I Am Cait (2015) s01e08 Episode Script

1 RONDA: I don't understand why you're putting "Bruce" as opposed to "Caitlyn.
" CAITLYN: My membership is under "Bruce.
" CANDIS: You can't play both sides of the fence anymore.
There's no excuse just sign your name as Caitlyn and move on.
CAITLYN: Certain family members are upset with the Vanity Fair article.
KHLOE: We want to support you and be there for you, but we don't think that that entails you speaking negatively about my mom, especially when you have two young daughters who are greatly affected by it.
KIM: She really loved you and cherished your 25 years together as a family.
CAITLYN: And I loved her, too.
I've never once tried to do anything that would hurt her.
Honestly, I wish she would call.
I have not seen her, talked to her (knocking) months and months and months.
KRIS: Where do you want to go? - CAITLYN: Sit down here.
- KRIS: Okay.
CAITLYN: So how are you doing? KRIS: I'm good.
I'm really good.
Just working.
CAITLYN: Well, I haven't heard from you in forever.
KRIS: Yeah.
CAITLYN: It's been at least six months.
KRIS: I just felt thrown under the bridge.
You were so excited to be going through this exciting time in your life, but I feel like I really was blindsided in a lot of ways, and that really got to me so bad that I couldn't I didn't want to communicate with you and be angry and be CAITLYN: What would you be angry for? KRIS: It doesn't even matter anymore.
- CAITLYN: Yes, it does.
- KRIS: No.
CAITLYN: 'Cause it affects the kids.
KRIS: One of the reasons I wanted to talk to you was because I don't want your feelings to be hurt, like the other day, when I heard that you weren't happy about not being included in Kylie's graduation.
CAITLYN: It wasn't me making that decision, it was you making that decision.
I was so disappointed in everybody.
For 15 years of my life, I carpooled kids every day.
Some days I would spend three or four hours a day in the car.
A slap in the face when you don't even get invited to their graduation.
KRIS: That's exactly how I felt w - ith the Vanity Fair article, 'cause I - CAITLYN: Okay, - it's not tit for tat, it's not tit for tat.
- KRIS: spent 25 years of my life and 18 hours a day and blah, blah, blah CAITLYN: Vanity Fair was months ago.
We're talking about what happened just a few days ago.
KRIS: Listen, usually people that get a divorce don't do everything together.
It wasn't malicious, it didn't intend to hurt anybody's feelings, but my feelings still weren't healed.
And I thought, wow, this is the guy that when I, you know (sniffles) I I told myself I don't even want to cry, but I just, it just hurt my feelings.
I didn't understand why you felt the need to criticize or make me look bad.
Like, were you did you live in the same house that I lived in? 'Cause it was (bleep) amazing.
And I worked really hard, and I like, I took care of you.
- CAITLYN: I never said - KRIS: for decades.
And so to have what did you say? I I "mistreated" you.
It was, like, mistreated you? Yeah, we fought like cats and dogs for the last couple of years but that's not what you say in a Vanity Fair article.
(crying): And it just killed me.
Because it wasn't true.
And that that's just, you know, it was, like, what happened to just the life we had together? It's, like, you don't you just threw that away.
How much fun we had and the kids we raised and Christmas Eves and just every single thing we did.
(sniffles) So it's very difficult to hear when you feel like you've been you gave your whole life to somebody that the sum of it all was you were a distraction.
- And so that's that killed me.
- CAITLYN: Can we ? Look I don't want anybody to feel bad.
I I never thought our relationship was a distraction.
Our relationship was a great relationship for many, many years.
Loved you, adored you, we had a lot of great years together.
And I have no regrets for that.
It was a distraction from the sense of who I was.
I didn't have to deal with myself and who my soul was.
So that's the distraction.
It's all in the way that you look at these things.
As far as the Vanity Fair article , uh, I tried everything to have your back.
I thought I was very kind and nice to you.
I didn't say anything that was bad.
KRIS: Yeah.
CAITLYN: I would say the reason for our breakup was about 80% about the way you were treating me and 20% on gender issues.
KRIS: But you can't say that you've known about these that you knew you wanted to be a woman - since you were four years old, - CAITLYN: No, wait, wait, wait - and then turn around - I have lived for 65 years, 65 years.
- KRIS: But then you can't say it's 20% of the problem.
- CAITLYN: It wasn't till later on I did not leave you thinking I was going to transition, okay? That No.
I didn't know what I was going to do.
- I never thought I'd be here.
- KRIS (sniffles) And I'm really happy for you, I really am.
Because I want you to be happy.
CAITLYN: You never texted me, never sent anything, - never called.
- KRIS: I almost did, and then the Vanity Fair article, like, literally killed me.
CAITLYN: About what? There's nothing in it! KRIS: Are you kidding? CAITLYN: I just think everybody is so overreacting - Talking about I was throwing you under the bus - KRIS: Everybody felt the same - what did I say? - way okay - All right.
Well, you're just not - CAITLYN: That was so terrible.
KRIS: You're sensitive and amazing to all these new people in your life.
You're just not so sensitive and amazing to this side of the family that you left behind.
CAITLYN: Oh, come on! A phone call would have been great.
Unbelievable.
(Tapping chair) - I was struggling and having a really hard time.
- With what? KRIS: Your transition, and this, like, leaving us in the dust.
- CAITLYN: Nobody's leaving you guys in the dust.
- KRIS: You left us, you left us in the dust.
- CAITLYN: Wh Who?! - KRIS: Basically, I'm just saying - I went through a hard time.
- CAITLYN: Nobody's leaving anybody I'm not going anywhere.
Nobody's leaving anybody in the dust.
KRIS: Okay, but it does Everybody handles it differently - you know? - CAITLYN: Totally agree.
KRIS: And I wasn't doing well.
I mean, my feelings don't matter anymore - it's not a part of - CAITLYN: Oh, don't play the martyr.
- KRIS: I'm not.
I just don't.
- CAITLYN: Don't play the martyr don't feel "Oh, poor Kris, my feelings - don't matter anymore.
" - KRIS: I'm not - "Oh, poor Kris.
" - CAITLYN: That's BS.
Obviously, they do.
KRIS: Like, I'm trying to be understanding of the way that you feel and the way that you made this huge change in your life, and I try to understand you and be accepting.
But you just are more stubborn and won't try to see my point of view in that.
- You know, why that was hurtful.
- CAITLYN: Well I totally disagree with that.
And I thought, honestly, I thought, because our relationship was not I mean, our divorce was not based on, you know, horrible, horrible things we just, it wasn't working any longer and we both decided to go our separate directions that we would be able to it would be easier to have a relationship - later on down the line - KRIS: I thought so, too.
CAITLYN: And it just has gone whoosh! KRIS: But you are so happy and excited with your new life that which is amazing but some days, you know some days are just hard.
And I know you say you haven't gone anywhere and you're still the same person, but sometimes they just miss having Bruce around.
We all do.
CAITLYN: One of the most difficult things, uh, to deal with is that sense of grief that my family seems to be dealing with, about this transition.
I wish that my happiness could be their happiness.
The key is to have patience, keep love in your heart, stay committed to the goal.
And I am really hopeful that Kris and I can do that.
Lookit, we had great times.
Let's not throw all that stuff out the door.
(Clears throat) - How do we move forward from this point? - I think that KRIS: You know, obviously, it's really important for the kids to have you as a big part of their life.
I think that we just have to get used to our new normal, - and - CAITLYN: So are we gonna start hanging out together? KRIS: Sure.
You can come over for a drink.
CAITLYN: Go shopping? - KRIS: Let's not get carried away.
- CAITLYN: Yeah.
KRIS: I just want to get to a place where it's comfortable for us to to share celebrations together.
CAITLYN: That's great.
Let's move on.
It was good to talk, 'cause I got her side of the story.
Um, I don't really agree with everything she said, but communication is always good.
Maybe it'll be a little different in the future now.
I hope it is.
'Cause I want to keep my relationship with all my kids, and that's the most important thing.
KRIS: So wait are you dating this girl called Candis? (Caitlyn laughs) KRIS: Mm Okay.
(chuckles) Oh, my God, you want to take a selfie? Come on.
- Where's the best light? - CAITLYN: Right here.
Hey, there we go.
Now, what are you gonna do with this selfie? KRIS: No (laughs) Okay.
- CAITLYN: You got lipstick all over your cheek.
- KRIS: That's all right.
(Caitlyn laughs) KRIS: One of the things I always used to notice was that Bruce wasn't as sensitive as I wished he was, I think I just used to chalk it up to the fact that, you know, he was a guy but I'm kind of realizing now that maybe that's just Bruce-slash-Caitlyn's personality both of them, if you will.
You know, it's the, it's just it's just the way she is.
I think that we just have to continue to communicate with each other, so we can keep our family together.
'Cause that's the most important thing, I think, to both of us.
All right, well, see you later.
- Bye, don't get makeup on my jacket, okay? - CAITLYN: I won't.
KRIS: It's a little trick.
- CAITLYN: I know I know how to do that.
- KRIS: Okay.
All right.
See you later.
CAITLYN: Bye.
- CANDIS: Mmm - CAITLYN: That looks good.
CANDIS: Yummy.
CAITLYN: Guess what happened yesterday.
CANDIS: What? CAITLYN: Kris was over.
CANDIS: Was it a tense talk? Did it get heated? - CAITLYN: A hard talk.
I wouldn't call it tense.
- CANDIS: Okay.
CAITLYN: We just opened up communication.
We were not communicating at all for the longest time.
CANDIS: Right, well, you had other things on your mind.
CAITLYN: Yeah.
- CANDIS: Well, it sounds like it was a good thing.
- CAITLYN: It was good.
CANDIS: Yeah.
So CAITLYN: Name change did you celebrate when you finally got your name changed? CANDIS: No.
CAITLYN: I've realized that my transition in my life should be celebrated, and I've decided to have a renaming ceremony.
You know, it's almost like a rebirth this is a whole new you that's coming out and presenting yourself to the world.
- CANDIS: I wish I had made more of a like, a - CAITLYN: A big deal about it.
CANDIS: A big deal about it.
Are you excited? CAITLYN: Yeah, I am excited for the ceremony.
CANDIS: It'll inspire more girls to have celebrations.
CAITLYN: Yeah, it's kind of like, not just a celebration for me, but for everybody who all the girls who didn't have - the opportunity to do that.
- CANDIS: Right.
CAITLYN: In talking with all the girls, it's amazing to me that they never really celebrate their name change.
Most of 'em just got their new driver's license, new name, new gender marker, and kind of just went on with life.
Why shouldn't it be celebrated? I would like for you to sing.
CANDIS: Sing? CAITLYN: Yeah, I've heard you sing.
You actually sound very, very, very good.
CANDIS: Well, thank you, but I don't know my my nerves go.
I get so wrecked before I have to sing live.
It's kind of crazy.
- I Maybe it's just because - CAITLYN: Well then, in that case, you have to do it.
You got to step out there.
Yeah.
Yeah.
CANDIS: I need to get through it, so I will sing.
CAITLYN: Ta-da! We're here.
- JENNY: Hi, sweetie pie.
- CAITLYN: I guess I'm at the head of the table? Does that mean I pick up the check? - JENNY: Yes.
- DRIAN: Yes.
CAITLYN: Okay, okay.
I will, I will.
Tell me a little bit about our other dinner guest.
Faith, in my case, has been really important in going through this process.
And I asked Jenny Boylan if she has a minister that would be interested in performing a religious ceremony.
And, of course, Jenny not only knows a minister, she knows a trans minister.
So I'm very excited about this.
JENNY: Ms.
Allyson Robinson.
She has done a lot of interesting things.
She went to West Point, first off.
- DRIAN: Wow.
Neat.
- CAITLYN: Oh, really? JENNY: Um, yeah, and so she was headed for a career in the military.
And then she felt a calling.
So she went to seminary.
And she became a minister - in the Baptist church.
- CAITLYN: Question: was she not transitioned at that point? JENNY: She was not transitioned at that point and I believe she was married.
I like the fact that she's a person of faith.
I think that there's a sense that that transgender people DRIAN: Religion and trans don't go together.
JENNY: Well, that that, well, that if you're trans, that somehow that somehow you're you're godless.
And in fact, most of the trans people I know are - very spiritual.
- CAITLYN: Yeah.
JENNY: Here comes Reverend Robinson.
- ALLYSON: Hello, everyone.
- CAITLYN: There we are.
- DRIAN: Hi.
- ALLYSON: Hi.
- DRIAN: Drian.
- CAITLYN: It's so nice to meet you, how are you? ALLYSON: It is so wonderful to meet you I'm great, thank you for having me.
JENNY: I was just singing your praises.
ALLYSON: Oh, were you? JENNY: And reciting your bio.
You'll be interested to know I made up all kinds of stuff.
- ALLYSON: Oh, I'm so glad.
- JENNY: Your time in the circus with the elephants.
ALLYSON: Yes, right, of course.
JENNY: Your time in the French Foreign Legion.
DEEDIE: You know, just because it didn't happen doesn't mean Jenny can't remember it.
ALLYSON: Oh, yeah, of course.
CAITLYN: How does this going to work am I gonna survive? - Am I gonna be okay? - ALLYSON: I think so.
We're gonna mark a moment.
Uh, this is what so many of our religious rights and ceremonies are about anyway, and so we're going to acknowledge the journey.
We're going to ask you what shall your name be? JENNY: You're sticking with Caitlyn, though, right? You're not gonna, like CAITLYN: No, I'm not gonna change it, yeah.
Becky we're not going with Becky.
DRIAN: I wish I had done a renaming ceremony.
You know, for me it was a very lonely process.
I never celebrated it.
I never got to share that with family and friends.
I was brought up Catholic.
And I had to go to Sunday school.
And the kids there were just so mean.
To this day, I'm really, I I feel I'm still in that process of healing that.
ALLYSON: Absolutely.
CAITLYN: I believe in the Bible, I believe in God.
But over the last couple of months, I have gotten quite a few letters from people of faith who say, "You can't do this.
God says you were born this way, - you got to stay this way.
" - ALLYSON: Right.
ESTHER: And I'm sure you've read the passage in the Bible.
If you're a man and you dress like a woman, you know Do you have any, uh, interpretation of that? CAITLYN: How, in your mind, did you justify transitioning? - DRIAN: Good question.
- ALLYSON: It's a great question.
Yeah, well, I mean, the first thing I would say is welcome to the welcome to the club.
- CAITLYN: Yeah.
- ALLYSON: You know, you join a a long line of people like us, who have, uh, been on the receiving end of that kind of hostility and condemnation.
A long line of people like us who have been on the receiving end of hostility and condemnation.
Uh, I wear it as a badge of honor.
I mean, I I really believe that my faith is deeper today because it's been challenged.
I I'm a Baptist we take Biblical text very seriously, and I had to ask some hard questions of the text.
You know, what about that, uh, verse that talks about men not wearing women's clothes, right? CAITLYN: My mother brings that subject up.
- How do how do you answer that? - ALLYSON: It's worth it's worth asking.
One of the things that I was taught was to interpret the text in the broader context of history, of culture.
You'll find verses that forbid the weaving together of clothes from two different kinds of cloth or or even touching a pig.
So if you've ever touched a football, like you and I both have, we're we're condemned in the exact same way.
And so I would view that text as just one of hundreds of intricate rules that God brought to a close, uh, with with the coming of God's son into the world.
CAITLYN: That's a good way to think about it.
- JENNY: That's really well said.
- ALLYSON: Old and New Testaments are full of characters who have nothing to do with their society's gender rules, right? They they thumb their nose at at society's rules about gender.
Joseph with the the coat of many colors.
You know, the Hebrew word for that coat of many colors is "a princess dress.
" Joseph's father gave Joseph a princess dress.
Um, knowing that our stories have always been there has has helped me to keep those two worlds intact.
But I I think that the most radical idea is that God doesn't love us in spite of who we are God loves us because of who we are.
JENNY: Well, it was his idea.
ALLYSON: Yeah.
- Right.
Exactly.
- CAITLYN: Yeah.
DRIAN: God, I wish, as a kid, I could've connected with a positive church.
I think I would probably still be connected to God, to, you know, my faith.
And, you know, for kids that are hearing these messages, t here are communities out there that will embrace you, because you're perfect as who you are.
God makes no mistakes.
Well, cheers to crossroads.
- ALLYSON: Yes, to crossroads.
- JENNY: Crossroads.
Well said.
DEEDIE: Sharing the journey.
(Birds chirping) - MAN: Box? Box? - MAN 2: Box? Sorry, yeah.
(truck beeping) LORI: 30 minutes, guys.
30 minutes till the eagle lands.
CANDIS: I think it's great that Cait has a team of designers coming over to change her surroundings to fit who she is as a person and not something one of her ex-wives picked out.
(Chuckles) LORI: Um, the long 12-foot sofa that's labeled "Homenature" is going in the living room.
She's coming home.
Hurry.
- CAITLYN: How you doing, babe? - CANDIS: Good.
CAITLYN: I love it when you wear the heels and I got flats.
You know, it's kind of fun to just kind of discover who you are.
I mean, a simple thing as decorating.
I I think I will kind of acquire my taste.
- All right, let's go check it out! - CANDIS: My God, this is so exciting.
CAITLYN: I know.
JOE: We're gonna be, uh, joined by Boy George.
- MAN: Oh, my God! - (Laughter) CANDIS: Seeing Boy George is making my heart skip a beat.
Then having to sing in front of him at the renaming ceremony, oh, my God.
- MIMI: Is this your first time singin' this song? - CANDIS: Yeah.
ALLYSON: And so here we are, daughter of God.
What shall your name be called? - Uh-oh.
- LORI: Hello, ladies! CAITLYN: I'm back.
- LORI: Beautiful.
Hello.
- CAITLYN: Thank you, babe.
LORI: Welcome to your new home.
CAITLYN: Let's check it out.
- We'll go slow.
- LORI: Go slow.
- You might not recognize it.
- CAITLYN: Ooh - That looks so good.
- CANDIS: Wow.
CAITLYN: Love the pillows, love the couch.
LORI: It's from Homenature.
CAITLYN: I know.
Rocking it! I love it.
I think what this whole transition has done for me, for the first time in my life, I'm able to express myself.
CANDIS: It's lighter, airy.
CAITLYN: Yeah, feminine.
I like that.
So many people are coming over to the house for the ceremony, and I am so excited to show 'em the final results.
Thank you for all your hard work.
LORI: You're so welcome.
(Birds chirping) (laughter) DRIAN: So we're going in? JENNY: Yeah, we're gonna go.
Back of the bus again.
DRIAN: Again to the back of the bus.
Oh, there's a pole here? CAITLYN: Jenny Boylan on the pole! Come on, baby! (whooping, cheering) CHANDI: Yay! CAITLYN: I've been asked to introduce Boy George at his concert at the Greek Theatre, so I invited all the girls to join me.
Now, that's gonna be fun.
Boy George concert, yeah! (whooping) (all cheering) CAITLYN: Oh, how we doing? WOMAN: Caitlyn! CANDIS: (chuckles) I love it more than anything, because it's a trans woman that people are going crazy over.
CAITLYN: I wouldn't expect anything less.
- COURTNEY: You guys - BOY GEORGE: There's more, there's more, there's more.
- There's bigger hats, entire business.
- CAITLYN: Thank you for asking me - to introduce you.
- BOY GEORGE: I think you're gonna get a standing ovation.
I'd be very surprised if they don't stand up, and I'll be very disappointed if they don't.
CAITLYN: Well, I know.
Uh, just coming in, I think we're okay.
Just coming in.
- BOY GEORGE: Oh, hey! - (Overlapping chatter) CAITLYN: Nice to see you.
BOY GEORGE: I'm just gonna expect you to always be (overlapping chatter) CAITLYN: I remember you back in the '80s, and I had obviously all my issues and this and that.
And obviously I followed you.
And I'm so glad to see you back and be here tonight - to celebrate that.
- BOY GEORGE: Do you know what it is is I think that you you're getting a little bit older, you you kind of operate - from a different level of consciousness.
- CAITLYN: Absolutely, yeah.
BOY GEORGE: You know, you have this wonderful opportunity to do so much good.
When I was 19, I was so full of my own self-importance.
I can't say that I was leading a political thing.
It was just me being myself, which in itself was quite powerful.
- CAITLYN: That's the same way I got.
- BOY GEORGE: It might have been blind kind of self-importance, but it had a massive effect, you know, and I'm only really enjoying that now, - 'cause I'm sober and I'm sensible.
- CAITLYN: How lucky we are.
- BOY GEORGE: Yeah, absolutely.
- CAITLYN: I'm the same way.
JENNY: We remember, when you first came out had that first hit, that we were all that it was such a huge thing for us, - that there's someone - ZACKARY: Oh, yeah, you were the - visible.
- only person I ever knew of.
- CAITLYN: George, we need a picture with all the girls.
- DRIAN: A picture, please.
CAITLYN: Come in here in the middle.
George, come over here.
BOY GEORGE: This is a cosmic moment.
(Others agreeing) - (overlapping chatter) - CAITLYN: We got to go.
Good luck.
I will see you onstage! I get to introduce you! It'll be fun.
(audience cheering) - CAITLYN: Do we go that way? - BOY GEORGE: PK, who's looking after Caitlyn? - PK: Go get 'em, Caitlyn.
- CAITLYN: Go get 'em? - PK: Go get 'em.
- CAITLYN: Okay.
Are you ready? - Let's do this.
- (Audience cheering) CAITLYN: Thank you! CROWD: Caitlyn! Caitlyn! CAITLYN: Caitlyn Jenner in the house - for her first Boy George concert! - (Audience cheering) Let's hear it here at the Greek Theatre for Boy George! - Let's hear it for him! - (Cheering) (birds chirping) JOE: Could you give us an "F"? - (pianist plays "F") - (chorus humming) Hello! Welcome! Good to see you.
I don't know if you all know Candis Cayne.
CANDIS: How are you? (chuckles) I want to do something special for Cait and sing at the renaming ceremony.
So I asked the Gay Men's Chorus to back me up.
JOE: Let's take a look at "Amazing Grace.
" - (piano playing first notes) - JOE: Now, what key works for you, as far as Do you know what's what's comfortable for you? - CANDIS: Not the (deep): Ama - JOE: Okay.
How how 'bout how 'bout how 'bout E-flat, B-flat? - (pianist plays higher notes) - Amazing grace BOTH: How sweet CANDIS: The sound JOE: Good.
Let's do this.
Harmonize on a hum and she'll sing the words.
One more time, let's do the first verse.
CANDIS: I've always been so confident in my acting and my dancing, and, as a singer, I'm not as confident.
- I see - (chorus humming) It's hard to sing out of your key, you know what I mean? JOE: Absolutely.
And this Yeah, this is - this was arranged for us, and and - CANDIS: Exactly.
JOE: That's okay.
- CANDIS: I'm just gonna get some water real quick.
- JOE: Oh, yeah.
Absolutely, absolutely.
CANDIS: I was just nervous 'cause I don't have the like, I don't have the, um the right key.
Like, it's too low and then too high.
- CANDIS: Okay, good.
- JOE: So, in a few minutes, we're gonna be, uh, - joined by Boy George.
- MAN: Oh, my God! (laughter) I love Boy George.
(whimpers) (laughter) - (laughter) - CANDIS: As long as I can remember, Boy George has been a pivotal person in the LGBT community, so I reached out to him to sing at the renaming ceremony.
I think he's the perfect person who would add life and love to this amazing celebration.
JOE: What we thought about doing uh, you handle verse one, verse two then the chorus comes in on the chorus chorus - as soon as - BOY GEORGE: It might be nice, at the end, to do, like, a verse together, you know.
- I mean, you're here.
- (Men laughing) - JOE: So, chorus - GUITARIST: A-one, two BOY GEORGE: If there's a God Surely he wants me to be - But you should maybe "ooh" on that.
- MAN: Oh.
- BOY GEORGE: So - CHORUS: If there's a God - Ooh Ooh - BOY GEORGE: Surely He wants me to be myself CHORUS: If there's a God If there's a God BOY GEORGE: Feel like you wanted to do something over the end there.
- I don't think it's gonna go - MAN: No! BOY GEORGE: No? You didn't want to do that? You know, like, sometimes you just go, - "Where the (bleep) did that come from?" - MAN: That's right here.
- BOY GEORGE: Which one's that? - MAN: Right here.
BOY GEORGE: Okay, I like a bit of that.
- MAN 2: Cool.
Cool.
- BOY GEORGE: One little bit of advice.
- MAN: Yeah? - BOY GEORGE: You got to, you know, sing it about what it means, and if you own it, it's just gonna make such a difference.
GUITARIST: One, a-two BOY GEORGE: If there's a God I want him to be CANDIS: Seeing Boy George is kind of making my heart skip a beat.
This is one of those people that I looked up to as a kid.
And having to sing in front of him at the renaming ceremony Oh, my God, what was I thinking? (chorus sings closing note) - CAITLYN: Let's see what's - RONDA: You not allowed out - CAITLYN: I'm trying to think of what's going on.
- RONDA: You know you're not allowed out there, right? CAITLYN: Okay, here I am back in my closet.
Why? 'Cause they don't even allow me out into the house.
(Sighs) Outside right now, they are setting up for my name change.
All the girls, all my little tribe, have told me all the time that they never really celebrated their name change.
They just kind of went through it.
So, it's not just for me.
Really, it's about all of them.
JENNY: I was thinking we should all change our name to Caitlyn.
What do you think? - CHANDI: All change our name now? - JENNY: Just everybody go to Caitlyn.
CHANDI: Okay.
Now that would be crazy.
Everybody be a Caitlyn.
CANDIS: Does that cover enough? Does that look like it's ? Just so, like, my boobs don't pop out, like - MIMI: Right.
- CANDIS: I'm nervous enough as it is.
MIMI: When was the last time you sang live somewhere in front of, like, a big group of people? CANDIS: It's been a while.
MIMI: Is this your first time singing this song? CANDIS: Yeah.
Are you trying to get me going? - MIMI: No.
I'm just trying to, - CANDIS (laughing): Yeah.
- like, see how you're doing.
- CANDIS: No, no, I know.
I know.
I feel better after rehearsing with the choir.
But now that it's time to perform, I am still nervous, 'cause I just want to do a good job.
I want, um I want to make this a special moment for Cait.
- MIMI: Well, you look beautiful.
- CANDIS: Thanks a lot.
MIMI: And I don't think you should be nervous at all.
CANDIS: Okay, I'm gonna try it.
- MIMI: All right.
- CANDIS: I'm gonna try to forget - MIMI: Get your shoes on,girl.
It's time.
- CANDIS: I'm gonna get my shoes on.
MAN: Ooh! - (whooping and cheering) - CANDIS: Oh, no.
- (Candis laughs) - (cheering and whooping) - My wife will be out soon.
- (Guitar tuning) ALLYSON: Well, good afternoon, and welcome to the celebration.
We gather here, beloved friends and family, together, uh, to celebrate a moment with our dear friend, with our sister.
- (guests gasping, murmuring) - (applause and cheering) Yeah! All my sisters! - (Candis laughs) - Hello, everybody.
ALLYSON: Welcome.
Today, this, our friend, our sister comes before you seeking a new name by which to be known.
Bless her as she steps across this boundary, in your name, which above all other names, is love.
Amen.
CHANDI: Since meeting Cait at the dinner party Hi.
- CAITLYN: It's pronounced "Chardie" or ? - CHANDI: Chandi.
CAITLYN: Chandi.
Okay, with an "N.
" CAITLYN: Chandi, okay.
CHANDI: This has been the most amazing time of my life.
Good afternoon, everyone.
- (Applause and cheering) - Okay, I don't feel like this is a party yet.
- (laughter) - I mean, come on now.
We're here to celebrate with Caitlyn.
I can't think of a time, ever, that I've so celebrated being trans.
CAITLYN: Vocal cords what have you guys done? CHANDI: I haven't done one thing.
People say, "Oh, you need to talk like this.
" - Child, cheese.
- (laughter) The world needs to feel as if you are inclusive of our community.
You have to start embracing the word "we.
" - CAITLYN: I love Chandi.
- CHANDI: Oh.
(laughter) I wanted to share some facts about the name "Caitlyn.
" The definition of Caitlyn is "pure and chaste.
" Would that be you? - (laughter) - You can be spontaneous, expressive and a talkative person.
- That's definitely you.
- (Laughter) You are truly, truly, truly an amazing person.
We're so proud of you, and we're so glad, most of all, that today you sit in your authentic self.
- Let's give it up for Caitlyn.
- CAITLYN: Thank you, babe.
- (Applause and cheering) - CHANDI: Yes.
- CAITLYN: Oh, nice.
So, so nice.
- JENNY: Hello.
I'm Jennifer Finney Boylan.
Caitlyn and I we couldn't come from more different worlds.
You know, I'm this New England academic.
My students have called me "J-Bo.
" - (laughter) - Hey, what was that look? Like paws and whiskers.
You just gave me a freaking look.
Here is a poem by E.
E.
Cummings.
"I thank You God for most this amazing day this is the birth day of life and of love and wings: and of the gay great happening illimitably earth " I'm so proud to call Cait my friend.
I'm proud of her for the good she's she's doing.
I'm proud of her for the progress she's made.
Right now, you're in this thing that we call "the pink cloud," and that means you can be a little blind to things other than yourself.
A young person coming out as trans now is gonna have had Caitlyn Jenner as a role model.
You don't need a man to make you a woman.
You have gone to such trouble to become a woman.
Don't be a stupid one.
She's just a tremendously wonderful soul that's the person that that I love.
"Now the ears of my ears awake and now the eyes of my eyes are opened.
" (applause) (Caitlyn speaks quietly) You are.
- Oh, you are singing.
- (Laughter) CANDIS: In that moment I am nervous, and I'm looking at Cait, and Cait looking at me.
And it's just such an amazing day.
This is all of our name-change ceremony.
I know I have to do this.
Amazing grace How sweet the sound That saved a soul like me I once was lost but now am found - Mmm, mmm - (chorus humming) CANDIS: I feel blessed to be a part of Caitlyn's journey.
WOMAN: Who is Candis? WOMAN 2: Yeah, which one's Candis? SEVERAL WOMEN: Oh ! RONDA: And look how close she is look.
CANDIS: This experience has meant a lot to me.
CHILD: Being around friends is really nice when you haven't been around friends for most of your life.
CANDIS: That's what's so magical about this, is being able to share stories with each other, which is so great, at your age, to do that.
It's amazing.
Going to all these amazing places and doing the work that we've done, seeing the change in myself and in Cait has changed my life forever.
Was blind But now I see.
(Chandi laughing) - CAITLYN: It's not fair, that voice, it's just not fair.
- CANDIS: I love you.
CAITLYN: I love you, too.
Thank you for doing that.
ALLYSON: So what's in a name? Names are symbols.
They are symbols of a parent's hopes and dreams, symbols that can honor the past, or that can point toward the future.
And so we gather with our dear friend, with our sister.
We've known her most of her life by another name.
But today, at this moment, she chooses to set that name aside.
Will you join me to receive for us your new name? And so, here we are daughter of God.
What shall your name be called? CAITLYN: Caitlyn Marie Jenner.
ALLYSON: If you affirm it with Caitlyn, say it with me.
- (guests whooping, cheering) - Caitlyn Marie Jenner.
- (Allyson laughs) - CAITLYN: It means a lot.
ALLYSON: We do indeed affirm that you are Caitlyn Marie Jenner from this day forward.
- CAITLYN: Thank you very much.
- ALLYSON: Thank you.
God bless you.
- CAITLYN: God bless you.
- ALLYSON: God bless you.
CAITLYN: Thank you for doing that; that was beautiful.
BOY GEORGE: If there's a God I want him to be Right here in the wind Salvation, I can take Welcome to the human race CAITLYN: I am so blessed in so many ways.
And at this point in my life, I feel so unbelievably comfortable with the decisions that I have made.
I have seen so much love and support, it's just absolutely unbelievable.
- BOY GEORGE: Oh, oh - Oh, oh, oh - WOMAN: Cheers to Caitlyn.
- CAITLYN: Out two weeks, yeah! (Song continues) Hey! (Laughs) CANDIS: I've always wanted to do that.
CAITLYN: Lookit, her hair's still perfect that's not fair.
Ooh, look at Chandi.
- CHANDI: Put a ring on it.
- BOY GEORGE: If there's a God WOMAN: Bang, bang, bang.
- CAITLYN: We did it! - (Friends cheering) - CAITLYN: Are we ready? - (All whooping) RONDA: Here's to the road trip.
- (whooping) - (Boy George vocalizing) CROWD (chanting): Caitlyn! Caitlyn! Caitlyn! CAITLYN: I knew nothing when I started.
The transgender community this is my place, and this is where I belong, and it's a good feeling.
CHORUS: If there's a God CAITLYN: The last few months for me have been the most amazing months of my life.
(sniffling) It's gonna be tough.
My family.
(Crying, sniffling) I want them to be proud of their daddy.
(crying): These ladies over here (sniffles) All of you girls have taught me so much.
I'm struggling with it.
I've seen the things that you have gone through in your life, and being so honest with this, and I so apprec appreciate (sniffles) all your your input.
Meeting people in this community that I never had the opportunity to meet has been the biggest education I've ever had.
JENNY: There are all these trans women out there who are in real danger.
BLOSSOM: I'm gonna be honest.
We're basically saying the same thing you were doing, and, like, nobody wanted to hear it.
LAYA: I didn't want to have to do this, but I ended up doing a lot of sex work.
CAITLYN: There's a lot of people that don't make it out the other side.
MACY: I've attempted suicide, and it got better for me.
It just (takes deep breath) it's not fair that he didn't get to see it gets better.
CAITLYN: And I've also learned that there are so many good people out there.
Thank you for being so good to me.
Thank you for welcoming me into this community.
I feel at home, and I have a family.
JENNY: Everybody on Jenner.
CAITLYN: Yeah, yeah It's just been great really getting to spend some time with you.
Thank you for all my friends, who have been so gracious with their love for me.
Hey, baby! I didn't know you were here! Everybody it's okay! ESTHER: I knew it would be.
- KIM: You look beautiful.
- CAITLYN: Well, thank you very much.
It has been an amazing journey for me.
And I'm seeing all of it come true.
(Crowd shouting, cheering) WOMAN: Wow, what a crowd! (Laughing) CAITLYN: I'm in a great place in life.
For the first time, I feel like I fit in someplace.
Being my authentic self.
Thank you.
Thank you.
(applause) (whooping) SUSAN: These people are the bravest.
And they all need to be recognized and loved and taken care of and included and celebrated.
I'm really proud of her.
(Laughs) JENNY: My mother used to say you can't hate anyone whose story you know.
I hope that this will enable people to know not just Cait's story, but the story of hundreds and potentially thousands of other transgender people.
CAITLYN: I was just thinking, you know, I kind of started in bed with no makeup and the hair not done and all that kind of stuff, and I thought, you know, maybe I should just end it this way.
I want to help people in my community.
We have a long way to go, but at least we got a really, really, really good beginning.
And that makes my heart feel good.