Sorry for Your Loss (2018) s02e02 Episode Script

1
See, I quit my job, got a motorcycle,
and I went on Tinder
and swiped right on a girl
- holding a baby llama.
- [laughs]
I'm gonna ask Leigh to marry me,
so you need to figure
out a way to like her.
Matt, no, do not.
Are we good on time?
Yeah, my mom and sister are at work.
Perfect.
Jules has this great opportunity,
but I have this horrible feeling
that it is not gonna turn out right.
Tonight didn't go
your way and I'm sorry,
but that is not Mom's fault or mine.
I should've maybe trusted myself,
but I can't stop seeing myself
through your eyes.
And the longer I stay here,
the less I'll be able
to see myself any other way.
[melancholy music]
What the hell is primerizer?
[light flute music]
- Ooh.
- I think I did an okay job
on this eye, but I
couldn't make this one match.
I think my eyes are lopsided.
Do I look weird?
Um well,
I wouldn't go out like that,
but you always look pretty.
What is that?
- Drew sent this to me.
- I thought it was a vibrator,
but apparently it's for cleansing.
Huh.
Have you talked to Jules?
Yeah, she was doing
that thing where she acts
like nothing's wrong
but you know she's mad.
Oh, yes,
I am familiar with that thing.
- She'll get over it.
- I know, but
it's just you know,
Christmas is right
around the corner and
I wasn't sure how you felt
about Christmas this year.
I'm generally pro-holiday.
Honey.
Honestly, I don't know what to expect.
We don't have to do anything
Christmasy
if you don't want to.
Really, is that why you bought this?
Well, it was just in case.
I mean, no pressure.
You know, I can return it.
I don't want to be responsible
for breaking a Shaw holiday tradition.
- Look
- [inhales]
I know Christmas might be hard,
but isn't that why we need it,
especially this year?
It's a time for the whole family
to come together
and, you know, Team Shaw.
But no pressure.
- Am I pushing too hard?
- No.
Uh no.
I want to try.
- We don't have to.
- I know.
Do you want a smoothie?
- Yes, I'm starving.
- Great.
Thank you.
[light piano music]
What do you think?
Oh, hey, sadly, that that
looks like your best work.
- Damn.
- Mm-hmm, mm-hmm.
I was hoping to land a job
wrapping gifts at the mall
Yeah, well good thing Mom
doesn't care how it looks.
What'd you get her?
Uh, I got her a Fitbit,
but, uh, my real gift
is bringing your ass
to Christmas on time.
Don't ditch me like you did last year.
- I did not ditch you, man.
- Mm-hmm, yeah.
Aunt Cheryl starts yelling
at me for not having any kids,
I look around, and you're gone.
That's because Uncle Justin
pulled me into the kitchen
and wouldn't let me go
until I promised to convert
all of my currency to gold.
He's still into
that Armageddon thing? Jeez.
We gotta look out for
each other in there, man.
- Yeah, okay.
- And if we get separated,
we keep an eye out.
Leave no man behind.
Like SEAL Team Six.
[laughs]
[distant overlapping chatter]
Wait, is this
the line for the bathroom?
Screw that.
- Excuse me.
- Yeah, you can't go up there.
- I have to go up there.
- I have to pee.
No, nobody's allowed upstairs.
Yeah, I gotta I gotta do it
There's a bathroom right over there.
Okay, have you seen the line?
Yeah, uh, we're just asking
that nobody goes upstairs.
Have you seen the sign?
Okay, so, do you want me
to just squat and pee
on your floor?
'Cause I will.
Can somebody get Jordan?
Yeah, somebody get Jordan.
Tell him this party sucks,
the music blows,
your nativity scene is stupid as shit,
and you don't even have any real food.
[laughs]
- What are you laughing at?
- Nothing.
You know what, I'm gonna get my bag.
This is stupid.
That girl is certifiable.
Literally, who brought her here?
[scoffs]
- Hi.
- Hey.
You got a minute?
Of course, what's up?
How's Richard and Sabrina's?
- Oh, it's great.
- They actually like me.
See you next time, guys.
Look, I know you're mad.
- I'm not mad.
- I'm just trying
to do the healthy thing
and create boundaries.
Well, you picked a bad time
to create boundaries.
It's Christmas.
Oh, well that explains
the Christmas lights
and Christmas trees and Christmas music.
So you're not gonna come home
and do the ornaments
or the gingerbread house?
Jules, you're the only one
that's good at it.
I'm busy looking for my own place.
You can't afford to live on your own.
I can afford a studio somewhere.
Where, Idaho?
Look, Mom needs this,
and she really wants
you home for the holidays.
Well, there are
things that I want too.
Okay, Jules, Christmas
is already hard enough
without one member of the family.
Okay, I hope I see you
at home.
I thought you were getting your bag.
[chuckles] I knew it,
they're not even vegan.
How do you know Jess?
I don't.
I'm crashing this party.
Seriously?
I got dumped this morning
and I was walking by
and I thought, "Hmm,
either I can go home"
and be sad, or I can
go inside and have fun."
Didn't realize this party
was gonna be so lame.
[scoffs] Sorry about the breakup.
- Whatever.
- What's your excuse for coming?
Um Jess' sister
is setting me up
with someone, but she's late.
- Hmm.
- Show me a picture.
- She's hot.
- What'd you expect?
- Your mom's calling.
- [phone pinging]
[phone silences]
- Damn.
- You're ghosting your mom?
I'm not ghosting my mom.
Maybe a temporary ghosting.
- Why?
- Why would I tell you?
What, are you afraid
I'm gonna tell everyone
some dude I don't know
sent his mom to voicemail?
It's not even about my mom.
She's planning a family Christmas,
and I really don't wanna go this year.
So tell her you don't wanna go.
It's not that easy.
- Give me your phone.
- I'll do it.
[chuckles] That's okay.
You do everything your mom wants?
She didn't like that I quit
my job or got a motorcycle.
Oh, cool.
So you're going
through a midlife crisis.
- No.
- No offense, dude,
you just have a pretty conventional way
of being unconventional.
I'm not trying to be anything, I'm
This is getting boring.
I'm gonna grab a souvenir and go.
- A souvenir?
- Yeah, they don't have
goodie bags here, so I'm
gonna grab my own goodie.
Peace.
[scoffs]
[jazzy "Jingle Bells"]
You're done?
What else is there to say?
He was in my dream last night.
Matt?
Yeah.
It's happened a few times, actually.
What happened in your dream?
We were in your old apartment.
What were you doing?
We were just on the couch, laughing.
- About what?
- What did he say?
I can't remember. Uh
All I know is, we were cracking up,
and it was really nice
to laugh with him again.
It felt really real, you know,
like I could touch him.
You're home.
- Just for this.
- I'm not staying.
Oh, okay.
Uh, I could use a hand
wrapping presents.
Sure, uh, but I have class
in an hour, so
- Oh, yeah, yeah.
- Okay, um
Well, we could, uh,
put up the lights tomorrow
and make the gingerbread house.
And if you decide to spend
the night, I I made your bed.
Thanks for making my bed,
but I'm not spending the night.
That's no problem at all.
Just, you know, if you change your mind.
What happened to your souvenir?
It's in my bag.
I got one too.
Why'd you take that cheap bottle?
It's the one I brought.
- [laughs]
- What'd you get?
You ripped off the nativity scene?
That's straight-up sacrilegious.
Ah, please, they meant it ironically.
I'm gonna go catch a bus.
You want some company?
I thought you had a date.
I can cancel.
I don't care what you do.
What did you do differently?
Well, you just, um,
prop your elbow on something
so it stays steady.
How am I a grown woman
and I still don't know how to do this?
[chuckles] Because you didn't have
a soul-sucking corporate job like I did.
Yeah, I still can't believe
that that was your job.
- No, me neither.
- That's why I quit.
Do you dream about Matt?
- Uh sometimes.
- Why?
'Cause I don't anymore,
like, ever.
Well, um I mean,
it's normal to lose
some of that connection
as you move forward.
You want to go back and see my medium?
I'm glad I did it
that one time, but I I felt
like she was on the phone with him
telling me what he was saying and I
I want to see him myself.
I I just wanna touch him.
You're into that transcendental stuff.
Is is there a way
that you can make
your mind dream about someone?
Well, lucid dreaming, but
that takes years of practice.
[sighs]
Do you think you could handle
something intense
if it meant that you could see Matt now?
Are you going home for the holidays?
No way.
My dad molested me when I was a kid.
I'm just kidding.
What?
- I'm kidding.
- I am. I am.
- That's messed up.
- [laughs]
Wanna tell Santa
what you want for Christmas?
I don't think Santa wants me
sitting on his lap.
What about you?
What would you ask him for?
Oh, um
I'd ask to go to better parties.
And I'd ask for my boss
to, like, get off my dick.
I'd ask my dad to speak to my mom again.
She's sick, um, so it'd be cool
if we could have, like,
a meal all together
before she goes.
But there's nothing
I can really do about that.
What about you?
You want more poser stuff like the bike?
Um
I
I wanna feel free.
From what?
Everything.
Everyone.
I don't even know.
What do you think Santa wants?
Hey, Santa!
What do you want for Christmas?
A raise.
- Hey, that's the, uh
- Belhaven Hotel.
I heard it's haunted.
Do you think that ghosts
throw better Christmas parties
than hipsters?
[bell dings]
Come on.
Hey, man, um, listen.
This is all I have.
Take it.
- Merry Christmas, Santa.
- Merry Christmas.
Julianne?
Julianne, I totally forgot
about Julianne.
Oh, here, here, here, here she is.
Uh, Leigh, do you
remember my friend Neil?
- Hey.
- He's brought you
- your Christmas present.
- Oh, I love presents.
I haven't seen you
since you were a kid.
Wait, was that before
you moved to Topanga?
Yeah, yeah, but, you know, back then,
that was the one place
you could grow pot
without getting hassled.
Well, Neil is a connoisseur.
[sighs] Not anymore.
It's a big business now.
Do you remember in the old days
when we used to make rent
- from a few dozen joints?
- We?
- Uh, no, no.
- That's not what he meant.
- Mom.
- Well, it was
a one-time thing, to friends.
I mean, I wasn't dealing.
[stammers]
Well, technically I you never mind.
That's not why Neil came.
Your mom told me about your husband.
I am so sorry.
Thank you.
I have something that may help.
What?
Ever hear of DMT?
It's sort of like ayahuasca,
just without the puking
and the diarrhea.
So are you getting me
drugs for Christmas?
I'm telling you, this will really
take you out of your body
into a totally different place.
- But there's a catch.
- Just one?
It will only be a good experience
if you're in a good place.
- Well, how do you know?
- Have you done this before?
I'm your mother.
I would never give you
a drug I hadn't tried myself.
I am in a good place, but
I've tried mushrooms once.
I've obviously
smoked pot a few times,
but this sounds a little crazy.
Honey, you're hoping that Matt's
gonna come and visit you on your plane.
But if you want to see him,
you're gonna have
to find him on his plane.
What kind of music do you want?
What does Spotify
recommend for hallucinating?
[chuckles] I'll pick.
[smooth music playing]
Now, in the right environment,
this can be a wonderfully
transportive experience,
but there are no guarantees.
The places it takes you to can be, um
hmm, inhospitable.
- Okay.
- [exhales]
- Let's do this.
- Okay.
Neil loaded the pipe for you.
- Is that a crack pipe?
- No, no uh, maybe.
But it's never been used.
Here.
You want me to stay?
I think I should do this by myself.
Okay, so, uh, I'll get you
going, and then I'll leave.
- Okay.
- Ready?
- Yeah.
- God, this is so weird.
[singing] It's all you need
When telling everyone that you're free
Hold on, you'll see
See any ghosts yet?
Nah, maybe they don't like you.
They?
Married couple,
got murdered here in the '70s,
Two in the Tub Murders.
You never heard of them?
No.
They were here
on their fifth anniversary.
Opened the door to the wrong guy,
and he dissolved their bodies
in the bathtub.
I guess the lesson is,
don't get married.
Or you never know when it's your time,
so do what you want while you still can.
What are you doing?
I'm gonna jump in the pool.
Do it.
[singing] It's all you need
When telling everyone that you're free
Hold on, you'll see
It won't be that hard to forget me
I hope you won't
[thunder rumbling]
Will you forgive
That I left?
Should've predicted
Why you would hate
[spacey music]
[music fades]
[echoing] Leigh.
[echoing]
Leigh, I'm here.
[breathing heavily]
Leigh, stop.
[melancholy music]
[sighs]
[chuckles]
[gasping]
[breathing heavily]
Oh.
[chuckles]
[exhales]
[somber music]
[tires squeal]
[horn honks distantly]
[breathing heavily]
[mellow guitar music]
Simone?
Damn.
- J.
- Hey.
You're the only one
who messaged me back.
I think I need new friends.
Your brother used to do it for me.
So what happened?
Whatever it is, I have been there.
- Met a girl.
- Check.
- Bottle of wine.
- Big check.
I woke up,
my phone and wallet were gone.
- She took your stuff.
- She did.
She did. Strange thing
about it, though, is,
it's still totally worth it.
She was that freaky in bed?
[both laugh]
I mean, yeah, that,
but, you know, like, all of it.
So, uh, what do you need,
coffee and a ride home?
- Yes, yes.
- Okay.
[somber music]
No, I don't know where I lost it.
That's why I had
to get a new phone, Mom.
Okay, well, next time, I'll do that.
But, look, about Christmas:
I'm not going.
No, I don't mean
I'm not driving with you.
I mean I'm not going.
Because I don't want to
Okay.
No, Mom Mom, listen.
I'm not trying to hurt you.
I'm just telling you,
I don't want to go.
I'm not going and that that's it.
I I gotta go.
["O Come All Ye Faithful"]
[door opens and shuts]
- Hi.
- Hey.
I was beginning to get worried.
- Why?
- I said I'd be here.
Well, a while ago.
You hungry?
I made some quinoa salad.
I'm good.
- Where have you been?
- Helping out a friend.
We waited for you to do
the gingerbread house.
I wasn't making you wait
at a bus stop at 3:00 a.m.
It's still rude.
You said you were gonna be
a part of Christmas.
Yeah, I'm here.
Yeah, but if you're
gonna do it, do it.
Don't be all passive-aggressive
about it.
- I'm not.
- Girls.
We're all together.
Let's just do the lights.
Is it so hard to just say,
"I'm sorry"?
- [scoffs]
- I just can't believe that
I had this amazing experience with Matt
and now I have to deal with this.
What are you talking about?
Don't worry about it.
Um, I helped Leigh with something.
It's not important.
Oh, so now that I'm out of the house,
you two have all these secret
things that you do together?
- No!
- You know what?
Maybe I should just go back
to Richard and Sabrina's.
- No.
- Maybe you should.
- Leigh!
- Jules, Jules.
- Please don't go.
- You think I want to?
I would rather be at home.
I want to be part of this family, but
- You are.
- No, I'm not.
You two are doing
exactly what you always do
and no one seems to care,
but it's also my
first Christmas without Matt
and my first Christmas sober,
and you two are really hard
to be around without alcohol.
We totally forgot,
it is your first Christmas without Matt.
How hard that must be for you.
You are such a bitch.
And everyone lets you
get away with murder
- because your husband just died.
- Okay.
Can you tell me, Leigh,
is there a point
when you stop pulling the Matt card?
Is it one year, five?
Can you just ballpark it for me?
Jules, you have
a whole wallet full of cards,
and you're always pulling them.
You act like you are
the only person who was ever
an alcoholic or adopted
and no one understands your secret pain.
- Leigh.
- But newsflash:
there are a lot of people in
the exact same pain you're in,
and they have figured out how
not to be living nightmares.
At least I'm not a total sociopath
who's lying through her teeth.
What's that supposed to mean?
You can't shut up
about your dead husband,
meanwhile, you're having sex
with some guy on the sly.
- What?
- Yeah.
I found the condom wrapper when
I was taking out the trash.
Why were you going through my trash?
- It wasn't your trash.
- What idiot throws away
a condom wrapper in a shared bathroom?
What, you're sleeping with someone?
I cannot believe
you're slut-shaming me.
Who?
It's none of anyone's business.
Keep your gross secrets, okay.
I don't even care anymore.
I am done with this.
I thought it was the three
of us, but you know what?
Team Shaw is bullshit,
and I can't believe it took me
so long to figure out
that you'll never change.
I don't wanna be part of this family.
You're a terrible family.
- Stop it!
- We are supposed to be
all that we have!
[door opens and shuts]
[light sleigh bell music]
[singing]
We wish you a merry Christmas
We wish you a merry Christmas
We wish you a merry Christmas
And a happy New Year
Good tidings we bring
To you and your kin, we wish
I remember that feeling,
the first time
you run towards somebody.
That's a lot.
What was yours?
Oh, oh, God.
I have never seen those.
How come we never have people
over for holiday dinners?
Because my mother was crazy,
and my family is
a product of her madness.
[singing]
'Tis the season to be jolly
La, la, la
Did you go to bed?
- No, not yet.
- But, you know, I can nap later.
- Smells divine.
- Richard's gonna flip.
all: Merry Christmas!
- Uh I
- I know.
My heart's going nuts.