Berserk (Anime Series) (1997) s01e12 Episode Script

Feel no shame about shape.
Weather changes the phrase.
Even mother will show you another way.
So, put your glasses on.
Nothing will be wrong.
There's no blame, there's no fame.
It's up to you.
The first words should be found.
Whatever holds you back.
I can I can get it off.
Tell me what Tell me what Tell me what you want.
I don't know why I don't know why I don't know why you are afraid.
Tell me what Tell me what Tell me what you'd say.
I don't know why I don't know why Too late It's too late.
It's up to you whether you want to follow me or not.
Now you've learned what it means to fight, haven't you? Hey.
Where am I? You are in a cave by the river.
Luckily, we fell into the river and survived.
A river? Come on, don't you remember anything? We were about to die from drowning, but you don't seem too worried about that! Dammit! Don't get up yet, your fever hasn't completely gone down.
You can't blame me, you were freezing and completely drenched.
What are you looking at? That hurt, what's the meaning of this? I'm the one who saved your life! Shit, stop it! Oh, lay off! Enough of this crap! You're hysterical! I didn't mean to go out of my way for you, but Even though you were covered in armor, I desperately dragged you from the river! After that, you haven't thanked me.
How dare you throw a knife at me? I'd beat you and dislocate your jaw if you weren't a woman! I do not like it, a mere woman such as you, acting like a knight.
You're easily driven into a frenzy.
That's why a woman like you isn't cut out for war.
Hey Not my choice I was not I was not born to be a woman by choice! Well, I'm sorry.
Damn you! You crazy broad! Why don't you try to calm down? Hands off! Let go of me I told you so.
Hey, put this on.
It dried out while I was wearing it.
What? Are you still crying? Shut up! Turn around now! How pathetic Whatever happened to me, I would have never asked for your help.
Great, she really hates me.
Hey, why did you enlist in the Band of the Hawk anyway? Isn't it tough to be a woman in this business? No matter the circumstances Well, it's not my business, I guess.
Griffith It's because of Griffith.
I'm from a small farming village deep in the mountains.
The crops were meager and the soil was sterile Nevertheless, we had been bled dry by heavy taxes for the war effort.
Frequently, we would eat nothing for three days at a time.
Many people died of hunger each winter Our village was along the border, so it often became involved in skirmishes.
Each time it happened We were forced to watch them trample our houses and fields, unable to protest.
There were similar stories from all the nearby villages.
Everyone was used to being plundered and having their lives crushed And I thought it was just a matter of course.
One day A nobleman was passing by our village and I caught his eye.
The nobleman offered to take me as his waiting maid.
After hesitating for a while, my father ended up accepting his offer.
I took it for granted that my father would give the noble his youngest daughter who was not of much help to the family.
My parents had to reduce the number of mouths to feed.
However It's no wonder that it turned out the way it did It couldn't be true that a noble would take the trouble to save a girl from a poor family out of kindness, that would be whimsy.
There is no choice this is just how things are Thinking like that always convinced me to face reality.
Who do you think you are, does being nobility make you chosen by God? He looked divine and the moment was unreal.
God mercifully sent an angel to this pathetic, powerless girl.
I really believed that for a moment.
But, what the angel gave me was not the helping hand I expected.
If you have something to protect, take the sword! I was frightened.
Whether I stabbed him with the sword or he accidentally impaled himself Whichever happened, I had killed a man.
The stranger just nodded slowly and knowingly.
It was then I realized that he had extended to me a true helping hand.
Griffith, we've cleared everything out.
Hey, wait What am I supposed to do? Do whatever you like.
I want Please bring me with you! No way, don't make jokes.
We are not just petty thieves! We are collecting war funds in order to raise an army! It would be a joke if we went off to war accompanied by kids and women! Please, I will learn how to wield a sword if you demand it! So please Oh boy, she's serious.
What if you wind up dead? I told you Do whatever you like.
It's up to you whether to follow me or not.
Now you've learned what it means to fight, haven't you? But It's you who gave me a sword and a blanket.
Everything has changed since the day I met him.
My old way of living, where I just tolerated everything and waited turned into a new life, where I would fight to win what I wanted.
Of course, I worshipped Griffith.
I think I'm still lost in a dream.
An outcast band of commoners has become an invincible army in battle.
It's like a miracle the way we have fought.
Above everything, our leader is a young man who still seems so innocent.
His origin is even common, just like ours.
A miracle! For me, Griffith embodied the very idea of a miracle.
While I managed to make myself a soldier somehow the Hawks became involved in a territorial dispute led by a local nobleman.
The nobleman was well known and very wealthy.
But he had a bad reputation that didn't reflect his wealth derived from his unsavory tastes.
Officially, he hired young kids from villages as his valets.
In reality, the kids were imprisoned to serve the noble's taste for pederasty.
Their eyes looked vacant and numbly frightened.
I felt a chill go down my spine.
Fear and hatred welled up inside me, I was totally horrified at the sight.
It reminded me that a such a thing could have happened to me.
It was the same hand that saved me that he put on my shoulder then.
Wonderfully, his hand always stopped my shivering.
Later, after we had been through several skirmishes The boy was an apprentice soldier who had enlisted in the Hawks half a year before.
Griffith.
What's that? The boy's belongings Griffith? He must have really wanted to be a knight.
I remember this boy well.
He always gazed at me as one might admire the hero of a story.
I wonder if he was happy.
Was he able to die as if in a dream, a dream that was close to being fulfilled? I think my dream must have murdered this boy.
Before then, I had never seen Griffith so depressed.
A man like Griffith let his shoulders droop.
And since that moment, Griffith gradually began to look different.
It was a few days after we returned from that battle, and night had fallen.
Griffith! No way, you've got to be kidding! A proud guy like him was Caska It feels so nice, won't you join me? Well, l, uh You think I'm disgusting? No Why Why were you there last night? Wait a minute, I was mistaken, right? You were there for a war council or something last night.
No What? You weren't mistaken.
How could you, with him? For money.
To maintain an army costs lots of money.
Soldiers, horses, equipment, provisions, nothing is for free.
But the Band of the Hawk will grow much larger nevertheless And I must help my army grow.
That's why I need such immense war funds.
And that old man is interested in me, while I am interested in his fortune.
Our interests have come to an agreement.
No, even so, no way Why can't things stay as they are? If we're able to keep on winning, we could earn all the money you need one day.
That would take a tremendous amount of time, and The more we fight in battles, the more we lose soldiers.
You mean that boy, don't you? No, I don't.
I came to this conclusion rationally.
Which brings less risk to me, losing hundreds of my soldiers in ten battles or snaring a rich old man? Listen, Caska.
I feel no responsibility to comrades who've lost their lives due to my commands.
Because, they chose to fight in each battle Griffith? Just as I chose this But, if there is something that I can do for them something I can do for the dead I must fight to win! I must keep on winning to attain my dream, a dream they clung to and risked their lives for! Griffith, stop it! I can't just step over the bones of the dead in order to realize my dream.
It is a blood-smeared dream, after all.
I don't regret or feel guilty about it.
But my dream will never come to fruition unless I'm willing to get myself dirty.
And if I don't, then I'll be risking all those lives Stop it.
Stop doing it.
It's all right.
It's nothing.
Griffith had already recovered himself by the time he put his hand on my shoulder.
And it made me very sad.
Most people have abandoned their dreams long ago but Griffith is still trying to realize his.
However, he has been forced to put something immeasurable on his shoulders, because of his dream's immensity and purity.
One who intends to make such a dream reality inevitably endures terrible things.
He is not innately strong.
But now, he has to be stronger than ever.
I want to stand by him.
If he dedicates himself entirely to his dream If he has to fight to create his dream I want to be a sword for him.
I want to stand by him.
I want to be something important, that will help him fulfill his dream.
Once, I believed that my wish would be granted.
But then came the time when you appeared before us.
Do you remember what Griffith said to you on the hill that day? I want you to join us, Guts! Those words He had never said such kind words to anyone.
I was very annoyed about it.
I was envious of you, because Griffith said that about you as if it were nothing.
I tried to convince myself Griffith only needed you as a soldier, one who would strengthen the Hawks However, a calm man like Griffith acts impulsively when something happens to you.
It is as if as if Griffith has faith in you, but you don't understand what the consequences of that could be! I cannot forget the fact that your selfishness exposed Griffith to lethal danger! I don't care if you drop dead somewhere in battle! But, I will never forgive you if you ruin the Hawks, Griffith's dream! And I can't forgive you for making Griffith change like he has Why? Why did he choose you? Why you? W-What are you doing? Shush! Hey listen, I think they're probably dead by now.
Think about how they fell from the cliff It doesn't matter whether they are alive or not.
Sir Adon promised us that he will pay the reward Because it's the leader of the Hawk's Raiders and that female commander.
Why don't we look around downstream from here? The bodies may have drifted because of the current.
Listen.
Take this medicine to lower your fever.
We have no time to rest anymore.
We're going as soon as it gets dark.