Another Self (2022) s02e01 Episode Script
Season 2, Episode 1
1
[birds singing]
[women singing in Turkish]
Çukurova is on fire, on fire ♪
Men came down, their hands tied ♪
Men came down, their hands tied ♪
Oh, my Emine ♪
Come to me, my Emine ♪
Smile, my Emine, oh ♪
The duck flew off
And the dove perched ♪
- Oh, my Emine ♪
- [ominous music playing]
- [screams]
- [woman 1] Emine?
- [Emine groaning]
- [woman 1] Honey! Emine!
Hold her. Hold her.
[Emine moaning in pain]
[woman 1] Come on. A little more. Come on!
Come on. Come on, honey.
All right. Now push.
[screaming]
Listen. Try to focus, my dear.
Just try to focus on your breathing.
Just breathe.
- Come on. A little more.
- [screams]
God help me, the baby's turned around.
Emine, deep breaths.
Push, my darling. Come on, dear
[Ada] Our first experience on earth,
our first challenge,
is the journey which ends
with us leaving our mother's womb.
That journey is the first time
we know fear.
[woman 2] It's here!
[Ada] The journey
into the unknown scares us.
However, we're not alone
at the edge of the light.
- [baby crying]
- [Ada] There's someone waiting for us.
The one who's been waiting.
Our mother.
[cries grow louder]
Send word to the foreman!
She needs to get to the city right now.
Come on, hurry. Now!
[tense music playing]
[woman 1] More water, please.
[newborn wailing]
[Ada] If we lacked that first contact
with our mother and felt alone
and desperate with our first breath
coming into this world,
is it likely for us to feel whole today?
[tense music swells]
ANOTHER SELF
- [tense music fades]
- [birds singing]
["Gracias a la vida" by Joan Báez playing]
THE MARKS OF OUR ANCESTORS
[stirring guitar music continues]
[cell phone vibrating]
[upbeat Spanish folk song continues]
[sighs softly]
FRAGILE!
[takes a deep breath, chuckles]
[grunts softly]
[Toprak] Mm.
[softly] Get up. We're going to the ocean.
[Toprak groans]
- So it's already morning?
- Mm-hmm.
[gently] Mm. It's morning.
- Come on, get up.
- [grunts softly]
Let's go.
Explain how this woman
can wake up looking so beautiful.
How? Hmm?
- Come on. We'll run out of time.
- [Toprak grunts]
Let's go. [laughs]
Wait, you come back here. Come back.
[chuckles]
[line ringing]
Let's go to Cunda, hmm?
There won't be wind.
[operator] The person you have called
is not available.
To leave a--
- [song ends]
- [coffee maker percolating]
Is something wrong?
Flor, she's not picking up.
Then, I mean, if you need to go
No. It's nothing, I'm sure.
She'll call back soon.
- So it's finally happening.
- Yeah, finally.
Today we're going to the sea.
[engine starts]
[up-tempo instrumental music playing]
[engine revving]
BURCU COVE .3 MILES
[music fades]
- Oh, come on. Is there another way?
- [Toprak sighs]
- [ringtone playing]
- There must be one, right?
- [call connects]
- Hello?
Oh, hey, sweetum.
What's wrong?
Okay. Okay. I'll be there soon.
Eva's sick again, apparently.
She can't get Flor to school today.
[kisses] Go, then.
[Toprak sighs]
Hey, wait. I I'll drop you off in town.
[sighs] It's really close by.
I'll be fine.
[Toprak exhales]
Ada, really, thanks for understanding.
I mean, anyone else would just [sighs]
I know you're doing your best.
Let's go on vacation together.
Once the school year ends.
Eva and Flor are going to the Netherlands.
That sounds good.
- It sounds good?
- Sounds incredible.
[Toprak chuckles]
You'd better be going.
[sighs] Dinner, I promise.
It's a plan. I'll see you then.
ATTENTION
CLOSED DUE TO ROADWORK
- [upbeat, whimsical music playing]
- [phone chimes]
[Leyla] My love! How are you?
Hey there, Leyla, sweetie.
Good day, girls!
What's going on? It's pretty early still.
Is something wrong, Ada?
I thought you might be up
for joining me at the beach today. Hmm?
Ugh, girls, not me. I'm booked today.
But it's more reason
for Sevgi to come along, don't you think?
[Sevgi] You think Sevgi
is even able to lift her arm?
[Leyla gasps] Sarp! I can't believe you.
Sarp! Again?
Mom, it's not my fault!
But then whose fault is it?
I'm the one who wet the bed? Huh?
I thought Toprak
and you were going together.
[groaning]
[Leyla] Hey! Why are you standing there?
Take a shower. Now!
[groaning]
- Oh, Fiko, really?
- [Ada] Sweetcakes?
- What's wrong? Are you okay?
- [panting]
Good God, I keep reminding you
not to shave here, and you still do.
[Ada] I love you both so, so much.
You guys know that, right?
- Me too, ladies. I love you both.
- Me too. I love you guys.
Ada, is something wrong?
I'm good, sweetum.
Goodbye, ladies. [kisses]
- I'm sending kisses.
- [call disconnects]
[exhales deeply]
[whimsical music ends]
[Sevgi sighs]
[exhales]
[gentle music playing]
[gentle music fades]
Muko, can you please
take Sarp to school today?
Of course I can drop him off.
Oh, but don't forget what you swore to do.
JUNE
- Don't keep trying to put me off.
- Hey, let's not do this, all right?
It's just, you know
that I've been super stressed,
so I haven't had time yet to get it done.
Leyla, I could tell my side,
so make sure you do it.
- Hmm?
- Muko, please. Don't be silly.
- [huffs]
- Muko!
Please. I'm I'm just saying
that maybe you should stop being so
[sighs, under breath] God help me.
[seagulls calling]
[Muko sighs]
[singing bowl chimes]
[Sevgi] Om
[takes a deep breath]
Om
[knocking on door]
[sighs]
[chiming fades]
Good morning. Tests are soon. I know that.
You should be eating well.
Oh, I ate. But thank you.
[swallows heavily]
My wish is to come
to the hospital with you. You mind?
[scoffs] Yes, I mind.
[gulls calling]
Sevgi!
Please come to the window!
Sevgi!
Hey, lay off it, Leyla.
It's my yoga time
if both of you'd butt out.
Come down.
It's my yoga time now too, okay?
Come here. Help me put these up.
Come on. I'm pregnant.
- [huffs]
- [Leyla scoffs]
[door opens]
[grunts]
[Sevgi sighs]
Hey, honey.
It's been months.
Come on, stop being like this.
Leyla, I made it clear.
Don't meddle in my business.
You haven't been speaking
to that poor lady for months.
What happened with you, huh?
She's your mother.
Come on. That is totally hypocritical.
Last time I checked,
you don't talk to your mother either.
Does she know that you're pregnant?
Hey, my circumstances
and yours aren't the same, all right?
- Hey. Stop it, will you?
- [grunts]
- What's the matter?
- "Oh, what's the matter?"
Is everybody trying
to make me go crazy? Huh?
What more do you expect to happen?
I just don't know what you want!
Listen, Leyla,
you're all being too hard on me.
I could explode any second!
[moans in pain]
- What is it?
- [Leyla] Ow, it hurts!
Leyla, tell me what's wrong.
Just try to breathe, okay? Take it slow.
Let's sit you down, and we'll call Ada.
- Calm down, yeah? It's working.
- It's almost time.
Yes, it always works on Sarp as well.
Create a distraction, and whoop!
Out goes the attitude,
in comes the sunshine.
- To hell with your moods! Attitude?
- Ow!
Wait a minute. Wait.
My baby sheep, your hair's so curly.
You need a kiss. Mwah. Mwah.
You're my little merino sheep.
Listen to me.
- [upbeat music playing]
- The tests will come back clean.
I promise.
It'll all turn out how it should.
I'm certain of it.
What happens if they don't?
[softly] Honey.
In a beachside town like this one,
things have to turn out right.
- There's no other way.
- [upbeat music ends]
[upbeat, rhythmic music playing]
[camera clicks]
[rhythmic music fades out]
Just the hot ones, man. Just the hot ones.
- [vendor] They're flamin' hot.
- [indistinct chatter]
These for your business?
I don't have one yet.
But I'm touring places
at the moment, so we'll see.
- What's the price come to?
- A hundred lira's good.
[Fiko] A hundred.
- [vendor] You can pay me later.
- Huh?
Oh, no.
I have it here. See?
Thanks, though, man. I'll see you later.
[Fiko] Oh, hey, Zaman!
Hey, Fiko. What's up, man?
- Doing all right. And you?
- [Zaman] Good.
Sevgi all right?
Good. She had her last chemo,
and she's got a PET scan soon here.
So she's a bit
Yeah, a bit worried.
It's been a while since you came over.
Oh, I'd love to, man, you know.
But we're tight on money these days, so
Ah, don't mention that, all right?
Just come by.
'Kay. I'll be there.
- I'll see you.
- Yeah. Thanks.
- [clerk] Zaman, good to see you.
- Yeah, you too.
- [clerk] Same recipient?
- [Zaman] That's right.
[sighs]
[drawer opens]
[drawer closes]
What's up with taking me somewhere
where bugs keep flying around, huh?
- Just be quiet and look. Please.
- That's impossible. I'm blindfolded.
- Calm down. I'll take it off. Get ready.
- Yes, I'm ready.
Okay, now. I'm taking it off.
- Ka-zam! [chuckles]
- [sighs]
All right. What do you think?
What do I think? I think you're joking.
You know how incredibly busy things are
for me these days. Let's go.
It isn't a joke, Fiko.
I'm dead serious here.
It's just gonna take
some tender loving care.
A bit of care, Leyla?
This place looks like it'll topple
if there's a strong breeze.
- You making a joke or something?
- Don't be dramatic, Fiko, okay?
It probably looks rough, but the architect
I brought in is gonna give us a quote.
- You talked to an architect?
- Yeah.
Leyla, look at me. I'm struggling plenty
to make ends meet already.
All my money financed our house.
I'm sorry,
but why are you doing this to me?
Too late, darling. Too late.
This was the only place within our budget.
I met with a financier,
got us a loan, hmm?
And I made the deal.
It's all complete. Here's the deed.
Loan? You mean
Uh, this is a binding deal.
Leyla, you're supposed
to ask your partner before you
What'd you possibly expect, huh?
How could I ask? You're not here.
It's Sevgi constantly.
Or you're working on boats,
and I can't find you.
You think I'm on boats relaxing?
I'm attempting to earn
the best living I can.
And I'm saying your boat is here,
practically asking you
to captain it your way.
I mean, go look how gorgeous it is inside.
Come on, Fiko.
[sighs]
Hey. Help me up.
Pretty, you see?
Oh
I
[Leyla sighs]
No. No, Leyla.
Leyla, for
This place absolutely can't be rescued.
I'm telling you,
this place is good for nothing.
Your little one's gonna get here soon.
What do you expect me
to accomplish by myself?
Listen up, Fiko.
I'll smack some sense into you.
This is seriously my only chance.
My baby's coming any day.
Oh, and my husband's in jail.
For my family,
my only option is to succeed.
And you better help me get
to that result. Understand?
I'm calling it Eleni's Tavern.
[sighs] I'm gonna be there.
I'm hearing you.
We'll put in our best. How's that sound?
Despite that, this is truly a mess.
Nobody's ever heard about it.
Anybody who knows us
knows that we can do it, Fiko.
[chuckles softly]
- You're really bonkers, Leyla.
- [scoffs, sighs]
Just stop talking, you idiot.
Now you've upset me. Let's go.
Now I'm gonna show you
how we'll be decorating here.
- Hmm.
- Here's how I imagine it.
I mean, your thoughts also count,
but, in my mind,
seating should go beneath those trees,
with lanterns, lights, and all.
Back here,
I'm picturing a rustic atmosphere.
- What do you think about that, hmm?
- "Rustic"?
Rustic. You know, rustic?
You don't know rustic.
It's fine. Doesn't matter.
I'll fill you in later.
No need to worry about that
or anything, for that matter.
Listen. This part here
["Yolaçık" by Yolda playing]
[distant, excited chatter]
[gulls calling]
[jazzy Turkish pop continues]
Zaman, hi. Good morning.
Good to see you.
Do you have a minute?
I need to talk to you.
Of course. I've got a minute,
and I've got some tea as well.
Let's go.
[jazzy music fades]
[Ada] Remember how we discussed
something called spiritual heritage?
Going through the generations passed down.
It could just be something
like a talent or maybe a belief.
Say parents and babies really
are connected through the generations
by some kind of information network.
Just go on and ask me
the question you really want to ask.
All right. Here it goes.
Sometimes we can't become parents.
Or we simply are not looking to have kids.
But what happens to our knowledge?
[gentle music playing]
You're ignoring my questions again,
aren't you?
[takes a deep breath]
I think,
at some point,
you must learn to stop looking
for answers outside, Ada.
[sighs] Zaman, these last seven months,
I read every book you gave me.
And I came to all the sessions.
Everything I've observed is amazing.
My healing is progressing.
I won't deny that, but I
It just it all still feels
so blurry, muddled.
It seems that way now.
When you disturb water with a stone,
you make it cloudy, but, well
[takes a deep breath]
The stone will settle.
Things will become clear once again.
The water will be at rest again.
Sometimes, you must let it settle.
And if you start asking
the right questions,
you may see
that you don't require explanations.
[scoffs, sighs]
My head is filled up
with questions I've been meaning to ask.
In any case, I should get back.
Is a family what you want,
or are you unable to choose?
Or is that the question
you've been trying hard
not to ask yourself, perhaps, dear Ada?
[gentle music fades]
We'll depart very shortly, sir.
It'll be soon, sir, soon.
I'm here, Captain. I'm here.
You can't do this, Fiko.
- Let's call it here.
- Oh, but I'm just
Just ten minutes late, I've
I know your wife is sick.
But this is a business.
And my customers are waiting.
Here's your pay.
Best of luck.
Yeah, all right.
[Ada sighs]
It's your left kidney.
Please look.
At the moment,
it's covered almost completely.
Urology is going to call you.
I'm afraid operating
will be unavoidable this time.
And no other treatment can help?
Not this time.
Operating now really is
the best course here.
[patient sighs]
Aysel, if you're comfortable with it,
can I ask you a question?
[Aysel] Of course, Doctor.
On your mother's side, do you get along?
We, uh, lost our mother
around three or four months ago.
[tense music playing]
[Aysel] It was totally unexpected.
- I still can't get over it.
- [sighs]
[gentle music playing]
- My condolences.
- [Aysel] Thank you.
[Ada] If what they say is true,
that our mothers,
and all our female ancestors,
are represented
by the left side of our bodies,
and that our kidneys
store all of the tears we cannot shed,
can a mere surgical operation be enough
for this patient to heal?
[gentle music continues]
[notification plays]
[Toprak] Ada, sorry.
This is taking longer than expected.
PROTECTION
Inside me, health flows unconditionally.
Infused into my cells, comes love.
Abundantly.
I am well. [takes a deep breath]
I am well.
I am well.
[keys jangle]
Sevgi, dear?
[sighs]
Sevgi, love? Are you here?
Hey, sweetheart?
Sevgi?
I picked up some delicious fish for you.
And so we can make a salad,
I brought veggies home.
[water drips]
[sighs]
I am well.
I am well.
I am well.
- I am well.
- Sevgi.
[gasps] Oh, damn. Oh, Fiko.
Oh, sorry, love. Did I startle you?
You're not supposed to be home yet.
You got home early.
- You scared me to death.
- Hmm.
- Should I hop in?
- Oh, no.
I'm sorry, but I have to finish
my meditation right now.
Oh, right. Uh, I'll just be going.
Mm-hmm. [sighs]
- Hey, Fiko.
- Huh?
Please try to avoid shaving at the sink.
[gentle music playing]
You did it again. Seriously.
Oh, I cleaned up the mess,
but I guess I I guess I missed a spot.
Hey, I bought us fish.
And those veggies you love
for dinner, so I'll
Let me set the table.
No, no. I'm not really
in the mood to eat, all right?
Please, do you mind closing
the door on your way out? It's a bit cold.
Right. No problem.
- Have a nice bath, then.
- Okay.
I know, but don't you think
that's pretty high?
Yeah, I'm aware the dollar's high.
I'm saying, you know,
are your workers paid American dollars?
All right.
Yeah, my budget couldn't cover
that expense, clearly. [inhales sharply]
I'll be in touch, then.
Thanks anyway for your help.
Like he's gonna build a palace.
[sighs]
Sarp, listen up.
No wet bedsheets for tonight, am I clear?
You promise me.
[Sarp sighs]
If you do happen to wet the bed,
you slide onto a dry spot and go to sleep.
Don't come and wake up your mom.
Come here, babe.
Other cheek.
Good night. [whispers] Don't pee.
[Sarp] Mom?
Papa's comin' back, right?
Once my sister's born.
[somber music playing]
Sweetie, um
it'll be a while until Dad's back.
[sighs] Come here.
Honey, um
Do you think
that maybe you've been wetting the bed
because you want Dad to come back?
Huh?
Dad knows I'm gonna have a sister?
[Leyla sighs]
- [exhales]
- [music fades]
[Fiko] So I told her, no way.
This place is no good for anything.
But I considered it, and I really think
she found a great place.
That loon blindfolded me when we went.
Actually, I'm not gonna eat. You go ahead.
Okay.
[chewing loudly]
Fiko. [inhales sharply]
Can you please chew more quietly?
It's like it's exploding in my brain.
Like, "Cha, cha, cha."
[sighs deeply]
All right.
- Sevgi.
- Hmm?
I'm not working on the boat anymore.
Why? Something happen out there, or?
No, no, nothing happened.
This is a call I made.
I think it's more logical
to focus on our restaurant at the moment.
And renovating, it's a lot of work.
Basically, it'll be full-time.
So I thought it'd be best, um
But I think we'll be a little behind
on our rent for a time.
No big deal.
I can start working again so I can help.
No, baby, you shouldn't be going back.
That's not what I meant.
You just focus
on getting yourself better, all right?
Everything's under control. Okay?
- [sighs]
- Okay, love?
[Sevgi sighs]
[gently] This is so nice.
[Sevgi grunts]
[Fiko sighs]
What's wrong?
[exhales]
I guess you're getting bored.
No. That's not what this is.
No, I'm not bored.
I'm not bored, but lately, you're
Hmm. Think, Fiko.
[mockingly] Maybe Hmm.
Could I be a person with cancer?
What're you saying, Sevgi, huh?
How come you're talking like that?
What'd you say that for?
You're always suffocating me, Fiko.
I bet you're starting
to think you love the wrong girl.
Maybe I'm not able to satisfy your needs
or give you what you signed up for.
Don't put words in my mouth.
- You believe my meaning was anything
- You're always badgering me.
There's something you need,
or something you're asking for,
or something you want to discuss.
I just need space, Fiko, for real.
Please. Seriously.
I'm just trying to be
the best caregiver I can
Oh, don't. Let me be, Fiko.
Babying me like this?
Am I your child, hmm?
I just get so tired.
So incredibly sick
of being sick to all of you.
Just leave me alone, will you? I mean it!
I've had it!
[door slams]
[somber music playing]
[Fiko sighs]
[music fades]
[Leyla] Are you busy tomorrow afternoon?
I need to ask you a favor.
Depends on when exactly, Leylo.
Oh! Sorry, you and Toprak were supposed
to have dinner. Am I interrupting?
- I can call later.
- Toprak's with his daughter.
Couldn't make it.
So what are you doing? Where are you now?
Leyla, I'll call you back later
about tomorrow, okay?
[somber music playing]
[indistinct chatter]
[sounds distort and fade]
[indistinct chatter resumes]
[Ada breathing shakily]
[birds calling outside]
[door opens]
[door closes]
[Toprak sighs]
I'm sorry.
Flor had a study group,
so I had to pick her up.
Then we got some dinner. I'm sorry.
[flatly] It's okay.
[sighs] You're angry.
I told you it's okay, Toprak.
Eva's all right?
- It seems she got better.
- Yeah, she's doin' okay.
Ada, I'm sorry. I've been neglecting them.
It really was just dinner.
You're free to spend as much time
with Flor as you want, Toprak.
That's not the issue.
I just expect you to keep your promises.
That's all.
[Toprak sighs]
Besides, I've told you a million times
we should make plans to get together with
Flor so you don't neglect her, haven't I?
[Toprak] Yeah, okay.
But I don't want her to upset you.
You know how she acts with you.
Maybe she'd adjust
if we spent any time together, you know?
Ada, it's a bad idea to push her, Flor.
She's still struggling
to place you in her life.
She just needs time. That's all.
Tell me, have you been struggling
to find a place for me, Toprak?
Meaning what?
[quietly] Maybe I'm
I'm not sure
where our relationship is going.
'Cause we can't even get to the beach,
and it's been months, Toprak.
I know, I'm sorry. Listen.
Please give me just a little patience.
School's about to be out,
and we can go on that vacation we planned.
[sighs]
You want something?
I need to be going now. Sorry.
I promised Flor
that I'd tuck her in tonight.
[sighs] Well then, why did you come
all the way here to see me?
- You didn't answer my messages or pick up.
- [coffee maker beeps]
[Ada sighs]
[quietly] Fuck this.
[mug clatters]
[sighs]
Toprak, listen. Here's an idea for you.
You go be with Flor for a while.
Better to be there every morning
than to have to be so worried
about Eva's health, or whether
she's picked up Flor from school or not.
Better than making me wait around,
don't you think, Toprak?
Do you agree?
Ada, stop, please.
No, I'm serious.
I mean, okay. Whatever you say.
[somber music playing]
Thanks. [sighs]
No, thank you.
[Toprak sighs]
- [door closes]
- [under breath] God, that idiot.
[plates clattering]
[sink running]
Fiko, hey.
[sighs] Babe, you squeezed the toothpaste
right in the middle of the tube again.
I'LL GIVE YOU SOME SPACE, SEVGI.
LET ME KNOW WHEN YOU FEEL BETTER.
[sighs] He's upset.
He's so upset over what?
You're just being a child, Fiko.
Really, so immature. I mean it.
[sighs]
[huffs]
It's not like I'm unaware
she's going through something.
I know. I know that.
I never can fully empathize.
I really only want to be there for her,
but I'm, um
but I'm just not able
to do a good enough job.
It's not enough for her.
And neither am I.
[sighs]
I'm the same way, dude.
Not good enough for anyone.
I always leave someone or something out.
I stayed for Ada, even got
Flor into a school.
Convinced Eva.
I'm still in the wrong.
It still isn't enough for Ada or Flor.
[Fiko sighs]
I think that, for me,
nothing can just be simple.
I don't think anything has ever been easy
in my life and it's never been calm seas.
I'm always barely keepin' afloat,
you know, man?
I've always struggled to make the cut.
I wasn't good enough for my father,
or for the teachers when I was growing up,
or my commanders.
Or for my master when I apprenticed,
and now?
Now I disappoint the landlord.
I'm not even good enough
for the woman I married.
I just cannot seem to make anybody happy.
Nobody's ever happy.
[sighs]
Zaman can't even help,
so I guess I'm just, um
I guess hopeless would be the word.
Hey, don't beat yourself up, man.
I mean, at least you know
that I'm in the same spot.
Hmm?
[sighs]
Well, I'll turn in.
You make yourself comfortable.
The trailer's yours.
- Thanks a lot, Toprak.
- No problem, brother.
[tense music playing]
I'm not able to breathe.
I feel trapped.
And now I'm
My feet can't find the ground.
Did you endure a complicated birth?
[baby wailing]
[screaming]
[newborn's cries echo]
I was out there, left abandoned.
That's all.
That's all I remember being told.
[tense music building]
[panting]
How are you feeling?
My stomach's queasy.
I might collapse.
[Zaman] Hold her so she doesn't fall.
[Ada panting]
To that baby, born,
into a world like this,
into tragedy and loneliness,
sing to that child a lullaby.
Sing.
[in Turkish] I dropped an apple ♪
And it rolled and rolled ♪
Oh, son ♪
Oh, son ♪
It hit the crib and stopped ♪
And the baby woke up ♪
Rockabye, my boy ♪
Rockabye, my baby ♪
Rockabye, my boy ♪
Rockabye, my baby ♪
Rockabye, baby ♪
I didn't get to call you my baby ♪
[sobbing]
[in English] Let her hold you tight.
[in Turkish] I didn't ♪
[in English] Feel her.
[in Turkish] Get to feed you ♪
Rockabye, son ♪
[in English] Babies
like this one should be welcomed.
He should not have to worry.
[in Turkish] Rockabye, my boy ♪
Rockabye, my baby ♪
Rockabye, baby ♪
- [baby fussing]
- [bright music playing]
[Zaman in English]
How are you feeling now?
More calm.
[sniffles]
I think I'm becoming stronger.
I feel safe.
[Zaman sighs]
You are now ready to claim manhood.
Thanks, Zaman.
[Zaman] All right.
You may step back now.
[gentle music continues]
[Zaman] Problems during birth,
for example.
The baby getting stuck in the birth canal
can mean being stuck in life.
A breech birth
or an umbilical cord entanglement
could account for breathing issues.
Practically any such experience
may be informing any person's life
and could have an effect on it.
That first bond of trust
between child and mother,
that that first relationship,
well, it's very, very important.
[Ada takes a deep breath]
Are you feeling any better, Ada?
I am. It was healing.
I must be missing my mom.
Thank you, Zaman. I really mean it.
You'll see me again.
[music fades]
- [buzzer sounds]
- [door opens]
Leyla. To what do I owe the pleasure, huh?
How are you?
I'm swell, honey. Just peachy. Wonderful.
How am I? Really? You must be nuts.
God knows how long,
and no contact at all from you?
Your husband's in jail,
and now you care? Bullshit!
I'm going crazy in here, all right?
Quit it! Will you calm down?
Who did I send
all of those packages to, huh?
Oh yeah. Thank you.
Flannels. Undies.
All those books
so you can bore me to death.
How's my son?
He's Sarp.
He misses you, but beyond that, he's good.
You should tell him.
Papa's been put in prison,
all thanks to his mother. Hmm?
Are you kidding me?
Prison's because of me too?
This is all
because of your decisions, Erdem.
Okay, Leyla.
Please just get me an expensive attorney.
Or I'm gonna be
in prison for the rest of my life.
Erdem, aren't you forgetting something?
Because you haven't asked about us.
Like about our house,
how things are going,
the things we're eating,
or how we can afford food!
Why worry about that, hmm?
When your dad is looking after you.
Isn't he? Tell him hi from me, then.
Sure, whatever you say.
Oh, by the way
[somber music playing]
[shouting]this is your daughter!
What? What the hell? Mine? It's mine?
- What did you say?
- I said, is the baby mine?
- You bastard!
- [slams receiver]
Leyla.
- Leyla.
- [door buzzes]
- Leyla!
- [door opens, closes]
God, I'm just so tired
of always being so stupid.
[Ada] Oh, Leyla.
[crying softly]
There's no way I'm gonna be able
to raise this kid alone.
Let's pick up some pie and go home.
Sevgi'll be there waiting for us.
You coming?
- Okay.
- Let's go.
How am I such an idiot?
I'm like the queen of all idiots.
[music fades]
[Leyla] Oof.
C'mon, hon.
[exhales]
[sighs, sniffles]
Sweetums, what's wrong?
Hey you. What's going on?
[sobs softly]
Fiko moved out yesterday.
He moved out?
How come?
Did he say?
[somber music playing]
[Leyla] My love!
Orange is my favorite color.
And it looks great on you.
You needed a little color in your life.
You look great.
- Yeah.
- Rock bottom just got lower.
- [Leyla scoffs]
- Oh, come on.
Y'know, technically, Fiko hasn't left you.
He said himself, it's a little space.
No, girl, I mean, he got so upset,
he moved out.
- Fiko left the group, baby.
- [Ada grunts]
Maybe we got married too soon.
We rushed things. Huh?
Maybe Fiko isn't the love of my life.
I just liked the idea.
Like, since I'd never been proposed to
or married,
Fiko just happened
to blow me away, you know? Huh?
Honey, you know that maybe just a
a little separation could be good. Hmm?
Oh, no, Ada, hang on!
What are you talking about?
Do you think being alone
is a piece of cake?
For all his faults, Fiko is a fine guy,
and one who's crazy about you.
Hmm?
He's like a kid, Fiko.
It's always me
who's keeping track of things, never him.
It's amazing.
Not a single spontaneous thought.
Oh wow.
You really have it out for Fiko, huh?
Hey, that man sold his car,
remember, just to meet your needs, okay?
He's working on at least two boats a day.
I don't understand
what more you want from him.
Hey, Leyla. C'mon, babe.
Cut her some slack, huh?
She really could have a point.
They very well
could've rushed into things.
- Yeah.
- Some time. Just give her that.
A husband? Family?
She came looking to get those.
Pardon me for saying it,
but not every girl's just out to get laid.
Am I the person you're referring to?
Yes, as a matter of fact, you and Toprak
were just gonna spend time together.
Supposedly, nothing serious.
Oh, come on.
You believed it when she said that?
She also wants a husband
and a house and a few kids.
Hey, I'm not the topic here, am I?
We're discussing Fiko.
Come on. You're so sensitive. [grunts]
[groans]
[light instrumental music plays]
- Hey, ladies.
- [Sevgi] Hmm?
Do you remember
when we were here together before?
[Sevgi] Aww.
I dreamed of my boobs getting larger.
[Sevgi chuckles]
I'm a bit larger in my belly too.
[Sevgi and Ada laugh]
I should be careful
what I ask for. Huh, ladies?
Me? I just wanted someone to do.
I wanted somebody in my life, you know?
And now my husband wants to,
but it's a chore.
[Ada] I was married to Selim.
On my way to Brussels too.
And now I'm home.
And Toprak's my partner.
[takes a deep breath]
Despite the fact
that I'm not even sure I'm with him.
- All right, girls, listen up.
- Hmm.
Let's pack and go
on a road trip again, huh?
A road trip would be amazing, wouldn't it?
No, Leyla,
we shouldn't run away this time.
And we're not gonna just
let things go either.
We'll sit tight.
We'll find a way and manage to stay.
Stand by one another. Sound like a plan?
[groans]
- What's going on?
- Don't be fooled by her. Big scammer.
- [sighs]
- [moans in pain]
It's not a scam this time.
- [Leyla] It's too early!
- [Ada] Her water just broke.
- Okay. Calm down.
- Okay, but why is this?
Hang on, calm down.
Both of you, it's okay.
You, get her things ready.
I'll bring my car up here.
Change your wig.
We gotta go. We're going
[Ada] Our first experience on earth,
our first challenge,
is the journey that ends
with us leaving our mother's womb.
- [siren wailing]
- The journey into the unknown scares us.
However, birth is not a journey
into the unknown.
Because the bond
between mother and newborn
has long since been formed.
And no matter what happens,
it never disappears.
Just remembering this
can give us the courage
to step into the unknown.
- [tense music playing]
- [labored breathing]
[up-tempo acoustic guitar music playing]
[music fades out]
[birds singing]
[women singing in Turkish]
Çukurova is on fire, on fire ♪
Men came down, their hands tied ♪
Men came down, their hands tied ♪
Oh, my Emine ♪
Come to me, my Emine ♪
Smile, my Emine, oh ♪
The duck flew off
And the dove perched ♪
- Oh, my Emine ♪
- [ominous music playing]
- [screams]
- [woman 1] Emine?
- [Emine groaning]
- [woman 1] Honey! Emine!
Hold her. Hold her.
[Emine moaning in pain]
[woman 1] Come on. A little more. Come on!
Come on. Come on, honey.
All right. Now push.
[screaming]
Listen. Try to focus, my dear.
Just try to focus on your breathing.
Just breathe.
- Come on. A little more.
- [screams]
God help me, the baby's turned around.
Emine, deep breaths.
Push, my darling. Come on, dear
[Ada] Our first experience on earth,
our first challenge,
is the journey which ends
with us leaving our mother's womb.
That journey is the first time
we know fear.
[woman 2] It's here!
[Ada] The journey
into the unknown scares us.
However, we're not alone
at the edge of the light.
- [baby crying]
- [Ada] There's someone waiting for us.
The one who's been waiting.
Our mother.
[cries grow louder]
Send word to the foreman!
She needs to get to the city right now.
Come on, hurry. Now!
[tense music playing]
[woman 1] More water, please.
[newborn wailing]
[Ada] If we lacked that first contact
with our mother and felt alone
and desperate with our first breath
coming into this world,
is it likely for us to feel whole today?
[tense music swells]
ANOTHER SELF
- [tense music fades]
- [birds singing]
["Gracias a la vida" by Joan Báez playing]
THE MARKS OF OUR ANCESTORS
[stirring guitar music continues]
[cell phone vibrating]
[upbeat Spanish folk song continues]
[sighs softly]
FRAGILE!
[takes a deep breath, chuckles]
[grunts softly]
[Toprak] Mm.
[softly] Get up. We're going to the ocean.
[Toprak groans]
- So it's already morning?
- Mm-hmm.
[gently] Mm. It's morning.
- Come on, get up.
- [grunts softly]
Let's go.
Explain how this woman
can wake up looking so beautiful.
How? Hmm?
- Come on. We'll run out of time.
- [Toprak grunts]
Let's go. [laughs]
Wait, you come back here. Come back.
[chuckles]
[line ringing]
Let's go to Cunda, hmm?
There won't be wind.
[operator] The person you have called
is not available.
To leave a--
- [song ends]
- [coffee maker percolating]
Is something wrong?
Flor, she's not picking up.
Then, I mean, if you need to go
No. It's nothing, I'm sure.
She'll call back soon.
- So it's finally happening.
- Yeah, finally.
Today we're going to the sea.
[engine starts]
[up-tempo instrumental music playing]
[engine revving]
BURCU COVE .3 MILES
[music fades]
- Oh, come on. Is there another way?
- [Toprak sighs]
- [ringtone playing]
- There must be one, right?
- [call connects]
- Hello?
Oh, hey, sweetum.
What's wrong?
Okay. Okay. I'll be there soon.
Eva's sick again, apparently.
She can't get Flor to school today.
[kisses] Go, then.
[Toprak sighs]
Hey, wait. I I'll drop you off in town.
[sighs] It's really close by.
I'll be fine.
[Toprak exhales]
Ada, really, thanks for understanding.
I mean, anyone else would just [sighs]
I know you're doing your best.
Let's go on vacation together.
Once the school year ends.
Eva and Flor are going to the Netherlands.
That sounds good.
- It sounds good?
- Sounds incredible.
[Toprak chuckles]
You'd better be going.
[sighs] Dinner, I promise.
It's a plan. I'll see you then.
ATTENTION
CLOSED DUE TO ROADWORK
- [upbeat, whimsical music playing]
- [phone chimes]
[Leyla] My love! How are you?
Hey there, Leyla, sweetie.
Good day, girls!
What's going on? It's pretty early still.
Is something wrong, Ada?
I thought you might be up
for joining me at the beach today. Hmm?
Ugh, girls, not me. I'm booked today.
But it's more reason
for Sevgi to come along, don't you think?
[Sevgi] You think Sevgi
is even able to lift her arm?
[Leyla gasps] Sarp! I can't believe you.
Sarp! Again?
Mom, it's not my fault!
But then whose fault is it?
I'm the one who wet the bed? Huh?
I thought Toprak
and you were going together.
[groaning]
[Leyla] Hey! Why are you standing there?
Take a shower. Now!
[groaning]
- Oh, Fiko, really?
- [Ada] Sweetcakes?
- What's wrong? Are you okay?
- [panting]
Good God, I keep reminding you
not to shave here, and you still do.
[Ada] I love you both so, so much.
You guys know that, right?
- Me too, ladies. I love you both.
- Me too. I love you guys.
Ada, is something wrong?
I'm good, sweetum.
Goodbye, ladies. [kisses]
- I'm sending kisses.
- [call disconnects]
[exhales deeply]
[whimsical music ends]
[Sevgi sighs]
[exhales]
[gentle music playing]
[gentle music fades]
Muko, can you please
take Sarp to school today?
Of course I can drop him off.
Oh, but don't forget what you swore to do.
JUNE
- Don't keep trying to put me off.
- Hey, let's not do this, all right?
It's just, you know
that I've been super stressed,
so I haven't had time yet to get it done.
Leyla, I could tell my side,
so make sure you do it.
- Hmm?
- Muko, please. Don't be silly.
- [huffs]
- Muko!
Please. I'm I'm just saying
that maybe you should stop being so
[sighs, under breath] God help me.
[seagulls calling]
[Muko sighs]
[singing bowl chimes]
[Sevgi] Om
[takes a deep breath]
Om
[knocking on door]
[sighs]
[chiming fades]
Good morning. Tests are soon. I know that.
You should be eating well.
Oh, I ate. But thank you.
[swallows heavily]
My wish is to come
to the hospital with you. You mind?
[scoffs] Yes, I mind.
[gulls calling]
Sevgi!
Please come to the window!
Sevgi!
Hey, lay off it, Leyla.
It's my yoga time
if both of you'd butt out.
Come down.
It's my yoga time now too, okay?
Come here. Help me put these up.
Come on. I'm pregnant.
- [huffs]
- [Leyla scoffs]
[door opens]
[grunts]
[Sevgi sighs]
Hey, honey.
It's been months.
Come on, stop being like this.
Leyla, I made it clear.
Don't meddle in my business.
You haven't been speaking
to that poor lady for months.
What happened with you, huh?
She's your mother.
Come on. That is totally hypocritical.
Last time I checked,
you don't talk to your mother either.
Does she know that you're pregnant?
Hey, my circumstances
and yours aren't the same, all right?
- Hey. Stop it, will you?
- [grunts]
- What's the matter?
- "Oh, what's the matter?"
Is everybody trying
to make me go crazy? Huh?
What more do you expect to happen?
I just don't know what you want!
Listen, Leyla,
you're all being too hard on me.
I could explode any second!
[moans in pain]
- What is it?
- [Leyla] Ow, it hurts!
Leyla, tell me what's wrong.
Just try to breathe, okay? Take it slow.
Let's sit you down, and we'll call Ada.
- Calm down, yeah? It's working.
- It's almost time.
Yes, it always works on Sarp as well.
Create a distraction, and whoop!
Out goes the attitude,
in comes the sunshine.
- To hell with your moods! Attitude?
- Ow!
Wait a minute. Wait.
My baby sheep, your hair's so curly.
You need a kiss. Mwah. Mwah.
You're my little merino sheep.
Listen to me.
- [upbeat music playing]
- The tests will come back clean.
I promise.
It'll all turn out how it should.
I'm certain of it.
What happens if they don't?
[softly] Honey.
In a beachside town like this one,
things have to turn out right.
- There's no other way.
- [upbeat music ends]
[upbeat, rhythmic music playing]
[camera clicks]
[rhythmic music fades out]
Just the hot ones, man. Just the hot ones.
- [vendor] They're flamin' hot.
- [indistinct chatter]
These for your business?
I don't have one yet.
But I'm touring places
at the moment, so we'll see.
- What's the price come to?
- A hundred lira's good.
[Fiko] A hundred.
- [vendor] You can pay me later.
- Huh?
Oh, no.
I have it here. See?
Thanks, though, man. I'll see you later.
[Fiko] Oh, hey, Zaman!
Hey, Fiko. What's up, man?
- Doing all right. And you?
- [Zaman] Good.
Sevgi all right?
Good. She had her last chemo,
and she's got a PET scan soon here.
So she's a bit
Yeah, a bit worried.
It's been a while since you came over.
Oh, I'd love to, man, you know.
But we're tight on money these days, so
Ah, don't mention that, all right?
Just come by.
'Kay. I'll be there.
- I'll see you.
- Yeah. Thanks.
- [clerk] Zaman, good to see you.
- Yeah, you too.
- [clerk] Same recipient?
- [Zaman] That's right.
[sighs]
[drawer opens]
[drawer closes]
What's up with taking me somewhere
where bugs keep flying around, huh?
- Just be quiet and look. Please.
- That's impossible. I'm blindfolded.
- Calm down. I'll take it off. Get ready.
- Yes, I'm ready.
Okay, now. I'm taking it off.
- Ka-zam! [chuckles]
- [sighs]
All right. What do you think?
What do I think? I think you're joking.
You know how incredibly busy things are
for me these days. Let's go.
It isn't a joke, Fiko.
I'm dead serious here.
It's just gonna take
some tender loving care.
A bit of care, Leyla?
This place looks like it'll topple
if there's a strong breeze.
- You making a joke or something?
- Don't be dramatic, Fiko, okay?
It probably looks rough, but the architect
I brought in is gonna give us a quote.
- You talked to an architect?
- Yeah.
Leyla, look at me. I'm struggling plenty
to make ends meet already.
All my money financed our house.
I'm sorry,
but why are you doing this to me?
Too late, darling. Too late.
This was the only place within our budget.
I met with a financier,
got us a loan, hmm?
And I made the deal.
It's all complete. Here's the deed.
Loan? You mean
Uh, this is a binding deal.
Leyla, you're supposed
to ask your partner before you
What'd you possibly expect, huh?
How could I ask? You're not here.
It's Sevgi constantly.
Or you're working on boats,
and I can't find you.
You think I'm on boats relaxing?
I'm attempting to earn
the best living I can.
And I'm saying your boat is here,
practically asking you
to captain it your way.
I mean, go look how gorgeous it is inside.
Come on, Fiko.
[sighs]
Hey. Help me up.
Pretty, you see?
Oh
I
[Leyla sighs]
No. No, Leyla.
Leyla, for
This place absolutely can't be rescued.
I'm telling you,
this place is good for nothing.
Your little one's gonna get here soon.
What do you expect me
to accomplish by myself?
Listen up, Fiko.
I'll smack some sense into you.
This is seriously my only chance.
My baby's coming any day.
Oh, and my husband's in jail.
For my family,
my only option is to succeed.
And you better help me get
to that result. Understand?
I'm calling it Eleni's Tavern.
[sighs] I'm gonna be there.
I'm hearing you.
We'll put in our best. How's that sound?
Despite that, this is truly a mess.
Nobody's ever heard about it.
Anybody who knows us
knows that we can do it, Fiko.
[chuckles softly]
- You're really bonkers, Leyla.
- [scoffs, sighs]
Just stop talking, you idiot.
Now you've upset me. Let's go.
Now I'm gonna show you
how we'll be decorating here.
- Hmm.
- Here's how I imagine it.
I mean, your thoughts also count,
but, in my mind,
seating should go beneath those trees,
with lanterns, lights, and all.
Back here,
I'm picturing a rustic atmosphere.
- What do you think about that, hmm?
- "Rustic"?
Rustic. You know, rustic?
You don't know rustic.
It's fine. Doesn't matter.
I'll fill you in later.
No need to worry about that
or anything, for that matter.
Listen. This part here
["Yolaçık" by Yolda playing]
[distant, excited chatter]
[gulls calling]
[jazzy Turkish pop continues]
Zaman, hi. Good morning.
Good to see you.
Do you have a minute?
I need to talk to you.
Of course. I've got a minute,
and I've got some tea as well.
Let's go.
[jazzy music fades]
[Ada] Remember how we discussed
something called spiritual heritage?
Going through the generations passed down.
It could just be something
like a talent or maybe a belief.
Say parents and babies really
are connected through the generations
by some kind of information network.
Just go on and ask me
the question you really want to ask.
All right. Here it goes.
Sometimes we can't become parents.
Or we simply are not looking to have kids.
But what happens to our knowledge?
[gentle music playing]
You're ignoring my questions again,
aren't you?
[takes a deep breath]
I think,
at some point,
you must learn to stop looking
for answers outside, Ada.
[sighs] Zaman, these last seven months,
I read every book you gave me.
And I came to all the sessions.
Everything I've observed is amazing.
My healing is progressing.
I won't deny that, but I
It just it all still feels
so blurry, muddled.
It seems that way now.
When you disturb water with a stone,
you make it cloudy, but, well
[takes a deep breath]
The stone will settle.
Things will become clear once again.
The water will be at rest again.
Sometimes, you must let it settle.
And if you start asking
the right questions,
you may see
that you don't require explanations.
[scoffs, sighs]
My head is filled up
with questions I've been meaning to ask.
In any case, I should get back.
Is a family what you want,
or are you unable to choose?
Or is that the question
you've been trying hard
not to ask yourself, perhaps, dear Ada?
[gentle music fades]
We'll depart very shortly, sir.
It'll be soon, sir, soon.
I'm here, Captain. I'm here.
You can't do this, Fiko.
- Let's call it here.
- Oh, but I'm just
Just ten minutes late, I've
I know your wife is sick.
But this is a business.
And my customers are waiting.
Here's your pay.
Best of luck.
Yeah, all right.
[Ada sighs]
It's your left kidney.
Please look.
At the moment,
it's covered almost completely.
Urology is going to call you.
I'm afraid operating
will be unavoidable this time.
And no other treatment can help?
Not this time.
Operating now really is
the best course here.
[patient sighs]
Aysel, if you're comfortable with it,
can I ask you a question?
[Aysel] Of course, Doctor.
On your mother's side, do you get along?
We, uh, lost our mother
around three or four months ago.
[tense music playing]
[Aysel] It was totally unexpected.
- I still can't get over it.
- [sighs]
[gentle music playing]
- My condolences.
- [Aysel] Thank you.
[Ada] If what they say is true,
that our mothers,
and all our female ancestors,
are represented
by the left side of our bodies,
and that our kidneys
store all of the tears we cannot shed,
can a mere surgical operation be enough
for this patient to heal?
[gentle music continues]
[notification plays]
[Toprak] Ada, sorry.
This is taking longer than expected.
PROTECTION
Inside me, health flows unconditionally.
Infused into my cells, comes love.
Abundantly.
I am well. [takes a deep breath]
I am well.
I am well.
[keys jangle]
Sevgi, dear?
[sighs]
Sevgi, love? Are you here?
Hey, sweetheart?
Sevgi?
I picked up some delicious fish for you.
And so we can make a salad,
I brought veggies home.
[water drips]
[sighs]
I am well.
I am well.
I am well.
- I am well.
- Sevgi.
[gasps] Oh, damn. Oh, Fiko.
Oh, sorry, love. Did I startle you?
You're not supposed to be home yet.
You got home early.
- You scared me to death.
- Hmm.
- Should I hop in?
- Oh, no.
I'm sorry, but I have to finish
my meditation right now.
Oh, right. Uh, I'll just be going.
Mm-hmm. [sighs]
- Hey, Fiko.
- Huh?
Please try to avoid shaving at the sink.
[gentle music playing]
You did it again. Seriously.
Oh, I cleaned up the mess,
but I guess I I guess I missed a spot.
Hey, I bought us fish.
And those veggies you love
for dinner, so I'll
Let me set the table.
No, no. I'm not really
in the mood to eat, all right?
Please, do you mind closing
the door on your way out? It's a bit cold.
Right. No problem.
- Have a nice bath, then.
- Okay.
I know, but don't you think
that's pretty high?
Yeah, I'm aware the dollar's high.
I'm saying, you know,
are your workers paid American dollars?
All right.
Yeah, my budget couldn't cover
that expense, clearly. [inhales sharply]
I'll be in touch, then.
Thanks anyway for your help.
Like he's gonna build a palace.
[sighs]
Sarp, listen up.
No wet bedsheets for tonight, am I clear?
You promise me.
[Sarp sighs]
If you do happen to wet the bed,
you slide onto a dry spot and go to sleep.
Don't come and wake up your mom.
Come here, babe.
Other cheek.
Good night. [whispers] Don't pee.
[Sarp] Mom?
Papa's comin' back, right?
Once my sister's born.
[somber music playing]
Sweetie, um
it'll be a while until Dad's back.
[sighs] Come here.
Honey, um
Do you think
that maybe you've been wetting the bed
because you want Dad to come back?
Huh?
Dad knows I'm gonna have a sister?
[Leyla sighs]
- [exhales]
- [music fades]
[Fiko] So I told her, no way.
This place is no good for anything.
But I considered it, and I really think
she found a great place.
That loon blindfolded me when we went.
Actually, I'm not gonna eat. You go ahead.
Okay.
[chewing loudly]
Fiko. [inhales sharply]
Can you please chew more quietly?
It's like it's exploding in my brain.
Like, "Cha, cha, cha."
[sighs deeply]
All right.
- Sevgi.
- Hmm?
I'm not working on the boat anymore.
Why? Something happen out there, or?
No, no, nothing happened.
This is a call I made.
I think it's more logical
to focus on our restaurant at the moment.
And renovating, it's a lot of work.
Basically, it'll be full-time.
So I thought it'd be best, um
But I think we'll be a little behind
on our rent for a time.
No big deal.
I can start working again so I can help.
No, baby, you shouldn't be going back.
That's not what I meant.
You just focus
on getting yourself better, all right?
Everything's under control. Okay?
- [sighs]
- Okay, love?
[Sevgi sighs]
[gently] This is so nice.
[Sevgi grunts]
[Fiko sighs]
What's wrong?
[exhales]
I guess you're getting bored.
No. That's not what this is.
No, I'm not bored.
I'm not bored, but lately, you're
Hmm. Think, Fiko.
[mockingly] Maybe Hmm.
Could I be a person with cancer?
What're you saying, Sevgi, huh?
How come you're talking like that?
What'd you say that for?
You're always suffocating me, Fiko.
I bet you're starting
to think you love the wrong girl.
Maybe I'm not able to satisfy your needs
or give you what you signed up for.
Don't put words in my mouth.
- You believe my meaning was anything
- You're always badgering me.
There's something you need,
or something you're asking for,
or something you want to discuss.
I just need space, Fiko, for real.
Please. Seriously.
I'm just trying to be
the best caregiver I can
Oh, don't. Let me be, Fiko.
Babying me like this?
Am I your child, hmm?
I just get so tired.
So incredibly sick
of being sick to all of you.
Just leave me alone, will you? I mean it!
I've had it!
[door slams]
[somber music playing]
[Fiko sighs]
[music fades]
[Leyla] Are you busy tomorrow afternoon?
I need to ask you a favor.
Depends on when exactly, Leylo.
Oh! Sorry, you and Toprak were supposed
to have dinner. Am I interrupting?
- I can call later.
- Toprak's with his daughter.
Couldn't make it.
So what are you doing? Where are you now?
Leyla, I'll call you back later
about tomorrow, okay?
[somber music playing]
[indistinct chatter]
[sounds distort and fade]
[indistinct chatter resumes]
[Ada breathing shakily]
[birds calling outside]
[door opens]
[door closes]
[Toprak sighs]
I'm sorry.
Flor had a study group,
so I had to pick her up.
Then we got some dinner. I'm sorry.
[flatly] It's okay.
[sighs] You're angry.
I told you it's okay, Toprak.
Eva's all right?
- It seems she got better.
- Yeah, she's doin' okay.
Ada, I'm sorry. I've been neglecting them.
It really was just dinner.
You're free to spend as much time
with Flor as you want, Toprak.
That's not the issue.
I just expect you to keep your promises.
That's all.
[Toprak sighs]
Besides, I've told you a million times
we should make plans to get together with
Flor so you don't neglect her, haven't I?
[Toprak] Yeah, okay.
But I don't want her to upset you.
You know how she acts with you.
Maybe she'd adjust
if we spent any time together, you know?
Ada, it's a bad idea to push her, Flor.
She's still struggling
to place you in her life.
She just needs time. That's all.
Tell me, have you been struggling
to find a place for me, Toprak?
Meaning what?
[quietly] Maybe I'm
I'm not sure
where our relationship is going.
'Cause we can't even get to the beach,
and it's been months, Toprak.
I know, I'm sorry. Listen.
Please give me just a little patience.
School's about to be out,
and we can go on that vacation we planned.
[sighs]
You want something?
I need to be going now. Sorry.
I promised Flor
that I'd tuck her in tonight.
[sighs] Well then, why did you come
all the way here to see me?
- You didn't answer my messages or pick up.
- [coffee maker beeps]
[Ada sighs]
[quietly] Fuck this.
[mug clatters]
[sighs]
Toprak, listen. Here's an idea for you.
You go be with Flor for a while.
Better to be there every morning
than to have to be so worried
about Eva's health, or whether
she's picked up Flor from school or not.
Better than making me wait around,
don't you think, Toprak?
Do you agree?
Ada, stop, please.
No, I'm serious.
I mean, okay. Whatever you say.
[somber music playing]
Thanks. [sighs]
No, thank you.
[Toprak sighs]
- [door closes]
- [under breath] God, that idiot.
[plates clattering]
[sink running]
Fiko, hey.
[sighs] Babe, you squeezed the toothpaste
right in the middle of the tube again.
I'LL GIVE YOU SOME SPACE, SEVGI.
LET ME KNOW WHEN YOU FEEL BETTER.
[sighs] He's upset.
He's so upset over what?
You're just being a child, Fiko.
Really, so immature. I mean it.
[sighs]
[huffs]
It's not like I'm unaware
she's going through something.
I know. I know that.
I never can fully empathize.
I really only want to be there for her,
but I'm, um
but I'm just not able
to do a good enough job.
It's not enough for her.
And neither am I.
[sighs]
I'm the same way, dude.
Not good enough for anyone.
I always leave someone or something out.
I stayed for Ada, even got
Flor into a school.
Convinced Eva.
I'm still in the wrong.
It still isn't enough for Ada or Flor.
[Fiko sighs]
I think that, for me,
nothing can just be simple.
I don't think anything has ever been easy
in my life and it's never been calm seas.
I'm always barely keepin' afloat,
you know, man?
I've always struggled to make the cut.
I wasn't good enough for my father,
or for the teachers when I was growing up,
or my commanders.
Or for my master when I apprenticed,
and now?
Now I disappoint the landlord.
I'm not even good enough
for the woman I married.
I just cannot seem to make anybody happy.
Nobody's ever happy.
[sighs]
Zaman can't even help,
so I guess I'm just, um
I guess hopeless would be the word.
Hey, don't beat yourself up, man.
I mean, at least you know
that I'm in the same spot.
Hmm?
[sighs]
Well, I'll turn in.
You make yourself comfortable.
The trailer's yours.
- Thanks a lot, Toprak.
- No problem, brother.
[tense music playing]
I'm not able to breathe.
I feel trapped.
And now I'm
My feet can't find the ground.
Did you endure a complicated birth?
[baby wailing]
[screaming]
[newborn's cries echo]
I was out there, left abandoned.
That's all.
That's all I remember being told.
[tense music building]
[panting]
How are you feeling?
My stomach's queasy.
I might collapse.
[Zaman] Hold her so she doesn't fall.
[Ada panting]
To that baby, born,
into a world like this,
into tragedy and loneliness,
sing to that child a lullaby.
Sing.
[in Turkish] I dropped an apple ♪
And it rolled and rolled ♪
Oh, son ♪
Oh, son ♪
It hit the crib and stopped ♪
And the baby woke up ♪
Rockabye, my boy ♪
Rockabye, my baby ♪
Rockabye, my boy ♪
Rockabye, my baby ♪
Rockabye, baby ♪
I didn't get to call you my baby ♪
[sobbing]
[in English] Let her hold you tight.
[in Turkish] I didn't ♪
[in English] Feel her.
[in Turkish] Get to feed you ♪
Rockabye, son ♪
[in English] Babies
like this one should be welcomed.
He should not have to worry.
[in Turkish] Rockabye, my boy ♪
Rockabye, my baby ♪
Rockabye, baby ♪
- [baby fussing]
- [bright music playing]
[Zaman in English]
How are you feeling now?
More calm.
[sniffles]
I think I'm becoming stronger.
I feel safe.
[Zaman sighs]
You are now ready to claim manhood.
Thanks, Zaman.
[Zaman] All right.
You may step back now.
[gentle music continues]
[Zaman] Problems during birth,
for example.
The baby getting stuck in the birth canal
can mean being stuck in life.
A breech birth
or an umbilical cord entanglement
could account for breathing issues.
Practically any such experience
may be informing any person's life
and could have an effect on it.
That first bond of trust
between child and mother,
that that first relationship,
well, it's very, very important.
[Ada takes a deep breath]
Are you feeling any better, Ada?
I am. It was healing.
I must be missing my mom.
Thank you, Zaman. I really mean it.
You'll see me again.
[music fades]
- [buzzer sounds]
- [door opens]
Leyla. To what do I owe the pleasure, huh?
How are you?
I'm swell, honey. Just peachy. Wonderful.
How am I? Really? You must be nuts.
God knows how long,
and no contact at all from you?
Your husband's in jail,
and now you care? Bullshit!
I'm going crazy in here, all right?
Quit it! Will you calm down?
Who did I send
all of those packages to, huh?
Oh yeah. Thank you.
Flannels. Undies.
All those books
so you can bore me to death.
How's my son?
He's Sarp.
He misses you, but beyond that, he's good.
You should tell him.
Papa's been put in prison,
all thanks to his mother. Hmm?
Are you kidding me?
Prison's because of me too?
This is all
because of your decisions, Erdem.
Okay, Leyla.
Please just get me an expensive attorney.
Or I'm gonna be
in prison for the rest of my life.
Erdem, aren't you forgetting something?
Because you haven't asked about us.
Like about our house,
how things are going,
the things we're eating,
or how we can afford food!
Why worry about that, hmm?
When your dad is looking after you.
Isn't he? Tell him hi from me, then.
Sure, whatever you say.
Oh, by the way
[somber music playing]
[shouting]this is your daughter!
What? What the hell? Mine? It's mine?
- What did you say?
- I said, is the baby mine?
- You bastard!
- [slams receiver]
Leyla.
- Leyla.
- [door buzzes]
- Leyla!
- [door opens, closes]
God, I'm just so tired
of always being so stupid.
[Ada] Oh, Leyla.
[crying softly]
There's no way I'm gonna be able
to raise this kid alone.
Let's pick up some pie and go home.
Sevgi'll be there waiting for us.
You coming?
- Okay.
- Let's go.
How am I such an idiot?
I'm like the queen of all idiots.
[music fades]
[Leyla] Oof.
C'mon, hon.
[exhales]
[sighs, sniffles]
Sweetums, what's wrong?
Hey you. What's going on?
[sobs softly]
Fiko moved out yesterday.
He moved out?
How come?
Did he say?
[somber music playing]
[Leyla] My love!
Orange is my favorite color.
And it looks great on you.
You needed a little color in your life.
You look great.
- Yeah.
- Rock bottom just got lower.
- [Leyla scoffs]
- Oh, come on.
Y'know, technically, Fiko hasn't left you.
He said himself, it's a little space.
No, girl, I mean, he got so upset,
he moved out.
- Fiko left the group, baby.
- [Ada grunts]
Maybe we got married too soon.
We rushed things. Huh?
Maybe Fiko isn't the love of my life.
I just liked the idea.
Like, since I'd never been proposed to
or married,
Fiko just happened
to blow me away, you know? Huh?
Honey, you know that maybe just a
a little separation could be good. Hmm?
Oh, no, Ada, hang on!
What are you talking about?
Do you think being alone
is a piece of cake?
For all his faults, Fiko is a fine guy,
and one who's crazy about you.
Hmm?
He's like a kid, Fiko.
It's always me
who's keeping track of things, never him.
It's amazing.
Not a single spontaneous thought.
Oh wow.
You really have it out for Fiko, huh?
Hey, that man sold his car,
remember, just to meet your needs, okay?
He's working on at least two boats a day.
I don't understand
what more you want from him.
Hey, Leyla. C'mon, babe.
Cut her some slack, huh?
She really could have a point.
They very well
could've rushed into things.
- Yeah.
- Some time. Just give her that.
A husband? Family?
She came looking to get those.
Pardon me for saying it,
but not every girl's just out to get laid.
Am I the person you're referring to?
Yes, as a matter of fact, you and Toprak
were just gonna spend time together.
Supposedly, nothing serious.
Oh, come on.
You believed it when she said that?
She also wants a husband
and a house and a few kids.
Hey, I'm not the topic here, am I?
We're discussing Fiko.
Come on. You're so sensitive. [grunts]
[groans]
[light instrumental music plays]
- Hey, ladies.
- [Sevgi] Hmm?
Do you remember
when we were here together before?
[Sevgi] Aww.
I dreamed of my boobs getting larger.
[Sevgi chuckles]
I'm a bit larger in my belly too.
[Sevgi and Ada laugh]
I should be careful
what I ask for. Huh, ladies?
Me? I just wanted someone to do.
I wanted somebody in my life, you know?
And now my husband wants to,
but it's a chore.
[Ada] I was married to Selim.
On my way to Brussels too.
And now I'm home.
And Toprak's my partner.
[takes a deep breath]
Despite the fact
that I'm not even sure I'm with him.
- All right, girls, listen up.
- Hmm.
Let's pack and go
on a road trip again, huh?
A road trip would be amazing, wouldn't it?
No, Leyla,
we shouldn't run away this time.
And we're not gonna just
let things go either.
We'll sit tight.
We'll find a way and manage to stay.
Stand by one another. Sound like a plan?
[groans]
- What's going on?
- Don't be fooled by her. Big scammer.
- [sighs]
- [moans in pain]
It's not a scam this time.
- [Leyla] It's too early!
- [Ada] Her water just broke.
- Okay. Calm down.
- Okay, but why is this?
Hang on, calm down.
Both of you, it's okay.
You, get her things ready.
I'll bring my car up here.
Change your wig.
We gotta go. We're going
[Ada] Our first experience on earth,
our first challenge,
is the journey that ends
with us leaving our mother's womb.
- [siren wailing]
- The journey into the unknown scares us.
However, birth is not a journey
into the unknown.
Because the bond
between mother and newborn
has long since been formed.
And no matter what happens,
it never disappears.
Just remembering this
can give us the courage
to step into the unknown.
- [tense music playing]
- [labored breathing]
[up-tempo acoustic guitar music playing]
[music fades out]