Thirtysomething (1987) s02e01 Episode Script
We'll Meet Again
1 Oh, Hope.
Okay.
Here's the plan here, all right? The desk-- it's gonna be an L-shaped desk with shelves-- Listen, Gary, unless you have seen a folder of notes or another black high heel, I have nothing to say to you.
- Thank you.
- Hi.
We're here.
You can go.
Oh, Britty, is that your baby? No.
No.
It's Cindy.
She's adopted I'll explain it to you later.
- Get dressed.
- Oh, right.
- Hey.
Hi, Gar.
- Hi.
- What are you doing? - Oh, um - I'm making a desk for them with shelves.
- That's cool.
- The desk is gonna be an L-shaped with three shelves-- - [clatter.]
Britty, what do you have in your mouth? - Did you eat that money? - [Brittany.]
Uh-oh.
- What are you doing here? - School holiday.
Alyosha Karamazov's birthday.
Okay, now, here's the plan, all right? L-shaped desk.
- Three shelves up on top.
- It's great.
I love that.
It's great, but what I need now-- I need an opinion, okay? Floor wax.
I have to come up with an idea-- Pre-elections.
Let the people decide.
Not Nicaragua, Gary.
Floor wax.
Spread and Shine floor wax.
Shut up.
Give me an idea, okay? - Free associate.
- Yeah.
Free associate.
Free floor wax.
Let the people decide.
Thank you, Gary.
Why do I like you? You have to.
I'm tall.
I wish I could figure out why this is Janey's favorite hiding place.
What? Nothing.
- Michael.
- Mmm.
[clattering.]
[thump.]
I'm getting it fixed.
[Gary.]
Uh, excuse me.
Excuse me.
Excuse me, guys.
Grendel had a little accident.
Oh, it's the colitis again.
I'll call Dr.
Fred.
Hope? Hope.
Hope.
Your ideas are great.
They're great.
Val's gonna put all six of them in the pipeline.
- Yeah, yeah, yeah.
- Mmm.
All right.
I got a little baby here who needs her daddy.
- All right.
Come here, sweetie.
- Go see Daddy.
Oh, God, you are so heavy.
Oh, would you stop growing, please? - Juice, juice.
You guys got-- - Oh, I do have juice.
- Nancy, thank you so much for doing this.
I appreciate it.
- Oh, sure.
I don't know what a paying daycare is.
What about that place you found? They were great until they came down with salmonella four days ago.
Okay, sweetie.
Come on.
- Wanna go have your bottle? - Okay.
- Good-bye, sweetheart.
- Say "Bye-bye, Mommy.
" - Thank you, Nancy.
Good-bye, honey.
- Oh, sure.
Come on, sweetie.
Whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa.
Good-bye.
Call me.
- Okay.
- Okay.
Bye.
[Elliot.]
That's great.
Listen, give Linda our love, okay? All right.
Congratulations.
Bye-bye.
That was Eddie.
Linda had a little girl.
7 pounds, 2 ounces.
Oh, great.
That's great.
All right.
Well, we should send them something.
- Yeah.
- Fruit.
This fruit.
Someone sent us fruit? What have we got to feel good about? It's from Jeanine, from L.
A.
She called.
- When's she coming in? - She had a great vacation.
She saw Susan Dey jogging.
She went on a game show.
She won some stuff.
- Really? - Yeah, yeah.
A microwave, a bedroom set, $109,000.
Then she quit.
- At 109? - No, us.
- She quit us.
- She quit.
- She quit.
- So she's not coming in, then.
Mm-mm.
Which is really okay.
I mean, it's not a problem, 'cause I called a temp agency.
Jeanine quit.
We didn't even get a chance to fire her.
- Jeanine quit.
- Jeanine who? I can't deal with this.
Two kids.
Two kids.
- What? - Lynne and Eddie, they have two now.
What's Jason, 20 months? Not to mention hyperactive.
- Janey's 20 months now, so-- - God, no! God, maybe? No.
We're just thinking about it, that's all.
Anyway, it's Janey's fault.
I mean, she's this person suddenly.
She used to be this little baby.
That's true.
There's a law that says you have to have a baby in the house at all times.
Yes, and there's gonna be.
I mean, it's definitely there.
It's on the list.
It's just pretty far down right now.
I mean, there's new snow tires, fix the garbage disposal, have another - Are we out of our minds? - Of course.
It's called instinct, Mikey.
Propagate the species.
Accentuate the positive, which is fine.
But do you know what a good preschool costs these days? It's no problem.
I'll borrow it from Jeanine.
You don't like any of them.
Some of it.
The ones we've done before.
Didn't you read the magazine when you were away? I tried, but it all blurs together with the baby.
I think the last thing I read was Curious George Files a Class Action Suit.
You got the latest photo opportunity? Oh, yeah.
Listen, this pesticide thing goes beyond dioxin.
Maybe I could-- Murdoch, there's no baby there.
- What do you mean? - They grow so fast.
You thinking about having another one? Well, I'm still trying to get the computer to spell my name right so I can cash my first six paychecks.
You're talking to me about another kid? What about the radon business Joy talked about in the staff meeting? I could do that.
We could make it personal.
From the angle of your average hysterical homeowner.
You take a young couple.
They make a few bucks.
They buy a big house.
They wait for the sweet life.
And then they don't know what they've gotten into.
I don't know anybody like that.
But what we're saying is you have to know your own house from top to bottom, literally.
So great.
You go write that.
Me? I'm a researcher.
Murdoch, my writers win awards ripping off your research reports.
You want me to write this? And hand me the report three weeks ago.
Excuse me.
So these things actually tell if you have radon? Yeah, they're supposed to.
I mean, they're supposed to in a week.
Have to do it for this piece I'm doing.
You know, I found those ski sweaters you were asking me about.
- They're in that top drawer there.
- Oh.
Mothballs.
It's so unfair.
Those poor moths sacrificing their manhood for our knitwear.
Hope, what's that over here? I don't know.
It's not ours.
Look.
"MacCaulay.
1710 Bryn Mawr Avenue, Philadelphia, PA.
" That's us.
I mean, that's our address.
Oh, it's locked.
Wow! Look at all this stuff! - This is great! - I'll bet Margaret Bourke-White shot this cover.
What do you think? Is it me? - You'll need a snood.
- What's a snood? It's this thing they used to wear on their hair in the '40s.
- They'd take them off, use them to carry their groceries.
- Wow! "Corporal Roy MacCaulay.
General delivery.
San Francisco.
" - These two-- they were married.
- These are all from him-- from this MacCaulay guy to a Mrs.
Sally MacCaulay.
- Them.
It's them.
- This is cool.
- "Stardust.
" I love this.
Hey, let's put it on.
- Oh, yeah.
I love this song.
So what do you think? Is he cute? - Oh, I think he's gorgeous.
- Yeah.
- She must've been a nurse.
Did you wanna be a nurse? - ["Stardust".]
Oh, I skipped the nurse phase.
I wanted to be a June Taylor dancer.
Hey, soldier.
You new in town? This is their house.
Shall we? [laughs.]
[continues.]
Would you like to dance? [Janey babbling.]
[Hope.]
Michael, dinner! Hi.
Hi, sweetheart.
Ohh! Hi, pumpkin.
Can you give me a kiss? Can you give me a kiss? Mmm! How about this? Try Spread and Shine or we'll kill your family.
It's getting there.
- How you doing? - Well, it's hard, and I think I hate it.
But I'm gonna stick with it.
I've got to.
No, you don't.
You procrastinate.
You wanna see something cool? - That's Roy, Sally and her mother.
- Mm-hmm.
- And this was her house.
- What's this? Don't look.
It's the garden.
You'll be depressed.
Remember the unfaded piece of wallpaper? - Yeah.
In the dining room? - Yeah, yeah.
Well, it was the radio.
One of those big, old-fashioned kind with this picture on top.
- They have kids? - They just got married.
Give them time.
I don't know.
This house seems like it was made for a lot of kids.
We'll never know.
- Michael! - Admit it, babe.
You're hot for the uniform.
Oh, you're just jealous 'cause you don't even have a uniform.
Oh, yes, I do.
I have a Cub Scout uniform.
- Really? - Mm-hmm.
Oh.
[whining.]
What are you looking at? Hi.
[voice whispering.]
[Sally.]
Dear Roy, hello for the third time today.
It's Tuesday night, and the radio's on.
Mama's playing cards with Maxine, and I'm writing to you.
But I don't even know where you are.
[big band.]
Mama thinks maybe the South Pacific, so I guess that means islands and palm trees and pelicans.
Does "pelican" have one L or two? One.
You writing to Roy again? How's he ever gonna beat the Japs? He's too busy reading your letters.
Gin.
[Sally.]
I close my eyes, and I'm next to you, back in our garden, our stardust place.
All my love, wherever you are, Sally.
[clock chiming.]
[fast typing.]
Myra! How's it going? You figuring the place out? The files are a scandal.
But not to worry.
I'm dealing with it.
I'll tell you what, you deal with that, I'll deal with the coffee.
Nah, forget it.
Where's the hypodermic? I'll just inject the caffeine directly into my veins.
[chuckles.]
You know, why waste time? You know, drinking it.
You know, drug addiction is a major problem in this country.
Oh, I know, I know.
Look at Michael.
Why? Yes.
Exactly.
Will you excuse me for a sec? Go ahead.
Go.
Go, go, go.
[whispering.]
Hey.
Psst.
Hey.
I got here early, Elliot.
She was unhooking our paperclip chain.
- Wait a minute.
We spent two years on that.
- I know.
I can't believe it.
What sh-- - Hey.
Where's the rest of the pens? The felt-tips? - She threw them away.
- She what? - They were dried up, Elliot.
No, you're never supposed to do that, Michael.
- Did she do the mouth test first? - Shh.
Shh.
Shh.
She's watching us.
A man's gotta do what a man's gotta do, Mike.
And a man's gotta sell floor wax.
Oh, yeah.
- Floor wax.
- Floor wax.
Floor wax.
Floor wax! Here we go.
All right.
Uh, it's a-- All right, you miserable housewives.
It's Spread and Shine.
- It gleams.
It glows.
- Elliot.
Elliot.
It's afloor wax.
- It's a sandwich spread.
It's a lubricant.
- Elliot.
Elliot! - When should we have another kid? - What? When should we-- Never mind.
Michael, you know what? I think it's time I told you about God.
- Who? - The big guy who I believe in.
You know what I think? I think he takes all the angels out to dinner, tells them all the mean stuff he did that day.
Like, "You see that guy going to the biggest meeting of his life? How do you like that traffic jam I made for him?" Or, "The kid with the big zit on his chin-- he's going to his junior prom.
" - What are you talking about? - It's a respected philosophy.
It's called the malevolent deity.
All right.
You wanna know the best time to have a second kid? Never.
Because when you decide it's the right time, God's gonna say to the angels, "How do you like those quintuplets I gave him?" Or, "He really doesn't need that job.
" And the angels, they're gonna be on the floor rolling around, laughing.
All right.
So we'll wait.
We'll wait.
You know.
My kid'll say "Dada" for the first time, I'll be in the hospital having my gallstones removed.
All right.
Floor wax.
I should be doing this, right? Checking for radon? In Eastern Pennsylvania, we should both be wearing lead suits.
I don't know.
Invisible poison gas.
I have enough trouble with what I can see.
Hey, Hope, is that a spider over there? Right there? Nah, it's dust.
Um, so, did you get any reading? No, not yet.
It takes seven days.
Oh, fine.
Why don't we go up and have some lunch while we wait, okay? Oh, yeah.
All right.
I just wanna check this one.
I can never remember.
Is a spider an insect or an animal? I think I'm just gonna go upstairs and have some lunch while we wait, okay? - Look what I found.
- What? The Grapes of Wrath, John Steinbeck.
"Sally Spangler, 1937.
" Nancy, it's hers.
Oh, Hope! - What is this? - Looks like a journal.
- Oh, it's great.
- I can't do this.
How can I do this? I have a deadline.
I have to go to work-- I know.
I know.
So do I.
But just-- just one page.
It'll help clear your mind.
All right.
"April 21st, 1943.
"Mama gave me this book so I could put down "all that I think and feel and wish for.
"So I guess I'll begin.
"It's Sunday.
It's raining.
"And somehow, I guess, that the best place to start this "is just to tell how we met-- at the party that Mama gave for the USO.
" [Sally.]
We made my dress together-- Mama and me.
It was purple, which Mama says is my best color.
Hey, you look real pretty, kid.
- Oh.
- Listen, can I borrow some of your stocking paint? - Sure.
It's on the vanity upstairs.
- Thanks.
June, I hope you're saving your bacon grease.
- They need it for ammo, dear.
- Of course I am.
Mama, do you need any help? You just have a good time, baby.
Give the boys something to dream about.
- Okay.
- ["Stardust".]
And, of course, I remember what the music was.
I always remember what the music was.
It was "Stardust," which seemed to be always playing.
Dreaming of a song The melody haunts my reverie And I am once again with you Why'd you stop? What? Well, I didn't mean to listen, but you've got a nice voice.
- I do? - Yeah.
Really nice.
Thank you.
I almost thought-- [June.]
Sally.
I'm coming, Mama.
Wait.
Wait.
Um I didn't tell you my name.
It's Sally.
Oh.
Excuse me.
Mine's Roy.
- Spangler.
- MacCaulay.
You were talking about singing.
Oh, no.
That was just crazy stuff.
No.
Tell me.
Well, it's just when I heard you, I though I'd heard you maybe somewhere before.
But we're strangers.
Yeah.
Yeah.
I really should be going.
Yeah.
One more page? My brother Buddy-- he's in the service, too.
His wife's name's Fay, and she's 5 feet tall, but she's head librarian for three counties.
And I got twin sisters, and they're married to two twin brothers.
Oh, that must get so confusing.
It does.
[clicks tongue.]
It's funny.
- What? - Well, you, being a nurse and all.
Because I think what I'd like to be when I come back is a doctor.
That's if I come back.
[clicks tongue.]
You will.
It's a nice party.
You wanna see the garden? "And the next thing I knew, we were dancing.
And then, whatever came after that"-- [Sally.]
I just don't recall.
He said he couldn't dance, and God knows I can't, yet somehow it happened.
And somehow, I found myself saying-- I do.
Then, somehow, I found myself saying goodbye to this man I had married who I hardly knew.
It all feels like it happened in less than a minute, and I wonder sometimes, does he feel the same? Wherever he is, does he love me? And miss me? Wherever he is.
[Janey crying.]
- She's up.
- Oh! And I'm out.
The kids are with Elliot's mother.
God knows what they're up to.
Ethan's teacher told me that last week, during show-and-tell, Ethan showed the class how to make a Manhattan.
Let me know what happens.
Yeah.
Sure.
See ya.
Just a minute.
Lobster sauce.
What? On your shirt.
So take it off.
[mutters.]
- Let me just-- - Wait a minute.
Wait, wait, wait.
Come here.
Come here, come here.
- Michael, I have to get it.
- I know.
I'll stop.
When? - Soon.
- Soon? I'll pull out before.
Oh, that never work-- Oh, God.
You remember when we were trying? Before we got pregnant? - I just have to be sure that you-- - I know, I know.
You're so sweet, you know? There's nothing between us.
- Michael! - What? I'm sorry.
Really, I'm sorry.
[sighs.]
[sighs.]
What? Nothing.
Where are you? I'm here.
[Sally.]
I was there, in the garden, and I felt so alone.
I was there on the night that he came home on leave.
He held me so close.
We were drowning together, just lost in each other.
And then, he was gone.
And now I'm alone.
I'm back in the garden.
And will he be here when our baby is born? God, please let him come back.
Please, let him come back.
Please let him come back.
Please.
[Elliot chanting.]
Floor wax.
Floor wax.
- It shines.
It cleans.
- Floor wax.
Floor wax.
- It's something.
It gleams.
- Floor wax.
Floor wax.
- It shines.
It cleans.
- Floor wax.
Floor wax.
- It's something.
It-- [groans.]
- Floor wax.
Floor wax.
Elliot, we need an idea.
Because if we don't get an idea, we don't get any money.
And if we don't get any money, we don't get new guns, which is supply-side economics, Elliot, which is what made this country great.
So, Elliot, please.
Please, Elliot, get an idea! How can I have an idea? I'm separated! - How is Nancy, anyway? - Shrewlike, vindictive.
- I miss her.
- [groans.]
Women.
Can't live with them, can't kill them.
- What'd she do now? - Nothing.
Nothing.
Nothing.
Nothing, nothing, nothing.
It's just last night, we were in bed together-- Wait a minute.
Is this gonna be one of those hot sex stories? - 'Cause if it is, I can't handle it.
- No, just listen, because-- No, no.
Wait a second.
Wait a second.
Is she, like, totally naked, or is she wearing one of those little T-shirts? Anyway, there we are.
Things are progressing at their normal rate, but she doesn't have her diaphragm, so she wants to get it, and I don't want her to.
Oops.
Is that a crime? Because one kid doesn't feel like a family to me? I mean, there were two kids in my family.
You have two kids.
Yeah, but it was part of our prenuptial agreement.
I mean, she agreed to have two kids and to serve my every whim.
I agreed to systematically destroy all her confidence and self-esteem.
- Maybe you were smart.
- Yeah, maybe.
Maybe that's why, when I go to sleep at night, there's a neon sign flashing outside the window that says "Hotel, Hotel, Hotel.
" Okay.
[sighs.]
It's funny-- the things you remember, the things you choose to recall.
There was a boy-- a boy on a bicycle, and as he rode by Hi.
I brought you a present.
Yes, it's true.
Your very own Filofax.
Now that Hope, it's not that great a present.
The year's almost over.
I got it on sale.
- Oh, my God.
What happened? - Oh, missing in action.
What? Michael's missing in action? What action? You want something to drink? No.
Hope, you're really upset.
What is it? Nothing.
Nothing.
It's silly.
It's this diary.
- Is everything okay with you and Michael? - Yeah, we're fine.
What happened between you and Michael? Nothing happened between me and Michael.
Nothing at all? Oh, come on, Hope.
I think that I'm entitled to hear the dirt.
I think that you should tell me the last thing that happened between you and Michael.
Last night he wanted to do it without the diaphragm.
- Thank you.
- Oh.
And I almost-- And I didn't.
But, you know, and then when I came back and You know, it wasn't Between us You know what I'm saying? - That's all.
- That's all? Wait a minute.
You never told me Michael wanted you to get pregnant.
Ellyn, that's a little one-sided.
What? That's what you just said.
- You just said Michael wanted you to do it without the-- - Not just Michael.
- You mean you want another one? - Ellyn! I mean, you do? I just, uh Well, I just figured you're-- you're free, and things are happening for you-- Ellyn, can we just not - Look, I don't want you to take this the wrong way-- - I know, I know.
- No, really.
It's not-- - Yes, it is.
It is.
I'm sorry.
I just, um I'm sorry.
In fact, I will shut up until I know what I'm talking about.
[Janey crying.]
Why don't I start right now? [crying continues.]
And now, every day, I keep telling myself I haven't lost him.
There's a part of him still with me.
- And I keep on believing, - [door opens.]
though there's not been a word.
And what words can I find to tell what happened then? - [Sally.]
Mama! - [June.]
I'm coming, honey! I'm coming! - Oh, pray God! - What's happening, Mama? - What's-- What's happening? [crying.]
- Sweetheart.
Oh, darling.
My baby His baby Our baby is [door opens.]
You're with Gary.
Couldn't get a court until 6:00.
- Hi.
- Hi.
- Where's Janey? - In the park with Amy.
You've been writing? Um, the disposal guy never came, and these criminals were here supposedly casing the joint for radon.
Of course, the real results haven't come in the mail yet.
Then Val called, and she'd like to have the piece tomorrow, so I got a lot of writing done.
So write.
- Michael-- - I gotta meet Gary pretty soon, and, um, I just [sighs.]
Look, if you want me to pick up dinner on the way back, I can do that.
You want sausage or mushroom? - Mushroom.
I don't care.
- [mutters.]
- So - Michael-- Oh, look, Hope, I know this is a bad time.
It's not a bad time.
It's a You know, it's a busy time.
It's a difficult time.
Oh, Michael, do you know how good it feels to be back at work? To feel like I'm contributing? You know, to feel like people aren't shaking their heads behind my back and wondering why I'm wasting my life.
I mean, maybe it is some dumb little article on radon, but-- - You're not even writing it.
- What does that mean? No, no.
What I mean is, you know, you seem to be having this incredibly hard time, so then it's surprising to hear you talk about how happy you are.
And you thought I'd be happier if I got pregnant again? No.
That's what you're saying.
You know, what you're really saying Is what? No, Hope.
Is what? Is that you'd be happier if I got pregnant again.
I don't believe you.
Yes, Hope, and barefoot, too.
I mean, what do you think I am? Look, I'm sorry.
You hang out with 2-year-olds long enough, you start to feel like a 2-year-old.
I mean, I don't know if I'm going to be able to do things.
You know, I don't feel You know, you lose your confidence and your competence, and I don't know.
You know, I feel like I feel like I'm finally taking charge of my destiny.
You know, maybe it is some half-assed, part-time little way.
I know this house is a mess.
I know our lives are a mess, but we'll figure it out.
So, then, this isn't a good time to have another baby.
That's what you're saying.
Yes.
You really wanna have another one, don't you? No.
You know, you should do something with all this.
- What? - You know, publish it or something.
Nancy, it's private.
Besides, that's all I need is another project.
I'm already terrified what Shilladay's gonna say if I ever turn in this radon thing.
Hey, sweetie, are you eating with a spoon? That's great.
Hope, look at this.
She is such a big girl.
She is so great.
You know, I can't imagine having another one.
I mean, Janey's so real, and we're so close.
Yeah, yeah, yeah.
I know.
I know.
I mean, how could you possibly love a second kid, right? See, that's not really the half of it.
I mean, two kids is really more like having four kids.
I mean, especially if they're both still in diapers.
- I never even thought of that.
- I mean, you know, you basically-- You get your life together, right? You lose the weight.
- Your breasts basically survive, and then bam.
- [snaps fingers.]
There you go.
You're right back into it.
- Morning sickness.
- Which I never had.
Oh, then you can count on it this time.
And you will show in the first five minutes.
Each chocolate chip cookie equals about 25 pounds.
Great.
Not to mention all the people who have trouble the second time.
- Oh, I know.
- I wonder if I'd have to have an amnio.
You know, see, with Elliot, he was so into it with Ethan.
And then-- I don't know-- with Brittany, he just seemed sort of checked out.
So forget it.
Half the human race will die out.
You know, at least in the city of Philadelphia.
And everybody will have just one kid.
See, that's what's so weird.
I mean, I cannot imagine my life without her.
- [babbling.]
- I mean, some of the things she says.
I mean, she is so much tougher than Ethan.
I just love her so much.
I mean, she has changed my life more than I I just love her so much.
You wanna have another? Well, um, that is kind of moot right now, isn't it? Oh, yeah.
What is it? I can't believe it.
"175 to 183.
Borderline, but should be attended to.
" I mean, Janey could be getting cancer, and they say "Should be attended to"? - Yeah, but, Hope-- - I mean, my article-- It's from the lab.
This house-- We have radon.
I knew it.
I knew it.
We are so stupid.
We thought everything would be perfect and nothing could touch us.
Yeah, but, Hope, it says, "Borderline, should be attended to.
" You can deal with this.
Great.
We never had the lead checked in the pipes.
We just never got to it.
Janey could be taking all this lead in, and I'm calling Michael.
I need to talk to Michael.
Hi, sweetie.
- Baba.
- Baba.
Hi.
It's this house.
We didn't know it.
We fell in love with it, we bought it, we thought it would all be great, and it's not.
So that's life, Hope.
We'll deal with it, you know? Radon, Michael.
Lung cancer, disease, death.
Honey, look.
It says, "175 to 183.
" What is that? It's, like, numbers, you know? We'll take precautions, that's all.
Go in, I'll get an estimate as soon as we can.
Would you call them now? I don't think that I could be rash.
- Are you okay? - Yes.
No.
I don't know.
Did you finish that paper? [scoffs.]
Sweetie, what's going on? You wouldn't understand.
The baby died.
"The baby died"? The baby.
Sally's baby.
You know, she lived here.
It was a long time ago.
It doesn't matter.
[sighs.]
But this was her house.
You know what? Her husband, the one in the picture-- he's missing, and she's alone, and You know, it was here.
It was right here.
You know, and now we have radon, and You know, you try to put some order in our lives, and I mean, they were living through a war.
She became a nurse because they needed nurses.
We can do whatever we want.
You know what? I try to have a career, and in the end, it just doesn't make any difference, 'cause we can't control things any more than they could.
Oh, Michael, I'm so tired.
They're gonna be here first thing in the morning.
- It's gonna be okay.
- It will? Try and get some sleep.
I know he was handsome, and I know that he loved me.
And I know, as the days pass, I'm dying inside.
Each day seems like the day just before it and the days that come after.
And Mama says "hope," and Mama says "wait.
" - Good night, Mama.
- Good night.
And the radio plays, and It's Thursday, I think.
[Janey crying.]
Oh, that's a terrible boo-boo.
That's a terrible boo-boo.
Come on, sweetie.
Come on.
- [crying continues.]
- [Michael chattering.]
So, in our garden, beneath a full moon, we planted the roses.
[Michael.]
You like this, huh? Wanna read this book? Okay, sweetie.
Okay, come and sit right here.
[June chattering.]
[Sally.]
Mama, it's already in the car.
[June.]
And did you call your Aunt Claire? [Sally.]
Yes, I called her.
[June.]
Ohh! You better write.
Is this all the bags? Better hurry, baby.
You'll miss your train.
Mama, don't worry.
Okay.
Do you have our tickets? Um, yeah.
Here.
Here.
Um, it's - Uh, here.
- Oh.
Um, I'm just gonna take one last look at the house.
I'll be right out.
- Okay? - Okay.
- [Roy.]
Oh, Sally? - I'm coming! Wait.
Not yet.
[Roy.]
Honey! I read your journal.
I hope that's okay.
It ends when you plant the roses.
I need to know-- [June.]
Sally, you'll miss your train, dear! They're waiting for me.
I-- I need to know what happened-- how things turned out for you.
Please? The roses in the garden-- we planted them for the baby.
I know.
I'm sorry.
No, it wasn't for what we lost.
It was also for what we found.
Take care of the garden.
It's yours now.
Hey.
Oh.
Hey.
- You feel all right? - Oh, honey, I'm fine.
[chuckles.]
[Michael.]
Hope.
Thought maybe you were cold.
Thank you.
I was thinking, you know, that, uh, maybe this weekend, we could get started on this, try to bring it back.
- That would be good.
- Yeah.
- If we can find the time.
- [chuckles.]
This is a good house.
It might have a little invisible poison gas, but it's a very good house.
So we'll start this weekend-- to make the time.
We'll start now.
[Hope.]
Tonight is the night that I write my first words.
I'm leaving them here to leave something behind.
Whoever you are, whenever you find this, all that I ask is that you keep this in mind: That once someone lived here who tended this garden, whose name was Her name was My name is Hope.
Closed-Captioned By J.
R.
Media Services, Inc.
Burbank, CA And dance by the light of the moon
Okay.
Here's the plan here, all right? The desk-- it's gonna be an L-shaped desk with shelves-- Listen, Gary, unless you have seen a folder of notes or another black high heel, I have nothing to say to you.
- Thank you.
- Hi.
We're here.
You can go.
Oh, Britty, is that your baby? No.
No.
It's Cindy.
She's adopted I'll explain it to you later.
- Get dressed.
- Oh, right.
- Hey.
Hi, Gar.
- Hi.
- What are you doing? - Oh, um - I'm making a desk for them with shelves.
- That's cool.
- The desk is gonna be an L-shaped with three shelves-- - [clatter.]
Britty, what do you have in your mouth? - Did you eat that money? - [Brittany.]
Uh-oh.
- What are you doing here? - School holiday.
Alyosha Karamazov's birthday.
Okay, now, here's the plan, all right? L-shaped desk.
- Three shelves up on top.
- It's great.
I love that.
It's great, but what I need now-- I need an opinion, okay? Floor wax.
I have to come up with an idea-- Pre-elections.
Let the people decide.
Not Nicaragua, Gary.
Floor wax.
Spread and Shine floor wax.
Shut up.
Give me an idea, okay? - Free associate.
- Yeah.
Free associate.
Free floor wax.
Let the people decide.
Thank you, Gary.
Why do I like you? You have to.
I'm tall.
I wish I could figure out why this is Janey's favorite hiding place.
What? Nothing.
- Michael.
- Mmm.
[clattering.]
[thump.]
I'm getting it fixed.
[Gary.]
Uh, excuse me.
Excuse me.
Excuse me, guys.
Grendel had a little accident.
Oh, it's the colitis again.
I'll call Dr.
Fred.
Hope? Hope.
Hope.
Your ideas are great.
They're great.
Val's gonna put all six of them in the pipeline.
- Yeah, yeah, yeah.
- Mmm.
All right.
I got a little baby here who needs her daddy.
- All right.
Come here, sweetie.
- Go see Daddy.
Oh, God, you are so heavy.
Oh, would you stop growing, please? - Juice, juice.
You guys got-- - Oh, I do have juice.
- Nancy, thank you so much for doing this.
I appreciate it.
- Oh, sure.
I don't know what a paying daycare is.
What about that place you found? They were great until they came down with salmonella four days ago.
Okay, sweetie.
Come on.
- Wanna go have your bottle? - Okay.
- Good-bye, sweetheart.
- Say "Bye-bye, Mommy.
" - Thank you, Nancy.
Good-bye, honey.
- Oh, sure.
Come on, sweetie.
Whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa.
Good-bye.
Call me.
- Okay.
- Okay.
Bye.
[Elliot.]
That's great.
Listen, give Linda our love, okay? All right.
Congratulations.
Bye-bye.
That was Eddie.
Linda had a little girl.
7 pounds, 2 ounces.
Oh, great.
That's great.
All right.
Well, we should send them something.
- Yeah.
- Fruit.
This fruit.
Someone sent us fruit? What have we got to feel good about? It's from Jeanine, from L.
A.
She called.
- When's she coming in? - She had a great vacation.
She saw Susan Dey jogging.
She went on a game show.
She won some stuff.
- Really? - Yeah, yeah.
A microwave, a bedroom set, $109,000.
Then she quit.
- At 109? - No, us.
- She quit us.
- She quit.
- She quit.
- So she's not coming in, then.
Mm-mm.
Which is really okay.
I mean, it's not a problem, 'cause I called a temp agency.
Jeanine quit.
We didn't even get a chance to fire her.
- Jeanine quit.
- Jeanine who? I can't deal with this.
Two kids.
Two kids.
- What? - Lynne and Eddie, they have two now.
What's Jason, 20 months? Not to mention hyperactive.
- Janey's 20 months now, so-- - God, no! God, maybe? No.
We're just thinking about it, that's all.
Anyway, it's Janey's fault.
I mean, she's this person suddenly.
She used to be this little baby.
That's true.
There's a law that says you have to have a baby in the house at all times.
Yes, and there's gonna be.
I mean, it's definitely there.
It's on the list.
It's just pretty far down right now.
I mean, there's new snow tires, fix the garbage disposal, have another - Are we out of our minds? - Of course.
It's called instinct, Mikey.
Propagate the species.
Accentuate the positive, which is fine.
But do you know what a good preschool costs these days? It's no problem.
I'll borrow it from Jeanine.
You don't like any of them.
Some of it.
The ones we've done before.
Didn't you read the magazine when you were away? I tried, but it all blurs together with the baby.
I think the last thing I read was Curious George Files a Class Action Suit.
You got the latest photo opportunity? Oh, yeah.
Listen, this pesticide thing goes beyond dioxin.
Maybe I could-- Murdoch, there's no baby there.
- What do you mean? - They grow so fast.
You thinking about having another one? Well, I'm still trying to get the computer to spell my name right so I can cash my first six paychecks.
You're talking to me about another kid? What about the radon business Joy talked about in the staff meeting? I could do that.
We could make it personal.
From the angle of your average hysterical homeowner.
You take a young couple.
They make a few bucks.
They buy a big house.
They wait for the sweet life.
And then they don't know what they've gotten into.
I don't know anybody like that.
But what we're saying is you have to know your own house from top to bottom, literally.
So great.
You go write that.
Me? I'm a researcher.
Murdoch, my writers win awards ripping off your research reports.
You want me to write this? And hand me the report three weeks ago.
Excuse me.
So these things actually tell if you have radon? Yeah, they're supposed to.
I mean, they're supposed to in a week.
Have to do it for this piece I'm doing.
You know, I found those ski sweaters you were asking me about.
- They're in that top drawer there.
- Oh.
Mothballs.
It's so unfair.
Those poor moths sacrificing their manhood for our knitwear.
Hope, what's that over here? I don't know.
It's not ours.
Look.
"MacCaulay.
1710 Bryn Mawr Avenue, Philadelphia, PA.
" That's us.
I mean, that's our address.
Oh, it's locked.
Wow! Look at all this stuff! - This is great! - I'll bet Margaret Bourke-White shot this cover.
What do you think? Is it me? - You'll need a snood.
- What's a snood? It's this thing they used to wear on their hair in the '40s.
- They'd take them off, use them to carry their groceries.
- Wow! "Corporal Roy MacCaulay.
General delivery.
San Francisco.
" - These two-- they were married.
- These are all from him-- from this MacCaulay guy to a Mrs.
Sally MacCaulay.
- Them.
It's them.
- This is cool.
- "Stardust.
" I love this.
Hey, let's put it on.
- Oh, yeah.
I love this song.
So what do you think? Is he cute? - Oh, I think he's gorgeous.
- Yeah.
- She must've been a nurse.
Did you wanna be a nurse? - ["Stardust".]
Oh, I skipped the nurse phase.
I wanted to be a June Taylor dancer.
Hey, soldier.
You new in town? This is their house.
Shall we? [laughs.]
[continues.]
Would you like to dance? [Janey babbling.]
[Hope.]
Michael, dinner! Hi.
Hi, sweetheart.
Ohh! Hi, pumpkin.
Can you give me a kiss? Can you give me a kiss? Mmm! How about this? Try Spread and Shine or we'll kill your family.
It's getting there.
- How you doing? - Well, it's hard, and I think I hate it.
But I'm gonna stick with it.
I've got to.
No, you don't.
You procrastinate.
You wanna see something cool? - That's Roy, Sally and her mother.
- Mm-hmm.
- And this was her house.
- What's this? Don't look.
It's the garden.
You'll be depressed.
Remember the unfaded piece of wallpaper? - Yeah.
In the dining room? - Yeah, yeah.
Well, it was the radio.
One of those big, old-fashioned kind with this picture on top.
- They have kids? - They just got married.
Give them time.
I don't know.
This house seems like it was made for a lot of kids.
We'll never know.
- Michael! - Admit it, babe.
You're hot for the uniform.
Oh, you're just jealous 'cause you don't even have a uniform.
Oh, yes, I do.
I have a Cub Scout uniform.
- Really? - Mm-hmm.
Oh.
[whining.]
What are you looking at? Hi.
[voice whispering.]
[Sally.]
Dear Roy, hello for the third time today.
It's Tuesday night, and the radio's on.
Mama's playing cards with Maxine, and I'm writing to you.
But I don't even know where you are.
[big band.]
Mama thinks maybe the South Pacific, so I guess that means islands and palm trees and pelicans.
Does "pelican" have one L or two? One.
You writing to Roy again? How's he ever gonna beat the Japs? He's too busy reading your letters.
Gin.
[Sally.]
I close my eyes, and I'm next to you, back in our garden, our stardust place.
All my love, wherever you are, Sally.
[clock chiming.]
[fast typing.]
Myra! How's it going? You figuring the place out? The files are a scandal.
But not to worry.
I'm dealing with it.
I'll tell you what, you deal with that, I'll deal with the coffee.
Nah, forget it.
Where's the hypodermic? I'll just inject the caffeine directly into my veins.
[chuckles.]
You know, why waste time? You know, drinking it.
You know, drug addiction is a major problem in this country.
Oh, I know, I know.
Look at Michael.
Why? Yes.
Exactly.
Will you excuse me for a sec? Go ahead.
Go.
Go, go, go.
[whispering.]
Hey.
Psst.
Hey.
I got here early, Elliot.
She was unhooking our paperclip chain.
- Wait a minute.
We spent two years on that.
- I know.
I can't believe it.
What sh-- - Hey.
Where's the rest of the pens? The felt-tips? - She threw them away.
- She what? - They were dried up, Elliot.
No, you're never supposed to do that, Michael.
- Did she do the mouth test first? - Shh.
Shh.
Shh.
She's watching us.
A man's gotta do what a man's gotta do, Mike.
And a man's gotta sell floor wax.
Oh, yeah.
- Floor wax.
- Floor wax.
Floor wax.
Floor wax! Here we go.
All right.
Uh, it's a-- All right, you miserable housewives.
It's Spread and Shine.
- It gleams.
It glows.
- Elliot.
Elliot.
It's afloor wax.
- It's a sandwich spread.
It's a lubricant.
- Elliot.
Elliot! - When should we have another kid? - What? When should we-- Never mind.
Michael, you know what? I think it's time I told you about God.
- Who? - The big guy who I believe in.
You know what I think? I think he takes all the angels out to dinner, tells them all the mean stuff he did that day.
Like, "You see that guy going to the biggest meeting of his life? How do you like that traffic jam I made for him?" Or, "The kid with the big zit on his chin-- he's going to his junior prom.
" - What are you talking about? - It's a respected philosophy.
It's called the malevolent deity.
All right.
You wanna know the best time to have a second kid? Never.
Because when you decide it's the right time, God's gonna say to the angels, "How do you like those quintuplets I gave him?" Or, "He really doesn't need that job.
" And the angels, they're gonna be on the floor rolling around, laughing.
All right.
So we'll wait.
We'll wait.
You know.
My kid'll say "Dada" for the first time, I'll be in the hospital having my gallstones removed.
All right.
Floor wax.
I should be doing this, right? Checking for radon? In Eastern Pennsylvania, we should both be wearing lead suits.
I don't know.
Invisible poison gas.
I have enough trouble with what I can see.
Hey, Hope, is that a spider over there? Right there? Nah, it's dust.
Um, so, did you get any reading? No, not yet.
It takes seven days.
Oh, fine.
Why don't we go up and have some lunch while we wait, okay? Oh, yeah.
All right.
I just wanna check this one.
I can never remember.
Is a spider an insect or an animal? I think I'm just gonna go upstairs and have some lunch while we wait, okay? - Look what I found.
- What? The Grapes of Wrath, John Steinbeck.
"Sally Spangler, 1937.
" Nancy, it's hers.
Oh, Hope! - What is this? - Looks like a journal.
- Oh, it's great.
- I can't do this.
How can I do this? I have a deadline.
I have to go to work-- I know.
I know.
So do I.
But just-- just one page.
It'll help clear your mind.
All right.
"April 21st, 1943.
"Mama gave me this book so I could put down "all that I think and feel and wish for.
"So I guess I'll begin.
"It's Sunday.
It's raining.
"And somehow, I guess, that the best place to start this "is just to tell how we met-- at the party that Mama gave for the USO.
" [Sally.]
We made my dress together-- Mama and me.
It was purple, which Mama says is my best color.
Hey, you look real pretty, kid.
- Oh.
- Listen, can I borrow some of your stocking paint? - Sure.
It's on the vanity upstairs.
- Thanks.
June, I hope you're saving your bacon grease.
- They need it for ammo, dear.
- Of course I am.
Mama, do you need any help? You just have a good time, baby.
Give the boys something to dream about.
- Okay.
- ["Stardust".]
And, of course, I remember what the music was.
I always remember what the music was.
It was "Stardust," which seemed to be always playing.
Dreaming of a song The melody haunts my reverie And I am once again with you Why'd you stop? What? Well, I didn't mean to listen, but you've got a nice voice.
- I do? - Yeah.
Really nice.
Thank you.
I almost thought-- [June.]
Sally.
I'm coming, Mama.
Wait.
Wait.
Um I didn't tell you my name.
It's Sally.
Oh.
Excuse me.
Mine's Roy.
- Spangler.
- MacCaulay.
You were talking about singing.
Oh, no.
That was just crazy stuff.
No.
Tell me.
Well, it's just when I heard you, I though I'd heard you maybe somewhere before.
But we're strangers.
Yeah.
Yeah.
I really should be going.
Yeah.
One more page? My brother Buddy-- he's in the service, too.
His wife's name's Fay, and she's 5 feet tall, but she's head librarian for three counties.
And I got twin sisters, and they're married to two twin brothers.
Oh, that must get so confusing.
It does.
[clicks tongue.]
It's funny.
- What? - Well, you, being a nurse and all.
Because I think what I'd like to be when I come back is a doctor.
That's if I come back.
[clicks tongue.]
You will.
It's a nice party.
You wanna see the garden? "And the next thing I knew, we were dancing.
And then, whatever came after that"-- [Sally.]
I just don't recall.
He said he couldn't dance, and God knows I can't, yet somehow it happened.
And somehow, I found myself saying-- I do.
Then, somehow, I found myself saying goodbye to this man I had married who I hardly knew.
It all feels like it happened in less than a minute, and I wonder sometimes, does he feel the same? Wherever he is, does he love me? And miss me? Wherever he is.
[Janey crying.]
- She's up.
- Oh! And I'm out.
The kids are with Elliot's mother.
God knows what they're up to.
Ethan's teacher told me that last week, during show-and-tell, Ethan showed the class how to make a Manhattan.
Let me know what happens.
Yeah.
Sure.
See ya.
Just a minute.
Lobster sauce.
What? On your shirt.
So take it off.
[mutters.]
- Let me just-- - Wait a minute.
Wait, wait, wait.
Come here.
Come here, come here.
- Michael, I have to get it.
- I know.
I'll stop.
When? - Soon.
- Soon? I'll pull out before.
Oh, that never work-- Oh, God.
You remember when we were trying? Before we got pregnant? - I just have to be sure that you-- - I know, I know.
You're so sweet, you know? There's nothing between us.
- Michael! - What? I'm sorry.
Really, I'm sorry.
[sighs.]
[sighs.]
What? Nothing.
Where are you? I'm here.
[Sally.]
I was there, in the garden, and I felt so alone.
I was there on the night that he came home on leave.
He held me so close.
We were drowning together, just lost in each other.
And then, he was gone.
And now I'm alone.
I'm back in the garden.
And will he be here when our baby is born? God, please let him come back.
Please, let him come back.
Please let him come back.
Please.
[Elliot chanting.]
Floor wax.
Floor wax.
- It shines.
It cleans.
- Floor wax.
Floor wax.
- It's something.
It gleams.
- Floor wax.
Floor wax.
- It shines.
It cleans.
- Floor wax.
Floor wax.
- It's something.
It-- [groans.]
- Floor wax.
Floor wax.
Elliot, we need an idea.
Because if we don't get an idea, we don't get any money.
And if we don't get any money, we don't get new guns, which is supply-side economics, Elliot, which is what made this country great.
So, Elliot, please.
Please, Elliot, get an idea! How can I have an idea? I'm separated! - How is Nancy, anyway? - Shrewlike, vindictive.
- I miss her.
- [groans.]
Women.
Can't live with them, can't kill them.
- What'd she do now? - Nothing.
Nothing.
Nothing.
Nothing, nothing, nothing.
It's just last night, we were in bed together-- Wait a minute.
Is this gonna be one of those hot sex stories? - 'Cause if it is, I can't handle it.
- No, just listen, because-- No, no.
Wait a second.
Wait a second.
Is she, like, totally naked, or is she wearing one of those little T-shirts? Anyway, there we are.
Things are progressing at their normal rate, but she doesn't have her diaphragm, so she wants to get it, and I don't want her to.
Oops.
Is that a crime? Because one kid doesn't feel like a family to me? I mean, there were two kids in my family.
You have two kids.
Yeah, but it was part of our prenuptial agreement.
I mean, she agreed to have two kids and to serve my every whim.
I agreed to systematically destroy all her confidence and self-esteem.
- Maybe you were smart.
- Yeah, maybe.
Maybe that's why, when I go to sleep at night, there's a neon sign flashing outside the window that says "Hotel, Hotel, Hotel.
" Okay.
[sighs.]
It's funny-- the things you remember, the things you choose to recall.
There was a boy-- a boy on a bicycle, and as he rode by Hi.
I brought you a present.
Yes, it's true.
Your very own Filofax.
Now that Hope, it's not that great a present.
The year's almost over.
I got it on sale.
- Oh, my God.
What happened? - Oh, missing in action.
What? Michael's missing in action? What action? You want something to drink? No.
Hope, you're really upset.
What is it? Nothing.
Nothing.
It's silly.
It's this diary.
- Is everything okay with you and Michael? - Yeah, we're fine.
What happened between you and Michael? Nothing happened between me and Michael.
Nothing at all? Oh, come on, Hope.
I think that I'm entitled to hear the dirt.
I think that you should tell me the last thing that happened between you and Michael.
Last night he wanted to do it without the diaphragm.
- Thank you.
- Oh.
And I almost-- And I didn't.
But, you know, and then when I came back and You know, it wasn't Between us You know what I'm saying? - That's all.
- That's all? Wait a minute.
You never told me Michael wanted you to get pregnant.
Ellyn, that's a little one-sided.
What? That's what you just said.
- You just said Michael wanted you to do it without the-- - Not just Michael.
- You mean you want another one? - Ellyn! I mean, you do? I just, uh Well, I just figured you're-- you're free, and things are happening for you-- Ellyn, can we just not - Look, I don't want you to take this the wrong way-- - I know, I know.
- No, really.
It's not-- - Yes, it is.
It is.
I'm sorry.
I just, um I'm sorry.
In fact, I will shut up until I know what I'm talking about.
[Janey crying.]
Why don't I start right now? [crying continues.]
And now, every day, I keep telling myself I haven't lost him.
There's a part of him still with me.
- And I keep on believing, - [door opens.]
though there's not been a word.
And what words can I find to tell what happened then? - [Sally.]
Mama! - [June.]
I'm coming, honey! I'm coming! - Oh, pray God! - What's happening, Mama? - What's-- What's happening? [crying.]
- Sweetheart.
Oh, darling.
My baby His baby Our baby is [door opens.]
You're with Gary.
Couldn't get a court until 6:00.
- Hi.
- Hi.
- Where's Janey? - In the park with Amy.
You've been writing? Um, the disposal guy never came, and these criminals were here supposedly casing the joint for radon.
Of course, the real results haven't come in the mail yet.
Then Val called, and she'd like to have the piece tomorrow, so I got a lot of writing done.
So write.
- Michael-- - I gotta meet Gary pretty soon, and, um, I just [sighs.]
Look, if you want me to pick up dinner on the way back, I can do that.
You want sausage or mushroom? - Mushroom.
I don't care.
- [mutters.]
- So - Michael-- Oh, look, Hope, I know this is a bad time.
It's not a bad time.
It's a You know, it's a busy time.
It's a difficult time.
Oh, Michael, do you know how good it feels to be back at work? To feel like I'm contributing? You know, to feel like people aren't shaking their heads behind my back and wondering why I'm wasting my life.
I mean, maybe it is some dumb little article on radon, but-- - You're not even writing it.
- What does that mean? No, no.
What I mean is, you know, you seem to be having this incredibly hard time, so then it's surprising to hear you talk about how happy you are.
And you thought I'd be happier if I got pregnant again? No.
That's what you're saying.
You know, what you're really saying Is what? No, Hope.
Is what? Is that you'd be happier if I got pregnant again.
I don't believe you.
Yes, Hope, and barefoot, too.
I mean, what do you think I am? Look, I'm sorry.
You hang out with 2-year-olds long enough, you start to feel like a 2-year-old.
I mean, I don't know if I'm going to be able to do things.
You know, I don't feel You know, you lose your confidence and your competence, and I don't know.
You know, I feel like I feel like I'm finally taking charge of my destiny.
You know, maybe it is some half-assed, part-time little way.
I know this house is a mess.
I know our lives are a mess, but we'll figure it out.
So, then, this isn't a good time to have another baby.
That's what you're saying.
Yes.
You really wanna have another one, don't you? No.
You know, you should do something with all this.
- What? - You know, publish it or something.
Nancy, it's private.
Besides, that's all I need is another project.
I'm already terrified what Shilladay's gonna say if I ever turn in this radon thing.
Hey, sweetie, are you eating with a spoon? That's great.
Hope, look at this.
She is such a big girl.
She is so great.
You know, I can't imagine having another one.
I mean, Janey's so real, and we're so close.
Yeah, yeah, yeah.
I know.
I know.
I mean, how could you possibly love a second kid, right? See, that's not really the half of it.
I mean, two kids is really more like having four kids.
I mean, especially if they're both still in diapers.
- I never even thought of that.
- I mean, you know, you basically-- You get your life together, right? You lose the weight.
- Your breasts basically survive, and then bam.
- [snaps fingers.]
There you go.
You're right back into it.
- Morning sickness.
- Which I never had.
Oh, then you can count on it this time.
And you will show in the first five minutes.
Each chocolate chip cookie equals about 25 pounds.
Great.
Not to mention all the people who have trouble the second time.
- Oh, I know.
- I wonder if I'd have to have an amnio.
You know, see, with Elliot, he was so into it with Ethan.
And then-- I don't know-- with Brittany, he just seemed sort of checked out.
So forget it.
Half the human race will die out.
You know, at least in the city of Philadelphia.
And everybody will have just one kid.
See, that's what's so weird.
I mean, I cannot imagine my life without her.
- [babbling.]
- I mean, some of the things she says.
I mean, she is so much tougher than Ethan.
I just love her so much.
I mean, she has changed my life more than I I just love her so much.
You wanna have another? Well, um, that is kind of moot right now, isn't it? Oh, yeah.
What is it? I can't believe it.
"175 to 183.
Borderline, but should be attended to.
" I mean, Janey could be getting cancer, and they say "Should be attended to"? - Yeah, but, Hope-- - I mean, my article-- It's from the lab.
This house-- We have radon.
I knew it.
I knew it.
We are so stupid.
We thought everything would be perfect and nothing could touch us.
Yeah, but, Hope, it says, "Borderline, should be attended to.
" You can deal with this.
Great.
We never had the lead checked in the pipes.
We just never got to it.
Janey could be taking all this lead in, and I'm calling Michael.
I need to talk to Michael.
Hi, sweetie.
- Baba.
- Baba.
Hi.
It's this house.
We didn't know it.
We fell in love with it, we bought it, we thought it would all be great, and it's not.
So that's life, Hope.
We'll deal with it, you know? Radon, Michael.
Lung cancer, disease, death.
Honey, look.
It says, "175 to 183.
" What is that? It's, like, numbers, you know? We'll take precautions, that's all.
Go in, I'll get an estimate as soon as we can.
Would you call them now? I don't think that I could be rash.
- Are you okay? - Yes.
No.
I don't know.
Did you finish that paper? [scoffs.]
Sweetie, what's going on? You wouldn't understand.
The baby died.
"The baby died"? The baby.
Sally's baby.
You know, she lived here.
It was a long time ago.
It doesn't matter.
[sighs.]
But this was her house.
You know what? Her husband, the one in the picture-- he's missing, and she's alone, and You know, it was here.
It was right here.
You know, and now we have radon, and You know, you try to put some order in our lives, and I mean, they were living through a war.
She became a nurse because they needed nurses.
We can do whatever we want.
You know what? I try to have a career, and in the end, it just doesn't make any difference, 'cause we can't control things any more than they could.
Oh, Michael, I'm so tired.
They're gonna be here first thing in the morning.
- It's gonna be okay.
- It will? Try and get some sleep.
I know he was handsome, and I know that he loved me.
And I know, as the days pass, I'm dying inside.
Each day seems like the day just before it and the days that come after.
And Mama says "hope," and Mama says "wait.
" - Good night, Mama.
- Good night.
And the radio plays, and It's Thursday, I think.
[Janey crying.]
Oh, that's a terrible boo-boo.
That's a terrible boo-boo.
Come on, sweetie.
Come on.
- [crying continues.]
- [Michael chattering.]
So, in our garden, beneath a full moon, we planted the roses.
[Michael.]
You like this, huh? Wanna read this book? Okay, sweetie.
Okay, come and sit right here.
[June chattering.]
[Sally.]
Mama, it's already in the car.
[June.]
And did you call your Aunt Claire? [Sally.]
Yes, I called her.
[June.]
Ohh! You better write.
Is this all the bags? Better hurry, baby.
You'll miss your train.
Mama, don't worry.
Okay.
Do you have our tickets? Um, yeah.
Here.
Here.
Um, it's - Uh, here.
- Oh.
Um, I'm just gonna take one last look at the house.
I'll be right out.
- Okay? - Okay.
- [Roy.]
Oh, Sally? - I'm coming! Wait.
Not yet.
[Roy.]
Honey! I read your journal.
I hope that's okay.
It ends when you plant the roses.
I need to know-- [June.]
Sally, you'll miss your train, dear! They're waiting for me.
I-- I need to know what happened-- how things turned out for you.
Please? The roses in the garden-- we planted them for the baby.
I know.
I'm sorry.
No, it wasn't for what we lost.
It was also for what we found.
Take care of the garden.
It's yours now.
Hey.
Oh.
Hey.
- You feel all right? - Oh, honey, I'm fine.
[chuckles.]
[Michael.]
Hope.
Thought maybe you were cold.
Thank you.
I was thinking, you know, that, uh, maybe this weekend, we could get started on this, try to bring it back.
- That would be good.
- Yeah.
- If we can find the time.
- [chuckles.]
This is a good house.
It might have a little invisible poison gas, but it's a very good house.
So we'll start this weekend-- to make the time.
We'll start now.
[Hope.]
Tonight is the night that I write my first words.
I'm leaving them here to leave something behind.
Whoever you are, whenever you find this, all that I ask is that you keep this in mind: That once someone lived here who tended this garden, whose name was Her name was My name is Hope.
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