Saving Hope (2012) s05e09 Episode Script
All Our Yesterdays
1 [chuckles.]
When someone's that secretive about their phone, it's got to be either porn or a job offer.
Well, it's porn.
It's totally porn.
[snaps fingers.]
It is a job offer.
Come on.
From where? [chuckles.]
Somewhere exotic? Come on, spill.
It's from my old hospital back in Detroit.
And I guess it's exotic in its own way.
Nice! So it takes you back to old friends and family That'd great, huh? Yeah, my sister did just have twins.
Aww.
And the hospital's offering to back the money truck up for me, so So the upside's pretty obvious.
What's the downside? I I kind of I kind of like it here, you know? I think maybe I should stay.
[cellphone vibrates.]
Give this place a real chance.
Right.
I'm needed in the trauma bay.
But maybe you could tell me later what's the real reason keeping you here.
Or whom.
Hmm? Thank you for the coffee.
Hey, Manny.
It's Alex.
Maybe you started your shift already.
I just I wanted to call to tell you that I'm sorry that I didn't say goodbye before I left.
Things have just been crazy with my mom and everything, and I just I needed some space.
Anyway, I am coming back tonight, so if you want to, let's meet after your shift and we can talk.
[thud.]
Martha: Oh! - Mom? - Ohh! Oh, my God.
Are you okay? - I'm fine.
- [sighs.]
I'm fine! It's Ugh, it's my own fault for trying to move the damn thing by myself.
- Well, are you hurt? - No.
Oh, it's the balance in this room is all off.
I mean, you can just feel it.
- Well, you need to be more careful.
- [sighs.]
Well, if somebody had cleaned the living room before like I asked.
Right.
You've been leaving out your papers.
What is this? Sunny Pines, Manor on the Glen? - These are palliative care facilities.
- Oh! I left them out for you, remember? You You didn't look at them, did you? Okay, well, we have appointments to see them.
When we get back to town, we need to find ones that you'll like.
No! No, I can't do that.
I I've got too much to do.
This place is a sty.
No, t-this place is spotless.
[sighs.]
Well, if you think that Nick Murphy isn't gonna judge me for rings on the tables or dust on the walls, then you're not gonna be the help to me that you said you were gonna be.
Okay, I am sorry, Mom.
Who is Nick Murphy? The real estate agent.
Alex, he's coming to appraise the house.
I told you.
I'm selling it.
Can't I stay just a bit longer? I don't know how many more ways I can tell you this, Blake, but you are dead.
Saw my body on this table.
I totally get that.
But what I'm saying is why can't I just chill here a little while longer? Do whatever you want.
But I can't be talking to you anymore because I am busy! Don't make me follow you home.
You Does that shelf look level to you? Wouldn't it fall over if it wasn't? Hmm.
Not on my watch.
Dr.
Harris.
Um, I was wondering if we could have a little chat, Chief to Chief.
You mean Interim Chief to Interim Chief? Nobody listens to me.
Every resident rotation, every surgery I assign Yeah, well, that's heavy lies the crown.
Such a heavy crown.
- Mm.
- It's hard enough proving that I deserve the permanent chiefship, but how do you lead when no one respects you? Well, you went from friend to boss overnight, so it's not gonna happen right away.
Why, you're not thinking about stepping down, are you? No! Wait.
Should I? No.
[cellphone vibrates, elevator bell dings.]
I am the most qualified.
Dr.
Bell even said so.
Yeah, well Oh, look! Incoming trauma.
Huh.
We will talk about this later.
Right Chief? I need you.
Uh, can you be more specific and less kidnappy, please? I'm on rounds.
I have an OB admission, but she won't let me examine her or Dr.
Rosen, who's on call.
She wants a woman.
Actually, Dr.
Lin, she wants you.
Mrs.
Friedman, Dr.
Lin.
Thank you for your time, Dr.
Scott.
Okay, Mrs.
Friedman, I see you're 14 weeks pregnant and receiving chemotherapy for ovarian cancer.
Tumor showed up in my ultrasound.
I was supposed to have surgery, but it already spread.
They backed off and biopsied.
Stage 2.
She's been on mild chemo to control growth till the baby's viable.
It sounds like a plan.
Why you'd move from Summer Hill Memorial to see me? Your cancer study.
My sister's a doctor.
She told me about it.
I want to enroll, Dr.
Lin.
May I ask who your sister is? [groans.]
The pain's worse.
It's just a wave.
A-A bad one.
Okay.
Keep breathing slow.
I am! Slower, Rivka.
Slow down.
[alarms beeping.]
Hey.
We got a John Doe, possible transient.
Decided to go for a stroll in a subway tunnel.
Poor guy.
Was he living down there? Unclear.
Definite thoracic trauma.
Left tibia's broken in two places and likely pelvic fracture.
Yeah, internal injuries, but no major bleeding I can see so far.
Okay, he needs an MRI right away.
His pupils are sluggish.
This could be a brain bleed.
All right, Dr.
Hamza's got dibs.
Let's get him up to imaging.
Let's go! Oh.
In the meantime, you better take a look at this.
I found it in his pocket.
[indistinct announcement over P.
A.
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[gasps.]
Impressive, Dr.
Sekara.
I didn't master sleeping while standing up until third year.
You don't mind, do you? Bold move.
I should put you on abscess duty.
Hey, hey.
Be cool.
I can't deal right now.
What? Nurse Cabrera.
Dr.
Miller.
Is Dr.
Sekara around? Uh, last I saw, I think he was in the middle of a fairly dramatic enema.
Oh.
Should I interrupt? Probably not.
I got it.
Here you go.
Tell him I'm looking for him.
[sighs.]
We've been, uh [clears throat.]
dating a few weeks now, and, uh I can't keep up.
If we're not on a shift, we're on a dance floor.
I don't know how she does it.
I'm sorry.
You're complaining? Wilfred: Hey, hey, hey, hey.
Screw off! Hey, hey, hey, hey, hey.
Come on.
- The line for this club is - You can't You can't come in here.
- What are you, the boun - You're not supposed to come in here.
What are you, the bouncer? I'll have a double vodka.
He said he was having chest pains.
[slurred.]
Just leave me with the bartender.
Sir, it's 9:30 A.
M.
Well, then, to Kensington then, my man! The after-hours bars are calling my name.
Look, I don't know this guy, but 20 minutes ago, he said he was dying in the back of my cab.
This is for the cab, and this is for the gyro you dumped in my back seat.
Hey, hey, hey.
Wait a minute.
I want my leftovers back! Party machines need fuel.
Whoa! Okay, pump the brakes there, Keith Richards.
Let's find out if you're really dying.
Where's that vodka? I flew home right after Becca was diagnosed.
And when I looked into treatment options, I came across your study with Dr.
Reid.
it's impressive work.
Thanks.
Can you help her? Sydney said my pathology fit your criteria, even though I'm pregnant.
Right now, I just want to focus on what's causing all this pain.
With Syd's counsel, of course.
I don't I don't think that's a very good idea.
No.
I'm just here to help get her admitted.
My parents are on the way with Becca's husband.
Mary, could you get Mrs.
Friedman something more for her pain? You just stay comfortable.
I'll be right around the corner if you need anything.
[indistinct announcement over P.
A.
.]
I'm so sorry.
Yeah.
It's been a rough year for the Katz family [sniffles.]
starting with me.
[chuckles.]
Since I came out, my mother actually thinks I gave the whole family an Ayin Hara, you know, "the evil eye.
" Oh, come on.
Old World Jewish curses, Maggie.
It's very serious stuff.
So, Becca's treatment plan You have room for her in your study? That's what I wanted to talk to you about.
The study's over.
They started a new phase at Mississauga Memorial, but it's only open to existing patients.
[sniffles.]
That's disappointing news.
Yeah.
At least she'll still have you.
I'm not sure what I can do that her last doctor didn't think of.
- You really can't stay? - No.
My parents have made it very clear that they don't want me here.
In fact, it's probably better for Becca if I head out before they arrive.
You look good, Maggie.
I put on a pelvic binder as a temporary measure till I can get the ex-fix on.
Well, you bought us time to deal with the thoracic trauma.
Thank you.
We're gonna need to keep an eye on his pressure until we can get him back to you.
In the meantime, any ideas as to how your name got in his book? No idea.
Maybe an old patient? It's all over the place.
Different writing, different voices.
Maybe Dissociative Identity Disorder? Yeah, I paged Psych, so let's see what they have to say.
There's got to be someone out there that cares where this guy is.
Is there any other names in there to go on? Yeah.
We have Esther Leach, Vin Tranh, Randall Crane, Maria Jara Wait a second.
Did you say Randall Crane? W-Why does that name sound familiar? Uh Actually, he's he's been here before.
A few times.
Wait.
It's that psychic who messed with Alex's head when you were in a coma.
Uh-huh.
Okay, well, maybe we should contact him.
- Yeah.
- No, I'm I'm starting to think that this is him.
God! How did he end up like this? That is an excellent question.
Would you like to come and hear the answer now? You're quiet.
You don't approve.
Mom, I'm just surprised.
It's a It's a great time to sell.
I just thought you were putting things off.
I'm not putting anything off.
Well, I am glad that you're facing this head-on.
We'll choose a care home that you like, somewhere close to me.
It will be great.
There's no need to bother about any of those places.
We talked about this, mother.
What do you mean? [sighs.]
I've done a lot of thinking, Alex, and I want to die here.
I don't want to wait.
And I want you to help me.
[knife scrapes.]
You want me to help you die? There's Nick.
Thinner, sweetie.
He's a real estate agent, not a farm animal.
[door opens.]
Martha, you completely undersold how adorable this place is.
And is that Alex Reid, or do my eyes deceive me? [chuckles.]
- How have you been, girl? - Good.
It's been what, 20 years? You remember Nick, don't you, Alex? St.
Regis High.
I asked you to the prom.
And you said no? Oh, you were so adorable, Nick.
He was so persistent.
He kept calling and calling.
He was even hanging around outside the house.
[chuckling.]
Oh, I definitely remember you now.
So let me show you the place.
Uh, actually, Nick, we need to reschedule.
Oh, you know, I think that I forgot to tell Alex that you were coming today.
And, you know, selling the place, she needs some time to adjust.
You feel like you're selling your memories with your house, Alex.
I get it.
I don't think you do, Nick.
How about you, uh, start to take a look around? We'll catch up to you.
Mother, uh We need to talk about this.
Not now, Alex.
- We have a guest.
- Not later! Now, mother.
You see? This is why I didn't want to ask you.
Because I knew you'd get like this.
Get like what? You're always so dramatic.
I'm the one being dramatic right now? You think that I actually want to kill myself in front of our real estate agent? That would shave $50,000 off the list price easy.
It's not funny.
It's a little funny.
Oh, I don't want him to see the water stain in the en suite.
[sighs.]
Hey! Charlie! You look great, man.
Really great.
Let me guess.
You, too, are off gluten and refined sugars, huh? [chuckles.]
No, wait a minute.
I'm sensing it's something else with you.
What is it? [gasps.]
No carbs or dairy.
[clicks tongue.]
Except for cheese.
I mean, everybody cheats with cheese, so.
Yeah.
You're pretty funny for a guy who just got hit by a train.
Yeah.
Mm.
Went down there for a little peace and quiet.
A little respite from our mutual friends.
Didn't turn out so good.
Caught a look at your journal, Randall.
Why was my name in it? Because of the changes.
Changes? What changes? Last time I talked to you, you said you didn't see them anymore.
Yeah, well, that didn't last.
Not so long.
They couldn't quit me.
I mean, come on.
Could you quit me? Huh? I'm about to quit this conversation.
Okay, okay.
Fine, fine, fine.
It started slowly at first.
And I was doing great.
I was doing really good.
I was getting along with my daughter.
I was a granddad.
[chuckles.]
And then, um Well, you know, a little whisper here, a little shadow there, and then one day, it was just kapow! Kapow? Oh, kapow.
Everything gets turned up to 11.
You still haven't told me what this is about.
Look, man.
I always thought I could control this.
You know that.
Eventually, I found out it controls you.
I tried to get away from it.
I ran down to a subway and [pops lips.]
So When you find out you can't shake it, that's how it starts.
What's left of me in there, that's how it ends.
Shahir: Randall's craniotomy was a success.
His pressure was dropping when I was closing.
I'm worried the thoracic bleed may be not as minor as we suspected.
You sure we don't want to crack him open? No.
He's been through too much.
Let's keep it minimal.
EVAR was a good call.
Thank you, Dr.
Hamza.
Yes, fine.
Just keep me updated.
[monitors beeping.]
I'm really starting to think that guy doesn't like me.
Who? Shahir? He doesn't like change.
And you and Alex are change.
Look.
She's my best friend.
Do you think she wouldn't mention you? Needle.
So, you never told me You got a job offer that takes you back to your family and a pile of money to sweeten the deal So, what is keeping you here? Does is rhyme with Alex Reid? I can totally hear you, by the way? Look, I know what you're gonna say.
It's a crazy time right now for her.
Do you know how many people have tried to "helpfully" tell me this? Implying you are the rebound guy.
[chuckles.]
Look, I'm just not big on collecting regrets.
And if I don't give it a try with her, I will have one.
Manny, I'm gonna tell you something that you might not want to hear.
I know Alex, and she and Charlie are the long-term picture here.
They just are.
Maybe that picture's changing.
They have a kid together.
That's something that never changes.
Where is my phone? I need a cab.
[chuckles.]
It's not single malt, but it does go great with root beer.
Come on.
How long you been going like this? Not long enough.
Don't love his pressure, Dr.
Miller, but it might just be all the partying.
I know what you're doing here, Wilfred.
You don't know anything, kid.
It's not your first time here.
You were admitted six months ago after your wife died.
I treated you.
You thought you were dying.
Turned out to be an extreme grief reaction.
I can't stop you from doing what you're doing, Wilfred, but I can slow you down.
Dr.
Sekara, let's get an chest X-Ray, echo, and full blood panels.
Look at yourself.
Looks like they put a white coat on a turd.
Dr.
Miller, he's got an arrhythmia.
Okay.
You're mine now, Willy.
Buckle up.
To a beautiful future.
Your mother's just agreed to let me represent her in her sale.
Well Let's get you a glass.
No.
No, thank you.
Martha, I have to ask This place is paradise.
Why do you want to sell? Well, you know, after my husband passed, I I needed a change, so I moved out here and packed up the kids and But now, I I'm the only one rattling around here, and I want a new adventure.
Sounds exciting.
Where? The Greek islands.
I want I've always wanted to go to the Greek islands.
Nick, I think we should finish this up later.
My mother's had a long day.
Oh, no! I'm fine.
No, Nick.
Please.
Sit, sit, sit, sit, sit, sit.
I-I want to hear everything that's been going on with you for the last 20 years, ever since my daughter blew it with you.
Martha, I really should be going.
I have a billboard I have to sign off on.
Oh, come on.
The party's just getting started.
Alex, you go up and call your father and your brothers and tell them to come down and bring the music box, and and Oh, it's You should he he Oh! [glass shatters.]
Mom.
Mom? Okay.
All right, Mama.
I got you.
Just sit back down.
I'm here.
I'm here with you.
- You're gonna be okay.
Nick: - What's wrong with her? I've got her.
You just need to go, okay? [Martha groaning.]
Hey.
Mama, I got you.
I got you.
You're gonna be okay.
What do you mean, the study's over? There's nothing that we can do? You said it would be better here.
You said they would save me and my baby! No, I never said that.
Mom and Dad are right.
This was a huge mistake.
I'm the next best thing to Sydney.
She trained me.
Oh, so you were there when she decided to upend her life and drop a bomb on our entire family? I didn't exactly decide.
You didn't tell me! You didn't say anything to me! I'm sorry.
I'm sorry.
I'm just I'm scared.
I've had four miscarriages already.
What am I gonna do? Okay.
We're gonna continue with a basic chemo cocktail that doesn't hurt the baby.
You're still 10 weeks from viability, so we have plenty of - [screams.]
- Becca.
What's happening? [monitor beeping rapidly.]
It must be where the mass is.
Okay.
Rivka, I'm right here.
- [gasping.]
- I'm right here with you.
[exhales sharply.]
- Her pressure's way low.
- The tumor must be hemorrhaging.
Book me an O.
R.
Syd.
I've got her.
This procedure is risky.
Is Dr.
Katz the kind of friend that could forgive you if something goes wrong? I hope we don't have to find out.
- What's her story, anyway? - Ask her yourself.
Dr.
Katz, this is Dr.
Scott.
- Hi.
- Hi.
So, um Oh.
Okay, there's gonna be lots of blood, so it'll be hard to see.
If you hit the uterus with the trocars, it's a bad outcome for both of them.
You think I should do a laparotomy? No.
I don't know.
Just be sure to remove the ovary intact because if the tumor ruptures The cancer can spread everywhere.
I know.
I'll be careful.
Maggie, if you run into any complications, I want you to be aggressive, okay? Even at greater risk to the baby.
Even with all the miscarriages she's had? Yeah.
Becca isn't thinking about herself, and someone needs to.
Go.
Be with her.
I can't lose the baby.
I can't.
You won't.
You do this, it's your job, but you don't know what it's like.
Nothing else matters.
You matter.
Hey.
You matter to me.
You're my sister, and I shut you out.
That wasn't your fault.
I should have said something.
I should have defended you, but I said nothing.
I said nothing when you were blamed for breaking the Shabbat candlesticks.
I knew that was you.
[laughs.]
We'll call it even.
Okay.
Time to go.
[breathes shakily.]
Oh, I'm so embarrassed.
Nick must think I'm crazy.
You had a seizure.
It won't be the last one.
[scoffs.]
How is that feeling? It's supposed to help your muscles relax.
It feels nice.
You're gonna need some full-time care soon.
Oh, don't spoil it.
I'm mothering you.
Yes, you are.
[chuckles.]
I miss Luke.
I know.
Me, too.
Why did you have to name him that? To remember.
I'm gonna forget it all soon, aren't I? My children, my life.
Myself.
You still have time.
But we won't know how much time until there's none left.
Let's do something.
A puzzle.
Oh, you hate puzzles.
I do.
But you love them.
And I want to spend time with my mother.
Randall: Right at the last second, it's total slow-motion.
Total slow-motion and Oh, hey, Charlie.
Didn't feel a thing.
[sniffs.]
Randall.
Blake.
What's up, guys? Uh, I was talking to your friend here, sharing some old war stories.
How the gorgeous Dr.
Reid cured me of cancer, how you're just about to fix whatever's busted up in me in there.
Maybe you can cure me, too.
You're dead, Blake.
Dead.
I prefer life-challenged, okay? Blake, if you could, uh, excuse us.
I-I don't know.
So, Randall, I talked to your daughter.
She's not coming.
Yeah.
[sighs.]
We had a bumpy ride, Leslie and me.
So she's finally decided to jump off.
There's always another chance.
[chuckling.]
Come on.
Another chance, another chance, another Used to always think so.
Then, uh Anyway.
If I don't make it through this, you'll tell her I love her, right? Come on, Randall.
Every time you've walked into this place, you somehow manage to walk out okay.
Maybe so.
But if you're not careful, buddy, you're gonna end up in a bloody mess like this, too.
Randall, I'm not you.
And I know you're trying to scare me or whatever, but I'm I'm doing fine.
Having trouble sending him on his way? I'm working on that.
You know, it's hard to pull off a creepy clown vibe without the costume, but he's really nailed it.
Yeah.
It's nothing I can't handle.
[chuckles.]
I'm sure you can.
But who's gonna tie you to the living, hmm? You know you can't do it alone.
So, who? [cellphone vibrates.]
Oh, there you go.
Saved by the bell.
I need to scrub in for your surgery.
Un-break a leg in there.
Sorry.
It's all I got.
How many drinks do you have per week? Somewhere between just enough and the perfect amount.
And how long have you been smoking? Six months.
Let me guess it'll kill me? Hey.
Just, uh, checking in, making sure that you're going to be assisting on Mrs.
Edison's colonoscopy.
You didn't schedule me, so no.
I didn't schedule you.
I told you.
Mm, no.
No, you didn't.
I want a percentage of the door if your girlfriend's gonna watch.
- Uh, I'm his boss.
- She's not my girlfriend.
I don't care.
I'm gonna be making a new schedule, Dev, so watch out for it.
You got it, Chief.
[door closes.]
Shut this hamster toy off.
[treadmill beeps.]
[panting.]
You know, the only good thing about this experience has been watching you suffer more than me.
That was painful.
Thanks.
That really helps.
I'm gonna sugarcoat it for a guy who wired me to a conveyor belt? Wilfred, the way you're living, it's gonna kill you.
You know that, right? Ah.
So why do you keep doing it? Do you want to die? Not so much want to die.
More like don't know what to live for.
Well, you just live one day at a time.
Oh, stop.
Just stop! [door opens, closes.]
[monitors beeping.]
Maggie: See here? It's invaded the tube on this side, but not the uterus.
That's the good news.
It's really hemorrhaging a lot.
Pressure's low.
I'll push more blood.
You two have a history, don't you? It's none of your business, Billy.
You're careful around each other.
Friends aren't like that.
You're wrong.
Just friends.
I just think there's obviously, like, electricity in the air with you two.
- It's so - Stop talking, please.
Hold on.
Do you see those lesions? Mm.
They're everywhere.
The cancer's spread to the omentum.
Don't look.
Do not make eye contact with her.
This has to be my decision.
What do we do? [sighs.]
We stick to the plan.
We came in to take her cancer out, and that's what we're gonna do.
No, the plan was to remove the primary I'm not leaving these spots to grow.
Prep for a laparotomy.
Whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa.
We're opening her up? Every second we're in there, we risk the fetus.
It's a small risk that we lose patient and baby now or a good chance this kid grows up without a mother later.
I want to save them both.
We're opening her up.
[sighs.]
There are ways to manage your pain.
That's what I'm asking you to do manage it permanently.
I can't do it alone.
You're the doctor.
No, I'm your daughter.
And it's the last thing you should ask of me.
[sighs.]
Look, when the time comes, we can discuss this, but we're so far off from that.
Don't you want to see Dougie or Jasper? Your brothers have had 10 years to come and see me.
They hate me.
This is not gonna change anything.
Fine, then.
What about Luke? [voice breaking.]
Don't do that.
[sighs.]
Mom.
Mom.
Mom, don't! [sighs.]
Mom, come out and talk to me, please.
I'm supposed to look after you, not the other way around.
I still need you.
You never needed me.
Well, I do now.
[pills rattle.]
I'm pregnant.
[exhales sharply.]
You're the only person I've told.
And it's Charlie's.
Yeah.
[horses snorting.]
Go back to him.
You love him.
I do.
It doesn't work that way.
It's not enough.
It wasn't enough for you.
It wasn't enough for you and Dad.
You know, I used to believe that I was responsible for all the bad luck in this family.
God knows we've had our share.
[chuckles.]
But after your dad died, I thought that you were gonna be the one to escape it.
But I haven't, mom.
[sighs.]
Charlie and I, well, we've had nothing but terrible luck.
You have an amazing career and a beautiful son.
How is that bad luck? [voice breaking.]
And I can't be with the man that I love because we're cursed.
You are not cursed.
[sniffles.]
We make our own destiny.
God, I hope so.
[sniffles.]
And I'm gonna have another grandchild.
Well, it looks like it.
[laughs.]
You know, you were the only one of my babies that I didn't need a pregnancy test for.
Really? Right from the beginning, I knew because you were giving me hell.
Well You had so much fight in you.
You still do.
I got it from somewhere.
[sniffles.]
I'm dying, honey.
Nothing's gonna change that.
Faster, slower what's the difference? [monitors beeping.]
You removed the ovary and stopped the bleed? Yes.
Going after all of it that was a risky choice.
It was the right choice.
I know.
My family's here.
I'll go talk them through it.
Okay.
I'll be right out.
Billy: That still happens even when you're a grown-up doctor? I guess it does today.
Okay, now you're just messing with me.
Oh, lighten up a little, buttercup.
Your wife wind you up like that? Girlfriend.
And no, actually.
[sighs.]
How long were you married? 56 wonderful years.
She was working in a flower shop when I met her.
Swept me right off my feet.
That's beautiful.
My girlfriend at the time didn't think so.
[laughs.]
They never do.
I have Mr.
Jennings' results.
Well, tick-tock.
I may make happy hour at The Belladonna after all.
Early stage Alcoholic Cardiomyopathy.
The barrage of drugs and alcohol have caused the vessels in your heart to swell and harden.
Your heart's strangling itself, Wilfred.
We're gonna have to admit you, monitor you.
We'll give you medication.
Oh, I will take that under advisement.
But, uh, for now, if you'll excuse me, I have a pitcher of mojitos waiting.
Wilfred, you're an idiot.
And if Priscilla were here, she'd say the same thing.
You didn't know her.
She'd be okay with you killing yourself by drinking just to prove that you loved her? What you know about love couldn't fill a shot glass.
Oh, cut the crap! What would Priscilla want? [sighs.]
Her garden.
She'd want me to look after her garden.
And how's it doing now? It looks like a dog's ass.
I hate gardening.
And I hate salsa dancing, but you got to do what you got to do.
[book thuds.]
Oh, uh hey, Serena.
So, I thought about what you said, about the chiefship, how you think I should step down.
No, I-I didn't say that.
I just asked you if you were considering it.
Oh.
Well, I'm not.
I just got started, and I know I can make this hospital a better place while I'm here.
That's good because based on Dawn's recommendation, I've decided to make you permanent Chief Resident.
Congratulations.
Wow.
That was easy.
No, not easy.
You just went from one impossible job to two.
Cross.
Randall: Kapow.
Charlie, it's happening.
Dr.
Harris, are you all right? Yeah.
I I just had that feeling like, uh - someone walked on my grave.
- Ooh.
Actually, that's a subconscious release of adrenaline.
Like a reaction to temperature or an emotional response to memory.
You must clean up on trivia night, Dr.
O'Toole.
Something's coming for me.
I can feel it.
[monitors beeping rapidly.]
Whoa.
We have a problem.
The craniotomy site's bleeding.
Okay, his pressure must have dislodged a clot in the arterial vessel.
Page Dr.
Hamza.
- Okay, I need sponges.
- He's tachycardic.
You know, I've been ferryman for so long, showing people to the other side.
It's finally my turn to take the trip.
Roxy, push more fluids.
Hey! Buddy, you remember you can't handle this on your own, okay? You need a link to the living.
Stay with us, Randall.
Thank you for caring.
It helps a lot, my friend.
[sighs.]
I'll see you on the other side, Charlie.
[flatline.]
[sighs.]
[birds chirping.]
[horse snorts.]
[horse whinnies.]
[soft music plays.]
You kept it.
[music ends.]
Anyway, I've been thinking.
If If it's what you really want When the time comes, I will help you.
Mom? Mom.
Mom? Mom? [bottle clacks.]
Oh, my God.
What What have you done? [sighs.]
[ringing.]
Mother! Dispatcher: 911, what's your emergency? I have an opiate overdose at 9947 12th Line.
I need an ambulance now.
Come on, mama.
Stay with me here! Please don't leave me.
[cries.]
I hear the sound Echoes beneath Angels and skylines meet And I'm straining to reach The light on the surface [engine starts.]
Light on the other side I feel the pages turning I see the candle burning down Before my eyes [sniffles.]
Before my wild eyes Hey, Alex.
It's me.
Uh, I've been wanting to talk.
Something came up.
A job, actually, back home.
Finally breathe Uh, I wanted to connect, but, uh it seems that we can't connect.
Maybe it's a sign.
[chuckles.]
Uh, you know, maybe in another life, there's nothing messing us up and nothing getting in the way of us giving this thing a chance, but, uh doesn't look like it's this one.
Breathe Listen, I-I really hope that you find whatever makes you happy, and, uh Breathe Good luck with everything.
I feel the pages turning Goodbye, Alex Reid.
Before my eyes Before my wild eyes And I feel you holding me Tighter, I cannot see When will we finally Breathe Breathe Breathe [laughs.]
Breathe We'll resume chemo as soon as she's strong enough, but right now, I want her to focus on rest and getting her strength up.
Okay.
Thank you.
Yeah.
[sighs.]
Well, I should go.
Really? After everything that's happened today, your family just doesn't want you here? You know what, they'll come around or they wont, but I'm done trying to make it easy for them.
You seem so different.
[chuckles.]
I am.
Israel was a lot of things.
Are you here for long? Do you want to get together, have dinner, or ? Hey, there's something I need to tell you.
I thought it could wait, but it can't, so, uh, just listen.
Okay.
Um [chuckles.]
When I was in Israel, I thought about you every day.
I thought about you, too.
[in The City's "When I Look Back" plays.]
I want to find out if we can be something.
I just need to know if you do, too.
Meet me where the sun sets Golden days I won't forget Lights will hold you as you rest Meet me where the road ends Lost out here without my friend A heart that only you can mend [keys thud.]
Is she here? Yeah.
Will you tell her that I love her? She knows, Alex.
[cries.]
She knows.
When someone's that secretive about their phone, it's got to be either porn or a job offer.
Well, it's porn.
It's totally porn.
[snaps fingers.]
It is a job offer.
Come on.
From where? [chuckles.]
Somewhere exotic? Come on, spill.
It's from my old hospital back in Detroit.
And I guess it's exotic in its own way.
Nice! So it takes you back to old friends and family That'd great, huh? Yeah, my sister did just have twins.
Aww.
And the hospital's offering to back the money truck up for me, so So the upside's pretty obvious.
What's the downside? I I kind of I kind of like it here, you know? I think maybe I should stay.
[cellphone vibrates.]
Give this place a real chance.
Right.
I'm needed in the trauma bay.
But maybe you could tell me later what's the real reason keeping you here.
Or whom.
Hmm? Thank you for the coffee.
Hey, Manny.
It's Alex.
Maybe you started your shift already.
I just I wanted to call to tell you that I'm sorry that I didn't say goodbye before I left.
Things have just been crazy with my mom and everything, and I just I needed some space.
Anyway, I am coming back tonight, so if you want to, let's meet after your shift and we can talk.
[thud.]
Martha: Oh! - Mom? - Ohh! Oh, my God.
Are you okay? - I'm fine.
- [sighs.]
I'm fine! It's Ugh, it's my own fault for trying to move the damn thing by myself.
- Well, are you hurt? - No.
Oh, it's the balance in this room is all off.
I mean, you can just feel it.
- Well, you need to be more careful.
- [sighs.]
Well, if somebody had cleaned the living room before like I asked.
Right.
You've been leaving out your papers.
What is this? Sunny Pines, Manor on the Glen? - These are palliative care facilities.
- Oh! I left them out for you, remember? You You didn't look at them, did you? Okay, well, we have appointments to see them.
When we get back to town, we need to find ones that you'll like.
No! No, I can't do that.
I I've got too much to do.
This place is a sty.
No, t-this place is spotless.
[sighs.]
Well, if you think that Nick Murphy isn't gonna judge me for rings on the tables or dust on the walls, then you're not gonna be the help to me that you said you were gonna be.
Okay, I am sorry, Mom.
Who is Nick Murphy? The real estate agent.
Alex, he's coming to appraise the house.
I told you.
I'm selling it.
Can't I stay just a bit longer? I don't know how many more ways I can tell you this, Blake, but you are dead.
Saw my body on this table.
I totally get that.
But what I'm saying is why can't I just chill here a little while longer? Do whatever you want.
But I can't be talking to you anymore because I am busy! Don't make me follow you home.
You Does that shelf look level to you? Wouldn't it fall over if it wasn't? Hmm.
Not on my watch.
Dr.
Harris.
Um, I was wondering if we could have a little chat, Chief to Chief.
You mean Interim Chief to Interim Chief? Nobody listens to me.
Every resident rotation, every surgery I assign Yeah, well, that's heavy lies the crown.
Such a heavy crown.
- Mm.
- It's hard enough proving that I deserve the permanent chiefship, but how do you lead when no one respects you? Well, you went from friend to boss overnight, so it's not gonna happen right away.
Why, you're not thinking about stepping down, are you? No! Wait.
Should I? No.
[cellphone vibrates, elevator bell dings.]
I am the most qualified.
Dr.
Bell even said so.
Yeah, well Oh, look! Incoming trauma.
Huh.
We will talk about this later.
Right Chief? I need you.
Uh, can you be more specific and less kidnappy, please? I'm on rounds.
I have an OB admission, but she won't let me examine her or Dr.
Rosen, who's on call.
She wants a woman.
Actually, Dr.
Lin, she wants you.
Mrs.
Friedman, Dr.
Lin.
Thank you for your time, Dr.
Scott.
Okay, Mrs.
Friedman, I see you're 14 weeks pregnant and receiving chemotherapy for ovarian cancer.
Tumor showed up in my ultrasound.
I was supposed to have surgery, but it already spread.
They backed off and biopsied.
Stage 2.
She's been on mild chemo to control growth till the baby's viable.
It sounds like a plan.
Why you'd move from Summer Hill Memorial to see me? Your cancer study.
My sister's a doctor.
She told me about it.
I want to enroll, Dr.
Lin.
May I ask who your sister is? [groans.]
The pain's worse.
It's just a wave.
A-A bad one.
Okay.
Keep breathing slow.
I am! Slower, Rivka.
Slow down.
[alarms beeping.]
Hey.
We got a John Doe, possible transient.
Decided to go for a stroll in a subway tunnel.
Poor guy.
Was he living down there? Unclear.
Definite thoracic trauma.
Left tibia's broken in two places and likely pelvic fracture.
Yeah, internal injuries, but no major bleeding I can see so far.
Okay, he needs an MRI right away.
His pupils are sluggish.
This could be a brain bleed.
All right, Dr.
Hamza's got dibs.
Let's get him up to imaging.
Let's go! Oh.
In the meantime, you better take a look at this.
I found it in his pocket.
[indistinct announcement over P.
A.
.]
[gasps.]
Impressive, Dr.
Sekara.
I didn't master sleeping while standing up until third year.
You don't mind, do you? Bold move.
I should put you on abscess duty.
Hey, hey.
Be cool.
I can't deal right now.
What? Nurse Cabrera.
Dr.
Miller.
Is Dr.
Sekara around? Uh, last I saw, I think he was in the middle of a fairly dramatic enema.
Oh.
Should I interrupt? Probably not.
I got it.
Here you go.
Tell him I'm looking for him.
[sighs.]
We've been, uh [clears throat.]
dating a few weeks now, and, uh I can't keep up.
If we're not on a shift, we're on a dance floor.
I don't know how she does it.
I'm sorry.
You're complaining? Wilfred: Hey, hey, hey, hey.
Screw off! Hey, hey, hey, hey, hey.
Come on.
- The line for this club is - You can't You can't come in here.
- What are you, the boun - You're not supposed to come in here.
What are you, the bouncer? I'll have a double vodka.
He said he was having chest pains.
[slurred.]
Just leave me with the bartender.
Sir, it's 9:30 A.
M.
Well, then, to Kensington then, my man! The after-hours bars are calling my name.
Look, I don't know this guy, but 20 minutes ago, he said he was dying in the back of my cab.
This is for the cab, and this is for the gyro you dumped in my back seat.
Hey, hey, hey.
Wait a minute.
I want my leftovers back! Party machines need fuel.
Whoa! Okay, pump the brakes there, Keith Richards.
Let's find out if you're really dying.
Where's that vodka? I flew home right after Becca was diagnosed.
And when I looked into treatment options, I came across your study with Dr.
Reid.
it's impressive work.
Thanks.
Can you help her? Sydney said my pathology fit your criteria, even though I'm pregnant.
Right now, I just want to focus on what's causing all this pain.
With Syd's counsel, of course.
I don't I don't think that's a very good idea.
No.
I'm just here to help get her admitted.
My parents are on the way with Becca's husband.
Mary, could you get Mrs.
Friedman something more for her pain? You just stay comfortable.
I'll be right around the corner if you need anything.
[indistinct announcement over P.
A.
.]
I'm so sorry.
Yeah.
It's been a rough year for the Katz family [sniffles.]
starting with me.
[chuckles.]
Since I came out, my mother actually thinks I gave the whole family an Ayin Hara, you know, "the evil eye.
" Oh, come on.
Old World Jewish curses, Maggie.
It's very serious stuff.
So, Becca's treatment plan You have room for her in your study? That's what I wanted to talk to you about.
The study's over.
They started a new phase at Mississauga Memorial, but it's only open to existing patients.
[sniffles.]
That's disappointing news.
Yeah.
At least she'll still have you.
I'm not sure what I can do that her last doctor didn't think of.
- You really can't stay? - No.
My parents have made it very clear that they don't want me here.
In fact, it's probably better for Becca if I head out before they arrive.
You look good, Maggie.
I put on a pelvic binder as a temporary measure till I can get the ex-fix on.
Well, you bought us time to deal with the thoracic trauma.
Thank you.
We're gonna need to keep an eye on his pressure until we can get him back to you.
In the meantime, any ideas as to how your name got in his book? No idea.
Maybe an old patient? It's all over the place.
Different writing, different voices.
Maybe Dissociative Identity Disorder? Yeah, I paged Psych, so let's see what they have to say.
There's got to be someone out there that cares where this guy is.
Is there any other names in there to go on? Yeah.
We have Esther Leach, Vin Tranh, Randall Crane, Maria Jara Wait a second.
Did you say Randall Crane? W-Why does that name sound familiar? Uh Actually, he's he's been here before.
A few times.
Wait.
It's that psychic who messed with Alex's head when you were in a coma.
Uh-huh.
Okay, well, maybe we should contact him.
- Yeah.
- No, I'm I'm starting to think that this is him.
God! How did he end up like this? That is an excellent question.
Would you like to come and hear the answer now? You're quiet.
You don't approve.
Mom, I'm just surprised.
It's a It's a great time to sell.
I just thought you were putting things off.
I'm not putting anything off.
Well, I am glad that you're facing this head-on.
We'll choose a care home that you like, somewhere close to me.
It will be great.
There's no need to bother about any of those places.
We talked about this, mother.
What do you mean? [sighs.]
I've done a lot of thinking, Alex, and I want to die here.
I don't want to wait.
And I want you to help me.
[knife scrapes.]
You want me to help you die? There's Nick.
Thinner, sweetie.
He's a real estate agent, not a farm animal.
[door opens.]
Martha, you completely undersold how adorable this place is.
And is that Alex Reid, or do my eyes deceive me? [chuckles.]
- How have you been, girl? - Good.
It's been what, 20 years? You remember Nick, don't you, Alex? St.
Regis High.
I asked you to the prom.
And you said no? Oh, you were so adorable, Nick.
He was so persistent.
He kept calling and calling.
He was even hanging around outside the house.
[chuckling.]
Oh, I definitely remember you now.
So let me show you the place.
Uh, actually, Nick, we need to reschedule.
Oh, you know, I think that I forgot to tell Alex that you were coming today.
And, you know, selling the place, she needs some time to adjust.
You feel like you're selling your memories with your house, Alex.
I get it.
I don't think you do, Nick.
How about you, uh, start to take a look around? We'll catch up to you.
Mother, uh We need to talk about this.
Not now, Alex.
- We have a guest.
- Not later! Now, mother.
You see? This is why I didn't want to ask you.
Because I knew you'd get like this.
Get like what? You're always so dramatic.
I'm the one being dramatic right now? You think that I actually want to kill myself in front of our real estate agent? That would shave $50,000 off the list price easy.
It's not funny.
It's a little funny.
Oh, I don't want him to see the water stain in the en suite.
[sighs.]
Hey! Charlie! You look great, man.
Really great.
Let me guess.
You, too, are off gluten and refined sugars, huh? [chuckles.]
No, wait a minute.
I'm sensing it's something else with you.
What is it? [gasps.]
No carbs or dairy.
[clicks tongue.]
Except for cheese.
I mean, everybody cheats with cheese, so.
Yeah.
You're pretty funny for a guy who just got hit by a train.
Yeah.
Mm.
Went down there for a little peace and quiet.
A little respite from our mutual friends.
Didn't turn out so good.
Caught a look at your journal, Randall.
Why was my name in it? Because of the changes.
Changes? What changes? Last time I talked to you, you said you didn't see them anymore.
Yeah, well, that didn't last.
Not so long.
They couldn't quit me.
I mean, come on.
Could you quit me? Huh? I'm about to quit this conversation.
Okay, okay.
Fine, fine, fine.
It started slowly at first.
And I was doing great.
I was doing really good.
I was getting along with my daughter.
I was a granddad.
[chuckles.]
And then, um Well, you know, a little whisper here, a little shadow there, and then one day, it was just kapow! Kapow? Oh, kapow.
Everything gets turned up to 11.
You still haven't told me what this is about.
Look, man.
I always thought I could control this.
You know that.
Eventually, I found out it controls you.
I tried to get away from it.
I ran down to a subway and [pops lips.]
So When you find out you can't shake it, that's how it starts.
What's left of me in there, that's how it ends.
Shahir: Randall's craniotomy was a success.
His pressure was dropping when I was closing.
I'm worried the thoracic bleed may be not as minor as we suspected.
You sure we don't want to crack him open? No.
He's been through too much.
Let's keep it minimal.
EVAR was a good call.
Thank you, Dr.
Hamza.
Yes, fine.
Just keep me updated.
[monitors beeping.]
I'm really starting to think that guy doesn't like me.
Who? Shahir? He doesn't like change.
And you and Alex are change.
Look.
She's my best friend.
Do you think she wouldn't mention you? Needle.
So, you never told me You got a job offer that takes you back to your family and a pile of money to sweeten the deal So, what is keeping you here? Does is rhyme with Alex Reid? I can totally hear you, by the way? Look, I know what you're gonna say.
It's a crazy time right now for her.
Do you know how many people have tried to "helpfully" tell me this? Implying you are the rebound guy.
[chuckles.]
Look, I'm just not big on collecting regrets.
And if I don't give it a try with her, I will have one.
Manny, I'm gonna tell you something that you might not want to hear.
I know Alex, and she and Charlie are the long-term picture here.
They just are.
Maybe that picture's changing.
They have a kid together.
That's something that never changes.
Where is my phone? I need a cab.
[chuckles.]
It's not single malt, but it does go great with root beer.
Come on.
How long you been going like this? Not long enough.
Don't love his pressure, Dr.
Miller, but it might just be all the partying.
I know what you're doing here, Wilfred.
You don't know anything, kid.
It's not your first time here.
You were admitted six months ago after your wife died.
I treated you.
You thought you were dying.
Turned out to be an extreme grief reaction.
I can't stop you from doing what you're doing, Wilfred, but I can slow you down.
Dr.
Sekara, let's get an chest X-Ray, echo, and full blood panels.
Look at yourself.
Looks like they put a white coat on a turd.
Dr.
Miller, he's got an arrhythmia.
Okay.
You're mine now, Willy.
Buckle up.
To a beautiful future.
Your mother's just agreed to let me represent her in her sale.
Well Let's get you a glass.
No.
No, thank you.
Martha, I have to ask This place is paradise.
Why do you want to sell? Well, you know, after my husband passed, I I needed a change, so I moved out here and packed up the kids and But now, I I'm the only one rattling around here, and I want a new adventure.
Sounds exciting.
Where? The Greek islands.
I want I've always wanted to go to the Greek islands.
Nick, I think we should finish this up later.
My mother's had a long day.
Oh, no! I'm fine.
No, Nick.
Please.
Sit, sit, sit, sit, sit, sit.
I-I want to hear everything that's been going on with you for the last 20 years, ever since my daughter blew it with you.
Martha, I really should be going.
I have a billboard I have to sign off on.
Oh, come on.
The party's just getting started.
Alex, you go up and call your father and your brothers and tell them to come down and bring the music box, and and Oh, it's You should he he Oh! [glass shatters.]
Mom.
Mom? Okay.
All right, Mama.
I got you.
Just sit back down.
I'm here.
I'm here with you.
- You're gonna be okay.
Nick: - What's wrong with her? I've got her.
You just need to go, okay? [Martha groaning.]
Hey.
Mama, I got you.
I got you.
You're gonna be okay.
What do you mean, the study's over? There's nothing that we can do? You said it would be better here.
You said they would save me and my baby! No, I never said that.
Mom and Dad are right.
This was a huge mistake.
I'm the next best thing to Sydney.
She trained me.
Oh, so you were there when she decided to upend her life and drop a bomb on our entire family? I didn't exactly decide.
You didn't tell me! You didn't say anything to me! I'm sorry.
I'm sorry.
I'm just I'm scared.
I've had four miscarriages already.
What am I gonna do? Okay.
We're gonna continue with a basic chemo cocktail that doesn't hurt the baby.
You're still 10 weeks from viability, so we have plenty of - [screams.]
- Becca.
What's happening? [monitor beeping rapidly.]
It must be where the mass is.
Okay.
Rivka, I'm right here.
- [gasping.]
- I'm right here with you.
[exhales sharply.]
- Her pressure's way low.
- The tumor must be hemorrhaging.
Book me an O.
R.
Syd.
I've got her.
This procedure is risky.
Is Dr.
Katz the kind of friend that could forgive you if something goes wrong? I hope we don't have to find out.
- What's her story, anyway? - Ask her yourself.
Dr.
Katz, this is Dr.
Scott.
- Hi.
- Hi.
So, um Oh.
Okay, there's gonna be lots of blood, so it'll be hard to see.
If you hit the uterus with the trocars, it's a bad outcome for both of them.
You think I should do a laparotomy? No.
I don't know.
Just be sure to remove the ovary intact because if the tumor ruptures The cancer can spread everywhere.
I know.
I'll be careful.
Maggie, if you run into any complications, I want you to be aggressive, okay? Even at greater risk to the baby.
Even with all the miscarriages she's had? Yeah.
Becca isn't thinking about herself, and someone needs to.
Go.
Be with her.
I can't lose the baby.
I can't.
You won't.
You do this, it's your job, but you don't know what it's like.
Nothing else matters.
You matter.
Hey.
You matter to me.
You're my sister, and I shut you out.
That wasn't your fault.
I should have said something.
I should have defended you, but I said nothing.
I said nothing when you were blamed for breaking the Shabbat candlesticks.
I knew that was you.
[laughs.]
We'll call it even.
Okay.
Time to go.
[breathes shakily.]
Oh, I'm so embarrassed.
Nick must think I'm crazy.
You had a seizure.
It won't be the last one.
[scoffs.]
How is that feeling? It's supposed to help your muscles relax.
It feels nice.
You're gonna need some full-time care soon.
Oh, don't spoil it.
I'm mothering you.
Yes, you are.
[chuckles.]
I miss Luke.
I know.
Me, too.
Why did you have to name him that? To remember.
I'm gonna forget it all soon, aren't I? My children, my life.
Myself.
You still have time.
But we won't know how much time until there's none left.
Let's do something.
A puzzle.
Oh, you hate puzzles.
I do.
But you love them.
And I want to spend time with my mother.
Randall: Right at the last second, it's total slow-motion.
Total slow-motion and Oh, hey, Charlie.
Didn't feel a thing.
[sniffs.]
Randall.
Blake.
What's up, guys? Uh, I was talking to your friend here, sharing some old war stories.
How the gorgeous Dr.
Reid cured me of cancer, how you're just about to fix whatever's busted up in me in there.
Maybe you can cure me, too.
You're dead, Blake.
Dead.
I prefer life-challenged, okay? Blake, if you could, uh, excuse us.
I-I don't know.
So, Randall, I talked to your daughter.
She's not coming.
Yeah.
[sighs.]
We had a bumpy ride, Leslie and me.
So she's finally decided to jump off.
There's always another chance.
[chuckling.]
Come on.
Another chance, another chance, another Used to always think so.
Then, uh Anyway.
If I don't make it through this, you'll tell her I love her, right? Come on, Randall.
Every time you've walked into this place, you somehow manage to walk out okay.
Maybe so.
But if you're not careful, buddy, you're gonna end up in a bloody mess like this, too.
Randall, I'm not you.
And I know you're trying to scare me or whatever, but I'm I'm doing fine.
Having trouble sending him on his way? I'm working on that.
You know, it's hard to pull off a creepy clown vibe without the costume, but he's really nailed it.
Yeah.
It's nothing I can't handle.
[chuckles.]
I'm sure you can.
But who's gonna tie you to the living, hmm? You know you can't do it alone.
So, who? [cellphone vibrates.]
Oh, there you go.
Saved by the bell.
I need to scrub in for your surgery.
Un-break a leg in there.
Sorry.
It's all I got.
How many drinks do you have per week? Somewhere between just enough and the perfect amount.
And how long have you been smoking? Six months.
Let me guess it'll kill me? Hey.
Just, uh, checking in, making sure that you're going to be assisting on Mrs.
Edison's colonoscopy.
You didn't schedule me, so no.
I didn't schedule you.
I told you.
Mm, no.
No, you didn't.
I want a percentage of the door if your girlfriend's gonna watch.
- Uh, I'm his boss.
- She's not my girlfriend.
I don't care.
I'm gonna be making a new schedule, Dev, so watch out for it.
You got it, Chief.
[door closes.]
Shut this hamster toy off.
[treadmill beeps.]
[panting.]
You know, the only good thing about this experience has been watching you suffer more than me.
That was painful.
Thanks.
That really helps.
I'm gonna sugarcoat it for a guy who wired me to a conveyor belt? Wilfred, the way you're living, it's gonna kill you.
You know that, right? Ah.
So why do you keep doing it? Do you want to die? Not so much want to die.
More like don't know what to live for.
Well, you just live one day at a time.
Oh, stop.
Just stop! [door opens, closes.]
[monitors beeping.]
Maggie: See here? It's invaded the tube on this side, but not the uterus.
That's the good news.
It's really hemorrhaging a lot.
Pressure's low.
I'll push more blood.
You two have a history, don't you? It's none of your business, Billy.
You're careful around each other.
Friends aren't like that.
You're wrong.
Just friends.
I just think there's obviously, like, electricity in the air with you two.
- It's so - Stop talking, please.
Hold on.
Do you see those lesions? Mm.
They're everywhere.
The cancer's spread to the omentum.
Don't look.
Do not make eye contact with her.
This has to be my decision.
What do we do? [sighs.]
We stick to the plan.
We came in to take her cancer out, and that's what we're gonna do.
No, the plan was to remove the primary I'm not leaving these spots to grow.
Prep for a laparotomy.
Whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa.
We're opening her up? Every second we're in there, we risk the fetus.
It's a small risk that we lose patient and baby now or a good chance this kid grows up without a mother later.
I want to save them both.
We're opening her up.
[sighs.]
There are ways to manage your pain.
That's what I'm asking you to do manage it permanently.
I can't do it alone.
You're the doctor.
No, I'm your daughter.
And it's the last thing you should ask of me.
[sighs.]
Look, when the time comes, we can discuss this, but we're so far off from that.
Don't you want to see Dougie or Jasper? Your brothers have had 10 years to come and see me.
They hate me.
This is not gonna change anything.
Fine, then.
What about Luke? [voice breaking.]
Don't do that.
[sighs.]
Mom.
Mom.
Mom, don't! [sighs.]
Mom, come out and talk to me, please.
I'm supposed to look after you, not the other way around.
I still need you.
You never needed me.
Well, I do now.
[pills rattle.]
I'm pregnant.
[exhales sharply.]
You're the only person I've told.
And it's Charlie's.
Yeah.
[horses snorting.]
Go back to him.
You love him.
I do.
It doesn't work that way.
It's not enough.
It wasn't enough for you.
It wasn't enough for you and Dad.
You know, I used to believe that I was responsible for all the bad luck in this family.
God knows we've had our share.
[chuckles.]
But after your dad died, I thought that you were gonna be the one to escape it.
But I haven't, mom.
[sighs.]
Charlie and I, well, we've had nothing but terrible luck.
You have an amazing career and a beautiful son.
How is that bad luck? [voice breaking.]
And I can't be with the man that I love because we're cursed.
You are not cursed.
[sniffles.]
We make our own destiny.
God, I hope so.
[sniffles.]
And I'm gonna have another grandchild.
Well, it looks like it.
[laughs.]
You know, you were the only one of my babies that I didn't need a pregnancy test for.
Really? Right from the beginning, I knew because you were giving me hell.
Well You had so much fight in you.
You still do.
I got it from somewhere.
[sniffles.]
I'm dying, honey.
Nothing's gonna change that.
Faster, slower what's the difference? [monitors beeping.]
You removed the ovary and stopped the bleed? Yes.
Going after all of it that was a risky choice.
It was the right choice.
I know.
My family's here.
I'll go talk them through it.
Okay.
I'll be right out.
Billy: That still happens even when you're a grown-up doctor? I guess it does today.
Okay, now you're just messing with me.
Oh, lighten up a little, buttercup.
Your wife wind you up like that? Girlfriend.
And no, actually.
[sighs.]
How long were you married? 56 wonderful years.
She was working in a flower shop when I met her.
Swept me right off my feet.
That's beautiful.
My girlfriend at the time didn't think so.
[laughs.]
They never do.
I have Mr.
Jennings' results.
Well, tick-tock.
I may make happy hour at The Belladonna after all.
Early stage Alcoholic Cardiomyopathy.
The barrage of drugs and alcohol have caused the vessels in your heart to swell and harden.
Your heart's strangling itself, Wilfred.
We're gonna have to admit you, monitor you.
We'll give you medication.
Oh, I will take that under advisement.
But, uh, for now, if you'll excuse me, I have a pitcher of mojitos waiting.
Wilfred, you're an idiot.
And if Priscilla were here, she'd say the same thing.
You didn't know her.
She'd be okay with you killing yourself by drinking just to prove that you loved her? What you know about love couldn't fill a shot glass.
Oh, cut the crap! What would Priscilla want? [sighs.]
Her garden.
She'd want me to look after her garden.
And how's it doing now? It looks like a dog's ass.
I hate gardening.
And I hate salsa dancing, but you got to do what you got to do.
[book thuds.]
Oh, uh hey, Serena.
So, I thought about what you said, about the chiefship, how you think I should step down.
No, I-I didn't say that.
I just asked you if you were considering it.
Oh.
Well, I'm not.
I just got started, and I know I can make this hospital a better place while I'm here.
That's good because based on Dawn's recommendation, I've decided to make you permanent Chief Resident.
Congratulations.
Wow.
That was easy.
No, not easy.
You just went from one impossible job to two.
Cross.
Randall: Kapow.
Charlie, it's happening.
Dr.
Harris, are you all right? Yeah.
I I just had that feeling like, uh - someone walked on my grave.
- Ooh.
Actually, that's a subconscious release of adrenaline.
Like a reaction to temperature or an emotional response to memory.
You must clean up on trivia night, Dr.
O'Toole.
Something's coming for me.
I can feel it.
[monitors beeping rapidly.]
Whoa.
We have a problem.
The craniotomy site's bleeding.
Okay, his pressure must have dislodged a clot in the arterial vessel.
Page Dr.
Hamza.
- Okay, I need sponges.
- He's tachycardic.
You know, I've been ferryman for so long, showing people to the other side.
It's finally my turn to take the trip.
Roxy, push more fluids.
Hey! Buddy, you remember you can't handle this on your own, okay? You need a link to the living.
Stay with us, Randall.
Thank you for caring.
It helps a lot, my friend.
[sighs.]
I'll see you on the other side, Charlie.
[flatline.]
[sighs.]
[birds chirping.]
[horse snorts.]
[horse whinnies.]
[soft music plays.]
You kept it.
[music ends.]
Anyway, I've been thinking.
If If it's what you really want When the time comes, I will help you.
Mom? Mom.
Mom? Mom? [bottle clacks.]
Oh, my God.
What What have you done? [sighs.]
[ringing.]
Mother! Dispatcher: 911, what's your emergency? I have an opiate overdose at 9947 12th Line.
I need an ambulance now.
Come on, mama.
Stay with me here! Please don't leave me.
[cries.]
I hear the sound Echoes beneath Angels and skylines meet And I'm straining to reach The light on the surface [engine starts.]
Light on the other side I feel the pages turning I see the candle burning down Before my eyes [sniffles.]
Before my wild eyes Hey, Alex.
It's me.
Uh, I've been wanting to talk.
Something came up.
A job, actually, back home.
Finally breathe Uh, I wanted to connect, but, uh it seems that we can't connect.
Maybe it's a sign.
[chuckles.]
Uh, you know, maybe in another life, there's nothing messing us up and nothing getting in the way of us giving this thing a chance, but, uh doesn't look like it's this one.
Breathe Listen, I-I really hope that you find whatever makes you happy, and, uh Breathe Good luck with everything.
I feel the pages turning Goodbye, Alex Reid.
Before my eyes Before my wild eyes And I feel you holding me Tighter, I cannot see When will we finally Breathe Breathe Breathe [laughs.]
Breathe We'll resume chemo as soon as she's strong enough, but right now, I want her to focus on rest and getting her strength up.
Okay.
Thank you.
Yeah.
[sighs.]
Well, I should go.
Really? After everything that's happened today, your family just doesn't want you here? You know what, they'll come around or they wont, but I'm done trying to make it easy for them.
You seem so different.
[chuckles.]
I am.
Israel was a lot of things.
Are you here for long? Do you want to get together, have dinner, or ? Hey, there's something I need to tell you.
I thought it could wait, but it can't, so, uh, just listen.
Okay.
Um [chuckles.]
When I was in Israel, I thought about you every day.
I thought about you, too.
[in The City's "When I Look Back" plays.]
I want to find out if we can be something.
I just need to know if you do, too.
Meet me where the sun sets Golden days I won't forget Lights will hold you as you rest Meet me where the road ends Lost out here without my friend A heart that only you can mend [keys thud.]
Is she here? Yeah.
Will you tell her that I love her? She knows, Alex.
[cries.]
She knows.