New Amsterdam (2018) s05e10 Episode Script
Don't Do This for Me
1
[JAZZY PERCUSSIVE MUSIC]
[SIGHS]
♪
Damn.
♪
Damn right.
♪
Mm.
The sink's clogged again!
Plumber is coming tomorrow!
[GROANS]
It's like a crime scene in here.
[SIREN WAILING]
[GRUMBLING]
Written word not enough, huh?
You want the full audio experience?
I need an actual human being,
or someone is getting strangled
with a plunger.
We still being sexy?
Look, I've only got a few weeks left.
It's time to make this
an in-person thing.
So let's do it.
Tonight.
For real, for real?
What about your dad?
Oh, no, no, no, no.
He's he's doing great.
He's on his meds. Model roommate.
So it's time for him to see
a sock on the door knob
and get gone.
For real.
♪
Oh, I know that smile.
That's the smile of a man making plans
for the finest fishing exposition
in the tristate area.
That's a bunch of old timers
swapping stories
in the back of a bait shop?
Sure.
If you wanna say the Javits
Convention Center is a bait shop.
Oh, looks great, Dad.
Yeah, tell me about it.
I will not, 'cause you're coming.
Sounds great, Dad.
Good.
We'll go after your work.
Wait, the expo's tonight?
Is that a problem?
♪
[UPBEAT PIANO MUSIC]
♪
Mm.
What did you do that for?
Just making sure you're real.
[CHUCKLES]
Only way to know for sure
is to give me a scalp massage.
- Dad's back!
- Hi, everybody.
[LAUGHTER]
Hi, guys. You're darn right, Dad's back.
- Yeah.
- I'm here.
This morning, my daughter said that
when I'm tired,
I look like a sad racoon.
So do you think I can trade her
for a new car?
A very nice new car.
[LAUGHS]
Good.
Thank you.
Where do you get your motivation?
Good morning.
I have the clinical trial prospectus.
Thank you.
Well, Dana, this is Dr. Wilder.
And Dr. Wilder, this is Dana,
my ASL teacher.
Oh, yeah. No, I got that one.
Crystal clear.
It's a brand new ♪
Please give me something good.
And this one's
the quarterly budget template.
Another? How many are there?
It's quarterly, so four.
Sandra Fall, I hate forms.
Forms never helped anyone.
Well, this one literally
funds the hospital.
If I'm not looking
into a patient's eyes,
if I'm not looking
into the underlying roots
of their issues, then
Then you can do your
actual job, sign these forms,
- and end this conversation.
- I had a question.
Is there a form that fires you?
You keep shredding it against my wishes.
Sign.
The ICU needs a substitute attending?
Mm-hmm. Dr. Slavin broke her ankle.
She's out today.
♪
All right. So today I am not
your boss's boss's boss.
I am just simply your boss.
So I'm here for you.
Let's do some actual medicine.
Who's with me?
You look chipper.
Do I?
Well, it is never a bad day
to have a good day,
my enchanting chairwoman.
Charmed and unnerved.
Look, we have a problem outside.
- Okay.
- An unhoused gentleman
who's facing some challenges
has created an untenable environment.
I don't I don't follow.
What are you saying?
There's a crazy homeless guy out front.
He's scaring our patients.
I need him gone.
Well, that was a touching
and heartfelt alternate way
of putting that. Thank you.
I'm suggesting you provide him
with appropriate care and services.
That is far away from our entrance.
- [SIGHS] Thank you, Ignatius.
- You got it.
Do not go inside!
Yes. Yes.
Come out.
Get away from them.
Stop. Stop.
They will kill you!
Hey, there. Hey.
Got a little something here
that might brighten your day.
Evil. Evil people.
Okay. Sure. Sure.
You're one of them.
Actually, I'm just a guy
with some socks.
Yeah, yeah.
Want a pair?
Yeah. Go ahead. Take a pair.
It's cold out here.
Yeah, you're good.
Yeah. I got a whole bag
full of socks here.
I got sweaters.
What you say you and I take this
wherever you're camping out,
and we stash the whole bag there?
I got a place just over there.
Oh, over here under the scaffolding?
Yeah. I've seen people there.
No.
[SOFT MUSIC]
Penthouse.
♪
Penthouse?
♪
Right on.
♪
[JAZZY PERCUSSIVE MUSIC]
♪
[SOFT MUSIC]
Oh, that is quite the decision.
- Tell me about it.
- Right.
So you can either hang out
with a bunch of AARP guys
at a literal fish show,
or you can hook up
with a beautiful, available,
interested woman.
Yeah. I can see why you're torn.
It's not that easy, all right?
All I've ever wanted was my family back.
And now that I have it
Young woman found down in Morandi Park.
Unresponsive.
Respirations and heart rate slow.
Vanessa.
Vanessa?
[DRAMATIC MUSIC]
Pupils are pinpoint, nonreactive.
Narcotics overdose.
I need a second IV.
- O-2 sats are low.
- On it.
Saturation 88%.
I need an intubation tray with a seven.
♪
Pushing Narcan.
[MACHINERY BEEPING]
♪
[NO AUDIBLE DIALOGUE]
♪
Quick pop quiz.
This is from a 65-year-old man
who is hypertensive and unconscious.
Do you shock this rhythm?
No.
Yes.
All right. So you just flip
through these four screens,
and then you pull down
this tab right here.
And, oh, the M key does not work.
So we just use a little "rn"
right next to each other.
Someone's gotta build a better system.
Oh. What if that's someone is you?
When you approach a patient
about hospice,
you don't talk about end-of-life care.
You just talk about life care.
This is just the next stage of it.
[MACHINERY BEEPING]
- It's Duane Roberts.
- All right.
This is it.
You're up.
[GASPING]
BP 60 over 49.
Absent breath sounds on the left.
Left heart's straining EKG.
Tension pneumo.
Need a left-sided chest tube.
[DRAMATIC MUSIC]
♪
VAN runs under the rib.
♪
BP rising.
Sats normalizing.
[SIGHS] It worked.
That's good work.
Decision, coordination,
execution, all excellent.
[TENSE MUSIC]
Mika, you okay?
♪
It used to be cleaner.
Oh, no, no.
This is, uh this is amazing.
Wow.
Look at this place.
Look at that view.
Oh, someone's a gamer, huh?
Uh, coder.
Bitcoin.
Cooler. [CHUCKLES]
Do you want one?
Yeah. Yeah. Thank you.
I'll take one of those.
Cheers.
So, hey, just curious.
Why did you start hanging out
in front of New Amsterdam?
I'm warning people.
Warning people about what?
Bad things happen in that place.
They're evil. They hurt people.
They do experiments on young children.
They use lightning,
and they rip out their brains.
They tie them down with rubber.
And it's tight.
No! It burns.
And they zap.
They zap and zap and zap.
They
[UNEASY MUSIC]
I'm saving those kids.
Tied down with rubber?
Lightning?
Don't don't try to deny it.
No, no, I'm not.
That that is how they
used to do electroshock therapy
40 years ago.
Harlan, when you were a kid,
were you a patient at New Amsterdam?
- Oh
- [GRUNTS]
♪
Hey, how you doing?
[GROANS] How does it freaking look?
- [GROANS]
- It's the Narcan.
You're in withdrawal from the heroin.
Well, it feels like ants
are crawling out of my body.
So oh, Jesus.
All right. Okay.
We're gonna get you through this.
- Stop. Get off.
- What?
- Stop gloating, all right?
- I'm not gloating.
- Please just leave.
- Okay, you really
Ugh. Jesus.
All right. You know what, Vanessa?
You tried to kill yourself.
Whether you realize it or not,
that is what you tried to do.
And I'm gonna be here for you, okay?
Yeah. Well, you know what?
Being nice to me now
is not gonna change the fact
that Mom died hating you.
That's not true.
Yes, it is.
Yeah, it is, actually.
Thanks to me, she wrote you
a letter a few years ago,
an apology, you know,
for being such a terrible mother.
I threw it away.
Why would you do that?
Answer me. Why would you do that?
Because you didn't deserve that, Lauren!
God, she was so vulnerable
when she came to me with that letter.
She was, like, crying and asking me
if I thought you'd ever forgive her.
She thought you threw it in her face.
So yes, Lauren. Yes.
I'm pretty sure she died hating you.
You know what?
You really are pathetic, aren't you?
And there she is. You see,
this is who you really are.
How many times do I have to tell you?
- I'm done with it!
- Selfish bitch!
- I'm done with being there!
- I can't stand
the condescending bitch you've become.
- [THUDS]
- Vanessa? Vanessa? Vanessa?
I need help in here!
Okay, okay, okay.
Okay, okay. Okay.
- Chest, it hurts.
- What do you got?
Hypertensive, diaphoretic, tachy.
Probably narcotic withdrawal.
- My chest.
- Vanessa, I know it hurts,
but we need you to stay still, okay?
Start an Esmolol drip.
- TOX screen?
- The usual polypharmacy.
Oxy, meth, cocaine,
marijuana, you name it.
Was she acting erratically?
She was outta control,
screaming the most hateful
an adrenergic storm.
From acute cocaine toxicity.
Her coronary artery is spasming.
I didn't see it. I
We gotta get her to a cath lab now.
The clues were right in front of me,
but why didn't I see it?
With family, we never see it.
Let's go.
Straight. Straight. This way.
♪
Hey.
- Hey.
- You okay?
Uh, yeah, it was just allergies.
It didn't look like allergies.
Looked like a panic attack.
Oh, no. Not at all.
I mean, I've been here a month,
and Elliot's code
isn't one of the top ten
most intense things
that have happened all week.
Who's Elliot?
The the patient.
The code we just ran.
No, Mika. That was Duane.
Who's Elliot?
Um
My first patient here.
You never forget your first, right?
No.
Especially if they die.
How did you know that?
'Cause I've stood where you're standing.
Patients die, Mika,
no matter what you do,
no matter how good you are,
and I've been watching you on the floor.
You're a really good doctor.
No.
[SIGHS]
I'm an excellent doctor.
Elliot had a triple A that ruptured.
That's one of the hardest
procedures we do,
and I ran that code flawlessly.
And then I went home for the night,
and he died
while I was watching
a reality cooking show
and eating a takeaway salad.
I could have saved him.
He was my patient,
and I left him to die.
They experimented on me
with lightning.
It hurt.
Yeah, I bet.
Yeah, a lot of hospitals back then used
a very crude version of electroshock,
and they way overmedicated.
Just so many pills.
You could barely even move.
[EXHALES SHAKILY]
It's like being in a cage.
A cage you can't see.
You know, Harlan,
we don't do that anymore.
- [SCOFFS]
- No, we don't.
And I have helped schizophrenics
without pills,
without shocks.
None of it.
Really?
Yeah, really.
If you come with me to my office today,
I will get you back on your feet.
[UNEASY MUSIC]
[GRUNTS]
It doesn't believe you.
The voice?
- Mm
- Yeah. That's okay.
That's okay. That's okay.
But all you have to do is let me try,
and you will see that I can help you.
I mean, Harlan, look at what
you've accomplished. Look at this.
You were doing really well
for a very long time.
Stop talking.
Look, going to the hospital,
that's new, right?
Shut up!
♪
Did something happen recently?
- Something
- Get out.
Get outta here now!
- Get outta here right now.
- Okay.
No hospitals! No doctors!
No, no, no!
No!
♪
[SOMBER MUSIC]
♪
Morandi Park.
I don't
Vanessa lives on the Upper West Side.
So do all of her friends.
Yet she OD'd in Morandi Park
directly across the street
from this hospital.
♪
She knew exactly where they'd bring her.
♪
She knew that I'd be the one
to see her like this.
♪
She chose this.
♪
That's how much she hates me.
Well, she was coked out of her mind.
It wasn't the coke.
She meant what she said,
every last word of it.
She meant it.
♪
And why shouldn't she hate me?
♪
I left her.
Lauren
You wanna know the worst part?
If she never woke up,
I think a part of me would be relieved.
♪
Why didn't I help her?
[SOBBING]
You know why better than anyone.
An addict has to want help.
I have to try. I have to try.
I can't I can't just stand by
and do nothing.
- No, you
- No, Floyd, I'm not just gonna
walk away and just watch her die.
This time I'm staying.
♪
Get out.
- Don't you spy on me.
- I'm not.
- Don't you spy.
- 48 floors.
It just it takes a minute.
Damn thing. Hurry up. Hurry up.
[SOFT MUSIC]
Hey, the protein shakes, you like 'em?
They good?
♪
Yeah.
♪
Did you start drinking them right before
you started warning people
out in front of the hospital?
♪
What?
♪
The M key doesn't work. Remember?
Gotta just use "rn."
Thanks.
Mika, you left your patient
'cause your shift was over.
[SIGHS]
Can we not talk about this?
Well, I can't let you
see patients until we do.
Fine.
I could have stayed.
I chose to leave.
When you're not on call,
do you ever sleep here?
We all grab naps sometimes.
That's not what I meant.
How often do you go home?
It depends.
Mika, I'm just asking you,
when was the last time that you got
a full night's sleep in your own bed?
[SIGHS]
The night Elliot died.
[SOLEMN MUSIC]
That was over a month ago.
♪
Mika, you have to go home.
It's not a request.
I don't think you're allowed
to dictate where I sleep,
and my performance isn't a problem.
So thank you for your concern, truly.
But I'm not going anywhere.
♪
You want to take the job.
I have to.
It's too important.
I won't leave you in the lurch.
I'll help with the transition.
I will handle the interviews
for my replacement.
Can we talk alone?
I'll be right outside.
[SOFT MUSIC]
♪
Hey, hey. I have good news.
You dealt with the homeless
unhoused gentleman?
Yes. His name is Harlan,
and I did help him indeed.
It turns out the problem
was protein shakes.
It didn't look like
the problem was protein shakes.
Well, upon further inspection,
they were all he was eating,
which led to a niacin
deficiency, AKA pellagra,
which I then treated
with a multivitamin.
So he wasn't schizophrenic,
he just needed Flintstone pills?
He is still schizophrenic,
just minus the aggressive
behavior, the irritability,
and the angry voices in his head.
That was all the pellagra.
As long as sanity has
prevailed at our front door,
- I'm happy.
- Yeah.
Yeah. Well, you know, about that.
Do you get your vitamins?
There's 13 essential ones.
They're good for your bones,
your immune system.
This will save your life.
I told you to clear the front door.
No. No, you told me to help.
- Hey, Iggy!
- And I did.
- Hey!
- Hey, doing great.
Excuse me. Do you get your vitamins?
Vitamins are really good for you.
[SIGHS]
You're still here.
Dr. Goodwin.
You gotta go.
Stay, and you're a bad doctor.
Are you asking me to care less?
No. If anything,
I'm asking you to care more.
The hardest part of caring
is the part you're not doing.
- Letting go.
- Giving up is not caring.
Elliot's gone.
If you worked 1,000 hours straight,
it wouldn't bring him back.
- You can't undo it.
- Stop.
Sometimes people go,
and wanting them to stay,
fighting, clinging,
that's for you.
[SOFT MUSIC]
And you going home,
that's for the person
who needs you next.
♪
Can I walk you out?
[INHALES SHAKILY]
Yeah.
♪
Is she
Vanessa's awake,
and she's asking for you.
[SIGHS]
You don't have to go.
Don't keep doing this to yourself.
She's family.
You don't turn your back on that.
Well, I thought that too.
With my dad when I was trying
to get into his life,
I made so many excuses for him.
I said I wasn't gonna be
the one who turned away,
but my friend told me that was crap.
It's not the same.
You said that change won't
happen unless you demand it.
But what if it doesn't?
What if she needs me, and I'm not there?
[SOMBER MUSIC]
What if she dies?
♪
I don't know how to help her.
♪
[CRYING] I don't know how
I don't know how to help her.
Yes, you do. Yes, you do.
You've already done it once
when you were 18.
No.
♪
That was selfish.
You know, me leaving her,
that put that needle in her arm.
Listen.
If you hadn't left,
you'd be in a bed next to her.
All right? She has someone alive
to help her because you left, right?
♪
You spent most of your life
wishing you can change things.
But you know what?
♪
It wasn't the worst thing you ever did.
It was the best.
And I think Vanessa needs you
to do it again.
♪
[MACHINES BEEPING]
She's not coming?
No.
But she wanted me to give you this.
That's where she'll be.
Hey, Pops. Give me a minute to change,
and we can hit that tri
What's happening?
I'm moving out.
Okay. If you're
feeling anxious about something,
- we can work through it.
- Son, I'm good.
Have a seat.
[SIREN WAILING IN DISTANCE]
This may be hard for you to hear,
but I read all your texts.
- Pops!
- Easy.
It was an accident.
I was checking out vendors for the expo.
And when I closed the browser,
your message app
was all over the screen.
The thread with this Gabrielle girl.
I tried not to look,
but those pictures
Oh, my God.
Calm down. I didn't linger,
but I got enough to know
that you are about to make
the wrong call.
Oh, no, no, no, no.
Pops, look, you are not in the way.
This isn't pity.
I want to pick you.
I don't know if I got the right
to give you fatherly advice,
but if I did,
I'd say the most important
thing I've learned
is you go for the girl.
No, Pops. Pops, wait.
Just
[SOFT MUSIC]
♪
I'm afraid I won't see you again.
Son, the first time I left,
that was selfish.
This time, I'm doing it for you.
♪
Hello.
So is anybody in the mood
for a sweeping romantic gesture?
This Cab is both robust and impertinent,
much like myself.
Iggy in a bottle.
- [CHUCKLES QUIETLY]
- Hey.
- Hey.
- Hey.
So I know last night was a lot,
um, but it was wonderful.
Maybe things haven't changed that much.
Yeah, our good parts are still good.
But what's it say about the bad parts?
I don't know.
You know, we'll find out.
Maybe maybe they're better.
Maybe's not an answer.
We can't just blindly hope
that our problems
have magically solved themselves.
I don't think that, Martin. I'm not
I'm not waiting,
for them to magically solve themselves.
I'm I'm working at changing.
I have changed. You've seen it.
- Mm-hmm.
- And I'm not just talking
about the physical, the outside.
You know, I'm talking about inside.
I feel different.
I'm different.
Iggy, so am I.
[SOLEMN MUSIC]
Martin, I love you.
♪
I'm in love with you.
♪
I love you so much
♪
But we're not those people anymore.
♪
[SIGHS]
It's time to finalize the divorce.
♪
They say it's a matter of time ♪
A thousand days
and the sun won't shine ♪
Before I come back to you ♪
And I'm happy
Nothing's going to stop me ♪
I'm making my way home
I'm making my way ♪
For your love, I will go far
I wanna be wherever you are
I know I'm coming back for you ♪
I'm happy ♪
Nothing's going to stop me ♪
I'm making my way home ♪
I'm making my way ♪
♪
I go solo ♪
Oh, I go solo ♪
I'm making my way home ♪
I'm making my way ♪
♪
[INDISTINCT TV CHATTER]
Dr. Helen in her popular
television program.
She stepped out of the limelight
to pursue oncology research
and to see patients full time.
Dr. Sharpe, tell us about
your latest research.
It also helps reduce pain.
It decreases [SPEAKS INDISTINCTLY]
It boosts the immune system.
And the results are truly astounding.
It's something we've been
practicing for many years now.
Dr. Helen Sharpe is here
in New York City
representing the NHS's fight
against cancer.
I'll make my way ♪
[SOFT MUSIC]
♪
[JAZZY PERCUSSIVE MUSIC]
[SIGHS]
♪
Damn.
♪
Damn right.
♪
Mm.
The sink's clogged again!
Plumber is coming tomorrow!
[GROANS]
It's like a crime scene in here.
[SIREN WAILING]
[GRUMBLING]
Written word not enough, huh?
You want the full audio experience?
I need an actual human being,
or someone is getting strangled
with a plunger.
We still being sexy?
Look, I've only got a few weeks left.
It's time to make this
an in-person thing.
So let's do it.
Tonight.
For real, for real?
What about your dad?
Oh, no, no, no, no.
He's he's doing great.
He's on his meds. Model roommate.
So it's time for him to see
a sock on the door knob
and get gone.
For real.
♪
Oh, I know that smile.
That's the smile of a man making plans
for the finest fishing exposition
in the tristate area.
That's a bunch of old timers
swapping stories
in the back of a bait shop?
Sure.
If you wanna say the Javits
Convention Center is a bait shop.
Oh, looks great, Dad.
Yeah, tell me about it.
I will not, 'cause you're coming.
Sounds great, Dad.
Good.
We'll go after your work.
Wait, the expo's tonight?
Is that a problem?
♪
[UPBEAT PIANO MUSIC]
♪
Mm.
What did you do that for?
Just making sure you're real.
[CHUCKLES]
Only way to know for sure
is to give me a scalp massage.
- Dad's back!
- Hi, everybody.
[LAUGHTER]
Hi, guys. You're darn right, Dad's back.
- Yeah.
- I'm here.
This morning, my daughter said that
when I'm tired,
I look like a sad racoon.
So do you think I can trade her
for a new car?
A very nice new car.
[LAUGHS]
Good.
Thank you.
Where do you get your motivation?
Good morning.
I have the clinical trial prospectus.
Thank you.
Well, Dana, this is Dr. Wilder.
And Dr. Wilder, this is Dana,
my ASL teacher.
Oh, yeah. No, I got that one.
Crystal clear.
It's a brand new ♪
Please give me something good.
And this one's
the quarterly budget template.
Another? How many are there?
It's quarterly, so four.
Sandra Fall, I hate forms.
Forms never helped anyone.
Well, this one literally
funds the hospital.
If I'm not looking
into a patient's eyes,
if I'm not looking
into the underlying roots
of their issues, then
Then you can do your
actual job, sign these forms,
- and end this conversation.
- I had a question.
Is there a form that fires you?
You keep shredding it against my wishes.
Sign.
The ICU needs a substitute attending?
Mm-hmm. Dr. Slavin broke her ankle.
She's out today.
♪
All right. So today I am not
your boss's boss's boss.
I am just simply your boss.
So I'm here for you.
Let's do some actual medicine.
Who's with me?
You look chipper.
Do I?
Well, it is never a bad day
to have a good day,
my enchanting chairwoman.
Charmed and unnerved.
Look, we have a problem outside.
- Okay.
- An unhoused gentleman
who's facing some challenges
has created an untenable environment.
I don't I don't follow.
What are you saying?
There's a crazy homeless guy out front.
He's scaring our patients.
I need him gone.
Well, that was a touching
and heartfelt alternate way
of putting that. Thank you.
I'm suggesting you provide him
with appropriate care and services.
That is far away from our entrance.
- [SIGHS] Thank you, Ignatius.
- You got it.
Do not go inside!
Yes. Yes.
Come out.
Get away from them.
Stop. Stop.
They will kill you!
Hey, there. Hey.
Got a little something here
that might brighten your day.
Evil. Evil people.
Okay. Sure. Sure.
You're one of them.
Actually, I'm just a guy
with some socks.
Yeah, yeah.
Want a pair?
Yeah. Go ahead. Take a pair.
It's cold out here.
Yeah, you're good.
Yeah. I got a whole bag
full of socks here.
I got sweaters.
What you say you and I take this
wherever you're camping out,
and we stash the whole bag there?
I got a place just over there.
Oh, over here under the scaffolding?
Yeah. I've seen people there.
No.
[SOFT MUSIC]
Penthouse.
♪
Penthouse?
♪
Right on.
♪
[JAZZY PERCUSSIVE MUSIC]
♪
[SOFT MUSIC]
Oh, that is quite the decision.
- Tell me about it.
- Right.
So you can either hang out
with a bunch of AARP guys
at a literal fish show,
or you can hook up
with a beautiful, available,
interested woman.
Yeah. I can see why you're torn.
It's not that easy, all right?
All I've ever wanted was my family back.
And now that I have it
Young woman found down in Morandi Park.
Unresponsive.
Respirations and heart rate slow.
Vanessa.
Vanessa?
[DRAMATIC MUSIC]
Pupils are pinpoint, nonreactive.
Narcotics overdose.
I need a second IV.
- O-2 sats are low.
- On it.
Saturation 88%.
I need an intubation tray with a seven.
♪
Pushing Narcan.
[MACHINERY BEEPING]
♪
[NO AUDIBLE DIALOGUE]
♪
Quick pop quiz.
This is from a 65-year-old man
who is hypertensive and unconscious.
Do you shock this rhythm?
No.
Yes.
All right. So you just flip
through these four screens,
and then you pull down
this tab right here.
And, oh, the M key does not work.
So we just use a little "rn"
right next to each other.
Someone's gotta build a better system.
Oh. What if that's someone is you?
When you approach a patient
about hospice,
you don't talk about end-of-life care.
You just talk about life care.
This is just the next stage of it.
[MACHINERY BEEPING]
- It's Duane Roberts.
- All right.
This is it.
You're up.
[GASPING]
BP 60 over 49.
Absent breath sounds on the left.
Left heart's straining EKG.
Tension pneumo.
Need a left-sided chest tube.
[DRAMATIC MUSIC]
♪
VAN runs under the rib.
♪
BP rising.
Sats normalizing.
[SIGHS] It worked.
That's good work.
Decision, coordination,
execution, all excellent.
[TENSE MUSIC]
Mika, you okay?
♪
It used to be cleaner.
Oh, no, no.
This is, uh this is amazing.
Wow.
Look at this place.
Look at that view.
Oh, someone's a gamer, huh?
Uh, coder.
Bitcoin.
Cooler. [CHUCKLES]
Do you want one?
Yeah. Yeah. Thank you.
I'll take one of those.
Cheers.
So, hey, just curious.
Why did you start hanging out
in front of New Amsterdam?
I'm warning people.
Warning people about what?
Bad things happen in that place.
They're evil. They hurt people.
They do experiments on young children.
They use lightning,
and they rip out their brains.
They tie them down with rubber.
And it's tight.
No! It burns.
And they zap.
They zap and zap and zap.
They
[UNEASY MUSIC]
I'm saving those kids.
Tied down with rubber?
Lightning?
Don't don't try to deny it.
No, no, I'm not.
That that is how they
used to do electroshock therapy
40 years ago.
Harlan, when you were a kid,
were you a patient at New Amsterdam?
- Oh
- [GRUNTS]
♪
Hey, how you doing?
[GROANS] How does it freaking look?
- [GROANS]
- It's the Narcan.
You're in withdrawal from the heroin.
Well, it feels like ants
are crawling out of my body.
So oh, Jesus.
All right. Okay.
We're gonna get you through this.
- Stop. Get off.
- What?
- Stop gloating, all right?
- I'm not gloating.
- Please just leave.
- Okay, you really
Ugh. Jesus.
All right. You know what, Vanessa?
You tried to kill yourself.
Whether you realize it or not,
that is what you tried to do.
And I'm gonna be here for you, okay?
Yeah. Well, you know what?
Being nice to me now
is not gonna change the fact
that Mom died hating you.
That's not true.
Yes, it is.
Yeah, it is, actually.
Thanks to me, she wrote you
a letter a few years ago,
an apology, you know,
for being such a terrible mother.
I threw it away.
Why would you do that?
Answer me. Why would you do that?
Because you didn't deserve that, Lauren!
God, she was so vulnerable
when she came to me with that letter.
She was, like, crying and asking me
if I thought you'd ever forgive her.
She thought you threw it in her face.
So yes, Lauren. Yes.
I'm pretty sure she died hating you.
You know what?
You really are pathetic, aren't you?
And there she is. You see,
this is who you really are.
How many times do I have to tell you?
- I'm done with it!
- Selfish bitch!
- I'm done with being there!
- I can't stand
the condescending bitch you've become.
- [THUDS]
- Vanessa? Vanessa? Vanessa?
I need help in here!
Okay, okay, okay.
Okay, okay. Okay.
- Chest, it hurts.
- What do you got?
Hypertensive, diaphoretic, tachy.
Probably narcotic withdrawal.
- My chest.
- Vanessa, I know it hurts,
but we need you to stay still, okay?
Start an Esmolol drip.
- TOX screen?
- The usual polypharmacy.
Oxy, meth, cocaine,
marijuana, you name it.
Was she acting erratically?
She was outta control,
screaming the most hateful
an adrenergic storm.
From acute cocaine toxicity.
Her coronary artery is spasming.
I didn't see it. I
We gotta get her to a cath lab now.
The clues were right in front of me,
but why didn't I see it?
With family, we never see it.
Let's go.
Straight. Straight. This way.
♪
Hey.
- Hey.
- You okay?
Uh, yeah, it was just allergies.
It didn't look like allergies.
Looked like a panic attack.
Oh, no. Not at all.
I mean, I've been here a month,
and Elliot's code
isn't one of the top ten
most intense things
that have happened all week.
Who's Elliot?
The the patient.
The code we just ran.
No, Mika. That was Duane.
Who's Elliot?
Um
My first patient here.
You never forget your first, right?
No.
Especially if they die.
How did you know that?
'Cause I've stood where you're standing.
Patients die, Mika,
no matter what you do,
no matter how good you are,
and I've been watching you on the floor.
You're a really good doctor.
No.
[SIGHS]
I'm an excellent doctor.
Elliot had a triple A that ruptured.
That's one of the hardest
procedures we do,
and I ran that code flawlessly.
And then I went home for the night,
and he died
while I was watching
a reality cooking show
and eating a takeaway salad.
I could have saved him.
He was my patient,
and I left him to die.
They experimented on me
with lightning.
It hurt.
Yeah, I bet.
Yeah, a lot of hospitals back then used
a very crude version of electroshock,
and they way overmedicated.
Just so many pills.
You could barely even move.
[EXHALES SHAKILY]
It's like being in a cage.
A cage you can't see.
You know, Harlan,
we don't do that anymore.
- [SCOFFS]
- No, we don't.
And I have helped schizophrenics
without pills,
without shocks.
None of it.
Really?
Yeah, really.
If you come with me to my office today,
I will get you back on your feet.
[UNEASY MUSIC]
[GRUNTS]
It doesn't believe you.
The voice?
- Mm
- Yeah. That's okay.
That's okay. That's okay.
But all you have to do is let me try,
and you will see that I can help you.
I mean, Harlan, look at what
you've accomplished. Look at this.
You were doing really well
for a very long time.
Stop talking.
Look, going to the hospital,
that's new, right?
Shut up!
♪
Did something happen recently?
- Something
- Get out.
Get outta here now!
- Get outta here right now.
- Okay.
No hospitals! No doctors!
No, no, no!
No!
♪
[SOMBER MUSIC]
♪
Morandi Park.
I don't
Vanessa lives on the Upper West Side.
So do all of her friends.
Yet she OD'd in Morandi Park
directly across the street
from this hospital.
♪
She knew exactly where they'd bring her.
♪
She knew that I'd be the one
to see her like this.
♪
She chose this.
♪
That's how much she hates me.
Well, she was coked out of her mind.
It wasn't the coke.
She meant what she said,
every last word of it.
She meant it.
♪
And why shouldn't she hate me?
♪
I left her.
Lauren
You wanna know the worst part?
If she never woke up,
I think a part of me would be relieved.
♪
Why didn't I help her?
[SOBBING]
You know why better than anyone.
An addict has to want help.
I have to try. I have to try.
I can't I can't just stand by
and do nothing.
- No, you
- No, Floyd, I'm not just gonna
walk away and just watch her die.
This time I'm staying.
♪
Get out.
- Don't you spy on me.
- I'm not.
- Don't you spy.
- 48 floors.
It just it takes a minute.
Damn thing. Hurry up. Hurry up.
[SOFT MUSIC]
Hey, the protein shakes, you like 'em?
They good?
♪
Yeah.
♪
Did you start drinking them right before
you started warning people
out in front of the hospital?
♪
What?
♪
The M key doesn't work. Remember?
Gotta just use "rn."
Thanks.
Mika, you left your patient
'cause your shift was over.
[SIGHS]
Can we not talk about this?
Well, I can't let you
see patients until we do.
Fine.
I could have stayed.
I chose to leave.
When you're not on call,
do you ever sleep here?
We all grab naps sometimes.
That's not what I meant.
How often do you go home?
It depends.
Mika, I'm just asking you,
when was the last time that you got
a full night's sleep in your own bed?
[SIGHS]
The night Elliot died.
[SOLEMN MUSIC]
That was over a month ago.
♪
Mika, you have to go home.
It's not a request.
I don't think you're allowed
to dictate where I sleep,
and my performance isn't a problem.
So thank you for your concern, truly.
But I'm not going anywhere.
♪
You want to take the job.
I have to.
It's too important.
I won't leave you in the lurch.
I'll help with the transition.
I will handle the interviews
for my replacement.
Can we talk alone?
I'll be right outside.
[SOFT MUSIC]
♪
Hey, hey. I have good news.
You dealt with the homeless
unhoused gentleman?
Yes. His name is Harlan,
and I did help him indeed.
It turns out the problem
was protein shakes.
It didn't look like
the problem was protein shakes.
Well, upon further inspection,
they were all he was eating,
which led to a niacin
deficiency, AKA pellagra,
which I then treated
with a multivitamin.
So he wasn't schizophrenic,
he just needed Flintstone pills?
He is still schizophrenic,
just minus the aggressive
behavior, the irritability,
and the angry voices in his head.
That was all the pellagra.
As long as sanity has
prevailed at our front door,
- I'm happy.
- Yeah.
Yeah. Well, you know, about that.
Do you get your vitamins?
There's 13 essential ones.
They're good for your bones,
your immune system.
This will save your life.
I told you to clear the front door.
No. No, you told me to help.
- Hey, Iggy!
- And I did.
- Hey!
- Hey, doing great.
Excuse me. Do you get your vitamins?
Vitamins are really good for you.
[SIGHS]
You're still here.
Dr. Goodwin.
You gotta go.
Stay, and you're a bad doctor.
Are you asking me to care less?
No. If anything,
I'm asking you to care more.
The hardest part of caring
is the part you're not doing.
- Letting go.
- Giving up is not caring.
Elliot's gone.
If you worked 1,000 hours straight,
it wouldn't bring him back.
- You can't undo it.
- Stop.
Sometimes people go,
and wanting them to stay,
fighting, clinging,
that's for you.
[SOFT MUSIC]
And you going home,
that's for the person
who needs you next.
♪
Can I walk you out?
[INHALES SHAKILY]
Yeah.
♪
Is she
Vanessa's awake,
and she's asking for you.
[SIGHS]
You don't have to go.
Don't keep doing this to yourself.
She's family.
You don't turn your back on that.
Well, I thought that too.
With my dad when I was trying
to get into his life,
I made so many excuses for him.
I said I wasn't gonna be
the one who turned away,
but my friend told me that was crap.
It's not the same.
You said that change won't
happen unless you demand it.
But what if it doesn't?
What if she needs me, and I'm not there?
[SOMBER MUSIC]
What if she dies?
♪
I don't know how to help her.
♪
[CRYING] I don't know how
I don't know how to help her.
Yes, you do. Yes, you do.
You've already done it once
when you were 18.
No.
♪
That was selfish.
You know, me leaving her,
that put that needle in her arm.
Listen.
If you hadn't left,
you'd be in a bed next to her.
All right? She has someone alive
to help her because you left, right?
♪
You spent most of your life
wishing you can change things.
But you know what?
♪
It wasn't the worst thing you ever did.
It was the best.
And I think Vanessa needs you
to do it again.
♪
[MACHINES BEEPING]
She's not coming?
No.
But she wanted me to give you this.
That's where she'll be.
Hey, Pops. Give me a minute to change,
and we can hit that tri
What's happening?
I'm moving out.
Okay. If you're
feeling anxious about something,
- we can work through it.
- Son, I'm good.
Have a seat.
[SIREN WAILING IN DISTANCE]
This may be hard for you to hear,
but I read all your texts.
- Pops!
- Easy.
It was an accident.
I was checking out vendors for the expo.
And when I closed the browser,
your message app
was all over the screen.
The thread with this Gabrielle girl.
I tried not to look,
but those pictures
Oh, my God.
Calm down. I didn't linger,
but I got enough to know
that you are about to make
the wrong call.
Oh, no, no, no, no.
Pops, look, you are not in the way.
This isn't pity.
I want to pick you.
I don't know if I got the right
to give you fatherly advice,
but if I did,
I'd say the most important
thing I've learned
is you go for the girl.
No, Pops. Pops, wait.
Just
[SOFT MUSIC]
♪
I'm afraid I won't see you again.
Son, the first time I left,
that was selfish.
This time, I'm doing it for you.
♪
Hello.
So is anybody in the mood
for a sweeping romantic gesture?
This Cab is both robust and impertinent,
much like myself.
Iggy in a bottle.
- [CHUCKLES QUIETLY]
- Hey.
- Hey.
- Hey.
So I know last night was a lot,
um, but it was wonderful.
Maybe things haven't changed that much.
Yeah, our good parts are still good.
But what's it say about the bad parts?
I don't know.
You know, we'll find out.
Maybe maybe they're better.
Maybe's not an answer.
We can't just blindly hope
that our problems
have magically solved themselves.
I don't think that, Martin. I'm not
I'm not waiting,
for them to magically solve themselves.
I'm I'm working at changing.
I have changed. You've seen it.
- Mm-hmm.
- And I'm not just talking
about the physical, the outside.
You know, I'm talking about inside.
I feel different.
I'm different.
Iggy, so am I.
[SOLEMN MUSIC]
Martin, I love you.
♪
I'm in love with you.
♪
I love you so much
♪
But we're not those people anymore.
♪
[SIGHS]
It's time to finalize the divorce.
♪
They say it's a matter of time ♪
A thousand days
and the sun won't shine ♪
Before I come back to you ♪
And I'm happy
Nothing's going to stop me ♪
I'm making my way home
I'm making my way ♪
For your love, I will go far
I wanna be wherever you are
I know I'm coming back for you ♪
I'm happy ♪
Nothing's going to stop me ♪
I'm making my way home ♪
I'm making my way ♪
♪
I go solo ♪
Oh, I go solo ♪
I'm making my way home ♪
I'm making my way ♪
♪
[INDISTINCT TV CHATTER]
Dr. Helen in her popular
television program.
She stepped out of the limelight
to pursue oncology research
and to see patients full time.
Dr. Sharpe, tell us about
your latest research.
It also helps reduce pain.
It decreases [SPEAKS INDISTINCTLY]
It boosts the immune system.
And the results are truly astounding.
It's something we've been
practicing for many years now.
Dr. Helen Sharpe is here
in New York City
representing the NHS's fight
against cancer.
I'll make my way ♪
[SOFT MUSIC]
♪