Sorry for Your Loss (2018) s02e09 Episode Script

1
Drew is gonna publish
another one of my essays.
It's about a dream
I had about Matt.
I've been dreaming
about Matt, too,
and not good dreams.
No one knows what you're
going through more than me.
We're not going through
the same thing, Leigh.
You see Matt differently
than I do.
How do you see him?
Not as the Matt that made
everyone feel loved
and cared for, that's for sure.
- I met someone.
- That's great.
What's happening with us
feels really right.
You're using me to get to Matt.
You're so angry at him.
What does screwing your
brother's widow do for you?
[dramatic music]
[tires squealing]
Stop the car.
Matt!
[truck horn honking]
[gasping]
[gasps]
[grunts]
What time is it?
Where are you going?
There's a full moon,
and I can't sleep.
- Gonna surf.
- Mm.
- You want to come?
- Mm-mm. I'm tired.
- Ask me the next full moon.
- I won't be here.
I have to give this place up.
Running out of savings.
All right.
Is is that why you can't sleep?
No.
I got an interview with
that headhunter tomorrow.
You're gonna be great.
Thanks.
Yeah, it's just weird
going back to real life.
- Sure you don't want to come?
- Mm-hmm.
Yeah, I have to get up early.
I'm gonna meet Becca for coffee.
Okay.
- I'll see you in the morning.
- Mm.
- Stay safe.
- Mm-hmm.
Tell all the midnight surfers
hi for me.
[lock clicks]
[upbeat music]
It looks so good.
- It's not even done yet.
- Just wait.
Oh, look at you, business lady.
Kicking ass and taking names.
Kicking is easier when you
have two functional knees.
Mm.
Is that your idea, too?
I'm fostering community.
[exhales] Well
- Ooh.
- Mm.
Yeah.
[laughs]
It's supposed to be challenging,
so I'm just gonna take that off.
I'm sorry, do you know
how expensive it is
to get in these days?
- [laughs] That's true.
- Yeah.
- Where's yours?
- It's in my head.
Install filtered
water dispenser,
buy bookkeeping software
That's a todo list.
Okay, thanks for the feedback.
[chuckles]
Um
Here.
Check this out.
It's our summer calendar.
Okay, it's 45 minutes
of bodyweight exercises.
I have more muscle now than
I did before I busted my knee.
You kick my ass in the best way.
- You'd slay in that slot.
- It's okay.
I like chilling at
the consignment shop.
I'm in this mellow groove,
you know?
Yeah, no, I get it.
Um, give it some thought,
though.
You'd be a rock star here.
How about you be the rock star,
and I will happily be
your biggest fan?
Aww.
- Okay, I like that.
- Okay.
[laughs]
[somber music]
I read your essays.
You know,
you got a lot going on.
- [laughs]
- Your
all-night walk
and that crazy casino trip.
You're living your life
right now.
- It's it's a good thing.
- [chuckles]
I just
Want to get
to the place you're at.
You got to tell me
how you're doing it.
Well, I started seeing someone.
He's helping.
- Like a like a therapist or
- Mm-mm.
- Oh, God, of course. Right.
- [chuckles]
For how long?
Like about a month?
I, uh I did the walk with him,
and the casino.
Ah.
I it sounded like you were
doing those things by yourself,
the way you wrote about them.
- No, he was there.
- [chuckles]
Well, where'd you meet him?
It's
Uh, it's Matt's brother,
actually.
Danny?
Yeah, I
I hadn't been happy for a
a really long time, and
I mean, he he makes me happy.
I just thought that you
of all people would get it
'cause, you know,
everything in my life is messy
and complicated, so of course
the one thing that
that makes me happy is also
messy and complicated.
I I get that, but you're not
writing about that one thing.
You're you're writing about
the messy and complicated stuff
that people will be okay with
and won't judge you for.
You know, I
I'm actually not required to
tell everyone on the Internet
who I'm having sex with.
No, but, Leigh, uh,
all those people commenting
on your essays
think you're, like,
the perfect widow.
Well, I'm definitely
not perfect.
But people think you are.
It's like on Instagram,
where people's photos
look perfect
because they put a filter on it
or they crop things
out of frame.
You've just cropped out
this huge part of your life.
- So
- So you're lying to everyone.
I'm not a liar.
But you're lying.
I'm sorry.
Maybe I would feel better
if I was sleeping with
my dead husband's sister.
Except she's an asexual
corporate attorney
based out of Toronto, so
[solemn music]
[exhales sharply]
I saw my reflection in the door.
I'm wearing the same rig
I wore to both your funerals.
You got me running around town
in a damn death suit.
I just want to sleep.
But you won't leave me alone.
Get out of my head, Matt.
Get out of my head.
Leigh, if you don't
get off your phone,
I'm going to come
and take it from you.
I'm just reading all the essays
I've written this last month.
I mean, I thought I was being
completely honest,
but now all I see are the lies.
You were being honest.
They're 500-word essays.
You can't put everything
in them.
Yeah, and there's truth
in there,
like the casino essay where you
had your existential awakening.
I mean, it can't get realer
than that.
But would you feel differently
if you knew
that fell on the heels
of a full night of sex
with my dead husband's brother?
[laughing]
I mean, this year,
it felt like almost everything
was taken from me,
but no matter
how bad things got,
at least I knew
I was being honest.
That was the one thing
I knew about myself.
[door opening]
Hey.
Hey.
How was the headhunter?
I decided not to go.
Why?
I just wanted to take a walk.
You walked here from Venice?
Yep.
How long were you walking?
Ten hours, give or take.
That's a long walk.
Yeah, sometimes
you need a long walk.
This one knows.
So you just walked?
No, I, uh, had lunch
in Culver City.
Second lunch downtown.
I visited the Underground
Museum on Washington.
Strange to see the city
all slowed down like that.
Nobody walks in LA, so
Yeah, I'll go to
the headhunter on Friday.
I'm gonna go shower.
You okay?
Just beat.
- See you upstairs?
- Mm-hmm.
Whoo, I feel like a new man.
Hey, sorry for not being
social earlier.
It's okay.
Is, um
now a good time
to talk about stuff?
What kind of stuff?
Just stuff
that's going on with you.
Nothing's going on.
Okay.
But if it were, you know
that you can talk to me
about it, right?
- And vice versa.
- I know.
Something going on with you?
Uh, yeah.
How would you feel if I wrote
about our relationship
in my next essay?
You want to write about us?
Well, I don't want to,
but I feel like I have to.
But if that makes you
uncomfortable,
that's fine, and I
I'm-I'm
- I'm okay with it.
- Really?
Do what you got to,
as long as you mention
my fiery calves
and my ferocious stamina.
[snaps fingers]
- Goes without saying.
- Cool.
[laughs]
- I'm gonna crash now.
- Okay.
Your sister and her boyfriend
That was
She needs to actually
talk to him.
Yeah, but I get why
she wouldn't want to, though.
[stammers]
I don't.
[exhales]
Um
It's like there's this door,
right?
And you know you got to open it
but you don't know
what you're gonna find,
so you think maybe
it's better just
to keep it shut.
I feel like that when I think
about going to Vietnam.
Stuff about my birth family
could be stuff I'm better off
not knowing.
Like, what if I
dig for gold
and hit a sewage pipe?
You just swim
through the shit, babe.
You hose off, and you move on.
You got plans on Monday?
Are we going to Disneyland?
Yeah?
Yeah?
- Close. [laughs]
- Aww.
I signed you up for a CPR class.
It's mandatory
for all instructors, so
Yeah, but I'm not an instructor.
This is so you can become one.
I told you I didn't want that.
But you're good,
and you deserve it.
This is not a handout.
Oh, come on, Jules.
You don't think that my job
or my life are good enough.
Right? I'm like a fixer-upper?
You just want me fixed already?
That's not what's
happening here, Tommy.
I I can see the person you
could be, and I believe in you.
I want you to believe
in yourself, too.
I do believe in myself.
Okay, I just don't believe in
all of your classist bullshit.
- Okay, I'm sorry
- No, I
[sighs]
I can't do this.
Um, I'm out.
[door closes]
[gasps]
Did you have a nightmare?
Yeah.
You want to talk about it?
No.
Are you sure?
Mm-hmm.
Danny.
- Hey.
- What you doing?
Eh, I'm just trying to write
this thing about me and Danny.
- How's it going?
- I'm stuck.
Every time I try
to write something,
it's like half
the story is missing.
I I don't know what's going on
with Danny these days.
Well, if you don't know
what's going on, ask him.
Oh, I just I mean,
he's going through some stuff.
I mean, you've seen him,
and I'm just trying
to give him the space
to do that.
[chuckles]
Yeah.
How's that been working out
for you?
- It's not.
- [laughs]
It's yeah.
[both laughing]
Actually, maybe don't take
relationship advice
from me right now.
Oh, no.
What's happening?
[exhales sharply]
I created a job for Tommy
at the studio.
And she, uh, did not like that.
Did she want a job
at the studio?
No.
And you tried giving her one
anyway?
Yes.
[sighs, laughs]
- I'm an idiot.
- You're not an idiot.
You're just a Shaw.
What do I do?
Well, you have to de-Shaw
the situation.
Or un-Shaw it.
Anti-Shaw.
- I like de-Shaw.
- Me too.
- My first instinct.
- Yeah.
- Impulse.
- It's my first impulse.
- [laughs]
- De-Shaw.
- Hey.
- Hey.
I like you.
I like everything about you,
and I don't need you
to be my employee.
I do need to learn to hear
and respect your needs.
Did you memorize that speech?
Yeah, I've been
standing here a while.
Look.
If you're trying to turn me
into something I'm not,
this isn't gonna work.
Okay, I had enough of that
growing up.
And I'm not perfect,
okay, but I'm not broken,
either.
- Tommy, I'm really sorry.
- I know you are.
Look, but it's not enough
to be sorry.
Okay.
Look, I just need someone
that's got it together.
You know?
Someone who's working
through their issues.
- You know what I mean?
- [chuckles]
I'm actually working really
hard on all my issues.
Or you're working really hard
to avoid dealing with the shit
that actually freaks you out.
[chuckles]
Wow.
I I got to get back to work.
Yeah.
I got to get back to work, too.
Okay.
See you.
[door opens]
[door closes]
Okay, so I wrote down
some questions.
I'm gonna record this so that
I can listen and talk
instead of typing
and scribbling.
- Damn.
- So formal.
- Does it make you feel weird?
- No, no, it's cool.
I just what's the article
about, exactly?
The working title is
"Sex, Lies, and
My Dead Husband's Brother."
- Subtle.
- [chuckles]
Right, well,
it's not a confession.
It's an explanation, 'cause
I want people to understand
the why along with the what.
And the who, obviously.
Which is why we're doing this.
There's a lot I don't know
about you, Daniel Greer.
[chuckles]
- You ready?
- Yeah.
First question,
has being with me
changed you at all?
It sounds like you're fishing
for a compliment.
Well
being with you has changed me.
How?
Um, I feel lighter, maybe.
Like you understand my grief
so I don't have to carry it all
myself,
if that makes sense.
Kind of.
Do you feel that way?
I'm happier, I guess.
How were you before?
Less happy.
- Okay.
- [laughs]
Uh, next question.
What are your nightmares about?
It's not a big deal.
Right, but if it's not
a big deal,
then why can't you just tell me
what they're about?
[chuckles] Yeah.
Uh
this thing happened to me
and Matt before he met you.
Um,
we're driving home one night,
and Matt screams for me
to stop the car.
Just bolts.
I see him talking to some dude
on the overpass.
The guy was about to jump.
Jesus.
If I had been driving alone,
that guy would be dead.
Sorry, that, um
He never told me about that.
It was a long time ago.
- What?
- No, I'm just
I'm just thinking.
What are you thinking?
I don't know.
Um
So Matt saved
this person's life?
Are you
You don't think that you
were supposed to save Matt?
Is this still for your article?
I am not gonna use any of this.
'Cause it's starting to feel
like this whole thing
was just an excuse
for you to pry me open.
- No, I am just trying to help.
- You know what?
[phone chimes]
How about I ask you some things
that you don't want
to talk about,
since you're so interested
in the truth?
How come you refuse
to see Matt for who he was?
Why do you stick
a shiny gold halo on his head
whenever you talk about him?
Danny, you have got to stop
doing this.
We both loved him,
and yet you have this thing
against acknowledging
his good parts.
Maybe because there was
more bad than good,
and you're living in some
wounded-widow fairyland.
Just because someone dies
doesn't make them a hero.
You just told me that he
saved a total stranger's life.
You don't think that you have
the volume turned up right now
on the wrong memories?
Which memories should I turn up?
When he Sharpied
my Pokémon cards
- because I wouldn't trade them?
- Oh, my God.
When I accused him
of becoming our dad
and he didn't talk to me
for four months?
Why are you holding on
to all this ridiculous shit?
Because it affected me!
You wouldn't think the stuff
that affected you
is ridiculous.
Like when he fell
for the teacher from his job
two years ago.
What?
Sorry, uh
Was it was it Nina?
The
The one from the memorial?
He wouldn't, uh
I I told him not to
Did anything, um
Did they
No.
Nothing happened.
He had a moment, and it passed.
But you just said
that he fell for her.
Did you tell me that
so I could just hate him
as much as you do?
- No.
- Then why?
So you can see him
for who he really was.
But why?
So you can see me for who I am.
Yeah, I see you, Danny!
I see someone who would rather
set fire to the things he loves
than deal with his own guilt.
I am never going to hate him.
Do you understand that?
Go home.
[Danny shouts, loud crash]
Damn it!
[grunts]
[exhales sharply]
[keys tapping]
Maybe I'm kidding myself, but
I still think
we can make it work.
People don't slam
their fists through walls
when things are going well.
I mean, we can't do this.
So it's over?
Yeah.
You should go.
I'm not leaving you here.
Waiting in urgent care with
someone is something you do
when you're in a relationship.
Then we will be in one
until they call your name.
- That's dumb.
- I don't care.
[exhales sharply]
How long have we been waiting
here?
Feels like hours.
Days.
McKean.
What if they never
call your name?
What if we're in
actual purgatory?
Then we'll never break up,
I guess.
Do something funny.
Why?
'Cause if I don't
start laughing,
I'm gonna start crying
and never stop.
Okay.
Something funny.
[snorts]
[laughing]
Do you remember my impression
of the whale from "Pinocchio"?
- Oh, God.
- You do remember.
Leigh.
[snorting and sniffing]
[laughing]
[sniffing]
Remember this one?
[sniffing and grunting]
[mimics sneezing]
[laughing]
- [mimics sneezing]
- Shh, shh, shh.
[both laughing]
Greer?
- Oh!
- Welcome back!
I had to see you before you
flew halfway around the world.
[laughs]
When you get back, um
Oh, I should talk to you
about that.
Mom, I don't know how
everything got so bad.
- They're your choices.
- Own them.
You're not even gonna try
and solve my problems?
You're an adult.
I just feel like
I am waiting around
for the next bad thing
to happen to me.
- Leigh.
- Hi.
What happened between you
and Matt?
Please tell me.