Queens (2021) s01e12 Episode Script

1 Presumes demasiado pero eres igual Ve bajándole I love the music I'm making.
That's fire.
I want this one to be my first single.
Na na na na I am ready to be open and honest with someone - in a way I have never been before.
- Mm! - I love you.
- I love you.
Na na na na You hide behind this moral exterior, when deep inside, you are a vapid little bitch.
Eh eh eh eh You are evil.
- This is nice.
- It is.
So you're still pretending like that kiss - in the hospital never happened? - What kiss? Okay.
But you're wrong about one thing we're not roommates.
We're family.
Na na na na That smile for me? Yes.
No.
Look, it's everything.
But we figured it out.
I mean, we found a way to make it through the tragedy of the shooting Bree being gone.
You know, Valeria's a real artist now Yeah.
and Jill's been through so much, but she's figuring it out.
Mm.
And you.
You made a stable home for Jojo.
You're a good mom.
- We're finally grown.
- Yeah.
And what else are we? Roommates.
Ooh.
You know, roommates usually don't say the things you were saying to me last night.
Roommates that occasionally say some thangs to one another.
Yeah.
I want to be more the roommates who say thangs and co-parent.
You know what I want what I've always wanted.
I want you.
How do I know I can trust you? I would say all the right things, but at some point? You're gonna have to let me show you.
One step at a time.
Is it ten yet? It's thirty seconds past the last time you asked.
- Is that ten? - Still 9:59.
Don't worry.
No matter how this lands, it's gonna be fine.
Okay, it's been a minute.
Refresh.
What's it say? Not good? Not good.
Didn't even land? Landed at number one.
"Eso Lo Tengo" by Valeria Mendez - debuts on the Latin Music charts at number 1! - You're lying.
- Nope.
- You're lying! Baby, you did it.
Oh, my God! Oh.
This is amazing.
Why are you crying? Six months ago, I had basically never written a song now I'm getting a physical so I can go on a solo tour with the number one song in the country next to my husband.
It's a lot.
It's awesome.
You earned it.
And, frankly, I love seeing it.
'Cause I love you.
I love you.
Eso lo tengo, yo We're ready for you, Ms.
Mendez.
How's the heart? Oh, EKG and blood work all came back normal.
The insurance suits will be happy I'm clear for the tour.
Uh, it's your ultrasound that concerns me.
Would you like your husband to join us? No.
I'd like for you to tell me what the hell is going on.
Jury deliberations has begun in the attempted murder trial of Darren Filgo, the man charged in the shooting of Brianna Robinson, better known as Professor Sex of the hip-hop group Queens, their manager, Eric Jones and another member of the group, Jill Sumpter, AKA Jill Da Thrill his ex-wife.
Filgo did not take the stand in his defense, but When I was a kid, I thought that life had to be balanced.
Like, for every bad thing that happened to you, there was a good thing that would balance it out and vice versa.
Probably a coping thing I came up with because most of my life as a kid was so bad.
It gave me hope that things would get better.
That, you know, my future would be filled with good things.
What's going on? What are you talking about? They think I might have uterine cancer.
Muffin and I just got back from the studio.
The album is tuff.
Almost done.
I have no idea how people are gonna react to me rapping about the modern day slave trade known as mandatory minimums and non-violent drug crimes instead of coke and anime, but you know what? No.
I'm proud of it.
What's hot is hot.
And that's why we're targeting colleges when we send you on the road.
I talked to Zadie today, and rehearsals are going well.
Yes! I think it's so smart that we'll use her performance at Coachella to launch her tour.
Jill, what's up with you? You thinking about recording anything soon? I'm I'm not really feeling anything at the moment.
All of this is great, but it doesn't change the fact that - We're still broke.
- Yeah.
But we do have a Latin Music star in our midst who just sold out the first five nights of her tour.
- Yeah.
- Thanks.
Unh-unh.
I'm sorry you are playing it real cool for someone who just dropped her first single and it went number one.
I've seen you more gassed up over a chemical peel.
Plus, you proved me wrong which I kinda thought was your reason for living.
It's good.
It's cool.
I'm excited.
- Mm.
- What's up, V? I'm good.
Really.
All right.
We need you.
Your tour is the only income Nasty Girl Records is gonna see for a minute.
Except does anyone know what today is? Skip the quiz.
What's up? Twenty years ago this week? "Heart of Queens" went quadruple platinum.
The first female rap group to pull that off.
- Wow.
- Really.
We're old.
See, that's what I was thinking but didn't say.
No, it's amazing.
We need to celebrate it, all right? I have an idea, could be cool, you know, could generate some cash while we wait for these tours to hit.
With your permission, I want to release an anniversary edition of the album with your new songs, all right? We'll throw you a sick party and everyone gets a chance to give you all the flowers you deserve.
Does it feel right? To do that when Bree's not around? She's not dead.
Yeah, but she's not here either.
Y'all are dumb.
You sit around and do this every time eyes all up in the Santa horse's mouth.
You just can't take a good thing and say yes to it.
Plus, we need the bread.
So put on some dresses, paint over them wrinkles and pretend it's 1999.
Muffin, sometimes you go too far, yo.
- Yes.
- Yo, if I can pull this off, I want my percentage to go back in the pot.
Yeah, you earned it.
I didn't.
Same.
I'm down for that.
I owe you bitches.
Okay.
All we need is an okay from Bree, and I'll get it started.
Well, let's call her now since we're all together.
The jury is done deliberating Darren.
As you know, cameras were not allowed in the courtroom, but I'm told that jurors deliberated for less than seven hours which historically suggests a guilty verdict I mean, can you imagine if this asshole walks out of the courthouse? Yeah, I'll take care of that fool myself.
It's out of our hands.
I mean, no matter what, - I refuse to let Darren's malignance affect me anymore.
- Okay, okay.
Yes, I'm told that the jurors returned a guilty verdict on all three counts of first-degree attempted murder.
Oh! I can't imagine black Brad Paisley fans fare super well in San Quentin.
Sentencing is scheduled for next week, but it would be shocking if Mr.
Filgo did not spend the rest of his natural life in prison.
It's over.
The defendant opted not to testify in his trial, but he did address the court once the verdict was handed down.
Okay, well, I'm hearing that we have audio of Mr.
Filgo's statement.
And here it is The person who inflicted the real pain the suffering you claim that was by my hand was caused by a woman That's enough, Mr.
Filgo.
Please remand the defendant.
Jill, you are the true criminal.
Get off of me! Get off! God will judge you, Jill! You will pay for all of those you hurt! Oh, my God.
Damn psycho.
You good? Yeah.
I'm good.
You don't deserve this.
- Deserve what? - A broken bitch.
You didn't marry me knowing you'd have to nurse me through cancer or worse that I might die.
We don't know any of that.
Can't fix this.
I have fought age with every single thing money can buy.
But this I can't fix.
We have no idea what the doctor is gonna say.
The one we saw yesterday was a GP now we're seeing a specialist.
One step at a time.
Right.
And you're wrong.
I did agree to nurse you through cancer if that's what it comes to 'cause when I said "I do" I agreed to all of it.
Listen, I'm not you it's not my body, but I will not let my mind go to that place until it has to.
Then? We'll figure it out.
I was just learning how to live.
It's not cancer.
The growths you see here are submucosal, broad based fibroids.
Didn't you have fibroids in that episode of "Private Practice"? Yes.
But they made me clairvoyant so I passed on surgery.
Helluva dilemma.
Your symptoms are mild Like getting my period three times in one month.
Exactly which is not entirely uncommon for women your age, so I can't say that it's absolutely necessary to have surgery this moment.
Can I go on tour? But should your symptoms get worse, or if more fibroids appear then surgery may be required, or possibly a hysterectomy.
You mean, you're gonna take out my whole vagina? - The uterus.
- What's the likelihood of that? Well, I don't feel comfortable putting a number on it, but, Ms.
Mendez, in my experience, surgery is something we'll likely have to explore in the near future.
The thing to consider now is whether or not you want to have children.
These fibroids unfortunately put a definitive clock on things for you.
I'd rather give you the information now before it's something we can't consider at all.
You good? - Yeah.
- You sure? Jill, it's not true.
What Darren said isn't true.
When am I gonna shake him? Shake the past? Jill, but do we? Or do we just learn to live with it? Well, that was it all of the philosophical old people self-reflection I can handle.
So you gonna sit around and mope about what that lunatic said, or you wanna go get something to eat? Come on.
Come on! Let's go.
On our first date, you told me you weren't sure if you wanted to have kids.
I'm not.
Then that settles it.
On that same date, you said you definitely want kids.
I do.
That settles it.
We're not talking in the abstract anymore.
Twenty-four hours ago I thought I might die, or could die.
Now? All of this.
There are lots of ways to have children like the doctor said.
But if it's possible for me to give birth to a thing out of my body, then we should go for it.
Thing? Should I call it something else? My job is easy.
I don't have to do what you have to do, so it's hard for me to chime in.
I'm asking you to chime in.
I want it.
And I want it with you.
There's nothing about being with you that makes me want to have a family less.
If anything? I want it more.
Good things, bad things.
- What? - What I was saying before.
We get equal good things and bad things in our lives, and maybe the fact that I could have a baby is the good thing that balances out the news that my uterus is about to expire.
Are you sure? You? Are the ultimate good thing in my life.
We should try.
Maybe it doesn't happen, maybe it can't happen, but we should try.
You know what this means, right? That I have to put my tour on hold.
Is that something you're willing to do? I've spent forty years doing everything for myself chasing things that ultimately never completely made me happy.
You make me happy.
Let's do this.
- Right now? - Chill.
Give me a day or two to forget that I am riddled with submucosal, broad based fibroids.
Mm.
- Hey.
- Hey.
You look good.
Thanks.
Mm.
Smell good.
Do I not usually? Where you going? Uh, some errands.
Okay.
Okay.
So, what's up with the album re-release? Is it happening? It's all good.
I gotta bounce.
Mwah! Beautiful.
So what looks good? You know I prefer when you order for me.
But then you yell at me when I get it wrong.
I think you'll dig the risotto.
If you say so.
So, what's going on with you? Surprised, I'd say, when you called.
I'm good.
- And you? - You wore my cologne.
- I wore the cologne I always wear.
- Right.
As if everything Eric Jones does doesn't have a purpose behind it.
Cut the crap, Eric Jones.
Why after six years of not calling would you invite your ex-wife to lunch? I need you to relinquish your rights to the "Heart of Queens" masters.
Oh.
Don't you just love it when the tables turn? Go on.
I know you've got a pitch.
I got the group back together.
Oh.
Business must have really been tanking for you to turn back to the women you royally screwed over.
Me and the Queens started a new venture and we want to re-release the album to fund it.
Oh.
You know, my memory is a little hazy, but I do believe that when we got a divorce you gave me a portion of the masters so you wouldn't have to part with the Hamptons house which ultimately got foreclosed on.
Why do you always have to rehash the past? But that's precisely what you're asking me to do.
I'm asking you to be reasonable about this.
- Mm-hmm.
- What, do you need money? I mean, there's always a deal that can be worked out.
Listen I don't just look like money, I've got money.
Then, why make it difficult? Come on.
Did you really think I wouldn't at the very least give you a hard time? That would be a dereliction of my duties as a scorned ex-wife.
You may have them.
Now, may I please finish my risotto and order another bottle of that wine which will hopefully bankrupt you? Because this meal is on you.
That? I can do.
- Mm.
- New girlfriend? A little young, no? Oh, no.
Uh, Jojo is my daughter.
I'm sorry.
I have a daughter.
- But that girl's like - She's twenty.
So I guess I don't have to ask who the mother is.
No.
So, the entire time we were married you had a child? I just found out about this six months ago.
Are you with her? Naomi? Her.
We live together.
We are co-parenting.
And we're not together, but But you wanna be.
Oh, ooh.
Whew.
You You have some nerve.
Coming here and asking me for a damn favor, and then telling me that you and Naomi have a child.
- I'm sorry.
- I don't aim to be petty, but sometimes petty is the only thing you can be.
I refuse to do anything to help you and your ex-girlfriend.
If she still wants you after all these years, she deserves what's coming to her.
Robin! Why didn't you tell us that you had that cancer scare? It's a good thing I didn't because that's all it was a scare.
I'm good.
The warranty on my uterus is up though.
The doctor literally told me "use it or lose it.
" There is no way in hell your doctor literally said that.
Oh, yes.
So, you're gonna have a baby? Thomas and I talked about it, and we're gonna try.
Is that what you want? I don't believe in God, but I believe in signs and spiritual things.
I didn't want Thomas.
I didn't want Bree to get shot and for us to break up, but all the things that I didn't want brought me here.
Maybe this is the universe telling me to stop and live for other people.
So, you're gonna give up your tour for this? I'm gonna put it on hold.
I was afraid you'd be pissed.
I know this isn't what the label needs, but Child, this is real life.
Music is just music.
I'm just now learning how to be a mom after twenty years, and honestly watching Jojo grow and thrive is more gratifying than any arena I've ever performed in.
I'm sorry.
Who are you and what did you do with Naomi? Anything is possible, I guess especially with you coming up in here talking about having babies.
And, V, there was a time I didn't think I would ever speak to you again.
And now? We're Can't even bring yourself to say it? Are we friends? Nah.
We're sisters.
Bitch, if you cry.
Bitch, if you cry.
- Eh, I'm kinda crying.
- Bitch, I'm kinda crying.
No! - Hey.
- Hey.
Bad news, Valeria is delaying her tour.
Good news, Thomas and I are gonna try to have a baby.
That's great.
We need to talk.
So, I've been thinking, everyone else is recording music except for you.
- I've been working.
- Yeah.
Sure.
But remember what you said when y'all were hee-hawing about that San Diego show? You said the only time you gave your true self to anyone and felt accepted was on stage.
I mean, I just haven't really been feeling motivated.
You know, it's been like therapy for me.
We gotta get you back in the booth.
Soon.
Wait Whoa.
Hold up.
Is that Tina.
What is she doing in LA? Looking for more cars to spit on.
Look, I don't care what anybody does to you, that is just mad nasty.
- Mm.
- Should we turn back? No.
I'm an adult.
We can talk.
Tina.
Jill.
Lauren, it's good to see you.
Sup? You always been this tall? What are you doing in LA? - They didn't have my size.
- Hey.
Oh, you're is this Jill? Yes.
Hi.
Nice to who are you? This is my girlfriend.
Ooh! I couldn't say it in front of V, but her delaying the tour is a problem.
I mean, thank God you came up with the idea to re-release "Heart of Queens.
" About that.
Um, there's an impediment.
I couldn't get the last rights holder to sign off.
Okay, so we pay them off and pocket a little less cash.
Mm, it's not that simple.
It's my ex.
- Wife? - Yeah.
- Which one? - Robin.
God.
When are your terrible personal decisions gonna stop biting us in the ass? I can't control her.
I mean, I-I thought it was gonna be a quick, nothing meeting and then Jojo called and I had to explain that whole thing to her.
That whole thing? You know what I'm saying? Wait you went to see your ex-wife? To discuss this.
She don't have a phone? That's where you went this afternoon.
You lied to me.
I didn't mention it.
You lied.
You said, "errands.
" - It was business.
- Oh, my I knew you'd react like this.
What, like a normal, sane human being that's been burned by you way too many times to count.
I mean, for somebody who knows all the angles you do some really dumb stuff.
You know why you don't trust me? - School me, Fam.
- 'Cause you don't want to.
You have never given me a reason to fully understand or believe anything coming out of your mouth, including you splashing Giorgio Armani on yourself to go have a play date with your ex-wife.
Please, can we turn all this down? Please? I am not perfect.
I tried every day to show you what kind of man I can be for you.
At some point, the past has to stay in the past.
- I love you.
- Oh And I do dumb things, but I fell in love with you two decades ago and I have never stopped loving you.
Why can't you believe that? Because it doesn't mean anything when it comes out of your mouth.
Chantal and I met at a conference for work.
- She lives out here.
- Apparently.
Um, um, can we talk for a second? Psst! You don't want to be here for this.
Come on.
So, what's it like being two tall chicks? Did you hear about Darren's verdict? I did.
I'm glad he's going to prison forever.
I just can't believe all the things that went down.
It turns out people are really good at hiding who they are.
You know, I was so surprised.
I thought he'd be contrite and apologetic.
It's crazy someone who was just convicted of trying to murder three people even gets a chance to voice their opinion at all.
- What is this? - What is what? This This long and winding path that you're hoping is gonna lead me to be sympathetic to what happened to you.
Truth is? It doesn't matter if I am or if I'm not.
What Darren did was awful.
What he said was awful.
But honestly? It doesn't matter.
I've moved on.
There just aren't many people who understand me the way you do.
It's a shame you gave that up.
I'm trying to apologize.
Most people start with "I'm sorry.
" I don't really need an apology from you anyway because I'd be a fool to believe anything you have to say.
And it's not because you're evil.
You're just lost.
I can't be angry about that.
I'm sad.
I'm genuinely sad for you because you're gonna end up alone and that is the thing you absolutely fear the most.
You know what keeps me up at night? Knowing the things I did to you make you question if I ever loved you.
I did.
What's up? You know there's a good chance that no matter how hard we try, no matter how much money we put into it I may never be able to have a kid naturally.
That's why we're trying.
Whatever happens, happens.
You think you're being supportive but sometimes that laid back thing is really dismissive and, frankly, kind of annoying.
I'll work on being less supportive.
It's gonna take IVF.
Which means months of hormone injections just to find a few good eggs.
Ten percent of healthy, young women miscarry that number goes up fifty percent with IVF.
You should stay off the Internet.
Also annoying.
I might be naive, but I want to focus on the good stuff that's ahead of us not the scary stuff.
I know it sounds corny, but I want to introduce them to music, bring them into the studio, tell bedtime stories.
I just look forward to shaping the mind of a shrunken-down version of us.
Not gonna lie, it's been my dream to be a dad for a very long time.
The only thing that was missing was you.
You're gonna be an incredible dad.
This was never in question.
And you don't know it yet, but you're gonna be an incredible mom.
It's not easy to be honest, but I'm willing 'Cause I know you need it more than anything I have - It's good to see you.
- I hope you hear me now I hope you hear me now All of the hurt I caused when I was lost and weak, yeah I hope that you hear me I'm here.
Hear me What do you want? Thanks for coming.
I had to see what you were all about after all of these years.
I'm not here for no drama, but you're holding my album hostage.
Technically it's my album.
Your beef is with Eric, not me.
My beef with Eric is because of you.
Do you know how hard women have to fight in this business to own their own voice? Is this the chick you wanna be? Oh, please.
Do no give me that women supporting other women/girls' girl crap.
It's trite and I'm not the one.
What do you want? - Answers.
- I don't think I have them.
Why did you keep in touch with him when you knew we were married? I didn't.
I don't believe you.
It's the truth.
I knew he'd been with that Puerto Rican girl because it was in the press.
And of course we were married, so conversations would come up about the group.
There was always this look in his eyes whenever he talked about you.
He talked about you and your talent with this level of reverence that always felt like more.
His voice was free, he'd smile.
He was like a teenager in love.
I spent six years wondering why he never looked at me with that same look.
I asked him about you, but he played it off like Eric does.
I found a letter it was addressed to you.
I opened it I shouldn't have but I did.
I can't remember everything it said, but that last line is burned in my brain "It's always been you.
It will forever be you.
" It's rare that you can pinpoint the second your marriage dies.
I knew I wouldn't come back from that.
Robin, I'm so sorry.
When I heard you two had a kid? It took me back to that place.
Can we sit? Please.
Listen, I've held on to a lot of grudges over the years.
And if I'm being honest, I'm still holding on to some stuff that is stopping me from being happy.
I mean, I've spent most of the last twenty years alone.
But I'm not alone anymore because I let some stuff go.
Listen, I can't convince you to do what I want, so I'm not going to.
I just know that there is nothing to be gained by holding onto it.
I dunno, kind of feels like it's the only thing I have left.
She hates me.
Well, she doesn't love you, but you have to understand where she's coming from, right? She doesn't understand where I'm coming from.
I've made mistakes, but I had a lot going on.
Right.
You're gay.
You're suppressed.
Your dad is a supreme asshole.
Your ex-husband tried to murder you.
Don't mock what I've been through.
I'm not.
I just know it by heart, and so does Tina.
At some point? That stops mattering to other people.
There's a limit to the empathy people can have for the ones they love, and Tina's at her limit.
You can't change that.
Well, she could have at least listened to my apology.
Jill, she does not owe you that.
And frankly, I didn't hear an apology.
What if Tina's right? What if I end up alone? Stop.
Jill, you've got to let out that last bit of guilt and victimhood.
Let it go.
It doesn't matter if Tina receives it.
Doesn't matter what Darren says.
You've got to let it go.
How do I do that? Same way you did before.
You think this is justice, but this is not justice The Lord above is the true judge.
You gave me new religion when I couldn't decide Follow my heartbeat, quench my thirst And just swallow my pride I felt hollow inside But that first kiss was like Christmas Day without the mistletoe And be careful what you ask for You might get it over and over Till it overdoses every vein in your soul Distant lover, they lied when they said That distance draws you closer Dearest Tina, I know your heart is pure The way God made it And every memory we created Is now a picture quickly faded Tainted lover, not you, but me All I remember is that kitchen we first sinned in When my sex drive needed an engine, you became that escape That getaway that I needed We were supposed to be undefeated, but damn I'm sorry for the pain that I caused, the way that you feel I'm sorry for the lies that I told, the feelings was real I'm sorry for the tears that you've cried I'm missing you I'm sorry for the last time The person who inflicted the real pain My dearest Tina, this isn't a sad song It's more like a love scripture And I wrote it while you was hurting But I'm new to this, so I'm learning Some details get jaded on this canvas that we painted It was abstract, so every image Was really more for interpretation Empty wine glasses The sand in your mind's hourglass is changing And you can't get that time back So let's make this a celebration At the end of the chapter I hope the world gives you a standing ovation They say that love is kind They say that love is patient I pray that you might find some happiness and salvation And what you gave me to me, I hope somebody gives you more I'm looking at my phone, hoping that your name rings 'Cause I know a side piece could never be the main thing I'm sorry for the pain that I caused, the way that you feel I'm sorry for the lies that I told, the feelings was real I'm sorry for the tears that you've cried I'm missing you I'm sorry for the last time The Lord above is the true judge.
Ouch.
Damn.
Did that hurt? You just shot me full of follicle-inducing hormones with a 4-inch needle.
Are follicle-inducing hormones more painful than Botox? And somehow less painful when the goal is to make me look sick in a Vera Wang.
We're on our way.
I'm gonna make you dinner.
She signed off.
We're good.
Are we? I love you.
Hundreds on the table, twenties on the floor Fresh outta work and on the way with some more And I luv it And I luv it I got gangstas in the crowd, bad broads at my show I think it's because I know y'all that it shocks me that you were like Kanye famous.
- Let's take a selfie.
- Ooh! Ah! Brianna should be here, y'all.
She's not coming back.
Well, the last time I FaceTimed her she had that effortless beach glow.
It's the sand it's a natural exfoliant.
If she comes back, bitch better bring me back some samples.
Wow.
If I didn't live it, I wouldn't believe all this is for us.
My mom saw you guys in concert when she was seventeen and she always talks about it like it was the best night of her life.
We watched your "All Rise" video in my Civics class and I was so excited I came home and showed my mom, and she said it was the same group she was always talking about.
Will you sign this? Of course.
Oh, wow! Oh! Muffin, I love you, too.
Will you sign it, please? Of course.
Thank you.
Thank you.
- Bye, Mom.
- Bye.
Can you believe we're just four chicks from Queens who stood on top of the world for a hot minute? Anybody else getting teary-eyed with all of this? - It's nice.
- Wait.
How did you get Eric's old main to relinquish the rights? I told her to let go of the past.
Please give it up for Sophia Chang! Welcome, everybody, to the official re-release of "Heart of Queens"! Who feels like a nasty girl tonight? - Well, I do.
- Yas.
Well, as a woman in hip-hop, I can't tell you how much this album meant to me.
I finally felt seen, like I belonged.
Like someone was holding a space for people like me.
And as evidenced by everyone here tonight, twenty years after it went four times platinum, it's clear that "Heart of Queens" inspired generations of women and has left an indelible mark on hip-hop.
So, thank you, Jill Da Thrill, Butter Pecan, and XPlicit Lyrics.
So maybe on this magical evening, with everyone in such a sentimental and nasty mood, we can inspire one last performance by the Queens? Na-sty, na-sty, na-sty, na-sty.
Come on, let's hear it.
You ladies deserve every piece of this.
Yes, yes, yes.
Enjoy it.
Cuz, is this gonna be the last time we hear this? It doesn't have to be.
Okay! My girl.
- I'm here.
- Mm-hmm.
- You good? - Mm-hmm.
Da Thrill! You know it.
You bitches.
Yeah! Love you guys.
Ready? Check it out, checka-check it out 'Bout to show y'all what this queen is all about