Everwood s03e10 Episode Script
Need to Know
Previously on Everwood
The hat.
Oh.
Its my beret.
From my dad.
Its like a Hong Kong thing? Uh, he gave it to me a long time ago.
Why? Well, maybe whatever reason we were friends before in the first place isnt there any more.
Its okay, yknow, things happen.
I cant be around you right now, Ephram.
See ya later.
Whats happening here? I dont know.
What do you think is happening? I dont know.
Im willing to see you to see if I was going crazy or if there is something here.
We cant.
Im telling you the whole thing is a big fat lie.
Im done.
You? Well, Brittany and I sort of said that wed get each other two presents.
But ones okay.
Lets go.
Come on.
So what do you think? Do I need a lawyer? Because you dont like your part in the holiday pageant.
I dont see anybody taking the case.
But its not a holiday pageant, its all about Christmas.
You know it, I know it, everybody knows it.
I dont know it.
Im playing an angel.
There are no angels in the Hanukkah story.
There are no angels in the Kwanzaa story.
Do you even know what the Kwanzaa story is? Well, no.
But I bet it doesnt have angels.
What do you care? Youre half Christian anyway.
But the other half of me isnt.
What about that half? What about Moms half? Okay, youre right.
So stage a revolution.
Dump the halo and tell them you want to play Elijah.
That way you dont have to show up.
If youre gonna make jokes that go over my head can you at least explain them to me? Okay, see Elijah was I dont care.
Im too mad.
Whoa.
What? What is it? Joe Lies! Isnt that Madisons band? Yeah.
Oh, can I come? Come with who? With you.
Youre gonna go, arent you? Get in the car, Elijah? "Need to Know" Morning.
Oh, good tidings to you, Dr.
Brown.
What do you think of our decked halls? Oh, fine.
Christmassy.
What? No grousing that I didnt consult you before commencing with the decorative scheme.
No quick-witted barbs about my audacious integration of traditional Victorian ornamentation with the more plebian drug store variety.
Its 8 oclock in the morning, Harold.
Youre gonna have to try to use less adjectives.
I see your mood has not improved.
You remain the quite dowered little elf.
Amanda Hayes called.
My mood is fine.
And dont call me an elf, it pisses me off.
Naturally, we want to double up on the vacuuming duty.
Nothing is more irksome than fallen tinsel strewn about.
I suspect three times a day should suffice.
I love the holidays.
Dont you just.
Go grab that Hoover.
Okay.
Youre right, I am in a bad mood.
Really.
Forgive my undropped jaw.
Im sorry, but Im-Im just look.
Im just completely overwhelmed.
I-I-I-I feel like Ive been shopping since Arbor Day and-and Im not even half way done yet.
Single father.
Christmas time.
You do have my sympathy.
Good, because Im hoping to shamelessly exploit that sympathy.
I, uh, I could really use some help with my patient load.
Perhaps, it is after all the season of charity.
Thanks.
Wait? What is this? Youre giving me John Hayes back again.
Well, all you have to do is go to the house and oversee his day-to-day progress.
I think youd be fascinated by some of the work weve been doing.
Its very cutting edge.
And when I think cutting edge, I think Harold Abbott.
From what I understand youve been a human CD changer; hardly Nobel winning.
All right, well, scratch the cutting edge, but its a very simple routine once you get it down.
Its just a little bit time consuming.
Time consuming is not a bonus.
I do have other patients to attend to.
I know, thats why I called some other doctors first about the case and no one would do it pro bono, which I find kind of ironic since this is the season of giving.
But you, with the tinsel and the Christmas balls, I mean you really have the spirit.
Oh, dont go that route, sir.
It wears very poorly on you.
Look, you were his doctor once, Harold.
You took care of him.
He needs you now and Amanda needs someone to help her through this.
Amanda? Would you help me out on this? I could really use it.
Consider it my gift to you.
Thank you.
You do realize this means youll get no sweater.
I dont know.
It just doesnt seem big enough, especially after everything he did in the cabin.
I cant believe there were candles.
Were they scented? Gardenia, which is my favorite smell.
But do you think they could engrave it.
Do you think I could fit I love you, Ephram on the back.
Absolutely, engrave it.
Then can we go? No, watch is too boring.
I want my first Christmas present for Ephram to be original, but if I try too hard to make it original Ill wind up getting him something like a fondu set, which would be weird, right? Depends.
Is Ephram a fan of cheese? I believe hes in favor of it.
Well, then But I like the watch.
Maybe I should just get him both.
Im developing hives.
Seriously, I feel all scratchy.
Am I red, because I feel red? Hannah, Hannah, you just need to see Christmas shopping as a survival game.
Just keep moving, bob and weave, avoid strollers, and pack water.
-There.
-Thank you.
All right, we can leave in 10 minutes if you have some stroke of genius about what to get my dad.
Keep in mind, I forgot his birthday last year so this has to rock.
So I guess golf balls are out.
Okay, well, what does he like? I dont know.
Umm, bad music, argyle, Mr.
Rogers.
I really feel like there should be some perfect hybrid of those things.
I know, right.
Hmm, well, what are you getting your dad? Maybe I can copy.
I havent, uh I dont know.
But theyre coming out right? Cause I want to meet them.
Yeah, uh, except I dont-I dont think theyre gonna make it actually.
Youre kidding? In fact, not.
Kidding.
So what are you going to Hong Kong, cause thatd be awesome? Christmas just isnt really a big deal in my family.
Its pretty much just, uh, food and church.
Oh, Im sorry.
No, its fine.
I-I really dont care.
So, uh, can we get your dad something and go.
Yeah.
Two pies for the County Clerks office.
Whats up? Y-You want to sit down.
Its pretty backed up.
It might be awhile.
Look at you.
Yeah.
Gone all legit? Got a new job.
I got my own T1 line.
Hey, uh, I got one of these too on my car.
Yeah, I know.
Weird right? Not for me.
So are you gonna go? No.
No, I dont Why not? Well, I dont know.
Why would I? Oh, I dont know.
Why do people slow down on the freeway when they see a car accident? All those rubberheaders.
Neckers, Bright.
Neckers.
Right.
They stop because they cant help themselves.
Yknow its not like they want to see body parts spewed all over the road.
Yknow intellectually speaking, yknow that would make them hurl, but they stop anyways, because you can, cause its there.
So, acc-according to this rationale, seeing Madisons bandll make me want to hurl and thats a reason to go.
Interesting theory.
Oh, come on, youre not even the least bit curious, what she looks like.
Its been awhile.
Yeah, of course, Im curious.
So go for the visual.
What, no, do I just bring Amy along? Dude, seriously.
I dont know how you made this far without me.
Really.
You dont tell Amy.
Shed freak.
Well, I thought you said it was human nature.
Well, its male human nature.
OK? female human natures complete different.
Were talking about jealousy and claws.
It-Its ugliness, man.
So I should lie to her.
Look, lies of omission dont count as lies.
Did you tell Amy that you didnt brush your teeth this morning? Well, I did brush -my teeth this morning.
-Pretend that you didnt, would you tell her? Well, uh, why? No, I wouldnt.
This is the exact same thing.
Okay, here you go, Bright.
I, uh, put it on the city tab for you.
Thank you.
Uh, I dont think I should go.
Well, youre a bigger man than I am, Ephram Brown.
But I guess we already knew that.
You want a refill on that.
Your friends suck, no offense.
Gee, how could I take offense to that.
No, but seriously, they dump their kid on you at the beginning of her junior year which, by the way, is the hardest year ever.
They never call her and now theyre not even going to for Christmas.
Did Hannah say she was upset about this? Well, you know what, shes not as upset as she should be but thats only because shes not in touch with her rage.
Luckily, I am.
Uh, yeah, I can see that.
Do you have their number on you? I think I should call them.
Uh, what number? In Hong Kong.
Ill charge it to my dad.
He wont care and maybe if they heard from her best friend theyd actually understand.
You know what, I call them.
I-I can explain everything.
Thats okay, Id rather to it myself.
But do you know what the time change is so that I dont call them in the middle of the night? Nina? Yeah.
Do you know what the time difference is? Umm, I dont know its like what 12 hours maybe.
There is no Hong Kong is there? Well, technically Hong Kong exists.
I can point it out on a map, but Hannahs parents arent there.
What? Youre gonna have to talk to her yourself I-I cant do this part.
Talk to about her about what, I dont even know whats happening here.
She lied to me? It is not a lie, lie.
Look, you just have to talk to Hannah.
I do talk to Hannah.
We talk about everything.
She knows my entire life story.
Gah, this is like were right back to where we started.
No.
No, youre not.
Listen to me, you know Hannah.
Y-You know what a good girl she is and you know that she loves you to death.
So think about the reasons why she might keep something from you.
I dont know.
Bad.
Look, you can to talk about it or you can let her come to you when shes ready to just please dont be mad at her, okay? I need seven minutes.
Uh, its okay.
Im-Im still at home.
OK, uh, the slower you drive the better Ill look.
So, uhh, had an interesting conversation with Nina today, Im not really sure the best way to approach it yet.
Oh, yeah.
Would it be huge if we didnt go out tonight? Huh? I thought we were gonna, yknow? Yeah, I know Im just Im-Im feeling a little under the weather, so Hmm, West Nile Virus? Probably.
I-I think should stay in, I dont want to get any more sick.
Okay, well you want me to bring you soup or I could, uh, go pick up your favorite cold medicine, one that makes you feel drunk.
Thats okay, I dont want to get you sick.
Okay, well, umm, take lots of Vitamin C, watch Jon Stewart and call me tomorrow.
I will.
-Bye.
-Bye.
Hey.
Do you know they dont serve beer here? Thats because its a coffee house.
So youre here? As are you.
Howd you know Id? Dude, please.
I figured you could use a wingman.
Im Wh-what do I really expect tonight, best case scenario? Uh, okay, possibility number one you want to get back together with Madison.
No.
I-I dont.
Come on, she came up to you and said you were the only man shes ever loved and said shed dress up like CatWoman for you, you would say no.
No, its not like that, I dont I dont miss Madison like that, I dont even miss the relationship that we had.
The truth is I always felt like I was trying to keep up with her prove myself with Amy I dont feel like that way, she makes me feel good.
Groovy, well, then this is just the Pepsi Challenge.
More metaphors.
Look, youre in love with your current beverage okay Amy Cola, alright, but every man needs the side by side taste test.
Okay so you come here, you check out the ex and you just make sure you made the right choice.
Yknow, of course, that choice becomes much easier if Madisons suddenly became heinous.
Lets have a big welcome for Joe Lies.
You should write a book.
Ive been thinking about it.
Just pray for fat, man.
Pray for fat.
Youre gonna sag all the Oreos, arent ya? You caught me.
Personally I cant do Oreos without the milk.
Has to be ice cold, big glass, without the dripping theres really no point to Oreos, right? I always knew that you were a high maintenance woman.
So I didnt see Charlie in the show? Oh, he was, uh, back stage.
Curtain man, I believe, is the official title.
He gets tongue fried.
Uh, stage, uh, fight.
Tongue tied when hes nervous.
Its genetic as you can see.
I, uh, Ive been meaning to call you.
I got your message about Dr.
Dabib.
Oh, thats okay, I-I wasnt really expecting you to take on the case.
Well, actually it doesnt really matter, cause I found somebody much better.
This is a doctor whose actually looking to do pro bono work.
-Uh, Andy, weve already been -Its Dr.
Abbott.
Dr.
Abbott? Yeah, hes very excited about it and he already has a relationship with John so it just works out perfectly.
Dr.
Abbott is looking to do pro bono work.
Does he know what pro bono means? Well, hes very serious about it and I think that you and John will be very pleased.
Stop that.
Stop talking to me like you dont even know who I am.
Daddy, Daddy, did you see me? See you, are you kidding? How could I miss you, you were the only Maccabee in the manger.
You stole the show, kiddo.
-Thanks.
-Youre welcome.
Who took all the Oreos? Oh, probably some greedy parents, come on, well go find you some more.
-Ill, uh, call you.
-Don't.
You dont have too.
Im dreaming of a White Christmas just like the ones I used to know.
Dad, love the Bing, but can we maybe switch it up a bit? What? Silence theyre Bing, never.
When we, Abbotts, lose our traditions, young lady, we lose who we are.
Uh, we should save the star for Bright, its his favorite part.
Rice Krispies Treats are his favorite part.
Maybe we should make some more.
I bet you thats Ephram.
I knew he didnt sound that sick.
Well, invite him in, theres plenty of cider.
Oh, thats okay, Mom, its still early, we could make the movie.
Oh, hi.
Nina said she talked to you.
Yeah, but she didnt me anything, umm, she asked me to leave you alone, so No, I know.
Do you have a minute? Yeah.
My parents are in, uh, Lakeville, Minnesota, in the same house where I grew up.
Okay, so why the whole Hong Kong thing? I dont know.
They reran 90210 on FX and the Walshes went to live Hong Kong.
I thought it was sort of believable.
That is good.
Yeah, well it was a pretty good show.
Okay, but I still dont know why you made up the story in the first place? Because my dad is kinda dying.
Omigod, Hannah.
No, dont.
Dont do that, see thats why I made up the story so I wouldnt be that girl any more tragedy girl.
I-I went through the first two years of high school being that person and I dont want it any more.
Okay, I understand that.
I know you do.
He used to work in the library restoring rare books.
He loved the book's like not the insides, but the outside like the covers.
The way they smelled.
I just liked the insides and he said that made us a perfect fit.
He was the book, I was the story.
He has Huntingtons disease.
Im sorry.
I dont-I dont know what that is.
Its a brain disease.
My birthday party when I was eight, my dad just punched this other dad, I mean like a-a real punch.
I remember the noise.
My dad was so nice like he never even yelled at anybody but there he was.
There was blood all over his green shirt and he didnt even know why he did it.
A year later he couldnt eat.
Then he couldnt talk, that was the worst part when he talking cause we used to talk a lot.
And now hes gone.
When did he Did he die? No.
No.
Hes, uh, hes not, hes just in bed.
Yknow, he cant talk or think or-or move.
You look in his eyes and hes just empty.
Hes the book without the story.
My mom takes care of him.
My brother always took care of me, but he went away to college last year so I came here.
Dont feel sorry for me, okay.
Hello there.
Did I call too early? Not if youre a Marine.
I trust Dr.
Brown told you Id be coming by.
I believe he promised.
Excellent.
Well, worry not about the baton passing smoothly Mrs.
Hayes.
I have devoured Johns recent files.
I believe he may be teetering on the brink of breakthrough.
I intend to give him a firm shove.
Three-pronged outlet? Maybe you can shove him later in the week, hes sleeping right now.
When then I have ample time to prepare my materials.
John will awaken refreshed and keen to challenge the next phase of his rehabilitation.
Music therapy was an encouraging beginning, but its time to leap from the realm of sound into the complex world of the visual.
Intrigued? Yes, Ive dreamt of this moment.
You were wearing a top hat.
My preliminary research has led me to discover a nascent theory almost undiscussed in medical journals.
I believe that we can use color therapy to help John rebuild the emotional connections within his brain.
-Color therapy? -Yes.
It maybe historic research.
Allow me to illuminate the concept.
There.
Now how does this color make you feel? Umm, its blue.
Its a royal lavender more specifically but you are emotionally correct.
This wavelength tends to promote melancholia.
Dr.
Abbott? Just a moment of your indulgences please.
Rose pink, dynamic, vibrant.
Now please your honest emotional reaction.
Annoyed.
Angry? Getting there.
Yes, scarlet stirs the rageful humors as you can see the connection between color and emotion is elemental so perhaps over time, John could develop a rudimentary emotional vocabulary based on these colored lights.
You know are not putting my husband under a grow lamp.
He is not a philodendron.
I realize this sounds rather theoretical.
It seems like youre about don a toga and pass me a daisy.
Dr.
Brown has made remarkable progress.
We can build on that.
Dr.
Brown sees what he wants to see.
John moved his finger.
He blinked.
Who knows what it means? The highest mountain is climbed in tiny steps.
John is never going to climb a mountain.
It isnt working.
Nothings working.
I want you to leave.
Perhaps if we have a cup of coffee.
We can discuss this.
It would be a shame to lose hope now especially in this the-the season of miracles.
I dont believe in miracles, Dr.
Abbott.
Im tired.
Im done.
Tell Andy that Im done.
Hey.
Your mom said I could just come up.
Hey, umm, how ya feelin? Well, pretty good, yknow, uh, sorry about last night.
I just Thats okay, Ephram.
Youre weak stock.
Im a fast healer though.
What are you doing? Just some research stuff.
You realize that its, uh, Christmas break, right? It means all computer-oriented activities should cease and assist.
Unless of course youre buying me presents online.
Amy? Huh? Oh, sorry.
So what you have been doing the past 12 hours, anything exciting? Uh, just feeling pathetic mostly.
As you should be.
Flaking on me last minute like that.
Well, what about you, how was the pagan tree trimming and nog making? When are you going to accept my Lord? When you stop persecuting my people.
Actually, it was kinda nice, Dad, uh, Dad caroled himself to sleep.
Mom got buzzed off the hot toddies.
Hannah came by.
Yeah? Yeah, I was going to call you.
Did you? Try calling me, I mean, because my-my-my-my phone was off.
Oh.
I mean only cause I wanted to get to sleep, I mean, otherwise I would have left it on.
I just wanted to sleep.
Well, I guess, it doesnt matter because I didnt try calling you, so Are you like mad at me or something? No.
Why would I be mad at me? Well, I dont know, but youre acting mad at me.
Youre acting weird, which is normally fine, but, umm, yknow, I have a lot of work to do right now so You know what, Im-Im just gonna go.
Cool.
Umm, Ill just Ill call you later or you can call me.
Okay.
Hey, howd it go with John? Was it good? I just found some new articles on light therapy.
I was printing them up for ya.
Save your toner.
I was fired.
What? Terminated.
Unceremoniously, I might add.
Well, what did you do? Oh, no, dont tell me you took your slide projector.
What did I do? I hurled myself into her husbands treatment with unrestrained verve, thats what I did.
Well, some people dont respond well to hurling verves.
Some people need to be romanced into things a little.
What did she say? How did she act? Frankly, in the five years, Ive worked with her, Ive never seen her quite so fragile.
Perhaps its the holidays, maybe its simply exhaustion.
Whatever the reason, shes had enough, shes done.
All right, new plan.
Well talk about what you should say and-and how to say it.
Well right a script.
I do not need to recite your written words like some sort of in named drone.
Mrs.
Hayes was quite clear in her resolve.
I think we need to respect her wishes and move on.
What are you talking about, respect her wishes? We are going to continue this therapy.
Im not gonna let my patient suffer just because I mishandled my relationship with his wife.
Mishandled what precisely.
Shes a very beautiful woman, isnt she? I know she seems quite strong.
Shes really very vulnerable.
Susceptible almost.
Susceptible to what? Almost anything, Id imagine or anyone.
A woman in her position it would be very easy to confuse gratitude with other kinds of affection.
Why dont you just cut to the chase, Harold? This is not a dalliance.
Shes married to your patient.
Nothing has happened.
Well, good.
Then it's not too late.
Listen to me, Andy.
I-I believe you are an honorable man.
That belief has allowed me to stand by you even when weve disagreed.
There has been many a case, and many a parental decision where Ive questioned your tactics, your approach.
Ultimately, Ive chalked it up to your liberal ballyhoo, that New York sensibility that you still cling to.
But what youre considering now is wrong.
Its wrong.
No matter what your heart may be telling you, It is unethical.
It is-It is unforgivable.
You have to stay away from her.
Hi there.
Sshh.
Hi.
Doctor Jake Hartman.
Its nice to meet you.
These are six weeks overdue.
Yeah.
See, I never really went to the library back in LA, more of an amazon.
com kinda guy, you know? But I thought Id give it a shot here, it seemed Everwoody and all.
Anyway, Im-Im obviously not so good with the book return concept.
You should see my Blockbuster bill.
Killer.
Uh, -do you take checks? -No.
Doctor Jake? Can you possibly help me with something? Sure thing.
Youre Amy Abbott, right? Youre Ednas granddaughter.
I thought you looked familiar.
She keeps like three pictures of you on her desk.
Yeah, shes sweet.
Umm, do you know what the basal ganglia does exactly? Not a fan of small talk.
Got it.
Well, I know its part of the brain that regulates voluntary movements and I know that the caudate nucleus is in the same part of the brain, only its in charge of like, organizing thoughts and awareness and stuff.
Yeah.
Are you like pre-med or something? Undeclared.
I just dont understand why theyre so close together, if they do such different things? Its like selling toasters in the make-up department.
Well, the-the logic of brain architecture is a pretty hot debate among neuroanatomists.
What are you looking at specifically? Huntingtons disease.
Ooh.
Huntingtons is like the cruise missile of neurodegeneration and it hits the worst spot possible.
But how do you treat it, cause I havent seen anything here? Thats because we dont.
We dont know how yet.
Maybe if Washington didnt waste so much time arguing the moral ethics of stem cell research wed have a cure by now, but as it stands, we got nothing.
So basically if you have it, youre gonna die.
It might take a little while, but And how do you get it? Is it like a virus? No, its genetic.
One tweaked chromosome the tiniest thing you could possibly even imagine and youre screwed for life.
Genetics.
That means if one of your parents has it Then theres a 50% chance youre gonna have it too.
Anywho, its super nice to meet you.
Im gonna go pay for my books and head back out.
Its pretty great outside, its all sunny and cold, you should try and enjoy it.
Yeah, thanks.
Hi, youve reached Amanda, John and Charlie.
I cant believe were not here.
Taking a break? Not feeling it.
Do you ever get that thing where everything in your life is pretty much perfect but-but instead of just enjoying it you cant wait to smash it all up? I dont know, its been awhile since perfect.
Why? Whats going on? Uh, I went to see Madison the other day.
When did this happen? A few nights ago.
I got a flyer for her band on my car.
Talked to Bright.
Oh, because he always give such good advice.
So did you see her? No.
She left the band.
That.
.
The thing is So she wasnt there.
No, but the point is there was no possible reason for me to go.
No good could have come out of it, but I went anyways as if someone was daring me.
You mean Bright? No, I mean like the little red dude on my shoulder.
Hes got a pitchfork.
Hes all over the Cartoon Network.
Everything is my life is finally right.
Amys great.
School is what it is, but I-I keep testing it just seeing how far I can push things before they all fall part.
What kind of a person does that? A curious person, but there is some things you dont need to waste your time wondering about.
I - I cant help it.
Lately, I feel like my life is one of those choose your own adventure books.
Yknow if-if I take the Colorado A&M tour, does that jinx my shot at getting into Julliard? If-If call Madison, does that automatically sabotage my relationship with Amy? You got her number? Yeah, Jay gave it to me.
I dont know what I was thinking.
Well, no one says you have to call her.
Yeah, I know, but I want to, thats the whole problem.
Yeah, little red guy.
Look, if youre not feeling happy with the way things are in your life I understand mixing it up, but what I dont understand is creating drama just because you are bored.
What do you mean? Well, theres a difference between thinking and doing and the latter can be very self-destructive and youre too smart for that.
Do you love Amy? Of course, I do.
Okay, then dont just say, know it, and think about it every time youre just about to do something stupid because all those temptations, theyre always going to be there and theyre gonna come in a whole lot of forms ex girlfriend, potential girlfriends.
Snake, garden, apple.
I know where youre going with this.
So dont forget it.
Because losing someone you forgot to appreciate when you had em, thats just about the worst feeling in the world.
Trust me.
Yeah.
Maybe Deliall will want to call her or something.
Maybe.
Thank you.
You bet.
Sorry, I dont want to interrupt the process.
Uh, no process, pretty much just endless rambling.
So do you know? Know what? If you have it? I know theres a test, I read all about it and I know that you dont have to be 18 to get it.
What are you doing? Hannah, I know that you dont want me to see you differently, but you cant just reveal this enormous aspect of your life to me and expect me to just ignore it.
Well, I know how you get, Amy.
I dont want you to turn this into one of your projects.
Y- You are not my project, Hannah, youre my best friend and youre dealing with this unbelievably painful thing all by yourself and theres no reason for it.
You dont have to deal with this alone.
I want to know what you know.
I want to understand.
I dont this disease is something you ever understand, not fully.
But the fact that there is a blood test that can tell you whether or not you have the gene, I mean, thats huge.
It means theres at least potential for a cure.
Potentials are kinda of complicated, you know, God and science and all that stuff.
But youve taken the test right? No.
And Im not going to.
Okay, you know what, I dont want you to think for a second that I think I know how I would deal with this situation and Im sure that youve thought about it a gazillion times, but the fact that there is an answer out there waiting for you inside of you, dont you want to know so you can just take it off the table move on.
What if I dont have the option to just take it off the table? The way I was raised theres this thing about destiny, its a given.
Our-our parents pass down this genetic makeup thats like a symbol of them in some way a family so I got my mothers eyes and her shoulders and my dad, well, maybe he gave me something else, but I-I dont want to think about that every time I look at his picture, you know.
I just want to see him.
Besides, what difference does it make if I knew, Im gonna end up in the same place anyway.
But at least, you could be prepared.
I dont think anything could prepare me not for that.
Thank you.
For what? For taking this on.
Making me feel less lonely.
Its pretty much the best Christmas present Ive ever gotten.
Oh, yeah? So I guess I can just take back the earrings.
-Hey.
-Hey.
Do we have plans? No.
You okay? No, actually Im not okay.
I- I am so sorry, Amy.
Im sorry, I Sorry for what? Oh, uh Yknow, I wasnt I wasnt actually gonna I was I mean, I was gonna tell you but I wasnt gonna tell exactly like this.
Tell me about what? Uh I lied to you.
Uh, the other night when I said I was sick, I-I wasnt really sick, I actually went to see Madisons band play, umm, at this place.
You went to see Madison? No I mean she wasnt there.
I-I-I didnt-I didnt see her.
What possible reason could you have to go see Madison? None.
No reason and she wasnt there, thats what Im saying I mean you have to remember that part that part is key.
Well, do you wan to get back together with her? No.
No.
Then I dont understand, Ephram.
I dont- I dont either, I swear, it was I was just being stupid and self-destructive for-for no reason what so ever.
I-I feel terrible about it.
I totally regret now.
I dont understand why- why wouldnt you tell me before you went and tell me now? Because I thought you know, you were acting so weird But thats not why I told you, I-I told you because I mean, you know, I-I , you know it felt wrong not telling you and I felt like I was maybe lying to you.
You were lying.
You did lie.
I know and-and Im sorry.
You felt guilty because you knew what you did was wrong so you told me because you didnt want to feel guilty any more which means not only are you a liar, but youre a selfish liar.
Amy? Dont.
I- I just thought it was better to be honest.
Well, you thought wrong.
Okay, but dont leave like this.
You know what, Ephram, dont call me, I cant deal with this right now.
I need to get a big mean dog keep all the crazy doctors away.
I need to talk to you.
You really dont.
I get it.
You get it.
God, even Harold gets it.
I dont want you to give up on John.
Is that what you came here to say? Go home, Andy, if you talk to me in that crappy Im doctor voice one more time Im gonna knee you in the nuts.
Look, I know I havent been handling this very well.
It The whole thing is very confusing, but the one thing that I am very clear on is that we have been helping John.
Hes getting better.
Theres still a chance.
I took my chance.
I was comfortable here, you know.
It was quiet, I was lonely, but it -it was my life and after awhile it was bearable.
The way that being so numb that you cant laugh is bearable or being so drunk you cant sleep, I could deal with it.
But you asked me to take a chance, so I did.
I-I followed down this road of hope and optimism and life and now I cant find my way back.
Why would you want to go back to a life that was no life? Because it was honorable.
The day he had a stroke, the day John went I went with him, cause thats what I was supposed to do and I got so busy taking care of him and-and Charlie that I didnt even realize that I had fallen out of love with him.
I didnt even think about it until I met you.
But you do still love him.
Youre just youre feeling lost right now, confused.
-I am.
-And thats okay? Its not okay.
I know its not.
I am not confused, Andy, not the way you are.
Im not as confused as you think I am.
How confused do you think I think you are? Script: Rosemary Srt: Juanfran
Oh.
Its my beret.
From my dad.
Its like a Hong Kong thing? Uh, he gave it to me a long time ago.
Why? Well, maybe whatever reason we were friends before in the first place isnt there any more.
Its okay, yknow, things happen.
I cant be around you right now, Ephram.
See ya later.
Whats happening here? I dont know.
What do you think is happening? I dont know.
Im willing to see you to see if I was going crazy or if there is something here.
We cant.
Im telling you the whole thing is a big fat lie.
Im done.
You? Well, Brittany and I sort of said that wed get each other two presents.
But ones okay.
Lets go.
Come on.
So what do you think? Do I need a lawyer? Because you dont like your part in the holiday pageant.
I dont see anybody taking the case.
But its not a holiday pageant, its all about Christmas.
You know it, I know it, everybody knows it.
I dont know it.
Im playing an angel.
There are no angels in the Hanukkah story.
There are no angels in the Kwanzaa story.
Do you even know what the Kwanzaa story is? Well, no.
But I bet it doesnt have angels.
What do you care? Youre half Christian anyway.
But the other half of me isnt.
What about that half? What about Moms half? Okay, youre right.
So stage a revolution.
Dump the halo and tell them you want to play Elijah.
That way you dont have to show up.
If youre gonna make jokes that go over my head can you at least explain them to me? Okay, see Elijah was I dont care.
Im too mad.
Whoa.
What? What is it? Joe Lies! Isnt that Madisons band? Yeah.
Oh, can I come? Come with who? With you.
Youre gonna go, arent you? Get in the car, Elijah? "Need to Know" Morning.
Oh, good tidings to you, Dr.
Brown.
What do you think of our decked halls? Oh, fine.
Christmassy.
What? No grousing that I didnt consult you before commencing with the decorative scheme.
No quick-witted barbs about my audacious integration of traditional Victorian ornamentation with the more plebian drug store variety.
Its 8 oclock in the morning, Harold.
Youre gonna have to try to use less adjectives.
I see your mood has not improved.
You remain the quite dowered little elf.
Amanda Hayes called.
My mood is fine.
And dont call me an elf, it pisses me off.
Naturally, we want to double up on the vacuuming duty.
Nothing is more irksome than fallen tinsel strewn about.
I suspect three times a day should suffice.
I love the holidays.
Dont you just.
Go grab that Hoover.
Okay.
Youre right, I am in a bad mood.
Really.
Forgive my undropped jaw.
Im sorry, but Im-Im just look.
Im just completely overwhelmed.
I-I-I-I feel like Ive been shopping since Arbor Day and-and Im not even half way done yet.
Single father.
Christmas time.
You do have my sympathy.
Good, because Im hoping to shamelessly exploit that sympathy.
I, uh, I could really use some help with my patient load.
Perhaps, it is after all the season of charity.
Thanks.
Wait? What is this? Youre giving me John Hayes back again.
Well, all you have to do is go to the house and oversee his day-to-day progress.
I think youd be fascinated by some of the work weve been doing.
Its very cutting edge.
And when I think cutting edge, I think Harold Abbott.
From what I understand youve been a human CD changer; hardly Nobel winning.
All right, well, scratch the cutting edge, but its a very simple routine once you get it down.
Its just a little bit time consuming.
Time consuming is not a bonus.
I do have other patients to attend to.
I know, thats why I called some other doctors first about the case and no one would do it pro bono, which I find kind of ironic since this is the season of giving.
But you, with the tinsel and the Christmas balls, I mean you really have the spirit.
Oh, dont go that route, sir.
It wears very poorly on you.
Look, you were his doctor once, Harold.
You took care of him.
He needs you now and Amanda needs someone to help her through this.
Amanda? Would you help me out on this? I could really use it.
Consider it my gift to you.
Thank you.
You do realize this means youll get no sweater.
I dont know.
It just doesnt seem big enough, especially after everything he did in the cabin.
I cant believe there were candles.
Were they scented? Gardenia, which is my favorite smell.
But do you think they could engrave it.
Do you think I could fit I love you, Ephram on the back.
Absolutely, engrave it.
Then can we go? No, watch is too boring.
I want my first Christmas present for Ephram to be original, but if I try too hard to make it original Ill wind up getting him something like a fondu set, which would be weird, right? Depends.
Is Ephram a fan of cheese? I believe hes in favor of it.
Well, then But I like the watch.
Maybe I should just get him both.
Im developing hives.
Seriously, I feel all scratchy.
Am I red, because I feel red? Hannah, Hannah, you just need to see Christmas shopping as a survival game.
Just keep moving, bob and weave, avoid strollers, and pack water.
-There.
-Thank you.
All right, we can leave in 10 minutes if you have some stroke of genius about what to get my dad.
Keep in mind, I forgot his birthday last year so this has to rock.
So I guess golf balls are out.
Okay, well, what does he like? I dont know.
Umm, bad music, argyle, Mr.
Rogers.
I really feel like there should be some perfect hybrid of those things.
I know, right.
Hmm, well, what are you getting your dad? Maybe I can copy.
I havent, uh I dont know.
But theyre coming out right? Cause I want to meet them.
Yeah, uh, except I dont-I dont think theyre gonna make it actually.
Youre kidding? In fact, not.
Kidding.
So what are you going to Hong Kong, cause thatd be awesome? Christmas just isnt really a big deal in my family.
Its pretty much just, uh, food and church.
Oh, Im sorry.
No, its fine.
I-I really dont care.
So, uh, can we get your dad something and go.
Yeah.
Two pies for the County Clerks office.
Whats up? Y-You want to sit down.
Its pretty backed up.
It might be awhile.
Look at you.
Yeah.
Gone all legit? Got a new job.
I got my own T1 line.
Hey, uh, I got one of these too on my car.
Yeah, I know.
Weird right? Not for me.
So are you gonna go? No.
No, I dont Why not? Well, I dont know.
Why would I? Oh, I dont know.
Why do people slow down on the freeway when they see a car accident? All those rubberheaders.
Neckers, Bright.
Neckers.
Right.
They stop because they cant help themselves.
Yknow its not like they want to see body parts spewed all over the road.
Yknow intellectually speaking, yknow that would make them hurl, but they stop anyways, because you can, cause its there.
So, acc-according to this rationale, seeing Madisons bandll make me want to hurl and thats a reason to go.
Interesting theory.
Oh, come on, youre not even the least bit curious, what she looks like.
Its been awhile.
Yeah, of course, Im curious.
So go for the visual.
What, no, do I just bring Amy along? Dude, seriously.
I dont know how you made this far without me.
Really.
You dont tell Amy.
Shed freak.
Well, I thought you said it was human nature.
Well, its male human nature.
OK? female human natures complete different.
Were talking about jealousy and claws.
It-Its ugliness, man.
So I should lie to her.
Look, lies of omission dont count as lies.
Did you tell Amy that you didnt brush your teeth this morning? Well, I did brush -my teeth this morning.
-Pretend that you didnt, would you tell her? Well, uh, why? No, I wouldnt.
This is the exact same thing.
Okay, here you go, Bright.
I, uh, put it on the city tab for you.
Thank you.
Uh, I dont think I should go.
Well, youre a bigger man than I am, Ephram Brown.
But I guess we already knew that.
You want a refill on that.
Your friends suck, no offense.
Gee, how could I take offense to that.
No, but seriously, they dump their kid on you at the beginning of her junior year which, by the way, is the hardest year ever.
They never call her and now theyre not even going to for Christmas.
Did Hannah say she was upset about this? Well, you know what, shes not as upset as she should be but thats only because shes not in touch with her rage.
Luckily, I am.
Uh, yeah, I can see that.
Do you have their number on you? I think I should call them.
Uh, what number? In Hong Kong.
Ill charge it to my dad.
He wont care and maybe if they heard from her best friend theyd actually understand.
You know what, I call them.
I-I can explain everything.
Thats okay, Id rather to it myself.
But do you know what the time change is so that I dont call them in the middle of the night? Nina? Yeah.
Do you know what the time difference is? Umm, I dont know its like what 12 hours maybe.
There is no Hong Kong is there? Well, technically Hong Kong exists.
I can point it out on a map, but Hannahs parents arent there.
What? Youre gonna have to talk to her yourself I-I cant do this part.
Talk to about her about what, I dont even know whats happening here.
She lied to me? It is not a lie, lie.
Look, you just have to talk to Hannah.
I do talk to Hannah.
We talk about everything.
She knows my entire life story.
Gah, this is like were right back to where we started.
No.
No, youre not.
Listen to me, you know Hannah.
Y-You know what a good girl she is and you know that she loves you to death.
So think about the reasons why she might keep something from you.
I dont know.
Bad.
Look, you can to talk about it or you can let her come to you when shes ready to just please dont be mad at her, okay? I need seven minutes.
Uh, its okay.
Im-Im still at home.
OK, uh, the slower you drive the better Ill look.
So, uhh, had an interesting conversation with Nina today, Im not really sure the best way to approach it yet.
Oh, yeah.
Would it be huge if we didnt go out tonight? Huh? I thought we were gonna, yknow? Yeah, I know Im just Im-Im feeling a little under the weather, so Hmm, West Nile Virus? Probably.
I-I think should stay in, I dont want to get any more sick.
Okay, well you want me to bring you soup or I could, uh, go pick up your favorite cold medicine, one that makes you feel drunk.
Thats okay, I dont want to get you sick.
Okay, well, umm, take lots of Vitamin C, watch Jon Stewart and call me tomorrow.
I will.
-Bye.
-Bye.
Hey.
Do you know they dont serve beer here? Thats because its a coffee house.
So youre here? As are you.
Howd you know Id? Dude, please.
I figured you could use a wingman.
Im Wh-what do I really expect tonight, best case scenario? Uh, okay, possibility number one you want to get back together with Madison.
No.
I-I dont.
Come on, she came up to you and said you were the only man shes ever loved and said shed dress up like CatWoman for you, you would say no.
No, its not like that, I dont I dont miss Madison like that, I dont even miss the relationship that we had.
The truth is I always felt like I was trying to keep up with her prove myself with Amy I dont feel like that way, she makes me feel good.
Groovy, well, then this is just the Pepsi Challenge.
More metaphors.
Look, youre in love with your current beverage okay Amy Cola, alright, but every man needs the side by side taste test.
Okay so you come here, you check out the ex and you just make sure you made the right choice.
Yknow, of course, that choice becomes much easier if Madisons suddenly became heinous.
Lets have a big welcome for Joe Lies.
You should write a book.
Ive been thinking about it.
Just pray for fat, man.
Pray for fat.
Youre gonna sag all the Oreos, arent ya? You caught me.
Personally I cant do Oreos without the milk.
Has to be ice cold, big glass, without the dripping theres really no point to Oreos, right? I always knew that you were a high maintenance woman.
So I didnt see Charlie in the show? Oh, he was, uh, back stage.
Curtain man, I believe, is the official title.
He gets tongue fried.
Uh, stage, uh, fight.
Tongue tied when hes nervous.
Its genetic as you can see.
I, uh, Ive been meaning to call you.
I got your message about Dr.
Dabib.
Oh, thats okay, I-I wasnt really expecting you to take on the case.
Well, actually it doesnt really matter, cause I found somebody much better.
This is a doctor whose actually looking to do pro bono work.
-Uh, Andy, weve already been -Its Dr.
Abbott.
Dr.
Abbott? Yeah, hes very excited about it and he already has a relationship with John so it just works out perfectly.
Dr.
Abbott is looking to do pro bono work.
Does he know what pro bono means? Well, hes very serious about it and I think that you and John will be very pleased.
Stop that.
Stop talking to me like you dont even know who I am.
Daddy, Daddy, did you see me? See you, are you kidding? How could I miss you, you were the only Maccabee in the manger.
You stole the show, kiddo.
-Thanks.
-Youre welcome.
Who took all the Oreos? Oh, probably some greedy parents, come on, well go find you some more.
-Ill, uh, call you.
-Don't.
You dont have too.
Im dreaming of a White Christmas just like the ones I used to know.
Dad, love the Bing, but can we maybe switch it up a bit? What? Silence theyre Bing, never.
When we, Abbotts, lose our traditions, young lady, we lose who we are.
Uh, we should save the star for Bright, its his favorite part.
Rice Krispies Treats are his favorite part.
Maybe we should make some more.
I bet you thats Ephram.
I knew he didnt sound that sick.
Well, invite him in, theres plenty of cider.
Oh, thats okay, Mom, its still early, we could make the movie.
Oh, hi.
Nina said she talked to you.
Yeah, but she didnt me anything, umm, she asked me to leave you alone, so No, I know.
Do you have a minute? Yeah.
My parents are in, uh, Lakeville, Minnesota, in the same house where I grew up.
Okay, so why the whole Hong Kong thing? I dont know.
They reran 90210 on FX and the Walshes went to live Hong Kong.
I thought it was sort of believable.
That is good.
Yeah, well it was a pretty good show.
Okay, but I still dont know why you made up the story in the first place? Because my dad is kinda dying.
Omigod, Hannah.
No, dont.
Dont do that, see thats why I made up the story so I wouldnt be that girl any more tragedy girl.
I-I went through the first two years of high school being that person and I dont want it any more.
Okay, I understand that.
I know you do.
He used to work in the library restoring rare books.
He loved the book's like not the insides, but the outside like the covers.
The way they smelled.
I just liked the insides and he said that made us a perfect fit.
He was the book, I was the story.
He has Huntingtons disease.
Im sorry.
I dont-I dont know what that is.
Its a brain disease.
My birthday party when I was eight, my dad just punched this other dad, I mean like a-a real punch.
I remember the noise.
My dad was so nice like he never even yelled at anybody but there he was.
There was blood all over his green shirt and he didnt even know why he did it.
A year later he couldnt eat.
Then he couldnt talk, that was the worst part when he talking cause we used to talk a lot.
And now hes gone.
When did he Did he die? No.
No.
Hes, uh, hes not, hes just in bed.
Yknow, he cant talk or think or-or move.
You look in his eyes and hes just empty.
Hes the book without the story.
My mom takes care of him.
My brother always took care of me, but he went away to college last year so I came here.
Dont feel sorry for me, okay.
Hello there.
Did I call too early? Not if youre a Marine.
I trust Dr.
Brown told you Id be coming by.
I believe he promised.
Excellent.
Well, worry not about the baton passing smoothly Mrs.
Hayes.
I have devoured Johns recent files.
I believe he may be teetering on the brink of breakthrough.
I intend to give him a firm shove.
Three-pronged outlet? Maybe you can shove him later in the week, hes sleeping right now.
When then I have ample time to prepare my materials.
John will awaken refreshed and keen to challenge the next phase of his rehabilitation.
Music therapy was an encouraging beginning, but its time to leap from the realm of sound into the complex world of the visual.
Intrigued? Yes, Ive dreamt of this moment.
You were wearing a top hat.
My preliminary research has led me to discover a nascent theory almost undiscussed in medical journals.
I believe that we can use color therapy to help John rebuild the emotional connections within his brain.
-Color therapy? -Yes.
It maybe historic research.
Allow me to illuminate the concept.
There.
Now how does this color make you feel? Umm, its blue.
Its a royal lavender more specifically but you are emotionally correct.
This wavelength tends to promote melancholia.
Dr.
Abbott? Just a moment of your indulgences please.
Rose pink, dynamic, vibrant.
Now please your honest emotional reaction.
Annoyed.
Angry? Getting there.
Yes, scarlet stirs the rageful humors as you can see the connection between color and emotion is elemental so perhaps over time, John could develop a rudimentary emotional vocabulary based on these colored lights.
You know are not putting my husband under a grow lamp.
He is not a philodendron.
I realize this sounds rather theoretical.
It seems like youre about don a toga and pass me a daisy.
Dr.
Brown has made remarkable progress.
We can build on that.
Dr.
Brown sees what he wants to see.
John moved his finger.
He blinked.
Who knows what it means? The highest mountain is climbed in tiny steps.
John is never going to climb a mountain.
It isnt working.
Nothings working.
I want you to leave.
Perhaps if we have a cup of coffee.
We can discuss this.
It would be a shame to lose hope now especially in this the-the season of miracles.
I dont believe in miracles, Dr.
Abbott.
Im tired.
Im done.
Tell Andy that Im done.
Hey.
Your mom said I could just come up.
Hey, umm, how ya feelin? Well, pretty good, yknow, uh, sorry about last night.
I just Thats okay, Ephram.
Youre weak stock.
Im a fast healer though.
What are you doing? Just some research stuff.
You realize that its, uh, Christmas break, right? It means all computer-oriented activities should cease and assist.
Unless of course youre buying me presents online.
Amy? Huh? Oh, sorry.
So what you have been doing the past 12 hours, anything exciting? Uh, just feeling pathetic mostly.
As you should be.
Flaking on me last minute like that.
Well, what about you, how was the pagan tree trimming and nog making? When are you going to accept my Lord? When you stop persecuting my people.
Actually, it was kinda nice, Dad, uh, Dad caroled himself to sleep.
Mom got buzzed off the hot toddies.
Hannah came by.
Yeah? Yeah, I was going to call you.
Did you? Try calling me, I mean, because my-my-my-my phone was off.
Oh.
I mean only cause I wanted to get to sleep, I mean, otherwise I would have left it on.
I just wanted to sleep.
Well, I guess, it doesnt matter because I didnt try calling you, so Are you like mad at me or something? No.
Why would I be mad at me? Well, I dont know, but youre acting mad at me.
Youre acting weird, which is normally fine, but, umm, yknow, I have a lot of work to do right now so You know what, Im-Im just gonna go.
Cool.
Umm, Ill just Ill call you later or you can call me.
Okay.
Hey, howd it go with John? Was it good? I just found some new articles on light therapy.
I was printing them up for ya.
Save your toner.
I was fired.
What? Terminated.
Unceremoniously, I might add.
Well, what did you do? Oh, no, dont tell me you took your slide projector.
What did I do? I hurled myself into her husbands treatment with unrestrained verve, thats what I did.
Well, some people dont respond well to hurling verves.
Some people need to be romanced into things a little.
What did she say? How did she act? Frankly, in the five years, Ive worked with her, Ive never seen her quite so fragile.
Perhaps its the holidays, maybe its simply exhaustion.
Whatever the reason, shes had enough, shes done.
All right, new plan.
Well talk about what you should say and-and how to say it.
Well right a script.
I do not need to recite your written words like some sort of in named drone.
Mrs.
Hayes was quite clear in her resolve.
I think we need to respect her wishes and move on.
What are you talking about, respect her wishes? We are going to continue this therapy.
Im not gonna let my patient suffer just because I mishandled my relationship with his wife.
Mishandled what precisely.
Shes a very beautiful woman, isnt she? I know she seems quite strong.
Shes really very vulnerable.
Susceptible almost.
Susceptible to what? Almost anything, Id imagine or anyone.
A woman in her position it would be very easy to confuse gratitude with other kinds of affection.
Why dont you just cut to the chase, Harold? This is not a dalliance.
Shes married to your patient.
Nothing has happened.
Well, good.
Then it's not too late.
Listen to me, Andy.
I-I believe you are an honorable man.
That belief has allowed me to stand by you even when weve disagreed.
There has been many a case, and many a parental decision where Ive questioned your tactics, your approach.
Ultimately, Ive chalked it up to your liberal ballyhoo, that New York sensibility that you still cling to.
But what youre considering now is wrong.
Its wrong.
No matter what your heart may be telling you, It is unethical.
It is-It is unforgivable.
You have to stay away from her.
Hi there.
Sshh.
Hi.
Doctor Jake Hartman.
Its nice to meet you.
These are six weeks overdue.
Yeah.
See, I never really went to the library back in LA, more of an amazon.
com kinda guy, you know? But I thought Id give it a shot here, it seemed Everwoody and all.
Anyway, Im-Im obviously not so good with the book return concept.
You should see my Blockbuster bill.
Killer.
Uh, -do you take checks? -No.
Doctor Jake? Can you possibly help me with something? Sure thing.
Youre Amy Abbott, right? Youre Ednas granddaughter.
I thought you looked familiar.
She keeps like three pictures of you on her desk.
Yeah, shes sweet.
Umm, do you know what the basal ganglia does exactly? Not a fan of small talk.
Got it.
Well, I know its part of the brain that regulates voluntary movements and I know that the caudate nucleus is in the same part of the brain, only its in charge of like, organizing thoughts and awareness and stuff.
Yeah.
Are you like pre-med or something? Undeclared.
I just dont understand why theyre so close together, if they do such different things? Its like selling toasters in the make-up department.
Well, the-the logic of brain architecture is a pretty hot debate among neuroanatomists.
What are you looking at specifically? Huntingtons disease.
Ooh.
Huntingtons is like the cruise missile of neurodegeneration and it hits the worst spot possible.
But how do you treat it, cause I havent seen anything here? Thats because we dont.
We dont know how yet.
Maybe if Washington didnt waste so much time arguing the moral ethics of stem cell research wed have a cure by now, but as it stands, we got nothing.
So basically if you have it, youre gonna die.
It might take a little while, but And how do you get it? Is it like a virus? No, its genetic.
One tweaked chromosome the tiniest thing you could possibly even imagine and youre screwed for life.
Genetics.
That means if one of your parents has it Then theres a 50% chance youre gonna have it too.
Anywho, its super nice to meet you.
Im gonna go pay for my books and head back out.
Its pretty great outside, its all sunny and cold, you should try and enjoy it.
Yeah, thanks.
Hi, youve reached Amanda, John and Charlie.
I cant believe were not here.
Taking a break? Not feeling it.
Do you ever get that thing where everything in your life is pretty much perfect but-but instead of just enjoying it you cant wait to smash it all up? I dont know, its been awhile since perfect.
Why? Whats going on? Uh, I went to see Madison the other day.
When did this happen? A few nights ago.
I got a flyer for her band on my car.
Talked to Bright.
Oh, because he always give such good advice.
So did you see her? No.
She left the band.
That.
.
The thing is So she wasnt there.
No, but the point is there was no possible reason for me to go.
No good could have come out of it, but I went anyways as if someone was daring me.
You mean Bright? No, I mean like the little red dude on my shoulder.
Hes got a pitchfork.
Hes all over the Cartoon Network.
Everything is my life is finally right.
Amys great.
School is what it is, but I-I keep testing it just seeing how far I can push things before they all fall part.
What kind of a person does that? A curious person, but there is some things you dont need to waste your time wondering about.
I - I cant help it.
Lately, I feel like my life is one of those choose your own adventure books.
Yknow if-if I take the Colorado A&M tour, does that jinx my shot at getting into Julliard? If-If call Madison, does that automatically sabotage my relationship with Amy? You got her number? Yeah, Jay gave it to me.
I dont know what I was thinking.
Well, no one says you have to call her.
Yeah, I know, but I want to, thats the whole problem.
Yeah, little red guy.
Look, if youre not feeling happy with the way things are in your life I understand mixing it up, but what I dont understand is creating drama just because you are bored.
What do you mean? Well, theres a difference between thinking and doing and the latter can be very self-destructive and youre too smart for that.
Do you love Amy? Of course, I do.
Okay, then dont just say, know it, and think about it every time youre just about to do something stupid because all those temptations, theyre always going to be there and theyre gonna come in a whole lot of forms ex girlfriend, potential girlfriends.
Snake, garden, apple.
I know where youre going with this.
So dont forget it.
Because losing someone you forgot to appreciate when you had em, thats just about the worst feeling in the world.
Trust me.
Yeah.
Maybe Deliall will want to call her or something.
Maybe.
Thank you.
You bet.
Sorry, I dont want to interrupt the process.
Uh, no process, pretty much just endless rambling.
So do you know? Know what? If you have it? I know theres a test, I read all about it and I know that you dont have to be 18 to get it.
What are you doing? Hannah, I know that you dont want me to see you differently, but you cant just reveal this enormous aspect of your life to me and expect me to just ignore it.
Well, I know how you get, Amy.
I dont want you to turn this into one of your projects.
Y- You are not my project, Hannah, youre my best friend and youre dealing with this unbelievably painful thing all by yourself and theres no reason for it.
You dont have to deal with this alone.
I want to know what you know.
I want to understand.
I dont this disease is something you ever understand, not fully.
But the fact that there is a blood test that can tell you whether or not you have the gene, I mean, thats huge.
It means theres at least potential for a cure.
Potentials are kinda of complicated, you know, God and science and all that stuff.
But youve taken the test right? No.
And Im not going to.
Okay, you know what, I dont want you to think for a second that I think I know how I would deal with this situation and Im sure that youve thought about it a gazillion times, but the fact that there is an answer out there waiting for you inside of you, dont you want to know so you can just take it off the table move on.
What if I dont have the option to just take it off the table? The way I was raised theres this thing about destiny, its a given.
Our-our parents pass down this genetic makeup thats like a symbol of them in some way a family so I got my mothers eyes and her shoulders and my dad, well, maybe he gave me something else, but I-I dont want to think about that every time I look at his picture, you know.
I just want to see him.
Besides, what difference does it make if I knew, Im gonna end up in the same place anyway.
But at least, you could be prepared.
I dont think anything could prepare me not for that.
Thank you.
For what? For taking this on.
Making me feel less lonely.
Its pretty much the best Christmas present Ive ever gotten.
Oh, yeah? So I guess I can just take back the earrings.
-Hey.
-Hey.
Do we have plans? No.
You okay? No, actually Im not okay.
I- I am so sorry, Amy.
Im sorry, I Sorry for what? Oh, uh Yknow, I wasnt I wasnt actually gonna I was I mean, I was gonna tell you but I wasnt gonna tell exactly like this.
Tell me about what? Uh I lied to you.
Uh, the other night when I said I was sick, I-I wasnt really sick, I actually went to see Madisons band play, umm, at this place.
You went to see Madison? No I mean she wasnt there.
I-I-I didnt-I didnt see her.
What possible reason could you have to go see Madison? None.
No reason and she wasnt there, thats what Im saying I mean you have to remember that part that part is key.
Well, do you wan to get back together with her? No.
No.
Then I dont understand, Ephram.
I dont- I dont either, I swear, it was I was just being stupid and self-destructive for-for no reason what so ever.
I-I feel terrible about it.
I totally regret now.
I dont understand why- why wouldnt you tell me before you went and tell me now? Because I thought you know, you were acting so weird But thats not why I told you, I-I told you because I mean, you know, I-I , you know it felt wrong not telling you and I felt like I was maybe lying to you.
You were lying.
You did lie.
I know and-and Im sorry.
You felt guilty because you knew what you did was wrong so you told me because you didnt want to feel guilty any more which means not only are you a liar, but youre a selfish liar.
Amy? Dont.
I- I just thought it was better to be honest.
Well, you thought wrong.
Okay, but dont leave like this.
You know what, Ephram, dont call me, I cant deal with this right now.
I need to get a big mean dog keep all the crazy doctors away.
I need to talk to you.
You really dont.
I get it.
You get it.
God, even Harold gets it.
I dont want you to give up on John.
Is that what you came here to say? Go home, Andy, if you talk to me in that crappy Im doctor voice one more time Im gonna knee you in the nuts.
Look, I know I havent been handling this very well.
It The whole thing is very confusing, but the one thing that I am very clear on is that we have been helping John.
Hes getting better.
Theres still a chance.
I took my chance.
I was comfortable here, you know.
It was quiet, I was lonely, but it -it was my life and after awhile it was bearable.
The way that being so numb that you cant laugh is bearable or being so drunk you cant sleep, I could deal with it.
But you asked me to take a chance, so I did.
I-I followed down this road of hope and optimism and life and now I cant find my way back.
Why would you want to go back to a life that was no life? Because it was honorable.
The day he had a stroke, the day John went I went with him, cause thats what I was supposed to do and I got so busy taking care of him and-and Charlie that I didnt even realize that I had fallen out of love with him.
I didnt even think about it until I met you.
But you do still love him.
Youre just youre feeling lost right now, confused.
-I am.
-And thats okay? Its not okay.
I know its not.
I am not confused, Andy, not the way you are.
Im not as confused as you think I am.
How confused do you think I think you are? Script: Rosemary Srt: Juanfran