My So-Called Life s01e13 Episode Script
Pressure
So Rayanne you got 33 days.
No, it's an expression.
l n AA, it means you've been clean and sober for over a month.
Oh, yes.
l feel really good.
l know you do.
This is kind of a dangerous time.
So Jordan Catalano and l had pretty much broken up,,, but he stlll knew the comblnatlon to my locker, - What's wrong? - Nothing.
J ust You need me, You must have me as your own, You can't llve another second knowlng others could possess me, l could kill Tino.
What did you call that word? You said it last week.
You know, when you feel the need to eat.
- H unger? - No, that thing you said l was.
l wasn't actually saying that you're orally fixated-- Orally fixated! That's such a cool word.
You know, l was saying that you have certain-- Because l have this theory of how that probably happened to me.
You see, my mother, she claims that she breast- fed me but l just have serious doubts.
You should see her boobs.
They are so firm.
Lolly? Sure.
Look, Rayanne, l know that you've chosen not to continue these sessions with me right now.
l only have to do this therapy thing for a month - and then it's optional, right? - No, l know that, l realize that.
l just need to know that you have a support system in place.
l don't need a support system.
l got friends.
That's exactly why l'm raising this.
Didn't you mention to me that you've had some feelings of distance from your friends - since, you know, the incident? - What incident? l'm talking about the night you nearly died the night that Angela's mother rushed you to the hospital.
Now didn't you tell me that since that night you've felt some distance between yourself and your friend Angela? l never said "distance".
l just don't see her that much.
lt's not because of some incident, it's because she's got this guy that she's involved with.
Which she wouldn't even have if it wasn't for me.
And you don't feel any awkwardness around Angela.
No.
The thing with Angela is that even with this stupid obsession with this guy she's totally there for me.
So where's Angela? "Whatever you do, don't take the first drink.
" AA propaganda from M iss Crazy- nowski.
What a wimpette.
l thought you said you liked her.
That she was sensitive.
Sensitive wears thin.
Go ahead, keep it.
l don't need it.
So, she's with Catalano again? lt is the weirdest break- up in history.
She's the one that needs a shrink.
So he just said, "This isn't working for me" then he threw his mike right into Joey's bass drum, and then he left.
So he quit? Tino quit Frozen Embryos? Yes.
l don't even think we're allowed to call ourselves Frozen Embryos anymore because it was Tino's name.
So now it's like, off- limits or something.
l'm really sorry.
l am just really low, l'll just flnd any excuse to touch hlm, Hey.
l'm sorry, am l interrupting? No.
H i.
No, you don't have to-- Whatever.
Later.
He's just a bit upset about this thing with Tino.
Why am l telling you? You must have heard it happened, right? Oh, yes.
So what happened? About Tino quitting Frozen Embryos.
l only know because he told me.
What, you think that bothers me that you know? Tino would be telling me right now if he was in school.
Right, l know.
So, Angelica, what's the deal? Do l ever get to see you again? - l know, l've just been-- - l'm just kidding.
Get out of here! l see you too much, don't flatter yourself.
No, really.
You should really come over after school.
- ls that cool with Pattycake? - Yes, of course it is.
Don't be crazy.
She never comes home before 6: 00 anyway.
Well, you know, maybe l will.
Careful.
Don't break the egg yolk.
So you actually teach people how to cook? Yes, l actually do.
Listen, l'm sorry that Angela's not home yet.
- Do you guys have definite plans? - Like this? That's perfect.
You're a natural.
This must be her.
- You're back.
- l'm back.
- H i.
- Hey.
Hey, watch that chocolate sauce.
l'll get the rest of the groceries.
Can l get you something to drink? Like a soda? Yes.
Thanks.
Anything with sugar and caffeine.
So where's Angela? She's got better things to do, or what have you.
Well, it's great to see you.
So, you mean she's with l mean, l thought they weren't-- Exactly.
You figured it out.
lt's like watching a rollercoaster.
Actually, l think they're in the ticket line, like - really close to the rollercoaster.
- l see.
So, did Angela tell you? l got 33 days.
l'm squeaky clean, like a rubber ducky.
No, no, Angela didn't tell me.
- Congratulations.
- Thanks.
- H i, honey.
- Hello, You're supposed to say " Excuse me".
Right, sorry, excuse me.
- Oh, my god, the chocolate sauce.
- lt's okay.
lt's not bubbling.
- Chocolate sauce! Can l try it? - Be careful! lt's very, very hot.
J ust a taste.
We're about to eat.
- Danielle.
Come here.
Let me fix it.
- No.
- l have to wash my whole face now.
- Good.
Rayanne, why don't you stay for dinner? - Yes, Angela will be back any minute.
- No, no.
l got to go.
You know, my mom's making dinner.
Later.
You know, that girl never said thank you.
- For the soda? - For saving her life.
l can't sleep, Bert, l can't fall asleep, Well, count sheep then, Ernle, Count sheep? What do you mean, count sheep? l mean, just lle there and count sheep, J ust lmaglne them one at a tlme untll you get so sleepy,,, you just fall asleep, Okay, l'll try lt, Bert, All rlght, let's see, countlng sheep, So, when is dinner? You're hungry? - l haven't eaten since breakfast.
- You didn't eat lunch? lt's Tuesday.
l saw my counselor today.
What counselor? My drug counselor.
M iss Krysenowski.
Remember, l told you.
Okay, let's see what we got here.
Egg rolls! M ini- quiche and pierogies! l'm sick of appetizers.
l want a real meal, with all four basic food groups and just for once can it not be such an amazing surprise that l want to eat dinner like every other American on the planet? - Okay, what's up? - Nothing.
Angela invites me over today and when l get there, she's nowhere to be found.
- Did you two have a fight? - No.
- Okay.
What did you do? - What did l do? - Yes, to make Angela mad at you.
- l didn't do anything.
She's just with Jordan Catalano all the time.
Well, then you hang out with her while she's with Jordan.
You know Jordan's friends.
l mean, become part of it, Rainie.
That's not hard.
Everyone loves you.
Look what we forgot we had.
Leftover Chinese.
Rainie butterfly shrimp.
Now, l see a lot of your friends come and go and most of them l could have cared less about.
But Angela, she's special.
What l still can't figure out is why Tino even quit.
That's what's so frustrating.
Can you imagine what that's like? To have to sit around, trying to figure out what someone else is thinking.
- Hey, what's up? - Rayanne, hi.
My parents said you stopped by, but l thought you weren't going to.
No problem! Guzzles a six- pack, So Catalano, how is it going? l was just saying how Frozen Embryos finally got a spot at this open mike night at Vertigo, that coffeehouse.
- l know what Vertigo is.
- Right.
Well.
They still don't have a lead singer, so it's like should they blow it off, or find somebody new by next Thursday, or - So Tino is still being a lowlife? - Could you two leave? Oh, my God.
Angela, l just had the most unbelievable idea.
l am so brilliant.
l amaze myself.
- Me.
- What about you? l should be the new lead singer for Frozen Embryos.
Well, come on, l'm serious.
Talk to Jordan.
l just don't know if that sounds very realistic.
What sounds realistic? A month stone- cold sober, that doesn't sound realistic? l can't just tell Jordan Catalano something like that.
God.
Angela, think of it.
We'd have such a time.
You, hanging out with the band.
Me, being the band.
- Come on, he'll do it if you ask him.
- No, he won't.
lt's Jordan Catalano.
J ust promise you'll ask for me, okay? - Angelica, please? - Sure.
l promise.
l'll get lt! l'll get lt! l'll get lt! Hey, lt's mlne, Hello? Yes.
lt's your boyfriend, Ryan.
He's not my boyfriend.
He was, but we're keeping it loose.
l'll take it in the other room.
Are either of them married yet? l mean, how much have l missed? l hope you can join us for dinner tonight.
We never get to see you anymore.
Somebody hang up! That's what everybody tells me.
Rayanne says that, you say that.
lf Rayanne isn't seeing you and we're not seeing you, who is seeing you? - And how much of you? - Dad.
l'm sorry.
l asked a question about your life, didn't l? What came over me? So, Rayanne seems to be doing okay.
Oh, she is.
Of course she is.
She was actually seeing a counselor for a little while.
She was seeing her? l thought she told me she was still seeing her.
Got to go.
Jordan Catalano is giving me a ride to school.
ls that what you want to hear? Yes.
And am l ever going to get a chance to meet him? - Dad met him.
- l met him.
- Wait, are we the same person? - Almost.
But Mom, l'm going to be late for school.
There're state laws.
Anyway, it's completely over between me and Jordan Catalano.
Well, it finally happened.
l've completely lost touch with her.
Wait a minute, wait a minute, wait, wait, wait.
- Who is this Ryan? - Mom, l have to go to school.
l can't even face rehearsal tonight.
There's going be this big empty hole where Tino used to be.
l'm really sorry.
l mean, l'm sure it's going to all work out.
- You'll find someone, somehow.
- Yes, right.
So, listen, this is probably a really stupid idea, but would Frozen Embryos ever want a girl? l mean, to sing? Like, l don't know, Rayanne Graff or something? Rayanne? Graff.
Right, yes.
No l mean, forget it.
l'll see you.
So, did she talk to him? They rehearse tonight so l guess l should probably be there, right? Rayanne, l hear they're not even Frozen Embryos anymore.
They don't even have a name.
That's perfect.
Then l'll give them a name.
lt'll be a totally new era.
An era of me.
Rayanne, if they don't want you-- Why would they possibly not want me? l mean, l'm cute, l'm a total exhibitionist and l can certainly sing just as loud and obnoxious as Tino.
l just want to make sure you don't make this into a bigger deal than it is.
You think l'm going to drink myself into a stupor over some stupid band? No! Of course not.
lt's just that l actually spoke to Angela and l just don't think they're looking for a girl singer or something.
So did she explain how good l am? Look, l wasn't there, l'm just telling you what she said.
l mean, maybe you should just go talk to her yourself.
Maybe l will.
- What is it? What did she do? - Nothing, yet.
l've seen her like this, excited about something? When she's excited like this, it's kind of dangerous.
What? - That was you? - So? Nothing.
Nothing.
You just-- You have a decent voice.
l'm sorry, did l say you could listen? l'm sorry, l didn't know this was your private recording studio.
l'm sorry, it is.
Look, so in your opinion l can sing halfway decent? Like, say, l can sing in front of people? Maybe if you dressed a little more normal.
Let me ask you your opinion about something.
Say one person finds out there's a way she can get into a band that needs a lead singer, and say this person can sing-- - This is you, right? - J ust listen.
So she asks this other person to put in a good word for her because this other person hangs out with someone in the band.
- What band? - Shut up! So, this other person is acting all put out about this like it's some big chore or something.
Why? Because she wants to sing in the band herself? No, that would be totally impossible.
She totally could not attempt that.
The point is, wouldn't she want to do this? l mean, if she was a real friend? l mean, if she really believed in me? l mean, her.
U nless, l guess, she thought this person would make a complete fool of herself.
So this is Angela, right? l'm just saying, lower it.
What are you saying? You think my bass is too loud? - Yes, and out of tune.
- l'm not out of tune, man.
What, Tino's gone, now you're telling everybody who's out of tune? You're the drummer, you don't know anything about who's out to tune.
Yes, l know when something sounds like crap.
All right! Can we just get through this one song? - l'm going to get some pizza.
- Now you're going to eat? - That's all you ever do is eat, man.
- What are you, the new Tino? Throw that bass anywhere near my drums, l'll kill you.
All right! Look at us! We're ridiculous! We're not a band anymore.
We don't even have a name.
Hello? Angela, telephone! - Hello? - Hey.
Oh, hi! Danielle, hang up! Danielle, l know you're listening, l can hear the TV.
Danielle, come on, let's respect Angela's privacy.
So, Rayanne Graff is here.
Rayanne is there? What's she doing there? l don't know, l was sort of going to ask you.
l mean, no one even invited her.
Now she's coming on to my drummer, acting like she's high.
What does she want? l don't know, l don't have anything to do with it.
- So how ls rehearsal golng? - Sucks.
Right now everyone is just sitting around the loft drinking beers.
Danielle, hang up! Patty! So l'm really sorry, l mean, about Rayanne.
l'm glad you called, though, l mean, thls ls the flrst tlme,,, you've ever called me on the phone, l got to go.
You were listening in on her phone conversation? Patricia, you disappoint me! Shut up! lt's the only way l could get any information.
And by the way, that was your close, personal friend Jordan Catalano.
lt seems that Rayanne is in a loft drinking beer.
So much for her great sobriety.
How is Jordan? He send his regards? All right.
You met him for one minute.
Stop lording it over me.
You know, l l have to say, l'm worried about Rayanne.
Well, Angela seems to think she's doing okay.
Yes, but would Angela even tell us if she was worried about her? l mean, she barely speaks to us.
l have this feeling like she's in trouble.
What do l do? Do l talk to her mom? - Patty.
- No.
l know, l can't, it's crossing the line.
You're right.
l'm not right.
You have to be awake to be right.
Sorry.
Why is that, though, do you suppose? l mean, why is it so taboo? Why is it that you can't speak to people honestly about their children? Because-- l'm going to kill you.
- Patty, it's 1 2: 1 5 already.
- l know, l know, l know.
Okay l'm going to stop obsessing about this, starting now.
- Goodnight.
- Goodnight.
Because.
Because nobody wants to hear something like that.
Nobody wants to hear they may have made a mistake with their kids.
Nobody wants to be accused of not being a decent parent.
l mean, it is.
lt is an unwritten law whatever goes on in your family is your business, period.
Nobody else's.
Do you mind? l'm trying to sleep here.
Do you really believe that? l mean, you really believe that it would be that much of an intrusion to casually and non- confrontationally mention to someone that you happen to be a little concerned about their child? How would you respond to something like that? As to some friendly, well- meaning comment like that? Poison dart.
Goodnight, Gracie.
You know, you're absolutely right.
lt would be an enormous mistake to speak to Amber about Rayanne's drinking problem it would just make matters worse.
Well, l love you, too.
And please, shut up.
Oh, well.
So, you want to make love? l mean, you know, since we're up? Well, speak for yourself.
J ust close your eyes and be very, very brave.
- H i.
- H i.
So, listen.
l had no idea Rayanne was going to show up at the loft.
And when l said that thing about her the idea of her being in the band, l just want to make sure that you didn't feel pressured or anything.
Not that you would feel that way, but in case you did l mean, you know, it's up to you, obviously, so - She's in.
- What? She's in the band.
You mean And it wasn't my idea.
lt was his.
This whole thing is getting too weird.
l got to go.
Angelica, l'm in! l'm an Embryo! Or whatever you want to call it.
Hey, Rayanne! - Yes, l heard, that's really great.
- Hey, Rayanne, you coming? l got to go.
l'll see you later.
What? Amber! H i, it's Patty Chase.
Angela's mom? - Did l wake you? - No, l always sound like this.
l was just having a dream about Angela.
Her and her boyfriend, and Rainie and me were in this log cabin.
lf you mean Jordan Catalano, he's not her boyfriend.
They've decided just to be friends.
Yes, right.
So, anyway.
So they were all in this featherbed and l was making pancakes for George Bush, of all people.
- So, Pat, what's up? - Nothing.
l just wondered how things were going with Rayanne.
Well, she's on the wagon, so she's completely no fun anymore.
l'm just kidding.
l'm very proud of her.
Did Angela tell you she's going to be singing in Jordan's band? Yes, so l hear.
So, you're certain that she's not drinking.
About as certain as you are that Angela and cutie- pie are just friends.
- l think l hear my other phone.
- What a coincidence.
Me, too.
One, two, three, four, lt's not working.
lt's not working.
One, two, three, four.
Hey, Graff, sing.
- What's up? Are you going to sing? - Let's go.
- Hey, turn your amp down.
- What? Catalano, tell him to turn his amp down.
Don't tell Catalano to tell me, you tell me.
Forget it.
This is exactly why Tino left.
Exactly.
Maybe you should stop worrying about me and try to keep a beat.
That's it! Hey, l'm out of here, too, man.
Hey, Graff.
The Vertigo guy called.
Our audition's tonight.
What? Yeah.
So try to think of a name.
Forget a name.
We're not ready.
You'll do okay.
J ust wear something tight.
That's your solution? Cut off my circulation? We need a real rehearsal.
Look, you wanted this chance, you got it.
Don't blow it.
So, can l still borrow the boots? Absolutely.
So, l really hope l can come, it's just-- No, it's okay.
lf you can't, you can't.
No, l just, you know, l have this whole thing with school and all.
lt's okay.
Rickie invited half the school.
Seriously? Well, l'm definitely going to try to go.
So, what song are you singing again? Angela.
l don't know! They never told me! What are you doing? Rayanne, no, it's not worth it.
Please.
J ust to get me through tonight.
You should have seen your face.
Bye! - Honey, is Angela excited? - Yes.
Me, too.
Even more than when l served that B LT to Bobby Dylan.
He said l could call him Bobby.
- And then he stiffed you.
- Come here, baby.
- Honey, your hands are like ice! - l know, my heart is beating a lot.
And l can hardly breathe.
Sweetheart, are you all right? You're scared, aren't you? No, are you kidding? This is going to be incredible.
This is going to be the most amazing night of my life.
Anyway, that was the conversation.
l'll bet she doesn't even have a second phone.
So? Neither do we.
Well, that's not the point, l mean-- H i! There's this thing tonight at this coffeehouse, Vertigo and l promised Rayanne l would ask if l could go but l don't even really want to go, and l feel so guilty.
See she's singing with this band that All right, it's Jordan's band, but this has nothing to do with Jordan or the fact that we broke up or anything, that's what's so weird it's just something between Rayanne and me, l can't even describe.
but it's there, and it's been there for a while since that night when you had to drive her to the hospital.
lt's this thing that we never talk about.
So these are mine? Thanks, l was kind of low on clean socks.
Thanks for listening.
lt's okay.
She'll ignore you for another month just to make up for it.
l know.
Hey.
- What are you doing here? - What am l doing here? - You begged me to come.
- Right, right.
l had this fear that there would be no audience.
So l just started asking anyone.
Thank you.
That really makes me feel wonderful.
Are you sick or something? This always happens when l get nervous.
l lose my voice.
So Rayanne's singing and you get the laryngitis? Listen, when she starts singing, you can't talk.
But afterwards applaud, but not too much, but, sincerely.
- You're telling me how to applaud.
- Shut up, shut up, shut up.
l'm sorry, l'm a little on edge.
l got to pray now.
l'm just going to introduce you, and then Come on.
ls this on? Welcome to Club Vertigo open mike night.
The first group is called Frozen - What is this? Embers? - That's not our name.
We're between names.
- Between Names.
- All rlght, Between Names, - Shut up, man, let her flnlsh, - Dld you hear what she called us? l'm sorry.
l'm sorry.
l'm sorry.
- Go ahead and say hi.
- Hey, every-- This is Rayanne's first time.
l mean, singing with us.
One, two, three, four.
Rayanne? Rayanne! Wait! Rayanne, you're okay.
l'm not okay, and you know it.
Now everybody knows it.
And you all thought l would screw up, didn't you? Well, congratulations! You were right! Rayanne, wait! Don't worry, l mean, there's probably nothing to worry about.
No, there is.
Hello? Rickie? What is it? Rickie, please calm down, l can't understand what you're saying.
Rickie? lt's Angela's mom.
Start at the beginning.
- Amber? - Yes, H i.
Patty Chase, Angela's mom.
Yes.
l know who you are.
You know? You don't have to keep reintroducing yourself.
l'm sorry.
And l'm sorry to barge in on you like this.
l tried calling, but You know, l think we could be part of the same karass.
You and Angela, me and Rayanne, and Rickie.
- Part of what? - A karass.
lt's a group of people who kind of get mixed up in each other's lives in order to do God's will.
lt was in "Cat's Cradle" by Kurt Vonnegut.
Amber, Rayanne's been drinking again.
- Now, do you have any idea where-- - She has not been drinking.
Amber, l found a glass on our bar with whiskey in it.
What did you do, dust for prints? Run a D NA test? That's not the point.
You don't think l know my own kid? How well do you know Angela? l know that Rayanne is missing.
Rickie called me last night.
He was hysterical.
Listen, l know that this is completely inappropriate, okay? l know that it is not my place to tell you how to raise your daughter but l can't help it.
l'm involved, okay, whether, you like it or not and you can hate me but l can't just stand by and watch this girl destroy herself.
Somebody going to turn that damn thing off? Rayanne? l don't understand Rickie said that you were gone.
She was right here, of course, where else would she be? We ate raw chocolate chip cookie dough, and we turned the phone off.
- You don't have to go to school today.
- No, l want to.
Poor Rickie, he probably had fourteen heart attacks.
l could give her a ride to school.
l'll write her a late note.
l'm a good mother.
l'm a damn good mother, so you can just get right off your high horse.
J ust so you know, l didn't drink that whiskey.
l poured it back.
You can ask Angela.
You haven't had one drink? Since that night in the hospital? No.
Swear to God.
Why didn't you tell me that you had stopped seeing your counselor? l don't know.
Maybe just because l wanted you to think l was okay so you wouldn't mind if l, you know, stayed friends with Angela.
l guess she means a lot to you.
l guess that's the one thing you and l have in common.
Okay, l have to go.
- Thanks for the ride, M rs.
Chase.
- Rayanne? Apparently you and l are in the same karass.
Call me Patty.
Patty, thanks.
For my life.
Rickie! Rickie, wait! Here, l was late.
Rickie, wait! Rickie, come on, stop.
Rickie, come on-- - Don't! Do not touch me.
- Rickie, come on-- No! l can't anymore.
You don't know how scared l was.
l thought you were dead.
l was picking out the clothes l should wear to your funeral.
- Rickie, that hurt.
- Not enough.
H i.
l've never been out here before.
So Rickie was really scared.
l mean, l was, too.
So, what, you're mad at me? Because l didn't get to hear you sing? You didn't miss much, just me making a fool out of myself and you've seen that plenty.
Right? Anyway, l knew you wouldn't show.
- l can't stand these looks anymore.
- What looks? You and Rickie looking at me like l'm going to lose control like any minute l'm going to go on some jag or something.
l just can't stand knowing what you're thinking about me.
What? What am l thinking? l'm messed up.
That l'm too messed up for you to be my friend anymore.
Rayanne, that's not true.
l never l'm still your friend.
Nothing's changed.
But that wasn't completely true elther, And we both knew lt, Maybe it was just easier, you know? When you'd come to me for advice and stuff, like you used to before.
l should have been there.
Last night, l should have been there no matter what.
M iss you.
l know.
l missed you, too.
- Rickie, l'm sorry.
- l swear, l'm going to kill you.
Excuse me, pardon me.
Excuse me, pardon me.
Excuse me, pardon me.
- We're not cutting, okay? - We were here before.
- He was saving our place.
- God, l worship this movie.
- ls James Dean an ltalian? - Jordan Catalano is part ltalian.
- l told you not to mention him! - Okay.
- l like Latin guys.
- Like me? Like Andy Garcia.
Oh, my God.
l n that movie, where that girl is blind? What's his name, what's his name, what's his name? - Luis! - Who is Luis? You know, the guy on Sesame Street, with the repair shop.
What? Luis is this genius, okay? He can fix anything.
You are so crazy.
l don't care.
l like Sesame Street.
l still watch it every day.
l used to love their songs.
What was that one? No, no.
Sing it sister, all right! Come on! All right, girl!
No, it's an expression.
l n AA, it means you've been clean and sober for over a month.
Oh, yes.
l feel really good.
l know you do.
This is kind of a dangerous time.
So Jordan Catalano and l had pretty much broken up,,, but he stlll knew the comblnatlon to my locker, - What's wrong? - Nothing.
J ust You need me, You must have me as your own, You can't llve another second knowlng others could possess me, l could kill Tino.
What did you call that word? You said it last week.
You know, when you feel the need to eat.
- H unger? - No, that thing you said l was.
l wasn't actually saying that you're orally fixated-- Orally fixated! That's such a cool word.
You know, l was saying that you have certain-- Because l have this theory of how that probably happened to me.
You see, my mother, she claims that she breast- fed me but l just have serious doubts.
You should see her boobs.
They are so firm.
Lolly? Sure.
Look, Rayanne, l know that you've chosen not to continue these sessions with me right now.
l only have to do this therapy thing for a month - and then it's optional, right? - No, l know that, l realize that.
l just need to know that you have a support system in place.
l don't need a support system.
l got friends.
That's exactly why l'm raising this.
Didn't you mention to me that you've had some feelings of distance from your friends - since, you know, the incident? - What incident? l'm talking about the night you nearly died the night that Angela's mother rushed you to the hospital.
Now didn't you tell me that since that night you've felt some distance between yourself and your friend Angela? l never said "distance".
l just don't see her that much.
lt's not because of some incident, it's because she's got this guy that she's involved with.
Which she wouldn't even have if it wasn't for me.
And you don't feel any awkwardness around Angela.
No.
The thing with Angela is that even with this stupid obsession with this guy she's totally there for me.
So where's Angela? "Whatever you do, don't take the first drink.
" AA propaganda from M iss Crazy- nowski.
What a wimpette.
l thought you said you liked her.
That she was sensitive.
Sensitive wears thin.
Go ahead, keep it.
l don't need it.
So, she's with Catalano again? lt is the weirdest break- up in history.
She's the one that needs a shrink.
So he just said, "This isn't working for me" then he threw his mike right into Joey's bass drum, and then he left.
So he quit? Tino quit Frozen Embryos? Yes.
l don't even think we're allowed to call ourselves Frozen Embryos anymore because it was Tino's name.
So now it's like, off- limits or something.
l'm really sorry.
l am just really low, l'll just flnd any excuse to touch hlm, Hey.
l'm sorry, am l interrupting? No.
H i.
No, you don't have to-- Whatever.
Later.
He's just a bit upset about this thing with Tino.
Why am l telling you? You must have heard it happened, right? Oh, yes.
So what happened? About Tino quitting Frozen Embryos.
l only know because he told me.
What, you think that bothers me that you know? Tino would be telling me right now if he was in school.
Right, l know.
So, Angelica, what's the deal? Do l ever get to see you again? - l know, l've just been-- - l'm just kidding.
Get out of here! l see you too much, don't flatter yourself.
No, really.
You should really come over after school.
- ls that cool with Pattycake? - Yes, of course it is.
Don't be crazy.
She never comes home before 6: 00 anyway.
Well, you know, maybe l will.
Careful.
Don't break the egg yolk.
So you actually teach people how to cook? Yes, l actually do.
Listen, l'm sorry that Angela's not home yet.
- Do you guys have definite plans? - Like this? That's perfect.
You're a natural.
This must be her.
- You're back.
- l'm back.
- H i.
- Hey.
Hey, watch that chocolate sauce.
l'll get the rest of the groceries.
Can l get you something to drink? Like a soda? Yes.
Thanks.
Anything with sugar and caffeine.
So where's Angela? She's got better things to do, or what have you.
Well, it's great to see you.
So, you mean she's with l mean, l thought they weren't-- Exactly.
You figured it out.
lt's like watching a rollercoaster.
Actually, l think they're in the ticket line, like - really close to the rollercoaster.
- l see.
So, did Angela tell you? l got 33 days.
l'm squeaky clean, like a rubber ducky.
No, no, Angela didn't tell me.
- Congratulations.
- Thanks.
- H i, honey.
- Hello, You're supposed to say " Excuse me".
Right, sorry, excuse me.
- Oh, my god, the chocolate sauce.
- lt's okay.
lt's not bubbling.
- Chocolate sauce! Can l try it? - Be careful! lt's very, very hot.
J ust a taste.
We're about to eat.
- Danielle.
Come here.
Let me fix it.
- No.
- l have to wash my whole face now.
- Good.
Rayanne, why don't you stay for dinner? - Yes, Angela will be back any minute.
- No, no.
l got to go.
You know, my mom's making dinner.
Later.
You know, that girl never said thank you.
- For the soda? - For saving her life.
l can't sleep, Bert, l can't fall asleep, Well, count sheep then, Ernle, Count sheep? What do you mean, count sheep? l mean, just lle there and count sheep, J ust lmaglne them one at a tlme untll you get so sleepy,,, you just fall asleep, Okay, l'll try lt, Bert, All rlght, let's see, countlng sheep, So, when is dinner? You're hungry? - l haven't eaten since breakfast.
- You didn't eat lunch? lt's Tuesday.
l saw my counselor today.
What counselor? My drug counselor.
M iss Krysenowski.
Remember, l told you.
Okay, let's see what we got here.
Egg rolls! M ini- quiche and pierogies! l'm sick of appetizers.
l want a real meal, with all four basic food groups and just for once can it not be such an amazing surprise that l want to eat dinner like every other American on the planet? - Okay, what's up? - Nothing.
Angela invites me over today and when l get there, she's nowhere to be found.
- Did you two have a fight? - No.
- Okay.
What did you do? - What did l do? - Yes, to make Angela mad at you.
- l didn't do anything.
She's just with Jordan Catalano all the time.
Well, then you hang out with her while she's with Jordan.
You know Jordan's friends.
l mean, become part of it, Rainie.
That's not hard.
Everyone loves you.
Look what we forgot we had.
Leftover Chinese.
Rainie butterfly shrimp.
Now, l see a lot of your friends come and go and most of them l could have cared less about.
But Angela, she's special.
What l still can't figure out is why Tino even quit.
That's what's so frustrating.
Can you imagine what that's like? To have to sit around, trying to figure out what someone else is thinking.
- Hey, what's up? - Rayanne, hi.
My parents said you stopped by, but l thought you weren't going to.
No problem! Guzzles a six- pack, So Catalano, how is it going? l was just saying how Frozen Embryos finally got a spot at this open mike night at Vertigo, that coffeehouse.
- l know what Vertigo is.
- Right.
Well.
They still don't have a lead singer, so it's like should they blow it off, or find somebody new by next Thursday, or - So Tino is still being a lowlife? - Could you two leave? Oh, my God.
Angela, l just had the most unbelievable idea.
l am so brilliant.
l amaze myself.
- Me.
- What about you? l should be the new lead singer for Frozen Embryos.
Well, come on, l'm serious.
Talk to Jordan.
l just don't know if that sounds very realistic.
What sounds realistic? A month stone- cold sober, that doesn't sound realistic? l can't just tell Jordan Catalano something like that.
God.
Angela, think of it.
We'd have such a time.
You, hanging out with the band.
Me, being the band.
- Come on, he'll do it if you ask him.
- No, he won't.
lt's Jordan Catalano.
J ust promise you'll ask for me, okay? - Angelica, please? - Sure.
l promise.
l'll get lt! l'll get lt! l'll get lt! Hey, lt's mlne, Hello? Yes.
lt's your boyfriend, Ryan.
He's not my boyfriend.
He was, but we're keeping it loose.
l'll take it in the other room.
Are either of them married yet? l mean, how much have l missed? l hope you can join us for dinner tonight.
We never get to see you anymore.
Somebody hang up! That's what everybody tells me.
Rayanne says that, you say that.
lf Rayanne isn't seeing you and we're not seeing you, who is seeing you? - And how much of you? - Dad.
l'm sorry.
l asked a question about your life, didn't l? What came over me? So, Rayanne seems to be doing okay.
Oh, she is.
Of course she is.
She was actually seeing a counselor for a little while.
She was seeing her? l thought she told me she was still seeing her.
Got to go.
Jordan Catalano is giving me a ride to school.
ls that what you want to hear? Yes.
And am l ever going to get a chance to meet him? - Dad met him.
- l met him.
- Wait, are we the same person? - Almost.
But Mom, l'm going to be late for school.
There're state laws.
Anyway, it's completely over between me and Jordan Catalano.
Well, it finally happened.
l've completely lost touch with her.
Wait a minute, wait a minute, wait, wait, wait.
- Who is this Ryan? - Mom, l have to go to school.
l can't even face rehearsal tonight.
There's going be this big empty hole where Tino used to be.
l'm really sorry.
l mean, l'm sure it's going to all work out.
- You'll find someone, somehow.
- Yes, right.
So, listen, this is probably a really stupid idea, but would Frozen Embryos ever want a girl? l mean, to sing? Like, l don't know, Rayanne Graff or something? Rayanne? Graff.
Right, yes.
No l mean, forget it.
l'll see you.
So, did she talk to him? They rehearse tonight so l guess l should probably be there, right? Rayanne, l hear they're not even Frozen Embryos anymore.
They don't even have a name.
That's perfect.
Then l'll give them a name.
lt'll be a totally new era.
An era of me.
Rayanne, if they don't want you-- Why would they possibly not want me? l mean, l'm cute, l'm a total exhibitionist and l can certainly sing just as loud and obnoxious as Tino.
l just want to make sure you don't make this into a bigger deal than it is.
You think l'm going to drink myself into a stupor over some stupid band? No! Of course not.
lt's just that l actually spoke to Angela and l just don't think they're looking for a girl singer or something.
So did she explain how good l am? Look, l wasn't there, l'm just telling you what she said.
l mean, maybe you should just go talk to her yourself.
Maybe l will.
- What is it? What did she do? - Nothing, yet.
l've seen her like this, excited about something? When she's excited like this, it's kind of dangerous.
What? - That was you? - So? Nothing.
Nothing.
You just-- You have a decent voice.
l'm sorry, did l say you could listen? l'm sorry, l didn't know this was your private recording studio.
l'm sorry, it is.
Look, so in your opinion l can sing halfway decent? Like, say, l can sing in front of people? Maybe if you dressed a little more normal.
Let me ask you your opinion about something.
Say one person finds out there's a way she can get into a band that needs a lead singer, and say this person can sing-- - This is you, right? - J ust listen.
So she asks this other person to put in a good word for her because this other person hangs out with someone in the band.
- What band? - Shut up! So, this other person is acting all put out about this like it's some big chore or something.
Why? Because she wants to sing in the band herself? No, that would be totally impossible.
She totally could not attempt that.
The point is, wouldn't she want to do this? l mean, if she was a real friend? l mean, if she really believed in me? l mean, her.
U nless, l guess, she thought this person would make a complete fool of herself.
So this is Angela, right? l'm just saying, lower it.
What are you saying? You think my bass is too loud? - Yes, and out of tune.
- l'm not out of tune, man.
What, Tino's gone, now you're telling everybody who's out of tune? You're the drummer, you don't know anything about who's out to tune.
Yes, l know when something sounds like crap.
All right! Can we just get through this one song? - l'm going to get some pizza.
- Now you're going to eat? - That's all you ever do is eat, man.
- What are you, the new Tino? Throw that bass anywhere near my drums, l'll kill you.
All right! Look at us! We're ridiculous! We're not a band anymore.
We don't even have a name.
Hello? Angela, telephone! - Hello? - Hey.
Oh, hi! Danielle, hang up! Danielle, l know you're listening, l can hear the TV.
Danielle, come on, let's respect Angela's privacy.
So, Rayanne Graff is here.
Rayanne is there? What's she doing there? l don't know, l was sort of going to ask you.
l mean, no one even invited her.
Now she's coming on to my drummer, acting like she's high.
What does she want? l don't know, l don't have anything to do with it.
- So how ls rehearsal golng? - Sucks.
Right now everyone is just sitting around the loft drinking beers.
Danielle, hang up! Patty! So l'm really sorry, l mean, about Rayanne.
l'm glad you called, though, l mean, thls ls the flrst tlme,,, you've ever called me on the phone, l got to go.
You were listening in on her phone conversation? Patricia, you disappoint me! Shut up! lt's the only way l could get any information.
And by the way, that was your close, personal friend Jordan Catalano.
lt seems that Rayanne is in a loft drinking beer.
So much for her great sobriety.
How is Jordan? He send his regards? All right.
You met him for one minute.
Stop lording it over me.
You know, l l have to say, l'm worried about Rayanne.
Well, Angela seems to think she's doing okay.
Yes, but would Angela even tell us if she was worried about her? l mean, she barely speaks to us.
l have this feeling like she's in trouble.
What do l do? Do l talk to her mom? - Patty.
- No.
l know, l can't, it's crossing the line.
You're right.
l'm not right.
You have to be awake to be right.
Sorry.
Why is that, though, do you suppose? l mean, why is it so taboo? Why is it that you can't speak to people honestly about their children? Because-- l'm going to kill you.
- Patty, it's 1 2: 1 5 already.
- l know, l know, l know.
Okay l'm going to stop obsessing about this, starting now.
- Goodnight.
- Goodnight.
Because.
Because nobody wants to hear something like that.
Nobody wants to hear they may have made a mistake with their kids.
Nobody wants to be accused of not being a decent parent.
l mean, it is.
lt is an unwritten law whatever goes on in your family is your business, period.
Nobody else's.
Do you mind? l'm trying to sleep here.
Do you really believe that? l mean, you really believe that it would be that much of an intrusion to casually and non- confrontationally mention to someone that you happen to be a little concerned about their child? How would you respond to something like that? As to some friendly, well- meaning comment like that? Poison dart.
Goodnight, Gracie.
You know, you're absolutely right.
lt would be an enormous mistake to speak to Amber about Rayanne's drinking problem it would just make matters worse.
Well, l love you, too.
And please, shut up.
Oh, well.
So, you want to make love? l mean, you know, since we're up? Well, speak for yourself.
J ust close your eyes and be very, very brave.
- H i.
- H i.
So, listen.
l had no idea Rayanne was going to show up at the loft.
And when l said that thing about her the idea of her being in the band, l just want to make sure that you didn't feel pressured or anything.
Not that you would feel that way, but in case you did l mean, you know, it's up to you, obviously, so - She's in.
- What? She's in the band.
You mean And it wasn't my idea.
lt was his.
This whole thing is getting too weird.
l got to go.
Angelica, l'm in! l'm an Embryo! Or whatever you want to call it.
Hey, Rayanne! - Yes, l heard, that's really great.
- Hey, Rayanne, you coming? l got to go.
l'll see you later.
What? Amber! H i, it's Patty Chase.
Angela's mom? - Did l wake you? - No, l always sound like this.
l was just having a dream about Angela.
Her and her boyfriend, and Rainie and me were in this log cabin.
lf you mean Jordan Catalano, he's not her boyfriend.
They've decided just to be friends.
Yes, right.
So, anyway.
So they were all in this featherbed and l was making pancakes for George Bush, of all people.
- So, Pat, what's up? - Nothing.
l just wondered how things were going with Rayanne.
Well, she's on the wagon, so she's completely no fun anymore.
l'm just kidding.
l'm very proud of her.
Did Angela tell you she's going to be singing in Jordan's band? Yes, so l hear.
So, you're certain that she's not drinking.
About as certain as you are that Angela and cutie- pie are just friends.
- l think l hear my other phone.
- What a coincidence.
Me, too.
One, two, three, four, lt's not working.
lt's not working.
One, two, three, four.
Hey, Graff, sing.
- What's up? Are you going to sing? - Let's go.
- Hey, turn your amp down.
- What? Catalano, tell him to turn his amp down.
Don't tell Catalano to tell me, you tell me.
Forget it.
This is exactly why Tino left.
Exactly.
Maybe you should stop worrying about me and try to keep a beat.
That's it! Hey, l'm out of here, too, man.
Hey, Graff.
The Vertigo guy called.
Our audition's tonight.
What? Yeah.
So try to think of a name.
Forget a name.
We're not ready.
You'll do okay.
J ust wear something tight.
That's your solution? Cut off my circulation? We need a real rehearsal.
Look, you wanted this chance, you got it.
Don't blow it.
So, can l still borrow the boots? Absolutely.
So, l really hope l can come, it's just-- No, it's okay.
lf you can't, you can't.
No, l just, you know, l have this whole thing with school and all.
lt's okay.
Rickie invited half the school.
Seriously? Well, l'm definitely going to try to go.
So, what song are you singing again? Angela.
l don't know! They never told me! What are you doing? Rayanne, no, it's not worth it.
Please.
J ust to get me through tonight.
You should have seen your face.
Bye! - Honey, is Angela excited? - Yes.
Me, too.
Even more than when l served that B LT to Bobby Dylan.
He said l could call him Bobby.
- And then he stiffed you.
- Come here, baby.
- Honey, your hands are like ice! - l know, my heart is beating a lot.
And l can hardly breathe.
Sweetheart, are you all right? You're scared, aren't you? No, are you kidding? This is going to be incredible.
This is going to be the most amazing night of my life.
Anyway, that was the conversation.
l'll bet she doesn't even have a second phone.
So? Neither do we.
Well, that's not the point, l mean-- H i! There's this thing tonight at this coffeehouse, Vertigo and l promised Rayanne l would ask if l could go but l don't even really want to go, and l feel so guilty.
See she's singing with this band that All right, it's Jordan's band, but this has nothing to do with Jordan or the fact that we broke up or anything, that's what's so weird it's just something between Rayanne and me, l can't even describe.
but it's there, and it's been there for a while since that night when you had to drive her to the hospital.
lt's this thing that we never talk about.
So these are mine? Thanks, l was kind of low on clean socks.
Thanks for listening.
lt's okay.
She'll ignore you for another month just to make up for it.
l know.
Hey.
- What are you doing here? - What am l doing here? - You begged me to come.
- Right, right.
l had this fear that there would be no audience.
So l just started asking anyone.
Thank you.
That really makes me feel wonderful.
Are you sick or something? This always happens when l get nervous.
l lose my voice.
So Rayanne's singing and you get the laryngitis? Listen, when she starts singing, you can't talk.
But afterwards applaud, but not too much, but, sincerely.
- You're telling me how to applaud.
- Shut up, shut up, shut up.
l'm sorry, l'm a little on edge.
l got to pray now.
l'm just going to introduce you, and then Come on.
ls this on? Welcome to Club Vertigo open mike night.
The first group is called Frozen - What is this? Embers? - That's not our name.
We're between names.
- Between Names.
- All rlght, Between Names, - Shut up, man, let her flnlsh, - Dld you hear what she called us? l'm sorry.
l'm sorry.
l'm sorry.
- Go ahead and say hi.
- Hey, every-- This is Rayanne's first time.
l mean, singing with us.
One, two, three, four.
Rayanne? Rayanne! Wait! Rayanne, you're okay.
l'm not okay, and you know it.
Now everybody knows it.
And you all thought l would screw up, didn't you? Well, congratulations! You were right! Rayanne, wait! Don't worry, l mean, there's probably nothing to worry about.
No, there is.
Hello? Rickie? What is it? Rickie, please calm down, l can't understand what you're saying.
Rickie? lt's Angela's mom.
Start at the beginning.
- Amber? - Yes, H i.
Patty Chase, Angela's mom.
Yes.
l know who you are.
You know? You don't have to keep reintroducing yourself.
l'm sorry.
And l'm sorry to barge in on you like this.
l tried calling, but You know, l think we could be part of the same karass.
You and Angela, me and Rayanne, and Rickie.
- Part of what? - A karass.
lt's a group of people who kind of get mixed up in each other's lives in order to do God's will.
lt was in "Cat's Cradle" by Kurt Vonnegut.
Amber, Rayanne's been drinking again.
- Now, do you have any idea where-- - She has not been drinking.
Amber, l found a glass on our bar with whiskey in it.
What did you do, dust for prints? Run a D NA test? That's not the point.
You don't think l know my own kid? How well do you know Angela? l know that Rayanne is missing.
Rickie called me last night.
He was hysterical.
Listen, l know that this is completely inappropriate, okay? l know that it is not my place to tell you how to raise your daughter but l can't help it.
l'm involved, okay, whether, you like it or not and you can hate me but l can't just stand by and watch this girl destroy herself.
Somebody going to turn that damn thing off? Rayanne? l don't understand Rickie said that you were gone.
She was right here, of course, where else would she be? We ate raw chocolate chip cookie dough, and we turned the phone off.
- You don't have to go to school today.
- No, l want to.
Poor Rickie, he probably had fourteen heart attacks.
l could give her a ride to school.
l'll write her a late note.
l'm a good mother.
l'm a damn good mother, so you can just get right off your high horse.
J ust so you know, l didn't drink that whiskey.
l poured it back.
You can ask Angela.
You haven't had one drink? Since that night in the hospital? No.
Swear to God.
Why didn't you tell me that you had stopped seeing your counselor? l don't know.
Maybe just because l wanted you to think l was okay so you wouldn't mind if l, you know, stayed friends with Angela.
l guess she means a lot to you.
l guess that's the one thing you and l have in common.
Okay, l have to go.
- Thanks for the ride, M rs.
Chase.
- Rayanne? Apparently you and l are in the same karass.
Call me Patty.
Patty, thanks.
For my life.
Rickie! Rickie, wait! Here, l was late.
Rickie, wait! Rickie, come on, stop.
Rickie, come on-- - Don't! Do not touch me.
- Rickie, come on-- No! l can't anymore.
You don't know how scared l was.
l thought you were dead.
l was picking out the clothes l should wear to your funeral.
- Rickie, that hurt.
- Not enough.
H i.
l've never been out here before.
So Rickie was really scared.
l mean, l was, too.
So, what, you're mad at me? Because l didn't get to hear you sing? You didn't miss much, just me making a fool out of myself and you've seen that plenty.
Right? Anyway, l knew you wouldn't show.
- l can't stand these looks anymore.
- What looks? You and Rickie looking at me like l'm going to lose control like any minute l'm going to go on some jag or something.
l just can't stand knowing what you're thinking about me.
What? What am l thinking? l'm messed up.
That l'm too messed up for you to be my friend anymore.
Rayanne, that's not true.
l never l'm still your friend.
Nothing's changed.
But that wasn't completely true elther, And we both knew lt, Maybe it was just easier, you know? When you'd come to me for advice and stuff, like you used to before.
l should have been there.
Last night, l should have been there no matter what.
M iss you.
l know.
l missed you, too.
- Rickie, l'm sorry.
- l swear, l'm going to kill you.
Excuse me, pardon me.
Excuse me, pardon me.
Excuse me, pardon me.
- We're not cutting, okay? - We were here before.
- He was saving our place.
- God, l worship this movie.
- ls James Dean an ltalian? - Jordan Catalano is part ltalian.
- l told you not to mention him! - Okay.
- l like Latin guys.
- Like me? Like Andy Garcia.
Oh, my God.
l n that movie, where that girl is blind? What's his name, what's his name, what's his name? - Luis! - Who is Luis? You know, the guy on Sesame Street, with the repair shop.
What? Luis is this genius, okay? He can fix anything.
You are so crazy.
l don't care.
l like Sesame Street.
l still watch it every day.
l used to love their songs.
What was that one? No, no.
Sing it sister, all right! Come on! All right, girl!