Tell Me You Love Me s01e10 Episode Script
Episode 10
Tell Me You Love Me Season 1 Episode 10 - You're a quitter, you know that? - Stop.
Stop.
You're a coward.
You're like your father.
- A fucking coward.
- I know.
Well, I'm not gonna be like your mother.
I'm not just gonna let you leave.
I'm pregnant! We're having a baby! Jesus Christ You got what you wanted.
You don't need me.
Get out of my way, please.
- No.
- Come on.
Thanks.
Hello.
Josh didn't eat his meat again.
Should I save it? No, don't bother.
Are you guys fighting? What? No, we're not fighting, sweetie.
You're not talking.
Sometimes parents fight, Bella, but, you know, we work it out.
I'm not getting married.
You don't mean that, sweetie.
Yes, I do.
I think you'll change your mind.
I don't want kids either.
Yes, you do.
No, I don't.
I've been good.
- Good.
- Yeah.
Really? How? I don't know I don't know.
I guess maybe I shouldn't be.
I stopped seeing Nick.
I'm sorry.
No! God, no.
I It's been really good for me to be alone.
I never thought I'd hear you say that.
It's funny.
What? Just - All that, I guess.
- Yeah.
I gotta go.
Me too.
Bye.
Bye.
Maybe you should just stay here tonight.
- The kids are up early, but - That's okay.
Thanks, I'm staying at my mother's, she's been out of town.
Palm Beach.
I mean, you gotta just Just take a break.
Let your mind wrap around it.
You know? I've had time.
I spent a year waiting through it.
Look, who knows? In 10 years down the line, you and Carolyn can have this little whoever and just laugh about this whole thing.
I mean, it's not easy, It's bone-breaking hell most of the time, but it does change you.
It makes you a better person.
You want another one? Yeah, if you are Hell, yeah.
You earned it.
Oh, hey, Julia.
Palek How is Carolyn feeling? Kelley, Dash, it's time for bed, let's go.
Come on! Move it.
Let's go.
No bed, please! - Come on! Move it.
- No! It's time for bed.
Hey, you two burgers, come on.
Let's go.
Listen to your mom, come on.
Give me hugs and kisses.
Go brush your teeth.
Say good night to Palek.
- Good night, Palek.
- Good night.
- Good night, uncle Palek.
- Good night, sweetie.
Will you pick up the dry cleaning? I have a late appointment tonight.
I don't know how retirement turned me into an errand boy.
Have I been neglecting you? No.
Just absent minded.
Let's talk about our vacation.
You know, the one we've been planning for 10 years? Here it comes They could survive for a week without you.
Hello.
Who? Olivia! What? When? What? Oh, no! Are you okay? Do you need anything? I'm so sorry, Olivia.
Thank you for calling me.
What? May.
John had a heart attack.
He's gone.
What? He lived alone.
He died alone.
Don't do this.
I led him on.
I kept it going for myself.
I didn't have to do that.
Stay home today.
No, I can't.
I've got to go in.
Where's What do you need? I ran into Hugo.
Oh, how was that? It was great.
Good.
Yeah, I saw him at the gas station, the same place where we broke up.
Yeah, I don't know, I think there's something really right about that.
Like, it was kind of meant to be.
Maybe.
Is Is that a gas station that you use, is it near where you live or where he lives? Yeah.
Yeah, I go there.
I don't know where he lives, but that's not the point, I mean Of all the places that I could have run into him, I ran into him there.
I mean, you have to admit, it's just kind of Destiny? No, more like fate.
Maybe.
I'm happy.
I mean, I've never been happier than standing outside that fucking gas station with him.
Oh, good.
I'm different with him.
I've changed.
I'm stronger, I'm less afraid.
I'm in love with him.
I've never stopped being in love with him.
Nick was just a rebound.
I mean, I know that.
You know that.
I mean Jamie.
If you're so sure, I don't think you'd be sitting here, selling me quite so hard.
I'm not selling you.
You're wrong.
I'm sure sometimes, that happens.
Fuck.
Finally! I've been waiting for you.
What happened? We have a big problem.
We were expecting 12x7 beams for the partition walls.
We've got aluminum channel beams.
The beams you gave me aren't certified for this kind of weight.
So I'm paying 20 people to eat.
All right.
Hold on.
Let me just look at the work order.
I don't have it here.
I didn't expect to get fucked by you guys, so I don't have it.
Well, I can't do much without it.
- Call somebody to get it.
- You call somebody and get it.
But you won't get very far with that kind of attitude.
Okay, you know, everyone thinks contractors do the shitty work, but it's you guys, who give us a substandard material.
What do you want me to do? - I want what I ordered! - You don't know what you ordered! Okay, you get your super on the phone right now.
All rigt.
Fine.
Go ahead, call him.
- I will.
I'll call him.
- He'll tell you what I just told you.
I can't help you without a work order.
You don't have a work order, so guess what? - I can't help you.
- Okay, you're a fucking asshole.
Fuckin'dick! Nice car! You fuck.
Hi.
Are you okay? Yeah, fine.
I'm working.
What do you need? Nothing, I was just checking to see if you were still on with Dan.
I forgot.
Do you wanna cancel? No, let's just get it over with.
Okay.
I'm gonna go back to the office, take care of some paperwork.
- Can you meet me there? - Yeah, sure.
All right, good.
I'll see you later.
Hey, Dave.
Yeah.
I love you.
I love you too.
Hello.
Hi.
Are you busy? I have No.
What's going on? I just You know, I didn't know if it was cool to call you or anything.
Yeah, it is.
Okay, good.
Good.
Is that it? No.
I'm hungry.
Yeah, I I love the food at the Mix, and But I haven't been able to come in there, because you know Come in and eat.
- Really? - Yeah All right, I will.
- Okay, bye.
- Bye.
Yeah, I moved out.
How does it feel? Weird, shitty Carolyn? How does that feel? It feels like being left.
Do you know what that feels like? It was clear the last time you were here that you were at a crossroads.
Do you feel this separation is permanent? Yeah.
The reason we're here is because there is things and wanna say to him, and he won't listen.
I can't make Palek listen.
- Well you can make him sit here.
- No, she can't.
I came here because you asked me to, so what do you wanna say? I want you to know you will never see this baby.
It will have nothing to do with you.
It won't be your child.
It will hate you.
You'll be worst than your father.
And I don't give a fuck how he feels anymore.
I don't care if he's hurt or confused or Any of it.
I'm done.
I'm finished.
Yeah, me too.
I should have seen it.
How many times did she tell me that she was unhappy? - I didn't do anything to stop it.
- You guys are still talking though? I'm talking now.
I'm the one talking.
About asking her to try.
Asking her to change.
I can imagine what you're going through.
No, you can't.
Look I hardly can, all right.
I don't know.
I'm not the one who wanted out, right? You're still talking to her on the phone though, right? I ended up calling her.
I don't know, I'm just gonna stay away.
- Hey.
- Hey.
How do we tell the kids that daddy's on business or something? We don't have to order, I just ask one of the cooks in the back to make us all a bunch of stuff.
Oh yeah? The one you slept with? I heard about it.
No.
He's not cooking your dinner.
You know, we can talk about it.
And we should.
I had to do it before you did.
- I need to order some drinks.
- The ironic thing is she always wanted to talk, right? About her day, my day, the kid's day, hell, your day Nothing changes.
Now the house is so quiet I can't even sleep.
Almost makes me wanna fucking cry.
I don't know She sounds happy.
Is she happy? So what are you doing? What have you been up to? I haven't heard shit.
There's nothing to hear.
I haven't been with anyone.
Why not? Just I wasn't feeling it.
I know, I always wanted Rita to be more like you.
I don't know who has our table.
I'm gonna step away for a minute.
I've seen those people before, at the park, where I was playing softball.
Why were you playing softball? Don't ask.
You know that lady was checking me out when I came in here? - No, she wasn't.
- Yes, she was.
You think every woman is just checking you out.
I never thought that.
You did.
Things change quickly.
Just take it one day at a time.
But aren't you supposed to stay, stay and try to work things out? Why would you just leave? Man I made myself sick.
I gained like a hundred pounds since we broke up.
- I like you like this.
- Yeah? Oh, shit.
We're swamped.
This is my section.
Sorry.
What can I get you to drink? Hugo, this is Anya.
Nick's ex, now current.
Hey.
Hi.
I'll have a dark beer please.
Me too.
- Okay.
I'll be right back.
- Thanks.
Don't.
- Anya! - Don't.
- Let me get this.
- No, it's on us.
It's on us.
I already took care of it.
Thank you, both.
For everything, you know.
For listening - No, no, hey.
- It's all right.
Thanks.
Shall we? Ready? Yeah.
You see? She was looking at me.
- Why? - I don't know.
Maybe she recognizes me.
She wasn't cheking you out.
Hi.
Hey.
I came to say What? I came to say I'm sorry.
For what I said.
I didn't mean it.
I think you did.
But it's okay.
At least, I mean, it was honest.
I wanted it so much, Palek.
No just for me.
For us.
With you.
If you can't do this I understand you can't be a father.
I do.
I see that.
But I still love you.
I know.
I know you love me.
I love you.
But that has nothing to do with this.
It has everything to do with this.
I have to go.
Okay.
What is this? No, what is it? What does it mean? It means I was acting out because you dumped me, is what it means.
Should I get one too because you dumped me? Do you wanna go get a drink? Nah.
What are you doing? I'm showing off for you.
- It's working.
- Good.
We can't I don't know how not to.
I don't know either.
But we can't - I can't.
- I know, I know.
I know.
I can't go through it, breaking up with you again, losing you again.
I can't.
Me either.
I mean when I saw you for the first time, I felt like I wanted to run away.
I did, I wanted to bail.
Why didn't you? It was too late.
You know, I remember the first time we had sex.
What about it? How boring it was.
Oh, shut up! And I remember being scared, nervous.
I knew we were going to that night.
I didn't.
I didn't even think you wanted to.
It's more like I always want to.
I will always want.
I knew we would be together after that.
No, you didn't.
Yes, I did.
I never felt that way before in my life.
I never thought I would.
When you proposed me, I wanted to die.
- I was so happy.
- Me too.
But? I'd already cheated on you.
I mean, it was like my stomach just dropped.
I was so in love with you.
And I knew what I'd done, and I just didn't know how to deal with it.
So I decided that you were the cheater.
Healthy! I forgive you.
Jesus! You don't wanna make this fucking easier on me, do you? I would never have forgiven you.
I mean, I can't even forgive myself.
Are you awake? Hello? OK.
Good night.
I love you.
I heard that.
I love you too.
I can't imagine life without you.
Being old without you.
What happens if I fuck up again? What happens if I destroy us? It's better than the alternative.
I love you.
I love you.
- Shit, it was fast! - There was no one in line.
Barely got a drag in.
Walk ahead of me, I'll stay down the line.
Just put it out, Mason.
You know, that stuff about second hand smoke is total bullshit.
There's more stuff in the air you breath or in the water you drink.
Did you at least get what you needed? You look a little puffy.
Yeah, I got what I needed.
Let's get Let's eat.
I'm not hungry.
When do you start having weird cravings, is that soon? I don't know.
So far, I just feel nauseous.
Did you pee a lot more? No.
You should get a live-in.
I don't want a live-in.
Well, I could help.
I could help.
You know, I could watch it during the day, I could carry it around in one of those papoose things or like an stroller or whatever.
I have those.
All right, I know you're trying to help, but I think it's gonna be better if you just walk next to me and don't say much.
Okay.
You know what? Let's get lunch.
Okay.
So, you're back.
Yeah.
I'm sorry about last week.
Something came up and I just I didn't think.
I'm sorry.
It's okay.
But Dave came, so it didn't go to waste.
No, it didn't.
Did you and Dave talk about our session? Kind of.
We didn't talk much about it.
I mean, it's not like she asked me a lot of questions.
Well, I'm glad you're here back together again.
Katie, I know that you've had some doubts about coming back.
Yeah, well I've had doubts about a lot of things.
I know.
It's been about a week.
Why? What happened? Some friends of ours, Rita and Dan, broke up.
And that was unexpected? Yeah, yeah.
She isn't happy.
She hasn't been for a long time.
Actually, it's not that surprising, I mean My other friend, Sally, she's divorced, and Dave has this this weird friend, Jeff, and he's divorced.
Half the people we know are divorced.
It's like we're the only couple who's still together, you know? And I'm having trouble coming up with reasons why anymore.
Which is probably why Katie slept on the couch most of the week.
Not only did she sleep on the couch, she cancelled therapy looked for a new job, went shopping, bought new clothes, put on make-up changed her mind about having a baby, changed her mind about everything, yeah.
And then, she started sleeping on the couch.
What does that sound like to you? I think the question, Dave, is what does it sound like to you? Not good.
I slept on the couch not because of you but because of me.
- Right.
- I just I just couldn't climb into our bed.
I don't know, something snapped and I just couldn't be that woman.
And I hate the way I feel, you know.
I do.
It's awful.
It's God, why are we not enough anymore? I don't know.
I don't know.
I'm old.
I don't recognize my body.
I don't know who I am when I go out, when when men see me or don't see me.
I feel like I've left who I am somewhere, and I can't find it.
I mean, before I was always part of this.
I was yours, your wife, their mother.
But now there's like this There's like this big separation from all of that and I feel fully and totally lost.
You know? And the sex is the least of it, really.
I mean, I came in here because we weren't having sex, and I thought that if we could have it, then everything would be okay again, but but now I know why we stopped having sex.
And you know what, it's It's not because we're busy, and the kids, and we're tired He said we don't even know each other.
You know? It's all fucking gone.
I I know who you are.
I remember the woman I met.
- I haven't forgotten.
- That's the problem.
I don't wanna be who you see.
That's not who I want to be.
Yeah.
Yeah.
Well I didn't just come out of the box like this.
This is 12 long years of not always doing what I wanna do either.
Someone once told my husband and me that no one else could be in our relationship.
And I think that's true.
And also that we had to find the courage to be happy.
And I think that's true too.
The one thing a therapist can do, perhaps in times of darkness, is turn the light on.
I've been listening to you, and I think we've accomplished that.
The trick, now, is not to be so stunned by the glare that you want to turn it back off.
Where's Palek today? Did he have to work? Yeah.
I didn't want to bother him with this.
I am paranoid about all these stuff.
Cramping's normal, right? Usually, yeah.
I'll just take a quick look.
What? It's fine.
What? What don't you give your husband a call? There's a couple of things we need to check out here, OK? I'm so sorry.
A miscarriage is just somewhat common in first pregnancies.
There was no obvious reason for it.
We would recommend a month for your hormones to regulate.
But then, you guys could try again.
I know how painful this is.
I'm very sorry.
Don't.
- Carolyn - Just leave.
You're only here because it's gone.
That's why you came, because I lost it.
That's not true.
Just, I don't want you, I don't need you here.
Just leave.
Okay, I'm taking you home.
- Hi.
- Hello.
Hello.
We - We're here to get married.
- Well, good.
It'll be 250 dollars.
Cash.
Okay.
I don't think I have enough.
I'm not sure.
Thank you.
- I'll pay you back.
- Okay.
Got it.
That's it.
Do we need to sign anything or? I wish we'd never gone.
What the hell are we supposed to do now? Well, I don't know.
We were falling apart, and you weren't doing anything, so I I was trying to help us.
I was trying to save us.
Well, that really worked.
Then leave me, Dave.
Leave me.
Fuck you.
It'lle be just a couple of minutes.
I have to get the witness.
Thanks.
- You don't have to stay.
- I know I don't.
I'm fine.
No, you're not.
I'm not.
Can I get you anything? A cup of tea? Scotch? Yes, thanks.
This came today.
I thought you might like to see it.
To Arthur, for listening, and for the men and women who have the courage to be happy.
Get out! ? - I love you.
- I love you.
T H E E N D Presynchro: ::ITA-SA::
Stop.
You're a coward.
You're like your father.
- A fucking coward.
- I know.
Well, I'm not gonna be like your mother.
I'm not just gonna let you leave.
I'm pregnant! We're having a baby! Jesus Christ You got what you wanted.
You don't need me.
Get out of my way, please.
- No.
- Come on.
Thanks.
Hello.
Josh didn't eat his meat again.
Should I save it? No, don't bother.
Are you guys fighting? What? No, we're not fighting, sweetie.
You're not talking.
Sometimes parents fight, Bella, but, you know, we work it out.
I'm not getting married.
You don't mean that, sweetie.
Yes, I do.
I think you'll change your mind.
I don't want kids either.
Yes, you do.
No, I don't.
I've been good.
- Good.
- Yeah.
Really? How? I don't know I don't know.
I guess maybe I shouldn't be.
I stopped seeing Nick.
I'm sorry.
No! God, no.
I It's been really good for me to be alone.
I never thought I'd hear you say that.
It's funny.
What? Just - All that, I guess.
- Yeah.
I gotta go.
Me too.
Bye.
Bye.
Maybe you should just stay here tonight.
- The kids are up early, but - That's okay.
Thanks, I'm staying at my mother's, she's been out of town.
Palm Beach.
I mean, you gotta just Just take a break.
Let your mind wrap around it.
You know? I've had time.
I spent a year waiting through it.
Look, who knows? In 10 years down the line, you and Carolyn can have this little whoever and just laugh about this whole thing.
I mean, it's not easy, It's bone-breaking hell most of the time, but it does change you.
It makes you a better person.
You want another one? Yeah, if you are Hell, yeah.
You earned it.
Oh, hey, Julia.
Palek How is Carolyn feeling? Kelley, Dash, it's time for bed, let's go.
Come on! Move it.
Let's go.
No bed, please! - Come on! Move it.
- No! It's time for bed.
Hey, you two burgers, come on.
Let's go.
Listen to your mom, come on.
Give me hugs and kisses.
Go brush your teeth.
Say good night to Palek.
- Good night, Palek.
- Good night.
- Good night, uncle Palek.
- Good night, sweetie.
Will you pick up the dry cleaning? I have a late appointment tonight.
I don't know how retirement turned me into an errand boy.
Have I been neglecting you? No.
Just absent minded.
Let's talk about our vacation.
You know, the one we've been planning for 10 years? Here it comes They could survive for a week without you.
Hello.
Who? Olivia! What? When? What? Oh, no! Are you okay? Do you need anything? I'm so sorry, Olivia.
Thank you for calling me.
What? May.
John had a heart attack.
He's gone.
What? He lived alone.
He died alone.
Don't do this.
I led him on.
I kept it going for myself.
I didn't have to do that.
Stay home today.
No, I can't.
I've got to go in.
Where's What do you need? I ran into Hugo.
Oh, how was that? It was great.
Good.
Yeah, I saw him at the gas station, the same place where we broke up.
Yeah, I don't know, I think there's something really right about that.
Like, it was kind of meant to be.
Maybe.
Is Is that a gas station that you use, is it near where you live or where he lives? Yeah.
Yeah, I go there.
I don't know where he lives, but that's not the point, I mean Of all the places that I could have run into him, I ran into him there.
I mean, you have to admit, it's just kind of Destiny? No, more like fate.
Maybe.
I'm happy.
I mean, I've never been happier than standing outside that fucking gas station with him.
Oh, good.
I'm different with him.
I've changed.
I'm stronger, I'm less afraid.
I'm in love with him.
I've never stopped being in love with him.
Nick was just a rebound.
I mean, I know that.
You know that.
I mean Jamie.
If you're so sure, I don't think you'd be sitting here, selling me quite so hard.
I'm not selling you.
You're wrong.
I'm sure sometimes, that happens.
Fuck.
Finally! I've been waiting for you.
What happened? We have a big problem.
We were expecting 12x7 beams for the partition walls.
We've got aluminum channel beams.
The beams you gave me aren't certified for this kind of weight.
So I'm paying 20 people to eat.
All right.
Hold on.
Let me just look at the work order.
I don't have it here.
I didn't expect to get fucked by you guys, so I don't have it.
Well, I can't do much without it.
- Call somebody to get it.
- You call somebody and get it.
But you won't get very far with that kind of attitude.
Okay, you know, everyone thinks contractors do the shitty work, but it's you guys, who give us a substandard material.
What do you want me to do? - I want what I ordered! - You don't know what you ordered! Okay, you get your super on the phone right now.
All rigt.
Fine.
Go ahead, call him.
- I will.
I'll call him.
- He'll tell you what I just told you.
I can't help you without a work order.
You don't have a work order, so guess what? - I can't help you.
- Okay, you're a fucking asshole.
Fuckin'dick! Nice car! You fuck.
Hi.
Are you okay? Yeah, fine.
I'm working.
What do you need? Nothing, I was just checking to see if you were still on with Dan.
I forgot.
Do you wanna cancel? No, let's just get it over with.
Okay.
I'm gonna go back to the office, take care of some paperwork.
- Can you meet me there? - Yeah, sure.
All right, good.
I'll see you later.
Hey, Dave.
Yeah.
I love you.
I love you too.
Hello.
Hi.
Are you busy? I have No.
What's going on? I just You know, I didn't know if it was cool to call you or anything.
Yeah, it is.
Okay, good.
Good.
Is that it? No.
I'm hungry.
Yeah, I I love the food at the Mix, and But I haven't been able to come in there, because you know Come in and eat.
- Really? - Yeah All right, I will.
- Okay, bye.
- Bye.
Yeah, I moved out.
How does it feel? Weird, shitty Carolyn? How does that feel? It feels like being left.
Do you know what that feels like? It was clear the last time you were here that you were at a crossroads.
Do you feel this separation is permanent? Yeah.
The reason we're here is because there is things and wanna say to him, and he won't listen.
I can't make Palek listen.
- Well you can make him sit here.
- No, she can't.
I came here because you asked me to, so what do you wanna say? I want you to know you will never see this baby.
It will have nothing to do with you.
It won't be your child.
It will hate you.
You'll be worst than your father.
And I don't give a fuck how he feels anymore.
I don't care if he's hurt or confused or Any of it.
I'm done.
I'm finished.
Yeah, me too.
I should have seen it.
How many times did she tell me that she was unhappy? - I didn't do anything to stop it.
- You guys are still talking though? I'm talking now.
I'm the one talking.
About asking her to try.
Asking her to change.
I can imagine what you're going through.
No, you can't.
Look I hardly can, all right.
I don't know.
I'm not the one who wanted out, right? You're still talking to her on the phone though, right? I ended up calling her.
I don't know, I'm just gonna stay away.
- Hey.
- Hey.
How do we tell the kids that daddy's on business or something? We don't have to order, I just ask one of the cooks in the back to make us all a bunch of stuff.
Oh yeah? The one you slept with? I heard about it.
No.
He's not cooking your dinner.
You know, we can talk about it.
And we should.
I had to do it before you did.
- I need to order some drinks.
- The ironic thing is she always wanted to talk, right? About her day, my day, the kid's day, hell, your day Nothing changes.
Now the house is so quiet I can't even sleep.
Almost makes me wanna fucking cry.
I don't know She sounds happy.
Is she happy? So what are you doing? What have you been up to? I haven't heard shit.
There's nothing to hear.
I haven't been with anyone.
Why not? Just I wasn't feeling it.
I know, I always wanted Rita to be more like you.
I don't know who has our table.
I'm gonna step away for a minute.
I've seen those people before, at the park, where I was playing softball.
Why were you playing softball? Don't ask.
You know that lady was checking me out when I came in here? - No, she wasn't.
- Yes, she was.
You think every woman is just checking you out.
I never thought that.
You did.
Things change quickly.
Just take it one day at a time.
But aren't you supposed to stay, stay and try to work things out? Why would you just leave? Man I made myself sick.
I gained like a hundred pounds since we broke up.
- I like you like this.
- Yeah? Oh, shit.
We're swamped.
This is my section.
Sorry.
What can I get you to drink? Hugo, this is Anya.
Nick's ex, now current.
Hey.
Hi.
I'll have a dark beer please.
Me too.
- Okay.
I'll be right back.
- Thanks.
Don't.
- Anya! - Don't.
- Let me get this.
- No, it's on us.
It's on us.
I already took care of it.
Thank you, both.
For everything, you know.
For listening - No, no, hey.
- It's all right.
Thanks.
Shall we? Ready? Yeah.
You see? She was looking at me.
- Why? - I don't know.
Maybe she recognizes me.
She wasn't cheking you out.
Hi.
Hey.
I came to say What? I came to say I'm sorry.
For what I said.
I didn't mean it.
I think you did.
But it's okay.
At least, I mean, it was honest.
I wanted it so much, Palek.
No just for me.
For us.
With you.
If you can't do this I understand you can't be a father.
I do.
I see that.
But I still love you.
I know.
I know you love me.
I love you.
But that has nothing to do with this.
It has everything to do with this.
I have to go.
Okay.
What is this? No, what is it? What does it mean? It means I was acting out because you dumped me, is what it means.
Should I get one too because you dumped me? Do you wanna go get a drink? Nah.
What are you doing? I'm showing off for you.
- It's working.
- Good.
We can't I don't know how not to.
I don't know either.
But we can't - I can't.
- I know, I know.
I know.
I can't go through it, breaking up with you again, losing you again.
I can't.
Me either.
I mean when I saw you for the first time, I felt like I wanted to run away.
I did, I wanted to bail.
Why didn't you? It was too late.
You know, I remember the first time we had sex.
What about it? How boring it was.
Oh, shut up! And I remember being scared, nervous.
I knew we were going to that night.
I didn't.
I didn't even think you wanted to.
It's more like I always want to.
I will always want.
I knew we would be together after that.
No, you didn't.
Yes, I did.
I never felt that way before in my life.
I never thought I would.
When you proposed me, I wanted to die.
- I was so happy.
- Me too.
But? I'd already cheated on you.
I mean, it was like my stomach just dropped.
I was so in love with you.
And I knew what I'd done, and I just didn't know how to deal with it.
So I decided that you were the cheater.
Healthy! I forgive you.
Jesus! You don't wanna make this fucking easier on me, do you? I would never have forgiven you.
I mean, I can't even forgive myself.
Are you awake? Hello? OK.
Good night.
I love you.
I heard that.
I love you too.
I can't imagine life without you.
Being old without you.
What happens if I fuck up again? What happens if I destroy us? It's better than the alternative.
I love you.
I love you.
- Shit, it was fast! - There was no one in line.
Barely got a drag in.
Walk ahead of me, I'll stay down the line.
Just put it out, Mason.
You know, that stuff about second hand smoke is total bullshit.
There's more stuff in the air you breath or in the water you drink.
Did you at least get what you needed? You look a little puffy.
Yeah, I got what I needed.
Let's get Let's eat.
I'm not hungry.
When do you start having weird cravings, is that soon? I don't know.
So far, I just feel nauseous.
Did you pee a lot more? No.
You should get a live-in.
I don't want a live-in.
Well, I could help.
I could help.
You know, I could watch it during the day, I could carry it around in one of those papoose things or like an stroller or whatever.
I have those.
All right, I know you're trying to help, but I think it's gonna be better if you just walk next to me and don't say much.
Okay.
You know what? Let's get lunch.
Okay.
So, you're back.
Yeah.
I'm sorry about last week.
Something came up and I just I didn't think.
I'm sorry.
It's okay.
But Dave came, so it didn't go to waste.
No, it didn't.
Did you and Dave talk about our session? Kind of.
We didn't talk much about it.
I mean, it's not like she asked me a lot of questions.
Well, I'm glad you're here back together again.
Katie, I know that you've had some doubts about coming back.
Yeah, well I've had doubts about a lot of things.
I know.
It's been about a week.
Why? What happened? Some friends of ours, Rita and Dan, broke up.
And that was unexpected? Yeah, yeah.
She isn't happy.
She hasn't been for a long time.
Actually, it's not that surprising, I mean My other friend, Sally, she's divorced, and Dave has this this weird friend, Jeff, and he's divorced.
Half the people we know are divorced.
It's like we're the only couple who's still together, you know? And I'm having trouble coming up with reasons why anymore.
Which is probably why Katie slept on the couch most of the week.
Not only did she sleep on the couch, she cancelled therapy looked for a new job, went shopping, bought new clothes, put on make-up changed her mind about having a baby, changed her mind about everything, yeah.
And then, she started sleeping on the couch.
What does that sound like to you? I think the question, Dave, is what does it sound like to you? Not good.
I slept on the couch not because of you but because of me.
- Right.
- I just I just couldn't climb into our bed.
I don't know, something snapped and I just couldn't be that woman.
And I hate the way I feel, you know.
I do.
It's awful.
It's God, why are we not enough anymore? I don't know.
I don't know.
I'm old.
I don't recognize my body.
I don't know who I am when I go out, when when men see me or don't see me.
I feel like I've left who I am somewhere, and I can't find it.
I mean, before I was always part of this.
I was yours, your wife, their mother.
But now there's like this There's like this big separation from all of that and I feel fully and totally lost.
You know? And the sex is the least of it, really.
I mean, I came in here because we weren't having sex, and I thought that if we could have it, then everything would be okay again, but but now I know why we stopped having sex.
And you know what, it's It's not because we're busy, and the kids, and we're tired He said we don't even know each other.
You know? It's all fucking gone.
I I know who you are.
I remember the woman I met.
- I haven't forgotten.
- That's the problem.
I don't wanna be who you see.
That's not who I want to be.
Yeah.
Yeah.
Well I didn't just come out of the box like this.
This is 12 long years of not always doing what I wanna do either.
Someone once told my husband and me that no one else could be in our relationship.
And I think that's true.
And also that we had to find the courage to be happy.
And I think that's true too.
The one thing a therapist can do, perhaps in times of darkness, is turn the light on.
I've been listening to you, and I think we've accomplished that.
The trick, now, is not to be so stunned by the glare that you want to turn it back off.
Where's Palek today? Did he have to work? Yeah.
I didn't want to bother him with this.
I am paranoid about all these stuff.
Cramping's normal, right? Usually, yeah.
I'll just take a quick look.
What? It's fine.
What? What don't you give your husband a call? There's a couple of things we need to check out here, OK? I'm so sorry.
A miscarriage is just somewhat common in first pregnancies.
There was no obvious reason for it.
We would recommend a month for your hormones to regulate.
But then, you guys could try again.
I know how painful this is.
I'm very sorry.
Don't.
- Carolyn - Just leave.
You're only here because it's gone.
That's why you came, because I lost it.
That's not true.
Just, I don't want you, I don't need you here.
Just leave.
Okay, I'm taking you home.
- Hi.
- Hello.
Hello.
We - We're here to get married.
- Well, good.
It'll be 250 dollars.
Cash.
Okay.
I don't think I have enough.
I'm not sure.
Thank you.
- I'll pay you back.
- Okay.
Got it.
That's it.
Do we need to sign anything or? I wish we'd never gone.
What the hell are we supposed to do now? Well, I don't know.
We were falling apart, and you weren't doing anything, so I I was trying to help us.
I was trying to save us.
Well, that really worked.
Then leave me, Dave.
Leave me.
Fuck you.
It'lle be just a couple of minutes.
I have to get the witness.
Thanks.
- You don't have to stay.
- I know I don't.
I'm fine.
No, you're not.
I'm not.
Can I get you anything? A cup of tea? Scotch? Yes, thanks.
This came today.
I thought you might like to see it.
To Arthur, for listening, and for the men and women who have the courage to be happy.
Get out! ? - I love you.
- I love you.
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