Mistresses (2008) s02e04 Episode Script

(KNOCKING AT DOOR) -Dan, hi.
-I thought you'd be up already.
-No, sleeping.
-Oh, sorry.
-What are you doing here? -Breakfast.
I have bagels, -I have ham, I have cream cheese.
-Oh, wow! I usually just have a coffee.
-And.
-Oh, wow.
You're a little bit off colour this morning.
You all right? I'm just not used to being woken up by such romantic gestures.
Thank you.
Look, ignore me, I'm a grouch.
-Sexy grouch.
-I haven't done my teeth.
-I missed you last night.
-Oh, yeah, me too.
-I really need to shower.
-With me? Yeah, yeah, that would be lovely, but I'm running late, -and I just don't have the time.
-Are you shooing me out of the house? No, God, no, no.
No, I'm just late and I have a very finely tuned routine, and I'm going to be late, so I'll see you at work, yeah? -Eat your breakfast.
-Okay, I will.
-Gina, socks up.
-Okay.
Okay, come on, in the car.
Stop dawdling.
-You all right? -No.
-What's wrong? -Look, this is a big morning for Amy, let's just get on with it.
-Trudi, what's the matter.
-I said let's get on with it.
-Hari? -I'm nearly done.
Would you leave it running? I'm coming in.
Thanks.
I made you some breakfast.
You should try and eat something.
(GROANING) -Are you gonna tell me what's wrong? -No, I'm sulking.
Sulking? You should be grovelling.
-What? -Your spectacular sabotage, Jessica.
Well, you do remember, don't you? Yeah, of course I remember.
I'm not drunk.
Good, well, then you realise that while you sleep it off I've got to try and undo the damage.
Well, you and Carrie make such a great team I'm sure you'll be able to sort something out.
-What does that mean? -Nothing.
First, it was me, Dad and Mum.
Then Mum ran away and it was just me and Dad.
It was okay, but Dad couldn't really cook and we were sad.
But now, it's me, Dad, Trudi, and Cathy and Gina.
Their real dad's in jail, but Dad and Trudi are getting married soon, and we're going to be the flower girls, and that's my family.
(APPLAUDING) It was really special.
-Darling, isn't that wonderful? -Where were you last night? -Um Client dinner.
-Right.
Elaine Thompson? -Different clients.
-Liar.
-What? -I saw you.
With Elaine Thompson, your sister-in-law.
I saw you with your wife.
-That's not possible.
-I followed you.
-Trudi, come on, you're being paranoid.
-How dare you? Trudi, please.
You know what? You've been treating me like an idiot, and I'm not going to take it for one second longer.
-I've been expecting you.
-Yeah, I'm sure you have.
But I'm not here to be seduced by you.
-Why are you here, then? -It's over.
Don't come to my house, don't call me, don't touch me.
You know, I had no idea that you'd be so easily spooked.
I'm not spooked by you.
-I don't even think about you.
-So, that's you all over, isn't it? The detached observer of your life and everyone in it.
And you love your daughter, but you don't want to spend all day cooped up with her, it's beneath you.
But it's not beneath your husband, is it? And that's hardly a partnership of equals.
Hari's a wonderful husband.
He adores Elsa.
He doesn't adore you.
You, he tolerates.
-Don't say that.
-Why do you let him hate you? You've done this before and you got caught.
-It's in the past.
-I'm the present.
-You're nothing.
-I'm everything you want.
That's why you came to me in the first place.
Stay away from me.
Stay away from my family.
Lastly and happily, young Jake is going home today, and he asked me to tell you that he is delighted to be seeing the back of each and every one of you.
-Oh, go on, please.
-I'm finished.
Good.
I need a medic for today's Regional Board.
Who's interested? Katie, you haven't been to work before, have you? I don't know if I can leave the ward today.
I think it would be a good opportunity for you.
-Get someone to cover.
-Okay.
-That actually kind of hurts.
-Sorry.
-Just wish I could remember.
-From what I've heard You know? -How? -Carrie.
-Slut.
Are you sleeping with her? -No.
-Not yet.
-Just tell me what I did.
Make it bite size.
You were legless, apparently.
Completely hammered.
You felt up Gordon, which pissed off his wife, embarrassed Mark and cost him about five million quid.
Oh, and to top it all off, you slapped him around the face.
Oh, now it's all coming back to me.
-He deserved it.
-For what? Sleeping with Carrie, obviously.
Ever hear of the punishment fitting the crime? It's more than that, he He bought her a dress.
So? I thought yours was the modern trailblazing marriage.
Total freedom, no guilt.
Our arrangement doesn't extend to us having creatures.
Ah, you can take a ride on the merry-go-round but you can't share candyfloss in the Tunnel of Love.
This looks like bad sportsmanship.
What do I do? Someone like Mark? Easy.
Get him back his five million.
-Hello.
-Hi.
-I was just coming to find you.
-Oh, right.
To see if you fancied lunch, but looks like I'm too late.
-No, we're not going to lunch.
-Oh, really? Where you off to, then? -Regional Board.
-Oh, real work.
-Sorry, I thought you were bunking off.
-No.
No, real work.
Oh, Katie, I can go on my own, if you'd rather stay.
It's just that I've never been to one before, so.
Oh, no, no.
You should go.
You should go.
Make sure he doesn't get in a fight with the other oncologists.
I'll call you later.
Oh, Jack, drive carefully.
Elaine.
Elaine Thompson.
-Hello.
-You don't know me.
I'm Trudi.
-I'm Richard's fiancee.
-So, you're the other woman.
Look, I need to talk to you.
You're not quite how Richard described you, but, then again, -maybe you are.
-What is Natalie doing in that place? Natalie has Alzheimer's, early onset.
Oh.
Oh, God, I am so sorry.
And she's here because Richard refused to look after her.
He threw her out.
I think I know Richard.
He would never abandon his wife.
Oh, he did abandon his wife.
-He pays for it, doesn't he? -?3,000 a month to erase his wife and soothe his guilty conscience.
-Sorry, can you just pull over? -I can't just pull over.
Jack, please, I really need to get out.
Hey, what are you doing? (GASPING) I can't do this.
Dan and Megan, if they found out.
It's so wrong.
-It's okay.
-Jack, I can't do it.
It's okay, I know, I know.
I feel the same.
I don't want to hurt anybody.
But last night, when we were together, I let myself believe that you'd come back to me.
Without you, nothing's ever been right, ever enough.
And then you're here and I just feel calm.
Complete.
-But you made good decisions.
-What use is a good decision, if you've already made the biggest mistake of your life? I should never have let you go.
I wanted to apologise to you in person.
If there is anything at all that I can do for you, or Gordon, in a professional or personal not sexual.
Sorry.
I expect you're used to extricating yourself from all kinds of sticky situations with your flirtatious manner? -Yeah.
-Mm.
And you thought you'd waltz in here, in your pretty little frock and charm me into investing in Mark's venture? -A little bit, yeah.
-Ooh.
You're going to have to work a lot harder than that, I'm afraid.
-Okay, how hard? -Well, I do need an event planner.
Oh.
In fact, forget I said that.
It's a terrible idea.
No, no, no, no.
It's a wonderful idea.
I'm hosting a fundraiser for an orphanage.
Oh, that's perfect.
I love orphans.
Okay.
Yeah.
Okay.
-So, is Katie working late? -She didn't say, actually.
She just texted to say she couldn't make it.
That's a shame.
Oh, Jess, how was last night? Oh, you know, got drunk, behaved badly.
Been tortured all day by buttock-clenching flashbacks.
Ah, stage-two intoxication.
Way to go to impress your new husband.
-What's stage three? -Complete amnesia.
Bring it on.
-Trud, is everything okay? -Yeah, great.
The cake is going down a treat.
The kids are doing really well in school, and Richard's a pathological liar, great.
-So, she didn't walk out on him? -No.
And he's been keeping her a secret all this time? Yes.
D'you know, and not just from me.
From Amy too.
I mean that is unforgivable, isn't it? Well, Trudi, that is a huge shock.
Do you know what? He's pushed me too far this time.
He let me think that he had no idea where she went.
And making me feel sorry for him, with his big, sad eyes.
Well, it mightn't all have been lies.
I mean, if she's really that ill, then I mean, it must have been terrible for him.
No? Yeah, but he didn't have to lie about it.
Yeah, I know.
What kind of man does that? Oh, God, what am I gonna do? We're supposed to be getting married.
-We're a family.
-Love, look, you've to talk to him.
Yeah? You've to let him explain.
No.
Talk to him? I can't trust a word he says any more.
He is a disaster.
I wish I'd never met him.
(CELL PHONE RINGING) I should go.
I'll get up before the girls, so they won't know anything is wrong.
Oh, I'm sure it'll be another convincing performance.
I want to tell you the truth.
Now.
Why not before, Richard? I was afraid, if I told you, you'd hate me.
Okay, let's see.
I thought I could handle it, at first, the funny quirks.
Dirty laundry in the oven.
Dishes in the freezer.
And then I came home one night and Natalie had gone walkabout.
Amy was terrified.
I drove around for hours.
And then we found her.
She was barely dressed, barefoot.
I was so scared.
I had to protect them.
I didn't want to put her into care, but what else could I do? You could have told Amy the truth.
Natalie didn't recognise her.
Her own little girl.
So, I thought it was better to let Amy think that her beautiful mum had run away with the circus.
I thought I was doing the right thing.
-Hey, did you have a nice evening? -Yeah.
-You? -Yeah.
Hey.
Hey.
Hey.
-What's the matter? -Just scared.
-Hari, I'm scared for us.
-Don't be scared.
Come on.
Hey, don't cry.
Do you tolerate me? -Why would you say that? -I think you just tolerate me.
Don't be ridiculous, I love you.
Look at me, look at me.
I love you.
You don't have to be scared.
I love you.
I love you.
I love you.
I love you.
(PHONE RINGING) Hi, this is Katie.
Leave a message.
Hi, it's me, Dan.
I hope you got home safely.
Er, yeah.
Call me.
Hello.
Hi.
Yeah, my battery must have died.
Yeah.
Yeah, I'd love to have lunch with you.
Okay, tomorrow.
Okay, I'll see you then.
Bye.
Bye.
Natalie, this is Trudi.
It's lovely to meet you.
I brought you cakes.
Oh, would you like me to help with that? I used to cut his hair.
And once he cried, because he thought he was going bald.
Do you remember that? Who are you? Leave me alone.
I don't know you.
This is my room.
Go back to your own room.
Go back to your own room.
NURSE: (SHUSHING) It's all right.
Come on, now.
There, there.
-Hi.
-Hey, hey.
Come on in.
Thanks.
-Oh, look at you.
-Oh, I'm really overdressed.
-No, no, no, you look gorgeous.
-Thank you.
-You all right? -Mm.
-It's just really good to see you.
-Well, it's good to see you too.
-Why is the table set for four? -Oh, Jack and Megan are coming.
-Oh, right.
I thought it was -What? Well, just you and me.
-Oh, God, I'm sorry.
-Hence, the dress.
-Oh, I should have said.
-It's fine, no, it's fine.
It's lovely.
-You sure? -Mm.
-Hello, you two.
-Hi.
-Hey, come on in.
-Hi, how are you? -Hey, Jack, how are you doing? -Not bad, Dan.
-You? -Yeah, I'm really good, yeah.
I can do this event in my sleep.
Champagne, canapes, entertainment.
But it's not just about an event where rich people like you get to drop a couple of hundred quid and then leave, never to give the orphanage another thought, no.
I propose using this event to launch a child-sponsorship programme to ensure that these children have a safe place to live and loving caregivers to trust.
Now, I've designed a simple scheme, which I think you will like.
-That was impressive.
-Not what you expected? We'd love you to be our event planner.
-So, I'm off the hook? -Mm-hm.
I'm releasing funds to Mark as we speak.
Thank you.
So, how did you get involved with all of this? -Mark invited me to chair the committee.
-Mark? Surprised? Well, yeah, I mean it's just not very fast cars and naked women, you know.
No, but I don't believe that Mark is all fast cars and naked women.
Oh, no, he is.
-At least, I thought he was.
-Well, you married him.
-You should know him better than anyone.
-Yeah, inside out.
This will sound dull to you, but there should really only be -one naked woman in a marriage.
-Look, Mark and I, we know what we're doing.
Gordon and I thought we knew what we were doing.
We nearly lost each other.
-Shall I open another? -None for me thanks, I've got to work.
-Me too.
-Just you and me, then.
-How was the Regional Board, Katie? -It was very informative.
Jack always comes back very hot under the collar from these things.
-You were quite mellow last night.
-Was I? So, Katie was a stabilising influence then, was she? Yeah, I suppose she was.
I forgot to ask, did you have a good time at Siobhan's? Yeah.
It was lovely, we just had a couple of bottles of wine and put the world to rights.
Oh, God.
Oh! I'm so sorry.
I'm really sorry.
-It's okay, it's not a problem.
-I'm really, Dan, I'm so sorry.
-It's fine.
-I'm just gonna, I better go and clean.
Do you want a hand? No, I'm fine.
Thank you.
-What are you making? -Oh, hi, Lucas.
A triple red velvet chocolate layer cake.
Sounds exotic.
I made you hot chocolate.
Oh, thank you.
-Oh, that's hot.
Spicy hot.
-With chillies.
I thought you needed warming up.
-Are you okay? -Yeah.
No, but I don't want to talk about it.
-I'm escaping in cake mix.
-I hope it works.
No, it does.
It's very relaxing.
You fold and blend.
It's very relaxing.
Here, let me.
(CELL PHONE RINGING) Er, hello.
Hello, Richard.
What? A fight? Okay, I'll come now.
Thank you for the hot chocolate.
Okay, my rainy day bag.
Okay, what have we got? Some of these? Okay, ah.
What about these? Don't you like them? Amy, fighting is wrong, but the way I see it, you were provoked.
What do you think? I think if you get into another fight like that, I'll ground you for a month.
We don't punch kids for calling us names.
Why did Mum go away? Well, darling, we've talked about this and Your mother Mums and dads are like your dad and I.
Every single thing we do is because we think it's what's best for our children.
Because we love you so much.
Will she come back for me? I don't know, sweetie.
(DOORBELL RINGING) -Let me in, Siobhan.
-Hari's here.
No, he isn't.
I just saw him in the park.
One day at home with the family does not make you the model wife and mother.
You're wrong.
Well, did you think it would make Hari notice you? Hari loves me.
Since when, huh? Has your husband finally overcome his impotence towards you? Get out of my house.
Oh, didn't realise you were taking meetings today.
No, I wasn't.
It's just work caught up with me.
Good to see you, Hari.
I won't take up any more of your family time.
See you.
-Bye.
-Bye.
-Actually, I should go too, Dan.
-Why what's the matter? Nothing.
Come on, you're a bag of nerves.
What's going on? I I just don't think that this is working out.
I think we should call it a day.
What? This is some Is this some kind of a joke? Fine, but then, tell me why.
Tell me why you think we should call it a day? Well You never want to see me on my own, unless it's for sex.
-Bullshit.
-All right, okay.
I just can't do it.
-I'm sorry.
-Look, look, look.
Whatever it is you're struggling with here, please, please, -get over it.
-I can't.
But then tell me, tell me what the problem is.
The problem is that I am better on my own.
No, no.
That is your decision, Katie.
It's not your genetic makeup.
You know what else? I don't believe you.
Well, it's the truth.
Sorry.
-You give good bride, Jess.
-Thanks.
-What does marriage mean to you, Simon? -Two people who love each other wanting to be together for the rest of their lives.
-You believe that? -Yes.
I'm just not very good at it.
Certainly isn't how I pictured it would be.
-You don't want out? -No.
Just, sometimes wonder what it might be like to be properly in, you know, just the two of us.
Why don't you tell Mark what's on your mind? 'Cause Mark could never be that guy.
And I'm not that girl, am I? I heard about your pitch this afternoon.
Julia is back in for more than the original figure.
-So.
-So, maybe I should get plastered more often.
Or not.
Hey, why didn't you tell me about the orphanage? Ah, I didn't think it fitted in with your picture of me.
Well, yeah, it wasn't quite what I expected.
-My mum died when I was 10.
-You were a lost boy.
I've been worried about you.
Been worried that you are unhappy.
Well, I have been unhappy because you I mean, you know, you were mad at me and Anyway, how can I stay mad at you? Look at you, huh.
Truth is, I don't need Julia's five million, I just need you.
-Do you need just me? -That's what I said.
Sit down, I got a present for you.
-What is this? -Happy one-month anniversary.
Okay.
-Are we going galumphing? -Yeah.
Thank you.
(HUMMING) So, this is what it'd be like if you were in charge.
Just for tonight, Hari.
Please.
-You're not ready? -Two minutes.
You do know you're not Kate Moss, don't you? They're a present from Mark.
-And he normally has such good taste.
-Oh, I don't know.
He's prone to the odd aberration.
Jessica, he'll never give me up.
Well, we'll see about that, won't we? -Right.
Sweet boots.
-Mm-hm.
-Come on.
-See you.
Now look, Siobhan, he's an important client and he only wants you.
-That's business.
-Can we at least agree to hand the case over to another partner? No, no, it's too late for that, Siobhan.
The case is worth a fortune.
I'm not messing around with it.
And I'm telling you I cannot and will not work with him.
And I'm telling you that you will see it through to the end.
I can't be in the same room with him for another second.
Stop being so precious.
I am serious, Siobhan, it's him or you.
Fine, I quit.
-Hi.
-I need chocolate.
Mm, chocolate good.
Poor substitute for alcohol though.
-You all right? -Jack and I had a row.
-Oh, I'm sorry.
-It's not your fault.
He was in some foul mood.
-It's probably just a work thing.
-No, not a work thing.
We've been trying for another baby.
Nothing's happening.
I think we're both frustrated.
-How long have you been trying? -Just the last few months.
Typical.
Max and Lily just came along.
This time we discuss it, plan it, schedule it and nothing doing.
We should just relax and see what happens, shouldn't we? Hi, Natalie.
I brought you something.
-Cakes? -No, not cakes.
TRUDl: She looks like you.
Oh, she wasn't looking so angelic yesterday.
-What's her name? -Amy.
-Is she your only child? -Uh, no.
She No, I have two little girls and Amy is their step-sister.
Just like the Three Musketeers.
I love her, just as if she were my own.
I had a little girl.
What? What did you say? I had a little girl, all of my own.
I used to plait her hair, sing her to sleep.
Well, I could bring Amy to see you.
-You could do those things.
-We used to take her to the park.
-We? -Her daddy and me.
Daddy's little girl.
What's the matter? Do you want me to come over later? -Eh, look after you? -Do you know what? I don't.
I want you to go home and look after your wife.
-I know about your plans.
-What plans? Your baby plans.
-I'm sorry.
-Hey, don't be.
It's a good thing.
It's another good decision for Jack Hudson.
You know, I'm not even angry with you.
I'm angry with myself for being sucked into your nostalgia, your regrets, while all the time you're making plans with your wife.
You know, this is really grim.
I don't really want to do it any more.
All right.
What do you want, Katie? I I want to be a better person.
You are who you are, Katie.
There's nothing you can do to change that now.
Who I am and who I can be has nothing to do with you.
-Oh, wow.
What an amazing place.
-Do you like it? -Yeah.
-It's ours.
What? A chatelaine? Oh my God! -Hello.
-Hi.
What are you, um What are you doing? A patient admission form.
Remember I told you that I had a black belt in love affairs? Yeah, it was a correspondence course.
And I cheated in the exams.
I suppose we're a couple of dropouts, then.
Give us another chance, Katie.
I'll get it right this time.
I don't know how to get it right.
So unless you're some sort of masochist, I'd keep running away, while you still have the chance.
Well, I have a very, very high pain threshold.
I don't.
Haven't you Haven't you had enough of me? Uh-huh.
Not even close.
I could get used to country life.
I can just see you growing vegetables, raising chicken.
-Throwing massive parties.
-Now, that I could do.
I don't think you're quite ready for couture cold turkey either.
Oh, you know me so well.
-This is great, just the two of us.
-Yeah.
Hey, maybe, we could do more things just the two of us.
Oh, God.
I hope you're not suggesting salsa classes.
No, I wasn't, but now you come to mention it, I think you'd be a very, very good salsa dancer.
-Well, it is all in the hips, after all.
-Yeah.
(CAR HONKING) Who the hell ? Is that Carrie? Yeah, she's just bringing me some documents I got to sign.
Right.
Let's go.
Carrie, good to see you.
You're joining us for supper? Sadly not.
I just need to get Mark to sign these, then I'll be off.
-Drive safely.
-I will.
Enjoy your mini-break.
God, she is so young.
It's devastating.
She doesn't know who he is.
She doesn't even know who she is.
Oh, God.
It is so different now.
I mean, Natalie has been hidden away in that place, -and I have stolen her life.
-No, no.
I don't think it's like that.
If you died, wouldn't you want Richard to find somebody else? -To be happy? -Yeah, yeah, of course.
Yeah, but it's not the same.
She's not dead.
Yeah, but she's not herself, Trudi.
She never will be.
But she is still his wife.
She's still Amy's mother.
-When is the leaving party? -Oh, I'm afraid this is a quick getaway.
-Hari must be pleased.
-Yeah, he is.
Been talking about it for quite a while now.
Really? You never said you were thinking of resigning.
Dominic, you're not my number-one confidant.
That's for sure.
Chartered investigator sent them in.
His wife's team had him followed for the last six months.
If you were gonna have an affair, Siobhan, you might at least have picked someone who actually respects women.
You don't know what you're talking about.
He is a misogynist bastard.
Have you gone completely out of your mind? -Dominic, just get out.
-You gonna leave Hari? -Don't be obscene.
-I'm worried about you.
-And I'm worried about our daughter.
-It's not for you to worry about me.
It's not for you to think about me in that way.
You're too involved in my life, Dominic.
It's suffocating.
Don't worry.
I'm not any more.
Do you think you can stop being so horrible to her? Do you think you could stop being so nice to her? Is that what this is all about? Carrie? -She's everywhere.
-It's just a few papers, Jessica.
It's not about the papers! I saw you with her! -What? -The other night, in your office.
-I'm sorry.
-Have you got any idea how that felt? Seeing you with her.
-Anyone.
-It was careless.
No, it was thoughtless and I never would have done it if I thought you'd see.
No, look.
I know that I signed up for this, okay.
I know.
Yeah, open marriage.
And I wanted it as much as you did.
But it was just supposed to mean meaningless one-offs.
-Well, that's all it was, I swear.
-I know that it wasn't.
Okay? She told me.
You, you buy her gifts and stuff, and that was never part of our arrangement, never.
Okay.
-You're right.
-You're not even gonna deny it? No, I'm trying to be straight with you.
-It's a bit late for that.
-Look, please don't go, Jess.
Look, we can talk about this.
Listen, listen, listen.
Meaningless one-offs is all it will be from now on.
-A new leaf, I promise you.
-Great, Mark, it's not such an attractive deal any more.
-Well, what does that mean? -I can't keep up with you.
And I can't pin you down.
I don't know, maybe I'm just not the modern girl I thought I was.
-I like it here.
-It gets a bit lonely sometimes.
-Has it always been just you? -Mm-hm.
Apart from a torturous interlude with a high-maintenance ballerina.
-Very exciting girl? -Bendy, but controlling.
Thought I'd never get rid of her.
-How did you? -Well, I changed the locks.
I swore I'd never live with anyone ever, ever again.
But I can see that changing.
-Hi, Dan.
-Oh, hi, mate.
Hi, Katie.
-Just popped over for a drink.
-I'll get another glass, shall I? What? No, no, don't.
Sorry, Jack, it's kind of a party for two.
Party for two, of course.
Say no more.
I'm sorry.
That you had to see that.
I know that I'd hate to see you with anyone else.
Even if it was Halle Berry.
We really should talk about my sexual history at some point.
I'd like that.
We really don't know each other at all, do we? No.
But I know that the first day we met was the most exciting day of my life.
Mine too.
Pin me down, Jess.
-You need your freedom.
-No, I don't.
I need just you.
Wow! -The girls wanted to frame it for you.
-Our girls.
-Where have you been? -I've been to see Natalie.
I took her a picture of Amy.
How is she? (SOBBING) She remembers being a mum.
Tell me I haven't ruined everything.
I've already been married to a man who lied to me.
-No more lies, I promise.
-Who abandoned me.
Trudi, I would never abandon you.
But then I could forgive the lies and I know I could trust you again, but I can't live a lie.
-You're not living a lie.
-Yes, I am, if I stay with you.
I won't steal Natalie's life.
-Trudi.
-No.
You have to move out.
Take it.
Hari, I've some news.
I've quit my job.
I'm now officially a full-time mother.
Har! -How did you get those? -Someone sent them to me.
I feel sick when I think of making love to you.
Hari, please.
You wouldn't touch me.
-My fault? -You wouldn't forgive me.
I did my best to forgive you, even though you ripped my heart out.
I tried to love you.
I was faithful to you, despite temptation, despite opportunity, despite the misery of this marriage.
There's nothing left to pretend for now.