Once and Again (1999) s01e19 Episode Script
Cat-In-Hat
Cat-In-Hat What am I doing? Hello? - Hi.
- Hello? Where are you? I--I called the house.
There was no answer.
Um, I--I--I I wanted to-- to go into work early so, you know, I--I headed out early and there was all this traffic, and - Aah! Stop! Aah! - Okay, well, can--can you hear me? Yes.
Yes, I can hear you.
Hey, take it upstairs, all right? Go get ready.
Go on.
Hi.
Sorry.
- Yeah.
- Uh, look I wonder if it would be possible for you to pick Jessie up after tae kwon do.
Yeah, that's fine.
Oh, hold--hold on.
Hello? - WoKaren? - Yes.
Hi, Libby.
Where are you? No one answered at the house.
- I'm on my way.
- Why are you whispering? I'm not whispering.
Okay.
Just so you know - your 10:00 was pushed to 10:30.
- Okay.
Oh, and the research you've been waiting for on the Libtech chemical plant is in.
Good.
Great.
I just thought you might want to know.
Yeah, I--I did.
Thanks.
So I'll see you soon? - Yes.
- Okay.
Bye.
Okay.
Thanks.
Sorry.
So, uh, tell Jessie that I'll get her.
It's still me.
Hello? - Hey.
- Hi.
So, um, I--I'll get Jessie.
Just--just tell her I'll be there.
- Okay.
- Okay.
- Bye.
- Bye.
Hi.
Come back.
I--I can't.
You are so cute.
Cute.
You think I'm cute.
Yeah, that's right.
I think you're cute.
That's not really an adjective that I get a lot.
Yeah, well, that's just sad.
I've gotta go.
I've gotta go.
What are you doing tonight? It's, uh, Thursday.
I'm making dinner for my kids.
I'm maybe doing a load of laundry.
- Stay for a minute.
One minute.
- I can't, okay? I have Frosted Flakes.
Okay.
One minute.
Oh, what are you doing? What am I doing? - Excuse me.
- Excuse me.
Hi.
- Good morning, Libby.
- Good morning, Karen.
Oh, by the way, I put that research on your desk.
Oh, that's great.
Oh, hi.
Hello Hi.
I--I'm sorry I'm--I'm late.
- 15 minutes.
You're a real slacker, Karen.
- Well, I hate to be late.
- Your cheeks are all rosy.
- Yeah.
Well, um, so, what's been going on? Well, I had a cup of coffee, talked to Ron about his new leaf blower and I was just about to-- - Yes? - Craig, how many did you want? - Just a bouquet, whatever that is.
- Right.
I don't know what I'm doing.
I'm not-- Well, I'm the kind of person that's just, you know, not spontaneous.
I--I need to have a plan and I know what that sounds like but I need to know the parameters of my my life.
Dude, did you see what Ms.
Laurent was wearing today? Hell, yeah.
Look at this one.
- You got to trade up.
- You know it.
You kids gonna buy anything today? Uh, anything's possible, sir.
- I won't hold my breath.
- Come on, man.
We're getting our band together.
We've been trying to do this since we were 12.
Well, you guys suck.
You should really just give it up, man.
Hey, Blake, how's it going? Hey, man, how's Northwestern? Not entirely what I expected.
It's very much not.
Yeah, you guys know Jenny, right? Hey.
So are you guys still in that band? No, we started this other one.
Oh, cool.
Are you guys playing around anywhere? Actually, we're, uh, playing the Dog House tomorrow night.
- Oh, maybe we should go check that out.
- Yeah.
Yeah, maybe you should.
Uh, all right, maybe we'll see you there.
Later.
Hey, now, if you're not gonna take this seriously - I might go join their band.
- You do that.
Wait a minute.
We are so late for practice.
Dude, we're screwed.
Cool.
Young See ya.
You just gotta get your leg up higher.
Hi.
Hi, Toby.
I'm late.
Yeah.
So, who you sparring with? Paul Cenedella.
Oh.
He's good.
I can take him.
Hey, grasshopper.
Hey, you're not supposed to call me that.
- Hi, Paul.
- Hey.
- You ready for Saturday? - Yeah, I guess.
I heard that sometimes, for the black belt Master Kim puts you up against this really huge ninth degree that he brings in.
Won't we, like, get killed? Well, maybe, but, you know, it's all about attitude.
You're not scared, are you? No.
Sir! I'll take it easy on you.
That's not necessary.
Jessie, Paul.
Fighting stance! Begin! Very good! Very good.
- I see a big improvement.
- That's right.
Edward, Marshall.
Okay.
Begin! Good.
Keep your hands up.
You know, it's funny.
You look exactly like this friend of mine-- this good friend, whom, sadly, I lost touch with because she never returned my phone calls.
- I'm sorry.
Hi.
- Hi.
How are you? - Fine.
Where have you been? - Good.
Nowhere.
I've just been, you know-- You look great.
- Thanks.
- No, I mean it.
You look really good.
Thank you.
Are you having sex? Make it go in.
- Damn - With somebody? Go ahead, Lloyd! No, no, no, no, Lloyd's not--no.
- Well, who is it? - He's just someone I'm casually seeing.
Oh, casually.
It's just very hard to describe.
He's--you know, I don't know where it's going or--or where I want it to go, so Very good.
So what's he do? He's a doctor.
Yeah.
- Well, you look great.
- Thank you.
Hi, Naomi.
Jessie, Toby keeps telling me how good you are.
I think he's afraid of you.
Mom! Oh, good, you're still in one piece.
Can we go? More details later? Sure.
Oh, I left my jacket.
Okay.
So I guess we're both pretty ready for Saturday, don't you think? Paul? Who was that? Nobody.
Buttermilk? Who's got buttermilk? Okay, Mom, ask me a question.
Yogurt? That's gonna do.
Any question.
Um, okay.
What is the difference between the yin and yang? What does it symbolize? I don't know.
Balance or something? Well, there's more to it than that.
Well, it's boring.
- Mom - Hello? Mom, you left the stove on.
Yeah.
Oh, hi.
No, he--he's not.
He didn't? Yeah, uh, yeah, okay.
I--I'll tell him.
Yeah, thanks for calling.
Eli missed his practice.
Ask me another question.
Uh you didn't answer the last one.
Well, I just want to skip that one for now.
All right, um What are the tenets of tae kwon do? All of them? Yeah, I guess.
Great.
Jessie, please.
Honey, please don't mix your papers with my depositions.
I'm not.
I cannot believe we have to take this whole major written test to get a black belt.
Well, that's part of it.
Well, I think I might fail.
Well, then maybe you better stop goofing around.
Don't.
Eli, we're gonna eat soon.
How do you know I won't still be hungry? It's only one carrot.
Your coach called.
What happened to practice? Oh, um, look, don't worry about it.
I'll call him.
I'm not worried about it.
I was just wondering why you missed practice and maybe where you were.
Nowhere.
No, it's just Coop and I were at Al's Guitar, and we lost track of time.
I mean, we were totally aware of it.
It was just, you know, one of those things.
What do you mean, one of those things? I thought you liked basketball.
I do.
Coop and I are thinking about starting a band and, uh, we just lost track of time, that's all.
Okay.
Call your coach.
I will.
I said I was going to.
When's dinner? I don't know.
Soon.
You okay? Yeah.
Why? I--I don't know.
It just seems like you're a little less organized than usual.
Oh, no, I'm-- I'm fine.
Thanks.
All right.
I'm a rotator of underwear.
I admit it.
I take the freshly washed ones and I put them at the bottom of the pile so that all the underwear gets equal time.
Well, I mean if you think about it, it makes sense.
Oh, God.
Can somebody get that? Well, I'm not a strict rotator.
I mean, sometimes I do take out my favorite ones and, you know, move them ahead in the lineup.
Leo.
Wh-- - Hi.
- Hi.
This is a great place.
I--I didn't expect you.
Really nice.
I smell something burning.
Is that dinner? Oh, uh, n-no.
Oh, did I interrupt? Nope, we haven't started yet.
You have potatoes in your hair.
Uh, a-are you hungry? I'm starving.
Come on.
Okay.
Are you homeless? Jessie! Where do you live? In the city.
You rode your bike all the way out here? Yeah.
Does anybody, uh, want this? Uh, no, go ahead.
- This is so good, Karen.
- Oh, thank you.
How do you guys know each other? You want some more peas? From work.
Yeah, I'll take some.
So you're a lawyer.
Leo's a doctor.
Oh, that's cool, especially since you're so young.
Yeah.
I'm gonna get some more ice.
Can you look at my thumb? - What's wrong with it? - I don't know.
I think I jammed it a little in tae kwon do.
Does that hurt? No.
Then you're fine.
- You didn't look at it, really.
- I did.
Are you a real doctor or just, like, an optometrist? I'm, like, an M.
D.
What belt are you? She's going for her black belt on Saturday.
Oh, really? All right.
Hit me as hard as you can right there.
Uhh! Not bad.
Did I hurt you? No, no.
Is this your ball? Um, it's Eli's.
Hey, you want to shoot some hoop? - Uh, sure.
Now? - Yeah, I'm done.
- Uh, he's really good.
- So am I.
Where's-- where's everybody going? Eli and I were gonna go play some ball.
- Now? - Yeah.
- Eli, you've got homework.
- I--I know.
I-- Don't worry.
We're just gonna mess around for a few minutes.
Great dinner.
Let's do it! All right, let me see that ball.
You take it out.
Okay.
Let's go.
- Okay.
Okay.
- Yeah? That's good.
So, is Leo, like, your new boyfriend, Mom? What? Is he your boyfriend? No.
Because I think he likes you.
Okay, well, um we should keep working on your black-belt questions.
I guess, but I still can't find my other study guide.
I think it's in Dad's car.
Well, maybe you should call him.
He's not there.
Try his cellphone.
It's not an emergency or anything.
Jess, come on.
Hello.
Hi.
Did, um, Jess leave a study guide in your car? Uh, let me see.
Yeah.
It's here.
Okay, um, could you-- could you just give me a call when you get home, and I'll come by and get it? Well, I'm right near you.
I could bring it over.
No, no, no.
That's okay.
Just give me a call, and I'll come get it.
No, it's not a problem.
I'm two blocks away.
I'll be there in two minutes.
Y--but-- Your father's on his way.
Sorry.
Sorry.
Yeah! Yeah, baby.
My out.
Uh, what's the score? Uh, 2 to 10.
- I'm catching up.
I'm catching up.
- Yeah.
All right.
Yeah.
- That's game.
- Good game, man.
Hey, E.
- How you doin'? Hi.
- Good.
- Hi, Eli.
- I'm Leo.
Hi, I'm Rick.
I'm Eli's father.
Oh.
And what about you? Who are you? Lily.
Hi.
Lily Manning.
I'm Eli's dad's friend.
Nice to meet you.
- Thanks.
Really.
- Ah, sure.
- Hi, Lily.
- Hey.
- How are you? - Hey.
I'm good, Karen.
How are you? - I'm good.
- Good.
I have homework.
Okay.
Uh, this is-- Yeah.
We already met.
Eli won.
Well, I'm not surprised.
He's very good.
I'm afraid I'm not as young as I used to be.
Well, I've--I've gotta get this back to Jessie.
- It--it was nice seeing you, Lily.
- You, too.
Come on, Leo.
Oh, bye.
Yeah.
Good for her, huh? What do you mean? Well, I mean, obviously, he's not my type You know, but good for her, right? Yeah.
Yeah, I suppose.
Hi.
Leo, um, we're--we're-- we're gonna need to talk.
Oh, don't worry.
I'm not gonna spend the night or anything.
No, you're not.
- Look, this isn't the place.
- Here, let me do that.
This--this is-- I--I have things, domestic things, that I do.
I mean, this-- this is my life.
I--it's just-- it's inappropriate for you to show up here uninvited, you know, and use my shower.
Why? Because I--I have to have boundaries for where and when this happens.
Well, that's no way to live.
Hey, you're not paying attention.
There are certain things that you're gonna need to know about me.
There is this dividing line between being a parent and not.
And it's just not easy for me to do What you want? It's - It's not that simple.
- You're right.
I guess being a parent means you have to stop being a person.
Hey, I--I just can't do this.
Okay, I get it.
I get it.
Listen, I will call you tomorrow.
Okay.
I--I'm good! I'm good! - Mom - Yeah? I think my thumb is swollen.
Which one? They both look the same.
The swollen one.
You can't tell that that's swollen? - No.
Does it hurt? - I don't think I should go to tae kwon do today.
Your test is tomorrow.
Don't you want to get in as much practice as possible? Yeah, but I just don't think that I should go to a class with my thumb in this condition.
- Well, do you want me to take you to the doctor? - No.
Honey, is--is there some other reason why you don't want to go to class? Are--are you getting nervous about the test? No.
I can't explain it.
Mom, can I borrow the car tonight? Good luck.
Where are you going? Uh, Coop and I are going out.
E.
, I'm not gonna give you the car unless you tell me where you're going.
Nowhere.
It's just, there's this band that we want to see play.
And you remember Blake? He was a senior last year.
He goes to Northwestern now.
I think his parents live, like, right around here.
No.
Where's the band playing? Uh, downtown.
In the city? Yes, in the city.
Honey, I--I don't think that I'm comfortable with you driving around at night downtown.
Mom, it's a totally safe neighborhood.
Okay, well, then maybe I can drop you off and Coop's mom can pick you up.
I can't believe this.
I was completely upfront with you.
And I told you why I wanted the car.
- And I appreciate that, but I'm not gonna do-- - You know, forget it.
Eli, we can talk about this.
I'm not trying to prevent you from going.
I'm just trying to compromise.
Mom, you know that's a total waste of time.
I mean, you're never gonna budge.
You never do.
I think I'm pretty flexible.
Yeah.
Sure.
I have this fear that I'm gonna be found out that someone will discover that I have no idea what I'm doing.
- Hi.
- Hi.
Leo, I'm working.
I know.
Yeah, but there are a lot of people around here.
People come in here all the time and they ask me questions, and-- Okay, okay.
Can you look at something for me? What? I need you to, uh, look at this contract.
I'm putting in hours at St.
Luke's and they want me to sign this, but, you know, I don't like signing things.
Okay.
Uh, but I--I--I can't do this right now.
You thought I came here to make out with you.
Did not.
Let's go to my place for lunch.
No.
I--I can't.
I have too much--no-- to do here.
No.
- What? What? - No, I am just feeling so uncomfortable all the time.
I--I need to have control in my life.
Why? What, you think if you let go something terrible will happen? I can't just run away and be an adolescent with you, Leo.
I'm sorry.
I--I can't help it.
I am--I am pathologically impulsive.
It's-- it's one of my flaws.
Yeah, well, it's also one of the things that I like about you, but-- So you like me? Yeah.
Yes.
Is it okay if I come over there? Look, I'm not gonna kiss you because, you know, that would be inappropriate.
Look, if we're out in the world, then that's okay, but here-- I understand.
You do? I don't agree with it but I completely understand.
You want to kiss me right now, don't you? No.
Yes, you do.
No, I don't.
You do.
A little.
Now's not really good for me But, uh maybe later tonight.
You know, when we're out in the world.
Hey, Jessie.
Hi, Toby.
What'd you get on your English paper? "A".
What'd you get? "B-plus".
That's pretty good.
Hi, Paul.
I think he's mad 'cause you kicked his butt.
I didn't kick his butt.
Do you really think he's mad? It's pretty obvious.
Well, I don't care.
Toby, you need to work on your combination kicks.
Jessie, you'll be sparring with Paul again today.
You're a good match for each other.
Yes, sir.
Jessie! Paul! You're up.
Fighting stance! Begin! Hi.
Where's your counter, Jessie? Get in there! Don't hesitate! You need to focus, Jessie.
Yes, sir.
You okay? - I'm fine.
- Did that boy hurt you? Mom, you don't know what you're talking about.
Well, I saw him knock you down.
I beat him yesterday, okay? Now, I could've beaten him easily today if I wanted to.
- Well, why wouldn't you want to? - Because - What? - Can we just go? I really don't feel like talking about it right now.
Okay.
Uh, Dad? Yeah? Can I borrow the car tonight for a little bit? Sure.
Where are you going? Uh, Coop and I have this friend who's in a band.
Um, you remember Blake? He graduated from Sinclair last year.
He's really smart, goes to Northwestern now.
Yeah, I think I remember him.
He's a nice guy.
Home by 12:00, okay, bud? You got it.
I'll put gas in the car.
Do you have enough money? Well, I have Mom's gas card.
Don't do that.
Here.
Thanks.
How, uh, how is your mom lately? Oh, she's fine, you know? She's pretty busy at work-- like always.
And, uh, well, she does have this new friend.
Yeah.
He seems nice.
- Uh, he's a doctor.
- Oh, yeah? Yeah, um, but he seems a little young for a doctor.
Hmm.
I guess.
How old do we think he is? I don't know.
Younger than Mom? - What? - Nothing.
- Okay.
- Get outta here.
You have your fake I.
D.
, right? - Yeah, right.
- Got some I.
D.
? What about you? Oh.
Sure.
The phantom is disguised.
It's horrifyin' right before your eyes.
The phantom What do you want? - What? - To drink.
Uh, I--I'll have a beer.
Okay.
right before your eyes.
The phantom Excuse me, can we get two, two beers? Thanks.
Thank you.
The phantom is watchin' you.
Table all clean? - Yeah.
- Great.
Uh, cheers.
Cheers.
It's pretty good.
What? Hey, you want to dance? - Dance? I-- - Yeah.
Come on.
- Uh, I-- - Let's go.
Okay.
I can do the Freddie.
I cannot do the Smurf.
And I can hate your girl.
I can tell ya that she's real pretty.
I can take my clothes off.
I cannot fall in love.
I'm sorry.
And I can do the frug.
Be with me.
I can do the Robocop.
I can do the Freddie.
I cannot do the Smurf.
She cannot do the Smurf.
And I can watch TV.
I can shuffle off to Buffalo.
I can do a back bend.
I will not call you back.
And I can start Hi.
You want me to help you practice? Did you have anything to eat? No.
I can't eat.
I'll throw up.
I may throw up anyway.
Why are you so nervous? You're the best one in class, beating up all those boys.
Dad, I'm not nervous.
Well, then what? What's wrong? I--I just may want to--not want to take the test tomorrow.
I may want to wait.
I thought you were looking forward to this.
I was.
I changed my mind.
I don't see why I have to do it.
Jess, nobody's gonna force you to do anything you don't want to do, okay? All right? I tell you what-- why don't you get a good night's sleep and we'll see how you feel in the morning, okay? - Okay.
- Yeah? Here you go, Mohan.
Thanks, man.
See, dude? Told you these would come in handy one day.
All right! Thanks.
We're Rilo Kiley, and we'll be right back.
We missed them.
They'll be back up.
Oh, I think, um, I think I'm gonna get a beer.
Do you want one? Hmm, no.
I'm gonna find a bathroom, okay? Oh, no.
Not, uh Do you know where a bathroom is? Right.
Hey, Eli.
- Hey, how you doin'? - Eli? Mom? I told you specifically that I did not want you downtown at night by yourself.
Look, I'm with Coop.
Don't you start with me, Eli.
How did you get here? Did Coop drive? Well, where is he? - You would--Oh, hello, Mrs.
Sammler.
- God Look, Coop didn't drive.
I borrowed Dad's car and I haven't been drinking, if that's what you thought.
I don't even know where to begin with this, Eli.
What you've done-- I'm shocked.
Can we just-- can we not do this? - Can we do this later? - How did you get in here? - They let me in.
I have an I.
D.
- Give it to me.
This is a bar.
What do you think you're doing? Me? What are you doing here? I mean, don't you think you're a little out of place? I want you to go straight home right now! And I'm gonna call your father in exactly an hour.
- You better be there.
- Fine.
- I've gotta go.
- Why? I think it's obvious.
Oh, come on.
He seems like a good kid.
So he has a fake I.
D.
He wanted to see a band play.
So what? I'm sure we both did things much worse than that when we were his age.
- No, I didn't.
- Well, that's really unfortunate for you.
I don't think I--I can handle this.
- Handle what? - This.
You and me.
I--I don't think that I can do this.
- Karen, come on.
- No, no, I--I just don't think that this is gonna work out.
I'm sorry.
We're outta milk.
There's a whole new carton in there somewhere.
You're right.
Thanks for not laying into me last night.
Well, your mother and I decided that under the circumstances we should probably talk to you about this together.
She'll be here in a minute.
Great.
Eli, this is serious.
Dad, I was being responsible.
- I wasn't drinking, I wasn't-- - You took advantage of me.
You played me against your mother.
I had no idea she'd already said no.
Yeah, but that's just it.
Look, she was being unreasonable and I knew that you wouldn't be.
Eli, if I can't trust you to be completely honest with me then we have a real problem.
- Hi.
- Hi.
Hi.
Hi.
You want some coffee? No, no.
- Eli, I think-- - Eli-- I'm sorry, go ahead.
No, that's okay.
You go.
E.
, this is getting old.
You know, when you can't get what you want from one of us you go to the other and, uh And, you know, maybe it's-- it's our fault partially because we don't communicate all the time but we expect you to be an adult, Eli.
You know exactly what you're doing.
And that's why we've decided to take away car privileges for the next month.
What? No driving for a month.
I can't believe this.
- Believe it.
- Can we discuss this? - No.
- No.
Hi, honey.
I brought your dobak.
It's all clean.
You better hurry up and get dressed because you're gonna be late.
- I don't think I want to go.
- What? Jessie-- I said I don't want to go.
Dad said I didn't have to.
Well, what's the problem? I--Is there something going on? No, there's no problem.
Honey, is there something you want to talk about? No, I don't want to talk about anything.
Why do you keep asking me that? Well, because last week you were so excited about getting your black belt.
No, I wasn't really excited.
You were the one who was excited.
You get way too attached to these things.
Well, Jessie, that may be true, and I'm sorry, but I-- Why can't you just leave me alone? She doesn't want to go.
Why is that so hard for you to understand, Mom? - Eli - No, really, see, so we're not perfect.
Big deal.
But you expect too much.
I mean, it is impossible for us to be whoever you think we are! Eli, don't you dare turn this around on me because I'm not gonna put up with it.
I won't.
But what he's saying is true.
Je-- What? Nothing.
Well, I--I give up.
I I wasn't gonna say anything.
It won't always be like this.
Someday I'll be the one they lash out at probably in therapy.
Yeah, well, you better enjoy it while you can.
I'm gonna go check on Jessie.
Please don't tell me the story on how you quit piano lessons and regretted it for the rest of your life.
I wasn't gonna do that.
I'm sorry, Mom.
I don't want you to be disappointed in me.
Jessie, I don't want you to think that.
Honey, no matter what you do, I couldn't be more proud.
Why? I didn't do anything.
Because you are more confident and braver than I ever was.
- Mom-- - It's true.
When I was your age, I was so shy so painfully shy.
So shy you couldn't even talk to boys.
Let alone fight them.
Oh, I know.
I So you never had any boyfriends? Did I ever tell you about Ethan Kale? Yeah, um, you had this huge crush on him in high school and now he runs IBM or something.
You've told me a million times.
Well, he was, like, the most popular guy in school.
And you weren't popular? No, not really, but I knew I had something to offer.
And actually, I did this really crazy thing one year.
Did I ever tell you that I ran against him for class president? Why would you do that? Because I was really determined, and I knew I'd be good at it and I wanted to do it.
So I worked really hard, and I campaigned and everyone got to know me.
And the day before the election we were supposed to have this huge debate in front of the whole school.
You and Ethan? And I was ready.
I was really ready.
But I also still had this huge crush on him.
It kind of took over and during the debate, all I could think of was how much I wanted him to like me.
Oh, my God.
So, what happened? Well, I blew it.
You lost? - On purpose? - Yeah, I think so.
I--I'm not sure, but I--I think so.
That's so lame, Mom.
You can't let a boy do that to you.
I didn't say that I felt good about it.
So did Ethan talk to you after that? Not really.
That's too bad.
Yeah.
So, is it, like, a girl thing? Well, yeah, in a way.
She's gonna be fine.
She's gonna be more than fine.
I think I want to go.
Are you sure? I'm sure.
I like to blame my mother for everything, you know? She was controlling and obsessive and overprotective and, you know-- which I understand now but when I was 7, you know she took my frog away and she said that it would give me warts and that it wouldn't be very attractive.
She really knew how to instill fear in a person.
Fighting stance! I mean, she was consumed with fear.
She lived her whole life that way and it never really stopped until she was diagnosed with cancer and she was told she was gonna die.
It was like a weight had lifted from her because the worst thing that she could imagine had come true and she was actually relieved.
She was sort of a new person.
Why couldn't she just have been that person to begin with? And whenever I see my kids afraid, I just I just react.
I I can't help it.
Winner! It just frightens me that I'm you know, that I've done it that I've passed something along to them and I've thought a lot about it you know, maybe too much but I don't exactly know what I could do to be a better mother.
What happens to us? Why do we become so afraid to be who we are? Hi.
I thought you were Chinese food.
Can I come in? Yeah, yeah, okay.
Let me, uh, get your coat.
Okay.
So So, I'm-- I'm, uh, not quite sure what I'm doing here.
You're not? No, but-- but I--I know that-- that I want to be here.
Really? Yeah.
You probably just think I'm crazy.
Little bit.
What are you doing? I don't know that you're the right person for me, Leo.
Well, that's not at all what I was hoping to hear.
Because you're completely everything that I'm not looking for in my life.
But But you make me laugh.
I do? Yeah.
And you make me question who I am.
That's good, right? I think that I want to try this again.
You do? Do you think you can handle it? I don't know.
Okay.
- Hello? Where are you? I--I called the house.
There was no answer.
Um, I--I--I I wanted to-- to go into work early so, you know, I--I headed out early and there was all this traffic, and - Aah! Stop! Aah! - Okay, well, can--can you hear me? Yes.
Yes, I can hear you.
Hey, take it upstairs, all right? Go get ready.
Go on.
Hi.
Sorry.
- Yeah.
- Uh, look I wonder if it would be possible for you to pick Jessie up after tae kwon do.
Yeah, that's fine.
Oh, hold--hold on.
Hello? - WoKaren? - Yes.
Hi, Libby.
Where are you? No one answered at the house.
- I'm on my way.
- Why are you whispering? I'm not whispering.
Okay.
Just so you know - your 10:00 was pushed to 10:30.
- Okay.
Oh, and the research you've been waiting for on the Libtech chemical plant is in.
Good.
Great.
I just thought you might want to know.
Yeah, I--I did.
Thanks.
So I'll see you soon? - Yes.
- Okay.
Bye.
Okay.
Thanks.
Sorry.
So, uh, tell Jessie that I'll get her.
It's still me.
Hello? - Hey.
- Hi.
So, um, I--I'll get Jessie.
Just--just tell her I'll be there.
- Okay.
- Okay.
- Bye.
- Bye.
Hi.
Come back.
I--I can't.
You are so cute.
Cute.
You think I'm cute.
Yeah, that's right.
I think you're cute.
That's not really an adjective that I get a lot.
Yeah, well, that's just sad.
I've gotta go.
I've gotta go.
What are you doing tonight? It's, uh, Thursday.
I'm making dinner for my kids.
I'm maybe doing a load of laundry.
- Stay for a minute.
One minute.
- I can't, okay? I have Frosted Flakes.
Okay.
One minute.
Oh, what are you doing? What am I doing? - Excuse me.
- Excuse me.
Hi.
- Good morning, Libby.
- Good morning, Karen.
Oh, by the way, I put that research on your desk.
Oh, that's great.
Oh, hi.
Hello Hi.
I--I'm sorry I'm--I'm late.
- 15 minutes.
You're a real slacker, Karen.
- Well, I hate to be late.
- Your cheeks are all rosy.
- Yeah.
Well, um, so, what's been going on? Well, I had a cup of coffee, talked to Ron about his new leaf blower and I was just about to-- - Yes? - Craig, how many did you want? - Just a bouquet, whatever that is.
- Right.
I don't know what I'm doing.
I'm not-- Well, I'm the kind of person that's just, you know, not spontaneous.
I--I need to have a plan and I know what that sounds like but I need to know the parameters of my my life.
Dude, did you see what Ms.
Laurent was wearing today? Hell, yeah.
Look at this one.
- You got to trade up.
- You know it.
You kids gonna buy anything today? Uh, anything's possible, sir.
- I won't hold my breath.
- Come on, man.
We're getting our band together.
We've been trying to do this since we were 12.
Well, you guys suck.
You should really just give it up, man.
Hey, Blake, how's it going? Hey, man, how's Northwestern? Not entirely what I expected.
It's very much not.
Yeah, you guys know Jenny, right? Hey.
So are you guys still in that band? No, we started this other one.
Oh, cool.
Are you guys playing around anywhere? Actually, we're, uh, playing the Dog House tomorrow night.
- Oh, maybe we should go check that out.
- Yeah.
Yeah, maybe you should.
Uh, all right, maybe we'll see you there.
Later.
Hey, now, if you're not gonna take this seriously - I might go join their band.
- You do that.
Wait a minute.
We are so late for practice.
Dude, we're screwed.
Cool.
Young See ya.
You just gotta get your leg up higher.
Hi.
Hi, Toby.
I'm late.
Yeah.
So, who you sparring with? Paul Cenedella.
Oh.
He's good.
I can take him.
Hey, grasshopper.
Hey, you're not supposed to call me that.
- Hi, Paul.
- Hey.
- You ready for Saturday? - Yeah, I guess.
I heard that sometimes, for the black belt Master Kim puts you up against this really huge ninth degree that he brings in.
Won't we, like, get killed? Well, maybe, but, you know, it's all about attitude.
You're not scared, are you? No.
Sir! I'll take it easy on you.
That's not necessary.
Jessie, Paul.
Fighting stance! Begin! Very good! Very good.
- I see a big improvement.
- That's right.
Edward, Marshall.
Okay.
Begin! Good.
Keep your hands up.
You know, it's funny.
You look exactly like this friend of mine-- this good friend, whom, sadly, I lost touch with because she never returned my phone calls.
- I'm sorry.
Hi.
- Hi.
How are you? - Fine.
Where have you been? - Good.
Nowhere.
I've just been, you know-- You look great.
- Thanks.
- No, I mean it.
You look really good.
Thank you.
Are you having sex? Make it go in.
- Damn - With somebody? Go ahead, Lloyd! No, no, no, no, Lloyd's not--no.
- Well, who is it? - He's just someone I'm casually seeing.
Oh, casually.
It's just very hard to describe.
He's--you know, I don't know where it's going or--or where I want it to go, so Very good.
So what's he do? He's a doctor.
Yeah.
- Well, you look great.
- Thank you.
Hi, Naomi.
Jessie, Toby keeps telling me how good you are.
I think he's afraid of you.
Mom! Oh, good, you're still in one piece.
Can we go? More details later? Sure.
Oh, I left my jacket.
Okay.
So I guess we're both pretty ready for Saturday, don't you think? Paul? Who was that? Nobody.
Buttermilk? Who's got buttermilk? Okay, Mom, ask me a question.
Yogurt? That's gonna do.
Any question.
Um, okay.
What is the difference between the yin and yang? What does it symbolize? I don't know.
Balance or something? Well, there's more to it than that.
Well, it's boring.
- Mom - Hello? Mom, you left the stove on.
Yeah.
Oh, hi.
No, he--he's not.
He didn't? Yeah, uh, yeah, okay.
I--I'll tell him.
Yeah, thanks for calling.
Eli missed his practice.
Ask me another question.
Uh you didn't answer the last one.
Well, I just want to skip that one for now.
All right, um What are the tenets of tae kwon do? All of them? Yeah, I guess.
Great.
Jessie, please.
Honey, please don't mix your papers with my depositions.
I'm not.
I cannot believe we have to take this whole major written test to get a black belt.
Well, that's part of it.
Well, I think I might fail.
Well, then maybe you better stop goofing around.
Don't.
Eli, we're gonna eat soon.
How do you know I won't still be hungry? It's only one carrot.
Your coach called.
What happened to practice? Oh, um, look, don't worry about it.
I'll call him.
I'm not worried about it.
I was just wondering why you missed practice and maybe where you were.
Nowhere.
No, it's just Coop and I were at Al's Guitar, and we lost track of time.
I mean, we were totally aware of it.
It was just, you know, one of those things.
What do you mean, one of those things? I thought you liked basketball.
I do.
Coop and I are thinking about starting a band and, uh, we just lost track of time, that's all.
Okay.
Call your coach.
I will.
I said I was going to.
When's dinner? I don't know.
Soon.
You okay? Yeah.
Why? I--I don't know.
It just seems like you're a little less organized than usual.
Oh, no, I'm-- I'm fine.
Thanks.
All right.
I'm a rotator of underwear.
I admit it.
I take the freshly washed ones and I put them at the bottom of the pile so that all the underwear gets equal time.
Well, I mean if you think about it, it makes sense.
Oh, God.
Can somebody get that? Well, I'm not a strict rotator.
I mean, sometimes I do take out my favorite ones and, you know, move them ahead in the lineup.
Leo.
Wh-- - Hi.
- Hi.
This is a great place.
I--I didn't expect you.
Really nice.
I smell something burning.
Is that dinner? Oh, uh, n-no.
Oh, did I interrupt? Nope, we haven't started yet.
You have potatoes in your hair.
Uh, a-are you hungry? I'm starving.
Come on.
Okay.
Are you homeless? Jessie! Where do you live? In the city.
You rode your bike all the way out here? Yeah.
Does anybody, uh, want this? Uh, no, go ahead.
- This is so good, Karen.
- Oh, thank you.
How do you guys know each other? You want some more peas? From work.
Yeah, I'll take some.
So you're a lawyer.
Leo's a doctor.
Oh, that's cool, especially since you're so young.
Yeah.
I'm gonna get some more ice.
Can you look at my thumb? - What's wrong with it? - I don't know.
I think I jammed it a little in tae kwon do.
Does that hurt? No.
Then you're fine.
- You didn't look at it, really.
- I did.
Are you a real doctor or just, like, an optometrist? I'm, like, an M.
D.
What belt are you? She's going for her black belt on Saturday.
Oh, really? All right.
Hit me as hard as you can right there.
Uhh! Not bad.
Did I hurt you? No, no.
Is this your ball? Um, it's Eli's.
Hey, you want to shoot some hoop? - Uh, sure.
Now? - Yeah, I'm done.
- Uh, he's really good.
- So am I.
Where's-- where's everybody going? Eli and I were gonna go play some ball.
- Now? - Yeah.
- Eli, you've got homework.
- I--I know.
I-- Don't worry.
We're just gonna mess around for a few minutes.
Great dinner.
Let's do it! All right, let me see that ball.
You take it out.
Okay.
Let's go.
- Okay.
Okay.
- Yeah? That's good.
So, is Leo, like, your new boyfriend, Mom? What? Is he your boyfriend? No.
Because I think he likes you.
Okay, well, um we should keep working on your black-belt questions.
I guess, but I still can't find my other study guide.
I think it's in Dad's car.
Well, maybe you should call him.
He's not there.
Try his cellphone.
It's not an emergency or anything.
Jess, come on.
Hello.
Hi.
Did, um, Jess leave a study guide in your car? Uh, let me see.
Yeah.
It's here.
Okay, um, could you-- could you just give me a call when you get home, and I'll come by and get it? Well, I'm right near you.
I could bring it over.
No, no, no.
That's okay.
Just give me a call, and I'll come get it.
No, it's not a problem.
I'm two blocks away.
I'll be there in two minutes.
Y--but-- Your father's on his way.
Sorry.
Sorry.
Yeah! Yeah, baby.
My out.
Uh, what's the score? Uh, 2 to 10.
- I'm catching up.
I'm catching up.
- Yeah.
All right.
Yeah.
- That's game.
- Good game, man.
Hey, E.
- How you doin'? Hi.
- Good.
- Hi, Eli.
- I'm Leo.
Hi, I'm Rick.
I'm Eli's father.
Oh.
And what about you? Who are you? Lily.
Hi.
Lily Manning.
I'm Eli's dad's friend.
Nice to meet you.
- Thanks.
Really.
- Ah, sure.
- Hi, Lily.
- Hey.
- How are you? - Hey.
I'm good, Karen.
How are you? - I'm good.
- Good.
I have homework.
Okay.
Uh, this is-- Yeah.
We already met.
Eli won.
Well, I'm not surprised.
He's very good.
I'm afraid I'm not as young as I used to be.
Well, I've--I've gotta get this back to Jessie.
- It--it was nice seeing you, Lily.
- You, too.
Come on, Leo.
Oh, bye.
Yeah.
Good for her, huh? What do you mean? Well, I mean, obviously, he's not my type You know, but good for her, right? Yeah.
Yeah, I suppose.
Hi.
Leo, um, we're--we're-- we're gonna need to talk.
Oh, don't worry.
I'm not gonna spend the night or anything.
No, you're not.
- Look, this isn't the place.
- Here, let me do that.
This--this is-- I--I have things, domestic things, that I do.
I mean, this-- this is my life.
I--it's just-- it's inappropriate for you to show up here uninvited, you know, and use my shower.
Why? Because I--I have to have boundaries for where and when this happens.
Well, that's no way to live.
Hey, you're not paying attention.
There are certain things that you're gonna need to know about me.
There is this dividing line between being a parent and not.
And it's just not easy for me to do What you want? It's - It's not that simple.
- You're right.
I guess being a parent means you have to stop being a person.
Hey, I--I just can't do this.
Okay, I get it.
I get it.
Listen, I will call you tomorrow.
Okay.
I--I'm good! I'm good! - Mom - Yeah? I think my thumb is swollen.
Which one? They both look the same.
The swollen one.
You can't tell that that's swollen? - No.
Does it hurt? - I don't think I should go to tae kwon do today.
Your test is tomorrow.
Don't you want to get in as much practice as possible? Yeah, but I just don't think that I should go to a class with my thumb in this condition.
- Well, do you want me to take you to the doctor? - No.
Honey, is--is there some other reason why you don't want to go to class? Are--are you getting nervous about the test? No.
I can't explain it.
Mom, can I borrow the car tonight? Good luck.
Where are you going? Uh, Coop and I are going out.
E.
, I'm not gonna give you the car unless you tell me where you're going.
Nowhere.
It's just, there's this band that we want to see play.
And you remember Blake? He was a senior last year.
He goes to Northwestern now.
I think his parents live, like, right around here.
No.
Where's the band playing? Uh, downtown.
In the city? Yes, in the city.
Honey, I--I don't think that I'm comfortable with you driving around at night downtown.
Mom, it's a totally safe neighborhood.
Okay, well, then maybe I can drop you off and Coop's mom can pick you up.
I can't believe this.
I was completely upfront with you.
And I told you why I wanted the car.
- And I appreciate that, but I'm not gonna do-- - You know, forget it.
Eli, we can talk about this.
I'm not trying to prevent you from going.
I'm just trying to compromise.
Mom, you know that's a total waste of time.
I mean, you're never gonna budge.
You never do.
I think I'm pretty flexible.
Yeah.
Sure.
I have this fear that I'm gonna be found out that someone will discover that I have no idea what I'm doing.
- Hi.
- Hi.
Leo, I'm working.
I know.
Yeah, but there are a lot of people around here.
People come in here all the time and they ask me questions, and-- Okay, okay.
Can you look at something for me? What? I need you to, uh, look at this contract.
I'm putting in hours at St.
Luke's and they want me to sign this, but, you know, I don't like signing things.
Okay.
Uh, but I--I--I can't do this right now.
You thought I came here to make out with you.
Did not.
Let's go to my place for lunch.
No.
I--I can't.
I have too much--no-- to do here.
No.
- What? What? - No, I am just feeling so uncomfortable all the time.
I--I need to have control in my life.
Why? What, you think if you let go something terrible will happen? I can't just run away and be an adolescent with you, Leo.
I'm sorry.
I--I can't help it.
I am--I am pathologically impulsive.
It's-- it's one of my flaws.
Yeah, well, it's also one of the things that I like about you, but-- So you like me? Yeah.
Yes.
Is it okay if I come over there? Look, I'm not gonna kiss you because, you know, that would be inappropriate.
Look, if we're out in the world, then that's okay, but here-- I understand.
You do? I don't agree with it but I completely understand.
You want to kiss me right now, don't you? No.
Yes, you do.
No, I don't.
You do.
A little.
Now's not really good for me But, uh maybe later tonight.
You know, when we're out in the world.
Hey, Jessie.
Hi, Toby.
What'd you get on your English paper? "A".
What'd you get? "B-plus".
That's pretty good.
Hi, Paul.
I think he's mad 'cause you kicked his butt.
I didn't kick his butt.
Do you really think he's mad? It's pretty obvious.
Well, I don't care.
Toby, you need to work on your combination kicks.
Jessie, you'll be sparring with Paul again today.
You're a good match for each other.
Yes, sir.
Jessie! Paul! You're up.
Fighting stance! Begin! Hi.
Where's your counter, Jessie? Get in there! Don't hesitate! You need to focus, Jessie.
Yes, sir.
You okay? - I'm fine.
- Did that boy hurt you? Mom, you don't know what you're talking about.
Well, I saw him knock you down.
I beat him yesterday, okay? Now, I could've beaten him easily today if I wanted to.
- Well, why wouldn't you want to? - Because - What? - Can we just go? I really don't feel like talking about it right now.
Okay.
Uh, Dad? Yeah? Can I borrow the car tonight for a little bit? Sure.
Where are you going? Uh, Coop and I have this friend who's in a band.
Um, you remember Blake? He graduated from Sinclair last year.
He's really smart, goes to Northwestern now.
Yeah, I think I remember him.
He's a nice guy.
Home by 12:00, okay, bud? You got it.
I'll put gas in the car.
Do you have enough money? Well, I have Mom's gas card.
Don't do that.
Here.
Thanks.
How, uh, how is your mom lately? Oh, she's fine, you know? She's pretty busy at work-- like always.
And, uh, well, she does have this new friend.
Yeah.
He seems nice.
- Uh, he's a doctor.
- Oh, yeah? Yeah, um, but he seems a little young for a doctor.
Hmm.
I guess.
How old do we think he is? I don't know.
Younger than Mom? - What? - Nothing.
- Okay.
- Get outta here.
You have your fake I.
D.
, right? - Yeah, right.
- Got some I.
D.
? What about you? Oh.
Sure.
The phantom is disguised.
It's horrifyin' right before your eyes.
The phantom What do you want? - What? - To drink.
Uh, I--I'll have a beer.
Okay.
right before your eyes.
The phantom Excuse me, can we get two, two beers? Thanks.
Thank you.
The phantom is watchin' you.
Table all clean? - Yeah.
- Great.
Uh, cheers.
Cheers.
It's pretty good.
What? Hey, you want to dance? - Dance? I-- - Yeah.
Come on.
- Uh, I-- - Let's go.
Okay.
I can do the Freddie.
I cannot do the Smurf.
And I can hate your girl.
I can tell ya that she's real pretty.
I can take my clothes off.
I cannot fall in love.
I'm sorry.
And I can do the frug.
Be with me.
I can do the Robocop.
I can do the Freddie.
I cannot do the Smurf.
She cannot do the Smurf.
And I can watch TV.
I can shuffle off to Buffalo.
I can do a back bend.
I will not call you back.
And I can start Hi.
You want me to help you practice? Did you have anything to eat? No.
I can't eat.
I'll throw up.
I may throw up anyway.
Why are you so nervous? You're the best one in class, beating up all those boys.
Dad, I'm not nervous.
Well, then what? What's wrong? I--I just may want to--not want to take the test tomorrow.
I may want to wait.
I thought you were looking forward to this.
I was.
I changed my mind.
I don't see why I have to do it.
Jess, nobody's gonna force you to do anything you don't want to do, okay? All right? I tell you what-- why don't you get a good night's sleep and we'll see how you feel in the morning, okay? - Okay.
- Yeah? Here you go, Mohan.
Thanks, man.
See, dude? Told you these would come in handy one day.
All right! Thanks.
We're Rilo Kiley, and we'll be right back.
We missed them.
They'll be back up.
Oh, I think, um, I think I'm gonna get a beer.
Do you want one? Hmm, no.
I'm gonna find a bathroom, okay? Oh, no.
Not, uh Do you know where a bathroom is? Right.
Hey, Eli.
- Hey, how you doin'? - Eli? Mom? I told you specifically that I did not want you downtown at night by yourself.
Look, I'm with Coop.
Don't you start with me, Eli.
How did you get here? Did Coop drive? Well, where is he? - You would--Oh, hello, Mrs.
Sammler.
- God Look, Coop didn't drive.
I borrowed Dad's car and I haven't been drinking, if that's what you thought.
I don't even know where to begin with this, Eli.
What you've done-- I'm shocked.
Can we just-- can we not do this? - Can we do this later? - How did you get in here? - They let me in.
I have an I.
D.
- Give it to me.
This is a bar.
What do you think you're doing? Me? What are you doing here? I mean, don't you think you're a little out of place? I want you to go straight home right now! And I'm gonna call your father in exactly an hour.
- You better be there.
- Fine.
- I've gotta go.
- Why? I think it's obvious.
Oh, come on.
He seems like a good kid.
So he has a fake I.
D.
He wanted to see a band play.
So what? I'm sure we both did things much worse than that when we were his age.
- No, I didn't.
- Well, that's really unfortunate for you.
I don't think I--I can handle this.
- Handle what? - This.
You and me.
I--I don't think that I can do this.
- Karen, come on.
- No, no, I--I just don't think that this is gonna work out.
I'm sorry.
We're outta milk.
There's a whole new carton in there somewhere.
You're right.
Thanks for not laying into me last night.
Well, your mother and I decided that under the circumstances we should probably talk to you about this together.
She'll be here in a minute.
Great.
Eli, this is serious.
Dad, I was being responsible.
- I wasn't drinking, I wasn't-- - You took advantage of me.
You played me against your mother.
I had no idea she'd already said no.
Yeah, but that's just it.
Look, she was being unreasonable and I knew that you wouldn't be.
Eli, if I can't trust you to be completely honest with me then we have a real problem.
- Hi.
- Hi.
Hi.
Hi.
You want some coffee? No, no.
- Eli, I think-- - Eli-- I'm sorry, go ahead.
No, that's okay.
You go.
E.
, this is getting old.
You know, when you can't get what you want from one of us you go to the other and, uh And, you know, maybe it's-- it's our fault partially because we don't communicate all the time but we expect you to be an adult, Eli.
You know exactly what you're doing.
And that's why we've decided to take away car privileges for the next month.
What? No driving for a month.
I can't believe this.
- Believe it.
- Can we discuss this? - No.
- No.
Hi, honey.
I brought your dobak.
It's all clean.
You better hurry up and get dressed because you're gonna be late.
- I don't think I want to go.
- What? Jessie-- I said I don't want to go.
Dad said I didn't have to.
Well, what's the problem? I--Is there something going on? No, there's no problem.
Honey, is there something you want to talk about? No, I don't want to talk about anything.
Why do you keep asking me that? Well, because last week you were so excited about getting your black belt.
No, I wasn't really excited.
You were the one who was excited.
You get way too attached to these things.
Well, Jessie, that may be true, and I'm sorry, but I-- Why can't you just leave me alone? She doesn't want to go.
Why is that so hard for you to understand, Mom? - Eli - No, really, see, so we're not perfect.
Big deal.
But you expect too much.
I mean, it is impossible for us to be whoever you think we are! Eli, don't you dare turn this around on me because I'm not gonna put up with it.
I won't.
But what he's saying is true.
Je-- What? Nothing.
Well, I--I give up.
I I wasn't gonna say anything.
It won't always be like this.
Someday I'll be the one they lash out at probably in therapy.
Yeah, well, you better enjoy it while you can.
I'm gonna go check on Jessie.
Please don't tell me the story on how you quit piano lessons and regretted it for the rest of your life.
I wasn't gonna do that.
I'm sorry, Mom.
I don't want you to be disappointed in me.
Jessie, I don't want you to think that.
Honey, no matter what you do, I couldn't be more proud.
Why? I didn't do anything.
Because you are more confident and braver than I ever was.
- Mom-- - It's true.
When I was your age, I was so shy so painfully shy.
So shy you couldn't even talk to boys.
Let alone fight them.
Oh, I know.
I So you never had any boyfriends? Did I ever tell you about Ethan Kale? Yeah, um, you had this huge crush on him in high school and now he runs IBM or something.
You've told me a million times.
Well, he was, like, the most popular guy in school.
And you weren't popular? No, not really, but I knew I had something to offer.
And actually, I did this really crazy thing one year.
Did I ever tell you that I ran against him for class president? Why would you do that? Because I was really determined, and I knew I'd be good at it and I wanted to do it.
So I worked really hard, and I campaigned and everyone got to know me.
And the day before the election we were supposed to have this huge debate in front of the whole school.
You and Ethan? And I was ready.
I was really ready.
But I also still had this huge crush on him.
It kind of took over and during the debate, all I could think of was how much I wanted him to like me.
Oh, my God.
So, what happened? Well, I blew it.
You lost? - On purpose? - Yeah, I think so.
I--I'm not sure, but I--I think so.
That's so lame, Mom.
You can't let a boy do that to you.
I didn't say that I felt good about it.
So did Ethan talk to you after that? Not really.
That's too bad.
Yeah.
So, is it, like, a girl thing? Well, yeah, in a way.
She's gonna be fine.
She's gonna be more than fine.
I think I want to go.
Are you sure? I'm sure.
I like to blame my mother for everything, you know? She was controlling and obsessive and overprotective and, you know-- which I understand now but when I was 7, you know she took my frog away and she said that it would give me warts and that it wouldn't be very attractive.
She really knew how to instill fear in a person.
Fighting stance! I mean, she was consumed with fear.
She lived her whole life that way and it never really stopped until she was diagnosed with cancer and she was told she was gonna die.
It was like a weight had lifted from her because the worst thing that she could imagine had come true and she was actually relieved.
She was sort of a new person.
Why couldn't she just have been that person to begin with? And whenever I see my kids afraid, I just I just react.
I I can't help it.
Winner! It just frightens me that I'm you know, that I've done it that I've passed something along to them and I've thought a lot about it you know, maybe too much but I don't exactly know what I could do to be a better mother.
What happens to us? Why do we become so afraid to be who we are? Hi.
I thought you were Chinese food.
Can I come in? Yeah, yeah, okay.
Let me, uh, get your coat.
Okay.
So So, I'm-- I'm, uh, not quite sure what I'm doing here.
You're not? No, but-- but I--I know that-- that I want to be here.
Really? Yeah.
You probably just think I'm crazy.
Little bit.
What are you doing? I don't know that you're the right person for me, Leo.
Well, that's not at all what I was hoping to hear.
Because you're completely everything that I'm not looking for in my life.
But But you make me laugh.
I do? Yeah.
And you make me question who I am.
That's good, right? I think that I want to try this again.
You do? Do you think you can handle it? I don't know.
Okay.