Back to 1989 (2016) s01e26 Episode Script

1
It's from Jin-qin.
When I told you that
you had my blessing the other day,
I wasn't being honest.
Are hearts really like houses?
A place where a new tenant
can move in immediately
after the exit of the former?
I know that you can't possibly
be in love with me one moment
and then immediately accept Zhong-en.
You must have left me
because I didn't do enough,
which must have been why
you allowed Zhong-en into your heart.
But I'm not going to give up so easily.
Please forgive my single-mindedness,
for being so relentlessly stubborn.
I'm gonna try my best to become
a man who's worthy of you
until the day
I can move into your heart
once again.
Jin-qin.
I'm sorry.
I'm sorry.
I've already hurt
hurt you deeply enough.
And now I'm pregnant
with his child.
If I choose to keep you
Jin-qin will hate me
for the rest of his life.
I really don't know how to love you.
You won't receive a warm welcome
when you're born.
I don't want to make your life miserable.
I'm sorry.
It's not that I don't want
to be your mother.
I'm sorry.
I'm sorry.
Sorry.
Sorry.
His arrival
was a mistake.
But when I look at him,
I'm reminded of that person.
I finally understand.
I'm the cause of Mom's misery.
I've never done anything
to make her happy.
I only reminded her of her pain
time and time again.
I just realized,
if Ya-juan loses her child now,
then the Ya-juan in 2016
will not have you as her son,
which means you don't
have to go back anymore, right?
That means that we can
be together forever.
We can live together,
grow old together,
and still be together in 2016
even until 2026.
Right?
-Am I wrong?
-I'm afraid you might be.
-Where are you going?
-To see my grandfather.
Ya-juan is pregnant.
No matter what happens,
he should at least know.
I wanna go with you.
From now on,
wherever you go, I'm going, too.
You're Ya-juan's son,
yet you support her decision to abort.
I really don't know
what will happen next.
I'm so scared and so worried.
Don't be silly.
Of course you can come with me.
You encouraged Ya-juan
to get an abortion?
I don't want her to give up her future
because of someone else's mistake.
More importantly,
I don't want her to live her life
in hopelessness and despair
every day.
Didn't I remind you of the seriousness
of the butterfly effect?
You didn't listen to me at all.
You even let Zhen-zhen in
on everything.
Do you know how serious
the consequences might be?
I won't tell a soul.
Even if you don't,
it will still affect things.
By supporting Ya-juan's decision,
is that not interfering with history?
Do you realize that
without the child,
you won't exist?
Do you understand?
You won't even be dead.
You'll cease to exist.
You'll be like a void. Do you get that?
Did you consider
the seriousness of the situation?
If my hypothesis is correct
the moment Ya-juan
enters that operation room
and completes the process
you'll cease to exist.
Not just here
but in 2016 as well.
There won't be a trace of you
having ever existed.
Is this true?
You knew, didn't you?
Why didn't you say anything
and made the decision on your own?
What would I do without you?
What about me?
How can you do this to me?
Ya-juan is your best friend.
Do you wish to see her
give birth to the child
and live the rest of her life
in misery?
No one knows how difficult her life is
after giving birth better than me.
No matter how much I try to make her happy
and how much I love her
her heart was always so out of reach.
I've always been alone
since I was a kid.
You know
had I known that giving birth to me
would cause her so much misery
Just like what she said,
my birth was never welcome.
So why not do something about it?
But you can't just go around
changing history.
I'm not trying to change history.
I'm trying to correct a mistake.
God should never have let something
so horrible happen to someone so kind.
That's why He sent me to 1989,
so that I may know the truth,
so I can correct this mistake.
You're not a mistake.
Only by erasing this mistake
can Ya-juan find happiness again.
Even if it means I won't exist
and vanish into nothingness,
it doesn't matter to me.
It really doesn't.
Even if Ya-juan really does
the procedure,
how can you guarantee
that she'll live happily?
Wouldn't she perhaps
live the rest of her life
regretting her decision in misery?
So the reason why
I traveled back in time,
is so that I can witness
this mistake being repeated
and do nothing?
I can't do that.
Chen Che.
Chen Che. Chen Che!
Uncle Chen,
is that really the only way?
How can I make sure
he won't disappear?
Please help me, Uncle Chen!
Zhen-zhen.
I can't even change the destiny
of my own daughter.
What else can I do?
You kids don't even know
how minute you are.
There are things in this world
that have already been determined.
At least
At least I won't give up trying.
Chen Che.
Chen Che.
This way
you won't hurt yourself.
Why do you push yourself so hard?
Why do you always
try to play the hero
for me
and for Ya-juan?
Don't you know
that if you get hurt,
it will break my heart?
Not to mention
that the child you encouraged
Ya-juan not to keep
is you.
You protect those around you
but what about you?
Who's gonna protect you?
I'm sorry, Zhen-zhen.
I don't have a choice.
Ya-juan raised me all by herself.
She even cut ties
with Grandpa and Grandma.
Even if she has a college degree,
she was only able to do odd jobs,
doing part time work,
like being a janitor,
so she could take care of me.
I've always wanted to know
who my real father is.
When I came to 1989,
I had such high hopes
that I would find him.
But had I known the consequences
I'd rather have never found out.
I'm sorry.
While you're the one
who's truly suffering,
who's truly in pain,
I was only
thinking about myself.
I should be supporting your decision,
but I just can't bring myself to do it.
I should be the one to say sorry.
Because aside from Ya-juan
the one I wish to protect the most
is you.
I'm sorry.
I can no longer be with you.
Just pretend
Just pretend I had an accident
and died.
If you died,
you'd at least have a grave.
I'd be able to visit you
and remember you.
But you're fading away, vanishing.
Just like smoke,
like a dream.
There won't be anything
to prove that you were ever here.
I don't even
I don't even know
if I will remember you.
No.
How can I possibly forget you?
Because the heartbreak
which I'm currently feeling is so real.
My heart aches.
You just have to remember,
that I, at this very moment,
am real.
If even Chen Che and Zhen-zhen
are willing to sacrifice everything
to change Ya-juan's destiny
what am I still hesitating about?
No matter how devastating
the consequences are,
for the sake of Ya-juan,
shouldn't I be more courageous?
I'm ready.
I've decided.
You should do
what you think you must.
I can't be so selfish
and only think about our relationship.
Ya-juan is my best friend.
I also hope that she can be happy.
Would you blame me
for giving up on us?
I wish I could.
I did hope that you could be more selfish
and that you would stay.
But if you were that selfish,
you won't be the Chen Che
I fell in love with.
Also, if I were in your situation
I would probably make
the same decision.
Thanks for understanding.
With your support,
I'll have no regrets.
All right.
Since we've already decided,
then we should act
as fast as possible.
The longer this drags out,
the harder it will be for Ya-juan.
Also, it's almost Chinese New Year.
Then when do you plan
to take Ya-juan to the hospital?
Tomorrow.
Tomorrow?
Tomorrow is Sunday.
It will be too close
to Chinese New Year soon.
Should there be any complications after,
there won't be any doctors to help her.
If she undergoes the procedure now,
you can take care of her
during the holiday.
It's the 20th today.
Tomorrow is the 21st.
We've been together
for less than a month,
and now we only have one day left.
How can God do this to us?
How can he have us meet
with the distance between 2016 and 1989
only to give us so little time together?
Didn't you use to say
that one second more together
means one more second of happiness?
Don't be greedy.
The fact that we could even meet
is a miracle in itself.
I promise
I'll spend the rest of my life with you.
Every single minute.
There's only one day left
in the rest of your life.
And that one day
is what I have left to give.
The rest of my entire life.
Come on, don't cry.
You're not gonna waste the rest
of our time together in tears, are you?
I already scheduled an appointment.
Tomorrow,
I'll accompany you to the hospital.
But
what if the doctor asks for
the father's consent as well?
I don't want Zhong-en
to know about the pregnancy.
I'll sign in his place.
It's Chinese New Year next week.
Zhen-zhen will stay with you
once the holiday starts.
Or
you can come up with a reason
to stay at her place for a couple of days
and let her take care of you.
Everything will be okay.
Don't worry.
Chen Che, thank you.
You've been a great help
these past few days.
We're friends, aren't we?
Plus, you're Zhen-zhen's best friend.
How is she gonna be happy
if you're not?
So, instead of helping you,
it's more accurate to say
I'm helping myself.
Chen Che.
I'm so happy that Zhen-zhen
was able to find a man
who truly embraces her,
cares for her
and loves her.
Maybe
your child might also grow up
to be a good person.
That might be true
but I can't keep him
or else I wouldn't know
how to face my mother
and Jin-qin,
as well as myself in the future.
Sorry.
Let me get you a glass of water.
This
is a school.
It's the middle school I went to.
Is this place any different now
from when you were here?
For the remainder of our time together,
let's spend it here,
a place belonging to you and me.
What did you say to my parents?
How did they agree
to let us stay out tonight?
I'll tell you if you close your eyes.
You're not gonna steal a kiss,
are you?
Was that an invitation?
What happened to that shyness?
I don't have time to be shy anymore.
All right. My eyes are closed.
You may open them now.
-This is
-There's one more thing I need to give.
Didn't you ask me
to take responsibility?
My fox.
So,
I'm going to fulfill
my duty to you right now.
It's also what I wanna do most.
I told Guo-an
that we're gonna celebrate
and asked him to cover for us.
Celebrate?
Whose birthday is it?
Mine, yours,
and ours.
A day for us to celebrate.
Am I, who's 23,
and you, who's 27,
celebrating our birthdays together?
Someone once said,
that the reason why people
anticipate days of commemoration
is because they can spend it
with someone they love.
So,
I didn't participate in your past,
and I won't be in your future,
but we at least have the present.
Happy birthday to you
Happy birthday to me
Happy birthday to us
Happy birthday
to my fox
Let's blow the candles.
Happy Birthday.
Happy Birthday.
Actually,
not just birthdays.
I also you wish you
Happy Valentine's Day,
Happy New Year,
Happy Arbor Day
and Happy April Fools'.
These celebrations are all the ones
you've promised to spend with me.
We went through them all
today.
My life is now complete.
You kept your promise.
For you.
This is
caramel candy.
This is a candy
that exists in both my time and yours.
From now on, if you feel sad
while thinking of me,
just eat one
because I wish
that your memories of me
will all be sweet.
If you forget about me,
that's good, too,
because that way
you won't feel sad because of me.
No.
I don't want to forget you.
You're about to disappear.
The least you can do
is leave me with memories.
No matter what kind of memory
you leave me with,
even if it'll hurt me
every time I think of you,
I want to feel the emotions.
Look at the sunrise.
Dawn is the most beautiful here.
As long as you watch the sunrise here,
every day would be a special day.
I can see the sunrise every day.
But you
I won't see anymore.
Are you tired?
Do you wanna sleep a bit?
Chen Che.
I'm so scared.
What am I gonna do
without you?
Who's gonna rescue me
when I'm in trouble?
If I can't sleep at night,
you'll no longer be there
to pass notes with me.
When I get frightened
by the sound of thunder,
you won't be there
to play the guitar and sing for me.
It's almost time.
It's not that I don't want
to let you go
but I don't want it to be so soon.
We're supposed to make wishes
on birthdays, right?
Well, my birthday wish
is for you to stay with me
for just a few days more.
Let's wait.
Let's wait till after Chinese New Year
to take Ya-juan to the hospital.
Zhen-zhen.
We've already worked to live one day
like it was the rest of our lives.
And now
it's almost time.
I know.
I know, I truly do.
But
I just can't let you go.
I can only try and ask for this.
Asking me to accept
that you'll be gone soon
is something I just can't do.
Okay. I promise you.
Really?
Really.
That's your birthday wish, isn't it?
In this tape,
there are things
I wanna say to you.
When you get home,
play it when you are alone.
Aren't you going to postpone the date?
Then
why aren't you coming home with me?
-Where are you going?
-Don't be silly.
If you listen to it here,
I'll get very embarrassed.
Also, aside from canceling
the appointment with the doctor,
I'd have to tell Ya-juan
in person, right?
I'll come with you.
I wanna have a word with my grandfather
in private.
Be a good girl
and stay at home, okay?
You wouldn't lie to me, would you?
I wouldn't.
Have you forgotten?
Of all the things I've promised,
have I ever gone back on my word?
Trust me.
All right.
I'm sorry, Zhen-zhen.
I don't want you to see me fade away.
So, just this once
I have no choice but to lie.
YUE SENG CLINIC
NURSES' STATION
Please sign the consent form.
His arrival was a mistake.
That's why I can't keep him.
If I can get Mom's smile back
and find the happiness she deserves,
even at the cost of my own existence,
then so be it.
Please take a seat.
Are you all right?
Are you nervous?
I trust that what I'm about to do
is good not only for me
but also for the child.
Mom.
Whether you've ever accepted me or not,
I've just realized
that I truly love you, you know?
I don't have a father.
I only have you.
Do you think
he'll hate me?
How do you know?
If you've loved him,
then he won't hate you.
Did you love him?
If you loved him,
he'd know.
I don't know how to love him.
I can't even
know for sure if he really exists.
I'm just really scared.
I'm afraid I won't know how to face him
once I bring him into this world.
Pathetic, isn't it?
I'm just a selfish
cowardly mother.
He'll understand.
How would he?
He's still so small.
He definitely will.
Even if he doesn't,
he'll still forgive you.
Because whether you can
love him or not,
he'll love you nonetheless.
Two people can be so close
despite being 27 years apart.