gonna put
your pajamas on your bed.
-[John] That was kinda cool.
-Yeah.
I think there's other areas
that we need to focus on also.
Not to make business
not the biggest priority,
'cause I think it is,
but I think we need to figure out
a way for us to, like
spend time and just being together.
And not on our phones.
-Yeah, but hold on one second.
-And yeah.
No joke. I gotta send this out.
This is a big deal.
You know, there is a difference between
listening, not just hearing.
-Uh, hold on.
-I'm holding.
I would love to know
that she's listening to me
and not reading a text and multitasking.
I just gotta make sure I'm on it. Um
I think, if you're not gonna
answer any more texts
for the next few minutes
Is that a real goal to say no?
I think I've gotta learn
to say no to the things
that I feel guilted into, um,
but I'm not gonna say no
to things that I think are
aligned with what we're doing.
You know, I enjoy working,
and right now, like,
my five-year goal is to have
a billion-dollar brand.
And I don't see why that's not attainable.
I mean, there's only so much
of you to go around.
You know, I've worked
really hard my whole life.
-We both have.
-Warren Buffett didn't stop
buying and building companies.
Why should I?
I don't think it's a problem. Do you?
-Uh, kind of.
-That irritates me so much.
You know what? I don't want
someone telling me I need to say no.
I know when I need to say no.
What are you gonna say no to?
Nothing. Nothing, and I don't need to.
I'll know when I need to.
I'm good right now.
[lightly edgy music]
[bouncy music]
-Hi!
-[singsong] Hello!
-Look at you. Gorgeous.
-You look gorgeous.
What's going on?
-Hi.
-How are you?
-Good to see you.
-What's going on?
How's your life changed
now that you're a fashion icon?
-Oh, my God.
-I wasn't breathing.
Were you even breathing?
I was just like,
I am watching and learning.
What a crazy week.
Have you been booked for, like,
Fashion Week New York?
Yeah, did you book Milan already?
-[laughter]
-Doing it gracefully.
Girl, your game face was like
First thing that goes in your mind is
-Hi. How are you tonight?
-"Oh, no."
-This is Ricardo.
-Hi.
-How are you? Welcome to Toscano.
-I'm good, thank you. How are you?
Good. Thanks for asking.
Would you like something to drink?
I'll have a Belvedere, up, with a twist
-and a glass of ice on the side.
-I think we're gonna order some food.
-Okay, sure, perfect.
-Another round of drinks.
-Okay, got it.
-And then Mediterranean dip.
The Med dip. Perfect.
I would love some meatballs.
Can we throw some meatballs on there?
-They are really good. Yeah.
-Sounds great. That's probably plenty.
-Perfect.
-Thank you.
Thank you.
So what's going on with Curtis?
Just grab my hand. Like, what's happening?
[light music]
[Heather] You're so smooth. I love it.
It was a very short-lived love affair.
-Oh, it's over already?
-Well, he doesn't live here.
-He lives in Atlanta and L.A.
-Oh. That does make it hard.
-But I mean, I'm holding
-It's not over.
-I'm still burning a flame.
-We got the meatballs.
-Ooh, that looks wonderful.
-It is really good.
We love the meatballs.
Speaking of dating, Meredith come on.
Everybody has a whore phase
as soon as they, like, separate
from their spouse.
That's the truth.
I mean, you're in that zone.
What are you gonna do about it?
Nothing.
[laughter]
Nothing.
So why rock the boat?
Why not just stay with him
and, like, not even make
a division at all?
-Yeah.
-Because we have
we have to resolve issues
both within our own selves and together.
If Seth was with someone else,
would you be pissed?
'Cause I'd be pissed.
Well, I think I would, like,
just disconnect.
Everybody asks like,
"Whose fault is the breakup?
-Who's driving the separation?"
-There's no
I know that's a horrible question, but
Yeah, 'cause we're together
for 20-plus years.
-Yeah.
-I mean, you all know
anyone who looks at you and says,
"It's a walk in the park.
My marriage is perfect,"
you know they're a liar.
[producer] You've been very private
about the details of your separation
with the other ladies.
Is that fair to say?
Yeah, I think it's fair that if,
you know, if I
if I don't get into a lot of detail,
there's not a lot to talk about.
Meredith is a politician right now.
You're sitting here with not
your constituents
with with Heather and I.
So, like, tell us what's going on.
Well, what are the issues?
Like, what Like, for me, I'm lonely.
And it really hit me
when my dad passed away.
Like, holy [bleep], I had my dad
and my family, right,
-to kind of
-Kind of buffering
-That's who I was with.
-Sharrieff's absence.
Because he isn't here, but I'm like,
what the [bleep] am I gonna do now?
For us, it's like, biggest issue
is learning how
we communicate with each other.
Are you afraid that after you
figure out who yourself is,
that it's not with Seth?
[sighs]
When the [bleep] hits the fan
between Seth and I,
and I start to think about us
not being together,
that's when you start to realize
-how fortunate you are to be together.
-Right.
Seth not being here for the fashion show
and seeing Brooks saddened
by not having Seth there at the show,
and quite frankly, me feeling
the void of him not being there, too,
it was like a pivotal point for me.
I do know we genuinely do love each other.
And I think that counts for a lot.
Absolutely.
It's just a matter of if we can
figure out a way that we can move forward
in a very positive direction together.
I don't know if I believe
what Meredith is saying right now.
I've personally heard more,
and I know Meredith
isn't telling me everything.
We're just trying to, like,
re-find each other,
is really where it is at.
[lightly edgy music]
[upbeat music]
-Do you wanna hold my hand, Dad?
-Yeah. Why not?
-Hello!
-Hi.
Good to see you guys again.
You guys ready to go jump
and have some fun?
-Yep.
-Yeah?
It's been a couple week
since my dad's been in sober living.
-I'm glad you're back.
-No, I needed to. Hey.
-Isn't this amazing?
-I knew you'd come back.
I'm ready to come back here, yeah.
Whitney knew it all along.
This is the first time
since I can remember
I can see him being more
connected to me and the kids.
Hope I don't have a hole in my sock.
My kids haven't known Grandpa.
I mean, as he struggled with addiction,
they missed out on so much
of the great things
that my dad provided me when I was a kid
the fun, the sports,
the playing, the teaching.
-Are you ready?
-Yes. Hey.
-Yes.
-Whoo-hoo-hoo. Whoo!
[upbeat music]
-Oh, [bleep].
-[laughs]
It means a lot to me
that my kids are seeing their grandpa
in a different light.
They're seeing him in
a more positive, fun, playful,
healthy and happy way.
I was scared for a while
that my kids would never know
the father that I grew up with.
[laughs] Grandpa, whee!
Good job, buddy. Way to nail it.
-See what you got.
-Whoa! Oh, my gosh.
[laughter]
I'm gonna pass on this.
'Cause my hip I don't wanna bounce
on a trampoline. Is that cool?
Do you guys wanna keep bouncing
for a minute?
-[laughs]
-I'm just tired.
I wanna take a break, 'kay?
You guys keep going.
Have fun. I gotta work on my cardio.
Thanks for inviting me here today.
Yeah, I'm glad you could come.
I can see that you're doing so well,
and I'm so proud of all
the progress you've made.
And it's been nice for me
to have you in my life
as my dad and Grandpa,
not as me helping you
-figure out your life, you know?
-No, I hear you.
That's my number one thing I've learned,
is how I process with you
and also how you process with me.
-Yeah.
-And
Yeah, it's it's all timing.
There comes a point where you can
only progress so far where I'm at.
-Yeah.
-Had a talk with my therapist, Elsie.
-Uh-huh.
-She feels like I'm ready
to move on to my next step.
[lightly edgy music]
I'm just at that point.
What is the next step?
Get an apartment. Get my job.
Start my career back
and start just living my life again.
My dad has only been
in sober living for 21 days,
and the program is designed to be 90 days.
Telling me that he feels
like he's ready to leave the program early
is a huge red flag for me,
because this is a vicious cycle
that hasn't yet been broken.
I just wanna make sure we, you know,
-do what's best for you because
-Yeah.
My fear is that I just don't
want any of that progress
-to be lost because you're not ready.
-Well, like I said
I'm a lot stronger. I'm a lot clearer.
I've done the work,
and for me to progress,
might be time to make that next step.
Do you remember
after your 30 days of rehab
-Yeah, yeah, I don't want
-You felt so good?
-Yeah.
-And you don't remember
-how hard it is on the other side?
-Yeah.
And I would just hate for you to stop
-if you need to keep going.
-Right.
-You're killing the program right now.
-Yeah, exactly.
That's why I'm a little concerned,
-is that you wanna leave.
-Let's get this badass out there
and make some money and do what I do.
I'm really worried that if
my dad leaves the program now
he's not gonna recover.
Our family we're starting
to do things together.
I just don't want us
to cut our work short.
We can only do what we can do.
[upbeat music]
-Hey, Mom.
-How was school?
-It was all right.
-I have a little snack.
-I got you guys some treats. I also got
-The strawbs?
-Yep, I got the strawbs.
-Yay.
So it's not "Go-deeva."
Do you remember how to say it?
-"Go-dye-va"?
-Godiva.
"Go-dye-va."
So, like, tell me
what the poster's gonna say.
"I'd be 'berry' happy
if you'd go with me,"
or something like that.
Present them.
Like, hide them in your coat.
[laughs]
I look at Ashley, and I'm so happy for her
that she's in a functioning,
balanced relationship
with a guy she considers her best friend,
that she talks to and he listens to her.
And I wouldn't love it for me,
but I wonder what it would have been like.
I just love your handwriting.
It's so unique.
-Hi!
-Hey.
-How are you?
-Hi!
-How was schoolio?
-Good.
-My little lovies, look what we're doing.
-You guys think it's cute?
Aren't the berries so cute?
-Yes.
-It looks good, Ash.
So I've been wanting to talk
to you guys about something.
For me as your mom, like, I can tell you,
like, in the last few years,
like, I've had, like,
a lot of realizations
that I probably haven't articulated.
I probably haven't said it out loud,
but, like, you've felt it.
As a mom, for so long,
especially when your dad and I divorced,
I felt like in order to be a good mom,
I had to just, like, toe the line,
like, show no deviation,
like, put my head down,
be the best single Mormon mom I could be,
which really didn't work.
Is that just because we're Mormon,
or is that just because
I think divorce
I think for anyone that gets divorced,
it's like you are labeled
as failing at something.
I'm worried that my moral failings
will cause their lives
to just absolutely crumble.
When I got divorced, it took,
like, really strong families
to, like, let their kids still play
and hang out with my kids, you know?
That was like, we're not
you know, we're not an ideal friend now
because they have a single mom.
Of course I didn't just feel
like I failed in society.
I felt like I had failed you guys.
[voice breaking]
Like, I didn't get married
and have you guys
to get divorced, you know?
And to make you have to deal with that.
I'm trying to be honest with them
for probably the first time.
I've never really said to them, "Listen,
"I've living a double life,
and I was doing it for you.
"And now I'm realizing that
I was leading you down a path
that I didn't even wanna live."
It's come down to it where I'm just like,
I owe it to these girls to, like,
be so honest about where I'm at.
And I don't honestly, girls,
I don't know where I'm at.
I don't wanna ever take away
from you, like, our faith
and our Mormonism.
I want to date and I wanna go out,
and I wanna drink,
and I wanna do all these things.
This is like me coming out, saying,
"I want to leave the Church."
And there's so much shame
and there's so much fear.
There shouldn't be, though,
because we, like, support you.
Like, it hurts me to, like, see
what you've had to go through.
-You know what I mean?
-Yeah.
For sure, and that's why
I feel like you can be
so, like, open with us
and, like, letting us choose,
like, our own paths 'cause
you've, like, taught us
so well already, and, like,
we have that strong foundation, you know?
Love you, G.
-Love you.
-[whispers] I love you.
I'm just, like, so glad
that we have you because, like,
I just can't imagine not having you
and not being able to have
discussions like these.
I see how detrimental it is
to conform to these rules,
and obviously, we can't go off the rails,
but, like [laughter]
To a point where we can be who we wanna be
and you'll be supportive,
it's a really good feeling.
It makes me wanna weep, you know?
It just makes me feel like
I don't deserve these kids.
And I have been wrestling
with this for so long,
and I should have just come out
to them in the beginning.
I'm grateful to you guys
for being the people you are
because you support and love me,
and it's given me an opportunity
to really look at myself
a little closer and decide
what I want for me.
We support you, 100%.
-Little hug.
-Come sit on my lap.
It feels like a huge weight
is off my chest.
It feels like I can now have
an honest relationship with them.
Like, I can now be the mom
that I really wanna be
and not the mom that the Church
wants me to be.
We're a good crew. We're a lucky crew.
We got a good thing going,
and I feel grateful every day.
[upbeat music]
[whirring]
[engine revs]
[whirring continues]
[knocks]
-Hello!
-Hi!
Have you been waiting here long?
-No.
-I was juicing.
-Oh, you were?
-Yeah.
Are we working out for real?
You tell me.
You wanted to play on the pole
-a little bit, right?
-Yeah.
I've had a stripper pole
in every house that I've owned.
I'm wearing Latex.
They help you stick to the pole.
I didn't know the secrets.
The stripper pole goes where I go,
but I've never been a stripper.
So walk up to the pole.
Grab the pole with one hand.
As high as you can, 'kay?
So I want you just to get
used to grabbing high
'cause it feels weird.
You're using your momentum
of this leg to spin you around.
The more dramatic of a head whip,
the sexier it is, right?
'Kay, I don't I don't know
what what just happened.
So just come try it. Just play.
Yep.
Wait, I'm going down for the fire.
-[laughter]
-She's coming!
Whip your head around as you're spinning.
Okay, but I don't want
my extensions to fall out.
[energetic music]
All right, just do a normal, like,
-level one fireman pole.
-Okay, level one fireman.
-Okay. I'm taking my shoes off.
-Yeah.
This leg stays out as this leg comes on.
Okay. This is a lot on the first lesson.
Whip your hair.
[laughs]
Can I get some Dramamine, please?
'Cause I'm dizzy.
-Yeah, so
-[laughs]
How are you holding up?
Like, with Sharrieff gone?
What do you mean?
How often do I get the dick?
Yeah. Like, how are you coping with that?
For Oh, no, I'm fine. I mean
I have the Hitachi Magic Wand.
Do you have that?
No. I'd be going crazy.
Do you guys have sex a lot?
Comparing to friends, I think we do a lot.
-How many times a week?
-Like, four to five.
That's normal.
I had to bring my little Mormon boy
-out of his shell.
-Now it's good?
Yeah. And we've been through some stuff.
-We have, too.
-Well, everyone has.
If people aren't talking about it,
it doesn't mean nothing
happened, you know? It just
What do you think about Meredith and Seth?
I don't know. I think it's either
they don't wanna be together.
It might be one or the other pushing it.
-Okay.
-But they're just trying
to, like, save face for the kids.
But here's the thing.
We all have certain needs.
-Yeah.
-Like, my number one thing
with Sharrieff was, like,
"I'm lonely. You're not here."
-Any female wants that, right?
-Right.
Somebody says, "Oh, you look pretty."
You're like, "Oh, my gosh.
You're giving me attention."
You know? And so if you're not
getting it from home,
you're going to go somewhere else.
What is Jen saying to me right now?
Is she alluding to the fact that Meredith
has a man on the side?
That's a loaded statement to make.
She better be able to back that up.
Because you don't just go around
saying that.
If they really are dating other people,
I'm confused why we don't know.
Like, how do you hide that?
So if Meredith really is, just, like
Maybe you don't know,
but some people might know.
What is going on, Jen?
I don't know.
You have to ask Meredith.
There's something going on.
That's a reason why
people get separated, obviously.
But it's not my place
to say anything to Whitney.
People know, and Meredith knows,
and I think Seth knows.
But what do they want
to portray or tell everybody?
[producer]
You're alluding to knowing more,
and it feels like you know more.
What are you not telling Whitney?
[Jen] A few months ago, I'm in New York
for Meredith's trunk show,
and there's a guy talking to Meredith,
and he's like, "She's the love of my life.
I'm gonna marry her."
And I was like,
"I'm pretty sure she's married."
Like, I was so confused.
The guy says, "I'll make sure
Meredith gets upstairs."
And I'm like, okay.
Clearly there was something going on.
It's crazy.
There's a reason why you're separated.
[edgy music]
[housewife] Next time on
The Real Housewives of Salt Lake City
You and I are both guilty
of work's first, kids are next.
I don't wanna give up anything. Do you?
-Um
-No.
[motor revving]
[laughs]
Permission for a fly by!
[laughs]
Oh, [bleep].
-Jen said she's heard some things.
-Like Seth and Meredith?
Yeah. She was just like,
"You'll have to ask Meredith."
I'm not asking Meredith.
If you want to put the work in,
then I'll put in ten times more,
'cause I cannot stand being without you.