Felicity s01e12 Episode Script
Friends
Previously on "Felicity" I like the dancing sandwich maker who hates Halloween, the jazz freak who thinks Charlie Parker's overrated.
The Elena I do have some trouble with, however, is the one who pushes people away because she's so damn scared to admit she might actually like them.
I found out my birth mom's name last year, and she lives in New York.
Is I mean, that's not why you came here? What? Excuse me Do you know are these books actually in order, or is this some form of freshman hazing? I'm working, Miss lavender sweater, army pants, big hair.
What? This is my space my workspace.
Go make out somewhere else.
Uh, maybe maybe you didn't hear me.
Um, I'm just I'm looking for a book.
Sideburns, jeans, olive shirt Okay, l-I'll go.
Gold ring? Oh.
Noel and and me making out during finals.
- Were you - Trying to study? Yeah.
Sorry.
Wow, you remember me? I need my space.
People keep taking my space.
Oh, right, sorry.
Enjoy it, please.
Enjoy your space.
That was my space.
That's that's great.
Um That' That's Blair.
And not Elena.
Dear Sally one of the things that I've noticed about college is that people's lives are always happening right in front of you.
I mean, y-you see how they eat, how they sleep.
Meghan sleeps butt naked, by the way.
I mean, you see their relationships, who they're kissing.
And, you know, suddenly you find yourself in the middle of someone else's life, whether you want to be or not.
What if one of your friends saw me kissing another guy? I'm sorry, what? Uh, what if one of your friends saw me kissing another guy? Y- You kissed another guy? This is a hypothetical.
So, say one of your friends Who? Just a friend of yours.
No, who who were you kissing? Oh, my God.
Okay, say one of your hypothetical friends saw me hypothetically kissing - some hypothetical guy.
- Mm-hmm.
Would would you want him to tell you about it? - No.
- No? - No.
- Oh.
Yeah no.
And why I'm just curious are we talking about this, 'cause it's giving me a headache.
I saw Blair kissing some girl in the stacks.
Are you sure? Yeah.
And it wasn't just a goodbye kiss that was supposed to be on the cheek but accidentally ended up on the lips? because that happened to me with my mom once.
And it was really awkward it was like, "Mom" Noel I don't think you should tell her.
If it were me, I'd want to know.
Nuh you say that, but getting in the middle of these things can can be ugly.
I know.
Trust me.
There' a reason there' not some phrase like "Guess what?" Or a funny thing that you can use at the beginning of the sentence "Your boyfriend' cheating on you," because it would just make it way too easy to just say it.
I understand covalent bonds just fine, but when he goes into that electron-sharing business and energy levels, I'm like, "How do you share electrons?" I mean Why are you so quiet? You're never quiet.
Funny thing uh What is? Nothing.
It's not funny.
Yesterday, l - I was up in the stacks.
I was looking for this Faulkner book, um Anyway, it wasn't where it was supposed to be.
Um Could my Ancient-Religions professor be any older? I swear the man was busing tables at the Last Supper.
- See, now, that is wrong.
- I am not lying.
Hey.
Hi.
Tara, this is Felicity.
Felicity, this is Tara.
This is my girl from way back.
Yeah.
She transferred here this semester.
Elena's talked a lot about you.
It's good to put a face to the name.
Yeah or a name to a face.
So, anyway, I have gained 5 pounds since I've been here.
- What's up with that? - All that pizza.
Mmm.
Well, I'm not giving that up, see? Julie: I found her.
Whoa, whoa, whoa.
You found your birth mom? Yeah.
I cannot believe this.
I have been looking for her for so long, and this guy, he finds her in four days.
What guy? This investigator guy I found on the Internet.
See, l-I didn't even know you were looking for her.
I told you that I had her name, which isn't even her married name.
It's it's Anderson Carol Anderson.
She owns this architectural firm, she's 36, 5'9", brown hair, brown eyes God.
When she gave me up, she was 18, in college.
Okay, so what proof do you have that this is really her? I guess he just found my original birth certificate or something.
I don't know.
I don't know.
I don't care.
I know.
I know you don't.
I just mean - I just want to be sure that this is really - I'm sure.
Okay.
This has got to be really weird, reading all this.
It feels so different now that she's this real person.
So, what are you gonna do now? I go knock on the door.
Just like that? Just like what? No, I just mean, what happens, you know, - what happens if she - What happens if she doesn't want to see me? Yeah.
Well, she didn't give me a choice when she gave me up.
Why should she get a choice now? Come on! Come on! Come on! What the hell is going on?! Uh, come again? That's the sound of my Almond Joy not dropping.
That's pretty good.
Hey, stop it, man! You said you were getting money for a new machine, like, a month ago.
These are the new machines.
What? These are used! They're junk! No, "refurbished" I believe is the term.
And and I got a deal on them.
Oh, so instead of buying one new machine that works, you buy two crappy-ass machines that don't? It felt good at the time.
Man, you are so unfit to be an R.
A.
I can't wait for evaluations.
Sensa: I can do it.
What? Get a new machine.
My cousin Yuri can get anything.
Yeah, we tried that once, and a kid almost died of Estonian-chocolate poisoning.
You need machines.
Yuri can help.
He likes you.
I'm flattered, but I can figure this one out on my own, thank you.
You get a cut of the profits with Yuri's machine.
I can't Is that legal? Come into my family's warehouse, meet with Yuri.
He'll hook you up.
Your family's warehouse.
Why can't he come here? This is business.
We do business a certain way.
And and what way is that? The family way.
Hey.
Oh.
Hey.
- Thanks.
- Yeah.
Hey.
- What's up? - What do you mean? I mean, are we cool? I- I just have a class.
So we are cool? Blair, I saw you.
Saw me what? Kissing Tara in the stacks yesterday.
And maybe you saw me, too, which is why you keep asking if we're cool.
Is this why you're trippin'? I wasn't even in the library yesterday.
Blair, I saw you.
You're really serious? Felicity, for real, I wasn't there.
Okay, if you supposedly saw me, how come I didn't see you? Because you were turned around.
So you see the back of some brother's head, and of course it has to be me.
Whatever.
Well, I'm glad you didn't say anything, 'cause I'm seeing really, really ugly things happening now.
I know.
Like scratching and hair pulling.
The the craziest thing is that if I would have never seen Blair kiss Tara, I would have met her and we probably would have become friends.
And she'd be kissing me now.
All right, really bad joke.
Hey.
Hi.
You could make a lot of money selling your hair.
I know some people.
I'll keep that in mind.
So, where are we headed? Brighton Beach.
Okay, how many trains is that? No trains.
My cousin' got a gypsy cab.
Of course he does.
Help me! Julie: Okay, so I'm gonna take the 6th train up to 77 th Street, or I could take the express up to 86th Street, but then I would have to walk.
- Look, why don't you just take a cab? - Because I'd like to eat this week.
No, I'm serious.
Here.
It's just a lot easier.
Ben, I'm not gonna take your money.
There.
You just paid me back.
I want to say good luck, but I don't even know if that's right.
I don't know.
You know, it's gonna be like meeting an aunt that I've never met, or a cousin, you know? Oh, my God! Look at my hair! It looks like crap! Look at this.
I look like I'm freaking 12 years old.
Look you look great.
Really? Yes.
But I'd put the little thingies back.
I want you to come with me.
Will you? Yeah.
Okay.
- Hold this.
- Of course.
For a second.
All right.
You know, this is how Sean gets ready every morning.
You're kidding me.
Yes, I'm kidding you.
So this is it your family's warehouse? Yeah.
Noel, before we go in, I should tell you something.
My family, they worry about me being alone in school.
- Really? - Yeah, I'm the only girl.
So I figure they see you, they won't worry so much.
Wow.
Well, yeah.
Thank you.
I like to think I'm a damn good R.
A.
I told them you were my boyfriend.
Because why? Because you're a nice guy.
Who has a girlfriend.
I know.
Okay, so tell me that you're joking.
All those pages I get it's them checking on me.
This gets them off my back and you, a great deal on vending machines.
It's a win-win.
Okay, what about my self-respect? You get it back in an hour.
Look there he goes! There he goes.
Didn't I tell you? Man: My little one! Papa! Hello.
Papa, this is Noel.
Hi.
Noelle! Sensa told us so much about you.
Oh it's it's "Noel," actually.
And it's all true, I'm sure.
The fire.
Yeah.
Ah, yes the fire.
Fire? Yeah, in the dormitory.
You took our Sensa, put her on your back, and got to safety.
She told you.
That's great.
- Ahh! - Oh! Sensa, you told him.
Oh.
Excuse me.
Vladim you are a hero.
I- I'm not.
- You are.
- Okay.
Okay! Ha.
Right.
Thanks.
I'm uh, I'm just gonna go Uh, Sensa! Man: Noelle! Noelle.
"Noel.
" It's it's "Noel.
" Hi.
Uh, I'm Sit, sit! Okay, hi.
Hi.
I win! That that was fun.
Thanks.
Leonid, give him a chance.
Okay.
Best 9 of 10.
That doesn't that doesn't make sense, but that was good.
How do you lift Sensa with that arm? One more time.
One more.
He is not afraid.
Okay.
One, two, three.
- Ahh! - Sensa! That's a nice brownstone.
Yeah.
I bet you she has a maid or something that would answer the door.
Maybe.
Maybe, yeah.
You know, I don't even know what we're doing here right now.
This is the middle of the day.
She's, like, this big architect person with a life.
Julie, it is completely normal to be scared.
People on "Ricki Lake," when they first meet, they just start bawling.
And I just I don't want to do that when I see her, you know? Yeah, I know, I know, I know.
Or maybe she'll just slam the door in my face.
You know what? I saw a pay phone on the corner.
If you want, you can call her first.
Or I can do it, or whatever whatever you need.
What would I say? She's not even looking for me.
You you don't know that, though.
Yes, I do.
The adoption agency told me that the only way that I can look at my records is if she was looking for me.
I- I don't want to do this.
- What? - I don't.
I ca Let's go.
- I thought you really - I don't want to.
- I thought you really wanted to do th - Let's just go.
Let's just go.
Fire is everywhere.
Smoke is it's it's everywhere also.
And we're on the seventh floor, and we're trapped.
And then I remember that the dumpsters haven't been emptied yet.
They get emptied tomorrow, and they're right below my window.
So l-l-I grab Sensa.
How? Okay.
How? I'll show you.
What? Noel! Whoo! Like this.
And we leap to safety.
To the hero! The hero! Please, no more.
I can't.
You are a stick.
Eat.
Uh, okay.
Will you excuse us? My family they love you.
- Where's Yuri? - He's stuck in Jersey.
But he said we could meet tomorrow.
What?! That was his page when we walked in.
De uh that was two hours ago.
That was seven seven sausages ago.
I thought you were having fun.
No, I think they're talking about adding the catalyst to the reagent.
They're not talking about adding the catalyst Turn on Hot 97! Tara, we're trying to study.
It's our jam! Hey! You remember that? Okay, ready? Five, six, seven, eight.
You're supposed to turn! All right, all right, okay, okay.
Hey! - Five, six, seven, eight.
- Five, six, seven, eight.
And turn.
Hey! - All freestyle! Freestyle! - Whoo, whoo! Hey, girl, come on.
Come on! You know, I read somewhere that eyewitness testimony is sometimes the most unreliable because of the human factor.
I mean, would I bet my life that it was Blair in the stacks? No.
And and Elena seems really happy.
So what I'm thinking is with things like this, the truth usually comes out on its own, whatever it is, so I'm just gonna stay out of it.
Oh.
You're back! I'm back.
Are are you drunk? No.
Yes, but it's it's not my fault.
They wanted me to feel like family, which is apparently with vodka and lots of sausage.
And Sensa's never brought a boyfriend around before.
Oh, wait.
What? Yeah, I had to I had to pretend to be her boyfriend so I could get, you know, a good deal on on a vending machine.
Uh, and Yuri never even showed up, so I got to go back and do the whole thing again tomorrow.
Look, don't be jealous.
I'm sure I'm supposed to be, but it's just too sad.
Not even a little? Sorry.
Felicity? Can I talk to you? Sure.
Felicity: The only time I've ever been sent to the principal' office was in the fourth grade.
This boy kept calling me "Fellatio Porter," and even though I didn't know what that meant, I put 27 packets of salt into his orange-juice cup.
I remember that feeling of walking into the unknown.
I think the anticipation was almost scarier than anything else.
Almost.
You saw Blair and Tara kiss in the stacks.
Is that a question or a statement? Blair says you saw them.
I said she saw a mistake.
I already heard from you.
But you're not hearing me.
Tara was upset about her breakup.
I was trying to make her feel better.
She went to kiss me on the cheek, and it ended up on the lips.
And, yeah, it took us a second to pull away, but we did.
Show me.
What? Show me how a mistake like that happens.
Elena, you're trippin'! Prove it! This is stupid.
Fine.
We're talking I turn my head I lean in like this When I turn back That's it.
Is that what you saw? l- I don't know.
You don't know? I mean, I'm I'm trying to remember.
Look, I'm sorry I lied about being there, but I panicked.
Felicity? Maybe.
I mean, it it it could have been.
It happened with Noel and and his mom once.
- Wait.
- What? Of course.
I never pictured you as a Payday kind of guy.
- You you picture me? - What? No.
Um I just I needed something to say, and that's, unfortunately, what came together.
Right.
No, they're for Julie.
She loves these things.
- Yeah.
- All right, I'll see you later.
- All right.
What? Hey, it's Payday.
There.
Thanks.
So, you didn't come by last night.
Yeah, I felt like just hanging around the dorm.
Right.
I've just been thinking a lot about what happened yesterday.
Yeah, I freaked out a little bit, that's all.
Yeah, I know.
Listen, I know how hard it must be to know where she lives.
I know that.
I just I think you got to take some time off from this.
Some time off? Yeah, or, you know, you should write her a letter or something instead of just showing up at her door.
Yeah, well, you know what? I've been doing that.
I've been sitting here for an hour, and all I can come up with is, "Dear Carol, I" Right, I think that's good I think it's good that you're doing that, - that you're trying to make some sort of connection.
- Ben, look, I have thought about this a lot definitely more than you so thank you for your insight, but this is not your problem.
Not my problem? All I keep hearing you say is "wait" and "what if" and "are you sure?" Listen to me that's because I'm worried about you.
I care about what happens to you.
All the stuff that's already happened to you, what if what if you show up at her door and she rejects you? How are you gonna be able to handle that? Ben I don't know how I would have gotten through all that stuff that happened with Zack.
You have been incredible.
But this is different, okay? Okay.
Good morning.
So, check this.
Joshua Redman's playing at Station 4 tomorrow night, and I got us two tickets because I figure at a jazz club, you won't even have to talk to me, since you're obviously still a little heated.
We'll just bob our heads.
Elena how long are you gonna keep kicking me to the curb? Until I can get the picture of you and Tara taking a second to pull away out of my head.
- Hey.
- Hey! - God, I feel like I haven't seen you in forever.
- I know.
And, of course, now I'm running off to a study session with Elena.
Can you tell me why you make tapes to Sally instead of writing? I- I guess because it's just easier for me to express what I'm really feeling when I just talk, you know? I don't I don't censor myself like I do when I write.
can I borrow your tape recorder? Sure.
What's going on? It's it's a long story, but I'll tell you about it over breakfast tomorrow.
Okay.
Sally, uh, I'm gonna have to end this one early.
I'm lending my tape recorder to Julie.
Say hi to Sally.
Hi, Sally.
Okay, I miss you.
Talk back soon.
Love, Felicity.
- Thank you.
- You're welcome.
Bye.
Bye.
Sensa likes you, I like you.
I give you the 4000.
Is like a fine woman, yes? You give her money, you pull her knobs - Yuri! - What? I'm joking.
He knows I'm joking.
Now you pay for machine with cut of your profits.
Eh, take you about a year.
Great.
So, that's it? Now we drink.
Oh, God.
Um - Mmm.
- Okay.
To your health.
To your health.
Microwave.
Microwave.
Noelle.
Noelle Noelle! "Noel.
" Um Microwave.
Hi.
I think Yuri's right you're a good man.
Oh.
Uh, thank you.
Even though you're not her boyfriend.
Of course I am.
What, you don't think I know my little sister? Right.
Does anybody else know? No.
They worry about her at college.
They want to know that she's happy, that she has a friend.
Anyone who would go through this, I know she has at least one good friend.
She does.
Now we wrestle.
Uh, but I thought, um I'll let you win.
It looks good.
Right, right.
You all right? Want to go again? Come on 9 out of 10.
No, that' good.
Oh, my God.
Okay.
Dear Carol my name is Julie Emrick.
I was born March 10, 1980, in New York at the Columbia Presbyterian Hospital.
I believe I'm your daughter.
Okay.
Hopefully, you're still listening.
I guess I've, uh been searching for you for a long time.
I don't know.
It's just just something I need to do.
I've had a-a pretty good life so far.
I love my parents.
They're great.
I'm a freshman in college.
I'm gonna major in Music.
Uh I've got real good friends.
But there's just there's always been something missing, and I say that it's a hole when people ask, but it's more like this this question that just never, uh goes away.
Look, I I look in the mirror, and I wonder where my brown eyes come from or why my nose turns up a little at the end or why I love to play guitar or the fact that I can eat three candy bars in one day and not get fat.
Thank you for that.
I- I don't want anything from you money or anything.
I just I would just like to meet you, even if i-it's just once and just finally see myself reflected in in someone else.
Because l-I think that I need that.
And just that maybe that, um that that you think about me, too, sometimes.
And thank you for my life.
You know, I I never thanked you for being there for me.
I know it was hard not saying anything, but I'm glad you stayed out of it because I don't know if I would have believed him if he didn't come to me first.
So you've forgiven him? Yeah.
But I'm gonna milk it for a few more days.
And what about Tara? Oh, that's my girl, you know.
She made a mistake.
She apologized.
Move on.
That's big of you.
Eh, if you can't trust your friends, who can you trust? Anyway Thanks.
Sure.
- Where are you going? - Uh, bathroom.
Oh, use a paper towel to open the door when you leave.
What? I saw it on "Oprah.
" They did this ultraviolet-photography thing where they found traces of semen on, like, 7 out of 10 door handles.
Did you just say "traces of semen"? Yeah.
As the basis of the coordinate system, photogenerated electron holds NC cubed Excuse me.
I'm working, Miss cream cable-knit sweater, V- neck, black I- I know, yeah.
Uh, this is your space.
- Space mm-hmm.
- I know that.
Um, you know, the the two people who took your space after me? Jeans, Timberlands, bald head? Yes.
Black pants, fuchsia shirt, braids? - Right, right, okay.
- That's them.
Um, did they ever make out in, uh your space before that? Three times three times they made out in my space.
First time bluejeans, sweat shirt, Jordans.
Second time cowboy shirt rolled up at sleeves, black jeans, Jordans No socks cold day, no socks.
Strange.
You can't look at a door handle the same, can you? What? Look, uh, m-maybe there's still, you know, a reason or some explanation for it, but I'm pretty sure the kiss I saw between Blair and Tara wasn't a mistake.
What? I'm sorry.
I You believed me before, but I wasn't really telling you the truth.
They said it was a mistake It's a mistake.
Elena, there's some guy in the stacks who says they've been up there, like, three times.
What guy? I don't know his name.
He's just some weird guy.
Some weird guy? No, it's not just some weird guy.
I mean, that's what I believed, too.
Remember what you said about, you know, trusting your friends? Is that why you're saying that because we're friends? Yes.
How good of friends are we? Have you ever been to my house? Um, no, uh Have I ever cried in front of you or laughed so hard until we were rolling on the floor? Well, no, but Were you in the hospital with me when my mom died? Because Tara was.
You asked me, you know, what I saw, - and I'm just trying to be honest with you.
- Believing you means that she's lying in my face, and I can't do that.
Elena, doesn't this look like your last boyfriend, except white with more hair? Hey, for the record, I am bald by choice.
Yeah, you choose to keep telling yourself that.
What's going on? I forgot I have a meeting with my Chem T.
A.
So, what time do you want me to come get you? Mr.
Redman goes on at 10:00.
Whenever.
9:00.
I'll see you.
Bye.
Noel: What are you doing? Knock it off.
I'm reading here.
No, I'm still reading.
You know, I could actually program the machine to give you a two-for-one.
Really? Yeah, but since you charged me for coffee, I mnh-mnh.
Hey, I thought you were gonna be studying all afternoon.
Yeah, I was supposed to study with Elena, but she didn't call.
I didn't call her either, so Look, you were honest.
You can't be mad at yourself for that, okay? Yeah.
I just I thought we were better friends than that.
I know.
Man: Good afternoon, Anderson & Stathis designs.
Good afternoon, Anderson & Stathis designs.
Please hold one minute.
Good afternoon, Anderson & Stathis designs.
Who can I connect you to? Please hold one second.
Excuse me, can, um, you tell me where Carol Anderson's office is? Upstairs.
Okay.
Thanks.
Thanks for holding.
Who can I connect you to? Great.
Thanks.
Oh, oh, hey, Rod, I was just looking for you.
Woman: I see it.
Okay.
I can make that change.
Yeah, I've got it I've got it on both copies.
Yeah, I'm checking it now.
And we'll fax over two copies.
Right.
Okay.
Thank you.
Mm-hmm.
Hi, um They told me that Carol Anderson's office You're here for the internship? I'm sorry? The internship you want an application? I just I want to drop off Oh, uh, Ms.
Anderson - your messages.
- Oh, thanks.
Oh, Tina, I need you to reschedule with Patty Perez for next Friday - And I'd like to see the sketches for the Latham project.
- No problem.
Thanks.
So the application? Hello? What? Um thank you.
Blair: Yo.
- Hey.
- Hey.
I can't go to that concert with you tonight.
Why not? I just have way too much studying to do.
You're mad.
No, it has nothing to do with that.
You're still mad.
I just I've got way too much work.
Felicity and I are gonna be in the lab all night tonight.
I got the tickets.
Look Go anyway.
- You sure? - Yeah.
Well okay.
See you tomorrow.
See you tomorrow.
* I had to let you go * * I had to let you go * Sorry.
It's all right.
Noel There's someone at your door.
Okay.
I'll get it.
I know I don't have the right to ask you for much right now but would you mind coming out with me for a while? What's going on? I just wouldn't mind having your company right now.
Just, uh just give me a minute, okay.
* Lie to me * * Say to me * * That it' all forgotten * * Teach me things I've never known * * I can't bear to let them go * * All the things you taught me * * Tell me my heart' not broken * * All the rest can wait * * Till I find a way to make it true again * * Through the night, I make my plan * * I could win you back again * * It will be tomorrow * * Come the day, they fall apart * * I can't seem to make a start * *'Cause "I'm sorry" don't matter now * * Tell me my heart' not broken * * All the rest can wait * Sally: Dear Felicity, at the risk of completely destroying your image of me * To make it true again * - I cheated on John once.
It was six months into our relationship.
It was an ex-boyfriend, and halfway into it, I suddenly remembered why we broke up in the first place and why I loved John so much.
The thing is, John never would've found out about it, except after three months, I couldn't take the guilt anymore, and I told him.
I never used to believe an affair could do anything but destroy a relationship, but from that moment on, I never lied to him again, not even about the smallest thing.
Sometimes in a relationship, going through Hell isn't so bad if you come out of it a little stronger.
I guess the same is true about friends.
* Lie to me * * Say to me * * That it' all forgotten now *
The Elena I do have some trouble with, however, is the one who pushes people away because she's so damn scared to admit she might actually like them.
I found out my birth mom's name last year, and she lives in New York.
Is I mean, that's not why you came here? What? Excuse me Do you know are these books actually in order, or is this some form of freshman hazing? I'm working, Miss lavender sweater, army pants, big hair.
What? This is my space my workspace.
Go make out somewhere else.
Uh, maybe maybe you didn't hear me.
Um, I'm just I'm looking for a book.
Sideburns, jeans, olive shirt Okay, l-I'll go.
Gold ring? Oh.
Noel and and me making out during finals.
- Were you - Trying to study? Yeah.
Sorry.
Wow, you remember me? I need my space.
People keep taking my space.
Oh, right, sorry.
Enjoy it, please.
Enjoy your space.
That was my space.
That's that's great.
Um That' That's Blair.
And not Elena.
Dear Sally one of the things that I've noticed about college is that people's lives are always happening right in front of you.
I mean, y-you see how they eat, how they sleep.
Meghan sleeps butt naked, by the way.
I mean, you see their relationships, who they're kissing.
And, you know, suddenly you find yourself in the middle of someone else's life, whether you want to be or not.
What if one of your friends saw me kissing another guy? I'm sorry, what? Uh, what if one of your friends saw me kissing another guy? Y- You kissed another guy? This is a hypothetical.
So, say one of your friends Who? Just a friend of yours.
No, who who were you kissing? Oh, my God.
Okay, say one of your hypothetical friends saw me hypothetically kissing - some hypothetical guy.
- Mm-hmm.
Would would you want him to tell you about it? - No.
- No? - No.
- Oh.
Yeah no.
And why I'm just curious are we talking about this, 'cause it's giving me a headache.
I saw Blair kissing some girl in the stacks.
Are you sure? Yeah.
And it wasn't just a goodbye kiss that was supposed to be on the cheek but accidentally ended up on the lips? because that happened to me with my mom once.
And it was really awkward it was like, "Mom" Noel I don't think you should tell her.
If it were me, I'd want to know.
Nuh you say that, but getting in the middle of these things can can be ugly.
I know.
Trust me.
There' a reason there' not some phrase like "Guess what?" Or a funny thing that you can use at the beginning of the sentence "Your boyfriend' cheating on you," because it would just make it way too easy to just say it.
I understand covalent bonds just fine, but when he goes into that electron-sharing business and energy levels, I'm like, "How do you share electrons?" I mean Why are you so quiet? You're never quiet.
Funny thing uh What is? Nothing.
It's not funny.
Yesterday, l - I was up in the stacks.
I was looking for this Faulkner book, um Anyway, it wasn't where it was supposed to be.
Um Could my Ancient-Religions professor be any older? I swear the man was busing tables at the Last Supper.
- See, now, that is wrong.
- I am not lying.
Hey.
Hi.
Tara, this is Felicity.
Felicity, this is Tara.
This is my girl from way back.
Yeah.
She transferred here this semester.
Elena's talked a lot about you.
It's good to put a face to the name.
Yeah or a name to a face.
So, anyway, I have gained 5 pounds since I've been here.
- What's up with that? - All that pizza.
Mmm.
Well, I'm not giving that up, see? Julie: I found her.
Whoa, whoa, whoa.
You found your birth mom? Yeah.
I cannot believe this.
I have been looking for her for so long, and this guy, he finds her in four days.
What guy? This investigator guy I found on the Internet.
See, l-I didn't even know you were looking for her.
I told you that I had her name, which isn't even her married name.
It's it's Anderson Carol Anderson.
She owns this architectural firm, she's 36, 5'9", brown hair, brown eyes God.
When she gave me up, she was 18, in college.
Okay, so what proof do you have that this is really her? I guess he just found my original birth certificate or something.
I don't know.
I don't know.
I don't care.
I know.
I know you don't.
I just mean - I just want to be sure that this is really - I'm sure.
Okay.
This has got to be really weird, reading all this.
It feels so different now that she's this real person.
So, what are you gonna do now? I go knock on the door.
Just like that? Just like what? No, I just mean, what happens, you know, - what happens if she - What happens if she doesn't want to see me? Yeah.
Well, she didn't give me a choice when she gave me up.
Why should she get a choice now? Come on! Come on! Come on! What the hell is going on?! Uh, come again? That's the sound of my Almond Joy not dropping.
That's pretty good.
Hey, stop it, man! You said you were getting money for a new machine, like, a month ago.
These are the new machines.
What? These are used! They're junk! No, "refurbished" I believe is the term.
And and I got a deal on them.
Oh, so instead of buying one new machine that works, you buy two crappy-ass machines that don't? It felt good at the time.
Man, you are so unfit to be an R.
A.
I can't wait for evaluations.
Sensa: I can do it.
What? Get a new machine.
My cousin Yuri can get anything.
Yeah, we tried that once, and a kid almost died of Estonian-chocolate poisoning.
You need machines.
Yuri can help.
He likes you.
I'm flattered, but I can figure this one out on my own, thank you.
You get a cut of the profits with Yuri's machine.
I can't Is that legal? Come into my family's warehouse, meet with Yuri.
He'll hook you up.
Your family's warehouse.
Why can't he come here? This is business.
We do business a certain way.
And and what way is that? The family way.
Hey.
Oh.
Hey.
- Thanks.
- Yeah.
Hey.
- What's up? - What do you mean? I mean, are we cool? I- I just have a class.
So we are cool? Blair, I saw you.
Saw me what? Kissing Tara in the stacks yesterday.
And maybe you saw me, too, which is why you keep asking if we're cool.
Is this why you're trippin'? I wasn't even in the library yesterday.
Blair, I saw you.
You're really serious? Felicity, for real, I wasn't there.
Okay, if you supposedly saw me, how come I didn't see you? Because you were turned around.
So you see the back of some brother's head, and of course it has to be me.
Whatever.
Well, I'm glad you didn't say anything, 'cause I'm seeing really, really ugly things happening now.
I know.
Like scratching and hair pulling.
The the craziest thing is that if I would have never seen Blair kiss Tara, I would have met her and we probably would have become friends.
And she'd be kissing me now.
All right, really bad joke.
Hey.
Hi.
You could make a lot of money selling your hair.
I know some people.
I'll keep that in mind.
So, where are we headed? Brighton Beach.
Okay, how many trains is that? No trains.
My cousin' got a gypsy cab.
Of course he does.
Help me! Julie: Okay, so I'm gonna take the 6th train up to 77 th Street, or I could take the express up to 86th Street, but then I would have to walk.
- Look, why don't you just take a cab? - Because I'd like to eat this week.
No, I'm serious.
Here.
It's just a lot easier.
Ben, I'm not gonna take your money.
There.
You just paid me back.
I want to say good luck, but I don't even know if that's right.
I don't know.
You know, it's gonna be like meeting an aunt that I've never met, or a cousin, you know? Oh, my God! Look at my hair! It looks like crap! Look at this.
I look like I'm freaking 12 years old.
Look you look great.
Really? Yes.
But I'd put the little thingies back.
I want you to come with me.
Will you? Yeah.
Okay.
- Hold this.
- Of course.
For a second.
All right.
You know, this is how Sean gets ready every morning.
You're kidding me.
Yes, I'm kidding you.
So this is it your family's warehouse? Yeah.
Noel, before we go in, I should tell you something.
My family, they worry about me being alone in school.
- Really? - Yeah, I'm the only girl.
So I figure they see you, they won't worry so much.
Wow.
Well, yeah.
Thank you.
I like to think I'm a damn good R.
A.
I told them you were my boyfriend.
Because why? Because you're a nice guy.
Who has a girlfriend.
I know.
Okay, so tell me that you're joking.
All those pages I get it's them checking on me.
This gets them off my back and you, a great deal on vending machines.
It's a win-win.
Okay, what about my self-respect? You get it back in an hour.
Look there he goes! There he goes.
Didn't I tell you? Man: My little one! Papa! Hello.
Papa, this is Noel.
Hi.
Noelle! Sensa told us so much about you.
Oh it's it's "Noel," actually.
And it's all true, I'm sure.
The fire.
Yeah.
Ah, yes the fire.
Fire? Yeah, in the dormitory.
You took our Sensa, put her on your back, and got to safety.
She told you.
That's great.
- Ahh! - Oh! Sensa, you told him.
Oh.
Excuse me.
Vladim you are a hero.
I- I'm not.
- You are.
- Okay.
Okay! Ha.
Right.
Thanks.
I'm uh, I'm just gonna go Uh, Sensa! Man: Noelle! Noelle.
"Noel.
" It's it's "Noel.
" Hi.
Uh, I'm Sit, sit! Okay, hi.
Hi.
I win! That that was fun.
Thanks.
Leonid, give him a chance.
Okay.
Best 9 of 10.
That doesn't that doesn't make sense, but that was good.
How do you lift Sensa with that arm? One more time.
One more.
He is not afraid.
Okay.
One, two, three.
- Ahh! - Sensa! That's a nice brownstone.
Yeah.
I bet you she has a maid or something that would answer the door.
Maybe.
Maybe, yeah.
You know, I don't even know what we're doing here right now.
This is the middle of the day.
She's, like, this big architect person with a life.
Julie, it is completely normal to be scared.
People on "Ricki Lake," when they first meet, they just start bawling.
And I just I don't want to do that when I see her, you know? Yeah, I know, I know, I know.
Or maybe she'll just slam the door in my face.
You know what? I saw a pay phone on the corner.
If you want, you can call her first.
Or I can do it, or whatever whatever you need.
What would I say? She's not even looking for me.
You you don't know that, though.
Yes, I do.
The adoption agency told me that the only way that I can look at my records is if she was looking for me.
I- I don't want to do this.
- What? - I don't.
I ca Let's go.
- I thought you really - I don't want to.
- I thought you really wanted to do th - Let's just go.
Let's just go.
Fire is everywhere.
Smoke is it's it's everywhere also.
And we're on the seventh floor, and we're trapped.
And then I remember that the dumpsters haven't been emptied yet.
They get emptied tomorrow, and they're right below my window.
So l-l-I grab Sensa.
How? Okay.
How? I'll show you.
What? Noel! Whoo! Like this.
And we leap to safety.
To the hero! The hero! Please, no more.
I can't.
You are a stick.
Eat.
Uh, okay.
Will you excuse us? My family they love you.
- Where's Yuri? - He's stuck in Jersey.
But he said we could meet tomorrow.
What?! That was his page when we walked in.
De uh that was two hours ago.
That was seven seven sausages ago.
I thought you were having fun.
No, I think they're talking about adding the catalyst to the reagent.
They're not talking about adding the catalyst Turn on Hot 97! Tara, we're trying to study.
It's our jam! Hey! You remember that? Okay, ready? Five, six, seven, eight.
You're supposed to turn! All right, all right, okay, okay.
Hey! - Five, six, seven, eight.
- Five, six, seven, eight.
And turn.
Hey! - All freestyle! Freestyle! - Whoo, whoo! Hey, girl, come on.
Come on! You know, I read somewhere that eyewitness testimony is sometimes the most unreliable because of the human factor.
I mean, would I bet my life that it was Blair in the stacks? No.
And and Elena seems really happy.
So what I'm thinking is with things like this, the truth usually comes out on its own, whatever it is, so I'm just gonna stay out of it.
Oh.
You're back! I'm back.
Are are you drunk? No.
Yes, but it's it's not my fault.
They wanted me to feel like family, which is apparently with vodka and lots of sausage.
And Sensa's never brought a boyfriend around before.
Oh, wait.
What? Yeah, I had to I had to pretend to be her boyfriend so I could get, you know, a good deal on on a vending machine.
Uh, and Yuri never even showed up, so I got to go back and do the whole thing again tomorrow.
Look, don't be jealous.
I'm sure I'm supposed to be, but it's just too sad.
Not even a little? Sorry.
Felicity? Can I talk to you? Sure.
Felicity: The only time I've ever been sent to the principal' office was in the fourth grade.
This boy kept calling me "Fellatio Porter," and even though I didn't know what that meant, I put 27 packets of salt into his orange-juice cup.
I remember that feeling of walking into the unknown.
I think the anticipation was almost scarier than anything else.
Almost.
You saw Blair and Tara kiss in the stacks.
Is that a question or a statement? Blair says you saw them.
I said she saw a mistake.
I already heard from you.
But you're not hearing me.
Tara was upset about her breakup.
I was trying to make her feel better.
She went to kiss me on the cheek, and it ended up on the lips.
And, yeah, it took us a second to pull away, but we did.
Show me.
What? Show me how a mistake like that happens.
Elena, you're trippin'! Prove it! This is stupid.
Fine.
We're talking I turn my head I lean in like this When I turn back That's it.
Is that what you saw? l- I don't know.
You don't know? I mean, I'm I'm trying to remember.
Look, I'm sorry I lied about being there, but I panicked.
Felicity? Maybe.
I mean, it it it could have been.
It happened with Noel and and his mom once.
- Wait.
- What? Of course.
I never pictured you as a Payday kind of guy.
- You you picture me? - What? No.
Um I just I needed something to say, and that's, unfortunately, what came together.
Right.
No, they're for Julie.
She loves these things.
- Yeah.
- All right, I'll see you later.
- All right.
What? Hey, it's Payday.
There.
Thanks.
So, you didn't come by last night.
Yeah, I felt like just hanging around the dorm.
Right.
I've just been thinking a lot about what happened yesterday.
Yeah, I freaked out a little bit, that's all.
Yeah, I know.
Listen, I know how hard it must be to know where she lives.
I know that.
I just I think you got to take some time off from this.
Some time off? Yeah, or, you know, you should write her a letter or something instead of just showing up at her door.
Yeah, well, you know what? I've been doing that.
I've been sitting here for an hour, and all I can come up with is, "Dear Carol, I" Right, I think that's good I think it's good that you're doing that, - that you're trying to make some sort of connection.
- Ben, look, I have thought about this a lot definitely more than you so thank you for your insight, but this is not your problem.
Not my problem? All I keep hearing you say is "wait" and "what if" and "are you sure?" Listen to me that's because I'm worried about you.
I care about what happens to you.
All the stuff that's already happened to you, what if what if you show up at her door and she rejects you? How are you gonna be able to handle that? Ben I don't know how I would have gotten through all that stuff that happened with Zack.
You have been incredible.
But this is different, okay? Okay.
Good morning.
So, check this.
Joshua Redman's playing at Station 4 tomorrow night, and I got us two tickets because I figure at a jazz club, you won't even have to talk to me, since you're obviously still a little heated.
We'll just bob our heads.
Elena how long are you gonna keep kicking me to the curb? Until I can get the picture of you and Tara taking a second to pull away out of my head.
- Hey.
- Hey! - God, I feel like I haven't seen you in forever.
- I know.
And, of course, now I'm running off to a study session with Elena.
Can you tell me why you make tapes to Sally instead of writing? I- I guess because it's just easier for me to express what I'm really feeling when I just talk, you know? I don't I don't censor myself like I do when I write.
can I borrow your tape recorder? Sure.
What's going on? It's it's a long story, but I'll tell you about it over breakfast tomorrow.
Okay.
Sally, uh, I'm gonna have to end this one early.
I'm lending my tape recorder to Julie.
Say hi to Sally.
Hi, Sally.
Okay, I miss you.
Talk back soon.
Love, Felicity.
- Thank you.
- You're welcome.
Bye.
Bye.
Sensa likes you, I like you.
I give you the 4000.
Is like a fine woman, yes? You give her money, you pull her knobs - Yuri! - What? I'm joking.
He knows I'm joking.
Now you pay for machine with cut of your profits.
Eh, take you about a year.
Great.
So, that's it? Now we drink.
Oh, God.
Um - Mmm.
- Okay.
To your health.
To your health.
Microwave.
Microwave.
Noelle.
Noelle Noelle! "Noel.
" Um Microwave.
Hi.
I think Yuri's right you're a good man.
Oh.
Uh, thank you.
Even though you're not her boyfriend.
Of course I am.
What, you don't think I know my little sister? Right.
Does anybody else know? No.
They worry about her at college.
They want to know that she's happy, that she has a friend.
Anyone who would go through this, I know she has at least one good friend.
She does.
Now we wrestle.
Uh, but I thought, um I'll let you win.
It looks good.
Right, right.
You all right? Want to go again? Come on 9 out of 10.
No, that' good.
Oh, my God.
Okay.
Dear Carol my name is Julie Emrick.
I was born March 10, 1980, in New York at the Columbia Presbyterian Hospital.
I believe I'm your daughter.
Okay.
Hopefully, you're still listening.
I guess I've, uh been searching for you for a long time.
I don't know.
It's just just something I need to do.
I've had a-a pretty good life so far.
I love my parents.
They're great.
I'm a freshman in college.
I'm gonna major in Music.
Uh I've got real good friends.
But there's just there's always been something missing, and I say that it's a hole when people ask, but it's more like this this question that just never, uh goes away.
Look, I I look in the mirror, and I wonder where my brown eyes come from or why my nose turns up a little at the end or why I love to play guitar or the fact that I can eat three candy bars in one day and not get fat.
Thank you for that.
I- I don't want anything from you money or anything.
I just I would just like to meet you, even if i-it's just once and just finally see myself reflected in in someone else.
Because l-I think that I need that.
And just that maybe that, um that that you think about me, too, sometimes.
And thank you for my life.
You know, I I never thanked you for being there for me.
I know it was hard not saying anything, but I'm glad you stayed out of it because I don't know if I would have believed him if he didn't come to me first.
So you've forgiven him? Yeah.
But I'm gonna milk it for a few more days.
And what about Tara? Oh, that's my girl, you know.
She made a mistake.
She apologized.
Move on.
That's big of you.
Eh, if you can't trust your friends, who can you trust? Anyway Thanks.
Sure.
- Where are you going? - Uh, bathroom.
Oh, use a paper towel to open the door when you leave.
What? I saw it on "Oprah.
" They did this ultraviolet-photography thing where they found traces of semen on, like, 7 out of 10 door handles.
Did you just say "traces of semen"? Yeah.
As the basis of the coordinate system, photogenerated electron holds NC cubed Excuse me.
I'm working, Miss cream cable-knit sweater, V- neck, black I- I know, yeah.
Uh, this is your space.
- Space mm-hmm.
- I know that.
Um, you know, the the two people who took your space after me? Jeans, Timberlands, bald head? Yes.
Black pants, fuchsia shirt, braids? - Right, right, okay.
- That's them.
Um, did they ever make out in, uh your space before that? Three times three times they made out in my space.
First time bluejeans, sweat shirt, Jordans.
Second time cowboy shirt rolled up at sleeves, black jeans, Jordans No socks cold day, no socks.
Strange.
You can't look at a door handle the same, can you? What? Look, uh, m-maybe there's still, you know, a reason or some explanation for it, but I'm pretty sure the kiss I saw between Blair and Tara wasn't a mistake.
What? I'm sorry.
I You believed me before, but I wasn't really telling you the truth.
They said it was a mistake It's a mistake.
Elena, there's some guy in the stacks who says they've been up there, like, three times.
What guy? I don't know his name.
He's just some weird guy.
Some weird guy? No, it's not just some weird guy.
I mean, that's what I believed, too.
Remember what you said about, you know, trusting your friends? Is that why you're saying that because we're friends? Yes.
How good of friends are we? Have you ever been to my house? Um, no, uh Have I ever cried in front of you or laughed so hard until we were rolling on the floor? Well, no, but Were you in the hospital with me when my mom died? Because Tara was.
You asked me, you know, what I saw, - and I'm just trying to be honest with you.
- Believing you means that she's lying in my face, and I can't do that.
Elena, doesn't this look like your last boyfriend, except white with more hair? Hey, for the record, I am bald by choice.
Yeah, you choose to keep telling yourself that.
What's going on? I forgot I have a meeting with my Chem T.
A.
So, what time do you want me to come get you? Mr.
Redman goes on at 10:00.
Whenever.
9:00.
I'll see you.
Bye.
Noel: What are you doing? Knock it off.
I'm reading here.
No, I'm still reading.
You know, I could actually program the machine to give you a two-for-one.
Really? Yeah, but since you charged me for coffee, I mnh-mnh.
Hey, I thought you were gonna be studying all afternoon.
Yeah, I was supposed to study with Elena, but she didn't call.
I didn't call her either, so Look, you were honest.
You can't be mad at yourself for that, okay? Yeah.
I just I thought we were better friends than that.
I know.
Man: Good afternoon, Anderson & Stathis designs.
Good afternoon, Anderson & Stathis designs.
Please hold one minute.
Good afternoon, Anderson & Stathis designs.
Who can I connect you to? Please hold one second.
Excuse me, can, um, you tell me where Carol Anderson's office is? Upstairs.
Okay.
Thanks.
Thanks for holding.
Who can I connect you to? Great.
Thanks.
Oh, oh, hey, Rod, I was just looking for you.
Woman: I see it.
Okay.
I can make that change.
Yeah, I've got it I've got it on both copies.
Yeah, I'm checking it now.
And we'll fax over two copies.
Right.
Okay.
Thank you.
Mm-hmm.
Hi, um They told me that Carol Anderson's office You're here for the internship? I'm sorry? The internship you want an application? I just I want to drop off Oh, uh, Ms.
Anderson - your messages.
- Oh, thanks.
Oh, Tina, I need you to reschedule with Patty Perez for next Friday - And I'd like to see the sketches for the Latham project.
- No problem.
Thanks.
So the application? Hello? What? Um thank you.
Blair: Yo.
- Hey.
- Hey.
I can't go to that concert with you tonight.
Why not? I just have way too much studying to do.
You're mad.
No, it has nothing to do with that.
You're still mad.
I just I've got way too much work.
Felicity and I are gonna be in the lab all night tonight.
I got the tickets.
Look Go anyway.
- You sure? - Yeah.
Well okay.
See you tomorrow.
See you tomorrow.
* I had to let you go * * I had to let you go * Sorry.
It's all right.
Noel There's someone at your door.
Okay.
I'll get it.
I know I don't have the right to ask you for much right now but would you mind coming out with me for a while? What's going on? I just wouldn't mind having your company right now.
Just, uh just give me a minute, okay.
* Lie to me * * Say to me * * That it' all forgotten * * Teach me things I've never known * * I can't bear to let them go * * All the things you taught me * * Tell me my heart' not broken * * All the rest can wait * * Till I find a way to make it true again * * Through the night, I make my plan * * I could win you back again * * It will be tomorrow * * Come the day, they fall apart * * I can't seem to make a start * *'Cause "I'm sorry" don't matter now * * Tell me my heart' not broken * * All the rest can wait * Sally: Dear Felicity, at the risk of completely destroying your image of me * To make it true again * - I cheated on John once.
It was six months into our relationship.
It was an ex-boyfriend, and halfway into it, I suddenly remembered why we broke up in the first place and why I loved John so much.
The thing is, John never would've found out about it, except after three months, I couldn't take the guilt anymore, and I told him.
I never used to believe an affair could do anything but destroy a relationship, but from that moment on, I never lied to him again, not even about the smallest thing.
Sometimes in a relationship, going through Hell isn't so bad if you come out of it a little stronger.
I guess the same is true about friends.
* Lie to me * * Say to me * * That it' all forgotten now *