Sorry for Your Loss (2018) s02e10 Episode Script

1
I've gotta fix some things,
so I can't do it here.
- So I'm going.
- To where?
Alaska.
You're writing about
the messy and complicated stuff
that people will be okay with.
- So
- So you're lying to everyone.
I'm actually working
really hard on all my issues.
Or you're working
really hard to avoid
dealing with the
that actually freaks you out.
[keys clicking]
How come you refuse
to see Matt for who he was?
Like when he fell
for the teacher from his job
- two years ago.
- What?
Did you tell me that
so I could just hate him
as much as you do?
No, so you can see him
for who he really was.
I am never going to hate him.
[solemn music]
[yells] [thud]
- We can't do this.
- So it's over?
Yeah.
Leigh?
Oh, I missed you so much. Oh.
[laughs]
- Hi.
- [laughs]
- Oh, oh.
- Welcome back.
- Oh, I missed you.
- Ooh.
[laughs]
Aw, let me look at you.
Aw.
Oh, God, you're so beautiful.
Aw. Oh.
Why is there a hole in my wall?
Do you wanna
[upbeat music]
- Wow, that's just a lot.
- You have a girlfriend.
I um, I'm not really sure
what I have right now.
- And you have a um
- a Danny?
No, I definitely don't have a
I mean, I haven't even spoken
to him since the
Why didn't you tell me?
Well, how are we supposed
to put all of that in an email?
- No, no, I get it.
- I get it.
There were yeah.
There were things I couldn't
put in an email either.
Well, you're here now,
so tell us.
Okay, um
there were, like,
800 people in this town,
and I knew just about everybody.
I made so many friends.
I have never had
so many friends.
[laughs]
I watched the sunrise
every morning,
and I was so still
that all the animals
came right up to me.
And at night, I stared
into the Milky Way,
and I could see right
into the heart of the universe.
And it was
everything made sense.
I loved who I was there.
[breathless laugh]
We are so happy you're home.
Yeah.
[laughs]
[insects chirping]
[doorbell rings]
- Hey.
- Hey.
I was, um, glad to get
your text.
Yeah, well, I had to see you
before you flew
halfway around the world.
[laughs]
I got you something.
What is this?
Wait, a gift for ruining
our relationship?
You shouldn't have.
A lady sold it
to our store today.
Uh, is it a fanny pack?
- It's a money belt.
- It's to put your valuables in.
So some asshole on a motorcycle
doesn't zoom by and rip
your purse off your shoulder.
- Uh, what?
- It's a thing!
It happens in Saigon.
I read about it
on a message board.
It's
- And
- And then no.
You gotta yeah. It's a thing.
[small laugh]
There you go.
[laughs]
Um, I look I'm pregnant
with a FedEx package.
You look like you're not
gonna get your stuff stolen,
and that is
the coolest look of all.
- Oh.
- [laughs]
How much do you know
about what you're going into?
Um, my birth mom's name
is on my birth certificate.
There's a lot of women
in Saigon with that name,
but I've been emailing
with my adoption agency,
and they're gonna try
and help me.
Well when you get back,
uh
Oh, I should talk to you
about that.
Okay.
I didn't buy a return flight.
I don't know how long
this is gonna take.
You can get by on 20 bucks
a day in Saigon, so
I've got time.
- Uh
- [clears throat]
Well, uh
when you do come back,
come and find me.
[sniffles]
[laughs] Hey
- See?
- Tuck it under your shirt.
Okay, okay, I will.
- I will.
- All right.
Um, bye.
Bye.
I thought the couch was there
and the desk was over there.
Yeah, Hunter
moved all my furniture.
Like, I don't even know
how feng shui works,
- and I know Hunter sucks at it.
- [laughs]
I'ma put these over here.
Is that okay?
Yeah, over there is is okay.
Okay.
Thanks for helping me.
- Well, of course.
- You got one hand.
Can't do this all by yourself.
Yeah, and I don't have
a million friends right now.
I'm not surprised,
given your behavior.
- Yeah, no, I get it.
- It's it's all my fault.
Another thing
you're right about,
racking those points up.
I'm not trying to be right
about your poor life choices.
No, I'm not I'm I'm saying
I get it.
- But do you get it?
- They're your choices.
Own 'em.
Mom, I don't know
how everything got so bad.
I was doing all right
for a while.
Matt was gone, but I thought
I was handling it.
When I broke it,
I didn't feel it at first.
I mean, I could feel
that something had happened,
but the pain didn't kick in
for a while.
Danny, listen to me.
[emotionally] You are the only
one I have left.
So you something's gotta
change.
[somber music]
I'm sorry, Mom.
- I'm sorry.
- I know.
[somber music]
[feet shuffling]
Hey, you're awake.
You're awake.
Yeah, well,
you know I never sleep.
Me neither anymore, Jules too.
We're terrible at sleeping
in this family.
Mm.
Why are you up?
Oh, I don't know.
My room in Alaska was so small
that my room here
feels too big. [small laugh]
Why are you awake?
I'm still trying to write
this stupid essay
where I tell everyone the truth,
except I don't even know
what that is anymore.
I don't know the truth
about my husband
or my marriage
or this other woman
he was in love with
anything.
I just have a thousand
questions and zero answers.
So what am I supposed to do,
just, like,
scream into the void?
You know I live
to solve problems,
but I can't solve this for you.
You're not even gonna, like,
give me a Ouija board
or a tarot card or something?
I would never bring
a Ouija board into this house.
That's like placing a collect
call directly to Hell.
You do not know what kind
of malevolent spirit's
gonna pick up the phone.
- Are you joking?
- No.
Also, a tarot card by itself
is useless.
You need the whole deck.
- Are you joking now?
- Yes.
[laughs]
You're not even gonna try
and solve my problems?
You're an adult,
and I can't micromanage
your life anymore.
Wow.
Okay.
But you are still my mom,
and I still really need you
right now.
I just need to know
what happened.
Like, everywhere I go,
there is a wall,
and I just feel so trapped.
You know, I felt trapped
for a really long time,
and that's just not a place
you can stay.
[children's voices
chattering in distance]
[door hinges creak]
Nina, hi.
- Leigh.
- Hi.
Um, the front office
said that you might
still be in your classroom.
- Yep, still here.
- What brings you by?
My husband's brother told me
that my husband fell for you.
What?
What happened
between you and Matt?
Nothing happened.
Well, it's the way
you say "nothing."
You're not saying it
like you're confused.
You're saying it like you know
exactly what I'm talking about.
So what am I talking about?
Nothing.
I just I don't think
that's true.
[strained laugh]
Please tell me.
He was my friend.
If he was just your friend,
I wouldn't be here right now.
He was my best friend.
So, what does what does
that mean?
Everyone sees me the same way.
I'm the person
that organizes birthdays
and gets people
to volunteer for stuff.
Matt didn't see me that way.
He made me feel
I'm trying to think
of a better word than special,
but that's it.
He made me feel special.
He made me feel like
I was so interesting
and important
i-in this way that I hadn't
really felt before.
How did he f-feel about you?
I don't know.
He never told me.
But that's how he made me feel,
and now, all I feel is
how gone he is.
When you were talking
to the kids about Matt,
about there being this hole
where he was
I feel it too, all the time.
- What are you doing?
- I didn't mean to
You know we're not friends.
You worked with Matt.
I was his wife.
I'm sorry.
You think that we're going
through the same thing?
You think that you could
possibly, for one second,
understand what has
happened to me?
I really am sorry.
I don't need an apology.
[door thuds closes]
[dance music thumps]
[background chatter]
Wow.
Um, hey.
Is that a good wow?
Um uh.
[music thumping]
Yes.
Okay, good.
Do you want the studio?
[chuckles] What?
Well, I mean,
look at what you've done.
I'm mean, this is your calling.
If you want this place,
it's yours.
Uh I
I I wanna say "yes."
So, say "yes."
- I can't.
- I wanna be home.
I wanna run the studio.
I wanna be in a relationship
with my girlfriend.
I want all that.
Honey, it's it's okay
to not be ready to go.
[small laugh] I am ready.
Well, you were on crutches
two weeks ago.
And now I'm not.
I know, but, you know,
you have a lot going on
right now,
and you don't have to go
this week.
[laughs]
Yeah, I do.
To be honest, I don't
really wanna go on this trip,
but it doesn't matter
what I want I have to go.
Then you go.
- Really?
- Yeah.
And this place is[laughs]
amazing.
And you are amazing.
[laughs]
Come on in.
Thanks.
Am I supposed to lie down?
Some people do.
Is it like a test
to get on your back
like you're talking to Freud
or sit like a normal person?
[laughs]
It's not a test.
[laughs]
Ugh.
My brother was always trying
to get me to go to therapy
to work out my issues
with our parents.
So it's ironic, you know.
Like, I'm finally here
to work out my with him.
Am I using ironic
in the right way?
I heard somewhere
that all the examples
in that Alanis Morissette song
are wrong.
So now, every time I say it,
I think that I use it wrong
like she did.
[tense chuckling] I'm sorry.
It think it's right enough.
Cool.
Okay.
So, Danny, tell me
what would you like
to talk about?
Um
I think if I had been
a different person, um
[melancholy music]
My brother would still be alive.
I mean, who does she
think she is?
That was my relationship
with my husband.
That's what we had.
I mean, look.
- You know I've been there.
- Mm.
No, you've kind of been there.
Ryan fell for this dude,
and then you guys
worked through it
and then you got married.
Matt fell for this woman,
and then he died.
Okay, I've kind of been there.
Would you rather be talking
to someone
who hasn't been there at all?
I just hate her.
I hate him. I I hate myself.
I hate everyone.
I hate myself so much!
Stop.
You're a good person
who is doing her best.
I don't think
I'm a good person anymore.
I'm selfish. I'm a liar.
- I hurt people.
- Oh, everybody hurts people.
No one hurts people
the way I hurt Danny.
He tried to stay away from me,
and I wouldn't let him.
I forced myself into his life,
because I needed him to love me.
Oh, I'm a monster.
Hey.
You're not a monster.
You just made a mistake.
I think when Matt died,
he took a piece of me,
the best part
maybe the only good part
and I don't know
how to get it back.
I-I don't recognize this person
I've become.
I just know that I hate her.
How was your day?
- You know how my day was.
- You saw me for half of it.
Okay, so tell me about
the other half
I didn't see you for.
Uh you know,
it's Wednesday.
Mm-hmm.
Kids still don't care
about President Harding
or the Teapot Dome Scandal
or anything else
that happened in 1923.
I get it,
'cause I don't care either.
[laughs]
You think it's hard
getting them to read a chapter
of "The American Pageant"
textbook.
Try "Moby Dick."
- I mean
- Try it.
To be fair, if you want
people to read your book,
maybe don't spend 100 pages
on whale blubber?
It's, like, 80, but okay.
Okay.
[glass clink] [both laugh]
I can't believe
you actually bought salsa.
I need to teach you
how to make it.
Tomatoes and a food processor.
It takes, like, five minutes.
I like the store-bought tastes.
[silent scream] [laughter]
[ominous music, muffled voices]
[hyperventilating]
I'm still here.
[eerie music]
I'm still here.
[panting]
You okay?
I don't know.
What's going on?
- This is your thing.
- You tell her.
- No, this is not my thing.
- I'm doing this for all of us.
What are you doing?
I'm selling the house.
What?
Well, I ever since I got home,
I just I still feel so trapped.
This house
just feels like a cage.
I-I need to get rid of it.
I need to get free.
But if you get rid of the house,
where are you gonna live?
I don't know.
Maybe I'll build
a 300-foot tiny home.
Maybe I'll get an Airbnb
and go and live in France
for the summer
and come back in the Fall.
And maybe I won't.
Look, Mom,
do you want us to tell you
if we think you're having
another breakdown?
No, no, because I'm not
having a breakdown.
I'm having a breakthrough,
and it's because of you two.
- Us?
- Yes, yes.
Look, I left, and you both
you have taken chances
and done things
that I never would have
imagined that you could do.
I'm so proud of you,
and I'm more than proud.
I'm inspired by you.
I just thought that
this would be a decision
that we would make as a family.
But you made this call,
so it's you over there
and us over here.
It's my house,
and I am still the parent.
So I get to decide.
Look, I I built a nest,
and I never
really let you leave.
I was too afraid of being alone.
So I never let you grow
all the way up.
So I'm getting rid of the nest.
It it's the right thing
for all of us.
Really.
[teapot whistling]
[laughing]
Hey, what's, uh, funny?
[laughing] Oh, my God
everything. [laughing]
Just everything, seriously.
Like, what crazy thing
is gonna happen next?
A tsunami, an earthquake,
an actual apocalypse?
Because between Mom
and Danny and Matt,
I just feel like
I am waiting around
for the next bad thing
to happen to me.
[sniffles]
No, you know what I'm gonna do?
I am going to get out of here.
I'm gonna go with you to LAX.
I am getting a ticket
to the next flight
that has a seat,
'cause I don't know
who I am anymore.
So I will just
go somewhere else.
I'll go be someone else.
I will pull a Mom.
I'll pull a you.
I'll pull a both of you.
[laughs]
Uh, hey, are you also
having a breakdown?
Wha breakdown, breakthrough.
If we're playing by Mom's rules,
they're basically
the same thing.
[both laugh]
You know, you don't have
to go someplace alone.
You could come to LAX with me
and get on my flight.
- Jules, no, this is
- your trip.
Well, hey, you need to
get out of here,
and I need to not fall apart
over there.
What if we helped each other?
What if we make it our trip?
Oh, let me hug you both
until your Lyft comes.
Oh. [sniffling]
- That's her.
- Okay.
Hey.
Good luck.
- Are you Meghan?
- Leigh?
Yep, it's us.
- Bye.
- [smooches]
- Love you.
- I love you.
Bye.
- Bye-bye.
- [laughs]
- You guys are going to LAX.
- Terminal?
Tom Bradley.
- Music?
- Sure.
Yeah.
[bright music]
- Hey, what's our ETA?
- Um, hour and two minutes.
Okay, so if we get there
a little after 10:00
Stop the car.
- Stop the car.
- What is it?
Stop the car!
[bright music echoing]
[panting]
[muffled, echoing]
I'm still here.
[hyperventilating, whimpering]
[echoing] I'm still here.
[sobbing]
[heavy, dark music]
Honey, honey oh.
- [sobbing]
- Oh.
Baby, what's going on?
- [gasping]
- What's going on?
Matt!
What about Matt?
[gasping]
He he he
he won't
[laughs and sobs]
He he won't leave me.
- Oh.
- Oh, honey.
[gasping]
[indie music]
[sea birds calling]