Private Practice s06e05 Episode Script

All righty.
Juice.
Okay.
Boom.
Boom.
Whoa.
Sam, could you just reset for us? Uh, just reset? Make it look like you never touched your plate.
Oh, right.
Okay.
O-okay.
Reset.
Okay.
Still learning the lingo.
Like, uh, like this? You are a natural.
Okay.
Excellent.
Eat at will.
Will do.
Wait.
Okay, wait.
Are you sure you don't want to start filming until after I see my first patient? If we're gonna sell this pilot to the network, it's gonna have to be the medicine you want with the personal they want.
That they want.
Right.
Okay.
All right, as long as the medicine is the focal point.
Oh, Lakers season opener tonight.
You a sports fan? Pretend we're not here.
Oh, sorry.
Uh, keep going? Right.
Hi.
Welcome to S-- Wait.
I'm sorry.
Uh, should I have some folders or something so-- files, make me look a little bit more professional or-- No offense, but, uh, no one's gonna care.
You're handsome and you have a stethoscope hanging around your neck.
Okay.
Okay.
Whenever you're ready.
Great.
Okay.
Hi, welcome to Seaside Health and Wellness, the practice that I started We emphasize collaborative medicine here.
I have the pleasure of working with some of the most caring and talented doctors in their field.
Here's one right here.
Hey, Sam.
Funny running into you here in the hallway.
This is, uh, uh, uh, Dr.
Sheldon Wallace.
He's one of two of our therapists.
Why don't you tell us a little bit about yourself, Dr.
Wallace? Um, I Mm-hmm.
Here we have, uh, Jake Reilly's office.
- IVF specialist.
- He is also dating your ex, right? He is board certified in obstetrics and general surgery, which is very rare.
Is that your friend Dr.
Wilder's office, uh, your friend who recently passed away? Yes, that was, uh Pete's office.
He's, uh We miss him.
Here we have two state-of-the-art exam rooms.
We have a family practice feel without compromising on cutting-edge technology.
She's gorgeous.
Can't be easy having to work side by side with your ex.
Moving on, over here we have the conference room, which is, uh, where we take care of all official practice business, like naps.
I'm just kidding.
We don't nap in there.
Our pediatrician-- Dr.
Cooper Freedman.
Hi.
Hi.
Um, hi.
Uh, I-- let me apologize up front.
I don't watch much reality television.
I, uh, I don't see the value in it, but no offense, of course.
Not offended.
No, I just, you know, I prefer my entertainment to be a little more poignant.
I'm sure he forgot to tack on the, uh, no offense-- I saw that really powerful documentary about the meningitis epidemic in Africa - and about the struggle to properly immunize children.
- Africa.
- Did you see that? - I did not-- 'Cause that is, like, a passion of mine.
I felt-- I shot that documentary.
Oh? Well, part of it.
My company produced it.
I'm really glad you liked it.
It's real-- it's really good work Yeah.
- And poignant - Poignant.
I think.
I'm gonna do some work.
Okay.
Good luck.
That's Dr.
Freedman.
Oh, and here we have Dr.
Charlotte King.
She is a urologist, a sexologist, and, uh, my boss-- everybody's boss-- over at St.
Ambrose.
Now let me be clear.
Now is not a good time for you to be in my hospital, but Sam asked, so you have access to whatever you need.
But get in somebody's way, and I will use that camera for a shot put.
Nice to meet you.
Ha ha.
Okay, that's all you need to know about Charlotte King.
She's also pregnant with triplets, which should be interesting.
One cream.
One sugar.
I'm sure America's sitting on the edges of their seat right now.
Hey.
Cut.
She didn't sign the waiver.
Your ass so stacks up with the entire Kardashian family.
Oh, let me guess.
Reality TV is beneath you, too.
I'm just the only one willing to say so by not signing the waiver.
I mean, do you watch this stuff? "My Super Sweet Bitchteen"? "Pimp My Kayak"? Look, I did not seek this out, all right? One of my patients is a network exec.
She started calling, wouldn't stop, so I said, "why not? I can be a role model.
" Just promise to give me the heads-up before the sex tape gets leaked.
Hey, sweetie man.
Mama.
Oh, Sam.
It's good to see you.
Oh, my.
Look at you.
Excellent.
Mm.
Mm.
Mm.
- You're looking good, baby.
- I'm trying.
What's happening? A woman likes a little attention, but do they have to be all up in my face? Mama, I told you they were gonna be filming.
How's my makeup? How's your make-- your m-- you look beauti-- doesn't my mother look beautiful? Yes, she does.
Where's, uh, Raymond and Jillian? They're in the lobby.
Okay.
I so appreciate this, Sam.
Stop, stop.
He's your boss and an old friend.
Anything I can do to help.
Oh.
Ms.
Bennett.
Addison.
Hi.
I, uh I had-- I had no idea you were gonna be here.
Well, I-I figured Sam would let you know.
Oh.
Yeah, he, uh He-- we aren't-- he didn't.
We don't, uh I speak with my son quite a bit.
Right.
Of course, of course, so Well, it's so good to see you, and, um I look forward to seeing more of you while you're here.
I'm sure I'm gonna see you more before you go.
I mean, I'm not D-demanding it.
So I'm gonna go.
What happened to that camera that was following you around? Oh, I told 'em to wait outside.
Well, Jillian was hoping that she could tell her friends that when she came out to Hollywood and she got on a TV show.
No, that's what you were hoping for.
Well, we could make that happen.
Look at him, Jillian-- sharp suit, it fits him well.
I remember when you used to visit the print shop.
You'd get so worked up chasing Corinne around that you had to wheeze into an inhaler.
How is she? She's good.
She's good.
Corinne is, uh, you know, she's-- she's good.
We're proud of you.
Mm.
Well All right, you just relax.
I'm gonna start this EKG.
Uh, mom said you were at the emergency room a few weeks ago.
Yeah, I was working a few hours on the press.
I took a step back, next thing I remember, I was in the hospital.
He didn't tell 'em that he can hardly get to the top of the stairs without taking a break, and it's been getting worse.
Any chest pains? I'm 73 years old.
I got pain everywhere.
Okay.
All right.
What do we got here? Huh.
Wh-what is it? Uh, well, Raymond's EKG is showing some nonspecific abnormalities.
I'd like to get you over to St.
Ambrose, have them run a couple of more tests.
All right? We're gonna get to the bottom of this.
So they should be finishing up with Raymond's tests in about an hour.
I ordered a, uh, a chest CT and an echocardiogram.
Which camera should I be focusing on? Just look at me.
Just-- okay.
You seem really tight with your mom.
Uh, yes.
Uh She's always been there.
So was my mom, and I still haven't amassed the requisite hours of therapy to move past it.
Uh, well, I just-- I admire her for, uh, for all that she's done.
Like? Well, she raised me.
Half a million people just reached for their remotes.
Give me something to work with, Sam.
You're a doctor raised by a single mom.
Oh, see, that right there.
I hate that term, "single mom.
" It implies that she, uh, that she was something less or that I missed out on something, and I I mean, my mother spent way more time with me than some kids that had a father and a stay-at-home mom.
Uh, you know, she never missed a parent-teacher meeting.
She told me she loved me every day.
She popped me in the back of my head whenever I needed to be popped in the back of my head.
My, uh, my high school superlatives were class nicest and most likely to succeed.
I won the Morris grant my second year at Georgetown, after my mother somehow managed to pay for the first.
I am one of the best cardiothoracic surgeons in the country, and I'm a black man.
So now you know.
Now I know what? Why I hate the term "single mom.
" A girl went missing from the ER a few days ago.
There has been a 24-hour presence here ever since.
Uh, Dr.
Freedman and-- and, uh, Dr.
Turner have been spearheading the efforts.
Are you getting all this? This is amazing.
Most of these people have taken sick days to be here today.
We launch search parties twice a day.
What is everyone's connection to the little girl? Uh, Sarah's my patient.
I've been counseling the parents since her disappearance.
She went missing from my ER.
Uh, you should really talk to the parents.
Um, we're trying to utilize, um, all the press as much as possible.
Um, they are, uh, doing a-a show about my colleague, Dr.
Bennett.
How are you holding it together? We're trying not to think about that.
We want to be strong for Sarah, wherever she is.
Don't give up, baby.
We're gonna find you.
So I've looked over the results.
I-I should let you all have some time.
Oh, no.
You don't have to leave, Dee.
No, they might as well both hear since they're gonna stop me from enjoying myself at home and at work.
Okay.
Well, you have pulmonary hypertension.
You're throwing blood clots into the arteries of your lungs, which is raising your blood pressure to a very dangerous level.
That's why he fainted? Well, that's why he's been having the chest pains and why climbing stairs feels like mount Everest.
What can you do? Well, we'll put you on some anticoagulants, which will prevent new clots from forming.
Then I'll insert a vascular umbrella which will catch the existing clots, and hopefully prevent them from, uh, breaking away.
This, hopefully, will solve the problem.
What if it doesn't? Well, if we don't lower your blood pressure, your heart will overwork itself until it fails.
This is critical.
Um is there, uh, uh, oh, where's the uh, uh, restroom? Oh, right this way.
It's, uh, to the right.
It's over here.
He needs me to be strong.
You will be, okay? The bathroom's right here.
I'm gonna head back.
Jillian, you have a great marriage.
This is just another challenge.
Are we gonna talk about the elephant in the room? Not if I don't see one.
Your mother and Raymond-- I'm not talking about them.
- Sam, I-- - Look Now if you want to talk about educating kids on heart health or cutting-edge techniques to repair congenital defects, I'm your man.
But my mother's personal life is none of your business.
I was glad I got to visit with Corinne today.
She looks good.
She smiled.
I didn't think I would ever see that again.
Sam you did good for her.
You did everything that you could.
Is that why she won't see me? I don't want to talk about this, if that's okay.
Isn't that enough? Give me this.
You have high blood pressure.
How many times do I have to tell you-- cut back? We don't have to talk about Corinne.
But you have no call to be nasty to me.
What you're doing is not right, with Raymond.
I saw you two.
I thought I taught you not to speak on things you don't know about.
He is married.
He's your bo-boss.
Jillian is your friend, and-- Sam, enough.
It's not right, and you know it.
I have worked side by side with that man for a long time.
Things happen, things you wish never did, but that's for me to deal with, next time you think about keeping something to yourself so you don't disrespect your mother, you should follow through with it.
Thank you for dinner, but I am not hungry.
Of course Sam has the perfect relationship with his mother, because Sam is the perfect man.
I mean, he's like a living, breathing Men's Health magazine, like "how to have the perfect waist," "how to make women swoon over your bald head.
" Hey, what is-- what is he getting paid for this? Nothing yet.
It's just a pilot.
Pilot, right.
But if it, uh, gets picked up, he gets like $20,000 or $30,000? Yeah an episode.
An episode? For just doing what he already normally does, he That is insane.
I mean, I I Googled it last night-- the cost of raising a child in LA-- half a million dollars.
And I already have one.
I'm having three more, all at once.
You ever thought of, uh, doing a show about a pediatrician? is at the end of the bar.
Is she still drinking? Come on.
What was she wearing? It's not a hospital, it's a zoo.
If I don't have a detective in my ear, I got a camera in my face.
Oh, who invited rules magee? I did.
Just be nice, Cooper.
James has been doing a lot for Sarah.
Hey there.
When I left the hospital, the detectives were still there.
- Did they have anything? - Nothing.
They're still interviewing employees and patients - who may have had access.
- And that's a tall order given the volume in the ER that night.
I mean, how are Ron and Dana? - Oh, a mess.
- It's a roller coaster.
They were at each other's throats before.
Even solid couples find it hard to stay together in the face of something like this.
I just wish I could do more.
Short of finding Sarah.
.
Yes.
I like it.
I do.
Okay, you look ridiculous.
They want me to look ridiculous so I give up and sign the waiver.
What they don't know is that I have a freakishly strong left arm.
And now you sound ridiculous.
I haven't eaten enough hot dogs to justify being at a barbecue.
Ugh.
Sam's mom hates me.
She doesn't hate you.
Oh, yes, she does.
She always has.
It doesn't help that at graduation dinner, Bizzy got drunk and asked her if "amistad" was an accurate portrayal of slavery.
What-- what did she say? "I'll ask my slave friends.
" I'm feeling pretty good considering you stuck something in my chest a few days ago.
I told you it was a simple procedure.
You're not gonna cross mark those steaks? No.
It doesn't make the steaks taste any better.
Mm.
Well, something to be said for a good-looking steak.
It's complicated.
It's not complicated to keep the vows that you made to your wife.
It's not some fling.
I love Dee.
I don't care.
You think that makes me feel any better that you're having an affair with my mother? Okay now I don't want to embarrass her and I don't want to embarrass your wife.
That's the only reason I'm not asking you to get the hell outta my house, but you should get outta of my face right now Just get outta my face.
Get outta my face.
Paparazzi after you again? I'm sure you couldn't wait to mug for the cameras.
I strike you as that kind of guy? You're an ER doc.
You probably drive a tiny foreign sports car or a jeep with no doors and a surfboard out the back, and tops on your bucket list is to complete an ironman.
I only buy American, there aren't many waves in Tennessee, and I finished my first ironman last year.
You are wrong a lot.
Hey, man.
You get enough to eat? Yeah, stuffed.
All right.
Hey, Sam, why are you, uh, why are you doing this? Oh, this wasn't my idea.
It's the producer.
She said she just needed an event to get everybody together in the same place.
No, why are you doing this, the-- the whole reality show thing? It doesn't really seem like you.
Uh Patients come to me with misinformation every day.
This just gives me an opportunity to debunk unhealthy myths that cost people their lives.
You know that sounds rehearsed, right? Help! Someone help him! Sam.
Raymond.
Let's go.
Let's get this.
Raymond, can you hear me? Don't go anywhere.
Don't you go anywhere.
Sam, how are you feeling right now? Get away! Get away or get out! Sam, talk to me.
Charging to 360.
- All right.
- Clear.
Oh, damn it.
All right, he's still in fib.
We need to get him stabilized and get him in the OR and get rid of these clots.
I can't believe we're getting this.
Clear.
Come on.
Come on.
Come on.
Sinus.
All right.
He's back.
Will he be okay? I don't know.
Let's go.
Come on.
Get him outta here.
Sam, please, just save-- just save him.
Save him.
All right.
- You got it? - Yeah, yeah.
We cut together some footage from the surgery.
Can you just take us through what went wrong? Yeah.
Okay, I had already Already removed the major obstruction.
Uh, I saw an opportunity to get some of the other accumulated blood clots.
What did you say there? That I needed a differential VQ scan, uh, post-surgery.
I was concerned about Raymond's lung function, uh, going forward.
At this point, we were ready to close.
Okay, here is when he started to bleed into his chest.
The anticoagulants had made it difficult for his blood to clot.
Uh, I don't know.
I guess maybe I kept him open too long.
I thought I could do more.
What did the doctor say there? That if we didn't stop the bleeding, Raymond would die.
And what were you thinking? Uh, that if I didn't stop the bleeding, Raymond would die.
Medicine is a science, but it's also personal.
As doctors, we want to believe that no matter who's on that table, we provide the same care, but it's just not true.
I'm not saying that, as doctors, we don't provide quality care to everyone, but maybe with-- with some patients, we-- we do a little more, we-- we fight a little harder.
And in those cases, when we don't get the-- the results we want, it hurts.
But when we do, it's, uh It's tough to beat that feeling.
You need a new lung, Raymond.
You can get him on the list, right? Isn't there a list? Yes, but people usually end up dying waiting for a match, and that's over the course of years.
Raymond doesn't have that kind of time.
We'll find it.
We'll find a lung.
No, he'll be fine.
We should start considering living related donor transplant.
We take a lobe from a relative, and then replace the damaged lung with that.
We should get as many people tested as we can.
Who do you ask for a lung? I know you and Jillian don't have any children.
How about siblings, nieces, nephews? No, no, no.
I guess that's it.
I just go home and wait to die.
You are not giving up.
Oh, what choice do I have? We need to pray.
Pray? You want me to get down on my knees and pray for a miracle? You tell me why I should do that when you both know there's another option.
Sam you need to get tested.
If you're a match, you can save your father's life.
Sam is level-headed.
Sam has a An above-average sense of humor.
Interesting fact, Sam-- Forget the camera, lose the cards, and just talk.
What do you think when you think of Sam Bennett? Uh Uh, honesty.
Can you elaborate? Well, the The truth means a lot to Sam, maybe more than anything else.
And, um, that's an admirable quality for a doctor, for anyone, really.
And, uh Sam has a rigid set of beliefs, and his honesty-- the honesty he inspires-- allows him to stick to those beliefs, and I I admire that about him.
You know, his passion to help and his passion for the truth.
Yeah.
You knew? That Sam is your son or that you've been having an affair for 40 years? How was I gonna say anything when she gave you something I couldn't? Jillian, I'm so sorry.
I never meant for it to-- Meant for-- for it to happen, to hurt me, what? Sam.
No, sweetie.
Sweetie, let come back.
Mom.
Sw-- just, sweet-- come here, Sam.
- I don't owe you any courtesies right now.
- Please.
Sam.
You lied to me.
What's the right way to tell your children that their father's married to another woman? Sam.
Move.
Move! Okay, t-t-tell me what-- tell me what you said.
Tell me what you said about my father.
Sam-- Tell me what you said! I-I said that-- that he walked out on us and that I didn't know where he was, and if he wanted to be here, he would be here.
He would be here.
You lied.
No! You lied! I lied.
As a parent, you make decisions.
Why did you even bring him here? Because Jillian wanted the best, and-- and I couldn't tell her why that was a bad idea.
You're sleeping with her husband, now you're worried about her feelings? You should've been giving me the same consideration.
Clearly, I have made mistakes.
This isn't a perfect situation, but, Sam, there's no bad people here, just - Ah! - Just people that made bad choices.
And he's supported us when we needed support.
What-- what-- what did you say? What is that supposed to mean? There were times You had your heart set on Georgetown-- No.
No.
I never asked anything from anyone-- not you, especially not him.
I'm sorry.
Will you stop saying you're sorry?! That's not good enough and you know it.
Oh.
Get out of my face.
Sam and I didn't care much for one another in the beginning.
I thought he was arrogant, and he thought I was a bitch.
Turns out only one of those things is true.
I learned along the way that if you didn't like Sam, it probably meant there was something wrong with you.
For 40 years, he, uh, he was my mother's boss, and you know, I liked him, sure.
But now But now he's suppose to have some special significance? Christmas She shoulda told-- she shoulda told me, right? She should've told you.
Should've told me.
And you have a right to be hurt, to be upset, and to be really pissed off.
But, Sam, you are who you are no matter who your father is.
And the choices that they made, they don't define you.
And maybe when the shock wears off, you and Raymond can be-- no, he's dying.
I'm drowning slowly There's nothing you can do? Uh He needs a transplant, and, uh, and if I'm a match, then I can give him part of my lung to save him.
Sam, I'm so sorry.
nowhere she's a brick and I'm drowning slowly Hey.
Have you eaten? No, don't do that.
Don't.
You don't have to take care of me.
You can be angry.
Say something.
You can keep looking at me like that, but you need to say something.
Why? In the beginning, I asked myself that a lot.
Why was I sleeping with a married man? Why did I fall in love with him? Why won't he leave her? Do I want him to? After you were born, I told him that if he wanted to be in your life, it was gonna be as your father.
We had to be a family.
But it was a different time back then.
Divorce was a big deal.
Even if you were cheating on your wife, you stayed.
It was the noble thing to do.
He did the noble thing.
So I moved on.
I started seeing other people.
But I never stopped thinking about him The way he would look at me from across the shop That feeling.
And then there was Corinne.
I had this family.
It wasn't perfect by anybody else's standards, but it was beautiful, so beautiful.
I don't know when I decided he was gonna be the only man in my life, but I must have.
After a while, you stop asking yourself why because there is no answer that makes sense.
It's just It is.
It's It's just the life you have.
It's not fair.
You made all the sacrifices.
No, he gave me you and Corinne, and he never got to love you guys the way that I did.
That was his choice.
It doesn't mean it was easy.
You shoulda told me.
Remember when we used to go over to Raymond's for those barbecues on Memorial Day? One time he introduced you to this friend of his who was a doctor.
You asked him so many questions that at one point, he locked himself in the bathroom.
A few days later, I gave you that yellow and blue toy stethoscope.
And Corinne had the most well-monitored heart in the world.
I didn't give you that, Sam.
Every time you played with it, I wanted to tell you where it was from.
I'm sorry.
I know it's not enough.
But I am so sorry.
I'll go make us something to eat.
We were pretty sure you were AWOL.
Well, I made a commitment to-- to shoot this thing, so-- I'm sorry about, uh, your camera, by the way.
Don't sweat it.
We budget for a busted one on every shoot.
Did you just get a physical? Uh, no.
Give blood? It's my job to play dumb.
Oh, right.
Uh, yes, I, uh, I, uh, got tested to see if I could be a donor for Raymond.
How did you come to that decision? I don't know.
I just-- I came to work and I got tested.
What are you gonna do if you're a match? I don't know.
I don't know.
What made you change your mind? This isn't about me.
Sam was there for me when I really just needed somebody to let me breathe.
Jared Watson, Rachel Zucker, Ed Diamanti.
Who are those people? Sam saved them, all of them.
Not to mention the nine months that he was able to give Pete Wilder.
I mean, I'm sure that Sam signed up for all of this because he thought, deep down, that he was doing good.
And I'm sure that you all are salivating because his life went from Oprah to Springer overnight, but Sam's a great doctor.
And he has spent his entire career building a reputation.
He does not deserve to lose that when all he did was get blindsided by a truckload of suck.
He deserves better.
I wanted you to know that.
I would be here without you.
You have nothing to do with the man that I've become.
If you've laid awake at night proud of how I've turned out, you shouldn't have.
I am who I am because of my mother.
She raised a doctor, a father, a grandfather, a brother who would do anything for his sister.
My mother raised a man A real man.
So I would be here without you.
I got tested.
I'm a match.
And I could donate part of my lobe to you and I will if that's what you want, because no matter how little I know you, that's the kind of man my mother raised.
You were so excited when you got the lead in that fourth grade play.
Dee didn't want me to come, but I snuck in anyway, and I stood in the back and I just smiled.
It was hard not to cheer or wave.
Hard not to let anybody know why I was just standing there smiling.
I saw Dee on the front row with Corinne, and I wondered what it would be like if my place in life was sitting next to them watching you.
But that's not the life I chose.
I'm not asking you for sympathy.
And I won't let you take a piece of yourself to save me.
But you can't take away how proud I am of you or how proud I am of who you turned out to be even if it's in spite of me.
I'm ready to go.
I should go home.
Oh.
Sam.
Hey.
I wanted to thank you for everything you've done for Raymond.
And I wanted to apologize.
You don't have to apologize to me.
Oh, I put you on the spot.
I asked you to get tested.
I shouldn't have done that.
No, you were just trying to save your husband.
I am not the only victim here.
Um I made the choice to stay.
I made the choice to not hate Dee.
I made the choice not to lose my husband.
That might make me a fool, but I'm not a victim.
I'm gonna be taking Raymond home.
Hey, listen, I-I know this is Sam's thing, but, uh, I-I was wondering if you had any contacts with any national news programs.
It's, uh, it-- it's-- it's Sarah.
We-- we got a-a ton of local coverage, but it's starting to wane, and that-- that sucks.
The community is losing steam, and I thought making this a national story would give us the-- the boost we need.
I'll make a few calls.
You're really invested in this case.
Well, how could I not be? I mean, Ron and Dana, their-- their little girl is missing.
I'm with them every day.
I see what it's doing to them.
We saw you in your husband's office.
W-- I eat breakfast there.
Not all the time.
Just when I need Pete had this favorite set of sheets that I hated, and now I can't sleep without them.
I wear his sweater at home.
I mean, I'd wear it all the time except I'm afraid that people would think I was the freak who wears her dead husband's clothes.
I know that Pete is not coming back.
I know that every day I am getting closer to knowing who I am without him.
But Ron and Dana, they're-- I mean, they're-- they're stuck.
They're stuck in this place where they don't know.
And they can't move forward until they do.
Do you think Sarah is alive? I hope so.
Thank you for taking the time.
Who's gonna love you? who's gonna watch your back? Who's gonna take you who's gonna take you like that? 'cause you're blue as blood you come undone what's left here what's left here is a fragile love ooh Raymond.
I could hold you The stethoscope Thank you.
And I could reach for you but you're far offtrack My-- my job as her father is to protect her.
And when we get Sarah back, I'm never gonna let her out of my sight.
We're gonna be a family again.
Yeah.
What's left here is a fragile love How did you sleep last night? Uh, I didn't.
Why not? Are you for real? Why is it that whenever you can't sleep you always manage to come across these channels that you never knew existed? I was watching this show last night about this guy that gets dropped in the middle of the Sahara, and all they leave him with is, uh, like, some rope, some flint, and some kidney beans or whatever.
And, uh and he has to survive.
And I'm watching this show, and-- and I'm thinking, ah just how cool that must be to have to do that, to-- to just lose yourself.
You know I've never left the country? Never surprised anyone.
I haven't found my one yet.
I mean, I'm not sure I've really tried.
And I mean, like, really, really tried you know? My identity has always been my kid, my grandkid, my mother, Corinne, and my friends.
You know, it's been enough up until now.
But what's next? I mean, I thought it would be this thing, you know, this show, net-- network pilot thing.
I thought that was what I was looking for, but I don't know.
I don't really know what I'm looking for.